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bteezxyewriter12 · 1 year

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Only You/ 9

Pairing- Yoongi x Named Reader

Word count- 1.2k

Includes- Angst

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Yoongi POV

I walk into the dressing room and of course my eyes immediately go to her

She looks at me but her eyes widen and she looks so confused

What?

What's wrong?

I look behind me but nothing is there

When I turn back her face has morphed from confusion to realization

Of what I don't know

She doesn't say anything just keeps staring at me

Is she ok?

I'm about to go over to her when Hobi comes in

He goes to her and holds out a cup

"Here aegi", he says

She snaps out of it and takes the cup from him

He tucks some hair behind her ear and jealousy over takes me

Again

"You ok Jo?"

She smiles weakly, "Uh yeah, just tired"

"I know aegi. You didn't sleep so good. You kept waking up and moving"

I don't want to hear this

And I can't help but think that she never woke up and moved around like that when she was with me

She just laid in my arms, holding me tightly

She was so comfortable with me

'Stop thinking of that', I tell myself, 'She's not yours. She's not going to be yours'

I need to stop torturing myself

But I can't get her out of my head

She's all I dream about at night

She's all I want

She's all I day dream about

My mind just goes into these day dreams of her being with me, kissing me, loving me

The guys yell at me all the time because they talk to me but I'm not paying attention and they have to repeat themselves

No matter how hard I try she always comes into my head

Hobi kisses her and I have to look away or I'm going to lose it

Walking to one of the couches, I sit down avoiding looking at them

Hobi has been avoiding me for the past week and I don't really care

The thing that bothers me is that he's been staying with her every night

Just thinking about them together gets me angry

"Here", Namjoon says handing me a cup with coffee in it

He sits next to me

"You gotta get over it", he says

"What?"

What the fuck is he talking about?

"Them", he nods to who I assume is her and Hobi

"What are you talking about?"

"C'mon on Yoongi, don't play dumb. I know you're in love with her. The guys know. Anyone can see it"

What?

Anyone could see it?

I don't want anyone seeing it

I want her to see it and ironically she's the only one that doesn't

"She's with Hobi. I know it bothers you. And honestly I don't know why she's with him. It doesn't look like she feels the same way as she used to"

So it wasn't just me thinking that

"But for whatever reason she's trying with him. And you can't keep giving him dirty looks every time he's around her"

I know that

It's just my face automatically goes to those looks when I see him touch her, kiss her

"I know it sucks and it hurts but you have to at least get better at hiding it", Namjoon finishes

"I know", is all I say

"Look if you need to talk we're all here ok"

I nod

Great, they all know how I feel about her

That is so not what I wanted

At least they don't know we were together

Only Hobi knows that and he hasn't told anyone

Namjoon is right

She's never going to be mine and I have to get over that

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"Uh Yoongi", she calls

I get up and walk over to her then sit in the chair in front of her

God she's so beautiful

I just want to run my fingers in her hair, hold her small hand, kiss her perfect lips

'STOP'

She's just staring at me again, not moving

I'm aware that we're both staring at each other and that other people might notice

"Jo", I call softly

She blinks and it's like nothing happened

"Hey Yoongi", she says

"Hi"

She starts putting the foundation on my face

She pushes my hair back and it makes me shiver, my eyes closing on their own

I just keep thinking about how she pulls my hair when she's coming

'Stop'

"Shit", she whispers

I look at her, "Uh what?"

"Huh? Nothing. I didn't say anything"

She did but I'm not going to argue

She does my eye makeup then asks me to open both my eyes

She looks at me, her eyes shifting from side to side to check the make up

Then her eyes land on mine and she doesn't look away

I can't either

Her eyes are fucking stunning

They're big and a beautiful dark brown

I can get lost in her eyes forever

She's just staring into mine

"Fuck", she barely whispers

"Jo", I whisper

It's like that snaps her out of it and she averts her eyes

No!

No I want her to look at me again

But she doesn't

She turns from me to get more makeup

"They uh want your lips to be pink", she rolls her eyes

I just smile at her

Her eyes widen, her face turns red and she turns away from me

I hear her say, "Jesus Christ", to herself

What's wrong?

Did I do something wrong?

After a minute she turns back to me again acting like nothing happened

She's being really weird

Or maybe...she feels something for me?

Is that why she's looking at me?

There's that stupid glimmer of hope

I need to squash that

She doesn't love me

She slides the makeup across my lips

She goes slowly and I watch her

Her eyes are glued to my lips and she bites her lip, then moves her gaze to mine

And I fall into her eyes

I want to grab her and just fucking kiss her right now

It's so hard to keep myself still and not do that

Some hair falls in her face and I reach up, moving it and putting it behind her ear, leaving my hand in her soft hair

She places her hand on my wrist, holding on

We slowly move towards each other but she stops right before I can kiss her

"Yoongi", she says softly

"Yeah Jo?"

Please please

Please let her tell me something, tell me she loves me

Please

"Joanne!", Hobi yells

She jumps, then stands straight up, whatever was happening between us broken

"Uh yeah?"

"You almost done? Jungkook needs his make up done"

"Oh uh yeah", she answers him

"You're done Yoongi", she says to me

Fuck

I have to leave though as Jungkook comes over

Walking away, I pass Hobi who gives me a death glare

"Don't fucking look at her like that again"

I turn my head to him, "What?"

"Stop looking at her like a love sick puppy. She's mine. Cut it out. And don't touch her again"

I roll my eyes, "Whatever"

I don't know what to do

Just now I felt the same thing from her that I did that night

When she was looking at me

It felt like love or something close to it

Goddamn now I'm going to be thinking about this all the time

Great

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fullmoonandstar · 2 years

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who's the australian dude?

Glad you asked XD And I will take this chance to also bring this full circle and tell you why you will probably see or at least hear him in Deadpool 3.

(This is about that post)

So, out of all my celebrity crushes, he is both, the most realistic and the most unrealistic at the same time. Like, personality-wise I think we would be a good match but he is also a kpop idol lol

So Chan in three photos:

(Why is this the only photo of him in the studio that I found???)

He is a producer, songwriter, and singer. I know, people think kpop is never written by the performer but he made songs live on stream several times, if you are interested you can watch episode 158 of Chan's room for example. (he gets a phone call around 55 mins into the stream with a request from one of his group members XD The subtitles are a bit weird in some parts but in general okay^^)

Already mentioned Chan's room. It's his weekly live stream (usually on Sunday) where he listens to music and talks to the fans for an hours or so. In this gif it's a subset of episodes that I call Chan's actual room lol

Once someone asked for advice on period cramps on stream and he did not embarrass himself with his answer which puts him in like the top 10% of people without a uterus that I know. (Maybe I'm pessimistic but I feel like this half of the reproductive parts is not very well understood by those who don't have them^^;;;;;)

🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Bonus:

90% of the time his hair is straightened, but he actually has curly hair. (relevant bc most of my celebrity crushes have curly / wavy hair lol) This was his Halloween stream from last year and I adore the curly hair. I think I have all the gifs of every moment that was caught on camera where his hair is not straightened.

So yeah it's Bang Chan (Or Christopher Bang). Now, for the one person that is asking themselves why would he be in Deadpool? The short answer is bc he and Ryan are buddies and Chan loves Deadpool. Now how do they even know each other in the first place? This is an interesting story.

In Kingdom, 6 male Idol Groups prepared performances for a different theme every week. Every round was followed by a vote that determined the ranking and some manoir details of the show. To this day, I have not understood how the voting system worked even though they explained it on the show like every episode lol

One of the themes was "no limit" basically everything goes. They could collab with anyone, remix songs, or some third thing (I know nothing about music) but they could do basically anything they wanted.

Stray Kids have a song called God's Menu which was their first real break in 2020 and propelled them to the next level of popularity. Now, there is this Black Pink song called Ddu Ddu Ddu. Both songs have a part in the chorus that goes "du du du" but at different rhythms and they thought "wouldn't it be funny to make a mash-up?". Black Pink is well know and their songs are popular so why. They made the mash up and it's amazing. This performance is the reason I became a fan btw. I watched Kingdom for one of the other groups that competed - Ateez - but this mash-up is so good it put Stray Kids on my radar.

This performance was very Deadpool-inspired, from the hand draw map to the outfits.

(Mnet took down the original performance video for some reason but you can see it here)

Quick side note: When Chan is talking here, he is talking in English, but because this was Korean tv they used these cards to write subtitles on. however, the first one says something different. It says "JYP 바보 (JYP is an Idiot)" Park Jin-young (JYP) is their boss and founder of their record label they work for lol (I think he resigned as CEO but is still involved with the company)

After the performance, Chan took one of probs, a Deadpool mask, and appeared with it on hos weekly live stream.

Another side note: The live stream is called Chan's room but this is really some sort of play on his name bc "room" in Korean is bang and it's written the same way as his family name. (This doesn't mean that his family name means room bc family names in Korea are almost always based on Chinese symbols and the name is just the phonetic version of that)

The performance doesn’t go unnoticed, Ryan post something under a tweet about it. Some interaction followed - I’m not on twitter so idk what exactly happened here but yeah, - this was the beginning of their bromance. Chan send Ryan a signed album and Ryan sent chan a bottle of (what liquor is he selling?) which is funny bc Chan doesn't drink so it's just there on his desk. In a later stream he opened the bottle and sniffed it. You can imagine the reaction, I don't have to tell you XD Chan also interviewed Ryan when Free Guy was released.

Given that Ryan reblogged a post with Chan gifs recently leads me to think they are still bros and if the opportunity arises they would totally do something together.

This is the reason why so many people, including myself, are convinced the Stray Kids will be on the soundtrack for Deadpool and I wouldn't be surprised if they even have some cameo in the movie in one way or another. It could even just be in some reference only fan will get or one of their songs plays in the background. There are lots of possibilities

One last thing. Maybe you saw the screenshot of Chan from their performance on Kingdom and thought "Man, he don't look like Deadpool." And yes he doesn't. Because Chan wasn't Deadpool. He was.

This is Stray Kids' other Australian dude, Felix. (If you watched the performance, yes, that is his actual voice.) He even got the swords <3

(Did this sit in my drafts for two months? Yes, it did.)

#deadpool 3 #deadpool #ryan reynolds #bang chan #stray kids

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jimimn · 2 years

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🥴😭😳🤯😩 My god how to form words... I just rewatched the teaser and compared to that, the haunting choir was stronger in the YouTube shorts version and 🤯🤯 I lost my mind. The choir and the horror like harmonization that you mentioned sounds AMAZING. There is a really high female(?) voice in the very back, holding that note for like almost the entirety of the yt shorts and it literally just fucking catapulted me into the sun. There is a haunting vibe mix of Fake Love from MDP and the choir reminded me of that. I'm really really loving this song so far and they literally just showed us almost the same thing twice 😭 but I'm already so obsessed with it. AND THE DANCERS? LIKE PTD ON STAGE BLACK SWAN??? JIMIN IN THE CENTER??? And the dancers mimicking the choir's screams??? There is so much to unpack here, I need to go on twitter and find people who have the braincells to unpack all this 😂

And now back to my previous ask: Omg don't even mention Jimin dancing in water or rain to me 😭 I would d.e. Oh and yeah you're right, he probably has more outfits in the mv I DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF THAT 😭😭😭

I know exactly what eyes you're talking about and I hate him when he does that. I generally consider myself a soft Jimin stan b̶u̶t̶ l̶a̶t̶e̶l̶y̶ h̶e̶ r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ m̶a̶k̶e̶s̶ m̶e̶ w̶a̶n̶t̶ t̶o̶ c̶l̶i̶m̶b̶ h̶i̶m̶

Oh, but then you also won yesterday as yoonminkook biased 😎 Yoongi with a puppy 🥺😭

ALSO DID YOU SEE WHAT PDOGG POSTED? Jimin is ending 2023 kpop??? AND WE ONLY GOT 2 TEASERS BUT I'D SAY HE ALREADY ENDED EVERYTHING?? I'm like kinda thankful the next thing we are getting (at least according to the schedule, I'm side eyeing bighit with the surprise drops because there is still a day tomorrow) is the actual mv because it'd be insane if I had to sit through another teaser and not have the actual song. And I'm SO excited to learn what SMF is about and his thought process and what kind of promotion he'll do and talk about his album and his experience and what he learned and maybe Joon will talk about the album too and i will just have so much Jimin content every day 🥺🥺 -🦋

under read more again lmaoo <3333

YESSSS the yt shorts version has stronger background vocalization. and yep yep it sounds like a high female opera like voice but its haunting dhjfhdj idk how to explain it. pls i feel like the song is really going to make me cry.. not just because of the lyrics that might be emotional but also because the intensity of the song might make me overwhelmed. it sounds soooooo energetic and aggressive rn im gonna be so overwhelmed when we finally get to hear the whole thing. AND YES. the dancers the formation the vibes i agree with everyone saying its giving fake love + black swan + on DGFHDJJFD. and the dancers have been posting stories of the teaser saying "the king is coming" and things like that i just think its gonna be fucking insane. omg yes if you find theories send them my way because i have 1 braincell which is all about jimin jimin jimin it is incapable for any other coherent thought <3 (and u did not hear me say this but the third paragraph in ur ask hahahahahahhahha same) OMG RIGHT i forgot they released the photoshoot sketch yesterday 😭😭😭😭 i only saw snippets of yoongi being an absolute goofball i am yet to watch the sketch but i will now after answering this <3 AND YES OFCOURSE I SAW IT. PDOGG. DO U UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS WHEN A PRODUCER LIKE PDOGG SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THIS? JIMIN DID NOT COME TO PLAY. two teasers and he's already made everyone lose their goddamn minds imagine what'll happen when the actual song will release. and god i agree i literally cannot wait i don't need to be teased anymore give me the song already!!!!!!! im sure we'll get joon talking about the songs he participated in when he comes live next hehe i hope he does <3333 and yes please i need to hear jimin talk about it too. i hope he tells us about the inside stories and his thought process behind the album and the songs i would love nothing more than to hear him talk about his art 🥺🥺🥺💖

#🦋 anon #anonymous #replied

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baekhvuns · 1 year

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Annyeonghaseyo Baeksussy, I have returned from Jeju and almost lost a kneecap, but overall it was fun and we saw a filming crew (I think a kpop boy group was filming something outside our hotel lmao, but we had no idea who they were). The weather in Seoul is so unpredictable like wdym one day it's 27°C and sunny and the next it's 15° and raining 🔫

Omfg hold on, so much has happened. Firstly I'm sorry about your principal's passing :/ secondly not you imagining Yunho as another guy AGAIN 😭 how is the writing going? Thirdly you watched SIXTEEN MOVIES LMAO which ones did you see?

Also good for your cousin, but come on don't slander MU fans that much sjsjaisjjsjssjsjshs (lowkey I consider being a Barca fan as red flag soz </3333) I decided not to pay attention to football for the time being cause it's boring and annoying and I can't even watch any matches live 🔫 I don't need the negativity in my life 🤚🏼 wtf is up in the F1 world? I see my man Lewis isn't winning :/

Yeah Limitless was underwhelming, there's a song called Diamond that's nicer, not really my thing, but Hwa and Yunho sound so good! Though I prefer them on a different song called Diamond 😅❤

I just want Ateez to stop releasing unnecessary songs and focus on a full album. Also not another fucking festival and in Qatar of all places..... good for the fans, but 🤡🤡🤡🤡 and Xikers are going too, KQ is really doing everything to attach them to Ateez

I heard Jimin's song so many times, like it's EVERYWHERE and ngl the single is better and a decent club song, but overall... nothing great. Hybe continues to piss me off!!! And the encore he did was... rough. https://twitter.com/jnksoluna/status/1641461317428215813?t=1sChI621kLP7pKFGzYGTzg&s=19 all the fandoms are beating him up 😭

I really really need to watch The Glory, but I've heard and seen so many spoilers already, rip. I kinda wanna rewatch S1 of AOS, cause it's my comfort show for sure. Everyone who prefers S2 has the right to do so, but don't try to convince me it was better, just say you were blinded by the angst and fluff 🙄

Okay so about YOU, let me spoil you then - I hope it'll sense made - in s4 Joe went to the UK started hanging out with insufferable posh people and "met" a guy named Reese (he was a writer and was running for Mayor of London). Turned out Reese was killing said posh twats and tried to frame Joe, became his stalker, wanted to be killing mates together (the Reese x Joe ship has sailed ajsuajahjsjsja). BUT! Lots of people noticed that during gatherings Joe was the only one who interacted with Reese and like we suspected - that whole thing was only in Joe's head cause he has split personality. So he basically dissociates and doesn't know what's going on. Reese was a real guy that Joe was obsessed with, but they never actually met and Joe was behind all the murders. Now that Joe accepted the truth and still wants to act like a saviour I feel even more icky about s5, he was always awful but his delusional monologues were funny. Now that he has a rich girlfriend and acts like a entrepreneur I'm like 😬😬😬😬🤚🏼

I did not talk to Jin Goo, because we were far away, but the way my hand automatically waved and he was like "🧐😀👋🏻" and then I quickly opened my phone to yell about it. Imagine if I saw Soohyuk or Dohwan or someone else I've been obsessing over 😳 (BTW NEW WOO DO HWAN DRAMA) you'd not hear from me! My friend saw Kim Mingue three times in the past month cause he came to the same cafe as her

TAEMIN HAS A NEW CAT AND THE NAME IS DAENGDAENGIE??? 😭😭😭😭😭

Have some Seonghwas cause I haven't been up to date with Ateez, but I checked Twitter and HEEEEEEEE ❤❤❤❤

We got married https://twitter.com/atinyteez009/status/1640781842432540672?t=HQ0JasZbdnZcSrh0mwBmNA&s=19

???? https://twitter.com/pingkiisaya/status/1641038527386222592?t=rf-qy29H31VIoB01MGPdHw&s=19

https://twitter.com/nobodylikehwa/status/1641041663593267201?t=yV4NaNP93oObBmWvGmQ-Rw&s=19

A photo from our grocery shopping trip, look at all the fruits and veggies! https://twitter.com/1024updates/status/1642163312803856387?t=XFmBjWVzfQPUPet2Eyw2eA&s=19

Seriously https://twitter.com/hwalilac/status/1642036025848655873?t=xSExNqS6vK1kchQpLdQabw&s=19 the bandaged one??!??!

Idk if you've ever seen this video, but it's back on my TL and I love it so much https://twitter.com/BaiduZTAOBar/status/1333451431072784385?t=ynrmLwWHNpo3rrwvr-FJ6g&s=19

And Taeyong baby pls someone free him https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1641077265261035522?t=0Ychhd11werberr33t48EQ&s=19

😭😭😭https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1641079835979317248?t=GVOhB_7A1z51tuaVnicypA&s=19

BTW HWA'S BIRTHDAY ADS ARE UP WE LOVE TO SEE SEONGHWA EVERYWHERE ❤❤❤❤ I'm about to play spot the Hwa lmao. Today I scared some woman off, because I yelled "WHY IS HE SO BEAUTIFUL" jdjajsjsjajahhaha sorry ma'am, but did I lie??? I hope to see Jonghyun's ones too!

Happy Seonghwa day! 🥰 - DV 💖

hello!!!!

HELLOOOOO YOU LOST A WHAT FHWNEHKQFHKSHDKC HOW COME 😭😭😭 WHAT THE HELL ….anon i think,,, omg i think you MAY have seen kai doing a filming there stop it. bc i know they were in jeju a few days ago and 🧍🏻‍♀️ that weather has been the same here and it’s 🔫🔫

it really was saddening esp bc he just met his grandson 😭😭 actually a peice of history bc he was one of the first kids in canada to drink slurpee rambdks FJWKJDWJHDKW HEY HEY I KEEP IMAGINING HIM AS MR GREY OR HENRY AND ITS WORKING

YES SIXTEEN <3

wedding season, love, wedding, repeat, argentina, 1985 (so good), a man called otto (CRIED), prey for the devil (has the potential to be in the conjuring ngl, too short tho), abbott elementary season 1 + 2 (not a movie but this sitcom is so funny), all quiet on the western front, el ángel, the tourist, dune, rush, anastasia (ended cinderlla), the whale, champions, gravity + rrr !!!

she really dodged a bullet, he was an absolute jerk who said the n word and then went and said “my parents didn’t raise me like that, know me for what i am right now and not for what i did yesterday” MU FANS ARE A RED FLAG ITS LITERALLY THEIR COLOUR FBWNFB 😭😭😭 WE DO NOT CARE BARCA IS 17 POINTS CLEARRRRR

f1…anon, yesterday was phew, the emotions as a ferarri fan- them being 26 points BEHIND MCLAREN IM ACTUALLY CRYING 😭😭😭 ,,, australian grand prix,,,, 8 dnf, 4 restarts, UNFAIR PENALTIES??? SOME WERENT EVEN GIVEN???? huge expensive crashes, they fucked ferarri over AGAIN they had a straight p4 and turned into p3 after a crash— they restarted the race and didn’t count that lap yet still gave ferarri a 5 second penalty in which they ended p11, no points for them- but red bull got them all bc the fia dickride them 🥰 HAMILTON AT LEAST GOT A P2 IT WAS SO FUNNY BC GNWNFBWK MERCEDES WAS P1 AND THEN THEY WENT P7 AND THEN A STRAIGHT DNF id be crying ngl they’re all too strong to not cry bfnwbdns it was a silverstone again, but at least alonso somehow got p3 🔫 did not deserve it ngl, mercedes not winning bc rocketship red bull won’t let them

and LMFAOOOO ,,, THE VIEWS FBWNDJEK

THIS IS SO FUNNY GHWNDJKWHFKW

😭😭😭

Speaking of food, I discovered vegan Jeju and my faves are Lan's Kitchen, Cheesylazy (for some reason I thought the name was Cheesyslay sjsjsjsjskaja so now we call it that) and one cafe/bakery with amazing cakes - And 유. Also 7/11 and CU have some more vegan products and even accidentally vegan ones, so I'm living <3 /// Yeah Limitless was underwhelming, there's a song called Diamond that's nicer, not really my thing, but Hwa and Yunho sound so good! Though I prefer them on a different song called Diamond 😅❤

chessyslay 😭😭😭 i looked the restaurants up and omg they all look so good 😭😭😭 ANON SEND SOME HERE PLEASE JFVWKCHKC u know what forget limitless, dimaond. THIS. HWA SINGING ANGEL BABY PLS 😭😭

you are correct, want them to create a song with good b-sides, gathering songs that are actually their style + diving into r&b’s, reggaeton, dance pop’s etc,,, i really hope they chose songs by the sound and not bc the sound what their storyline is meant to be,,, ateez doing a song like oasis, body rhythm, tell me what to do— no rap, just everyone singing and vibing, give us a summer album with no empty chorus, a album where we can play the songs on a road trip with a car with no roof and just vibes GIVE IT TO US PLEASE 😭😭😭

NAURR THE ENCORE,, and then they released the edited version? 😭😭😭 what GOES ON PLEASE speaking off solo’s jisoo’s solo! my favourite is the second track; all eyes on me, has a better sound!

YOU REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED TO ANON, forget the spoilers anon, pls watch it + han so hee and song hye kyo are starring in a drama together ✊🏻😭 LMFAOOOO IM SEEING A CHANGE ARE U BEGINNING TO PREFER S2 THAN S1 👀

wHAAAAAT

AWWWW THATS CUTE 😭😭😭 do not speak about dohwan. i had it away and the name triggered tempted era dohwan and i just rawred pls 😭 NEW DOHWAN DRAMA AND I AM AVOIDING EVERY FUCKING SPOILER AND THEN I RECENTLY SAW THIS AND FBWMFBWKHEKQHDKAJDKAHDAK

AND THIS 😩😩 all i see is older hwa

TAEMIN HAS A NEW CAT AND THE NAME IS DAENGDAENGIE??? 😭😭😭😭😭

DAENGDAENGIE IS SO FUCKING CUTE BUT WHAT ABOUT OUR KOONGIE 😭😭😭 AND TAEMIN IS HOME TODAY???????? PLS FHAKDJWK

Have some Seonghwas cause I haven't been up to date with Ateez, but I checked Twitter and HEEEEEEEE ❤❤❤❤ //// We got married https://twitter.com/atinyteez009/status/1640781842432540672?t=HQ0JasZbdnZcSrh0mwBmNA&s=19

HEY HEY HEY WHERE IS MY INVITE WHAT THE HELL

???? https://twitter.com/pingkiisaya/status/1641038527386222592?t=rf-qy29H31VIoB01MGPdHw&s=19 //// https://twitter.com/nobodylikehwa/status/1641041663593267201?t=yV4NaNP93oObBmWvGmQ-Rw&s=19

them in a law drama would be so hilarious, it’s a NEED 😭😭 jung wooyoung as an attorney aggressively trying to defend hongjoong >>

A photo from our grocery shopping trip, look at all the fruits and veggies! https://twitter.com/1024updates/status/1642163312803856387?t=XFmBjWVzfQPUPet2Eyw2eA&s=19 /// Seriously https://twitter.com/hwalilac/status/1642036025848655873?t=xSExNqS6vK1kchQpLdQabw&s=19 the bandaged one??!??!

THE BANDAGED ONE DO NOT EVEN TALK ABOUT THAT FVWNFJWKFHWK DID A LOUD GASP WHEN THEY RELEASED THAT

Idk if you've ever seen this video, but it's back on my TL and I love it so much https://twitter.com/BaiduZTAOBar/status/1333451431072784385?t=ynrmLwWHNpo3rrwvr-FJ6g&s=19

I HAVE AND EVERY TIME I SEE THIS IT MAKES ME SCREAM HES SO FUNNY AND REAL AND DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT TAO WHO HURT U 😭😭

And Taeyong baby pls someone free him https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1641077265261035522?t=0Ychhd11werberr33t48EQ&s=19 /// 😭😭😭https://twitter.com/taeyeweon/status/1641079835979317248?t=GVOhB_7A1z51tuaVnicypA&s=19

HE’S SO FUNNY PLS THWKDHWKJDMANDKS NCT AT THAT DRINKING SHOW WHEN !!!!!!

WAIT PLS WHAT IF YALL RUN INTO HIM AT THE SUBWAY STATIONS KRVWKDHSK LMFAOOOO NAURR ANON 😭😭😭 and jonghyun ones?? 😭😭😭😭 pls take all the photos u see 😭😭

help 😭😭

sm’s kinda popping with these releases lately 👀

??????? 😭😭😭

this actually kinda of insane ngl never expected this ,, and w miss gigi

SHOT UP FROM MY SLEEP BECAUSE I FORGOT TO LINK YHIS AND ITS A MASTERPIECE

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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comequicklysir · 2 years

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Hi hello, I have nothing to gif, and I attended my fifth kpop this weekend, and thought I would rate/share my experiences for no reason other than maybe help others figure out the way of kpop concerts and etc BTS - 9/10 I attended their “love yourself world tour” in Berlin in 2018, I travelled to Berlin from my country (Denmark) to attend the concert. The ticketing experience to bts is a nightmare, even back in 2018 - I still don’t know how we managed to get tickets, because everything was sold out in minutes. I’ve heard it’s even worse now. The cueing for bts outside the arena and merch is an even bigger nightmare, I don’t know if Mercedez Benz Arena has fixed their “we let everyone in the seated areas through the same ten doors) issue but the line was so long it wrapped around the buildings and we only got in like twenty minutes before start, I didn’t go for merch but my friend I travelled with did and she stood in line from six in the morning till four in the afternoon and she got none of the things she wanted and only got a small keychain with a members name on (not even one of her biases), I hope bighit/hybe fixed the merch hell. The concert itself though!! Sadly we were one of the ones affected by Jungkooks foot injury, so he was seated, but he slayed the vocals from his seated position and did little dances in his seat it was cute. The boys can dance though, have incredibly energy, and are so in sync, but I will say the one thing about bts when they go on stage is they are such a unit, when they interact with each other and in each others presence you can feel how much of a close relationship they have with each other and it really brings everything to the next level. I have no complaints to their performance at all, and will always recommend that anyone should go to a bts concert before they die because there is nothing like it. The only dislike I had (which will be a common theme with two other bands too) is that the translator was ofc german, which meant for a good portion of the concert (whenever there was talking) me and my friends had no clue what was going on. But this isn’t really something that brought down their performance or my overall view, it was just kind of like “ugh” not knowing what they were saying, but that comes with travelling to other countries to see concerts. Monsta X - 8/10

I can’t remember what this world tour was called, but it was the one in Berlin in 2019. I was a casual fan of them when I went in, and boy did I come out loving them and their performance energy. This concert also had absolute hell cueing outside the arena, I generally hope this has gotten better with the years and as the arena has held more kpop concert, but this one we got in an hour before even though the doors opened two hours before. Me and my friend wanted to get lightsticks at the concert, and they were sold out, and at first we thought they must have sold a lot then, but when we sat down in the arena ... no lie, so many people were without lightsticks, and it just seemed like the company had underestimated how many people needed lightsticks in the crowd. Major minus point to the company. HOWEVER, the boys were amazing! they had so much energy, their vocals and rap were 100% live (which bts were too, didn’t mention that, but you could clearly hear with both these bands that everything was live), I genuinly came out a bigger fan than when I entered and listened to their music so much afterwards, it was such a good experience and if they came to my country I would totally go see them again. This concert ofc also had the german translator, except for I.M who spoke in english, which again was like “ugh” but again not really something that affected my view of the group or their performance. Would totally recommend going to see them if you have the chance, you won’t regret it. Got7 - 4/10 Now, before I start I will say this was one of their last tour if not the last tour before they left JYP and I think that might have affected their creative vision of how they wanted this concert to look and sound like, and JB was also sick during this concert and left before it was over, so I think you should keep that in mind because I definitly think that affected a great part of why this concert didn’t work, for me atleast. I have been a casual fan of got7 since their debut, me and my friend who also saw monsta x, have listened to them since their debut and now a lot of their songs and also have seen a lot of variety content for got7, so we went in with higher expecations than we went in for Monsta x. But something just felt slightly off for this concert, the stage itself was kind of boring - they didn’t really have anything that set it apart visually form other concerts, it was mostly just screeneffects and then them. The mood also felt a little bit off, not like they didn’t wanna be there, but just it felt like it wasn’t like their prime that night and it might have been because their leader was sick for a big portion of the concert. Dancing wise they were amazing, vocal wise - though live and no backing track - they didn’t always sound as clear as monsta x and bts, but I think that could also just be circumstancial, I don’t think bts and monsta x have sounded perfect every day in their career, so. One of their vcr’s was a comedy bit, which is ofc on brand, but it was quite long and they had put on german subtitles for the berlin tour stop, which meant me and my friend spent a lot of very long minutes amongst laughing people not understanding what was going on at all, and the people around us we asked if they could translate just ignored us, which was quite rude. Overall just not the best concert experience for us, I probably wouldn’t go see them again, but I do think people should go see them and make their own judgement especially because I’m quite sure we might have just caught them on a bad day or year. I will also add that Bambam basically carried the energy of this concert, he has incredible crowd control and really knows how to interact with the crowd and make them laugh and have energy, and he’s not even my bias. Blackpink - 6/10 Now I saw blackpink in december in my home country, and there’s several points I wanna make. I don’t think Blackpink are bad performers, dancers or singers as some commenters on social media would make it out to be, but as someone who attended this tour I do think with the time in their hiatus ... this could have been better. Now first for plus sides of this concert experience, it was the first concert in my home country and it was just nice that I could go home afterwards and not to a hotel. Yg has their merchandise under control!! there was basically no cue, they had every size left even though me and my friend came very last minute when the doors opened. Blackpink had an entire section where they spend several minutes showcasing their dancers and band, letting them have the stage alone and I have never seen this at a concert before and I loved it and it really showed respect to the people they work with. They also had practiced several phrases in danish, which I also felt was so respectful to the country they were in and the people they were performing for. Their vcrs are amazing, beautiful and stunning and practically look like etherial perfume commercials. Rosé and Jennie were overpowering the backing track several times. Jennie and Lisa have incredible stage presence in terms of how they are in their facial expression, they really know to navigate that according to what song is being performed and what is being sung. Jisoo can dance!! she nailed that choreography for her solo performance, not just nailed it, she was incredible. Now for negatives: Let’s be honest, if ur going to a blackpink concert for choreography, ur in the wrong place. At most their choreographys is them swinging their arms around a lot, doing varies forms of catwalks whilst singing or rapping, and ocasionally you’ll get minimal footwork. They aren’t really a dancing choreography hard hitting group, and I think that’s fine and I think it’s time blinks admit that and just roll with what we get. For me I do think at times the girls could benefit from ditching the catwalking waving arm choreo for some of their b side tracks and just lets the dancers do their thing while sing and rap and be artists, I don’t really think they need to have choreo for all their songs, and sometimes it feels like they shove some easy choreo in their just to have it. Jennie’s solo is amazing, and I love the direction for it and the sound of it, BUT I do think it kind of sucks that you go out of the concert not being able to hear it (probably ever again bc lets face it yg aint releasing shit unless they really have to), where as had it been “solo” being performed u could go home and listen to it and repeat it, you can’t really do that with this. Jisoo not having her solo before this tour started, is criminal, yg had two years to get that out and I absolutely think that should have been a priority, because even if Jisoo nailed her liar performance it feels off that there are three bandmembers performing original work and then one member performing covers. I’m not the biggest fan of Lalisa and Money (mostly Lalisa, because I find it highly annoying that she says her own name over a 100 times, and I think she deserved a better solo than a song that just screams at you to say her name over and over again) but I will say they do really well in concert settings even if you don’t like them, HOWEVER, it did bother me during money how little Lisa had that microphone to her mouth, even when she wasn’t dancing - she practically threw out a phrase once in a blue moon, and I wished they instead would have said “okay this is a dance performance” and just put the mic down entirely and just had her go off with the background dancers, because it would have worked better and it just feels off when she only does half the lyrics. The girls are not good at crowd control during talks, at all, you can really tell they are all kind of shy people because a lot of the time they look at each other and you can tell they just hoping not to be the next one to talk. Jennie and Rosé talks most, probably because of the english, but i wish they would have put a translator on then so Lisa and Jisoo could have been freely speaking too. Yg needs to ditch that backing track for blackpink, it keeps coming back in every live event blackpink does and I hate it, they can perform perfectly fine without it and its annoying to hear the echoing of a backing track. I didn’t attend their first world tour, but I have the dvds from it, and I honestly like those better than this one, and i wish I had been on that one. But that being said, I am a blink forever at heart, and it’s always an experience to go see them, but I do think if you go on hiatus for two years planning an album and tour, I expect more from it. There are kpop groups who have a quarter of that time planning it, and money, and they manage to produce better staging and setup and concept. Ateez - 9/10 I was not a fan until I saw them on saturday in my home country. I had listened to a lot of their title tracks, because I’m the type to put on kpop playlists and find new tracks that way to listen to, but I didn’t really know their names or anything like that, went because my friend was a fan. But boy did they change my mind. First of all, this was the first group who did not!! have any solo or unit stages in between group stages, they were on stage all eight for the entire concert, and I think they basically only didn’t have choreography for a song or two, it was insane how much ENERGY they had! Jongho (I hope I am spelling his name correctly) is insane live, his vocals are beyond stable, and he is without a doubt the best kpop vocalist I have heard live. I also love that their choreographies seem to have a common theme to them, I called it “stumble choreography” to my friend in lack of better wording, but a lot of the choreographies have this theme of where they stumble to one side of the stage to another, and it just cool it kind of ties together. The entire section with the pirate ship as a graphic, where they mimicked stumbling on a boat each time the boat graphic moved was beyond cool. They all spoke english even though they clearly aren’t fluent, and I respect that!! the only time they used their translator was when one of the members cleared up something that didn’t come out right in english, otherwise they spoke entirely in english. I don’t a single complaint about this concert at all, and I think just like I said with bts, everyone should go see them once, they are incredible. also I would like to add at the end, most of my critique is mostly aimed at the company, I don’t think in most cases that kpop idols gets to have a lot of control or say in how they want things done, and I think that should be taken in consideration when critiquing a concept, album, music video or concert or anything that is being put out. Unless of course you are dealing with groups like bts who have had a lot of creative input to how they should like and sound and perform. for the end here are groups I really want to see life if they come to europe, so if you have experiences with them please tell me yours <3 : le sserafim, new jeans, shinee, exo, twice, seventeen, txt, gidle, nct 127 and as for solos, I really wanna see Taemin he’s very high on the list (but sm is allergic to europe)

#kpop #blackpink #monsta x #ateez #bts

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packetofsuga · 4 years

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Kiss of Death - Corpse Fic

Prompt: “He’s a bad kisser”

Backstory: Y/N is a streamer and secretly dating Corpse, not even their friends know. Other than Dave, of course. They’re playing proximity chat among us with Valkyrae, Toast, Sykkuno, Pewdiepie, JackSepticeye, Pokimane, Ludwig, and Dave (boyinaband).

Genre: Fluff + humor

Content warning: Light swearing

Word Count: 1631

A/N: Okay. First of all, writing an author’s note really threw me back to my Wattpad days but, anyway. I just wanna say feel free to send little prompt requests in my ask box for fics. I won’t write smut, I know I have for kpop artists in the past and I may write smut again in the future but for now, it’s a hard no for all fics. I will write mainly for Corpse Husband, Valkyrae, BTS, and Dream Catcher. Possibly other YouTubers or kpop groups just ask and I’ll let you know! I also will write for some book fandoms, I can’t list all of them so again just ask, please. I’ll get to requests whenever I can so please be patient while waiting.

Until then please enjoy the random prompts I’ve found that I thought would be cute :)

Disclaimer: this is a work of fiction

You were playing among us with your friends and your boyfriend, as usual. The only difference was you were using the proximity chat mod which you had never done before. Because you guys were using that mod every time Corpse got imposter he was doing his “kiss of death” thing.

As you loaded into the game you saw the word crewmate pop up on your screen. Everyone started joking about being a crewmate or imposter and you chuckled to yourself. “I am just a crewmate doing crewmate things. I am doing keys, because I am just a crewmate.” You stated while walking over to the keys task, knowing that you don’t even have keys this round.

“Y/N’s faking keyyysss.” Poki called.

“She’s just reminding everyone to fake keys, guys, everyone fake keys right now,” Sean said, moving his character on top of yours in front of keys. The was a chorus of agreements as almost everyone did the same. Once that was done you split off from the group.

“Guys… I think it’s Poki, she didn’t fake keys.” You said to your chat, laughing to yourself. You went around doing your tasks. You came across Sykkuno in O2, “Hey Sykkuno, whatcha doing?”

He paused in the doorway of the tree room, “Oh! hi Y/N. I’m uh just doing my tasks.”

You cleared the trash shoot, “Oh yeah? Just a crewmate doing crewmate things?”

Sykkuno giggled, “Uh, yep. Just doing crewmate things. Hey, you- you wanna stand on this vent with me?”

You hesitated, knowing there’s absolutely no way for you to figure out if Sykkuno is just being himself or is actually the imposter, “I- You know what yes I would love to Sykkuno.” You walked into the tree room.

“Oh- really? That… Was very enthusiastic.” The two of you walked onto the vent by the tree, stacking on top of each other, “You’re not the imposter, right? You’re not gonna kill me.

“Oh, of course not, Sykkuno. I mean, you know, maybe.” You love making yourself look extra suspicious to him because that’s how he plays, “Here. I’ll click the spot where the kill button is and we’ll see what happens, okay?”

“Oh, Jesus-” He gasped.

You clicked the spot on the screen, “Hear me clicking?” You both laughed.

“Uh yeah I do, that means it can’t be you huh?” He said, “Here I’ll do it too.”

You yelped a little as the body reported screen came up, scaring you.

“I thought I just fucking died.” You said, trying to calm your breathing.

“Honestly, me too.” Sykkuno said, “There’s so many people dead.”

Poki reported the body and the screen showed that Toast, Sean, and Dave were dead, “So Rae and I just walked up on Toast’s body. And I don’t think it’s Rae, I’ve been with her for a good chunk of this round.”

“Soo it could be both of you.” You pointed out.

“Why are you susing me right now??” Poki exclaimed.

“You didn’t fake keys!” You yelled.

“She’s right!” Pewds yelled, remembering that from the beginning of the round, “What the fuck, Poki?”

Corpse laughed, “That’s a little sus Imane.”

Poki laughed, “I can’t believe I’m getting sussed cause I didn’t fake a task.”

“Anyways, I think it’s Rae and Poki. It definitely couldn’t have been Sykkuno, we were chilling on a vent.” You stated. Corpse hummed to himself.

Sykkuno vouched for you, “Yep that’s true. And we did a foolproof test so it’s not either of us.”

“What was the test?” Lud asked

“Well, we both clicked the kill button and neither of us are dead, so.” Sykkuno pointed out.

“You clicked the kill button?” Rae asked, “Wait, so you’re both imposters? You clearly can’t kill each other if you’re imposters.”

You sighed, “I don’t know why Sykkuno had to say it like that but we clicked where the kill button should’ve been and nothing happened. So it’s not us.”

“So there’s two pairs.” Corpse mused to himself.

Pewds brought his mic really close to his mouth, “Get ‘em out of here.”

You yelled over him, “Hold on hold on, it’s seven we can’t vote on seven. Kind of sus that you’re pushing to vote on seven.”

“I’m not sus you’re sus.” He declared.

“Let’s skip, I’m gonna stay with Sykkuno and protect him.” Lud announced as the ‘I voted’ sticker popped up next to his name. Everyone started voting to skip.

“If Ludwig dies it’s Sykkuno.” Pewds concluded as the timer ran out.

“What???” Sykkuno wailed. You quickly ran to go to Lab on your own, afraid of Rae and Poki.

Rae walked behind you into Lab, “ Ahhh- Hi please don’t kill me.”

“No no no I would never,” Rae said, making her voice sound sarcastic on purpose as you guys walked into decontamination. You started to scream dramatically.

“Heeeeeeelp. Heeeeellppp! She’s gonna kill me.” You pushed your character into the door to specimen, desperately waiting for it to open. Once it finally did you rushed down into specimen and she ran after you. You ran around specimen with her chasing after you.

“Stop running. Y/N. Y/N! Hey- Stop running!” She yelled after you.

“Nooooo.” Corpse walked into specimen from the bottom and stood off to the side watching the two of you, “Coooorpse, protect me.” You yelled. He moved his character between you and Rae.

“Yeah, uh, of course. I’ll protect you don’t worry.” He said. Rae stopped in front of him.

“I said I wasn’t gonna kill you Y/N.” She insisted.

You fake cried a little, “You didn’t say you couldn’t kill me though! Corpse, please. Wait-” You realized Corpse could 100% be the imposter right now, “Corpse… It’s not you is it?”

“No no, I’m gonna protect you.” He promised.

“....Does that mean it’s you but you’re gonna kill Rae to protect me?” You asked. They both laughed and Rae backed away from Corpse.

“She knows too much Corpse, she knows too much!” Rae yelled. You started to scream for help again and run around.

“Hey hey hey, relax.” Corpse said, following you. You ran towards bottom decontamination, getting stuck at the door again, “Don’t worry. Y/N, shhh. It’s okay, just-” He made a smooching noise and the kill animation popped up on your screen.

You let out a shriek. “I can’t believe- Well, hi chat.” You giggled and started reading the chat again, “‘You got a kiss from Corpse, how do you feel?’ He’s a really bad kisser, guys. I mean it, did you see that? He kissed me and then STABBED me. An awful kisser.” You shook your head. A body was reported and the meeting screen popped up. They discussed yours and Poki’s death Corpse and Rae vouching for each other and Lud and Sykkuno vouching for each other, leaving Pewds the only one without an alibi and got him voted out. The defeat scream popped up showing Rae and Corpse as the imposters.

Corpse POV

Before joining the lobby again he decided to read chat for a second and talk to his fans. “I’m sorry I can’t really look at chat that much while we’re doing this mod it’s just hard cause everyone can hear you, you know.” He read through the recent super-chats, thanking people as he went. He quickly scanned the rest of the chat. People were spamming that Y/N had called him a bad kisser, “Wait- she- Y/N said what??” He joined the lobby, “Y/N what the fuck?”

“What’d I do??” Y/N questioned.

“Did you really tell your chat I’m a bad kisser? Why are you lyyyying?”

“I-” The whole group started gasping and talking over each other, “I meant in the game! You- everyone shut up oh my god please-”

“Okay okay okay, let her talk guys. Try and talk your way out of this Y/N.” Corpse chuckled.

“Okay, before I get myself into a scandal. In-game, before you killed me, you gave me a little kiss. Then my chat was like how do you feel and I was like you know what, that was an awful kiss I died from it.”

“Ohhh, that makes sense.” Corpse said.

“Wait!” Rae interrupted, “What else would she have to go off of other than in-game?…” There was a long silence.

Corpse was the one to break the silence. “You know what, gamer bladder. Bathroom break.” Everyone laughed and reluctantly agreed.

Y/N POV

You tried to stay calm and talk to your chat about any other topic but your chat was going insane speculating about you and Corpse.

Corpse came into the room and you quickly held up one finger off-camera to tell him to wait a second.

“Uh, hold on just a second guys.” You muted your headphones and took them off. You started to work on turning your webcam off but he reached over and grabbed the arm of your chair, rolling it towards him.

You squealed, “Corpse! What are you doing?”

“I’m a bad kisser, huh? I’m a bad kisser?” He started peppering your face with kisses. You giggled. He planted his hands on the armrests of your chair, practically trapping you in place. He raised an eyebrow at you, a smirk plastered on his lips, “Hmm?”

You cupped his face and kissed him. He started to pull you closer to him but you pulled back, “No, you’re not a bad kisser, baby. You’re the best kisser.” He kissed you again and then went back to his filming room. You slid your chair back to your computer, pretending as if nothing happened. You put your headphones back on and scanned the chat. There were a couple of people being like we saw that hand but you ignored it and continued playing.

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my-best-friends · 2 years

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Dear blog,

Someone recently asked me why I'm so obsessed with my best friend. Honestly, it didn't take me long to answer. They're kind and sweet and caring and strong and cool and imperfect in the most beautiful ways. I'm happy when people ask me because it makes me remember all the things they do that make them so incredible.

I make a lot of inappropriate jokes about wanting to get freaky with my bff but honestly they are probably the best, most incredible person I've ever met. I don't just want them for sex... I crave their attention, and their time. I want their gentle touch and soothing words.

I want their fingers to massage my scalp ever so lightly because I have a headache that just won't go away. Or hold my hand in their big warm one, squeezing it just a bit tighter everytime we cross a street.

I want to hear their raspy voice grunt in response when I ask them if they're still listening as I rant on about bl for the 3rd hour in a row. They don't really care and I know that but they listen because they know it's one of my interests.

They watch my anime recommendations despite most of them being trash. They listen to me obsess over kpop and pretty boys and wears those dangle earrings and eye makeup I give them. They send me selfies they took for the sole purpose of me having them to show people that I don't want to talk to, "Yes, I do have a s/o."

They give me their big baggy cardigan to wear when I'm cold. Or they let me wrap my arms under their jacket and around them because they're so warm and smell so good. Petting my head softly as they continue on with their conversation like what I'm doing is so normal for them. Giving me a warning glance and smirk as I pinch and squeeze the fat on their sides. They let me sit on their lap and fall asleep there as they converse with our friends while sitting outside for lunch. They put their jacket over me when it starts to rain to let me sleep on them a little longer. And they just give me that stupidly cute smile as they do the manner legs pose for me to dry their hair for them. Telling me they didn't want to wake me up because I "looked comfy all curled up like a kitten."

They grab my backpack, which is carrying way too many textbooks for one person to handle, and just slings it over their shoulder on top of their own heavy bag like it's been there all day. They walk me by the arm to where I need to go for my next class even though it's on the complete opposite side of campus from their own class. They sit close to me on the bus and let me dig my nails into their arm when I get scared because the whole carriage is swinging back and forth from going over a large speed bump a little too fast. It doesn't hurt them, I know because all they do is smile at me and tell me, "It's okay, I won't let anything happen to you."

They hold me close and kiss my head as I sit on their lap crying after my date stood me up. Then calmly speaks with said date when he tries to approach me again because they're mature like that. Quickly returning to hold my hand, without me even having to ask them to. They spend the rest of the day stating how crazy someone has to be to stand up a beautiful person like me and tells me dorky jokes because they know it will make me smile. And when I finally giggle in their lap again they look at me like they've just won the lottery as their fingers lace with mine.

They hand make birthday gifts for me because they just know nothing they buy could compare to the effort and thought put into the gift they designed and crafted themself specially for me. And when I pout sadly that the pendent fell off of the necklace they made me, they don't hesitate to drop everything and let me sit in their lap to watch as they fix it with their nimble fingers. Their tongue peeks out as they focus on fixing the small metal ring with their bare fingers, which are too thick, but that's not gonna stop them. And when they do finish fixing it, they smile proudly at me as they gingerly place it back around my neck.

They help me complete those stupid surveys for my psych class that require way too much effort even though they have a mountain of their own schoolwork to do. They support my choices and tell me how proud they are when I complete hard tasks or pass my courses. They ask me if I'm eating well, or drinking enough water, or getting enough sleep.

They don't look at me with lust, they look at me with pure affection. They look at me the way a parent looks at their child. I'm no fool, they don't love me like the way I love them. I know because they're kind to all their close friends. They care for them like a parent would. I know this. Even though I'm the only one they've held so close. Even though I'm the only one they give forehead kisses to. Even though I can tell by the way they touch me that they love having me in their arms as much as I love being in them...

So I like to read fanfics and watch romance anime and kdramas because I can picture me and them. It's easy because they're not that different from most leads who can be suave yet vulnerable with their love interest. Quirky and a bit goofy but are very bright. The type who is fiercely loyal and loves tenderly.

I know because they treat me, who is just a friend, so tenderly and so lovingly. I know that they will make someone very happy someday. Someone who will recieve those tender kisses on their lips. Someone who will feels their hands over all of their body and not just their own hands. And I know that that person will never be me and I'm okay with that. I've began making my peace with that a long time ago.

Until next rant,

Yama ✌

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shadowofahope · 3 years

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NOT Gonna Happen

Warnings: Swearing? One bad word near the end.

Premise: Fight or Flight. Meet BTS or run away from BTS?

“Uh guys…. She’s rolling away.” Yoongi points to you and your attempt to escape the room. Hands grab your ankles to halt your getaway. “I hate all of you.” You groan up at Yeonjun, who still had hold of you. You give up, letting out a deep sight, wishing the ground would open from under you.

Ft. TXT

Authors notes: My honest to all the kpop gods, reaction to meeting these boys. YEET!

This is also a response to people constantly asking me, what would you do if you met BTS?

ALSO this is heavily un-edited. I'm really tired and I'm trying to write 3.5 stories at once! Wooooh, wish me luck!

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Today marks your 8th week working at BigHit, currently working with TxT on their new album and the chaos that always followed them. Walking down a hallway with one of the backup dancers you had become quick friends with, you felt at home in this monumental building. You are comfortable here, everyone making you feel at home.

“Pleasssssse” Sung-ho begs again. Hands on your shoulders, shaking you gently as he walks behind you. “You have to come.”

“I really don’t think that’s a good idea.” You whine back, swinging your staff badge back and forth on your neck. “You know I don’t want to meet them.

He tugs on your shoulders lightly forcing you to halt. Jumping in front of you, palms pressed together, eyes closed he starts begging.

“You promised you would come to one practice. Just this one. Please Please Please-”

Huffing in frustration, you screw up your nose. He silently waits for you to give in, as he knows you will eventually.

“Just this one.” You finally give in.

“Yaaay!” He cheers, jumping to your side.

In all the comotion you don’t notice the footsteps approaching you two from down a connecting hallway. Shrugging your friend off, you’re about to round the corner when you hear it. Instantly freezing.

“I think it’ll be safer to go over the choreo with the dancer one more time.”

“I agree, the timing still seems a little off. We should take a look at the schedules.”

“Sung-ho!”

Your friend smiles and turns to the voice that called him, turning his back to you.

“Hello, Taehyung. Jimin. Hoseok.” Sung-ho greets cheerfully.

“Do you have time to come with us to discuss the schedules for practice?” Jimin asks politely.

“Of course, I was just on my way to grab a snack with -” He starts to explain, turning to where you once stood. Hand hanging in the air, he’s dumbfounded.

“With-?” Hoseok questions.

“Apparently myself.” He turns back to the boys. How had you disappeared so quickly and to where?

He chuckled awkwardly at the idols, cursing you for putting him in this embarrassing situation.

They mirror back his awkward laugh, excusing themselves as they continue on down the hallway.

Your friend stands there for almost two full minutes, trying to figure out what in the hell just happened. He hears a rattle coming from the small storage room near him.

The door swings open.

“You did not just-“ He’s wheezing, trying to catch his breath.

“Don’t talk to me” You walk out of the storage room, in reality it’s more of a tiny linen closet. Upon hearing the idols voices, In sheer blind panic, you threw yourself into the closet and shut the door behind you.

Walking past your still wheezing friend, you push him playfully before continuing on towards the lounge. His loud cackles bouncing around you all the way there.

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You are sitting in a waiting room with TXT. You’ve made yourself comfortable on one of the couches facing away from the door across the large room, angled towards the wall full over mirrors for makeup and hair. Scrolling through your phone, while Kai and Taehyun talk about something animatedly behind you. You can see them every once in a while, flailing their arms, mimicking wild gestures.

You three had chosen to stay back while the other three needed to ‘stretch’ their legs and find something to drink. So when the door opens you don’t look up, expecting it to be the missing members. Your body lurches forward at the reflection in the mirror, panic spreading.

“Hyung!” Kai exclaims excitedly, bounding over to the 2 members of BTS that have entered the room. “What are you doing here?”

“Hello, we were looking for Jungkook. Have you seen him?” Namjoon asks, looking around the room.

“No, he hasn’t been through here.” Taehyun chirps next to his bandmate.

“Ok, I’ll try calling him again. '' Jin responds, pulling out his phone from his back pocket.

“What are you guys doing here?” Namjoon questions the younger idols.

“Oh, we are working on a concept for one of the singles off our album. Our producer -” Kai motions to the couch that you were on. Now being completely empty. Your slouching form gone, the room appeared empty as well. “Who apparently is gone now, was here helping us.”

Jin and Namjoon shared a skeptical glance at each other. Kai rubs the back of his head as he looks at his beandmember, giving him a confused tilt to his head, to which he gets a shrug in response.

“That’s the newer producer right?” Jin questions.

“Uh yea, that’s her.” Taehyun confirms, still utterly confused by your houdini act.

“We’ve heard a lot of great things about her, from all over, but we still havent seen her.” Namjoon concluded by nodding his head, in thought.

“Oh, I’m sure you’ll meet her soon. It’s bound to happen.” Kai reassures.

The duos bid each other goodbye, BTS leaving the room and TXT walking back towards the empty couch.

“How did she-where did she-?” Unable to fully ask his question, Taehyun looks around the room again.

Kai rounds the side of the couch, noticing a hood under the coffee table.

“Noona?” He tries to hide his laugh but fails miserably.

You lift your head from the floor, removing your hood, peering up from underneath the coffee table at the younger. You glare at him, crawling out as he falls back onto his butt laughing, Taehyun joining him on the floor. Both now convulsing with uncontrollable laughter.

Flopping angrily back onto the couch in your previous position, you ignore their incessant chattering and laughing. Recounting you hiding again and again. Even when the other members returned and they explained everything that happened while they were gone, you chose to angrily scroll on your phone until their pestering and teasing died down.

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Pacing back and forth in a secluded lounge area, you waited with all of the members of txt. You were waiting to hear back from the execs about your concept ideas. The boys had worked extremely hard to come up with a fully thought out concept, you had backed their ideas the whole way as they presented them to the higher staff. Now you waited, anxiously.

Drumming your hands together while pacing you chewed on your bottom lip nervously. Each member stationed on the couch, lounger ottoman, facing you. Legs bouncing in anticipation, knuckles cracking you stopped in front of the large window, facing them, the outside world behind you.

“Look guys, regardless of what happens you did amazing.” You smile at them. “And I’m unbelievably proud of you. All of you.”

Breaking them out of their stoppers, they look up at your faces glowing, pride swelling in their chests.

“Soobin-ah?” A deep voice calls from somewhere unknown, and you freeze.

The members of TXT jump up from their seats, whirling around in time to see all the members of bts walking around the balcony area over to them.

“Taehyung-hyung,” Soobin greets politely. “How are you all doing today.?”

“Good, we just finished rehearsals.” Taehyung explains, once they were standing just on the other side of the couch to him. “Have you guys heard anything yet? We saw the concept art, we really liked it!”

“Nothing yet. We were actually just waiting. Noona was just trying to-” Soobin attempts to explain, motioning behind him to you. Seeing the skeptical looks on their faces, he turned his head to see nothing. You had completely vanished. With furniture and a structural wall surrounding you, there was no place you possibly could be hiding.

Confusion evident on his face as he looks over at Yeonjun. Eyes silently asking him where you had gone, the older only shook his head, eyes just as wide, he shrugged in response.

“Right, the elusive producer we keep hearing about but never seeing.” Yoongi responds comically. “Maybe she isn’t real? But a ghost!”

Spooking Jin and Hoseok alike, they give him an alarmed glare.

“No, we promise she’s real.” Soobin persuades, his voice coming out in almost a plea.

Trying to affirm your existence to their Hyungs, Gyu becomes overwhelmingly curious. He walks over to the spot you had been standing, a deep frown settled on his features.

He does a full 360, in an attempt to understand where you could have gone. Upon turning around he notices something. Stifling a laugh and breaking into a full blown smile, he subtly waves Kai over, when they make eye contact. Kai nonchalantly makes his way over to him, Gyu mumbles something to him and he looks in the direction that Gyu was nodding. Trying to hide his own laugh, the two youngest members stand snickering, waiting for the members of BTS to walk away before exposing you to the group.

Once the groups bid each other goodbye, they both break out into hysterical laughter.

“What guys?” Yeonjun jumps at the unexpected hollering. But neither boy can speak, too consumed by laughter they both point to the semi open window.

“She didn’t” Taehyun launches himself over the ottoman in front of him rushing to the window. Soobin and Yeonjun right behind him. The three of them look out to see your figure hopping down from the last branch of the tree outside.

With lightning speed and zero hesitation, you had climbed out of the already opened window on the second floor. Stepped from the ledge onto a tree that's long, thick branches were supporting itself against the building. Then walked to the center of the large tree and climbed your way down.

Mass hysteria broke out between the 5 members.

“That’s it. We have to make her meet them.” Soobin exclaims, wiping a tear that fell down his cheek.

“Guys, I think I have a plan.” Yeonjun smirks. So they all huddled around to listen.

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Today was supposed to be your day off. But upon receiving a text from Soobin, saying they needed you there urgently for their concept proposal, you raced straight there. So there you were standing in the hall talking to an exec in a black oversized pullover hoodie and workout leggings. Today was about comfort over professionalism, well it was supposed to be.

But when you had finished your pleasant chat with the exec, he started apologizing profusely about something he couldn’t say. Trying to hide his chuckle, his eyes dart over your shoulder. Before you could press him about his comments, you were spun around and hoisted off of your feet. Draped over a shoulder like a sack of potatoes. In alarm you manage to struggle enough to see your kidnapper, Yeonjun.

“What are you dooooooiiiinnnng?” You whine, struggling more.

He says nothing, but turns down the hallway to the dance practice rooms.

“Put me down shrek.” You quote. Wiggling even harder to escape the ironclad grip on you.

“There’s no point Noona, just accept it.” A sweet cheerful voice, butts in, shoes coming into view as you tilt your head up to look.

“Really Kai, they have you in on this too?” You slump in defeat. “Fine, but don’t you dare fart.”

Your capture lets out a chuckle before entering the dance room. The other three members you can kind of see. Or at least their shoes. Your hood keeps flopping down and making it hard to tell.

“Guys seriously, why are you-” You begin as blood starts rushing to your head. Making you slightly dizzy.

“Hello Hyungs.” Yeonjun greets politely. Panic rising, you tilt your head to the side to look into the wall mirror, there you see all 7 members of BTS sitting on the floor, along with the other members of TXT standing around you. “This is Y/N-Noona, the real, not a ghost, producer.”

Realization hits you like a ton of bricks, as snickers and muffled laughs resonate behind you.

“Yeonjun…..” Your voice is a little shaky. “You did not just introduce me to BTS ass FIRST?!”

Everyone in the room breaks into rounds of full belly laughter as you are hoisted back over the shoulder, feet planted on the floor.

Turning shyly to the side, you make eye contact with each member of BTS. Your legs crumble beneath you, muttering ‘I could have lived my whole life without this’ angrily. You lay on the ground face down, hood over your head as more laughter ensues.

“You had to meet them at some point, even backwards!” Gyu exclaims between heaves of laughter, clutching his stomach .

Waving your hand blindly towards the members of TXT you bark “That’s it! We are no longer friends. Done, Forever, never again!”

Apologies begin to flow toward you but you ignore them. Eventually you ignore any comment that comes your way, still plastered to the floor, the 12 men begin to talk about other things. Completely unaware of you.

...Or so you thought….

“Uh guys…. She’s rolling away.” Yoongi points to you and your attempt to escape the room. Hands grab your ankles to halt your getaway.

“I hate all of you.” You groan up at Yeonjun, who still had hold of you. You give up, letting out a deep sight, wishing the ground would open from under you.

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letting go || 2

jisung x reader

what will happen after jisung comes back home and you see him for the first time in a long time? have things changed? and do you still have those feelings you had for him?

tw: alcohol

A/N: here is part two of letting go! hope you guys enjoyed the first part as well as part two. thank you for reading my first post and for following. more content to come. please feel free to leave some feedback, it’s very appreciated! - RR

you jolted up when feeling yourself get shaken in your sleep. turning your head to your roommate, you felt a sigh of relief when seeing it was just yeji. “jesus, why did you do that?”

“you told me to wake you up in an hour.” she replied with a smirk. “don’t wanna be late to the party.”

ah, yes, the party. you instantly smiled at the thought of it. the pool party that jisung’s parents were throwing for him and his group members. they were here for their tour, and the thought of seeing jisung again after a few years had you mentally jumping in the air. you were ready to see him again.

“you sure you don’t want to go?” you questioned yeji once more, but knowing the answer already.

the girl shook her head. “nah, I have to meet up with my parents anyways. you have fun though.” she smiled. “and say hi to your parents for me if you see them.”

“will do.” you gave her a thumbs up when entering your car and quickly driving away.

a few months after you had graduated high school, you were quick to move out. you had realized being at home reminded you too much of jisung, knowing he wasn’t next door to you anymore. so you, and of course asking yeji, a friend you also had in high school besides jisung, had moved into a little apartment in the city. it was great though, having the college you and yeji attended to close by.

yeji knew everything. from when jisung had moved and yoy telling her about the feelings you had for him and the reason why you so desperately needed to move. and she was there to help.

but now here you were, heading back to jisung’s old house to see him again. you were filled with very different emotions but nonetheless you were happy. happy to finally being able to see him again in person. facetime just wasn’t enough for the both of you.

you were glad things were still the same, you two had never stopped talking even after jisung had became a trainee then had the chance to debut. he kept you updated every chance he got and always loved hearing about your updates as well. the only thing that did change though, your feelings. sometimes they were there and sometimes they weren’t. it was just a whole mixed up world for you.

you told yourself that nothing was going to happen between the two of you. you were busy with college and jisung was now a well known kpop idol. you even told yourself that it just wouldn’t work out, you loved jisung as a best friend. you told yourself that almost everyday since he had moved. and it worked, sometimes.

you tried dating, to keep your thoughts away from jisung but even when getting into one successful relationship, the back of your head only thought of jisung. it was always him. so you had to break things off with your significant other at the time. you hated this. and you only hoped you could keep the gaurd you’ve been holding up when finally seeing jisung again.

finally pulling up to jisung’s house, you took a deep breath when smiling at the second house that always felt like home to you. even after jisung had left, you still visited his parents from time to time. there was no doubt they saw you as their daughter.

walking up to the house, you could already hear the music blasting from the backyard. your heart was thumping real fast the closer you got to the fence gate, feeling as if it was ready to burst out. you opened it slowly, and walked until many people came into view. people in which you knew where his group members.

his mother was the first to notice you, jisung having his back facing you. she quietly walked up to you end engulfed you in a hug. “he’s been waiting for you and hasn’t stopped talking about you since he’s gotten here.” she softly chuckled. when you broke apart, jisung had turned around, almost dropping his plate of food when seeing you.

“y/n!” he rushed to you as fast as he could, picking you up to swing you around. “oh my god, y/n!” when he had put you down, he was now cupping your face. you wanted to cry, the moment feeling so surreal in finally seeing your best friend again. he’s definitely changed a lot from the last time you’ve seen him. and you’d be lying to yourself if you didn’t say he looked good. you could feel your eyes getting watery and jisung noticed it right away.

“hey, don’t cry.” he wiped a tear away.

“I’ve just missed you, jisungie.” you hugged him. “so much.”

he wrapped his arms around you. “you tell me, I’ve missed you everyday when I was over there.” he hugged you a little tighter. “you hungry? come eat. and I want you to finally meet my members.” jisung still had his arm draped around you when he lead you to the back porch. “everyone, this is my best friend, y/n.”

“and y/n, these are my members.” he smiled.

“it’s so nice to finally meet you all.” you waved.

“and it’s about time we meet you.” a deep voice said who you already knew was felix. “jisung can’t ever stop talking about you and mentions you every chance he gets.”

you let out a small laugh, turning to look at jisung. the boy had his head low while grinning. and one thing you noticed was the way his face had turned red.

two more boys came up to you who you knew as chan and changbin. these were the first two members jisung had introduced you to when he was a trainee. he had told you he did music with them and every time they did a song, jisung was quick to send you it for you to hear.

they both gave you a hug, chan hugging you a little longer than changbin. the first time you had ever talked to chan the two of you just clicked. you even considered him a good friend that you had made but never met.

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“oh! I want you to meet my friends.” jisung said through video call. “these are the two I have been talking to you about, chan and changbin.”

jisung turned the phone to his two friends who were in the studio with him. they were in the middle of recording a new song. “hello, nice to meet you.” you heard changbin say.

“I’m bang chan, or chris, whatever you wanna call me.” chan chuckled. “jisung always talks about you. so it’s nice to finally see who this y/n person is.”

“well that’s me.” you chuckled.

you had stayed on the video call with jisung the whole session they were in the studio. but the person you ended up talking to the most was chan. jisung was too busy recording his lines while chan was the one helping him. “ah, y/n. you seem like a very cool person.” chan told you. “I hope one day we get the chance to meet in person.” he smiled and you could see his dimples on full display. cute, you thought. jisung definitely had some very attractive friends.

“oh me too! a friend of jisung is a friend of mine!”

“yeah, yeah.” jisung took the phone away from chan. “don’t go on stealing my friends now. plus you can only have me as a friend.” he pouted.

“bro, you can share.”

you chuckled at chan and jisung going back and forth with each other. no wonder jisung loved these guys. you even enjoyed seeing jisung having fun. you could tell he was meant to be in a music career. and you were going to support him every step of the way.

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“how are you liking it here so far?” you asked chan. the two of you sitting by the edge of the pool. jisung was with the others, he wasn’t giving you much attention which was okay with you. he just wanted to have fun with his members being at his house. and so chan was the one you were mostly talking to the whole afternoon.

“oh it’s great!” he exclaimed. “jisung’s parents are really nice. and of course you’re nice too. you coming to our show tomorrow?”

“um, of course.” you giggled. “I wouldn’t wanna miss seeing you guys perform.” you slightly shoved your shoulder against chan’s, causing him to laugh.

“just wish I could explore the city here, I don’t think we’ll have much time tomorrow since we will be practicing.”

you looked up at the sky to see the sun was setting and that’s when an idea had popped into your head. you and chan really weren’t doing much either way, and you knew this would be the perfect time to show chan around. “I can show you around right now if you’d like?”

chan turned to you. “really? you wouldn’t mind?”

“of course not.” you grinned. “let me show you where jisung and I grew up.”

chan liked your idea, and was up for it. “sure thing. let me just get changed.” he stood up to head inside, you following after to change as well.

walking right back out, you headed towards jisung. “hey, I’m gonna take chan out to show him around. cool with you?” you questioned with chan standing right behind you.

jisung’s eyes went from you to chan then back to you. “just you two? alone?”

“I mean, well yeah.” you slightly chuckled.

“can’t you guys wait until tomorrow? so we can all go?”

“we won’t have time.” chan interfered. “we have rehearsals and our show.”

you noticed the way jisung’s eyes had shifted from you to chan in seconds. and for once in your lifetime you couldn’t read jisung. but you definitely felt his presence change, and you were clueless as to why. “um, well okay. I guess you two have fun. how long until you’re back?”

even jisung himself felt a bit odd that he suddenly felt this way. he guessed he just didn’t like the idea of you two getting closer after him being the one to introduce you both. or maybe it was something else.

“shouldn’t take long, maybe.” you said quickly as you were already dragging chan away. “enjoy the rest of your night!” you had screamed when closing the gate.

you and chan got in your car and drove off. “well firstly, this is where I used to live.” you pointed out your parent’s house. “jisung and I were neighbors.”

“and further down here is a park we always used to go to.” you briefly smiled at it, seeing the swings from afar. it’s been awhile since you’ve last visited the park. the last time being was when jisung told you the news of him passing his audition. you slightly chuckled when the memory of him ripping up the essay you did for him came to mind. you were pissed then happy but then sad knowing he was moving. “what are you laughing at?” chan questioned.

“nothing really, just that I remember jisung had made me do his essay in return of him doing my math work. only for him to tear it up.”

“what?!”

“yeah, crazy times.” you sighed. “and that’s when he told me he was moving.”

“you know, when I became friends with jisung, you were the one person he would always talk about.” chan chuckled. “even until now, he still does it. we might even think he has some type of crush on you.”

you felt your eyes slowly widen at chan’s words, almost nervously laughing to brush them off. no, you knew jisung too well. he couldn’t have a crush on you. right?

wanting to change the subject, you continued to drive chan around to show him the city. pointing out your old high school, then the college you were attending. you even showed him a few restaurants he should try for the next time they were back.

chan was definitely a great guy to hang with, he had you laughing, smiling and honestly you liked the friendship you two had started. of course he was no jisung, but it was nice to have your friend circle expand.

now here the two of you were, inside a small pub that was local. you and yeji would always go here almost every friday, a celebration for surviving the week. or for passing finals. you had told chan about it, and instead of heading back to the pool party, he decided to check the place out. it was already night time and the moon now shining through the sky.

“okay, shots on me.” you ordered two of them, the bartender already knowing your go to tequila drink when you would come here with yeji. he sat them in front of you and you passed one to chan. “here’s to having you guys here and for your show tomorrow night.” you raised your shot.

“and here’s to you, and your great hospitality, y/n.” chan smiled.

you and chan gulped down your drink. chan had made a small face which caused you to laugh. he seemed to be impressed the drink didn’t phase you at all. “I’m used to it.” you shrugged.

it was around midnight when you and chan were still at the pub, a few more drinks in. you had stopped awhile ago, knowing you were the driver. but chan definitely seemed to have been enjoying himself. he had even grabbed you to dance, having the time of his life. “I’m having so much fun.” he giggled. his cheeks flustered.

while he was in the middle of taking another drink, you felt your phone vibrate. you saw a couple of messages coming in from jisung.

jisungie: hey where are you two? I thought you guys were coming back.

jisungie: it’s pretty late, what are you guys doing?

jisungie: y/n? hello?

you: sorry! we were planning on coming back but instead we went to a bar and just lost track of time.

you placed your phone in your pocket and after seeing the time you knew it was time to go. you didn’t want to keep chan up knowing he had a show tomorrow. and you knew jisung wouldn’t have appreciated you being the cause of chan’s hangover. chan was stumbling a bit when walking out the bar, so you helped him back in your car. he wasn’t too drunk, more like tipsy but still you felt the need to help him out. you laughed when he kept giggling at you. “you’re so nice, y/n.” he slurred a little. “I can see why jisung talks about you a lot.”

you felt your cheeks flush red. how much did jisung talk about you with them? was this an everyday thing?

shaking your head when closing the door, you reached for your phone again. you were going to tell jisung that chan was going to stay at your place for the night since it was super late now and your apartment was closer than jisung’s home.

you: change of plans, I’m letting chan stay at my place since it’s super late. see you tomorrow.

jisungie: you don’t need to do that, I can go pick him up right now. tell me where your new place is at.

you: jisung, it’s fine, don’t worry!

jisungie: he’s just spending the night right? like on the couch or something?

your eyebrows furrowed at jisung’s text, you were definitely getting a different vibe from him at the moment. honestly, jisung’s arrival back home felt odd overall for you but you couldn’t put a finger as to why.

you: yes? and no.

jisungie: no? well where is he going to sleep?

you: does it matter?

jisungie: no, but

you: but what jisung?

jisungie: have a good night, I’ll see you tomorrow.

now you were really confused as you stared down at your phone from jisung’s response. you sat silently in the driver’s seat as chan had already been knocked out and snoring. what exactly did jisung mean? for once your best friend was confusing the hell out of you. he’s never questioned you this much before. and it was definitely weird for you.

you sighed as you started your car, driving away to head to your apartment. your thoughts seemed to continue going back to jisung and it was hard not to think about him after messaging with him. something was definitely up with him, and you were going to find out.

the next day

“morning.” you heard chan say. he sat on one of the stools, resting his head on his hands. you had started cooking some breakfast for him, consisting of only eggs and bacon. you turned to look at him, seeing that he looked perfectly fine and not hungover. “morning to you.” you smiled at him. “hungover?”

“no, actually.” he shook his head. “I feel quite fine if I’m being honest.”

“that’s good. here, eat up before we go back to jisung’s.” you placed a plate of food in front of him, chan wasting no time in devouring it. all while you went and cleaned some dishes that yeji left out.

“thanks again for letting me crash in your bed, you didn’t have to do that. as well for breakfast.” chan said. “you’ve been really great, y/n. as to showing me around as well.”

“no need to thank me.” you softly smiled at him. “It’s just how I was raised.”

which was true, your parents had done a great job in raising you and alway showing you to be kind to others. they’ve taught you that since you were five and you first experienced it when meeting jisung’s parents the day they moved into the neighborhood.

yeji had came into view but soon came to a halt when noticing chan. “oh, hello?”

“oh, hey there! I’m chan, you must be yeji?”

“that’s me.” the girl slightly stuttered. and from the looks of it, she definitely looked flustered which caused you to chuckle a little. yeji had walked behind him, staring at you as she mouthed, “he’s cute.”

you shook your head, grinning. “ready to go chan?” she questioned with the boy nodding after. “it was nice meeting you, will you be attending our show tonight?”

yeji nodded. “yes! I’ll be there! I’ll be joining y/n.”

“great, then I’ll see you tonight.”

“yes, you will.” yeji smiled.

after leaving your place, you had arrived at jisung’s in no time. you smiled when you opened the door to see him on the couch, chatting away with his members. he was smiling but soon it faltered when seeing you and chan right behind. “hi, guys.” you waved. but still nothing from jisung which again, you found odd. yesterday he was excited to see you but now it’s like he’s just completely ignoring you. did you do something wrong?

you sat next to him and he still didn’t even acknowledge your existence. “did you guys have fun?” jeongin questioned.

you and chan gave each other a look before smiling. “we sure did.” you replied. you didn’t notice, but jisung felt himself getting stiff. “y/n, makes a great tourist.”

jisung couldn’t help himself but to jolt up from his seat and head to the kitchen. you looked at him while furrowing your brows, following him right after. “is everything you okay?” you softly questioned when approaching the boy. and silence was all you got.

“jisungie?” you touched his arm which caused him to slightly flinch. “yes, I’m fine.”

he was lying. you knew he was when he avoided eye contact. he didn’t even dare look at you right now.

“no you’re not, something’s bothering you.”

“oh so you’re acting like you know me now?” he suddenly snapped. you were really taken back by his sudden change in attitude, causing you to slightly gasp. even his member became quiet after hearing the way jisung talked to you.

“he’s been like that since last night.” hyunjin told chan.

“I don’t know where you’re coming from or as to why you’re even talking to me like that, but yes jisung, I do know you. we’ve been best friends for-“

“people change, y/n.” jisung interrupted. “you haven’t seen me in the past few years, I’m not who I was before I left.” jisung definitely felt bad for the way he was talking to you. especially when seeing your face and how hurt you looked. he was just upset. but he had no right to be upset. he even didn’t have a right to put it out on you.

“why are you acting like this to me? did I do something wrong? please tell me if I did so we can fix-“

“just drop it, y/n.”

you felt your throat closing up and tears threatening to fall as you stared at jisung in disbelief. maybe things did change between the two of you after all. jisung looked back at you and instantly regret every word he had said to you. he was always the one to make you happy when you were upset and now here he was being the cause of you being upset with him. “fine.” you choked up, leaving the kitchen and walking straight out the front door.

jisung let out a deep breath, he felt horrible. he knew he had to fix it before leaving again.

“babe, you ready?” yeji called out from outside your door. you had just finished on your hair when she had called for you. quickly putting on your shoes, you walk out ready to go.

despite jisung being an asshole to you, you were still going to attend their concert. because even then, you wanted to fix things with him. there was no way you were just going to let this happen. when you had got home earlier, you cried to yeji so she knew what was going on.

at first you didn’t even want to go but she had convinced you and to fix things with jisung.

so here you two were, arriving at the venue in search for a parking spot.

“wow, how exciting!” yeji exclaimed when sitting on her seat. you guys had sat on the side of the stage, getting a good view from the top. you were thankful jisung had gave you some tickets.

throughout the show, your eyes seemed to only focus on jisung. seeing him on stage was like a whole different person you were watching. he was great at what he did, he was truly the performer. it was great to finally see it live rather than through a phone. jisung looked happy on stage and you knew that’s where he belonged.

while minho was in the middle of giving his last few words before the show would end, jisung’s eyes were diverting everywhere. it’s like he was looking for something, or better yet, someone. and they finally stopped searching once he spotted you.

jisung didn’t know if you’d actually come or not, especially after he had lashed out on you for no reason. he still felt absolutely terrible for the way he acted towards you. but seeing you there in the audience did something to him. he couldn’t help but smile up at you.

you had locked eyes with jisung and when seeing him grin at you, you returned the gesture of smiling back just a little. you were still upset with him, but you knew you could never be mad at him for long. hell, you DONT even remember the last time you and jisung had argued.

“we hope to be back!” chan said one last time before exiting the stage.

the end of the concert had arrived and you gave them props for putting on such a great show. you enjoyed watching them live but yeji had sure seemed to like it even more. “that was so amazing! oh my god, did you see when he lifted up his shirt?” she squealed when exiting the venue. “wow, y/n. this was such a good night.”

you chuckled at yeji, her being on full adrenaline at the moment. you were glad she had enjoyed the show. you did too of course, you just wished you could’ve seen jisung before leaving. and speaking of him, your phone rang that you got a new text and it was from the one and only.

jisungie: hey, thanks for coming, I really appreciate it. you should stop by my house for dinner. only if you’d like.

you went against into texting him back and decided to just go without warning. and you were going to drag yeji along. “come on, we’re going to jisung’s place.”

“oh great! I can see chan!”

you jokingly rolled your eyes, getting in your car and driving off to jisung’s house. when you got there, you saw he was already there. you don’t know why, but suddenly you became nervous into seeing him. feeling your heart began to race when opening the car door, yeji had came to your side when seeing you not so good. “hey, it’ll be okay. you two can take this opportunity to fix things.”

yeji was right, you wanted to fix things with jisung before he left again. tomorrow would be the last day you see him until you don’t know even when. and you don’t think you’d be able to live not talking to jisung while he’s away.

“y/n, you’re here! and hello to you too.” chan greeted when seeing you two step inside the house. yeji was already grinning brightly when seeing chan. “hi.” she said shyly. “the concert was great!”

you blocked out their conversation as you stepped further into the house. you saw everyone but jisung when they had all greeted you. “where’s jisung?” you asked.

“he’s out in the back.” felix answered for you. “I think you should go talk to him. he hasn’t been himself since this morning.”

you nodded your head, slowly walking to the back door. but to your surprise, jisung was nowhere in sight. you looked around and still nothing. you walked further into the backyard to see any signs of him, but not a single soul you found.

that was until your mind thought of one place jisung could possibly be in and when you looked up to one of the trees, sure enough you saw a light inside your’s and jisung’s old treehouse. you don’t even remember the last time you had set foot in it. probably back in high school if you last recall. you weren’t even sure if it was still sturdy enough. it was pretty dark, so you had to wing it when going up the latter. if you fall, you’d hope jisung was to hear it.

you made it up, pushing up the door. jisung was startled at first but relaxed when seeing you. “jisung.” you huffed. he quickly came to help you in, and the two of you sat on the beanbags you had in there. “I’m surprised this thing is still sturdy.” you lightly laughed.

“can’t believe this thing is still here.”

“oh, your dad and mine tried to take it down but I convinced them not to.” you said.

“well I’m glad you did. this old place holds a lot of our memories.” he grabbed a hold of an old photo, as in the first picture and and jisung ever took with each other. “you didn’t take this?”

“I did, to make a copy. the original belongs in here.” you smiled.

“oh, y/n.”

after saying your name, silence had filled between the two of you. for once in your life you were at lost for words and didn’t know what to say to jisung.

and as for jisung, he was trying to collect his thoughts on what exactly to say. he knew they had to talk about what happened earlier. so for starters, he knew exactly what to tell you first. “I’m sorry.” he said. “for the way I lashed out on you this morning.”

“may I ask why you were upset?”

jisung thought for a second. he knew why, oh he definitely knew why. but for jisung it was always hard to tell how he truly felt. you knew this, jisung always had a thing for keeping everything inside. it bothered you sometimes, which is why growing up you always tried to make jisung talk. everyone always knew him as the shy and quiet boy, but with you he was himself.

“I just- I guess I got upset when you and chan left yesterday.”

“oh? and why’s that?” you questioned.

“because.” he paused for a second, debating real hard for what he was going to say next. he turned to look at you and felt his heart trying to jump out of his chest. it almost angered him how you were looking at him with soft, hopeful eyes, you made him feel things. and for once he wanted to express them. “because damnit, y/n, I like you.”

you felt your stomach drop, mouth opening a bit from jisung’s sudden confession. did he really just say what you thought he said? it wasn’t some sort of dream?

“I like you, okay? I wasn’t too happy about you and chan leaving to hang out yesterday and then him staying at your place. it made me think something was going on between the two of you. I saw how you two became so close after I introduce you guys and well yeah, I was jealous.”

he looked at you again, you were silent as you were still trying to process everything jisung has said to you. jisung was always the silent one and now it was you who didn’t know what to say next. he left you lost for words. but you couldn’t seem to ignore the fact that jisung liked you back. “jisung you have nothing to worry about, chan and I are just friends.”

“yeah, well, I’m your best friend.”

you chuckled a little. “yes, you are. and I don’t think I’ll ever see myself with anyone else as my best friend than you.”

“come here.” jisung grabbed ahold of your hand, helping you out of the bean bag and then to get on top, straddling him. “how long have you liked me?” you questioned.

jisung let out a sigh as he pushed a piece of hair stand behind your ear. “since the day we shared our first kiss right in this treehouse.”

your eyes widen. all this time jisung had liked you back while you thought the opposite. “you’re kidding, right?”

“mm, nope. its been that long. I just never said anything because well, I thought you didn’t feel the same. and our friendship was just too good to ruin.” he said. “and I was planning on it but then I got the call…”

“damnit, jisung, we’re idiots.” you breathed out a laugh. “I’ve liked you all this time too, just never said anything. and then you moved.”

“then lets stop wasting our time and make this right.” jisung held on your chin as he eyed your lips then looked back at you. you felt your heart racing a thousand miles at the way jisung was looking at you. everything about this seemed so right. “and share another kiss in this treehouse.”

the two of you pressed your lips against each other, moving in perfect sync. it was a balance between soft and passionate, and unlike last time when you two were thriteen, this kiss was ten times better and lasted way longer. kissing jisung again is exactly what you had craved for. no matter what, it’s always going to be him.

jisung is and will always be your everything, and you were sure that this time you weren’t letting go of him.

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Secrets in a Foreign Language (Part Seven) - Jungkook

sorry it took so long for an update!

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You were heartbroken. How someone you hadn’t known very long could make it hurt so badly you weren’t sure. But man, did it hurt.

So many times over the next week you debated just showing up at his place, hearing his side, figuring out a next step together. You missed him.

But then you would recall him telling you to get in the closet, acting like a coward, like you were his meaningless dirty little secret. Reminding yourself of these things kept you from going over there.

In fact, you barely left your apartment at all. The same loneliness of when you first moved to Seoul becoming ever so prevalent again. You vowed to try and go out and make friends when all this Jungkook stuff was just a distant memory.

However, it proved difficult to make it all fade away in your mind since you were still scheduled to clean his apartment. To go back to the place where it all came to a beginning. And an abrupt end.

With hesitation, you slipped the key into the lock of the front door the following Tuesday. You insisted he not be there that last time you saw him, but what if he wanted to reconcile? You gulped and opened the black wooden door.

Silence.

He wasn’t on the couch in front of the tv waiting for you. He wasn’t in the kitchen eating a bowl of cereal. He wasn’t in the master bathroom taking a quick shower. Jungkook wasn’t here. You didn’t know if you felt relieved or disappointed, but you didn’t give yourself time to think about it as you immediately noticed the state of the home. It wasn’t cleaned like all the weeks prior. It was lived in, messy even.

So that was it. Back to square one. You alone in the apartment of a famous and wealthy Korean celebrity with a job to do.

A few days later you were laying on the couch in your studio loft apartment. It was dark outside since it was 12:47am, the only light was coming from the iridescent blue glow of the television. This had become a routine now, you turning on the tv but not watching anything in particular, just so there was noise and something to get your mind off everything. Some nights you never even made it upstairs to your bed.

And tonight your eyes began to slowly drift shut, your thoughts traveling elsewhere, the beginning of sleep taking over.

All of the sudden, you heard Jungkook’s name from the television. Or had you dreamt it? However, when your eyes opened in shock and confusion, his ever familiar face appeared on the screen. It was the same show you had seen while scrolling channels at Jungkook’s a couple months ago you realized, the trashy one where random people discuss the lives of famous actors and musicians. You sat up and tried to focus on the delayed English subtitles coming up at the bottom of the screen.

“… an official statement from both their companies was released.”

“So, it is true?”

“I would say that solidifies it.”

Cho-hee’s picture popped up. Followed by one taken outside at night of her and Jungkook walking and laughing. Then a graphic of a zig-zag shaped rip formed between their bodies, and the picture ripped in half, a broken heart and crying face appearing between them.

“Wow. They seemed so happy. I really thought this would last.”

“They’re so young and busy, no need to settle down yet.”

“But still, this begs the question… is love even real?”

*laughter*

Then they moved on to talking about another kpop idol.

Your felt your heart pound inside your chest. Jungkook and Cho-hee had “broken up”? Their companies had let them? They were no longer in a secret fake relationship? You couldn’t help but wonder what happened.

With shaky hands, you picked up your phone from the coffee table and opened the internet. Curiosity was getting the better of you, your desire to read those statements greater than your will to stop yourself from trying to remove all evidence of Jeon Jungkook from your brain.

‘Hello,

This is a representative from HYBE Corporation commenting in regard to the relationship between our artist Jeon Jungkook and fellow artist Kim Cho-hee. At this time, Ms. Kim and Mr. Jeon have mutually decided to part ways due to their careers and lack of schedule alignment. Going forward, there will no longer be any updates on the matter, and any information regarding their relationship from outside sources is invalid. Please respect the artists’ decision and privacy during this time.

Thank you.

HYBE Corp.: PR Department’

You stared at your phone in shock, rereading it a couple times to make sure it was real.

So, they really ended their fake relationship? Was because of Jungkook or Cho-hee? Or their companies? What was the real reason? Who was the perpetrator?

So many theories and questions ran through your head, furthering your exhaustion, and soon enough you drifted off to sleep, head full of images and thoughts of Jeon Jungkook.

The following Tuesday started off like any other. The sound of your alarm blaring woke you up out of a deep sleep at 4:00 in the morning. You groaned and hit the snooze button, questioning why you chose a job where you had to work so early… and basically all your other life decisions. (You were, in fact, not a morning person).

Eventually you sat up and rubbed your puffy eyes, removing the sleep from their corners. You yawned and stretched your arms up high before reaching for your phone on your nightstand. You checked Facebook, Instagram and Twitter, of course, then like every morning, you opened your work schedule, just to see if there had been any changes to the course of the day ahead.

And boy, was there.

For under the 2pm slot was the same unit number that had been there for weeks, however this time one word next to it caught your immediate attention.

Vacancy.

You stopped dead in your tracks.

Wait, what?

Clearly this was wrong. This was Jungkook’s apartment! There was no way it was now empty. He had never mentioned the fact that he wanted to move, that he was going to move. This would have come up in a conversation with him at least once if it was this sudden.

Yes, his stuff would still be there when you arrived to clean this afternoon. He still owned it, still lived there. He wasn’t gone. Right?

Wrong.

To your surprise, when you opened the door, the entire apartment was empty. Everything was gone. It was cold and echo-y and barren. Dust covered the hardwood floors of the living room where the rug had laid. Harsh sunlight poured in through the large windows, no longer shielded by the curtains that had previously been hanging there. The walls were now bare, small holes left from the various works of art that were once on display.

The memories of the times being with Jungkook flooded your brain almost instantly. Playing games and watching shows and movies on his large sofa. The time he admitted he was cleaning just so he could hang out with you. When you would two would sit at the kitchen island and eat delicious food, talking and laughing about anything and everything. When he told you he had feelings for you. The first of many times you made love.

Overcome by those thoughts, you finally allowed yourself to break down.

The sound of your sobs and unsteady breathes bounced off the walls and echoed throughout the room, tears cascading down your hot cheeks.

Maybe you were being dramatic. Maybe Jungkook had turned out to be a coward. Maybe he had been using you for sex and company. Maybe he had lied about having feelings for you. Who knows?

But even if had been all pretend for him, you had still fallen in love with him.

You could finally admit that the past two weeks since you saw him last you may have been holding on to some kind of hope. Hope that he wasn’t a coward, hadn’t been using you, did have feelings for you; and all that would become evident if you ever saw each other again, if he was ever at his apartment when you came to clean like he had been so many other times.

But now it was as if the universe was laughing at you for falling for someone so unattainable and complicated.

He was gone, and you had no way of contacting him.

Eventually you pulled yourself together enough to start the long cleaning process for a vacant unit. Every surface, cupboard, drawer, nook and cranny had to be spotless so new potential buyers could tour the home.

You started in the living room: vacuuming, mopping and dusting, making sure the floor, walls, and windows were shining.

Then you moved into the adjoining kitchen, spraying and wiping every countertop, the refrigerator, the island. You even had to open each drawer and cabinet to wipe those down, too.

But as you opened the last upper cabinet to clean its inside as well, you suddenly caught your breath in your throat.

For there inside the cupboard was a box of cereal. Your favorite cereal. The same kind of cereal you had eaten with Jungkook in this very kitchen the first day you met.

He must have just left it on accident.

With a shaky hand, you grabbed it and brought it down to eye level. That’s when you noticed the envelope taped to the front of the box.

Your heart pounding, you ripped it off and tore it open.

Inside was a letter, and as you unfolded it something fell out and into your hand.

It was a ticket.

To a BTS fanmeeting event.

What?

Your eyes moved to the handwritten letter.

‘There are so many things I wish I had done differently. You didn’t deserve what I asked of you that day. I’m so sorry I handled everything so poorly. I don’t blame you for questioning everything and leaving. I was a coward. I know this now.

Please, please come see me. Please come to this event. I understand if you don’t. I just want nothing more than to see you and talk to you again.’

And then, at the very bottom,

‘보고 싶어요

사랑해요

JK’.

Masterlist

Author’s note: The two phrases in Korean at the end mean “I miss you” and “I love you”(!!!!).

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wickymicky’s Top Ten Kpop Songs of 2021

3: Purple Kiss - Zombie

Rookie of the year.

I first heard of them from their predebut song last year, My Heart Skip a Beat, which I liked a lot. I was hoping their debut would sound kinda like that, but it didn’t. Ponzona was cool, but wasn’t quite what I was looking for. I liked that they themselves wrote it, I think that’s an awesome choice for a debut song. I really liked all of the members right away. Right off the bat, I had not one, not two, not three, but four candidates for bias haha. I thought they had ridiculous potential, I was super excited for them, and I was thinking that they were probably gonna be my pick for rookie of the year. But... again... I wasn’t that into Ponzona. It’s not bad, but if Zombie didn’t come out, would I have put Ponzona on this list, even if they were my favorite rookie group (in terms of members) of the year? Probably not. So I was worried that I’d be in this position of being like “well, my favorite rookie group this year was Purple Kiss, but I liked all these songs from all these other rookie groups way more”. sklfmsdkglmdgl;g

Thankfully I didn’t have to worry about that, haha. Dude, Zombie is so good. I love it. The music video and the general aesthetic is so goofy, and I love that. This is part of why I love girl groups, and struggle to get into most boy groups. So many boy groups take themselves soooo seeeeriously aaaall the tiiiime... if they did a song called Zombie, with a music video with a zombie apocalypse theme, it’d be the most boring shit imaginable. But Purple Kiss are a girl group, so the video is fun, it’s dumb, it’s cute, it’s cool, it’s just silly haha, idk.

The song itself doesnt take itself too seriously either. When you think of a song called Zombie, idk if this song’s genre and vibe are the first ones you think of, haha. This song’s got some real groove to it lol, hell yeah. I’ve said this about a bunch of the previous songs, so I’m getting a little sick of saying it lmao, but it’s true here too.... Everything in this song fits together so well, nothing is out of place. Every section flows into the next. Every idea in the song reinforces all of the others. Every syllable hits the beat in a perfect way. All of their voices stand out from each other and sound good together. This song is just so well crafted.

They all have so much personality and that shines through all throughout this song, but one member I want to talk about in particular is Yuki. I’m just gonna go ahead and say it, she’s the best girl group rapper in the 4th gen. She’s fantastic. The way she rides the beat is a step above so many others. She just has these flows that are catchy in and of themselves. She’s not just saying words fast and calling that rapping, she’s saying words rhythmically, which is what rapping really is. Her rapping in Zombie isn’t even all that fast haha. It’s not slow, but really the biggest thing about it just how she hits the beat, especially how she flows over that bassline. She has so much potential, it’s actually absurd. She’s going somewhere. This isn’t something I just noticed on Zombie, this is a thing with every song she’s a part of.

You know, on my first listen, I thought the “zombie-bie-bie-bie” would get annoying eventually cause it’s kinda simplistic, but no, that’s not what happened haha. It’s such a funky song, and honestly having a simple line like that on top of all the things going on in the instrumental kinda just.... works. There’s so much detail in the song, so when you hear something simple like that, you know it’s intentional. Sometimes simple is good, sometimes simple is all you really need in order to bring an idea home. It really does have so much going on lol, I feel like I notice something new in the song every couple days. Like just yesterday, I noticed that in the chorus, when Chaein says “ayayaya hey, aya hey”, there’s a backing vocal or sample or something of people saying “heyyyy”. I literally never noticed that, and it’s in the chorus of a song I’ve listened to almost every day for four months. You just cannot accuse this song of being lazy lmao. You just can’t. It’s really, really intricate and well-honed. This is the kind of song that’s gonna age like a fine wine too, I guarantee it.

Everything about this song is just so fun. Congrats on a very deserved spot in my top 3.

links to the rest of the list: 10 - After School (Weeekly) 9 - Love So Sweet (Cherry Bullet) 8 - Odd Eye (Dreamcatcher) 7 - Eleven (IVE) 6 - Rub-a-Dum (TRI.BE) 5 - Holiday Party (Weeekly) 4 - Ring x Ring (Billlie) 3 - Zombie (Purple Kiss) 2 - ASAP (STAYC) 1 - First (Everglow)

#2021 list #purple kiss #zombie #i think anyone who knows me knows what my top 2 are though haha

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Changbin sat in the hallway outside the dorm, replaying what you had said to him. He had tried to tell you that he loved you, the words you had been waiting to hear from him, but yet you just blew him off? He understood that you were mad at him, he knew he fucked up and treated you like garbage and he wanted to apologize and make it up to you, but how could he possibly do that when you won't talk to him.

"You okay man?"

He turns his head to look beside him, seeing Felix standing there, concerned plastered on his face. "I don't know what to do." Changbin sighs, rubbing his face. He needed to win you back, he loved you, he couldn't lose you, especially not to Minho. "I need to get her to listen to me."

"Do you want my advice?" He asks.

Changbin nods his head.

"Then go to her." Felix says. "Show her you care about her. Put in effort and don't stop ever. Even if you end up winning her back, never make her feel like she is less than your entire world. You want her, then show her."

"You're right." Changbin exclaims. He stands up, rushing down the hallway, on his way to find you. "Thanks man!" He yells. "I owe you."

Felix rolls his eyes, opening the door back up only to see Minho standing there with his arms crossed. "That's almost the exact same advice you gave me." He glares.

"Hey." Felix laughs, putting his hands up. "I only asked if you guys wanted my advice, never said I wouldn't share it with others."

Minho rushes out the door, hoping to find you first. There was no way he was going to let Changbin make it right with you, not when he was so close to having you to himself.

"Beautiful?" You scoff. "Don't even try it, random, handsome man. I have enough boy problems." You groan, dropping your head into your palm.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asks, taking a sip of his beer. You perk up, turning your head to look at him.

"Actually?" You ask.

He eagerly nods his head. "Might be helpful to you to have some male advice." He suggests, shrugging his shoulders.

"Thank you kind stranger. Bartender, another round for me and my friend here." You order, scooting closer to Wooyoung. "So.." you begin, starting at your reluctant acceptance to the friends with benefits idea, your dates with Minho, the way Changbin treated you, the fighting, confessions up until now, sitting at the bar, getting drunk and spilling your disaster love life to a stranger.

"Sounds like they both have their flaws but they also both have good redeeming qualities. I think you need to think about who you're going to be happiest with, when I say boyfriend, who is the first one that comes to your mind?" He asks.

You smile at the question. Only one person came to mind at his question. But you were still unsure if that was the right choice. You needed time to think.

"Thank you." You say to Wooyoung, you genuinely appreciate the advice he has given you. And now you needed to make a choice. You knew you did. You knew who you should pick but you felt conflicted. Your heart was going to hurt one way or the other.

Minho or Changbin.

Changbin or Minho.

You felt so confused in the moment. You were drunk, you were tired and felt lonely.

With a sigh, you half smile at Wooyoung as you slide down from the bar stool, trudging your way back to the house with your head hung low. Maybe a good night's sleep would help. You drag your feet up the stairs, collapsing in your bed. You drift to sleep within seconds, dreaming about what your life would be like, had you never started your thing with Changbin, and nothing turned out how it did.

You wake up early the next morning, stretching your entire body, for the first time feeling like things were going to be okay. Yes this was only your second day here, but you knew this was going to be so good for you to be away from everyone and everything. You needed to just have fun with no worries, be yourself and carefree.

You were excited.

You got dressed in a pair of shorts and a tank top with your bathing suit underneath. You grab your purse and head downstairs, opening the front door to see someone standing there with their fist up to knock.

It took you mere seconds to recognize the man standing in front of you.

"Changbin?" You whisper. Your eyes must be deceiving you, there was no way he was standing in front of you at this moment.

"Hi." He says, looking up at you. His eyes were red and puffy, tears stained his cheeks.

"Are you okay?" You ask. You knew you shouldn't, you knew he didn't deserve your sympathy or concern.

But you still loved him.

You still cared for him.

"I miss you." He croaks, trying to hold back tears again. "I miss you and I love you and it's you. I need you. I want you. I know I fucked up, I know I treated you like shit." He sniffles. "I was scared and I know that's no excuse but I just need you to know that I'm in it for the long haul. Whatever you ask me to do, I'll do it. I'll wait for you if you need time, I'll go to counseling, I'll do whatever you want. Just please.. tell me you love me back. Tell me you want me." He pleads.

"I.." you pause. This wasn't how you wanted to do it. This wasn't how you wanted to tell one of them the news. You had everything planned out for when you got back, in a familiar setting and not here and now at the front door of the rented beach house. "Come in." You sigh, grabbing his hand and pulling him inside the house. You take him up the stairs and into your room, sitting him on the bed.

Changbin sits there with his head in his hands, sniffling as he waits for you to say something. Anything. He just wanted you to tell him it would be okay and you weren't going to leave him. You were all he wanted, but he understood if you decided you didn't want him.

"I love you." You whisper, waiting to see his reaction. His head jolts up, hoping you're not going to take it away now. "But.." you pause. His heart sinks again. "We need to take things slow." You finish.

"You're not joking?" He asks, his hands gripping the bed tightly.

"Why would I joke about this?" You ask. "I'm being serious. You're the one I have loved for so long. How could it be anyone other than you?"

Changbin stands up, wrapping his arms around you, holding you as closely as possible.

"So what does this mean exactly?" He asks.

"We don't sleep with anyone else, but we're seeing each other, taking things slow." You explain.

"I can do that. I would do anything for you." He says, tilting your chin up, to place a small kiss on your lips.

Over the next few days, you were in absolute heaven. Changbin was staying at the beach house with you and you honestly couldn't have been happier. He was sweet, attentive, passionate, loving and caring, he made you laugh constantly and made you feel like you were the only girl in the world.

You felt as though you whole-heartedly had made the right decision.

That night you were getting ready to head to a party with Changbin and Jessi. You had been invited through Jessi by Wooyoung, and you were excited to introduce Changbin to your new friend. You had really thought they would get along great and become friends. You were both so happy when you were on your way to the party. When you arrived you both got a drink and you and he made rounds, meeting new people, talking and laughing. As you were talking you felt a tap on your shoulder. You turn around and are met with the smile of Wooyoung.

"Hey!" You say excitedly, wrapping your arms around him for a hug. He tightly hugged you back, and as soon as you let go and looked at Changbin the energy he was giving off had completely changed. You tried to ignore it, but he was glaring at Wooyoung, his hands balled into fists as you talked to him. "This is Changbin." You smile, motioning to your boyfriend. Wooyoung extends his hand towards Changbin, who just looks at it and scoffs before walking away.

"I'm sorry." You mumble, taking off after him as he weaves through the crowd. You finally managed to grab onto him outside, turning him around to face you.

"What was that?" You ask. "That was so rude. What is wrong with you?"

"You. You're what's wrong with me." He spits. "Are you fucking him too? Fucking him and me, like you did with Minho?" He yells.

You step back, your hand over your heart as you look at him, shock and hurt plastered across your face.

"Are you kidding me?" You laugh. "After everything? Wooyoung and I are just friends. Like you and Hwasa." You say, rolling your eyes.

"Yeah, me and her are just friends." He says.

"See." You point out.

Changbin stands there with thoughts rushing through his head. "I fucked up." He whispers.

"Yeah you did." You spit, turning around and heading back to the beach house. Changbin follows, incessantly apologizing to you, begging you to just hear him out. But you would rather not hear him say anything, you were so mad at him.

How could he just accuse you like this, out of nowhere. You thought you were past all this bullshit. You chose him, what more did he want? Minho was in the past, you would always have a past with him and Changbin was just going to have to accept it.

You made your way to the beach house, your night now was ruined thanks to Changbin's jealousy. You stomped up the stairs to your room with Changbin trailing behind you, trying to get you to talk to him, to let him apologize but you wanted none of it. You slammed the door in his face, locking it from the inside as you laid down on the bed and cried. You could hear the faint knocks from Changbin on the other side. His pleading for you to open the door, but you didn't want to.

"I'm insecure." He yells through the door. "I'm worried that I'm not going to be good enough for you, or you're going to realize that you made a mistake and leave me. I know I need to work on it. I'm sorry Ayn. He was so handsome, I immediately felt so insecure and I lashed out." He finishes.

You unlock the door, facing the man that you chose. "I'm allowed to have male friends. And sometimes they might be attractive, but you desperately need to remember that what happened with me and Minho was when we were just friends. We weren't together. But now that we are, I would never cheat on you. Okay?" You say, stroking his cheek. He leans into your hand, kissing your palm before you pull him into the bedroom with you.

This was his last night here with you, and you didn't want to spend it fighting over some dumb words. So you spent it laying in his arms, talking about what the future held and where you saw yourselves, and wow were you so in love with this man.

Changbin left the next morning, while you stayed for the remainder of the vacation. You spent your time at the beach, drinking and having a blast with Jessi and Wooyoung. You didn't want it to end, but you were excited to get home to Changbin and see how your relationship was in a familiar setting.

You also knew you needed to talk to Minho, which wasn't going to be easy. You really did like him, but love will always outweigh like.

"I'm sorry." You whisper, as you sit next to Minho after breaking the news. "I just.." you pause with a sigh.

"I get it." He says. "I mean I'm not happy about it but you love who you love. I'm happy for you guys." He smiles.

"I really hope we can still be friends?" You ask.

"I'd like that." He says, standing up and walking towards his room. You walk to Changbin's room, crawling into bed with him, letting out a sigh of relief.

"How'd it go?" He asks, rubbing your head.

"Good. We're going to be friends. He looked so sad though." You sigh.

"He'll be okay." Changbin reassures you.

You knew he would be, but you still felt guilty for some reason. You tried to ignore it, but the weird, anxious feeling in your stomach never went away.

4 months.

That's how long it lasted until you and Changbin were in another fight.

"I don't like the way he looks at you." Changbin yells.

You had gone out for lunch with some coworkers and Changbin, introducing him to them and one of them happened to be a guy. According to Changbin he was eyeing you up, and practically fucking you with his eyes.

"We're friends. Remember, I'm allowed to have male friends. You're my boyfriend, not my keeper." You yell, rolling your eyes.

Changbin scoffs again, stepping back from you. "You're fucking him, aren't you?" He says, looking you up and down.

"I'm sorry, what?" You ask.

You could not do this again. Not this shit again.

"It's like fucking Minho all over again." He spits. "Fucking slut." He spits.

"Get the fuck out, Changbin. You need to calm the fuck down." You yell, pointing to the door.

His eyes turn soft seconds later, realizing what he had just said to you. But he doesn't say anything, he just storms out of your apartment, slamming the door behind him.

You plopped on your couch, laying your head down on the back of the couch as you take a deep breath. This was fucking stupid. You couldn't keep dealing with him and accusing you of fucking people because of what happened in the past when you were friends. This wasn't fair to you. It wasn't fair for him to be treating you like this, and the two of you needed to have a serious conversation and figure some stuff out.

Life was too short to be stuck in a relationship without any trust and it was very obvious Changbin had 0 trust in you.

A few hours later, you make your way to the dorm, ready and calm enough to talk to Changbin. He had been ignoring your phone calls, so you figured you'd just go and then he would have no choice but to talk to you.

"Hello?" You call out as you open the front door to the dorm, walking in, a bag of yours and Changbin's favorite snacks in your hand. It was quiet, it seemed as though no one was around.

"Changbin?" You call out.

Suddenly someone rushes out of a room, running over to you.

"Oh. Hey Minho." You smile.

He doesn't return the smile, but instead looks panicked.

"What are you doing here?" He asks, looking around.

"Changbin and I got into a fight.. I'm here to talk to him. Is he in his room?" You ask, trying to move past Minho to go to Changbin's room.

"I uh, you can't go in there." He whispers.

"What?" You laugh. "Why not?"

"Ayn.. you don't want to go in there." He says sternly.

"Minho, you're scaring me. What the hell are you talking about?" You ask, moving past him. You quickly walk to Changbin's room, placing your hand on his door knob.

"Ayn, don't." He calls out.

You turn the knob, pushing the door open. You see your boyfriend's back, naked and sweaty as he thrusts his cock into someone, making her moan loudly.

You drop the bag of snacks, catching his attention. He turns around, seeing your horrified face watching him cheat on you.

"Ayn.." he whispers, pulling out of her, covering himself on the bed.

The girl sits up, and suddenly everything makes sense. Your heart shatters into a million pieces.

Hwasa.

With tears filling in your eyes, you look between the two of them.

"Just friends, right?"

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vulnerability. – chap. 3.

Story info:

Pair: Byun Baekhyun x Reader

Rating: +18 for mentions of s*x and violence (future chapters)

Genre: angst, smut

Chapter info:

Release date: 29th July 2021

Word count: 4 219

Warnings: none

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Chap. 3.

The tension that appeared the moment you received the phone call from Baekhyun did not dissolve with time. In fact, the opposite happened – it grew as the time passed, and as Saturday came closer and closer. Finally, once your Friday to Saturday night shift came to an end and you stumbled into your flat around 4 in the morning, you knew that you wouldn’t be able to fall asleep easily. Yet, you forced a whole cup of green tea into yourself in an attempt to soothe your nerves before sleep. Your alarm was set for noon, and you were supposed to meet at 3 PM.

You woke up feeling energized, but you knew this pattern all too well already – the tiredness would come and hit you with its whole power the day after, and you’d spend Sunday sluggish and drained. But that was okay, because Sunday didn’t matter half as much as Saturday did.

You felt a small urge to dress up; even more, actually, you felt a need to pay attention to details rather than looking fine at the first glance. Some common sense hyped up by years of watching other people and reading stories – a thorough shower, shaving, paying attention to not only what you wore outside, but also your undergarments. You lacked things that could be considered “sexy”, but – let’s face it – you didn’t think it mattered much; not after what you’d found out so far. Yet, it would be a shame if your panties had a hole in them. Wearing something neutral, but fresh was your best bet. Every few minutes, you kept reminding yourself – you don’t even know what will happen, you don’t even know if anything will happen at all. There was no reason to think that he’ll want you to undress in the first place, you said it yourself that you’re not ready for sex.

But then, it still helped you gather confidence that you definitely needed at a moment like that. Details allowed one less thing to worry about, and a better ability to focus on others, and so, you made sure the details were worked out well, and that you didn’t overdress, either; a beige shirt and jeans, all wrapped up with sneakers and another knitted cardigan of yours – neutral and polite, maybe a bit school-ish, but these were the things you mostly wore on daily basis, and you felt that going in the other direction – of tight pants, mini-skirts and see-through shirts – would not be appreciated. Your hair was pulled up into a loose bun, nothing like the ones you admired in YT tutorials, but the best you could do on your own. Maybe it was the age difference that made you feel obliged to show respect rather than expose yourself. You trusted your instinct on that, and so far, nothing happened yet to prove it wrong. The weather was starting to get warmer; these days were particularly sunny and dry, so you felt at ease without an extra jacket. It couldn’t get that bad in the evening, and you put faith in your cardigan.

Baekhyun must have thought similarly.

You stood in the bar’s entry, looking up at him for a moment; he leaned back into his usual couch, not aware of your presence just yet. He was wearing a black button-up and jeans as well, something he still looked pretty well put-together in, but not too formal – similar to your own thought process, noticeably.

You inhaled deeply, and took your time to exhale the air – until you felt ready to walk up to him.

“Hi there” he spoke as you approached his couch; as expected, he was there alone today.

“Hi there” you replied with a slight nod and a smile; your voice was quiet, as quiet as it could be without trembling in anticipation.

“You want to drink something before we go?”

You considered it for a second, and then nodded again. Baekhyun moved a bit to the side, encouraging you to join him on the couch, and you took the offer with gratitude.

“Beer? I don’t want to get you drunk, but we may sit here for a bit just to relax.”

“You can tell I need it?”

“Yes. I can tell. Your shoulders are very tense. May I?”

His hand reached to your shoulder and you nodded slightly, a bit unsure what you agreed to just yet.

He suddenly squeezed your muscle, and you whimpered. He kneaded it, and you found the tension dissolving gradually as he went on. Even with only one hand and unfavorable position, he managed to find some of the spots that required touch; that touch was welcome, slight pain coming along with it was desired for the best outcome. You didn’t notice when Baekhyun must have given the bartender some sort of a sign, but the man soon came with a beer and water that he put on the nearby table. That was when Baekhyun’s movement slowly ceased, cautiously letting go of your shoulders. You felt as if you were in a different body, the tension in your body almost gone, just as the one in your mind – the moments of physical interaction were enough to chase some of your worries away.

“You don’t drink?” You reached towards the table – it was closer to you than to him – and took the two glasses, handing him the water and keeping the beer for yourself.

“Not before,” he explained curtly, which you accepted without further questioning.

“So… what are we gonna do?” you asked carefully, sipping the beer through a metal straw, trying to give off a casual vibe despite focusing deeply on what you were about to hear.

“Depends. On how much will you allow me to do.” Baekhyun focused his gaze on something in the crowd; you felt as though it was his habit to avoid a direct gaze in an attempt to sound collected. “I had the idea of showing you some things. Just so you feel it out a little. It’s not final, but it may help the both of us figure out how we feel about it. Like a free trial, you see my point?” You nodded, but didn’t say anything, so after a moment he continued. “I won’t introduce you to everything, and it won’t last as long as usual sessions, either. I’ll talk to you a bit beforehand so we figure out some basic things. It shouldn’t make you uncomfortable. I won’t be trying anything beyond your comfort zone.”

“So, no deals a’la Fifty shades?” you felt silly the moment these words left your mouth. Baekhyun laughed awkwardly.

“No, it won’t be necessary. If you want to draw a comparison to that, I definitely won’t be dumping the whole scheme on you when you don’t even know what it’s like.”

And you won’t fuck me first thing in the plot, you added in your thoughts.

“There are a few things that I may ask you here, so that we have those out of the way,” he spoke; his tone lowered a little. “I need you to tell me if you have any illnesses or old injures that could influence your physical capacity.”

You thought for a bit; the answer was important, but you couldn’t recall much.

“I don’t think there’s anything important.”

“Is there anything unimportant?” His gaze pierced through you as he caught on your wording.

“Uh… I’m taking pills for my thyroid, but it’s nothing very dramatic” you explained. “Nothing else that I know of.”

Baekhyun nodded slowly.

“Fair. Next question, is there anything you’re particularly scared of? Phobias, or things you’re scared of in general, anything overly triggering that you want to avoid at all costs?” You already revealed some of these during your first conversation. But now you felt more at ease, and you thought you could be more detailed without sounding overwhelming.

“I’m… scared of fire. And hate my hair being pulled. I don’t know, why. I can’t explain it. It’s just…”

“It’s alright. You don’t need to explain yourself to me” Baekhyun looked at you with his eyebrows slightly furrowed. “You sound like it would stress you out to share. You don’t need to be afraid of that. You don’t owe me anything, keep that in mind. It’s not supposed to feel like an obligation.”

“I-I know.”

“I’m scared of heights, by the way.” You stared at him in confusion. “Hm? Just thought it’s fair to share if you did.”

“Oh.”

“Chill out.” He nudged your glass with his hand to urge you to drink some more of the beer you managed to forget about by then. It was halfway through – you didn’t want to leave the glass with some of it still inside, although it managed to make you feel just a bit sick already.

His own drink was at around the same level too, and as you finished yours, he drank the remaining water in one go as well.

You weren’t the best at handling alcohol, and even the small amounts made you a bit weak in the knees. But you felt sober enough as the two of you finally got up; Baekhyun paid for your drinks and you left the bar.

The weather was nice, as expected. Going out into the sunlight again startled you, somehow; you felt as though a lot of time had already passed. But no, it was still the same afternoon.

It was true that Baekhyun lived nearby. His apartment was in a different direction than your place, though, and you estimated it would take around twenty minutes to get from one place to the other. You knew this area, although not too well – there were only some tenement houses, but no stores or academic buildings that could gain your attention or regular presence. It was on the more expensive side, although not a place a well off office worker wouldn’t afford; just maybe not suitable for a student. The tenement houses were old, but well-kept, and you knew that the apartments were way bigger than in a place like yours.

Opening the door for you, Baekhyun invited you into the dark hallway of his apartment. There were no lights, as every wall had doors to other rooms: two to the left, one at the end of the corridor, and two more to the right, perfectly symmetric.

“Kitchen, my office, bathroom, my bedroom, and the living room,” the man told you, starting from the left. One glance into the living room on the right made you realize just how big the rooms were; enormous, in your honest opinion, with the area of something around a classroom at school, but with ceilings that reached far up, almost twice higher than in your own place. Heavy curtains hung from the top of the tall windows like limp branches of a willow tree, giving the most dramatic effect, and – likely – gathering tons of dust throughout their lifetime. Wooden, carved furniture added to the effect, and you, in all your sincerity, would not dare to ask how much such a set cost, although it would be a lie to say that you weren’t curious. Wooden panels on the floor were already worn and grey, giving you a thought that the interiors were kept in this particular shape for long years before Baekhyun began to reside in there.

“That’s huge,” you only uttered. Your eyes rested on a painting in the middle of a wall on the left side of the room, above an eclectic-green, velvet couch, in front of which was a wooden coffee table, and which gave a perfect sight into an old TV on the side of the room, as it was one of the old-styled, small models that would be hard to look at from the distance between one wall and the other. The painting looked old, but you wondered from the distance, whether it was not just printed in good quality, with all the details of lights, people and nature making it look like a piece of national heritage rather than a small private property. It portrayed a battle scene coming to an end, warriors in shining armor stained with blood resting upon trees and a small pond of pinkish water, at either sunset or sunrise – you weren’t sure.

“You like it?” He caught your stare and followed it, giving himself a few seconds to adore the painting as well, as though he hadn’t looked at it enough despite living here.

“It’s too violent,” you decided after a moment. “But it’s nice to look at.”

“It’s not that violent in itself, I think. But it does conjure the thought of it.”

He left the living room with you still in the doorframe, staying to look at the painting just for a few more seconds. When you turned around, he was entering the kitchen – this room also looked old, but less well kept; it was cleaned up perfectly, however the furniture was shabby, with the surfaces often partly rubbed off and grey; this room simply screamed for renovation. But you felt way more at ease with the fact that it looked similar to yours – the one that was over twenty years old when you moved with and you had no way of changing it without getting in trouble with the landlord. And not like you’d want to do it at all, since you’d move out right after your studies anyway. The only difference was that you tried to make your apartment look a bit warmer with colorful lights and other cheap ornaments here and there, while Baekhyun’s kitchen was just left as it was, as though he gave up on it the moment he moved in.

“Hungry?”

“Not much.” You were still full of the freshly consumed beer.

Out of the fridge, Baekhyun took a bag of half-eaten potato chips. You stared at him with your eyebrow raised as he ate a few of these, and then extended the bag towards you, to which you only shook your head and he put the bag back in the fridge. He caught your look.

“Food moths,” he explained. You slowly nodded in understanding. That’d be a useful tip if you ever got those. The summer was slowly coming; soon, your small apartment would also be filled with bugs, and fruit flies, mosquitos, and sciarids because you kept a few plants in (discovering that sciarids and fruit flies were not the same thing was an important step in achieving perfect harmony in your adulthood).

You sat awkwardly by the table, observing him as he reached for the bag he must have left on the counter before he went to pick you up, and took out leftovers – probably from work – putting them back in the fridge.

“You worked today?” you asked.

“Yeah, just an average thing, a strategic meeting with co-workers. My working hours are not regular, so I didn’t really know I was gonna be out today.”

Once he was done, he sat by the table as well, and you leaned a bit forward, resting your chin on top of your hand.

“You could have postponed it with me, you must be tired,” you said.

“Don’t worry, I’d rather have a chance to relax with you.”

That didn’t sound as innocent as he probably tried to make it, and he looked over his shoulder to make sure he didn’t scare you with the choice of words. You only laughed awkwardly.

“Anyway. Since, as I said, I don’t want to intimidate you, I think we’ll stay in the living room since you seemed content with that,” he spoke casually.

“So, no playroom?” you uttered. Baekhyun choked on the chip in his mouth.

“I don’t own such a place. I just usually use the bedroom. Or the bathroom,” he explained.

“Or the office?” you felt bold enough to suggest, giving him a small smirk.

“No, I assure you the office is for what offices usually are.”

You smiled innocently as Baekhyun stared at you, probably trying to mask sudden shyness.

“Either way,” he cleared his throat. “I told you some about what I want to do, but you haven’t told me if there’s anything you’re interested in trying out. I assume you did see some things, so… Is there anything that you’ve been particularly interested in?”

The harmless way in which he phrased the question absolutely didn’t change the fact that he was, basically, asking what kind of porn you watch.

“I uh… I like watching different things, just out of curiosity, but I’m not really sure if there’s anything I like particularly more than other things… I suppose bondage is the biggest basic.” You tried, you really tried to sound neutral, but your voice trembled a little. “But I’m not really sure, to be honest. I’m quite open-minded, I suppose…” You felt silly; how could you not be able to answer the most basic question – what do you like? But Baekhyun seemed to understand that very well, as he only nodded slowly.

“What about, let’s say, pet play?” You blushed slightly. “You know what I’m talking about? I feel like a lot of young women start from there.” It took you a moment to realize that you, too, were a young woman. “Behavioral training. Humiliation. Regression. A bit of pain, if suitable. Trying out a few things to see how you respond. What do you think?”

“I think it may be fun” you said slowly. “Does it have something to do with the…?” you motioned your neck, hoping he’ll get the cue. You remembered the collars the other people wore – they were the main reason you got interested in the first place, after all. Baekhyun smiled, catching on your observation.

“Sometimes, but not necessarily. It’s just a thing I like. Do you?”

“…I may,” you answered carefully.

“Gotcha. We may try it out. You know, everyone is different. The collars are different too. I usually order them after I’m sure the person’s gonna stay, and when I know what type will be the most suitable for them. I can’t do that for you yet, but I have some spare items.”

“Do you have the ones of people who you’re not with anymore?” you asked, out of pure curiosity.

Baekhyun was silent for a moment.

“I do. But I’d rather not use them. They’re there for memory, not for use.”

“Gotcha. I was just curious,” you quickly explained.

“Do you have a safe-word?” Baekhyun’s gaze rested on you.

“…Not really. Never needed one,” you uttered sheepishly.

“You have anything on your mind?”

“Um, the… thing with lights? The red light, yellow and green?” you proposed carefully.

“That’s a good one. Tell me how you understand them.”

“So, the green one means everything’s alright, the yellow is when we need to slow down, and the red stops the scene,” you recited, as if you were reading from a book.

“That’s right. It’s easy to remember, so we can go with that.” You bit on your lips to prevent yourself from getting too excited with the apparent praise; it wasn’t anything big, of course – but you felt as though it was a praise in itself, being acknowledged for saying something right. “Another thing is that I need you to know a few rules, before we start.” You were all ears. “First, I don’t want you to be reluctant for the fun of it. Whether you want to be a brat later or not, today we’re just trying things out and I don’t want to mistake your attitude with actual discomfort, do you understand?” You nodded slowly, memorizing the words and waiting for him to continue. “Second. No pain that I will impose on you will be a matter of punishment, unless I specify so. If you don’t enjoy it, you need to tell me so. It doesn’t mean I’ll stop right away, unless – of course – you use the safe-word. However, I still expect honesty. During, as well as after the scene, when we review it. Do you understand?” The breaks in between the points gave you enough time to acknowledge the information and encode it in your memory. You nodded once again. “And for the last. Do you trust me?”

The tone made you look up at him, finally focusing on his person rather than the words alone.

“I do,” you finally decided; knowing very well what this answer would lead to.

Baekhyun’s eyes sparkled as he smiled at you warmly.

“Well then, shall we start?”

* * *

You stand in the middle of the room, the cardigan and shoes are off, your feet feel cold against the floor despite socks wrapped around them comfortingly.

Don’t move a finger, you’ve been told, and so, you stare at the painting before you, the warrior in the front staring at you back with contempt you haven’t noticed before.

Your breath trembles in anticipation as you try to hear sounds from other rooms – you do hear some shuffling, but nothing that you can figure out for sure. He must be in his bedroom, you think. What is he preparing? Which tools out of many that you’ve seen on the screen of your phone all these nights that, despite spending perfect eight hours in bed, did not end in getting perfect eight hours of sleep?

Your arm itches, but you fight the urge to scratch it; be obedient, he said.

Steps echo in the corridor and you hold your breath. Your head snaps to the side the moment you hear him enter the room again.

“Eyes down,” he commands without sparing you a glance; you haven’t had enough time to see what he brought, but you instantly obey his words. “Don’t look at me unless I allow you to.” His voice is stern, and it makes your stomach clench nervously. But it’s not a bad sensation, not at all – you grow excited. “Down. On your knees.”

You try to comply, but he still scoffs at your apparent sluggishness. You almost fall over as you let your knees bend and you finally kneel down as well as you can, eyes facing down as well, although you feel awkward as you do so.

“On your toes,” Baekhyun commands; something small but hard hits your heels, startling you, and your head whips around to see a wooden pointing stick. You swallow the gasp of surprise at the sight.

You fix your posture, your toes instantly begin to cramp; that’s uncomfortable, and your toes aren’t too flexible, it seems.

“Straighten your back. You’re slouching.”

The task turns out almost impossible to do, the whole weight lands on your toes and you frown in discomfort.

“Is it necessary…?”

“Look at me.” It feels unnatural to do so now, but you oblige, turning your head to the side where he stands. “What’s wrong?”

“My toes hurt,” you admit quietly. Baekhyun watches you for a moment.

“Straighten them. Kneel as you did before.” You bite your lips and nod, uttering a small thank you that you find suitable enough as the position gets a bit more comfortable. “Back. Straighten.”

You automatically snap back into the position. But it does feel a bit silly – like something your teachers would say, don’t slouch! A laughter comes out at the comparison, but you attempt to stifle it.

Apparently, not well enough.

The pointer hits the nape of your neck; not too hard, but the message gets through.

Baekhyun stands in front of you and, most likely, stares you down – you can’t tell; your gaze is fixated on his lacquered shoes. The shoes then move, kicking the middle of your thighs.

“Spread.”

You feel a bit awkward as you oblige this command; you only glance down to make sure your pants aren’t ripped – you never know. To your relief, they’re not. Then you try to glance forward – but, what’s in front of you, makes you more shy than anything, so you just fix your gaze on his knees instead.

“You’re slouching again.”

“Pets often do,” you note before you manage to bite your tongue; you do remember your conversation from before – wasn’t it what he was aiming for? You thought so at first. But the words were not thought through at all; you just felt a need to say something, anything, just like you’d talk back to a teacher when they became too annoying in their remarks.

You hold your breath as Baekhyun crouches down to your level.

You feel his eyes on you, and you unwittingly tremble under his gaze, forcing yourself to look even lower, not daring to break the rule. The seconds seem to last hours as he doesn’t speak a word – and he doesn’t have to. You feel intimidated.

“You want to be a pet?”

He stands up; he’s right in front of you, if you so much as leaned forward a little bit, your forehead would touch his thigh. You slightly crave the touch; but not enough to move, not when you grow petrified. The question is rhetorical. You wait for him to finish the thought.

“Then I’ll treat you like one.”

Without waiting for your reaction, he steps behind you. You hear shuffling in what had to be a box placed behind your back; you see nothing.

But you hear the harsh, recognizable clink of metal and your stomach drops.

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Author's note: Hello, have you missed me??? I'm sorry it took so long to upload, it's hard to find time among exams I had in June, and now my (first) new job! The next chapter is already being written, so hopefully, won't take that long. Remember to reblog if you liked, and I'll be really happy to hear what you have to say about this so far. Stay safe!

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