#like if i'm not beautiful or talented or funny i can at least be smart or something

[pupyuj]

→ “nobody like you.” || nakamura kazuha x reader fic.

— a party gone wild and a kim chaewon out of control leads to the unraveling of a new side to kazuha that you have never seen before in your years of being a couple...

word count: 2.8k.

dynamic: dom!nakamura kazuha x sub!reader.

content warnings: smut, oral, cunnilingus, fingering, masturbation, faceriding, overstimulation, nipple play (kind of).

requested ? : yes!

a/n: wasn't sure what kind of story anon wanted for this request so i just went ahead and did what i felt was fitting! sorry this took so long anon omfg i'm kinda bad at this sdkhskhsdk...

if miyawaki sakura could ask people what they think of nakamura kazuha, she could probably guess their answer.

sweet, soft-spoken, kind, beautiful, talented… kazuha was every guy and girl’s dream partner, but she was taken. taken by the smart, funny, and charming (y/n) (l/n)—you—and together, you were the campus’ hottest couple. always the main topic of every conversation, and the two of you were the people that everybody wanted to attend huh yunjin’s end-of-the-summer pool party. and indeed, you did attend, and immediately people swarmed you as soon as you stepped a foot inside yunjin’s door.

it only snowballed from there. people were dragging you to every corner of yunjin’s house either for a drink, a chat, or to make you play a round of a stupid game. it wasn’t very rare for you to be bombarded by people considering you were popular and just a please to be around. you have gone to countless parties where literally everybody talked to you, and maybe it was all the alcohol she consumed but this time around, nakamura kazuha was not at all happy with all the attention you were getting. and that, in miyawaki sakura’s opinion, was some juicy news.

“what’re you staring at, gorgeous?”

huh yunjin has appeared, possibly to make sakura’s night worse or significantly better.

“i haven’t seen that look on zuha’s face before.” sakura said, eyes flickering back and forth between you, who was dancing with a few of the party-goers by the poolside with a drink in your hand, and kazuha, who was sitting on a reclined chair with her arms crossed and a frown on her face. she was eyeing you intently, her eyebrows deeply furrowed and brown eyes dark and, admittedly, a bit scary.

“well, shit. didn’t know she had it in her to get jealous like that.” yunjin nods, following sakura’s gaze on kazuha.

“can’t really blame her. everybody in this party of yours is in love with (y/n), they’re all practically trying to charm her over there,” sakura tilts her head to get a better view of your face from where she was standing. you can handle your alcohol well, so you weren’t the least bit tipsy. you just looked like you were genuinely having fun, twirling around people and laughing with them. and then… something makes sakura’s eye twitch. “oh no. things are about to get worse.” she muttered, shaking her head.

inside that little dancing circle was a wild kim chaewon, drunk out of her mind. she was dancing with you, maybe a little bit too close to your girlfriend’s liking. kazuha watched as chaewon took your hands and put them on her waist, putting her own around the back of your neck and started moving with you. of course, you were thinking that chaewon was just having fun like you were so you didn’t think anything of her suggestive eyes and the way she bit her lip while she swayed to the music with you.

kazuha shifted uncomfortably in her seat, briefly looking away from you and chaewon to take a sip of her drink. she didn’t like what she was feeling. chaewon was one of her best friends, one of the few people she trusted with her biggest secrets and her life, and kazuha obviously knew chaewon just had a little bit too much booze, and that you wouldn’t do anything to break her heart but she couldn’t help it. she should be the one dancing that close to you, she should be the only one looking at you like she wants to eat you up.

kazuha finishes her drink and steals another one from a guy who was walking by, immediately swallowing up all of the alcohol in the glass before starting to saunter towards the dancing circle. she keeps on stealing at least four other people’s drinks and finishing them in a split second, slowly losing her sobriety. eventually, she was stumbling into everybody until she made it in the circle. eyes glued onto your and chaewon’s figures, burning with both rage and lust.

sakura frantically shakes yunjin’s forearm, “control your girlfriend before kazuha drowns her in the pool.”

“chaewon’s not my girlfrie—”

“just fucking go, huh yunjin!”

before kazuha could do anything she doesn’t want to do to chaewon, yunjin swiftly swoops in and steals her away. now yunjin was dancing with chaewon, who immediately pulled her way too close for anybody’s comfort. you laughed at the sight, and then you grabbed by your girlfriend by the arm. her eyes were dazed, but you couldn’t see them as it was dark and only neon lights illuminated the place. you feel kazuha embrace you, putting her head on your shoulder and lazily dancing with you.

“hi, baby. i was starting to miss you.” you whispered in her ear, wrapping your arms around her waist and gently swaying her.

kazuha lifts her head from your shoulder, leaning dangerously close to your face, “didn’t think so. you looked busy with chaewon-unnie.” she says with a pout. and immediately, you figured out why kazuha had suddenly decided to drink so much. she was usually strict about her alcohol consumption, being friends with kim chaewon and huh yunjin required her to be after all. so, seeing her lose all that control and level-headedness just because she was jealous, well, you can’t say that it didn’t melt your heart.

“you know how unnie gets when she’s drunk,” you kiss kazuha’s lips briefly. she needed more. “she would never steal me away from you.”

“but these people would,” kazuha said, gesturing to everybody else in the circle. she glared at some guy behind you that had been staring at you for the longest time. “they look at you like you’re some… object they can take off my hands as soon as i lose interest, as if that’ll ever happen. don’t worry. i’ll show them wrong. we both will.”

and suddenly, kazuha was dragging you out of the circle and inside yunjin's massive house. the two of you passed by sakura, who merely waved as she watched you depart. you had to admit, you were getting excited for the night ahead. what could kazuha be planning for you after all that she’s seen? certainly not dinner in bed. not in the normal way, maybe. sex with kazuha has always been a bit… vanilla. not that you were complaining about it — however kazuha wanted to go about sex, that’s what you made yourself get used to. even if sometimes you just wanted her to go batshit crazy for once.

hopefully tonight’s the night.

kazuha tugs you inside the first room she comes across in the second level and immediately pins you against the door, lips crashing onto yours just as quickly. she could care less if this was yunjin’s room—based on the guitar in the corner, it probably was—she needed to teach all those creeps downstairs not to try and take what belonged to her.

“zuha… are you mad at me?” you asked while your girlfriend trailed wet, sloppy kisses down your neck.

“no, (y/n). those idiots are who i am mad at. not you, not even chaewon-unnie.” kazuha reassures you. she pulls off your robe, leaving you in your very eye-catching red bikini, and her hands start roaming all over your body. on a normal day, kazuha would have been handling you like you were made of glass, always careful not to bruise you or wound you, but this day has been anything but normal. so, kazuha’s touches were a little different; they were rough, desperate, and so hungry. she was groping your tits, slapping your ass, grabbing your jaw roughly to control the kiss… this was an entirely new side of kazuha that you were growing to like, really like.

she pulls on the ribbons that tied your bikini together, letting them fall to the ground and leaving you completely naked before her. kazuha has never before tried to be controlling of what you wore—she loved showing you off, anyway—but after seeing how everybody looked at you tonight, kazuha might just start telling you to start wearing full-body padded coats. but no, she wouldn’t actually do that. kazuha herself loved your body too much. every curve, every flaw, every scar… she could touch you forever, really. her kisses wander lower, from your collarbone, to your chest, to your stomach (where she left several hickies because she knows it was where people look at you the most), and finally, she reached your pussy, practically dripping.

“we’re gonna make them hear all the sounds only i can bring out of you, okay?”

kazuha lifts one leg over her shoulder, leaning closer and dragging her tongue along your slick folds. “oh… fuck…” your hands immediately find their place in her hair, tugging at it lightly as kazuha continues to give your pussy small kitten licks. kazuha has always been addicted to your taste. during the early year of your realtionship, and sometimes even now, there were many nights were kazuha fantasized about eating you out all day everyday… picturing you in her head with your legs spread open for her, dripping with cum because of her tongue. it always feels like the first time, too.

“zuha… get going already…” you were whining, patting your girlfriend’s head desperately. well, kazuha didn’t need to be told twice. she parts your folds with her thumbs and sucked on your throbbing clit, eliciting a loud moan that you didn’t care to suppress at all. “k-kazuha…! fuck!” your voice was the sweetest thing kazuha has heard, and you sounded best when you were screaming her name, and that was exactly was she was planning on doing all night.

you push kazuha’s head closer to your cunt, “good…! good, good… fuck, more..!” kazuha couldn’t help but smile. she sucks on your clit harder, watching as you threw your head back on the door and failed to cover up your sounds even when you’ve tried to clamp your mouth shut with your hand. she gives you a stern look whenever you did, giving you no choice but to put your both of your hands on her hair and let every noise be heard by everybody. kazuha gently takes your clit between her teeth, making your knees buckle and almost collapse on her but she kept you steady. “ahh..! shit, kazuha… babe, i— uhhm…!!” your nails dug into your girlfriend’s scalp as she continued to nibble on your clit, introducing you to a kind of pleasure that was both so overwhelming and so fantastic at the same time.

one flick of her tongue and you were falling apart — squirting all over kazuha’s mouth while she tried her best to simultaneously lap you up and keep you steady. “mhm, good job, (y/n).” kazuha gave your cunt one more kiss before standing back up. she tugs you along towards the bed, and you really did try your best to walk properly through that haze in your head. you watched as kazuha sat down on the soft mattress in front of you, pulling you close and placing a kiss on your tummy, “we’re gonna keep going.” she says.

you smiled at her, cupping her face in your hands and leaning down to kiss her, “whatever you want, angel.”

and then kazuha was laying down on the bed, beckoning you over with a single finger. “right here. on top.” she was saying, pointing at her face. you had to admit, you were taken aback. you have never once sat on kazuha’s face before nor have you ever suggested it to her. you simply didn’t think she was interested in it. she must really want to prove a point to everybody.

getting over your initial shock, you climbed on top of kazuha, giving her a brief kiss on the lips before settling yourself near her face. your knees planted on either side of her head, your pussy hovering slightly above her mouth. “z-zuha… are you sure ab— ahhn!” you gasped in pleasure, your entire body shuddering when kazuha suddenly grabbed your thighs and forced you down on her mouth. immediately, her tongue was deep inside your hole, pleasuring you in all the right spots. it didn’t take long for you get a hold of yourself and finally move, once again holding onto kazuha’s hair as you rocked your hips against her mouth.

you were moaning and howling her name, completely forgetting about the people that might hear you. you should have known riding your girlfriend’s mouth would feel this good.

“k-ka… ahh… zuha, baby… mhm!” she slaps your ass, urging you to go faster. and so you do! you clutched the bedsheets with one hand, your girlfriend’s head with the other, and bucked your hips faster and harder on your girlfriend’s mouth. little by little, you were losing yourself in pleasure again. kazuha was way too good with her mouth, and your clit was so sensitive that even when it was only brushing against her nose, it pushed you closer and closer to the edge. 

kazuha holds your thigh with a death grip, guing you as you eagerly rode her mouth in pursuit of another orgasm. she uses her free hand to reach down, slipping her fingers inside her own bikini and toying with her clit. you sounded so heavenly, and the sight of you playing with your nipple made it impossible for kazuha to resist anymore. she moaned in your cunt as she fingered herself to the sound of your voice. you had no idea she was doing this, being so occupied with your own pleasure.

“i’m c-coming.. baby, i’m— fuck!”

kazuha captures your clit in her lips again, making you scream and collapse forward. you held onto one of the pillows tightly, trying your hardest to not lose your head completely but goddamn, your girlfriend was quite literally going to drive you insane. kazuha thrusts her fingers inside herself faster, nearly the same pace you rode her mouth as if it was a strap, or her thigh. “z-zuha…? please, i can’t hold it…” you reached down from under yourself and put your hand on kazuha’s head again. closer and closer, it was getting harder trying to hold on. all it took from kazuha was another flick of her tongue and her teeth grazing your clit before you came with a long, blissful moan.

kazuha holds you down on her mouth, catching every drop of your cum and swallowing. her own moans were muffled by your cunt as she climaxed on her fingers, and you still had no idea. you were breathing heavily against the pillow that was soaked with drool and tears — you felt a good kind of devastated. see, you would never want to make kazuha feel like she wasn’t the most important person in the world to you but if she fucks you that good when she’s jealous…? you might try riling her up every now and down.

after a while, kazuha scoops you up in her arms, pressing your head against her chest. “sorry if i scared you.” she whispered against your forehead. she realizes now that she may have overreacted, as well as overdid it with you. “i trust you, (y/n). and i trust chaewon-unnie, too. i just…” she didn’t know how to explain herself. it wasn’t as simple as her being afraid that someone will just steal you away. it was much more complicated than that. so complicated that she couldn’t explain it.

“i know, baby,” you tilted your head up, looking at your beautiful girlfriend right in the eye. “but you should know that i would never trade you for anyone else. my heart is yours, there’s no one like you.”

and kazuha believed you with all her heart. you shared soft smiles and one small ‘i love you’s before the two of you fell asleep in each other’s arms. it should be noted that a certain huh yunjin and kim chaewon barged into the bedroom in a lip-lock but were shoo’d away by a half-awake kazuha, who glared at them and pulled your sleeping figure closer. yunjin and chaewon, what with both of them being drunk, were going to retaliate and confront kazuha about stealing their place until sakura grabbed them both by their ear and dragged them out of the room, telling them to ‘fornicate’ somewhere else.

sakura smiles at you and your girlfriend on the bed, but immediately sighs remembering the events from earlier. at least the situation was fixed! sakura was still surprised to know that kazuha had a side to her that was completely unknown, however. perhaps things really do change.

so now, if miyawaki sakura was instead asked what she thinks of kazuha, she’ll probably say fuck around and find out. the girl was full of surprises, apparently.

[angelofverdum]

Desperate Housewives

I wish I would have written about each season while watching. I have so many feelings.

I have so much to say about this show. I just love it when a show has a perfect mix of drama and comedy. The kind of show that made me cry and laugh so much that I had to pause the episode.

They don't make shows like this one, where they introduce a story in one episode and wrap it up in the next one, and it's not relevant again. That is television. 6 to 8 episodes are the worst thing that ever happened.

I have a tiny complaint and it's that they should have spent more time together as friends. They did poker night but besides that they don't discuss personal stuff. That's why one of my favorite scenes is when Gaby and Bree are having an "affair", because they want to hangout just because.

The wives

Bree Van De Kamp.

In my eyes Bree can’t do wrong, I’m sorry. On paper why would you like someone like Bree? She is a Republican, she has guns, and she was judgmental. I’ll give credit to Marcia Cross for making Bree this beautiful amazing character.

Bree was the best-written character. I think it was the only character who didn’t regress, she actually had a character development through the seasons and learned from her mistake.

She was homophobic when she learned that her son was gay, but she got over it, her relationship with Andrew was one of the most beautiful things on the show.

She was so perfect that every man she met asked her to marry him. If I were Rex and my wife was Bree I wouldn’t have cheated or died.

Imagine coming home, and you have a wife that looks like that, cooks, cleans, and I get that Rex's problem was that Bree was too uptight but when you watch the flashback where she tries to open up about him flirting with Gaby and he dismisses her, you understand why she never opens up to him completely. She couldn’t match his freak.

And It makes me so happy that in the end, she found someone and she can be her authentic self. 

And that badass name? I was mad when Rex died and she married Orson and she became Bree Hodge. The writer fumbled that one really bad. I’m glad she realized that when she wrote the book. 

Also, she had an incredible queer vibe. She has the best lines and those episodes where she was absent because Marcia Cross was pregnant were like a personal attack. I missed her so much.

Gabrielle Solis.

When I was a kid and I watched random episodes Gaby was my favorite. She was young, pretty, had money without working, and a handsome husband, that was a dream to me.

When I started the show I still liked Gaby, even though she was selfish. They knew what they were doing when they cast Eva Longoria as Gaby because her charm definitely helped Gaby’s selfishness. 

My problem with Gaby was that she went back and forth with her selfishness, she did something awful then she realized her mistake and apologized, next episode she did the same thing. 

But she was so funny, she said the most out-of-pocket things that I had no other option but to love her.

Lynette Scavo.

My problem with Lynette was her relationship with Tom. It was awful and boring. But I really liked Lynette, she was smart, sarcastic and funny.

Felicity Huffman is a hell of an actress. Think about the most heart-wrenching scene on the show and it’s probably carried by Felicity. The way she moves, her voice, her eyes. She is a brilliant actress.

There is the hurricane episode or the shooting episode in which you can see her talent but also the scene when Tom tells her he is ready to come back to work at the restaurant and she starts to cry in the bathroom, that scene stayed with me. Like, omg give her another Emmy.

Susan Delfino

S01 Susan was a bit annoying but mostly funny but as the series progressed she became almost unbearable to me. Her attitude was awful and she made everything about her. But at least Teri Hatcher was a capable actress and could handle the comedy and drama perfectly. She made me laugh a lot, I'm not gonna lie, but also made me so mad, the Julie pregnancy storyline.

She deserved that Golden Globe, I guess.

Katherine.

It’s crazy how they ruined Katherine’s character when Mike left her. I love her character so much. Also, she has a lot of chemistry with Bree. They should have explored that a bit. 

Renee.

She entered the show too late. I wanted more of Renne, she was clearly there to replace Edie but it was Vanesa Williams how can you not love her? I don’t understand how she didn’t become immediately friends with Gaby.  

Edie.

I loved Edie the moment she showed up. I love a female character who is full of herself and doesn’t care what other people think about her. However, for me, she was the most inconsistently written character on the show. In season 1 she was a “bitch” but tried to be friends with the girls, they become friends but then they needed a villain so she went maniac, just to come back and tried to be friends again. She was whatever the writers needed at the moment. Her death was totally unfair.

Karen McCluskey. The MVP

The Husbands

They were all awful. All of them were terrible. They had fragile egos, toxic masculinity, totally disregard for their wives’ feelings. 

Carlos.

He had a big macho man problem and didn’t know what he wanted to do in life. Tell me what father will leave a job that has so many benefits to work in a place where the pay is almost nothing? But I like him because when it came to Gaby he didn’t play about her.  He had a character development, and that season when he became blind? Uff A MAN.

Orson.

I’m going to take Orson as Bree's husband because I think it was her longest relationship, that we saw of course. I think they were onto something when they were introducing him as the villain. Then they made him this silly guy who was perfect for Bree, I loved their marriage. Then they ruined his character, he mistreated her, manipulated her, etc. So he became my personal enemy.

His ego was so fragile that he asked his wife to sell her company because she was more successful than him.

Mike.

Boring, just boring. Terrible actor too, Teri was running circles around him. Mike made his family go bankrupt because he couldn’t take his wife’s money.

Tom.

The worst husband to ever exist on television. The worst character on the show. An ungrateful man-child. His wife got cancer and he made the situation about his pain. The worst part is that the show tried to tell us that he is a great husband when we can see he clearly is not. He took all the money they had to open a pizza place, then asked Lynette to quit his job and work with him, then got mad when Lynette was better than him.

Maybe Marc Cherry was in love with Doug Savant because I don’t get it. Even when they fucking finally separated and Lynette said she was relieved, she was the one who had to win him back. He got a new girlfriend while Lynette was scamming a way back into his life.

Ranking the seasons

Season 1

The best mystery in the whole show. So well written, you get enough clues to get you through the season but until the very end you don’t get the whole picture. It was classy and shocking and twisted

Season 3

Not as good as the first one, but it allows you to piece the story together into a bigger mystery. Orson’s mom was a great villain and anything that involved Bree signed me in. Orson’s ex was annoying tho. 

I want to talk about the pedophile’s storyline which I think was one of the darkest plots they did. They resolved this in three episodes, and I think they couldn’t handle it, the final revelation and the character were so eerie and jaw-dropping. I think they never come close to this kind of plot again. It was incredibly upsetting.

Season 5

David was evil and I liked that. I figured it out too fast and I get It wasn’t so mysterious, they revealed too much at the beginning of the season but he was a great villain and a wonderful actor.

Season 6

I liked the Bolen family but the resolution of the mystery was kinda underwhelming. I did like that Lynette was more in the spotlight. I think Angie should have stayed on the show, she was fun.

Season 4

Uninteresting. The mystery didn’t make any sense. How Fake Dylan didn’t remember her time at the orphanage? But it gave me Katherine so I’m not complaining so much. It’s insane to me that Katherine did all of that and kept living like a normal person just to lose her shit when Mike left her in the next season.

Season 8

I have an enormous problem with this season, keep in mind that it’s the highest-rated season of the show on Rotten Tomatoes. The season started so amazing, loved the mystery about the letters and how this time the girls were the ones committing the crime. Which I have expected since the first season.

But then, when all the focus was on Bree it went downhill. And don’t get me wrong I loved that Bree had that much screen time but it didn’t make sense at all.

First Susan’s guilt was crazy to me. She killed a mother and a kid a few seasons ago, and here she just helped to cover the murder of an awful man, but even if we understand her guilt how come when Bree was in trouble, about to get thrown in jail, she never took the initiative to say hey “I did it too”. Same thing with Carlos, he didn’t try very hard Gaby told him "No" and he obeyed.

Besides, the fact that all of them where very shitty friends and I don’t understand why they got so mad at Bree, and not Susan who painted the whole crime scene. The trial in general was so stupid.

Bree wasn’t connected to Alejandro in the first place, she didn’t have a motive. Then their argument was that she slept with him, but Bree started to sleep with those men after Carlos killed him, so she couldn’t pick a random man at a bar because she didn’t even drink and she was with her boyfriend ( don’t remember that asshole's name)

Then, the police knew exactly when he was killed even tho it had been months before they found him, like they knew it was that night specifically AND even if Bree killed him as a random guy in a bar, how come he had her address in a map? it means he knew her. What is the motive for her to kill him? they weren’t even saying she was a serial killer. They were calling her every name but that.

And again if he knew her how come they didn’t call his wife to testify? How they didn’t know his real name. How they didn't connect him to Gaby before?

And Orson had pictures of that night but didn’t send them. Lazy writing.

Season 7.

Paul Young was a great character a ride-or-die husband who lost his mind when he found out why his wife killed herself. But this mystery was so dumb like that was it? mind you, it was such a bad plot that they dropped it and never addressed it again.

Season 2.

Terrible and boring. Borderline racist. Dragged. 

When I finished the show I looked up what was the drama behind the scenes, I knew that Teri Hatcher was awful to the rest of the cast. Imagine my surprise when I found out this has been happening since s01 and that infamous photoshoot, if you know you know.

They had such good chemistry, you could feel they were really close. That’s an impressive thing to me, it was like Alissa Milano and Shannen Doherty hating each other, I was gagged because you don’t see that on screen.

I think it was around s07-08, perhaps 6, when it started to feel like they were trying to keep Susan away from the rest of the cast. Some scenes were almost awkward to watch.

I liked the ending because somehow it makes sense that they moved on with their life. I loved the show so much. It’s full of plotholes, and awful husbands, it was racist, and so conservative, and not even once the option of abortion was brought up, Julie's last storyline was awful.

But at the end of the day, it was a show about female friendship, and they were amazing characters. I’d love to experience this live and I wish I could see them again but at the same time, I don’t. Maybe a reunion like Eva said, but not a reboot.

I'm in that state of sadness that only comes when you finish a good show, and you have to let go but you can't.

[princesssarisa]

Character ask: Esmeralda (The Hunchback of Notre Dame)

This answer is for the Disney version, not for the original novel character, whom I'm not really familiar with.

Favorite thing about them: She's one of my favorite Disney heroines. She's tough, witty, and smart, yet kind, selfless, and idealistic, she's lively and full of fire, yet dignified too, she knows when to be fierce, when to be gentle, and when to be funny, and she's a brave, outspoken champion of the underdog.

I also like that she's sensual and sexy yet never slut-shamed by the narrative, just by the villainous Frollo (though I'll admit that portraying a Romani woman that way does have unfortunate implications; see below), and that she's allowed to not return Quasimodo's romantic feelings without being portrayed as clueless or ungrateful to him.

Least favorite thing about them: That in some ways she's a stereotype of a Romani woman. I wish that the filmmakers had taken more pains to portray the culture accurately, and not sexualized Esmeralda quite so much.

Though I appreciate that in-universe, "sexy Romani dancer" is a role she plays because it earns money (she tells Quasimodo that she wouldn't be a street dancer if she had his talent as a woodcarver). And I'm glad that at least she is a sympathetic, heroic Romani character, unlike in the original novel where she's a white girl who was kidnapped by the Romani as a baby. (Ugh!)

Three things I have in common with them:

*I have dark hair.

*I care very much about social justice and standing up for outcasts.

*I like to wear purple.

Three things I don't have in common with them:

*I'm not stunningly beautiful and desired by multiple men.

*I doubt I could survive on the streets or as a fugitive from the law.

*I'm not Romani.

Favorite line:

During her duel with Phoebus in the cathedral, when he compliments her for fighting "almost as well as a man":

"Funny, I was going to say the same thing about you!"

And the opening lines of "God Help the Outcasts," sung to a statue of Mary and baby Jesus:

"I don't know if you can hear me,

Or if you're even there.

I don't know if you would listen

To a g***y's prayer.

Yes, I know I'm just an outcast,

I shouldn't speak to you.

Still, I see your face and wonder,

Were you once an outcast too?

brOTP: Quasimodo, Clopin, her goat Djali.

In crossover fics, I also enjoy seeing her interact with other heroines from '90s animated film, especially Belle, Megara, and Anastasia. They all have a lot in common, but striking differences too that could make them interesting foils for each other.

OTP: Phoebus.

nOTP: Frollo.

Random headcanon: Her parents were killed when she was very young, and Clopin has effectively been her father figure ever since.

Unpopular opinion: I don't think her lack of romantic interest in Quasimodo is because he idolizes her too much. She just doesn't have romantic feelings for him, and it's nobody's fault. She loves him as a friend, but Phoebus – whose maturity, humor, rugged edge, and fighting spirit more closely match her own – is the type of man she wants as a romantic partner. I agree that she and Quasi wouldn't have been right for each other even if she had been interested, in part because he idolizes her too much, but also because she pities him too much. (Why does the fandom criticize him for calling her an "angel" but not her for calling him "this poor creature"?) But I don't think that's the reason why she chooses Phoebus instead.

Also, contrary to what Disney Wiki says, I don't think she and Phoebus are about to kiss in the cathedral when Frollo bursts in to have her arrested. Staring into each other's eyes and feeling drawn to each other doesn't always mean "about to kiss." I think it's important that her feelings for Phoebus don't fully cross from wary attraction into love until he proves that he's a true ally, by (a) saving her with the lie to Frollo that she claimed sanctuary, and (b) rescuing the miller's family at the cost of his career and potentially his life.

Song I associate with them:

"God Help the Outcasts"

"Someday" (this is my favorite cover version of it, sung by the late Broadway star Laurie Beechman)

Favorite picture of them:

[vampirae]

Quick question sweethearts, which kind of job could I do? Honestly I don't want to be a housewife, but I neither have exceptional talents, and yes, I'm pretty desperate to ask such stuff online.

My greatest strengths are beauty (in all modesty I just got lucky to have a beautiful mother and got lucky with DNA lottery), charm (not because of pretty privilege or whatever, I'm just a great conversationalist, mildly funny, and can create an immediate empathy with most people) and last but not least, I'm low-key clever or smart, like I can understand situation, information quickly.

My downfalls is definitely my disastrous health, which is a big obstacle for whatever job that requires a lot of labour. Then my hermit life, like it's not by choice but I always found myself being closed in 4 walls. Last but not least, being jack of all trades but master of none.

Basically, I have a hard time with founding a job, I'm just discarding job offers or contracts for different reasons. Which kind of job would you suggest me to look for or area?

[what-if-nct]

Merry Christmas friendo!!! I saw someone saying my man likely needs more stans, and that is correct, everyone needs to love and appreciate Seo Changbin, the short king of my heart. While I may have a deep abiding appreciation of his looks (I need a big boy, I want a big boy), the real reason I love him is who he is inside. He’s kind, sweet, considerate, caring, smart, talented, brilliant, funny, so many other things I can’t think of right now. He deserves all the love in the world, and anyone who says anything mean about him, especially if they say he isn’t a visual, they’re gonna find out these hands are rated E for Everyone. Also, please feel free to take this opportunity to continue your fully justified ranting about how people clearly don’t understand who qualifies as a big boy. 🐖🐇

Merry Christmas,🎄✨🎄🎁✨✨

Yes, Changbin is the most precious boy in the world. And he's beautiful, funny and talented. And yes the big boy trend on tiktok the idols who I should be seeing is Shindong but Shindong as a person is eh. Wonho and Changbin are the 2nd most acceptable. I'll let the muscular slide. Chan is the smallest big boy I should be seeing. But I saw Felix, Hyunjin, Chenle, Johnny, Jaemin, FELIX! Johnny, Hyunjin, Jaemin and I guess Chenle are at least tall but Felix!! He's so tiny, so itty bitty. I can fit him in my bra, I'm a C cup and he could fit with a little room on the right side to spare. As a big girl I know if they were using the skinniest idols for a big girl version I'd be livid. I'd want to fight. But they wouldn't cause big for women isn't as good of a connotation as it is for men. Which we do not have time for right now. Yes it's a silly snl song. But I'm very passionate about this. Harvey Guillen who is gorgeous is perfect for this. So is Jack Black, Kevin James listen the early seasons of king of queens he was cute. Get it together cause if I see Renjun. Renjun?! Renjun could swim in my bra. I don't want him there but he could. Felix can stay though.

[shadowchan209]

Hehe.. Finally..

I'm in mood for posting my drawings ✨

Meet Shadow!

My beautiful daughter 🤭

(Idontwannaquestionaboutwhyshedonthavepupils)

• 20/21 years old

• She has a twin sibling ✨ (but.. Her twin sibling's creator changes him/her to much. So I can't give a information for him/her)

• Omnisexual (mostly loves girls/women)

• She have a girlfriend/wife. Her name is Rosie. ((I will draw her later)+ Rosie is not my OC)

• She is an assassin. She uses daggers.

• She knows dark magic. Uses very smartly.

• She acts very silly and annoying but she is very smart and manipulator.

• She likes flirting and (dark) jokes. She also addicted to touch (friendly ofc)

———— FUN FACTS ————

1- She likes listen Russian songs.

2- She knows little Russian and little Korean. (Maybe little Japanese, who knows)

3- She trying learn to sign language.

4- She is a therapist friend. So, she knows all friends secrets.

5- When she was high school, she had a very severe(?) depression. Because, she got offended with her twin. (they reconciled very soon).

6- When she was high school (again), she had short hair.

7- She can control the shadows. Is the reason she's name is Shadow? No, another reason.

8- Btw.. Her real name is not Shadow. Shadow is a Nickname (Like "'Dipper' Pines").

Maybe.. I can give a healt problem or mental problems. Who knows~ 🥰

They are her bitches now 😨

And.. TIME FOR THESE BITCHES FOR NEW UPDATES AND FUN FACTS

New hair for human desings ✨

I'minlovewiththisbrush

————————— N.N —————————

Yes, I started calling him N.N (NoName.exe) for now (I still trying give him a new nickname plshelp)

— Him birthday in December.

— He knows sign language.

— He is not Genderfuild anymore.

— He have a boyfriend now ✨ (I drew him but I don't post him for now).

— He loves kids so much. He doing babysitting too (He works cafes sometimes to).

— He is the least user bad-words/curses in my OC's.

— He likes to organize birthdays. (I call him sometimes "Birthday-Fairy" for this. Why? Idk but it's funny.)

— In human version; he is an orphan 👹

———————— RILEY ————————

— Her birthday in November.

— She is very talented and smart.

— She is half German and half Turkish (Her mom is German and her dad is Turkish).

— She knows half of sign language.

— She has a.. "pervert" (Calm down, her "pervert" is not pervert, just Riley call he/she pervert).

— Her memory is very strong (But, she just not remember people she doesn't care).

— She hate her mother and her mother hates Riley. (What a perfect mother-daughter relationship 🥰)

— She only saw her father in her childhood, but she remembers him.

— She wants to be best PvP player in Minecraft.

————————————————————

Uhh.. Thats all?? Less than I thought!?

Wow..

Anyways, thank you for read them <3

Wanna more about them??

[new-philosopher]

Bing AI chat really is good for writing cute short fluff stories.

Here's another:

Sure, I can try to write you a story about Rhett and Link being best friends. Here is what I came up with:

Rhett and Link were sitting on the couch in their studio, watching some old episodes of their show Good Mythical Morning. They had just finished filming a new segment where they had to eat some of the spiciest peppers in the world, and they were still feeling the burn in their mouths.

"Man, that was brutal," Rhett said, reaching for a glass of milk. "I think I lost a layer of skin on my tongue."

Link nodded, his eyes watering. "Yeah, me too. But hey, at least we did it for the fans, right?"

They smiled at each other, knowing that they would do anything to entertain their loyal viewers. They had been best friends since they were kids, and they had shared many adventures and challenges together. They knew each other better than anyone else, and they always supported each other through thick and thin.

As they watched themselves on the screen, Link suddenly frowned. He noticed that in one of the shots, his hair looked messy and his shirt was wrinkled. He felt a surge of insecurity and embarrassment.

"Hey, Rhett," he said, pausing the video. "Do you think I look bad in this episode?"

Rhett looked at him with surprise. "What? No, of course not. Why would you say that?"

Link pointed at the screen. "Look at me. My hair is all over the place, and my shirt is not even ironed. I look like a slob."

Rhett shook his head. "Link, you're being too hard on yourself. You look fine. You always look fine."

Link sighed. "No, I don't. I look stupid. And I bet the fans think so too. They probably laugh at me behind my back."

Rhett frowned. He hated seeing his best friend so down on himself. He knew that Link had always struggled with his self-esteem and his appearance, and he wished he could make him feel better.

He moved closer to Link on the couch and put his arm around his shoulder.

"Link, listen to me," he said softly. "You are not stupid. You are smart, funny, creative, and talented. You are one of the most amazing people I know, and I'm proud to call you my best friend."

Link looked at him with gratitude in his eyes.

"Really?" he asked.

"Really," Rhett said. "And you know what else? You are handsome. You have a great smile, beautiful eyes, and a cute nose. Your hair is awesome, and your shirt is fine. You don't need to worry about what anyone else thinks of you, because you are perfect just the way you are."

Link felt a warm feeling in his chest. He smiled and hugged Rhett.

"Thank you," he said. "You're the best."

Rhett hugged him back.

"Anytime," he said. "You're the best too."

They stayed like that for a while, enjoying each other's company and friendship. Then they resumed watching their show, laughing and joking as usual.

They didn't care about anything else in the world, as long as they had each other.

[elliedearest]

Shows I'm Currently Watching

Hilda Hurricane/ Hilda Furracao

So I saw this particular sequence of scenes(? this is why I'm not a published author I don't know the difference) on Tiktok , and I'm not going to lie it immediately sparked my interest. I don't know if it's the forbidden romance or the yearning (have I mentioned I'm a big fan of yearning and seemingly unrequited love?), or religious trauma, but I had to watch it.

Also, the show is turning how to be so much more than expected. How often the church ignores the people on the fringe of society. The scare of communism and how it affects the poor and anyone different from them. Ugh, there's so much to say. It's great!

I'm only on episode 4 (I'm watching it with my sister so it's slow going) and I'm dying to get to this scene.

A quick observation of this gif based on the few episodes I've seen (it really helps establish their personalities, their struggles, and motivations and of course, the environment around them and how it shapes them): Malthus has been struggling with his sexuality since becoming a monk. His friends constantly test his resolve but Malthus stays resolute and doesn't give in to "earthly temptations." His purity and dedication to his faith are the reasons why he's quickly given the saint moniker, especially during a time when "communism" and the Hilda obsession are on the rise. The thing is you can tell he's uncomfortable with the moniker because he knows he's only human who is trying to do his best and he can never meet the expectation society is placing on him. Anyway, he meets Hilda in the most dramatically catholic-gothic way, she fights back and she's incredibly beautiful and she's telling him what he knows to be true, but no one else is saying. His world is completely rocked.

Ugh, I can't wait to watch this episode.

2. What We Do In The Shadows

This is the natural progression of finishing Wellington Paranormal. I loved that show so much so I thought that I would give this show a chance. Also, vampires!

It's fun and silly and it cements my reasons for loving sitcoms.

I'm 2 episodes away from finishing the first season.

3. The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency

I've been slowly getting into watching cozy mystery movies and shows again. I think this would definitely be classified as a cozy mystery. While it's a British-made show, the show was filmed and narratively set in Botswana. It's funny and sweet. The main character is beautiful, smart and very sincere.

It's a shame it only got 7 episodes before it was cancelled, but at least there are novels. Also, it's one of the few shows that my cat will watch. lol

4. Delicious in Dungeon

I like medieval stuff. I like the look of anime food. I like Slice-of-Life anime shows. That's pretty much it.

Shows I'm Still Watching:

Abbott Elementary

I forgot there was a new season. Still wholesome. It's a little jarring that Pug from She-Hulk is a regular this season, but I like him. Everyone is still lovable and fun like always.

2. Mr. And Mrs. Smith

I've been watching this at a glacial pace. I don't know what to tell you. I like it enough to keep watching it, but I don't have the urge to binge-watch it. So I'm savoring the eight episodes. I'm currently on the fourth.

3. Daredevil

God, I love looking at this man. Like I said previously, I'm watching this show with a friend and we have a life, so we're watching this when we have time. We literally have 2 episodes left.

Shows I Finished too quickly this month

The Gilded Age

I was not expecting this show to be so entertaining or that it would be so stacked with talented actresses. Audra McDonald, Christine Baransi, Cynthia Nixon?! WHAT?

Also, whether old money or new money, rich people are annoying and out-of-touch. But it's fun to see the infighting.

2. Bridgerton: Season 3

I finished it. I need to watch it again so I can solidify my opinions, but I definitely think there weren't enough romantic scenes between Colin and Penelope before the truth came out.

[advnterccs]

[Anon] If you knew whom I am (LMAO yes, I think I'm funny), then you'd know that I'm repeating myself here, but I still think that all those things are worth repeating. I could just some it up and say that I think the world of you, but that would be lazy u-u

First of all, I love your writing. How you write, how you write your muses, what you write. I can hear your character's voices in the dialogues. You always have the best ideas and our plots never fail to make it in the list of my fave RPs. I also admire the dedication you put in it all. Portrayal, plots, headcanons, graphics. Because they are always so freaking good too, no matter what your brain thinks -eyeroll-

You're one of the few great mutuals I'm blessed with and I'm plenty grateful for that. It's so rare to find someone ready to be engaging and to match the kind of enthusiasm I wanna give. Someone I can be friends with. Someone who shows interest not just in our threads / dynamics, but also in the rest of my RP and writing shit too.

Last but not least, you're a beautiful person. Talented, strong, resilient, kind, smart. I could say a lot about it, but I don't like to be too personal in public, so I'll leave it at that u-u

ANONYMOUSLY TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY/COMMENT, JUST PUBLISH. || accepting

[resmarted]

not me again. not me with the lack of motivation for life and the constant regression, the very predictable glum spirits and sedentary state of mind. i am karana on the island of the blue dolphins, perfectly content to be kept alive beneath a house made of whale bones and so used to being left behind. i want to know what it must be like to do anything that is expected in this world without having to be poked and prodded and coaxed like a greedy little piglet.  i live in an escape room where i can never figure out the riddles in time and i get trapped here for eternities only to not learn my lesson once i finally get a second chance. some suggest i never really wanted to escape but just like playing the game, but that's not true. as flattering as it is to my intellectual vanity i actually can't stand it in this little box and am simply not wise enough to find my way out. i remain unapproachable and detached and then wonder why no one wants to play with me in the schoolyard.  it's too hard maintaining continuity in relationships, i should just be allowed to disappear and pop back in as i please with no explanation, no rhyme or reason. there is very little constant in my life socially speaking and it is easier to be an island than to be hurt. you're not exactly winning the game either, you just carry enough trophies to distract from your fears of losing control and succumbing to your emotional depth. you are the kind of beautiful that makes people question their own worth and feel the need to knock you down a peg or passively withhold affection because god forbid you know how loved you are. you have to hide under that shield of humility half the time because too many envious peers want to see you fall and they wait for it with hands rubbing together in maniacal pleasure. it's okay though, they do the same to me, and i'm not half as good as you. if there were some type of equivalency i'd say i am maybe a lesser talent with twice as many hounds that wish to rip me to shreds on a regular basis. this i think, or at least i'd imagine, is one of the more prevalent if not obvious things we have in common. 

there are other things, ones that aren't as quick to spot, but those are the ones i think i like the best. like i think you are secretly very funny, and not just in a doofy way but in a really charming and incomparable way. i think we probably have similar tastes mixed in with all the polar opposites and that you would very easily find familiar comfort in my guilty pleasures as they become yours too over time. and honestly i'm just guessing here, but i think you got used to a certain level of predictability, that you decided long ago if you kept your expectations low you wouldn't ever have to feel let down in the first place. i suspect you even had your eye on one particular person who made sense on paper and was a nice distraction for a far off goal that could eventually be reached when the timing was right. i can relate. albeit, mine are always a little more dramatic as i'm always getting swept away by some svengali hypnotizing me into believing i could never be anything without them. surely i could never be as smart or as talented as the great and powerful oz and my only rightful place in this world is as the sidekick to a giant ego with little legs. for years i had my heart set on one in particular, so beyond sure i would wait forever if i had to, that it was absolutely right and would be all of the things i ever dreamed of and i would finally feel whole once everything fell into place. it wasn't until very recently i finally made peace with the fact that this would have never worked and i was finally over it to the point of utter revulsion. that's when i looked up and suddenly saw you. and i mean like really saw you. 

and okay yes, i get transfixed and go off into these little dream worlds once i find something pretty to look at, but so what? i like it here. it's safe and no one bothers me. there's very little wiggle room for the terrors to creep in. i suppose it is possible that i could move on, that the intensity will dissipate and eventually fizzle out completely, and i can go back to feeling nothing at all and just vibe within my regularly scheduled emotional vacancy. it's actually somewhat concerning i still haven't done so by now. i know i should probably be more realistic, that i should find new ways to preoccupy myself other than pointless fawning and fantasizing, but when has anything about my life been rooted in realism? i am a dali painting, streams of melting clocks and skies of flying tigers, nothing about me has ever made sense. i am phineas gage if he drank too many diet cokes and spent too much time insisting the kardashians tv series is a work of art. i am alone in a roomful of people, succumbing to a life of eyes glazed over in a deadened stare. i'll go back to the hopeless state of forcing myself to find things to look forward to, of failing repeatedly and then still trying half-heartedly because it seems like that's what you're supposed to do, and i will do the thing where i'm just grateful to be here, just so stoked to be alive on this earth in this body on this timeline. i'll do all the things you're supposed to do to look and feel normal and sane, i swear. every last one. just give me a minute.

before i drown in the orwellian sludge sure to take over again any day now, let me just have this. let me wade in the few small memories that play on repeat and sink into a fall i never want to pull myself back up from. and logically i know i must be careful, i know my energy is addictive and strong and never appreciated until it's taken away, once they are off on their own and desperately crave to get their fix. i know i provide the fuel for confidence to take over the world and that the moment someone has it they run off to spread it back around to everyone else but me. yesterday they had no self-esteem, today a cassanova, tomorrow a depleted ghost without a house to haunt. i know this. i know my love lights up the sky and my heart is a stadium of endless applause for those i hold dear. i know the way it is consumed and taken for granted time and time again and yet i still hand it out like candy when i become smitten by someone. i still believe there is a chance i won't be used and thrown away, that i am more than just a lesson in this world for every goddamn person i come across. i am so tired of being a learning tool! i am so sick of being everyone's karma. we get it, you're a selfish person with a wicked heart and i am the test you must take to see if you deserve reward or punishment. and none of them pass it, you know. not even - maybe even especially not - the glorified do-gooders and the upstanding citizens with loud moral codes for everyone to see. they perhaps fail the worst. and where do i end up? back to square one, of course! i recalibrate and get thrown back to the pack of wolves to see if they can withstand the pressure to keep from eating me alive. oh but how a tasty morsel such as myself could never survive such a spiritual blunder. let me stare deeply into your eyes without the fear of consequence that you will hurt me like all the rest, that you could just as easily fly away once i pump your head with enough adrenaline from all the swooning and the sighing, boldly assuming you could find a diamond like me anywhere. make me remember i am more than just a butterfly to be captured and kept until its spirit is worn down completely, pinned back and maimed in a last ditch effort to maintain ownership and control over something so wild and free. let me stare at you with wonder and ask a million questions that we both know so few people would think or care to ponder, and i will not blame you if you do wander off to the circus with a fresh new face painted on and a brand new act to display for all your adoring fans. this all sounds more cynical than i mean for it to be, and if you were around to witness them all go one by one, you would get it. you wouldn't fault me or call me jaded but may even be impressed that i am still alive to tell tale after tale of madness. the most awful part of all of this is that i don't even believe you would be like the rest. i can't even fathom you could turn on me or add to my scars, that you would grow weary of all my attention and yearn for another's. that's almost always where i make the worst mistake. and yet here i am, arms wide open, ready to fall on a bed of switch blades. let the daggers pierce every last inch of my flesh if it means i can at the very least bleed out beneath your warm glow. am i sickening? does it nauseate you to know that i yearn so openly and shamelessly? it certainly makes my skin crawl. but then i have random moments throughout my day where i will get lost in ideas and glimpses into a world where we are a real thing and not just something i created in my imagination to survive reality using only what, two, maybe three experiences at most? and i have suddenly set an impossible standard for everyone else trying to get a foot in the door.

now i don't even want to be bothered unless it is for soft blue eyes with a deep piercing stare to gaze into. don't even talk to me unless you have several masters degrees and a stoic candidness in your abrupt responses because it's the only thing that interests me or makes me laugh anymore. don't even look at me! i must preserve my energetic field for those i hold most precious. but also everybody look at me, preferably without resenting me for the attention, without the anger that comes from small belief systems as i am the exception to every possible rule in the book. i've been at the bottom for so long achieving the unthinkable without so much as a batted eye. i suppose it's easier to ignore than to acknowledge what it must have taken to get this far. i feel like i have lived a hundred lives in the last decade alone and none of them seem like mine, like i haven't quite landed on the right one yet, and if i could just find the right fit everything else would fall into place. you are the perfect pair of jeans that i keep finding cheap imitations of, they all look stupid on me and none of them make sense, their price too high for a value so low. i can't recreate the movie scenes that developed so organically with you and i don't think i'd trust it if anything came close to it. it would feel weird and rehearsed the way so many who have tried their best to make an impression before, and god do i wish i could feel the same sense of spark they're all going for, but i just don't. it's an impression everyone gets kind of wrong, your humility is unmatched and sense of self unwavering. i can't fathom a similar kind of security. i didn't necessarily mean to be in this unattainable solitude for so long, but so rarely do i want to share space or time or a life with anyone else. it's heartbreaking to think this is all there's ever going to be, naive faith the only thing keeping me going anymore. and yet, odd as it is, i've never felt more alive.

[covenlegacy]

And even if negative energy gets send back, It might not be coming from him personally, but a random universe thing. Like if we have a lot of anger inside us or constantly think bitterly about people we may end up attracting bad results or just drowning in our negative feelings because we are internally dissatisfied. Storing too much anger inside you (I deal with that myself), regardless of to who or where is directed of course will make you feel negatively in general, and will eventually affect you physically too. too much of something especially emotions that put our bodies in a constant environment of stress will have have multiple negative repercussions mentally and physically. So you need to try resolve that.

Anon, thanks for a smart reply that got me thinking. Some people/person here can only reply on a level of grammar schoolers. I'm generally frustrated with my life. Perhaps I see others travelling to far away lands, beautiful places and it makes me angry and sad because I can't afford that. And I can't afford that because I keep trying to have additional source of money but methods don't work. Shortly speaking, my main goals and dreams don't come to fruition. Jungkook is someone who - oh, irony- admire for his talents but he also annoys me. I hate that he always teases everyone, that he has cocky attitude and that sometimes he lacks a tact. His face expressions on a stage are also annoying to me. I always wonder: why do you act like such a arrogant looking dickhead and show off? What's funny is that at first he didn't trigger me that much. I even thought he's quite cute but it was when he was younger and shy. I wasn't actually attracted to him before because I thought he looked like a chestnut with that old haircut. I think it generally was a big change between fans when his style changed and everybody got so hyped. He's got more sexually pleasing look but he also seems more annoying now. It's not even that I'm that super attracted to him on sexual level because I think that Jimin and RM are sexier but he's got under my skin and he always triggers me. Dude, I'm not even watching his face on internet but he comes back. I don't know why I'm yet curious about someone who annoys me so much. I feel relief when I demonstrate my anger towards him and I can talk about it to others. Even if they're not nice but at least I get feedback and I can throw it all away.

About readers. Those were readers who made private readings for me. They didn't know BTS. They were doing readings based on initials and dates of birth. Every single reader told me that I had past life connection with him. One said it was abusive romance, others that it was a friend, others said that he was even my husband (only their words). They always say it's past life connection and past life demons that haunt me. Whatever. It matters what happens to me now. Everything was increasing with time. Started in 2019 and here I am, still not knowing how to be neutral and not give a damn about him. Something f..ed up my brain when I saw him on a screen while watching Map of the soul in theatre. You guys think that I wouldn't want to stop thinking and talking about him? I even booked cleansing aura, cutting cords rituals and shit. I asked for advice many readers and one told me it will be very hard to cut off from him energetically. I mean, wtf? Why? I don't need it. He's not any important figure in my life. Just celeb. I could say that I envy him but then I should envy all members but I don't. It's specifically him. But deep down I don't wish him bad things. Although he's annoying and readings here and there make me wonder if he's really that selfish/manipulative and someone who hurts others or not..

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[unrealwasteland]

i’ve been feeling like absolute shit for the past week or two but now i’m finally feeling a little better and like i’m being myself again 🙏 and it’s just in time because i’m going away for the weekend to enjoy midsummer! i’m leaving tomorrow morning and getting back sunday evening, and i’ll try to set up at least a little queue for the meantime. 

(i’ll have my phone with me so i’ll have access to tumblr but i’m not sure how much i’ll be online. and normally i use tumblr on desktop anyway and i don’t really like reblogging things on mobile lol)

[ajvocals43]

Beautiful

Paring: Matt Murdock x Plus size!reader 

Word Count: 770

Warnings: Fluff (yes a warning), body image issues 

Summary: The reader has some doubt about the way she looks and Matt helps her with it. 

“You know, it's rude to stare.” Matt said, facing away from me. 

“Is it a crime to admire my handsome boyfriend?” 

“No. Though I wish I could return the favor.” I didn't know how to answer that because, to be honest? I couldn't help but think that I was glad that he couldn't see me because if he did, he might not like what he saw. Though he’d told me the opposite on multiple occasions, there was still that doubt. “What's wrong?” He asked when I hadn't answered after a minute. 

“Nothing.” I answered, quickly. Too quickly apparently because he immediately caught on. Damn him and his stupid super senses. 

“It's something. What is it, beautiful?” 

“How do you know?” I cringed a little because man I was being cliche. But though I could hear the sincerity of what he was saying, it was hard to silence that voice in my head that constantly told me I wasn't enough. The one that said ‘of course he thinks you’re pretty, he literally can’t see you. He's just tired of hearing you say it over and over again’. Most days I could keep that voice from bothering me, at least on the outside; but there are days like today where it just got to be too much. “You can't see me, so how can you call me that?” 

“I don't need to see you to know you're beautiful.” The way he said it made it seem like it was obvious. 

I pushed harder, “But how do you know that?” 

“Because I know you.” He answered simply. “I know that you love candles but you stopped using them because you’re conscious of me. I know that you take care of your family, putting those around you’s needs before your own. I know that your favorite things are lazy mornings where we don't have anywhere to be so we just lay in bed until noon. I know that you try and stay up for me when I go out at night but half the time you're so tired yourself that you fall asleep on the couch. I know that you're not particularly religious but you still go to church with me when I ask you. I know that you're incredibly smart, and funny. And talented though you don't like to admit it.” I scoffed at that. “I know you couldn't accept a compliment if your life depended on it. I know that despite your insecurities about your body, you love when I touch you. That even though you put on a tough front, you're a total romantic. I know that you are the sweetest, most compassionate person that I know. I know you’re beautiful because I know you.” 

I had no words because that was probably the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to me and I had no idea how to react. The way he said all of it, I could tell that he meant every word. Matt may not have been able to literally see me but he didn't need to. He saw my soul, he knew me like no one else ever had. 

“Do you need me to continue?” he asked “I also know that your music taste changes depending on your mood or what you're doing. I know that-” I couldn't take anymore and at that point I cut him off by kissing him. I could feel his grin against my lips as he let me control it. Before he took over and deepened the kiss. 

Before it went further, I pulled away. But all I could say was “Thank you.” 

He gave a soft laugh, “Anytime.” 

I couldn't help but shake my head at myself. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you go through all of that, there's just this voice that just won't shut up and today was just-” 

“Don't be sorry. Never be sorry for telling me how you feel. I wish you would tell me when that voice comes back, so I can tell her how amazing you are.” 

I laughed a little at that. “Its not-” 

“Shh.” He placed his finger against my mouth, effectively quieting me. “I love you and that's not going to change. So if you need me to tell you everyday how breathtaking you are, I'll do it. Just say the words.” 

I removed his finger and kissed him again, softly. “How did I get so lucky?” Matt grinned before leaning in to kiss me again. 

When the kiss broke he stayed close to lean his forehead against mine. “I love you.” he whispered again. 

“I love you too.” 

Masterlist 

[finniestoncrane]

PLEASE tell about your idealized version of capullo riddler! I’m starving to hear more about him

ok i moved this up the queue because i am OBSESSED with him like i love him and i love you BUT ANYWAY i reserve the right to be as unhinged about this man as i want to be. every other riddler has his pros, but this asshole has only cons and that's why he's top of my list so like please don't read this if you're gonna psychoanalyse me, i am at peace with my issues (can't wait to show this to my therapist)

Headcanons about Capullo!Riddler (w/female partner) request info • prompt list • send me a request • kofi minors DNI!! 🔞 cw for nsfw stuff, heavy on the kinks, rough play, impact, slapping, choking, humiliation, degradation all that nasty shit i am projecting it onto this sideburned loser who i love with all of my soul nobody come at me for how i want to be treated at him

domestic life

you're not so much a partner as you are a live in servant

your name is babe now

"babe will you get me a beer"

"babe will you pass me the remote"

"babe can you order us pizza?"

"babe can you come sit in my lap"

unintentional misogyny is rife

better invest in thick pants or something because anytime you walk by him your ass is getting smacked

needs you to tell him how talented and smart and handsome and charming he is at least 20 times each day

his needs have to come first because "i'm the riddler and i'm super important you wouldn't understand"

has to be talked down from asking every hot person you see if they wanna have a threesome with you guys

pisses with the door open constantly

follows you around like a lost puppy because he needs attention/closeness/not to be alone with his thoughts

he won't cook or clean or do any kind of domestic chore because that's your job because what else are you bringing to the table

he will make fun of you for participating in hobbies he thinks are dumb

but god help you if you imply at any point that his obsession with batman is unhealthy and really dorky and bordering on a crush

he will go in a huff

he goes in huffs a lot

man is permanently pouting and upset

definition of 'can dish it out but can't take it'

he has two modes for asking you to pay attention to him

demanding and rude

whiny and pathetic

sometimes he switches between both

if he thinks he's ever crossed a line and really pissed you off (which is rare) he will try to make it up to you

but he's shitty at it

he'll bump his head against you like a cat repeating "i'm sorry" until you're so annoyed that you forgive him to get him to shut up

he thinks burps are super funny because mentally he's fuckin 12

sex life

he's super horny, like all the time, concerningly so

like if you don't have the energy to fuck, you could at least sit in his lap and participate in some cock-warming, god

he'll eat pussy once a month, but he expects his dick to be sucked twice daily

he's super into dishing out some humiliation and degrading his partner

gives him an ego boost

because he's super self-conscious

mostly about his dick size

loves being a bit physically violent during sex

hair pulling, face slapping, grabbing and biting

spanking for sure

likes being called daddy/master/sir

anything that denotes him as an authority figure

surprisingly encouraging though

will dole out some praise if he thinks you deserve it

never says you're beautiful or pretty or gorgeous

but tells you you're hot all the time

super into free use, since you're there y'know

that's really all you're good for to him

will fuck you until he cums and not even check to see if you finished

rolls over and falls asleep straight away

he also snores

insists on getting nudes sent from you if he's away from you for an hour

boasts about how good he is at fucking in front of everyone and anyone

and you have to agree

which you do

and it's the only time he ever says thank you

but only in private

[humanuser0613]

Hey! I saw your post on the Instagram following percentages thin and I had a few questions.

1) Why do you think Tae and Jungkook have the most followers out of all the members?

2) What is your opinion on why Tae seems to have the most solos and akgaes?

3) This question is biased because Jimin is my ultimate bias, but, why do you think Jimin is the least popular member? I genuinely don't understand why? He has such a loving and kind personality, he's beautiful, funny, smart and extremely talented. He's humble yet confident in who he is. I guess I dont really see why he would be disliked.

Thanks!

I have thoughts, lots of thoughts sometimes. Hopefully I'm eloquent enough to string together a coherent answer. 🤞

Trigger warnings: wording used for homophobia and misogyny

1) JK is the most popular member globally. I had a post on this....

Found it!

VMin also enjoy a lot of popularity globally.

Ships might have something to do with why they have the highest follower counts, but I tend to suspect that personality of the "fan" has more to do with ships. It's about what people can project onto the members and what they get out of belonging to the community more than anything they're actually seeing when it comes to ships and shipping.

As to why they're popular: I think both are objectively good looking and good singers and performers and very, very talented with cute sides to their personalities. OT7 can recognize these qualities and appreciate them as the people they are. People who aren't part of the fandom might follow at first because of their looks or maybe performance stages. I think anyone trying to get to know them and become their true fan needs to watch original content and hopefully they become fans of the other members through that method.

I also heard rumors about "buying followers" and can't say I've seen the proof so this doesn't affect how I present my opinions. (It's only opinions here on what I've seen anecdotally as part of this fandom for a few years now.)

2) Here's where I get into some speculations as to their solos and a little bit more about why their counts are higher:

Tae and JK have very masculine looking features. Square jaws, taller frames, Tae has a deep voice, both with wide shoulders and narrow waists....they're pretty perfect looking men. In fact they've been voted as some of the most handsome men on the planet. Now JK has tattoos. That obviously makes him super masculine, right? 🙃

Do I think there are cultures where toxic masculinity is preferred over the soft masculinity BTS presents? Yes I do. I also think that these two members, in particular, have those traits projected onto them the most. There's a lot of wish fulfillment involved and projection.

Just look at that chart above and the list of countries there....how many of them are conservative? How many put women into traditional roles? How many have toxic masculinity as the prevailing masculinity mode?

Their solos project personality traits onto them that they don't have while not supporting who they've actually shown themselves to be as people. They don't listen when they talk about their love for their members and what they do as artists. They see only what they want to see. Do I think solos are into their looks more than their personalities? OF COURSE THEY ARE! Solos get mad at their own faves all the time: "#member x go solo," "they don't appreciate you," "only I can support you like you deserve," and "you're being held back from your true potential," etc. 🙄

They also victimize them. "I don't like how the other members treat my fave" and then whining and cursing at the other members, forgetting 1) they're adults, 2) they can manage their own relationships, 3) they love and respect each other and have stated so MANY, MANY, MANY times, and 4) they don't know jack or shit about what goes on behind the cameras in their personal lives. They have no clue how many times they've held each other and cried, bandaged knees or iced ankles, held deep talks, had fights that brought them closer to understanding each other, fed each other, bought gifts, tucked each other in, called to check in on each other....they will never know or understand the depths of each of their relationships. Nor do they try to understand. It doesn't mesh with their worldview of their member being the most mistreated, held back the most, given the least amount of time/lines/parts, deserving of more love than they receive of which only the "solo fan" is capable of meeting, and generally being the only one deserving of the spotlight in a group of 7.

Are there some people out in the world that simply enjoy their music as solo artists? Maybe it's about the type of music and they prefer the rapline over the vocal line as an example? Maybe it's the type of ballad they sing or timbre of their voice? I suppose there are people out in the world with very specific preferences 🤠. It's possible they aren't involved in the petty fandom shit too and don't know about all this craziness.

As to why there's more for Tae than JK, it could be because JK has tattoos and often does have dainty expressions. Tattoos aren't accepted in every culture. And that masculine fantasy is kinda hard to maintain when he's in "baby, dainty, hitting on Jimin mode." 🤷‍♀️

Alternatively Tae has been pretty vocal about shutting down his m/m ships and dating "scandals" (idols can date and people need to leave their partners the fuck alone 😡) and wanting kids....it's easier to project onto him the perfect male partner role.

(he's beautiful inside and out and no troglodytes following him on IG will ever degrade his shine 😤)

3) Jimin is very popular globally and has the third most followers on IG. He's nowhere the least popular member. Just among the solos that follow the members (except for Tae) he's the least popular. I think some of it has to do with his less masculine/more androgynous features, perhaps his higher vocal capabilities, perhaps it's the competition that solos project onto him. There's a reason he has so many terms associated with misogyny thrown his way: "homewrecker," "slut," "flirt," "he does that with all the members," etc. It's tiring. 😩 Then there's the homophobia: "he keeps pushing himself onto JK," "he's out of control," "he needs to leave BTS," etc. He's seen as competition. He is definitely someone that looks after the members emotionally as they've all said and that's usually a feminine associated trait. His looks are beautiful, he's kind, nurturing, intelligent, funny, great body, hard working, artistic, polite....sex on two legs 😳. Do solo/akgae y/n treat him like a threat to their fantasies? YEP! Does it make logical sense? NOPE!

But anyone hating on any of the members and refusing to see how amazing they are as humans just has to have emotional, intellectual, and psychological deficits. 🤷‍♀️ I don't make the rules.

TL:DR - y/ns are projecting their stunted human issues onto the members and they include things like toxic masculinity, misogyny, and homophobia.

[nightswithkookmin]

RE HOW BIGHIT MARKETS BTS

Thanks for the question dear.

Marketing is for a lot of things but in BTS's case, I'd say the primary goal of marketing them is to expose the entire group and or the individual members to an audience, a particular audience at a time, to brand them in a way that makes them appealing to that target market- to put it simply.

During one of the recent run episodes, when Jimin performed his dance from Serendipity- which I must say, God he is breathtakingly beautiful when he dances. Serendipity and the choreo is my weakness. If I see anything better than that- hold on, there's filter too. Ayayaya.

Stream Serendipity and Filter🔪

Oh and did y'all see JM's bit in Film out? Omg! I'm afraid I'd have to fly to South K to kiss his talented ass morning, afternoon, evening.

Who's coming?

Anywho, when Jimin performed Serendipity on Run and suggested that was the dance the staff was performing, the members- cough RM, quickly pointed out how he was plugging, self promoting (to Run's target audience)

Run has a different demographic.

When Suga talked about them not being funny on their Let's BTS show on KBS the Host pointed out how they were actually funny in their Run episodes.

A lot of Army(who are already fans of BTS or each individual member) watch Run but not all who watch Run are Army or even listen to BTS songs. So any performance of an individual's music or choreo would attract such a 'unique' viewer who might go on to become that member's stan or bias etc.

Similarly, when a member embarks on a solo project they are exposed to a new or unique audience. That's where most of the solo stans come from.

For V, his fanbase are not just made up of people who enjoy him as a musician but as an actor as well.

He has a strong fanbase in SK outside of 'Army' because of his exposure to the Korean market beyond BTS and this comprises of his musical collaborations with Korean Artists and film companies such as his OST Sweet Night on the series Itaewon class.

It's the same with Suga and IU, his Agust D mixtapes which draws in audiences that are not necessarily into boybands, RM's Mono whixh attracts strong hiphop fans, Jimin's dance collaborations with Taemin for example and his contemporary dance performance which attracts people in the world of contemporary dance and ballet- point in case the black swan performance at the end of the year, Jin and Hobi's MCing etc.

All these projects exposes them to unique audiences and markets outside of Army or BTS's own fanbase.

And I think the best way to understand how this is important or how this affects BigHit's marketing approach is to look at their recent YouQuiz interviews.

Jimin, Jhope and JK were paired to attract aspiring dancers or persons who want to be dancers and learn from these three dance leaders of BTS- or at least they were paired to appeal to them in my opinion.

Tae and RM were equally paired to appeal to creatives and creative minds and persons who are more into composing and writing lyrics and are full of passion and musical geniuses.

Jin and Suga were paired to appeal to mature audiences.

Ten out of ten when any pair is paired in BTS it is for marketing reasons to appeal to certain fanbase or audiences and are often strategic moves unless of course it's to balance things out to not create the impression they are promoting subunits within the group in furtherance of the BTS kumbaya agenda- Team over units or solos.

So Jikook are not gonna be allowed to sit together all the time even if they want to, neither would JinKook, or Sope.

They shake and reshuffle sometimes.

And like Tae said in his 2018 VLive, the company decides who they collaborate in or what market to promote them in.

Tae was allowed to collaborate with Adora on his Chrismas song but not Jimin- which to me is very homophobic but it goes to show the company has a say in who they work with and most importantly which market they work in.

For JK, he's been working his way within the American marke and building a strong fanbase internationally from his English covers of Justin Bieber, Troye Sivan, to his collaboration with Charlie Puth, and most recently Jason Derulo in Savage love- that's a lot of English speaking fanbase he's attracting and appealing to outside of Army.

Tae's English mixtape would achieve a similar feat and draw in a lot of English speaking fans.

Bts did the same with dynamite and coldplay's Fix you.

So by allowing JK to work with renowned Japanese Artists and film companies, collaborating and composing original sound tracks for them such as his Your eyes tell OST, Film out, etc. he is appealing to and drawing in a Japanese audience.

As Hobi explained in his 2019 January Vlive, their mixtapes, solo projects, collaborations with Artists outside of BTS are all ways for them to expand their fanbase individually and build their portfolio.

And these new fans are mostly going to be solo stans who stan him for his music composing abilities but of course some may fall in love with BTS as well and go on to become Army so it's a win win situation.

WOULDN'T THE OTHERS OBJECT

Yes and no.

As long as the company isn't pushing him as a soloist outside of BTS and creating a separate brand with him outside of BTS's own brand I don't think the boys would object to it.

That was the problem they had/have with Jikook. In my opinion.

The company branding Jikook, distinctifying them from the group as a 'couple' subunit, selling their chemistry to fans and advertisers really doesn't and didn't sit well with the group. AT ALL.

In my opinion of course.

You can't create a brand within a brand.

It goes against Bang PD's own objective of prioritizing the team over all else which is what sold the members in the first place.

I just think in JK's case, since 2020, they are just trying to help him find himself and his bearing and his purpose.

He's been trying to find himself since 2020 and he'd talked about losing his passion and had had his passion hijacked and commercialized by the company.

He used to say he didn't know what he was going to do with himself and his life and career after BTS- having him work on music videos, directing, composing, reading these are all ways that they are doing right by him if you ask me.

They are helping him not trying to push their own agendas- which is not to say they might not change their minds about it in the future.

JK is an artist being managed by the company and they owe a duty to him to make the right business decisions for him with his consent- can't stress on the consent bit enough.

Personally, I'm happy about Japan because they are and are shaping out to be queer friendly and have a bit of progressive laws and conducive environments for queer artists to flourish in- if coming out would ruin their careers that's one less worry.

Which by the way I hate anyone who peddles this 'coming out will ruin their careers' nonsense because I can tell you one hundred percent that that is rooted in homophobia and it's not OK.

Don't tell that to no queer people shut up. You are not helping.

I know some say that out of genuine concerns for the boys but PLEASE DON'T. Don't use fear to keep queer people hidden and out of sight. Don't promote closet safety. Rhetorics like that only perpetuate queer invisibility and homophobia- do I need to spell it out to your liberal homophobic ass?!

Coming out is entirely up to them regardless of the risk you think is involved. If they want to take it. They'll take it. It's their choice to make regardless of whatever consequence.

That there are or should be consequences is a problem in of itself.

I don't want to hear 'if JK comes out he's been stupid and reckless and putting Jimin's career at risk'

'If he loves Jimin he wouldn't come out'

Go ahead kiss it😌

If he wants to stay closested respect it. If he wants to come out RESPECT IT TOO.

Support him either ways goddammit!

Y'all gone get me bothered like that huh.

JK POTENTIALLY WITHOUT JIMIN

They both have different career objectives.

I know Jimin says JK is imitating him but chilee JK is his own person. Lol.

Jimin plays too much.

He has his own aspirations.

In 2014 Jimin posted this Christmas song he did with JK. In 2020 he posted his own Christmas song without Jk.

It's not hard to see where his interests in music lie as a musician.

JK covered We don't talk anymore by himself and later did a collaboration with Jimin on the same song. He's done Fools with RM- see where I'm going with this?

Suga said he was more likely to write pop songs for JK but write dance songs for Jimin.

Jk said in the Be interviews bang PD advised him to consider dance performances when writing songs as he himself is a dancer too and need to incorporate in his compositions.

They are two distinct artists and at some point it would become necessary to brand, promote and encourage their uniqueness in their professional lives. They don't got to be tethered to each other all the time.

Personally, I don't think BigHit would want to push official subunits within BTS- yet and it's inclination towards Jikook have always been because of their marketing appeal rather than to further a career objective for both of them.

This goes back to the pairing objectives I talked about earlier. If they are going to pair Jikook professionally as an official subunit within the group it wouldn't be because they are a couple and ought to be together all the time but because it is smart for them to do so business wise.

If their pairing isn't commercially profitable they won't be paired at all- unless of course Jikook themselves want and request to be paired in that way. Know what I mean?

They each signed separate contracts with the company from day dot. They didn't sign on as a unit.

Whether or not they've decided they are a package deal I cannot say- yet, as their new contract just came into effect.

We would have to observe how they are being handled by the company going forward.

HE'D NEVER DO IT WOULD HE

Come now sis...

It's not like he's leaving Jimin😅

Jimin and Jhope were equally sent to Japan for promotion purposes without JK.

Out of all seven, Namjoon is the most promoted member in the international Market not just because he speaks English but because he is often made the spokes person for the group in interviews, at awards straight up to the UN.

Look how happy they all were and how chatty they were at the KBS Let's BTS interview.

I mean they all talked about it. About how they can't say much on foreign forums and often step into Namjoon's shadows.

RM is the most recognized and dare I say the most liked member out of all seven in the international market outside Army and their music profession.

In Japan they all have a chance to be front and center at interviews etc.

It just so happens that JK as it stands is the one member pushing to build a portfolio within that market.

Let's pray he gets mainstream and build a strong presence within the music industry there because we all know he's gonna drag Jimin up there with him😏

Just pay attention to the songs he's written and the parts Jimin sings in them- he makes Jimin shine on those songs.

They have so much potential my God.

Let's support them individually and as a unit.

I purple you and sorry I had to respond here.

Stay gold. Let's keep supporting and rooting for our guys.

Signed,

GOLDY