#like she just /knew/ and it’s heartbreaking

[tayytayy12]

Once I fix me, he’s gonna miss me | LN4 x singer!reader

DR3 x Exgf!reade

Summary - After a messy breakup with Daniel reader releases a new album, but no one expects the random love song at the end of it, and they certainly didn’t expect it to be about Daniel’s friend and ex-teammate.

Warnings - Cheating mentioned, swearing, villain Daniel (for the request I love Danny Ric)

FaceClaim - Gracie Abrams

Requested - Yes

Notes - Please give me the benefit of the doubt for some spelling errors, it’s not my strong suite 😭

Yourusername

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Yourusername - I’m back, and I’m bringing you a gift to apologise for being away for so long 🤍 my brand new album, ‘My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys’ is out tomorrow, you’ll hear more from me then. I love you 💕

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User1 - Y/N OMFG AHHHH

User2 - I CANT WAIT A WHOLE NEW ALBUM TOMORROW WHAT.

User3 - ITS ONLY BEEN 4 MONTHS

User4 - This shit looks sad

User5 - Daniel did some fucked up shit in their relationship 😭

User6 - Hoe wdym ‘My boy only breaks his favourite toys’

User7 - Is everyone forgetting Daniel’s favourite bar in Australia is called ‘the black dog’

User8 - He fucked up big time

User9 - Fr, how do you cheat on THEE y/n y/l/n?

User10 - Daniel’s teammate in the likes shows that even the grid don’t agree w how he treated our girl 😭

User11 - Stop making him a villain okay, he didn’t know what he was doing.

User12 - Daniel, and thirty four year old man, didn’t know what he was doing when he controlled, belittled and public cheated on Y/n, a TWENTY THREE year old girl? He knew what he was doing, you can’t defend him anymore.

SabrinaCarpenter - You even look pretty when you’re sad

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Yourusername - My god where do I even start? This album is everything and more to me, really. The last year of my life writing these songs has been my escape from my reality, one that I really didn’t want to be a part of, but it was also one that I didn’t know how to escape, and when I finally did I didn’t know how to let go of all the pain I’d kept with me in that time. So, I picked up my pen and let it do the talking. This is my first album where every song is written solely by me, but of course I had the help of my soulmate collaborators, jack and Aaron to produce and do their magic. The pair of them helped me, along with someone special showed me that what I felt was okay, and valid. These songs are my most unfiltered and my most vulnerable, this is not an album that has been made for the general public. This one is one I made with only you, my biggest supporters and myself in mind. I’m forever grateful of how I’m able to trust you with my feelings without any fear. I love you, and I hope you live this album like I do, or it could help you like it did me. Just remember, you’re not alone in your feelings 🤍

‘My boy only brakes his favourite toys’ is all yours now, all eighteen tracks about my coping mechanisms, and one about how there’s happiness after heartbreak… 🤍

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JackAntanoff - You’re a living legend 🫡

Yourusername - That’s all you New Jersey

User13 - What. The. Fuck. This. Album. Has. Killed. Me.

User14 - I’m sorry but wtfdym miss Y/n Y/l/n has a song where she says the word ‘I’ll get older but your lover stay my age’

User15 - All too well killed me

User16 - I love how you can just tell what songs were produced by jack and what by Aaron

User17 - ‘I know it won’t work’ is so heart wrenching istg no one speak to me

User18 - I’m its biggest stan

User19 - WHERE DID THIS HOE FIND MY DIARY WHEN WRITING THE PROPHECY ?!??!!??

User20 - Because I liked a boy is so superior, like she finally addressed what Daniel’s ‘fans’ put her through at the start of their relationship

User21 - ‘Say it once again with feeling, how the death rattle breathing silenced as the soul was leaving, the deflation of our dreaming, leaving me breathed and reeling, my beloved ghost and me, sitting in a tree d-y-i-n-g’

User22 - How did it end is so superior

User23 - Y/n could write Romeo and Juliet but Shakespeare couldn’t write this bridge

User24 - PAY FOR MY THERAPY

User25 - Were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? Were you writing a book? Were you a sleeper cell spy? In fifty years, will all this be declassified? And you'll confess why you did it. And I'll say, "Good riddance". 'Cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden. I would've died for your sins. Instead, I just died inside. And you deserve prison, but you won't get time

User26 - The smallest man who ever lives reigns supreme on this album

User27 - NONE OF YOU HOES TALKING ABOUT CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT?

User28 - FR WTFDYM THERES THIS WHOLE SAD ASS ALBUM THEN JUST THE BEST LOVE SONG Y/N HAS EVER WRITTEN

User29 - I NEED TO KNOW WHO THE HELL ITS ABOUT

Yourusername - And who is my man? that’s one secret I’ll never tell.

User30 - HOE YOU WATCH TOO MUCH GOSSIP GIRL

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LandoNorris - Week off shenanigans, I’m still the biggest Y/n Y/l/n fan. New albums great btw 🫡

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User31 - Everyone is a Y/n fan

User32 - WHO ARE THOSE FLOWERS FOR HELLO

User33 - he has taste with call it what you want AND feather

User34 - he made it CLEAR he’s team Y/n

User35 - Thought Daniel was your friend..?

User36 - Everyone ignoring the boyfriend Lando pic

Yourusername - Thanks for the streams 🫡

LandoNorris - no problem 😌

Yourusername

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Yourusername - Turns out I’m physically unable to do a soft launch so, THIS IS MY BOYFRIEND LANDO AINT HE ADORABLE

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User37 - What the fuck

User38 - OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

User39 - I’m in love with them already what

User40 - Y/n you’re truly an icon

User41 - THE PHOTOS OMG THEYRE ADORABLE 😭

DanielRicciardo - wow.

User42 - GET YOUR STINKY ASS OUT OF HERE WE DONT WANT YOU LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE

User43 - This is his karma

LandoNorris - You’re cute

Yourusername - Stop I’m blushing.

User44 - Obsessed.

LandoNorris

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LandoNorris - Lol stay mad, should’ve treated her better when you had her.

I love you so much, and I’m going to treat you that way 🤍

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User45 - LMAOOOO

Yourusername - My god I love you

LandoNorris - I love you so much more

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[pandorem]

Thinking about Crystal and what how she acts after her loss of memories says about her pre-memory loss, especially when it comes to her parents. Some amnesia stories have their characters become a complete blank slate with no ties to their prior selves but I don’t think Dead Boy Detectives does that, it does a pretty good job of showing that Crystal is still coming from the same basis, she’s just surrounded by less toxic people now who are pulling her in a better direction. She’s still not used to connecting with other people and seeing where they’re coming from and it shows, but she’s learning.

So given that, given how I believe her characterization is good and makes a lot of sense between her old and new self (even if it’s in implications) it says a LOT about old Crystal that new Crystal is so earnestly desperate for her parents, especially her mom. Old Crystal had built up layers of anger and resentment, she even acknowledges this to Esther, but it hadn’t built up enough that without her memories something in her knew instinctually that going to her parents wasn’t an option. She says she feels like people didn’t like her very much, she has that instinct, but not that her parents won’t be scared for her or might not realize she’s gone. She says to Niko that it’s like “I want my parents to help me find my parents”.

What this says to me is that Crystal before she lost her memories is still DESPERATELY hoping for her parents’ attention and love, still earnestly wanting them to take care of her. That her acting out might be at least partially hoping for them to take notice. There’s a moment in her flashback where she gets cut off while saying that her parents’ won’t even- notice probably, but it’s so, so telling that she hasn’t internalized that though pattern enough that the instinct would break through the memory loss.

And that’s honestly more heartbreaking to me, as well as just some great characterization.

[pedge-page]

Preggo Wife making Joel drive out to In and Out which is like a 40 minute drive from their house because you're deathly craving their fries.

You're giddy and bouncing up and down in your seat, swaying your head with the Temptations turned to full blast on the radio as he drives. Finally you pull close to the familiar establishment and squeal, clapping your hands.

Joel puffs his cheek, pulling into the lot.

"Whahwawawhat are you doin?" You ask.

"Gettin out? Drive thru's crazy. Let's just go in."

"I'm not getting out, Joel. Baby stays put."

He eyes the crazy drive thru again but knows he's not getting your hippo ass out the car unless its willingly.

He makes a disgruntled noise from deep in his throat.

"What was that?"

"Nothin'." Reversing the car, he gets in the line.

Finally you two pull up to the menu and are greeted by the static voice box.

"What yoy want, baby?"

He THOUGHT you knew this whole time, but now seeing your eyes light up at the entire bright menu like its a Christmas tree, he closes his eyes.

"We need a minute."

"Fries--LARGE fries. And uh OH shake. Chocolate? Do they do sprinkles? Joel, ask if they have sprinkles? Oh wait and a large ugh they only have coke fine whatever. And a double, triple burger--"

"They only got double. "

"Then give me two doubles. And another fry. And double fries. And another little fry for you."

Joel leans out the window. "You uh. Get all that?"

"Yeah... um....yeah. big family?" The cashier asks.

Joel glances at you wity your pouty lips and folded arms.

"Yeah something like that."

She tells him your total (Joel curses under his breath) and says thank you.

The two of you load the car Up from the pickup window and finally are on your way.

You hold the first golden fry up like a trophy before putting its beautiful body inside your mouth...

Immediately you wail and start crying, and Joel nearly swerves into oncoming traffic from nearly being startled. "What! What's wrong what happened!?"

You cover your eyes, tears spilling. Your face is scrunched in a terrible nearly Heartbreaking sadness as you choke. "Its --uhahuh- stale!"

Joel angrily dips his hand into your fries and takes a bite. They're a bit cold and, unfortunately, stale.

"Baby I'm sorry--"

"You TOLD them to give me stale fries, didn't you!"

"Wha-no! You were with me the whole time--"

"You DID you leaned over and told them make it terrible for your WIFE. JOEL HOW COULD YOU."

"I--EAT YOUR DAMN BURGER," he shouts with a booming growl. The car goes quiet and he shakes his head angrily, focusing back on the road.

You hiccup and go silent. Nibbling your custom quad burger and sipping your shake close your lips while sniffling.

Glancing down at Joel's tiny paper baggie of fries, you quickly steal one. "Yours are better," you peep quietly.

He closes his eyes for a long time, inhaling a big breath before addressing you again as calmly as possible. "You can have them."

[asahiee]

𝗔𝗡 𝗢𝗥𝗕𝗜𝗧 𝗔𝗥𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗗 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗨𝗡 ⟡ satoru gojo

contains : fluff / angst / bittersweet moment author note : prob gunna hate me how i didn't rlly make it that fluff + not proof-read taglist : @vxmieen . @mel1mak . @crocodilethesir (srry if u didn't wanted to be tagged) FIRST PART - DEAD LOVEBIRDS

you were everyone's dream, a girl who could swirl hope towards any dim heart, a girl whose smile can light up anyones world. you were indeed the world's last shinning sun, and then there was satoru who'd orbited around you like a planet

satoru was a man who carried everyones worries, a man who had lost his way, a man who couldn't find any light anymore, a man whose world is corrupt and nothing can change him, a man who lost everything. he in the end had lost all hopes around the world.

how ever did a girl with bright hopes had fallen in love with a man who had died, metaphor and literally. in the end there was three memories you'd cherish deeply in your heart.

under the stars

the sound of your heart beat thumping like drums, were ringing in your ears. as satoru covered your eyes with his palm, as you can make out little snickers from him. "y'know i love you soooooo much, right?" he whispers towards your ears, as he presses soft kisses towards your neck. this simple touch had made your cheeks flamming pink.

"Y-..yeah i know.." you quietly spoke, as you fingers interwined with themselves. you for once felt satoru smiling brightly. "so i decided to spoil you.." and then his hands left from your eyes, as your bright eyes stared the blank space as you tilted your head, a bit confused. but soon your confused look would turn into wonder.

staring down at satoru, who was on his knee smiling brightly with eyes of a child. "I can't anymore, i want to marry you and show you my love." he spoke as your eyes were shimmering with tears. "yes yes yes yes...oh my god.." and that was the start at you lunched your body onto him, hugging him tightly as you cried happily into his arm. oh the overwhelming warmth between your heart and feelings...

this was the start of every dream and heartbreak

and the stars knew that to well, as they kissed there blessings onto you

2. towards the moon

"I can't shoko! what if i fall on my wedding dr-..." your overwhelming thoughts were cut of by shoko shoving her palm towards your face. "first of all you wont just randomly gall off your wedding dress.." the brown hair girl said firmly, as she grabbed your arm leading you, towards the grand wooden doors.

"secondly focus on the idiot guy you love.." she whispered to your ear, with a warming smile as you returned the soft gaze. breathing in and out you had grabbed ahold of your feelings and swallowed it, as you opened the doors with a bright smile.

this was the start of every marriage and love, but who knew this was the start of a sad love story ... ?

had he truly loved you or did he just pushed you away...

3. moon cycles

after ten years of being with satoru, the love of your life was all for nothing.

waking up early in the morning to make breakfast, and then staying worried till the sun sets, then welcoming yourself from the cold wind of nothing. it was just a never ending cycle you haven't noticed, not yet. after seeing him with another girl everything went downhill...

did he know? did he abandoned you? did he even love you..

no, no, and no..

and like any other dam, it burst with water as you met the men you wasted your whole heart, on sliding a divorce paper towards your hands. his cold but alluring precense was just like ice. he was not the men you had loved ten years ago...

and like all tragedies one must leave to heal

the humid air bloomed through the tree's leaves, as a soft welcoming. as you sat staring outside the window, eyes watching a young awaited love. your warm hands clasped the untouched and cold cup of coffee, taking a sip as you hummed happily.

seeing the sight of satoru with his new lover had made you smile for some reason.

maybe it was the warm beat of love you still felt?

or maybe it was that you truly missed him?

no, it was the joy that filled every ounce of your body

knowing that the man you use to love, was happy with another one.

and just like that in the end, you weren't everyone dreams and thats fine. cause you can always look up in the stars, and remember the first feeling of love, once again.

[lolitasangel]

Noah Angst- The Break up pt2

Break Up pt1

Break Up pt3

Please enjoy 🫶🏼

TW- mentions of yelling, shouting

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6 months, half a year without him, you dont even want to say his name, yes it was 6 months ago, but when you were so sure, so sure that it would last. We were together for ——,

—-

After the 6th month came and went coming on 7 you started to feel better. Not faking any smiles, not forcing any laughs, not need to escape to the bathroom to let out a few tears.

You started to become comfortable again, not blaming yourself for what happened. Even though you know it wasn’t your fault, and you understood, of course it still hurt, and it still does.

Some of your friends got very worried, they noticed you would fidget when asked about Noah, they would catch on to how you changed the subject as soon as you answered a question even regarding Noah. But they never pushed it.. well until they noticed you pushing them away.

Y/F/N “I’m sick of it!” You and your friends were hanging out at your place, having a girls night. You invited them over when you felt comfortable being around people and letting people back inside, not just inside of your house, but in your heart. You realized your friends didn’t deserve this kind of treatment. Of course it wasn’t intentional, none of it was.

But, sometimes with heartbreak you do things you don’t mean, snap at people, yell, suddenly start crying the middle of supermarket when you realized you couldn’t call Noah to talk about how your cat spilt his catnip everywhere and had the time of his life while you were panicking thinking he was gonna die and you couldn’t find what medicine the vet was recommending (you aren’t to fond of that memory)

So you decided to invite your friends over. It was a good night until they brought it up.

Y/F/N “something has been wrong and it’s bugging us, you haven’t talked to us at all, I know something’s off, I just know it”

You tried playing it off cool, shaking your head faking confusion “I’m not sure what you’re talking about.”

Your friends sighed shaking their heads, giving you a look.

“We know something happened with Noah” your friend to left of the table said quietly, you pretend to be confused again praying to any god out their that they would get the memo, to zip it, shut it, anything, just not talk about it. “I’m confused”

Frustrated your friend stands up, and starts listing everything off on you

“You’re pictures,” walking into the living room pointing at every wall, shelf, and nightstand “not a single fucking picture of Noah.” You and the other girls shocked followed her.

She continued walking down the hall pointing at the walls “here, not a single picture either, Y/N”

Continuing down the hall even further down she made her way into your bedroom opening the door and barging in like no tomorrow.

She pointed everywhere in the room.

“Your dresser, not a picture.”

“Your desk, not a picture either.”

“Your make up vanity, not a picture”

“Fuck it let’s look at your closet, and your dresser”

Opening the closet, “oh funny! Where are his clothes?”

Walking over across the room towards the dresser.

Reaching out to her to try and stop her.

But you stopped, you knew once all three of them started, there was no ending

“Oh would you look at that! Gone!”

She yelled pointing at the dresser

“Gone!” She yelled pointing at the closet

“Gone!” She yelled again pointing at the walls

“Your stand next to your BED, where you SLEEP, and THINK, AND DREAM OF NOAH, IS NOT HERE!”

“What about your book shelf?” She asked rhetorically, she shrugged her shoulders “let’s check there, since we are pulling all the stops might as well look here too”

Looking around the shelf, whipping her head around “not a damn photo album of you and him insight.”

Shocked by the shouting, and not expecting her to blow up, you started to tear up.

It wasn’t because she was yelling, it was because she noticed, she picked up on everything that you were doing, or did, or thought about. She picked it up like a broken glass on the floor, shattered, no glue, time, money, person or thing could put it back together, like a missing puzzle piece from a puzzle that was almost finished, gone.

Y/F/N took a deep breath.

“Everytime we ask about him, you change the subject, everytime we mention him you fidget, everytime we even think about mentioning him, or acknowledging him, you immediately shut down. Now I know something happened, I know it did, and I know for a fact that you’re beating yourself up over it. But as your best friend I’d rather dance with the devil and make a deal then let you throw your damn life away for a man who didn’t want to give the slightest will to try and make it work. Am I right?”

You weren’t listening anymore, you were somewhere else, not sure where, but you wouldn’t help but think of him, why didn’t he want to try, why couldn’t have you have gone with him for a bit, see him every once in a while.

“I’m not trying to be a bitch, or make you cry, or angry, but I am telling you that he is gone, he’s not coming back, you already locked him away, I’m telling you this so realize that there are more people out there, and that we are worried about you.”

All you felt was the same pain you felt when he broke those words to you,

“we can still be friends”

How could you guys have been friends? How could that have worked?

Were you suppose to pretend like nothing ever happened?

Like he didn’t rip your world apart, limb for limb?

Like he didn’t promise you the world, and that you would always be his girl?

Like you didn’t imagine a wedding, potential kids, a bright future together?

Like you didn’t imagine him teaching the kids how to play guitar, the piano, all that shit?

How?

How could we pretend like….how?

You were slowly brought back when you realized tears were streaming down your face, looking up at the girls you finally cracked.

Bursting into tears, falling to the floor sobbing in the arms of your friends

“I don’t know what I did wrong, why couldn’t we have made it work, he promised me, he promised me!”

Your friends pulled you close, holding you tightly but gently.

Yes, they were aware you are a strong girl and you could hold your own but sometimes, you can’t get help by yourself, sometimes you have to reach out, before it’s too late, and you’ve already pushed everyone away.

It’s not too late though, and you realize that, it’s not the end of the world, of course it hurts, it will always hurt, but I can learn to be strong.

The girls around her agreed, one friend pulling you up to look at her “we didn’t want you to be upset, and Y/F/N should have come off that harsh, but, we are worried Y/N. 6 months, 6 months of you that we never met, we knew your smiles were fake, we knew the laughs you let out were forced, we knew that you only would hang with us so we wouldn’t get suspicious of what possibly happened. We were scared, it was like this brand new person in front of us, and then suddenly you wanted to hang out, we are worried about you. We love Y/N, we are here for you, but, you gotta let us in. We know that you guys broke up, we don’t know why but…we wanna be there for you…please let us back in…”

———if you’re crying now I’m so sorry, babe———

After calming down a bit, the girls stood you up walking you over to the bathroom, “take a long shower babe, you’ll be okay, we’re gonna be in the living room waiting for you, we will listen”

Giving them a tilted nod up, you made your way to the shower.

Your girls were always there, the four of you against the world, even when there were fights, anytime anyone felt off all you girls would move on, talk about it later, and help each other out.

After you got out the shower, you changed into some sweatpants, and a hoodie

You made your way downstairs where you heard the girls talking.

Hearing you come down the girls got up and walked to you.

Pulling you close into a hug, holding each other tight like if they didn’t, someone would rip one of you away from one another. They softly called your name

“Y/N?” Not having the courage to look up, too ashamed of what you’ve become these last few months. You didn’t even recognize your self anymore.

You thought you had moved on after 7 months but, when you’re always reminded that you aren’t with someone you love anymore is the worst pain.

Agony, anger, lust, pain, happiness, euphoria, dreams, songs, memories, tears, smiles

Everything

Everything reminds you of him

You shared all of those things with him, just for it washed away, like at the beach

Watching the the shore with him during the second date

Getting the courage to ask if he could kiss you

The same beach where he said

“I love you.”

Washed away, never to be seen again

Drowning deep into the sea,

What was saltier though?

The sea? Or the tears that streamed down your face when you tried not to break on your way back to your car

The same beach where he said

“We have to break up”

The same beach where you told me you wanted to make it official

The same beach that you pictured a possible wedding

Why

Why

GODDAMN IT WHY

You felt like you were drowning

You had to be, the muffled sounds, they remind you of when you and Noah would play in the water

He held you in his arms and floated you guys up and watching the stars in the middle of the summer night

Why did you take him from her?

Why God?

The darker it got and the more muffled it sounded

You felt your self being layed down the on the couch

Slowly coming back to your senses, looking around seeing your friends worried face.

Looking away quickly, feeling shame

You didn’t want this to happen, not this, you wanted to deal with this alone and forget it.

Just forget it.

Forget it.

Forget.

It.

Before you could feel yourself being pulled closer and closer down by the minute again.

Y/F/N held your head up for you, too ashamed to look your, what might as well be sisters, in the eyes of the people you loved, who you hurt, not intentionally of course, no you would never, but the sad truth, from what we have learned is, sometimes you hurt the people you love, and the people you love hurt you.

“You’re gonna be okay, you got us along this journey.”

Smiling and giggling from the goofy face your friend made at you, you realized yea, it will be okay.

You’ll be okay.

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Hi everyone, I’m glad to see everyone this enjoying this story so far, it was just a thought I had a work and kind of wanted to see if I could write something from it, I guess?

Uh, but I hope you all enjoyed

I enjoyed writing it, your kind words towards and about my stories, thoughts, etc mean a lot to me and keep me having the courage to write

Thank you, have a good morning/evening/night

-LP

[always-coffee]

When I was seven or so, my parents were called into the school guidance counsellor’s office. I have no memory of what prompted this, only that my parents were informed that I was too blunt. They were told that I was far too direct and needed to work on how I spoke to people (especially adults?)—I needed, they said, to learn the Oreo cookie way of speaking: sweetness, truth, sweetness.

Again, I was seven. My folks, originally from New York, were ticked off. If you knew my mom, you can picture her how dare you face and know that someone was going to regret what they just said. (Dad, too, but he has strict rules about how he appears on social media, which is to say, he does not. I only ever, and rarely, share photos of my pops and siblings person to person.)

Anyone who has known me for five minutes knows I’m not mean. I wasn’t a bully. I was being bullied, but that’s a different story. I was, simply, an honest kid who said what she meant. If you ask me a question, you get a real answer. And, in turn, I always want the truth. That’s just how I’m wired.

Even now, as an adult (or pretending to be one), I tend not to mince words—and if I care, it is a fact I want you to know. Because we are so often left to doubt or wonder—and our brains can play tricks on us. So, I try to be as clear as possible, and I still fail at that occasionally. But I still cannot fathom not wanting honesty from someone, even when it’s difficult. It just doesn’t compute.

There are, in life, people who are going to want you to be different than who you are. (I am not one of them, fwiw.) They are going to try to tell you that you really should be more this or more than. They can be sly about it or loud.

They're wrong. Just like that counsellor was, when I was a kid.

We are all messy and messed up. Imperfect and quirky, with tumultuous hearts. We have a past littered with heartbreak and things we don’t talk about. Stories that helped shape us, for good or ill. But even on your worst day, you are still brilliant, still worthy. This truth can slip through the cracks, pushed down by insecurities and doubt. But pick it up—I’m holding it out to you, right now.

[crumblinggothicarchitecture]

Don't forget that before the concert had even started fans outside were tweeting swift, her team and the venue begging them not to use the usual pyrotechnics. Fire inside a closed off metal shell made made it even worse and for what? Some razzle dazzle while concert goers were burned by the floor grates? They knew it was too hot, they made no effort to make it less dangerous. In fact they actively made it worse! Fans passed out directly in front of the stage and despite seeing this the most she did was hold for a second to throw her own water at them. For 3 hours. Somebody died 2 songs in and over a thousand people were injured but at least they closed the vents so people without tickets couldn't hear for free! Whether it's something that would hold up in court or not, swift and her team are responsible for extreme scale negligent injuries and Ana's death. She is truly a disgusting piece of shit who doesn't care about fans outside their wallets, especially fans of color.

It truly changes my entire perception of Taylor Swift to read about things like this.

Heartbreaking. I can't imagine how hot every piece of metal in that stadium was. Like being burned by your car belt buckle every summer- but way more intense and much bigger pieces of metal.

Who in their right mind would want to use pyrotechnics during a heatwave inside of a giant metal dome that is already so much like a frying pan.

All for what? To watch Taylor Swift strut around a stage- is it worth the risk?

Dear, Taylor Swift, are your concerts really worth hospitalizing people?

It's just pure negligence- You are entirely correct.

I'm entirely certain Taylor Swift knew her own safety protocol, this is her job afterall- and went ahead with her show anyway. Horrendous attitude. Horrible.

[miss-musings]

How badly was Tech's Death handled in The Bad Batch S3?

I'm planning to do a full season review for The Bad Batch Season 3, and while prepping, I started thinking back about how Tech's death was handled.

I wonder if The Bad Batch never really mourned Tech on-screen because they all blamed themselves for his death:

Hunter bc he's the leader (even Hemlock noted this)

Wrecker bc he was trying to hold the rail car

Crosshair bc they were trying to save him from Tantiss

And Omega had never really lost anyone before, so she probably didn't know how to cope.

The time jump didn't help either.

Arguably it'd be in-character that their "mourning" style is just avoiding the topic. They hardly brought up Crosshair in S1 after he was mind-controlled.

Hunter shuts down the group's conversation about Crosshair in 1.03 partly bc he feels guilty about leaving Crosshair behind (even tho they didn't really have a choice). Consequently, the group doesn't really mention Crosshair except in passing after 1.03.

Look, I ultimately think the writers *should* have let the characters mourn Tech in a meaningful way. It'd allow them and us to have some closure. But they didn't, and that's partly why so many people expected him to come back (namely as CX-2).

Tech also just had such a suspicious "death":

No body on screen

He fell with all or most of his gear on him, and Hunter survived a 500+ foot fall on Daro without much issue

Hemlock as an unreliable death certificate

A character running around in S3 who was conditioned by Hemlock (who supposedly found Tech's body) and who moves & talks like Tech, and has significant interactions w/ Crosshair and Omega plus a weird scene w/ Phee

It didn't help that CX-2 survived *everything* - multiple explosions, falls, etc. Plus, we never saw him without his mask, unlike CX-0 in S2 and CX-1 in 3.06.

If the TBB creators wanted to avoid any theorizing that CX-2 was Tech or anyone else we knew, all they had to do was show him without his helmet at the end of 3.07. Boom, problem solved!

I really expected a CX-Tech reveal up until 3.14 "Flash Strike." But by then, we'd run out of time to bring him back properly. It really feels like the writers baited us, or something was changed last-minute during S3 production.

Even if we'd gotten a scene in, let's say, 3.05 "The Return" where the Bad Batch finally and properly mourned Tech once they were all together, I'm sure people still would've theorized CX-2 was Tech. But, I do think there would've been fewer.

As it stands, neither the characters nor the audience ever had a proper send-off for such a prominent character.

And CX-2 had all that screentime & build-up to justify cutting off Crosshair's hand???

TBB S3 was great in many respects, but how it handled Tech's death was a major flaw.

But, I just wanted to play Devil's Advocate for a bit. Maybe it wasn't as bad as we thought, and arguably was in-character for Tech's brothers to hardly ever mention him.

He's mentioned 7 times in S3:

Wrecker has an indirect mention in 3.02

Omega in 3.03

Echo in 3.05

Phee in 3.08

Crosshair in 3.09

Phee in 3.12

Crosshair in 3.15

And we know that last one is the most heartbreaking one of them all.

Phee and Echo seemingly have made some peace with losing Tech after 5-6 months. But it's clear Hunter & co still haven't. They all compartmentalized his death and never addressed it. Crosshair's little "Plan 99" speech in 3.15 proves that, I think.

Anyway, just throwing this out there. I'm planning to do a S3 review soon and go over the three best and three worst things about the season. SPOILERS: Tech's death and the CX-2 baiting was definitely one of the worst!

[ronnieratsdoodles]

also credit to some sources!

byler proof:

1. Will’s sexuality has been an aspect since episode 1

if it wasn’t a major point, the duffer’s wouldn’t have any reason to subtly and continuously remind the GA throughout the entire show. they never were bold about it until season 4, because of foreshadowing, which they do a lot throughout the show; with many relationships.

season 5 is when build up finally reaches its peak.

2. “i’m not gonna fall in love scene.” coming from Will Byers, breakfast scene, joyce and Will Byers conversation. season: three. episode: chapter 1: susie, do you copy?

one tiny thing they added into the scene was Will pouring syrup on his eggs, which Mike also done, meaning they likely introduced each other to it. just tiny fact.

ultimately, this scene had to have significance, it couldn’t have been written without a point, why else would they make a traumatized boy have built up longing for his best friend? to end in heartbreak? that would just be a waste of writing, planning, foreshadowing, and most importantly their frequency of slow burning. they knew what they were doing.

3.smalltown boy being the first song on Mike’s official playlist:

spotify used to have a official character playlist up for each character, before being took down (if i’m right) either that they liked or that represented their character! (what creators felt was correlated)

(taken down 2023)

small town boy is by a artist named bronski beat, that is about a young gay man bullied, deciding to run away from home. we don’t even know exactly the reason why Mike is bullied, other than his supposed ‘frog face’

5. couples being paired up on the last episode of season four, while El stood alone. many reasons why this could have happened, but it was no mistake, lay outs always have a reason film wise. 

6. multiple parallels to stancy:

again, not much to say about it, BUT stancy was a unsuccessful relationship, and Nancy ended up going with a byers, wheeler + byers. the hospital scene with the two second shoulder lean. (stancy parallel!)

7.byler funko, not mileven funko. hmm super suspicious 🤨

8.”i need you mike, and i always will” - Will Byers, van scene, stranger things four. Will is not going to fall for anyone else. he always needed Mike. while El was shown more to needing Mike, she never did as much as Will. there’s nothing satisfying about Will being with another boy, not to the audience or Will. 

9.stranger things writer quote from twitter “let’s start a new party, you and me.”

10.mikes encounters with Will being focused/zoomed in on is for a REASON.

11. at the season four reunion, why did Mike not kiss El? their foreheads touched, they were inches apart, yet he looked back at Will. that would have been a perfect scene for a kiss, so why would the creators not include it?

12. Mike and Will had the first meaningful one-on-one conversation in stranger things.

13.in both arguments, the rink-o-mania they were wearing blue and yellow. their colors. when blue meets yellow in the west. they met in california. the west. 

14. “Karen, where’s our son?!” Ted yells, in season 2. 

“Will’s!” karen yelled back, holding a blue and yellow pen. totally on accident.

15. Crazy together being one of the most romantic scenes in the entire show.

16. the multiple scenes of Mike saying “boys only” and getting kicked out by girls. and his grossed out expression in season four, episode 1, the hellfire club, by a sign in the background saying women. 

17. i love you is either platonic or lies in strangers things so far, we haven’t gotten a single i love you that wasn’t either. Will’s i am not gonna fall in love implying an actual process, it’s happening in season 5.

18.when mileven tag duffers to complain about byler, they never respond, only to byler shippers, even if it’s just a small wave emoji.

19. lighting, the creators confirmed that the lighting in each scene has a meaning. the lighting either means that it could be a way of symbolizing mikes deep care and empathy for Will in the next season, (them being on a upside down couch also empathizes/foreshadows something)

20. the creators once again were planning since the first season. season four was written in a way to begin the root Will and for byler. so, when their endgame, we will know why.

21.mileven is star crossed, (not endgame)in march, millie talked about being unhappy with El’s ending, it doesn’t show that byler is endgame, but it does show mike and El are not. in one of the season 3 scripts they referred to mileven as ‘star crossed’ in the field scene. 

if any of this doesn’t make sense i apologize, it was written for my best friend<3333

[head-first-4halos]

sorry im houseposting. i finished it and now im in distress

wilsons piece of furniture representing him for his new condo being a gift!!! for house!!! is wild .

i like huddy in theory but i actually dont think they're good for each other. like i love their weird little enemies to lovers thing going on but i dont think there was any way that it could have ended well... AND cuddy breaking up with house was so mean. idgaf that i just said they didnt work out girl you KNEW he was an addict and yet you dumped him when he relapsed!! instead of trying to understand and help!!! please!!! "erm well house is impossible to help-" actually no he isnt because he got better the first time. no one is impossible to help they're probably just difficult.

also... i lowkey dont understand why his vicodin was that big of a problem considering how when he went through withdrawls in the earlier seasons he genuinely couldn't work....like yes how he got his prescriptions was illegal but everything he does is illegal Also that was his only way to manage his pain and everyone just shamed him for it... STOP THAT!!!! who would have guessed that the guy who feels the pain knows how to handle it the best... wow....

i need to see more masters appreciation because she is actually so cute. yes it was annoying how she followed the rules but also at least she sticks with her morals!! everyone was so mean to her and for why?? like??? shes so cutie and her outfits were so cute and she was genuinely just a nice person and no one in the diagnosis gang could handle that!!! "oh, so youre a whore... oh, so youre a dumb whore!" I LOVE YOU MASTERs

also love how the episode where she left was all serious. and then. house and wilsons bullshit going on in the background. her, laying in the dark in the ddx room going through a moral dilemma and then wilson sneaking in to kidnap his kidnapped chicken, only for it to be a fake chicken and house locks him in his office, so he jumps across the balcony outside.... i hate them and their pranks theyre so insane

HELLO the end of season 7 is CRAZY!!! i didnt expect that. i was watching it with my dad and he was like "...why would he do that... can't he just be normal...."

dr adams looks like the girl from the ghost of you music video by mcr. like scarily like her. SHES SO PRETTYY

park and adams...... toxic doctor yuri..... trust me guys......

house and wilson's synchronization will be the death of me. thats so great i love them

hilson is so heartbreaking im actually ripping my hair OUTT!!! "i need you, okay... i need you to stick around as long as possible, because i don't know what im gonna do without you." oh my glob run me over with a car right now. the way they are both each other's support. the way no one else would deal with their bs. wilson sticks by house even throughout everything because he needs house to need him... and how he spent more time with house than he did with his wives..... its even sadder in houses case because he genuinely has no one else but wilson. wilson is the only one who really understands him. stacy ruined him, cameron didnt think he could love, cuddy thought he was insane, and wilson was by his side the entire time. the whole "universal recipient/universal donor" house drains and wilson gives. BRO. i hate them actually so much. theyve ruined me

also makes me wonder whats gonna happen once wilson is gone... like.. he ws right. house only had his job and wilson and he gave up his job for wilson, so once he's dead, house will have nothing left. i genuinely think house is gonna die with wilson, because nothing else mattered to him.

"cancer is boring" ok kill me

whos gonna homoerotically speed off on a motorcycle with me...

thats all. thank you for coming to my ramble i needed to get this out and i felt bad for bothering my friend with this. (shes never watched the show but wilson is her favorite and she was very upset by the ending)

[caitlynmeow]

Alcina is a clingy mother.

Ever since she had her first daughter, she knew that she won’t find it easy to leave the child behind and get back to work. Luckily, she has an office in her home and can be close enough to check on in her baby whenever she needs it (which is most of the time). Yes, she did hire the best Nannie’s to help look after Bela but it’s not enough because she needs to physically be there and hold her baby and give her all of her love and attention.

Even when she needs to travel for business, she takes Bela with her regardless of how young she is. Alcina isn’t going to sleep somewhere while her little baby is away from her. It fills her with anxiety and she can’t cope with that.

As Bela got older, Alcina’s feelings didn’t go away or lessen. With her walking and navigating her way around the large house, Alcina was worried about her toddler tripping and falling down. Any injury, any scrapped knee always put the woman on edge. She doesn’t handle it well when her babies are in pain.

Generally, Alcina accepted that when it comes to her children, she will always be like this. Yes, she’s clingy and she is always worried about them and it is what it is, her daughters will just have to accept that this is the way she is.

She can sense when something bad is going to happen.

She is aware that it’s a mother’s intuition but she can tell when something is wrong and when one of her children is not okay.

She can tell when a daughter is sick before she even sees her.

One time when Cassandra and Daniela went out and said that they’ll be back later to shopping with their mom, Alcina knew that something was wrong when her twelve year old and nine year old didn’t show up.

Alcina panicked and called the police immediately, reporting her children missing. The police didn’t want to start their search, first saying that it’s not been twenty four hours and that the girls might have fun away. Alcina nearly lost it, telling the police that her daughters were excited to go out with her and certainly not planning on running away. Her anger and intensity made the police start looking for the two girls.

A while later Cassandra and Daniela shows up, saying that they got lost and Cassandra’s phone had died. After the hugs and the tears Alcina looked at the two and

“And you couldn’t find a single building where you can ask to use the phone?! Next time your phone dies I don’t care what you do, you knock on doors you find the nearer person and you make the damned phone call and tell me where you are!”

Even Cassandra would hold back any smart ass comeback because their mother is really mad and she doesn’t want to test that. Because by the age of twelve, she already knows what her mother is capable of and she doesn’t want to get into more trouble that she’s already in.

Back to Alcina, the whole point of this post is to say that she’s one clingy mama and when her kids are away from her she misses them and she always always always knows when something is wrong like all her mama instincts would be screaming at her that something is wrong.

So Alcina is both clingy and has separation anxiety when it comes to her daughters.

[skywalker-swift]

btw cause I think some people still need to hear this, but the rose colored glasses coming off and the ‘revision’ to the meanings of her songs about joe was always gonna happen. with travis around or not. so saying she should focus on her new relationship is not the dunk you were thinking it is. like I keep saying it but she wrote him into her world, she included him in the world she wrote music in, and when she needed to, she wrote him out. why would he get to stay when he hasn’t earned that anymore? she would have kept him in, she even would have left the bad stuff in a box, but he didn’t seem like he wanted that part of her life. please can we all just realize that this is just such a normal reaction and end to a relationship and Taylor doesn’t need to ‘take the high road’ or whatever just because she’s in a new relationship. the reckoning of what happened was always going to be closing the chapter of the story she wrote for them. she’s releasing it whether you’re ready to reckon with her or not.

[roryhastoomanyfandoms]

There are many interpretations of the. Miguel and Gabriella and Miguel situation ans ALL OF THEM ARE GREAT but like...have my 2 cents...just hear me out...

Miguel in canon is an asshole in a major way largely because of his abusive upbringing, getting Eldest Daughtered from a young age trying to take care of his younger brother and protect him from George's violence and Conchata's...indifference/contempt? And he starts getting better once he becomes Spiderman, or at least starts thinking more about the consequences of his actions, and what the people in his life mean to him (shit still goes bad because his comics are insane)

If dad!Miguel never became Spiderman...it's honestly pretty likely he doesn't have that bit of growth and honestly, wouldn't have been a great dad. Not abusive, but I can imagine him being kind of absent and kinda emotionally neglectful, seeing how Miguels everywhere are prone to distancing themselves. Miguel also can't keep a relationship, either by breaking up or Spiderman Branded Widowing, so Gabriella wouldn't have had a consistent mother figure.

Alright, so, Gabriella, here, is being raised by a dad with so much baggage and the belief that its better to just keep her away from it (ei, keep her away from him), no real mom/mom is always changing because of Miguel's turbulent love life, maybe her uncle (depending on. Stuff) and maybe her grandma (depending heavily on Stuff). This is a fragile environment that does love her, but ultimately the adults in her life have too much shit going on themselves to effectively tend to her and her needs, especially as she becomes a tween

But our Miguel.

Our Miguel has every reason to love her wholly and unapologetically. Because he has done some very questionable things to have this child, and he treasures every goddamn second. This is a privilege he has comprised his morals for, and he isn't taking it for granted like Gabriella's actual father.

Meanwhile, Gabriella's dad fucking vanishes one night and the guy who shows up looking close enough to fool adults, he's everything she wanted from her dad. He doesn't raise his voice, doesn't get curt. He doesn't have a new girlfriend every other month. He doesn't have this tense, confused look in his eye whenever he looks at her. The guilt is still there, but it's something else. Its not her dad not knowing how to be better. She doesn't know what it is, but has suspicions.

Her papa looks at her like he's finally figured out how to feel about her, like she's finally stopped being another responsibility or chore to tend to. This one loves her even when she needs help with homework, even when she gets in trouble at school, evening when puberty hormones make her temperamental.

Gabriella doesn't know what happened to the first one, and she never finds out. She just knows that there's something...wrong, with the man she calls Papa now, but he loves her the way she always wanted...so it's fine, right?

Miguel, for his part, sees himself teeter towards their parents. Sees himself have the thing he wants so badly, would do anything for, and skirt the line their parents crossed, their whole lives. And then, that other man with his face dies. Maybe someone else, maybe Miguel really did kill himself.

Either way.

A child gets a parent who loves them, a parent gets a child who they can love freely.

So, it's fine, right?

[oceanwithouthermoon]

saiki is such a fucking loser when it comes to romance (and also in general shh) that no matter who it is hes trying to date, he ALWAYS waits for THEM to confess. he will NEVER be the one to confess first..

i dont think he even CONSIDERS the fact that he could confess first, even though he can read their mind and knows exactly how they feel about him.. he waits and waits for a confession and when he doesnt get it, he gets really frustrated and is like 'i guess they just arent serious about me 😒🙄' BRO YOU HAVENT CONFESSED EITHER ?? YOU HAVE THE CAPABILITIES TO DO IT TOO WHY ARE YOU A HYPOCRITE ??

[timothylawrence]

finding out Ulder was distant from pretty much Wylls birth has left me only capable of thinking abt how lonely all of Wyll’s childhood stories are. he’s always alone in them and if his father ever makes an appearance, it’s to scold him.

no wonder he searched for mermaids and lead such a fantastical imagination. he was always alone and the only person he ever craved love and attention from was unreachable- even if he was physically there.

And now I’m reminded of a quote by Dennis Nurkse: in the park the child says: watch me. It will not count unless you see.

[hella1975]

tams azula is sooo fascinating bc while canon azula doesn't really show her age at all like she's completely desensitised to so much shit 'she is fourteen' is not a justification for ANYTHING both in her own mind and in other people's, in tams she has zuko. and yes the world has been abundantly cruel to her but zuko hasn't. he's basically raised azula and he's done so in a way that she's allowed to show her age, but she still only shows her age in very azula-esque ways. there's no reluctance to see violence like you'd expect from a fourteen-year-old, and like ive said before, that means zuko can't play on that reluctance in order to shield her, but he still wants to shield her from that violence because regardless of what SHE feels about it, as the eldest he knows fundamentally that she shouldn't be seeing certain things no matter how well she can handle them. and seeing zuko effectively PLAY azula in order to protect her is so interesting and complicated and fun