#like the fandom reaction is making me anxious in a bad way

[navstuffs]

Tag, you are on it!

Pairing: Miguel O'Hara x GN!Reader

Summary: Miguel finds you and Gabriella playing on the backyard. Based on the comic Tag - Pixie and Brutus by @pet_foolery

Warning tags: domestic bliss, fluff, happiness, feel good type, my bad attempt on writing comedy lol

Author's Notes: after being obsessed with this man over a year, i finally joined the fandom (its never too late i guess). hope you enjoy your reading!

Miguel arrives home exhausted from work, taking off his coat and loosening his tie. What an awful day! Between deadlines not being respected and useless meetings taking far too long, Miguel had to stay late to finish a sudden important project. He was fortunate enough to have you pick Gabriella up from school. 

You met Gabriella after five months of dating Miguel(and almost two years of knowing each other). "A friend," Miguel explained the first time you met, nervous about his little girl's reaction—a sentiment you also shared, way more desperate for her approval. 

Everything went so well; even Miguel felt a little jealous of you, watching his daughter gravitate in your personal space the entire night. Especially when, before you left, he noticed Gabriella waving so you could kneel on her level. She covered your ears with her small hands, whispering as you nodded. Miguel observed quite anxiously, his eyes focused on any reaction. You just opened an enigmatic smirk as if you were teasing him that you could win his daughter so quickly.

Three months after this, Gabriella suddenly asked on a Saturday morning why you hadn't moved in yet, almost causing Miguel to drop the breakfast plate with scrambled eggs he had prepared. You and Miguel tried to explain that you still haven't talked about it yet, and adults can be complicated sometimes. 

Besides being Gabriella's new favorite play partner, Miguel hadn't tried to insert you into their daily routine. Not because he didn't trust you, just...Miguel just had to take things slower. His main priority would always be Gabriella, her well-being and happiness. Inserting you into their routine would make it hard for both if you and him didn't work out. And you agreed, understanding as you always were: Gabriella should always be the top priority. 

As it happened on one of your previous dates when the nanny called, informing Gabriella had gotten a sudden fever and had puked once. You urged Miguel to leave, telling him you would solve everything at the restaurant. Miguel was so surprised when you appeared in the house thirty minutes late, still dressed in your date clothes, with anxious eyes on the little girl in his arms. You stayed that night, ensuring to leave only after Gabriella's fever got down as she slept in your arms - when she heard your voice, she opened her arms begging for you to hold her.

Gabriella was already too attached, and Miguel was too much in love. That's why he was still unsure when he asked you to pick her up. 

When Miguel hears Gabriella's giggle from the backyard, his heart instantly warms. Your capacity to make her laugh made him jealous before. Now, it only makes him fall in love with you even harder. To think there was ever a time Miguel was terrified of what would happen if Gabriella didn't like you. 

He follows his favorite sound in the world, his body relaxing. You two seem to be playing tag: Gabriella never seems to catch you, but she doesn't seem to mind just having fun as you run away in the middle of his vast backyard, both barefoot. Miguel slowly joins his daughter, kneeling on her side as she hugs him tightly, all sweaty. "Papi! We are playing a tag game." 

"I noticed." 

"I don't seem to be able to tag back, though," Gabriella replies, confused in her innocence. As if she could with her small legs. You are still turned around from them, probably catching your breath, unaware of Miguel's presence yet. An idea pops on his mind.

"Tag me." 

"What?" 

"Tag me." Miguel offers his hand, opening a smile. Gabriella opens a big grin, tagging him.

"So, have you given up, Gabi?" You, still in the middle of the backyard, turn around with a playful smile. It completely disappears from your face as you watch Gabriella tag Miguel instead, your boyfriend slowly raising. A dangerous smile on his lips warning you to run.  

You only have one second to react, too slow already, as Miguel starts sprinting in your direction as Gabriella encourages him, excited. Your lungs complain as you run away from him, feeling Miguel hot at your heels. It is the only time you will probably curse his long and strong legs.

You give a quick look over your shoulder, panicking. Miguel has that intense, wild look in his eyes, the one you see when he is determined to get what he wants: to get you. You ignore how your body feels and wonder if you shouldn't just jump in the pool (what a joke, Miguel was a great swimmer as well). 

"Behind you." It is the last thing you hear before Miguel pounces on you, managing to do it gently to a round of cheers from Gabriella. 

You both fall to the floor, and Miguel turns you around with a frown. "Were you going to jump in the pool?" 

"Who, me? Nooo. So you could swim and catch me?!" 

"Liar! You were about to jump in the pool!"

"As a distraction, only! You would have jumped straight after me anyway."

"Oh, I would have." He is serious, you know that.

With his body thoroughly pressed against yours, you hug him, "Missed you. How was work?" 

“Terrible. As always.”

"As always." You agree, watching his expression change. Miguel suddenly becomes aware of how your body is pressed against his, feeling the blood rush to his cheeks. He tries to get away from you, but you don't let him, your arms locking him down, a malicious smile on your face.

"Don't…"

"I am not doing anything." 

"Not in front of-"

"Miguel, I am not doing anything!" You giggle, the sensation of a victory spreading against your chest. "You know, I wouldn't do anything in front of-"

You both look toward where Gabriela was standing before to find nothing there. Before you two can even untangle, Gabriella jumps on her father's back, startling you both. 

"Tag!" 

She immediately jumps away, giggling as she runs inside the house. Miguel sighs, not before your hand cups his cheek so you can look at him. "I will keep her company. It is fine."

"I don't want to impose-" 

"Miguel, it is not an imposition. She likes me better anyway."

Miguel gets up from the floor, helping you stand as you watch Gabriella hide behind the sofa, her messy hair and eyes peeking out.

"Are you going to…stay?" Miguel wonders, his tone soft. 

"Of course I will. Maybe we can repeat this tag game after Gabriella is asleep?" You offer, bluntly teasing him. "With much less clothes."

You smirk, watching Miguel's mouth drop open. Gabriella calls your name again and you give him a peck on the cheek, before running away to her direction. 

[gabrielsbubblegumbitch]

Why do you think ppl in fandom have a stronger reaction to rape than murder and cannibalism? Honestly I find it really annoying how they act like they're less horrible crimes than rape. part of me feels like the reason of ppl's disdain for valentino is because he's abusing a fan favourite character like Angel...idk if angel was just another nobody ppl wouldn't cared that much but I could be wrong.

Well the topic of rape generates a stronger emotional response because for at least half of the population it's a very real threat so watching it in the series hits too close to home. I don't think many people are notoriously afraid of cannibals but so many people are forced to constantly think about the threat of potential sexual assault. Everytime I meet a new man I have this thing crawling under my skin, anxious expectation for something bad happen to me, especially when he's charming, popular and handsome; I know I'm not alone in this. Watching those fears depicted on screen is way scarier than seeing Hannibal Lecter making Wellington out of some poor fucker. After all Angel could be me if I'm not "careful enough". So I think that's perfectly fine for people to hate Val or feel uncomfortable watching him and don't have same feelings towards Alastor or Adam. I just don't like when someone uses some global morality as an argument in this discourse because it just a matter of emotional reaction to faction.

Dunno despite my rather healthy relationship with fiction for me it's Adam and Lute that make me uncomfortable. I can interact with these characters only in the realm of memes because for the last 6 months I've been daily seeing what word genocide really means so I don't really wish to dive into minds of people commiting one. That's what scares me. At the same time I don't think that Adam stans support genocide or that I have any moral superiority over them.

[lynaferns]

I feel like people who insist and celebrate too much that "their fanfics and AUs" are now "canonically accurate" because they played Sun as passive aggressive from the beginning, are starting to drive a wedge in the community with their comments, especially when These are important figures in the fandom.

I've already seen someone "famous" mention that "I used to consider Sun basic and boring for just being the eager good guy" and wow, that disappointed me a little. If anything, Moon falls into the same "basic" category by being just "the bad guy," canonically speaking. But they are not pleasant things to read, are they?

I personally think that if Sun hadn't seemed so anxious, vulnerable and partially open/friendly in the beginning, he wouldn't be so many people's comfort character today. Because I highly doubt that his attitude in HW2 would have made so many people feel comfortable, not to mention that it would have surely stung them in one or another possible trauma.

I've been trying so hard not to insult anyone because I believe that good communication comes from respect and good manners but some people are pissing me off. (Not you anon)

Listen, those people can go fuck themselves with their stupid comments and their entitled opinions.

I'm also a follower of canon acurated and I see no reason in mocking people who don't follow canon. It makes me so mad reading comments laughing at people whose interpretation has been contradicted by canon.

If they are taking pleasure from seeing how some in the community are reacting to HW2 with sadness (which is a VERY understandable reaction and should NOT be made fun of) they are not worth your attention, they aren't worth ANYONES attention. If it makes you feel better block them and move on because you will be happier this way.

And those who say "I tHOuGhT sUn WaS bAsIc AnD bOrInG" clearly they didn't see through the characters. You could say exactly the same about any of the other characters. You could say exactly the same about ANY CHARACTER EVER MADE.

People are so fast at taking one single trait of a character and make it their whole personality like it's the only and true thing about them and if you thing otherwise you're wrong. "Oh but we have this other behavior of him shown before, this may just be another aspect of their personality-" "nope, I don't see that, that doesn't exist, this is the truth about your comfort character, suck it" fucking bullshit.

Kellen makes a great job at interpreting Sun's character, if you stop to hear all the voice lines you can see a lot of aspects of him, just paying attention to his voice. Everyone jumped so fast to the "Sun is a sassy mean bitch" train forgetting that: he was originally in theater, he takes care of kids, he tries to be nice to kids, he probably gets criticized daily by parents and employees so there's no reason for him to be constantly nice to everyone, he is tired, like seriously, if you listen to his voice lines half of them sounds tired and trying to smile trough it but at the verge of exploding.

We don't even know how Sun and Moon are when they are alone.

I personally don't think the interactions in HW2 are canon events in the lore, it wouldn't make sense.

I'm so sorry that y'all are going through this. Don't let people's shitty comments get to you, ok? Go read your comfort fic or reblog that old piece of fanart that made you giggle and kick your feet the first time you saw it.

(EDIT: read the reblogs)

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

I suspect I know the answer but. AITA for "disappearing" from my online accounts pretty regularly?

I (22) have been fairly active in online fandom culture since I was ~13. Most of that has been on tumblr, some on twitter/tiktok/discord. I bounce around between different fandoms-- there's not really any one fandom that has stuck since I was a kid-- and I'm not a big creator. I don't do art, I occasionally write fanfic but never anything that's gotten super famous (which I'm cool with, I write for the enjoyment of myself and the like 5 other freaks who like the same things I do. it would honestly really bother me if I got too much attention.)

I also have some issues with paranoia and social detachment. I dealt with rather severe childhood abuse, which I'm not going to discuss, but which basically means I'm very emotionally detached. I have solo hobbies i really enjoy, and I like discussing common interests (like fandom stuff) with people, but I've never really had friends/romantic interests, and have zero interest in either of those things. The only people I'm really close to are my siblings. I'm definitely not an introvert, not shy/socially anxious, and not lonely. I have morals and care about society in a general sense, and I want the best for people, so I try to be polite and a Good Person as much as possible-- but ultimately I don't feel any kind of attachment to other people. I really don't want to hurt people, I just want to be left alone.

I really try to politely communicate this to people, since I've had quite a few incidents where I've been told I "lead people on", or people thinking we're friends and then getting upset when they realize I really don't care that much about them. It does make me feel bad to hurt others like that (and is also frustrating to deal with), but I can't exactly force myself to have emotions. I get along well with my irl coworkers/classmates/roommates, since they understand I just need a lot of space. Where I may be TA is with online friends.

About once every 6-12 months, I delete my entire online presence and start over. I orphan my ao3 fics, delete any and all accounts, and make sure my new accounts don't in any way link back to my old accounts. Usually when I do this it's because 1 I've changed interests and don't care about my old fandom, or 2 I feel like the people I know online start getting too close and emotionally attached to me. I usually post an explanation a few days before so people don't think something bad happened, saying that I'm going to be taking a break from social media for a while, and if anyone asks me for another way to contact me I just say I'm going to be completely offline. Then I just.... wipe everything and start over. I don't really know what my old mutuals are doing and don't particularly care? Like obviously I wish all the best for them, but I just don't think about them at all.

I've been doing this since I was a young teenager, but I was discussing fandom/social media presence with some irl classmates recently and brought it up. The reactions ranged from "weird but harmless" to "super mean and hurtful to the people you abandoned".

So: tumblr, AITA for disappearing?

What are these acronyms?

[mogoce-nocoj]

since I wrote down most of it already anyway —

gig report, Köln 24.03.24

HOMETOWN GIG!!! was very excited and kind of anxious, so happy they were playing here

Sector 5's frontman got a tiara, the band has really been accepted by the fandom now <3

the crowd loved them and also started chanting for JC Stewart

Bojan took the tiara with the veil and was like “oh this must be for Kris right? Because Kris is a princess!” and then put it on Krisʼs head

everyone booed when Bojan had to take the fairy wings off again

he went to look for the fairy wings for Metulji and then also gave Jan a headband with butterflies on it or sth? And then said “let's make a serious song unserious!”

cracked up during Metulji again because people at the front started doing the macarena (sadly it didn't get as bad as Leipzig, I was kinda hoping for that)

Bojan also didn't take off the fairy wings for Everybody's Waiting so we got it with fairy Bojan which looked very funny

they were supposed to play Bluza but people started yelling for Schlager/Behind Those Eyes (which kinda makes sense for Cologne because the melody is very reminiscent of an old Schlager song that's very well known here) and Bojan went “wait. should we play Schlager?” and the guys were just like “yeah, whatever” so they changed the setlist and played Schlager and Bojan said that they've never seen such a reaction before

Bojan also said they kinda forgot that Schlager is an established thing and genre here lol

I said “thankfully Bojan isn't next to me during umazane misli this time!” to my friend, only to turn to my right side and see the sector 5 guys pushing their way through the crowd right next to me 🫠

joined Jan in doing the macarena during UM so I literally missed everything that Bojan was doing and didn't listen at all to the people who were singing, ooops

Bojan went on stage again, people started pointing to the sector 5 singer, Bojan exclaimed “ARE YOU THE SECTOR 5 SINGER???” and gave him the microphone so that he could sing umazane misli too (<3)

Kris was very stoic throughout the gig, boy was not smiling at all, I think he was pretty tired but idk

Jan came out, talked to us, went back into the bus to leave some stuff, came out again, and then said “oh I want to talk to the sector 5 guys again” and a few minutes later I saw them enthusiastically playing flunkyball down the road (drinking game)

they changed tourbuses which was really funny because we came back from getting food and suddenly there were two tourbuses next to each other and we were really confused (the new one is taking them to Slovenia after the Italy gigs, no idea what they're gonna do for the UK leg)

met so many nice people again, thanks to everyone who talked to me <3 <3 <3

[goodluckclove]

How I Critique Writing (A Loose Collection of Tips)

Someone asked me for insights into my methodology when it comes to giving feedback on writing and I realized I had way more than I could say in a reasonable amount of private messages. Are you someone who I've spoken to about their writing? Did someone send you their work and you don't know how to respond? Maybe this will help? Based on how people react I feel like it might be controversial but it seems to work.

When someone sends me their writing, no matter the size, subject or genre, I:

Take it seriously. It's a generational epic about the Vietnam war and its effects. It's a cute, young adult romance. It's Zim and Dib from Invader Zim realizing they've always been in love with each other. All of these things can be written with earnestness, strength, honesty and skill. It's fucking hard to write and if someone writes a single sentence that wouldn't otherwise exist its worth holding in your hands and examining with the same eye as if you were taking an interesting book off the shelf.

Respond with curiosity. It's common for critiques to follow a theme of ambiguous disdain. This doesn't work. Delete this. Bad. No. Gross. Guess what? That's not helpful. If you got that feedback, even if you followed it, you wouldn't be thrilled about it. Oftentimes you can take a line that makes you want to say Bad and ask something else. What is this supposed to express? What were you trying to do here? Am I supposed to feel happy/sad/uncertain when I read this? Curiosity can reframe something that you don't think works as a reader and turn it into an opportunity for the writer to look inward and solve their own problem. They might explain what they were trying to do, and if you were to say that it didn't pan out for you they're way more likely to tweak things themselves and feel like they still have control over their project.

Give comments. I've started giving more in-depth comments on the writing people give me depending on how anxious they are about it. If you're a pretty confident writer I'll give a summary of what I gained and what I was left wondering, what I thought and what I felt, what associations it made me think of in terms of tone and other forms of media - stuff like that. For newer writers, especially those who are far more doubting of their own abilities, I go buck wild. And in my opinion notes should be less like Good! I like this! Wow! Nice! (What are you, grading my book report? No thanks), and more like what you think when you're reading a book you're truly invested in. Make jokes about the characters (Not mean ones. I will send bugs to you in the mail.), chart exact lines that provoke physical reactions, even a small one. Can you imagine reading someone treat your work like it has its own fandom on Tumblr? You can do that for someone else.

Fucking have some fucking awareness of the fact that it might not be for you and that doesn't mean it's bad. I'm angry about this one considering the novel a friend sent me last night that they've been too terrified to try and post online, despite it being fucking brilliant. I'll try and calm down. Listen - you read what you like. I mainly read literary and experimental fiction, some poetry, horror and some sci-fi. Not a lot of genre fiction. But I will always be down to read someone's high fantasy story, because even though I don't really like fantasy I know what the good ones sound like. I've forced myself to gain a sense of what someone else would like, even if I don't like it. And I can still critique it. If I'm a builder and I see a house that's painted a shade of green I find sinful for a home (i.e. mint), I can look past that and focus on the state of the walls and the stability of the foundation. You aren't a reviewer, man. You are neither Siskel, nor Ebert. They write for readers, you write for writers. So you don't like historical fiction? Cool, man. Congrats. If someone trusts you enough to give you some to read and critique, you should still do so objectively. If you give it an automatic F because you wouldn't buy it, then you are legally a stinky little trash man. That's just the law.

Ask them what they liked to write and what was the hardest. There's apparently a weird trend on online writer communities that say there are specific rules that all writers need to follow. This is not true. It just isn't. If the dialogue in a story you read is weak, and the writer says they hate writing dialogue and really struggle with it, maybe tell them they don't have to use it. You might change their entire life.

RESPOND WITH CURIOSITY. You see the Ask games where people try and get more detail on the WIP of certain authors. If you have a WIP and I ask you a worldbuilding question that doesn't relate to the direct plot of the story as it exists now, I bet you'd like to talk about it. If I ask if you were inspired by a certain tone or movie, you might know the work I was talking about and feel happy. Or you might not know it, look it up, and feel inspired. I don't think people realize that a critique of new/unfinished writing is not a one-and-done exchange. You are taking part in an isolated process in a way few other people on the planet will. It's not homework. It's. Not. Homework. We spend so much of our time alone just fiddling our hands and making our magic, and in instances like these we share something in one of the ultimate forms of artistic trust. They're taking you into a world that hasn't fully formed yet. Is it cool? Can you tell me about it? Can they?

Be nice. Storytime, friends. In the way early 2010s, there was something on the internet called sporking. It was pretty much a line by line roast of someone's writing - typically fanfic. And I hate to say this, but I read a lot of it. I was 13, somehow untreated and overmedicated, and I was miserable constantly. Just cold in my chest. At one point I had the chance to critique a stranger's story - probably another child - and I essentially mocked the whole thing. They ended up deleting the story off the website. I cannot begin to describe to you the shame I feel about doing this, even ten years later. It burns in my heart and makes me sick to my stomach. If you are a serious writer, especially a young writer, and you insult another writer's craft to their face just as they're getting started - you will regret it. I promise you that. You will think about holding something alive and full of potential in your hands and squeezing your fists until it is just flecks of meat and crushed bone. It will haunt you. Maybe only a little, but constantly and for the rest of your life. So don't do it.

Wow what a grim note to leave on! That's essentially my philosophy on writing critique, do with it what you will. Want to send me some writing to receive this kind of excessive treatment? Cool! I have an email in my pinned post and I'll do that! I'm also down to chat if anyone wants to send me asks or DMs on writing/writing struggles/publishing tips.

[11thsdoctress]

“is it alright to say what I feel?” [11th Doctor x You]

Fandom: Doctor Who

Ship: 11th Doctor x Reader

Word Count: 1102

Summary: The Doctor has been feeling some things for the reader for a while, but after seeing a Ganger of his had some intentions, he had said something that may expose his feelings.

Warnings: none that I can think of.

Request: No

Author’s Note: I really don’t know if I executed this concept properly, I really loved the idea of the Doctor being jealous of himself. I don’t think it’s my best work, but I did this mostly for self-indulging reasons, Anyways happy reading!

The fic is inspired by a song called, “Kiss & Disappear” - Vincent Eco (https://open.spotify.com/track/7ng0ZrCaSjTL6sgxbtXjXB?si=649f2e873c8a4e64)

The Doctor had feelings not too long after you joined him on his adventures through time and space, he already took a liking to you after literally bumping into you in a chase from aliens in disguise on Earth, after that fiasco, he asked if you wanted to join him in some adventures, just to make you sure and to let you know what adventures he’s referring, but not so long after, it became more often that you joined him on traveling anywhere in space and time.

The more often you joined the Doctor on his adventures, the more he developed feelings for you, at first, he managed to convince himself that it was just admiration of your bravery and strength, but the first time he saw you hurt, even though it was just a mild injury, he felt his heart dropped, not being able to handle to see you in that state, so he was being careful in protecting you, and keeping you close to him.

But for you, It all started by telling Amy about your crush on the Doctor, nervous as you were, afraid of her reaction, it was an anxious moment, but thankfully, she was supportive of you and wanted to help out. The two of you were close and sometimes team up when it comes to bantering against the Doctor.

Right now, You were glancing at the two Doctors in the room, knowing one is a Ganger, you just didn’t know which was which, but you just listened to what plans and ideas they had in mind since you didn’t know what to contribute just yet.

One of the two Doctors ran with Amy to find Rory leaving you with the other Doctor in the room, you sighed trying to think what to do for now while waiting for them to return,

“I saw the way you looked at us.” the Doctor hummed,

“W-what do you mean by that?” you were cut off from your thoughts by him placing his finger on your lips, shushing you.

“Ah ah, you know what I mean, dear.” his voice suddenly was lower as he got closer and closer, making you nervous and jittery as you back onto the wall. Nervous, you just tried to question your way out, “What are you talking about?” you averted eye contact as he trapped you against the wall.

One of the Doctor’s hands grabbed your chin and made you face him, leaving you with no choice but to look at him,

“I saw how looked at him and me, you were nervous, yet intrigued by us talking, so my conclusion is you desire me? Am I wrong?” he smirks as his face was inches close from your face, you tried to push him away, but as soon as your arms were halfway up, his hands caught them and pinned them on the wall, above your head, “Oops, you’re not moving til you answer me.”

You gulped, not knowing his plan, your breathing became more unstable, hearing your heart beat so loud, that it could burst out your ribcage, 

“So what will it be, love? Do you love me?” The last word made your spine tingle as he leans his forehead against yours, 

“I-I…I, uh…” is all you managed to say, the Doctor was about to say something, before being cut off by the other Doctor,

“Oi! That should’ve been me!” The Doctor pried the other Doctor off of you, making the one stumble into the dark corner of the room,

“Are you okay? Did he hurt you?” The Doctor that saved you from the confrontation, asked as he looks at you, worried out of his mind, as he was looking for any signs if the other did anything bad to you.

Amy also rushed in as the Doctor from the dark was now walking towards you, “Information is a powerful thing…I was just putting a theory to the test…” he chuckles

“She’s mine, back off you Ganger!” he hissed making you and Amy look at him, surprised at what he just said.

Later on, after the whole conundrum had ended and the real Doctor had dropped off Amy and Rory at their house, it was now just You and the Doctor in the Tardis, awkwardly quiet for a bit.

The Doctor was fidgeting with the console of the Tardis, trying to distract himself from the thought of what he just said to you, wanting to save you from the Ganger that looked like himself, he thought it was odd that he had done it out of jealousy.--

You were about to say something, until the Doctor broke the silence first, “so I wanted to ask you something earlier..”

Your heart was racing again, nervous about what he would ask,

“What he said,.. Is it true?” he asked as he blushed a bit, an unusual sight for you since he never shows this side of him, 

“W-which one?” You sat down, burying your face out of embarrassment.

“I have been thinking, wishful thinking for a while…” he averted his gaze, his voice sounding a bit more gentle but firm before he sighs, hoping for the best outcome on what he was about to say.

“If it’s alright to say what I feel?” he asks as he pulled you close, wrapping you in his embrace, blushing, you just nodded, making the Doctor blush again, his eyes fluttering.

“I-I love you so much to the point I feel bad that I might have embarrassed both me and you from what I said earlier and I was afraid that he’d hurt you, and I don’t want that moment to be happening and taken by another version of me that’s going to make you change the way how you see me,” he admitted quietly as he buried his face in your shoulder, slightly embarrassed from the blabber as he held you tight, his feelings of jealousy subsiding, he hated hiding his feelings for you, but at the same time, didn’t want to make you uncomfortable, so he thought it was best to keep his feelings to himself, but now, at least he doesn’t have to do that anymore, but was still afraid of your reaction.

“Oh Doctor…” You held his face, gently caressing it to calm his frantic nerves,  “If you really feel that in your heart, then let’s not waste any time.” You brush your lips against his before he initiated the kiss, it was gentle and sweet, and full of passion, after a bit, He pulled away, “You have no idea how much I wished for this moment.”

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(Author’s Note: I am a sucker for confessing love stories, but I hope that this story isn’t too bad and I hope the concept I had in mind carried through, after all I wrote this story without using too much of my braincells, hope you enjoyed this though.)

[the-blue-fairie]

hey, no worries at all about venting in the tags of... your reblog of my reblog of your post, lol!! as i mentioned, i was trying to find a completely different old post by someone else, and then ended up seeing your post in my search and i just feel that it's a great explanation of some of the issues that i have with the ending. i can totally understand why people who like the idea behind the ending and what the writers were trying to say with it want to defend it, to an extent, but i agree with you that they just didn't successfully say that. which only makes me more frustrated with the ending than i imagine i would've been otherwise. and i'm sorry people have been trying to group you in with frozen 2 haters when you didn't want to be seen that way! and to me, the posts of yours that i've read about the movie (including the one i reblogged that prompted this ask) never came off that way either. you always seemed like someone who had your issues with it and criticisms of it, but could also still see positives in it and things to celebrate about it.

Thank you for sending me this message. I apologize for not replying for a day; life got a bit busy.

Looking back on my old discussions of F2, I feel I was hamstrung by not wanting to make my friends angry. I have friends who are fans of F2 and, while I wrote those posts, I was cripplingly scared that they would stop being friends with me, or unfollow me, or dismiss my critiques as mere negativity. In fact, my fears were justified. Some of these people DID unfollow me and DID tell me I was being overwhelmingly negative. This broke my heart - especially because I spilled so much ink trying to balance every negative I discussed with a positive and celebrating the good elements, but it felt like it didn't matter. It didn't matter how anxious I was to be understood, it didn't matter that I was writing in good faith. And that hurt.

I also feel that I was intimidated by the extreme sides of the fandom. If, for example, I wrote a post criticizing Elsa's arc, anti-Elsa people could jump on it and say, "See, this is why Elsa is a bad sister."

So that's why, in my vent, I said I was too kind to the film. I was so constricted by being terrified of other people's reactions - terrified of having an unpopular opinion. So I qualified all my statements with, "Of course, I don't mean to be overly negative" instead of just focusing on my points.

I just want to shake people sometimes when they tell me the point of the film and say, "They followed through on their intent with very poor execution. They DIDN'T DO the things you are saying they did. They tried, but there are scores of reasons why they did not succeed - reasons that go beyond my personal preference, that have to do with characterization, pacing, story structure, etc."

It hurts because... I feel like, in the past, I tried to force myself to like the film more than I do. I've wanted to like it for years, but the last time I put it on I broke down crying and not in a good way and I just... I wish it worked. I wish that all the various thematic threads coalesced into an emotionally satisfying whole. And I know that, because of my emotional response, people might just dismiss all my discussion - no matter how nuanced I am, no matter how fair towards the film I am in my analysis, as, "Well, you're biased from the start."

No. I've spent years trying to see all sides, empathizing with a variety of people in the fandom, sometimes even at my own expense. I do value the parts of F2 that work and acknowledge the beauty of various elements including Anna and Elsa bonding with the Northuldra, the anticolonialist themes, The Next Right Thing, and more.

But at the same time, I argue that my case against other aspects of the film is robust, cohesive, and correct.

And to the friends that can see I am writing not to be a hater, but in good faith with actual analysis and discussion in mind - you mean the world to me. Thank you.

Sorry, this became kind of a vent in itself.

[alovelyburn]

So there’s this Japanese fan on twitter who has been posting a lot of excerpts from interviews with Miura and such.  This is the reason for my post the other day about feeling increasingly correct the more I read Miura quotes, but at the time it was all just  in Japanese so I didn’t really get into it. But now they’re posting translations and so I feel a little more like talking about what they were posting, some of which was just chef’s kiss.

-About Griffith, he said that he was trying to create a character who gives a different impression depending on who’s around him or who is reading - if Griffith is giving off a definite impression then he’s not Griffith anymore. Even if Griffith is strategizing, Miura wanted it to be unclear whether he was carefully plotting or moving on instinct. He wanted Griffith to be kind of a void that way (where its impossible to know what exactly his deal is and he’s mysterious). He said if he had to put it into words he wanted to establish a childlike mysterious character ( here )

-He said that originally Griffith was supposed to be the confident and indomitable one and Guts was supposed to be the insecure one, but as time went on facets emerged and Griffith became a person who desires certainty (as opposed to one who is genuinely certain). ( here )

-He says that it’s Griffith is a professional’s professional as far as affecting people’s hearts, so it’s unusual for him to “fall” in personal relationships, but Guts is the exception to this and he portrayed it (brought it to catharsis) by making Griffith do the most unGriffithlike foolish things. ( here )

-He says that Guts will probably end up becoming like Griffith because Griffith is the one who gives him the sustenance to live. ( here )

edit: to be clear, he does specify the Guts of NOW, he’s not talking about Griffith shaping him during the Golden Age.

-He designs characters with the thought of what they will bring out in Guts. He goes on to say that Grififth brings out Guts’ “impatience (in the sense of being anxious to do something), will to fight and loneliness,” Puck brings out his humor and crushes his seriousness and Casca brings out guilt, frustration and pity (this is prior to her mental healing). ( here )

This is the Twitter  - a lot of the quotes are from a 30 page interview with Miura in a research journal. but some of it is from stuff that’s been translated previously either by fans or in official publications like the guidebook.

Anyway it’s all hilarious to me because I spent a whole day going through the twitter and just kind of wildly gesticulating and screaming, “I KNEW IT” internally. Its also pretty funny in light of the “how does Japan see Griffith” discussion from last week because if you scroll around you’ll see

-the twitter’s owner suggest that Berserk won’t have a revengey ending and will involve a reconciliation -them retweeting someone who says griffith is disgusting and selfish -and someone suggesting Berserk will end with Griffith ascending to the throne of God.

IT’S JUST FUNNY RIGHT like this is what I mean about there being a much wider range of reactions and expectations vs what goes on in the west which is basically “he did a bad thing hes bad and evil and it has to end by butchering him violently.”

(TBH I was kind of reluctant to post about it because western fandom is so rude sometimes, but I don’t know how many of the rage monster types read my tumblr tbh, like why.)

[junkshop-disco]

Just posted a new chapter so what better time for a fic meme. Tagged by @magicalrocketships but idk if I have any better screen grabs than theirs.

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

38, which makes the average word count completely ridiculous.

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

1,048,397. Average word count 27,589. Brevity, I don't know her.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Downton Abbey, Fate the Winx Saga, Good Omens currently.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Honeysuckle Arch

Learning to Speak the Language of Flowers

An Equal and Opposite Reaction

Instalments

The Could in People

Whenever I look at the stats, I'm taken aback at just how skewed my sense of which fics are the most popular is. Because I would not have guessed some of these at all.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to, but I am--at heart--a deeply anxious squirrel masquerading as a person and any sort of interaction with people I don't know well can sometimes be too much for me to handle. When my anxiety is bad, I imagine that every single comment will be about how shit my writing is and what an awful person I am, so I can't read them right away, let alone reply. I have to work up to them and do a couple at a time and I always intend to reply but sometimes, weeks/months/years pass without me feeling up to it and then it feels too awkward. Right now my anxiety is much better thanks to lots of medication and some pretty hefty life changes, so I'm more able to engage with them like a vaguely normal person, but sometimes if I have a bad week, opening the comment box to reply 'thanks! Glad you liked it' makes me feel like James Bond sitting nose to nose with an armed bomb. I do hold onto comments, though. I screen grab ones that really resonated and re-read them when I feel down. They mean a great deal to me, even if I can't always say so in a timely fashion.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It's definitely a Merlin fic, possibly Doubt Creeps In? That whole thing is pretty angsty and there's no real resolution. I wrote a few angsty endings in Merlin fic.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Idk that I've ever written truly happy ending. I've written cute endings, give-them-a-break endings, but I don't know if I'd describe any of them as happy. I don't tend to go in for them. Nothing winds me up more than an epilogue with a pasted on happy ending. I have been known to hurl a book across the room.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't for a while but I used to when I wrote HP fic. My favourite ever was 'you should be flayed for writing this. I hope you die.' I still laugh when I think about it.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes. All kinds? I have written the odd fade to black in my time and also the most unremitting filth in all flavours of vanilla to kinky.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I've written a handful. Back on LJ I wrote a Merlin/Twilight crossover where Edward and Merlin team up to fight evil vampire unicorns who can only be killed by virgins singing at them until they explode.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yep. Tbh I just feel sad for the people who do it. It seems like a very hollow way to do fandom.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yep. And podficced! It's always nice.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I've done a few Big Bangs and other events where I collaborated with someone and it's always one of my favourite things to do. I've also co-written some... stuff on anon, which we're not going to talk about 👀

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Can anyone pick just one? Like Hotel California, I check out but I never leave. I am still here for Mulder and Scully, Mal and Inara, Tara and Willow, Giles and Jenny, Bradley and Colin, Merlin and Gwaine, Nick and Harry and Niall, Isak and Even, Remus, Lily, Sirius and Tonks, Crowley and Aziraphale, Thomas and Richard, Ed and Stede, Farah and Saul. The ships I love never leave me and picking a favourite would make me sad.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

If I'm posting it, it will get finished. I have a couple of things languishing on my hard drive that may never see the light of day, like a Thomas in LA fic post DA2, but I can't not finish things.

16. What are your writing strengths?

A commitment to the bit? An unwavering belief there's never a bad time for banter? An unfailing devotion to poking people's bruises?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

See above.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Would attempt only in a comedy situation where getting it wrong was the point.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Firefly. The first one I posted in was HP though, rip.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Saying I'm fond of all of them would be such a cop out, wouldn't it? In truth, my favourite is usually the one I'm currently writing, so let's say Sum of the In-between Things. It's morphed so far from what I intended it to be and I have literally no idea if I can stick the landing on it, but I've genuinely had a blast writing it, and that's the point, isn't it?

Tagging: @septemberrie @myalchod and @magnolia822!

[thetriggeredhappy]

Was wondering, over here -- what's your favorite type of Scout characterization(s)? I've been in this fandom for almost a decade, and (imo) everyone's got a slightly different spin on him, ranging from "category 5 annoyance, cartoonishly egocentric" to "earnest but afflicted with Early 20s Brain" to anything anywhere in between or beyond that. Got any specific hallmarks you're fond of? Stuff you tend to disregard?

hrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

alright so naturally i’m always the type to drift towards characters who, even as you’re reading them, you can kinda see the lenticular way they can be interpreted. you can tell by the author’s tone how the character interprets themselves, and how they’re interpreted by the viewer, and how they’re interpreted by whoever they’re talking to—three-dimensional, in shortform. with grey areas. sort of taking them outside of their trope and giving them the leeway of, at times, even assuming that the media itself is biased regarding them.

which is how i approach tf2, as well—the medium they exist in is, by virtue of being an absurdist comedy, an unreliable narrator.

so when you posit the stances “scout is like if gaston was wicked annoying and 150 pounds max but didn’t notice” vs “earnest, flawed early 20s dude without a ton of perspective on his life”, as if they’re two ends of the spectrum, my answer is, they don’t have to be.

i’m not a huge stickler on interpretations of characters, to be honest, but i do have a few icks with some interpretations of scout. any interpretation that implies he’s one of those dudes who says things for shock value or for a reaction really irritate me, mostly because there’s nothing in the text of canon that would even remotely imply that. scout wouldn’t say some weird shit about a girl going to make him a sandwich or whatever, he’d draw a picture of spy getting hit by a car and then hand it to spy because they don’t get along. giving scout these weird greasy traits just because at a glance you might characterize him that way in the netflix live-action remake, it just comes across as like. like maybe you don’t know what you’re talking about actually. like, the cheapest easiest possible characterization. the wish dot com characterization.

and i know it might seem a little bit like the pot and kettle on this one since i do take such heavy liberties with the characters, but here’s the thing—my argument isn’t that changing the characters in your fanwork is Bad. that’s all fanwork. that’s all interpretation. my argument is that making tf2 characters weirdly bigoted and filling in weird shock value stuff for no reason is fuckin’ lazy.

it’s much harder, and much more vulnerable, and takes way more time and effort, to try to write these characters with good jokes, or with human personalities, or with actual motivations and thought into their behavior, etc etc. and going “scout says [insert alphabetical list of homophobic slurs], because it’s the 70s lol they hate gay ppl” just tells me you’re not capable of writing well.

that’s not to say i even want scout to necessarily be a good person. i think it’s actually kind of funny that he decided to like, learn manners and etiquette and put on a prom for miss pauling, because having a dude who kills people for money do some cute shit like that is weirdly sweet, in a roundabout way. i think the canon of the text would imply that scout tf2 is kind of a sweet dude. but like, y’know. obviously nobody on the team is mentally or emotionally well. mentally and emotionally sound people don’t die and murder for money. writing scout as particularly egocentric, overly concerned with his own life (either in an anxious way or a narcissistic way), loud mouthed, temperamental, a sore loser, unsportsmanlike, those are all takes i’ve seen that have been really interesting spins of his character.

my favorite traits in him are probably things like him being a hugely impulsive talker, way exaggerative of positive emotions (like whenever he or someone else does some cool shit), maybe a little overdramatic and whiny about the small things, him being dude who will see his friend punch someone across the bar and will sprint over to punch them too, a real ride-or-die guy, kinda stubborn. maybe a little catty sometimes, earnest in a weirdly brave sort of way, clumsy or bad luck or both. dude with a weirdly nonexistent sense of shame or embarrassment except about, like, if he finds out he was wearing his shirt backwards when talking to Miss Pauling or something silly like that. and not even necessarily all of these at once! i just like these characterizations in general, and scout tends to get these ones.

this went on longer than i meant it to, sorry. anyways. scout teamfortress my beloathed

[jung-koook]

Just wanted to pop in and say that I totally feel you when it comes to all the shit going on with the boys, but it seems to affect you a life negatively and it makes me sad and anxious to see 😞 ever since I stepped away from Twitter and just get news from the Bangtan subreddit, my life has improved 100000% and I just want to recommend the same to you. Just not having negative things thrown in your face every time you open the app has been so good for my mental health, and I’m even considering leaving tumblr to be able to avoid it fully since I always see people talk about it here… yes it’s awful that bad things are happening to the boys, but they are adults and have people around them who work full time to keep them safe. I’ve realised that feeling upset about these things and look them up actively is a waste of energy that I could spend on things I actually enjoy. I hope you find that peace as well some day ❤️ I really hope you don’t take this in a bad way, I just wanted to share my experience since I can see myself in your reactions and it makes me anxious and sad ❤️

I'm so sorry you feel like that. and if you want to unfollow me so it doesn't affect you here too, please do, ok? there are a lot of things I don't talk about here because I prefer not to talk about these things or just comment on them in private with my friends. I agree with you that there are things that we could not comment on publicly, especially because we are giving more attention to it, right. but unfortunately there are things that I need to comment on here and to show what is happening or to show how disgusted I am or just to vent. and yeah, this affects me a lot because we had everything to be a beautiful fandom. of course we have a lot of beautiful people in our fandom but unfortunately the bad side is often louder. the bad side is completely contrary to what bangtan has been showing us, the messages that bangtan has been bringing. the bad side is literally everything that bangtan has been against since the beginning. they are never welcomed here by anyone, so why are they here trying to dirty our image and thereby dirty bangtan's image. because our image will always be linked to bangtan like bangtan image will always be linked to armys. and unfortunately, disgusting behavior will always be linked to everyone. for example, someone who declares themselves as army bullied someone online, unfortunately people will start saying "armys are bullying" they will put us all in one group and that is so unfair. especially because one of the messages that bangtan has and that armys has is all about anti-bullying. we don't accept that. I had many armys who were here with me from the beginning and who literally left the fandom because of what it became. so yes, I will always want to speak out against these behaviors. maybe I could start using a tag to make your life easier 😭like for example "tw: negativity" thats good, right?

[supermarvel-fics]

Tickletober Day 27: Hiding

fandom: marvel

word count: 830

pairing: peter 1 x reader (platonic)

summary: peter keeps scaring you and so you finally get revenge on him.

You adored Peter Parker. Really, you did. There was something about his energy, his excitement to be involved, that always had you smiling and feeling grateful that you were part of this band of heroes. You were happy that he was happy.

But you’d be lying if you didn’t admit that you were completely and utterly annoyed with him at the moment.

Halloween was just a few days away and Tony had vehemently denied the kid a party. Peter was obviously disappointed, but understood that the majority of the Avengers had duties to take care of. Enemies don’t go dormant just because its Halloween.

So, to make up for the fact that he wouldn’t have a party to fuel his holiday excitement, he began scaring people. He’d hide behind corners and couches, under desks and beds just to startle someone by grabbing their leg or jumping out at them. Peter was good at it, too, because he was Spiderman for Christ’s sake—he knew how to be stealthy.

At first, it was funny. Hearing Bucky and Thor scream like girls was possibly the highlight of your day. Even when he targeted you, you could find a good laugh out of it. But then it went on for another week and you were starting to become anxious that Peter was hiding around every corner.

This morning, though, you knew you’d be safe. Peter had been bragging all week about an event he was doing at school, so he wouldn’t be in the tower for the entire day. You sighed in relief as you woke up, ready to tackle the day without the looming fear of being scared.

You completed your routine as normal; eating breakfast, training with Steve, relaxing with a good book. It was the perfect day. Well, it had been until you felt something scratch at the sole of the foot that had been dangling off the couch.

You screamed bloody murder—both from surprise and from how bad it had tickled—pulling your foot into yourself and scooting back into the corner of the sofa. In your struggle, your book had been thrown across the room, revealing to you a smirking Peter Parker.

“I didn’t know you were ticklish!” He said with raised eyebrows and a mischievous lilt to his tone. Catching your breath, you scowled at him.

“What the hell, Peter! You’re not even supposed to be here!”

Peter stood to his full height from where was squatted on the floor and shrugged. “I wasn’t, but the thing got cancelled because of the rain.”

“And so you decided to scare the ever-living shit out of me instead?!” You berated him, trying to control your breathing to get your heart-rate back down to normal. Peters reaction did the opposite. He grinned smugly and reached over to pinch your kneecaps.

“It was the best reaction I’ve gotten so far. I can’t believe you’re ticklish!”

You barked out a laugh, then practically growled in anger. You weren’t shrugging this off as easily as you did in the past. You were determined to teach him a lesson. Peter’s hand was lingering near your leg, so without a second thought, you pulled it towards you, sending him falling onto the couch beside you.

With little to no effort, you had him pressed face down to the couch, his hands pinned against his lower back with one of yours.

“I let this little game go on way too long, Peter,” You uttered out with a rasp to your voice. You placed your free hand on the boy’s side. “Let’s not forget how ticklish you are.”

You sprung into action, squeezing harshly at his torso. In normal combat conditions, Peter was a bit stronger than you and was able to get out of most holds that weren’t made by enhanced individuals, but tickling Peter was the one way to weaken him. He fell limp against the couch, pressing his face into the cushions to muffle his loud laughter.

“WAHAIT! OKAHAY, OKAY, OKAY!” Peter shouted. You shifted up to his ribs, getting dangerously close to his worst spot. “AHHHAHA! OKAY! I’M SOHORRY!”

“Are you gonna stop scaring me?” You asked without relenting. Peter nodded fervently, unable to reply due to the how hard he was laughing. “Thank you, but let me show you what will happen if you go back on your word.

As quick as you could, your fingers shot into the space under his arm, sending the teen into immediate hysterics. You wiggled them around for a few seconds before releasing him completely, patting him on the back to let him know you were done with your revenge.

“I-hi won’t scare you agahain, I swear,” He hiccoughed, pushing himself upright and blushing as he caught your gaze. “I can scare the others, though, right?”

You genuinely laughed in delight, poking his side for good measure. “Yes, Pete. I love it when you sneak up on Bucky. I’ll even help you this time.”

[therapy-ghost]

[ MATCHUP EXCHANGE! @frostfall-matches ]

fandom(s): twisted wonderland, genshin.

basic info: raven, nonbinary but fem leaning, any pronouns ok.

personality: introverted (distant, disinterested in getting close to most, does not get lonely, takes a long time to open up or even interact w/ others), extremely independent (often refuses to rely on others, hates when people step in to help without me asking), confident (arrogant, a bit prideful), straightforward (blunt, sometimes tactless/insensitive), even-tempered (somewhat apathetic, rarely has strong emotional reactions, but is baseline content almost always), good sense of humor, playful, teasing, mischievous, realist that leans optimistic, curious (nosey, loves gossip), a troublemaker/rulebreaker, often unintentionally gets into trouble (then laughs about it), does not shy away from conflict (a bit combative with authority and irritating people), not sentimental, does not hold onto regrets, good at self-reflection, cold and a little mean when upset with someone.

hobbies: video games, watching anime, drawing (digital), painting (watercolor, acrylic), baking, cosplay, reading (fantasy, occasionally books on history), taking care of plants, thrill-seeking activities.

likes: cats, sweets, most fruits, good food, lattes, aromatic candles, cool weather, traveling, piercings, tattoos, puns, learning foreign languages, new experiences, people with a good sense of humor (quite subjective), when people banter back with me, people who let me tease them, people who develop their own opinions but are still willing to listen to other perspectives.

dislikes: bitter foods, strong scents, pessimism, hot weather, feeling restricted, possessiveness, conformity, having to be responsible for others, when people don’t stand up for themselves (i tend to look down on/clash with people who are overly insecure), overly anxious people, people-pleasers, when people act condescending towards me

misc.: intj-a ; 7w8 ; love languages: physical touch, quality time ; clumsy ; accidentally (+purposefully) misuses slang or common phrases ; enjoys skin care and hair care but rarely wears makeup ; able to pick up new skills relatively quickly ; studied french, korean, and latin in uni (also studied abroad in korea) ; majors in international cultures/languages + minors in psychology and medieval history ; prone to being a bit directionless in life ; prone to bad luck but tries to find the humor in most situations ; life approach: to live a life of varied experiences, to not take life too seriously, to not dwell too much on the past.

appearance: 5'1"/155cm ; pear-shaped ; very pale skin, burns easily ; round face, single dimple on right cheek, big green eyes, long eyelashes, button nose ; natural hair is light ash brown, wavy, almost always styled with straight bangs, it is currently mid-back length, layered, toned silver ; 5 piercings in one ear, 4+an industrial in the other, navel piercing.

clothing style: more masculine, rarely wears dresses, color scheme is black/gray/dark or muted green ; loves flannels, leather jackets, fishnets, combat boots ; enjoys sweatpants and hoodies when lounging at home.

(thank you for doing an exchange with me!)

hello! Thanks for doing this exchange with me; here our the characters I would match you up with in the fandoms you chose

for twisted wonderland, I match you up with Vil Schoenheit;

styles you and shows you off to his dorm mates (and people on set if you go with him any where)

is very jealous if you end up talking to other people

make up and skin care (either way(if you are fine)) but will get really picky if you don’t do his right

if you go to a different school, he will turn up at your school during sometime that you both down have class and will pick you up for a date but if you go to night ravens college, he will walk everywhere with you and will walking to to class

if you are in the same house(I’m not one to make judgment on houses) he will make sure you are comfortable always: not like he ain’t doing that if your in other houses.

some people are kinda confused that you two are dating because of how self centred he comes off, but if he really cares, you are his everthing(even if you(or others) don’t verbally know it)

hand kisser 1

and for Genshin, I match you up with Keaya

Would give you a flower a day; so at the end of the week you would have a mini bundle, then at the end of the mouth a bouquet

this man 110% where’s perfume, so he makes sure it isn’t to strong when he gets to be around you

he is a knight so he will sometimes not always be around you, but he will make it up to you when he is around

bregs about you to Diluc(I would Imagine he likes you)

he will banter with you, with out a dout

hype man and no one can change my mind; you doing anything and he just has little pompoms, whether they are physical or mental in his mind is up to you, but he is supporting you all the way

feels like he can just let go around you and I think he needs it.

hand kisser 2

sorry this took so long but here it is, hopefully you like it

[mysteryinkkat234]

Same as it Ever Was (Eddie Munson x Reader)

I don’t know how many times I have to repost this story but I will continue to fight to be seen on this page, no matter how many times I get shadow banned. Let’s talk about how I’m treating stories featuring Eddie. He is a comfort character, I can say he is my ideal boyfriend. If I’m having a hard day and laying in bad sulking, I think about Eddie wrapping his arms around me. And thanks to my new job, it was built in the 80s and has that 80s aesthetic (because they’re too lazy to change it up. To keep it anonymous, it’s an entertainment center, with an arcade, bowling, roller rink, mini golf, go-karts, and laser tags (also bumper cars but no one like bumper cars), it’s a place to host a kid’s birthday party. It is the perfect setting for a Stranger Things/80s story. So let’s just cut to the fluff and expect more stories more related to my job. I hope you enjoy 

Also Stranger Things fandom, here’s how my fluff(sweet) and smut(spicy) works, if you check out my masterlist, you’ll my other stories and how I label them. If you have any Eddie Munson request, hit me in my DMs, don’t be shy. Anyway, enjoy my first Eddie story :) (Also I’m catching up with the series finally, wooo!)

Gender-Neutral Reader (You/Yours)

(Warning: A bit of spice at the end but the rest is also bittersweet, venting fluff)

Once in a Lifetime - Talking Heads

“Letting the days go by, let the water hold me down Letting the days go by, water flowing underground Into the blue again after the money's gone Once in a lifetime, water flowing underground”  

That night was…weird, that day as a whole was strange. You were cuddled up with your boyfriend Eddie, messing with his mop of a perm like always, but you didn’t look like your typical, happy self, you looked…somber. Eddie knew he didn’t want to see his Precious ball of energy so sad and tired, that’s not a good way to end the day. He pressed.

“Why the long face, sweetheart?” He asked, cupping your cheeks, squishing them a bit, making you do a fish face. You exhaled, softly laughing. You started to smile again, and a sigh of relief came from Eddie. “Seriously though, what made you so down, babe?”

You sighed, leaning into his chest, still toying with his hair, your other hand toying with one of his rings. You would fiddle with his rings if something made you anxious, and judging from how slow you were turning it around his finger, it was something that made you feel…indifferent? “I don’t know…it’s just been,” there was a long pause, trying to find the right words to say. You let out a deep sigh, “it’s been a weird night…before I came over.”

Eddie tilted his head, he combed through your scalp, placing his chin on the top of your head. “Was this about your parents,” he asked, you nodded slowly, “was this about us dating?” He asked again. There was another pause until you shook your head. 

“I mean, technically it was about us, but not like, negatively,” you stood up, breaking Eddie’s embrace, “during dinner, I told them about our date to the movies, about how we got an intense sugar high from all that soda and we were laughing like a bunch of drunk idiots.” you laughed a little louder, recalling you two getting weird looks from the movie-goers, but you didn’t care.

Your laughter faded and your smile was gone, remember what happened…after. “I told them everything and there was…nothing. Not a ‘glad you had fun’ or any snarky comment, just…silence. It felt so off because dinner is never like that. We’re always talking about what we did that day, we have something to add to the story but just…nothing.” you felt tears trying to come out.

Eddie though had a fast reaction time. Without another word, he pulled you into a tight embrace, he could feel his shirt getting wet from your held-back tears. He tried to calm you down by rubbing your ear, his rings grazed your skin, giving you a chill.

“Do my parents hate me now?” You asked a bit choked up.

He bit his lip, figuring out how to word his answer. “Honestly…no,” you looked up at him, tears staining your skin, “my advice, don’t think about it too much. Maybe your parents had a bad day and just…don’t want to talk about it. We all those days. Maybe tomorrow, things will go back to the way they were.”

“God I hope,” your speech was muffled by his shirt, gripping onto it so hard making him lean closer to you, you both started to chuckle, “for now though, I think I’ll stay here for the night. My room is going to get so hot I’m probably going to have to strip naked.” You giggled.

“Hmm, I think I won’t mind you still getting naked.” He purred into your neck making you squeal in excitement. That night ended with so much girly giggling, a night to remember. Your moments with Eddie, when it’s just the two of you, alone in his room, are something you always cherish.

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"One thing about Matty is that he knows that we as fans love him." This is actually something I've been thinking about all year and I hope I won't be offending anybody (this isn't meant to attack you or any of your lovely followers/ anons) And this might just be me projecting/ being way too parasocial myself so apologies if this is too negative. I really don't mean to make anybody feel bad but I really wonder if Matty didn't experience some sort of disconnect with the fans this year. Fan culture/ concert etiquette has changed a lot. We already know that going viral on TikTok and thus becoming more famous has been hard on him. He's expressed nonstop that it bothers him that so many fans film during their entire gigs - AND keep trying to provoke some kind of reaction out of him so they can go viral. People have been following the band around and stalking him personally, he's even been doxxed. Then ofc he got this extreme amount of backlash when he went on the podcast and people screaming for him to apologize/ apologize the way they personally seemed best (not saying people's feelings and criticisms weren't valid but I think we can all agree that it was very intense and lacked nuance), then we got very extreme reactions to him dating TS. And while our fans were much kinder/ more supportive, there was a loud majority complaining that we would "lose him" now cause he surely wouldn't be allowed to behave a certain way/ a loud majority trying to trivailize what happened ("Oh well, they were never gonna last, they're too different"/ "Let's be real, it was just sex. They can't have possibly been in love") and I feel that's pretty patronizing? We actually don't know what he felt for her/ hoped for or how it affected him to be dropped so publicly/ unceremoniously. Next we had a lot of fans immediately side w/ Rina when she shamed him in front of his whole industry at a festival he's been hoping to headline his whole life, fueling the same discussions/ outcries for him to apologize (same disclamer as above), Malaysia after-math, fans constantly begging for more social media posts but then getting offended/ finding fault in his posts (same disclamer as above) and even accusing him of predatory behavior because he possibly interacted with underage fans... Fans making up all sorts of rumors about him on twitter "for fun", believing Deuxmoi, accusing him of being in a PR/ fake relationship, complaining about ticketing/ tour dates, getting all anxious and worked up before the start of SATVB, expressing dread instead of excitement for the new show and begging him to "shut up, stop your bits and just sing" (same disclamer as above) fans being rude/ talking over him while he's doing his speeches/ performance art (and I also think he's pretty disappointed that people aren't really "getting it"), fans being so weird and grabby that he decided he doesn't feel comfortable taking off his shirt any longer, constant complaining about his hair/ facial hair, constant complaining about how much he interacts with the audiences, fans having the audacity to complain that he was sick/ tired/ emotional during certain performances... the list goes on and on. Again, sorry if this is all very negative and probably too parasocial (and way too long) but I felt really disheartened at all the negativity and entitlement this year. It was a very hard year for him and whenever I go through a hard time I am much more sensitive/ tend to feel unloved if criticised (however justified). I really hope he still feels loved and like we're "getting him".

No you’re right. Idk I always wonder how he feels because there are moments when he seems to think that things aren’t as serious as they are (like the Twitter backlash) and times when he seems to know very well what the conversation within the fandom is.

I think he gets it. (Tempted to uno reverse his own words and say “he gets us.”) because as much as he’s seen stupid / toxic fan behavior he’s also seen real fandom. Like the Vienna show fans who held up “you are loved” signs and he thanked them for it. And then the fan who asked him “how are you? Like how are you, really??” And he said it was sweet but not to worry. And he always says “we love you guys and we’re still us, we’re still here” etc. and crying cuz he saw a fan cry. I think he experiences both extremes. And it must be a lot and confusing to process because yeah people love you but then there are those who do so for all the wrong reasons and how do you separate those and when do you engage or disengage. Which is why I don’t blame him when he gets a bit defensive or whatever. Bless him.

Not to be weird and start drama but I felt his presence in the room (tell me why I sound like I’m talking about a ghost) at the Baltimore show. Which he said was the best show they’d done. And I genuinely think it’s because we didn’t have that many phones out etc. he and I interacted a couple times so he definitely sees, appreciates, and engages with those fans who are genuinely there for the band and for the live show and not the tiktok discourse. He knows. It’s just a lot to process alongside all the other stuff. Must be hard.