#lol im just putting common spellings for reach

[samsft]

redraw of that one scene but its post jabberwock

[who-is-shades]

raz dnd 11

last time, senna went after parsley after teya expelled shrooms on him. wheatley and zen comment this isnt normal. teya fucking dips invisible. zen goes to help senna catch parsley, and orders android to watch sunnie and wheatley. android is like a pouting child.

teya heads to the bookshop and sees smerc asleep at the desk. she knocks on the window to wake him. he goes over and lets her in. he notices her friends arent there. she says their busy. she asks him to look after sunnie. he says sunnie rarely goes home but he will try. he asks if teya wants to say anything else. teya wants to tell him but shes scared. he assures her shes always teya to him. 'even if im a monster?' oops she puffs out some spores. she tells him not to breathe that in and he covers his mouth.

teya just says shes dead and he says dead people dont talk. she says she died 6 years ago and shes scared. he hugs her awww and she cries! she explains the spell and mushrooms. he steps back and lifts her chin up and says she can push through this shes strong and capable. one more hug! teya and smerc laugh about teya burning sunnie's books. smerc asks what carries teya's soul, and its her charm. he looks it over and tells her to keep it safe.

parsley is slamming into trees and shit and he starts attacking them. just hitting the air. screaming at the trees to die already. in his mind he sees a ravenous beast foaming at the mouth and it lunges at parsley. senna sees a raccoon lunge at him. he rips it off his face, grabs its tail, and chucks it. zen arrives and climbs up the tree!

parsley hears a demonic screech from below and demonic arms reach out to him. he throws his axe! zen deflects it to the side. parsley flies away! senna yells up at parsley "hey you bitch pussy come face me!" parsley thinks i drank his sisters blood and screams fuck you. he yeets an axe at senna! oof it hits and its in her shoulder. zen manages to grab parsley!

parsley screams and tries to hit the arm. parsley fails and zen starts pulling him down. zen lets go of the tree and uses gravity to drag him down. senna uses restoration on him. to parsley senna is demonically chanting and covers his face in claws, then a blinding light and now its normal. senna explains he got mushroomd again. zen tells him not to breathe in anymore gasses. senna yanks out the handaxe and says shes keeping it. zen is still holding him firmly lol and parsley struggles to get loose. zen asks whats wrong and parsley screams to be put down. down he goes! zen asks how senna is and she says shes just worried about teya and just done with the day.

android asks wheatley what he remembers from the war. (YAY LORE) wheatley remembers A war. he and his unit charging into an enemy city, ready to assault it. his team was different in that they had been replaced in battles before. and thats it, hes lost most of it. android says he was invading another city. 'we were what?!' invasion force. big army of constructs. 'they used you to spread their influence and invade cities.' he touches the crack on his optic. 'how could that be? the commanders told us we were in danger if we didnt attack!'

android rolls his eyes 'of course they did, which is silly cause of how loyal you were.' 'of course we were! they...were....our creators.' wheatley having realizations like senna warned him about. android said its terrible that robots made for war were given conscience. wheatley says his creator wasnt known for common sense, then is confused why he knows that. android agrees and implies the crazy king fought against robot god.

wheatley asks who they were fighting against. 'you werent fighting anyone, spreading influence, tainting his gods gifts.' android says he first thought it was amazing they could make robots like wheatley, but says hes just a cheap knock off. blindly following orders, not really alive. then something happaned that changed that. wheatley reaches out and holds his hand above android without touching him, android turns away. 'doesnt matter anymore' yeah im sure dude. android tells him to go back being silent, and he follows orders.

senna's group bumps into teya and wheatley. she says she had loose ends to tie up. senna waves, shaking blood everywhere. senna jokes they were playing frisbee and shes a bad catch. wheatley mends her dress. shes goes to restore sunnie and sees he was conscious lol. she restores him yay. wheatley bolts over happy sunnie is ok.

senna mentions we still have to help teya's mushroom problem. senna uses it on teya and teya clutches over in pain! senna and wheatley freak out! zen says not to use holy spells since it hurts her, senna apologizes cause she forgot. teya gets 4 points dammit. zen offers a solution! its a vial for like athletes foot or something. hes unsure how itll work and pulls out a big needle. teya says his bedside manner needs work. has to do it twice for both lungs. parsley seconds the bedside manner.

senna comments teya will have a hard time breathing with that in her lungs. zen says she can refuse and hes not sure if itll work anyway. teya asks if the mushrooms are only in her lungs. zen says probably. teya says if their growing anywhere else they will grow back. zen feels for a pulse. very slow. he says he could inject into her veins, but her heartbeat is slow and may not spread it good.

senna says if she keeps healing teya her blood should improve the flow, but zen says it would hurt since she would be more alive. parsley elbows senna and says theres more ways to get the blood pumping so senna slams her fist into his ribs. (raz says its almost midnight almost time for parsley to annoy android!)

teya asks zen to scan her so she can brace herself. zen goes 'oh.' he says theres no good news. he shows a map of teya's body. the mushrooms roots are all over her body. zen says a quick way to get rid of the problem is to rip out all the lungs but might have problems later. teya wants a permanent solutions. she says the doc was right, her life was a waste. suddenly wheatley goes to eeby deeby. zen puts him in a pod and sends him away.

teya says shes wasted countless resources fighting the rot. wasted maintence. time for acceptance. stop grieving a life that didnt exist. life and death are prescious. she passes her rock to parsley and tells him to protect it for a minute. she asks senna for help with this part. senna gets teary eyed and hugs teya tight and reassures her the healing wasnt wasted and she cares about her. the organic matter has to go. we have to burn it. sunnie tries to talk her out of it. 'im having senna do it.' have to do it to stop the mushrooms. sunnie gets in front of teya and asks if shes sure about this. 'its the only logical option.' sunnie hugs her and says he will love her even as a skeleton and hes ugly crying. zen calls teya brave and his god will help her when its over.

senna builds a burning area and teya puts all her stuff away. she sends sunnie to get her old clothes. parsley claps her on the shoulder. zen steps back and warns its gonna hurt and to try not to scream oh no.

Codex_entry:_A_Chant_for_the_Departed senna to teya

senna raises her hand, and slams her hand down with a bonfire. it hurts. senna doesnt hesitate and holds teya's hand. zen tries to pull her back but senna insists her god protects her. teya eventually stops feeling pain. the mushroom spores burn up. after 10 minutes its just a burnt corpse. senna starts pulling off the burnt remains. everytime she finds a wet bit, she burns it.

teya has pinpricks in her eyes now! she says it was awful but at least the mushrooms are gone. oh fuck smerc arrives. ah he recognizes teya and isnt affected or shocked. AWWWW. teya waves with her bony hand and is shocked and puts it down. she misses her hair. senna picks her up and says we should clean her up. smerc says hes proud of her for facing stuff head on. smerc starts talking about childhood stories and teya is like 'nooooo'

parsley hands her back the rock and says he loves the new look and that bones are really in this season. sunnie runs back with clothes, freaks for a moment, and goes 'oh yeah teya' heres your clothes. 'you dont have to sugar coat it.' parsley claps his arm on her shoulderbone and says shes dead sexy NO. senna hits him in the ribs for teya but he doesnt care lol.

'hey android' 'what' 'hows this for organic?' 'bones ARE organic even if your more solid' zen tells us to head back to sunnies. only parsley needs to sleep now lol. senna tells parsley he never has to worry about being jumped in his sleep! teya says shes gonna prank parsley! 'can you detach your bones?' 'im afraid to find out.' 'also dont lose your hand bones their small.' senna asks if the ear bones in her head just rattle around. she looks in teya's head and doesnt see them lol.

teya detaches a hand! she can still feel it and move the fingers. she puts it on the ground and it drags itself around. getting a feel for it. parsley says you can steal with it. senna picks it up, gives it a gentlemens kiss, and puts it back on her arm. teya pops off her head! sunnie faints. senna walks over and puts teya on her shoulders so she can see taller. parsley takes teya's head and flies above the treeline and shows her the view. senna uses presti on teya and all the soot and stuff on her is gone, nice clean skeleton. senna tells parsley she can fly?! android offers to shoot them out of the sky. senna reminds android the fey pact ends at midnight.

parsley lands and gives the skull back and senna presti's the skull. senna comments that bones can stay waterlogged for weeks. smerc is glad teya is getting used to her new form. we head to sunnie's house. teya asks if the robots just stand around all night. YEP. she misses sleep. android calls sleep a waste of time. senna comments on them to at least quiet down so she can meditate. long rest!

before meditating, senna examines her arm that was holding onto teya. she takes off her gauntlet and zen remembers to patch her shoulder. she removes her armor and lowers her dress. the sleeve is gone and she comments she has to fix it later. teya and parsley roll perception rolls! teya rolls a 4 goddamn. parsley rolls a 21! parsley notices patches of shiny red bits on her shoulders and arms. parsley walks over and comments they couldve used a healing potion but its a cover to see the patches. their scales! zen finishes and senna pulls up her dress and comments again how expensive her dress material was. teya also can notice but she doesnt know what it is.

[nyxthejinx]

🔮 anon makes her appearANCE ONCE AGAIN !! this angst train truly is addicting, im never getting off.

bUT

i suPPOSE we can give diluc his little hopeful / happy ending. We’ve been stringing him a long far to long lol .

What if right after the scarf incident that he witnesses, he approached kaeya and reader , kaeya is still hugging/ trying to hide them, and reaches out to them with the scarf. And things just start to unravel from there.

I imagine that to get through to reader, he needs to ge through kaeya as well. ( he probably teases diluc over the fact that he got through to their sibling first lmao )

While they may have their differences , the thing that will hold them together from now on is their younger sibling. They kind of take advantage of the fact that they have to talk about their sibling to each other and just slowly , very slowly repair their own relationship as well.

But since Kaeya is now closer to the youngest sibling, he acts as mediator. Willing to step up to the role and act on his desire to bear readers problems. something he wasn’t able to do before , unlike the reader who kept his secret.

He’s like a bridge between the two. Since he’s been trying to make exploring with the reader a common occurrence, he slowly starts to include Diluc. He goes at the readers pace, starting up conversations and jokes when things get a bit to tense.

Just talking to each other while watching the stars. The brothers might fake fight here , knowing it would make their younger sibling laugh , something she rarely does now and they want to change that.

While reader is still afraid of Diluc in a way, they want to over come their fear because deep down they will always love their oldest brother. But it’s hard to even touch him sometimes. So, what if one day after they set up their little camp to rest from all their exploring , reader was brushing kaeyas hair (putting flowers in it), she gets the courage to approach diluc and ask if she could do the same to him .

Diluc immediately says yes lmao. (he’s probably super happy and emotional internally ). This would probably be the first time they ever had contact bc before Diluc probably became aware of their fear of hands, especially his, so he would never initiate physical contact with her unless she approached them first . So, after waiting soooo long , they made some progress. All the while kaeya is teasing diluc on how pretty he looks with all the flowers in his hair even tho kaeya still has a bunch in his lol.

After that maybe reader links her pinky with dilucs but doesn’t grab on to his hand just yet. They would probably need to work on that a lot more but i think they would both be content with the progress made so far. Diluc probably doesn’t care how long it would take for them to trust him , just like kaeya , he would wait for however long it took.

I think from here on out all three of them become aware of each other’s feelings to truly become a family again and genuinely start putting in the work to strengthen their sibling bond. But both Diluc and Kaeya put in the most work so that their younger sibling would be once again care free. Wanting to brighten the glow in their eye that has slowly started to make an appearance.

wHEW, that . was . gOOD. i wrote this while trying not to fall asleep so ignore all my spelling mistakes and long ass sentences. but hopefully this was good and i hope in the future we could talk about more of the future shenanigans they might get into lmao. i wanted to write stuff about it like sleep overs , messing with each other while using their visions , or just normal sibling behavior that includes ganging up on one of the siblings lmao bUT this is all my tired brain can pump out for now

🔮 a n o n

I know you're trying to kill me, there's no other explanation because UGHH THE ANGST BUT THEN THE FLUFF. Too precious, gg to your sleepy brain cause I can't work this good when I'm awake.

The scarf thing is a perfect gesture to reintroduce Diluc to reader. He's exposing himself, showing he wants to fix his mistakes. And Reader, albeit hesitantly, does take the scarf from him while hiding behind Kaeya's figure.

I think reader would leave after that, saying they need a moment alone. Meanwhile Diluc and Kaeya speak, without sassy remarks or impatience. They talk for the first time in three years, like civil people, because it's about their sibling, not about them.

Diluc takes the lead and explains the origin of those scars. Though Kaeya feels like grimacing he keeps a straight face; he doesn't judge, or scold, or anything, it would only put more distance between them. Diluc already knows his faults and doesn't need a useless lecture.

And just like you said Kaeya would be the mediator in the beginning. Helps Diluc come up with decent apologies, asks reader if they want to see him, how they feel about his presence. And they don't even try to act tough, they say it out aloud, they're scared.

Scared of his face, of his presence, of his vision, of his hands. They're scared and don't know how to deal with the emotional scar he left.

They're honest with him, they don't sugar-coat their pain. But it's not about accusing him or provoking his guilt, it's about being honest with their feelings so that they can start over.

And so, at an agonising pace, they all patch the crater between them.

They get to a point where reader just moves water from a pond over diluc's head and splashes it cause they're feeling petty that day. If Kaeya wants he can freeze him right after, but reader won't move a muscle to stop Diluc from chasing his brother. It's too damn funny.

Or they steal Diluc's crystal flies when he's right about to catch them, running around with a smirk and plucking out a grape or two on their way.

They always side with Kaeya for obvious reasons, but the day reader chooses Diluc's side he thinks he's in heaven.

Kaeya's creating a frozen path to cross a particularly large lake, and that's when Diluc cuts the bridge and reader starts creating waves.

"ha ha, very funny guys. Pull me back to the shore, yeah?" But the water moves and moves and he falls from the platform. Reader laughs and reaches out for a high five without even thinking. When Diluc pats back with a feather touch not to scare them away, they realise physical contact with him isn't too scary anymore.

Yes, he has gloves, yes, it was less than a second. But it's contact. Progress.

That's why they offer to braid his hair that night. Why they intertwine their pinkies with little to no hesitation. Why Diluc finally matches the memories of him in reader's mind: he's smiling big.

[mc-slowwalker]

hahahahha that’s funny lol (saying that the author of the common enemy fics is c!dream) but yeah common enemy definitely won’t fix the issues cause it’s the cycle of violence that they have to break and that definitely will not be fixed easily

woooo syndicate supremacy (I’ve finally learned how to spell syndicate correctly through our conversation lol) they’re definitely doing better than other people on the server and I love that for them! oh yeah either or both c!tommy and c!dream definitely need to reflect on the fact that they’re both make eachother worse. I absolutely loved how that fic handled that aspect of it because closure and freedom is exactly what I want for c!dream and c!tommy more than anything. yeah exactly!! which is why I don’t like the idea of c!dream dying either cause it just leaves everything unresolved. I doubt that’ll happen in canon tho

yea!! can’t wait for the angst! cc!wilbur just posted on reddit about ghostbur so we’ve already got some more of it 😔✌️which also reminds me that I’m sooo interested to see how c!dream is like once he’s out of prison because so much of the fandom believes different thing and there’s no way that he’s gonna be better or changed cause he’s had no opportunity to plus he’s been through terrible torture for so long and I can’t wait to see the effect of that. which also reminds me that I’ve seen lately that a lot of the fandom seems to think that c!dream was put in the prison as a punishment when it was less about that and more about the fact that he could revive people and that his last canon life would have been taken if not for that fact. a lot of the fandom says he deserves the prison but not the torture as a punishment but that’s not why he was put in the prison and if that was the case literally every other character would deserve the same punishment as well as they’re all characters that have done bad things. I feel like my typing is just getting more and more rambly and less and less well punctuated lol sorry

oh yeah those fandom rules definitely make sense. especially as someone who has been in online fandom spaces for like a long time and has seen all the tumblr discourse lol. like yeah those rules were actually not bad and don’t send death threats or harass people shouldn’t have to be said as much as it is in mcyttwt. I really do wish that the young people in this fandom realise that they’re allowed to just have fun and do what they like in fandom

I think that taking into account the fact that a character is a minor is definitely important I just disagree with the way that a lot of people use it as such a final argument that doesn’t leave room for discussion. yeah I’m the same like when I was younger I used to think I was so grown up but like I’m 18 now and I realise that that’s still so young even though at 18 I’m an adult. basically like the “child” argument is not so black and white either like instead of a defence I think it’s more something that should be taken into account when discussing a characters actions and I definitely agree with the characters you’ve added as people who that can be extended to. and yeah like in real life the minors would face soo many more consequences it’s kind of funny like everyone would but with it being such a prominent topic of discussion it’s funnier applying real life rules to dsmp is often so funny. I agree c!tommy should 100% pay taxes that would be hilarious

ooh yeah the three life system interesting cause at first glance you’d think it makes them worth less but evidently not and I do wonder how the characters see it. like you said with c!foolish and c!puffy it was traumatic to take a first life but for some it just seems as chances and the last life is what actually matters. who it’s against and also circumstance I think matters. I also tend to brush off c!tommy taking two of c!dream’s lives but I also tend to brush off the canon lives lost during the first l’manburg war as it was war and c!dteam and co were just better. I suppose I’m an everything but l’manburg apologist because of its foundations ig although I can still understand and acknowledge it’s importance to the characters such as c!tommy. I’ve seen it said that c!dream deserves prison because he took two of c!tommy’s canon, amongst other reasons of course, but so many other characters have taken canon lives and how do you determine the consequence of that in the dsmp cause in irl it’s very different and in the dsmp so far there really is no consequence for murder. like for example c!punz took two of c!wilburs canon lives (I stan him for that I’m a punz simp what can I say) and other characters have taken canon lives too. hmm I wonder what determined the severity of crimes on the dsmp cause the one character that’s in prison wasn’t actually put in there for his crimes.

hahahaha yeah I just can’t wait till we finally don’t have to reach that much

ahaha fair enough I just sometimes type too fast and autocorrect never seems to know what I want to say and I do not have the brain power to proof read a single thing I write. also I type out the asks in notes and after I sent the last one I was like damn that was really long and pasted it into pages to check. and oh my god this one is over a thousand words that’s like longer than one of essays I wrote for my philosophy final exam😭😭 I am so sorry

I will say though that I am quite enjoying this discussion cause it’s the most in depth discussion I’ve been able to have about this

I saw the angst wilbur put on reddit that mother fucker (affectionate) I actually have a rewlly weird relationship with wilbur’s meta lore. Things I accept: sally is a salmon, fridge mom, all the characters being morally gray. Things I don’t accept: whatever he was trying to do with character ages, also saying revivebur was straight when c!tommy saw him and quackity making out like nice try king. One of my biggest issues with the sever is that I get so easily attached to mobs/npcs in dream smp and they die so easy so Im always sobbing,,,, if anything happens to shroud, yogurt, michael (notchill), or fran I’ll mcfucking lose it

For c!dream getting out of prison I see there being only two routes: 1. he’s worse by a lot more evil more fucked up or 2. He’ll be actually too fucked up/tired/traumatized to do shit. Either of which is gonna hurt the sever so I’m looking forward to it personally

Other real life things I think should be implemented into dream smp: jury duty, required 3 life insurance, dentsits, and OSHA

I do think the rebellion against c!dream (in the final control room) is really interrsting in that c!tommy/c!punz was about to organize a bunch of the server against dream? I know c!tommy has amazing puppy eyes tm but c!punz was able to organize a big group of people, half of them didn’t really have that much against dream (other than the l’manburg people) and were only there on more vague terms. Like c!hbomb and c!ponk really didn’t have shit against dream but still helped in getting him into prison

I feel like we’re always gonna have to reach a little bit and oh shit 1,000 words? Bruh half my classes require that and I have yet to actually right that much. it’s way easier with stuff you’re passionate about and with all the content dream smp has gives way more to analyze

[duckverse-imaginations-archived]

Magicstone for the ship thing???

Aw this is an old school ship for me 

•Who is the most affectionate?

Gladstone 

•Big spoon/Little spoon?

In this cause magica is the little spoon shes just able to feel vulnerable with him 

•Most common argument?

Usually Gladstone luck

•Favorite non-sexual activity?

They like to banter with each other 

•Who is most likely to carry the other?

Gladstone will carry his magica love 

•What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?

Gladstone loves Magicas eyes

Magica dose enjoy his luck when it benefits her too 

•What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

Magica is protective and Gladstone get motivated to change wanting to be worth something than just lucky 

•Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

Gladstone calls magica Mags 

Magica calls him stoney 

•who worries the most

Gladstone magic knows his luck saves him a lot

•Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Gladstone would remember Magicas order

•Who tops?

Magica hands down, and gladstone wouldn't have it any other way

•Who initiates kisses?

Magica actually dose 

•Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

Magica again normally playing it off as nothing or dosent acknowledge it

•Who kisses the hardest?

Gladstone dose, he likes full on kisses even if Magica gets mad after 

•Who wakes up first?

Gladstone dose cause lucky him gets to watch Magica rest peacefully in his arms 

•Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

Magica she needs her sleep

•Who says I love you first?

Magica actually confesses first out of frustration 

•Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

Gladstone for sure leaves notes 

Morning mags dont miss me too much now, dont worry I attached a photo cause I know you will 

•Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Gladstone tell his family and everyone when ever he runs into them 

•What do their family/friends think of their relationship?

The mcduck family thinks hes under a spell

"Oh im under a spell alright, even time I look onto those golden eyes" 

•Who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

Gladstone for sure

•Who cooks more/who is better at cooking?

Neither of them Gladstone luck they never worry about food 

•Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines?

Gladstone magica tries though

"Are you an avocado because your the good kind of fat….cause you wear green please stop stare at me before I turn you into one."

•Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

Seems more like magica would 

•Who needs more assurance?

Both in this case 

•What would be their theme song?

Dark horse by Katy Perry 

•Who would sing to their child back to sleep?

Magica still come little children 

(I gotta draw this on my main now)

•What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Gladstone likely getting a free home magica is trying to take scgrooes dime shes still evil

•one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart

Gladstone being put in a place of having to pick a side between mags and his family 

•one headcanon about this OTP that mends it

That somehow magica will pick him over her need for revenge 

Okay but seriously when will these two finally met in the reboot lol jk

[seitjun]

springtime

Title: Springtime

Pairing: mayuaka

Ratings/Warnings: none lol

Summary:  In which Mayuzumi Chihiro is a tired producer who doesn't like spring or Akashi, and Akashi Seijuro is a male-idol-in-training who absolutely likes Mayuzumi.

Notes: sorry this is so late! i was in a rush to put this up, so im sorry if you find a few spelling errors, but ill fix it soon ^^; but i hope you like this! for @kitkatwolfy ! also, i suggest reading on ao3 for some important notes that i dont want to get lost here!

Read on AO3 or below!

For as much as it’s a common trope in his beloved light novels – and more recently, mangas – Mayuzumi detests spring. But contrary to the belief of the many, affronted Japanese people that he’s told his dislike of spring to, he doesn’t detest it because of its symbolic nature or just to rebel against the people’s belief.

No, he hates it for a completely different reason, and it comes in the form of a place called Yumenosaki Private Academy – explicitly put, an academy dedicated to producing male idols . Mayuzumi loves idols as much as the next fanatic, but a school for just male idols is pushing it, even for him.

That’s only half of the reason behind his hatred of spring, though; the reason for his detestment of it is that it means that classes start up again. So with classes starting up again, Mayuzumi is forced to endure another year of absolute bullshit from the academy’s biggest and most popular (asshole) idol.

Akashi Seijuro. Damn the kid, honestly. If it wasn’t for him, Mayuzumi would've enjoyed a nice and normal life as a struggling university student who’s majoring in Publishing of all things.

Instead, he’s become the guinea pig of the school because thanks to Akashi Seijuro again, he’s the first and only student who’s studying how toproduce/manage idols instead of becoming one. Granted it’s better that he got put into a producing course instead of the product course, but still.

“Ah, Chihiro. It’s nice to see you be my manager again this year,” Akashi greets, hands holding 2 cups of coffee.

And oh , can’t forget that the same little shit who dragged him into this entire thing just also had to be one he had to manage and produce.

“Not so nice on my side, though,” Mayuzumi retorts, his own hand still accepting the coffee offered by Akashi; the older male might not like the younger, but it was free coffee .

“But I gave you your favorite order from your favorite coffeehouse, and on my part, I haven’t insulted any of your light novels on this pleasant morning.”

“I’ll give you points for the coffee, but you just talking to me makes my morning unpleasant.”

“Fair enough.”

//

Despite what his thinking, he keeps his mouth shut from starting a bigger feud with Akashi by sipping his coffee; as much as he still didn’t enjoy the presence of the other, walking in silence was something he could do easily. He even outdoes himself by not making a single, snarky comment about how unnecessarily loud Akashi was being in his sipping.

(Akashi barely stifles the urge to sigh in annoyance and only sips louder to vent his frustrations, but he'll get his chance later.)

“Chihiro, may I know what your schedule for this year is?”

“We have the same schedule, except for last period when I have my producer specific class,” Mayuzumi replies without blinking, still skimming over the colored paper in his hand to memorize the order of his classes.

“I realize that, however I’d still like to view it. I’m your idol, after all, and the producers listen to idols.”

“I’m your producer, not your babysitter, Akashi. That request of yours, as simple as it is, is useless and irritating, meaning I don't have to do it.”

Mayuzumi feels the annoyed, piercing stare of Akashi’s on him, but he only keeps looking through all the information on the paper. He folds it up a few moments later to tuck it into his back pocket, only to see a familiar hand pluck it from Mayuzumi’s grip and unfold it again.

“You’re fucking kidding me, right?”

“It does no harm for me to view this and confirm that we have most classes together, even if you’ll just be spectating to manage me like always.” Akashi moves his gaze to stare up at his senior. “Besides, I could have also just waited to steal it from your back pocket.”

“...piece of shit kouhai.”

“Yet you still enabled me last year and now this year.”

(Akashi both cheers and curses inwardly; he shouldn’t have revealed that part of the plan, but he does notice how Mayuzumi doesn’t fight him on his last point. He’ll save the backside pick pocket for the future.)

//

Mayuzumi frowns lightly, eyes skimming through the folder filled with paperwork and information for Akashi; he had forgotten how much paperwork he had to do at the start of the year, and he silently groans at the seemingly bigger stack for the current year.

Deciding to leave it for tomorrow – or also the day after tomorrow – he slips the papers back into the folder and sets it on the table. He turns around to speak to Akashi, only to yelp out a loud string of curses at the curious gaze of the boy in front of him.

“Oi, Akashit! Don’t surprise me like that!” Mayuzumi clutches the fabric over his pulsing heart, trying to regain some breath back after. “And you’re standing too close to me, back up.”

.

.

.

“I won’t hesitate to push you back with whatever force I need,” Mayuzumi threatens, one hand moving from his chest towards Akashi’s instead, when the other didn’t back up.

Seemingly snapping out of a trance, Akashi blinks for the first time in a while before smiling softly and replying, “Ah, apologies, Chihiro.”

The producer sighs quietly in relief, watching Akashi take a step back. It takes a moment after that, but Mayuzumi gets his heartbeat under control again to direct a disgruntled look towards his idol; he quirks his eyebrows, silently asking Akashi what he needed.

Akashi catches the look, but only shakes his head with the same, infuriatingly soft smile on his face. “Nothing, Chihiro. Am I suddenly not allowed to be close to my producer?”

Mayuzumi stares disbelievingly at the smaller male for a few seconds before muttering, “Just get into the sound booth, and go get started on warming up. The next song you’re singing is on the music stand already.”

“I suppose you’re right,” the redhead comments simply before following Mayuzumi’s instructions.

Mayuzumi just sighs again, ignoring how his heart suddenly started to beat fast again after Akashi’s reply or how he just now realized how good of a singer the other was.

(Akashi just finds amusement in it all, despite his own heart racing too and his excitement for the rest of the day ramping up.)

“Stop staring at my ass, Akashi,” Mayuzumi orders for the third time that practice period.

“I’m not staring, Chihiro. You’re standing in front of a mirror that I’m using to practice my routines.”

“I can feel your gaze, and your eyes have been on me the entire time.”

“Can’t I say the same for you? But then again, I can’t blame you considering the outfits I’m made to wear for ease of practice.”

“Just quit staring, you bastard.”

“You first, my dear producer.”

(Akashi doesn’t, for obvious reasons, but he notes how Mayuzumi doesn’t stop either. What a hypocrite.)

//

Mayuzumi furrows his brows at the problem in front of him, hands fiddling with a handful of cables leading to equipment that he’d definitely not be able to pay off if he fucked up that bad.

“This has to be a fucking joke,” he mutters under his breath, watching how none of the equipment work still. He’s tempted to call over one of the more experienced techies, but he’s also spitefully independent enough to keep trying until something actually breaks.

He unplugs all of the cables again, starting over for probably the fourth time already. He grabs the first two that he’s definitely sure of, returning it to their previous positions before moving on; if Mayuzumi’s being honest, he’s sweating slightly from his task – he has to solve it soon, otherwise his idol can't practice, like for an actual performance, and he basically gets deemed useless.

“And I’m not getting labeled as useless,” Mayuzumi growls in renewed energy. His hand reaches for another cable to solve only for his hand to bump into something . Having been a little too absorbed, Mayuzumi retracts his hand as much as he can and jolts backwards.

Wrong way.

He groans when he stumbles back into the equipment out of being surprised, feeling the protruding buttons and thingymajigs basically jabbing into his body. He wants to yell at the other, but all that escapes is a wheeze before his eyes process the outfit of the boy in front of him.

Well, actually, he doesn’t process the outfit. He just processes the unbuttoned shirt, eyes unfortunately glued at how genuinely nice Akashi’s torso was. But he forces his eyes away to meet Akashi’s glinting ones, and Mayuzumi narrows his eyes, all previous attraction – wait – gone. “I take back my words. That outfit is the real joke here, right?”

Akashi shakes his head. “I’m afraid not. Usually there’s no changing of uniforms, but I’m a solo idol rather than in a team, so I do have to have a costume change yearly.”

“And they chose...that?”

“Only to show off more of my body, otherwise my previous years of basketball training will go unappreciated.”

Mayuzumi bites his tongue; he hates just how effective the costume is, especially on him.

(Akashi loves just how effective the costume is, especially on him.)

//

“I’m afraid we go our separate ways now, Chihiro.”

Mayuzumi lets out a sigh of relief, murmuring a quick thank you to whatever deity existed out there. He’d actually clasp his hands together to prove how thankful he is, but one hand’s too busy holding an ice pack against his back; turns out he hit the equipment harder than he thought, but at least he didn’t break anything.

Well, hopefully at least.

“I hope you enjoy your producer class. I know I’ll enjoy mine as apparently, we’ll be having a discussion about current partners.”

Mayuzumi does not like the sound of that or the feeling of foreboding chills crawling up his spine.

“We might be getting the opportunity to be reassigned apparently,” Akashi mentions flippantly, as if that statement couldn’t possibly change their entire year at the damned academy.

And immediately, Mayuzumi knows: this is a goddamn trap. Ever since the start of their attendance, the head of the entire place always emphasized the importance of the boys’ choice in their group because they’d be staying together for the entirety of their time at the place. The older wants to ask what the entire point of the lie is when it’s obvious, but he’s beaten to it by Akashi’s next words.

“But considering our reputation of having a rather turbulent dynamic, you’ll be fine if I started to find dynamics with others, yes?”

“Excuse me?”

“You’re excused,” Akashi retorts easily, and Mayuzumi glowers at the humor until the other sighs and replies seriously, “Despite how I’ve acted the whole time, I am aware of your opinions about me, so I talked to the head of the academy about possibly remedying this issue for you–”

Mayuzumi feels his entire body turn cold at the thought – something he didn’t think could happen during all last year when he hadn’t realized all he had done. Fuck, was he that bad with his emotions that his automagic response to liking Akashi was banning it to his unconscious and being irritated?

(Yes.)

“–so if you would like, we can rearrange positions and–Ch-Chihiro, what–?!”

Mayuzumi is sure he blacks out for a moment, because in the next moment, he finds himself a little too close to Akashi with his lips pressed softly against the other’s. And goddamn his traitor heart, because it’s beating so fast and so loud and is basically screaming out for more .

And his just-as-traitorous mind decides to agree, his eyes slipping shut and his lips pressing more urgently against Akashi’s; and then he keeps diving for more and more and more, just like how his heart and mind is telling him to.

When he finally pulls away to separate them, all the two of them can do is let out a breathy ‘ oh’.

“Look here, Akashit, you bring this up again ever in the future, and I will not hesitate to drop out of this damn program to fall off the grid forever and then cut all contact with you,” Mayuzumi hisses after minutes of trying to catch his breath again, cheeks flushed an embarrassingly bright red with his hands still tightly gripping onto Akashi’s shirt.

“I cannot fucking believe that I just had to end up liking the idol–”

“–boyfriend–”

“–boyfriend that I’ve found a hindrance to me for an entire year. I didn’t even know my lack of interest in real life girls meant I’d be into a real guy, and it was you!”

The redhead huffs in breathless annoyance at his new boyfriend’s rant, but dives in for another kiss of that damned, annoying senpai of his he just had to end up liking; the said senpai just falls into it easily, thinking the same thing about the younger brat.

(Mayuzumi still hates spring but just a little less; Akashu finds a whole new love for spring.)

[survivor-tierradelfuego]

Ep. 6: “I hate this slow death” - Pedro

Pedro A

im ready for revenge

Ryan

Everything about that tribal was... not great. I am not a fan of my new tribe, Amy betrayed me and Alan's mullet is starting to annoy me lmao. Might have to go with the hanuha peeps

Najwah

I was looking forward to a tribe swap because I was on the outs of my last tribe but this is literally my worst nightmare. We are outnumbered. So automatically if we went to tribal either James or I would be voted out. Also, the ONE person on my old tribe that I've never spoken to. James. I have zero relationship with him at all. In fact, I don't trust him at all. So this is going to be difficult. Best I can do is get to know the other people. Awesome plus is that two other members are from other parts of the world too so I can talk to people during day hours. Haha. Urgh hopefully we win our next challenge and the ones after that. James isn't really a good team player. He's very technical and I suspect he has the jewelery box. So yeah, let's se how this goes. I only have one goal right now and that is to make it to merge. That's it. Pedro A

i honestly will tell all the alliences kalle has..if we lose the challenge

Alan B

I lost all my friends in the swap!!! Im so scared 

James Hayden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOoHPa38woQ&feature=youtu.be

James Hayden

Ryan messaged Naj and I saying he and Amy had a falling out, but reconnected with her and is iffy about Alan. Based on old Maola’s round 5 tribal, it appears that Alan is on the outs. Amy messaged Naj saying that she’s happy someone from Africa is also on the tribe. If Naj can pull in Amy and I can pull Ryan then we have a 4-1 over Alan. But I don’t know if that’s the best move. If we vote Alan out, then Palena consists of 2 original Hanuha and 2 original Maola. If we go back to tribal, then we probably deadlock and I’m NOT letting a challenge decide my fate in this game. If we bring in Alan, then we have their vote the three of us can vote out Amy and Ryan, have the numbers on the tribe, and go into the merge three strong. I can offer Alan a spot in F6 w/ Jess or they can be voted out pre-merge because it seems that Ryan, and maybe Amy, are willing to vote them out. In the words of Rory Freeman," I think I found my little crack.” I just need to talk to Naj and see what she thinks about this. 

Ryan

I’m bitter as hell. I really wanna make my teammates regret not getting rid of me over John 

Zack M

oop- i should have confessed earlier but like i decided to drink and watch the strangers with my roommates because we don't have a challenge tomorrow. love a night off. but i remembered just now so let me try to recap what happened today..... WE SWITCHED TRIBES. thank god i stepped up as the hanuha (i never know if i'm spelling that correctly and i'm too lazy to check) leader. yes, i volunteered but let's be honest i was the leader regardless. maddison from the other tribe and i did a school yard pick for new tribes. i was really hoping that maddison was going to be available because najwah was hardcore online stalking the other tribe and found out she is a big katy perry fan. i happened to have met katy at a party and she took my phone to take a photo of us. i was totally going to lie and say she was one of my artists and i would get maddison a personalized signed record of her upcoming album if she kept me safe. soooooooooooo if maddison sticks around keep an eye out for that move. putting it in my back pocket for now. no one is safe with me. lol. anyways, this couldn't have worked out better for me. i got ben and cody which are each my final 2 but also we're in a final 3 together. what? i know! i needed this good luck. i feel bad because i don't have sarah and james but i couldn't get everyone from my top 5 alliance. i also feel bad because i had a really great conversation with najwah today and i absolutely love her. however, she was ready to work with new people so i hope she finds peace with the new tribe she is on. i also hope she works with james and doesn't fuck him over so we can all be reunited at the merge. praying for you james because i know she is ready to switch it up. i chose pedro and kalle from the other tribes for specific reasons. pedro beat me at the flag challenge. i felt like this would give us common ground to create a relationship. i also chose kalle because she was the one that ben was talking to last night when we struck a deal with the immunity challenge. RELATIONSHIPS. i'm playing a very social game so i want to make sure i'm in everyone's head. side note: can i say how happy i am that john was voted off tonight. i know he wasn't on my tribe but that bio / the way he acted last night when i was trying to strike a deal was so cocky. he would have been my #1 target if we moved into this round with him. like i was debating getting him on my team and purposefully losing to vote him out and get the numbers up for my original tribe. kind of bummed when i didn't see his name on the list. sorry dude ... but not really. easier for me. things at the new hanuha are weird. obviously ben, cody, and i are close. as far as i know none of us have messaged the others individually and none of them have messaged us. again, cody is a wild card. i love him but i just do not trust that kid. hopefully everyone is telling the truth. i want to reach out to pedro but i don't want to come off too strong yet. not making the same mistakes as you john. my goal this entire time (well since i decided this was a legit game and i would stick around) was just to make it to the merge and now i see the finish line. i don't know if i'm going to have the ability to stay after. i'm a huge threat. let's be honest. i don't know the other tribe but if they are playing the quiet game that i think they are then i'm the last person in this game SO FAR who has made big moves and gotten away with it. i think it is obvious to everyone. pedro even mentioned neil tonight which was HELLA strange. like did neil reach out to him? were they close before? WTF IS NEILS REACH?! this is why i will not allow another pisces in this game. if they have the numbers at the merge and they don't vote me out then they are really playing the worst game possible. im READY to really play and i'm sooooooo ready to stop playing a game for the tribe and start playing the game for me. HERE FOR SOLO IMMUNITY CHALLENGES. i've shown that i'm a comp beast ... once i understand the rules. but our tribe has been quiet tonight. i'm not sure what to do to spark conversation with the newbies. one day at a time. i would suggest throwing this challenge to get one of them out but ben is in school for tv / film and feels confident in his editing skills. i would like him to have a moment to shine and i would never take that away from him. i do have to say out of everyone i've met in this game so far that i appreciate ben the most. he is definitely stiff competition and if one person is going to beat me then he absolutely deserves it! everyone else i've met is floating in my opinion. that's all she wrote.

Pedro A

im honestly sooo doneeeeee.....first John......now im on the bottom.....im honestly so done....if the idol hunt doesnt work, ...idk what will happen

Pedro A

the 3 people that are in the tribe with me and kalle are inseparable...there is no cracks what so ever..lets just hope we win every challenge

Pedro A

honestly im just gonna try to be nº4 on this tribe...and hope we just lose once

Pedro A

guess what bitchessss.....my unlucky ass got nothing in the idol search....WE LOVE TO SEE IT..........honestly not suprised..luck hasnt been on my side...i hate this slow death

Pedro A

But if you close your eyes

Does it almost feel like Nothing changed at all? And if you close your eyes Does it almost feel like You've been here before? How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

Pedro A

okay so im creating a graphic ..that explains the routes in the idol search...that me and kalle have done..so we can know where not to go. I also completed it with the info that john once told...rip john....lets hope we find something

Ryan

Ultimately, I am very sad hearing about what Alan is going through. But I am only slightly thankful for them making this decision, as it means I wouldn't have had to blindside Amy next time we go to tribal

Sarah

This new Maola tribe is like night and day difference compared to my old Hanuha tribe. This tribe is so quiet! I’m not used to not having over 100 unread messages in a day... Aimee and I are definitely down in numbers on this tribe and I get the feeling that the three former Maola tribe members are pretty tight so I am hoping we win this immunity! Ideally, if we did go to tribal I would want to work with Aimee and pull someone else in but if that won’t work then I could vote out Aimee since ya know she wrote my name down. But Aimee really is a great human and I would be down to work with her. 

James Hayden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dbm4Ei7thuo&feature=youtu.be

AMY A

Tribe swap! I was unfortunately put in the tribe of people no one chose and that bummed me out for a few hot seconds but I also realized that out of a tribe of five, there's three internationals and one gender non-conforming person so maybe its just that people just cannot relate with us as well as  with Americans. That asiude, this tribe seems to be the right mix. I feel like this challenge was MADE for us cos we can totally milk the culture thing. If Najwah is able to put the videos together well, there is no way we wouldn't win outright. In the event of us losing, Alan has already suggested wanting to get out for mental health reasons so that would be an easy vote. All in all, I feel safe (knock on wood) for this round.

Ryan

I feel like I'm really settling into my groove in this new tribe. We really get on and we really all try our best (my last tribe did too but this one's just kinda special idk)

Zack M

i can't remember if i've confessed or not. i wish there was a way that i could read what i previously wrote. well i'm on a team with cody and ben with pedro and kalle from the other tribe. pedro is a little hard to read but i like him. kalle says he is hardcore searching for the idol though. she also shared that she believe grae and alan have the idol from the other tribe. so if they haven't used it by merge, they will be my #1 targets. i don't really have much to say. we made a video for the music video challenge. i sent a few notes to ben. hopefully he listens and corrects them because i don't know how tough the judges are going to be but there were definitely moments that could be cleaned up / better footage that could have been used. look it's hard for me to put my game in someone else's hands and that's what i feel like i'm doing right now. i wish i would have volunteered to edit but this is what he wanted to do so i'm going to respect that. i did get a reward because i was chosen as team leader. i was able to talk to past players who drafted me. i was honestly so stoked to chat with them and tell them what's been going on in my game. however, it seemed to be an inside joke reunion for them and i didn't really get anything out of it to be honest. it's like cool, you've sat on Skype for a crazy amount of time as well. love that for you. NOW HELP ME. but whatever. if i lose, they lose also. i guess i'll probably update again when i find out if we won the music video challenge or not. party.

Pedro A

Omg I hope we win this challenge.....I'm so scared...chilllleee..if we lose ..I already lost my one life lol

Ryan

We are not mad at Alan sending themself home. It'll be sad to see them gone, but it means I can get rid of them without having to worry about souring my relationships with old Maora

Olivia A

I feel really good about this new tribe and am really glad that we were able to keep 3/4 of my original alliance (Maddison, Grae, and me). Since we didn’t lose this challenge I think the 3 (and hopefully 4 if Kalle doesn’t get voted out) of us can stay strong to the merge and through the rest of the game. :) 

Maddison

Tribe swap played out as well as I could have hoped. I hope my original alliance members stay strong and we can make the merge as a strong three.

Aimee

Oh! I am having so much fun with my new Maola tribe! I think we vibe really well together. 😘🌈💜

Zack M

WE WON. omg thank god. the other videos were cute. reality: all three videos were tragic in my opinion but i'm a perfectionist. it's a win i'll gladly take. the scores were all positive except from ellie. ellie is really not a fan of the music video challenge and it shows from the bio / scores. we were better than 6 7 8 and 9s. shout out to the person that gave us straight 10s. WHAT WE DESERVED. tribal has also happened. super sad to see that alan asked to leave the game. i do find it wild because kalle shared that she believed alan had the immunity idol. this gives james and najwah a chance to continue on though and i'm so happy for them! low key hope they lose again because i feel like it would be easier for them to convince one person to vote with them. idk. also, i just think james has the idol so i don't mind him taking a hit if he can come back from it. we are currently waiting on a new challenge. not excited. was ready for a night off! but LETS GO.

James Hayden

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsBK4PSENrQ

Najwah

Soooo last time I did this I don't think I was aware, that the tribe swap was a school yard pick. Dunno can't remember. Tbh I am re-annoyed that when Jay asked who volunteers, I was busy typing, but Zack once again took it. Do I feel bad about not being chosen by Zack when he was decompressing with me for a whole half an hour before it all happened? He was venting and anxious. He probably had his reasons. Well done for choosing a videograoher on his team too. Does it feel weird being part of the leftovers? Sure. As a POC it's difficult not to see that the non white people, person who stutters and young guy were not chosen by the leaders. I'm not sure why Alan wasn't chosen, probably because they were the hosts sibling? But yes, the innate racism, ableism and ageism was definitely apparent. Personally, I think a randomizer should be used. And people would call this exaggeration or trying to play the victim/being salty but if you're a POC and have experienced this kind of thing for 30+ years, you just see things for what they are. Anyway, on the plus side being on a group of misfits means that no one has alliances. Everyone is just genuinely nice. Wow. What a breeze. I started bonding with James more. I like this tribe. I feel less stressed on this tribe. Perhaps it's that we are all on different timezones so we all talk at different times, which I like. Perhaps it's because there are way less people lol. Do I feel discouraged though? Yes. I don't think we will win immunity. We are all too out of sync. 

Najwah

The music video challenge was fun. Not the best song choice tbh. I wanted to do Journeys don't stop believing because we were a bunch of misfits and I've been binge rewatching Glee again after Naya's death. Being a POC bi woman, that death affected me a lot last week. And Mr Shue is right. Journey is great. Anyway. I loved all the snippets and how much effort everyone put into the videos. It took me a long time. Like 8 hours to edit all of THAT, coz I did it in Vegas Pro instead of TikTok or a phone app like we should have done ugh why am I stupid. so I was sad when we didn't even place, but also Alan gifted me an immunity idol before they left and I was so overwhelmed I literally CRIED.  I miss Cody. I miss Leanne. People I could actually talk to about these things lollll. I guess we just have to try our best to win tonight. Our team is so out of sync though I don't see that happening. But we will try our best I guess. Last time we won an immunity challenge I prayed to God that we win. I think i will do that again. I think God likes survivor. 

Najwah

I need to make a disclaimer. I'm not unhappy about anything. I'm not salty about anything. I'm not upset or being complain-y. I'm just making observations. I am still really happy about this game, being able to play in it and being able to get to know people I wouldn't have crossed paths with in my wildest dreams.

[pokefanbri]

I wish i could hold a conference with all my exes in it 🤣 & be like..

Look, yall are great..some of u bastards fucked my shit up, some of u were really great, 1 I married, & others both great & an asshole lol. But I love or loved every one of u fuckin idiots.

All 5 of you ill never forget. But im a long term relationship kind of girl, I need someone permanently, has their shit together & priorities straight including me as 1 of those priorities. Someone as pure intention & with a heart of gold as I. If u cant love me for me or at my best, that im not good enough for your high standards or raised bar I cant reach cuz im a shortshit lol, then I dont have time for a scummy dbag 🤷‍♀️ Its hard enough to find a great girl like me as it is within that trail of broken hearts behind u.

I need someone with a good head on their shoulders & knows their shit just as I do. Both parties can provide in more ways than 1 in a relationship. I can take care of a man as long as its the same in reverse, embrace all of me as I am and I the same. Ive only fucked up 2 of my relationships myself, the rest falls on the guys & u fucked it up too, but its usually never me & im the 1 breaking up with yall 9/10 😂 cuz sometimes it doesn't go anywhere & some of yall moochers when i live under my own roof don't lie lol. At least 4 ive been madly in love with, including the recent one. 2 of those 4 broke up with me cause of whatever tf they're dealing with. Based on the pattern the next guy will probably be after another 5 yr dry spell again who knows.

This is what im looking for in reality. Im fucking tired, stressed, im 30. I want to settle down, have kids! 5-10 yrs from now itll be too hard to conceive, 20 yrs from now i won't be able to. At 30 i want my 1st child to be 20 when im 50 lol not 10 when im 50 yo wtf lol. I cant adopt, & i cant parent on my own. A couple of u wanted that too, even to pass down your blood line & heritage..its what I also want.

🔥My husband has moved on, theres no going back as far as im aware. I messed that up real bad choosing someone over him...& i didn't originally want to in the 1st place. But cause of that decision I got to see more of the world & went out of my comfort zone..i wouldn't ever take that back cause regardless of how things played out, i don't regret it as it was 1 of the best relationships i ever had even if he doesn't think so 😘 Im confident he misses me too in some way. Love u darlin always ❤ And I really do thank u & am truly grateful for the time we shared...but becoming a "better man" falls on u big guy, nobody else. Unless u are to help a girl in the same way..better eachother, srry but its true. U wanna be better then it involves advice & criticism, which is what most of this blog & my 2nd insta is about...listen closely. And don't be using that song to lure in empathic women on purpose, boi its retarded unless u really do mean well. And a relationship isn't just about u, u know this... u have to be smart enough to realize this..its common sense. And im sorry u "lost interest" in our short time without experiencing the relationship to the fullest & b4 really getting to know my true outgoing self. U held yourself back the whole time...idk if you're afraid of not being close due to something ur dealing with..but it's beneath u, & u have alot to learn. Look at the positives of our relationship instead of dwelling on the negatives. We had so much chemistry, but if u actually do only see a girls beauty on the surface, instead of seeing it within them & yourself then it surely lacks & needs to be worked on. If so knock it off bro lol. U liked it when I cleaned up good anyway & straightening my hair "like barbie doll" so wtf lol, i am pretty so f u if u think i wasnt lol🔥

Look I Always put people 1st b4 myself, i care way too much, but yall have done me wrong in some way & im absolutely sick of it. U want a girlfriend like when u were younger, & play the field then fine. But unlike u most girls don't wanna play, they want someone that'll stay 🎤

Whether its 1 of u previous dummies sparking it up again cuz yea it happens, or a new guy. This is for u & i give my word & accept u to whoever my babe will be. From a guys pov but still means the same.

Believe it

https://youtu.be/cttSIwQ2TI4

[acnara]

okay, so I was on ao3 and I think I stumbled on your account on there. Could you tell me about the valour!harry au pretty please? I absolutely LOVED it!

OKAy so im gonna tag @darling-potter bc u know i saw that comment on ao3 (❤) and i thought hey lets combine this and give like. A big chunck of plot away lmao so anyway

• This whole Valour AU thing started when Cursed child came out (me, stating the obvious) because @trippingonflatsurfaces and i just couldn’t wrap our heads around WHY valor. Like, its such a explicitly Gryffindor trait?? It could not be to make the public think of the dark lord a a hero i mean, they were torturing Muggleborns in the freaking castle and had dementors wandering around i dont think JK’s Voldemort was all about that politics life ya know. So why?? Was it like, a mockery of his 2 enemies, both Gryffindors?? But then why not courage (100% identificable no fake gryff trate) or boldness (sounds more of a mockery than valour) was it because it started with V too and Voldemort 36 times champion of acronym competition liked the sick aesthetic???

• well you get the idea we where half making fun of the idea half actually trying to understand why Voldemort would allow people to say his name and why pair it with Valour of all things like one would think he would go for something more like himself

• and then, like the true shipping trash i am, the unverse forces that rule the harrymort ship descended on me and gave me The Idea

• why would Voldemort, who has spend YEARS making sure his name was feared as a way to impose fear and respect suddenly let other people just say it like it meant nothing. Like, not even Lord Voldemort Day or anything, and as Chelle put it, why not my lord or the Dark Lord WHEN IN THE BOOKS HE IS REFERRED AS SUCH 987661% OF THE TIME?

• well maybe

•MAYBE

• he is not the only dark lord.

• maybe ppl cant just say “my lord” or “the dark lord” or “you know who” anymore and actually know WHO they are talking about

• and if there was another dark lord and people went around saying “for Voldemort and Valour"  and not something like "for Voldemort and THE Valour”

•hey maybe there was something there

• maybe they needed no “the” bc Valour was not a trait, but a person

• Valour. Such a gryff name beautiful

• and which gryff bitch do all of us shippers love but would also have chances at surviving Voldemort’s rein??

• well no other than fan fave Harry *well shit u my horcrux???? U cant die now* Potter.

• and guess who is supposedly death since the Battle of Hogwarts, when he realized he was a horcrux?? Well harry potter

• so the thing was: what if harry is still alive? And what if he was the other half of the saying, lord Valour???

• at this point chelle and i were fangirling already bc it fit so well with the narrative of curse child??? As in it made no fucking sense but it /could/ if you believed enough. And boi did we (do we) believe

• anyway we made the back story, as in, everything that happened before the lord Valour persona was like “created”. I’ll sare with you both common and personal headcanons bc i like talking and i cant shut up apparently

• so. Cedric diggory kills Neville. That’s cursed child explanation to why Voldemort won. And then, Harry finds out he is a horcrux. He goes to the forest and ya know his friend neville died, murdered buy this guy who used to be nice and friendly till harry beat him in the tournament. And y'all know harry, who would he be if he didn’t think every single murder in this series is his fault in some way??? So maybe he goes to the forest feeling less numb and conceal dont feel dont let him know and more of a mess.

• and in true every harrymort fic ever written Voldemort finds out harry his horcrux that night via mind reading or something

• next thing you know harry is a dungeon been tortured bc keep him alive is not the same as keep him unharmed while everyone in the world knows it. No dead HP folks, just he being tortured to insanity.

•and you know somewhere in between the torture and the taking over the world and the harry trying to remain as sane as he can chelle’s fave trop comes to play: good old lima/Stockholm syndromes

• Bc you cant spell canon based harrymort without a lil bit of these two.

• so bam there u go they want/love each other  (i tried to kinda hint this in the fic but I’m not sure if i succeeded?? Voldemort’s whole i did not like him but boi do i like him no w)

•and anyway yes that is the background for the fic. Eventually they reach a point were Voldemort wants ppl to respect harry (he is mine anything mine fucking perfect blah blah we have all read this paring before) and lord Valour happens, bc harry is pretty badass on his own

•Wait did u forget about harry being tortured till insanity well u shouldnt have thats ehat is gonna give us a plot for everything after my lil fic lol

• so Scorpius. As a lil background in what imagined he would be in the cc world he would be an asshole. He also flirts with Valour/harry bc he doesnt know better. Hint at why Voldemort doesnt like him

its a type of harry vs bella but low key bc its just irritating that the little shit would really think he has A Chance. Verry. Irritating. Harry plays the Scopius has a crush card often he finds it hilarious

• anyway this new scorpius acts weird time travel etc. Harry investigates and he opens a portal between the two worlds following scorpius. And badumm tss harry finds out the other harry

•this harrys life is boring. Married to ginny go figure. Auror. No parseltongue. Boring, lord Valours life is way more interesting tbh

•some plot was gonna happen amd then woah wait this harry has something he does not. This harry has kids.

• so u see where a lil insane harry is going right

• ITS CHILD KIDDNAPING TIME THEY ARE ALM MINE NOW SUCK IT BELLA U HAVE DELPHI??? I HAVE 3 KIDS BITCH.

• Voldemort would ended up finding out of course. He is not very into the kids, but shit what??? Harry married the read head???? Does he have to kill her in every fucking dimension to keep her away from what is his???? Yeah harry you can keep your new pets of you like i guess

• Just yeah. Very plotty okay this are like random details and scenes bc harry and ginny would want to save the kids and dimension bs everywhere but yeah the idea was a bit of a war between the two worlds and everything kind of Dead Man’s Tale just not at all lmao

• anyway we wanted to do lots of things and you are totally welcome to join i love this au

[insidiousflame]

My Spirituality

 So I consider myself to be a very open-minded person when it comes to spirituality. I didn’t always used to be because I grew up christian. And as a result, I was taught to believe in that religion absolutley 100% with no grey areas in between. But of course as a person grows older, they start to question things and branch off into other ways of thinking and morals. For example, I used to be very against gay marriage because I was ignorant, and only knew the bible said it was wrong. But as my knowledge matured about the world and my own faith, I realized how out-dated that way of thinking was. My personal experiences and relationship with God, gave me an abundance of love and wisdom about life. And I had to decipher within my self what to believe, versus what other PEOPLE told me to believe. Along with of course, the many inconsistencies within the text of the bible itself, whole big conundrum i wont get into. It was a tremendous struggle because i always just trusted what other people, especially my parents, told me was right or wrong and that was it. So instead of just going along with a written text, i focused more on what felt right with me and my own heart. And let me tell you it feels so much better. So i still do consider myself a christian today. But theres some magical, controversial bits in between that I’m about to shed light on now.    I have a big interest in the supernatural. Like, not just with the knowledge about angels and demons, but things from the common mythical creatures to straight up chakra and psychic and witchy aspects of it. Magic basically. I have always, from the ripe young age of an elementary schooler, been curious about witchcraft and things associated. The only reason i was introduced to it at such a young age was because I had a friend way back then who was apparently a witch. All I remember was her having this book on witchcraft and wanting to do some spells with me. And i was like “oh that sounds cool!” But somewhere in the mix the parents found out and i pretty much wasnt able to hang around her much anymore. And that was the end of that until a bit later. I wanna say I started learning more about that magical stuff again in highschool. I would end up watching supernatural shows on youtube or researching stuff about tarot cards and crystals etc and I was just so drawn to it. And I again, came into contact with a friend who practiced all that cool stuff and he opened me back up to it with his own tarot which he actually let me borrow at one point. And oh boy was I excited. This stuff...was crazy. It felt like my soul was just passionate with this curious fire. Now there was also this side of me who felt like i was doing something bad because of what I was raised to believe. Basically, if it aint of God, its of the devil. And the devil was gonna try and suck me into this evil stuff. And although i had this excitement, I had a feeling, as I kept working with the cards over and over, that they were telling me to stay away from them. The cards were telling me. Or whatever divine influence around me was. I mean, my parents found out about them eventually and of course gave me the whole “its demonic” schpeal. But i got my own warning signs i started to notice. And this will probably sound really crazy. But honestly....all this stuff is crazy. But still happened mind you. See, the tarot cards consist of what is called Major Arcana, which is your well known cards like “The Devil, The Wheel of Fortune, High Priestess” titles like that. And the Minor Arcana, which contain the suits, “Swords, wands, pentacles, cups” listed Ace through King with numbers of course in between. I kept drawing, The Devil. I kept drawing cards with the number 6 on it. So Immedietley I had the thought of, “Okay. Something is telling me I shouldnt be using these.” So I eventually gave them back to the friend and didnt mess with them again until much later. But of course my curiousity didnt end there. Bitch please. To speed things along, I ended up buying and destroying a couple of decks until I finally reached a spiritual point where I understood the responsibility that was needed to use them. Through those years I spent a loooot of time researching about witch craft, wicca, paganism and all the metaphysical and divination practices of the like. I researched about what the bible said about them and also the concrete history of witchery and the differences of the different terms associated with them. And then I discovered.....holy shit. This shit isn’t this big bad evil that everyone makes it out to be. It’s actually.....very beautiful and artistic and expressive. And I think the mystery and aesthetic and magical aspects of those things is what really drew me in in the first place. Now don’t get me wrong, magic can MOST CERTAINLY be used for evil. It can most certainly hurt you and others whether you believe in it or not. And I think that’s why my spiritual guides, or whatever was happening back then, steered me away from it. Because I wasn’t mature enough to know how to use those tools safely and without getting carried away. Because now i have absolutley no problem using these tools for guidance. Cause I dont abuse them. Because these beautiful practices resonated so much with me, i started to want to incorporate them more in my life in now a more respectful and wise manner. And it was really, enriching for my soul and my view on life. It brought me so much happiness and appreciation for the mystery life has. And I’ve been able to find a comfortable balance with my beliefs. And here is where I’m at today. I am still a believer in the christian God. But I also enjoy incorporating symbolic and ritualistic crafts from the magical culture into my worship. So in other words, i could put myself in the category into an eclectic witch. Eclectic Witches create their own personal practices and belief or religious systems by re-creating or borrowing knowledge and practices from other beliefs, practices, etc.  So they basically see something they like about another’s belief or practice and say “oh i like that, that feels right with me, im going to incorporate that into my spirituality as well.” Which is what im doing. lol Theres a LOT that needs explaining with that because it is so easy for people to get confused and assume things which is why this topic is so difficult to talk about because it goes back into all that history and research. I had to make a whole educational documentation for my parents so they could understand why i like these things, why they arent as evil as they believe and so on. It is very frustrating when you feel like you need to justify yourself to others about what you believe. And i think my experience with spirituality has really opened me up to other’s beliefs and being a whole lot more less judgmental and more accepting and loving of people in general. So in essence, all I’m doing, is a new form of ritual. When I use my cards, i am specific to say I only wish for the guidance from God and his Angels. And everything that he wishes me to know, will be by his will only with no interference of another force or entity. I always make sure to protect myself from the negative energies. I rarely do spells nowadays, but when I do, it is only of a means of feeling like I am doing more than just....talking about it. It makes me feel a little more in control and I again, make sure my intentions are clear with what energies I am working with and I mean no disrespect to God in the works I do and it is only for creative expression and ritual dedicated to him and no one else. And that feels right with me. I didn’t go into much, but crystal healing is another thing I love, although I dont believe in 100% because I’m just always keeping an open mind and completley understand a skeptic’s point of view. But nonetheless I have had my own share of positive experiences with it and do still enjoy working with them from time to time. That’s about all I’ll go into.  And just for your convenience, I will actually link the documents of some of the basic research and explanation on my practices and beliefs in the description if youre curious. The actual couple of fun pages I gave to my parents so hopefully i dont have to explain myself further. lol I would love to touch up on some more spiritual/paranormal stuff at later dates. Have a beautiful day. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1cB0avtCEEyoA_-CZKh5OWCz56qXVqoSJu6MLsZtAYIo/edit

[thatjwguy]

Spiritism And The World Around Us     

  Disclaimer: Like before, this is in no way officially tied to the JW (Jehovah’s Witness) organization besides the articles i may share, i do these as a way of exposing the false spirit of the world and how it deceives the masses. Along with just general educational purposes, if you wanna call it that, alternative research material is what i tend to call it. Keep on the watch tho, many people are out there trying to mislead and distract people from what the truth really is. Agape!

 Deuteronomy 18:10-13                    

10. “There should not be found in you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire, anyone who employs divination, anyone practicing magic, anyone who looks for omens, a sorcerer 11. anyone binding others with a spell, anyone who consults a spirit medium or a fortune-teller, or anyone who inquires of the dead 12. For whoever does these things is detestable to Jehovah, and on account of these detestable practices Jehovah your God is driving them away from before you.”

This could be added to one of my previous posts, since its essentially going through most of what i had talked about. I have left this picture linked to the article so all you gotta do is click on it to go to the page. I feel i have already done this topic to death, as well as the others online and offline. Anyone with common sense and a basic bible understanding should already understand these concepts, now im not sure how seriously they take the media they watch but i feel now its about as obvious as a person shouting in you face, so i feel its just more like they just dont WANT to believe it, or simply dont care.

Joshua 1:8

This book of the Law should not depart from your mouth, and you must read it in an undertone day and night, in order to observe carefully all that is written in it; for then your way will be successful and then you will act wisely.

Romans 9:20

But who are you, O man, to be answering back to God? Does the thing molded say to its molder: “Why did you make me this way?

This is unfortunate, for many reasons but for the sake of this post im going to go into only one. Lets talk about the influence of this media we watch, the people who we let into our lives, informally maybe but still nevertheless a part of your life in some way. These personalities rub off on you, would you not agree? I mean, we dont really think about this when we are viewing something or playing something in a video game. We detach ourselves from it, we see it just as entertainment and nothing more, but is that really the case? Is it really harmless to watch graphic images in horror movies or pornography?

Amos 5:15

Hate what is bad, and love what is good, Let justice prevail in the city gate. It may be that Jehovah the God of armies Will show favor to the remaining ones of Joseph.

2 Corinthians 11:14

And no wonder, for Satan himself keeps disguising himself as an angel of light.

Proverbs 22:3

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 The shrewd one sees the danger and conceals himself, But the inexperienced keep right on going and suffer the

consequences

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I know i know, this is touchy stuff, when you go into subjects like these you gotta step lightly. Lets focus on the impact that it can have on your overall thinking patterns, the way you are wired. From birth, we are a clean slate, so throughout our lives we are constantly learning from the environment in which we live, our parents and those who we spend our time with will greatly impact our personality. Not always in a good way either, take for example, your best friend perhaps. Maybe you two hit it off like two peas in a pod, but i bet one of you might be more of a bad influence on the other, kinda like brother and sister relationships sometimes, one might be a little more rebellious then the others.

Acts 14:2

But the Jews who did not believe stirred up and wrongly influenced the people of the nations against the brothers.

1 Corinthians 12:2

You know that when you were people of the nations, you were influenced and led astray to those voiceless idols, following wherever they might lead you.

This is a good scene, movie called  Double Indemnity  which has a detective going against his morals, being seduced by a vixen.

Might not be too bad but you might find yourself starting to take after them after awhile, not even knowing it usually. I should know, i have had my fair share of bad influences growing up, informally or formally. I have since separated from most of that scene, but still have some stuff to clear up. Anyway, the main point here, is we are all impacted by those around us, the world around us as a whole. So, with media, dont you feel that it would have the same effect? This is where common sense should kick in. Keep in mind, i love all forms of media (aside from the obvious garbage that goes against bible standards) for different reasons, so this in no way is an attack on media. Just to clear that up.

     Jeremiah 17:9                    

9The heart is more treacherous than anything else and is desperate. Who can know it?

    Proverbs 28:26                    

26 Whoever trusts in his own heart is stupid, But the one who walks in wisdom will escape.

What are some of the thoughts you have while listening to music or watching your favorite movie? How is it effecting your overall mood at that particular time? Some music might take you to a nice fairy tail land or paradise like setting in your mind. While others might make you think of dark and sinister settings, doom/gloom type stuff. Movies and tv provide the picture, no need for imagination, unless you tend to picture yourself in some of those movies or scenes with actors. See where im going with this? Our minds can go on tangents, one second we might be cleaning the fridge but our minds might be in lala land with our loved ones or thinking about a nice hot-rod you saw.

Romans 12:2

And stop being molded by this system of things, but be transformed by making your mind over, so that you may prove to yourselves the good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

So lets drive this point on home shall we? Think about the things you where exposed to when you where growing up, remember how it effected you? What about the kids you know in your life now? Do you do your best to be a good influence on the young ones of this generation? I would hope the answer would be yes, with no hesitation. If not, consider some more wholesome ways to spend time with your loved ones young or even old. Just because you grew up in a different generation doesn't mean you dont have any effect on someone elses life. In fact, we all can benefit from one another in a variety of ways. I have found knowledge in the young and in the old. Just depends on if you are actually listening and paying attention.

Proverbs 4:7

Wisdom is the most important thing, so acquire wisdom, And with all you acquire, acquire understanding.

Ecclesiastes 9:16

And I said to myself: ‘Wisdom is better than mightiness; yet a poor man’s wisdom is despised, and his words are not heeded.’

Just felt like putting in this pic, kinda liked it.

I’ll leave off with saying that us as humans are very fragile and impressionable. We tend to overlook the real problems and overthink the insignificant ones. Spending more time in a fake world, rather than participating in the one right in front of us. We are shaped and molded by the world in which we live, what we see and do are a direct result of all our past experiences and the current situations we find ourselves in today. So, instead of listening to that rapper talk about how much money he has or playing that video game that comes out every year with the exact same premise as the last, shoot this guy to get to the next objective. How about we take some time to read a good book (I could think of a REAL good one) have deep conversations with people, go out sight seeing or just something that doesn't involve an internet connection/tv. Even if just for a little bit, to keep you grounded in reality, which is something im still trying to master too, so don’t feel bad lol.

Proverbs 24:19

Do not be upset because of evil men; Do not envy wicked people,

Ecclesiastes 8:14

There is something futile that takes place on the earth: There are righteous people who are treated as if they had acted wickedly, and there are wicked people who are treated as if they had acted righteously. I say that this too is futility.

One last thing, i will leave some links to other videos and websites that could give father info on the effects of the entertainment we watch. Keep in mind that this blog is only intended to help people discern or to challenge ones previously held beliefs, i feel that its good to keep an open mind about spiritual matters. Also, this isnt real spiritual food either, yes it might give you better perspective but you still should be getting your spiritual food from the bible (Intended for believers). Thanks if you have reached this point, if you like it, dont forget to show it some love. :) Jahbless

(Videos And Websites)

How Porn Affects the Brain 

How Violence in the Media Effects Children 

Part 1 of 4: ex Occultist, Secret Society, Psychic, New Age, Spiritualist, Witchcraft( Pennie Reese)