#long summer is just as bad as the long winter
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Toxic!Mattheo Headcanons
Mattheo Riddle x Reader
You ever heard about putting nicotine patches on your partner to get them addicted to what they think is being with you? Yeah, he'll try something like that. So you get super cranky and go through withdrawal anytime you go too long without seeing him.
Winter break? Summer break? You break up? Anything that keeps you away from him for more than a day or two and you're going through withdrawal, but you're clueless as to why. You just think it's because you can't see Mattheo
100% the type to keep guys away from you. You can only talk to him and his friends if he is around. If you have an assignment with another guy for class, he'll tell the professor you can't work with him but you just don't feel comfortable enough to speak up. How sweet, the professors will think, thinking he's speaking up for you and being such a nice boyfriend.
Such a lovebomber too. Like will have days he's so lovey-dovey and affectionate and just keeps so overly perfect, but will switch randomly to picking fights or giving you the silent treatment until you're almost at your limit and lovebombs you again so you forgive him.
Def the kind to go through your phone and accounts all the time and demands all your passwords, but will put up a fight if you ask for his phone or passwords.
Now, I don't think he would cheat. I just think he's bad at expressing his feelings for you and treats you how he sees people around him treat their partners. But he doesn't like his privacy invaded and refuses to give you phone or passwords until you've been dating for a while, but he expects them from you pretty early on.
Will definitely try to make decisions for you since he knows what's best for you. No, no, baby, you need to take these classes, not those.
Puts a tracking app on your phone, for your safety, of course.
I believe the boys would share nudes they get in a groupchat and I do unfortunately believe he would send some of yours in there. He may be possessive of you, but, man he loves showing you off too, no big deal. Not like he's showing the world.
I do think if you tried, you could get him to stop most, if not all of these. Again, he just doesn't know how to love properly and thinks you're like a little trophy that he earned and he can do what he'd like with you.
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My point is that the ice and fire in a song of ice and fire are literally the ice and fire powerhouses re the white walkers and the Targaryens (and stannis & the fire lord etc), and they’re both the villains. Goodbye.
#since they’re both extremely destructive forces#it’s not about who can destroy who#eg fire destroys ice#it’s about what happens to the world while they destroy each other#and honestly germ’s quote about fire being restorative etc only reminds me of beric dondarrion & his red priest#in a story about why the collateral damage?#what happens to the collateral damage?#two violent forces are equally bad#long summer is just as bad as the long winter#see the Rhoynar & the freehold etc etc#and we all know why the long winter is bad#asoiaf#anti house targaryen#for good measure#and#anti stannis baratheon#because he’s about to burn Shireen & you can argue with the wall about that
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it is the middle of summer
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza series#yakuza 7#yakuza like a dragon#arasawa#masumi arakawa#jo sawashiro#snap sketches#spoilers he is doing it on purpose. //slaps my dome// this bad boy can think of SO many ways to make jo smile and be a lil silly#GOOFY BEHAVIOR#it might be summer for the north but i know it winter in australia and like Close Enough right. this is still valid#i have a regular drawing of jo with arakawas scarf but i didnt like it. so i mad a whole comic instead ☠️#ALSO THREE CHEERS FOR BOANFIDE OLD MAN YURI THIS TIME !!!! I FOUND A WAY TO DO IT WITHOUT IT BEING DEPRESSING#this is a warning for things to come#anywy <3 aoki eased the leash on jo long nuff for him to have a day with arakawa aint that special aint that sweet#Real Talk Time. growing up i hated bundling for winter that shit was just so excessive#and my dad would aLWAYYS be like 'son what is this youre going to get SICK' and he'd bully me about wearing a scarf#or at the very least bully zipping/buttoning my coat. i think of it every time it starts to get cold out#i stil hate wearing scarves and i still hate zipping all my stuff up but still... lol.....#for my birthday my dad actually gave me an old scarf cause i was still refusing to bundle up despite how freezing it was ☠️#its not like i like the cold i always complain about it dont i i just dont like my neck being touched ENOUGH#ok thats all bye bye im gona watch One Missed Call#i told my twitter friend i was gonna make her a master list of all the tsutsumi and nakai stuff ive watched#and i wanted to watch that before i did#while im on this tangent tho im going insane over the fact i cant find the third We Sell Antiques movie online and im MAD#i KNOW the movie just came out this january but LEMME WATCH#ok bye i have movie watching to do LMAO#please enjoy the rare True And Honest old man yuri. before i make everyone sad this weekend
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By the way. Buying jeans in stores is impossible if you are shorter than average and they are gonna drag behind you like a veil. Have fun tripping on them (It's me. I am short)
#brought to you by me buying jeans today#they are said to be ankle length#spoiler: NOT ON ME#they go midway to my heel#if i tuck them in slightly they are great#but the point is#i am 158/159 cm#in feet i think that's either 5'2 or 5'3#THERE ARE PLENTY PEOPLE SHORTER THAN ME#if i can't buy jeans because they are long enough to cover my entire foot and a few cm of floor as well#what the fuck are people even shorter than me buying#a year ago i bought these loose summer pants that were said to be in length somewhere under the knee#THEY GO TO MY ANKLES (they are great pants btw. the only pair of loose pants i own because all the other ones in stores are too f long)#i know getting clothes tailored is an option#but i am really not gonna do that with everything i am buying?#especially jeans#since i never know how long they are gonna last#my thighs are thicker and touch each other so they have a tendency to tear in between my legs#sometimes they last years (current record 5 years)#and sometimes they last 3 months#i never know until i wear them more often#and i am not gonna get my clothes tailored every 3 months#i am on the skinny side so idk what the plus-size clothes situation is like but according to all evidence: absolutely horrible#anyway#brought to you by me bcs i dont shop online often and prefer stores so i can try things on first without having to return them after buying#also reminder that i DID buy nice jeans today. its just that i hardly ever find some#ohv and obv tall people also have it bad™ i am sorry for your naked ankles in winter weather#ema rambles#possibly to delete
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the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.
#A BAD PERSON TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE WOULD'VE GOTTEN YOU FIRED AND EVICTED IN WINTER IN ALASKA YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHICH I DID NOT DO#he was renting a room from my dad. for cheaper than he wouldve been able to find anywhere else. his brother was too#his brother didn't pay rent for over 6 months and my dad just forgave him the debt because my dad knew how much of a difference it wouldve#made when he was that age. and i had told him ex friend was family to me & my dad applied that to the brother too. bc he is a good person.#and one of the strongest parts of my support system. and i didn't say a word to him about what was happening until i knew he already had a#plan for when he would be ending ex friend's lease. so there would be no subconscious impact on ex friend's housing either#mgmt at work straight up asked me if i thought ex friend should be fired immediately multiple times and i'm in retrospect livid they put me#in that position but told them to go by the strike system in the employee handbook and to follow policy that ex friend knew perfectly. that#it couldn't be on me as acting assistant manager to choose#and after 10 months of workplace harassment i got a different job to save my life. ex friend didn't get fired.#he did saw trap shit to my brain!!!!!! jesus christ#he moved cross country to live with his long time gf he called his wife despite never having met irl. to a way more conservative state.#despite being gay. and she left him this summer lol#hadn't checked his twitter in over a year when it got pulled up frm an old link and i saw that. and when he was already at a low point too#me voice. oh no who could've seen this coming. from how you behave in every relationship in your life#may delete this in the morning. but i have to talk about it sometimes#i'm never reaching out for closure both bc he wouldn't give me any and because i know it would trigger him and i don't intentionally trigge#people. unlike him :)#vampire pit#like. i have to talk about it sometimes. i have to talk about it.#jam posts
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Bad news, got back from the vet and my beautiful baby son is going to have to be put down soon, probably tomorrow or the next day, so send him best of wishes for his next few days~ Luckily, he's actually not in a lot of pain (for now, hopefully he won't be) and is acting pretty normal, so I'm hoping he won't suffer at all and everything will be peaceful for him.
#pet death tw#death mention#let me know if I need any other tags#I would post something to help pay for his euthanasia expenses or etc. but I don't know of any secure methods#since I don't know much about stuff like that. I've heard that like on paypal and ebay and stuff people can still get your real name#and some information from their payment receipts or whatever sutff like that. thats part of why I've held off on selling clothes and sculpt#res for so long is trying to find a way to do it that's the most safe. aside from literall yhaving to start an llc and open a business bank#account and run everything on an entirely sepreate thing just so it has no association with my name and etc.#and obviouskly I don't feel like figuring out all of that stuff right now lol#I am busy just trying to make my beautiful meatloaf son comfortable and spend some time with him whilst I can#It's sad. but I'm glad the issues were caught before he was in terrible pain or anything. So suprisingly it was actually a pretty easy#decision. I would rather him go out while he's feeling okay and relatively content then wait until he's in severe#pain or extremely lethargic or etc. So it seems all very sudden but . It's better that way for him.#anyway#of COURSE this has to happen during a heat wave also.. hhrgghhh...#more fuel for my vendetta against summer lol.. Not that it's the season's fault but. something bad happening in the winter#vs. seomthing bad happening in the summer which just adds an extra layer of 'oh yeah on top of everything else#you're going to be sweating and nauseous and chronically uncomfortable!' is like.. >:T#Also for him. part of the issue is lung cancer which has spread and caused a bunch of fluid to build up in his stomach (which is what I#noticed. even though he's acting perfectly fine and normal his stomach was weird and bloated suddenly)#but if part of the problem is his lungs (which look absolutely crazy on xray) then him breathing in hot shitty thick air is definitely#not as comfortable as if he were able to be nice and cool and snuggled in some blankets. etc. etc.#ANYWAY ghhb... send him much luck and positivity!! Really hoping he can make it through the next day or so without#taking a turn for the worst. So hopeing for a peaceful quiet exit and not like tramatic sudden things. etc. etc.#cross your fingers pray to your gods whisper to the night sky so on and so forth. whatever you do that's meaningful to you.
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#is like reverse seasonal depression a thing bc i feel so much better in winter vs summer#anyway in bad (?) news#i am so lonely oh my god#please i need friends#been scrolling through pinterest for too long all of the pics of couples are making me so sad#it's even worse bc ik that no one sees me as a boy#like i'll never have a pinterest relationship#idk just bad dysphoria day ig#saw someone post on tt earlier saying no one is obligated to love you and that means you might never find it and that makes me so so sad#i just need someone ig#i keep going back to that mentor figure#and i read about lou sullivan a few days ago#his story makes me so sad#it's kind of like looking in a mirror#'they said i would never live as a gay man but it seems i will die as one'#still gives me chills#aesthetic#moodboard#mood board#aesthetic moodboard#messy layouts#aestheitcs#messy icons#icons
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Shaving the rest of my head tomorrow I'll probably be ugly but idrc
#been growing it out slowly but idk what to do w the length. it's tough i like the feel of longer hair better but not the look. also refuse#to style that shit lol if it takes more than 5 secs to rix im wearing a hat#also im tryna date this summer but im at like my worst physically rn. not bad but medical shit and burned out and w/e it'll take me like a#month of goin crazy at the gym to get back to where i was. so idk maybe bein a little ugly will force me to try harder with that lmao. doin#my 50 pushups a day and slowly ramping back into weights and cardio. frustrating cuz i lost so much progress bc of the fuckin surgery#oh well lol i might get a face piercing tomorrow too who knows i kinda dgaf anymore i might just do a bunch of shit ive been wanting to but#held off. just throw in the towel and look fucked up for the summer ✌️ also its gonna be humid and hot as fuck so bald ass head will be nice#my fuck ass ponytail mullet was already hot in the winter i mightve died if i kept it. how tf did i manage waist length hair for so long#also i knocked over my pasta (reheated butter egg noodles) onto the ground tryna get my cat to stop eating a house plant while writing this#still ate them tho#also also yeah it's 2am but i was hungryy
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As seasonal depression continues to make my life hell I have to keep remembering that even if the sun setting so early makes me miserable it doesn't make the sunset any less beautiful
#gotta keep on keepin on#just because something is bad right now doesnt mean things wont be good again someday#u gotta find the beauty in continuing to push forward and keep living even when things are hard#life sucks sometimes but its worth it to struggle and fall on your face if it means you can eat a good meal or share a laugh with a friend#or feel the first warm day of spring#feel the harsh sting of cold on your nose in the winter#feel that last sweep of the breeze on a warm summer night#see starlight from billions of dead stars still reaching you from past the grave#hold hands#gulp down some cold water after a long run#feel that swell of joy build up in your chest before you let out that first bark of laughter#theres a lot to keep going for even if its hard to remember sometimes
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the sun's started rising around the same time it does in late spring so now I've got that weird nostalgia for when I first showed up in the system and I'm also stuck thinking about when Lucy was like "September is the March of the year" because while that's kind of a ridiculous quote, I do get what they meant with it
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#something about the sun rising at the same time and in the same location as it did in those first 3 months of me being in the system#makes me really nostalgic for that time period and it's simultaneously nice experiencing the same vibe#and kind of upsetting when I think a little bit too hard about the passage of time and not being able to go back#I think there's something I miss about everything being new#and a relatively small group of us showing up at around the same time and being in the same situation#and all just kind of working together to figure stuff out#on the one hand suddenly being in the system was upsetting and confusing but there was a kind of novelty to it#whereas now it's just my life. which isn't a bad thing per say. it's just that a lot of things have sunk in since then#about being stuck here and having to deal with certain things permanently#plus a lot of the people I used to hang out with all the time (mostly other people from my source) aren't as active anymore#although I think a lot of them were less active last summer but then more active over the winter? maybe that'll happen again? who knows...#I should have been in bed probably 2+ hours ago and I think that's making me feel weird emotionally#and now I'm thinking a little too hard about being stuck in a body that doesn't feel like it's mine#because I looked in the mirror for a little too long earlier and got freaked out about seeing someone else's reflection
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i must confess that fall is the worst season in my opinion and i don't know why people like it. everything bad about the world is represented in october - november
#seth.txt#1. the colors are dingy most of the month and aren't that great. worst shade of orange#2. sickness is increased as it is cold and flu season. when i get sick it's always fall or winter#3. seasonal depression increases as the days get shorter and shorter. why do you people like when it's dark at 5pm#4. the food is lame. people who love fall usually love the food or thanksgiving which is just mash potatoes and pumpkin which both suck ass#5. the holidays in winter at least make it worthwhile because christmas and new years are both objectively better aesthetically#6. halloween feels really superficial like no one truly celebrates it anymore on a widespread level. should be hyped up like christmas#7. idc what people say dealing with cold is way worse than dealing with heat if you have ac. i am always cold so colder = always bad#8. all plants dying is so ugly to look at and there are no little birds and animals around during the fall which makes the depression worse#i could think of reasons for hours i think i have explained my manifesto well enough for now#actually hold on adding another amendment.#9. having to wear long sleeves pants and socks indoors is torturous and disgusting to where battling the coldness is the lesser evil#10. the sky is always fucking grey for some reason fucker that isn't beautiful esp when it's not even raining#11. you can't go swimming or eat ice cream as easily. name any fall activity that remotely compares to swimming in the summer you're wrong
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can't wait to be well enough to leave the house more freely i NEED to go to the LIBRARY!!!!!! >:(
#i have ordered some books though.......... a 'little' treat so that i'm not subsisting entirely on The Apps everyday and feeling Bad.#don't feel like i have enough energy to draw properly or collage so that's just brewing in my mind. i did do a bunch of computer stuff i#needed to today though so yay for that i guess :P#i'm reading winter world by bernd heinrich atm and it's V interesting >:) summer world wasn't available at blackwells though and they have#free delivery so will not be reading that one soon.#ANYWAY the only thing i can figure out how to borrow from the library is non-fiction because i legit cannot process fiction choices there#rip. luckily with the non-fiction books it's way easier to establish what their deal is and quickly decide YES i DO want to read all about#this person's year long quest to spot all the dragonflies and damselflies in the UK thank you!!!!#i will go back as soon as i can (maybe four weeks time i think if my scheduling and symptoms predictions hold up?) WAHOO!!!!
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One of the major reasons I'm eagerly waiting for winter is because I'll finally get to wear my boots <3
#Jae's convos#Aside from the fact that I fucking hate summer. sun. sweating. warmth#Which funny considering i was born in summer#Also my boots are rad as fuck. I'll post pictures of them when winter starts and I wear them#Ever since I bought them and started wearing them. there hasn't been a single person who hasn't complimented me#And they're not even unique looking or anything just plain black combat boots#But they're MINE so they are the best ever. I have no bad taste when it comes to shoes#I have very few shoes but they last long#I also pay a lot for them so they fucking better#Anyways. i love my boots
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i think theres something really sick and sadistic about having extreme depression in spring/summer. like the sun is out its warm out i COULD go do things if i wanted to since im not snowed in but honest to god 9/10 times i will feel no better than i did during the winter at this moment.
#the only time im like REALLY not feeling this at least not for long is my weekly hangout club i go to but thats only once a week#so ive been feeling fucked up every other day of the week#im literally sitting in the sun coming through the glsss door looking outside and im STILL like :/ wow depressions kicking my ass :/#still kinda wanna **** ****** Badly#like i know spring and summer isnt a cure all and its probably actually better than mt winter depression but its the combo of like#beint able to maybe do things but then not. doing anything bc i dont feel good#sorry if im like. gettinf increasingly more concerning its just been uhmmm. bad couple of months! but ill survive or whatever#i fucking hate 2023 to my core cant it be over already
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Why is it so hard to find short sleeve blouses or shirts or any pants that aren’t wool. Pls my dress could says I can’t show my shoulders I have to have short sleeves at least.
#an hour and half or two hours at the good will and Ross and only came out with two pants from the good will#it just kinda sucks bc none of my professional clothes fit anymore haha#screams#I mean I have like 3 long sleeve button downs at least I would rather not wear them bc I was wearing one indoors with pants the other day an#and was sweating up a storm and these court buildings are old and the ac isn’t great#if I’m gonna have to wear pants bc no shorts allowed and the skirts have to be very long and I do get disporpjic every now and then with#skirts but my lord#I say this just realizing the only skirts I have are two and ones too short and for winter and the other is long enough but still for winter#I’ve been trying to find clothes for like 2 months now it’s just hard bc I don’t have a lot of time and I only really buy preowmed clothes#and like I’ll only buy knew if it’s not polyester whcih means I can’t buy much of anything#but have you ever worn polyester in the Deep South summers it’s not even worth it#I’m gonna die#a soul sucking endeavor I’m so tired form it and my soul hurts knowing I have to get up and try again#I have blazers I know have enough pants if I do laundry pretty often#but good lord how hard is it to find a non sleeveless blouse pls they won’t let me show my shoulders bc idk I guess fear of bra strap showag#but jokes on them I’ve never worn a bra.#or not consistently. only shelf bras and then boom my anxiety autism got to bad I can’t eat them I can’t wear stuff with elastic the sligjt#constriction drives me insane
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we could've made them look like anything, but we made them look like us
#just been on my mind lately. what if sometimes wed look up to them and thought -#Rosa rambles#I want to relisten to c/w so bad..... I thought I'd do it whenever I'm caught up with palisade but it'll be summer by then...#And c/w is just. So strongly connected to winter in my mind#well I'll probably still do it but it will feel slightly wrong. i think of 'the long way around' when the air starts to get really cold.#and a clear cold sky and trudging through snow and walking very carefully across an iced over path#alas!
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