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Naaah it’s probably fine! Let’s bring it inside the city!

Thoughts on this fuck off massive horse the Greeks left outside the city gates?

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Eldritch being *in a deep gruff voice*: I am older than everything you know the air you breathe the ground you stand on I exist beyond everything you know including your spectrum of gender

Guy: so what pronouns do you prefer?

Eldritch being *timidly*: s-she/her please 🥺

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Man I can’t wait for Silksong to be featured in the new direct

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I came out to my brother today as trans and it went really well

So I’m gonna try to come out to the rest of my family tomorrow

(I’m not going to talk about how I came out tho I’m a little embarrassed about it (>﹏<)ꕤ*.)

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So as a teen in American high school basically no one stands or participates in the pledge at least at my school also they legally that can’t even make us do it or reprimand us due to the first amendment

That might change I’m sure you mean well but as it is now this advice to me is more useless than a clump of dirt

dear usamerican high schoolers looking for a way to resist fascism: sit through the pledge of allegiance.

no getting up. no looking at the flag.

everyone will be looking at you. you'll be sweating like a fucking hippopotamus. your teacher will sternly tell you to get up. you'll feel stupid and that maybe its not worth it because you're just a kid in a classroom. but I'm here to remind you that there are no real life consequences to detention. there are however real life consequences to resisting a thoughtless performance of nationalism.

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At this point idk what I want or what makes me happy

I feel like my life is:

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Being trans is awesome. I get to PICK my own name?!??!

I’ve done infinitely better than my parents just off the basis that it’s not a reference to pop culture (although you wouldn’t really know it)

I THOROUGHLY thought it out like

It has a lot meaning behind it

It sounds really nice

Also it isn’t impossible to spell (not that my deadname is but still an important factor)

The maybe one thing you can get me on is that it’s in a foreign language but it’s a European language

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As one who has thought about this extensively (don’t ask) bleeding out sucks

Try blowing up instead

top 3 places to bleed out:

1. the snow

2. your lover/best friend/homoerotic comrade’s arms

3. bathroom floor

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Do you think I’d be put on a watchlist if I searched up “how to synthesize estrogen”?

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I’m tired of holding onto the edge of fighting everyday I just want to let go and fall into the abyss

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So the last 2 days I’ve had dreams which is off since usually don’t have dreams and me remembering them is fairly hit or miss but I’ve remembered these dreams with a weird amount of clarity but that’s not even the weirdest thing they were both very… metaphorical? Allegorical? I’m not sure what the right word is but it’s obvious the message and real life parallels they were trying to convey.

The first one from Sunday night I was in a closet looking and considering wearing a bra out a set of like 5 (side note they all had anime prints on them not important I just wanted to mention it) but instead I just left because I was scared and then I woke up (also the irony of being in a closet is not lost on me).

The second one upset me a lot but the message was a lot heavier so it starts with me in a forest and I find a sparrow on the ground and as I try to walk past it hops in front of me and it chirps and sorta pecks at me so I think that it might be territorial and it’s nest might be near by so I try again but it’s still not letting me by but eventually I do get by but as I start to run away from it suddenly lose friction and run but don’t go anywhere sorta just running in place but as I was heard a crunch and I look back it looks hurt like it’s wing had been dislocated or something and I can’t help but to think “I did that” and then it’s lover flys down explodes and then I woke up (also I’m pretty sure they were both female so I accidentally destroyed a lesbian bird relationship)

It’s easy for me to see that these dreams were telling me that running away and avoiding coming out will only hurt me more and more

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The binding of Isaac

I’m so screwed

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I never imagined that I’d get this low

Trying to get to the stars in the sky

Always so close yet so far

They say never fly too high

To close to the sun which is I flied at night

But I forgot to avoid the sea

The salt water drenched my wings and loosened the wax

Now as I fall

I can’t

Cry

Yell

Or even think

Just falling

into the abyss below

Going

Down

Down

Down

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So does anyone else get the urge to tear off their skin?

Or is that just me?

Also I might vent post later

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Nooo weird in a bad way :(

Mint is the worst what is even supposed to be it’s not sweet sour spicy or salty I don’t think you can count it as savory and it’s not bitter either

reasons to brush your teeth

delicious minty treat just for you

feels weird and fun

yum yummy mint flavor

brains when they see a routine 🧠🎉

powerful mouth

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Oh :(

t4t? oh no i think you misunderstood me. i said tnt. we’re going to explode you. with a bomb