#malingers

[scaryarcade]

always offputting to me how much people (journalists, medical professionals) put focus on appearance and aesthetics when discussing things like self-diagnosed and "imitative" DID. like i feel like i see a lot of. idk. "people on tiktok who dress in colorful clothes while calling themselves systems..." "the DID patients i treat are different from those people online, who have dyed hair and do cosplays..."

& like, the validity of these ppl's claims of having DID is always in question when these traits are being brought up. it just feels like a weird attempt to create a distinction between Normal, Reasonable People and Those Attention-Seeking Liars Flaunting Their Blue Hair Online.

this permeates DID spaces too. lost track of how many times ive seen someone on r/DID lamenting how they have to share spaces with "those weirdos who use neopronouns" and how they just want to find "other NORMAL people with DID"

[subsystems]

"This policing of illnesses online often verges on bullying, and can have serious ramifications for both posers and people with real-life conditions. It creates a 'boy who cried wolf' culture around health on social media, which subjects actual sufferers to skepticism and condemnation. . . . Feldman calls actual sufferers 'the real casualties of deception — because they are there legitimately seeking help. When the skepticism ends up undermining their efforts to get it, that's just deeply unfortunate.'"

Harriet Shepherd (2021) on the witch-hunting of people who fake disorders/illnesses. [Source]

[many-but-one]

The did-is-not-real account following all of the DID accounts on tumblr just to try to bully or belittle them is so fucking funny to me😂 fan behavior tbh. You must have a lot of hate in your heart to really spend so much time doing that instead of minding your business. Claims they are worried about malingerers as if that’s actually their problem to deal with and not someone’s personal therapy team. Yikes!

[pavelkaramazov]

I’m convinced that every Dostoevsky fan on here has one specific character that is like a sleeper cell to activate their most absolutely insane obsessions. The blorbofication that goes on in our very tiny community is truly next level. It’s like a very complex Rorschach test of what your specific most inner neurosis are only it’s impossible to decipher exactly what it says about you in any way and only leaves you with more questions than answers.

[spacedemodulator]

MAG 196, This Old House

Like Jon in his rowboat, like Basira on her island, Martin, too, is entirely done with this shit.

ANNABELLE: Look I'm no good at monologue-ing. Won't you please monologue for me?

MARTIN: What's in it for me?

ANNABELLE: I'll stuff you with 100% fewer spiders.

MARTIN: Gimme.

@a-mag-a-day

[aliosne]

Everybody clap for me I felt uncertain on some stairs that didn’t have a railing and I asked aneki if I could hold her arm

[c0rpseductor]

i still get mad sometimes thinking about how when i was a kid anytime autism affected me negatively or i had other learning difficulties (im still not sure if i have dyscalculia but math was very hard for me as a kid) my parents just got so frustrated and angry, like i wasn’t Trying Hard Enough to think and act right and it was my active fault i was like this. i had a lot of behavioral problems and they were pretty much all because i was disabled and just receiving abuse at home on top of it instead of any help or intervention. i wasn’t physically disabled, that didn’t start becoming an issue for me until i was a bit older, but it was such a pain in the ass sometimes for them to give a fuck that i was sick and they interrogated me for faking basically every illness so much that i can’t imagine what it would’ve been like if i had been physically disabled as a kid. Nightmare

[fleetstreetpies]

TW: mental health problems, psychosis, open and graphic discussion of my hallucinations and delusions, mental health meds, mental health med side effects, medical inaction, medical malpractice.

Content under the cut.

Good god it’s happening again. It’s getting REALLY bad again.

I’ve been on a mood stabiliser for about a year now, and I’ve been VERY open with my psychiatrist about a lot of the complications I’ve faced, like needing my dose increased, nausea and headaches from increasing my dosage, persistence of mania, night terrors, delusions, etc. And now the delusions and hallucinations are worse than they were. They’d gotten better for a while but now here I am and good gods, I want it to stop so badly.

I want to not see things and people melting slowly. I want to not perceive that people have been replaced by near identical clones. I want to not perceive that some people are just my mother in elaborate disguise. I’d make it all stop or go away if I could, and when I was a younger man I tried, though when I tried I fully thought that I was God and could control the universe with just my thoughts.

I’ve been trying to talk to my psychiatrist about it. I need to get my mood stabiliser increased, sure, and I know that. But I also desperately need to get on an antipsychotic. And I think she thinks I’m malingering.

Do people actually think that folks with these problems are faking this? Malingering is relatively rare, and by all means, infuriating for all parties. But do the professionals genuinely think that we’re malingering? Because I’d bet (if I had money and were a gambling man) that it’s way harder to fake than you’d think. People who do that whole malingering thing unequivocally baffle me. Antipsychotics are extremely expensive and I cannot believe people would genuinely be willing to buy them and fake it for sympathy. I can’t afford 880 dollars per refill no matter how hard I try because I can barely make rent in a month (at least I get my meds through the school pharmacy where they cost way less).

So what even is the point of some other person faking it? To sell their prescription drugs for a profit on a black market? To gain sympathy? To get some kind of disability benefits?

I just need for my psychiatrist to fucking listen to me for five seconds and to actually fucking help me for once in her goddamn life when all the other doctors or professionals in their white coats and clean blouses and blazers won’t. I need help because they all fucking refuse to help me and my psychiatrist is supposed to help me. They took a vow to “do no harm”, but that vow is useless when their own inaction or bias is the cause of the harm. It’s pointless and futile! Why take a vow when you don’t even listen to the people you swore to help?

Medical inaction is ableism. Medical inaction is malpractice. Medical inaction is to be complicit in the deaths of so many mentally ill people.

Doctors say “do no harm” but they leave the mentally ill to suffer and die because “what if they’re faking it?” That’s a poor excuse to deny people adequate (read: potentially life saving) treatment and healthcare.

Shame on the pharmaceutical industry, shame on doctors, shame on malingerers, and shame on everyone complicit in the ableism, incompetence, inaction, corruption, and denial that kill.

Shame on you.

[in-the-nighttime]

THIS IS GOING TO BE SO POORLY FORMATTED. top 7 little tiny karls in my gallery that are just so pint-sized because i cropped everyone else OUT.

[thescreamcorner]

The phrase "I can't understand how anyone would want this/DID" has been completely and utterly abused on this site to the point where when I see someone use it I immediately end up skeptical and whenever I get any urge to talk on the struggles of dissociative disorders myself I just feel my stomach churning

[rickyschrodertribute]

“To My Daughter With Love” premiered on NBC thirty-one years ago today on January 24, 1994. It starred Rick Schroder as a recently widowed young father who must decide how his daughter should be raised after the death of his wife. I’ve seen this once and it is such a heartwarming story. Ricky is truly wonderful in this movie.

[diningpageantry]

im gonna be so real i have a lot of thoughts on the whole "DID fakers" conversation from the perspective of someone whose diagnosis has been well discussed and validated, and so much of it is the reality that far too many people are fakeclaimed for things that are studied and understood as possible symptoms of the disorder. on one hand i really want to compile and create some longform video essay detailing and sourcing where so much fakeclaiming is misinformed, but i also very desperately do not want my face or voice attached to media discussing a connection to my DID for incredibly personal reasons. but genuinely, there's so much conversation between both people with the disorder and people who study the disorder that validates a lot of experiences that are fakeclaimed and far too much of the fakeclaiming is people monopolizing off traumatized people desperately trying to understand their own experiences.

[retropopcult]

Sleepless in Seattle (1993)

[fingertipsmp3]

2024 affirmation: I will not dislocate my knee

[ghoul-haunted]

like (x) genre au would have sulla personally ink about half of crassus' tattoo and leave the rest unfinished and then send a hand signed invite telling him to show up to the wedding between pompey and his step daughter

[quietflorilegium]

"What kind of illness is it that has a man in a fever in the morning and out fishing in the afternoon? Hern says it is a very rare and uncommon disease called cowardice."

Tanaqui, Diana Wynne Jones, "The Spellcoats"