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[kkolg]

Blank Canvas - Jakeneutron

[samdeancrimespree]

there’s something about wincest in the pre-slash era (whenever that is) where i think the dynamic is: one of them does not have sex with men. doesn’t think of them that way, because it feels too dangerous, too easy to slip into those fantasies he keeps locked away. and the other one fucks guys, but only ones who are eerily similar, carbon copies to his brother. the type of resemblance that would turn most siblings off. and the roles could go either way, for either of them. just… the dynamics of the different types of desperate “unrequited” feelings and the way they try to get away from them.

like. dean getting drunk and making out with some tall, long haired guy at a bar. nasty desperate hands down the back of the guys jeans, stifling a sigh that his ass isn’t quite round enough to be sam’s. he has blue eyes, not brown, but dean isn’t looking at his face anyway. fucking not-sam rough in the back of the impala, moaning baby and cutting off before brother, saying sam’s name when he cums, trying not to stare at the army figure in the ashtray. hating himself for it, swearing off it, but always crawling back, chasing the high like an addict. feeling deep in his soul that sam was right to leave, that he’s better off without his sick freak of a brother.

sam being into girls with short hair, accidentally hitting on lesbians because he struggles to be attracted to anything not wearing a crew cut, flannel and work boots. he’s sick, he knows, that’s part of why he had to leave. frosh week drunk, he lets a guy flirt with him, because he’s just tall enough, just different enough, that sam can give himself plausible deniability. his lips are too thin, he’s too gentle, he smells like axe and fake leather, but sam needs something, and this is all he can get. it’s going fine, until the guy— too late now to ask his name— goes for sam’s belt and sam feels like he’s going to puke. the wrongness of it comes over him all at once, like a fever or a hex. clarity pierces his drunken state: not dean’s hands, not dean’s voice, not dean, wrong. at least it gives him an excuse to back out, a good reason to lock himself in the bathroom and sit on the floor, trying to determine if the dry heaving is cheap beer or grief.

girls are— safe. long hair, soft hands, sweet and gentle and nowhere close to 6’1. this way, there’s nothing reminding sam of the absence, nothing pushing against the barrier he’s made around what he really wants. he can be normal.

he knows it’s dean after the first strike, knows his footsteps and his breath and the outline of his shoulders, even now, even in the dark. but sam doesn’t stop fighting, because he’ll have to stop touching dean, and sam can allow himself this one thing, after so long. dean’s leather jacket on sam’s bare arms is making him dizzy, and sam lets dean take him down, the beginning and end of sam’s understanding of desire. a reminder, familiar like dean’s rough palms on his wrists, his weight pinning sam, his shit-eating grin and drawled easy, tiger; sam has never been normal.

[shibusawaz]

have you ever wanted to know who YOUR soulmate in bsd would be? even if you haven't, i think you should still take my quiz. nudge nudge.

31 questions and 28 results, enjoy :))

[givehimthemedicine]

El and Lucas the Max Protectors™

a lot of people seem to hc Max as really protective, and I get it because that comes standard with the type of character that Max almost is. but Max is not protective. she's emotionally protective, she's physically supportive, but she's not physically protective. in a moment of danger you never see Max stepping out in front - you see her at the back of the group. and she never has a bruised ego about it. she never insists she doesn't need stupid boys to protect her and she never does the "ohh thank u kind sir lmaooo" thing with Lucas after the danger has passed.

I'm here to tell you that while Max might not readily admit to it, she likes to be protected. loves to be protected. not in a damsel way; we've seen her get out of some horrible situations on her own. she never really expects or seeks it out, but her friends just do protect her without her having to ask, and it means so much to her. because Max has felt unprotected all her life, and she craves it. can she even remember a time when she felt totally safe in her own home? she lives with two abusers and I can't imagine Max seeing her mother as any kind of of protector, after putting her in that situation. Max hasn't had anyone make her feel safe in a long time.

so I love that while Max is capable of taking care of herself, when something scary happens, you can find her unapologetically peeking out from behind that nerd boy and his little slingshot, the one who she made fun of for screaming like a little girl. I love that it seems like Max's character would be the one protective of her abused ingenue bff, but she's the one always standing back with awe while El bodily shields her from monster after monster. I think being protected like that makes Max feel very loved.

Bonus: El's protection means so much to Max that the literal last act of her life is to try to reciprocate and try to protect El when she needs it. i'm done, do not speak to me

[coachbeards]

everything about beard can be explained when you think to yourself "oh right...he was raised catholic"

[space-coupe]

How did X-Hunter have both a daddy's money driver and millionaire sponsor but still only one pair of racing shoes for the entire team

[djservo]

cas you better be fr with bros making a come back or you'll hear some screaming on our chat 😤❤️

[devilfruitdyke]

i fr painted all of this just to name it an anime reference

[ID: an oil and acrylic still life painting. it shows 10 raspberries and a tangerine on a slate gray background. half of the tangerine is in the top right corner, with 4 other segments placed randomly close to the edges of the piece. the raspberries are in random places across the whole canvas. the whole piece is mostly realistic and not particularly stylized. end ID.]

[arcteris]

woe. the indomitable human spirit be upon ye. the answer at the center of the universe is love jumpscare. life will always find a way surprise. (looks at the trajectory of your life) get changed idiot.

[through heavy tears] REAL SHIT!!!

[sapphicsnzs]

just me life updating about moving and other ramblings in the tags lmao

[crim0137]

not an ounce of growth shown. like a damn one dimensional character i tell ya

[soyeonsbabygirl]

Hopefully if things go my way I can write my ITZY fics

[expatiating]

tagged by @death-dab-for-cutie to post a selfie!

tagging: @gogh-chase-the-stars @losingmymindx @jubileeann @punk0ff @calmmyfears @imonlyadumpling @blurryxsoul and anyone else who would like to… to post a selfie or 2 or 10 (if you want😌)

[baeshijima]

maybe having the ichor of two dragons animated short looped while im doing my portfolio assignment is a bad idea (<- screaming, shaking, crying bc it hurts but also dan hengs shout made me giggle a little)

[swordmaid]

thinking abt the shri’iia giving astarion poison as gifts hc now I am thinking of her microdosing on said poison that she’s prob built immunity to so when he drinks her blood he can build up immunity to it as well

[silentgrim]

launching game—