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[yesyoutubeisruiningmylife]

oh did i tell you that i'm going on erasmus next semester hope it all wrks out

[robbyykeene]

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🙍🏼 abolishdads

important context: my dad sucks

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guys if this post gets 300 notes i'll make sure to thank Bofa in my sekai tai winners speech

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who????

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Bofa DEEZ NUTS hahahahaha GOTCHA

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I'm breaking up with you.

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“Maiming and killing is bad its against the law” God forbid women do anything anymore

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my sister in christ you literally stabbed me

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The karate mob has arrested me for feminism crimes and at dawn I will be canceled without trial. They gave me a computer with one post in the chamber and said to do the honorable thing. I do not recognize my own country

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Alright listen up girls, gals, and nonbinary pals. You probably know a user going by the username @tortureiscool and might have even interacted with them personally. In real life their name is Terry Silver, and despite what some recent publicity stunts will try to convince you, they are deeply problematic. Recently I've seen a lot of thirst posts hailing him as a 'zaddy' and calling him the 'only ethical billionaire' (😒😒😒) so I needed to come on here set the record straight. In this post I'll be going in depth on some of the more fucked up things he's done over the years, so a big content warning for: abuse, grooming, gaslighting, psychosexual torture, unhealthy bdsm practices, drug abuse, the vietnam war, environmental pollution, and most importantly billionaire shenanigans. Also a BIG thank you to @larusso-auto-offical for helping compile this post. Read more

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[humming-pokemon-helpers]

After work today, I feel obligated to share a certain reminder again: for the love of Arceus, do not catch a Pokémon if you are not prepared for it to be unwilling or unable to battle other Pokémon. Or perhaps more accurately to today’s situation: Pokémon are allowed to be non-battling if they so choose.

I find far too many people surprised by this concept just because “they must have been battling in the wild, right?” And yes, most of the time, we do catch Pokémon in wild battles. But sometimes Pokémon battle for self-defense, not to make a new partner, and sometimes we catch Pokémon without battling at all.

“But I’m a trainer!” Yes, and it’s a trainer’s job first and foremost to understand their Pokémon’s needs and wants. Not to force a creature that could be traumatized or worse to fight for prize money. And even if your Pokémon does want to fight, what happens if it gets injured, or grows old? It’s simply impossible to expect a Pokémon to be willing or able to battle from birth to death.

“But I don’t have the time/money to raise non-battling Pokémon!” Okay. Though I would say the same logic here applies here as it would to having a child in that you should be prepared for every eventuality before catching one, and if you couldn’t handle raising it without the extra income it provides, then you can’t handle raising it, period… I know that not everyone is taught that. At the least, if this is a deal-breaker, find a person who is willing and able to raise your Pokémon for you, and make sure to rehome them humanely.

As for what not to do: hitting, yelling, withholding food or water, making your other Pokémon attack your non-battling partner… I’ve seen people come in having done all of these, then asking me to “fix” their Pokémon. It saddens me every time, and often there’s little I can do to get these trainers to come around.

This time, I was lucky—I managed to convince this trainer to leave their non-battling Pokémon with me.

[An image of a Darumaka, curled up and rocking back and forth.]

This little gal doesn’t have a name other than “Darumaka” so far, and she hasn’t stopped rocking like that for a few hours. I’ll have to acclimate her slowly to my other Pokémon, but I’m glad she’s in a better place now at least. (If anybody has tips for keeping a Darumaka, please let me know—for now, I’m going about some fireproofing in my home.)

Just… I wish it didn’t have to come to this point for so many Pokémon.

[gangurosicko]

You would think that being a gyaru would mean that I'd be into the "bimbocore" trend that has being going around the past few years but actually I hate it. Women don't need to dumb down themselves to enjoy cute or sexy things.

Gyaru fashion is about expressing yourself loudly and unapologetically as possible. You think I do big gal maukep for approval? I look like a deraged panda. We can't let society convince us again that being sexy, spending time on clothes, applying makeup or speaking in slang makes you stupid and making girls believe that pretty = stupid is settling women's liberation back!

I'm NOT just a girl I'm an university graduate with a job and I'm gonna spend my time and money in things that make me happy. Acting stupid to seem more appealing and palatable is not in my plans.

[l0renz0sgf]

POV: you get convinced by your best friend pansy to go to the first Yule ball after party and the Slytherins are hosting…let’s just say Theo,draco, and Blaise can all play the guitar heheheh🎸🎸🎸

btw I made a playlist for this

lorenzolover is my user and the playlist is called Yule ball after party remake!

Hey guys this is my first time ever writing b4 so just feel free to leave me some feed back but I thought of this and I can’t forget about it

Also I’m writing this while listening to AM on vinyl and my mahogany apple candle is burning I mean how fitting okay whatever I need to stop okay bye

Everyone is in 6th year!!! All characters in this are either head cannons or Jk Rowlings creds to all!!

Warnings: mention of alcohol and drugs, fighting between characters , kissing

enjoy!!

“Y/N!!!!!” Pansy yells at you from the bathroom connected to your shared dorm. You walk in to see her struggling to zip her short black silk dress and her Yule ball dress on the ground in the corner. You walk over and let out a small laugh before eventually helping your friend out. “Wow pans you look breathtaking” you say before you could do anything else Pansy grabs your hands while begging you to go to the party with her. While in potions a week ago the both of you had been told by Blaise that they are throwing the first Yule ball after party. You have never been a big party person only ever going to small gatherings usually held at the black lake. I mean what can you say you’re a simple gal. “Please please PLEASE Y/N please come to the party I promise you will have sooo much fun plus a special someone is going to be there” she says with a smirk. You cheeks immediately turn a dark pink knowing exactly who she was talking about… the one and only Theodore Nott but I mean you couldn’t help it he’s gorgeous and has always had a soft spot for you. After five more minutes of begging you cave in and decide to go. “ YAY Y/N I have the perfect dress that will match y/e/c” Pansy said while practically grinning from ear to ear. Pansy begins searching her closet for the dress when she eventually pulls out a dark green body con dress. You’ve never been one to wear tight dress because you found them uncomfortable but you had no other choice. “ well what are you waiting for put it on we only have thirty minutes!!” Pansy says while laying the dress onto your bed. You go to put it on and take a look in your mirror and you think to your self damn I look good. After you are done changing into your new dress you hang your Yule ball dress onto the door of the closet before closing it you grab your black stilettos.

You and Pansy take a few polaroid pictures before walking out the door to the boys dorm. Just as you are about to knock Theo comes walking up the stairs in his unbuttoned white oxford shirt and dress pants. You think to yourself god that he looks so good. ( okay but imagine that like omg) “Oh hey guys” Theo greeted before walking to the door to unlock it and walk in. You and Pansy walk through the door and see Blaise performing a spell to double his supply of fire whiskey so they have enough for the party. Draco is in the bathroom applying cologne. Draco walks out and says “ Okay let’s go guys we have to get all this alcohol downstairs” everyone nods and each person grabs two bottles. As you’re walking down the stairs you lose your balance and almost fall until you feel an arm around your waist saving you from face-planting. You look behind you and see Theo smirking at you but before you can say thank you he bends down to your ear and whispers “be careful I don’t want you hurting that pretty face of yours”. All you could do was blush and turn your head in an attempt to hide it but little did you know he already saw the effect he had on you. Once Theo let go of your waist so you could continue walking you couldn’t help but feel a pain of sadness since he was no longer touching you. After setting up the whiskey ,casting a silencing charm on the common room, and setting up the lights and music the room was finally ready. After thirty minutes the room was filled with people dancing and loud music. You hated to admit but you were having the time of your life. You were dancing with Pansy in the middle of the dance floor you were on your second drink and started to feel buzzed. Adrian Pucey and his other friends were drunk and started to try and dance with Cho Chang who was waiting for Cedric to get back with drinks for the two. “Please go away Pucey! I told you I’m not interested” she continued to plead but he didn’t care.” Hey Pucey she said she’s not interested just back off ” Cedric said with two drinks in his grasp. “ come on Cho I know you are just playing hard to get” Pucey persisted but Cedric had enough and gave the drinks to Cho before pushing Pucey away. “ She said she isn’t interested.” Pucey pushed Cedric back and threw the first punch. Cedric punches Pucey until Pucey gets knocked into the speaker causing the music to stop. Everyone starts complaining until Draco yells out to everyone to hold on. He rushes up the stairs to his shared dorm. Following along are Theo and Blaise. You look at Pansy with a confused expression that she shares with you. The boys come back down stairs with guitars in hand. Theo’s hand around the neck of the electric guitar. You can’t help but stare. Draco connects a new speaker to all of the boys guitars and continues the music.

Start playing in my feelings by Lana del Ray!!

Draco is the first to start strumming his guitar. Theo and Blaise joining along. Everyone started to yell and cheer at the boys who saved the party and god did they look so good. Pansy and you are both star struck not knowing they are had the ability to play guitar. This only made you attracted to Theo even more. You and Pansy began to swing your hips to the music together when you make eye contact with Theo. Your heart started to skip a beat and the both of you held eye contact until he eventually winked and closed his eyes throwing his head back as he continued the song. (Peep the cover page but imagine it’s a electric guitar) The night continues and you were eyeing Theo down as the boys are playing their final song of the the night, Call Out My Name by the weekend. Pansy saw you staring and whispered into your ear” if it makes you feel better Y/N he’s been staring at you all night too” that made your stomach flutter. As the song came to an end, you looked up to see Theo walking over to you after finishing the song. Pansy had walked away to go talk to Blaise and Draco leaving you guys alone. Now Theo was stood in front of you causing you to have to tilt your neck back so you could see him. He said something but you couldn’t hear it. He took a note of this and bent down to your eye level and said “ I asked how did you like it” all you could do was think about how close you were to him. You eventually gathered the words to say” I loved it don’t get me wrong but I didn’t know you could play, why did you never tell me?” you asked the boy. Theo smirked and said “ well some things are just better off as surprises”. He held out his hand sending you the message that he wanted to dance. You slowly reached your hand out to connect it with his.

start playing she by harry styles!

Draco and Blaise had gone back for one last song because Pansy begged for them to play your favorite song basically setting you up but what’s new. You and Theo started to sway to the music and you mumbled “I love this song” not thinking he could hear you. But he already knew this he always noticed how you would hum this song while trying to focus on making a potion or how you would always request it at gatherings. He took notice of everything you did. As the song continued the two of you maintained eye contact. Your arms were draped over the back of his neck and his hands rested on your hips while swaying them to the song. The space between the two of you had slowly started to close as the song neared the end. Theo bent down to your ear and whispered “ you look beautiful tonight” making your ears warm and causing you to hide you face in the crook of his neck. Theo let go of your waist letting one of his hand gently prop your chin up so you could look at him. Your breath hitched and you were thinking this can’t be real this can’t be real. It felt like it were only you two in the room now. As if you both noticed, you couldn’t help it anymore and closed the space between you. Your lips touched and he immediately kissed back. Theo pulled you even closer by pushing your lower back with one hand and the other hand on your upper back. When you pulled back for air, Theo whispered into your ear and said “finally, but I was supposed to be the one to kiss you first”

Should I make a pt 2?

Is this even good?

Idk this is so cringe what am I doing

[mommyashtoreth]

not aboit cro&azi but: opinion on the shallowness and frankly odd pacing of nina and maggies relationship? like one day theyre having stilted conversation, the next maggie is crying over how in love she is.

Hmm. Strokes my wizard's beard. Good question. Good Omens fans have caught on to how much I love the sound of my own voice but not on to the other facet of my deeply annoying yet hilarious and charming personality, which is that I love being contrarian. So, in that fashion, I must disagree with this assessment. As we discovered last night it's been a while since I've watched goomer (I may rewatch it soon, I may not, who knows) but I still think it's abundantly clear that Maggie has a huge crush on Nina from afar, and uh. this is gonna sound crazy but when you have huge unrequited crushes on people it can make you nervous and awkward when you talk to them. Idk I come from an Az-and-Crowley school of relationships myself, where you hang out with someone for eight kajillion years as Totally Platonic Girl Best Friends until one day you just fucking snap you NEED to fuck them so badly, but lots of people experience relationships the way Maggie does, it's a suuuuper common romance trope, and that doesn't make it bad writing! I think we're just so used to seeing this kind of trope be applied to straight relationships and the "platonic gal pals for eight kajillion years until one day you just fucking snap" thing be applied to gay relationships that people aren't ready for this "awkward stuttering and blushing because he looked at me! He let me borrow his pencil!" sort of trope being applied to a wlw relationship. I don't really think their relationship is oddly paced at all, it feels "awkward" because it IS awkward. Nina is someone who, like, barely knows Maggie exists, was in a presumably-monogamous relationship up until very recently, and got a bunch of water dumped on her and then had a trade meeting turned into a Regency ball because these two freaks who are her and Maggie's narrative foils can't just talk to each other normal. And she reacts normally to that I think! I don't think their relationship is badly written (it's probably paced better than, like, Newt and Anathema's, for instance, but I understand the difference in tone between s1 and s2 making those feel like two different cases), it's just yknow, under weird circumstances. Idk I just think it's funny how many goomenheads are completely convinced that Crowley is somehow in total unrequited gay love with Aziraphale (who literally wants him back so badly it makes me sick), and yet I'm here talking about how Maggie is kind of in semi-unrequited gay love with Nina and that's Fine. It's a good character thing. They parallel Az and Crowley in a lot of ways (a romantic obsessed with something near-obsolete who Doesn't Drink and a fast-living cynic who deals with bad shit by instantly initiating Wine Drunk With No Man To Feel Up Wednesday; they're even cast to kind of Look similar which I think is funny), but the structure and context of their relationship is not the same and thus cannot be compared. It's not a Writing Flaw or a Plot Hole or anything to me, it's just the simple difference between "crush before friends" and "friends before crush"

[ranboo5]

I actually don't know if I have it in me to make a real good post but I liked Founder's Cut soooo much. My two biggest gripes with the show played a lot better both on second watch and bc of how it was recut – the much tighter cutting maintained my investment better and kept up my suspension of disbelief so a lot of the cheese on both the wire monster and, importantly, Hetch (whose execution I haaaated on stream) just dissolved and I was much more able 2 accept them both. Nothing can save the ending monologue for me, but Hetch's acting and writing was so much better and more effective this go-round – it's just the little things abt how it's all delivered making him no longer exhausting to watch and often compelling. Some of his lines were still overwritten (ESPECIALLY, again, the ending stuff, which while also more convincing I still hate), but nothing like how I felt watching streams

The overwriting is the same problem as the new cut ins on FACTORY RESET and the new hat bit – I don't like it when GenLoss explains itself so directly yk? Hetch being blatant in ways like so blatantly fucking lying to Ranboo is one thing but when he's straight up repeating for the like 10th time that you'll beeeee in my eeevil gameshow for eeeeeeveer just doesn't work. Same goes for when Sneeg escapes and gets masked vs when he gets hatted and we are excruciatingly shown his thought process. I don't know why we get this and also 5 minutes of Mousetrap who asked for 5 minutes of Mousetrap sorry

But that is kind of the only flops, which are slightly disappointing at best, of a product that is generally better in every way. With intention applied to it and the restrictions of livestream removed it's so much better to watch – the cutting both w/ snipping out VOD Stalling and w/ the new camera angles for proper cinematic tension does so goddamn much to keep the energy and investment and it's insane it is SO GENUINELY the little things. Like alleviating the dead air and cheese is one thing but the way it elevates things I already thought were good is SO crazy so many things I thought were like Just OK in the streams had me actually scream laughing or "you're SO FUCKED" adoring in the cut. Ranboo's character comes out sm more, every single joke lands better, action doesn't feel like "oh finally) I don't think much anything is really lost and so so much is gained

Squiggles direction change did throw me a little though. I miss Squiggles and I kind of still wish that the ending monologue was replaced with a good Squiggles segment... but I did adore the animations they were so fucking cute

More thoughts later but like I liked it. I was worried it wouldn't be worth it but it so is LITERALLY I SHOULD NEVER HAVE DOUBTED RANBOOLIVE CREATIVE POWER GIVE THIS GAL 10 BILLION DOLLARS AND THE SAW SFX TEAM

[docholligay]

Madrid Preparty: Vocal Highs and Lows and tidbits (Part 2)

Part one is here and everything I said in the front part of that also applies to this

Low: Norway

So you know in the intro of the last post where I talked about how, unfortunately, 80% of the people who pay to vote in semis have already gotten very entrenched in who they are voting for? You can REALLY see that in the way people are talking about this objectively fucking shitty performance. “She was just having fun!!” “If you want perfect vocals, go watched the voice!” She sounds like she has a cold :(” “The sound system is terrible” “I think she might be drunk” Like just suck Alessandra’s dick and go. This sucked. This makes Mae Muller sound like Maria Callas. She did a bad job. You can still like the song, but this genuinely fucking sucks. I need people to be straight up about that.

High: Portugal

I am going to be so fucking furious when this doesn’t qualify and she is in the slaughterhouse semi. She was one of the absolute winners of the night, she has one of the best voices of this year, and I don’t need her to win because I don’t usually get invested in who actually wins unless it’s super egregious, but I DO need her to qualify. I don’t need more bitterness to carry like I still carry for Iceland getting FUCKING ROBBED in 2016. I am still SO MAD, I WILL DIE MAD.

Low: Czechia

You know what I was saying about taking the average of the preparties as a valuable tool? I am convinced at this point, that unless lightning strikes, this gals cannot bring this on the night. Their best performance was in Israel so there’;s a chance, but I do not have hope. I don’t think it’ll ever reach the studio version, and I actually think it’s at some risk of not qualifying if folks aren’t devoted to it enough to ignore how much it sucks live (Norway is in no danger. People love that song no matter how she sings it)

High: Spain

Jesus Christ and Jesu Cristo, this woman can deliver. I know this song ain’t for everyone, but you cannot deny the power of this woman’s voice. Much like my feelings about both Voyager and Loreen (also Lord of the Lost), I love seeing older people, who have been on stage a bunch, who know what the fuck they are doing. It feels more like a competition to me than “Here’s a bunch of 20 year olds trying to make a career.” I think Eurovision should be 30+ and require you to undergo an interview proving you know who you are*. I love this level of confidence and showmanship, and the PIPES.

*This is a joke I am joking, calm down

Tidbits: These are neither highs nor lows vocally, OR do not involve people currently competing.

Fai rumore:

I’m so mad that after the pandemic the new winner of San Remo went instead of this. This is my favorite song Italy would ever have sent. I think Zitti e Buoni is like, fine I guess, but I don’t actually like it. I am so mad it went instead ofn this song I still listen to all the time.

I GUESS I’M ALSO OUT OF VIDEOS AGAIN SO I WILL MAKE A POST TO SAY THE LAST THING

[voiddoesntexist]

hiii everybody!!

one of the songs i listened to while writing this <3

this is meant to be an intro post sooo i'll give a little introduction :)

i go by both void and dionysus (he/him)! as it states in my bio, im 15 currently and im a baby gyaru! i basically created this account to start a little blog on my journey progressing as a gal! i don't know much about posting like this, which is exactly why i started. i want to progressively learn more about the lifestyle of gyaru and apply it to my own life! my current goal is to update every weekend <3

i love all of the substyles of gal, but i would say that my favorite is hime gyaru right now ★ i'm part of the gyarusa @gal.luv_3gg on both tiktok and instagram. i've participated in gyaru since late november 2021, but i honestly feel like i became really serious about it these past few months!

i've always strived to find my own style since i first got into fashion, even if i acted like i didn't care too much about it >_< ! throughout the years, i've gone through various things. the earliest i can remember is trying to have a masculine style, which is probably the furthest from what my style is right now. i've always been interested in jfashion but i never thought i could do it because i never had enough clothes and i was a little embarrassed showing my parents. for a little bit, i identified as goth even though i didn't listen to goth music. i just kinda wore black and did the makeup LOL. but i honestly felt really connected to gyaru, like it was really *me* for once, which makes me happy! :)

i even created a little "holiday" i guess? and i called it gal friday, dedicated to doing the makeup and having a glimpse into the lifestyle! at first i made it for me to be gal consistent because i still wasn't very used to the makeup. eventually, i started being gal more than just one day. a couple turned into a few, and a few into every weekday! now i just dedicate that day to convincing people to participate and see what gyaru is like for a day. it's always great to see <3 a friday never passes by without someone at school telling me "happy gal friday!"

for now, i'm unsure about the substyle i want to invest the most in. i love all of them! even thought hime gal is my favorite, it's difficult to find all the pretty dresses and elaborate outfits every day :( of course, i can go for himekaji instead, but i get indecisive because i also love rokku and haady. for now, i just pick one depending on how i feel!! i don't have quite enough money for authentic gal items right now, so i have usually buy from other places online like amazon and aliexpress for the last few months. of course that's only now, but i used to buy from shein and hot topic. i receive the rest of my clothes as gifts or from thrifting. i believe they can be from forever 21, rue 21, fashion nova, and probably some other places.

i guess that's all enough for an intro :] i will see you all next week i guess !! lastly here's a recent look i did, and i hope y'all like it

[magmahurricane]

character to send... Fang!

Sexuality Headcanon: He's super bisexual.

Gender Headcanon: Cis male, but I also really love the idea of transman!Nack.

A ship I have with said character: Oh man, I have so many... Jack Rabbit x Fang is something that I'm probably alone in, but like... the potential. Jack having so many similarities to Fang but spinning himself as a Freedom Fighter and clearly only caring about covering his own ass. Both being dirty cowards. It's so fun. They bicker so much. And, of course, Bark. The one person who can keep him grounded but also will put him in his place when his head gets too far up his own ass.

A BROTP I have with said character: My gal Carey and I'm not the slightest bit ashamed to say it. uwu They're besties who sometimes makeout. The bestest of drinking buddies. She drives him up the wall but he learns he can always, always count on her. And despite himself, he's gonna pull through so she can count on him too. They're constantly making bets with eachother and enabling eachother. It's a nightmare for Bark.

A NOTP I have with said character: I keep trying to think of one but every time I try, I start thinking of how much fun a ship between the two characters could be. So, none right now!

A random headcanon: He cleans his guns when he needs to blow off steam or clear his head. The process of taking them apart and cleaning them thoroughly helps clear his mind. Along that same line, he does repairs to the Marvelous Queen himself. He doesn't trust anyone else with his bike. He's self taught.

Fang isn't stupid - not by a longshot. He's impulsive, he's short-tempered and can be short-sighted, and a bit a klutz, but he's really, really smart. He just doesn't apply himself to things if he's not convinced it's worth his time or something he'd enjoy.

Also you can't tell me this fucked up jerboa-thing is neurotypical. You just can't.

General Opinion over said character: He's my special boy!! My blorbo I pulled out of the garbage dump!

Fang has consistently been my #1 favorite character for the past 16 years. I love that he's canonically a klutz and he's so arrogant but also has the most crybaby fragile ego ever. As an autistic person who struggles with anger, impulses, and missing the finer details when I'm excited and making dumb mistakes, I've always felt really seen by him sfkjfsjkfs

And I like that he sucks! I like Fang being a horrible, selfish gremlin of a man. I love that he's a dirty coward. I love that he cares so much about money. This man will stub his toe on a wall and spend the next several seconds hopping and cursing up a storm. He's hunted people for money. He's proficient with guns. He can use his tail to spring him up really high. He's a lil purple creechur dressed up like a cowboy and I love him dearly.

[agardenandlibrary]

The Dragon Reborn: Chapters 6-11

long post warning

One thing I've been wondering about is the titles of these books. In some ways "The Dragon Reborn" sounds like it could be the final book in the whole series. Instead it's book 3 and we've barely seen anything from Rand's perspective (in this book, I mean).

ANYWAY, as one might expect, Rand runs away. Our boy's going a little crazy! Good luck out there, kiddo! His dreams have been leaking, which is prime dream vortex bullshit one might expect from the Dragon Reborn. (can you tell I've consumed a lot of Sandman content lately?) Everyone around him is experiencing his dreams. Egwene, I'm gonna need you to figure out your dope dreamwalking stuff asap, pls.

Moiraine follows Rand. He's probably heading to Tear. She sends Min to Tar Valon and takes Perrin and Loial with her. Perrin has been standing up to her and arguing with her about stuff.

While they are traveling, Moiraine, continuing to be the funniest bitch ever, starts using good ol' Headology to get Perrin to go along with her plans again.

(i.e. she manipulates him into helping her do little tasks and does it so well that while he knows what she's doing, he can't seem to resist)

also, fishing.

(this meme applies to Moiraine in so many ways.)

In a small town they come across evidence of strange things afoot: sudden weddings, children of light giving up their cloaks, etc. Where else have I seen a person passing through and affecting the world around them like this? It was in Sandman again, wasn't it

There's also, in this small town, another Wolfbrother, one who has gone full-wolf, has no memory of being a man anymore. As much as I love the Wolfbrother stuff, I'm glad this is in here. It's a good way to show that there is danger involved -- we've seen it happen a little to Perrin, when he's fighting and wolves are around, he acts more like a wolf than a man. But we've also seen Elyas, who lives with wolves but can and does still act like a man when he wants.

Perrin convinces the Wolfman's brother to let him go run with the wolves. I thought their whole situation was well done, where Perrin starts off thinking of the man as "frog faced" and by the end that man is willing to hide him from Whitecloaks and Perrin is ashamed of how he first perceived the man.

Later, Perrin works up his nerve to ask Moiraine what she knows about the wolfbrother stuff. Not much! He might go mad! He might not! HOWEVER she does say that wolves walk in a dream world! Is this what Tel'aran'rhiod is? The only reason I know that word is because my friend's wi-fi is named that! The wolf stuff continues to get cooler, even with the danger of turning full wolf!

Perrin's dreams have been bad lately. He's been running through hallways, chased by something. Hopper, who died back in the Eye of the World, is helping him. He sees Selene, I think, and then this happens:

quick question: is this a fuckin' TV turning off. did Selene the Forsaken just change the fuckin' channel. No one tell me!

130 pages in we get our first Rand perspective for 2 pages: he's running away and struggling to control saidin. OKAY, moving on to

THE GIRLS. GALS BEING PALS. Egwene et al on the road to Tar Valon. Hey, remember all those traumatic experiences they had back in Falme? Sure hope nothing goes wrong on the way home! They're taking Mat (horribly sick) and the Seanchan damane collars (which let them control channelers) to the white tower.

Egwene is reconciling herself to the fact that she really won't marry Rand. It's a bittersweet little moment for her on the road here, where she tells herself to stop pretending she'll ever have the life she once imagined. It's hard to let go of your image of what your life should be!

Anyway then Whitecloaks show up and threaten them, and, traumatized by her experience being enslaved, Egwene reacts and Channels to scare them away. Elayne and Nynaeve also do this. Bless them. Highly satisfying for the moment, inevitably troublesome down the road.

[omniflows]

I just have too much time on my hands..

Jobless and desperate for change!

I am so convinced that there is a conspiracy against my career advancement. I don't think they care too much anymore, but how do I manage to get interviews, do well enough, and have more than enough experience and STILL have the opportunity snatched from me?

Who ARE these people that I'm battling against? What does a gal have to say to get her stability back? What and how many other ways can I answer simple questions like "Tell me about an opportunity where.." I'm not going to sit there and add fancy embellishments..

You want me to say that I helped raise a giraffe in Kenya to get this job or something?

*sigh*

I even did it the desperate way and applied to jobs outside of my field but you know what? Life is life..

To last resorts.. 🥂

[bunnypopgal]

What does the future hold for me? Goals & Ambitions

Hello! Another day has started and I'm doing pretty alright today so far. I think I would like to discuss a bit about my future goals and dreams as well as what I want to come from this blog in more hopefully clear detail.

Let's start with the blog part! I originally made this blog a few years ago when I was still being hurt by many people around me. I would often write a whole bunch in diaries growing up as a way to help me find the joy in the small things. I'm aware I'm a very odd case of both CPTSD and just in personality. I have been told I am a very resilient and strong person not only for still standing here afterwards but for still being myself after it all. I am a very bubbly, sunshiney person generally. I do believe myself to be a very self aware person with a high emotional intelligence. Don't worry I didn't reach this conclusion on my own as some weird reflection of narcissism from what I've been through. Honestly it's only been a few months that I've been able to say that about myself and truly believe it. I’ve had therapists, LD professionals, teachers, random adults tell me that my whole life and it still took my partner the entire time up till now he has known me (almost 2 years) of hours long conversations to convince me. Building such confidence is a tad scary for me since I’m terrified of acting like my narcissistic biological mother (whom I call my egg donor normally). Also I hope this came out correctly as me just being proud of myself and not anything malicious! So all that to say I hope I can do some good to share about my healing journey! I also would love to share my thoughts here as well and share the joys of everyday normal life even after years of trauma.

Personal life goals! As mentioned before in this post and my last few I do indeed have a wonderful, most lovely partner! We are currently in a long distance relationship. We’re both from neighbouring countries to one another and we have plans to get engaged so I can move in with him. We don’t want to actually get married until we’re a bit older than we are now so we feel no true rush on the marriage part. Currently we’re just enjoying life and saving money as much as we can. We hope to one day have kids as well even though that’s super far from now we still have a list of baby names. 

On a sad note though is I don’t actually have any other people I’m close with other than him. I don’t go out much (mainly due to being broke) and I don’t really put myself out there even if I knew where to put myself in the first place. I would love to meet some gal pals who would not only want to sing barbie movie songs with me as lifelong best friends but also be my bridesmaids. Of course while I do have lots of time I do feel likely that I’ll get married without having a bachelorette party or any bridesmaids. For now I try not to think about it much since I am still so young and would only really plan to come back to my country to visit my Father’s, my grandparents’ and my great grandparents’ graves. I’m pretty disillusioned with the state of my country currently so I am very excited to leave.

Career future! Since my partner and I currently have to save a lot of money and just life in general being that much more expensive I’ve been trying to get a part time job. I’m pretty scared since advocating for support needs around where I live just gets you fired and I don’t have time, money nor the heart for lawyer stuff. I’m becoming more confident and honestly just more prepared to act as normal as humanly possible while having hallucinations. Sadly I still have no idea what triggers my hallucinations so it’s still very much a guessing game for me. I applied to a bunch of openings at a fast food place all around my town so hopefully they’ll reach out to me soon. 

What was I doing before, you say? Well I was working on my craft which is a bit embarrassing for me to admit honestly. I’ve been trying to improve my art so I can do a whole bunch of things. My biggest dream goal is publishing my magical girl comic book series! Which I’ve also been writing for as well during this time. I also plan to start streaming as a PNGtuber, making youtube, tiktok videos and doing art commissions which I’ve also been working on during that time as well. Drawing is hard but at least nowadays I feel my work looks nice to general audiences I think, I hope. I’m not sure if I will link any of my future work or social media here on this blog but just know if you see a magical girl comic making it big with it’s amazing art and storytelling made for an early 20’s adulthood audience from a singular female author and artist- yeah, that’s my work. If anything I know my magical girl series is gonna be adored in the girl centric media. Think Buffy the Vampire Slayer(the spinoff Angel too) meets 2000’s Barbie movies aesthetics, with Winx Club, Supernatural AND Charmed influences too! I’m so excited! This will be a very long running series so I am currently writing LOTS of lore to work with for a LONG time. Oh and yes there’s gonna be LOTS of amazing fashion that I hope will be timeless!

I am very hopeful and very sure of myself and that things will work out because I will make sure of it! I hold my power and my dreams WILL come true! That’s all from me for today! Don’t forget to brush your teeth and drink water today! Laters!

[hedgewitchh]

feeling like a boy and like having a weird attachment to that idea tonight but simultaneously wishing i was born a girl a little and that's. that's just so coherent baby. i'm so good at having feelings. grah. save me journaling. journaling save me

this is sort of new to me. maybe i should port this journaling shit over to a side blog actually. eh. whatever it doesn't matter if someone stumbles across this and doesn't wanna see it they can just keep scrolling tbh. but like,,, yeah. i'm sort of like that scene in Tangled when Rapunzel first leaves her tower and is wildly switching between "eee omgomg i'm finally out i'm gonna have so much fun :DDDD" and "AHHH i'm making a MISTAKE and i'm STUPID and i'm gonna DIEEEEE" about the prospect of transitioning currently.

i've always been quite the indecisive person so i'm used to this but when it's being applied to a big life choice like this instead of what flavor of tea to get at the store it becomes significantly more annoying. i guess the crux of it is i don't feel like a girl. i feel like a dude. a guy. a regular ole,,,, adult man. i've been trying to convince myself i am a woman because that seems kind of cooler than being a boy but uaghhh idk

my brain keeps shooting back with telling me that all of these behaviors and things i'm associating with being a girl can be done while a guy. which is,, true i guess but there's an appeal to embodying them as a gal that is hard to shake. i'm hoping with documenting my thoughts like this i can get a broader overview of how my thought trains tend to run instead of just pulling my conclusions from whatever i happen to remember in the moment (which often isn't much)

i keep thinking about going back to school and getting to be a girl there. meeting everyone as a girl. rooming with women, presenting as Lily full time. having that name on academic papers and performing as a woman on stage in female roles. having FRIENDS who know me as lily, who see me as a woman. and it feels. good. i get a giddy feeling in my torso about it. i really hope that i am a trans woman and that this is all right for me because i want to hold on to that feeling and make it real forever. even if things are scary and make me want to crawl into a hole and avoid them. even if being a man would be easier.

saying things like that is pretty indicative of how this will go i think. wanting it and being excited for it and finding joy in the prospect probably bode well for the outcome in these sorts of matters. or at least i hope so. i've never been a wonderful judge of my own character,,, but there's a first time for everything too! gonna do my best to stay positive and find things to get excited about. maybe it's less genuine if i have to actively work to make myself happy about this but like ldsfjslslfkjsl i'm gonna do it anyway so i might as well try my damnedest yk. weed does good for chilling the nerves but i think i need anxiety meds cuz i can't be stoned 24/7 that wouldn't be great LMAO

[ao3feed-tedlasso]

I'll Hold You Forever Baby

by beautreebean

A tiny fluffy moment!! Rebecca falls asleep at Sam's after ice cream and Sex And The City, Ted picks her up, fluff fluff fluff cuddles.

Words: 452, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of Tedbecca comfort

Fandoms: Ted Lasso (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: Ted Lasso, Rebecca Welton, Sam Obisanya, Simi (Ted Lasso)

Relationships: Ted Lasso/Rebecca Welton, Sam Obisanya/Simi

Additional Tags: Tooth Rotting Fluff, Fluff, Cuddling & Snuggling, sleepy!rebecca, Set after no weddings and a funeral, sam and Rebecca were never together, Lasso you have my whole heart you lovely man, vulnerable rebecca, clueless sam but he's sweet, Rebecca definitely has a comfort object you cannot convince me otherwise, Flopsie (ted lasso), The bunny is called flopsie, obviously not canon lol, tedbecca, maybe you wanna read it as, little!rebecca, but that's up to you really, Im just rolling with fluffy comfort whatever you make of it vibe, She's a mauve croc kinda gal and ted has the red ones, so maybe, Age Regression/De-Aging, but it's up to you to read however you like, non sexual age play, Little! Rebecca Welton

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/48453673

[nullset2]

On Diversity in the Tech Industry

"Write every day", lest the thoughts consume you. When you write, you think. Even more: when you write, you're actually doing it to organize your mental cabinet, rather than for the benefit of other people (even though people will be reassured that they're on the right path once they find your footsteps on their journey). "Writing = thinking", my previous employer used to say all the time, which is a principle that I incredibly value even though there are a lot of other things about their culture that I don't appreciate.

Let me preface this by saying that the matter of diversity is an issue at large in the tech industry, and not something specific to any particular company or segment in it, and it's something that I think people are honestly, earnestly doing their best about, and there's a lot of people that I'm infinitely indebted to, powerful mentors in my way who have made me a better person. Even though sometimes the path to hell is paved with good intentions, I still abide by this paragraph. By and large, the industry is comprised of just good guys and gals and non-binary pals, you know what I mean?

However, we live in incredibly bizarre times, and sometimes it gets the best of me and that's why I want to jot these things down.

The prevalence of technology and the quasi-autistic state of alienation it fosters is leading to this state of being where the Other is eradicated and the Self is regarded as the All there is to be.

How does this fit with the tech industry? Well, the spiel paraded by the activists in the regard of Diversity claims that "races and profiles have been systematically excluded off of certain echelons of society" like the tech industry. Thus, there's a mechanic of oppresion moving the threads of society like its puppetmaster, there's a glaring generational debt which should be reparated back as soon and as efficiently as possible, and therefore, affirmative action should be taken to get those profiles back into the tech industry. Affirmative action is, basically, to take it easy on the, supposedly oppressed types (it already feels horribly demeaning to me to write this) and to provide them with positive affirmations and validations. Thus, quotas of intersectional profiles, based off of criteria like race, ethnicity, sexual orientation, et. al., should be rigurously applied to hiring, delegation, assignment of responsibilities and formation of teams.

(Another disclaimer before we go on: there's a kernel of truth in this. Imagine that you were designing a website for a Muslim locale, and, lacking knowledge of the sensitivities there, you decided to put a picture of a big, fat, beefy burger with strips of chunky, crispy bacon on it. Egad, pork meat is haram there, but you never knew. If you had a muslim colleague, however, that kind of stuff would had popped up earlier. It does help to have multiple life experiences and sensitivities in your team in ways more succint than we realize. I am convinced of this being true.)

Now, carrying on, the problem is that, on paper, of course it's true. Everybody knows it to be true. That which fits the collective-unconscious pre-conception of a techie is good, and that which doesn't is to be eradicated and this has a racial skew. Work, dating, neighborhoods, HOAs, relationships... everything in the modern world is subjected to one or many heavy biases. I'm writing this essay in English for goodness' sake. The die have already been thrown centuries ago. The hands have been dealt and we're sort of trying to pull forward as-is, awkwardly as it is. The tech industry is vastly, grossly majoritarily Caucasian and Asian (and by this I also mean Indian), and those profiles form a techno-elite caste that mostly exclusively hangs out and disseminates information among itself. This technoelite caste is fast-tracked into colleges where there's literally classes where they teach them the very same problems that they get in technical interviews, which they get to learn and rehearse at leisure, ergo fastracking them into the industry too.

Now, the naive explanation to this would be to assume that the reason why this happens is merely racial, which is what those types posit, but I actually think that's a lie. Every good lie is partially true though. To assume that it is only racial disregards the matter of competence.

"Affirmative Action" or "Positive Discrimination" as I've heard it called, is the proposed solution to this problem. "So, there is a very obvious skew in the population --thus, what we're going to do is that we're going to strongly encourage you to hire and integrate people into the industry who don't fit this standard.". It's weird because in a way it feels as if the answer to racism is more racism, but I see what they're going for --a fair shot across the board. But when that fair shot seems to be predicated on you being given a crutch because apparently you have a historical handicap because of who you are... well, you can probably infer how that feels.

Yes, my parents got fucked by the machine, I lost a lot of prospects in my earlier life, and I was sort of assumed to be a loser, my parents giving up any hope for me after I failed to breed around 18 years of age. They sort of... never actually understood what I was up to, and they left me to my devices to commune with the 2001 space oddysey monolith. Everyone else also did. My high school friends sort of thought that I was some weirdo loser that was damned to irrelevancy, and when I developed techincal skills and I managed to come up in the world, everyone did a 180 on me and went "holy shit", and either started asking me for money, or cut off contact out of the shame they felt that someone like me was doing like I was (to this day, this process of alienation from my original kin continues to happen btw).

And all of that is because, again, of all of these preconceptions and mechanisms in place --so the Diversity argument does hold up again. I am not saying that the Diversity spiel is wrong. But the problem is that, again, every good lie is partially true. To be prioritized as a profile feels as demeaning as to be actually discriminated against on the same basis (to me, at least. I guess a lot of people are happy in their stations as long as they have a weekly pizza and Netflix to amuse themselves to death, but I personally go insane if I cannot produce anything new). It discounts my competence, right? It's a catch-22. Fucked if I do or if I don't. If I take the step and try to play in the big leagues, people are going to take the piss because I don't talk in Californian Fry and use the same dogwhistles that the techies use among themselves, but if I don't, then I get to stay in a ghetto and make nothing of my life.

I argue, my friends, that whoever is most competent rises in the hierarchy. As corrupt and dirty the hierarchy can be sometimes, this principle is something that I know to be true, and It's been taught to me by the power of the black star, and I feel it in my very bones, in my very marrow. But the problem is, if you come from a fucked up world, how can you effectively develop competence if everyone around you is constantly assuming that you're a loser? It's just horrid. It takes a ridiculous, massive, insane amount of effort that most people are not willing to undertake. I know I suck. I am not really anything when compared to the most competent people in the industry (you know who you are: if you're reading this, I'm sorry that things didn't work out, but maybe in better circumstances we'll do alright).

I fumble my way through things. Yet, I still get things right sometimes.

On a personal level, also: what happens when you decide to go for it, then, and break away from the expectation of your caste and class? It isolates you. It alienates you. It takes you away from your hive, like a bee, and made to wander. When a bee is taken away from its hive (I've been thinking a lot about bee symbolism lately), it will try to find and join other hives, if it can find any before it dies. It is literally a matter of chemistry at that point: if the bee has a compatible chemical signature, it will be accepted and taken in; if not, it will be expunged by the female bees of the hive. The hivemind is a powerful force.

It's even worse when half of the populace out there thinks you're part of a ploy to change the demographic distribution in a negative way, and thus you must be eradicated as soon as possible, but I am not going to go there right now. I'm just going to mention that some neighbors were very happy when a tree fell on my home a bit over a year ago.

What to do at this point? My friends, the answer resides in the Jungian archetype of the Fool. Even though some people would argue that the appereance of the Fool is a sign of the erosion of our societal bonds, the Universe has a soft spot for fools. Sometimes you have to do the most stupid fucking bullshit you can think of. A man has to be a bit stupid sometimes. Be a troublemaker. Be shameless. Dare. Of course, don't be an asshole, but put energy into it. Step into the abyss even if you get fucked by it --because that's where the great things happen. These days, sometimes I do things that I'm not even aware of, which make other people mad. I'm literally oblivious to them. All of a sudden, people react to them and they hurt me, projecting their shadows.

A friend (the only senior Mexican engineer I ever found at my previous employer, who was in a team where I actually performed pretty well once I had the advantage of, egad, lo and behold!, an actual mentor, mind you) told me once "well, at some point you just got to steal it", and then he grabbed an implementation of something off of github, and that's when it hit me. This is the archetype of the fool at play.

Still disgruntled by the whole affirmative action thing and the idea that the best way to integrate me into the industry is to give me a kindergarten gold star and a Chipotle gift card (... though I sure could go for some fucking Chipotle right now because I'm very hungry) every time I post a PR, I also have to offer that the only way forward is through, and that through is going to hurt. At some point, it's all become a function of sacrifice. You literally are going to have to burn the midnight oil many, many, many, many years, and you're going to get fucked by alarms at some point, and you're going to have to work out like mad and you're going to walk around with sore muscles every day. You're going to have to see many people rolling their eyes at you. You're going to have to put up with being laughed at.

Again, it's the appereance of the archetype of the fool.

Parentheses: I've found that being in good physical shape and literal fucking muscle memory and rote memorization (kata-style repetition of phrases) is actually better for developing skills in tech than actually having a degree from some 30 grand a semester school, so it literally means that you need to lock yourself in a house in the forest for three years and attend to a boxing gym like mad if you want to break through the current insane state of things.

At some point, I realized that no matter how much fucking adderall I'd take or how much I did, or how many hours I put at Amazon, I'd still be getting laughed at and punked on and tortured at the end of the day, and my friends, that's when the archetype of the fool, chthonically, rose from the depths of my soul, and it made me turn into something else. I sort of realized that if what I did didn't truly matter and people were going to throw shit at me no matter what, then I was truly free to pursue what I wanted. It unleashed this roaring energy that powers everything I do now.

It renders you alone, too, but (not being melodramatic here) at some point you sort of Accept your loneliness (not making it about me here, but you do really sort of Accept it). There's a part of me that thinks that this whole fetishism of the rugged individualist life that we're currently undergoing is vicious, sick and depraved, but it does feel better than the contrary. It still makes me unhappy, but the mature kind of unhappy, you know? Like there's an inner angel that sees everything through the eyes of the Logos, of eternity, inside me, and he's in command.

I've been reading "The Labyrinth of Solitude" by Octavio Paz and it's fantastic how he gets it all down perfectly. The Mexican is de-facto schizoid, an in-between worlds, a pariah that has to stick together to survive, a race whose divine Mother has abandoned it. It's better to be alone than to be in the company of Jezebels and Nimrods anyway. And things do actually change at some point. Nothing ever stays the same, you know, and there's a lot of people who really do care about you and who are fun to be around out there for you (as trite and platitudical as this sounds).

In the meantime: keep doing stupid shit. You'll be amazed at the results one day. Things are not going to change at large. Just do the most with the hands you've been given.