#my girl nuch was RIGHT THERE

[pranparakul-siridechawat]

it has been more than 2 years and im Still so Bitter about gramblack

[princess-from-another-galaxy]

My wilmon shipper heart, right now:

My August/Sara shipper heart, right now:

[ryansjane]

how would you personally rank Off's characters?

also Gawin's and Mond's characters

I have a full post of me ranking off's characters already! but here it is for mond & gawin :)

MOND:

sun (midnight motel): ABSOLUTELY FLAWLESS PERFORMANCE!!! carried the show!!! slayed beyond all expectations!!! truly incredible as the villain, one of my fave acting performance EVER I loved it so much. also sun in himself is the most interesting villain I've seen!

namnhao/namnuea (the judgement): shit show with problematic tropes but mond ATE!!! him as namnhao is not only unrecognizable & absolutely adorable, but really had some fucking top tier acting!

badz (boy for rent): the role that started it all. made me fall in love with this cutie & unable to ever go back. badz is hot af, the only character that didn't annoy me at some point during the show & the acting is very good.

kluay (water boyy): the first role I saw mond in!!! kluay honestly carried the show, he's so fun & flirty & cute and we love him in this house!!!

gram (not me): I love gram, but not the storyline he was stuck in for the whole show. I love how political gram is, how much he can be a debate-lord at times lol, and even that he's a scaredy cat. I LOVE the way he spits on dan when he betrays the gang & how he hugs sean after he gets shot. I LOVE his banter with nuch & will forever be a gramnuch stan. however, I didn't like how withdrawn from the rest of the gang they made him in order for him to pursue eugene, who looked uncomfortable the whole time & was his best friend's ex. gram had so much potential, but sadly he ended up being my least favorite character from not me bc he got the short end of the stick. mond did a great job though!

tee (the underclass): kinda forgettable show tbh but tee was a very cute love interest & I watched the whole show just for mond so slay!

matt (kiss me again): even though kiss me again is legit the worst gmmtv show ever made with ugly duckling: pity girl & turn left turn right, and matt's love interest is THE FUCKING WORST, he was kinda sorta okay I guess. to be frank I forgot everything from this storyline bc the way his love interest wanna prove he's gay is YIKES.

dodo (saneha stories: bar host): a hot, struggling stripper who becomes a literal dad??? if the show wasn't so short & rushed this would be way higher, mond ATE!

term (ps: I hate you): a hot dummie who forgives lies for love, which... couldn't be me lol so he's there.

por (fabulous 30): I really liked fabulous 30, and it wasn't because of the main character played by mond. por is bland AS ALL HELL, pushy & disregards his best friend's feelings, and he just... gave us nothing. at least he's cute thanks to mond's good looks though :')

GAWIN:

pisaeng (be my favorite): so it's very hard for me to decide which is my favorite gawin role, simply bc imo pisaeng, dan & mork are all my faves for very different reasons. but I will put pisaeng here bc I literally don't see how anyone could dislike him? like he's perfect but not boring & does have struggle, which we LOVE around here! also the depiction of him finding his sexuality in bmg ep.5 was INCREDIBLE I loved it so much!!! so pisaeng will be number one (for now!)

dan (not me): now, dan is on another plane of existence for me. I literally adore him & am a dan apologist THROUGH & THROUGH bestie. I genuinely think he's one of he most interesting characters I've EVER seen, and that makes it so he shouldn't be in this ranking. he EXCEEDS this ranking! I absolutely adore imperfect characters & I think the depiction gawin gave dan was perfect. BUT dan also gave me THE MOST PAINFUL betrayal scene in existence that literally has changed my dna TO THIS VERY DAY, so just for that I'll give him the number 2 spot :')

mork (dark blue kiss/kiss me again): girllllllllll, my heart aches having to put mork in number 3 bc I LITERALLY ADORE HIM!!! I was a huge dbk stan but since then I've legit rewatched the show only for mork lol, I absolutely love him & he's an amazing character! so as I said previously, mork is number one in my heart on a equal playing field as pisaeng & dan, I can't choose!

saifa (enchanté): literally the tiniest role but he was hot af AND played a guitar rendition of offgun's too cute to handle on the show???????? AN ABSOLUTE BLESSING THANK U! also he legit played cupid for akktheo so slayyyyyyyy!!!

mile (girl next room: motorbike baby): honestly better than the actual love interest cpodiuygsuichdisucodihb, hot & ALSO plays guitar (duh), too bad that he's a cheater lmao!

xxx

[thatonesapphicfilipino]

guys

anxiety session today at php..

really smth

so the pain point of anxiety sessions at the place u go to is exposer therapy

and i struggle with caring too nuch

like i care to the point i’m hurting myself yk

and the guy leading it had this girl in the group give him her coloring book

it was like an anime type art style which he didn’t understand at first lmao

but then like had her pick a page we could all add to like we all colored a diff part

and we were all like ok this is her exposer therapy

then he had me color first

i chose to color this girls eyes in but really didn’t want to ruin it so was super nervous

i ended up only coloring one eye (the one on her right which was only the side)

when the guy leading it saw he was like lol do more

so u color the other eye

and for some reason it showed ad a darker color on the other eye idek

and was like super scared of ruining it

i got a 5/10 which i thought was just like haha yk

(F for fifty)

but then i had to do this thing where this girl would tell me her fake problems yk

and i just had to nod my head

i couldn’t say anything

and i kept breaking character cuz like i wanted to at least be like sorry or smth like that

and turns out that the coloring was my exposer but like i didn’t know and stuff and i was like super icky and then he’s just like o ya and this whole talk abt me existing is enough

so ya

ur daily reminder that u existing it enough

and i care too much

[fishy-xp]

Rating BL's I've Watched Based on a Completely BS Criteria

Disclaimer, this is just for fun and a look back for me in my journey through BL! I am thankful and grateful to the hardwork that went into all the series I've watched. Please don't take the ratings or my thoughts seriously.

Also spoilers obviously

Long read ahead let's dive in woohoo!

Love Sick

This was my first BL and I do not remember anything about it other than Min (I forgot his character's name) and Om (I forgot the actor's name) because I literally only watched it for Min. All I know was how slow and unresolved everything was like I do not even remember if the main couple ended up together and I definitely know that Min and Om did not clear anything up shshshhs. I do remember Ssing and Oat's character had a storyline and I don't think that got resolved either. Remember Ssing, he will make an appearance in this post later.

Rating: 3/10 (respect for it bringing me into the BL world)

Make It Right

I remember even less about this one, other than Oat was in it lmao and he was a tiny character.

Rating: 1/10 (this is a rating for my memory rather than the series)

2gether

After Love Sick and Make It Right, I dipped for a few years before coming back because I saw a video on IG of that infamous 'keep looking at me like that, and i'll kiss you until you drop' and instantly I was like I gotta watch this. And not for a second did I regret it. It was amazing holy crap, I am such a sucker for easy ass romantic plotlines. Also the scene where Sarawat was telling his friends how he found the man he liked and he kept saying 'he's the one I like' and his entire emotions and behaviour is that scene was so urghghghghghhg, i can't explain it but if someone ever talked about me like that, i would husband them up so fast. also i liked the way they showed Tine's insecurities, I don't think shows often deal with male insecurity so it was incredibly interesting to see. ALSO TYPE KEPT GIVING ME THE BIGGEST FREAKING JUMPSCARES ALL THE TIME. When he showed up at the apartment and Sarawat opened the door, the way I screamed. I love him, he is my favourite character in the show lmao. Big up to the Chic Gang as well, I am glad I am not the only law student with no brain cells lmfao

Rating: 10/10 (probably shared No.1 position for my fave BL right now)

Tonhon Chonlatee

I watched this for Khaotung but the main couple was honestly very yikes lmao. Also they did my girl Miriam so dirty by the end. I'm so happy Na got a bf by the end, it's what he deserves but also he would have definitely made a better match with Chon. Also coming from 2gether where Gunsmile was adorable, to Tonhon where he was a disgusting man was too much. Pang was amazing, I'm such a sucker for characters who are literally just good fucking friends. AiNi <333

Rating: 4/10

Not Me

Amazing, spectacular, brilliant. I love action much more than I love romance, so I do like how all the romance aspects wasn't at the forefront of the plot. The only thing I didn't like was that BlackGram wasn't a thing. I think it would have been a much more interesting dynamic, especially at the end where it seemed like Black was displaced from his own group by White and he didn't get a happy ending despite everything so having Gram in his corner would have been better. Also because it kind of makes both Eugene and Gram bad people for cheating on their boyfriend/bestfriend. Yok punching Dan was so satisfying holy shit. Also TADAH SSING IS BACK UWU, my 12 year old fangirl phase was coming back in full affect because damn he is still so fine. Also I love a good friendship storyline as well, so yeah the entire thing with Black and Tod, chef's kiss.

Rating: 9.5 (loses points because of GramBlack and because as a law student, I had war flashblacks everytime Gram was arguing with Nuch)

Don't Say No

I love this series. I love Leo's character especially, he is the thing of dreams. Rich, nice and incredibly loyal. I also really like that he is well-tempered and only resorted to violence about twice and both times were out of protective instinct because 1) that guy called his bf a whore and 2) this guy basically forced his bf to sleep with him, so well deserved in my opinion. I feel like a lot of other BL men are just violent for the sake of violence which is a no-no. Fiat's fashion choices are also my favourite, especially that red suit holy shit balls. I LOVE BOTH THEIR FRIEND GROUPS OMFG, BUT ESPECIALLY AMP AND AEK, they are so protective of everyone but also very level-headed so I get why Leo is friends which them. Contrastingly, Fiat's friends are dumbasses <333. I need a whole series about the twins and their shady little selves. I like how they did the sees someone flirting with their mans trope, and how Fiat could definitely see that it was a scheme, finally a man with braincells (I say like I didn't just insult him in the sentence prior), but I also understood how he even though he knew Leo wouldn't ever cheat on him, it still hurt to see your man kiss somone else. Everything about Leon and Fiat's dynamic was superb, I just want them to get locked in a room together and see how long before someone dies lmao. My only qualm is why the series is called Don't Say No, if it is based off their basketball team, they should have kept Super Penguins omfg. Justice for LeonPob when???

Rating: 10/10 (Tied no.1 with 2gether, would be 11/10 if the series was called Super Penguins)

TharnType (spoilers! spoilers!)

This was a lot haha, I'm glad I watched it because the S2 introduced me to DSN but I don't think I'll ever go back or rewatch it. Definitely a lot of issues with how blase they seemed about some of the stuff that was happening. The only thing I really have to say is Lhong omfg, I saw spoilers of everyone on reddit being like he is the most evil character and I was there thinking he just seems like a good, cute friend to Tharn???? I did think he liked Tharn when they told him he was dating Type and he dropped the glass but I didn't think that was alarming. He was actually my fave character in the series until I realised I shouldn't like him according to reddit huehuhe. That baby-face really had me fooled. Otherwise, I don't know what my thoughts are tbh, Type is really handsome though haha. Most of the points go to Techno, he is the moment, he is a star baby. Also I hope Cir and Phugun from S2 get their own series, they are adorable.

Rating: 4/10 S1, 6.5/10 S2 (mainly for LeoFiat and CirPhugun)

Kinnporsche

Still airing but omfg currently obsessed. Mafia and psychopaths??? As someone who is an avid crime show fan, this genre hits. Also the entire cast is so fucking hot. I love toxic, complex relationships and loose morals and murder sprees. The versatility of Free Fall as an OST is amazing, it's both badassery music, romantic music and clown music

Rating: 10/10 (1 million gazillion billion/10 for Free Fall by Slot Machine, deserves a Grammy or whatever the song award is)

My Engineer

Before I started watching I literally only knew about Ram and King (I also didn't know that Ram was Perth lmao, he looks so different with his hair up) so I thought they were the main couple. So when I started watching and I was introduced to Bohn and Duen I was like who tf are these two? But no, this series was actually very fun to watched and I enjoyed it. Frong hitting his head was probably the peak of comedy. Season 2 when?????

Rating: 8/10 (10/10 for Talay's hair, what I would give to run my hands through it)

Cutie Pie (spoilers, spoilers)

No one understands how hard I cried in the first episode wtf. ALSO THE HIAS ARE SO HOT WTF. Hia Yi is so scrumptious. I love them rich, cowardly, emotionally unavailable besties. My favourite scene in the entire series is when Hia Lian called Yi 'My dear' and then Yi immediately shudders and tells him 'you give me the creeps'. They are two hot besties. I also think Nuer/Syn has one of the best kiss scenes I've ever seen in a BL, also Nuer is so goddamn good looking okay I promise I will stop focusing on their looks. The OSTs for this series are the best OSTs in my opinion, when will they release that song Nu Kuea sang in Ep 11. The secretaries need their own series as well. The scene of Hia Lian turning around with tears in his eyes after Nu Kuea rejected his marriage proposal was one of the most devastating scenes that has ever happened, and my ass at 2:30am when the episode premiered could not take it. 'I love that doll the most' is such a hard hitting line, I bawled like a bitch okay T-T

Rating: 9/10 (loses one point because of that cursed dog YiDiao are now the unfortunate owners of, 1000/10 for the Hias)

Secret Crush on You

Okay I saw a lot of people saying how the series gets so good near the end and you just have to deal with the first half of it. And I completely understand all of these people. The beginning is a lot and it's so cringey and horrific lmao. But by the end, the way this series deals with incredibly serious topics is amazing. Some of the characters in here are the biggest green flags to exist. By the time I finished the series, I was definitely thinking that it was so worth it. I highly recommend this series. I want to talk about two of my favourite characters - Inntouch and Som. Som, she is the best of friends. She is amazing, she is so helpful and caring and the fact she knows her friends so well and gets emotional when they are suffering is beautiful. I love her so much. Inntouch is just as amazing as well, the way he is incredibly respectful of Daisy and loves Daisy no matter what they identify as is such a green flag. Also the subtletly of his affection for Daisy is so good, like the way he instantly smiles just that bit brighter when Daisy talks is TOO GOOD. And that smile is freaking gorgeous, urgh love him. Everytime Saint appeared, I died a little, that man does things to me holy crap.

Rating: starts off like a 6/10, ends up a 9/10

Colour Rush S2/Tinted with You

I watched this for Hyuk and Junhee. I couldn't watched the entire series (at least not legally) so I am probably missing somethings plotwise, but hey, let's be honest, I wasn't here for the plot.

Rating: 7/10 (gotta support the homies, stan VIXX and stan ACE)

YYY/Y-Destiny/Why R U

Couldn't finish these, just watched YYY and Y-Destiny for Talay T-T

Something about Why R U was not doing it for me :(((

Rating: 0/10 (but I'm sure they are series people can appreciate, I am just not one of them and that's on me)

will gradually add to this when i watch more bls heheh, also if you guys have any recommendations you think i would like based off my rankings and thoughts please let me know!

[disaster-j]

Who are the Not Me girls in the novel? Eugene etc? Do they exist? What are they like?

As always! Spoilers-

So Nuch (we finally know her name!!!) isn't in the novel at all, she's a brand new character. Namo and Eugene- Yujin in the book -are side characters. Namo is Sean's ex who is mostly just talked about and we don't really interact with her character at all. Sean and Namo weren't all that serious and had broken up right before White showed up. I vaguely remember her being portrayed as a nice person but she really just wasn't in there long enough to make an impression.

Yujin on the other hand sucked. She was manipulative and emotionally abusive. She tried to invade Black's privacy through White and also cheated on Black but tried to guilt trip White as Black into staying with her. Black was only with her briefly and didn't even like her idk why he's so self-destructive. Everyone was like Black don't date her she's toxic and then he did it and forgot about her in a week. Meanwhile White had to deal with the aftermath cause Black was chilling in the hospital.

Eugene and Yujin feel like very different characters to me. I don't think she's tricking Black/White or Gram. She seems to be minding her own business. I've seen people say she's suspicious for meeting up with Gram but I think that her actions aren't all that odd. If I got drunk and passed out on my ex I'd book it out in the morning too. I also think if Black was being genuine when he said he didn't want her to get hurt in that video White found, then she can't be evil. Black wouldn't get manipulated and he wouldn't care about just anybody. Man cares about exactly two other people, White and Gram. There's a pattern.

But then again we won't really know for sure until we see what Eugene and Gram's relationship is and what her role is in all this.

[onstoryladders]

Replacing a canon queer couple with Gram and Eugene doesn’t sit right with me, and that’s the main reason I still believe. Like if they didn’t want to do gramblack, it didn’t mean they needed a different couple, especially since the gramgene scenes are like watching a completely different show.

I wish they had used the time spent on gramgene on developing gram as a character whether or not he ends up with either person. Little things like bickering with Nuch, hanging out with the gang, or just scenes that show he is a kind person would’ve made more sense.

Exactly. The whole thing is so unnecessary. Gram is my favorite character together with Black, I don't care about the others half as much as I care about them, so you can imagine how I feel now.

They could've taken 796 different paths without Gram/Black and it would've been fine if they had at least given us something BETTER in return, without another unnecessary love story that doesn't even feel like a love story. It just feels like stuff they threw there to give Gram something to do since he was there but no one cared.

But yeah, it doesn't sit right with me either, also because I've heard that PNuchy said that the whole main cast of characters in the show is queer, so where's Gram's queerness at? He's only shown his attraction to girls so far. Unless they don't even consider him part of the main cast lol

[illgiveyouahint]

And to add to your tags I think sean was the one who also said that after tawi he will keep doing the same aka continue with his activism (altho im not sure about the exact form). But i think that also points towards him slowly realizing that it is a long term fight and taking tawi down is not gonna change much of the overall situation if they wont continue (and maybe not even then)

Hello anon,

Yes! Very much so. I mean obviously they do know that the fight is gonna continue. Which is why we had that scene where they were choosing what they're gonna focus on. Because they know there is so much that needs to be addressed.

I keep saying I would love if the show had like a regular few seasons type format because it has so much potential (okay maybe it's my activist ass who keeps wanting more media about activism). Like I would have loved if they would have slowly thanks to White, but also kinda thanks to people like Eugene or Nuch (yes I want my girls to join them so badly), they would realize that all this illegal activity and burning down houses is also not how you bring out positive change. The system is rotten that much is clear, and I do love how the show is portraying the various approaches to the system and people inside and outside of it and how they're all, how we all, are complicit in maintaining it. But what the boys are doing is not how you bring anything positive. I would love if in future seasons they would pivot towards more actual realistic activism. And I would have LOVED if they focused on Yok's mom and disability rights. Okay I know it's an unrealistic wish because we're still in the BL world, and we're still in Thailand but god just someone fucking make me a proper activist show goddammit!

[luvvwins]

not me, the end 2/4 screaming

bitch 🥺 bITch 😢 BITCH 😭

I love people. 😭😭😭 that was the MOST AMAZING rescue 😭😭😭😭

My girl Namo 😂 'i should have known it was you guy's 😂 she is a QUEEEEN. her and yoks convo got me 😢

NUCH 😭😭😭 yesss 'men are all like ghis' YAAASSSSSS YOU RIGHT 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

oh...oh no...grameugene....oh no no no

sighhhhhhh SIGGHHHH i guess I'm happy they got their happy ending too sighhhhhh

[ravenadottir]

i know I'm late to litg train wagon but i played recently and coupled up with henrik, now im all over tumblr looking for scraps until i found your magical page. Can we get a headcanon or maybe part 2 of Odinson please, maybe with the second child?

it’s never late love. we’re here, we’re simps, and i hope you feel alright and welcome! anything you need, you’re welcome to my inbox!

right now i’m phone-less, so i can’t do a part 2 for his social media, but i can give you some headcanons, the most random possible:

- henrik drives a jeep

- lots of beanies in his drawers and spread around his place

- lives in a small house close to the road

- big backyard with lots of grassy patches

- 5′11′’

- always searching for new licenses

- finished high school already knowing what he wanted to do

- grew up with his parents adopting dogs

- older brother of a girl (i named her juno)

- loves when you braid his hair while he lis his head on your lap

- loves painting your toenails

- it’s rare to have any pharmacos or pills/medicine, unless it’s something natural solutions can’t fix

- has a strong bond with bobby

- lucas is his only brother

- doesn’t understand why people like movies, but he does get movies. he just doesn’t see the point

- wants a nuch of kids but will settle for two

- headbanger “it’s fun, you get all dizzy”

- he wasn’t a genius in school but because he couldn’t focus on tests. he was excellent in the classroom

- loves spending his afternoons in the woods, hanging out with his friends

- the type to have lots of female friends, but was always into one girl that people said was way out of his league

- the girls in school were always doing things to his hair

- learned to cook with his family, when he and his sister were helping with dinner or lunch

- regretted taking lottie on a date and not marisol. he wasn’t interested in her, but she would give him the full scoop on mc

- he and lucas were connected that way already because they were in the same hotel room before arriving in the villa

- gives great advice, especially about family and friends

- F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C with kids

- friends’ children? uncle henrik is their favorite, since he always takes them to fun places

- get used to henrik coming home with a dog in his arms “let’s just take care of him until he’s adopted :((” it’s the fourth dog you have

- bi vibes? fluid? pan? i like to think he’s pan

- H-U-F-F-L-E-P-U-F-F

- plans amazing trips

- dates and gifts are always heartfelt, always with a meaning or an inside joke

*just an observation here: i don’t know if this happened to you, but a user on reddit couldn’t find the good stuff on henrik and lucas because she was on the search bar here, looking through ‘most popular’ posts. may i recommend when you search stuff on tumblr, to change the filter into “most recent”. otherwise, harassing lurik is the only thing that dominates the whole search. and for the rest of the boys is predominantly group posts from when season 2 was still being released.

and if i may recommend something else, this masterlist is for everything i do for him, in particular, and this one has group asks, which i always include him, because i love one boy that has one brain cell.

and i have to recommend blogs that are also henrik stans, and have great stuff for him, between headcanons, random thoughts, art and moodboards, among other things!

@mountainmanxoxo @bubblybabynailpolish @deuchess @smaiihands @crvsh-culture @bellarxse @lianalitg @radiantdae @bobbyboops

if i forgot someone, please tag yourself in the comments?? 🥺🥺🥺

** when i get my phone back i’ll get to add instagram posts for henrik’s 

[mejomonster]

 not the point at all but. baffling to me where some people’s headspaces are at if they’re seriously almost viewing Not Me as bromance. (i’m gonna assume it was said jokingly because people just wanted more physical flirting)

just like. i literally cannot remember the last time a bl drama had characters that feel this explicitly queer. not just does this show have queer romances, but the entire cast of main characters feel like real queer people like me, like my friends. people who know their sexuality, who’s sexuality and the way the world treats them for it has Informed how they interact with the world. i can believe Gram wants to protest for rights for people, and has a personal stake in some rights too. i can believe him and Nuch can relate in that way, as Yok can, and Sean and Black can. i can believe they’ve got some queer rage against the system that doesn’t give a shit about them and wants them to disappear, alongside the rest of their rage to want to make the world better and less unfair and fucked up. its the same kind of rage i feel, motivation i feel. gram chooses a rainbow background knowing if someone interprets it, then it will Affect him in a way it’ll never affect a straight man. White and Sean stand under a rainbow flag and feel a freedom and safety and community in a way I feel, in a way i’ve felt in a community of people i know accept me. When Sean moved to kiss White, it was under this assumption white is like him, might be like him, that they were already aware a romance might have been an option. No one was presumed straight, no one was shocked they were Not presumed straight - these are queer friends in a queer friend group who understand each others pov to a degree in that sense. 

Black Sails is the only other show i can think of where the queer characters felt like they not just were aware of their sexuality, but it informed how they’ve experienced the world and how they interact with it now. The way Flint felt society wanted Thomas to be gone, didn’t want either of them to exist, how that tied into other morals he held and good things he wanted for society and people. The way Anne being attracted to women influenced how she formed friendships, alliances, how she judged others who form relationships. How their sexualities were part of who they are.

I suppose I could say in a way He’s Coming To Me hints at sexuality being more than just ‘for a crush i like men’ as it explores Med knowing he has to approach dating different, friendships with women different, hide things from his family. How it affected the main character dragging out a fake near-dating situation with a girl friend instead of letting her move on sooner, how it affected his fear to actually express his desires to a man and tell his mom about himself. That character was at the beginning of acknowledging how his sexuality affects his way of interacting with the world, of viewing things in the world (which is a common perspective in coming-out/coming of age queer romance stories). 

But like, Not Me? That is past the point of people coming out and becoming self aware about their sexuality and accepting it. Its about a bunch of friends who already know their sexuality, already are aware of how people view sexuality and people like them in the world, who seek out community and find understanding in each other and Even if this show had Less romance arcs (since its got 3 right now), it is still Such a queer story because so much of the characters and its writing is like real people’s lives. 

(Special mini shout out to: Baker Boys which is NOT a bl but writes a bi man and a gay man and to a degree does let that affect their lives beyond just their dating lives - Weir has awareness others may not treat him the same because of his sexuality, Pooh is a very openhearted character in general but i’d say to a degree his perspective on life and various forms of love like familial and platonic is more nuanced. To Dark Blue Kiss - the show stays generally in Romance genre territory but its characters do care about the right to marry, the reality of how to be together long term, the reality of homophobic things in society, the difference between liking a gender and liking a person. To 3 Will Be Free - how Shin doesn’t have any issue with coming out with his parents, but the ways friend judgement influence how open he is with them versus when he meets an open bi man who’s likely to be more accepting, how the way he was turned down in high school affects his willingness to be out to some people, how the toxic masculinity his father expects plays out on him, how Neo has to deal with a level of biphobic assumptions made about him and applied to his relationships and job, how it affects how open and communicative and supportive Neo is to others going through things or being judged possibly because he understands what they feel, how even if you were to cut out the gay romance in the show you still find that sexuality influence how the world treats them and how they interact in the world. To The Player - which is not a bl romance but is doing goddamn phenomenal work at mentioning bisexuality explicitly, biphobia, how sexuality influences career and public identity and risk, because your sexuality does affect your life even if u don’t date and don’t have a crush... it affects if you get to marry, if your job will accept you, your opportunities and societal attacks, how you view human rights, how you seek community and find understanding in people who can relate, how you have to weigh trying to blend in with trying to be yourself and the outcomes etc.)

[angelsswirl]

Vellichor

The One With The Kick in the Ass

Rating: T

Wrd Cnt: 1k

Notes: 3 chapters left!

Always on the edge of something. Always on the edge of wondering why.

Yes. Irene knew exactly what would greet her when she entered her livingroom. But that didn't change the fact that she was hoping and praying the nightmare she was living would be just that, a nightmare.

"Do you know what vellichor means?"

Oh, no. This is unfortunately very real. Her prayers remained unanswered as she crossed the threshold. Being met with the ever increasingly pitiful sight of her best friend (on a good day) laying precariously across her brown leather couch.

"Not this shit again."

She rubbed her face in attempt to swipe away her tiredness or rub off her skin so she could be carted away to the hospital and away from whatever it was Jisoo was doing. Whichever came first would work really.

"It's that feeling you get when in a used bookstore."

"I very genuinely hate you." Irene sat down on the coffee table. Her head in her hands.

"I feel like vellichor."

"Our whole friendship is a joke."

"I don't think I can go on like this."

'Me neither.' Irene thought idly.

"I fucked your mom."

"What?"

"Now that I have your attention, how long are you going to sleep on my couch?"

"I dont know."

"You're making the house smell like assholery and desperation. Go apologize, have make up sex with your wife. Get her pregnant again for all I care, seems to be your kink anyway."

"You don't get it."

"Neither do you. She's sick right now. You know as well as I do that you're not supposed to stay more than three days away from your omega at once."

Jisoo fidgeted. The guilt about that was eating away at her, but she wasnt anything if not stubborn.

"Lia is there, she should be fine."

"Are you trying to convince me or yourself? So, she fucked another alpha 20 years ago. But she mated with you. Get. Over. It. And. Get. Out. Of my. House."

Irene pointed toward the door with a firm finger, not in the least bit surprised when Jisoo only sat up slowly.

"Do you think she hates me?" She asked softly. She stared at her phone. No missed calls from you, because you hadn't been calling. No missed calls from her children, because for them, Jisoo would always answer. Several missed calls from your mom. Jisoo was borderline terrified of her and was making it a mission not to interact with the older woman.

"Y/N? No. She knows you too well to hate you. She knows you're stupid and absolutely shit at handling your feelings."

"I am stupid. I'm so fucking stupid. I love her so nuch that even til this day I get so confused as to why she picked me. And why she's continued to pick me every year since. I'm stupid and a hypocrite and a coward."

Irene nodded along calmly, "Yeah, I've known all these things about you for a while now. So, for the final time. Get off my couch and go tell her that. Go get your wife back."

Jisoo made no effort to acknowledge Irene, but she did clamber off the couch with renewed vigor.

It had been a week and a half since you had seen Jisoo. Your heat had come and gone within the first three days. And in its wake had been the worst case of mate withdrawal you had ever experienced.

You had went through it before. Like that one time before you had officially gotten with Jisoo.

And that other time when Jisoo went to visit her parents in South Korea, and you refused to go with her out of principle that you didn't feel like going to get a passport.

In the grand scheme of things, you're still mad beyond belief at her. More so for leaving you, then because of anything she said that day. But you missed Jisoo like nobody's business and you just wanted her back.

And no, you haven't called to tell her that. Because you're stubborn and this was all Jisoo's fault in the first place. You were waiting on an unprompted apology and then you'll let Jisoo back into your bed so you can finally get a good night of sleep.

During the week, some days were better than others. Most days were just lethargy and other days were full on flu. You're not sure why the omega gets the worst part of mate withdrawal, but whatever.

Today, was one of those days where you were able to get out of the bed. And do things for yourself and clean. And parent. And do the things your children had been trying to do for you.

Bless their little hearts.

Speaking of your children doing the things you normally did, you eyed Peyton who was sitting on the couch, from your place behind the kitchen island.

Where as Ryland and Kaleb had been practically directly underneath you this entire time, Peyton hadn't been. And for Peyton, that wasn't really out of the ordinary, but she had almost been avoiding you.

You continued to stare at Peyton. Your children always thought they could get things passed you. You're not sure why because they never do.

That's when it hits you. You sighed loudly, alerting Peyton to your presence.

You rubbed your temples to stave away the oncoming headache.

"Did you use protection?"

Up until today, you would have told anyone that Peyton didn't have the ability to blush. But clearly, you would have been oh so wrong.

Peyton tried to sink deeper into the couch.

"I'll take that as a no." Normally, you would have to think about a way to break the news to Jisoo, but you're just going to let her figure that one out on her own.

"How can you even tell!?"

"I grew you inside of me for 9 glorious months then pushed you out of me for 30 horrible minutes. Your head was gigantic. All of that is to say, that I'm your mother. I'm always going to be able to tell things about you."

And with that, tears started to fall down Peyton's face.

You instantly gathered the girl in your arms, "Baby, why are you crying? I'm not mad at you."

Peyton buried her face into your neck, "It's been two days and she hasn't talked to me. She won't answer my calls."

"I'm fairly sure but just for some confirmation, we're talking about Maya right?"

Peyton nodded solemnly.

"Honey, don't take it to heart. I'm sure she's probably busy with her summer classes. Or maybe-" You're cut off by a resounding knock at the front door.

You went to open it with a frown.

"Speak of the devil." You mumbled, moving to the side so Peyton could see.

"Hi?" Maya pulled her arm from behind her back and scratched her head nervously. She forced the bouquet of flowers she was holding forward, "I'm sorry."

Peyton wiped her face. She walked toward Maya and took the flowers softly. She looked at them for a second before hitting Maya in the chest with them repeatedly.

"Ow, Peyton! Thorns!"

"Don't. Do. That. Again. I thought you didn't want me or something."

You shrugged at Maya's pleading look, "Don't look at me for help. If she hadn't done it, then I would have."

Peyton eventually stopped. Then pushed Maya back into the hallway, following her. She closed the door behind her.

And you were greatful for that. You didn't want to see them make up or whatever it was teenagers did either.

[ladyandtheghost]

The code word is “family”: A recap of 8x02

The Red Queen and the White Queen: 

If I’m delusional at this point, then so be it, but if I still needed convincing of Political!Jon, this scene convinced me. Because Sansa figured it out. Oh my God, she figure it out! You can see the exact moment of it on Sophie’s face. After all the talk and demonstration of Sansa’s intelligence last episode, it made all the sense in the world that Sansa would work it out herself what Jon is actually doing. And it almost makes you feel a bit sorry for Dani when she opens her heart and says kind of jokingly “Tell me who manipulated whom?” and the penny drops for Sansa. You can see it in her eyes, her weird giddiness. Sansa does not like this woman, why on earth would she smile and laugh if not a new realization that is playing out in her head?

It was also interesting how Dani tried to become all sisterly, thinking she could bond with Sansa over “boy talk” - and Sansa laughs but then drops the act and talks “real politics” - which not only shows that Sansa is a strategist and future-oriented, but she also just called out Dani on her argument that they are both women in politics who want to be taken seriously. 

This is your family, Theon: 

I don’t know how Sophie does it, but every reunion that Sansa has with literally any character that Sansa cares about is a 100% tear-jerker. And this was no exception: it was emotional and beautiful and pure. 

I can totally see people shipping them and it’s not an outlandish idea or notp for me or anything, but I felt the background of the scene was not so nuch meant to launch a romantic ship, it was actually far more powerful than that...

Because it was about family and about politics at the same time (the two things Sansa excels in). 

The entire set up of the scene was perfection: The red queen and the white queen, both emerging from the library after their tense conversation and at this moment - and omg this is so fantastic - we see the exact difference in how the two women/queens are being shown as opposites: 

Theon dutifully kneels in front of “his queen”, the gesture that she always demands from all her subjects, the gesture that she has burned people for refusing to perform - but Theon’s heart is not in it. 

Then he ignores Dani and addresses Sansa, asks to fight “for Winterfell”, for House Stark and they embrace and he is so happy to be “home” and “safe” and “loved” and “missed” and this is his family. 

It’s like a mother welcoming her lost child back home in her arms: essentially what a “beloved queen” is seen as - a mother to her people. “Mhysa” failed at that. Sansa is the queen and ruler beloved by her people.

And Dani notices. She sees “her” bannerman’s loyalty to another powerful woman and she is not pleased...

Theon wanting to fight ”for Winterfell“ - after the convo about the North two minutes earlier -  this is another blow for Dani, who made a pact with the Greyjoys to fight for her, and “for the throne“

Theon and Sansa represent the ideal ruler/bannerman situation: the bannermann comes before you, pledges themself to you, asking “if you'll have me“ because they love and respect and want to serve you - which is the complete opposite of how it works for Dani.

This is a bond that lasts. Sansa will never fear betrayal from someone who asked to serve her. 

Their shared trauma and Sansa being Theon’s redeption has forged this beautiful and strong bond. It has no sexual undertones imo (though people who ship it might disagree which is of course understandable) 

Rather it’s a mirror opposite of the strong bond Sansa has with Jon which is charged with UST and “subtext” 

Theon also represents the brother Sansa needs, with Robb gone, Bran “gone” and replaced by the 3ER and things being all “complicated” and tense with Jon...

Jon is also somewhat “gone” in this episode, though neither Sansa nor Dani understand why. 

And they are not stopping at that: where do we find Sansa during the last hours before the battle? Not drinking and warming her butt in front of the roaring fire like the others - nope, Sansa is outside in the cold with her people, eating the stuff that everyone else eats, spending time with the one “brother” she has left who came back for her and it’s yet another indicator that Sansa would be a ruler “for the people”

RMS Gendrya sailing strong: 

Arya “perving” on Gendry first half of the episode, effectively reversing the “male gaze” and her taking charge in their relationship was great.  The only thing is - now I’m scared, like really scared one of them will die. Or both? Urgh I’m getting Tonks/Lupin flashbacks - it’s never good for people to be happily in love before a battle. But I also loved how Gendry worried about her, literally pissed off that she would put herself in danger. And in going with the theme of family for this episode, one of the iconic moments of this couple was when Arya told Gendry: “I could be your family.” and Gendry was right, he is not her family, she is his “lady” and he is her lover...

The Hound and his pup: 

...however Arya did seek out someone who sees her as his family. The only thing that really comes to mind re: Sandor is that this sealed the deal on San*san happening or not. I had a feeling they would not let Sansa and him interact and rather choose the less squicky, more popular relationship of Sandor and Arya shine through. Arya *is* the Hound’s redeption arc. Just like Sansa is Theon’s. 

That super *awkward* family reunion: 

Dani’s reaction was SO predictable, it’s amazing. People actually fantasized that Dani would not mind so much, that she would actually be happy to have her “family” and another Targ by her side. Yeah, fat chance. The only thing on her mind now is that that Jon has the higher claim. 

Also: Jon spending his last night down in the crypts with his mother is so poignant it hurts. He always wanted to know her, he always wanted to see her face, so he stands there just looking at it the night before he might be taken from this world again. Somehow this was also an interesting parallel to Sansa and Theon and about being accepted as family. He told Dani about his mother, then it was revealed that she is his aunt, his closest(!) living (female) relative. 

Jaime, Braime (plus Tormund):

I knew Jaime would be accepted by Sansa - because of Brienne - and just like Theon, Jaime is another addition to Sansa’s Queen’s Watch. Dani looking pissed about it was literally channeling Cersei (if only she knew). 

Poor Tormund, he is so gone on her and he just wanted to be around her. Again, I’m scared shitless for every single character in that room around that fire and if the “knighting” scene is the best we will get from Braime, I will riot. 

A Bear Island family reunion: 

We finally got some Mormonts reunited. Jorah worrying about his little cousin but also respecting her for fighting and Lyanna wishing him good fortune and owning him as “cousin” was also a nice touch. Jorah still has a home in the North and a family. Sam reminded him of that when he spoke of Jeor and gave him his own father’s sword. They both lost their fathers before they could make them proud or forgive them/or be forgiven. 

Alys Karstark - everywhere!:  

Yes, I’m back on my bullshit. But seriously, they were parading her around all episode. They placed her here, places her there, always somewhere in camera frames or shots, Why? She doesn’t speak, her presence doesn’t serve any purpose. Unless we should just get a good look of that “other” red-headed girl, aka Fake!Sansa. 

Davos and Shireen's little girl (ghost):

That little girl with the scarred face killed me - just like she killed Davos. I'm tearing up just thinking of her. And Gilly was so sweet, so instinctively maternal, and Davos looked like he's slowly dying inside. Perhaps we were meant to read this as somehow Shireen's spirit could be felt through this girl and she was there to tell Davos that she will be ok. Idk but I'm crying...Shireen was Davos’ beloved child, his family after he lost his son, and nothing will ever change that! 

Jon’s other family (no, not the dragon one): 

There was even less “action” in this episode, but a lot of emotion. Except from one quarter: Jon, who completely isolated himself from his family - but found solace with his other family, i.e. his “brothers” - Sam, Edd, Tormund. And they recalled Grenn, their lost brother. 

On the whole, the episode is a prime example of the calm before the storm...next time, shit’s going down. 

[roseonhissleeve]

5 a.m.

REQUEST: hey friend! since requests are open, if you’re feeling it, maybe some fluffy Niall? I’m rereading your Niall fics rn and I’m so stressed from school and they’re giving me so much life and comfort thank u so nuch 😭😭💘💘

- requested by @lovepoe

It was ten p.m. when Niall walked in after a long day at the recording studio. He let himself in with the spare key that she gave him—-she wasn’t expecting him there that night, and he knew that she had a bucketload of finals coming up, but he had to see her. He tossed his keys on the hallway table and shrugged off his jacket, hanging it on the back of the front door and slipping off his shoes.

“Niall?” She appeared from around the corner, her eyeglasses on and hair pulled up into a bun at the very top of her head. It was one of his favourite hairstyles on her, and it made him smile.

“Sorry to scare you, love,” he said as he took a step closer, “just wanted to see you.”

“I told you that I can’t hang out tonight.” She sighed, covering her face with her palms. “I’m so busy, Niall.”

“I know that.” He said, setting his hands on her shoulders and rubbing them softly. He leaned in to kiss the tops of her hands, murmuring atop of them. “But I missed you. I promise I won’t be trouble.”

“I didn’t want you to see me like this.”

“Like what?” He asked, peering at her in an attempt to get her to uncover her face, as if looking at her would will her into letting him in. “You look beautiful.”

“No, I mean, I didn’t want you to see me all anxious and struggling to get things done.” She huffed, uncovering her face to reveal the tears that had started to pool at the rims of her eyes. His heart dropped—-he hadn’t realized exactly how stressed she was, and it made him even sadder that she had been hiding it from him.

“Hey,” he murmured, opening his arms and pulling her against his chest. She fell against it comfortably, sniffling softly and giving him a strong squeeze. Even though she had asked him to stay away, she had to admit that it was a relief to have him there. “Talk to me. Issokay. You can cry if you have to, babe.”

“I’m just really overwhelmed.” She admitted to him, sighing. “I left too many things until the last minute and am probably going to have to pull an all-nighter tonight, and it’s just so much and I don’t know how I’m going to get everything done.”

He simply nodded and pressed a kiss to the side of her head, holding her close. He was happy that he was there to hold her, and thought about all the nights that she was probably like this in the past when he wasn’t there to hold her. They had only been dating for a couple of weeks, but he was determined to never let that happen again.

“How ‘bout this,” he said, pulling away to look at her watery eyes, “let’s take a little tiny break. Five minutes, just long enough to make a cup of tea—-I’ll make it for you, you just sit with me, okay? And then you can get back to working, and I’ll just sit and be with you, if you’ll let me. How does that sound?”

She nodded her head a couple of times and flashed him a soft smile, her eyes watery and thankful. He released her from his grasp and took her hand in his, pulling her gently into the kitchen.

“Here, baby.” He said softly as he placed his hands on her hips, lifting her gently up onto the counter so she could sit and watch as he puttered around the kitchen, collecting things for a good cup of tea. As he did she watched him and smiled softly, wondering how she got so lucky. She couldn’t believe that she had ever been hesitant about spending time with him and dating him—-even though they weren’t quite officially exclusive yet, he wasn’t seeing anybody else and she definitely wasn’t either. She had the best thing right in front of her eyes.

Occasionally as he walked by her she would stick her foot out and playfully tap his behind, and when she did he shot her a cheeky look and even winked once. It made her laugh, and the sound made his chest swell with pride. Once her favourite yellow mug was set up with a tea bag and the kettle was brewing, he walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her waist, his head resting against her chest and listening to her heartbeat as they waited in silence, peacefully, perfectly.

When the kettle stopped he walked over to fill her mug as she hopped off of the counter, and she took his hand and walked him towards her bedroom. When they crossed into the room he was confronted with the piles and piles of papers and notebooks and pens that she had scattered around the bed—-she was half expecting him to say something, but he simply set the tea mug down on her bedside table and sat himself down on the other side after making himself a little nook in between all the homework.

She smiled and sat down beside him, leaning over to plant a kiss on his stubbly cheek before glancing back down at the sheets of paper. He watched as he leaned over to grab her guitar from its stand and bring it to his lap. “Do you mind, love?”

“Not at all.” She smiled, sighing with content as he began plucking the strings in a familiar tune. She looked down at the work she had to do, and it all seemed a little bit less daunting.

***

Hours later, Niall opened his eyes and found that he was alone in bed. He sat up slowly and looked around, confused, until his gaze fell upon his girl, sitting at her desk with the lamp turned on. Otherwise, the room was dark.

“What are ya doing, babe?” He asked quietly, still half-asleep.

She looked at him over her shoulder and smiled softly.

“Working.” She explained. “You fell asleep and I didn’t want any of my shuffling to wake you.”

“I was supposed to stay up with you.” He grunts.

“It’s okay, baby.”

He huffs and stands up, walking over to her desk. “Budge over.”

She looks up at him for a second before shuffling closer to the edge of her desk chair—-once she did, he slipped in to straddle her from behind, wrapping his arms around her waist and giving her a squeeze while resting his cheek on her shoulder.

“That comfy?” She says with a soft laugh.

“Mhmmmm.” He says quietly, eyes drooped closed as he already starts falling back asleep.

About an hour later, he wakes up to the sound of her voice.

“Niall,” she says quietly, giving his hands a squeeze, “baby.”

“Mmmm.”

“C’mon love, let’s go to bed.” She says. He opens his eyes—-it’s five a.m. on her digital clock. He groans as she stands up, the insides of his legs burning from sitting in the same position for so long. He takes her outstretched hand and lets her guide him to the bed that has somehow miraculously been cleaned, lying down.

“C’mere.” He whimpers, reaching out to her in his half-asleep state. He hears her quiet laugh and feels her squish into his side, her head resting on her shoulder. He sighs happily. “How’d it go?”

“It was okay.” She says softly, and he could hear the smile in her voice. “Thanks for coming.”

“Anytime, baby,” he whispers contently, “anytime at all.”

[astridthesock-blog]

the struggle is real though and i kinda need help (;

ok, so.. i am a teenage girl from norway and i am litterally so fricking confused right now. there is so much on my mind and i really just need a place to dump it all.

let’s get straight to it - i have a crush. actually it’s my first crush, and it’s in a GIRL. like i have always, or not always but until i were in 6th (ish) grade, thought i was straight, like don’t we all? i didn’t even know there was an option in liking girls, maybe that’s why. but as you probably figured out, i have never been in a relationship and never had a crush.. until now. again, i’m crushing on a girl!

but i don’t know if i’m lesbian, bisexual, pansexual or just confused. what if it’s really not a crush at all and i’m just tricking myself in some kind of way? what if it’s not real? although at the same time it feels so unbearably real. but it’s still only my first crush, but since the 6th grade (as i mentioned) i have been questioning and kind of looking more at girls, even if i didn’t really understand i was doing it.

the girl i’m crushing on, let’s call her maya. she’s my best friend, or at least one of them. i’ve been crushing on her since october/november and well, you know how a crush is, i’ve been pretty obsessed and we always have fun together and have a lot to talk about. in december, she asked me after school if she could talk to me privately, so we sat down in an «empty» room. she kinda just told me she was bi. and like, i didn’t know what to say. of course i’m accepting of the lgbtq+ community, my family and i have always been, so i said i was proud of her for coming out and that i wouldn’t treat her any differently and so on. we were of course very happy, and at some point she started crying a little (;

the thing is, that maya also told me that she has a crush.. on a girl.. and you will never guess who she’s crushing on.. well, she’s crushing on my OTHER best friend, we’ll call her aurora. i was like, in shock and kinda sad, though i didn’t show her, cause i obviously was happy for her too. after that i went home and cried, heheh. because at first, since she came out as bi, i thought i could actually have a chance with her, but then she tells me she has a crush on aurora. like i was crushed (haha i thought that was funny teehee).

wait, there’s more (sadly).. this christmas they hung out and maya told aurora she liked her, and that she was bisexual. aurora said she didn’t like her back but she was really accepting and proud of her and that she still wanted to be friends. the reason i know this is because they both came to me on snap afterwards to tell me everything and like get it out, cause i’m their best friend! after that i got my hopes a little up, which was a mistake.

because the second day of school in 2020, aurora messaged maya (they go to different schools, i go with maya but not with aurora) and told her that she actually had a crush on her too but she was in shock and afraid when maya first told her. she also came out as bi, and i was, once again, crushed, but happy for them. aurora wasn’t ready to be in a relationship but i’ve talked to her, she’s just nervous and a little afraid although they’re both crushing HARD. it’s litterally all maya talks about, and i try to not get hurt, because what else could i do? of course i’m happy for them, but it kinda ruins it for me, ya know? some days later she came out to the others in the friend group, and ANOTHER girl came out as bi. i trust them all, so i know they’re not lying, but that makes it so nuch harder for me.

i don’t want to like «steal their spotlight» because i’m confused about my sexuality and think i’m lesbian. although i don’t know yet, how can i be sure? it changes my whole life and who i’ll become. i want to talk to someone about this, but my options are VERY limited, so i chose to dump it all here. if you read all of this, you deserve an applause, and please, PLEASE give me some advice, i would really appreciate it. thanku!

[bestsnow-white]

“ ooh!” The blonde baby cooed, sucking her thumb as she was carried downstairs. Crawling on the floor, she immediately found her plushies, and in her now smaller state, forgot the rule and began chewing a little on her plush swan.

Snow saw her daughter "Awe is my baby," She cooed trickling the big baby under the chin. Your the most adorable baby ever but sweetie you shouldn't put toys in your vmout here have a paci," Sniw gently removed the plushie from Emma's mouth and replaced it with a pacifier. " There that's nuch better right baby girl toys are for playing," She reminded her.