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puppysdog · 1 year

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i need to smoke like ten grams

#.txt #my tolerance is too high now #im making edis tho this weekend w like 15g so

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kirby-the-gorb · 8 months

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#kirby #firearms #guns #swearing #ask to tag #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #it's a goddamn Day once again #while still recovering from the rest of the week my doctor informed me that it's clinic policy that I can't stay on my prednisone #so I have to either leave the clinic or lose the one med giving me even a desperate tenuous grasp on basic tolerable qol #and then while I was drawing there was some kind of altercation in another building #so now I'm on high alert for that too #also fun fact I have not touched a firearm in 7 1/2 years but I drew that m4 from memory lol #(btw this is a play on 'I am not god's strongest soldier')#(which is a play on 'god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers')#tbh I should've drawn kirby sharpening a knife but this is what we got today

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skitty-kirby · 4 months

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I don't usually talk about these sortsa things so weeewooo Think my wisdom teeth are coming in, or at least two of them- I turn 23 next month so I'm kinda late to the game it seems. ._." My whole right side jaw/ear is in violent pain, spanning my upper and lower back teeth. No new ones spotted yet, just pain. Very sudden. :') Probably won't be very active until the pain subsides cuz like. OW.

Heee hooooooooooooooooooooooooooo send help and lots of ibuprofen Skitty out

#my ortho said all those years ago that my mouth is too small so they WILL have to be removed. excited/sar #ok but like whhhyyy I couldn't even wear my retainers last night #I got like. 3 hours total sleep the past night/morning fr #I thought I had high pain tolerance but I've been humbled by the almighty tooth+jaw+ear combo #the ol 1-2 punch #the razzle dazzle fucking frazzle man #queue Patrick “so much PAIN... so much pain” .gif #anyhow back to it #tooth mention #dental mention #vent #<- kinda?? idk just in case #I have now experienced Rolf's Almighty 3 Shoe Beating #Merciless

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wutheringmights · 2 months

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#my digestive issues are literally under the most control they have ever been in my life and they are still ruining my life #woke up fine today. went to a coffee shop. had to leave after an hour #i had so many plans for today and now i'm stuck at home because i can't be too far away from a bathroom #i didn't eat anything that would trigger this. my gut just hates me i guess #earlier this month i have a risk food but i thought i took enough precautions to be safe and it fucked me up for like #2 weeks straight #i wonder what its like for people to not have to wonder about bathroom access every time they leave the house #i wonder what its like to eat normal foods without calculating how sick its going to make you #i wonder what its like to not have entire plans tossed out the window for reasons beyond your control #fucking sucks man #i hate ibs #in exchange for my terrible gut i do have a fantastic immune system somehow but weirdly that means i never take time off work?#ok so i am so good at just managing my issues that i just power through whenever im sick.#it's not like i can afford to take time off whenever i feel sick anyway and besides once you have to take multiple AP tests in high school #while in the middle of an episode you grow a lot of tolerance for being functional while sick #but then. i just i could have excuses to take days off because i have a cold or something. get a rest every now and then #but what illnesses i get beyond digestion issues are so slight that i can just. power through. i am never ill enough to take time off #and i get so worried that one day I will need that PTO that I can't convince myself to use it for like mental health days and ugh #this is more of a personal problem than anything but still. i wish i got sick like a normal person

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tittyinfinity · 6 months

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tell me how i took my night sleepy time medicine and i'm somehow more awake while yesterday i took an adderall and it made me so fucking sleepy

#.bdo #i don't react to drugs the same way other ppl do for some reason #like weed makes me more normal bc it keeps me from being overstimulated so easily #and helps with my anxiety and adhd a bit #i have really angry meltdowns and it prevents them from happening too #i don't get ''high'' from my pain meds like other people do #so when they run out the only time i'm ''craving'' them is when i'm in a lot of pain #like right now my knees and hips are killing me bc of all the energy i exerted over the past 2 days #i have a very high alcohol tolerance too and always have since i first started drinking at 17 #i never blacked out while drinking when i was a teenager and could chug it straight from the bottle #i can't stand the taste now i have to have a chaser or ill puke #i can drink a whole fifth to myself and still be awake (depending on how fast or slow i'm drinking)(I have not done that in a long time)#(and won't be doing it ever again)#and i was doing that while i weighed between 100-120 lbs

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shrews-things · 8 months

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I made kimchi at home bc it's crazy expensive from the store (and not even good) and I put too much in some of the jars and now my fridge is full of leaked kimchi juice and the jars hiss the moment I touch the lid and my landlord is not gonna be happy if it'll smell and I think the moral of the story is that sometimes you should not malewife too hard. Sometimes it's okay to buy canned kimchi

#on the brighter side!! I opened up one and it's nicely fermented and very delicious tho a little too spicy #my spice tolerance is pretty high but unfortunately I've been planning to cook for others too from this #now wish me luck please with cleaning that up #I made it vegan (miso paste instead of fish sauce and shrimp) bc my sister is vegetarian. so at least it doesn't smell like fish

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theramblingvoid · 11 months

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The older I get and the more ability I have to change my lifestyle to suit my needs, the more I realize that my old definition of "normal feeling" was overwhelmed and overstimulated and my old definition of "overwhelmed and overstimulated" was An Actual Crisis

#voidrambles #i say 'ability to change it' but really #it's that I've been either too sick to get up or haven't been able to find work for the last year #I'm going to have to go back to it eventually #i just hope i can do that without becoming like. a trapped animal #got to the edge of nonverbal today just from being out of the house for several hours two days in a row and like #sending a handful of emails #to be fair there's probably tolerance buildup involved but like also to be fair #the way i feel now is pretty close to how i felt a lot of the time through high school and university #not. all the time but I'd venture to say most of the time #shoutout to my parents specific combination of adhd and probably autism for making me Allergic To Being Human i guess!!#(hm. i also haven't eaten in several hours which may be contributing to my Current State so. fair i guess)#(but. still)

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qeyond · 1 year

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rambling about what I might draw next thanks to @/ghostingpen infecting me with the LawLight weed yearning

I was trying to search my brain for instances of fullbody high that I could use as inspiration for drawing LawLight high out their minds on edibles and I remembered the first time I got high off these yucky cupcakes my friends and I filled with flower and baked in high school and we all got WAY too high and spent the rest of the night in varying stages of panic and anguish and really it was quite terrible LOL BUT I do remember laying on the floor next to my best friend and just staring at them and wanting to hold them even tho neither of us was a touchy person because I needed to be grounded and was scared of how I was feeling (we thought we were dying of weed overdose or something it was so so fucked but absolutely hilarious looking back LOL)

But anyway uhm

LawLight laying on the floor in varying shades of disarray, fading in and out of reality trying to grasp some rationality of the situation they're in but they're basically running on fear instincts and they want nothing more than to be tangled in each other because they each feel like the others safe house. like when a storm rolls through and animals huddle under awnings and hiding holes. maybe it doesnt start out like anything intimate or yearny, maybe they haven't even considered that of the other and it's all simple survival instincts, but feeling a warm, familiar body pressing to yours sometimes sparks weird feelings <3

yeah I think that's what I wanna roll off thanks for coming to my ted talk.

#soft @ ghostingpen #qeyond sucks #weed #drugs #anyway we tried again a while after that to make cupcakes again and we fucked up the dose again and had a lovely night of horrors #but i remember that second time hiding in the pull out couch with that friend calming me down and it was lovely #theyre still my very best friend :3 #anyway i had to search within myself cuz my tolerance is so fucked now cuz i smoke too much and i havent had a high like #that in a hot second sdkjfhksdjhf #ive got ideas and im gonna sketch until something clicks

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neonstatic · 1 year

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hygiene is smth i rly struggle w bc of Issues (tm) so far from me the hypocrisy of judging ppl who don't wash/brush daily but. not changing your underwear? 50% of men and 30% of women???? huh???? you mean only twice max right??? beyond that you are asking for a yeast infection. do they at least pass a rag on their armpits and crotch area on the no-wash days? i mean you have to do at least SMTH daily? Right??? if it's not mental illness then what is your excuse

#ray says #i am sooo high functioning until you ask me to follow a pristine hygiene routine.#literally i will collapse by day 3-4. i used to be a sobbing mess during bath time as a kid like i couldnt find the will to do it myself #it kinda hurts? like brushing exfoliating etc. its tiring too. im grown now so ofc i do my job i dont wanna stink up on ppl #i guess what baffles me is i only let myself go when i know im not going anywhere. but if im going out regularly in the week-#-then uh ofc ive got to wash up? be clean around ppl? that is a priority #aint no way im gonna be the one person whos always stinky and everyone tolerates. id rather be dead #oh.......i need a shower chair yall ohhhhh this would be a game changer fr

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kuzann · 2 years

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Dear Tumblr I would really fucking appreciate it if you didn’t recommend angst on my dash, thanks!

#I have the angst tag blocked for a reason #And all the goddamn PLA tags #If I have to block the whole freaking submas tag to keep from feeling sick over angst istg...#I'm gonna be pissed #Actually I should just unfollow the submas tag #I can't go in there anyway cause there's too much angst #Then hopefully tumblr won't put angst on my freaking dash #idk why I have such a low tolerance for angst right now I think it's because my anxiety levels are high and because there's just #SO MUCH of the angst #It's everywhere

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vypcr · 2 years

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I just want to know how long Tory had been going at the drinking game before Sam showed up because obviously it was a while. Like ... how much did she actually drink that night??? Because the fact that she went through several rounds of that game, was likely drinking before the game, then kept drinking afterward (as evidenced by the cup in her hand the last time we see her), and STILL somehow was able to get safely home afterwards all by herself raises so many concerns.

#alcohol tw #drinking tw #first of all being 16/17 with that high of an alcohol tolerance is Not a good sign besties #I’m not saying she has an alcohol problem but she could very easily have an alcohol problem #like it’s mostly social drinking obvs but according to her she does have readily available access to it despite not being old enough to buy #and even in a social drinking setting she doesn’t go about it in a healthy way #considering how she kept going and going and then made the (emotionally impacted) decision to LEAVE ALONE #anything could have happened to her but she was too mad and impaired to give a fuck and I’m upset about it #Tory what the FUCK #I do feel like at least with my Tory she’s better about it now #because of all the shit that’s happened and she’s trying to avoid it and keep a better grip on herself #but she’s not immune to making the same mistakes

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hafwen · 2 years

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I hate teeth and their need for dental work

#my mouth is still sore #This is the first time since Wednesday that I haven't had to take the max dosage of ibuprofen #now I’m trying to only take it when I sleep #my body hates if I take ibuprofen for more than every other day I get canker sores #so on top of my jaw hurting from the dentist my lips and gums really hurt too #I lost count at 6 canker sores on my bottom lip and there are more on my lower gums #big ouch #I have very little tolerance of extra pain #My day to day pain is always so high I don’t need extra #personal #teeth #dental work #dentist appointment #dentist #my body is a wonderland that's been condemned for 20 years

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beaversatemygrandma · 2 years

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Between slouching, sitting cross-legged, and heavy chest weights (aka boobs), by back is telling me to die. I really need to work on posture. Ow. Like Really Fucking Ow.

#taks speaks #ik i often wake up in the middle of the night to such intense pain #but its been an hour while im AWAKE #its doing that same damn thing where it radiates to my sternum #and i KNOW its from bad posture #like it sometimes get to the point where im a bit light headed like now and it makes no sense to me #i have a high pain tolerance but this kills me #i need to start doing twice daily stretches again #its got bad again bc i stopped #ugghhh #pain. so much pain.#its the type thats immune to advil too so fuck #i wish it just didnt make my chest hurt too that part is whats really bugging me.

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d3cayingabyss · 15 days

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i hope the people who fucked me over are happy with what they've achieved

#vent #rant post #vent post #are you happy now that I wonder if im loveable or just tolerable till im inconvenient #are you happy now that I question my every word #because i cant tell if im being annoying or not?#are you happy now that i question my worth as a person every day because i cant tell what i do deserve #because what i think i deserve is a room with nothing #a cold floor with windows high enough that i can hear but i cant see what i want to participate in because i was never meant to participate #because you decided i didn't get to do that #because im convinced that im a bad person because nobody ever told me what i did wrong #nobody told me why they left #why did they leave?#all i got was “You're just overwhelming”#im sorry #i never meant to be overwhelming. thats my bad #if i let you put a muzzle on too tight and keep me chained down #will you stay then?

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swagging-back-to · 3 months

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i wanna stop smoking so bad :/

#gonna try to make this like #... ⅓ oz #last as long as it can #i really just do not want to be high #when i was a depressed abused teen yeah i needed it to cope every day #but now i dont really want to do that #id say maybe once in a. while but honestly #real talk i hate tolerance breaks #if i dont smoke all day then the firts time i light up ima be sick as fuck and just feeling like im dying #the first time i smoked after my 2 month sobriety attempt i threw up sat on the floor cried had an existential crisis for 3 hours #i was too scared to sleep bc i thought i was gonna die #and it's like that every time #smoking again after a break does not feel good for me at all #the more i smoke the better it feels #as in... over time.#but i dont wanna get rid of my squirp </3 #my pipe

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