M: Hey, N? What do you really think of me?
N, with no hesitation: I think you're... pretty neat.
M: Oh, okay.
N, internally: Why the fuck did I just say that I could've said they're the greatest person alive and that they're my most favorite person ever but nooooo-
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Noah / N dichotomy ... save me..
Being confronted by the traits you abhor the most within yourself, shouted at through your own mouth and pitied by your own eyes, living with the knowledge of what you could've been had you let yourself go and had not held on to the choices that took you elsewhere, a bleeding ship of theseus in the flesh
Save me Noah / N dichotomy
I will forever argue that it's not really correct to consider Noah and N two different people, because the whole thing hinges on them being the same guy.
How do you reconcile with the knowledge that you bowed to the stagnation of the world and perpetrated its warmongering cogs // never lost the spark of love that propelled you to tear said world apart at the seams? The knowledge that you had a son you cried for // the same son that you killed? The sight of yourself as a commander of consuls, cold puppet to power // a musician who openly mourns strangers with each and every note?
And they're the same. They both can't accept the status quo – he cannot let things be the way they are for him anymore. He's selfish in his pursuit, leaves the operation and all his team behind even if it means losing it all along with Mio in the snow; then he's born again and he lies to his friends' face to keep himself from fighting, even if it'd mean they'd be in danger without him. He doesn't want to accept desth, he'd rather burn it all down than let Mio go; then he's born again and he argues with Ethel and Cammuravi about their choice to die, doesn't understand Crys for years. It was his acceptance that changed things this time around.
Noah tells N (he tells himself) that the only difference between them was luck, who they met and how they approached what that brought them, and he's entirely correct. He actively had to try to move forward, "even if I'm alone". Had to come to terms with it all. He succeeded where he had previously failed, countless years ago, simultaneously still alive to witness the moment, and grasp the struggle of a choice he had never hoped to make before. Both grief and resolution personified. Made for himself, and for others too this time, the freedom to choose despite the very nature of the world not allowing it.
That is how he reconciles.
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WATCH ME — REWIND OUR CLOCKS, BACK TO THE START
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eunie nsfw headcanons
pairing: eunie x gn!reader
tags: spoilers for xc3 chapter 5, smut, suggestive
eunie is a dom! she knows what she wants and she's not a huge fan of letting someone else take control!
if you're a dom as well, the two of you are going to be fighting over dominance and eunie won't make things easy for you!
eunie can be a gentle or a rough dom, depending on her partner!
she won't go all in and be super rough at first, starting gentle and with a slow pace, but if you ask her to be more rough with you, she won't complain!
it's important to eunie that both of you are enjoying yourselves! if you're not having a good time, eunie won't be able to enjoy herself either!
eunie has a thing for inexperienced people! she finds them adorable and loves to show them how things are done!
she got all her knowledge from books and magazines from the city, as well as bombarding monica and the doctors working at the hospital with her questions
eunie has crazy high stamina! she can go for countless rounds, without ever getting tired! if anything, she seems to get more eager with each round!
eunie's favorite position is on top of you! she likes seeing you underneath her, as it makes her feel in control!
she also loves to tease you, whether it's in public or in the bedroom! she'll lean in and whisper dirty things in your ear, knowing it'll fluster you or even turn you on
eunie likes to tease & even degrade you a bit, when you're fucking. but afterwards, she'll cuddle with you and praise you for the good job you did!
she makes sure to always give you enough aftercare, keeping a bottle of water near the bed, knowing you'll be thirsty after countless rounds with her…
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I have very average and not-obsessed feelings about him
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