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sga-owns-my-soul · 1 year
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not to be disgusting on main but my partner does this thing when he sleeps where he has to be as close to me as possible and when i get out of bed when he's asleep i come back to him being fully on my side of the bed (often with his arm half off the bed) like he's looking for me in his sleep and i'm gonna fucking melt i'm so goddamn in love with this boy
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I was at my middle school best friend's birthday yesterday (We'll call him M).
My close friend (let's call her N) was also here as she's also the girlfriend of one of M and I's high school friend.
There were a bunch of people I didn't know as they're M's new friends from Uni or Discord.
Anyway, N had to leave at some point as she was working early the next day. After that, I noticed how her boyfriend was always checking on me, engaging in small talk from time to time, asking if everything was alright...
At some point, he brought me a plate of food and told me : "Before she left, N told me to take good care of you".
I played it cool and cracked a joke but I swear I was crying inside.
I love them both so much. You know that thing when couples adopt their third wheel ? Welp, I guess I'm their child now 😌
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devastatinglygreen · 3 months
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watching part 2 with my husband and getting into the first polin whistledown reveal fight and he is insistent he would not be mad at penelope over it
i do not know what to do with this information
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pardonmydelays · 4 months
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i had so much fun last night omg
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valkerymillenia · 1 month
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TUA s04
I watched the whole season except for the last episode.
I didn't hate it so far but mostly because TUA tens to give interesting plot twists at the last second and I was trying to keep an open mind... That being said, I am quite disappointed in a lot of things this season.
And now I'm genuinely afraid of watching that last episode, there's too much to unpack so far and I'm afraid of the implications of some of the storylines being built up, I'm also very afraid that they're going to do the lazy writing thing and kill a bunch of characters off without any resolution or catharsis just to wrap up the story.
Plus I've been trying to avoid spoilers but I already caught a few glimpses that scared me.
This was my favorite show ever, I don't want it to end on a bad note, a rushed and lazily written bad note.
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one thing i'm really really fascinated by is the fact that everyone in the modern pokemon world seems to consider the deities a power source, nothing more. the games generally imply that knowledge of the legendaries has been lost to time and legend and only preserved by a select few who keep to the Ancient Ways but i don't really think that sounds likely. i think they might be common knowledge people just don't seem to. conceptualize them as greater than in the way that we generally think of them. "this is a divine force that underpins reality and has been worshipped since antiquity" is not a thing that seems to have any problem coexisting with "i'm going to put this thing in an engine and make it my tool." and it's very frequently the baddies doing this which maybe weakens the point a little but very rarely is the point of contention with the bad guys "hey you shouldn't do that to god" that's kind of like, never the part of their thing that people object to. it's always their motives, never their methods. when the Good Guy (local ten year old) catches god and makes it their new partner, nobody has a problem with it! and people joke about this but i'm saying it might imply a way deeper facet of society than people give it credit for.
and is this maybe trying to force the round peg of pokemon legendaries into the square hole of actual religion. very possibly! the games aside from pla certainly seem only very occasionally interested in treating these creatures as gods or godlike or worshipped in any way, and far more often just want to treat them as regular pokemon But Stronger. so it's maybe not reasonable to try and say these entities are deities. but the problem is they are! it's not like this isn't supported textually, it's just... not a part of canon that canon is actually interested in. dialga, palkia, the lake trio, kyogre, groudon—these things are gods. canon can mince words and call them legendaries and "worshipped as deities maybe sometimes" but when you get to the point where you're discussing something that represents a fundamental force governing reality and/or can end the world on a whim then idc what you call it. that's a god.
but the problem is that they are gods and also pokemon, they're both simultaneously. and people in the pokemon world seem to have worked this out, and have had the collective realization that the gods are truly not exempt from their own rules. they can be captured, they can be subjugated, they can be used. this also ties back in with the whole anarchism discussion obviously but it's just the fact that like. it goes way deeper than everyone being fine with the ten year old putting the lord of time in a ball. the entire world operates on the premise of "eat your gods."
does that like... contradict worship? can you be faithful to something knowing it's been used as a tool?
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kaurwreck · 19 days
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for the ask game: LILAC CHARCOAL AND RASPBERRY
anon this is so sweet 😭
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#anon i love this but i have a covenant with God so i can't kill Him with you#this reminds me of the time my brother lamented his atheism and my agnosticism on behalf of our religious mother. but i'm not agnostic.#so i clarified i believe in God and that's never changed. i just choose not to worship Him + I think there are multiple truths (incl. gods)#which is shorthand but I've never been able to explain it to others to their satisfaction and it isn't anyone else's business anyway#he thought that was MUCH worse and became so dramatic. he was genuinely so thrown. he fixated on the fact it's heresy.#which I didn't expect because like yes it's heresy but heresy is a doctrinal concept -- it doesn't have any intrinsic meaning.#and not to be dismissive but doctrine is fairly sequestered from God. It's functionally and historically a voidable social contract.#i was involved with the church/attended various bible retreats for several years before leaving. but I didn't leave over God lmao.#my institutional involvement was always contingent on its alignment with my own individual purpose/practice/rituals/bible study/covenant.#which church/community leadership knew and tried to triage in various ways but like. it's not hard to reject authority baselessly derived.#so my present relationship with God isn't any more heretical than it was when I practiced Christianity as a religion.#If anything I was maybe more heretical in funnier and more flagrant ways when I was practicing than I am now.#but anyway. my point is.#i wont help you kill god but I'm always here for heresy.#alternatively i also recommend either (1) listening to god is dead (meet the kids) by british india#which when engaged with meaningfully amounts to the same philosophical state of being as killing God#or (2) forming a reverse orphic mystery cult relationship with Him the way I did when from ages 10-14#in other words#we can either sacrifice God to the secular age like thomas jefferson and nietzsche#or we can obsessively study the bible @ the cost of enough sleep that we (in brief spurts) access the parts of us inclined towards prophecy#those are the only two approaches to god that I'm capable of partaking in with any sincerity or intellectual honesty#and I'm unfortunately very married to sincerity and intellectual honesty.#(i'm sorry for meeting your very nice compliments with a nonsequitur illustrating why i should live as a hermit in a remote woodland shack)#(but I suppose I'm not sorry enough to remove the nonsequitur from my response prior to publication. so. take from that what you will.)
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thedreadvampy · 11 months
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wait no sorry one last quick immature bitch moment
the more I find out about how this person has behaved in both this relationship and a bunch of other relationships, the funnier it is how much they like to set themselves up as a like. authority on ethical nonmonogamy and consent and conflict management.
when like. they constantly sexually assault people to prove a point, pressure their partners into shit, got into enm by cheating on 3 people concurrently, and literally every time a problem in their orbit is brought up it gets explained away without anything actually changing, or they cry about how hard it is until everyone says OH NO IT'S FINE DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT
you know. very "call yourself a Community Organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates" energies.
#red said#I'm mad tbh i know in being bitchy but this blog is my safe space to be bitch on#and this shit has been building up for years. not even just in my relationship with their partner. since the first time i meet them#in like 2018#and having this chat with my pal last night now I'm no longer second guessing myself bc of my relationship has uhhh Crystalised Some Things#especially getting some new context on where a lot of the tensions and sensitivities I've been aware of for ages are from#also tbh when we broke up my ex led off with 'i know you think this is about [partner] but it's not' and i was like. it is though.#it's not the only thing but it's been a common thread through every piece of tension in that relationship#not saying if the partner wasn't there we'd have been together forever. i don't think that's true and I'm glad things went the way they did.#cause w were good for each other and breaking up was also good for us#but their partner has really caused me so so so so so much turmoil for years and i haven't felt able to acknowledge that cause it makes me#feel like an asshole. but like. OK SO I'M AN ASSHOLE. I'M FUCKING MAD AT THEM.#they are manipulative and controlling and they treat their partner like shit and they have perpetually made my life worse#i like a lot of things about them and i do feel for them. we share a lot of similar issues and i do understand how they feel a lot.#but fuck me they treat everyone around them so badly and a good chunk of the reason i ended things with their partner#is that i was so fucking sick of being told i was wrong and just didn't understand how hard they had it whenever i brought up#one of the many many many shitty things they did to me or to our partner or to our friends.#multiple times i left a situation in a fully fucked up mess and my partner came to apologise for how their partner has behaved#and within minutes it would turn into them explaining to me how it wasn't really their fault and i shouldn't be so hard on them#and like fuck that. had enough of that in my life with my previous ex.#anyway. yeah. i am probably being more didactic and aggro here than i genuinely feel. but there's some room for that anger i think#and i did get some room for it to breathe last night and that's good and helpful.
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bisexualmaedhros · 2 months
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transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did
#this will not be rebloggable because i don't want people to get transmisogynistic in the notes#it's just something i've been thinking about lately#i hope i'm not like out of line for saying this please let me know if i say anything disrespectful#i just have a lot of love in my heart for transfems; especially those who log on to this website to be gay on my dash and do their thing#trans wlw being proud of their identities helped me come to terms with my own in a way. idk how to properly explain it but#idk. our experiences are very different - you have to fight to be seen as a woman and i have to fight not to#(though that is part of my identity in most cases people would use it to negate the rest)#(and of course none of us should Have to fight that but. i hope it's clear what i mean lol)#and idk like. womanhood is not achieved painlessly for you and yet so many of you embrace it so beautifully and in so many ways#it makes me want to accept that part of myself i thought i had to kill for so long#i am not entirely a woman but i love being a woman and loving other women-#platonically romantically sexually it doesn't matter#i'm so grateful i get to share a community with you all and read/hear/watch your thoughts and experiences and such#which goes beyond sex stuff but sex stuff is a particular personal struggle of mine and it's something i've been trying to cultivate a more#healthy relationship to lately. and i also know that unfortunately transfems get treated even worse than everyone else when it comes to#kinks or whatever. i don't mean to imply that everyone has to be open about that stuff. i just mean that i'm grateful for those who bravely#and proudly are. anyway i'm losing my train of thought bc i'm packing for a trip and i'm a little scattered atm but the point is#transfem wlw i love you dearly thank you for existing#[oh also this post isn't meant to bash body positivity stuff and i know it's not all the same. it just often felt too sanitized and forced#for me to relate to. ok bye]#finielspeaks
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aterribleinfluence · 2 months
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dan and phil: has a fanbase that's notoriously passionate about them being in a romantic relationship
dan and phil: notoriously keeps their personal lives private
dan and phil: are smart enough to make jokes they know will rile up their fanbase because they think it's funny
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ploonets · 4 months
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man they really weren't kidding when they said the grief of late diagnosed autism hits hard oooh boy did it hit fucking hard today
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pia-writes-things · 4 months
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We love giving our master's pre-thesis to our apprenticeship tutor so they can proofread it, and all they have to say is that's it's "too political" and "too controversial", that I should "censor" (no jokes, they used that word) the extract of my field diary that's in it, that I should delete or rewrite one of my hypothesis and, finally, that interviewing teachers for my research is "too delicate".
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gideonisms · 2 years
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mandatory gender reporting time of the semester love that for me ! 🚫🙅‍♂️👎
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m4niackkyun · 1 year
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Hi. (Announcement in the tags)
#uhmm...i don't know how to explain this...#so my family has been having a lot of trouble lately#mostly our relationship with our step father#there's been ups and downs..well..more on the downer side. the only main reason my mother married him was because of..well..#money..as trash as that sounds. i can't deny the fact that I've been able to continue my studies due to his financial support.#i don't want to justify anything that i've probably done wrong to him but emotionally right now—i'm simply scarred to the point where—#I don't think I could heal without professional help. I've been struggling a lot with it ever since of what he did#i felt disgusted. dirty. I felt lost. I didn't want to forgive him. maybe this is the punishment i have to endure because I didn't have it—#—in me to forgive him. I know the principles of my religion and it is stated that one must always find forgiveness towards others.#no matter how big their mistake is. but you see—I'm not God. I am human. my kindness isn't as grand and as big as Him.#my patience is limited and so is my forgiveness#that applies the same to my mother. my mother is a very patient person when it comes to her husband. but yet again she isn't an angel—#nor is she God. she is also human and has limits to what she could handle and what she could forgive and forget.#they argued tonight. and I don't think it'll slide or end well like the past arguments. and I'm sorry to say but—#I won't be able to be active all that much either.#without him now I'll probably have to look for part time jobs. which is gonna limit how active I will be here and on my main account#I will probably go into an indefinite hiatus for some time#maybe I'll come back...maybe I won't. hopefully I will. just...pray for me that I have it in me to continue doing what I love and—#—sharing these little bits of what I do in my free time with you.#I won't have the time to reply to anything for the time being. college tests are on the way and I have to prepare myself for—#—the better or worse.#if things go downhill and you don't hear from me for a long while. then this will probably be my last post here.#I'll still be able to reply to messages on other platforms#but I just don't have the emotional stability to talk right now. No it's gonna be fine. I have faith in me and God.#I know that He doesn't put His children into burdens that none of them could handle.#and if He thinks I could handle this. then I will. and I can. He is with me and so is all of your faith.#that puts me in a sense of reassurance a little hahah...#yeah.. so...I'll see you then..bye.
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elytrafemme · 2 years
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i have had TWO successful interactions with my father today. this is unprecedented
#nightmare.personal#i like my dad but he's either never here or the most logistically complicated person to talk to#the fact that i was able to text him enter his room and grab (1) object without some colossal problem ensuing is nothing short of miraculous#usually my interactions with him are (1) me needing something from him which usually is problematic in some degree#(2) him giving me random useful objects which is kind of tedious but appreciated#or (3) him talking to me about my future or some kind of intellectually stimulating topic#sometimes he talks too much and dominates the conversation leaving it unsatisfying#but more and more he has shown a willingness to give me the reigns which helps affirm to him my worth as a human being#which i think is necessary to do every so often but not really anything i concern myself with doing regularly#i haven't fucked up around him very much recently i would say which has done wonders for our dynamic too#because now i'm like his highly valued daughter and he's someone who gives me useful information/resources#this is all to say trying to explain my relationship with my dad is complicated but it ultimately boils down to#extremely good for my intellectual and moral development. significantly lacking in the emotional department#ultimately though i'm old enough now that i don't really need to seek out paternal affection or mourn the lack of it#he's never committed any kind of egregious transgression against me and most of his love is shown practically#like when he defended me against my mom for being gay and radicalized her in one fell swoop. that was rather wonderful of him#i do think he loves me more than i love him but i don't think he needs love as a mediator for communication so ultimately we're fine#like i do love the guy but sort of as an afterthought and more so as a human being rather than a father or a good human being#you know? admiration of his existence and general uniqueness but not necessarily agreement with his beliefs or#a claim that he's a good father. that being said i do think he is a good father#does any of this make sense? i don't know i was trying to explain this to an IRL before#but it gets messy because my IRLs are concerned enough about me + this particular one has a far worse dynamic with her father#so it's not exactly easy for me to explain emotional absence to someone struggling from general absence#whatever. i got the thing from him now maybe i will consider doing my homework
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cruelsister-moved2 · 1 year
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i need therapy from being a twin fr there needs to be twin specialist therapists😭😭😭 every time ive been to a therapist it gets awkward because I end up 90% talking about twin stuff and they literally dont know how to respond or deal with it, honestly some of them made me feel worse by not understanding how much it can impact u and they want to talk about something else because they must think there's no way my issues can be so rooted in something so minor but literally the more I get to know myself literally every single thing is that at some point
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