#no money for therapy lol

[iesnoth]

Life/project update

I'll try to keep this as positive but as honest as I can.

I finished school in March for computer programming, but job searching is on hold because I got an offer to traditionally publish my Fissure comic. Because of the format and low resolution of the original comic, it has to be completely redrawn, but I'm taking this opportunity to also add some panels for context. The goal is for this short-run comic to come out in issues in 2024.

As a result of this ^, I've taken work off for the summer so I can devote all the time I can to the comic. Also, almost all other side projects have gone on the back burner. For example, I do want to come back to the Artemis Fowl Otome Game and do something with the concept, because I love it and the characters we created. However, I don't have the creative or emotional capacity atm.

Really, it's everything I can do right now to not curl up into a ball and wait for life to be over. I thought it would help if I got rid of some of the perceived pressure I'm feeling which is intimidating me into a vegetative state.

I'm really excited about this comic, though. I loved making it the first time (I did most of the work in quarantine 2020), and am excited to revisit it and release it in hard copy form.

Side note, the comic is about two black-presenting (one is an alien) people, and I am not black, so I'm looking for a black person who'd be interested in looking over the copies for inconsistencies in art (as far as the characters are concerned) and sensitivity issues. I don't anticipate many, since the comic is short and close knit, but I also don't want to assume. If you're interested, please shoot me a message and we'll talk!

Thank you for reading, so some of the imagined pressure I feel might be lessened.

[mueritos]

quick lil post about coming back to art full-time while also being a full time MSW student….it can be possible 0.0

anyway ty to everyone who has supported me over the years i wouldnt be able to go back to art without you all

[pleasantmsp]

I love Beauyasha so much. I miss them so much.

The reunion gave me so much joy and now I'm in this weird happy but melancholy state. I love the Nein so much and I want more of them. And I especially want more of Beau and Yasha. If we get a Fjorester wedding one shot, I will be stoked. But then also give me the Beauyasha wedding too!

I'm really just hoping they keep doing these little reunions cause I love the Mighty Nein so much and seeing them makes me so happy.

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

the MW reboot games are on sale on steam...

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

i really need a new therapist

[fruit-snacker]

Currently wishing i could live without my mind turning on me :(

[verdiesque]

venting in tags

[doveotion]

what medication do you think you need and why

honestly I have no clue but I do know I need SOMETHING. I for sure I know I have depression. as for any other diagnosis I'm unsure but my friends have told me (who are diagnosed with these) I probably have quiet bpd/autism🧍🏻‍♀️

[ii-zi]

a long time ago I ran the numbers and figured my entire family could live for 70 years with no want or need left uncovered + thousands of pesos to spend freely per month with only 1M dlls

today i saw a video of a random guy looking to buy a private jet to travel more comfortable with his models and business partners, saying he was willing to spend up to 70 million euros, so i decided to run the numbers again

even adjusted to the depreciation of the dollars (from 22 mxn to 17 mxn) and the soaring prices of living, plus a hefty 6k+ mxn per month (more than what anyone makes in this house), it'd still cover 6 entire decades of living expenses. 60 whole years.

[semiotomatics]

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basically the situation is i got an email back from my LTD case manager and my case will be reviewed "within 10 working days" so basically it could be 2 WEEKS till i start getting payments again. and in the meantime we are behind on literally every bill, my credit cards are not only maxed but _over_limit which is great, we have food for us (for NOW) but we're gonna need cat food soon, not to mention laundry money, and we have <$50 left between the two of us. mum is slowly bringing in money with ebay but thata just barely enough to keep us fed, let alone pay bills. at this point i feel like ive bled everyone i know dry, like even if there are people who'd be willing to help i a) doubt it would be enough to make a difference but more importantly b) am SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF HAVING TO BEG FOR OTHERS' HELP JUST TO SURVIVE. i dont know what to do. i feel like we're drowning in an inch of water. we're two more weeks away from presumably getting regular payments again and yet it might as well be two years for all the good it'll do us now. im seriously considering emailing my dad for help which is just. so fucked up. but we might not have any other options here. this is all my fault and i hate it and i dont want to have to DO this anymore

[m3zzamorphic]

Shit is rough for me right now but Diablo 4 comes out next month and my favorite kpop group is releasing a new album a few days before that. Gimme those good brain chemicals🤌🏻

[kulliare]

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[ajarofpickledtears]

it's so difficult to get stuff done when i still am daily having to actively resist the urge to sleep all day

[skirtsarenice]

Video game geralt looks like a goddamn puppy. I don’t know how anyone could be scared of this sweet, earnest little man, his eyes go all soft and comforting when he talks. Idk I just get mine therapy dog vibes from him. The fact that I play him as getting distracted by every flower I come across doesn’t help lol.

[awkwardac]

Me still watching Invincible season 1: Okay, damn... this show gets violent at times but I'm super invested. After the first episode, how violent could it be?

Me during the last episode of season 1: OH MY F*CKING -

[orgyband]

therapy over :thumbsup: