#not sure how well i'll keep up though 💔

[prettyplumb]

camptober day 1: dadvid idk if the dadvid is very strong in this one but i thought it was a cute idea! when i was little my parents would often carry my halloween candy for me LOL

[kairiscorner]

✧˚ · . just friends with suguru getou.

🍰 genre: fluff !!

✒️ word count: 924

💭 summary: you both swear, you're just friends... but friends don't know the way you like to be held, how to make you feel butterflies in your stomach, do they?

💗 special mentions: @moonswolfie @xoxo-cha

🍥 author's note: y'all i can fix him i swear (i didn't know how to end it so i'm sorry if it ain't good enough 💔)

as suguru lay on his bed in the dormitory, silently reading a book, you figured things were too quiet for such a fleeting weekend. you decided to engage in your favorite pastime: annoying the hell out of him. you kept whining how boring today was, how there was nothing to do; how much you wanted to go to the nearest amusement park or arcade and just drag him everywhere. this kind of pestering would usually annoy someone else, but suguru wasn't just someone else to you; sure he was your friend, but... there was a sort of unspoken connection between you two; an invisible boundary you both step over time and time again, but never fully discuss about. you both pretended as though nothing's more than just friendly between you two, that those little touches and gestures you both do for each other—all the tolerance and fondness you two have built up towards each other is nothing more than a friendly relationship. nothing more than that, definitely not.

the boy chuckles as he looks over at you from behind his book, a sweet smirk dancing on his lips. "bored?" "extremely." your childish groan of a response elicits a laugh from the boy, forcing him to sit up and put his book away. "well... what do you want to do?" he asks you in a hushed whisper, his hazelnut colored eyes and darling grin making you feel hot in the face as you stared back at him while you lay down on your back, with his upside down image in your eyes stifling a chuckle at how cute you looked.

"keep looking at me all cutely and i might forget we're friends." he jokes as he lies back down on his back, teasingly placing one leg over your stomach, making you whine again. "sugu!" you exclaim in faux annoyance. "what, my lovely? am i too heavy?" he teases, knowing full well how you like being teased like this, and believe it or not... he likes it a lot, too. his smirk widens as he places his other leg on your stomach, crossing his legs and squishing you. "so tiny..." he mumbles under his breath as you pout, trying to push his legs off while he, in all his classy douchebag fashion, effortlessly pushes his legs back down onto your stomach, chuckling at your futile resistance.

"you're an asshole, sugu..." "i'll take that, you know satoru can't be the only asshole to you." he quipped, making you furrow your eyebrows in false frustration the minute you got out of his legs' grasp. you lay down next to him on his bed, placing your arms on his chest in an effort to push him back down onto the bed to lie down with you. "yeah, he's an ass, but... you're a weirdly special kind of asshole." you mutter in a hushed, sentimental tone. suguru gives a small snort at that, smiling wider. "so, i have the nicer ass?" "not like that!" you exclaim, playfully hitting his chest, making him laugh harder. "sure... if you were to choose between us, though, who'd be your pick?" he asked you with a sly voice. his question was quite vague, really, so you held off answering by telling him so. "too vague?" he repeats, sneakily wrapping his arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer to his chest.

"fine, uh... if you were to be... in a relationship with either of us... who would you pi—" "neither of you." you say in a sweet tone, smiling all innocently to seal the deal. suguru looked at you with a sort of surprised expression, was he getting mixed signals from you all this time? was he being too presumptuous of your feelings for him? for a split second, his cheeks are tinted with a slight shade of red, and he utters something under his breath that you couldn't make out.

you look up into his eyes and poke his cheek. "why? why'd you ask?" suguru stayed silent for a few seconds, formulating a made up excuse in his head, but only a small chuckle escaped his sweet lips. "i just, um... thought you'd choose him because of how close you two are." "ugh, nah, he's cool but also such a maniac sometimes." now that makes suguru laugh heartily, you can't remember when he's laughed like this before. "really? a maniac? as if you aren't?" "you're more maniacal than me, suguru getou." "i guess i am, because... i think you're more than just my friend sometimes." he whispers, looking at your face in such an ethereal way; you've never been looked at with such kind, selfless eyes before, that held nothing but pure adoration for you in them.

he tries to shift the topic immediately with some small talk that you couldn't care less about, but you wanted to keep him pinned right then and there about his confession—so you took the plunge and kissed him. on his bed. on that lazy, uneventful weekend afternoon that felt like all time had slowed down. your legs were wrapped around his, like how friends do; your hands were on his chest, gripping at his shirt and pulling him closer into the kiss, like how friends do—you pulled away for a second to catch your breath, and with a soft voice that only he could hear... you uttered those words he never dreamed of hearing would come from you, because he never felt that it was possible.

"i love you, suguru."

like how friends do.

[fyodors-husband]

Hihi! Can you do Ivan x reader nsfw hcs? Tysm! Also I hope your day is going well!

hi anon! Yes I most certainly can! I hope your day is going well too!

I love this little lobotomized mousey so much oh my lord, he deserved so much more screentime and character development I wish he got it 💔

CW: nsfw, slight OOC, slight vouyerisum, choking, rough sex, a variety of kinks, gn reader (No Pronouns except you), discussion of pervious surgeries had, lobotmies, freaky ivan, ivan himself is a ce but we love him, dub-con(?) (He is lobotomized so can't really process the consent part?), slightly toxic relationships, English is not my first language and my knowledge of words related to alot of the kinks I think ivan has are limited 😭, if I need to add any or if I got a word wrong please let me know!

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He's a freak

Many kinks, down to try just about anything aswell

He usually bottoms but if you ask he has no trouble topping

He would be a service top though, he wants to please you more than himself but also himself more than you of that makes sense

Has no problem giving up control and giving you the lead in sex

Especially after his lobotomy, he almost needs to give up control, but there's still parts of him trying to grip onto it at the same time

Will probably cry but if you stop to make sure he's okay he'll yell at you not to do that

You both have a safeword but he never uses it, even when he needs to

If you've been together for a long time you've pretty much learned when it's to much

Very vocal, little squeals and moans when you do it

Especially if you pull his hair, he's very into that but you almost never do because of his stitches and scar tissue, if you ever do your very gentle (even though he tells you to do it hard)

Wouldnt mind being smacked around in bed, especially if hes helping you deal with a stressful day

He dosent mind being used at all, he's happy that he can help you

His favorite position is doggy style, that way if he asks, you'll pull his hair or smack his ass

He good with other postiitions too though, I feel like he'd never say but he loves the ones where he's facing you, like missionary and mating press and things like thoose

Just because he finds you so gorgeous and wants to be able to see you

Also because you can choke him and kiss him that way

of he wants something he'll take it, he's very stubborn when he wants to be

That being said if he realizes your stressed outside of work or even in the office, he'll offer to help you

Itll start off innocent but soon he'll most likely be in between your legs

"What do you mean not here? I'll make it fast jist relax, your so stressed"

Hell do that in your work, (especially if you have a private office), probably in the street (alleyways)

If he's desperate enough he'll even "forget" to close the curtains so that everyone can see how much you love him!

likes to be overpowered alot, keep your clothes on while he has none? He's drooling

He always asks you to finish on him or in him (of you can), he finds it as like a mark

Speaking of that, he loves hickeys and bites you give him, if they fade to fast he'll be really upset and make you make more

In the term of after care, he almost insists on doing it all, but you manage to make him lay down

Hell INSIST he dosent need it and that he's fine, but if you do end up doing it his brain wont process correctly

Its been so long since someone has taken care of him, he'll almost cry if your gentle

His mind dosent really work, he'll probably get a headache as his mind races to think about another time when someone took care of him, but, the lobotomy just messes him up.

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Thank you so much for reading I really hope you enjoyed, likes a reblogs help alot if you'd be so kind <3

[vendetta-if]

𝓱𝓲 💖 (sorry for this asdkjfhjijhj)

im back and i have returned (to everyone's dismay) and i come bearing gifts - i have found the pages where i had my vendetta sequel mc drawn in!! 😈

here's my first doodle of rei when i was designing him - i didnt have the proper markers to colour him in but i used what markers i could get my hands on at the time lol but i did fuck up his face :( (closeup)

now i have lots of doodles i drew alongside this fullbody design of his and without further ado >:)

here are some facts i wrote about him 😊 as well as rei decorating his helmet :D though i'll write it down here if you can't read my messy ass handwriting (sorry about that hsjdhsd) »»————- ★ ————-«« FACTS ABOUT REI 2: ELECTRIC BOOGALOO: ➭ loves all things cutesy and colourful ➭ acts and whines like an actual toddler (because it forces his family to give him attention whenever he's being an actual pain in the ass 💞) ➭ reckless af and hates when people fret over him or protect him (that's his job. 👺) ➭ unironically thinks that blood splatters on his clothes look good on him (rei doesn't care if he's seen covered in blood in public, he can make millions of excuses why it isn't blood >:D) " NO this isn't blood this is paint 😇" " tf did you think this was?? i spilled my kool aid all over my clothes 😪" just to name a few, lol ➭ would honestly sell his soul for a lifetime supply of strawberry milkshakes (this is totally not me projecting myself onto rei when it comes to taro milk tea 💀) »»————- ★ ————-««

now here's another doodle of rei using his blood manipulation powers 😋 also ignore the pencil text below LMAO

so i did mention in my first ask about rei that he loves to explode things- yeah um idk if luka and jackal would give their menace of a son explosives or a grenade launcher if they knew that this is how he'd act with them LMFAOO

i also mentioned that rei makes the best belgian waffles! (send help hes holding me at gunpoint and forcing me to say this) here's rei offering a divine dish of waffles to my vendetta mc, remedy / remi 💕💕 and look at his face! his mouth is practically watering in anticipation to gobble up the waffles! 💗💝💘💓

okay on a side note- i made some small drawings of rei in a different outfit and was actually gonna include this in the ref but i didnt like it because it looked ugly 😭 so i made a poor life decision to cut these two abominations out and now they're on my phone 💟 (closeups)

anyways now here have a drawing of rei as demoman from the hit game tf2!!11!1!11!! 😲😳

(he really looks like a dollarstore demoman lol)

(reference used):

now if you have been on the internet during its baby phase im sure you may understand the reference i used for this doodle 🤭

yknow looking back at this downgraded rip off drawing of the original this is actually a shit drawing LMAO (how tf do you draw flames and smoke pls help 💔) now one thing i like to headcanon about rei is that whenever he starts to get frustrated or is having a hard time with carrying out an assassination he decides to do fuck all and blow everything up with literally anything flammable he could find because no target survives being blown to oblivion! (which happens more often than you think...) i like to think while this is an easy way out for rei, it is an absolute nightmare and a headache for the rest of his family 😌 (they probably would have to deal with unwanted attention because rei doesn't give a shit about keeping a low profile and people may tie him to the Morozovs 🤗 they also may struggle to come up with cover stories as these arson incidents become more frequent - because rei is the type of person who values quantity over quality, where he challenges himself to complete multiple assassinations so he can receive praise from his family 😂🤪 and it also doesn't help that he would rather cut corners and take the easy way out when it comes to his work) luka and jackal: " these fires are getting out of hand, we can't keep doing this... " fucking rei: " DAD 1 AND DAD 2!! LOOK!! THATS ME!! THAT BURNING BUILDING, I DID THAT!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD " (reference used):

now moving on to a somewhat ironic drawing, here's a doodle of rei in a raincoat vibing in the rain ✨(aside from overalls, rei loves to wear raincoats - and would rather wear them instead of wintercoats when it's cold LOL) rei is the type of person to prioritize fashion than comfort :(

now here's a crappy drawing of cousin bonding time (rei and remedy) tbh i dont really like this scribble lol - this is just filler because i hated empty patches in my paper 🤡

now, a word from our sponsor; rei himself!! he is presenting his aforementioned homemade waffles in greater detail :) and now, cue the advertisement that totally is not completely false and not just rei's delusional and stubborn ramblings on that he creates the best waffles and that waffle makers are inferior to him ☺️

(っ◔◡◔)っ ♥ Rei's amazing homemade Belgian waffles! ♥ (𝑀𝒶𝒹𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒶 𝓌𝒶𝒻𝒻𝓁𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝓀𝑒𝓇!) ♥ 𝗙𝗿𝗼𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗴𝗮𝗹𝗼𝗿𝗲! (𝙎𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙝) ♥ ♥ 𝗛𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲, 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗿𝗮𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝗳𝗳𝗹𝗲𝘀 (𝙏𝙤𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙘, 𝙣𝙤 𝙬𝙖𝙛𝙛𝙡𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙡𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙙 >:( ) ♥ ♥ 𝗖𝗿𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗵𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝘂𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝗮𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝘀𝘆𝗿𝘂𝗽 >:) (���𝙤𝙩 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙩 𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡!) ♥ ♥ 𝟷𝟶/𝟷𝟶 𝚏𝚕𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛! (𝙍𝙚𝙞'𝙨 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙖𝙙𝙨 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙤𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙡𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜! :) ) ♥

i feel like im trying too hard to be funny here, lmao 🤡💀 anyways, here are the full pages of all of the drawings :D

alright so thats finally all i have - if i somehow get my motivation to draw or do literally anything productive ill start working on my vendetta mc's (remedy) ref sheet 👹 (im sorry for this cesspool of cringe again btw LMAO)

Rei sounds so chaotic and kinda sweet at the same time 😆

Also, I love the lil headcanon about the waffle. You can bet that big bro will boast about how his lil brother can make really good waffles to his friends whenever he hang out or has breakfast with them 🥺

Thank you for sharing all these lovely drawings and headcanons about your upcoming sequel MC 🥰

[cheesemonky]

my pookie mooties!!

@2minstan - where to start? one of my oldest friends, and I've literally had the most amazing times with you. i trust you with my life, and you'll prolly be the ring bearer at my wedding <3

@kailee08 - you're such a cutie and even tho you're a meanie :( you're an amazing person to talk to and you always leave amazing feedback on all my fics so yeah luv you bby <3 even if you're not writing anymore, you're so cool!!

@jinnie-ret - my first ever pookie and Im so grateful to u and kylei for introducing me to all these wonderful new people, and your fics are DELECTABLE I lub u :3

@yangbbokari - ur a swag lil kiddo but ur such a meanie LIKE IM NOT THAT OLD but I love you or whatever because you write so well and you're just a cute lil baby 💔 im gonna miss you so much, but im also so proud of you <3

@givemeabreakimbig28 - tall ass mf but <3 ur an amazing friend and proly knows a lot of my secrets but I trust you with them :)) luv u but I'll kill if u spill <3 stop looking at me like that btw, its literally scary asf man....

@hyunsvngs - mouth-watering fics and just... mwah, you're amazing and you only feed me more and more kinks to figure out. love u and the fact that your blog is a safe space <3

@beesspacedotorg - bonded over our shared husband Mr. Seungmin because y'all are both cuties are your first fic was AMAZING loved it so much bby <33

@atinyniki - NIKI I LOVE YOU like come give me a smooch alr??? you are such a sweet person and if I ever do meet u, I'm sure I'll love u as much as I alr do WE'LL PLAY VAL TGTH SOMEDAY :3

@michelle4eve - sweetest sweetie to ever sweetie, like I just saw u liking all my posts and was like ZAMN I didn't think I was that interesting but you're seemingly convinced otherwise <3 my little baby ilsym :>

@minholing - jenny ur such a sweet little thing and even though we live so far apart i love how well our talking times match up, iykwim?? but yeah, keep being the cutie you r <3 ill wait patiently for you to come back :)

@sona1800 - a new mootie of mine but so super duper fun to talk to and i really cant wait to see what you'll be writing in the future my love <3 great advice and i can talk to you almost all the time!!

honourable mentions!! @skzoologist and @writingforstraykids - i haven't gotten to know you guys very well, and we dont talk very much, but ik you guys are lovely people and i hope to be good friends with you in the future!!

[walkingstackofbooks]

DS9 4x18 Hard Time thoughts (I’m re-watching, so beware spoilers for future episodes!) [11 July ‘23]

"Do you wish to add anything to the official record?" His scared shake of his head. Already my heart and we're not long in.

Kira's hard face. She's so gentle with him :3

"I used to dream about this. Being on in runabout, coming through the wormhole, seeing the station again." The time loss thing is so jilting, I love how they've managed to make it weird for us, echoing just a little bit of O'Brien's feelings.

Kira's obviously so uncomfortable with the dream versus reality situation, and Miles' experiences.

He's walking so stiffly, you can tell he still feels as though he's aged 20 years in his body...

"Julian. Is it really you?" "It's me." This meeting is so short but still my heart 💔Julian can't take his eyes off Miles.

"I can't imagine what it would have been like. Twenty years in that cell." At least Julian's talking like it was real, unlike Kira's 'it wasn't real' vibe.

"I was alone." Cut to flashback of not being alone. I'm looking forward to seeing this with the knowledge of what has happened in the prison.

*Miles' hesitancy over ordering something from the replicator? "Computer? A piece of chee'lesh fruit, please." What different ways are there of saying "oh my heart" because I think I'll be needing some....

"Miles? Oh, Miles." Keiko is so fantastic, and oh, their reunion is so understated but so good.

I'm so jealous of the recycling capabilities of replicators.

"I've been alone for so long." He didn't even need to mention of he'd been alone or not, he's really keeping up the pretence, making sure his barriers are high. Or maybe trying to make himself believe it.

"How do you do that? Laugh?" It's so weird. Ee'char is so nice and then you remember he was completely created just to break Miles. I keep thinking "it was a good thing Ee'char was thing was there for Miles" and then having to fight to go "no, actually, Ee'char wasn't real."

"Do I need one seventeen, or two?" "I am not sure." It's sweet that Worf is trying, despite his dislike of games.

There's something so heart-hitting about Jake reteaching Miles the engineering stuff. It's lovely that Jake has learnt enough from Miles for it to go the other way.

"I don't want to be embarrassed in front of the repair crews." But it says a lot that he's not in front of Jake, despite Jake being less of an expert.

"You may be a little rusty, but you're still the Chief." "Oh, well if I'm still the Chief, I say we go through it again." That's the old Miles shining through there!

I'm sorry HOW does Julian walk down a ladder?! Facing forward like their stairs?! Seriously, go watch this clip!

"I just want to forget about what happened on Argratha and get on with my life." -just like that, hey? I'm sorry Miles, it doesn't work like that.

"Tell me about Keiko again." Is that subtle Argrathi torture or Ee'char niceness?

Ee'char calls him Miles - does anyone on the station call him Miles usually at this point? (To check when spreadsheet updates!)

I feel like losing control and hurting Quark isn't going to help with the guilt he's feeling about losing control and killing Ee'char. Miles, you can tell your spiralling, I know you're scared but please get help!

"Please, Captain. I'm asking you as a personal favour to me, give me one more chance." "I wish I could. But right now, in the judgement of this station's Chief Medical Officer, you're unfit for duty." Oof, throwing Bashir under the bus. (I definitely headcanon Julian's prepared to take on all of Miles' anger so he can still get support from the others.)

"You should listen to him, Miles. He cares about you just like I did. Don't make the same mistake with him you did with me." OUCH. HallucEe'char! That's basically implying Miles might kill Julian!

"Don't you get it. You're not my friend. Not anymore. The O'Brien that was your friend died in that cell." "He's not dead. He just needs a little help, that's all." Oh Julian, still trying and trying and trying.

"He wants to help you." "Like you did?" "That's right. We're both your friends." "Yeah. And look what happened to you." I don't think hallucEe'char is the best at getting through to Miles. Which makes sense since he kind of is Miles? But yeah it's so clear here Miles feels like he has to distance himself because he's worried about what he might do to Julian, he knows what he's capable of if he loses control.

"I didn't mean to. I'm sorry." He's just scared of himself - and I'm guessing also what the counsellor or anyone else might find out about him or think of him, he was desperate to keep this horrible side of himself to himself. That's why he can't seek help, and he's just trying to brute force his brain into working.

"Chief?" Oh, Julian is so tense, you can see it in his entire body.

The thing is, Ee'char is making it easy for O'Brien to stay angry at him, he's not offering the explanation that would make things better *because* the simulation wants Miles to kill him.

"But when it came down to it, when I had the chance to show that no matter what anyone did to me, I was still an evolved human being, I failed." Those are some damn high expectations there Miles! No matter what anyone did to you?! It was a set-up, and you can't expect to come out of twenty years of torture unchanged!

WHY DID MILES NOT GET A HUG

"It's a treatment, not a cure." I'm glad they had Julian say this. It did feel a bit like "he's some medicine take it and you'll be fine" at the beginning of this scene.

Miles' smile at Molly's excited "Daddy's home! Daddy's home!"

Idk, but the fact he suddenly seems so much better between the cargo bay scene and the corridor makes me think he must have spent at least a night or two in the infirmary with Julian, which would also make sense why him coming home would be such a big thing for Molly.

Man, this episode does not pull it's punches. And that's why it's such an incredible episode. 💔💔💔

[httpiastri]

ok i swear i keep associating songs with perfectly fine but i cannot help it😭 same anon who said perfectly fine is so "tell you're baby that im ur baby"

ANYWAYS i was just listening to "off the table" by ari and the weeknd and OMFG WHY IS THAT SONG SOOOO OLLIE X Y/N CODED??? like esp the weeknd's part of "i'll wait for you, even though it always feels like i'll be number two to someone you can't hold anymore" ????? ITS SO OLLIE BEGGING FOR Y/N TO LOVE HIM BACK????? BUT SHE CANT GET OVER PAUL????? ALSO when it's ari's parts i feel like the song fits the situation so well from y/n's pov cz its talking about how she cant fall in love w anyone else and feels like love is completely off the table for her cz she can't get over paul and what they had. like even though ollie is there shes "not yet healed or ready" UGH IDK BRO THE WHOLE SONG IS SO PERFECTLY FINE DEF GIVE IT A LISTEN I CANT BE ALONE IN THISSSSS

off the table - ariana grande !

- 🩰🎧🐚🧸 (???) pick an anon icon idk which ones are still available for u LOLL

aaaa welcome back!!! 😁 and omg u associating songs with it makes me so weak, im so 😭 i love it !! feel super super free to send in more if you want to !!!!!!!

godddd "off the table"..... yn not being sure if love is just not an option anymore, if she should settle for something love-less bcs she won't ever achieve what she had with paul.... and her not being healed or ready....... gaaaah!!! and ollie knowing that he's number two and still being okay with waiting for her to heal....

"will i ever love somebody like the way i did you? never thought you'd be so damn hard to replace" – yn only realizing the way that she wont be able to replace paul when she's already with ollie....... being scared that she can never love someone the way she loves him 😭

"if you let me in your arms, if you let me in your heart; i don't think that love's completely off the table" – all ollie really wants is for yn to just open her up for him… he's so understanding and everything but he thinks that if she just tries, if she just lets him get close, there can be love… but she keeps on hiding away, keeping secrets...... 💔

[okamirayne]

Redownloading tumblr to find 2 new chapters from the god of shikaneji — I am truly blessed

As a long-time Hiashi hater, I did not expect to feel for him so hard this latest chapter. And the scene where little Hiashi finds his father in a.. precarious situation while looking for his SICK mother — oof, poor kid!

Also I have a bit of an obsession with Tokuma Hyuga so I was so excited to see him sprinkled throughout the chapter. Not sure how much, if at all, his character will be utilized in your universe, but if he is going to be recurring I am so interested to see what you do with him — i eat up my crumbs wherever i can get them

I am waiting with bated breath to see what comes of all the characters, but there’s one handsome little guy in particular that I cannot get out of my mind — Akamaru! I hope my favorite doggy is doing ok in all of this mess, though with Kiba in the state he’s in, I assume all is not well.

One thing I cannot stress enough is how much your mental health matters to readers like me. I really appreciate you taking the time you need in between and outside writing, as well as sharing your experiences with burnout!

The BtB-verse has truly been such a gift and something I will never stop coming back to — even after the last update (whenever that may be, scary thought).

Hope all is well on your end!

@rosebudddyy 😍 AW! So awesome to hear from you! I'm absolutely thrilled to get your kind feedback and thoughts! 🙏🏼

As a long-time Hiashi hater, I did not expect to feel for him so hard this latest chapter. And the scene where little Hiashi finds his father in a.. precarious situation while looking for his SICK mother — oof, poor kid!

That scene was tough to envision. Getting into Hiashi's headspace is always interesting and intense territory, to say nothing of his heartspace...💔

Also I have a bit of an obsession with Tokuma Hyuga so I was so excited to see him sprinkled throughout the chapter. Not sure how much, if at all, his character will be utilized in your universe, but if he is going to be recurring I am so interested to see what you do with him — i eat up my crumbs wherever i can get them

Oh awesome! Tokuma! I'm glad you enjoyed his mention. I honestly have no idea sometimes which characters are going to make a cameo appearance, or whether they will occupy a bigger part of the stage - so its possible? I never say never now.

I am waiting with bated breath to see what comes of all the characters, but there’s one handsome little guy in particular that I cannot get out of my mind — Akamaru! I hope my favorite doggy is doing ok in all of this mess, though with Kiba in the state he’s in, I assume all is not well.

😢Argh, yes...Akamaru. That was a hella messy fight. Hopefully he'll make an appearance soon!

One thing I cannot stress enough is how much your mental health matters to readers like me. I really appreciate you taking the time you need in between and outside writing, as well as sharing your experiences with burnout!

That's incredibly kind of you, sweetheart. Thank you. 💖🥹 I hope my two cents of the burnout experience can help others who might be going through it. The world seems to have gone to hell in a handbasket at the moment and a lot of people are in overwhelm and running off fumes.

The BtB-verse has truly been such a gift and something I will never stop coming back to — even after the last update (whenever that may be, scary thought).

I'm so grateful to hear this and so thankful that BtB-verse is something that you revisit. That's why I'm doubtly thankful and so damned appreciative of the readers who take the time to connect with me and share their thoughts/feels/feedback etc. Given the burnout, that's the only motivation I've got to keep going with this. It's thanks to the kind reviewers and commentors such as yourself that the sense of community and connection (and the reader-writer-feedback-loop) remains and sustains my ability to 'keep on keeping on' with HHU, otherwise I'll lose steam. You're amazing and throughly appreciated. 🥰

I hope you're well, sweetie. 🫶🏼 A thousand thanks again!

[fatuismooches]

I love how every single fic about the Harbingers i read around internet and among all of them, Capitano is always being #1 best husband/partner �� like, it doesn't matter if its a fluff, angst, yandere, etc. He just too perfect 😖💓 (i guess he really gives that vibe-) Gosh, it makes me love him even more 😩💞

also the fact that we absolutely have almost ZERO information about Capitano other than him being the strongest individual in Teyvat and how he really values honor (also, all of the Fatui soldiers really respect him, so i guess he treats his subordinates well) makes me really want more crumbs about him 😔 i really want him to be playable.. (I really hope that he won't die just like Signora.. I'm still sad about her 😭😭 if she [for some reason] got resurrected in Natlan Chapter, i'll get her immediately alongside Capitano) my mind is still being occupied by him still to this day since day 1 of his appearance and idk if that's normal- (but for some reason, thinking about him makes me feel a bit better.. idk why?)

anyways, i want to ask u something. Do u have any games to play beside Genshin? Or games that u really want to try? As for me, i've been eyeing Honkai: Star Rail for a while now since i saw the Final Beta announcement recently.. I really want to try it! The characters there looks really cool (especially Blade, Jing Yuan, Clara and Svarog 👀)

-🥝

(i really need to make sure to put my anon emoji this time, i always forgot to do it 😞 my head keeps pounding and i hate it so much-)

Capitano is so bf material it hurts😢 I wonder how much Capitano fics you have saved, it must be a really large collection 🥝 anon! And I've been meaning to ask, have you heard of the theory that Capitano is the Bloodstained Knight? I watched a theory video on youtube here and it kinda blew my mind hehe. The way they connected it together made so much sense. For me, I really want to see him fight🥺 Literally I'm going to need a scene of him stomping enemies no problem. But your dedication to Capitano actually makes me so happy, you have such devotion 😭

I agree with you, I would definitely get Signora immediately. I feel like no one appreciates her and only makes fun of her death😭💔 Also yes! I can't wait to play Star Rail. I have it preinstalled and I've been looking at the beta, it looks so cool and pretty! The ultimates/bursts look so fancy! I just don't know how long I'll be able to keep up, gacha games are a lot of work😅 I also used to play Honkai Impact soooo much, my captain level was over 80, a long time ago I had to drop it because my phone storage could not take it... Some other games I like though are Fire Emblem and Persona💓

[anadrenalineslut]

I'm obsessed with the fact that she sampled king of my heart for maroon. First of all, let's talk about how fucking optimistic of a move that is because maroon is depressing as shit.

Like. Okay. Maroon is about Karlie Kloss, we all know that by now. Let's talk about the themes that keep showing up in Taylor's work as a result of that relationships lessons and her current one with Joe.

Like, king of my heart is about Joe alwyn. I can't see any gaylor connection to it besides reading the line "cause all the boys with their expensive cars" as a lesbian confession of comphet but that's a reach and a half. I don't think this line necessarily means anything other than all the other men I've dated were very rich and famous and that clouded their morals but you're not famous/rich and you make me feel real. Like, there is a heterosexual explanation for this line and I think the heterosexual explanation is more in line with the rest of reputation and her relationship with Joe than anything else.

Midnights is an interesting album because while I do think it's very Joe centric, it does unravel a healthy dose of gay trauma especially in the context of the Karlie relationship. For example, Labyrinth is about falling in love after losing Karlie see lines like "you know how much I hate that everybody expects me to bounce back, just like that" in context with "it hits different this time, because it's you," as well as "I'll be getting over you my whole life."

I think the choice of using maroon as the color of choice to describe their relationship, in contrast with calling the relationship with Jake a basic red is very very intriguing. First of all, I am living for the Jake slander and especially comparing him to a woman in which he has lost the competition. Like, im pretty sure Jake is a sexist pig and it makes me happy that in the taylor cinematic universe taylor gave the complex red shade and meaning to a woman over him. Because yes, the relationship with Jake was painful but that's because he was being an abusive groomer not because they were equals in love.

Karlie and Taylor, though, they were in love once upon a time. They were equals, and they were friends and their love was deeper because of it. It was a heartbreak unlike anything taylor had ever felt because she had always picked a safe male option or she was being groomed and manipulated by older men, and she was unprepared for how deeply being betrayed by a WOMAN would feel like. 💔 anyways, maroon is a devastating song but using king of my heart is such an interesting sample choice.

Like, obviously, you can take it to mean that I'm wrong about king of my heart being about Joe alwyn but I dont think that's the case here. I think the reason she sampled king of my heart is because she did move on from that hurt, she did learn to cope with the trauma of that relationship and she is so much happier than she ever was in that relationship with Karlie. Not only because of the betrayal but let's not act like Karlie doesn't also have an ED and they weren't feeding into each other's bad habits while they were dating. Taylor was her skinniest in that relationship, for a reason, and that reason being Karlie made her ED worse. For so many reasons, Taylor is reflecting back on that love she thought was going to be the one golden thing in her life as just another burnmark left by a fire red love but ultimately being okay with that, because it led her to the best relationship she's ever had and the most pure one as well.

That's why King of my heart is sampled, because she was able to move on from the devastation that permeates maroon and she WAS able to love again. She knows now, no matter what happens, she is strong enough to lose anyone and anything. She is enough. She doesn't need anyone else to make her whole anymore, Joe never saved her. He just loved her in all the bad lights and good lights of who she is, he saw her as moonstone the first time they met and he's made her feel like that every single day ever since and that's just so fucking beautiful. I'm amazed at her brilliance and her mind. I love that she's made all these different connections that just spell out life lessons for her readers.

I love maroon so much, I love midnights so much.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s8e15 man's best friend with benefits (w. brad buckner, eugenie ross-leming)

i enjoy a good play on words as much as the next person but combining dog and sex for your episode name is an interesting choice

well dang, indoor pool and sauna? i wanna go

DEAN 'Cause you did just gank a Hellhound, which is no slice of pie, and, uh, there is a mine field of who knows what crap ahead. Just want to make sure that you are okay. SAM I'm good. DEAN 'Cause, you know, we could find another devil dog. You could tag out. I could snuff the son of a bitch.

so i viewed this as him just trying to protect sam but now i see

i've never had such shifting opinions on a tv person's hair like i do sam's. at least half the time i actively dislike it. at most 5-10% of the time, i think damn it looks good! this shot in particular was one of the special few. his hair is beautiful, the styling/cut is what lets it down when it does

i sure hope he's not hallucinating again because that'd be a cruel trick. hmm, also in my musings adjacent to fuckup vs righteous man, i've thought about how they show sam's suffering onscreen a lot (mystery spot [lol i won't let it go], hallucifer, whatever the trials shit is gonna be) but dean we get the emotional suffering aftermath. sidenote, logistically made sense for a whole bucket of reasons of course, but (for me, personally) thank goodness dean's hell experience was offscreen almost entirely.

sounds like padalecki is sick

um. a doberman that transformed into a black woman. with the huge sparkly bright pink dog collar still on

and this white dude witch is her master?? wtffff. don't really care what backpedaling they do, that was a shitty choice

DEAN Well, I'm concerned. SAM Concerned about the, uh -- the witch-killing spell... or that I'm gonna mess these trials up? DEAN Look, we get too far down the road with this, we can't go back, and it'll be too late for me to jump in. SAM Who says that you're gonna have to? You know, maybe I'll actually pull this one off. DEAN I'm just saying. SAM I know what you're saying, Dean. You've said it. You know, I've been going over this and over this, asking myself "why doesn't he trust me?" And it occurred to me, finally. It's not that you don't trust me. It's that you can only trust you. DEAN Are you done? SAM Yeah, I'm done if you're done.

ugh 💔 and to be so forthright telling him how he keeps asking himself why dean doesn't trust him. and the super quick "i'm done if you're done" response has such a particular flavor of... well. something i'm very familiar with. the vulnerability of showing that he's hurt over not being trusted, that it isn't just anger, and dean basically ignoring it.. feeling of inside, shut that shit down asap and move on. don't know what he was going for particularly but it struck a chord obviously for me

phillippe LeChat. 🥴

????????

like, we can't have dean or sam fucking anyone at the moment so we're just gonna have these two do it. was there a sex scene quotient that needed to be filled?

episode title way more literal than i expected.

DEAN I got to ask. I-I can't help but wonder -- PORTIA Which came first, dog or girl? DEAN Yeah. Yeah, I mean, I'm just curious as to which one you consider yourself, mostly. PORTIA This have anything to do with what I told you about James and me last night? How you're imagining it? DEAN What? No, that's... yes.

dean said (sentient) dogfucker rights?

SAM Oh, by the way, got to hand it to you. It's been 15 hours since Portia mentioned her night with James, and not one bestiality joke outta ya.

not for us though

wonder how many times i miss that he's messing with the scar on his hand

okay.

geez i shouldn't have mentioned onscreen suffering. and using the clip of dean calling out for sam from hell on the hooks..... extra rude.

DEAN Well, it's possible I was wrong. SAM What, about James? Dude, we were both ready to gank the guy. DEAN No, that's not what I meant. Back there, when Spencer had us. He screwed with my head. I saw mom… When she died… And then some other crap. SAM Yeah. Me, too. DEAN You know, when I look back at what our family's been through, what everybody's been through, seeing all that pain… I realize that the only way we've made it through it all is by hanging together. I trust you, Sammy. With this deal, locking those sons of bitches up in the furnace once and for all, it's too important not to. So if you say you're good... then that's it. I'm with you 100%.

i'm all ♥️♥️♥️ and then immediately sam hides he's coughing up blood. okay.

that's the thing with this show, the bad plot writing whatever episodes will still have some mushy fucking brother conversations i wouldn't want to miss! like the reviled bugs episode, that had some high quality brother content

[greetingsapartment]

my very very very long introduction to the welcome home fandom + set of rules

hello everyone!!!!!!

i got into welcome home a little while ago now, and i have finally gotten enough courage to put my headcanons and writing out into the world! and of course, you can request! (when the askbox is open ^_^ of course!!) i do have a few obvious or not-so-obvious rules though, as per every blog! rules below the cut :) it's long!

you CAN; ✦ ask for '(character) and reader'! it is the only thing i specialize in after all on this particular blog lolol, types of pairings that that i don't do are in my 'cannot' section, and if your idea is not there, dm me and i'll see if i can do it! :o) ✦ if you guys have anything in particular you'd like to share, i would love to hear it! i encourage it!! i like hearing everybody's ideas on things! personal headcanons, ideas or thoughts on a character or two, it's all a-okay with me! you can even ask me what i think on a character @:) ✦ ask for fluff, some light angst, hurt/comfort, go wild with it! headcanons galore!!!!!! ✦ ask more than once!

✦ just send silly stuff into my askbox LOL, try not to blow it up though!! you CANNOT;

✢ ask for NSFW, incest, or anything of the like. the first of which (NSFW), clown themself has prohibited because they're not 100% sure if they're comfortable with it yet, and the rest of it is just a blatant, heavy no. ✢ ask for anything on gore or anything TOO heavy on a dark subject. please DM me if you're curious what goes over the line, it's just that i am a person too! sorry if this disappoints!! :( ✢ ask for anything other than GN reader. sorry :( i just prefer to stick with GN as it applies to everybody who might pass by my post, and if they decide to read it, i want it to apply to them!

✢ ask for oc/character :( again, i'm sorry! there's nothing wrong with that kinda stuff, i've just never been too good at it, as i don't know much about your oc! established characters have always just been easier for me, but i could change this in the future! ✢ ask for character/character yet! it's still undecided for me as i'm not quite sure how everybody feels on some ships, as even when all some ships are completely normal, the shipping discourse is REAL across every fandom.

✢ ask for frank x reader (romantic) or eddie x reader (romantic), sorry to all frank and eddie simps out there💔just not my place! extra info i will have to update my set of rules and the characters i will write for as time goes on, as new information will inevitably come out, and my writing may be TOTALLY out of character as well! but this blog is simply for fun, and as time goes on, things will change :) and i will adapt accordingly! if i get anything wrong about the characters, please do inform me in DMs! i will resolve the issue as quickly as possible, and make an attempt to edit, or delete the posts in the worst case scenario! i do keep myself updated on them to the best of my abilities, but sometimes i will miss things! even if it is something small, do not hesitate to inform me that that character actually HATES that food, or dislikes being around that kind of weather! and please link me to the source of the info you found if possible, or try to direct me better to it! if and when i receive a request for a reader with any disability or condition, i will try to write it the best i can, even if i do not personally have it or have ever experienced anything like it. if there is anything i can do to improve on my writing with certain subjects, DM me! i will take whatever you give and do my best to include it :) please do not criticize me too heavily for my writing skills. i am still improving on it as we go along, so try to hold back on anything like that! i am not the fastest at getting requests done, but i will definitely try, and i am hoping life doesn't get too busy! if the askbox is closed, do note that it is probably because i have at least 5 or more requests in it, and i need to sort through them, and take my time! or i may just want to write for myself atm! i hope that is reasonable :) i am a HUGE julie fan, if you request for her i am more likely to leave a huge chunk bitten out of my monitor and have eaten all the key caps to my keyboard with only the letters "J U L I" and "E" left. i love writing for julie LOL 😭😭😭 that is it, from what i know! do what you will with all of this, and enjoy yourself, neighbor!!!!!

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

'M here to listen to you, sweet pea. How 'bout we go grab a cup of coffee and sit down on the front porch? Today's my day off, so we have all the time we need. But it's also okay if ya just wanna sit together in silence. Or ya need a big hug. 'M not goin' anywhere. Just know that I'm proud of you, kid. And so is the boy. And if ya ever need some help with your hair, just say the word. 'M used to help Eddie with some real bad knots, never needed a scissors. These old hands may shake, but I know damn well how ta make some braids. Please be gentle with yourself, sweetheart. I'll keep an eye on ya.

- W. Munson

Uncle Wayne 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Grabbing a coffee with you (please make mine strong like acid) and sitting out on the front porch sounds perfect; I have so many things I have on my chest and I feel like I can't breathe. Will our beloved Eddie be joining us too? I need a biiiiiiig big hug and some real life advice and a whole lotta comfort and I'm sure you'd fix me.

You... You're proud of me?? You're making me cry😭AND EDDIE TOO????

I'm leaning on you and Eddie to get me through. I don't know what to do, Uncle Wayne, and I don't know how much more of this I can take or how much worse it's gonna get. I need you to help me and give me a cuddle. But not just any cuddle, a "I know we're both adults but climb onto my lap, Eri" cuddle🥹🙏

Don't tell me you're willing to help with my hair or I'll always be asking you. You know me; one small tangle and I'm in TEARS. A knot though, a proper knot??? Sobbing on the bathroom floor. Ask Eddie, he's scooped me up enough times🥺you're not old, Uncle Wayne, and neither are your hands. Having you help me with my hair would mean everything to me, I trust you to stand behind me with scissors and I might wince a little but ultimately I'd know my baby is safe with you.

I can't be gentle on me, Uncle Wayne, I can't. There's no time for me. Not until the end of May. I'm not sure there's gonna be any Eri left by then, I'm already at my wit's end. I need you so badly to help me.😩

I miss you and Eddie a great deal.💔

(NONNIE OMF THIS IS SOOOO SO SWEET OF YOU I'M LITERAL CRYING HHHH UNCLE WAYNEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔)

[toxickehlani]

𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗔𝗻𝗻𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗮𝗿𝘆

║ ꜰᴏʀᴍᴀᴛ･* – 𝖲𝖾𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌

║ ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ･* – 𝖶𝗁𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝗏𝗂𝗌𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗉𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗌, 𝖪𝖺𝗋𝖾𝖾𝗆 𝗆𝖾𝖾𝗍𝗌 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝖿𝖺𝗆𝗂𝗅𝗂𝖺𝗋 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗀𝖺𝗌 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇.

║ ᴡᴏʀᴅ ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛ･* – 𝟤,𝟧𝟢𝟫

║ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ･* – 𝖺𝖽𝗎𝗅𝗍 𝗅𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗎𝖺𝗀𝖾, 𝖽𝖾𝗉𝗂𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀.

║ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛ���ʀ/ᴘᴀʀᴛ･* – 𝖢𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖷𝖷𝖵💔: 𝖭𝖾𝗐 𝖥𝗂𝗌𝗁

ᴘʀᴇᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ .༺ ♥︎ ༻ ࣭ ɴᴇxᴛ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ

ꜱᴇʀɪᴇꜱ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ

Kareem's POV

𝗖𝗟𝗢𝗦𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗙𝗥𝗢𝗡𝗧 door behind me, I unlocked my car, got inside, and fastened my seatbelt before pulling out of the driveway. Today I have a few errands to run around the city. First, I had to go to the skatepark, fill out paperwork, wash my car, and visit my parents.

I walked inside, parked my car in front of the skatepark, and greeted my employees.

"How are you doing today, Kareem?" One of my female employees, Serena, smiled at me. She's worked here for about two months and is good with the kids, although the teens hit on her.

"Good afternoon, Serena." I greeted her before walking to my office.

"How's your day so far?" She asked, standing in the doorway of my office.

"I'm doing good. How about yourself?" I asked, sitting in the chair.

"I'm good. I feel refreshed now that I'm out of that relationship." She shrugged.

"That's good. Now get to work." I smiled friendly at her.

"Jeez, I'm just trying to make conversation." Serena rolled her eyes and left back to the front.

Chuckling to myself, I logged onto my computer and typed up financial reports.

• 3:00 PM •

Unlocking my car, I got in and fastened my seatbelt. I started my car and drove to my parent's house. As soon as I arrived, I parked next to my dad's truck and got out, then went to the door and rang the bell. The door opens, revealing my dad.

"To what do I owe this visit?" My father asked, crossing his arms.

"I wanted to come and see how you and mom are doing," I replied and shrugged as I walked inside the house.

"We're good now that our son comes to see us." My father said, closing the door behind him.

"I'm your only son." I chuckled, nodding my head.

"Yeah, well, it's nice of you to visit." He smiled, patting me on the shoulder. "How's Destini?"

"Destini's good. She's at her mom's house today." I lied through my teeth. The truth was I didn't know where Destini was.

She was already gone when I left this morning—not leaving a note or a text. She's probably fucking her baby daddy, for all I know.

"You should've brought her. Your mother wants to see her again." My father said as I followed him to the living room.

"I'll see when she's available," I replied, nodding my head, although I wasn't going to ask her.

  The thought of Destini and her baby daddy together made me sick. His hands touching her body, his mouth kissing her sweet lips, and the image of them fucking in bed made my blood boil to an ultimate high. Although Destini and I aren't together, I will get her back if it's the last thing I do. And if they think they saw the last of me, they're sadly mistaken. I was speaking the truth when I spoke to Destini about what I saw in my future with her, and I'm determined to make that come true.

   Call me jealous or obsessive, but when I met Destini, I knew she was a real one I had to keep. She was the sunshine of my life. The reason I wake up every morning. Destini's why I wanted to become a family man, and I still do. I indeed saw myself with no one but Destini, and if I couldn't have her, I would do my damn best to make sure that no one, not even bitch ass Marcos, could have her.

   Pulling out my phone, I went to my Instagram app, found Destini's profile, and scrolled through her photos. It wasn't until I came across a recent post-Destini uploaded that I scrolled through the comments. I found it funny that none of her friends commented under the pictures of Destini and me, but they'd post under hers and Marcos's. It was okay, though, because I didn't fucking like them anyway. Locking my phone, I sighed, stood up, and walked to the kitchen to grab a beer from the fridge.

"I'll see you guys later. I have to stop by work." I announced, catching my father's attention.

"Okay, call your mother, please." My dad called out from his spot in the living room.

"Will do!" I shouted, closing the front door.

   Entering my car, I fastened my seatbelt, started the engine, and drove to the gas station closest to my parent's house. As I leaned against the vehicle, waiting for the tank to fill up, I saw a brown-haired woman walking out of the store. She went to her parked automobile and opened the driver's door before noticing me staring.

"You're staring pretty hard." The girl teased, laughing at my facial expression.

"O-Oh, I'm sorry." I apologized, looking away from her.

"It's cool." She replied, walking around the gas pump and sticking her hand out. "I'm Nazanin, but you can call me Naz."

"Nice to meet you in Kareem." I introduced myself, shaking the girl's hand.

"You want to hang out sometime? I don't know, maybe hit a bar or something?" Nazanin asked, smiling at me.

"Sure," I answered, pulling out my phone and handing it to her.

   After Nazanin put her number in my phone, she returned it to me, put the gas pump away, got in her car, and drove away. Once I filled my tank, I put the gadget away, got in my car, and went to work.

Marcos's POV

I sat in the backyard with my dad, talking with him as he threw King's ball, allowing his dog to chase it.

"So, how's your relationship since we last talked?" My father asked as King brought the ball to him.

"Honestly, I don't know," I answered, shrugging my shoulders.

"What's going on?" He questioned, looking at me curiously.

"My girlfriend is jealous of my relationship with Destini," I explained, stunning my hand over my face.

"What happened?" My dad inquired, arching an eyebrow.

"Well, she threatened to put me back in jail," I confessed, shaking my head.

"You're kidding me, right?" He asked, staring at me in shock.

"Nope. We were arguing about Naz calling Alayah a brat." I explained, answering his question. "That's why Destini fought her the day of your birthday party. All she wanted was an apology."

"Man, that's low." He sighed, throwing King's ball again.

"Yeah, and after that day, I've been distancing myself because I feel like she's going to use that against me." I expressed, nibbling my bottom lip.

"I don't blame you." My dad replied, nodding in approval. "Let me ask you this. Do you still have feelings for Destini?"

"Of course I always have. I never stopped loving Destini." I responded, playing with my chain.

"Why not get back with her?" My Dad asked, puzzled, crossing his arms and staring at me.

"We're both in relationships with other people." I pointed out, shrugging my shoulders.

"It's obvious you don't feel for Naz and Destini with Kareem, so why not get back together?" He wondered, eyeing me curiously.

"I don't know. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore, I guess." I truthfully spoke, rubbing the growing hair on my face.

"That's understandable, but if you're unhappy, why put yourself through the pain?" My father sincerely asked, staring at me.

"I guess I didn't want to be alone after what happened with my parents," I commented, reminiscing about that day.

"You're not alone, Marcos." My father replied, shaking his head.

"I know, but at the time, I felt alone." I nodded, rubbing my sweaty hands on my thighs.

"Well, at least you learned from your mistake." He sighed, drinking his glass of strawberry lemonade my mother made.

"I know I did," I responded, pulling out my phone.

"All that matters is that you get with Destini again if your feelings for her are still there." My Dad teased, glancing at me from the corner of his eye.

"Yes, the feelings are still there, but we're in relationships with different people, but even if we weren't, she wouldn't take me back," I explained, shaking my head.

"How do you know that?" He asked, arching an eyebrow at me.

"I've talked to her before about getting back together if we were single," I answered, pulling out my phone as I received a text from Nazanin.

Nazanin😌💖🎈 - How long are you going to be out?

I'll be on my way in 20.

Nazanin😌💖🎈 - Ok, see you soon, papi.

"Girlfriend texting you already?" My father questioned, grinning at me amusingly.

"Yep." I nodded, leaning back in the chair.

"What time does she want you to be home?" He asked, making me laugh.

"Naz was asking how long I was going to be out," I claimed, shrugging my shoulders.

"Mhmm." My dad sarcastically mumbled, rolling his eyes.

The expression on his face made me laugh. My dad could always tell if I was lying and saw straight through me. I cherished the moments when I could sit and laugh with him. It made me almost wish my biological parents were there for me.

"So I've been meeting with this trainer named Dominic," I announced, crossing my arms. "It's been going good so far."

"You mean the nephew of the therapist you went to see?" He questioned, arching an eyebrow at me.

"Yeah." I nodded, chewing the inside of my cheek.

"How's that going?" My father asked, looking at me.

"It's great. Dominic's helping me release all the pent-up anger that I have." I answered, shrugging my shoulders.

"That's great." My Dad praised, nodding in approval.

"It's relieving." I sighed, shrugging my shoulders. I glanced at him and saw him staring at me.

"At least you're getting the help you need." He responded, smiling at me.

I nodded, taking in his words and processing them. Maybe getting help from a therapist was the best thing for me and my family.

Destini's POV

Stepping out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around myself before walking to my bedroom. I dried off, moisturized my skin, and dressed in an orange textured jersey drape front mini skirt, an oatmeal soft rib roll neck curved hem crop top, and orange heels. I stood before my mirror, styled my hair, and did my makeup.

   Earlier, Erika invited me to meet her, Za'Niyah, Sapphire, India, and one of her friends at a fancy Italian restaurant for lunch. After checking myself in my full-length mirror, I grabbed my phone and texted Marcos.

Are you busy?

Marcos❌😒 - Nah, I'm talking with your dad right now. Why?

Erika invited me out, and I wanted to drop Alayah off.

Marcos❌😒 - Okay, I'm at my parent's house.

I'm on my way.

Smiling, I grabbed my bag and left my room for Alayah's. She sat on the floor, playing with her Barbie dolls. When Alayah looked up and saw me, she gasped.

"Wow, you look so pretty, mommy." Alayah complimented me, making me smile.

"Thank you, baby. Are you ready?" I questioned, placing my hands on my hips.

"Yes." She nodded cheerfully, standing up to grab her backpack off the bed.

We walked downstairs, out of the house, to my car. I buckled my daughter in the seat and fastened my seatbelt. Arriving at my parent's house, I parked, stepped out of the car, and opened the back door for Alayah. I used my key, unlocked their front door, and heard the sound of the TV playing from the living room. My heels clicking on the hardwood caught my father and Marcos's attention, making them look up at me.

"Where are you off to?" My father asked as Marcos stared at me in shock.

"I'm going to lunch with Erika and some friends," I answered, avoiding my ex-boyfriend's gaze.

"Dressed like that?" He questioned, eyeing my outfit.

"How am I dressed, Dad?" I inquired, placing my hands on my hip and sticking it to the side.

"Like you're going to a nightclub." He replied, shrugging his shoulders.

"Well, I'm not going to a nightclub," I replied, shaking my head. Leaning down, I kissed Alayah on her forehead. "I'll see you later and be good for your daddy, okay."

"Bye, Mommy." My daughter waved at me as I left my parent's house.

Unlocking my vehicle, I climbed inside, fastened my seatbelt, and drove to the destination where I was meeting with Erika.

Enrique's POV

I closed the front door behind me as I checked the envelopes from the mail. My American Bully Loki, who I named after my favorite Marvel character, trotted to me barking. As he sniffed my leg, he calmed down and ran away. One after the other, I looked through the mail and came across a letter from an all too familiar address.

Enrique Navarra

3918 South Sycamore Avenue

Los Angeles, CA 90008

Lola Bescós, #626384

Iron Valley Women's Correctional Facility

2698 Sweetwood Drive

Denver, CO 80202

It was a letter from my ex-wife—one of the many messages she sends me weekly. I stared at the node as I walked into the kitchen. Flipping open the trash can, I hesitated before tossing the envelope inside. As I turned to step out of the kitchen, my wife, Aurora, stood behind me.

"Is that all the mail?" She asked, eyeing the papers in my hand.

"Yeah, that's all that was inside the mailbox." I nodded, handing them to her. "It's nothing but bills and letters."

"When is it not?" Aurora laughed, shaking her head. I leaned down and kissed her cheek as I made my exit.

Entering my study, I went to my mini-bar and poured myself a glass of Glenmorangie Scotch. I'm not going to lie when I say I did feel a pang of guilt because I did when I threw that letter in the trash. I could've grown a pair and read the note, but I didn't. I couldn't do it.

Kareem's POV

It's been a few hours since I've been at home, and I was curious to see what Destini was up to, so as I drove to the house, I called her.

Sunshine🫶🌻 - Wassup b-bae!

Destini, are you drunk?

Sunshine🫶🌻 - D-Drunk? No.

You sound drunk.

Sunshine🫶🌻 - I'm not drunk. A little tipsy? Yes.

Where are you?

Sunshine🫶🌻 - I'm at home.

How did you drive home?

Sunshine🫶🌻 - Erika's fiancé drove me home.

Okay, I'm on my way there.

Sunshine🫶🌻 - Love you.

Love you too.

Arriving at the house, I parked behind Destini's car and used my keys to unlock the front door. Walking through the home, I noticed it was quiet, so I wandered upstairs. I opened the bedroom and saw Destini knocked out in bed. Her heels were on the floor along with her clothes as she slept in nothing but her panties. How her body looked tempted me to rip them off and take her to pound town, but I knew she was drunk/tipsy.

Sighing, I rolled her slumped body over and pulled the comforter over her naked form.

[lovlorne]

the next attack comes in the form of an envelope slid under her bedroom door.

not the front door. the bedroom door. must've been left there while she slept.

the address on the front reads 我叫陈秀英 in a simple hand.

inside is a photograph. the way the letter is opened the back is facing her. someone wrote on it. it's her handwriting. 'they don't know you.' at the bottom is an arrow pointing to the other side of the photo.

the other side is an empty stage with a pole in the middle. to most people it would just be a strange thing to take a picture of, but the familiarity should hit home shortly when the little details are recognized.

in the bottom margin of the photo it simply reads 'wrong.'

———— 💔┊      IT'S A PIECE OF PAPER.     that's all it is. text. photography. one tear could end it all, yet her fingers tremble, her grip far too shoddy to even manage. funny, she can't see it, either, reality drowned in bubbling tears.

heaving chest ebbs and flows as nervous eyes scan the surroundings. beneath the bed. in the walk-in closet. in the treasure chest. hell, in the bookcase, even under it, as well as under her dresser, which dons a mirror she hobbles to, only to find that her face has been set alight.

her one tell: the constellations that pepper her body. they flicker, they flare, lines connecting them as a chill tickles her tendrils. like cracks on porcelain, they tear into her face, bright baby pink stars ripping through a dreary dark night. though the mirror is mere seconds away from the same fate, she shatters first.

try as she might, she cannot steady her rhythm, her breathing short and rapid. those eyes scan around, as if someone would manifest behind her   ( her agent? lono? jordan? an enemy...? a friend? )   before accepting that there were simply far too many possibilities, and not all of them were foolish enough to accept her disguise, nor her newfound freedom in becoming the queen.

like her skin, iridescent black tentacles nigh crack and shrivel, allowing a peek of their true pale pink. though she cannot see through the sea salting her cheeks, she knows she has been found. she could deflect, she could choose violence, but in the end, they still won. be that as it may, this is not the war. it is one fight.

she intends to win. if not for herself, then for the girls she left behind.

———— ❤️‍🩹┊      AS CLOCK TICKS,     her breathing steadies, head dipped and eyes closed while fingers furl along the rosewood dresser. only when the rhythm returns does she glare into the mirror, and see herself. no black tendrils. no eyeshadow   ( had she wiped it off amidst cleaning her tears? )   just a little princess trying to be something new. she'd not yet even painted her burst - bombs to keep up the guise, after all, she'd only recently woken up, but the desire to hurl them out her window sure grew.

within enclosed palm are fake nails that threaten to pierce sensitive skin, but she feels naught a lick of it. how can she vent rage to someone she cannot see? well. they clearly see her…

    ❝ you owe me money, ❞  

she mutters amidst the clatter and shatter of her perfume bottles hitting the floor.

    ❝ you lived in my head rent free,        you actin' scummy,       so i'll add it to your BITCH fee. ❞  

objects become part of a hurricane, the eye of the storm being the beast spiraling within. wiping streaks of tears across her face, painting streaks of ink along the way from glass - cut knuckles, queen stands amidst the wreckage.

    ❝ don't be shy, put some more,        you've proved you're rotten to the core.        i'm the bitch you can't ignore,        you bark, i bite, you keepin' score? ❞  

queen has the senses to store the note in her treasure chest after the destructive wreckage. under lock and key, she will come back to it another time. until then, she must question: what is worse? self - destruction? or allowing some vermin to destroy her?

no. she'd sooner fall on the sword herself. peace resides in her empty, glazed gaze.

    ❝ you listening? don't answer, i know you are. i was a damn good dancer. it put me in this position i'm in now. if i wanted to, i could go right the fuck back to it. an' i know i'd still be successful. 'cause my skill's all that matters in the end. hell, gimme the address, i'll put my ass on that pole for you. ❞  

[1d1195]

Okay so this part was SOOO GOOD! I'm literally BUZZING with their reunion! I think it’s just so cute that she has kept so many notebooks about her and Harry even after all this time😭This speaks to the journal obsessed part of me lol and the fact that she thinks he’s moved on is CRAZY but im not surprised since she did get insecure about their relationship(fuck Lauren lol) so I ger her! The detail of the pic on the figure was just so 💔 bc MY MAN WOULD HAVE AND WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF HER😭 oh and that little part about how ‘hope” feels, bestie that was such a beautiful way to explain it! 

also the image of Harry in a fireman uniform… yeah I just know he’s so😵‍💫 is it kind of creepy he knew where she would be? Yeah but like idgaf THEY ARE SOULMATES so I'm choosing to believe that their bond was calling him to go there lol the KITTEN NAME DROP AFTER SO MANY YEARS MY HEART😭 but ugh god the mention of Lauren still being somewhat close to her MAKES ME WANT  TO SCREAM!!!(trust me I love it for the plot) Now I loved their balcony moment and it was nice to see how his instinct was just to take care of her! Oh tell me why I was giggling so hard about everyone’s reaction to Harry sending that text! And you know I love a good jealousrry moment even if it’s small! Though I did love the mention of how each of them mourns the loss of their friendship with her differently and going through a friendship breakup is just as painful! Was so sad for Louis :( BUT OVERALL I LIVED FOR THIS SAM!! So well written and I'm so excited where this story is going to go! Very excited!!! Loved it so much!

Hope you have a lovely and relaxing weekend! Wishing you the best! LOVE YOU!!-💜

I realized I was writing almost entirely from Harry's POV. I try REALLY hard to split the POVs from Harry and my MC. This part was completely uneven even after I added her part, but it just was SO much better from his perspective lol. But I did end up really loving the part I wrote from her POV. I thought the notebooks were a cute touch and I actually am really proud of the candle/hope analogy 😭🙈 sometimes I get an idea in my head and I'm like "It would be so cool if I could come up with something profound right now. Like John Green saying 'slowly, then all at once'." I'm not sure I'll ever get that, but I'll keep trying. But humbly, I do surprise myself with what I come up with solely because I have this moment of clarity where I'm like "Okay, I'm writing Harry Styles fanfic do I need to inform the masses about how I think roses are prickly and wildflowers are strong?" probs not. But it happens I suppose.

Spoiler/not spoiler I'm really looking forward to writing about her finding out that Harry hasn't moved on even a little 🤭 I'm glad you liked the journaling part! Our little writer girly wouldn't do anything less I don't think. I don't know if I knew you were a journal-er! I need to start keeping notes of you on my computer to consult after a year 😭 It would look like this:

has 4 dogs that don't like fireworks

studies psych (and takes way too many classes)

enjoys drag brunches and record stores

Paramore [Wikipedia page biographer?]

journals

enjoys thrifting (and can alter her finds!?)

Anti-Victoria's Secret

has a competent MALE therapist

But anyway 😭 I know you're more than this and I would so add more but it's a good starting point to keep track of things 💕

I probably glossed over the explanation of him just knowing where she was so YES we should assume it's just that soulmate connection that brought him to her. I SWEAR I saw an AI photo of him in a firefighting uniform. I'm also DESPERATELY trying to get on fireman TikTok for inspo and for my own personal gain 👀👀

I know we hate Lauren lol it's so funny what you guys pick up on because I don't even THINK about her at all when I think of this series 😭

I believe so fully that Harry would be the kind of guy that lays his jacket down on a puddle for her to walk across (probs shouldn't have said that, now I gotta come up with another analogy to write 🤣) so I wanted him to just fall right back into being so infatuated with her and taking care of her immediately. I figured I needed a mood lightener and them all worried about Harry was the best I could do on short notice 😅 I like to keep the friends in my stories as mostly minor characters (except for Traditional) mainly because I struggle to sustain prolonged interactions with others (I just want all my couples to live in their own little love bubbles). UGH I wanted to make him more jealous! But I think rationally, he wouldn't be jealous of his friends. Maybe I'll do it for the next part hehehehehe As it is not in my notes above, I believe I recall that you weren't TOTALLY into 1D but Louis was always denoted as the goofball and I think that was a gross underestimation of his emotions (see also the times I've said his lyrics are 👌) ANYWAY

Thank you for attending this week's book club 💕

FINALLY A QUIET WEEKEND 🎉 Hope yours is good too! 💕

xoxo

P.S. In true-Sam fashion, my lack of feedback on this part is making me so sad and feeling like it's an absolute flop. I wish I didn't write so much sometimes because my series tend to start off SO good but fizzle by the end. My one-shots do SO much better. But I want MORE to happen. Maybe I'm just bad at having stories progress? I know, I know, notes aren't everything and summer is a weird time for people and I know with Harry being MIA in real life people are missing him and not writing as much and also not reading as much. But yeah, it's part of why my updates are far between :/