#october 2019 cpale

[studykaisoo]

I didn't pass the October 2019 CPA Licensure Exam

I just feel like I have an accountability to tell this (if anyone's concerned about it)

I am part of the 85.68% of examinees who did not become Certified Public Accountant this October 2019. It took me so long to be here and still not becoming a part of those 14.32% who passed.

There may be a lot of factors but I don't want to point fingers to anyone, not even myself. It's the worst I could do if I would bring myself to the lowest despite everything.

We don't know what's wrong but if there are around 2000+ people who passed out of almost 14500 then it must have been something achievable.

Regardless, I am still waiting for the verification of ratings and hoping at least to be have a conditional status.

Never I have been so firm in my decision in life. I have decided to apply for a job ASAP (regardless whether condi or failed). If condi, I will pursue this May 2020 and if not I'll be taking a rest until I feel okay.

Please do not worry about me and I know God has a better plan for me. I am not quitting the CPA dream but for now I'll be taking a rest.

[cutenapatatas]

To all October 2019 CPALE examinees:

Halos anim na linggo nalang ay lalaban na kayo sa giyera.

Lagi nyong tatandaan, wala kayong ibang kalaban dito kung hindi ang sarili ninyo. Kung papaano nyo maoovercome yung pressure na nararamdaman nyo ngayun. Lahat kayo halos pagdudahan nyo na ang sarili ninyo at sabay sabi: "Nakuuu, malapit na.... Ang DAMI ko pang dapat aralin! 😔" "Bakit parang kakaunti palang ang nalalalaman ko" "Kakayanin ko pa kaya?" Bago mo isipin yan, isipin mo muna kung papaano mo nasurvive yung undergrad mo at nakapaggraduate ka noon sa kabila ng hirap at sakripisyong pinagdaanan mo. Pagkatapos, ngayong malapit na ngayun ka pa ba mapanghihinaan ng loob? Ang dami mo ng nagawa. Kaya pakiusap, lakasan mo ang loob mo lalo!

May mga bagay na wag mo na dapat problemahin, anu ngayon kung marami ang umaasa na papasa ka? Isipin mo, anu man ang maging resulta ay buong puso ka paring mahal ng mga taong sumusuporta sayo tulad ng pamilya at mga kaibigan mo. Susubukan mo lahat hindi dahil sa natatakot kang bumagsak at may masabi ang iba, kung hindi dahil sa ito ang PANGARAP mo!

Natural lang sa ngayon na maramdaman nyo ang kaba habang lumilipas ang mga oras. Hindi ka normal kung hindi ka nakakaram ng pagdududa at takot. Manatili ka lamang na matatag!

Wag mong isipin mga kasama mong nagrereview, "Ay buti pa si ganito, marami ng alam" nakuu! Pareho lang kayo ng iniisip sa bawat isa. Wag mong pakealaman ang ibang kasama mong nagrereview, kanya kanya kayo ng diskarte at timetable! Wala yan sa dami ng handouts o libro na nabasa at nasagutan. Nasa tamang pagiintindi lang. Madalas kasing mangyari ang, "Sa sobrang dami ng inaral, nakalimutan" Ito ang numero unong problema ng mga hindi pinapalad sa CPALE. Marahil ay masyadong nakatutok ang iba sa paramihan ng materials na masagutan at umaabot na sa puntong minememorize nalang at hindi na naiintindihan. Pakiusap, wag na wag nyong gagawin yan! Di bale ng wala kang nasagutan basta ang importante matibay ang pagintindi mo sa konsepto ng accounting standards at laws. Natural lang rin na may mga topics na hindi mo tlga magugustuhan o mahihirapan ka tlga mula umpisa, ngunit ang importante ay kaylangan mong mahalin ang iyong kahinaan at araw araw mo itong labanan. Lagi mong isipin na madali lang, hanggang sa kusa na itong tatatak sa iyong kaisipan at hindi ka na mahihirapan. Tanungin mo ang iyong sarili kung ano na ang iyong progreso sa oras na ito, at planuhin kung papaano mo maikakasya ang natitirang oras.

May magagawa ka pa! Nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa iyo ang gawa! Power!

© Wency Giron

[mydandelionsoul]

AMACPA: MY CPA STORY

Back in 2010, I enrolled in UE with the hopes of achieving my CPA dream. I have no idea of what I was signing for but I was confident that I could make it. That dream however, was cut short, when I didn't reach the required grade for a particular subject. That was a critical point during my BSA journey. I was compelled to shift to Accounting Technology, a degree almost similar to Accountancy in most aspects, but without the capacity to take the board exam.

After graduating BSAcT in 2014, I immediately worked so I can help with our finances. I always knew I wanted that BSA diploma. And so after working for over 2 years, I decided to continue what I have started. I went back to UE to process my papers. During that time, the bridging program for BSAcT graduates has just been implemented. I was torn between transferring to another school and staying in UE. But my heart has always been with Lualhati, so I decided to stay despite the fear of taking the accounting integrated subjects.

Taking the integ was a dark moment for me. I failed 3 integ subjects. Yes, that was 3 singkos in my transcript. I was never ashamed of it though, for it was a big part of my success story. Eventually, in December of 2018, I graduated with the Accountancy degree. A dream that was delayed for a while has now been realized.

I enrolled in CPAR in preparation for the May 2019 CPALE. I was part of the top 100 for both the first and final preboards. This gave me the confidence I need to take the board exam. However, my CPA dream was once again shattered when I did not see my name on the list of passers. I was sad and hopeless because I knew I gave everything I could for this title. I sacrificed a lot for this to happen. I prayed hard for this. The fact that I just missed 3pts to pass was unbearable. I thought this will be my post birthday present from God. But it wasn't. God said, "NOT YET, MY CHILD."

Good thing, I had a strong support system who comforted me when I was at my lowest. They did not just cheer me up when I failed the May 2019 board exam, but also encouraged me to stand up and fight again for the title.

A day after I saw my grades, I enrolled again in CPAR and prepared for the battle once more. I had to endure another cycle of morning 'til dawn study sessions to understand and retain every concept. I had to sacrifice again for this dream. I told myself, "For the October exams, I am not just equipped with faith and concepts. This time, I have my experience with me."

The October 2019 CPALE was tough. The 14.32% national passing rate was the proof. I salute everyone who had the courage and took the exam. To my friends who didn't make it YET, cliché as it may sound, but please never give up on your dreams. Please look back on all the challenges you had to go through to get where you are now. We are all meant for this title. Aleays remember that I will be praying for all of you. ❤

It took me about a decade to earn my CPA title. The quest for this dream has a lot of detours, adventures and misadventures; but I still ended up where I am supposed to be. We just have to trust God on what He has planned for us. Because His plans are always perfect. They will never go wrong. ✨💖

ANGELICA MAE D. AGUSTIN, CPA

UE BS Accountancy, 2018

UE BS Accounting Technology, 2014

[tumblraccountants]

Second day na pala ng CPALE for October 2019. Nung time ko, maraming typo error sa question so technically maraming nanghula. Pero may mga lumalabas naman na sagot kung dadagdagan mo o babawasan mo ng zero o kung ano mang mali doon sa question. Mas matatagalan ka nga lang kasi kakailanganin mong itry lahat ng possible scenarios. ‘Wag ka rin aasa sa sinasabi nilang pag may mali sa question o sa choices pero nandoom pa rin ‘yung sagot, ibobonus nila. Hindi palaging totoo ‘yon, nakadepende pa rin sa mood ng BOA kung mag-aadjust ba sila sa lahat ng examinees o hindi. Pwedeng lahat ng naka-60 pataas sa certain subj na maraming bonus, hanggang doon lang ang iaadjust nila para umabot sa 75. Basta palagi nilang binibigyan ng quota per subject. So ang gawin mo, sagutan mo pa rin lahat ng alam mong tatama ka, mahirap magconclude na may ibobonus naman sila so may sure points ka na. Again, depende sa topak ng BOA ‘yon kaya give your best and ‘wag aasa. Laban lang!! ‘Wag ka rin makinig sa discussion ng sagot after ng exam, hindi naman nila hawak ang answer key, kakabahan ka lang lalo. And pray hanggang lumabas ‘yung result and kahit lumabas na. Good luck, future CPAs! 4 subjects to go!!!

[an-excerpt]

12/31/19

Looking back to 2019

January & February

It is filled with adventure and thrill because I explored different places without asking my parents' consent tho. I went to ek and moa with my college friends.

March

I also explored some parts of manila and also enrolled to my review classes for boards.

April - September

I still have classes that time. May was our retreat and it was held in baguio but we didn't have enough free time to explore the city during our last day. Also in this phase, so many what ifs are disturbing my inner peace. Those nights wherein I cried my heart out thinking that what if I will not graduate from 5th year and after that I don't know what my next step will be. Those nights full of regrets that I should have given all my best in studying so that I have not failed my accrev. It also made me think if I really wanted to continue this journey, to become a cpa. I was also exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally that I just gone with the flow. I felt like I lost the fire inside me to continue. After some time, I regained the fire, I was motivated and inspired to fight again. I studied my heart out to pass the exam given as our "second chance".

I was feeling positive to study for the review season which also started this May. Tbh the first part of my review season, I was a lil bit excited because I can feel how to be independent because I was all alone in my dorm, my dorm mates were going home every weekends. I felt like I was in a kdrama and it was fun because I don't have to deal with other people but as weeks passed by, I felt so lonely. I felt the exhaustion of travelling back and forth to the province and such. I felt tired and lazy to study. Tbh I was demotivated to study, I lacked the work and just depended on prayer alone. At first, my thinking was that, I'll pass the boards no matter what, but as the day of the cpale went closer, the doubt was slowly getting bigger.

I also happened to attend my first fangirling event for this year which is Dylan Wang's fm brought by Bench. It was really so fun and I felt that I am alive! I think I was born to be a fangirl lol.

Dorm moments and bonding with dorm mates, those things made our bonds stronger with some of my college friends. Being with them to that phase in my life, really is a big part. Those adulting chika, walwal and foodtrip -- simple things that I really cherish.

October

CPALE season, that 2 weeks was like a torture, including the waiting for the results. I kept thinking positive and claiming that I'll passed but every end of the day, I saw myself going to St. Jude and crying. My heart was so heavy. I kept praying and surrending everything to Him. Crying out to Him, I felt like the heavy burden in my heart was lifted. While waiting for the results, I claimed and at the same time thought that I did not passed but the thinking that I failed weighing the most. Those relatives asking me about the results made me teary eyes every time.

Results day, if I remembered it right I was anxious all day. The results were out at night, every notifications I got from PRC in twitter made my heart skipped a beat. When the time had come I was really nervous, i searched first for all my friend's name but only some of them made it. Then I searched for my name and found none. I didn't cry maybe because I cried everything whenever I went to St. Jude every after the exam day. I felt bad but seeing that almost of my college friends were in the same boat as mine, I felt comforted. Sorry, I know I'm mean. I also told my parents about it that night because I don't want to prolonged the disappointment the next day. Thinking that tomorrow will be another day; new hope for things to be better. Some of my friends were sending comforting messages and that made me teary eyes for a bit but after that I felt numb. I don't know what to do with my life. I felt lost. I felt empty. I think I also got to "tampo" with Daddy G because I knew I never failed to pray to Him every day, it was only later that I finally accepted that maybe it was really my fault. I was so lazy and demotivated. I only relied to prayers and not doing my part. I'm so sorry Daddy G 😭.

End part of October, I felt alive. I attended a fan meet. I happened to see Cha Eun Woo and became an Aroha. I think being a fangirl is really my calling lol.

November & December

November 1st and it is our fam's tradition to go to cemetery to visit our deceased loved ones. I didn't go there because my relatives from Manila were there and I thought I was not ready to face them.

I attended IU's con named Love, Poem. Hearing IU's singing live is just my goal but when I left the premises of Araneta, I became a certified Ma-aena. That 4 hours concert is really a daebak! ✨

I went to Elyu this December and I think it made me breathe for some time. I was a bit exhausted. I felt like I was being left behind because wearing bikini is not my cup of tea. I lacked confidence of my body.

These two months is filled disappointments, pressure, self pity, self doubts and so much more. I felt like I was a total failure. I envied those batchmates who are already hired and working as a corporate slave. I attended some interviews but unfortunately I was not hired. I was also judged by some of my relatives saying that maybe I was too picky for my first job. Yes, I declined a job offer because the salary is below the minimum and it does not offer to help me grow as a professional. I do believe that I can have more and I can do more that's why. It also made me think those what if I didn't pursue this course instead I took engineering, which I really wanted; maybe I am now an engineer. I felt lost after that boards season.

2019 is really a year of lessons, experiences and survival. It is just a 365 days but it gave plot twists which gave a mark in my being. It reminded me that I am living and living doesn't only mean that you are always at a top; living also means that you can be at the bottom. I am grateful for all the people who never left my side, who gave their never-ending support and love, who believes in me and who keeps me sane. Surviving this 2019 through He's help is already a gift.

Thank you Daddy G for guiding me throughout this year's journey despite those times that I almost turned my back to You. I'm deeply sorry if it took some time for me to realize that You just answered my prayers with "not yet" and not a stern "no". I am now trusting Your own timing. 💙

[awonderfulfailure]

TWO-TIMES A FAILURE

OCTOBER 22, 2019. 1:50 am. I cannot sleep. A throbbing pain has taken over my head, seems like an explosion is about to happen in no time. My heart is aching. I am in pain, both physically and emotionally.

I did not make it, again. I failed the CPALE, again. What could be more hurtful than not seeing your name on the roster of passers... TWICE. I first took the board exam last May of this year, and unfortunately, I was one of the 8,285 takers who did not make it into the cut. Last May's passing rate of 16.46% was the lowest since 1993's 17%. That is until the release of the new set of passers just a few hours ago. May's lowest record was just short-lived, it was beaten by this year's October passing rate of a horrendous 14.32%. Wow, two consecutive lowest passing rates. What a year for many of us!

When I first failed the CPALE, I partly blamed the Board of Accountancy for my failure. I despised the board for abruptly imposing changes without proper notice. Imagine having to adjust from a scientific calculator to a basic one merely seven days before the board exams. The board justified such decision by saying an accountant only uses the basic operations in solving problems. While this is very true and an acceptable reason, I believe a sudden change of calculator one week from the exams is unjustifiable. I have been a sci-cal user for my whole five years in college, and my calculator became an extension of myself. I could forget my cellphone and not care, but when it comes to my calculator, all hell breaks loose. For an accountancy student, forgetting your calculator at home is a mortal sin.

However, pointing fingers could just lead to more disappointments. I knew I did all that I could, but I soon realized that maybe BOA was not to blame, maybe I should be humble enough to take credit for what happened. Had I prepared myself extensively, had I pushed myself beyond the limits, I could have been a part of that 16.46%.

While some people comfort you with the words, "okay lang yan" "pwede ka naman magtake ulit eh", you know those words are not enough to somehow lighten the load you are carrying. Failing is not okay. Failing an exam you have formally prepared for almost half a year is no joke. Not to mention the lowkey preparations you made for five years in college. It hurts. Sometimes I just wanted to disconnect and go to an unknown place where I can bond with myself in isolation. It's better than waiting for the right words you want to hear from other people which you know is unlikely. It's very easy for people to say it's okay when they have not been in your shoes. Easier said than done. But still, I'm thankful and grateful for the people who showered me with love and support during those testing times, even if their words of comfort are far from what I was longing to hear. I am more than blessed to be surrounded by people who try to understand what I feel.

It really did hurt a lot, honestly speaking. Especially when a lot of people have high expectations of you. I wish I were not an achiever from elementary to high school. People back home really expect much from me. It's harder to fail when you know how many eyes are watching you and when you hear how many people are so invested in your life. I wish I were a mediocre stud back then so that when I fail, it would not matter much. I did not mention to anyone outside my circle that I was revieweing for the board pero nakakagulat pa rin kasi may mga nakakaalam. And what really pains me is when I hear people say "matalino ka naman, kaya mo yan." Hindi nako minomotivate ng mga words na yan eh, mas nanlulumo na lang ako sa sarili ko. Nakakabobo na kasi, truth be told. It's frustrating knowing you failed to deliver once more. Sobrang nakakahiya. Kung pwede lang akong lamunin ng dagat, I would be sport to stay below the waters.

Despite what other people thought of me, I'm very thankful for my family cause they never pressured me. All they do is to make sure I feel loved and supported. This made me want that license more. With their unrelenting support, I was able to take courage and brave myself enough to take the CPALE for the second time around. I never studied until morning when I was in college, I could only do it until 3 am at most. Nonetheless, this time, I exerted my maximum efforts. I studied until morning which resulted in a switch between my day and my night. I was studying all night and then sleeping all day- one of the things I had a hard time adjusting to before the board exams. I have made my own handouts, made NEW, and much neater personal notes. But still, these efforts were not enough for me to clinch that elusive three letters. Ouch. It hurt much more this time knowing I have tried to fill my shortcomings and lapses last May and knowing I have prepared more than ever. I wonder where I fell short. The frustrations are now too much to bear. I don't know how to pick myself up again. I don't know how to brave the cruelties once more. Ang sakit sakit na.

Buttttttt... I know God is in control. I've always told myself, that I am where I am supposed to be because whatever the result is, it is meant to happen. I strongly believe that our lives are already made into a book, it is already carefully written by the greatest author himself- GOD. This is all part of my life. These failures were not accidents, they are meant to happen. When God is the author, no matter how boring and sad the story is, we cannot change it. We just have to keep reading the next chapters, maybe those succeeding chapters contain a different story- a much happier one.

I have found peace in knowing that God has secured a safe spot for me. I don't know when my breakthrough is going to come, but I know that it was God who planted these dreams in my heart, and it will be Him to tell me when they will be converted into reality. I am praying for healing, understanding, and strength. I have to improve more and assess myself on the things I am still lacking regardless of how I tell myself that it was already my 100%. The same goes for the 12,417 whose souls are down in the dumps right now. I believe it's not lack of effort that made us fail the exam, there is more to that. I think it's all about God's timing. I know some who failed with twice the effort of those who passed. So maybe even if you exerted all you had to give when God says not yet, then it's not gonna happen... yet.

There is more to my journey, but it's not yet the proper time to tell the whole story. Then, when is that? I don't know for it is not me to tell, it is God's.

[babaengmadaldal]

Kailan ka magttake ng CPALE?

October 2019. Hehehehe pagdasal mo ako makapasa ha? Kung sakali man. Salamat! :D

[jini-per]

"Being disappointed in yourself just means that you know you can do better. "

I read this on a page in Facebook. It's an article about the struggles of being a 23-year old.

I just turned 23 years old last July and I can say that the struggle is real. Especially this time because there is a pandemic where everyone's been struggling coping with the 'new normal', inhaling stress and toxicity and being sane during this trying times.

After graduating in college, I thought everything's going to be fine since I already finished studying. But then, I was wrong. The real challenge starts after I graduated in college.

"So, what's next? What should I do with my life?"

I had my first work when I was in my fifth year in college in an accounting firm. I juggled my academics with work but I survived until I graduated. I continued working there as a part-timer while I was reviewing for CPALE. I didn't take the October 2018 exams because I was not yet ready and I am not focused as I was working. So I enrolled again to a review school and took up the May 2019 exams. But then, I didn't passed the CPALE. And my disappointments and frustrations started from there. Here goes the 'what ifs'. What if I did well in my studies? What if I focused more on studying instead of having a lovelife? What if I didn't work as a part-time office assistant? And the list goes on... But I always go back to the saying that 'Everything happens for a reason'. I believe that those decisions I made, the failures, struggles are there to shape and make me learn different lessons that may be used in the coming years. But there are still days when I always remember and be disappointed to my decisions.

After knowing the results of May 2019 exams, I decided to apply for a new job since I resigned to my previous job because I was reviewing and so that I can focus (but I really don't think I focused hahahaha). I had a prayer the day before the results are out. I said "Lord, kung hindi man ako makapasa sa exam at least sana yung work makuha ko." And after that, I was accepted to the job that I applied to! It's like the Lord is leading me somewhere. And so, I took up the new challenge, new environment and new people to meet. And I thank God, I survived a year in the company. (Yey!) During those 14 months, I knew a lot of things about myself. I was able to socialize more to people, also tried 'tanggalin ang hiya sa katawan', being creative and more. But this time, it's more challenging since there is a pandemic. 6 months in quarantine and progress is not happening. There are days where I just don't want to talk to people, just like to be alone and sometimes I don't want to go to work. I just wanted to stay inside the house since the virus is still out there.

Since I'm just always at home, I have a lot of time to think about what should I do after this pandemic is over. It's good to be able to have a lot of ideas but then, I don't really know what path should I take. Should I still pursue being a CPA? Should I pursue Law School and be an Attorney? Should I take up Electronics Engineering or Civil Engineering and be an Engineer? Should I be musician? a graphic artist? a calligrapher? a photographer? a content creator in Youtube? a voiceover artist? So here goes again my frustrations and disappointments for not being able to know what I really wanted to pursue.

I feel really lost right now.

They said that being lost is okay because someday you will be found.

I just have to believe what God has in stored for me. Someday, I will be able to find what really makes me happy. And I believe that I will be the best version of myself and I can do better.

[itsadevything]

BLANK SLATE 💛

Hey. Remember my post last year? Like, I told you I was still hoping to be one of the graduating students for the Batch 2019. And yes, here it is, finally. I was having my breakfast this morning when a sudden thought pop up in my mind- I'M OFFICIALLY A DEGREE HOLDER. *screams. (Isn't it exciting? ☺) It was a really tough 5 years- like literally tough. But, don't get me wrong for what I meant with that 5 years. I am not an irregular student nor a repeater. I just so happen took a 5-year course -BS ACCOUNTANCY at Western Mindanao State University. Looking back in those years, I can't help but to cry to God and be so proud of my self for staying strong and firm amidst of all the struggles I've faced. It was not easy. Imagine fighting battles alone in my department without any genuine friend/s to share problems with? Of course, I had my bestfriend , Ronaly. But she already had her work and it's so incovenient to her part to attend to me due to her job's demand. I understand tho. You know it when you had to do things on your own because all of your classmates thought that you were okay and that you can manage to do it by yourself, where in fact you're longing for a buddy. I am the type of person who volunteers at things I know and even exerting more effort to things I'm not good at. And yes, they've used that as basis for them not to bother me at all. Not knowing, I'm struggling too, but chose not to show it anymore because they don't even care. Surviving Accountancy for 5 years was so energy-draining, especially examinations and quizzes. Many times my anxiety attacked during exams. My sweat dripped like there's no tomorrow. 😢 Huhu. But I managed it because of the power of God. If not because of Him, I wouldn't make it to Accountancy and graduated on time. Actually, I have so many things to tackle for that 5- year journey. I think I'd better write another Blog for that. But for now, I'm a blank slate. I'm currently preparing for the upcoming CPA Board Examination this October 2019. Law of attraction says that one must not doubt and fear at all, so I'm trying not to. I am praying and claiming that this year is going to be my year! I shall see my name in the list of CPALE passers this October 2019 in Jesus Name! Not only that, I shall see my name in the list of Topnatchers! Wow. Hahahaha.😀 I hope you guys will pray for me. I will make it, hopefully. Samahan ng prayers at preparation lang. Love you all. Love, Devine Grace T. Rodriguez, CPA (this October 2019! In God's will.) Bachelor of Science in Accountancy Western Mindanao State University Magister Mentibus Batch 2019

[studykaisoo]

In-denial stage is real

Sorry if this is another post about failing the CPALE.

The first time I saw the results, I didn't even cried. But when I talked to my parents I honestly felt like a crap (eventhough no one has told me that) I blamed myself for everything and that resulted to a heated argument with my parents.

They were right, they supported me all the way but still I feel bad about it. I feel like I made the wrong mistake to continue Accountancy and waste my life without earning a penny (but still incurring cost)

With a bucketful of emotions, I forgot how continuing Accountancy, despite being a nightmare is still a blessing to my life. New learnings in life, dealing with people and such.

I would randomly checked about how to take the PhilSAT (test to be eligible to enter Law School), Civil Service Exam and even planning to take a Masters.

At the back of my head I was just fooling myself that maybe if I passed those, I wouldn't think that I am dumb.

My friend told me I should just want for the CPA since I could work for the government with that license (in lieu of Civil Service Exam). Also, I don't have money to be able to go to Law School or Masters so taking the test will be useless.

I feel so unhealthy as a person. I don't even know if I'm a good person at all with these things on my mind.

But now I had enough sleep, I choose to fix my things. I would give away everything I won't need already. I would look for my certificates and other things I would need for work. I will update my resume. I will stand up again and look for a job. Maybe establishing a career will help me find myself again and to regain my burning desire to become a CPA

[mydandelionsoul]

1:09 am random thought

I feel like I haven't fully recovered from my cpale heartbreak. Ramdam ko pa din yung pagkawasak ng confidence ko and hindi pa din sya buo up to this day. Yes, nag aaral pa din naman ako. I still make a to do list for the week. Pero minsan di ko sya nasusunod. Late ako natutulog and nagigising everyday cause I'm always on my phone. This wasn't me during the May 2019 batch. I wake up everyday at 6am to go to my review class from 8am to 12pm. then at 1pm I immediately start my self study sched. Cguro iba lang din talaga kapag nakadorm ka and kapag nasa bahay ka lang. Last time kasi nakadorm ako, so walang tv and wifi. Malapit lang sa cpar so nakakapagaral talaga on weekdays. Eh ngayon, nasa bahay lang ako and weekends pa ang sched ko sa cpar, so all the distractions are here (tv, wifi, my bed) and syempre nasa comfort zone ka pa so ayun nasisira ang aral sched.

Wala din akong gana magtake ng first preboards. I was at top 100 both first and final pb last batch but i still didn't make it. Kaya naiisip ko na wala naman bearing yan bakit pa ko magttake diba. Board exam pa din ang totoong laban. Pero I'll take my chances pa din. I will still take the first pb para malaman ko pa din kung san mahina ang foundation ko and improve more.

I'm still on the process of rebuilding up my lost self esteem. Hopefully mabuo ko na sya before the October exams. I've been through worse and lahat yun nalagpasan ko. Di ako aabot dito kung hindi para sakin to. Ngayon pa ba ko susuko kung kelan one step closer nalang ako diba. Laban lang gel! Walang susuko! ❤💪

[studykaisoo]

My Life After October 2019 CPALE

I'm writing this 5 days after taking the Certified Public Accountant Licensure exam. I won't talk about the exam proper as we have signed a disclosure agreement. I wanted to write this prior to the results so I would have a neutral narration of my life after taking the board exam.

After the exam

As soon as I went out of my room, I tried to check how much Grab or Angkas (ride-hailing apps) costs to go to my review center (for the send-off party) and alternatively checks how much it would cost me to go home. Thankfully, the ride home is so expensive so I decided to simply ride a jeepney going to my review center. Since there are a lot of examinees in my testing school, I had to walk maybe 5 blocks to get a ride. It rained hard while I was in the jeepney but thankfully I was able to arrive at the review center safely.

Actually, the party was jampacked. As I would describe, the examinees looked like sardines. When I came, there was only few food served left but that didn't matter as long as I was able to eat (Got tired from the exam and commute)

I looked for my friends and thankfully found them despite being in a huge crowd. I met new friends that was introduced by my friend. We asked for selfies with our reviewers and we had some few shots to drink.

Our new friend treated us milk tea and I had a good conversation with them (or rather, I had simply listened because I was too tired to talk)

We went back to our review center at 9PM. It felt nostalgic and ununsual since weeks before the exam, it was open until 11PM but that night, it was already closed.

1st Day

The following day, despite being tired, I had to wake up early since we'll be going to my niece's 1st birthday. We left the house early since the location is out of town (2-3 hours travel time) We went to Padre Pio Shrine in Batangas, attended the mass to give thanks and went off to the party afterwards.

It was nice to see my relatives again after so long. I had my first experience of being a face paint assistant (to my cousin) that day.

That revitalized my love for the arts.

2nd day

Second day after the board exam was my 1st actual rest day. I moved slower that day than usual. There was some body ache, but it was bearable. The only thing on my mind is to achieve what I wanted to do: to clean the bathroom. It has been quite dirty for a while (as I didn't have sufficient time) I know a lot of people doesn't want to do this job because they say "it's gross" or "disgusting" but for me it helps me calm.

3rd day

All of the days after the board exam, I have consistently woke up at around 4-5am. I can't sleep again so I cleaned my study area/desktop. I wanted to sort out all of my handouts but I was still tired so I went back to sleep.

For a change I cooked for my family's lunch. I don't have the skills as compared to my brother who is studying Culinary. But that was enough achievement for the day.

4th day

It was probably the highlight of my break. I went out early to meet my friends. We went to St. Jude first and afterwards, they ate their breakfast in Jollibee (I already ate at home) and we went to Rizal Park. We visited Planetarium, National Museum of Natural History and Anthropology. Afterwards, we went to Binondo Church, Divisoria and Ongpin. It was a fun day appreciating the arts, photographing with my friends and eating different kinds of food. At the end of the day, my brother waited for me and we went home together. It was so tiring yet to fulfilling.

5th day

I prepared some documents for my dad and we went to his office afterwards. After accomplishing all the things we needed to do in his office, my dad and I hang out in 7-Eleven while waiting for our ride. I tried YumYum (Instant Tom Yum) but I guess it wasn't for me. Earlier, I started to sort out my handouts per subject. I planned to continue it tomorrow. I'm planning to give my study materials to my friends who are studying Accountancy.

What I did in between?

I did some little catching up with friends I haven't talked in a while. I backtracked everything I missed with EXO, SB19, other groups I stanned, read webtoons and watching vlogs. I was supposed to watch Kdramas and anime but I haven't started yet.

I don't know what the future holds for me but I am enjoying my break so far. Soon, I'll be preparing to look for a job so I should maximize everything I want to do now.

[studykaisoo]

Reckless things after October 2019 CPALE results:

- I went on "applying spree". I sent my resume to some of the BIG 4 firms and 1 multinational company

- Actually applying for the multinational company was an accident. I don't have plans to apply yet, but I was supposed to make an account (for the future) but I didn't realized I clicked the apply button. So yeah. Let's see

[studykaisoo]

Life Update! I have started working again ☺️

It's been a while since I shared whatever happened to me after the board exam. In November, I was still sending out CVs and applying for jobs online. Somehow along the way I got tired and decided to take a rest until January.

Life at home

Being a homebody does not mean I'm just doing netflix and chill all day. In fact it seems like I'm busy just like anyone having an 8 hour job (even going beyond that). Sometimes I cook meals, I do wash the dishes, prepare stuff for the family, cleaning and other errands. I was always on the go. I never felt that I have time to actually go and binge k-dramas because I was so busy (chores + other personal things I couldn't disclose)

While I am stuck at home, I have developed new hobbies like doing clay art (I use air dry clay) and bullet journal. These activities have been my coping mechanism for healing.

Going to a faraway place for healing

Most of the time, I feel okay but there are days where I would experience mental breakdowns. I have never visited a psychiatrist (because I couldn't afford it + I don't want to be a burden to my family at that time since money was an issue and I'm not contributing at all). Sometimes I get into heated arguments with my parents and I told them why they never understood how I felt. With all that explaining, still they never knew how to cope up. I was tired and mentally drained. It was such an emotional torture.

During the holidays, my grandmother decided I take some time off at home and she brought me with her. We went to a faraway place from home where my uncle and cousins live. I am so used to housework that even I was there I wanted to help but they all stopped me and told me I was there for a vacation. It was a breather. I lived for more than a week without worries.

I brought my bullet journal with me so during my free time, I was just preparing designs for 2020. While on vacation, my friend offered me a freelance writing job. I took the opportunity and up to this point I am still writing.

Coming back home and continued applying for jobs

When I went home after the holidays, the situation at home has become more bearable. Also, I felt that my family had become more understanding to me. I started applying for jobs again. I jumped from one interview into another.

During the process, I still continued my freelance job and other tasks at home. I was at the peak of my productivity since I was also researching about freelance remote jobs.

I got hired!

I finally got hired in January! But the process was so long that I have only started last month. I continued my old routine and maximized all my remaining free days. I have been working since February and so far all is well. There isn't that much to share at this point but as always, I am wishing for a happy 2020. I hope this year will be a life full of possibilities and new experiences.

At this point, I may not know when I will try again for the board exam. But all I know is that I am trying my best to get my life together at this point. Hope all is well

[studykaisoo]

Good luck po sa natitirang days ng CPALE! ❤️ Proud na po kami agad sa inyong takers ngayon pa lang. At congratulations! ✨ May the Lord continue to give you all His providence!

I'm typing this during our breaktime, day 2 of boards. Sobrang natouch po ako sa message po. Ang hirap po ng MAS kanina. Hindi ko alam kung nag-overreliance ako dahil medj alam ko yun. Medyo nabuhayan ako ulit para sa next exam. We don't know what the future holds. Super thank you! I appreciate it so much. Sobrang kailangan ng support ng CPALE takers dahil ang dami pang external drama na dumadating. Always keep the faith in Him ☝️🙏

[studykaisoo]

My KPMG Philippines "Passport To Success" Experience

This shall be a continuation of my "Life After October 2019 CPALE".

It was kind of a spontaneous decision to go to KPMG just a night before the actual event. I wasn't sure if I needed to bring my CV (and I haven't updated it for a while so that was the first thing I did when I woke up. I accessed it easily since I had a file in my phone's Google Drive.

I went out early but apparently the traffic waa too much, I ended up arriving there beating the clock. I met my friends at a McDonald's near KPMG, still wearing a t-shirt soaked in sweat, thus I had to change to a corporate attire.

Then we headed to the KPMG building, looking actually clueless, the guard probably figured out we'll be going to the "Passport to Success" event.

Upon arrival in the mezzanine, the staff adviced us to register through the laptops ans was guided inside. I immediately loved the vibe and environment of KPMG. They told us we could get snacks and asked us from what school we are from.

So we were divided into groups and the goal of the event is to complete all of the stops in the passport (and the facilitators will put stickers on the passport once done).

The first stop was about the overview of KPMG 👉 Audit 👉 Data Analytics 👉 IT Advisory 👉 HR 👉 Tax 👉 Advisory

I really liked the guy who explained about the overview of KPMG. He seemed so frank and upright. I also got the term "whatever floats your boat" from him.

In Audit, I kind of expected what they had to say since I have friends who are already auditors themselves. In Data Analytics, KPMG Clara was explained to us and I hope in the near future it would run efficiently. We had games through our mobile phones too.

Next stop was IT Advisory and I must say this one sparked my interest the most. I was a bit hesitant though, so I asked them how I could apply my knowledge as an Accountant there, thankfully I am satisfied with their answer. Somehow I felt some spark, telling me that this is the department for me.

Then we went to the HR were they talked about the culture in KPMG and they presented those people who had their secondments in other countries. Followed by Tax and Advisory who both explained their culture and what they do in their respective departments.

After completing all our passport stops, they told us to take our lunch and come back for some confidential talk.

I won't disclose further though. I have met few people from other colleges and universities who are very nice.

In all honestly, I am already liking KPMG in general, but I still have few time to decide whether I go to BIG 4, private or government.

I trust His will.