#oh wait no eight

[queen-scribbles]

One of my guildies was being extremely generous and sharing their abundance of dark projects, so now Tel and Jaaide have joined the Max Influence LI club 😎

[sorryiliketoscreenshot]

[pinktrashgoblin]

“Shifting allegiances.”

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And everything changes again!

Ohhhh I’ve been waiting for this one >:]

[nicoscheer]

SIIIIIIRRRRRR ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

especially cause he ain’t linked nowhere in the post

Always great fun when official sites use edited Milex pics for their posts 🤣🫠

[senselessalchemist]

I have to start teaching again on Monday so here are some things that I meant to finish but oh well guess it wasnt meant to be

[kimbapisnotsushi]

oh please talk about kawanishi taichi i love that silly guy

OF COURSE ANON I TOO LOVE THAT SILLY GUY LET'S GET IT!!

(also i am SO sorry for taking so long oh my god i am back in action and catching up i promise!!)

i think he likes beanies in his casual wear

idk kawanishi feels like such a beanie person but not the douchebag slouchy ones he's got one that's a little snug and has something embroidered on it like a bird or something

okay that's a lie. he has ONE douchebag slouchy beanie that makes him look like how a high school romance shoujo mangaka of the mid-2000s would dress a flashy somewhat-delinquent teenage boy (honey lemon soda my beloved)

this, of course, could not be farther from the truth

the entire second year is scared of him bc they never somehow realize he's there until he says something and they're like "holy SHIT". this also means he knows a bunch of hot gossip

(the hot gossip miyagi group chat: kawanishi, watari, onagawa, and narita)

on the other hand. that means the students of 2-5 win the contest for "best cultural festival attraction" between classes bc they had the best haunted house the miyagi prefecture had ever seen

he's on really good terms with the school nurse because sometimes he sneaks into the infirmary to take naps during lunch or gym periods

knows how to lockpick BECAUSE he keeps trying to sneak into the infirmary. and occasionally the school roof for their "team bonding picnics" so that tendou doesn't have to keep swiping the key from the student council

i'm not just saying this bc i like enamel pins but i think kawanishi DOES like enamel pins. he's got a collection of these edgy sarcastic ones that he thinks are hilarious in a "started-ironically-and-now-i-can't-stop-pipeline" kind of way

he's got this whole tumblr-grunge-indie-hipster thing going on with his douchebag slouchy beanie and denim jacket with pins all over the collar and ripped jeans and converse sneakers and shirabu thinks he pulls it off unfairly well

i feel like kawanishi also really likes fantasy/sci-fi and is actually SUCH a huge secret nerd about it. and really likes cyberpunk and fantasyland settings you'd get from like idk snow white with the red hair or nivalis (i KNOW it's an indie game that's not even out yet but sue me i don't know cyberpunk all that well)

he and tsukki actually become friends while arguing about how much of akira is deep meaning and how much of it is actually just straight up bullshit because WHAT the fuck was that

also he's subscribed to a bunch of these small artists on youtube who make background music and fun art to go with them bc he can put together a great soundtrack for getting hw and studying done

likes getting lil gifts for shirabu, especially to add to his stationary collection. shirabu has sticky notes in the shape of whales and ice cream and paper lanterns and washi tape with fireworks and beach motifs and bakery stuff and it's all because of kawanishi

kawanishi just sticks to the plain solid-color square sticky notes that he uses to leave shirabu notes around his dorm. just small things, really, a reminder that this is a place shirabu belongs and it is a place he is loved. you're doing great. get some water soon. i'll bring you dinner, just text me. don't forget to sleep.

and shirabu will be hard pressed to admit it, but those might be his favorite sticky notes of all

[rosemary-is-in-pesterquest]

cheers to that

[beesinspades]

trans question why is it so hard to find a name that sticks. I've tried 5 names over 8 years and they never stick. something always feels....off.

I tried Aaron, Bard, Jesse, Bee. Bee felt right for a while but it really was just a transition name that I used alongside the others. A shortened version of my deadname to make it easier for my family while I searched for The One. Now I don't like it anymore because it's not masc enough, especially now that I've started t.

For a long time I thought something felt off because those were all masculine names, and I wasn't a boy nor did I look like one (I know that's not required!! but it was to me. love you my fellow transmascs with fem names), and so I needed to find an unisex name. but I could never find one and the thought of my name being interpreted as feminine felt way more wrong (which is a big part of the reason why I let go of Jesse. in my country's language it sounds more like a girl's name). and I still think that's part of the issue....even though I'm now literally on t and LOOK masc and LOVE looking masc.

Now for over a year I've been trying another name, also masc, which everyone used for me at my internship place. and I do like it. I distinctly remember the moment I chose it. I was sitting at the dinner table and my dad was in the kitchen calling me bee and I was looking at my reflection in the winfow and once again thinking about how much I couldn't keep going like this and I needed a more masc name but I felt like I couldn't find any. and then it just flashed before my eyes and i thought "this is it. this is the one. holy fuck." and i couldn't stop smiling and felt such strong euphoria!! i immediately asked my friends to call me by that name.

but even then, I can't shake this feeling that I'm in a play and I'm an imposter and I might find a name that doesn't make me feel this way. so there's this feeling of wrongness even though I want this name to stick. I want to make this name mine.

It's also a name I got from a piece of media, and I think on top of the rest, I'm worried that once my hyperfixation fades, it'll feel even more wrong....even though I literally didn't pick the name for the character. I wasn't thinking of the character when I picked it. it's just I'd never heard that name until that character, whom I do love, but yeah I picked the name for the name, not as a connection to the character.

I think there's definitely some neurospiciness at play here as well. I've always had this issue that if something doesn't feel perfectly right, then it's no good and I can't get past it or it'll bug me forever. and it sucks because a name doesn't have to be the absolute perfect fit. there might always be a better name out there. it just has to be a name that fits me nicely enough and that I like responding to.

because of this I also still haven't asked my family to call me by that name. I'm scared they'll be like "but you already legally changed your name!" and "it's too masc it's hard getting used to" or that they'll tell me they don't like it or it doesn't fit me and it'll make my wrongness feelings worse. and what if I legally change my name again and then i still go through a name crisis!!!

anyway. sick of myself

[takiki16]

A Fine Chain

UPDATE: Chapter 18/?

Fandom: Jupiter Ascending

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Beta: @gallifreyburning

Relationships: Jupiter Jones/Caine Wise

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Light Dom/sub, Power Imbalance, Royalty, Slavery, Collars, Leashes, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Don’t copy to another site, Dark

Summary: Caine Wise, disgraced ex-Skyjacker and convicted criminal, is suddenly inducted into the service of the enigmatic Queen Nea-Seraphi, mysterious new Recurrence and puzzle to the Entitled social circle. While figuring out the boundaries of his new station, worrying about his old commander, and nursing old wounds from his court martial, Caine finds himself slowly being drawn into the confidence of his royal employer. What could Her Majesty possibly want with a defective splice?

"I am the centurion's hound, to lie at the centurion's feet." - Esca Mac Cunoval, The Eagle of the Ninth, by Rosemary Sutcliff

[mihrsuri]

So at some point recently I saw a ‘put your friends OC into your OC’s world’ (it may in fact have been via @emilykaldwen I feel like) and my brain went ‘….okay but Abby in Tudors OT3 verse’ and so here, have Lady Abigail Harren daughter of the last wife of Lord Lionel Harren - Lady Cecily Grenville and cousin to Lady Helen Norwich.

Her mother was Helens mother's sister - both she and Helen were surprise late in life babies, when their parents had given up on having children but while Helen is an only child Abigail has some much older half brothers.

The thing is, Helen’s uncle, John Welles is one of thee main horrible people in this universe. Not to her, so much - she’s an asset he can use (and so is Abby).

(A note: my knowledge of ASOIAF/GOT lore is uh, select fanfiction and my friends but Abby is such a good character and my brain was like ‘this needs to happen’ so)

Cecily and Helen’s mother Maude were incredibly close and remained so after their marriages but while Maude did not come to court, preferring the country Cecily was one of the principal ladies to her younger cousin Alice, the daughter of the second son of the Earl of Kent.

After Alice was married off to a much older northern nobleman as his second wife, a choice that was not without controversy as it seemed to displace his daughter Ruth (and Alice’s former best friend) by his first wife who had been his heir. Despite Alice giving her husband three sons (Arthur, Anthony and Daniel) his heir remained Ruth.

Helen spent half her time with Abigail at the Earl of Kent’s estates in Canterbury and half with her parents in Norwich at Welles Hall - a place that Abigail also visited - all the children were close - Helen and Abigail considered themselves sisters all their lives and the children all played together.

It was Helen and then Arthur above all who bought Abigail back to herself after the deaths of her father and all but one of her brothers (her mother died when Abby was very young) perished in a fire and she found herself the heir to a rich estate after her brother Lambert.

It was Lambert, a close friend of John Norwich who seems to have encouraged the betrothal of his sister to Arthur, while Norwich, who had at first been enraged by Helen’s birth - for the displacement of him as heir to the Earldom after his brother had realised that she was a tidy way to build alliances and keep the estate within the family, sought to place his nieces hand where best it would benefit him.

Helen falling in love with James, the oldest son of Lady Ruth was not within his calculations. Abigail being less the pawn than he and her brother believed was not either. Let alone Arthur deciding he will be the husband that Abigail deserves. A good one.

[diseaseriddencube]

alastor nearly gets killed????? and is missing...after a battle with the Vs??? and is trying to loophole his 'deal'?? woahg :0

[halfdeadwallfly]

it's really fucked that i'm at the point where setting my alarm to get eight hours of sleep has me worried about being too tired to work the next day

[eights-world]

accidentally following people then unfollowing them is fuckin embarrassing, gurl im sooo sorry its nothing personal im just a dumb fuckin picky idiot :[[

[anders-hawke]

12 year old me 🤝 20 year old me: solavellan hell

[friendly-neighborhood-furry]

i love blogging about other people's ocs. its so much fun!! if i reblog your oc post please assume that i'm rotating them in my mind and imagining them hanging out with my oc like i'm playing with dollies <3

[quietwingsinthesky]

remember his wife?

yeah

oh right yeah i forgot he killed his wife. rip. lmao, even.