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bluelolblue · 5 months ago

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Hiiiiii! So we talked about vampire John and Santino - what about werewolf John and Santino? Are they both werewolves? Does one turn the other? What’s their whole vibe? I want to know all about it! 🖤🐾

WEREWOLVES YAYAYYYY

This made me so happy bc I love werewolves ever since I was a kid YAYYY!

I also personally like those werewolves who look like wolves (more like anthropomorphic), you know, have tails and don't have any human features (there's so many werewolf designs). Because that is a real werewolf to me :].

Okay, I love this so much, lemme hyperfixate! This gave me such a good idea that I will write a longer fic on it one day!

Imma explain what I have in mind now! :3

Werewolf AU! 🐾

John is giving me werewolf vibes, so he's the one that was first turned into one. How it happened? Well, he was just doing what he usually does. He was on a mission but got ambushed by an enemy who just happened to have lycanthropy. He got some symptoms a week later and turns out he also got it and became a werewolf. I see him a dark-black coated werewolf (because of his hair), honestly kinda like the black werewolf from "Van Helsing" (2004).

I also think John got more physically stronger, I mean he looks the same just yk got more strength (bro is already strong like just imagine with extra strength). Yk also night vision and everything else.

He didn't want to tell Santino at first because he didn't want to scare him with that. In this AU there's lots of possibilities, like what if they were supposed to hunt werewolves and now this happened? That would make the whole situation even more intense! Then again, Santino noticed that something wasn't right with John. Like... he had even more trouble sleeping than before, was more restless and other side effects.

So, Santino was curious and wanted to help if something was bothering him. And then the whole "I got turned into a werewolf" talk happened. "Please don't be scared or mad at me l-" but Santino literally can't be scared or mad at him. And he's the only person who isn't scared of him, honestly. "I don't mind it. You're still the same in my eyes."

Santino accepted it. And he was really curious actually. Like... his werewolf form, he really wanted to see it. And once he did... yeah. Oh yeah >:]. Sorry if I sound weird, ummm monster sexy time isn't for everyone I understand 😭. Santino is a freak, okay lmaoo!

It didn't took long for Santino wanting to become one, too. If his lover is going to be a werewolf and suffer some side effects as one, he is going to do it. One more thing I think comes with changing into a werewolf. Muscle cramps after turning back to human. C'mon, that has to hurt! So, I like to imagine Santino massaging him, his legs, his shoulders, his back, anything that hurt. And back rubs when John struggles to sleep or has some side effects.

John was a bit worried about turning him into a werewolf. It can be really exhausting and and painful at times. But, Santino insisted. And John can't go against him. On the bed, pinned down, John bit into his shoulder enough for his fangs to sink into his skin and let the blood flow. It wasn't a big bite because he didn't want to hurt him too much. Santino did wince and whimper when it happened but he was glad John did it. Now he can be like him.

It left a little scar, just like it did to John (however I think he has a bigger scar because it didn't happen willingly). And of course, the side effects started happen after some time, John told him it was all normal and kept comforting him through it. His first transformation, John was there for him of course. Comforting him like always. I see him a brown coated werewolf, like his hair color yk. Maybe a bit more curly near head.

Ahh he would be such a cute werewolf. Not as big as John, and not as strong as him but still gets all the advantages of being a werewolf. A cutie, like imagine him wagging his tail when John praises him and pets his head AAWW!

It takes some time for him to get used to this new ability, like especially with his tail, "Why is my tail wagging??" And John is like, "That's because you're happy, love." Absolute cuties :3

When they're both in werewolf forms, I kinda think they would snuggle and, like how dogs snuggle each other, rubs heads together and nip on each others ears and that. Just be cute together.

Do they get freaky- yes. 💀😭

Considering how curious and kinky they both are (*coughs* Santino especially *coughs*) um... yeah. They definitely did it like that. :>

But they really just support and comfort each other. If someone wants to hunt them down after finding out they both became werewolves... they are ready for a fight against whoever wants to hurt them.

OKAY! This was so fun to write and think about! Thank you so much for this ask! I really love this idea, so I'm gonna add it to the list, Werewolf AU! YAYYY! 💙🖤💙🖤

#santino d’antonio #santino d'antonio #john wick #john wick x santino d'antonio #werewolf au #YAAYYY I LOVE THIS SO MUCH #im definitely going to write something like this!#thanks for the inspiration and the ask im glad im not the only one liking this :D #werewolf john and santino #CUTIESSS

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bvnnyl0v3r · 8 months ago

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An Angel's Kiss pt.4

A/N: okay imma immediately say: I‘ll continue the timeline as it is rn and work my way up (mainly bc i live in germany and we only got 23 parts and the 24th part is coming out in idk how many months I am dying from spoilers 😭😭😭) also like idek why I am writing Nikolai to be a total asshole he‘s my fave character but at the same time I just….. is it wrong to want tobe mistreated by a white haired man who definetly does not have all his cups in the cupboard (someone help It‘s 3am and that cupboard cup thingy is a german thing that we germans say instead of having some loose screws I am so fucked out)

TW: mention of near death experiences, blood, wounds, dirty talk, Nikolai is still just….. *sighs dramatically*, needles, slapping, for once (NAME) is being the weird one

What you did not expect this lovely morning as you woke up was….. Nikolai. In your bed….. well okay you sorta did expect it since he does not know personal space with you but the unexpecting part was that he was covered in blood, you were covered in blood and your sheets were covered in blood. You checked to see if that bastard actually dared to die in your arms but luckily he didn‘t.

While you coulhave done the world a favor and left him to die your dumbass‘ first thought was to drag him into the kitchen and pour cold water over him to wake him up and then get out the medkit. After all Fyodor‘s surgery book did help you sew some of the wounds shut. Well that was while Nikolai was still half asleep half dead but now he was neither half asleep nor half dead so he was just groaning like the fucking masochist he is.

And sitting there trying to treat someones wounds while they keep on saying:

“that‘s it darling….. just like that…. Fuck that burned….bet you like me like this don‘t ya, baby~ whimpering just for you~ ngh~“

Was not at all a pleasant way to pass your time so after the first 15 minutes you‘d had enough

“Can you stopdirty talking me while I treat you fucking wounds???“

„But baby, my pretty darling, don‘t you looooovvveeee meeee~“

….

when Sigma came in because he heard a scream….

…..

…he just immediately walked out again at the sight of you stabbing nikolai‘s main blood vain in the upper arm. Sadly he survived....

About 10pm you wanted to go to bed. A good plan indeed as Fyodor was finally out the house just as sigma and fukuchi so it was just you and Nikolai. Nikolai had gotten a set of rules from the others. Much against his will as they "chained him even more than he already was" and "he'll never be free" but at some point agreeing when fyodor told him he'll lock him up in an actual bird cage if he doesn't collaborate.

So you finally got your sleep. 4 lovely hours until you shrieked up from a nightmare. To terrified to go back to sleep in your own bed you took a light and walke dover to Nikolai's room. To your surprise he was already asleep wich you found weird as you didn't think he'd sleep before 3am but who cares anyway. You were gonna wake him up and make him help you somehow. I mean yeah he may not seem the smartest but he actually can have some brain.

So here you were. Sitting on Nikolai's bed. Trying to get the snoring bastard to wake up as he kept on sleeping. You got tired again so in the end you decide ife he can you andomly cuddle up to you so can you.

...

You don't know when you woke up but Nikolai was in a shock state. Looking at you with eyes wide open and an awkard grin. His arms tightly around your waist. Seeing this terrifying sight infront of you your flight or fight instict kicked in and you slapped him.

"OW WHAT THE FUCK (NAME)"

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING STARING AT ME LIKE THAT"

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING IN MY BED"

"I COULDN'T SLEEP IN MINE I HAD A NIGHTMARE"

"SO YOU DECIDED TO GET IN MY BED WITHOUT WAKING ME, CUDDLE UP TO ME AND SLAP ME AS SOON AS YOU WAKE UP"

"I TRIED WAKING YOU UP BUT YOU SNORING BASTARD DIDN'T WAKE UP"

Then silence made it's way through the room until Nikolai speaks

"let's get mclfurries"

"For once youhad a good idea"

A/N: idk wtf happened at the end i'm honest. It's 3am again I can't sleep HELP THIS WAS IN MY DRAFTS FOR 3 MONTHS OR SO

#bungou stray dogs #bsd nikolai #nikolai gogol #fyodor dostoevsky #bsd fyodor #bsd kamui #bsd sigma #creepypasta #bsd fukuchi #fukuchi ouchi #fyodor dostoyevsky bsd #bungo stray dogs x reader #bsd #bungo stray dogs

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borathae · 5 months ago

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Chapter 23 LETS GOOO

bro get the fuck out lemme sleep zzzzzzzzz This man has no manners, none, nada.FR MY SLEEP BITCHES

one blood bag each and a cup of coffee. It is a peculiar combination, but if they like it then you won’t question it.😭😭

“Why are you asking me?” “Cause you’re the oldest here?” “And? Does this automatically make me the leader or something?” “Well…yeah?” Hoseok cocks an eyebrow up, “unless you want me to take over.” they really havent planned their boyband well

It’s after one of my grandmother’s recipes, WTF HE LIVED THAT LONG AND STILL RMEMBERS SHIT? my vampire ass would be a disappointment

“You’re adorable. A vampire with red ears, that’s a sight to see” fr TELL HIM SIS

This means he hasn’t returned home yet. SHIT is he hurt or did he hurt someone else???

“Okay bro I was going through something?” Hoseok squeaks. “And ended up with a tummy ache”, Seokjin teases. so ur not safe from tummy ache even as a vampire great

perhaps it is because of the tension he is always walking around with, you’re sure this will develop muscle as well. STOP THE ATTACK tho he fully deserves it MY BLANKIE MY ZZZZZZZ

Is that your feel good face?” yeah -_- -ㅅ-

“Dead. Again. Congrats, you died four times already”, this made me laugh and extra pissed YOONGLES WHAT ARE U TRYING TO DO WARM HER UP TO BOILING OR WHAT??

ok she went berserk ... like a human would GOOD REMEMBER THOSE POINTS GO HARDER BABY U CAN DO IT

ok now WTF IS HIS PROBLEM AAAAAAAH ok we get it she fucked up, she went to talk to him and it escalated and neither knew consequences ok mr genius jjang jjang man boong boong

wtf hobi are u ok whats going on now shit

“Blood…uhm I just realised that this sounds very disgusting to a human”, he laughs awkwardly, “sorry.” its ok pookie, just took me off guard 💀💀

ok guys we are really in hobari's room and getting to see past his mask yall, slightly nervous idk what im expecting ahaha

that’s like my eight one. Those fuckers are amazing”, they dont have overdose issues?? wow nice wait how did hobi get tummy issues then??

Hoseok stops laughing, fidgeting in his chair rather nervously. His smile stays on his face however, never reaching his eyes and looking like a mask he can’t seem to shake off. slightly scary with description, but its really funny u can pass off everyones questions with this smile, just answer the are u ok question properly and smile, or else u look like hobi right now haha

“I’m kinda sad that I didn’t die today.” oh that was slightly out of pocket half expected it but also didnt expect it

We have Yoongi, who fought god knows how many battles. Then Jungkook, a high ranking military dude. And Seokjin, who had the nerve to serve in both world wars just for fun. wow jin really said imma fight ww1 & 2 for shits and giggles

“Because I feel like an imposter”, he confesses, “I’m a vampire, that can’t even control minds, has never been faux killed before, has zero fighting experience and whose origin story is being killed by a blowjob. How pathetic can you be?” ur just simply a vampire, not all have to go through shit to be a vampire, its just they lived that long so the probability of going through shit is higher, u got lucky. its ok ur not a clown. youre a great friend for real

WE GOT HIM HAPPY YAYA

bro get the fuck out lemme sleep zzzzzzzzz This man has no manners, none, nada.FR MY SLEEP BITCHES

me actually I hate being woken up early :/

lmaooa they're so chaotic i fucking hate them (i love them with all my heart)

It’s after one of my grandmother’s recipes, WTF HE LIVED THAT LONG AND STILL RMEMBERS SHIT? my vampire ass would be a disappointment

LIKE HE IS SO <3 okay but in his defense, he writes down yummy recipes sooo

This means he hasn’t returned home yet. SHIT is he hurt or did he hurt someone else???

LIKE I'M SCARED

“Okay bro I was going through something?” Hoseok squeaks. “And ended up with a tummy ache”, Seokjin teases. so ur not safe from tummy ache even as a vampire great

hahahah they're so chaotic dhfahs

Is that your feel good face?” yeah -_- -ㅅ-

i love him :D

“Dead. Again. Congrats, you died four times already”, this made me laugh and extra pissed YOONGLES WHAT ARE U TRYING TO DO WARM HER UP TO BOILING OR WHAT??

HAHHAHA he is so rude like I love him sm <3

ok guys we are really in hobari's room and getting to see past his mask yall, slightly nervous idk what im expecting ahaha

no but I actually love this scene a lot <3

that’s like my eight one. Those fuckers are amazing”, they dont have overdose issues?? wow nice wait how did hobi get tummy issues then??

overdose can't happen for vampires, it's more of a blinded by bloodlust where they can't control themselves anymore and go feral but he is very far away from that state

no but I'm actually so sad for him :( I hate that he thinks he needs to pretend to be happy :( like hobi :( you're allowed to be sad too :(

i feel like it was an honour thing for him where he was all like "i have a duty as a man" 😑

YES THANK YOU !!! i love this agenda!!!

#asks: sanguis alpha #asks #minusback #tw: long post

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cumxxslutt · 2 years ago

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Hey dear! Could I have something with jealous Ro? Pleeeeease~ ❤️

Hope this was good , I was literally half-sleep writing this , lol . 😭

My Heart .

Fem/Black Reader

Warnings: Jealous Roman , Sad Roman , Soft Roman , Jealousy

“Stop” I chuckled , “well it’s not my fault you can’t dance” Jey said , we were trying to do a tiktok and I keep messing up on this one move , “okay I promise I got it” I say looking at him giggling , he straight faced me , “I’m being so for real right now” I say poking him “man whatever” he said playfully rolling his eyes at me , I only laughed

Roman’s Pov

‘This shit is so aggravating’ I think watching Y/n and Jey be so ‘Buddy Buddy’ “Y/n” I call out to her , she whipped her head around to me “wassup pa” she spoke “come here babygirl” I mumbled looking in her eyes , she tells Jey something and then she runs over to me

“Hey” I say as she sit on my lap “Hi” she says giggling “what do you wanna do , wanna go get something to eat hmm” I say , “mhm Me and Jey were going to get some food , but you can tag along we won’t mind” she says smiling down at me , “Oh..” I trailed off “Nah that’s okay , you two go ahead” I said trying to stop myself from rolling my eyes “okay babe” she says getting off my lap and kissing my lips

Y/n Pov

“Ide let’s go” I said grabbing my purse and grabbing Jey by the arm and dragging him with me to the car , “you know I love you right” Jey says looking at the me then turning back to the road , “Hmm” I say turning to him “like , no shit like that you know , but like your the closest I ever been to a person beside jimmy” , “I love you too Jey” I chuckled , pulling up to the place Jey parks the car and we both hop out

“Wassup bae , you want something to eat” I say on the phone with Roman , “Naw I’m good , but tell Jey to drop you off at home , cause I just got here” He says putting a bun in is head , “Okay , imma see you when I see you , I love you”

I say poking my lips out and putting them against the screen like I’m giving him a actual kiss , as he does same

“No shawty really tried to play me” I say throwing my trash in the trash bin outside of the restaurant , “Anyways” Jey mumbles slightly laughing , “Roman said drop me off at the house” I say looking over at Jey , “Okay” he replied sipping on his drink

“BYEE” I holler out to Jey , “BYEE” he says back , he waits for me to get into the house before pulling off , turning around I bump into a hard ass chest , “Oh hey baby” I say looking up at Roman “Hey Mama” He mumbled kissing my lips , “Why you not sleep” I say to him taking off my shoes and putting my keys in the bowl , “I was waiting for you” He mumbled

“Do you love me” Roman blurted out of no where “What” I replied sitting up , he does the same “I mean like do you love me” he replied shrugging his shoulders “Of course I love you baby , where is this coming from” I say pulling my bonnet back on my head that was slipping , “Well you’ve been hanging with Jey a lot and I’m just kind of , I don’t know jealous I guess” He replied playing with his fingers , Oh my poor Baby

“Oh Baby , there ain’t no need to be jealous , you know I’m only for you , right”

I said climbing on his lap and straddling his waist as he put his arms around me “Really” He questions , “Yes , Nobody can ever replace you , I love you so much” I replied giving him a sloppy kiss ,

“I love you too , My Heart”

#jey uso #jey uso x reader #roman reigns #roman reigns x reader #the bloodline #the bloodline 🎀#cumxxslutt.writes🎀#🎀 .

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sungbeam · 11 months ago

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Me busting thru the imaginary door of your room. I have some important news to share with you (it’s not really important) BUT AHAIABAOSBSIRRBEIDBDOSBEIEGTORRB I finally read thru and finished reading off the record at the horrible time in which I should be sleeping (but then again we know my sleep schedule is wack).

I just came to express my feelings OFF SCREAMING BECAUSE CHANGMIN??? Literally never fail to amaze me with your writing & 😭😭 THE ANGST!! I wasnt expecting any of y/n or changmin’s backstories like yesss gimme that angst <3

the kisses though & him in specs <333333

ANYWAYS IN SHORT I JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVE(D) READING THIS FIC . Imma go read your spin offs soon 🥰 ILY and RAH THAT SUNWOO PIECE LOOKS SO GOOD PLS CONTINUE WRITING IT 🙏🏼🙏🏼 (the excessive emojis is actually making me cringe but I can’t help but use them)

okay fr I’ll be signing off now✨

omg HI ASH JIE SKFBWKNFKD hey ykw i didn't realize u were still going thru liu so it's pretty big news to me 🥴 anyways DJBFKWNDJDJ THANKS FOR READING AND FINISHING OFF THE RECORD :'))) no cuz like,, i genuinely don't know where my ability to write that kind of angst went, like i think i enjoyed writing the Bitterness from that fic a lot ahahha

YES I TOLD U I WOULD GIVE U CHANGMIN IN SPECS AHHAHAHAHAH AND I DELIVERED !! that ending part was to make up for like the 14 chapters of bs i put all of us thru 🤡

THANK U FOR READING IT AGAIN ASH ILYT AND I HOPE U LIKE THE OTHERS !!! omg right the sunwoo thing i posted ,,,, that's another can of worms good lord (´Д⊂ヽ im powering thru it .. i hope .... haha ANYWAYS i hope u got a decent bit of sleep!! and don't worry abt the emojis 💀💀 literally me lmfao

#sungbeam strikes again #moot ❧#ash 🤠#姐姐~💖#need a tag for this chonky series lol #the changmin fic™

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paperstorm · 1 year ago

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Andie I have a very serious and important question for you. what the fuck are you putting in your fics???? It is currently 3:44am and I've been up since 8 but what am I doing? Crying as I read the end of Magnetic North that's what

The thing about me and sports fics is that I know absolutely nothing about sports except for 1 of them so usually they end up in my "Marked for later" for a while. But this is like the third time I've read a sports fic after putting it off to immediately questioning every decision I have ever made

I binged this fic like a fucking maniac but there was a logical part of me that was like "please...the assignment you've been procrastinating for 2 weeks is due tomorrow..." so I forced myself to put it down and go to sleep. That was yesterday. I brought my work with me from downstairs at 1am because "if I'm not gonna be able to sleep might as well finish this and then read Magnetic North the rest of the night" WELL I JUST FINISHED THE FIC AND I'M LITERALLY TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF MY THOUGHTS AND IT IS NOT WORKING-

Coherency...I know how to do that yes. Starting and ending it with Marjan's article was SUCH a nice touch I loved the way she wrote about them!

Also everyone who has ever been mean to TK can line up in an abandoned parking lot...You don't hurt my boy <3 :) . HIS GROWTH??? THAT'S MY POOKIE I'M SO FUCKING PROUD OF HIM??? Picking him up and parting his head as we speak. No but seriously he's so awesome and he's been hurt so much but all he really wants is love 😭. NOW YOU GET TO HAVE SO MUCH OF IT BABY!!! Watching him slowly accept the love and care from others was beautiful. I fucking love fics where a character heals. HIM CHOOSING HIMSELF HELL YEAH YOU GOT THIS! Carlos saying how TK looked healthier and Marjan too!! YES MY BOY IS IN HIS LOVER ERA AND I'M SO SO HERE FOR IT! I am starting to sound like a broken record but he genuinely fills me with so much pride and he's not even real 😭. THE REHABILITATION CENTER!! and he named it after Gwen...I'm so okay about this...

Carlos...where do I even start. I need to hug him let's start there. It broke my heart so badly when he didn't even get the chance to come out on his own terms. That is such a real fear and I honestly saw a part of myself in it. The "questioning everything you do in case someone suspects" If I ever find out who that photographer was...Gabriel won't be the only one who will need an alibi 🩷 NO OF COURSE I'm not bringing knives now that would be absurd wouldn't it? /sarc. He deserves all the love and acceptance actually. I loved the scene where he goes to the ranch after he was outed it was so healing for both Carlos and I actually that's my projection guy ✌️💕. Jkjk. TK commenting how much happier and freer Carlos was...sobbing into my pillow oh my god I'm so proud of him. AND HE WON THAT BIG CHAMPIONSHIP WHATEVER I TOLD YOU IDK SPORTS!

These fuckers got engaged what the fuck is wrong with them I hate them so much no I'm not crying! /lh. The kiss at the parade oh my god I will literally never ever recover from this fic Andie you have broken me. I will never once again be a normal human. I still think about The Firehouse like 23 times a day now Magnetic North will join too

So I did actually end up watching some random hockey highlights so I would have some idea as to what's going on and also oh you used real team players that's cool!! Did not know those people existed in real life but good to know. Now I can say I've read fanfiction with NHL players /j. Okay but srsly the team was absolutely AMAZING!! The way they're all such a family! How supportive they were of Tarlos! Kissing them all on the head (the fictional ones idk about the real ones)!

Okay WOW this got long. There's a reason I typed this in my notes app first. Imma attach my real time reaction to the parking lot kiss here

I am in the car (love being a gay) and I just read the parking lot kiss and my anxiety SPIKED because I was like "no no no they're gonna get outed oh my god NOOOO" TEARS IN MY EYES READING NANCY CALLING THEM UP AND TELLING THEM TO CHECK TWITTER!!! I want that photographer to meet me in an abandoned lot...NO I'M NOT BRINGING KNIVES WHY WOULD YOU EVEN INSINUATE THAT- /sarc (last part)

I have a question! You must be really familiar with Hockey to write this fic. Do you play? /gen

Okay now I will sleep because I'm genuinely very tired. If this doesn't make sense blame it on the fact that I've been up for way too long. I loved this fic Andie, like and insane amount. It's all so beautiful and well rounded and I was so enthralled by it, it's crazy. Thank you for this fic, you're awesome!

All the tone tags I used: (I just have really bad anxiety and don't want anything to be misinterpreted so!)

/sarc: sarcasm

/lh: light-hearted

/j: joking

/gen: genuine

I am a little bit speechless about this 🥺🥺 thank you so so so much, I’m so happy you liked it!! Thank you for taking the time to send this to me, I’m swooning 🤩 and I played a lot of street hockey as a kid but never was on a team or anything, I just watch it a lot!

#911ls asks #magnetic north #paperstorm writes

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dxncingwithastrxnger · 2 years ago

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Okay, okay, so I was tagged in this by both @darkelf-7 and @librathefangirl, so thank you both for tagging me for this!!!

Relationship status: Akshsjska Imma steal Abby's answer for this because yes, I am dating fictional characters and that's about it 💀

Favorite color: Purple!!!! I also really love red, pink, and blue, but purple is my absolute fav, tbh

Song stuck in my head: Uuuhhhh, In The End By Beth Crowley (she's such an underrated artist, go check her out, man)

Favorite food: Eggs and potatoes. Not specifically together, just both of those individual foods. You can do literally anything with them and they taste amazing

Last thing I googled: "everything has changed lyrics", trying to figure out the chapter + overall titles for my next fanfic 😭😭😭

Dream trip: Oooooooo, one that goes to a bunch of different places. I wanna travel everywhere and visit all kinds of places, tbh. But must-haves would be Germany, England, Egypt, and Japan

Anything I want right now: Sleep, food, and friends that I can actually hang out with in person, tbh

#purple_strxnger #tag game #mutuals 💜#about me

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jxnmzko · 18 days ago

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something that kinda pisses me off but i also can’t b pissed off bc of hypocrisy maybe is how like a lot of wlw relationships are soooo like not taken seriously like the hook up culture and all that is a lot to me personally just bc i love the thought of love and every aspect of it and still have hope for something unique and deep. Maybe that’s delusional to some bc of how stuff is now but bruh it pisses me of how i could talk to a girl and it feels like im talking to a whole ass man with the way they perceive relationships and how little commitment and care there is involved. And there’s where the hypocrisy comes in bc although i feel as if i value connections and commitment, in a moment of vulnerability i took advantage of someone who rly did want something with me but at the same time i knew their true intentions weren’t serious with me and i needed that validation bc i was hurt by another girl. It made me feel better bc i didn’t lie about my feelings or past or anything so she was fully aware my feelings were reserved elsewhere but still i took part in the thing i complain about right but i can sit back and acknowledge that and learn from it i guess. Regardless of my feelings not being deep for her i still cared for her and bought her stuff/flowers/ took her on dates/made food for work lunches bc at the end of the day we agreed to b committed and deserve to feel love and cared about . Overall I just hate how little care there is like the point is that i fall in love w u and get to know u deeply and we can both add to each others lives in positive ways. but then again i’m like the worst person for someone to want bc the way i have crushes is crazy and i get so attached and i don’t think someone else deserves an unhealed version of me that i wouldn’t even be able to handle if those deep insecurities i have were to ever form into another being. Like i truly thing the girl i had dated when i was rly going through it was that inner version of myself and it definitely gave me a perspective i wasn’t expecting, and in no way am i trying to bash her but truly she was very toxic and those habits were definitely things i had done in most of my romantic connection. Like i wouldn’t want to be clingy and not trusting overall just insanely overbearing to my partner like they don’t deserve it and neither do i, It has to be something gentle and healing. like so many ppl even her jumped from relationship to relationship and sure some can heal faster than others but if u genuinely CANT fully commit or even be content within yourself and consistently project any of that onto others like take a step back and think is this benefitting me in way long term? or even the other person? like cmon and im trying to heal those parts of myself u know but sometimes when i talk to other ppl this shit just be pissing me off like wdym they’re friends w their ex and hang out without telling u sometimes??? LIKE HUH why is it normal to keep an ex in ur life ? i get under CERTAIN circumstances that could be okay but a lot of time these girls still have feelings involved and can’t let go 😭 this shit is so normalized it’s unfortunate like wdym yall hooked up and have sleep overs every other night and fall asleep on the phone and go on dates but yall aren’t dating TF? i RATHER DIE than go through that and if at any point i even consider dating men again BRUH i will not take birth control ever for nobody and i will not be sexually unfulfilled ever so if that shits trash imma say it and i won’t take any shit like that either. If i’m talking to a girl and i like her then it’s bc i want some gentle real connection i don’t wanna feel like im talking to a selfish man with commitment issues like at that point id rather just actually talk to a man for that

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elevatormusic · 1 year ago

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my first reactions with zero context: only friends ep 9

immediately i thought mew was nick

is that ringing on the show or my ears??

oh show thank god

i imagine you don’t remember shit my guy

okay i understand mew being in his boxers but top? why were you cleaning in your boxers lmao

i never liked them together in the first place so this isn’t anymore fun to watch

no you’re not lol

must’ve stood up too fast. sir i think a grandpa could get up faster then you did😭

maybe get out of the pool tho

school again that’s right they go to school

does nobody else use this room except for sand? the only musician here

why’d he swing the door open like that

man i love angry sand so much

i know ray isn’t acting like this? fucking apologize properly for fucks sake

oh we know

man fuck your feelings

sarcastic king

you don’t like it? sand probably doesn’t like feeling like shit all the time because of you but okay

yes punch him

they are so close to each other. i hope they brushed their teeth before this

oh shit oh damn okay well that’s uh yeah well way more close

but weird that y’all are doing this in public in a glass room

back with the recordings boy these dudes are so annoying recording ppl without consent

but also top?? acting like mew is gonna care that ray is making out with sand?? mans does not have feelings for him. we all know this including you. he looks so dumb💀

back at the red room i’ve missed you

yeah you need practice you can’t fuck everyone before taking their pictures

okay but the red room does not do well for the visuals of the actual actors. it’s kinda hurting my eyes

bi rep bi rep bi rep

okay that seems uncomfortable

atom seems like the obsessive type. i could be wrong but that’s the vibes i’m getting from him

look at them going on a little camping retreat to swear off boys

yeah.

nick said them bitches ain’t never gonna last lmaoo

who just wooed like that and why

you lying piece of shit

*sigh* this dude again

i’m sure he’ll find some way to accuse ray of making him go out again

are we still doing this? when do they break up?

love his shirt

you’re such a liar😭

you’re not even one of the people he loves lol

ew no please someone stop this i beg

kinda yeah

break up break up break up

is that considered a break up?

why are you watching that

dude stop acting like his boyfriend. you were just with yours

sand my king

did you just try to have sex with one dude and get rejected so now you’re going to the one you keep traumatizing?

oh nick you bitch how could you post where y’all were

at least sand knows

dude?? you know he’s like that what??

oh damn yeah actually i’m on boston’s side today besties

why are they talking about pixar😭

nick stop lmao

don’t you’re gonna have to move out

say sike

oh they actually are doing it

oh good lmao but good for them for trying it

first collecting another one

no my guy i don’t think friends actually do that

is that not like invasion of privacy? why is he allowed to just show him where they are?

he also just walked right up in there??

it would be the first time

nick said wait no i’ll save this relationship

also i’m so sorry but did they really look like they were hooking up to him lmao

oh i think you care

are all three of them really gonna fit on that bed?

sir.

sand about to commit a double homicide

THE MOMS

i’m sorry i’m so bored with them imma have to skip

where did nick go lol did they push him off? and how the fuck did ray get on that side of sand

he’s a good wing man at least

why are they just sitting in water

bitch we know

are y’all still sleeping together tho?

you can’t have two important people when they both don’t want that

that guilty ass look

you notice he didn’t say he likes mew too just that he’s important to him

beautiful *chefs kiss* no notes

that’s the look of “oh shit i might actually lose this guy”

oh is he gonna tell him?

or not

oh god no hate that

no not like a father my guy

ooh right in front of ton’s salad

in front of the guy he’s fucking’s salad

hah he is a bad guy tho

lol he done fucked up

none

the latter. i’m being so mean to ray today😭

mans is planning their lives out together

orince ass lol

i’m honestly so confused. is ray still planning on staying with mew or not??

we know you’re whipped for each other

interesting tho. that implies he never felt this way towards mew as he does sand

thank god we’re doing this

crying at him saying everyone knows. like yes dude you’re so obvious

me too

does this mean ray will stop being toxic to sand finally

yeah but the difference is sand will call him out on his shit

is this really happening? beautiful lol

#morgan reacts to things #only friends

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It’s ur “💙” anon coming with part 2 bc she definitely can

Now you see i can’t send photos or gifs but I’ll link them nonetheless u can’t stop me. https://giphy.com/gifs/rihanna-OTbo92zetdsha

Again folks big spoiler alert.

Okay now yelena and levi’s first scene.. um.. why.. why is every possible character so hot dude like!!?!?!!?? I just can’t pick a side without making excuses for the others ughh

“My time in the military shaped me, you know?” She paused. “I had to take lives,” she said in a hushed voice. “Do you know what that’s like?” The switchblade grew heavier in Levi’s pocket. Then an air of understanding passed between him and Yelena in the silence. Levi dipped his hand into his pocket. “Yes.”

This scene… the tension.. i felt everything in every single part of my body istg KW i was screaming and jumping while chewing on my nails until i reached skin it was this good!! I really loved the way they just understood each other it was like “nothing personal, I’m doing my job.” There was an air of idk.. respect and kind of acceptance with a hint of challenge.. i loved it so much

Now back to My fallen angel and the stinky hairy stalkiest asshole in the universe..

Yes he’s a jerk, but a very cunning and nothing-near-stupid one.. he in-fact scared me at some point i gotta admit, because the way he connects the dots is.. wow

“You are already thinking of all the ways you can kill me because you will never be able to shed that part of you.”

“A million and one things raced through your mind, and you were ashamed that more than half of those things were trying to figure out how to kill Mathias. ”

NO BECAUSE I WHEEZED MY LUNGS OUT😭😭😭 https://giphy.com/gifs/PotatoITV-e4-coach-trip-celebrity-ghost-WiCahQsVaUjksEn7aT MY BABY PLANNED HIS MURDER IN 12928 DIFFERENT LANGUAGES😭😭😭 And as she should!!

Fast forward you see.. i should’ve knew things are going down when levi whispered “The die had been cast” i should’ve realized this but i didn’t and that’s why when mathias stabbed kilian i gasped out loud… i felt my heart breaking with her and you see it’s not for the fact that she was actually dying this bitch don’t die.. i mean because she was distracted by the thought of levi getting hurt and that was the meanest most heartbreaking thing I’ve read in a while.. and you know what’s the cherry on top? THINKING THAT SHE DOESNT DESERVE HAPPINESS.. imma kms that’s it..

You couldn’t speak, feeling nothing but pain and heat and heat and pain. It burnt through your body hot even as you felt yourself growing colder. You thought of Levi and tears welled in your eyes

Your description made me feel every single word istg>>>

And Of course i was a sobbing mess while I’m reading her crawling across the floor all bloodied to reach levi, and of course i cried myself to sleep when she reached him, and definitely i screamed in agony once you mentioned orpheus and eurydice again…

Oh and let’s not talk about once levi reached her because it’ll be my last straw..

Levi was never a religious man, but he understood religion when he was with you. With you, Levi understood the temptation that Eve faced in the garden. With you, Levi even understood how angels could fall from grace. With you, Levi understood words he never did before to an exceptionally profound level; words like devotion, redemption, and prayer.Levi wasn’t a religious man, but he learned how to truly pray that night without even meaning to. One single solemn request, the most pious prayer he would ever attempt. “Wake up, sweetheart.”

KW WE CANT NORMALIZE YOU WRITING THIS GOOD OKAY YOUR WORDS ARE ACTUAL DAGGERS ATP THEY ARE CUTTING THROUGH MY SOUL.. AND WDYM WAKP UP SWEETHEART KW DID YOU SPECIALIZE IN CUNTOLOGY WRTING CLASS???? HELLO MISS THATS FORBIDDEN OKAY SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP LITERALLY SHAKING IN AGONY https://giphy.com/gifs/absurdnoise-horror-woman-7ztt6QLRy4PBu

Now ehem next Chapter whohohooooo🤩🤩

The last thing i expected was the chapter going this way tbh.. you see it reminded me of LDBS most heartbreaking chapters that Im never forgetting because they affected me so much.. “about her, where it started, where it ends.” The holy trinity of greif, i felt like i was reading them but now the hurt was pro max because your writing and descriptions are more.. descriptive

Also lmao zeke holding a gum😭😭😭 i knew it was a fever dream when you mentioned it😭😭😭 and the fact that killian cares about him enough to see him, dude if you planned murder during this chapter it would’ve been easier but ofc ofc you wanted to torture us. https://giphy.com/gifs/portlandia-season-2-episode-3-xT1R9SJiGMLJFB5YKA

Now.. annie?? Kw why are you like this and how you know how to connect things perfectly like that it’s pretty iconic tbh!!!

I don’t really know what to say anymore.. but each paragraph was really killing me in every possible way.. i really wished killian was able to see how much people cares about how, not just levi, whom she thinks she doesn’t deserve, but annie, erwin, Isabelle, farlan, eren, i really wished she knew how much they love her, maybe then she’ll know that she deserves every single good thing in this universe, my baby suffered a-lot and that’s why i admire her, if this was an actual novel killian would for sure be the best female mc in terms of surviving, and as levi said: Still, you were nothing if not a survivor. She really is. Our fallen angel🥹💙💙

They’d nicknamed you the “fallen angel,” because you looked exactly like one when you arrived. One of the crash team members said afterwards that if they weren’t so concerned about saving your life, they would have shed a tear for having to cut up your beautiful gown.

I giggled in between my tears when i read this, kw never beating the fashionista allegations even on her death bed which is like a huge slayyyyy she’s a freaking queen💙💙 our fashion icon. I really loved the interaction between annie and levi, you really wrote them so well because.. i don’t know if im the only one who feels this but you know when you’re reading a chapter or a scene and be like.. “yes, this is how things are supposed to be going” from how perfect the writing and writer is? That’s what i felt and still feel every time i read one of your works!!🥹💙

When you woke up again, your face was pressed into a couch that smelt powdery and warm. It was a familiar scent but you couldn’t pinpoint it to someone specifically. As you ran your nails along the green and pink floral upholstery, you felt like you were somewhere you once called home.

Kw you really need to give me lessons on how to describe things, like genuine question how do you make your writing feel.. so so alive, like the words are beating and moving i feel them🥹

Before you could ask her anything more, protest, or move, she took her wooden spoon out of the pot and shoved a sip of it into your mouth, holding your chin as she did.

Sophia?… https://giphy.com/gifs/mafs-sRFFCzAey4IatfTOnQ .. yeah i cried so much then, or not literally but my eyes teared up fr, i need a hug.. https://giphy.com/gifs/portlandia-season-1-episode-6-xT1R9SLI3qYhVbmeQg.

When Eren came by to visit, the first thing he did was make sure to drop some of your favorite chicken lemon soup off to you.

I love love love the way you move from a scene to another, and seeing eren this chap was the most pleasing surprise ever!, he’s a goof ball i love him sm my baby🥹💙💙 I’m sure everything is gonna get better after his appearance i—

Especially when it came to you. Especially when it came to the both of you. The two of you were so used to having the rug pulled out from under you, from having the other shoe drop, from having your lives blown up just at its happiest point, that to not expect the worst almost felt naive.

*gets hit by this paragraph like a truck and starts screaming uncontrollably* https://giphy.com/clips/neonrated-neon-rated-films-ofYZSv3fjXVrvpwlAL

WILL MY SUFFERING EVER END—

“You should’ve brought some clothes for Kilian,” Levi said. It was a knee-jerk reaction, one that surprised both him and Erwin. It was more hopeful than Levi intended for it to be, but he took that as a good thing. He could only hope Erwin wouldn’t make a big deal out of it.

“You seem really happy, Sophia,” you said, turning to her with a smile as you placed the picture back down. “Peaceful almost.”

“You,” she said in English. “Because of you.” ”

“I love you. And I promise I’ll help you finish cooking when I wake up. I might just close my eyes for a bit if that’s okay,” you gestured to the couch, feeling sleep washing over you like a tide in the ocean shore.”

Oh will it seems not never-mind.. https://giphy.com/gifs/bigbrothernlbe-kyXSJ1yPFHZ88W3v79

Now.. farlan and levi, first of all I’m glad he’s not sad anymore or hurt, but i feel like this isn’t the end of it, or maybe was this scene a closure? I’m not sure, but i loved his interaction with levi so much!!!

You know when I first met her, she went by a different name,” Farlan continued as he came into the room, trying his best to change the subject so that Levi wouldn’t keep worrying over you. “But I think Kilian suits her much more.” “What name did she go by instead?” Levi asked, not even shocked that you had somehow crossed paths with Farlan before. “Oh, she went by Annie,” Farlan shrugged. This managed to somehow get a laugh out of Levi for some reason.

That was so cute in some way🥹 i love them so much kw u don’t understand!!!

U don’t understand how much i hate you

“I’ve been waiting for you.”You froze at the sound. He was so kind, so patient, so sweet—you would’ve recognized his voice even with your eyes closed. “Lucas?”

That’s so mean.. that’s literally evil, like omg HOW DARE YOU WE DONT TALK ABOUT WHO-COULDNT-BE-NAMED ANYMORE

“I–” you paused, trying to find your words but finding that they weren’t coming out the right way. “I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever. You left me, that’s not right,” you pouted.

“Yes, you’re wrong,” Lucas said, shaking his head at you in an affectionate manner. “I’m always with you.”

WHY JUST WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AUAUAGQYAAKSJSJAJAJAJAJ https://giphy.com/gifs/crying-woman-12OloSxMpkEoSI

Levi did not leave your side, not once.

KW I HATE YOUUUUY AHAHHAHHHHHHHHHGHGGGG *insert eren infamous scream*

You hesitated, feeling a sense of warmth coming from behind the door. “Well do you know what’s behind it?” you stood up onto your tippy-toes as if it would help you get a better look. “It’s not what you think,” Lucas confirmed softly. “I promise.”Faltering again, you found that your feet would not move. “But what if I’m not ready?”Lucas shook his head at you, and squeezed your hand again. “You’ve always been ready.” Tears welled in your eyes as the water continued to wash over your feet. “What if I don’t deserve what’s behind that door?”

Kw as much as i love your brilliant mind please.. this hurts like a bitch please dont do it again.. lucas, the way killian cried when she saw him, i don’t know what to say, i just can feel it but i can’t describe it, and you know that a writing is so good when it leaves you speechless like yours did to me now🥹💙💙

When you blinked your eyes open, the first person you saw was Levi. His smile was bright and warm. It made you feel weightless. It made you feel loved. You smiled back, albeit weakly. Levi squeezed your hand gently, still smiling. “Welcome back, sweetheart,” he whispered.

Ending the chapter with welcome back when the last was “wake, up sweetheart.” I SEE WHAT YOUR DOING KW I SEE IT

And i really appreciate it, i would like to thank you so so much for writing these new chapters and blessing us with your amazing, wonderful, beautiful, mesmerizing writing voice and style and descriptions as a whole, thank you really, to me you are my role model in writing, and i aspire to be like you or just make people feel the same way your words make me feel, i really appreciate it and please never stop writing.. never leave us kw because the fan fic writers community needs you my hidden gem.. we need your characters, scenes, gut wrenching stories and everything. If i could thank you in 60 different languages, express my love and admire you in every possible way i would’ve done it, but i know it won’t give you enough credit and it won’t come close to the feelings i go through reading your works. https://giphy.com/gifs/anime-love-bQATeUxCoCFr2

I love you so much kw!!💙💙 https://giphy.com/gifs/love-i-you-that-70s-show-2dQ3FMaMFccpi

Your lovely “💙” anon, hope i be the reason you smile once today, thank you again💙💙💙

My love again!! Gonna answer you underneath the cut 🥹❤️

LMAO @ Yelena being hot. You know what I think it is? The story itself (STH & LDBS) is a very sensual, sexy story. That's kind of the vibes I have in my mind every time I sit down to write it. It's meant to be dark, noir, and sexy, so without meaning to--everything ends up being quite sexy LOL, including characters who aren't main characters.

Also you ABSOLUTELY smashed your interpretation of the scene between Yelena and Levi. That was exactly what I wanted to establish; an understanding. The scene you highlighted in particular was a shared understanding that whatever was about to transpire was not personal. It was a warning of, "hey, I'm going to do whatever I have to do to get my job done," on both ends, and the other person being like, "yeah, and so will I." You are so right when you say there was an understanding, respect, acceptance, AS WELL as a challenge. Juxtaposing the shared notion of both of them having taken lives before was also both of them saying without saying that they are not afraid to kill the other person if it comes down to it (and it did).

And YES. Mathias is such a keen observer. I think all of you always got the sense that he "monitored" people but thought of it in the sense of cameras when it's actually much more literal. He doesn't have to resort to those kinds of things because he catches a lot just by being in peoples' presences. Not only is he trying to get under her skin and make her think she hasn't changed, he's trying to taunt her to hurt him because he wants to prove to her that she is the monster he THINKS she is. You know Kilian hasn't killed anyone in a very long time, but she definitely never lost her touch and could have easily killed him had she not gotten distracted. Like you said, it was the thought of Levi being hurt that distracted her. She was ready to go in for her kill but nothing mattered once she thought something happened to Levi. She loves him more than anything, and in that moment the only thing that mattered was his safety, not hers. In a different situation, Levi would have absolutely done the same thing. And yes, you hit the nail on the head! Her battle with not knowing whether or not she deserves happiness is an on-going one, and although she has changed a lot, sometimes those self-destructive behaviors never really go away.

Sgfsoghs, I did a lot of research into stab wounds and what they felt like. So the fact that you could feel it! 🤌🏼💋 I really wanted that chapter to feel like a knife twist, in every sense of the word so LMFAOOO I'M SORRY 🤣. Now you see why I initially wanted to release it in a double update! I felt horrible to leave you all that way without a sigh of relief in the next chapter, but it seems like you all went through the feels despite that.

And ahhh, thank you so much for your wonderfully kind words! That holy trinity chapter in LDBS was one of the hardest things to write, and in a way, chapter 14 was definitely a trail off of that because I had to tap into similar emotions of walking back to your past so that you could move forward and heal. I definitely think my writing has changed now compared to then so I'm so glad you could feel it differently!

The gum was the funniest part to me, and I honestly added it in for a silly touch and a laugh! Dreams are so silly. I thought it only made sense to introduce you to it with a giggle because it's so out there, it's so odd, and that is EXACTLY how you know it is a dream. I'm so happy you touched on the fact that Kilian only saw Zeke in her dream because she DOES care about him. That is 100% true. And yes, you're right. Kilian murdering Mathias would've been so much easier, but I never do anything easy!

Eee, you are too sweet! I love connecting things and bringing people back. Annie and Farlan were teased to come back WAAY early if you caught any of Isabel's dialogue when she spoke about her friends. You bring up a great point too, hopefully in future chapters, Kilian CAN see how loved she is, not just by Levi but by other people. She means so much to me as a character and I think it comes across each time I go to write her. She isn't perfect, she has flaws, but there is something about her that makes you root for her because I try so hard to touch on her human side as well as her darker sides.

I'm really so happy to know that you all laughed at the purposeful jokes I placed in chapter 14, too. I KNEW it was heavy so I also knew in between it, I had to give you all some light-hearted moments too. That little mention of the dress/fallen angel thing also meant a lot to me to put in because I really wanted to show the banter that happens between people who work in hospitals--the jokes and the humor amongst the horror--because I think that's kind of the only way you can get through the day sometimes after doing something as powerful as saving someone's life or helping someone.

Thank you so much for saying that about Annie and Levi's scene! 🥺 I really loved writing that scene because I could quite literally imagine their characters interacting like that and talking to each other like that, so it means the world to me that it felt like that was how things were supposed to be. You are really too kind.

And I'm always happy to help with writing questions if you have them! Honestly I just have an incredibly vivid imagination of characters and who they are. So when I think of how to write them, I think of everything outside of them--what their home smells like, what kind of furniture they like, how they dress, what they like to listen to--I think all of that helps things "come alive", so to speak. So thank you for saying that as well my love!!

Adding Sophia in definitely killed me but not as much as you know who, who I know you touch on later LMFAO so I will GLADLY offer you a hug.

I honestly love writing Eren in this universe, specifically his connection to Kilian. They don't share as many scenes in this story, but the love they have for each other is there and clearly unbroken and I love coming back to it.

Also, I'm SCREAMING at all of your gifs, you were not joking when you said you went through all 5 stages of grief LMFAO ❤️❤️❤️😭😭😭😭.

As for Farlan and Levi's scene, there is definitely a little more to happen before we get to a full closure, although we're definitely on the way there. Obviously can't spoil anything. But you are right when you say he's not sad or hurt anymore. He's moved on! The only thing is, has Kilian moved on from what she's done to him (hence why she always hid from him every time she saw him)? There's a little more to explore there but it will be touched on (trust me, it's allll planned LOL). That part with Levi laughing @ Kilian's fake name was such a treat to write also. Because he would immediately understand where she got her fake name from and why she chose that to give to Farlan. He made all the connections without even needing further explanation and laughed because he knows his girl better than anyone.

Also... Lucas. I know. I KNOW. I KNOW. I HATE MYSELF. LMFAO I CAN'T EVEN READ THAT SCENE AGAIN WITHOUT CRYING. Honestly, why did I do that to MYSELF is the better question. Because lord! Kilian loves Lucas so much, every time we go back to him, it is a source of pain. That is her deepest childhood wound but also her greatest childhood joy, so to quite literally "swim" back to him was her going back to herself to heal. He told her everything she needed to hear in order to know that he was okay, he never faulted her for what happened, and his life was joyous despite being short. By seeing him again and essentially forgiving herself, Kilian could wake up because she was no longer fighting this idea that she didn't deserve to be loved, hence the end quote in chapter 14. "Open the door. Love was on the other side and it was terrifying. Open the door." I wanted it to seem like this whole time that what was on the other side was possibly death--hence the warm light emanating from behind it--but really, it was just love. Kilian had to realize that she still had a life to live because she is so loved. So loved. She deserves to be loved. So walk through the door.

Ending the chapter with welcome back when the last was “wake, up sweetheart.” I SEE WHAT YOUR DOING KW I SEE IT

LMFAOOOO OSHGFOSH. 🌚 Do you now? But seriously, I want to thank you for both of your beautiful, beautiful, asks. You are such a lovely person, and I cannot express how much I appreciate you. You have recharged my writing spirit, made my day, and have been such a light these past two days. It means the world to me that I can touch your soul with my writing, and I truly mean it when I say it, the door is always open for writing questions ANY TIME you have them. Seriously.

I hope to write for as long as the spirit fuels me, and although my relationship with it truthfully waxes and wanes, a lot has happened recently to make me see that it is something that ignites my soul. And in igniting my own spirit, I can ignite others and touch their hearts and that is something that is truly invaluable.

Seriously, I love YOU so much, 💙 anon! You absolutely were another reason to smile today. I'm smiling now even as I head to bed. Thank you. I cherish you so much. You are always welcome to gush in my inbox, about anything, any time.

#asks #💙 anon

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yandereloversblog · 2 years ago

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Idk how many characters are ur limit 😭 so imma just put in Yandere Bonten and Yandere first Gen Black dragons in this context:

It’s basically a dream I had 😭: in my dream I was arguing with Andrew tate when he came up to me at a store yelling racial slurs (I’m Asian) and I said he look like the crust of an unwiped asshole and he turned into a toliet paper and suddenly I was being surrounded by tiny ppl (size of a mice) who demanded that I give them an apple which I didn’t have and I said no- but bc I said no I started a WW3 with the mini mice ppl, carrot ppl and pigeons- so I’m being chased my all three bc I didn’t give them apples which I didn’t have and then got captured by the pigeons. Then I was being dragged to their supreme leader which were 15ft teletabbies that then ask if I had apples- I said no again and then the teletabbies demanded that I Mario kart race them FR. So I was sent to a actual Mario kart race lap where I was now going aginst the teletabbies and I almost got my car shelled 5 times. I won first place but bc I did now the teletabbies are after me personally so I was now in a driving chase with these teletabbies, mjcw , carrot and pigeon ppl . I kept racing to this purple door where I went pass it and I woke up

Basically Yandere Bonten and Yandere first Gen BD being in my dream while experiencing and waking up after hc 😭 I think that’s the best way to write this. Also honestly if my Yandere gonna be with me irl may as well deal with my crack dreams

𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄!𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧, 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐬 1𝐬𝐭 𝐆𝐞𝐧

What in God's name did I read 😭😭😂😂 bro lemme tell you something- imagine you call them late at night or suddenly wake up, not only scare them but then also tell them your dream? This is how it's boutta go and since the situations would be pretty similar I merged them.

Him: Andrew Tate?

You: Oh yeah, he's actually a real person.

Him: Who the fuck- How do you know him and why is he in your dreams!?

You: Oh no *completely serious* I hate his guts and I hope he dies, he's an asshole

Him:... Continue.

You: *Continues telling their dreams*

Him: *Looks like they're calmly listening but in their mind they're just like* 'Andrew fucking Tate, you dare soil my darling's dream? If I ever see you it's on sight you bitch.'

They just heard you be dreaming about another person regardless and now that random person has a target on their back: Mikey, Wakasa

Him:... Okay *carefully letting the collar around your neck a little loose* I think we should go easier on the drugs from now on.

What in devil's crack did you smoke to get a dream like that? Luckily now you get a little more privileges: Ran, Benkei, Takeomi [Bonten]

Him: You know what lemme tell you something- I had a dream like that but I was getting chased by pirates instead with their ship because I tried to steal one of their treasures but the treasure has your face carved on it so I had to- like they were riding a big ass ship and chasing me on the desert while I ran in that hot sun but get what, I fell in a sandhole and then ended up in Wal-Mart but these big birds were around me- Like I think they were called ostriches and they were wearing staff clothes but because I was human THEY started chasing me-

If he has to hear about your crack dream, so do you: Shinichiro

Him: But like Andrew Tate is such a bitch.

You: I know right? Then this happened- *continues*

Him: You were at a fucking store, you could've just ran to the next aile get an apple!?

You: I forgot! Anyways- *continues*

Him: And now you caused WW3- These bitches just thirsty for apples, like damn go get it yourself 🙄

You: Right!? Like why get me to do that!?

Gets a little too invested in your dreams and will probably bash any dream entity he doesn't like: Rindou, Sanzu [especially if he's on drugs]

Him: Sweetheart go back to bed, we'll figure what that means later.

Probably just came back for a job and now puts you to sleep, gonna get a dream book to see what the fuck you just said and try to decode it cuz it was funny: Kokonoi, Mocchi, Takeomi [Black Dragons]

Him: Don't worry sweetie, whether that Andrew Tate bothers you, those small stuff, teletabbies or WW3 I'll protect you in your dreams too so let's go back to sleep.

Probably half asleep, but trying to listen to you until he just gives up and cuddles you to bed again: Kakucho

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moodyclouds89 · 3 years ago

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Mikey x gn! Reader

Angst

[Reader is a member of toman]

Might be ooc but I tried😭

Part 2 Part 3

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He looks happy

You thought. You were watching Mikey and Sora Laughing and joking around. The Toman meeting ended 10 minutes ago and you decided to stay with the rest to just hang out for a bit.

But then while you were talking to Mikey and Draken, Sora, a girl from your school who recently started talking to Mikey, decided to come and visit.

"Oh mikey!" She yelled and waved her hand around with a big smile on her face.

This got his attention which made him turn around and a smile made its way to his lips.

"Oh sora! What are you doing here?" He said while walking towards her. They both started a conversation while laughing and joking around with each other.

That's how you're here now. Staring at them both.

"You okay?" Draken said while looking at you which made you stop looking at the 2 and to draken.

"Oh yeah I'm fine" you said and gave him a smile. "Imma go, my mom might get worried if I stay out too late." You said before walking down the stairs and hopping on your motorcycle.

No one knew you liked Mikey. You were good at hiding your feelings and never made it obvious that you liked the blonde.

does he like her?

you thought while making your way home. This was a question you always ask yourself when mikey and sora started getting closer. He would always talk about her when you and draken would go over to his house to hang for a bit. Blush when her name is mentioned and would get jealous when he would see some guys hitting on her.

You finally arrived home and got off your bike. Walking up to the door and unlocking it you saw that the lights were off and everything was quiet.

She probably asleep

You thought and walked in before quietly closing and locking the door. You made your way upstairs and to your room before changing out of your gang uniform and to something comfortable . You made your way towards your bed before lying down and going to sleep.

"Dear get up, it's time for school!" Your mom said while knocking on the door, making you get up.

"You better be up!" She yelled one last time before making her way downstairs.

"Okay!" You yelled back before getting up and going to the bathroom to do your morning routine. Once you are done you put on your school uniform and grab your things before making your way downstairs.

"Come and eat your breakfast!" Your mom said. You sat down and she gave you your plate before you started eating. Once you are done you grab your plate and put it in the sink before telling your mom goodbye and walking towards the door to put on your shoes.

"Oh I forgot to tell you!" Your mom said while you were mid way out the door.

"What is it?" You asked

"I'm going to get off work a little later than usual so I'll have some food prepared for you when you come back." She said, You nodded before saying goodbye and closing the door. You walk towards your motorcycle and got on before making your way to school.

Finally arriving, you park your motorcycle and got off before walking to the school doors. You heard a motor engine and turn around to see mikey and sora. She was getting off his motorcycle before thanking him for giving her a ride to school. You could see the blush on his cheeks when she thanked him. You turn back around before going inside the building.

"Hey y/n do you like anybody?" Hina said. You, hina and takemichi were on the rooftop eating since it was break.

"Like anyone? No." You said before you continued eating again. "Aww come on! How come you don't have a crush!" She whined. You were debating whether or not to tell her that you did indeed like someone.

"Can you both keep a secret?" You ask them both. They looked at each other confused but nodded at you that yes they can keep a secret. You took a deep breath before speaking.

"I do...actually like someone." You said quietly before getting back to eating. Hina gasps in excitement.

"Omg really?! Who who who!" She said, eager to know who you liked.

"Promise not to tell anyone." You said. She quickly nodded her head.

"I like mikey." You said. You looked to see their reaction and you saw hina with her jaw to the floor and takemichi choking on his food. She then squealed in excitement.

"OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH! OH MY GOSH!" She said which made you tell her to quiet down.

"Sorry sorry." She said, Then they both looked at you and started asking millions of questions like *you like mikey?!* When did you start to like him??* Are you ever going to tell him how you feel??* and more.

"No, I'm not going to tell him." You said before looking down to your lap.

"Huh? Why not!" They both said at the same time. "Because he likes sora." You said.

"Sora? You mean the girl from our school???" "Yeah her."

"What makes you think that?" Takemichi said. " because I've seen how he looks at her. He looks at her with so much love and adoration, when me and draken hang out with him he talks about her all the time. Blushes when her name is mentioned and gets jealous when she talks to another guy." They both looked at you with sad eyes.

"It's best that I keep this secret and not tell him." You said before the bell rang and you got up to leave. Before doing that you turn around to look at them.

"Keep it a secret and don't let anyone know." You said before walking away.

School ended and you started making your way home before you heard your name get called. You look to see that it was mikey and draken.

"Y/n y/n y/n!" Mikey said while running up to you. "Oh hi mikey" you said.

"Why do you look extra happy today?" You asked. He only smiled before saying.

Sora said yes to being my girlfriend!

You look at him with a little shock before you smile.

"That great mikey!"

No it wasn't great.

After talking for a bit you started going home. Finally at home you ran to your room. You sat down on the floor just thinking.

I knew this would happen but why does it hurt so much?

You thought. Tears then started sliding down your cheeks before you broke into a sobbing mess.

You cried for the rest of the day. Your heart is aching in pain. Knowing that the person you loved the most doesn't love you back but someone else who isn't you.

Though about this while listening to, no me queda mas by selena quintanilla.

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