my mother wasn't the first to cry when I was born.
Of course, I didn't know this, but it's a small anecdote my parents love telling me. Even though I tore her open, my mother never shed a tear. No, it was my dad that cried when he held me.
"Full-on sobbing," my mom told me, laughing the entire time. "Your father has always been a crybaby." My dad never refuted this, just smiling like he could never imagine not crying.
Now I wonder who it was that cried first, my mom or my dad, when faced with the remains of my body, lifeless and broken beyond repair- like a ragdoll that got used one too many times.
Maa, they broke my hips, crushed my glasses so they stuck into my eyes, walked all over me with their boots, tortured me for their pleasure and had their way with my body, then strangled me to death. Left me there on full display to rot. But can you still call me your pari one more time?
Paa, they used me because I was a girl. Had I been a boy they would have killed me but kept my dignity, but unfortunately, I'm not a boy, so did that mean I am not deserving of even a dignified death? nine to ten of them Paa, I couldn't even see most of them- can you still call me meri bachi once more?
I don't know what I did wrong, Maa, I only ever listened to your words. I couldn't stand what they were doing in that building. Paa, I've always been your brave girl, the one who couldn't stand injustice. Do you wish I had stayed quiet on this? Do you think I may have survived if I acted like I didn't see?
I promise I didn't do anything wrong Paa, I never meant any harm. I swear I didn't tempt them Maa, I had my kurta and my doctor's coat.
My stethoscope broke Maa. My doctor's coat is red now.
Please forgive me.
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hello today i’m thinking about the parallels between fujlup and lupzeni
fujiko and lupin’s relationship is a game. they both know the rules, they both know how it goes. they team up, fujiko betrays lupin, he acts upset and vows to never team up with her again, she flirts her way back into his good graces, rinse and repeat.
it’s a game they both enjoy. they wouldn’t still be playing it if they didn’t. and, as bizarre as it may look from the outside, it’s how they express their love for each other, albeit in an unconventional way.
lupin and zenigata’s relationship is a game, too. likewise, they both know how it goes, and in true episodic lupin fashion, it happens more or less the same every time. lupin announces a heist, zenigata pulls out all the stops to catch him, sometimes they’re forced to team up for a while, but ultimately lupin gets away just in the nick of time through some ridiculous scheme, leaving zenigata to keep chasing after him.
and it’s made very clear to us that, despite everything, this is a game that both of them very much enjoy, too. we see it again and again in different parts and movies- something keeps zenigata from interfering and lupin becomes despondent and bored with how easy everything is, or lupin’s captured/“dead”/otherwise absent and zenigata quickly becomes restless and unhappy as he has nothing to do. he’s devoted his life to chasing lupin, after all. isn’t that a kind of love, too?
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does anyone else have moments where you look at someone in ur notifs and you’re like, not sure if someone that follows you was like, a mutual that you never talked to that you maybe accidentally unfollowed, or if they weren’t ever a mutual but you just got so used to seeing them in ur notifs / you have a lot of overlap in the tags you post in lol
I can think of like 5+ people where I start to go like 🤨… WERE we mutuals…???
Especially during the April fools booping like that button was so close to the follow/unfollow like what if I unfollowed a mutual and didn’t notice !!! Or gained a mutual accidentally LOL
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I am very, very curious about your opinions on ZoSanLu or ZoLawLu 👀
omg this is a deeply loaded question... partially because i have very specific dynamics that i like(???) for these ships that--now that i think about it, are actually the same dynamic. just.... zolu + a third pathetic man in love with luffy, basically. i don't really vibe with zosan in any serious shipping context, but i do love one-sided sanlu purely for the melodramatic potential of the world's most depressed rat pining after the monkey d. luffy. zolawlu has similar a foundation imo (zolu + loser), but i also could see that ship working as like a... friends with benefits thing. the in-universe politics of two captains in an actual relationship still makes lawlu pretty unbelievable for me, but again... one-sided pining? i'm absolutely here for that. i eat that shit up. my fave. incidentally, this is also the worst (funniest) possible context for sanlaw to happen. real pathetic4pathetic energy from two guys desperate for someone brilliant and unattainable.
in my beautiful world, everyone is a little bit in love with luffy and also a little bit heartbroken that he's sharing a brain with zoro 24/7. pretty much everything else revolves around that lol.
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“ You wanted to forget it all, I bet. “ (for Ann)
↳ B THE BEGINNING SENTENCE STARTERS
The words hang in the air like a dark cloud or thick fog despite the sun that shines down on the refuge that The Beach is in these hopeless lands. People are laughing and cheering in the background; music blasts, people splash in the pools, and drinks pour freely. In the sunny days like this and on nights when one didn't have to participate in a game, it would seem like paradise. ( Yet few truly knew the dark underbelly of this place. Even paradise was not all what it appeared. ) The horrors denied for a little while.
You wanted to forget it all, I bet.
Ann knows to keep her mouth shut when it came to her PREVIOUS occupation. It made no difference in this world what anyone was, but she was not inclined to put a target on herself. Even now she has not said such. But that sentiment...that seemed to be something that everyone here had clung to. At least those that were still alive. Painted nails lace together and she glances over at the other woman from where she sits on the steps, eyes hidden beneath the dark shades of her sunglasses.
" That seems to be one of the few things us survivors tend to have in common. No desire for the previous world, or a desire to escape it, to go somewhere else from our previous lives, or relationships, or duties. " ESCAPISM...Would they have still yearned for it if they knew this is what they would get? Most might claim no, but she's not sure that's really the truth.
She'd never hated her previous life. But...it had been lonely. No friends, no fun fridays out, no real family connections that were regularly maintained. And she'd admit she'd become bitter in a way to the world. What was the point of it all? No matter how much work she did, more crimes came in. Depraved, hideous crimes. It wasn't unexpected when it came to the yakuza, the gangs, the families. But when INNOCENT people were caught, when poor girls and children were victims of horrific and sick minds... It would be a lie to say she saw the world the same.
" I don't know about forget. " Ann says after a minute, the words carefully picked and analyzed before uttered. " But I admit. I suppose a part of me was envious of people who could still see the world with optimism and light. I disliked the world I was in, the things that I saw. I was unhappy with it. Maybe some part of me did wish to forget, though I never could. I never would either, even if I was given the opportunity. " What she did was too important to be SELFISH like that. " And you? " She asks. " I take it you were not overly fond of some situation or part of your life either. " / @cartelheir
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Can people stop pretending an m/f pairing between two bisexuals is the same as an m/f pairing between straight people AND can you stop pretending the former is just as prevalent as the later?
Because I haven't been able to find a single m/f pairing between two bisexuals in animated media. To be honest I haven't been able to find a single bixbi m/f pairing in non-animated media, because for whatever reason we usually get paired off with straight or gay people.
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awhen you get a little wine tipsy at a work event and then come home to scroll through recent raylan/boyd chat shenanigans with @rubdown
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AND!!!!!! AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the inherent disconnect between him and his childhood friend. both of them wanting to fight for GOOD, but due to their personalities & outlooks on life, their ideas of how to do that are so very different. flynn believes that the law is meant to be good, and so to fight evil he must uphold the law. yuri sees that the law has weaknesses, is Created by the strong to subjugate the weak, and so he works outside of it when he sees a situation is Clearly wrong. and flynn fundamentally disagrees with that, creating CONFLICT that is so fucking delicious, and just
uughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this GAME
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