#one star bc of his name too………..gosh….

[swordmaid]

nothing in the world belongs to me, but my love, all mine.

[alizayildiz]

Announcement: I don’t know who sent me a request bc it was anonymous but girl if you see this I misse posting too. But my exams are over and I’m back on posting regularly. I have to write a few requests on Wattpad and I’ll upload them on tumblr too!

This one is especially made for you!

Summary: Kenan’s thinks you can’t come to watch his important football game due to both of y’all’s schedules. However you manage to surprise him.

„Miss Yildiz, what a beautiful surprise that you showed up" Coach Montella spoke as he pulled me into a hug.

I don't know since when but it's gotten into a habit that everyone calls me by Kenan's last name. Not that I mind it, I quite enjoy it and to be honest Kenan does too.

Yildiz.

"Well, I try my best to support you guys" I speak as Coach Montella and I walk towards the VIP Lounge of the Allianz Stadium in Berlin.

After the Turkish National Team won 3:1 against Georgia they now play against Czechia. Normally they would play against Portugal but something came up with them and now it's Turkey vs. Czechia.

And normally I would be in New York City right now having a photos shoot for Victoria's Secret. A massive brand with a good name.

But I decided to reschedule the photo shoot. It costed me many nerves and phone calls to reschedule it but in the end I managed to do so.

I wanted to support Kenan through this entire European championship and that didn't work from the beginning on.

Because I missed the opening match against Georgia, he even scored a goal. So now I try my best to make up for it.

Kenan has always been my biggest supporter at everything you do in life. So it's only fair that I'm his biggest supporter too.

As Coach Montella talks me through the details of  today's match I can't get my mind of the fact that Kenan's ex girlfriend Karlotta will be here too.

I absolutely despise that girl not only for what she has done to Kenan but also for that she has done to me.

„So five minutes before the game ends security will walke up with you to the pitch, is that alright ?" Montella speaks looking at me for an answer.

„Absolutely, yes, thank you" I speak smiling at Kenan's coach before the man leaves.

As I walk around the VIP lounge I make myself comfortable, one hour until the game stars and two hours till the game ends.

My outfit was simple but yet elegant, knowing that Kenan prefers if I walk around more elegantly than slutty.

After plugging my phone into the charger I open my Spotify playlist, good thing that these VIP boxes are sound proof.

Not so sound proof when Kenan fucks me in here though...

Opening the refrigerator I pull out a redbull and wash myself some fruits like strawberries and cranberries.

After placing them nicely on a plate I walk to the couch and let myself fall on it.

Gosh, sitting feels good.

I grab my iPad from my handbag and start to work online.

~

As planned I got done with everything I had on my to do list for today.

As I stood up I looked down at the pitch, the Turkish National team singing their national anthem.

Kenan was the tallest player in the team, he was also starting in the first eleven lineup. After finishing singing they positioned them for team pictures.

In the first one Kenan had the post serious face ever, probably because he thinks I'm in New York and not here at his game.

The second picture turned out more motivated, still his smile dropped instantly as the cameras got away from his face.

The Czech people took their time with their national anthem as well as with taking pictures.

While Kenan positioned himself on the pitch the Czech players waved as fans.

Kenan made a quick prayer and so did Arda and Hakan.

All three of them praying for good luck on the match.

During their prayers the commentators of the match called up the line up from both teams. First Czechia then Turkey.

I looked at the big screen and let a a high pitched yell as I saw Kenan's name on it. The stadium loosing it too as soon as they saw him.

Kenan looked up to the VIP box where I was sitting every few minutes, before and during the match.

It's like he knows I'm here. I know that he possibly can't even see me from down there but my gut feeling tells me he does.

Kenan has this gift to spot me whenever I am, he just feels my presence.

As the referee whistled the first half of the game started. Clearly Turkey had more dominance.

In minute 25 Bariș Alper Yilmaz scored.

Two minutes later Kenan scored.

The stadium went loud fans jumped up and down yelling his name. Kenan held up both his hand and then placed on his heart. Dedicating his goal to the Turkish fans.

Clapping both of my hands together I smile down at the football field.

With that Kenan breaks Cristiano Ronaldo his record. What a great success he achieved for his career.

I pull out my phone making photos of the remarkable moment.

Then seven minutes after Kenan scored Arda scores.

3:0 it stands.

Turkish fans are going wild while Czech fans are watching their team loose.

Coach Montella jumps up exited and kisses each of the three guys on their heads, hugging each of them.

Fifteen more minutes pass and then the first half ends. 3:0 for Turkey.

~

"Miss Yildiz, it's time to head to the field" the security guard spoke as he pulled me out of my thoughts.

I sept half break arguing with Karlotta and how she should just leave me and Kenan alone because she and he are in the PAST.

But what if they aren't, and he just lies to me ?

I gather myself following the security guard.

4:0 for Turkey, Hakan scored a goal in the second half which is about to end in exactly five minutes.

As we passed trough different VIP boxes and different hallways I finally was on the pitch.

Behind the barrier but close enough.

And like always it didn't even took Kenan more than thirty seconds to spot me.

He was on the other end of the field and immediately came up running towards me.

The referee had whistled a minute ago so the match was over.

As the cameras focussed on Kenan running towards you fans and commentators applauded at the two of you.

Kenan was not wearing his jersey anymore he pulled it off himself as a form of celebration, so did the rest of the Turkish national team.

Jumping over the barrier he pulled you into his arms giving you thousands of kisses on your forehead.

"Kenan" I chuckled between laughs.

"Did you watch the whole match ?" He asks out of breath.

"Yes Baby, and I'm beyond proud of you" with that Kenan pulls you into a kiss.

I didn't care if he tastes like sweat or even smells like it I just wanted to feels his lips against mine.

The fans going crazy loud even congratulating Kenan on pulling such a beautiful girl like you.

Kenan he let go of you.

"I love you, that's the best surprise you could ever do for me" not even letting me time to respond he crashed his lips on mine again, depending the kiss.

One of his hands had a firm grip on my jaw while his other hand travelled down to my lower back.

Totally worth rescheduling my photoshoot.

Fans were busy taking photos of the two of you and so were you and Kenan.

He's the biggest golden retriever boyfriend ever so he absolutely adores posing for pictures with you.

As he gave you a kiss on your forehead you closed your eyes enjoying the moment.

What a luck that your camera went off in that exact minute. The most wholesome picture ever of the two of you just got made by your phone.

A jealous Karlotta standing in the crowd, eyeing the two of you.

[srslyscary]

songs // mini series

a mini series on how I would associate a song to skz members!

headcanons + small rants incoming! This isn’t based off meanings or lyrics, just instrumentals!

bang chan | lee know | changbin | hyunjin | han | felix | seungmin | jeongin

Candy ; Doja Cat

not based on the ENTIRE SONG but like.. from the timestamp 2:04 - 2:34 .. GOSH HE LOOKS LIKE THAT SONG.

IMAGINE IF HIS PARTNER WAS WITH HIM IN LIKE A SHARED HOME OR JUST IN THE STUDIO.. THIS MF WALKS IN WITH A COMPRESSION SHIRT, NO MAKEUP, AND HIS BEANIE. GODDD BAREFACED CHAN IS SO SCRUMPTIOUS.

I actually feel like on any occasion he would look like this song bc of the many different types of chan’s you get from him. obviously there’s Chan, then there’s Chris, and Christopher.

it also gives off rockstar chan in the photoshoot where he was in the bathtub with the wires and had the metal things in his mouth.. yeah this is him.

Swang ; Rae Sremmurd

Lord give this man my heart I forever bow in his presence. If I find an edit with this sound I’ll be so happy. HE LOOKS LIKE HE WOULD LISTEN TO THIS SONG WHILE WORKING OUT LKE IM SORRY.

“Hey Stay… how ya doin’?” TYPE SHIT.

It’s giving “late night drives with the windows open”… am I right or wrong???

This song gives that one blonde chan from Super intern ep. 3 I think and also chan in the oddinary trailer. SORRY NOT SORRY.

Swoon ; Beach Weather

Idk if it’s just me but this instrumental gives off chan at the beach (it’s obviously by beach weather) but aside from the artist’ name I can sort of picture his partner hand in hand while they run to the beach water and splash each other until sunset.

I also like to picture park dates. HE JUST LOOKS LIKE HE WOULD POST SCENERY PICS WITH THIS SONG.

this is like happy and calming chan, giving off those soft moments.

Messages From The Stars ; The Rah Band

i’m foive. literally that’s it. I SWEAR it gives off youngest son chan.

I also play this song in my head anytime chan does his little excited fists or anything to show he’s happy.

It just gives off silly channie.. like that one interview with Lee know where he was messing with him.. “a fiveee! A fouurrr- a threee- a— I’m sorry.” Apologies spouted when he realized Lee know was threatening him.

Dream, Ivory ; Dream, Ivory

this gives off him being up really late at the studio, and his partner calls his phone to tell him they miss him. he’s like “I miss you too, maybe even more.”

he skedaddles right on home to lay with them in bed, he’s holding them tight and giving them kisses on their head while whispering sweet nothings (god I want this)

the song is literally the same as the artist (how ironic) but like I could picture chan having dreams of sunny days with his partner and the boys. they’re all out on a grassy field having a picnic and playing with water balloons and water guns. they’re laughing and having a good time, him and lee know are probably sitting down watching them (ugh get a load of these oldies..)

West Coast ; Lana Del Rey

his partner simply woke up first and was faced with Chan’s back towards them. just running their fingers along his back one time to get a reality that he was real. that might have tickled him a big.

he turns around in his sleep, facing the other way. and now his partner could see his sleeping face. they rearranged his hair and smiled, nothing was more precious than waking up to the face of the one you love the most.

Idk I feel like this only goes well with morning scenarios… anyhoo he’s a cutie to wake up to I’m telling you.

taglist: @sixxze

[falling-star-cygnus]

are you still interested in doing character design analysis?? like what you did for dan heng and boothill

if u are could you perhaps do blade or robin ? or just anyone tbh, i adore seeing ppl analyze photos designs bc they’re so detailed

me when I get asks: 😍🥳♥️💟💞 i love when people request things

things i’ve noticed about HSR characters bc it literally brings me unprecedented amounts of joy

part three: Mr. Immortal Edgelord himself ✨Blade��

Robin coming soon :D also i don't have Blade as a character and i have not met him in game so most of these came from youtube and his index [very sorry for the low quality of some images!]

i love his one random cowlick strand of hair- + his confused expression being closer to disgust and gentle expression being genuinely gentle. i love it, i love the range they gave him considering his archetype

during his first idle animation, Blade has a bandage wrapped around his sword. And you can see he has bandages wrapped around his chest from the gap in his neckline

and from his sixth eidolon, well, we can see why. His eidolon titles are so hauntingly tragic too, oh my gosh -> the more i look at his character design and his behaviors, the more i really love the simplicity of it all i've talked about this more in a previous post- but all of the Stellaron Hunters have symbolic names. Blade's own alias is a symbol of justice! [post in question]

Blade is not one of the more decorated characters in HSR, but honestly i think that's a good thing considering how complex his lore is. The gold decal on his coat is half a spider lily, the clasps are eyes [they could also resemble spider lily buds, but it's stretch] -> He has matching jade clasps with Dan Heng :D and when you combine them they make up the emblem on his back!

honestly, the emblem being surrounded by a knotted and crisscrossing red ribbon is a fantastic symbol of how these two are tied together in their fates

Spider lilies really are the crux of Blade's design, especially in his attacks, which makes a lot of sense considering their symbolism in a non-final death. Rebirth, transformation, reincarnation, etc

Hoyoverse really put a lot of thought into the floriography of this game. Bc- where genshin has a very heavy focus on star symbolism, each character in hsr has a specific flower- or plant- attached to their theme

ok- this one doesn't have to do with Blade's design at all, but it does tie in with your HC for the Road -> this is a mara struck foe, we all know this, but specifically i mean the design- the ginkgo leaves growing out of them [gingko leaves are a symbol of peace and longevity- and hope in the face of despair]

Blade is also mara struck [again- we all know this] so.... without further ado~

HC for the Road: Blade sprouts spider lilies in the spots where his bandages cover and that adds to the reason he wears them -> ok, imagine Silver Wolf and Firefly [bc let's be real, he's a girl dad] sitting against his sides as he's changing his bandages- and imagine those lilies sprouting up and he kinda stiffens bc he doesn't know how his daughters coworkers are going to react

but these two are star struck [pun intended] they've got a million and two questions, they're holding onto Blade's wrist and arm- Silver Wolf even puts down her console. And Blade relaxes

[oldiesstationlover11607]

Promise - Josh Dun x Fem!Reader

Pairing: Josh Dun x Reader

Warnings: Kiss, swearing, angry Tyler

A/N: Can't be bothered to do a word count bc i'm tired. its about tyler saying he'd wait for reader when she comes back to columbus but when she comes back for the high school reunion she finds out he's married to jenna. so she starts to hit it off with josh.

Worthington Christian High School reunion. 2015. 7 years after Tyler and I had graduated. 7 years after I moved from Columbus to LA in search of making it as a film director. Everyone at home had thought I was insane, throwing my life away for a career I was almost guaranteed to fail at. Except Tyler. The other crazy dreamer in our grade, except his passion was music. We spent two summers together, him helping me make films and me helping organize gigs for him. When I left Columbus we promised we’d wait for each other. I loved him and was willing to do anything to make him mine. 

“I’ll wait for you,” a couple tears dropped down his face as he tried to remain strong. I pulled him in close for a warm embrace, feeling his chest rise and fall with his breath. I knew I would be back, I was going to make it and then I was going to come back for Tyler. But it had been 7 years and all we’d seen of each other was a few video calls. Tyler had achieved massive success with his band and it was impossible to avoid their songs on the radio. I’d ended up becoming a director, making a few movies and music videos, winning me my first Oscar. I didn’t know why but I was nervous to see Tyler, worried that he’d changed. It was a cold night so I’d made sure to put on a sweater. I was at least half an hour late–being stuck in a meeting with producers was almost always the reason I was late to everything–the entrance to the school was dead, except one man sitting on a bench, staring up at the night sky. 

“The reunion’s tonight, right?” I asked him, trying to figure out if I’d marked it wrong on my calendar. He didn’t look familiar to me, there was almost no way he’d gone to Worthington Christian, I knew everyone in our grade. 

“Yep,” he nodded. 

“Then why aren’t you in there?” I folded my arms and my breath came out in steam, the air much colder than I thought it was. 

“I didn’t go here, my friend and his wife are in there. I drove them here from my house and just stopped to get some air. What about you? How come you’re so late?” He smirked. 

“Uh… I had a meeting. Some producer thing for a new TV show in production. I’m a director,” I spoke, still trying to figure out how the man looked so familiar. He had curly brown hair and arms covered in tattoos, and that golden retriever look about him. 

“That’s cool, I’m a musician, the name’s Joshua,” he seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say, “have you made anything I might’ve seen?” I paused to think about what he might’ve seen. He was a musician so surely he’d watch music videos. 

“Well Joshua, I directed the music video for Green Day’s ‘Corvette Summer’ if you’re a fan of them,” I offered. His face lit up, clearly he had seen it. 

“Hell yes I’m a fan, the video was epic. Gosh, I love music videos, they’re awesome,” he grinned. Music blasted from inside the school, they were playing Tyler’s song, ‘Stressed Out’ which was my cue to go inside. 

“Sorry, I should probably get inside, it was nice meeting you Joshua.”

“Wait! What was your name?” He grabbed my hand. 

“Y/N,” I smiled. Joshua pulled out a business card from his wallet and passed it to me. 

“Get in touch with me, I live in LA too. We should get coffee sometime Y/N.” I nodded before slipping away through the doors. The song continued to blast through the speakers as I walked inside the gym. 

“Y/N! Hi!” a jock shouted, towering over me.

“How’s Hollywood?” a popular blondie who I was sure had peaked in high school preened, her phone flashing into my face. 

“Looks like we’ve got two stars in our grade,” Jack, the class president shouted over the mic. He was standing on stage, a can of beer in his hand like no time had passed at all. “Why don’t you two come up here? Talk to us about what it’s like to be better than all of us,” he let out a loud and obnoxious laugh which was then echoed back by everyone else in the room. I felt a hand on my back push me towards the stage, turning my head back to see him, Tyler Joseph. He looked so much older than the last time I’d seen him. His head was shaved in a buzzcut and head was wearing a yellow denim jacket. He looked famous. More so than me. He flashed a smile at me before taking the mic from Jack. 

“Hey everyone,” he waved, “god it is good to be back here with all of you, if you guys even remember us. If you don’t, then I was the basketballer who wrote poems at the back of Mr Stevenson’s math class while the rest of the team was failing his infamous algebra test,” he let out a loud laugh. “Now I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for Worthington Christian, the people at this school shaped who I am as a person. I found the confidence to share my music with people here. I stayed in Columbus and I met my loving wife.” I’m sorry, wife? Tyler Joseph was married? My Tyler? The Tyler who’d promised he’d wait for me? I felt dizzy. But that didn’t stop Tyler from shoving the microphone into my hand. The room went silent as I stood there feeling like I was spinning. This wasn’t happening. 

“I–I’m happy to be here,” I tried desperately to smile but I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. “Thank you for having us back.” I handed the mic back to Tyler before leaving the stage and running out the gym. I felt warm, my cheeks flushing bright pink and the lack of water I’d drank finally catching up with me. I stared at the ground as I desperately tried to hold back sobs. 

“Y/N?” It was Tyler. 

“What the fuck do you want Joseph?” I spat, he knew exactly what he’d done. “I don’t want you here.” 

“I–I know you don’t. I effed up, I get it. But you never came back, you promised me you’d come back and you didn’t Y/N,” he sighed. 

“I fucking waited for you,” the tears started to pour down my cheeks. 

“I’m sorry,” he pulled me in for a hug, “I still care about you, okay? You’re still important to me.” I nodded my head, waiting for him to let me go. I needed to get back to my hotel before I screamed at him. Finally he pulled back, a sorry look clinging to his face. I pushed past him, walking into the parking lot, I was done. Joshua was still sitting out there looking up at the stars. He turned around as soon as I pushed open the doors, his eyes widening when he saw me. 

“Y/N? Are you okay?” 

“Joshua, now's not the time,” I snapped but all it did was make him look more worried. He stood up and started following me through the parking lot–my hotel was a 15 minute walk away. 

“What happened?”

“Just this guy I really liked, Tyler. When I moved to LA we promised we’d wait for each other but apparently he’d married,” I threw my arms up in frustration. Joshua looked confused.

“What?”

“I wasn’t aware you were that Y/N, if I knew I probably would’ve prepared you for what you were about to see,” he said. 

“That Y/N?” Joshua stopped walking and let out a sigh. 

“Y/N do you know anything about Tyler’s band other than radio hits and that he’s in it?” he asked. I shook my head, Joshua chuckled lowly. I probably should’ve known more about my best friend’s famous band but I had been busy. Making movies was tough work.

“Okay well… My name is Joshua but everyone calls me Josh–Josh Dun.” I still shook my head, having no idea what he was talking about. Should I have known who he was? 

“Okay Josh, what does that have to do with Tyler?” He looked baffled that I didn’t know what he was talking about. 

“Tyler’s band… twenty one pilots. I’m the drummer, the other member in the band.” My jaw dropped. Holy shit. Fuck. I just vented about my stupid crush on Tyler to his bandmate. 

“Oh my god, I’m so sorry. I’ll leave you alone now Josh,” I ran a hand through my hair and started walking away. 

“Y/N, wait!” Josh grabbed my hand, “I don’t want you to leave me alone. You seem cool, I want to get to know you. Tyler’s told me a lot about you and if it makes you feel any better he felt really bad when he started dating Jenna.” If Tyler felt bad then why did he do it? Clearly they were made for each other if he felt like he could break our promise. I was 25 and hadn’t dated anyone since I’d left for LA because of that promise. I’d wasted 7 years. 

“Thanks Josh. You seem cool too,” I smiled. Maybe Josh would be it, I’d only known him for an hour but he was friendly, interested in film and music, and incredibly attractive.

“You know, I haven’t had dinner yet, do you want to go get some food? Tyler said there was a diner nearby,” Josh suggested. I agreed and walked back to his car. 

Josh had a burger and I snacked on some fries. Things were going well, we’d talked about the band and what it was like touring and we talked about the film industry. We’d even realized that we were on the same flight back home. 

“When we get back to LA, I want to show you my place,” Josh held the door open for me as we left the diner. 

“I’d like that,” I replied, trying to hold back a smile. I climbed into his car as he drove back to the school to pick up Tyler and Jenna. “I should probably walk back to my hotel before Tyler comes out, I don’t want it to be awkward,” I sighed.

“It won’t be awkward, you’re with me. But I do want to give you something before you go back,” he replied. We drove into the school parking lot and waited while everyone walked out. 

“And what’s that?”

“A kiss,” he smirked, leaning in towards me. 

“Oh really?” I smiled, his hand coming to cup my face. I felt his lips brush mine and I closed my eyes, butterflies filling my stomach and cheeks flushing pink. 

“You’re really something else Y/N,” Josh whispered. Knock knock knock. I jumped, turning around to see Tyler standing there with his arms crossed and his wife hiding a smile. 

“You two have known each other for less than a day!” Tyler shouts, a hand rubbing his eyes. 

“And that’s my que to go. I’ll call you,” I laugh, getting out of the car. Josh says his goodbye and Jenna gets in the car. Tyler grabs my arm and drags me aside. He looked angry. 

“First you’re mad at me for marrying someone and now you’re kissing my best friend?” 

“Tyler, that's not fair. Josh and I, we’re just talking, it’s okay, he’s cool.”

“It better be okay because if he hurts you I’ll kill him,” he pulled me in for a hug. He still cared. He still cared.

//

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[ac-liveblogs]

"What did the abyss order accomplish beyond generally attacking the city" watch my brain blank in real time bc YOU'RE RIGHT???? gosh I'm SO used to thinking of Mondtadt as the only city in which the abyss does ANYTHING (before natlan but I haven't played that yet lol) that I completely forgot to think and realise there actually ...wasn't any perceived endgame for What the abyss was doing in mond....... they just want the city very badly see, they tried to uhhhh invade it in diluc's quest, and wanted to keep TWO of its gods to themselves, and specifically fuck up their statue, anddd. A book. For some reason.

Maybe the Abyss specifically has beef w Mondstadt bc they're jealous. Mondtadt is as close as it gets to Khaenriah under the eyes of the heavens, after all...

Talking about tutorials, that reminds me—would there be a way to sneak in an explanation for some of the terminology? Bc in the original chinese "visions" and "gnosis" are literally "eye-of-god" and "heart-of-god", and "genshin" are the allogenes (vision bearers) and it just baffles me that in a game with So Much Flipping dialogue they couldn't sneak in an explanation somewhere? There is so much stuff that comes up that has to do with this! ("the gods will LOOK upon you with favour", Scaramouche's whole plot about his HEART). They've been adding little text clarifications whenever they're referring to previous lore in other words (e.g. "higher power" ^^Istaroth) but they really should have explained some basic terminology man. Maybe something like what venti said in the comic about his lire. "Der Himmel, or The Heavens in common tongue" "Visions, which in days of old were called Eyes of Heaven" or something like that.

Also! I forgor to add Ursa the Drake amongst the contradictory stuff akdkdhd are you getting rid of it? Substituting it with a more plot-relevant monster that ain't bonkers to STILL be alive?

"What did the abyss order accomplish beyond generally attacking the city" watch my brain blank in real time bc YOU'RE RIGHT????

😎 THAT'S WHAT I'M HERE FOR

But no really, trying to logic chain together the stuff that happens in Mondstadt and (especially) Liyue is an exercise in sheer masochism. I have no idea what the Abyss Order is even up to until the Loom of Fate thing (the upside down statue? mechanical god? the thing with andrius? eh?) In retrospect it kind of just seems like HYV needed them to be doing SOMETHING but had nothing for them to do, so it just gave them some vaguely 'unsettling' goals that didn't go anywhere…

There's presumably something deeper going on with Venti in canon (something something hexenzirkel), or at least one would hope, but I don't have much use for the rest of it so.

Genshin (and Star Rail's!) habit of just THROWING WORDS AT YOU and not explaining is INFURIATING given how much they overexplain a bunch of other things! But I hadn't been thinking about clarifying their original meanings, I'd been more focused on expanding/explaining their narrative role... but I do agree, the changes are misleading (Delusions from 'Evil Eye' too, geh. The amount of ??? changes in the localisation... which likes to go 'highlight>right click>thesaurus' as often as possible anyway...)

Can you believe I totally forgot that they were called 'magical organs', not foci, and Gnosis was 'Heart of God' when I made the Pyro Gnosis Lumine's heart? Totally unrelated! And, thinking on the Third Descender's Fate, the original names make waaay more sense.

now i'm imagining a 'hey they said the name of the game' moment. this truly was our genshin impact

Theoretically, no issue in assuming things get clarified more? I don't think I'm ever going to be scripting this (realistic assessment of my own abilities) I ran into the thought that... the first three party members don't really use Visions, even Xiao's is mostly just for show. And Diluc hasn't reclaimed his yet, he's using his Delusion. I was going to bring up Visions in the context of Lumine... not having one, and Venti suggesting she get a fake one to avoid complications. Discussion of this stuff should come up in canon as we learn more about them/Celestia's goals in general. I don't think the Archons actually know that much about why Celestia wants them handed out, or at least Venti, Nahida and Furina/Focalors definitely don't.

Re; Ursa the Drake… for the purposes of Diluc's backstory it probably doesn't matter what kills Crepus. It just needs to be stupid strong. If its a monster that's been around awhile and the Fatui can take advantage of it for their own political goals, maybe it's one of Gold's stronger creations, and Dottore's been experimenting on things like them for awhile. I wanted to have more of them wandering around the overworld anyway.

(don't… don't get me started on the chain of events around crepus' death. it was ursa, but the fatui arranged it with a… metal bug tracker thing? huh? genshin, explain? the fatui can influence OP ancient dragons to attack people explain please genshin?)

[little-shadow-club]

A small research thread on the name for Thiel from slr because I gotta put those angelology books to use.

I did not use the name of Tiel as a reference to find an angel with the similar name bc frankly there's not a lot to go off on. Just this.

However another angel named Thiel does have a lot more alongside many coincidences that I found while digging through the [Dictionary of angels including fallen angels ] by Gustav Davidson

Putting the funniest one on top, Thiel being the ruling prince of Wednesday aligns with the SLR manhwa's posting schedule (and since he's an og manhwa character i think that amps up the funny-ness). On a more serious note, Thiel being one of the intelligences [neo-Platonic equivalent of the Judaeo-Christian angels or sefiroth] aligns with the manhwa character who is both a creation of an outer god and is known for his strategic planing to invade earth.Secondly, his connection to the planet venus is important in two different ways, one more personal thought than the other.

1, being named after the goddess of beauty and love ( but also *desire*, passion, and sex) has a connection to Thiel's appearance in the manhwa, who is obviously drawn with more beautiful features than most characters. (And you could somewhat argue this might also be connected to his human name: Dojin, who apperantly has Buddhist origins and means 'Path of Love's though I need to find more evidence for this) This might also lead to the second connection:

The planet venus and it's connection to Lucifer. In the context of latin, Lucifer meant light bringer or morning star, which is a poetic way of calling the planet Venus. In the context of Isaiah 14:12 it is interpreted as the king of babylon or now widely popularized (thanks to Milton's Lost Paradise) as the name for the fallen angel and the devil's real name.

Which in a sense aligns with Thiel's role in the story. He is a fallen angel, in the literal sense that he fell from the universe to invade Earth. He is evil disguised as heroism now that he's made an identity of himself as an S rank. He literally works with demons in the manhwa. He tempts humans to join his side, to believe in the Itarim. And Just like Milton's Lucifer in terms of personality he sees himself above humans, is way too prideful, and is also trying to create a pathway between hell/the outer gods and earth.

Outside of the whole venus aspect, Thiel as the servant of the second and third heaven also has some connection to manhwa Thiel.

According to Enoch, the second heaven is a place where fallen angels are imprisoned and awaiting judgement in complete darkness. And to me, that sounds early familiar as to what is happening at the front lines of the outer god war.

The fallen angels in this case would be the apostles and their armies (and you can also connect that to Thiel's semblance with Lucifer) awaiting judgement in complete darkness aka waiting for their inevitable deaths at the hands of Jinwoo (who's lit called darkness by Thiel)

The third heaven also mirrors somewhat i said before, now with the literal angel of death residing there also being a connection to Sung Jinwoo as the king of the dead. But in Enoch it also talks about a certain paradise to the southern region, where supposedly Eden is, and I think thats also a neat coincidence since angel Thiel is invoked from the north. and the third heaven separates hell and paradise in the same way Jinwoo and the rulers are separating Earth (and the universe) from the Itarim's control

Btw the other definitions are from Angels A to Z 2nd edition by Evelyn Dorothy Oliver and James R. Lewis

So, I guess, in this case, Earth is the supposed Eden that the angel from the North is descending towards, trying to not get caught by darkness/the angel of death, and tempt people to his side. It's all so connected and yet so outlandish, gosh I love angelology.

(I don't think that the manhwa thought about it this much, certainly the devil disguised as an angel and the false prophet interpretations ARE there, but as for the way i connected the dots, its more a neat set of coincidences than anything, still im happy they all work and if Thiel keeps going down the fallen angel path, it would be fun if this gives him a chance to be redeemed by outright completely rejecting his own creator in the same way Milton's Lucifer did. Or he gets to be killed by his own hubris, like you know, Milton's Lucifer.)

[irlusa]

10, 20, 23 and 24 for the ask with the US... since you're irlusa hjkdsd

Gosh, now I feel pressure to live up to the name LMAO (jkjk)

10- What fact do they excitedly tell everyone about at every opportunity?

Idk if it's a "fact", but Alfred can point out every single major star in the sky and tell you its name, the constellation/s its in (he knows a few different constellation systems from different cultures), and how far away and how old it is. And he will whenever possible. Gotta be ready for long surprise stargazing sessions.

And blame grem and wanchii for this, but he will also point out every single plane that flies overhead and tell you what it is and a tidbit about it and it's history.

Mans has the AuDHD curse (stares at myself and every other Alfred kinnie I've ever met 💀)

20- Who do they like as a person but hate their work? Vice versa, whose work do they like but don’t like the person?

I suppose you could argue there's a LOT of people they get along with but hate their past and/or current "work" (given the whole country thing). I'm not sure if I'm interpreting this right (as in, "line of work" vs a "work of art") But on the second interpretation, when it comes to cultural works, he and Cuba have had a lot of cultural exchange and appreciation as it were, even if they can't be let within 30 ft of each other.

23- What do they feel guilty for that the other person(s) doesn’t / don’t even remember?

He says a lot of shit without understanding how it could come across in the moment (in casual situations, that brain runs way too fast for any social etiquette to keep up) and only realizes it when someone else (usually his brother or Arthur) points it out to him. So there's a lot of things he's said, esp to friends like Kiku, that he wishes he could un-say, but Kiku just knows he's Like That so it doesn't bother him much after the initial moment it's said.

When it comes to nationverse things though, so many things are of too intense a magnitude for the other party/parties to really forget, and/or Alfred is still completely convinced he's in the right.

24- Did they take a cookie from the cookie jar? What kind of cookie was it?

ABSOLUTELY they did and it was chocolate chip (and then they took another, bc just one more couldn't hurt)

[sparrowsortadrawzzz]

Aight so. As we move into the summer season I have been struck with inspiration for a new AU. It is a summer camp AU. All the MCs are roughly 18/19. I’ve started enjoy the idea of Crowley as an archangel and the archangels being his siblings cuz that’s very dramatic and I’ve been exposed to a lot of that content so that’s here now too. Also I made my two favourite characters friends because of course I did that’s what I always do in every fandom I’ve ever been in.

(Featuring friends to lovers Aziracrow and enemies to lovers Ineffable Bureaucracy obviously.)

So the perspective is split between the four main characters. Gabriel Archer, his half brother Anthony J Crowley (Known mostly as Crowley) same mother (Gods human character that looks like Frances Mcdormand, most likely named Godiva or something similar) different fathers. They are constantly fighting and being general little nightmares, never seeming to be able to agree on anything and taking arguments way too far (bringing up each others fathers; Gabes died and Crowley’s was shitty, getting into actual physical altercations and getting eachother in trouble at school) so their mother decides to send them to a summer camp as councillors for bonding and teamwork purposes. She’s trying okay. Gabriel just turned 19 and Crowley is 18.

And on the other side are the head councillors, Aziraphale (known as A, Azi, Zira or variations on ‘shithead’ and the like by Beez cuz they’re a little bitch) Prince and Beelzebub (known as Beez) Hellborne. They’re 18 but have been attending this summer camp since they were 11 (they’re known as ‘legacy campers’).

This is their second year as councillors so they’ve been given a promotion bc the last head councillors left. To most people they seem like the world’s least likely friendship but they just vibe. It’s probably the undiagnosed autism. They love food and classic literature (I think Beez would like Lovecraftian horror and more horror-y stuff like Frankenstein, Dracula, Jekyll and Hyde etc. while we obviously know Aziraphale has a preference for Jane Austen.) and manage to be equally terrible influences on eachother (aziraphale is that one friend who will suggest something and then be like ‘oh no don’t actually do it I was joking!’ While having a shit-eating grin on his face because he knows damn well they’ll do the thing).

Beez is better at handling activities (surprise surprise so is Gabe) while Zira is better at handling the campers themselves (surprise surprise so is Crowley) since he tends to be gentler. (Eg. Beez will try to get the campers attention by yelling ‘okay, maggots!’ And Aziraphale will literally just bop them on the head with the book he’s holding and glare at them until they say something non-aggressive. ‘Beez we talked about this you can’t yell at the 11 year olds.’ ‘Why not? My older siblings yelled at me when I was that age.’ ‘…Well we’re going to have to unpack THAT later. Also hold my book I wanna go talk to Crowley.’)

Aziraphales family is homophobic and Beelzebubs are generally pretty toxic and involved in some bad crimey stuff (they have six brothers, the other deadly sins) so camp is their favourite time of year and they will not tolerate these new councillors messing their safe place up.

The owner and guidance councillor of the camp, ‘Sergeant’ Shadwell and ‘Madam’ Tracy, who are definitely-not-secretly-pining love these two, Shadwell calls them and the other councillors his ‘officers’ and Tracy tells them they’re stars.

So the bros™️ show up at camp and are intoducd to the other councillors, including the buddies™️, queue an ‘oh no he’s hot’ squidward moment as the brothers realise this summer may not be so bad after all. Queue shenanigans, no one being good at feelings, matchmaking, healing relationships and found family feels.

still need to think of a name for the damn camp though.

OH MY GOSH this is an absolutely GENIUS idea!! I absolutely adore this...

(dies inside as i instantly think "OOH! Camp Armagetalong–!" I'm a sucker for puns and word play...)

[matchbet-allofthetime]

HOLY MOLY!!!!!

ANOTHER SWOLEFISH??! SHIPPER PLEASE BE MOOTS!!!💞💞💞💞💞

I actully was only a fan for goto at first but when i figured out that there ARE more fans of him and he has HIS OWN SHIP with kiga (hc name for moonfish) I WAS SO HAPPY LIKE OMG HE'S FINALLY GETTING ATTENTION THAT HE DESERVES FROM HIS 16 FANS AROUND THE WORLD HE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE DESERTED ANYMORE COMPARED TO OTHER CHARACTERS💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

then i started to have some interest in kiga and became a fan of him and started to support his ship with goto (I WAS ALSO SO SURPRISED WHEN I SAW HIS FACE HE'S SSSOOO PRETTY LIKE PRETTY BALD BOI SKSJSKJSKSJSKJS✨💕✨💕✨💕)

sometimes i just look at these two and go "yep I'm gonna make them ALOT of fake scenarios in the middle of math class and smile like an idiot for sure"

they're SO perfect together i wonder how did they become together? like who confessed first? who noticed the them looking at each other multiple time in the middle of the meetings first??WHEN AND WHERE DID THEY HAVE THEIR FIRST KISS??!?AKAJAKJAKAKAKAKA✨💕✨💕✨💕✨💕✨💕

also do think goto might be into spicy food?? MAYBE KIGA WOULD TRY TO MAKE HIM HIS FAVOURITE SPICY MEALS AS A GIFT???????💓💓💓💓

(أنا آسف إذا كان هذا طويلًا جدًا حتى لو كان سؤالي الأول وإذا كان هناك أي أخطاء في اللغة الإنجليزية ليست في الواقع لغتي الأولى ، فلا تتردد في عدم الإجابة ، فلا بأس بذلك 💖).

oh my gosh, i'm so very sorry!! i did not see this until just now bc my asks have been like,,, ruined for a few months

yes, we can totally be moots!!

goto and kiga are such cuties and i love them both with all my heart. i was a moonfish fan from the moment i saw him and same with muscular

i love that more people are slowly liking muscular more! he's such a cool character and so is moonfish. and dw, i do the same in my lectures too, just always thinking about these two tbh. i've sketched muscular on classwork more times than i can count.

i have so many ideas for who confessed first and i'm honestly in love with it going either way. kiga could be like "oh you're such a menace of a man and are absolutely feral i love you" OR it could be muscular being like "...you're so creepy. we should kiss 💖." just so many ways it could go!!

yeah, moonfish is so pretty! i love the little scar in his ear, it's such a wonderful little detail. i imagine him having a shaved head makes it easier to wear his suit when he's working as a villain, yk?

i definitely think one of four scenarios for their first kiss:

they had their first kiss on a battlefield one day

they had their first kiss sitting on the roof of the LOV bar while watching the stars and talking about different things

they had their first kiss after the prison break

they had their first kiss after they slept in each other's arms one night and they both just woke up and kissed the other because they can't live without the other

i really like any of these four ideas for them!

goto ABSOLUTELY LOVES spicy food. as a spicy food lover myself, i just KNOW goto is the type of guy to eat the spiciest noodles and still add extra chilies, spicy sauce, and peppers. he needs it spicy enough to melt metal otherwise it isn't good enough. i think his favourite dishes are actually korean and indian dishes, rather than japanese. i think he'd love korean buldak and Gochujang noodle dishes. as for indian traditional dishes, he'd adore laal maas and Kolhapuri chicken, as well as any really fiery curry! i think muscular just really loves spice.

i HC that moonfish is REALLY good at cooking, so i think he is constantly cooking meals for goto as a part of his way to show love!

adding onto the moonfish-can-cook hc and -goto-loves-spicy-foods hc, i kinda combine them into- japanese/korean kiga and japanese/indian goto, who share their other culture's dishes with one another as a love language

(and dw, english is not the only language i speak and your ask has done nothing but make my early morning utterly wonderful. i am so very sorry i was unable to see it sooner, tysm for sending this! currently drawing the two sweet boys eating spicy noodles early in the morning <3)

[moonlight-prose]

Hiiiii!! You always say to talk to u about our days. So here goes nothing. I'm gonna talk to you about the past few days. So I've crocheted. I took classes in January and I've been kinda lost on how to continue bc there's just so much to learn from that craft and I only had two classes. But I found on YouTube good blogs that were recommended to me from really nice people on Tumblr and I found a video that explained something to me very clearly and I've been crocheting better since that video. And in the times I've crocheted I've watched videos of this girly fashionista and I LOVE her videos. Her style is def the style I wanna achieve lol. Her name is Jessica Blair.

I bought some books off of my best friend and I'm currently reading halsey's 2020 book of poems. I have mixed feelings about it but at least I can say I've been reading something. And more bc I've been on a reading slump. I haven't been able to read books. I start them and don't continue them. And they're good but I just can't seem to continue. So I started the poem book in hopes that it will get me to read more.

Today I went to a market, like a farmers market, and there were some really cool vendors. I bought 2 stickers for journaling (I really wanna make cooler looking journals) even if I'm the only one who's gonna see them. I also bought a dress!!!!! A black and white dress.

Sadly I got dizzy while I was eating and I think it's cause of the heat. Gosh it was horrible. But I went on free train rides which was cool. And I also had piña colada 🤍

Anyways that's all for today thank u for listening to me 🧶🌻

hi babes!! okay but i love that you crochet! i've been working on a six day star blanket for my desk chair and ngl my least favorite part is fucking up on one stitch and having to go back. i am definitely going to check out her videos! i haven't heard of her book of poems but i feel you on the reading slump. i'm trying to drag my out of one rn.

this made my week ngl. but also please drink some water. might curb the heat (coming from someone who has endured wayyy too many heat waves).🖤

[aajjks]

BC!JK

you crack a smile but the smile doesn’t reach your eyes. after all the crying you’ve done, all you want to do is go to sleep and dream about the future you and eunwoo you will never have together. you’re so dependent on him and although you aren’t aware, one would say you might be obsessed with your ex.

i mean, you’ve liked him since you first laid eyes on him, wrote about him in journals, and when you finally had him, you were never going to let him go but little did you know, it was him that would let you go.

all you can think about is how you practically BEGGED eunwoo to take you back, to make things work, but for some reason he sees something more for you. you wish you could see what he sees because your “more” is him. he’s always been the apple of your eye and now those dreams and fantasies are starting to fuel your heartbreak instead of filling your stomach with butterflies like they used to.

again, this just can’t be real.

you’re in such a daze that you don’t even realize jungkook grabbing your belongings and guiding you to the front door of his expensive home.

his home is lavish, extremely beautiful.

it’s neatly put together and it’s neither too hot nor too cold. the floors are made of polished marble floors with some areas of the home covered in white carpet floors. the stairs are polished mahogany and did you forget to mention how amazing his home smells?

you won’t lie, this place is huge and in someways, you understand what jungkook means when he mentioned having a huge house and living alone.

“this is beautiful” you gasp as you take in the contents of his home. you notice the fresh plants littered in his home and it makes you giggle a little “you into gardening? i heard plants in your home is good for the air quality” and as soon as you say there, there’s an air purifier on his kitchen counter.

“this place is amazing. why is your house so huge if you live by yourself?” you ask in a soft tone “you gatekeeping something? do you have a child? a pet? you can’t just live here alo—OH MY GOSH!! I FORGOT MILO!!“

He’s smiling goofily while you check out his home all star struck, you’ve got literal stars in your eyes and he’s so glad that you like it.

After all because it’s going to be your new home.

“Uh yn I don’t have a child- I don’t want to be a father. And I have a dog- a Doberman… his names bam… he’s probably sleeping.” Yeah, he’s got a dog and he loves him to death. He is the most adorable little big guy ever.

But soon jungkook can’t help get confused when you mention a milo.. who the fuck is milo? Jungkook scratches his head in confusion, “yn who’s milo?” He asks, looking at you, “never mind let me show you your room first.”

He wishes that he had time to decorate it just perfect for you, but he didn’t exactly expect you to come home siyh him… so Jungkook takes you towards the stairs, and the upper floor has five bedrooms.

The master bedroom is his. “Uhhhh this my little bedroom.” He laughs, it’s not exactly little and your reaction says it all. “Well yn why don’t you settle in? I’ll cook something nice for you.” Jungkook can’t wait for you to try his cooking.

He’s become a domestic man, he can’t wait to impress you.

It is so crazy how much he has changed…. “I’m a pretty decent cook.” He’s bragging about his skills while you settle your bags in your new bedroom that’s right next to his.

“If you need anything just let me know… and consider this your own home please.” He looks at you, smiling ever so brightly.

“And then you can meet bam!”

[ceeceetumbles]

Would. Would you consider a part two to the dad donnie fic????? Bc I’m crying in the club rn

first of all omgosh i really appreciate u asking this and liking the story it means a lot to me :)) I hope you'll enjoy this part 2!

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rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles fanfiction ~ aged up ~ Donatello x pregnant female reader ~ one child, a son named Damian ~ contains references to pregnancy-related nausea and vomiting <3

in which Damian causes a small, accidentally-on-purpose disaster in Donnie's lab. part 2.

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When you groggily stagger out of Damian’s room in the morning, you glance over at the door to Donnie’s lab. It’s still closed. Soundproofed, lightproofed; you won’t be able to tell if he’s inside without going in. And he won’t like it if you go in.

You poke around the house even though you know he’s in the lab. He’s not in the bathroom, not in the kitchen, not in the bedroom, not in the backyard, not in the office. He’s in the lab.

Still in the lab.

He’s been in there all night, you know. Not sleeping. Just working. Working, working, working, his fingers busy and his eyes twitching.

You bite at your fingernails and go into the kitchen.

Damian’s still asleep, quiet and peaceful in his bed -- he’s always been a good sleeper, even as a little baby.

You walk yourself into the kitchen and turn on the coffeemaker. You don’t drink coffee anymore, yourself, because of the pregnancy, but Donnie still does. Donnie drinks three cups every morning. You tell him he should just get more sleep instead. He says that he’s too busy to sleep. You say that if he stopped drinking so much coffee, he’d probably feel the need to get more sleep. He says why deny the world his genius by sleeping?

You scoop the coffee grounds into the coffeemaker.

Thankfully, the smell of coffee hasn’t started to bother you. If it did, you don’t know what you’d do. Donnie drinks a lot of coffee.

You watch the coffeemaker gurgle and a rush of nausea hits you like a sack full of wet noodles. You whimper loudly and gingerly make your way to the bathroom, where you sweat and dry heave over the toilet for a few minutes until the nausea has passed a bit. Gosh, this baby is making you a lot more sick than Damian ever did.

You groan deeply and cough, but there's nothing inside of you. You curl in pain around the toilet bowl and put your forehead against the disgusting toilet seat itself, just to try to feel something nice for once. It’s cool, and refreshing, but also disgusting. You're disgusted with the toilet seat. You're disgusted with yourself. Gosh, you're disgusted with yourself.

The thought doesn’t help your nausea.

You hear tiny feet pattering into the bathroom, and look up to see your son standing in the doorway. His forehead is crinkled.

“Mommy?” he says.

“Dami,” you say, putting your head back down on the toilet. You breathe hard for a moment.

“Are you okay?” He’s keeping a safe distance.

You hold out a thumbs-up. “Peachy keen, baby.”

He crinkles his forehead and patters away.

You should follow him. To keep an eye on him. Make sure he doesn’t get into any more trouble. But your head is swimming and your mouth is full of sweet sweet sick saliva.

You put your head back down on the toilet seat.

After another few minutes the nausea passes. You stand up slowly. The baby shifts in your stomach. This is new, the shifting, the fluttering; it only started about a couple days ago.

You put a hand on your stomach and the baby kicks again. It’s been getting somewhat stronger and somewhat more active already. More than Damian ever was, at least.

You move to the kitchen, carefully, the nausea still lingering teasingly. Wanna play? it laughs, and you just try to ignore it.

Damian is on the floor, eating star-shaped crackers from his snack cabinet. You sit down next to him, and eat some crackers too.

“Where's Daddy?” Damian asks, quietly, shoving an entire fistful of crackers into his mouth.

“In his lab,” you say, already sick of crackers. You eat the three you still have in your palm and brush the dust off of your hands.

Damian doesn’t respond. You can feel the anxiety radiating off of him.

“Is he mad?” he asks, quietly.

“I don’t know,” you say. He’s definitely mad. But you haven't talked to him since last night. So you still have room to hope.

“He’s mad for sure,” Damian says. He stands up and puts the star crackers back into his snack cabinet. “He hates me now. I hate me too.”

“Dami. He doesn’t hate you.”

“Of course he does. I went into his lab and I crushed his things.”

“But he doesn’t hate you. People do things that make you mad, and things that make you really mad, and really really really mad, but that doesn’t mean that you hate them. It’s a very big thing to hate someone.”

“He hates me. I killed his lab. I killed his machines.”

“Dami -- ”

You’re right. Donnie doesn’t hate his son. He’s just really, really, really mad. He’s in his lab, still repairing his son’s damage from last night. And his wife’s.

His hands are working with the tech, the crushed machinery, the microchips and scrap metal, soldering and repairing and rebuilding. His mind is busy with his wife’s news.

Pregnant.

Another baby. Another baby.

He can barely handle just one baby! Look at what he’s done to him. Look at how he’d screamed at him last night. The hurt and anger in his son’s eyes. And what his wife had said to him -- that Damian had broken his things because he was upset that he wasn’t spending more time with him. Or -- not even ‘not spending enough time with him’. Just ‘not paying enough attention to him.’

Damian is right. Donnie doesn’t pay enough attention to him. He is a bad dad. He is a horrible father. Ugh! Horrible! Horrible! He yells at his son and ignores his son and treats him so badly! Like he doesn’t want him! But he doesn’t!! He doesn’t want a child!! He’d never wanted a child!! And he doesn’t want ANOTHER child!! He’ll be even WORSE with two children, he knows!!

He loves Damian. He does. He really really does. So, so, so much. More than he loves his wife; more than he loves his dad; more than he loves his brothers; more than he loves his lab and all the tech in it, even. But that doesn’t mean that he’s cut out for parenthood, at least not as much as you seem to be. You kiss booboos and brush hair and fly spoonfuls of peas through the air and you just seem to sparkle when you're around children. You just seem to thrive.

Donnie doesn’t.

Not like his wife. Not like his sisters-in-law. Not like his brothers. Not like Leo. No, not like Leo.

Donnie is the odd man out. The weird, cold, odd man out. Look at how stiffly he holds his son. Look at how coldly he speaks to him. Who let this man become a father? Why is he a father?

But Leo? Leo throws his children into the air and blows raspberries on their soft warm bellies and tells bad jokes to them and ruffles their hair in a way that makes them squeal with glee and run back and forth happily. He does it to his own children, and he does it to Donnie's, and Donnie is left staring at the ceiling at night, staring, staring, staring, listening to that emptiness inside of him. Why is he so bad at this? Why is he so bad at this??

A disappointment, he’ll whisper to himself, silently in the dark. You're a disappointment. She doesn’t deserve this. She doesn't deserve you.

And he'll turn his head and look at you, asleep next to him. Your mouth wide open and drooling, your cheeks pressed sloppily against the pillow, and you'll grunt and roll over and whisper "don't take the orange, schmitty, I'm warning you," and then wake up for a moment and grumble angrily and drink an entire glass of water from the bedside table and then fall asleep again, mouth as wide and drooly as ever.

You don’t deserve him.

And he’ll touch the side of your neck and feel your pulse under his fingertips.

You'd grown a child inside your body. A child. A perfect little mixture of him and yourself, and it looked up at Donnie with so much adoration in its tiny eyes and all he could offer it was quantum physics and robot assistants and hurt feelings.

Gosh, he hurt his feelings. He'd say something and Damian would stare silently at him and then he'd find him sitting motionless behind a couch or crying loudly in his mother's arms or just glaring up at him the next time Donnie walked by. Donnie hurt his feelings, the poor baby. And you tried to help, his poor wife. Try to think more about how he’s feeling, you'd suggest, and Donnie would curl his fingers against his shorts and tell you that he was trying. He was trying. He'd never tried so hard in his life.

He is a bad dad. A bad father. You don’t deserve him, and Damian doesn’t deserve him, and your new baby doesn’t deserve him.

So these are the sweet, pleasant thoughts circling through Donnie’s mind as he works on his broken tech with stiff, shaky hands.

He twists a piece of metal too far and it cracks under his gaze. He gasps and slaps his hand down on the table, hard.

Where's his wife?! He misses his wife. No he doesn’t. He’s not good enough for you. He shouldn’t go near you. But he misses you. He misses you. You always manage to calm him down somehow.

He breaks two more pieces of metal before giving up. He digs his fingers into the hard surface of the table and puts his head down for a second. Then he stands up, and leaves the lab, and goes looking for his wife.

You’re walking out of the kitchen, a tumbler of coffee in your hand, and you stop in your tracks when you see him.

“Donnie! Good morning!”

There are dark patches under his eyes and his feet are scuffing and he blinks slowly at you. Oh, he’s been up all night.

You hold out the tumbler.

“This is for you.”

He takes it and sips. It’s been carefully manufactured to be just how he likes it. Just for him. His fingers tighten against the smooth metal.

“Thank you,” he croaks, and clears his voice. It’s been a while since he’s talked.

You smile awkwardly and back up, back into the kitchen.

“You want any breakfast?” you ask. Your voice cracks twice.

“Yeah,” he says, already opening the fridge. He reaches for his flavorless juice, and you lean back against the counter affectionately.

“I love you,” you say. You forgot about the awkwardness of last night for a moment, and then it comes back to you suddenly, and you shut your mouth tightly.

Donnie looks over at you. You're leaning back against the counter, and your stomach is stretching out against the fabric of your shirt, and you're looking at him with wide uncomfortable eyes and so much affection etched into the crease of your eyebrows.

He closes the fridge again and leans against the island, right across from you.

“I’m sorry,” he says. “I really do try my best.”

“I know,” you say, softly.

You stand in silence for a moment.

“He thinks you hate him,” you whisper, nodding towards Damian. He’s coloring at the kitchen table.

Donnie stares at his son. He clenches and unclenches his fists.

And then he walks past you to the kitchen table. There are crayons scattered all over the smooth wooden surface. Damian stares at the paper as his dad approaches.

Donnie clears his throat and crouches next to his son.

“Damian?”

“Hm?”

Donnie takes a deep breath and rubs at his arms. “I’m sorry I yelled at you,” he says. “It… it wasn’t nice.”

“It’s okay,” Damian says. “I’m sorry I went into your lab, and broke your things. It wasn’t nice to do. I was just very mad. And I did something bad because of it.”

“Me too,” Donnie says, awkwardly.

They finally look at each other.

“I’m still mad at you,” Donnie says, “because you did do something you weren’t allowed to, and you did break all my things. But I don’t hate you. And I forgive you.”

“I forgive you,” Damian says, “for yelling.”

Hug it out.

And Donnie awkwardly opens his arms towards his son, and Damian stares for a moment before awkwardly leaning forward to accept the hug.

You squeak in the kitchen and turn in a circle with joy and awkwardness and your baby flutters in your stomach.

“Come feel the baby,” you want to say, but you look at Damian and Donnie still hugging at the kitchen table and you decide that it can wait for a bit.

[starkwub]

Damn so that means Peter could’ve come back with his hand up and reaching for what used to be Tony, but was now empty space

Or his head might’ve fallen back against the cold hard rock below him with a gentle “ow” to follow because Tony’s hand was no longer there to support him,,

Guys I can’t imagine what that must’ve felt like 😭 if it was a blink of the eye thing, and if Dr. Strange hadn’t come back yet (maybe his abilities brought Peter back faster?) he’d be left alone with Mr. Stark’s name already on his lips again, begging to be called out

He would see the ship they’d crash-landed in corrode and weather before him with the same dust that had taken him away, and he’d then look to see Dr. Strange and the gang mostly all there, though the doctor seemed a little more preoccupied.

He looked to the other Peter, Quill, and felt a distinct kind of child-like hatred bubbling up within him because of the lack of Mr. Stark in the area. He felt it even more so amidst the later battle that surrounded him—because if he hadn’t done what he did, they would’ve stopped Thanos.

Tony, as he spoke to him about Strange and the sparkling portal they went through, wouldn’t look 5 years older. He didn’t mind it—quite the contrary—but it was five years that was taken from him. Five years that he couldn’t ever get back.

That hatred though, took the backseat when the older man’s arms wrapped around him and all he could feel after that was ease. At first he’d been shocked, but soon those spider senses that had been going haywire for god knows how long, went still. There was nothing except for the feeling of cold metal and warm skin that was currently pressing against the left side of his face. God even the stubble…

Peter couldn’t help but brush against it, though he did it only once so it seemed like a normal shift rather than a purposeful nuzzle.

Jesus, what a word to describe something in the middle of all this… Peter was tempted to shut his eyes, but he didn’t want time to zip by any faster than it already was.

“Peter…” Tony hummed rather intimately into the space between them—which wasn’t much because this had turned into more of a full frontal hug than anything else.

He shivered at the tone and the sound of his name on the other’s lips, and held on just a little bit tighter.

— — —

Gosh they have so much tension now that I imagine more XD What if they had some sort of holodeck, like Star Trek TNG has, and they recreated everything on the battle field and got a little frenzied with one another? Though not going far enough for either of them to have to acknowledge what they had between them, bc slow burn is ✨so good ✨, but just enough to get hot and bothered. Bonus points if it’s a team bonding experience that everyone has decided to use as a training exercise.

Peter could feel like a live wire every time Tony “innocently” grabs the nape of his neck, or a shoulder while Steve’s laying down the ground rules..

Anyways XD I’d never thought to write anything amidst the battle,, but it’s kinda fun :P it started off sad and turned into sexual who knows what between them, ha, but that’s pretty fun too.

Yelena Belova | Hawkeye 1x05 "Ronin"

[yukipri]

The Bad Batch Season 2 - Mid-Season Eps 7 & 8 Spoilers & Thoughts

Ranted it out on twitter last night and forgot to share here.

LOT of thoughts this time

Major Spoilers beneath cut!

Really trully phenomenal writing, so much more than I expected to be said so explicitly. Open discussion of clones' rights, their futures, their lack of personhood under both the Republic and the Empire, even the threat of decommissioning.

What we always knew, what we wanted explicitly addressed in mainstream canon, stated by the clones themselves. Truly ecstatic about these episodes.

Absolutely loved the confirmation that yes, this is what Rex has been doing all along. We saw it implied with Gregor in S1, but it's so good to see it clearly stated, and to see him in action. It makes me hope he got Cody out too.

It also made me crave a show dedicated entirely to this fight. I once again understand and am okay with the TBB centering solely around the Batch. But it's hard not to be anxious knowing what all the other clones are facing. Which makes me understand Echo even more.

Echo's decision. I knew it would come to a boiling point, trusted it would. I'd hoped that Echo would convince Hunter + co to care, but they have their own priorities. I love Echo more bc he decided he couldn't walk away.

He said that his place was with the Batch, and I like to think that he found some kind of home with them. But unlike the rest of them, he sees the rest of the clones as his brothers too. I hope this isn't the last we see of him, but I know he is loved and respected with Rex.

These episodes were a wealth of nostalgic locations, and seeing each one caused such a beautiful ache. I love all the lush new planets explored in the other episodes, but Coruscant felt like coming home.

The specific locations: 79s, the Senate building, Riyo's room that looks so much liked Padmé's, the Martez sisters' place, the clone memorial, the lower levels, even the star destroyer, the stunning of the troops specifically evoking S7's finale. Everything the same but different.

We didn't get to see all of these places with the new graphics, bc TCW S7 only had 4 arcs and TBB S1 covered a lot of newer locations. But gosh what a treat. It was all so beautiful, both aesthetically and metaphorically. Defs need to rewatch so many times to truly appreciate.

Rampart's fall surprised me, bc I did feel he's the lone Big Bad of the show so far, the true embodiment of anti-clone. He's done a lot of unforgivable things and having Palps lock him up isn't satisfying, even if it was surprising. I unfortunately doubt that's the last we've seen of him, though who knows. I admittedly don't care too much either way, but if he's gone, it'll be interesting to see who steps into the next "main antag" shoes, bc I doubt it's Palps himself.

IAN MCDIARMID.

TRULY THE KING.

(or should I say, Emperor)

RIYO.

I'm so glad to see her again

(also, apparently I've been saying her first name wrong all this time??? Am I the only one who's been saying Ree-yo when it apparently shoulda been Rai-yo?)

Rex had his tiddies uncovered the whole time and I was so concerned he'd get shot. i mean he's the only chara guaranteed to live, and I'm also glad he's got a better disguise, but dear please wear some protection

(but yeah ngl it's nice that we got to see him armorless with the beefier new model. I am still remembering TCW Saleucami and thinking my gosh this man is a STICK he is STARVED they ALL ARE. I am always for adding more beef to clones.)

Really curious where they're going with the chips brainwashing the clones. Both Rex and Wrecker appeared conscious of the whole time they were under, trying and unable to stop and remembering it afterwards.

Yet other clones seem to be gradually "waking up," even though many of them likely should have been equally horrified at the moment O66 went live. Rex and the Batch aren't exceptions being Good Guys, the vast majority of the clones are extremely loyal and honorable.

Makes me wonder if after an extended time under the chip's control, that feeling of wrongness/fighting against it fades, until it seems the new ordinary? But then the more time passes, the Order weakens, and they're able to feel more discrepancies, hence the desertions?

The clone assassin definitely seemed super "under" an Order, extremely Off and not himself, like what I'd imagine a freshly O66 clone to be like. Which makes me further curious that Rampart had him (and presumably more like him) under his control. We'll have to see!

But yeah, to conclude: Cody didn't die! (didn't show up!) Named clones I cared about too much in the few minutes we had them DID die and I am still sad but, it could have been worse.

Also huh, not even a glimpse of Crosshair? (feeling a wee bit bad for his fans, that out of the first 8 eps, he's only in one of them...hopefully the next one will be about him ^ ^; )

[parkersbliss]

Domestic life headcannons with five and Wanda!reader? Wandavision type beat 🤭

Biscuit and Lattes | F. Hargreeves

pairing: five hargreeves x wanda!reader

warnings: none

requests: CLOSED

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you can never run out of things in this house

like between you and five

you guys can conjure or grab whatever you need in seconds

so expect A LOT of laziness

grocery runs?

more like grocery jumps

although once you did go actual grocery shopping with five as normal people

or normal people that look like kids

point is

five weirdly loved it

he kept grabbing stuff and putting them in the cart and you were like

“babe???”

“what? they looked good”

“they’re watermelon poptarts…”

“yes”

so he’s kind of a child like that

which is why you don’t take him on as many grocery trips

although it also turns out he’s kind of a good cook??

obviously, he’s good with the knives

chopping onions?

this man sheds NO tears

he makes a mean cherry pie

and he’ll take it out of the oven and poof it’s gone

and he finds you on the couch with it in your lap

curse your powers

don’t even get started on the decorating a house process

oh my gosh

furniture shopping was interesting to say the least

you were considering color, texture all that stuff and five’s asleep on all the beds

same goes for the couches

he’s such a grandpa

you give him a little scare with an energy blast to wake him up

“at your service darling”

at least your powers made it easy to move all the furniture tho

not to mention he spent $300 on a coffee maker

but you can’t complain bc he brings you a latte each morning with a kiss on the head

he’s always up before you

typical breakfast in bed with him

lots of late night cuddles too

you and five love finding a show and cozying up with chinese takeout

it’s a friday night tradition

you clap your hands and takeout appears and five never has to move a finger

you switch roles each night, one picks the movie and the other picks the takeout

chores are also easy around the house

mostly bc you’re in bed and then a voice in five’s head just goes

“empty the dishwasher please”

and ofc he does bc five would NEVER go against you

also the whole projection / clone thing from you is really helpful

there’s one (Y/N) vacuuming and another dusting

your house is literally spotless

I mean, c’mon you can fly to get the cobwebs in the corner too

which is why five offers to cook for you all the time

he’s a very good husband

never wants you to work over work yourself

eventually you convince him to get a pet

your very devious plan was to walk past the pet store each time and see all the puppies and kittens

and then subtly drops hints around the house

or just project images of dogs and cats in his mind until he caves lmao

he agrees to a cat

you named him biscuit

he’s an orange tabby and makes your life very interesting

he’s a ball of energy that jumps, whines, runs, everything

and five struggles to keep up with him

but it’s all worth it when you guys to cuddle together on the couch

that is

until biscuit steals your food and both you and five are teleporting around the house to catch him

which normally ends with you and five bumping into each other

and he just kisses you and forgets all about the stolen food

— END —

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