#operation66dayschallenge

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Hello guys! (An Update)

You must have noticed that lately I have been struggling with productivity but there’s a greater issue at work, I’m finding it harder to sit still and let my mind be and that why there’s constant scrolling not just here on tumblr but also on Instagram a lot more on Instagram and instead of flow I have been forcing myself to work via blocking these apps and shutting off WiFi and internet on my phone. It’s causing more harm than good although I am all up for setting boundaries with myself such as limiting social media and time on the phone but that hasn’t actually reduced the chaos or lack of stillness in my mind.

So what’s causing the chaos in my mind?

Currently, lack of acknowledging the struggles that seem bigger to me which is how to pay for therapy and not feel guilty that I need to stop the sessions soon and not feel this guilt just because I couldn’t pay but that the friction towards the payment is slow and I feel hopeless about it this is to say that I haven’t found a stable job yet and whenever I do find tasks on outlier I have pending university tasks that’s piled up and I need to rush through them so find myself unable to finish the tasks on outlier within the deadlines so I don’t get paid. This is keeping me up at night causing me this anxiety and restlessness that I am not doing enough and that things would have been much easier if dad helped out which he wont so in order to distract myself I have been very active on social media and also simply very social. I would rather spend time with my friends at uni or on vc with my besties doing nothing productive than actually doing the task but doing the task whether uni work or job related I will have to face the shame and guilt of not doing what I truly prioritise the most. I feel stuck because I am not doing enough to get unstuck, to move, to be in flow, to reach the stage where I am grounded enough in faith to be able to trust the flow to begin with, which brings me to the next part -

Faith in myself is lost due to my actions that led me to not be able to make the payments in the first place and be in debt and there’s lack of patience to sit with these feelings because I want to quickly almost immediately find a solution and solve these problems when they already go deeper than meets the eye as explained above - the shame of not being able to pay and the guilt of not being able to do anything about it.

To give a glimpse of how it’s affecting me, I stayed up yesterday for 2 hours in the middle of the night unable to move from my desk where I sat to study just pulling my hair (I have trichotillomania) and randomly scrolling on Instagram video by video not paying attention to any of it but doing so to avoid listening to the voice or thoughts in my head saying this is not worth it, I should be doing more.

So what should I do now that I know what’s wrong or holding me back?

Acknowledge the bigger issue at work and forgive myself ➡️ find stillness and get grounded in the now ➡️ find and listen to faith, find flow in the process & understand I can’t move forward without struggle ➡️ move with intention but with patience and acceptance ➡️ ultimately less fixation on the result and immediate gratification and more in movement through struggle

I believe in eastern philosophy of taoism and to be specific Wu Wei a lot and a YouTube video just brought me back to the current moment and reminded me that that’s what’s missing in my life right now - effort less flow

So this is the path I’ll be following ⤵️

With all of this I also need to acknowledge and make peace with slow pace that it may take a lot more time than I can anticipate to make the payment and that I’ll have to constantly work and save up to be able to make regular payments. That’s there’s no progress without a bit of struggle and there’s no perfect way of doing these things but to simply do them. And on top of all of this I also need to fix my sleep schedule so that I’m not tired and close to burn out.

Anyways, linking the video below that I’ll be making progress towards ⬇️

The point is to embrace the journey in the now and not punish myself for what I should/could have done.

The point is to seek mental clarity and acceptance and rise up above the chaos.

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Hello guys,

This is my blog containing study and self care related stuff. A lot of my content here is related to my day to day life and how I manage my life given the conditions I have - as mentioned below,

I have a mental health disorder called trichotillomania (to know more here) and an autoimmune disease called crohn’s (to know more here and my experience )

I am a law school drop out (my experience ), studying psychology (ba applied psychology research), based in India and I am 24 years old.

I use notion on a daily basis to keep a track of my notes and daily life.

I also journal and you can visit my current journaling template here .

If you want to know more about me then here’s my 2025 plans 2025 reading list my productivity system.

Currently, I’m doing a challenge called operation 66 - not anymore.

I am open to asks and dms but I am slow to reply so please stay patient with me.

Main - @notyourtypicalfool

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17th Feb 2025

Good evening fellas!

Day 2 of challenge operation 66:

Yesterday I couldn’t study, I called up a lot of people asking for notes because the textbook did not have the material on 3rd module. I skim read the first 2 modules but I had no confidence so I’ll be doing the entire syllabus again today because coincidentally the prof ended up being absent with no one to take our class test today!

Anyways, this week is hectic.

5:30-7pm study session 1

7-8 pm therapy

8-8:30pm cardio

8:30 - 9pm Dinner

9-10 clean room, shower, skin care

10-1am study session 2

May continue studying tomorrow morning as well but I don’t think it’ll be needed as I’ll ChatGPT the material.

Will exercise only for 30mins because something is better than doing nothing.

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16th February 2025

Operation 66 day 1:

I planned on writing this post around 11 then I forgot and started doing house chores and now that I remembered i will finish this and then only get up from my seat. I tried posting this 3 times but unsure what kept happening I guess tumblr being tumblr but the post would just disappear? Anyways if the same post shows up later 2 more times you know why 🤷🏻‍♀️

Lately, I have been resting a lot and even with all this resting I don’t feel it’s enough.

I went through my calendar and sorted all the due dates in one place to find out a lot is due this week 😭 at least im aware now and still have some time to do it.

Tomorrow I have health psychology class test. It’s of 10 marks and due to syllabus being bio heavy I will study from textbook and make fresh notes in reference to the ones I made in class so I need at least 8 hours of study sessions today. The syllabus is first 3 modules but the 3rd module is my main focus that I’ll study from textbook.

Although it’s 1pm im sharing the time table for the entire day that I have followed so far -

7-9 morning routine

9 - 11:30pm brain storm/self reflect

11:30 - 1:30pm house chores

1:30 - 2:30pm lunch

3 - 4pm nap

4 - 8pm study session 1 (module 3)

8 -9pm dinner

9 - 10pm shower/night routine

10 - 1am study session 2 + some caffeinated beverage (module 1 + 2)

Yes I also did set alarms to keep myself accountable.

I would be skipping any forms of exercise today because I did do some exercise yesterday.

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New Challenge - Operation 66

The point of the challenge is for me get back into practice of being productive and regular with my routines. So pls refer to the video below 👇

Tasks:

1 - drink 0.5l of water first thing in the morning

2 - To not use any social media at night when trying to fall asleep and the minute I wake up instead read/listen to downloaded music/podcast for an hour

3 - 60 mins exercising + shower

4 - 60 mins of studying everyday could be recreational or research based or related to your degree

5 - 2 mins of deep breathing upon waking up

Rules:

Low impact and less time taking action over procrastination - instead of delaying or postponing the task do the least you can do only for 20 mins, the point is to show up and remember each day looks different

No breaks for 2 consecutive days - taking a break on Thursday is fine but avoid taking a break on Friday as well within the same week so as to not fall in a rut

Presence over disappearance - this is in relation to the blog as in to journal my everyday progress and plans like I did all last year

Easier access - to make it easy to conduct the activity so plan the workouts for the week before hand, to set alarms if not reminders to easily be reminded of the tasks to be done, download things offline like books, music, podcast.

System over goals - goals once accomplished are over but that’s not the point, it is to create a repeatable process to lean back on once it becomes a habit.

The point is to create a stack of healthy habits and to undo the ones not serving so this challenge is for the next 66 days and I’ll be blogging what I did and didn’t do every day here on tumblr.

I’ll be using the tag #operation66dayschallenge to keep a track. If you wish to join and do this challenge feel free to make the changes the way I did and customise it to your needs and use the same tag if you feel like it :)