#or just... dont get too attached to fictional characters

[yellowocaballero]

as someone who played bl first... you should've played black eagles first bc when characters who are awesome get killed, it hurts less bc u don't know them enough to get attached to them.

I mean that sounds like an excellent point and an interesting turnaround tbh but, like, counterpoint - what if I don't play the BE at ALL because it would make me TOO SAD?

[reblogandlikes]

Self insert Fandom

I've come to realise that most of the toxicity within the acotar fandom is often rooted in a ridiculous amount of self insert. They see a character as them, therefore their actions are absolved. They see another character in their abuser, or worse, 'as' their abusers and so they can never be impartial towards them, thinking the worst because in real life they've dealt with a lot.

I get it. Art can sometimes mimic reality, but they are indeed forgetting that this is a whole fantasy fiction book about human women turned fae getting dicked down with a hint of war and political intrigue. These characters are not, in fact, you or your abusers. Making the series so personal to themselves can then lead to a lack of introspection of the work as a whole made to be enjoyed and critiqued to the readers' preference, whether shallow or in depth.

But because this fandom in particular seem to make these books so personal than reading it as a piece of fiction, they're inflicting real world scenarios onto fictional characters and if their characters face any backlash or reasonable questioning, they take it as a personal attack which for some reason leads to insults and wild assumptions of very REAL people.

"No, no one is saying you should forgive your abuser mum, boyfriend, sister, because this literally isn't about you. I dont know you or your situation. Im talking about *insert character*."

"No, I don't think reactive abuse is OK, though I also don't believe lying about SA is OK either, let alone condoning SA."

"What do you mean it's abusive to lock someone up and then make an excuse to say it's not abuse to lock someone else up?"

The mental gymnastics is truly outstanding. If they're so called morally grey, let them be just that.

Speaking for myself, it's easy to find some commonality in a characters personality. It's written by a whole human who has a personality too, after all. But I do not attach myself to these characters as if they are my family members or those dear to me. They are, in fact, not real, and I will talk about them in the context of a fantasy text, generally.

Now the moment you take their actions out of a fantasy text, every character, and I mean, every character, needs to be dealt with the same scrutiny. Your faves will be called out and dragged. You cannot call real people names, but then think highly of yourself when your faves have done worse. What does that then make you? A racist? A misogynist? An AS denier? An abuse apologist? Someone who endorses apartheid? Someone who's OK with controlling the female body? A war criminal?

You see how absurd that all is?

Honestly, it's not that deep. But again, it's not bad to see yourself in character. Just realise that when people have some reservations about them, they are not calling YOU out. They are strictly talking about that character and that character alone. But maybe if you find so much offence, perhaps you should think about why that is. Look deep and figure out why it troubles you so much. Perhaps they're holding up a mirror, and you simply can not bear to look into it, seeming that that character represents you so much.

I think this is the only fandom I've been involved in where simply daring to disagree with the main MC and side characters can lead to online prosecution and just so much hostility. I've seen some truly nasty comments, and it's boggling. I can imagine how off-putting it may seem to newer readers.

I long for the days when people can talk about the characters and narrative alone without feeling the need to make disclosures about what they support in real life because it's truly unnecessary. I thought reading fiction was meant to be a form of escapism, not defending my moral standpoint.

If I said I enjoyed Katherine Pierce, Klaus Mikaelson and Kai Parker from TVD, what then? They're despicable, but fucking enjoyable. Don't get me started on Game of Thrones characters.

Alright, I'm done now 😅

[bpd-roland]

Day 1 (Pinned post)

Hello! This is a blog dedicated to the character Roland from Library of Ruina. If you don't know who or what that is, go play the game please it's so awesome trust me. (if you do genuinely go play it bc of this post GET OUTTA HERE this blog has MAJOR SPOILERS!!!!)

This blog is all ages-- It will not contain NSFW content. I might interact with NSFW blogs by happenstance because I'm not going to, like, vet every person that ever interacts, but that's about the extent to which you'll ever see that from me.

Who are you?

Call me whatever you want, any pronouns you feel like, and I'm an adult. This is a sideblog and I'd prefer relative anonymity, so if you know who I actually am, please keep it a secret to Tumblr 😉

If you want my credentials, I'm many a Discord server's resident Roland Guy. I've been majoring in Roland studies for about a year, with a minor in Angelica studies (But unfortunately, I'm the only one in this program).

Why Roland?

Being one of the two main characters (alongside Angela, who I will probably also get into on this blog), you would expect that all the analysis on him has already been done, and I'm just retreading old ground. But if you've been in any fandom whatsoever, you'll often find that mischaracterization is RAMPANT in fan communities, even for the most popular or the mainest of main casts.

I grew to really love Roland and get attached to his arc, and I've been frustrated by the all-too-common fan perception of him as Overpowered Anger Issues Man who Hates Everyone (Especially Angela), so I want to preach the message of who Roland really is.

I don't know what to put under the read more right now, so like. ill just put some misc stuff in there. Hope you stick around :)

last updated 1/12/25

Disclaimer:

I probably won't only post about roland. sorry to disappoint. too many important relationships between other characters, who i'll then also need to establish a baseline for. it's just the way it has to be

Tagging system

I will not be tagging every post as roland dont worry 😭 your fanart tag is safe. I'm probably going to use #daily roland (for semi-daily posts. bc i think i will try to draw a roland every day. i tend to do that anyways), and #roland posting / #angelica posting for various analysis posts. other character analysis posts will also follow the "[name] posting" format methinks.

i also reblog any post i can make about the character. i'll tag these as something. idk yet

Asks

Asks are open! I'm willing to answer in character but this isn't an ask blog! so i'll assume by default that it's not directed at him.

Okay well I kinda wanna know what your Roland "thesis" is before I follow you. If he's commonly mischaracterized, what do you think he really is?

Roland deeply fears vulnerability, but also deeply craves intimacy. He has emotional regulation issues, and difficulty reconciling opposing ideas, resulting in polarized judgement. He's sensitive to others' opinions of him and mirrors the personalities of those he interacts with, particularly absorbing the ones of those he likes (major example being, of course, Angelica), resulting in a poor sense of self and identity issues.

All this to say, Roland might be the most fantastic example of BPD I've ever seen written in a fictional character (that isn't my own OC). And he's even bisexual!

[tsukasalover]

I can think of a lot of reasons why I like and have gotten attached to tsukasa more than any other fictional character and i think if i had to keep it simple (or else id be rambling for hours) id say

1. He’s so interesting. I usually pick up the extremely mischaracterized blonde characters anyways but he gets my brain working real hard. its almost 2am and i cant think straight but theres something about his duality that keeps me glued to him and the amount of Layers he has and how removing even one layer or completely ignoring how both his huge ego and kindness + selflessness coexist can really mess up your perception of him. There was something quite short i wrote about how both sides make him. Well. Him. back when his colofes dropped since i was so annoyed at the people Not getting it (while most never even read the STORIES 😁) anf ive been screaming this for a year now Please. Also the way his dream and being a good big brother go hand in hand have captured me. I really like fictional siblings and they fill something personal i miss and Looove looking at the roots of characters. Discovering where this and that and connecting events to what started their behaviors or helped their personality bloom. So seeing saki and toya play such an important role in his life keeps me HOOOKEDDD. I took the bait like tiny fish. Dont regret it. Never will. I like my fictional characters like layered cake. Thats basically how i see them. I had a yummy chocolate cake with so mant layers the other day 🤤 but anyways. I also really like when characters have to learn and grow as people after making really bad mistakes or being straight up assholes so it really took a while even after mainstory but once i got to see more of him with saki and read dazzling i was like. This is the guyyy. Youre mine now lets go. I dont like perfect characters but.. you see.. when characters who have (sometimes way too much) confidence and are dramatic yet are shown to truly be good people who enjoy making others happy… alright.. now im listening… Sign me up…

But really he has almost everything I’ve ever looked for in a character. Starting with the fact that he’s a theatre kid. And blonde. Of course emu nene and rui + more fictional characters have made their way into my heart and ive gotten attached to them on very Very personal levels but when it comes to this Idiot who wants to be a star and reminds me of a dog its something that i dont even know how to explain sometimes. Why is he here? What are you doing inside of my head. Ill never have one solid answer because he takes up too much space in my mind and i become incoherent too often when talking about him.

2. Ignoring my first answer, He is ugly. My favorite punching bag. Cartoon character. Begins floating when he smells pie. I dont know anymore

3. he just like me fr (Which is terrible i dont like that)

[dr-spectre]

Hello everyone, I need to get something out there, to scream in the void as they say. I wanna vent so if you wish to skip over, it's all good. I dont know if this healthy for me to do or if this will cause issues but, fuck it.

One of the worst feelings in the world is feeling like you're a child, someone who acts so excited yet so dumb at the same time. You spend your time, energy, effort, whatever, at something that brings you happiness or excitement. And it's out of your control. You wish it would stop, but your brain has other plans.

And all it takes is one single knock at that built-up tower for it to crumble down, one comment or sentence from anyone and you're left feeling like a child and to never speak with another human being ever again.

There are so many days where I wish that I could just stay numb and feel nothing because, to be honest with y'all, sometimes I genuinely despise the way I act online, and i feel so damn embarrassed. The way I use a lot of capital words, act so mean towards people who don't know any better and just base their information off of tangible sources, feeling like a complete asshat about a fictional fucking girly character. I can't control it, but I wish I could.

I really wanna isolate myself. God I want to. I want my brain to shut up. I always tell myself, "just shut up. Just never speak again. Don't talk about anything to others. It hurts you."

I am so fucking sensitive over little shit its so annoying i hate it. I overthink beyond comprehension its actually fucking insane. Call me Callie Cuttlefish the way I "sometimes I think too much! (>_<;)"

I.... I'm tired, in all honesty. What I preach is nothing more than a headcanon, a false narrative, nothing in actual canon, I feel like I'm wrong, I shouldn't get mad at those who say other words to describe things. I'm some spoiled brat who can't accept what is there because I'm too attached to some bitch. They are right. Im a wrong autistic loser. I'm tired of hyper focusing on word choices, I'm tired of my chest hurting, I'm tired of it all. I feel so numb. I'm a fucking child.

This is way too genuine, holy shit. I may take this down later I will think about it. Its like midnight over here....

[deltaruminations]

so i dont normally make OCs but i had this idea for a deltarune fan character and im curious what you guys think... so you know how comic sans and papyrus are funny 90s microsoft fonts... well basically i thought what if there was a third skelebro and his font was wingdings, because wingdings is also a funny 90s microsoft font, and it would be especially funny because you can't even read it! and since the other two are really over the top and stuff maybe this one is more shy and reserved, and maybe he's even like the middle brother who's always forgotten, or he's the youngest brother and always living in their shadows because he isn't as outgoing or confident as them, or something like that. idk im still workshopping it lol. he's funny like them too but in a really clever and dry way that people don't always get, like he's kind of idiosyncratic and hard to read just like his font! and since he's so shy and self-conscious maybe he has a hard time talking to people and making friends, so he likes reading and writing stories so he can feel like he's a part of things even if it's not real. maybe he even writes fanfiction for games he likes just like we do! you know like how deltarune has meta-commentary about storytelling and fiction and stuff... anyway i feel a little embarrassed sharing this, i know it's silly and kind of cringe lol. of course sans and papyrus are the only skelebros, i just think this idea is really cute and im getting kind of attached to him haha

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People with OVERLY cruel humour/just mean in general. I'm a sensitive person sometimes so if not specified as a joke, that stuff can upset me.

Mistah Phone haters. GET OUT. /j

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[deakwithit]

being a fictive and knowing you were once delusionally attached to your source to the point of blocking kins/id/any sucks bc i still feel like the real one, even though i know im not. like wdym im not the only oswald cobblepot, why cant i be?

but osdd/did doesnt make you a fictional character, i never was nor will be oswald cobblepot really, im just a manifestation of deep rooted problems. i may look like oswald cobblepot but at the end of the day, hes just someone i resemble. i wont ever be him, and reminding myself of that is both positive and negative. sometimes it sends me into a meltdown, other times it makes me feel less trapped. i like being myself and having my own personality, i like my gender and my identities, i like my labels, i like who i am outside of my "source"

i wish i never fell into that anti recovery "this is me and me only" mindset. i wish i never fell for the concept of doubles. i wish i could go back and tell myself im not a fictional character, so id stop dissociating as much. looking in a mirror became difficult because i didnt look like me.

i wish i could go back and not be this slightly delusionally attached person who clings onto their source, but it feels like all i have sometimes.

i represent our bpd, our anxiety, im supposed to help us, but ive only hindered. my host days are over and i know they wont come back. im content with that. i fronted for a year, only going in small intervals, only getting to leave fully maybe a couple times. this was supposed to be a break for me but all i feel is bitter hatred towards my headmates for taking my life away from me. i wont get to experience everyday again, i will just pop in sometimes to have a conversation, nothing else.

nothing about this is fun, this is cruel, demeaning, embarrassing, humiliating, and not once in 2 years has there been a day i havent suffered because of this stupid disorder

why do other systems get to go through life without amnesia, with low dissociation, knowing their parts and their intracacies, knowing their member counts, etc, while i cant remember wether i worked yesterday or not. i go to work and dont know what im doing or where im going half the time. i have to cook, as a fast food worker, and i make too much food and i wonder when i even started moving to make it. i dont feel myself, i dont feel like im there, i feel like im floating. all i can do is think, im trapped in my own head watching myself move and its agonizing, i dont know what i couldve done as a child to deserve such abhorrent symptoms. this is ruining my life. i cant remember spending time with my bf. i can hardly remember details of my own life. i still write my deadname on things knowing ive been out for years as dante. i cant remember anything and it is pure suffering to wake up everyday

[theespeakerboxxx]

i dont like giving anecdotes because they're cringe, but lily's justification for her sister fan fictions made me think of my "sister" story i've been working on for the longest

i have two ocs, kane and shan

kane has avoidance issues stemming from childhood trauma and into adulthood, causing her to have behavioral problems, which gives her no friends. her cousin shan grew up with her like they were sisters, helping her become more adjusted and even landing her a high paying job in adulthood.

regardless, kane became extremely attached to shan, this includes living with her, depending on her for solving her problems (which kane caused) and always wanting shan to be with her since she has no one else. shan wants to help kane of course, but feeling as if she's overbearing, causing them to get into squabbles.

obviously this is EXTREMELY unhealthy and damaging. i convey this through my writing and art for them that a relationship like this for family should not be treated as "cutesy" or "normal". your family members aren't your licensed therapists and you shouldn't enable them just cuz they're family!

lily however doesn't understand this. she thinks that a sister sharing a bed with her sister and her WIFE is normal and totally not overbearing, as well as her avatar sisters not being able to function without one another.

she says that her avatar characters are trying to learn to live without depending too much on one another, but this claim is bogged down by how much "cutesy" art there is of them cuddling and being together 24/7. i dont think ive seen them with any other characters besides each other lmao

tldr; it's not that hard to write a story about emotionally attached siblings without being grossly weird about it. lily you don't know how sisters actually act and it shows. maybe ask your audience who aren't incest loving freaks what their relationship with their sisters is like, or do research to get a general idea, before you try to pass off sharing a bed with your sister and her wife as normal.

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

yes i agree. i also think it's bc it's most ppls first otome game and l&ds barely introduced a character with dubious morals RECENTLY, but even then once you read Caleb's backstory, the way he acts makes sense you just have to read it to understand him, but i also get it can be a bit intimidating for ppl who've never played an otome game with that type of character. there was a tweet a few weeks back abt how ppl who have only played l&ds are weak bc they haven't played more "scary/problematic" otome games where the lis are crazy and they were fighting each other saying ppl can enjoy a game where the lis actually love them with no "scary/problematic" bits and i get it but honestly the fandom is so mean and full of purist that i don't even wanna touch the community bc they take it so seriously when at the end of the day this is a game, these characters are fictional and you can makeup whatever you want about them and you can just ignore what you don't like? no need to be so rude about things. i hope some of this makes sense? 🥲

for sure LMFAOOO

like my first otomes were like. amnesia and other similar fucked up things like that. i was also playing a lot bl visual novels too young so it was never particularly weird to me. but i think the strong sense of attachment people have is what makes it extra hostile.

and honestly? i do not think being offended or upset by the characterization in itself is a crime. if you dont like stuff like that i think i can be sympathetic on why it'd be crazy to hear. the main issue is the amount of policing people do on people who DO enjoy that thing. and obviously thats true for antis across the board.

but i think the sense of like. real tried and true moral crusading is ultimately because this otome is SO in depth. like it really is. its awesome and i enjoy it but if my brain were any smoother i can easily see why someone would become that attached and develop that need to defend them like a lawyer.

and again. i really do get it. i too want to throw tomatoes at people when they mischaracterize bakugou and whatnot. but harassing people it is simply insane. REAL people at that.

[sunsetsmakemesad]

@alittlebitofasuckerforangst

HADGSGSHSJSHDHDDH

ok ok ok it took me forever to get to answering this, i also accidentally posted the post too soon and when i deleted it your ask got deleted too. Sorry for that.

So they all live in a set universe, in a story I'm developing that i may or may not post to webtoon. If I end up deciding to it'll take forever since i don't even have the first draft written.

This is Ann and she's also the first OC i drew for this story. I wa just goofing around but when i finished her i got too attached and couldn't just leave her as a sketch. She's a government agent and she loves theathre. She dresses sorta light academia, for lack of a better term. She's 25, but i might change that

She grew up in a small village with her grandmother which eventually was destroyed in war when she was 11. After that she got picked up by that work force and they trained her. She got very attached to a mentor figure in her life, one that i dont have a set design for yet.

Around the beginning of the story, said mentor is killed, leaving behind her daughter. Which leads us toooooooo

Lily! She's 6 and I love her so much. Very curious child who has a morbid interest in scary stories. I love drawing her a lot it's so therapeutic for me

She's left in the care of Ann, who has no experience dealing with children and frankly doesn't like Lily that much at first. She ends up yelling at her freshly having lost her mentor, and the house is very quiet after that. A big part of the problem is that she was given no prior notice. The child just showed up.

Against all odds Ann ends up being fiercely protective of this child. This is a very spy x family ahh plot but I'm a sucker for those.

Lily hates theathre. Hate is a strong word, but it's the word youmg children most commonly use when they don't like something. She finds it very boring. She only got to see one, one that Ann dragged her to since she had no idea what the kid would like. But! During the play she sees a pretty actress and is excited for the rest of the play. Only the scenes where the actress shows up. I have a comic for this one hold on

It's a frankly old comic so i'm not as proud of it anymore but still cute.

"Actress" ring a bell?

It's her!! My baby Dahlia the one and only. I drew this in physics class not too long ago and i need to figure out the formula to keep drawing her like this since it's my best version of her yet. She's not so kind to Lily when she goes to get her autograph so Lily is a little bummed later(kid cannot catch a break😔)

She will be an important character in the story but i haven't got anything fully figured out. Her parents died when she was a toddler and afterwards she's lived in and out of the foster system, due to having no other relatives able to take care of her and her brother(who is 7 years older than her). She does get adopted at some point and stays there for a year or two but they're severely neglectful. They die too and back to the foster care system it is. Her brother gets to live on his own at 18 and tries to adopt her since they don't wanna be seperated. This takes a while since to adopt someone not that much younger than you you gotta have a stable source of income and you have to prove that you can be trusted to raise someone. Eventually he does become her legal guardian(21 and 14).

Dahlia's quite pessimistic and doesn't have many friends. She loves spicy food. She hates cooking. She LOOOVES script-writing and has written many for the theathre, getting to act herself in some. She mistrusts people generally. Tends to not talk much off stage.

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These two. I love them so muchhh even thought they're severely under-developed(tbh all of my OCs are). They're the main antagonists and also married. Sierra(left) is hispanic(or like. Fictional hispanic since all the countries are fictional despite being based on real countries)(Ann is british)(so is lily) and her husband who i don't have a name for yet(WE LOVE MY SCATTERED OC GRAPH I DONT KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THESE PEOPLE ALL I KNOW IS THAT MY LOVE FOR THEM IS REAL) i dont know what he is yet he is unlock nationality at level 7. despite their being villains their relationship is very healthy and they care about each other a lot. They both wear an eyepatch but only sierra has to(well she doesn't. Have to what i mean is there is something wrong with her eye her husband just wears it to be supportive about her insecurities).

Sierra loves hime fashion

That's alllll i got for now i may change up some things if i dont like them in the long run but i hope you enjoyed my ted talk

[graciehatesgracie]

ok that's enough

warnings: SA, r@p3, etc

Simon "Ghost" Riley characterisation for romance fan fictions:

REMEMBER:

if you're writing a canonically accurate Simon, remember that he went through a lot of sexual assault from both men and women (comics) and I think even r@p3d, so he's not gonna be touchy feely and all seductive. he would probably hate if you even tried to hug him. id reckon back rubs and pats on the shoulder are the only things he tolerates from rookies so if your OC is a rookie, remember that hes gonna be tense

Simon went through insane trauma as a kid so he's gonna have some kind of attachment issues. when writing the relationship between your OC and Simon, dont rush the process. it will take awhile for Simon to trust someone, especially since he's in the military.

PERSONALITY:

Ghost isn't vulnerable at all. I'm pretty sure he despises the idea of opening up to someone he barely knows.

He's agile. Touch him too much and he might break your wrist. Obviously the man has trauma, so don't make your character touch him suddenly unless you want to write them getting a few bones broken.

He's a man of focus, sheer will, and determination. He is insanely focused on his job and he doesn't take it lightly (which is genuinely very very reasonable, since he's risking his life). He's gonna turn down hangout offers if he's got some important Intel on a terrorist. Your OC is not special.

this is the best I can give since it's already ooc for him to even have a romantic relationship (hes basically batman if batman was in the military) and I'm just trying to make it a little more realistic.

[wulfthedollmaker]

Sorry if I seemed heated in my last post, the truth is that I do LIKE Maxwell and Wilson as characters, I just see ppl obsessing over them so often that it no longer feels interesting, and the fact that there are so many characters in the game that get such little attention gives me even more of an incentive to focus less on Wilson and Maxwell as a result

I guess I’m just frustrated as I feel like I’m one of the few people here that want to show their appreciation towards unpopular characters and ships, and I so desperately want to see new content that doesn’t just feel like the same fan favorite characters over and over again

There are just so many characters in this franchise who are all so unique and wonderful in their own ways and I think it would be amazing so see what this fandom comes up with to show their appreciation

(Perhaps this is why I became so attached to Woodie x Warly as a ship because these characters are so unpopular who knows)

I don’t intend to hate on anybody in this post, this is just MY personal frustrations and I totally get that taste is subjective, keep in mind that this post is being written by some shitty unemployed 18 year old who is upset over fictional characters in a fictional video game, so dont take me too seriously

If you’ve read this whole post to the end I just wanna say that you’re epic :))

[ang3lp4wzz]

NEW PINNED !! ^^

non reblogs - @ang3lp4wwz

Hallo ^^! My old Pinned was getting a little .. yk old. And I just felt like rewriting it so here’s the new one ! :D

All info under cut <3

Names / Pronouns !

I have a few names im ok with being called. Which gets a little confusing, so u can just call me Ethan ! (Coil, Finn, or Chance r okay too tho ^^)

I typically go by any pronouns? But I’d prefer more online if I was mainly called he/they ^^

(Puppy neopronouns r also ok! ^^)

Fandoms / Content you’ll see !

I dabble in a few fandoms on this account! Mainly my hyperfixations. But sometimes I reblog stuff that I don’t know much abt..

Some fandoms you’ll DEFINITELY see are Phighting, Forsaken, Resident Evil, Dandy’s World, Cookie Run, and maybe some others :3

I also mainly just repost anything agere related. Nothing much specific. But I do really like moodboards :3

This account stays generally positive, but small vents may be occasionally posted. Those will have content warnings and will be tagged correctly! Stay safe <3

I also sometimes reblog silly Ranboo posts, which sometimes boarder into adult territory. So little warning if you see that.

About my regression stuff !

My little age is generally 1-5. It’s never fully specified in my brain until I fully slip.

I’m also a puppy regressor ! ^^ (-adding this here cuz idk where else to. German Shepherd/White Tailed Deer therian :3)

Nicknames r ok! Just as long as they aren’t sexually charged then anything is ok ^^

Yeh that’s kinda all I have to say here

Jack?! :O! (-fictional cg’s.)

You’ll probably see a little dog-boy being drawn a LOT on this account. That’s Jack! My sorta self indulgent oc.

He gets drawn with my fictional CG’s! ^^ because SOMEONE. Not naming names. Gets too attached to fictional characters. (Hm.)

I have a lot of fictional caregivers. If I like a character then they’re my mom now. Here’s a smallll list of them ! ^^

(Medkit, Broker, Scythe, Banhammer [phighting] Guest 1337 [Forsaken] Eternal Sugar, Pure Vanilla, [CRK] Leon Kennedy, Lady Dimitrescu [Resident Evil])

DNI LIST.

-Basic Dni criteria.

-Sfw only. (Unless I know you IRL.)

-DreamTeam supporters of any kind. (Characters on the server idc)

-Toxic WSS (don’t be a dingus and we’re chill)

-MCYT DRAMA IN GENERAL. DONT bring it into my blog.

-Ava/Soul [old Forsaken devs] support of ANY kind.

-Onto that, don’t bring Roblox dev or game drama onto here either please.

-obvious one: but anti-agere or anything of the sorts.?

Other than that I don’t think I have much else ^^ just be kind <3

Anyways! Thanks for checking out my Blog<3 writing requests open if you’d like to give me one ! Even if I don’t know the character I’ll try my best to write for them :3!

[siriuslylantsov]

HELLOOO, dear alisha. it's been a while. but here are my thoughts as promised (i cannot find the draft so i'm doing it again). ALSO TELL HOW HAVE YOU BEEN WHATS GOING ON WITH LIFE <33333

i can finally say i've finished all the series up until now that i'm watching DDBA when it comes out. CRAZY to think my last ask i was only halfway through iron fist. also i have a really shitty memory so i'm probably missing things.

now on to more serious business, my ranking of all the series:

daredevil (love of my life)

HOLY FUCKHOLYFUCKHOLYFUCK, third season???????????????????

absolute masterpiece, i'm pretty sure it was my favourite season. mygod i was INLOVE with agent nadeem. mygod was i crying when he was killed off. i was also crying my eyes out at that last scene with all three of them sitting together, and foggy writing their names on a napkin.

sigh

2. the punisher (also love of my life)

AMAZING, both seasons. though maybe i have a slight predilection for the first one because of david. they made such a great duo.

and i totally see the karen/frank thing. in my opinion they have way more chemistry but whatevs.

3. jessica jones

i don't wanna talk too much about the ones you haven't seen cause i don't wanna spoil you just in case but i can say that i definitely liked it wayy more than i was expecting. season one was cool but i feel like it improved as the seasons passed, at least for me.

4. the defenders

was great, thought i was going to like it better. i was genuinely waiting on the edge of my seat to see matt in the nypd shirt cause i had seen the gifs on here, lol.

5. luke cage

great, second season was GOOOD. the ending? uhmmm. anyway. had some good fucking characters, though.

6. iron fist

my god, that man was insufferable, but i have to say when the series was ending i was starting to not hate him as much.

amazing how in each series i managed to be severely attached to at least one character. sigh, i love fictional characters <3

i also watched some series that aren't technically from the defenders saga but the site i was going off of told me to watch them and i did. i watched she-hulk, echo, and hawkeye. loved them, especially she-hulk. i think that's controversial, i remember people really shitting on it but i was having the time of my life watching it. AND HAWKEYE MY GOD DO I LOVE A CHARACTER WITH A BOW!!!!

NOWW

DDBA, WTF. they let me be happy for just about fifteen seconds.

FOGGY??? HELP??? i was heartbroken and also i had gotten spoiled before starting to watch it, in the comments of an edit of matt and him. i couldn't see anything with my eyes all full of tears. i genuinely HOW COULDD THEY DO THAT IN THE FIRST EPISODE and i understand but UGHHH. i saw some theories of people online saying that in the comics foggy fakes his death and i'm hanging on to that thread of hope but wth.

now the psychologist and matt. GIRL, BRING BACK KAREN I DONT CARE WTF. i used to be such a matt/karen hater so i'm taking this as some kind of karma against me because what is this. tell me what you think ofc but in my opinion they don't have an ounce of chemistry. i don't dislike her as a character (i don't really like her either cause i haven't seen much of her yet) but... just. bring back karen, marry her to matt and i don't care anymore.

he had so much more chemistry with that one woman in that singular scene where he was negotiating that guy's sentence than with heather.

HELP I JUST WENT TO LOOK HER CHARACTER'S NAME AND SHE'S SEBASTIAN STANS PARTNER? didn't know.

to finish with this ask i just wanna say i'm a bit confused about fisk getting out of jail. i don't know if i've missed somewhere where they explained though i don't think cause i looked it up and people were just as clueless. but i don't care i'm loving the show.

YAYYYY, glad to be back to bombard your askbox. hope you don't mind.

p.d: have you watched stranger things?? (i'm not having a phasei'mnothavingaphasei'mnothavingasteveharringtonphase)

p.d.2: sad i can't be more detailed, my memory is indeed shitty. but that's a plus kinda cause in a few months (now really) i can watch everything again having forgotten 90% of everything.

p.d.3: i had to uninstall discord cause of lack of space and i just realized i had a message from you from february :(( my phone is on its last breaths.

p.d.4: what would be your ranking? with the ones you've seen ofc. though i would recommend all the series tbh.

OH MY JO this is the ask of all asks, the dd talk of all dd talks

putting this under a cut because yap city 🫡 and some ddba spoilers

quite literally nothing has been going on with life 😞 ive got like exams! in a month... yay....

the third season is incredible i loooove all of his with religion issues and speaking off i need ddba!matt to go to church please this is so important

and i LOVED the maggie reveal oh my goddd i need him to go see his mom in season 2 pls. when he mentioned her in the bank ep in ddba i almost cried. PLEASE GO TO CHURCH

nelson murdock and page 😕😕

also YAYYYYY PUNISHER let me talk i loved season 1 i ate up the entire thing, like learning more about what billy did and the whole system was crazy, that being said i wasnt a fan of season 2. it felt too condensed, the two plot lines going on at once was so messy like billy on one side and then william lamontagne jr on the other and the girl??? i liked her a bit, but im also just a sucker for father daughter plots so that probably played into it

did you LOVE when billys face got cut up by the mirror

are you also a big fan of frank with a beard i love frank with a beard frank with a beard is my fav thing im so glad we got a good chunk of frank and his sexy sexy beard in ddba

its WILD how quickly i grew to hate iron fist in defenders without even watching his show or seeing him anywhere else, it says a lot about his character.

umm i dont think ill watch any of the other netflix gang unless they somehow show up in ddba s2 then i might have to but for now i dont think i will

so my ranking still stands 1. daredevil and 2. punisher (idk where defenders goes)

oh my god i LOVE hawkeye and i love kate and yelena so much 😭😭 i think i watched upto the matt ep in shehulk but thats it and i still havent watched echo, so you BET i was surprised when i heard fisk got shot in the head??

OH FOGGY MY BABY 😭 it didnt get spoiled for me buttt i knew it was coming. the trailer, the photos, there wasnt enough of foggy to like ease my fears. this one shot of karens face covered in blood was the final straw for me, i just didnt expect it to happen TEN MINUTES IN LIKE LET ME FUCKING BREATHE. that heartbeat track while matt fights dex will haunt me forever i fear

and for the fake death theories im TRYING not to get my hopes up, id really like to believe it but the swiftie in me has been clowned too many times by rep tv theories to fall for shit again.

elden henson is set to return for s2, in what capacity tho idk

theres also this blank space of time that i want back, like the blip and the years of nelson murdock and page and just them serving lawyer, i really wanted all of that but they just get right to it and i feel left out.

OHHH HEATHER i agree with you, theres such a lack of development on their relationship AND her character. now this could be considered bad writing but i think its intentional, its meant to reflect matts overall disconnect to her. there is no chemistry there whatsover and hes hiding so much. like i would not be sad if she were to die and considering theyve been together for quite a few episodes that shouldnt be the case.

but also thank you heather glenn for the matt murdock shower sex scene i will forever be grateful that i got to see matthew murdock WET

omg wait whos sebastian stans partner??

no cus same i have no idea how that happened with fisk but im justtttt choosing to ignore it

i have some annoyed thoughts to get out about that mf. this big baby is soo pissed that matt is back as daredevil when his ass has had a DUNGEON and has been THREATENING people to stay loyal to him, ohhh im a different person now shut the fuck up man stop lying also i cannot believe hes mayor im so annoyed

and his TASKFORCE HIS MF TASKFORCE I HATE POWELL I HATE THE PUNISHER EMBLEMS STOP TARNISHING MY MANS NAME

im so excited for frank to BEAT their ASSES in the finale FUCKKK im gonna bust i caught a clip in one of the trailers of frank with an axe I KNOW THATS RIGHT 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

i am alsoooo loving the show, i know everyone was worried that they wouldnt get the netflix feel and tbh it isnt like the og show at all but i really like what theyve done and im so happy with how its going

have you seen much of the s2 set photos im so excited

i have seen stranger things!! i felt super left out when s4 came out in 2022 that i decided to binge it before volume 2 came out. ive got a shirt and poster on my wall! its kinda fizzled out since then but i expect the phase to come back when s5 comes out (later this year i believe?? im SO excited) oh my i love steve i love his hair i think hes killer

omg babe its okay dw about it im glad youre back 🤗🤗

also WE HAVE TO TALK TLOU ITS IN TWO DAYS IM SHAKING

[quodekash]

HOLY FRICK THE EPISODE CAME OUT 17 AND A HALF HOURS AGO BUT I COULDNT WATCH IT BC I WAS CAMPING WITH NEXT TO NO SERVICE

BUT IM HOME NOW SO ITS TIME TO DIE AND EXPLODE AND EXPLODE AGAIN AND THEN DIE AGAIN AND SCREAM A LOT

...why do I feel like she doesnt actually like him but she just thinks she likes him

I mean its entirely possible she does

but im just putting it out there that she might not

AHA

SHE SAYS SHE JUST WANTS TO STUDY AT THE SAME UNI AS HIM

NOT THAT SHE LIKES HIM OR WANTS TO BE WITH HIM IN A ROMANTIC SENSE

BADABING BADABOOM KANG IS JUST DRAMATIC AND THINKS THAT MEANS SHE LIKES HIM

maybe

again, its very possible she does actually like sailom

oh honeyyyyy

my boy :(((

he sad :(((((((((

OML IM LAUGHING SO HARD

HIS JUMPER SAYS 'BOY'

HE IS INDEED ONE OF THOSE

WHY AM I FINDING THIS SO FUNNY

I DONT THINK ANYONE ELSE LAUGHED AT THIS BUT HERE I AM LOSING MY MIND

nO

HEY

WHY

DUDE WE NEED THIS PLOT TO PROGRESS YOU CANT JUST QUIT

DO YOU REMEMBER HOW MUCH PINING YOU GUYS HAD WHEN YOU HAD TO FIRE HIM FOR LIKE FIVE DAYS?????? YOU GUYS WERE FRIKIN HOPELESS

YOU COULDVE TALKED TO ECAH OTHER AND YOU DIDNT

AND NOW YOU THINK YOU CAN SURVIVE JUST QUITTING???? NUH UH, NOT ON MY WATCH SON

...oh

well now im sad

WELL NOW IM S A D D E R

OH HONEY

MY BOY NEEDS VALIDATION

IM GONNA CRY

AWWWWHHHHHHHHH

lmaoooo the super slow dramatic shots as he questions everything

she's just a lesbian kang, calm down bro

IM SORRY, I CANT GET OVER HIS BOY SHIRT

GUYS THEYRE SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER

I THINK THEY MIGHTVE FINALLY FIGURED OUT HOW TO INTERACT OUTSIDE OF TUTORING????

OML LOOK AT HOW PIMFAH'S SITTING

SHES SO GAY

and valid. I would sit that attentively if it were me as well, june is too too pretty hOW IS SHE SO PRETTY

bro was just offered a footy position by a senior, and he's thinking about sailom. gay as all hell

AAAAAAA

GUYNAWA TIME OMGOMGOMGOMG

IM SO EXCITEDDDDDDD

HEEHEEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE YES NAWA’S GONNA REPLACE HIM AN THEN GUYNAVA ARE GONNA PLAY ON THE SAME TEAMMMMMMM

also lmao he's good at catching balls

that sentence will definitely send both of them into insane amounts of gay panic

THIS IS SO SOUNDWIN OF THEM AND I CANT EXPLAIN IT, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

HOLY FRICK WE'RE NEARLY HALFWAY THROUGH THE SERIES AND WE'RE GETTING A DECENT AMOUNT OF PROGRESS FOR THESE TWO, IM SO EXCITED

HELP I CANT TELL IF SHES KIDDING OR NOT SOMEONE HELP ME

DOES SHE LIKE HIM??? DOES SHE NOT LIKE HIM???? DOES SHE JUST ADMIRE HIM PLATONICALLY?????? H E L P

also: she better be about to make a joke about like "oh well, im heartbroken now. i thought you could spend time with me, but it turns out your heart is only for kanghan, as i expected" and we can all watch sailom gay panic

oh. she was serious.

dANG IT

OH NO SHES SO SAD

NOW IM SO SAD

FRICK DANG IT

OH NOOOO

HONEYYYYYYY

FRICKKKKKKK

I LOVE HER SO MUCH

oh :(

its a metaphor :(

i usually love metaphors but this one is sad

i didnt expect to get so invested in this sailom/pimfah thing

i think i just love pimfah a lot

shes so important to me

and so is sailom

and so is kanghan

i get unhealthy emotional attachments to fictional characters and also to real people and because of that i cant let anything go and i hoard things and memories and people for fear that i will be left alone

anyway-

bro

the grabbing each other's shirts??? the rain??? the yelling at each other????

this is literally that scene from the pilot trailer

where they yell at each other about hating the other, and then kiss

(i think about that scene probably more than is strictly necessary)

W H A T

i-

wh-

h- he

he tOLD HIM????

RIGHT OFF THE BAT JUST LIKE THAT????

(yes dr seuss i did- sorry, now is not the time for sanders sides references)

um.

im.

uh

well i think i just died

boy is Shook™️

i mean valid

but his expression is so funny to me and im laughing again

his older brother senses are tingling

they👏were👏paired👏together👏randomly👏therefore👏they👏are👏soulmates👏

i love them so much

HE WAS THE FIRST ONE TO HIS SIDE I CANT

IM FINE IM FINE IM FINE

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