#orbital system

[crown-jay]

My experiences as a Median system core (I think)

Before I share my experiences, I would like to give you the definition of a Median System (from Pluralpedia)

"A median system (also called midcontinuum) is a system where members are not as distinct or separate from each other. It can be considered being somewhere between multiple and singlet.

Some are dependent on a single individual, or the dependence can be mutual in that there is no central individual. Some median systems feel more blurred between themselves. Others may also be based around a shared identity or kin.

The members of a median system are often described as aspects or facets. Some median systems may identify as different archetypes. Despite being more fluid and similar, median systems can be very diverse."

Now that that is out of the way, let's get onto my "evidence" (I guess) for my plurality. But before I do, this is not a place for syscourse. I am saying it now that I am pro endo, so if you don't like that, just go away? I'm not gonna argue with you if you try to with me, I'll just block or ignore you. It's a simple as that, leave endos alone for goodness sake.

Anyway. Ever since I "discovered" what plurality is, I have questioned on and off about whether I was a part of a system. Of course, back then I was very focused on "do I have a system" and not "am I a part of a system" which I understand now is kinda harmful thinking, since I don't "own" my alters, or facets, as they are called. I first learnt about plurality in 2019 (I think, idk my memory is shit) and it just sort of... Made sense? Like, I wasn't like "sounds fake, but okay" I just accepted it and didn't question it at all.

Through further looking into DID, as that was what I was introduced to first, by DissociaDID's videos, I concluded I couldn't possibly be plural, because these personalities I were feeling weren't nearly as distinct as those in the DiassociaDID system and beside, I had never switched before.

But it was still nagging at me in the back of brain. This sense of not being quite one person. A few years later, I was watching an Othercon panel about Fictional Identity Etiquette, and they mentioned Fabelings. For those who don't know; Fabelings are kinda like a median systems version of a fictive and can sort of toe the line between 'kin and fictive. I was curious, what the heck is a median system. I looked it up, read the definition and just went "oh." It was like something unlocked in my brain. It was a similar experience to when I found out what being aroace was for the first time. It just felt right.

But this wasn't it. I still didn't accept it for multiple reasons. "I still don't switch." "My 'facets' don't think to me in my head, we don't talk to each other to communicate." "I can't be plural, I am just a person with a lot of range." I was in denial. That was last year.

But now, after looking once again, because it was still nagging me, I found the term "monoconcious". And I read the definition. And I reread the definition for median system. And it all clicked. I read about parasian systems and I read about orbital systems and I just sat there and just took it all in.

Something that really resonates with me is something someone said on @median-culture-is . "Too dispersed to be a single person, too united to be multiple"

I have always felt not quite whole. For a long time, I thought it was just an autism thing, or even that it was normal. Plural first person pronouns felt so right, but I felt like I couldn't use them because "I'm only one person, right?" I've always resonated with some parts of system experiences, but not others. I've struggled with my gender identity, because it felt like it would change, but it simply didn't feel in a genderfluid sort of way.

And the whole "never switched" thing. Apparently common in median systems, especially orbital ones. I am always fronting and my facets become co-con or co-front. Sometimes I'm not even in control, but still present and passively influencing, so I don't even notice until after.

I don't know much about the facets in this system. I have a very hard time interpreting and understanding all the thoughts and feelings in my head. I hope that one day I will understand and know the identities of them. But for now, all I can do is accept and acknowledge their existence. Because that's only fair.

I could be wrong about this. Maybe I am just a singlet over analysing my emotions. But I don't think a singlet questions being a part of a system this much, for this long and this extensively. All the signs are there, and I'm finally seeing them. Now I just have to understand this new world of mine.

So yes. I guess I'm the core of a parasian, orbital median system. At least, that's how I'm labelling it for now. I would say I'm closer to the middle of the spectrum than the singlet end, but still definitely parasian. It's all very blurry but definitely real.

Um, yeah. Thanks for reading. Sorry for the long post, and sorry if it's incoherent, I really needed to just dump my thoughts. I'll keep y'all updated.

[nipuni]

THE DOCTOR We had a pact, him and me. Every star in the universe, we were going to see them all.

My version of The Master and The Doctor in their Academy days 😊

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on april 1st!

[emirkocturk]

Ben garip bir kul idim ve dünyanın rengine kandım. oysa ki her karışı bir yalanmış. içim ölürken anladım..

Echo of my inner voice..

[nemfrog]

Venus appears largest when it's in the crescent phase, leading Galileo to deduce that its orbit must lie inside that of the earth's.

Natural History. December 1949.

Internet Archive

[labelspoon]

two weeks early but here's my valentine

[literallymechanical]

I’m trying to write a “quick” reference doc of in-universe common knowledge for the players in my ttrpg campaign but every time I sit down to edit, it expands by another 200 words. The section on orbital dynamics is now almost a full page. There should not be a section on orbital dynamics. Why do I have chronic terminal writer brain. H e l p

[candygorecollective]

Woke up this morning and apparently we got technically posted on r/systemcringe TWICE overnight.

Partly I'm like "oh thank gods finally" bc I was starting to get anxious.

Do I care that much? Nah. But you wanna know what makes me so fucking pissed?

THEY MISUNDERSTOOD THE POSTS SO BAD.

They completely twisted it and invalidated something that wasn't happening/ever said 😭

Is it hard to be stupid?

ANYWAYS IT'S 6 AM, GOOD MORNING Y'ALL!!

[misamoom]

[karlrincon]

Starship and Super Heavy are ready at the launch pad in Starbase, Texas. Targeting Saturday, November 18.

X Starship’s second integrated flight test → spacex.com/launches

[krakenmare]

Lunar Orbiter 2, Copernicus crater on the Moon (November 24, 1966)

[specialagentartemis]

The real reason ART seems to still harbor some resentment or skepticism at Tarik after a whole year of Being Its Crew is not because of the whole being an ex-corporate-military-death-squad thing. That's fine, that's past, that didn't happen on ART. What did happen on ART was that Tarik once played an old song they used to sing during downtime in the Corporate Death Military and ART was so offended that it still hasn't forgiven him.

[all-pacas]

Chase, s1e8: I gave my mum a bit of trouble when I was [the patient's age], and I turned out alright. Even she thought so.

you fucking liar. she died when you were in high school.

i just watched 'socratic method' too, and huh! yeah! good shit! chase trying to warn 15-year-old luke away from spending his life taking care of his mom, admitting he "would have done the same thing," able to explain the hyper-organization of the house to foreman - this is what you do, you try to control everything, you organize and list and track and it's like you're making a difference. chase watching luke reunite with his now-sane mom, looking away and leaving because that wasn't him. (house being weirdly nice to luke. sympathetic. you did a good job given your situation. you've taken good care of her. )

rowan chase showing up, smiling sincerely and greeting his son "dr chase." actually seeming pleased to see him. probably even proud. he made something of himself. he's glad his son comes to see him off. he smiles when they hug. he doesn't tell him he's dying anyway. he still abandoned him. rowan telling chase it wasn't his job to take care of his mother, that it was too much for a kid (house telling luke he did the best he could). rowan abandoning him to do it anyway.

chase in s8, explaining to adams his mother died with him hating her, his mother used to lock him away for hours and hours. the implication that rowan was proud, did care and even love his son, but was a shitty and neglectful father anyway. the implication that chase's mother couldn't have thought he turned out alright, that he was "too much" for her and she'd lock him up, that maybe one of the reasons he hated her was that she hadn't been a loving parent even before she fell apart.

(that chase has a much younger sister, in diapers when he was 15. almost certainly still a minor, still a teenager, when he goes to the US. that he says she wasted "half her life" drinking, when she's probably only in her 20s.)

it's so fucked you guys it's so fucked

[lonestarflight]

Earlier version of the Martin Marietta Teleoperator Retrieval System, which would have been used to boost the Skylab Orbital Workshop into a higher orbit by STS-2 Columbia.

"The Teleoperator Retrieval System (TRS), to be used in conjunction with the space shuttle in the early 1980s, approaches a satellite for docking and retrieval. This system will be used to survey, stabilize, and maneuver payloads in low earth orbit."

Date: 1977

NASA ID: S77-002623

[teal-bandit]

Binary System

[nemfrog]

Solar system. Dream of stars. 1940.

Internet Archive

[th3-0bjectivist]

“The Cluster” - Animated painting