#own it or pull away from it either option is understandable
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
girly-girlk · 2 days ago
Note
Hey! Can í ask for a joe burrow one shot? Maybe the reader was told by doctors that she couldnt get pregnant but she finally getspregnant? Make it a long and angsty and fluffy 🫶🏻💛
Tumblr media
seemingly possible
joe burrow x reader
summary: you’ve been trying to get pregnant and one day…you see results you hadn’t thought possible
a/n: i hope you love it (because i know i do)💕
the silence in the bathroom was deafening.
you sat on the closed toilet lid, clutching the test in your trembling hands. two pink lines. two very real, very vivid pink lines. and your world tilted on its axis.
“no…” you whispered, breath hitching. “no, this can’t be right.”
not after everything. not after all the specialists, the medications, the tears spilled into joe’s chest when doctor after doctor told you your chances were slim to none. the words echoed now like a cruel joke:
“your body just isn’t cooperating. i’m sorry, but you should start considering other options if you want a family.”
you had stopped counting the number of times you cried yourself to sleep, guilt crashing over you like waves — for not being enough, for not being able to give joe the one thing he so gently swore he could live without.
but that was the thing about joe. he never made you feel like less.
not once.
even when you were breaking down in the middle of grocery store aisles, snapping at him out of frustration, or curling up in bed and pushing him away because your grief made you cold. he stayed.
he kissed your temple, rubbed your back, whispered, “i’m not going anywhere. you are my family. just you. always.”
and now here you were. five a.m., sitting in silence with a test that said everything had changed.
your stomach twisted — not from nausea, not yet — but from fear.
what if it wasn’t real?
what if you let yourself hope only to have it all ripped away again?
joe stirred when you crawled back into bed. he blinked sleepily at you, face warm and soft with early morning calm.
“hey, babe. you okay?” his voice was raspy, laced with concern the second he saw your expression. “you’re shaking.”
you couldn’t answer at first. your lip trembled and your eyes filled up like a dam was cracking open.
he sat up instantly. “what happened? are you hurting?”
that made the first sob break through. you shook your head, buried your face in your hands, and let the test fall from your grasp onto the bedspread.
joe caught sight of it. froze.
then, slowly — like he didn’t trust his own eyes — he reached for it.
his lips parted as he stared at the test, breath catching. he looked back at you.
“you’re…” he swallowed hard, voice barely above a whisper. “you’re pregnant?”
you nodded, covering your face. “i don’t understand it. i don’t know how. it might be wrong, or — i don’t want to get your hopes up —”
joe pulled you into his arms before you could finish.
you collapsed against his chest, sobbing now, shaking so hard he had to anchor you with both arms. his heart was hammering against your cheek.
“hey. hey, look at me,” he murmured, cupping your jaw. “you’re allowed to be scared. but don’t apologize. not for this. not for hope.”
he pressed his forehead to yours, tears shining in his eyes too now.
“i love you. no matter what happens next, i love you. you’ve never been more than enough for me, and this — this miracle? we’ll take it one breath at a time.”
you let yourself sink into that. into him.
because if there was anyone you trusted to catch you, to weather every storm and miracle with you — it was joe.
weeks later
you stared at the ultrasound monitor, hands clutched tight in joe’s. the tech turned the screen toward you and smiled.
“there’s the heartbeat.”
whump-whump-whump-whump.
the room tilted again — but this time, with light.
joe gasped softly beside you, squeezing your hand like he couldn’t believe it either.
you looked up at him, tears silently sliding down your cheeks. and in that moment, you saw it: everything he’d ever felt but kept hidden. the aching hope. the fear of dreaming too big. the love so big it scared him.
his lips trembled. “that’s our baby.”
you nodded, sobbing and laughing all at once.
you were still scared. still unsure. still healing.
but for the first time in a long time, you felt something stronger than fear.
you felt whole.
Tumblr media
153 notes · View notes
long-live-evie · 2 days ago
Note
*Evie's eyes sparkled.*
Now that sounds like fun!!
*She slid her phone across the table, open to her contacts.*
We can trade numbers and I'll get those to you as soon as I draw them up! I'm definitely interested in this device of yours; sounds like you're quite the hand with tech!
*The idea of reading her own life in comics drawn my other people who didn't know her sent a chill up Evie's spine. There were things in her past she didn't want anyone else to see, and things she didn't even want to try to remember. Gaps in her memory were often bracketed on either side by things that kept her up at night. For that to be not only written down, but drawn out... for people to read casually? Absolutely not.*
Stars, I can't imagine... It's sweet that you and Don have managed to turn it into something between you two, though.
*He was quiet for a bit, and Evie worried that she'd struck too deep with her muttered words. Until he pulled out a set of pictures, smiled, and laid them out for her to see.
She leaned forward and followed Erik as he pointed through the people pictured. He was easy to find in each photo, but the people around him changed and swapped around. Beautiful, wild people with fantastical powers on display, laughing and smiling and messing with each other and him. Names like Warlock, Magik, and Wolfsbane were mentioned, but Evie didn't know them offhand.
She did, however, note each face and name, filing each one away to do some research later. These people were important to him, so she wanted to learn about them for his sake. A class of superpowered children, brought together under his tutelage at a school built to accommodate them specifically and keep them safe.
Glancing up at Erik, noting how soft his eyes were looking at them, and seeing how happy they all were with him, Evie thought he must have been a fantastic teacher for them. It was obvious he loved them dearly, and it was clearly returned in each of their faces.
The names Strange and Wanda were familiar, though. Both had arrived on the Island just before Evie herself had. Being Syndicate at the time, she had gathered a good bit of information on them then, but she hadn't heard that they were husband and wife. Or that the otherwise known Chaos Witch was Erik's daughter. And he seemed terribly fond of and proud of her.
This was good, he was relaxing and smiling again. It seemed he was coming back up from the low, remembering the people who actually loved him...
... And then the life left his face when he got to Don.
Evie's smile faded as she tried to understand why Erik was suddenly silent. Out of all of the people pictured, Don was closest both in current proximity and to his heart. Why would he stop here?.... Something had happened. Something between them that Erik felt guilty about, judging by what little expression was left in his eyes. Probably the reason he was out here in the first place, since it seemed like a fresh wound.
Evie looked down at her hands, weighing her options. Getting involved in the problems between two lovers was not something she made a habit of. But Erik needed someone to talk to, and the only person he was close with who was actually in speaking distance was the very person the problem involved. And if Erik and Don really were that similar... silence in pain would be the death of them both.
...
She made up her mind. Reaching across the table, she laid her hands right beside Erik's, open to be taken, just as she had with Don what felt like eons ago in the weather station on Helios. She had no idea if Erik was as sensitive to touch as Don. The pictures indicated otherwise, but people could change. Best to allow the option.*
Erik... I know you only just started getting to know me, and you can call me nosy if you want, but... you mean the world to Don. If something happened... I don't want him to lose you. I'd like to be friends, and since nobody else in these pictures is here... if I can help, I want to.
[Seated in a far corner of the mess hall on the Blimp, dressed head to toe in his full Wastelander regalia - helmet and all - Magneto idly stirred a coffee that had clearly gone cold a long time ago.]
[Despite the shadow of his helmet hiding his face, it was clear from the way he was seated that he had been ruminating on troublesome thoughts for quite some time... and he knew it was best to move on to other matters soon.]
( @wxstelandermagneto )
*Evie had slept in after making chocolate late into the night. She'd been making little things like that in the wee hours when the world was quietest lately, it helped settle the residual buzz in her head from the day. But of course, the drawback was that "morning coffee" came after everyone else had already gotten theirs.
Except for today, it would seem. Evie paused on the stairs to check over the newcomer at the tables. He looked a little familiar, but she couldn't quite place him...
Wait... she knew that color scheme, and she definitely knew that helmet. It had been in most of the pictures Don had shown her in the store. This was his love, Erik.
She almost jumped excitedly to say hi, but what registered immediately after his identity was his very clear mood. She didn't reach out with the Force to check without his consent, but she didn't need to, it was written in his posture and what she could see of his face. Not to mention the clearly long since cold coffee in front of him.
Okay, different strategy.
Crossing quickly to the counters, Evie poured two fresh mugs of coffee. Balancing the cream and sugar between them, she approached the table the much larger man had taken, setting the ensemble down on the table and pushing one mug of hot coffee out towards him, but not taking a seat yet.*
Cold coffee's no help for anything.
*She smiled up at him.*
You're Erik, right? Don talks about you all the time. D'you mind a little company?
20 notes · View notes
dykehaus · 10 months ago
Text
i just hate any version of this "oopsie daisy aw shucks i got too famous for me boots" attitude that you get from a lot of pop stars.
4 notes · View notes
differenteagletragedy · 3 months ago
Text
Part two of this one where Price is your neighbor and falls in love with you but whoops you have an awful gross boyfriend :/
John is a man who embraces his flaws. He knows each and every single one of them by heart, and if he doesn't put time into fixing them, he works long and hard to make them into something useful.
And thank goodness he does, because it turns out that his competitive streak and his slight obsessive tendencies -- the urge to devour the things he loves, to feast on them endlessly until he's either consumed it all or been consumed himself -- would come in handy in his mission to win you over and away from your useless leech of a boyfriend.
For days, every time he sees you, the boyfriend is attached to your side, a parasite sucking all the light and life from you, and it almost hurts John to watch. To see such a pretty little thing like you get used -- because it's obvious to him, from the heart-to-heart you'd had all those weeks ago, as well as just from simple observation, that that's what was happening -- when he could be making you smile, making you happy ... it's a struggle.
But he wants to bide his time. He knows if he comes in to your rescue, guns blazing, it could backfire, that even if he knows in his bones that you are meant to belong to him, it might seem overwhelming and presumptuous at best to make such a declaration so early.
"I'm glad he's back," you tell him the first time he gets you alone -- a Wednesday night in the laundry room of your shared apartment complex. "I think things are working out better this time, I really do."
"Is that so?" he replies in a carefully measured tone. He shoots you a tight grin that he knows good and well doesn't meet his eyes as he moves his clothes from the washer to the dryer.
You give him a look, one that tells him that you know he knows you're bullshitting, and he lets out a small laugh.
"I don't mean to rain on your parade, love, truly, I don't," he tells you. "But I seem to remember you being none too happy about the man. You didn't exactly paint a happy picture when you spoke of him, yeah?"
You sigh as you take each individual piece of clothing from the dryer, folding it neatly and placing it in your basket, and he tries not to notice how much it gets under his skin to see your lovely, careful hands smoothing out your boyfriend's clothes before mixing them in with your own.
"I know," you admit softly. "But he's here, and he's trying ... well, trying for him. And maybe that's better than being alone."
John wants nothing more than to pull you away from the machines, to press you against the wall and kiss you until all that sad resignation was gone from your voice. He wants to hold you until you understand that you deserve more than the scraps of a pathetic man too stupid, self-involved or both to realize what a treasure he had in you.
But he's playing the long game now. So instead, he hums thoughtfully, then says, "You ever think that there's another option?"
You grin, and it's a shot of warmth to his chest, a cozy little feeling that spreads out and over him and god, he wants so much more of that.
Before you can respond, a buzzer goes off -- your second load of laundry, ready to be dried. It breaks the moment, but that's all right. John is a patient man. He can create another.
A week or two later, he's heading out for a bit, a quick trip to the shops to pick up some groceries. As he's walking to his parking spot, he hears raised voices, and when he pinpoints one of them as yours, he walks faster.
He sees you standing by your car, looking as cute as ever wrapped up in your winter coat, and your boyfriend kneeling on the ground by your rear right tire. It's flat, and there's a jack and a tire iron lying on the pavement near it, but no real work done on repairing the situation.
"Look, it's not a big deal," John hears you tell your boyfriend, the frustration apparent in your voice like this is your fourth or fifth time repeating this same line. "I'll call someone to come fix it, it's --"
"I can fix the fucking tire, Jesus Christ," the boyfriend barks, and for John, that's quite enough of that.
"There a problem?" he asks, a bit of the Captain coming out in his tone as he glares down at the other man.
"Just a flat tire," you tell him. "Someone is pretending they know how to change it, but --"
"For the last time, I know how to change the goddamn tire, your piece of shit car is just --"
"Let me have a go then," John interrupts, his lips in a tight line.
The boyfriend rises, moving to stand in front of John. He has an inch or two on him, and he clearly tries to use them to intimidate John, which is a ridiculous enough move that both men can hear you bite back a laugh.
It's a pissing contest, pure and simple, but John is playing to win. He stands his ground, staring steady until the boyfriend sighs and gestures to the tire, inviting him to take over.
As John goes to take over the job, the boyfriend purposefully brushes against his shoulder with his own, leaning in to growl, "She's not going to fuck you for changing her tire, old man."
The remark was just low enough for you to miss up, but pointed enough for John to imagine a number of scenarios in quick succession, most of them involving the tire iron and shutting up the boyfriend's rotten mouth for good. But again, John is all smooth control, so he just pats the man's shoulder before he gets down on his knees and begins, with little trouble, the process of changing the tire.
It's at some point before the new tire is put on that the boyfriend storms back inside, muttering some feeble remark about not feeling like going out anymore. When he leaves, you move closer to John, watching him as easily continues the job.
"Thank you," you say softly. "You didn't have to do this."
He smiles up at you quickly before his eyes go back to the tire, and says, "Quite all right, sweetheart. No trouble at all."
When he's done, he packs everything back up for you, tucking it all in your trunk. You protest, trying to grab the tools from him, but it's easy enough for him to out-maneuver you. He holds the tire iron up high, out of your reach, and you laugh easily, all earlier tension gone, and the difference in you when you're with him, when it's just the two of you, is almost enough to make him ache with longing.
You thank him again, tell him again that he didn't have to help, and a bit of his resolve snaps. He doesn't want much more time to go by without you knowing that you deserve that kind of help, those simple, easy little acts of kindness.
"Tell you what," he says, lowering his voice in a conspiratorial tone. "If it makes you feel more at ease, you can pay me back for the labor."
"Yeah, sure," you reply earnestly. "How much?"
"One cup of coffee. That's my rate."
You gift him with another bright smile as you pick up on the offer, but he sees your eyes glance towards the apartment building.
"I maybe shouldn't," you respond. "My boyfriend is --"
"Not here," John finishes the sentence for you. "And I, the man who just slaved away to do a repair on your vehicle, am."
"... So you are."
He grins, lowering his voice just a smidge more, adding "Quite thirsty too."
You laugh, then gesture for him to get in your car -- an agreement, for coffee, at least.
It's a small victory, but as John well knows, that's how wars are won.
PART THREE -- PART FOUR
981 notes · View notes
kingtomura · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
Cat and mouse
synopsis: Your ex boyfriend has some nerve texting you at three in the morning — an entire week after the disaster breakup you had. You should really go over there and give him a piece of your mind. Well, you know what they say about famous last words.  wc: 6.1k | crossposted to ao3 content: tomura shigaraki x female reader, no quirks au, toxic tomura, reader is kinda toxic too tbh, unhealthy relationships, breaking up and making up, vaginal fingering, overstim, breeding kink, piv, dubcon creampie, degredation, threats of baby trapping, hurt/comfort, sweet at the end idc
You’ve told your friends time and time again to stay out of your business. They never listen. 
“Oh my god, Kirishima? Is he even twenty yet?” You drag as you watch your friend flip through several pictures of the redheaded boy like he was a member of the bachelor. 
She smiles, scrolling her phone for more options, “no, but he will be in a couple of months!”
“No!” Your words are sharp. You love Mina but god, you don’t want her to play matchmaker with you. It’s not like you’re a charity case or something. 
She gasps and you swear you could see the lightbulb go off above her head. “What about Denki? He’s fun!” 
You groan, falling back onto the bed and covering your eyes with your arm. “Mina.” 
“Hey, just give her a break okay? It’s only been about a week.” Your saving grace Yaoyorozu speaks up and it’s nice to finally have someone on your side. 
“Thank you.”
“Seriously? So we’re just going to sit around and watch you mope about all day?” Mina questions, irritation clear in her voice and it grates your ears.  
“Preferably, yes! Just let me be.” You roll over, face officially shoved into your pillow. It’s been a rough couple of days and you haven’t gotten a single call or text from Tomura. Not that you should be expecting one. You broke up with him after all. 
It’s just.. this time feels different. Usually there’s more arguing and he’s fighting for you to stay around, but this time there was nothing. No quips, no insults, just “fine, get out then.”
That hurt the most. 
You had no idea what he was up to. 
Maybe he was as depressed as you were. 
Maybe he’s found someone else. 
The thought makes you stop in your tracks. The idea of Tomura, your tomura with someone else is enough to make you nauseous. 
You jump to your feet and rush to the bathroom, locking yourself in and falling to your knees. 
God, what if that was why it was so easy?
You pull out your phone, the device lighting up and unlocking with your facial id. 
Tomura doesn’t use social media much but you could still check to see if he’d blocked you. 
To your surprise, he hadn’t. 
He hasn't posted anything either and there’s no new person in his followers. 
You feel yourself exhale a breath you didn’t realize you had been holding. No change is a good thing. 
There’s knocking on the door and you thank the stars you locked it. Your friends would judge you so hard if they saw you lurking through your ex’s social media. 
“Hey, are you okay in there?” It’s your saving grace Yaoyorozu again and you almost feel bad for shutting her out. 
“Yeah, I’m sorry if it feels like I pressured you! I’ll give you some space.” Mina's regretful voice calls and it makes your heart clench. You know she means well but she just doesn’t understand. None of them do. 
Whether you want to admit it or not, you love Tomura. 
Yes, you argue and yes, you fight, but he just gets you. He’s so cynical, but so caring — in his own special way. Too bad he was such an asshole. The argument wasn’t even supposed to go that far. 
There are tears beginning to blur your vision and you wipe them away, willing the feelings down and standing to your feet. 
If he wanted you to stay away, then fine. You could do that. 
You splash cool water onto your face and take a breath, steeling yourself and getting ready to face your friend once more. It was Saturday and they were convinced you needed a fun girl’s night.
It takes a lot to refrain from cringing at the phrase, but you believe they held some truth with the idea. You definitely didn’t want to be alone right now.
You unlock the bathroom door, meeting Mina and Yaoyorozu’s worried expressions with a smile. 
“We should probably get ready now, huh?”
Mina’s eyes light up, smile blinding and excitement contagious.
“Yes! Jirou and the others are here now.” She starts to clap, excitement buzzing around her, “Girl’s night is going to be amazing!” 
—-
Girl’s night was a bust.
The moment everyone arrived the apartment quickly filled with chaos. Noisy and busy, it was all giving you a headache. Until someone decided it would be a good idea to pregame before going out.
In preparation for the night your friend’s insisted that you get dolled up, hair makeup and skimpy clothes you wouldn’t look twice at on any normal day. 
You had to admit it made you a little more excited to get out and at least feel like your world isn't crashing around you. It was supposed to be a fun little night out. Somehow one drink turned into two, which turned into three which turned into Mina swearing she could beat everyone in a dance battle. 
The group only got more riled up as everyone indulged in this silly challenge. 
One challenge leads to another, which leads to more drinking, which then ends in everyone being too drunk to function and knocking out — all laid out in odd places around your living room floor and couch. 
The groggy feeling came first, your arms radiating in dull pain as you vaguely recalled trying to beat Mina in a contest of who could do the most push ups. It sure as hell wasn't you, but the drunk version of you thought it was possible to move mountains. 
You blink a few times, trying to will your eyes to rapidly adjust to the darkness of the room and find out what this odd buzzing noise beside you had been. Turning over, you find your phone, squinting as the too bright screen lights up your face and you see that it is three a.m.
You had fallen asleep with everyone else.
The phone buzzes again, lighting up and you have to squint further to read the contact name.
Tomura. 
Your eyes widen as you scan over the three texts he’s sent you. 
Wasting no time, you rush to your feet and into the bathroom so you can look at your phone without the chance of prying eyes overlooking your shoulder. Even though they were probably going to be out until late morning.
Tomura’s messages were short, no paragraphs, no essays but three different messages sent in succession. 
When are you coming to get your shit?
I’m tired of waiting.
And I’m deleting our farm btw. 
The first two messages don’t get much of a reaction from you, especially since it’s three a.m and he knows you’re usually asleep around this time. 
But the third message…
Your Stardew Valley farm that you’ve had and worked on together for almost two years being put on the line and threatened? What the fuck was his problem?
This farm was a constant in your relationship. Throughout the ups and downs and back and forths. You were sure that hell would freeze over before you both would give up that progress. But here he is, threatening you while you would have been asleep. What an asshole.
Your feet are moving before your brain can stop them and you make your way to the front door. Since your friends were all passed out it would be easy to sneak over to Shigaraki’s place, give him a piece of your mind and then sneak back. In and out, quick and easy. 
Your decision is made and you grab your coat, deciding to just go over there as you are. You hadn’t changed out of your outfit that was supposed to be for the night out, but it didn’t matter. You only needed to get over there and get there fast.
Once you arrive at Tomura’s doorstep you waste no time knocking. It’s around three in the morning so he should still very much be awake. 
There's a chill in the air as you wait for his answer and you wrap your jacket closer to your body. A rumble of thunder caught your attention and it's then you notice the rain clouds rolling in. You knew it would only be a matter of time before the bottom of the sky falls out and rain drenches everything. You were on borrowed time if you wanted to make it back before then.
After what feels like forever the door finally opens, revealing a very cozy pajama-clad Tomura, who seemed a little too pleased for his own good — if that sly smile he was doing a bad job at hiding was anything to go by. 
You don't give him a chance to greet you or say anything for that matter, stopping his words in their tracks as you cut him off. “What do you want?”
He doesn’t bother hiding his smirk now, the expression making your fists clench and your anger boil. “What do I want? You’re at my door, in front of my apartment.” He scoffs, clearly getting the exact reaction he had wanted from you, “I should be asking what do you want?” 
Caught like a deer in headlights. Whatever, you don't let that stop you as you pull out your phone to show him his text. “You sent this, I know you’re bluffing. What do you want?”
Tomura shrugs, leaning against his door frame and giving you a pleased look. Expression relaxed and content. Not a care in the world. “To talk.”
“Well, I'm here now, so let’s talk.” You spit, crossing your arms and waiting for whatever else he would throw at you. 
“Sure, but you should come in first.” He starts, looking up towards the darkened sky, confirming his assessment. “It’s gonna rain soon, you know.”
Of course you knew that. 
You just didn’t want to give him more time than you had. But you agree and go in, ignoring the fighting feeling in the back of your mind screaming at you to turn away and hightail it out of there. 
Tomura’s home is the exact way it was the day you left, give or take a few more containers of takeout littered around the place. You have half a mind to scold him about it, but quickly remember that it isn’t your place to do that anymore. 
So instead you stay quiet, following him into the apartment and into the living room. Opting to stand as he sat, and resisted the urge to get comfortable. 
“So, what do you want to talk about?” You try, done watching him pick up a controller and boot up a video game. Seriously? 
Your patience was wearing thin now as you watched him ignore you to play some stupid game. You try calling to him again, knowing this was probably a waste of your time and groans.
“I was in the middle of something before you got here. Let me finish and we’ll talk.” It's flippant the way he waves you off and continues the game. The lack of care only hurting your feelings further and making you realize this may have all been a big mistake on your part.
You shouldn’t be at your ex boyfriend’s house being ignored. You should be at your house getting drunk and hanging out with your best friends. There was no reason to stay somewhere you’re obviously not valued.
It’s a simple choice when you put it into perspective. 
But things are always easier said than done. 
You sigh, the air puffing out your cheeks, a bad habit you had when angry, and walk right in front of Tomura’s TV. There was more satisfaction in making him lose the game and then announcing your departure than just leaving quietly. 
He cranes his neck to see around you, but it doesn’t work, finally giving up as his character inevitably dies. “What!?”
“I’m leaving!” You announced, turning on your heel and heading towards the front door.
“You had to make me lose first? I said I was almost done!” He spat back, rising from the couch to follow you.
You shrug, “I don’t care. Why invite me in if you’re just going to ignore me?”
“Didn’t think you had the patience of a child.'' Tomura stands in front of you, cutting through your path and stopping you in your tracks.
It's almost comical the way he insults you. “Okay pot, meet kettle.” You try to brush past him, but he side steps with you. 
“What are you dressed like that for anyway? Did you go out tonight or something?”
“No!” You deny, a little louder than intended and then pause. “But it’s none of your business what I do anyway.”
Tomura hums at this, taking the words in and running them through his mind as he gives you a once over, eyes scanning from the too-tight shirt you wore — showing a generous amount of cleavage, down to your mini skirt that left little to the imagination. 
“Could've fooled me.”
“What do you mean by that?” You hate when he gives you cryptic answers, like it’s impossible to pry into his mind to see what he was thinking at the moment. 
“You knew you were coming to see me so I dont get why you're wearing that skimpy shit. Unless you wanted me to check you out.”
“Not everything is about you, Tomura. Maybe I just wanted to dress up and look nice.”
“Bullshit—”
“God, Tomura you always fucking do this!” You yell, walking right up into his face. The excitement in his scarlet eyes sends a chill up your spin, but you can’t back down. 
He gets closer, matching your tone and you can still see the grin he’s trying to hide. It makes you see red. “Do what? Tell you the truth? You know I’m not wrong.”
“Yeah, you think you know everything, but you don’t. I’m dressed up because I want to be, not because of you.” You’re insisting at this point, frustration threatening to tip over and spill out into the form of another pointless argument. Why did you think you could actually come over and have a decent conversation with him?
Tomura is a master at getting under your skin and hitting where it hurts. In all of your arguments he’s never really pulled out the big shots but you wouldn’t put it past him to do so now. 
“Oh, so you come over to my place dressed like a slut and you expect me to believe you don’t have some hidden motive?”
And there it is.
Your last straw. He could be so egotistical and mean — you’ve had it. 
You regret it the moment you do it, but your body moves before your brain can process your actions. You push Tomura. Hard. 
He doesn’t fall back far but you know it’s enough to piss him off. And he’s never been one to hold anything back, so he shoves you back and your back hits the wall. 
Tomura has you pinned before you know it and there’s a thrill that runs through your body in a way you know you shouldn’t be feeling. Your knees feel weak for reasons that are not related to fear and your panties were gradually becoming more wet. 
His voice is low and his eyes are narrowed as he pins you against the wall, pressing your cheeks together with his other hand. “You’re really starting to piss me off.”
You have to bite back a smile, knowing this has taken a turn and you aren’t strong enough to stop where it’s going. Not that you would want to. 
“Oh yeah? If I piss you off so badly then why are you hard?”
He doesn’t look down. He can feel his own arousal just as well as you can while it’s pressed against your abdomen. 
Tomura pushes off of you — maintaining some distance as he turns away. 
“You’re fucking annoying.”
“Sure am.” You supply, chipper and certain as you trail behind him. 
He’s walking further into the apartment, and you follow. Legs moving on their own accord as you go further into the lion's den, exchanging quips and insults. You jab your finger into his shoulder, bothered by the way he continues to ignore you, it's a pathetic attempt at catching his attention and it works. Kind of. 
The only response being him slapping your hand away with a glare and muttering a soft fuck off as he walked on. 
You both went back and forth. Like the sun and moon, you just can’t stay away from each other.  
It was how these things usually went between you and Tomura. He would start up, make a petty argument and you would never back down. Tomura is someone who was used to getting his way and others simply did what he said with no objections. 
But that was not how you were.
And he loved it.
You knew by the way he would get that devious glimmer in his eye when you would challenge a point, starting up a debate. Sometimes they were heated enough to make you both break up. It never lasted more than a few days. A week being the longest.
Push and pull. 
Tomura made his way past you again, ignoring your calls about how you hate being ignored. At this point you’re sure he’s doing it on purpose to rile you up more but you can’t help but take the bait. You grab his shoulder, forcing him to turn around and face you as you point a finger in his face. 
“Stop walking away from me!” 
He grabs your wrist and pulls you closer, making you stumble on your feet and almost lose balance. You were so close you could feel the heat from his body and smell the fresh linen scent of his shirt. “Don’t tell me what to do.” 
You snatch your wrist away from him, tension between you two growing hotter by the second as the space between you got thinner. 
“What are you going to do about it?” 
The narrowing of his eyes only made your grin grow wider as you watched the gears turn in his head as he thought about just how many things he would do about it. All of it enticed you, so you beat him to the punch. 
You reach forward again, fully intending to shove his shoulder again for another reaction, another glare, maybe even more words, but he stops you. It was fast, the way you both tumbled through the hallway as Tomura crashed his lips to yours. The relief of finally feeling his lips again meshed with the excitement of how rough he was with you. 
You lose yourself in the kiss, welcoming him in with open arms as you vaguely register the dark walls of his room and posters plastered along the walls in your scuffle.
It was exciting, probably the best part of breaking up and making up. At this point you think the whole point of falling apart is coming back together again. An endless cycle where the reward is worth the punishment. 
Cat and mouse. 
You end up on top of him, straddling his hips while your smug smile beams down at him. Tomura gives you an unamused look in return, yet the way his hands rested on your thighs gave away the ill hidden interest. It was all the encouragement you needed as you leaned down, hovering above him with both hands on his chest. 
“Not so tough now, are you?”
It’s bait. You know it’s bait, he knows it’s bait, but he takes it anyway — the way you knew he would. 
Tomura wastes no time flipping the both of you over, quickly reversing your positions as he settled himself between your legs. It’s dangerous the way his actions riled you up further, and you have to bite your lip to keep the smile from betraying your false anger. You couldn’t let him know how excited you were to be back in his bed. 
He presses your cheeks together and rocks your head left to right, tone mocking and eyes wild with fever, “Oh, look who’s become a firecracker all of the sudden. Where did that flame come from, huh?”
You want to respond, but Tomura beats you to it, releasing your cheeks and pointing a nimble finger against your forehead, “Don’t be dumb.”
His eyes trail from yours and then down to your lips, then finally down to your exposed cleavage. The movement was swift as he cupped one of your breasts in his hand and dipped down, claiming your lips again. It was softer than the first time but not by much, especially not when he matched his pace by grinding his clothed erection into you, making you moan at the contact. 
Your skirt was so short and it made you feel even more exposed than you already were. Tomura had easy access to you and the thin fabric of your panties made everything feel so much closer. 
You moan at the contact, swiping your tongue against Tomura’s bottom lip and wasting no time deepening the kiss as you pull him closer. You needed more and you needed it as soon as possible. 
Tomura pulled the low cut front of your shirt down, easily exposing your breasts from the confines of the shirt and massaged them, his thumbs rubbing soothing circles against your nipples and making you cry out from the sensitivity. 
He pulls away from you, eyes gazing into yours and you swore in that moment he put you in a trance. Tomura’s ruby red gaze always left you mesmerized and you can’t help the whimper that leaves your lips, brows furrowed and eyes wanting, “Please.”
“Please what?” And he’s not taunting you, he’s not mocking you. His eyes are soft as he brings a hand to your cheek. “Tell me what you want.”
“You.” Fuck, you’ve missed him. “I just want you.”
There’s a hint of a smile on his face as he strokes your cheek, soft look in his eyes making your heart flutter, and then it’s gone. Replaced by a hardened gaze as he moves to remove your shirt and bra, fully exposing you to his hungry eyes, and then moves to remove your short skirt. 
His hands hover there for a moment, debating whether or not he should keep it on and fuck you in it, but then decides against the idea and pulls it off, taking your soaked panties down with it as well. 
The air in the room feels cool against your skin as you shiver in anticipation. 
“Fuck,” Tomura whispers, now eye level with your cunt. You gasp as he runs two fingers between your wet folds and holds the digits up to show you. Syrupy clear slick clung to them, slowly trailing down as Tomura rose back up, eye level with you once more. 
“You’re so wet…” He murmured, bringing the digits to your mouth and you opened, taking them into your mouth and tasting yourself. You kept eye contact as you watched his eyes widen in delight — Tomura loved it when you put on a show for him.
There’s another moment of Tomura pressing against your tongue with his fingers and then he pulls them out, opting for a kiss in exchange, his tongue dipping into your mouth and groaning  as he could taste what’s left of your slick on you as well.
The pleasant feeling and linguid action of your movements made your shoulders relax as you practically melted into his soft bed, the feeling of his body above yours bringing you mountains of comfort. It was a distraction, of course. 
You felt the same two of Tomura’s fingers prod at your slick entrance before pressing in fully and all the way down to the knuckle. The stretch was intense but the pressure was euphoric, making you squeeze your eyes shut and grip him closer. 
He didn’t make you wait long as he pumped his fingers, quickly finding that sensitive spot so deep inside of you that only he could pinpoint and brushing against it over and over. 
The feeling was so good it made you pull away from the kiss to breathe, thighs twitching and toes curling in pleasure. You wouldn’t last long like this.
“Tomura, fuck..!” You moaned, drowning in ecstasy as he continued his abuse of your spot, never letting up or slowing down, aiming to make you cum as quickly as he could. It was obvious he wanted you to come undone as soon as possible by the way he watched your every expression. 
The way your brows furrowed to the way you bit your lip. Tomura eagerly drank every expression and gave it back to you in the form of pleasure. 
“What?” He started, unphased by your dilemma, “Gonna cum?”
It took a lot of focus and effort, but you nod — done with fighting for the night and accepting the fact that you will come apart quickly. So you give in to the pleasure. 
Tomura smiles, a devious grin splitting his features as he curls his fingers, hitting the spot one more time for good measure and you lose composure, your climax crashing into you like a tidal wave. There was nothing you could do besides ride the feeling while holding on to Tomura tight — like you would get swept away if you didn’t. 
He fucks you through it with his fingers, eyes never leaving your face as you come down from your high. 
“Pent up, huh?” He questions, and this time there is that little hint of teasing. It brings you back to reality. 
Yes, you have been pent up. You haven’t been able to get off to anything since you’ve broken up and it’s been hell. 
You have no time for the games, you just want him and you want him now. 
So, you take Tomura’s face in your hands, making him look you in the eyes. The flecks of black in his carmine eyes always makes you remember why you come back. Every single time. 
“Fuck me, please, Tomura.” It's soft and filled with desire that you cannot be bothered to hide, and Tomura has never been one to deny you.
He quickly discards his own clothes, making sure to not stay away from you for long. His cock is hard and leaking precum from the head as he strokes it in preparation. You feel giddy at the thought and watch as he slides the head of his cock between your folds, coating it with your slick, and rubbing against your clit. The action makes your hips twitch up towards him. 
He loves to tease and make you wait, but today he doesn’t make you wait long. Tomura leans down after lining himself up with your entrance and places his free hand behind your head, right above the nape of your neck. His hands were warm and the feeling of those hands cradling your head felt so comforting in the space of his familiar dark bedroom. 
You bring a hand to his hair, tangling your fingers in his ashen locks as he pushes forward. The stretch makes you whimper and Tomura captures your lips in a kiss again, swallowing the noises and releasing a groan of his own as your walls tighten around his cock. 
There's something about the way Tomura drags his hips, the way he starts off at a slow pace, winding you up as he steadily increases his speed and force. It happens so gradually that you don't realize you’re screaming his name until he tells you to shut up — threatening to cover your mouth because he didn't want his neighbors to hear how much of a slut you were.
It drove you mad the way he said it all with a smile and fucked you harder. Almost daring you to be louder so he can punish you with a hand over your mouth.
Tomura knew how rough you liked it and he always delivered, giving you back arching pleasure as he pounded into you. It leaves you gasping and struggling to keep your voice down. Your hands find the surface of his back, trying to hold on as much as you could with building pleasure on the horizon. 
“Tomu— Tomura..! Please,” you cry and he doesn’t miss a beat, driving his cock so deep against your sweet spot it makes you see stars. “Fuck..!” 
“Yeah, that’s it.” Tomura cooed, eyes filled with mischief as he brought you closer to the edge. “Cry for me.”
And you do, your body feeling euphoric as the feeling buzzed up your spine and filled your brain with the fuzz of ecstasy. 
“What are you gonna do, huh?” He starts, his hips grinding against you, the closeness of his pelvis rubs against your clit, making you cry out again, “What are you gonna do when I breed this pretty cunt and make sure you’re stuck with me forever?”
He’s bluffing, you know Tomura doesn’t want kids. He’s just trying to gauge your reaction. Your dedication. 
“Tomura…” You only moan, breath catching as he hits that spot inside you that he knows so well. 
Tomura is smiling, wild and devious, as you look up at him with glossy eyes, so close to crying from the feelings, “I’m gonna do it. I’ll make you mine forever and you can’t do anything about it.” 
“Ah!” You should stop him, tell him to calm down but he has your eyes rolling to the back of your head and your back arching off of the bed. Everything is blurring together and you can only slur words as the drool from your earlier kiss trails down your cheek. 
You are completely at his mercy like this and you know your friends would be beyond disappointed.  
It just feels so good the way his cock drags in and out of your body pulling moans and whines from your throat. He was relentless in the way he pounded into you — beyond the point of being soft and slow because he knows that’s exactly you like it. 
“Say you want it.” The command comes with the slowing of his hips and you whine, high and needy as Tomura slows to a near stop.
“Tomura, I—“
“Say you want it or I swear to god I’ll stop right now.” It’s a threat and you don’t want to find out if he’ll go through with it. Tomura never goes back on his word. 
“No, please, don’t— I want it!” you pant, frustrated and aching for more movement.
“I want you to,” you stammer, desperate to have your release. “I don’t care if you cum in me. I need you so bad.”
“That’s my girl,” He coos, dipping his head down onto your shoulder, “Fuck.. love you s’much”
You stop — you’ve never heard him say that. Ever. You doubted he would ever say it since it’s been so long. 
He doesn’t give you a chance to ruminate on it because he's picking up the pace again and giving you the friction you were so deeply in need of. The feelings are swimming in your head as your cries reach new heights. Tomura is too far gone to stop you or care and you’re thankful. You couldn’t stop yourself if you tried. 
The build of your orgasm crashes down and sends you with it, making your thighs quiver in pleasure and your eyes squeeze shut. Tomura’s mouth meets yours before you could cry out, the warmth of his tongue guiding you as he fucked you through it. 
He didn’t last long after, the way your walls tightened around him with the force of your orgasm has Tomura’s pace erratic as he chased his own high. 
The bed shook as Tomura finally finished, hips stuttered as he released inside of you, hot seed coating your insides and making heat rise to your cheeks. He really did it.
You watch as he slows to a stop above you, his eyes closed as he enjoys the feeling of release. Tomura’s breathing was heavy and you couldn’t stop yourself from bringing him down into another kiss, traveling from his lips to his cheeks and then back again. 
It was intimate and you were worried it may have been too much, given the reason you were both in this situation was because of a stupid breakup. 
Tomura’s pulls out of you, making you wince and taking the feeling of being so full away from you. He doesn’t go far, opting to stay on top of you and rest his head on your shoulder, wanting to keep you as close as possible. 
“You really piss me off.” He mumbles into your shoulder, out of breath and tired. “God, why can’t you just stay with me.”
“Tomura…” Your hands run through his hair, the sweat is making it stick to his forehead as you wait for him to keep talking. 
“Stop leaving me.” His voice is firm, unwavering.
“You told me to go.” 
“I didn’t think you fucking would. I would never actually want you to.”
“I can’t read between the lines Tomura, I’m not in your head.” You make him look at you this time, pulling his hair a little to get him to raise his head. “Did you mean it?”
“I just said I didn’t—“
“No, the other thing you said.” He gives you a look of pure confusion and you lose a little bit of hope, “when you said you loved me?” 
You stare into his carmine eyes, hoping, praying it wasn’t just pillow talk from the heat of the moment. 
He looks at you for a long time, frustration still wearing on his features. If you didn’t know any better you would say he was pouting. “Of course I meant it. I’ve always felt like that.”
“But you’ve never said it!”
“I show it!”
“How?” This is getting frustrating and going in circles. 
He groans, sitting up and taking his warmth with him. “I’m not going to sit here and list everything I’ve ever done for you. I don’t think it works like that.”
You open your mouth to counter, irritation on your tongue because that’s not what you meant, but Tomura stops you again. 
“I don’t know how to explain it, okay?” He shakes his head and sighs, laying next to you on the bed and looking up at his ceiling. “It’s weird. I have these strong feelings, but it’s not hate, it's not anger. It's the opposite of that.”
You stare at him as he focuses ahead, keeping his eyes trained on the uninteresting ceiling above.
“Father said it’s a weakness and I should feel that way but,” There’s a pause as he looks away from the ceiling, meeting your eyes finally, “if it’s so weak of me, then why are the feelings so strong?” 
Your heart aches. It's clear that he’s torn, and with the strange way he was raised you know that he can’t help the way he is. 
“Tomura…” 
“And it won’t go away. I can’t fight them down or push them away like I can with everything else. It eats me up and I… guess I lash out because of it.” He shakes his head and for the first time Tomura looks defeated. You’ve never seen him this way — he’s always been filled with confidence and self assured. “I just don’t know what to do.”
You bring a hand to his cheek as you press your forehead against his. It kills you that this is what’s been on his mind and you aren’t sure what you could do to fix it. Maybe there was nothing you could do, physically, but you would do your best to be there for him emotionally.
“Sometimes,” you try to be careful with your words, knowing how much Tomura looks up to his foster father even though the man has been nothing but strange to him. “People say things that aren’t true because they don’t know how to live with it.”
Tomura’s guardian cannot live with love nor the idea of it. 
“That doesn't mean you have to live that way.” 
And it’s the truth. 
Tomura doesn’t say anything, just watches you with heavy lidded eyes, ruby red nearly glowing in the low light of the room. He was so much more than what people thought they knew of him and you didn’t care if it took time for others to see that.
He leans in, closing his eyes and you meet him halfway into a kiss. 
It's warm and it's soft and you know that even when your phone is buzzing from dozens of missed calls and texts from your friends, it will be fine. 
You and Tomura would take things one day at a time.
3K notes · View notes
fandomwritesstuff · 10 days ago
Text
The Sun to my Moon
Pairing: Robert 'Bob' Reynolds/The Void x Thunderbolts!Mutant!Reader Summary: After delayed on missions, you just want to go back. You miss everyone but you really miss Bob, as your relationship is evolving. Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI! Light angst, smut (unprotected P in V, Oral m receiving, little possessiveness kink ig?, breastplay) (let me know if I missed any) A/N: First time writing smut(feedback appreciated but be kind). This story also took off from me. Slightly inspired by 505 by Arctic Monkeys. Let me know what you all think. Also may or may not be working on a Bob Floyd piece if anyone is interested... Word Count: 3,639
Tumblr media
“Just a few more days” Valentina told you during your call to report in. Your eyes twitched in irritation.
“You said that two days ago.” You reminded her, voice harsh as you glared at the wall you were staring at. You couldn’t stand the shitty hotel room any longer, nor should you have to when you knew there was a nice, warm room with your bed in it at the Tower. 
This was the third mission that you had been sent on this month alone, and it was supposed to have ended almost a week ago. However, Val seemed to find more excuses each time to keep you away. 
The thought of relaxing back at the tower with everyone else was all that was keeping you going lately. Hell, you would even take sparring with Bucky, Yelena, or Walker right now over staying in this room for one more minute. 
What you really wanted though, was to get back to the book that you had been reading with Bob. You hadn’t been able to even get halfway through before you were pulled away again. 
It made you wonder how Bob was handling these delays. You had told him when you expected to be back. Now, you somewhat regretted that, knowing he would worry until you walked back through the doors of the Tower. You were glad that Yelena was still there, hopefully she could keep him steady enough. Not that you could ask–you’ve had no contact with the team for this last mission. One reason going undercover was never your favorite. 
Pretending to be someone you weren’t also played into the dislike you had for these missions. You hated the crawling feeling you would get when the lines blurred between yourself and who you were posing as. It was a tricky tightrope that you knew how to walk, but could slip either way. However, being one of the least recognizable on the team and a shadow manipulator, made you the first in line for the role.
Normally, you were fine pushing through–finishing to whatever end Valentina wanted. Missions were your payday afterall and could be for good causes. However, with three straight missions, and the abnormal pushes to continue–care was out the window.
“I want my extract, tonight.” The command was met with silence and then a deep sigh. 
“I can arrange for it to be tomorrow afternoon at the earliest.” Val claimed. Shaking your head, you scoffed. She wanted you to go back in the morning–not happening. 
“What’s so hard to understand about tonight?” You asked rhetorically. “There’s no more information to gain–I’m leaving tonight whether you have a plane ready or I pick up a car on your dime.” You knew the ultimatum would piss her off, but you were apathetic to her feelings at this point.
Val scoffed but you could hear Mel in the background discussing the options. It wasn’t clear enough for you to make out, but you knew Mel would do everything in her power to get you back tonight. 
“Fine, a jet will be there in an hour. If you’re not ready, you’ll pay for your own way back.” She snapped and ended the call before you could respond. Rolling your eyes, you set your phone down and started to collect the items that you had brought with you. 
Packing up was fairly simple for you, as you never fully unpacked to begin with. Most of your clothes were still in your duffel bags, it just took a little rearranging of them to fit in your hygiene items. You then packed the items from the nightstand, your chargers, book, and you couldn’t forget the keychain that Bob had given you just before you left. It was a little moon that fit like puzzle pieces with the sun side that he had kept. 
You saw the keychain on your last shopping trip. Bob had come with you just to get outside for a little, or so he had said–Yelena made it known that she believed he went just to be closer to you. You made a comment about how they're keychain fit the two of you–him having the power of a thousand suns or something like that and you being a shadow manipulator working better at night. 
Bob had agreed and didn’t say anything as you walked away from it in the store. Little did you know that he had grabbed it and quickly paid for it when you weren’t looking. He didn’t even give it to you right away, either. He waited until right before this undercover mission. It brought a smile to your face thinking about it. 
He had been so nervous to approach you as you were grabbing a few items from storage. You had noticed him lingering in the hallway of storage. 
“Hey, Bob.” You called as you grabbed a weapon cleaner, having run out during your last mission. “You need something?” You asked with a gentle smile as you prepared to leave the room. 
“No, well n-not from there.” He told you. You noticed his hands were behind his back and he was rocking on the balls of his feet. He was wearing a light sweater with sweatpants, both slightly rumpled. 
“Then what’s up?” You asked, tilting your head as you closed the door to storage. 
“I, uh, wanted t-to give you this.” His hands moved to be in front of him holding the keychain that you saw in the store. “I remember you liked it in the store and I t-thought that maybe it could remind you of m–of the t-team while you’re gone. With you having so many missions and having to be away. I also thought you could pick which one you wanted and all.” He started to ramble. 
You stepped closer and gently grabbed the moon from his hands. “I can’t take the sun from the man with the power of a thousand of them.” You joked. “Maybe this will remind you that you’ll always be my sun god.” Flirting with him hadn’t been your goal–if asked you would blame it on being tired–but Bob’s face made it worth it. 
His eyes widened as his jaw dropped to the floor. You could see the gears turning and the glow of his power in his eyes at his unexpected overwhelming emotion. A flush filled his cheeks and his breathing was shaky as he started to blink harder. 
“Thank you, Bob.” You spoke softly. You wanted to hug him, but feared it would overwhelm him even more than he already was. Instead, you decided to continue getting ready for your next mission. “I’ll see you in a few weeks.” You reminded him as you walked past. He nodded as he watched you leave, feet firmly planted as if frozen to the ground. 
Chuckling lightly, you wondered how long he had stayed there after you left. The thought of one of the others finding him–especially Ava or Yelena–was especially funny to you. You couldn’t wait to ask them when you got back. Although talking with Bob was all you really wanted to do. 
Wanting to be comfortable, you changed into cargo pants, a plain shirt, and your tactical vest. Once you had double checked that everything was packed, you threw your backpack on and carried your dufflebags in your hands.
You were right on time as you made it to the launch pad, the jet was just landing. You smiled as you stepped on, ready to go home. Thankfully, it was a short flight and you stepped out onto the roof of the tower.
You felt your muscles relax–no longer as on edge. Taking a deep breath of the night time air, you closed your eyes allowing yourself a moment to yourself. Away from the missions, away from Val telling you what to do, and away from chaos that the team unintentionally brings. A calm washed over you like a wave, dragging away the tension as it receded. You were safe–you were home.
Inside of the elevator, you felt it couldn’t go any slower. You bounced on the balls of feet–ready to break out any moment. You only knew it was moving with the ding of each floor change. Each bell is a signal that brings you closer–not close enough–to your sanctuary. 
It was as if you could hear your bed calling your name, ready to sing you a song to help you sleep. However, when the elevator door opened the record skipped as Yelena leaned against the wall, waiting for you. 
“Yelena?” 
“Oh, good you’re back.” Her words were sarcastic as she pushed herself away from the wall. “We had a slight mishap while you were gone.” She used a slight gesture as she met your eyes. The we in question had nothing to do with the whole team. 
“What happened?” The tension was back in your shoulders. You braced yourself for the storm you couldn't see.
“Relax, we handled it–or really he did. He got upset with the delays, worked himself up a little, almost shattered a couple things, but was able to get control and bring himself back down.” She told you, motioning with her hand as she did. 
You stared at her blankly. “When was this?” 
“A couple nights ago, he’s been okay the last few days, but he has shut himself in your room.” 
“My room?” You asked. 
“We didn’t have time to make a plan and he was missing you, so I figured that was the closest he could get without you here.” She explained with a shrug. “Sue me.”
“Alright, make a plan later, got it.” You mumbled and took a breath. “It’s fine, he’s there half the nights I’m here anyways.” You let out a laugh with a sigh. Nodding and looking down at your feet, allowing the tension to ease. 
“Exactly!” She exclaimed. “Well, I’m going to bed.” 
“Night, Lena.” You called after her as she started to walk away.
“Night.” She gave you a small wave, not bothering to turn and face you. 
You then made your way to your room. The hallway was dark, lit only by the moonlight coming through the windows. You watched your shadow as it danced along beside you. Getting to your door, you opened it slowly–in case Bob was sleeping. You didn’t want to wake him if you could help it. However, when you saw him, your heart melted. Kicking off your boots, you walked closer.
You moved to sit on the edge of the bed, a smile pulling at your lips. He was curled up into a ball, blanket barely covering him and you could see the sweat stains on his light shirt from him overheating. His hair had fallen lightly in his face as he rested his head on one pillow and hugged your second one to his body as if it were an anchor keeping him stable. 
You brushed back his hair gently, unable to resist the temptation. His eyes fluttered before sluggishly opening, taking a moment to adjust to the low lights you had turned on. When they did, his eyes widened and you could see the yellow glow flicker as his excitement grew.
“You're back!” he exclaimed, moving to sit up on his hip. Your hand fell from his hair and on to the bed between you. 
You nodded, becoming hyper aware of the little space between you–the fact that he was in your bed and comfortable enough to sleep. It made you aware of feelings that you had been pushing down for a while.
“A-are you okay? Why were you so late? Y-you told me two weeks but then Mel was telling us about d-delays with little info. She'd tell us what Val had said–that you were supposedly alright just needed more time. I was so worried because you couldn't talk to us so we just had to trust her and-”
“I know, I know. I'm okay, she just wanted me to try and get more info. But I'm here now.” You interrupted his spiraling. 
The glow in his eyes was more prominent, his mind racing. His eyes were darting between yours as if trying to verify this wasn't just a dream. You moved your hand to cup his cheek and felt him lean into your touch. 
“I couldn't keep my sun god waiting, now could I?” You teased, causing his eyes to widen. You dropped your hand as his head moved away slightly to be level. 
“You mean it?”
“Mean what? That you're a sun-”
“That I'm your's.” he whispered as if afraid speaking too loudly would scare you away and make his loneliness real.
“If you want to be.” 
He nodded, biting his lip as his gaze met yours.
“I need words, Bob.” 
“I'd like that–t-to be your's, I mean.” he answered, pausing for a moment. “Can I… can I kiss you?” his eyes darting between your eyes and lips. 
“Yes,” you whispered, slightly leaning in as his hand came to cup your face. 
Closing your eyes, you leaning into him. His lips brushed your lightly, hesitating only a moment before pressing them onto yours softly. His lips were warm and slightly chapped. He hesitated to press harder, scared to hurt you unintentionally with his strength. Scared you might break like the glass he almost shattered when you didn't come back. And as soon as the kiss had started, he ended it, pulling back. 
You quickly brought your hand up to the back of his neck to pull him back in. Pressing harder against him, sending a message to him that you wouldn't break. You could take whatever he could give you. He slowly leaned back, still holding onto you, falling back on his elbows as you leaned with him. 
You moved to straddle him as his hand slowly came up to the zipper of your vest. Breaking the kiss he met your eyes in a silent question, gold more prominent than before. You nodded and he pulled the zipper down in one quick motion–vest slipping off your shoulders and on to floor soon after. You began to trail a line of kisses down his neck, and he tilted his head to give you more room. You sucked at the sweet spot on his neck earning a light whimper from him.
You slipped your hands under his shirt, and before you could ask he was moving to take it off. You smirked and continued the trail of open mouth kisses down his chest, dragging your nails lightly over his abs followed by your lips until you got to his waist. 
“May I?” You asked, looking up at him, fingers playing with the knotted string of his sweats. His eyes were wide, breath shaky, and there was a flush to his cheeks. 
“Ye-yeah.” He stuttered. Undoing the knot and hooking your finger into his pants–he helped you remove them by lifting his hips. His erection sprang free, curling slightly toward his stomach. The tip was red and you could see a small amount of precum. You smirked as you flattened your tongue against him, licking from base to tip. 
Bob’s eyes shut as he fell back completely with a moan. You wrapped your hand around the base and stroked a few times before swirling your tongue around the tip. You then closed your mouth around the head and sucked. 
“Oh, fuck.” Bob groaned, one hand moved to cover his face, the other found the back of your head. 
You felt his hand urge you on, lightly pushing your head further down. Taking more of him into your mouth, you started a steady tempo, using your hand for what couldn’t fit. He continued to whimper and moan, turning you on more. 
Suddenly his hand tightened in your hair and he pulled you off, causing you to stop everything. 
“Everything okay? Did I do something wrong?” You asked, attempting to meet his eyes. 
Bob dragged his hand down off of his face and shook his head. 
“Just didn’t want to cum yet.” He explained. There was a slight dazed look to him that brought a grin to your face.
Leaning up to kiss him, you felt his hands start to explore your body. His hands slipped under your shirt, drifting up past your ribs and cupping your breasts. You threw the shirt off, not caring to see where it landed.
Your bra soon followed as Bob started to trail open mouth kisses over your chest. You moaned as he sucked a nipple into his mouth while your hands started to undo your cargo pants. 
Moving off the bed for a moment, Bob let out a whine that made you nearly go crawling back. However, you decided to tease him, turning away as you slowly dragged your pants and underwear down your legs–giving Bob a good view of your wetness, earning a groan from him. You then slowly walked back to the bed–a slight strut in your step. Bob was on his elbows, eyes wide, mouth slightly agape. Crawling on the bed, you moved to straddle him once more.
“You tell me if it's too much or you need to stop, okay?” You asked, placing your hands on his chest. 
He nodded, before remembering to use his voice. “Y-yeah, I will.” His eyes were brighter than you had seen in a while, like little stars in the dark night sky.
Smiling you then dragged one of your hands down between the two of you. Grabbing him and lining him up with your entrance. 
You moved slowly–dragging out the pleasure for both of you, as you sank onto his length. Your hands rested on his chest as you watched his expression change. His face contorted with a moan and he fell back, hands moving to grab your hips. Once your hips were flush, you gave yourself–and Bob–a moment to adjust. 
Slowly grinding on him, his eyes snapped to yours causing you to smirk. You then slowly started to move. Bob's grip became tighter on your waist and you could feel him slightly lifting and pulling you back down each time. 
Your name was like a prayer on his lips. You moaned at the sight of his wrecked state. A man with that much power brought to a whimpering state, by you. 
Your sun god. 
Your's.
“S-say it.” He managed to say in between moans suddenly. 
“Say what?” 
“That I'm–fuck–that I'm your's.” 
“You're mine.” The words caused him to twitch inside you–a moan falling from both of your lips.
“You're mine, Bob.” That seemed to make him short circuit as he let out a visceral moan. His hands pulled you down as he bucked up into you. 
You then moved a hand down to touch yourself. A moan fell from your lips and you closed your eyes, relishing in the pleasure. Increasing your pace, when you opened your eyes, Bob was looking at you again. His pupils were blown wide but you could still see the gold burning there. Raw power flowing through him. His name overflowed from your lips like a fountain. 
Suddenly, Bob flipped the two of you and attached his lips to yours. The kiss was passionate but messy. A display of emotion as Bob set a quick pace.
You clenched around him–you wouldn't last much longer at this rate. He wouldn't either, his pace just barely faltering a little. 
“Mine.” You moaned again, when he released your mouth. There lights flickered, and it wouldn't take much more for him to let go.
“You're mine” a moan was ripped from your lips “and I-I'm your's.” 
That seemed to be all he needed to be pushed over the edge–you right behind him. He thrusted one more time before twitching and releasing inside of you. Your orgasm crashed through you like a wave and you saw stars.The lights flickered and burst–glass raining down in a small shower of sparks���as he collapsed on top of you to protect you. 
After a moment of collecting your breath, he pushed himself up. The gold in his eyes was dimmer–not gone but not as intense now. His eyes searched yours for a moment before slowly pulling out. 
“You okay?” He asked as he carefully maneuvered out of the bed, avoiding the glass on the floor.
“Yeah, shouldn't I be asking you that? Did you get cut?” 
“No, I-I'm fine. I'm sorry, my power just–I couldn't stop it.” he rambled, looking for something to clean up with. 
You leaned up and noticed that there didn't seem to be any glass on the bed. You wondered if his powers did that subconsciously to protect you–it must have. 
“Hey, just come to bed. We'll worry about cleaning up in the morning.” 
“Are you sure, I can at least grab a towel–”
“I'll be fine. Come to bed, my not-so-little sun god.” you spoke with a smile, patting the spot next to you. 
He only nodded, making his way to the other side of the bed and pulling the covers back, joining you. You curled into his side, resting your head on his chest as you wrapped your arm around his waist. 
Looking up, you smiled and couldn't believe you could now call this man your's. A man with so much power, it seemed unreal. 
“W-what?” Bob asked, catching your staring. 
“Just can't believe you're mine.” 
“You can't believe it–I feel like I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and this will all have been a dream.” He whispered, muscles tense. Both of you in awe of the other. 
“No dream, Bob. I'll be here when you wake.” You reassured him and he managed a weak smile before relaxing into you–arms moving to wrap around you. 
Soon you both fell asleep. Someone could worry about all the blown lightbulbs on this floor of the tower tomorrow morning.
467 notes · View notes
girlgenius1111 · 11 months ago
Text
no time
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
jenni hermoso x reader. jenni is feeling neglected by how much time r is spending away from her, focused on football and getting her degree. jenni decides r is avoiding her, and pulls away too. eventually, it all becomes too much for r, who is feeling the pressure from everyone and everything. i would say teeny amount of angst and majority amount of fluff. for all the underfed jenni girls 😌😌
-----
Jenni knew you were busy. She knew you had a million things going on, and that the lack of time you’d been spending her was probably completely unintentional. A more insecure part of her worried that it was intentional, but she tried to quiet that part down. The Spaniard came across as a very outgoing, confident individual, and for the most part, she was. In her relationships, though, she had an issue with asking for what she needed, just like you did. She craved your attention and your company, but something inside of her just… wouldn’t let her ask for it. 
And it wasn’t like Jenni wasn’t trying to spend time with you. She’d come into the office while you were studying, trying to convince you to take a break. In the past few weeks, the answer had been no. You were drowning in school work, with practices picking up in frequency and intensity for the team. When you did have time to focus on school, you were always rather exhausted. Adding another 2 classes to your course load this term had been a mistake if you’d ever made one. Instead of the two you normally took, sometimes three, you were taking four. Four more classes, and you’d be done with your degree, fulfilling your promise to your parents to have a backup plan in case football didn’t work out. Maybe you didn’t deserve a degree. It was pretty idiotic to come to the conclusion that four classes wasn’t that much more than two.
Jenni had never cared for school, getting it done as soon as she could. She loved you, a lot, but she couldn’t really comprehend the deeply ingrained need you had to get your degree, and get perfect marks. She was supportive nonetheless, but she didn’t really quite understand what another two classes would entail. For the first part of the term, it had been manageable. Now, things had piled up, and you were absolutely drowning. 
You were a perfectionist, and you’d do anything to make sure your university work was perfect, your football was perfect, at the expense of everything. Even your own wellbeing. And, apparently, Jenni’s wellbeing too, although you weren’t quite aware of the toll your lack of time spent with her was causing. 
It was really a lack of communication that caused things to bubble over. 
Jenni felt neglected. And you wanted nothing more than for her to pull you away from your late night study sessions and remind you to put yourself first, because you were sure you couldn’t do it yourself. If either of you had just spoken to the other, it would have been resolved so easily. Jenni would have realized that you needed her, but were too stressed to really know what you needed. And you would have realized that giving Jenni space wasn’t some kind of gift for her, and that she would be happy to sit next to you while you studied and just keep you company. Communication was an area that your relationship tended to struggle, though. It was a work in progress, and this situation clearly presented where there was still progress to be made. 
-----
As you typed away at your computer, you again wondered why on earth you had added classes. Another term would have been worth it, if only to avoid this hell. It was Tuesday, and you had 3 essays due on Sunday. The week was stuffed full of training and extra workouts, though, and then the team was traveling for an away game. Everything had to be done by Friday, or it wouldn’t get done, and that wasn’t an option. 
Not only did it have to be done, it had to be perfect. There was no possibility of halfassing any assignment. You’d tried before, but you always ended up redoing it until it was perfect, and it was just much easier to do it the first time around. 
You had just finished the first essay, which was at the very end of the page limit. It was up to your standards, you decided, reading over it once more before turning it in. You should have felt relieved, that one of the things hanging over your head was now completed. Instead, you could only look to the next essay, and the one after that. And the exam next week, the project the week after. It was so easy to get overwhelmed if you thought too hard about everything, so you did your best to focus on each task one at a time. 
Perhaps it was this very narrow view of your life that had you not really thinking about your girlfriend in the other room. She’d been waiting for you to emerge from the office all afternoon, only getting you to take a short break to eat. 
She just wanted to spend time with you. Catch up on a show, or hold you on the couch and talk. It didn’t make any sense to her, why couldn't you just put the schoolwork down for one night, and pay attention to her. Maybe you would have, if she’d just asked for it. Instead, she sat quietly in the living room, trying her best not to cry as her feelings began to overwhelm her. Was she really that horrible to spend time with? That her own girlfriend preferred mindless busy work to being with her?
Deciding to end her pity party, she wiped at her eyes, checking in the front hall mirror that there were no visible tear marks, before she made a very pathetic attempt to get your attention. It wasn’t very late, but training had been grueling today, and Jenni knew that if she was tired, you must be exhausted. 
“Mi amor?” Jenni called from the doorway of the office. “Are you coming to bed?” 
You didn’t even turn your head away from the screen in front of you for a full 20 seconds, and when you finally did, it was to stare almost blankly at your girlfriend. “Huh?” 
“I was just- I’m going to bed now. Goodnight.” Before you could reply, Jenni was turning around and heading down the hall towards the bedroom. No goodnight kiss, no request for you to join her.  You blinked after her, struck by how cold she’d just been with you. Now that you thought about it, she’d been like that for a few days, and you hadn’t noticed. 
You turned back to your outline, copying lines from your notes mindlessly as you tried to figure out the source of Jenni’s frustration. Of course, you settled on yourself. You were a disaster at the moment, and you knew that. The only logical thing you could come up with was that Jenni was just… annoyed with having to deal with you like this. There were only a few weeks left of term, and you decided to try to bother her as little as possible until then. Once school was over, for good, you could go back to being the smiley, relaxed girlfriend Jenni was used to. The one Jenni preferred. 
You had very little clarity of when you fell asleep. One second, you were typing away, eyes drooping. The next, you were facedown asleep, your face smushed into your keyboard. 
Jenni managed to fall asleep without you next to her, but did not remain that way for long. After only two hours she woke, frowning to herself when she realized the bed was still practically made on your side. With a sigh, she dragged herself from bed and walked down to the office, prepared to drag you to bed if she had to. Even if you were avoiding her, she had to put her foot down somewhere; this was bordering on unhealthy. 
She trudged into the office, lips curving into a small smile as she noticed you out cold on your laptop. It didn’t look very comfortable, and the quiet inhales and marks on your cheek told her you’d been asleep for a solid amount of time. 
“Amor,” Jenni sang, her voice soft and loving as she roused you from a deep sleep. 
“Jen?” You picked your head up, blinking groggily up at her, and winced at the knot that had appeared in your neck. You’d fallen asleep, you realized. It was dark in the room, and Jenni’s face was half hidden by shadows. It was unreadable, and you cursed yourself internally for immediately breaking the promise you’d made to yourself just a few hours prior. The promise to not make Jenni suffer through your stress along with you. She must be so upset with you, having to come check on you like you were a child. Still, Jenni was kind and you knew that the way she carefully picked you up and cradled you to her chest didn’t mean she still wasn’t annoyed. It didn’t mean you weren’t being too much for her, it just meant Jenni was a good person. 
“Let’s go to bed, sí?” She cooed, carrying you down the hall. 
You nodded into her chest, allowing yourself a moment of comfort. You fought against the tightness in your throat and the moisture in your eyes as you realized just how exhausted you were, not wanting to make the situation any worse. Warmth filled your girlfriend’s chest at the feeling of having you so close to her again, but that feeling faded quickly when she placed you down on the bed, and you immediately rolled to the edge of your side. As far from her as possible. 
This cemented it in her mind, honestly. That you were avoiding her on purpose, using your school work as an excuse. And you were only more sure that she was tired of how much stress you brought to her life when she didn’t curl her body around yours, as she normally did. Both of you were miserable as you drifted off, completely incorrectly convinced that the other person was angry.  
-----
You were not a morning person, but your girlfriend was. It was your daily routine at this point for her to wake you up in the morning, a mug of coffee in her hand and a soft smile on her face, dimples just barely peeking out. Or, you’d wake to her curled around you, her breaths steady puffs on your neck. Never, never, did you wake to nothing. No Jenni at all. Your alarm went off, and you groaned, feeling that the few hours of sleep were not enough. You were barely conscious, rolling onto the other side of the bed in search of your girlfriend’s warm body. Nothing. 
Waiting a beat, you listened for her footsteps coming up the stairs. Nothing. Minutes passed with no appearances from the striker, and you rolled over towards the bedside table, grabbing your phone. Her location showed her already at the training grounds, a full hour early. You pictured her taking free kicks from all over the pitch, the same scowl on her face she always got when she was worked up about something. You loved that scowl, despite the cause of it. You liked to make it turn into a huge grin, one that brought out the dimples on her cheeks. 
God you missed her. Suddenly, with full force, you missed her deeply. Though you’d seen her last night, it felt like you’d been gone for weeks. You supposed you had, too caught up in your school work to think of much else. You wondered if she missed you, too, or if she was glad for the break.
No way to know, you decided, even though there very clearly was. Deciding that you could get a bit of your next essay done before you had to get ready for training, you dragged yourself out of bed and down the hall to get some coffee. There was some left on the counter for you, in a mug that had Jenni’s face on it, a joke gift she’d given you last christmas. On the very rare occasions Jenni had to leave the house before you were up, she almost always left a little note. Sometimes it was something cheesy and adorable, and other times it was just a heart. Today, there was nothing but the mug, the coffee inside already cold. 
------
When Jenni entered the house after dinner, she was feeling kind of guilty for being so distant the past few days. Especially after seeing how exhausted you were the night before. With the whole day to think about things, she realized maybe she should be more worried than upset with you. 
She’d left before you were even awake. Obviously, you couldn’t discuss anything at training, and you’d gone straight to the library after to work on your essay. Jenni had made herself get out of the house, getting together with a few friends, texting you quickly that she wouldn’t be home for dinner.  
She knew she’d been a bit immature and that she should have just communicated her issue to you. Before you, she’d never felt needy. Now, though, it felt like any time away from you was difficult. And the distance she’d forced in the past few days hadn’t made her feel better like she thought; she hadn’t gotten used to not being around you. Instead, she just missed you even more. Maybe she would have talked to you, honestly, if she hadn’t been convinced that you were upset with her, tired of her. 
She couldn’t hear the clicking of the keyboard coming from the office, and that would have been her first guess as to your location. Moving further into the house, Jenni looked around, finally spotting you in the living room. You weren’t lounging in the armchair, watching a show, like she’d been expecting. Instead, you were curled up into a ball on the sofa, sobbing into your hands. It was loud and painful, and the brunette was sure that you hadn’t even heard her enter the house. There were papers scattered around you, your computer set aside, still open to the essay that just wouldn’t get done. 
The small sounds you were making in between each sob broke Jenni’s heart, and it only took her a minute to unfreeze, and cross the room. 
“Amor, hey,” she cooed, crouching down next to the sofa and trying to tug your hands away from your face. You jumped slightly, feeling your face burn with embarrassment. You thought you’d have more time to hide your breakdown before Jenni got home.
“Go away.” You murmured, attempting to move away from her. Jenni was strong, though, and before you could move very far, you were being pulled into her lap. 
“No. Talk to me.” Jenni encouraged, finally getting a look at your face. Her stomach dropped as she realized just how exhausted you were, and just how upset. Your bottom lip trembled as you tried to stop your tears, fighting against the urge to lean into your girlfriend. If the past day had taught you anything, it was that Jenni didn’t need to deal with your stress. That was the reason she must have been pulling away, and you wanted to respect her obvious need for space. 
“I’m fine, Jenni, just go to bed. I’ll be in later.” Your voice was raspy from crying, and Jenni’s brow furrowed. 
Shaking her head, she leaned in to place the gentlest of kisses on your cheek. “Cari, I am not going anywhere until you tell me what is wrong.” 
Again, it felt like every part of you was begging to collapse into her. You just couldn’t do it. “You have enough on your plate. Don’t worry about me.” Even as you spoke, tears ran down your face, and you sniffled pitifully. 
Jenni rolled her eyes in response, her slender fingers pushing your hair away from your face. “I love you, I am going to worry about you. Especially when I find you like this. Now tell me what is wrong so I can fix it.” 
There was nowhere for you to look but at her, and her eyes were so earnest and so concerned, you gave in. “I-I’m just so stressed, Jen. I can’t- there isn’t enough time for me to get everything done and I’m so tired and I can’t do this anymore I’m losing my mind, and I’m too much for you and I just-”
Jenni became laser focused on the end of your rambling sentences, her hands working frantically to run through your hair and caress your face in comfort. “No, you are not too much for me, mi amor. Never. Why would you think that?” 
Looking at her with wide eyes, you wondered why she was lying. “You’ve been avoiding me these past few days. You’ve barely been here, you left this morning without even waking me, I-”
Shaking her head rapidly, Jenni felt guilt tugging at her. She should have known better, should have known you’d never do anything to hurt her, but yourself? That was another story. “Amor, you’ve been avoiding me for weeks. I was only trying to give you space.”
“I was trying to give you space.” You choked out. “I thought you were tired of me.” 
“No, mi amor, no.” Jenni sighed, gripping you by the shoulders and internally cursing herself. “I thought you were tired of me. You’ve been so busy, and I just thought you wanted to spend less time with me.” 
‘No, I didn’t want that.” You shook your head, shrugging her hands off your shoulders, only to wrap your own arms around her abdomen and bury your face in her neck. “I was just so busy and so overwhelmed, I didn’t want to stress you out.” 
With a gentle hand on the back of your head, Jenni pressed you in closer to her and left a kiss on the side of your head. “You do not stress me out. I want to help you when you are stressed, but I cannot do that if it feels like you do not want me around.” 
You nodded into her neck, knowing she likely felt the tears running off your face and onto her skin. “I’m sorry.” You whimpered. 
“It’s alright, cari. I’m sorry too, I should have noticed you were stressed.” 
When she only got a shrug in response, she leaned you back from her and studied your face closely. “What’s going on, hmm? School doesn’t normally get you like this.” 
Subconsciously, you tried to match the rise and fall of your girlfriend’s chest, willing yourself to just calm down so you could have a conversation. “It’s the extra classes. It’s way too much, I don’t know what I was thinking. I’m barely getting everything done and it’s building up and-” 
“Extra classes?” Jenni asked, her forehead wrinkling in confusion. 
You blinked at her. You’d told her about the extra classes… right? Admittedly, Jenni didn’t listen very hard when you talked about school, so it was entirely possible she’d just missed it, but she always remembered the important things. “I told you. I’m taking four this term.” 
“Four! Why would you do that?!” Jenni exclaimed, her face so comically surprised, you had to fight a smile. “You didn’t tell me, amor.” 
“I did!” You argued back. “So I can finish school this term instead of after the next one.” 
Jenni shook her head, her face turning slightly stern. “You did not tell me. That is too much, mi amor, why would you do that? No wonder you’re so overwhelmed.” She tutted. 
You thought hard, your eyebrows scrunching in a way Jenni found downright adorable. “Oh. I decided when I was home with my family for the holidays. I must have told them and forgotten to tell you…”
You looked at Jenni wearily, wondering if she’d be upset. Instead, she was chuckling at you and shaking her head. It was very you to forget something like this. Jenni liked to joke that you spend all your brain power on football and school, and there wasn’t any left over for common sense. 
“Sorry, Jen. I thought I told you.” You mumbled, face turning red with embarrassment. Maybe your girlfriend would have been annoyed, if she wasn’t so very in love with you. All your quirks, though, were just silly to her, endearing. She had become horrifically soft for you, she realized. 
“It’s okay, you didn’t do it on purpose.” Jenni said kindly. “I understand now, why you’ve been so busy. But, amor, if it is too much, why don’t you just drop a class? Or turn in a few assignments late. You only need a certain grade to pass, no? Not everything has to be perfect. You have to give yourself a break.” 
It was everything you’d needed to hear, and still, everything you refused to believe. You couldn’t drop a class, couldn’t get less than a perfect score. You didn’t deserve a break, not until everything was done. Jenni’s face fell as your eyes began to water again, and she worried she said the wrong thing. 
A flood of words spewed from your mouth, trying to help her understand what you didn’t even really understand. “I don’t know how to stop. I don’t know how to take a break without someone telling me to, I feel like my body is shutting down Jenni, I’m so tired,” you sobbed, once more pressing your face into her chest, likely staining her shirt with tears. She was quick to wrap you in a hug, hushing you quietly. 
“Oh, mi amor.” She sighed, stroking her fingers through your hair. “I’m so sorry I didn’t realize you were having a hard time, I’m sorry I didn’t help.” 
That felt like an incredibly ridiculous thing for her to apologize for, and you told her so. “You shouldn’t have to do that, you shouldn’t have to take care of me like that”
“Of course I do. I want to. That is what partners do, no?” She replied incredulously, using her sleeve to gently swipe the tears off your face. She hated to see you cry, but she loved how long your eyelashes got when they were wet with tears; it made your eyes look bigger, somehow, and it always made her want to hold onto you and never let go. 
“You don’t have to.” You argued weakly. 
Jenni kissed you gently instead of replying right away, her soft lips pressing into yours telling you more than she could probably convey with words. “I’m going to, cariño.” 
“Okay.” You whispered, effectively convinced by her kiss, knowing Jenni well enough to know that if you agreed with her, she’d kiss you again. And she did. 
“We’ll start now then. Let’s take a break. We can lay on the couch and take a nap and then order dinner in.” She was already shutting your computer and carefully putting your notes into a pile, before placing it all on the table. 
“But my essay,” you argued halfheartedly, knowing you would probably only be capable of writing incomprehensible sentences at this point. The striker turned back to you, a stern look on her face once again. Jenni shook her head firmly, her thumbs running back and forth across your cheeks in an incredibly soothing manner. “No essay is worth this. You need to take a break, and rest.” 
“I- I don’t…”
“Hmm? You don’t what, amor?” Her voice held a challenge, almost begging you to argue with her about needing a break. She didn’t understand, but she wanted to, more than anything. 
“I didn’t finish.” You whispered. “I don’t deserve a break until I’m done.” 
“Cariño,” Jenni sighed, gently pulling on the back of your neck until you’d tucked your face in against her. She kissed the top of your head, mumbling her next words into your hair. “You are not a machine. You deserve a break whenever you need one, and you need one right now. No arguments.” 
And though it felt all wrong, you let Jenni remove all your study materials from the room, putting them god knows where. She returned, sliding onto the couch and pulling you so you were laying in her arms. 
Once your favorite show had been put on the TV, you looked up at her, chin resting on her chest. “I’m really sorry you felt so neglected, Jen.” You murmured. Now that you were no longer panicked about not getting your essay done, guilt had flooded you. “I wasn’t trying to avoid you, I promise. I’m so-”
“It’s okay, mi amor.” Jenni smiled. Now that her insecurities had been relatively addressed, [and now that she felt ridiculous for having them in the first place,] her only focus was on getting you to relax. Incidentally, that meant you would be spending a fair amount of time with her going forward, and that was a win for the striker. “I do not want to hear any more about it, si? All is forgiven.” 
Jenni’s ability to forgive was one of her best traits, and you knew that when she said she forgave you, she meant it. 
“Now, for my plan.” She continued, smiling almost mischievously at you. 
“Your plan?” You asked wearily. 
“Si, my very smart and well thought out plan.” Jenni grinned. “We are going to make a schedule. There will be Jenni time and study time, but not too much study time.” 
“What about too much Jenni time?” You smirked. 
She frowned at you. “That is not possible.” 
You laughed, laying your head back down on her chest. “Anything else?” 
“And now it is nap time, because your eyes are falling shut and you slept for three hours last night.” Her arms locked around you, allowing no escape. Not that you wanted one. 
“Okay.” You mumbled, squirming slightly until your face was tucked into her neck, blocking out the light of the room. You drifted off quickly, lulled into sleep by Jenni’s hands rubbing up and down your back, and the rise and fall of her chest under you. 
Jenni waited an entire hour to order dinner, thinking that she could wake you when it arrived, if you weren't already awake. She got the message that the food had been delivered a half hour after that, trying to wipe the stupid grin off her face at the way you were curled up on top of her. How she could have ever doubted your love for her, she wasn’t sure. 
“Amor? The food is here.” She whispered, pushing your hair out of your face enough to see that your eyes were shut, your face relaxed. Giving up ridiculously quickly, she settled into the couch, allowing you to stay asleep. The food could wait. You needed the rest, and your girlfriend was more than happy to be a pillow for you, for as long as you needed her to be.  
------
as if i would study if i was jenni's girlfriend, and not spend the whole day looking at her like 🙂
755 notes · View notes
drewsbraziliangf · 8 months ago
Text
nothing to say when heaven falls | Drew Starkey x black!reader
summary: what can you do when the person that’s supposed to understand and be on your side chooses to doubt your fears?
Word count: 1388
a/n: not edited, we die like soldiers!!!!! pls let me know if you wish to be added to my taglist
Tumblr media
"How can't you see how disrespectful this is to me, Drew?" You ask with a strained voice and teary eyes. "Everywhere you go she's looming like a shadow."
"She's my friend, what do you want me to do?" Exasperated, he asks.
"I don't know. Maybe tell her that your fiancé doesn't feel comfortable with her following you around, traveling abroad to see you or fuck, being all fucking touchy and handsy with you in public."
My throat was burning as the words slipped my mouth but I simply couldn't avoid it any longer. I am so tired of this whole situation and it has been going on for far too long. I just can't hold it back anymore.
"Can't exactly tell her what to do," he rolled his eyes this time.
"Really? Am I really asking for that much?" I look at the man in front of me with disbelief, "I just want to feel like I'm not invisible in my own goddamn relationship. She sees you more than I do and I am the one with a ring on my finger. How is this fair?" 
"Babe, listen, there's nothing going on between me and her. You have to believe me," he pleads as he runs his hands through his hair.
"You don't think I'm trying to believe you? I'm in the trenches everyday telling myself this over and over again, but how can I turn a blind eye to it when the first thing I see whenever I'm online is that you're both coincidently in the same city. For the millionth time."
I know that pulling this out in the open this way isn't the best option. But how could I keep bottling all of this up when it's causing such a heavy pain in my chest every time I see their names together?
It was always clear the perks of dating a public figure and I never backed out on it. Now seeing the man who asked me to spend the rest of my life with him and have his babies walking around with the woman everyone swears he was romantically involved with is messed up.
“I don’t know what you want me to do,” he admits as he walks away from me.
That felt like a punch. Because how could I make it anymore obvious? Do I have to draw it to a thirty year old why he should respect the woman he chose to propose to? 
“Are you for real right now?” I asked as I follow him into the kitchen of our shared apartment. “Did you really just said that to me, Joseph?”
At this point it felt like there was no going back anymore, either this was going to be totally fixed here or it wouldn’t at all. The bandaid was ripped and the wound was open and burning.
“How can you be so dull? You really can’t see what the problem here is?” 
I watch as he fills a glass with water and turns his back to me. He did it twice already. The off white walls of the kitchen lacked the warm they always brought when we were in it together. It felt claustrophobic and like the roof was going to fall over our heads at any given minute.
“You’re acting like I’m cheating on you. Like this is some major fuck up. It isn’t, you’re turning it into something it isn’t.” His tone was cold but looking at his posture it was clear that he was trying to maintain his calm.
The condescending tone in his voice made me want to shrink into myself and hide away from the world.
“Oh, right. Yeah, blame it on me for thinking that my fiancé going out of his way to be with his ex fuck buddy isn’t normal.”
“Careful,” he warns once finally looks at me.
“Or what, Drew? What else could you possibly do that will make me feel worse than I already do?” I challenge, my gaze locked on him as I wait.
After a few minutes of us staring down at each other, he shakes his head and sighs. 
“I’m not doing whatever this is. I’m done entertaining this,” he declares and he leans against the countertop.
Drew and I met around two years ago through a mutual friend. We instantly hit off and after a few dates, he officially asked me to be his girlfriend - which I obviously accepted. We had this instant connection that isn’t common. At first I was terrified of it, I knew who he was and the fact that his life was always being scrutinized by thousands of people. I knew what people said online about him and as we got closer and closer I couldn’t help but lose myself in the speculations about him even more.
Our relationship was great and we always made sure that each others boundaries were respected, so color me stoked to be in this situation right now. I am not dumb and every single day there is a needle pinching me making me think of stuff and situations like the one we find ourselves right now just indulge those thoughts.
In the early days of our relationship we made sure there were no secrets between us and past relationships. I knew I was his first black girlfriend, I knew he was born and raised in the South too. So joining that and the fact that I am an immigrant did make me scared of a lot of things, the main of them being the fact that it isn’t uncommon at all for men to always find their way back to that they are used to. 
So seeing her upon him all the time while people online barely know about our relationship feels like hell. Because even though I’m in family pictures that his sisters post online, and the very visible ring on my finger I am never considered the option of being his significant other. She is. Every single time. And he never did anything about it - hell, he never even set boundaries with her and she knows that we’re together. Am I really reading too much into things? 
Being three months away from our wedding day, this isn’t the kind of thought or conversations I would like to be having. I should be fucking excited and dress hunting, but lately the only thing that I feel like doing is swallowing lumps and holding back tears, faking smiles and pretending I’m fine. I’m not, I’m fucking falling apart and I’m so tired of begging to be seen. 
“I don’t know how else to tell you that I am not comfortable with this and that you shouldn’t be either,” I point out as the first tear cross the edges of my cheeks. “I don’t know how else to ask you to respect our relationship.”
“I respect our relationship, I always did. I just don’t think that what you’re saying right now makes any sense. Whatever I had with her in the past is over.” He says as he runs one of his hands through his face.
“Drew, honey, you’re not seeing things from my point of view. Imagine if it was me catching planes every other day to be with someone that I was involved in with in the past. And all of our friends know that you and I are together. How would that make you feel?”
At that he says nothing but silence can mean many things, and in this case it means consent. 
Tired of this back in forth conversation, I reach for my phone that was besides his on the counter and as if the timing couldn’t be more right, the screen of his phone lights up with an incoming call. No surprise flashes through my features as I see the picture on the caller id, both of them in a mirror picture as they brush their teeth.
“I can’t do this anymore,” I confess watching as he reaches for his phone quickly declining the call. “Not when you’re up to your eyeballs into whatever this is. I’ll make the calls tomorrow and cancel the dates with the venue.”
I grab my phone and my purse and I walk towards the front door before he can say anything else, I’m closing it behind me. 
614 notes · View notes
allurearia · 9 months ago
Text
Love is shared playlists.
Where you discover that a certain blonde haired guy and you share a playlist.
Tsukishima kei x reader
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
As you had stepped onto the karasuno bus scanning for a seat your eyes had immediately landed on Kiyoko and Yachi sitting next to each other on the front two  seats leaving you to either sit with one of the boys or all on own. They both instantly offered apologetic smiles
“Sorry!” Yachi calls out, looking genuinely guilty. “We kind of snagged these two seats together.”
You wave it off with a soft smile. “It’s fine” you assure her even if the sight of everyone else sitting in pairs makes you feel just a little out of place.
With a small sigh you immediately head to the back of the bus sitting down on a seat of your own right beside a window. As you look outside you pull your bag up reaching into it you freeze.
Your headphones. You forgot them
you slump into your seat, frustrated at yourself. Normally, you’d block out the noise with music, but now all you have is the sound of your teammates’ excited conversations.
Just as you’re about to commit to a boring bus ride, you notice someone stand by your seat. You turn your head just in time to see Tsukishima plop down next to you, taking the aisle seat.
He doesn’t say anything at first, not that you expect him to. His golden eyes flicker towards you briefly before he looks straight ahead, 
“Didnt know you liked sitting next me, usually in class your all the way across” you narrow you eyes as you tease him
“Dont flatter yourself no other seats were left” he excuses 
“Sure” your hum looking outside.
A few minutes into the ride, he already has your attention again, you see him reach into his bag and pull out a pair of earphones. The cord dangles in his hands as he untangles it and you can’t help but stare.
Tsukishima notices.
“What?” His tone is sharp, but there’s no real malice behind it.
You glance away, embarrassed. “Nothing,” you mutter. “I just forgot mine, isnt fair how i get to suffer in silence”
He looks at you, then at the earphones in his hand, as if weighing his options. Finally, with a sigh he holds out one earbud. “Here.”
You blink, surprised “Seriously?”
“Do you want it or not?” He sounds annoyed, but you can tell he’s trying not to let on how much he actually doesn’t mind.
Grinning, you take the earbud. “Wow, Tsukki. Didn’t know you had such a soft spot for me.”
“Don’t push your luck.”
You settle into your seat, sliding the earbud into your ear. The bus noise slowly filtering out around you, but all you can focus on is the sudden quiet as Tsukishima’s music fills your head.
It takes a few seconds before you recognize it.
Your heart skips a beat.
The songs playing are familiar, too familiar. It’s from the playlist you had made a few weeks ago and sent to him. You had almost forgotten about it, thinking he never bothered to open the link. After all, it had been a simple attempt to bridge the awkward silence between you two back then, When he hadn’t mentioned it, you assumed he ignored it.
But here it is, playing through his headphones. And then, another song comes on—one you definitely didn’t add. It’s slower, not something you had added but undeniably a Tsukishima choice. He added his own songs
You glance at him, your heart swelling with a mix of surprise and warmth. Tsukishima keeps his eyes forward, completely unaware of the storm of thoughts swirling in your head. But the small act says more than any words could.
“You... listened to it?” you ask quietly, 
Tsukishima shrugs, as if it’s no big deal. “Yeah. So?”
You can’t help the smile that forms on your lips. “You added your own songs.”
“Is that a problem?”
“No.” You shake your head, feeling a strange, unspoken understanding settle between you. “Not at all.”
Love is a shared playlist.
Tumblr media
Love is? masterlist
574 notes · View notes
mtcloudsworld · 4 months ago
Note
Can I please request a Dick Grayson x black reader smut, we know that man is nasty and when he’s in love he’s down right filthy so he’ll be into spanking, hair pulling chocking, and he’s definitely eating pussy like his life depends on it. Do what you want just make him as nasty as ever 🤎🤎🤎
Tumblr media
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
Tumblr media
𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 | +18, mdni, dick grayson x black!reader, black!fem, hair pulling, oral (v receiving), pet names: dollface, baby, darling, mama, love, friends to lovers trope, dirty talk, backshots, pound town, gushy gushy
𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑 | ANON, I'm not even gon' lie... I struggled with this one soooo bad 😭 I was over here tryna give you like a whole ass story and what now, but then my ass was way too stubborn, and way too horny to do all that soooo I just typed away at it as much as I could. Hopefully you like it. If not, sue my writer's block lol.
please comment, like and reblog!! Enjoy lovebugs!!! 🦠🩷
Tumblr media
𝐀𝐇𝐇, 𝐘𝐄𝐒, we know Dick is a nasty man, he likes it sloppy, filthy to the point you're a quivering whimpering mess, right?
It was kinda hard...at first... to believe how nasty this man could be.
How could someone so energetic with such a cocky personality trapped in a god like body with that millionaire dollar smile make a girl cum in seconds?
Your relationship was mutual. You both had the same friends but never budged to hang out with each other.
It didn't mean he never had his eyes on you, though.
The way you walked, how you talked, dressed and styled yourself never failed to amaze him. Your hair was either in braids or in its natural habit-- curls. You always had your nails done and your scent was always a mixture between cookie dough, vanilla, and coco butter.
Your personality was cute and charming, oftentimes you were a bit shy and quiet, but once you got comfortable around somebody you were okay.
Usually, Dick hopped from girl to girl, could never stay committed at times and getting to know you genuinely as friend wasn't supposed to go any further than that...but it did.
You were constantly on his mind, effortlessly grabbing at his attention, you had a way of caring for people-- it was almost like a motherly instinct to nurture someone.
There were moments when you two were face to face, talking, having a normal conversation about something and you'd just...lightly brush a strand from his face or fix the collar of his shirt.
Oh, his tie is crooked? Let me fix that.
Got a crumb on his face? Let me wipe that off for you.
Eventually, coming over to each other's apartments turned into sleeping over, getting weirdly comfortable with cuddling, having deep, intimate conversations that most friends or associates wouldn't have with each other.
But that was the issue, you both were comfortable, and usually comfortability led to numerous things.
Things that became private and secluded from the rest, things that took time for him to accept and realize. Things that allowed you to invite him and read you like a book. He took time out of his own world to get to know you from the inside out. He took time to settle for the innocent things that were ultimately sweet to the point his teeth were rotting.
It took time to understand this wasn't a friendship, it was more than just a simple hug, a glance in those beautiful eyes, a brush of the hands, having mental check ins, texting and calling each other nonstop-- it was more than just platonic.
Because best believe when he's found himself stuck in a place where you're truly his only option, his only solitude, his only source of light and recharge-- he'll come running to you. He's done it plenty of times, more than you can count.
Even when he thought it was the stupidest idea to land on your balcony at the weakest time of his patrol, you took care of him without even knowing.
You took care of him like you would at campus, eating with friends, hanging out-- you were always in his corner. So when he reveals to you who he truly was, Nightwing, it felt like a tone of bricks slipped off his shoulders.
Your promise of keeping his identity a secret felt more sacred than anything.
He had gotten comfortable with just sneaking his way into your apartment, unless he didn't warn you ahead of time, everything was on lock down. Born and raised in Gotham taught you so many things and keeping your home secure at all times was one of them.
When he does come over after a nightly patrol, it's never a dull moment where your stitching him up, cleaning the blood from off his skin, icing his cheek with a bag of frozen fruit...there was never a dull moment when he's sitting there like a little kid observing you glancing over him and checking every aspect of him, making sure that he was okay and in piece...never a dull moment when he wants to lean in and kiss you...but something always got in the way.
Nonetheless, he makes it his goal to at least try,
On a Friday night, after patrol, he realized how far he was from home.
As much as he wanted to take a break from visiting you, tonight had him beat.
He wasn't feeling up to swinging from rooftop to rooftop when your apartment was literally right here.
Coming to your place unannounced was never his intention, nonetheless, you invited him in anyway. Cleaning up his wounds and washing the blood, dirt and grime from off his suit, he heads to the bathroom for a shower.
Once he was done, he stepped out in only a pair of sweats. His hair a mixture of dry and wet strands curling around his eyes and shoulders gave him that boyish charm that made most girls go feral. Along with the sight of his toned torso, bitable muscles and imprint of his bulge...yeah, you were in deep.
And trying to stay cool, calm and collected while standing beside you, in the kitchen, leaning against the counter with his foot crossed over the other, arms crossed while eating a banana wasn't getting you nowhere.
You were finding it hard to make eye contact with him, too scared to stumble over your words when he gazed over you with those piercing sapphire eyes and beautiful smile. He was speaking to you so casually, but your thighs were practically clenching against one another.
Your body was hot, heart beating quicker than usual while your mind was going to places that it shouldn't. Yet here you were feeling some type of way, and when you were done with those damn dishes, you both settled on the couch. Putting on a horror movie to pass on the time.
Neither of you were really tired, it was only 1:30 on a Saturday morning, so settling with that seemed plausible.
15 minutes in man spreading with his eyes trained on the screen. He mindlessly accepted the comfort of your crossed legs over his lap. Leaning into his arm, with your own wrapped around the muscle you feel his warmth transfer through you as your body laxes, even with his knuckles brushing lightly against the side of your thigh, it felt nice...or when he massaged it, groping it softly and caressing at the flesh subconsciously...it felt nice, too nice.
Because at some point you told him to stop, and when he looked to you confusingly. Brows furrowed with a puzzled gaze, you bring it to his attention, embarrassingly, that it made you feel some things.
And it dawns on him, suddenly...
The smirk and mischievous glare in eyes make you feel shy, wanting nothing more than to curl in a ball.
It dawns on him that he has an effect on you.
Just like you had an effect on him with taking care of him, physical touch from him felt like heaven. The littlest things he does to you sends you on a whirlwind.
And he couldn't lie, it boosted his ego.
He would sit there contemplating his next actions for the next 5 minutes.
Eyes looking anywhere but the tv. There was this cute awkward silence between you. Clearly fidgety, unsure if y'all should or shouldn't...
Peeking over you, he murmurs, "do you want me to make it feel better?"
Staring ahead, your mind doesn't register his words until a second late.
The question no doubt taking you off guard, but you look at him shyly, shrugging your shoulders with uncertainty. "I-I think so?"
Trying to hide yourself from him, you wanted to express that it wasn't a big deal and that it'll go away on its own... but the way he was looking at you right now, with his hand still rested on your thigh...the temptation was real.
Dick chuckles at your cuteness, "No need to hesitate, doll face. If you're not up to it, I won't force you into anything." He says mindlessly brushing your curls behind your ear to get a good look of your face, brushing his thumb along your jawline. You gulp noticing the proximity of your faces, the scent of his body wash overwhelming you as you eye him adoringly. "I want to."
He cocks a brow at you, "you sure?" you realized his question was out of reassurance, wanting to make sure if this was something you wanted to do.
But you nodded, glancing between his eyes and those pretty plump lips of his.
"Yes, I'm sure."
Tumblr media
It seemed impractical for him to think that way with you, but he did.
He thought about it nonstop.
To the point he was having to excuse himself to the bathroom, fisting himself at the thought of you. All because he had an innocent little cuddle session with you. He just couldn't bear the feeling of your ass brushing up against his dick, which was pathetic I know but true.
Or when he accidentally got a glimpse of your chocolate round tits, bouncing up and down as you squeezed and jumped yourself into those tight ass jeans you hadn't worn in a while because you gained a little bit weight around your ass and thighs.
He loved every second of it, though. He loved every chunky curve and perfect imperfect flaw that made you you. He thought about it every single day and night, out on patrol when he feels touch starved, or busy with other things that weren't you.
Dick has thought about consistanly.
He's thought about this exact moment for a while now.
He's got you in his grasp, trapped in your own room giving you exactly what you've been waiting for, and you realize between shared kisses and him glorifying your body that you love every second of it.
You love how messy he is, how he doesn't give a fuck if you're loud and everybody and they mama can hear you. He was making you feel good, making you feel like bouncing on his dick for hours.
Salvia drips from his mouth to your aching center. Watching how it rolls down the crevice of your lower lips past the entrance of your hole.
It coats every inch of you beautifully before proceeding to dip his fingers past your folds. Light wet sounds heard as he circles around to your clit, rubbing up and down tenderly.
"How's that feel, baby? Feels okay?"
"Y-yes, keep...going," You exhale shakily, nails curling into the sheets, balling them into your fists you feel his fingers slip in and out of your leaking hole.
His head rested at your thigh as he peppers kisses to your flesh, attentively watching your eyes flutter shut to the euphoric feeling building from within, your moans become softer and sultrier as your cunt welcomes him deeper.
Your skin felt so satisfying in his palms, almost like Play-Doh as he continued to grope parts of you. The way it was so smooth and yet so soft beneath his calloused hands, he never felt anything like it. Your scent was so intoxicating, he could almost taste it in his mouth. Actually... he wanted to savor it in his mouth, every inch, every lick, gathering a taste of you.
"Spread those legs for me, baby," he instructs lightly, lips adventuring south of your hips near your lower region. He gently moves your knees over his shoulders to hold you securely within his grasp.
Mouth leaving kisses to your clit, he lays his long pink tongue flat against your center. Licking long stripes up your clit deliberately slow, you gasp at the sudden action. "Oh, Dick~"
One taste after the other, he moans pulling you closer, "Fuck, I'm gonna ruin you."
His tongue flicks against your bud quickly. Concentrating on your raunchy moans and the way your body responds. His warm hands move upward around your parted thighs. Palms laid flat at the underside of them, he presses for your knees to touch your chest.
"Such a good girl." He plunges two fingers into your leaking hole, prepping you a little bit more before replacing his fingers with his mouth again.
The sensation of Dick's lips engulfing, sucking, licking and slurping against your sobbing wet pussy sends a heat wave through your body. The long-wet muscle glides over your hole teasingly a few times before shoving it inside.
Your whimper-moans fill his ears as he maneuvers in and out of you. Squirming beneath his hold. Not wanting to run away from him, he holds you down against the mattress, forcing you to take it like a good girl while arching your back off the mattress. "Aww, Dick right there~" with your head pressed to the pillow.
Completely immersed to the weird sensation of him tongue fucking you. Mentally, it felt too realistic, too natural for how far his tongue could reach. Undoubtedly grazing at the sides of your gummy walls, you were sure he could touch your g spot without even trying.
Nonetheless, it left you speechless, embarrassingly aroused and yet a stuttering mess that expressed something so indescribable.
With your hand pressed to the back of his head, you welcomed him deeper. His mouth working tirelessly eating you out like a full four course meal, you attempt to swivel your hips against his salivating mouth. "D-Dick..." The whimper of his name was high pitched, undoubtedly trying to warn him that something was brewing.
"Mmph," His mouth pulls away from your pussy with a smack. A heavy exhale hits at your exposed core as he continues with pumping you with his fingers. Voluntarily shaking and wiggling his fingers at your g-spot. Your movements halted, eyes clenching and jaw dropped to the action. "Mhmm, yeahhh. There you go, that's it, just let go for me baby, I got you." It sends continuous vibrations to your clit, your walls clenching and contracting around his finger, your throat emits a deep elongated moan, painting an ivory white all over his fingers.
Dick lets you ride out your high before he pulled out to examine your essence coating all over his fingers. You laid there, breathless and mind blown for a moment, resting your legs out onto the mattress lazily.
While you hear the humming of a pleasant man at the end of your bed, you were too busy collecting your thoughts of the events that just occurred.
Noticing you were completely silent he goes to land a kiss at your stomach.
"You okay, baby?"
You nod, "mhm." Before lifting yourself up slowly on your elbows.
When you get a better look at the image before you, you nearly snicker as Dick lick small spots of cum from off your inner thigh. Smiling from ear to ear, you ask with your head cocked to the side cutely, "Do I taste that good?" Looking at him with amusement, he traces kisses up your body. Grossing onto his hands and knees, you notice the rippling effect and swell of his muscles beneath the flesh of his arms and shoulders, veins bulging through, his huge frame looms over you causing your back to touch the mattress. when he comes face to face with you, your dainty hands come from up his biceps to wrap around his shoulders. Noses nudging against one another cutely, a playful smirk is decorated on his lips when he sees a little twinkle in your eye.
"Wanna find out?" His voice was deeper than before, raspy and sexily menacing to the point your aroused cunt began to clench around nothingness. Your lips ghosting over his, hooded eyes watched closely as you proceeded to finally engulf his, he immediately deepens the kiss no longer feeling the need to prolong it.
When he rests his body between your legs your startled by the heavy bulge of his dick rubbing along your clit. Moaning between kisses he takes this opportunity to slither his tongue past your mouth, brows connecting at the slow development of pleasure growing in your body. The combination of the slow yet firm stroke of his hips grinding against your pussy and his tongue adventuring in your mouth has your moans become breathy, soft and cute with a lilac touch that has him grunting in return. "Ooh, baby" your nails dig into the skin of his shoulder blades, your legs locking around his waist, his lips move down the side of your chin to leave bites at your neck. Sounds of your heavy exhales and whimpers growing needy has his dick twitching in his sweats.
"Wanna continue, love?" his hands clench to the sheets on either side of your head, keeping himself from crushing you completely, his hips rock against you.
"Yes...please." you exhaled shakily, bucking your hips to him.
It didn't take much longer for him to have you bent outta shape.
"Ooohhh Fuuuuck!"
In the perfect position, face down, ass up, your sweet raunchy melodic moans bounced off the four white walls as you clawed at the sheets. Body jerking, mouth gaped, and brows furrowed. Your back arched into his embrace as he pounds profoundly deep into your pretty little pussy.
"Mhmm, that's it, take that shit, mama-- fuck, you look so good like this."
Quick with precision, no breaks in between leaving marks on your bronze flesh. He leaves you breathless with your hand rested at his abdomen. He grabs at your wrist pinning it to your lower back to feel your long acrylics dig into his skin.
With sweat drenched strands sticking to his forehead, mouth gaped with heavy grunts, he observes the sight of your fat ass jiggling to the slamming of his hips.
Fucking you at an angle, your whimpers become suppressed by your swollen bitten lips. “Heh, you like this shit... don't you, baby? You like it rough? You like the way my dick feels baby, hm?" You were unable to speak, jaw dropped with hesitant moans slipping out and when he doesn't hear a response, when he doesn't hear you communicate with him, he dares to go slow. "Or should I go slow? Huh? Want me to fuck you slow and hard, dollface? Cause I can do that, I can give it to you just like this--" His thrusts still so harsh and rough against your clit, pegging his dick to grind deeper.
"O-Ooh fuck n-no, keep going! keep going! Don't. stop." You whined like baby hating the change of pace.
"Yeah?" he cocked a brow at you in amusement, smirking evilly.
"Mhmmm, please, Dickie, please go faster..." you beg
He grabs at your hips roughly once more, digging his fingers into your flesh, praising you. "Good fucking girl."
He was practically fucking you to pound town, fucking you till the bed was creaking, till your sounds were silence by the agonizing warmth of excitement circulating through your nervous system.
Your curls were shielding over your clenched eyes, head tilted back from his hand collecting a fist full of your hair, your lips gaped open in euphoric pleasure. You begin to wail as he pounds into you relentlessly.
He watches your pussy lips pucker around his length, squeezing him tightly and sucking him deeper and deeper till he reached your cervix. He was so deep you could practically feel him in your stomach. Driving and grinding his hips into you meanly, his hand was placed at the small of your back molding you into an arch.
And like a cat, slowly you follow through with his silent command, planting your chest onto the mattress, your arms outstretched from you, your head turns sideways observing how he fucks you in rhythmic motion, hands transitioning to coddle at your hips.
"Harder, baby, harder..." You nearly laugh at the sudden vibrations of your skin smacking repeatedly against one another, caught in a trance to the gushy squelching sounds of your sweet, sweet essences dripping from around your thighs. "Y-yeah, that's it, just like that-- mmphm...oh my God!" Your breath is caught at your throat, eyes beginning to water.
His hands grope at your ass cheeks, using the fatty flesh for leverage, turning his fingers white. Thumbs pulled your ass cheeks apart so he could catch a glimpse each time he thrusts into you with ease, the squelching gushy gushy of your arousal feels and sounds so sticky and wet to his ears, so sloppy that its dripping onto the sheets and soaking at the base of his abdomen.
"Shit, m'bout to cum..."
Between your parted legs you feel his hand move towards your center, gasping, "fuuuck!" You grind yourself against his fingers as they move around your folds, gaining your silk and ghost over your clit, slapping against it couple of times before giving it a sweet gentle rub in quick circular motions.
"Mmm'fuuuck yesss!"
You wail, body crumbling lower, feeling suddenly weak within his grasp.
He smirks victoriously when he feels you start to clench around his length, quivering like damn leaf. "Mhm, cum on this dick, mama." You release a deep guttural moan beneath him, when your body collapses to the bed sounds of your cum gushing from out of you is heard as he ruts inside of you, following in pursuit.
"Shit, gotdamn baby!"
He stood back with huff, watching as his tip leaked all over the crack of your ass. His cum seeping from out of your entrance down the side of your shaking thigh. Taking a hold of his dick, the swell of his mushroom tip smears your shared juices all along your center, between your folds, rubbing it up and down against your clit to hear you whimper from the sensitivity.
Stepping away, he kneels down to be leveled with your ass. Peppering kisses all along the red imprinted cheek, he nibbles at your thigh next.
He feels you move, your upper body turned sideways with your knee bent while the other stayed straight. Your hand reaches for the crown of his head as his face buries into the crevice of your cheeks. Inhaling the scent of your cum, it rubs up against his nose as he started to lick at you.
"Mmph, I can never get enough of you." He states pulling your ass cheeks apart some more, his tongue dragging up from your pussy to the space of your ass.
You squeal to the feeling of his long pink tongue slithering past your quivering hole. Dark lust filled eyes watching as your swollen lips parted, keeping eye contact with him as you press his head deeper, bucking your hips back.
You welcome him back into your heat, making out with your cunt, moaning at the taste of you lingering on his buds, his hands begin to smack at your ass a few times, groping at the flesh as he starts to slurp up his salvia, devouring you some more to feel it roll down the side of his mouth and smear against your inner thigh messily.
"Aww, shit!...you just can't get enough, huh?" You whimper laugh starting to ride his face as you feel him poke at your sweet spot, "fuck, you always find the right spot...Oh, m'cumming."
And what felt like the fifth time already, you cum, you cum all along his face feeling his head shake to finish you off completely.
Pulling away to see your pussy juices shine all along his mouth and chin, smeared at his cheeks. You watched as his smirk grew, his tongue slipping out to lick around his mouth seductively before going in for a kiss. His tongue shoved down your throat while your hand moves to stroke at his dick, thumb rubbing around his swollen tip.
Tumblr media
𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐃
𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐋 ©𝐦𝐭𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐬 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓
Tumblr media
... y'all what the fuck did I just create???
335 notes · View notes
dissociative-musings · 4 months ago
Text
Laios Touden x reader | the night before parting
Summary/writers note — hii, I’ve never written one of these, but I wanted to attempt to turn one of my little daydreams about domestic moments with laios into a reader insert. This one in particular being about the night before he has to go off on one of his dungeon dives, leaving you to wait for his return.
Content warning — none! Sfw. Very fluffy.
You shift your weight under the thick blanket, nuzzling your nose into Laios’ shoulder. The warmth of his skin radiates comfortingly over your own, as you take in a breath of his familiar sent.
He hums softly, stealing his warmth away from you for just a moment as he turns himself to face you under the blankets. A content and almost dopey expression of fondness on his face, which you’re sure is reflected on your own as you watch him settle beside you.
You stare wordlessly at each other for a moment, stewing in a comfortable silence and the warmth of each other’s presence. It’s a grounding and almost overwhelming feeling. Of safety. Understanding. Care. And love. An unfathomable amount of it.
Your face falls only slightly, as you resist that familiar feeling of sudden tears threatening to burst from your eyes.
“Im gonna miss you” you whisper, exhaling a deep and shaky breath that you’d subconsciously been holding.
You scan Laios’ face, trying to etch every detail into your psyche. His blonde eyebrows scrunch together, an empathetic downturned smile gracing his lips. His warm legs brush against yours as you feel his hand rest on the crook of your waist, his thumb rubbing grounding circles into the skin.
He whispers as he leans in closer “I’m gonna miss you too… but just think of all the trinkets ill bring you…” he places the gentlest kiss on your lips before pulling back with a smile “I’m gonna find you something real good this time, I promise”.
You huff out a short laugh from your nose, smiling sadly as you nuzzle your face under the crook of his neck. “I’ll be honest Lai, all I want is you to stay” you say, voice muffled by the fabric of his shirt.
“I know” he sighs, resting his chin snugly atop your head.
You stay silent for a minute, contemplating your options. You shift slightly before gently muttering “You know, I’m getting better at retaining mana.. I think i’ll be able to come with you guys soon… You could always use another healer I’m sure.”
Laios is quiet. His chest softly rises and falls against your cheek as you close your eyes, awaiting his reply. Uncertain if one will even come.
The topic of you entering the dungeon has always been a bit of a sore spot for Laios. And to be fair, not many of your skills are suited for such a dangerous environment. You had asked Falin to teach you basic healing spells, but you weren’t particularly gifted in that realm either. Although your tolerance for mana sickness was getting better…
While milling over all your insecurities in your head, Laios’ voice interrupts their flow. “You know, I would love for you to come with us… sharing the dungeon with you would be a dream…. But i… selfishly i guess. I don’t think i would be able to handle it if you died down there” he admits, a noticeable shift in the tone of his voice. A hint of fear, at the thought alone.
You lean back to look him in the eyes, and notice his expression of frustration and sadness. He doesn’t meet your gaze as he says “I know you could be revived, if it does happen. But the thought that I could even let it happen… or that you would have to feel the pain… it keeps me up at night sometimes” he lets out a short and pitiful laugh, before his expression falls back to a somber one, his downturned eyes rising to finally meet yours.
“Hey” you say as you slide your hand over his, lacing your fingers together and gently squeezing. “I get it… I really do. I imagine the shit you have to face down there sometimes and the thought of you having to experience pain, let alone DYING? It messes me up too… so I can’t really argue…. But… I don’t know. I think we just have to accept that we’re both terrified, and then do it anyways.. even if it’s only once.”
You smile at him, hoping to brighten the mood back up “I wanna understand why you love it so much. And I want to experience it WITH you… and to see all the monstersss.”
He chuckles at that, and the warmth that his laugh blooms in your chest is a sensation that you’ll never tire of.
“Plus” you grin childishly at him “we’ve been practicing that damn siren song for so long, I refuse to rest until I get to see it in action.” He immediately perks up at this, a big grin plastered across his face “ oh, I don’t know if they’re ready for the power of our rendition.” You both giggle like kids at the thought, snuggling in closer. Savoring every moment you get with each other before Laios departs in the morning.
190 notes · View notes
thesilmarillionblog · 1 year ago
Text
A Sweet Distraction
Summary: When you're in a club, you have to make sure Soldier Boy stays out of trouble and doesn't draw attention of other people while Butcher and the boys look for Payback members. Whatever it takes, you have to keep him busy and distracted.
Pairing: Soldier Boy / Reader
Warnings: Language, Soldier Boy being a dick, violence
Word Count: 1704
A/N: English is not my first language.
Tumblr media
You put on modest makeup, adjusted your outfit, and gave Butcher a brief glance in the mirror as you prepared to go out with the most dangerous and unpredictable supe alive to keep him distracted. Although he was aware of your fear of Soldier Boy and your lack of desire to spend as little time as possible with him, Butcher believed that you were the only person fit for this dreadful task. You already felt bad about accepting Butcher's suggestion after learning about Soldier Boy's outburst and everything.
“Hey, I know you're new here, but while we're away, it might be best if a lady kept him in check. Don't misunderstand me, lovely.” Butcher remarked, placing his hand on your shoulder to encourage confidence in you. You sighed with acceptance at that. 
You reluctantly said, “Fine,” as if you had the option to say ‘no.’
“Oi, I'm not making any sort of suggestion, you know. I just ask that you keep your eyes on him.” 
“I know, I know,” you quickly answered as your cheeks started to blush. 
You were assigned your first job, but it seemed like your last mission because Butcher, who called you "his boys" only a week prior, forced you to join his team. Being aware of Solider Boy's reputation for uncontrollable explosions, you made every effort to stay away from him during your first week. There didn't seem to be any way to get in touch with him, though. Either Soldier Boy himself would be the cause of your death, or Butcher.
“Don't misjudge him; as long as he drinks and fucking sniffs his cocaine, he won't cause a scene. You'll be alright, I promise. He's not all that miserable.”
Even if you had doubts about Butcher's belief in his own remarks, you nonetheless nodded to him.
“Alright. Yes, indeed, I understand.” You muttered to Butcher. “I can handle this,” but in reality, you were talking to yourself.
“Excellent!” he exclaimed while clapping his hands. He was glad you avoided arguing with him. “My car is yours, and we'll get the van. Let's not keep Soldier Boy waiting around much longer.”
As you looked at yourself in the mirror one more time, your heart raced, and you took a sip of whiskey from the closest table.
You entered Soldier Boy's room, where a massive amount of cocaine was on his table, and he was already getting high. You did your best to avoid staring at his massive, well-muscled chest while he was somewhat naked. You were afraid that weed use would increase his nervousness levels or something, or worse, cause him to become even more unstable. You were waiting quietly beside Butcher, wanting to say something about the current state of things, yet you uttered nothing. 
“Hey, are you prepared to enjoy yourself in the modern world?” Butcher inquired in a lighthearted manner.
You retreated a step as he approached you, asking, "With her?" with a grin on his face as he examined you from head to toe after standing up from his chair. 
“Buddy, don't be harsh on her; she's already scared of you.” Butcher spoke firmly, and he added, “Y/N will just be your company tonight while me and my boys look for your most devoted teammates. She is one of us.”
You turned your back as your cheeks became red while Soldier Boy raised his eyebrows and turned back to Butcher. He proceeded to smoke while pulling down his sweatpants suddenly and putting on a shirt over his bare chest. 
“I wouldn’t try,” Soldier Boy said as he changed his clothes. “She better take me to a good fucking place. I’m sick of staying in this fucking room.”
“That is not anything to worry about for you.” You all left the room as Butcher murmured.
You and Soldier Boy arrived at one of the most well-known and weird clubs, which was primarily packed with supes, after having nothing at all to talk about while driving. Soldier Boy's mouth curled into a satisfied smile as you became extremely nervous.
As soon as you two walked into the club, he said, “Not bad.”
If you were a supe, you would find it much easier to adjust to the environment and everything, but you weren't, and if you pissed someone off, they could kill you in a second. That's why you got a drink right away and followed Soldier Boy everywhere.
He removed the drug from one of his pockets and said, “I wonder if there is a fine chick to fuck,” before turning to face you. “All the sperm feels heavy in my balls though I jerked off at least five times, fuck.”
You said to yourself, "Oh, god," as he continued to spit filthy words.
He turned to face you, licked his lips, and gave you a smile that was so inviting that it stopped you in a moment.
He asked, “What happened now?” as if you were exaggerating. “I thought you all wanted to take away my attention.”
As you were going to say something unpleasant about his actions, you remembered what Butcher had said and changed your mind.
“It is not important.” You sipped your drink and kept an eye on the folks in the crowd who were getting wild, intoxicated, and dancing, and you added, “Everything's fine.”
Soldier Boy smirked as he saw your shy demeanor and chose to focus on you briefly before giving someone a hard and deep fuck. He may even attempt to get you to open you spread your legs for him so he can give you a satisfying fuck. Your bashful demeanor made him wonder if your pussy was as tight as he thought it was.
“You don’t need to be scared of me, you know,” Soldier Boy said and he gave you another inviting look.
You muttered, “How is that even possible? After all, you are a supe on cocaine with PTSD.”
Even though you felt bad right away for speaking out loud, he only laughed at your harsh remarks and replied, “Touche.”
You asked him with an uneasy smile, “Are you having fun?”
"Well, sweet thing, I'll start having fun as soon as my dick disappear into some really tight pussy.”
You muttered, “Okay, okay,” cutting him off from continuing. You took a deep breath, muttered, “You keep having fun, I will be around,” and hurriedly moved away from his side.
You just hoped that the night would end soon enough for you as you faded into the crowd. Should you get through this night without injury, you vowed to spit hate in Butcher's face. 
You chose to watch Soldier Boy from a distance, so you made some space between you and tried not to pay attention to the bizarre and frightening behaviors of the people around you. It appeared to be a massive freak show. You couldn't determine which club was worse, Herogasm or this one. 
As you locked eyes with Soldier Boy, you noticed that his lethal green eyes were already bound to you, as though you were some kind of prey to be pursued. He frowned as he moved to approach you through the chaotic crowd, and you gasped. Perhaps you were just making things up in your thoughts, and he was just staring at someone else. You tried pushing some people and finding a quieter place to avoid him.
But the person you might have shoved hard turned around and yelled, “Why the fuck are you pushing my fucking back?” to you. He became increasingly enraged after you muttered an apology, saying, “Why do they even let ordinary people get in here? You only bring difficulty upon yourselves, fuck.”
Once more, you pleaded, hoping to get out of there without stirring up any more tension. “I sincerely apologize.”
You moaned in agony as the supe's large hands gripped your arm tightly. It was not as if he would give up. You should never have accepted Butcher's suggestion in the first place.
But happily, Soldier Boy's stronger hands grabbed the strangers tightly, saving them from a terrifying situation in an instant and giving them a sense of happiness. If not, it appeared unlikely that you would survive to escape this strange club. As Soldier Boy turned to face the supe stranger and shot you a glare, you touched your arm with a painful moan.
“Is it that, you fuckface, your micropenis gets hard for the weak? You wanna play the big bad tough guy?” Soldier Boy asked angrily as his hands tightened a rough, quick grip around the other man's throat. He wasn't allowing the other supe to say anything. With feeble mutterings, he was urgently attempting to free himself from Soldier Boy's brutal hold.
“Please, don't cause any trouble,” you urged, touching Soldier Boy's big arm. Despite your attempts to calm him down, he continued to tighten his hold even after the supe kept apologizing. 
“No,” he angrily said. “I found a way to have fun. This fucking cocksucker is going to die.”
You tried to get him to move by saying, “Please, stop,” but it was obviously impossible. You panickedly muttered, “Oh, no,” as you noticed his chest suddenly glowing. 
He clinched his mouth, trying to control his chest and halt what was about to happen, but Soldier Boy threw him between the crowd and he growled, “Stay away.”
 You knew that you wouldn't make it to the exit between all the chaos and supes before Soldier Boy exploded, so you disregarded his warnings, softly cupped his neck, and placed your cold lips on his warm ones, hoping to surprise him with your unexpected move and calm him down a little.
Next Chapter
︵‿︵‿︵‿︵︵‿︵‿︵‿︵︵‿︵‿︵‿︵︵‿︵‿︵‿︵‿
A/N: Comments and reblogs are very appreciated.
-`♡´-
465 notes · View notes
punkpandapatrixk · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media
💓The Greatest Romance of Your Life! ♦︎ Timeless Pick A Card
You know you’re destined to be with your Soulmate; deep in your Soul you know there’s something beautiful already written in the stars for you and your Divine Lover★
What’s the story? What’s the drama? How will they pursue you? Aaaah! This One who will love you completely and sweetly and only! ♥︎
SONG: ohhh! by Chara
A WHOLE DREAMY VIBE: The Best of Piero Piccioni
[PAC Masterlist] [Part 1] [Part 2]
[Patreon] [Paid Readings]
☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・.
Pile 1 – That Handsome Gentle Soul
VIBE: Emily in Paris (just S1!)
Tumblr media
your options? – 2 of Pentacles
Oh! You’re such a tease and you have many admirers, I can tell XD By the time events in your Life are leading you to a union with your Destined One, you will have quite a bit of options, and actually, you’re weighing at least two people in this scenario. Under normal circumstances, you’d consider yourself a person of traditional values. You always think to yourself that you’re a simple and straightforward person with very ‘normal’ desires.
You want the house, the security and stability, and all those ‘normal things’ that come with a marriage. It’s all understandably expected. You’ve always thought to yourself, ‘I want what is normally expected.’ People have rules in society and it is best to keep to what’s already within the guidelines. You’ll be ruminating these values and gains a lot during this time of your Life.
No matter your actual age at this time, psychologically speaking, you’d want to choose the person who seems more stable and wealthier. It sounds like such a no-brainer; but you’re finding yourself ruminating this shit to no end. And you’d wish things could be a lot simpler; after all, aren’t you simple? Oh, as it turns out, you’re really not all that simple—especially since meeting this other fucker who’s lighted up your horizon~
decisions, decisions, decisions – 10 of Cups Rx
In the beginning, you may not immediately realise that this person we’re talking about is your Destined One. By that time in your Life, you could’ve forgotten all about this reading hahah And you’d be so preoccupied with Life’s more pragmatic duties. By this time, half of you could either be in your late 20s or early 30s, being asked endlessly why you’re not married yet; another half of you could be in your early 50s and simply wanting things to settle and get ‘normal’ in your Life.
The thing is, your Higher Self has arranged for you to meet a Soulmate, a Divine Lover who will actually show you how not normal you are if you were honest with yourself LMAO This person on the outside is actually what you are on the inside if you let yourself be. This Destined One is unorthodox, they are weird in a way that suits your tastes and they somehow align with your values! You’re crazy attracted to this about them, but at some point, you will pull away from them because you’re afraid!
You’re afraid this person will pull you away from everything that’s normal and expected of you. But are you really the type of person who regards a matrimony that highly? Seriously? If you’re honest? This person will show you that they, too, don’t particularly care about the expectations of a marriage. They will show you that they care more about the love and romance and all those sweet feelings that come with being actually in love with someone you adore. No riches in the world can substitute the happiness of holding someone you love in your arms~ With this person, you understand that <3
your True Love?! – 5 of Wands Rx
The biggest reason you will pull away from your Destined One is that you’re afraid of fucking things up with this wonderful person who seems like such a grand prize. Rather than facing the reality of losing this person’s favour out of your own fucking things up, you’d rather never be with them in the first place. And that’s such a sad thing because your Destined One would never think of such things about you!
Out of all the options you could be having at this phase of your Life, you will recognise that your one and only true love is somebody who doesn’t make you feel pressured towards making a decision. I’m getting that your Destined One is very gentle and peaceful, and they’re really understanding of the kinds of negative thoughts that often encircle your mind. If anything, your Destined One will want to erase those scary thoughts from your mind. They want to put you at ease~
They’re not weak or shy though. If anything, your Destined Person is quite shameless and they will want to win you over LMAO But they won’t be forceful or pushy. They’re respectful of your boundaries. They will only continue to come forward with Love, and Love, and just Love—they do worry about you tho ;P So, occasionally you will be able to see their ‘cute side’ when they scold you because they’ve been worried sick!
FIRST KISS🔻💛
feelings pouring sweet~ – Red Magus (Edward Kelly)
the meaning of it all? – Priestess of Beauty
Access full reading + cards on Patreon🌸
☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・.
Pile 2 – Ahhh, You Know You Like Being Swallowed Whole~ ;P
VIBE: Green Snake (1993)
Tumblr media
your options? – 5 of Swords Rx
At first glance, it feels to me you won’t be dealing with too many options during this time of your Life where you’re being led to a union with your Destined One; but it isn’t because you don’t have many eyes vying for your hand in marriage, nooo far from it; you, just already know who you’re gonna allow to make a move on you ;P You just already know who you want to be with! ★ And it seems to me you’re the one who’s gonna do the pursuing ;P
If you’re a feminine aenergy attracted to a masculine aenergy, you’re going to lead them on. Basically, from the moment you fell for your Destined One, they’re already in the palm of your hand. I reckon you’re the one who’s gonna recognise who your Destined Person is, and it’s all because you’re a highly spiritual entity. And honestly, you’ve been through quite a lot of shit and you’ve experienced quite a bit how other people’s negative resonance brought down your protective barriers in the past.
You don’t want to entertain low-vibing suitors anymore. You can’t stand the idea of your Life being turned upside down ugly by people whose hearts are UGLY AF. You’ve got no time for any of that. You want your Destined Person and you’ll do anything in your power to make this person fall in love with you <3 I sense a majority of you choosing this pile actually identify as a masculine aenergy attracted to a feminine aenergy regardless of your gender, which makes a lot of sense XD
decisions, decisions, decisions – Knight of Swords
In the past, you’ve dealt with people who are all over you because you’re attractive as fuck. Maybe they wanted your money, status, whatever. You’re a grand prize, you know. People would be so lucky to call you their own. And you got fucking pissed with being seen as a trophy boyfriend/girlfriend—as if you haven’t got your own personality or other achievements. How about your heart and dreams and Love, right? And you know that most people don’t value you for these things. They value you for the things that, to you, don’t matter at all!
By the time the Universe is arranging for you to be in a divine union with your spiritual Soulmate, you’ll have been single for quite a significant time. You’ve shielded yourself from cheap romances. Are you a sigma? LOL You’re honestly not even that interested in people to begin with. Most of the time, you like your own company and keep to yourself a lot. You’ll have been elusive for a number of years before you meet your Destined Person by chance~ This could be a work/professional setting but you’ll still feel like it’s a destined chance meeting hahah
The moment you catch a glimpse of your Destined Person, you feel something electrifying and know immediately this person is special—different from the rest and that you need to figure them out. Perhaps by your second or third meeting, something in you has made it clear to your conscious mind that this is The One. If you’re the masculine in this situation, it’s pretty obvious you’re going to charm them so that they open their heart to you ♡ If you’re a feminine in this situation, you’re going to tease them a lot until they know it’s perfectly alright for them as a masculine to charm you LMAO
your True Love?! – 7 of Cups
So it’s interesting to see a card of a plethora of choices after all that’s said and done. As mentioned before, you’re an attractive high-quality person who’s lusted over by many undeserving asses, and I’m getting mostly this vibe, that when you’re about to make it official with your Destined Person, there’s gonna come a negative force to try and ruin your chances. For many of you this could be anything, really, but for some of you this could be an ex, or basically someone you used to be quite close to, coming back into your Life in the hopes of winning you over. Or worse—even if they know they can’t win you over, they’re still gonna come over to taunt your Destined Person out of jealousy! OMG
If this ‘trying force’ doesn’t come from your end, this could also come from your Destined Person’s end. After all, your Destined Person is ALSO popular and a lot of people are gonna hate on you for being so close to them hahah So, you and your one True Love are gonna be viewed as that power couple and before you come together there will be forces that try and separate you. It's very likely there is a time you become quite distant from each other because of all these negative intents from your environment.
You’ve got people lining up to become your spouse and each one of them could become uncontrollably jealous when you proclaim a relationship with your Destined One XD Oh, you heartbreaker~ And in the case of an ex, or a very close ex-friend who used to harbour feelings and hopes for you, this person could well break your Destined Person’s heart and make them cry. They might even try and do something very evil to your Destined Person just to hurt YOU! This, is your lesson from the Universe to decide how you’re going to protect the one and only person you say you love~
FIRST KISS🔻💜
feelings pouring sweet~ – Red Astronomer (Johannes Kepler)
the meaning of it all? – Priestess of Magick
Access full reading + cards on Patreon🌸
☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・.
Pile 3 – This the One Who’ll Sacrifice Anything for You
VIBE: Titanic (1997)
Tumblr media
your options? – Page of Wands Rx
During this time when the Universe is arranging for you to be with your Destined Person, very strange and complex situations are happening in your Life. First, it’s possible you’re already steady/engaged/married to someone else, and this is why it seems you’re not dealing with a variety of romantic options. Two, it could just be that you’re totally NOT opening yourself up to the prospect of a relationship or even a marriage HAHAH
By this point in your Life, if you have friends or are in the public eye, it’ll have been quite obvious to everybody that you’re not the marrying type. For whatever reason, you’re quite sceptical—even cynical—about this whole notion of a relationship or a matrimony. Either you’re tired or afraid of being bound by a loveless contract. You’ve seen how people switch up and betray their spouses. You’ve heard plenty of cheating couples and broken trusts. Ain’t nobody got time to open up to horrendous crimes like that!
To everybody else, you’re an elusive siren who lives in your own world of make-believe, which annoyingly only makes you even more sought-after. At this point in your Life, you appear to the world as some sort of a rare catch and people will be sneakily trying to woo you, to win you over, because that would make them look cool. Many courageous (or should we say reckless?) warriors will attempt to break your icy castle and die in vain, never realising the whole time you were wishing for a King!☆
decisions, decisions, decisions – 10 of Pentacles
To say that you ‘don’t want to be married’ is actually quite a contrarian thing. Deep in your Soul, you want to have a wholesome, a complete and harmonious relationship with a Kingly character. You want something real that most people don’t even know how to give—because most people are shallow and infantile and so poor in character… These peasants… Sigh, they bore you to death. They disappoint to no end. But then, one day…
By some miraculous encounter you bump into your Destined One. Some miraculous encounter that wouldn’t have happened at all if some curiously specific events did not stack up a certain way. It is by Divine Design that you meet at all on that very day. That very moment you see this person, your heart jump and a voice in you exclaim, ‘Husband??’ or ‘Wife??’
Of course that’s super strange that a voice within you would say that at all. You might find it cringe or think you’ve lost all your marbles completely. ‘I think I’m delusional because I’ve been lonesome for a while…’ But soon after, you really wake up to the realisation that the Universe has sent you a pretty gift in the form of a Human who’s the perfect match for you. This person is THE IDEAL, the moment, the archetype, the everything you’ve ever dreamt a true love—your true love—would be~
your True Love?! – King of Wands
The complete package. This Destined Person, is literally YOU in a different form. They may not be perfect for any other person, but for you, all your fingers fit each other perfectly. Mind you, your Destined Person is very attractive in spite of all their flaws, so it’s not like there isn’t any competition here XP Your Destined Person is definitely somebody who turns heads when they enter a room. Even the parking lot is their runway!
This person commands respect, indeed they exude a very Kingly aenergy. They are charisma personified—very giving, honourable, even sacrificial. Your Destined Person is somebody who truly understands what it means to give back to the community. A true King who gains respect for the service he has given to his people. A King like this is truly loved and revered instead of feared. That’s the kind of aenergy your Destined Person operates with.
You will be very happy with this person. You know that, thus the exclamation upon seeing them! In spite of your apprehensions about marriage, when your King proposes, when they claim you as their Queen (LOL), you simply simply simply curiously intuitively know you’re gonna be taken care of~ And that’s such a nice feeling to have to finally feel safe with someone who truly cares for your wellbeing. Someone whom you know, at all times, will make big sacrifices just to put a smile on your face ♥︎
FIRST KISS🔻🧡
feelings pouring sweet~ – Silver Astrologer (John Dee)
the meaning of it all? – Priestess of Energy
Access full reading + cards on Patreon🌸
☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・. ☆♪°・.
[PAC Masterlist] [Part 1] [Part 2]
[Patreon] [Paid Readings]
865 notes · View notes
alchemicaladarna · 2 months ago
Text
[Very long post ahead XD]
You know what, I'm not done talking about tr!ros dying to tr!bad because the themes here, accidental or not, and the implications of those themes, hit so hard. its more like a stab in the heart, to be honest.
Because one of the reasons why tr!bad agreed to kill tr!ros (this is paraphrasing what he said ooc) was because he knew tr!ros thought she had no other options left but to die. He saw that she was suffering so much that she genuinely thought dying would be the better outcome for everyone else. Tr!bad did try to prevent her death, believe it or not. Tr!ros asked him to kill her the day before, so he made a deal to delay the death then told tr!aimsey after. He tried to warn whoever he could that this was happening in the hopes that tr!aimsey or maybe tr!foolish- just anyone, really- can change tr!ros' mind. That maybe, when tr!bad wakes up the next day, tr!ros will call off the deal and forget the whole thing happened. Death is inevitable, but in this instance, even tr!bad, the personification of death, tried to prevent it because even he was hoping for a different outcome. He cared about her enough to not want to kill her. But in the end, it had to be done.
Do you know why this makes me insane? Ros has been broken and has been suffering for so long, even before the Null, and if you look close enough, you can see the times where she just longed for death. And then finally, upon witnessing all the people she cared about suffer endlessly, some of them losing lives because of her, she decided that she must die because it'll be better for everybody else. It's not true, but it was so ingrained in her mind, I don't think there was any amount of convincing or help that could have prevented her from knocking on death's door.
It's like what Bad said: it was either that he kills her in front of all her loved ones, or she goes off and dies alone. Withering away, at a place nobody could find her corpse.
!Bad knows a lot about dying alone, ironically enough. He knows a lot about the kind of death that prolongs suffering. To have your body rot from the inside out; to have your flesh melt off your bones for months on end, no matter how much your loved ones try to heal you. To be alone when your body finally withers away, not because nobody wanted to help you, but because you didn't want help, and it would've been too late to save you. So you die a slow and painful death. In a lavender field. In the middle of nowhere. Calling out your loved ones' names with your final breath, a hint of regret flashing through your mind before it all fades and then you're gone.
You can see why tr!bad claims it to be a kindness, a mercy, that he took tr!ros' life in front of those she loved and cared for. Even though they couldn't prevent her death, at least they were able to spend a little more time with her, and at least they were able to grieve and give her a proper grave. It was the closest thing to comfort that death can provide.
And here's the thing about death: we always ask why it happened, why did it have to take our loved one, what did they do to deserve this, what could you have changed to prevent this? In the end, you can't really blame death itself because it's a force of nature. But it's a bit different this time. This time, death has a face. Death has a name. Death has a physical, mortal manifestation, and eventually it can be hunted down and killed. They stop asking why tr!ros decided to die, and start asking why tr!bad killed ros.
Tr!bad told tr!Zam to ask ros. While that sounds a lot like a threat, I think he also meant it in a "ask ros what her reasons were. Ask her why she came to death's door. Ask her why she suffered and maybe you could begin to understand why she died."
Even though it was tr!ros' own decision to seek death, it's only natural that everyone blames tr!bad because he pulled the trigger, no matter what tr!ros' reasons were. Before they can accept that tr!ros is gone, I think a lot of people might want to exact revenge upon tr!bad. Sadly, that's how grief works- especially since the death felt more like a homicide than a self-orchestrated murder.
It's tragic because people did try to help tr!ros. They loved and cared about her. She was the kingdom's beloved architect- a friend and a part of their family. Even those outside of the kingdom and tr!aimsey cared about her. And it's not that they didn't try to prevent her death either. Another tragic aspect about this is that tr!foolish tried to take her through the server to help her see that there was still so much to live for. There was still so much Life could offer, but she already made a deal with Death, and unfortunately, it was the inevitable outcome for tr!ros, beloved as she was.
88 notes · View notes
wystericwoes · 2 years ago
Text
“Pretty boy”
Inumaki Toge x reader
Fluff
Warnings: slight cursing
"You just don't understand Maki!"
You dramatically entered your room, putting your belongings on the floor and tossing yourself on the bed as she rested her weapon against the wall, crossing her arms and raising a suspicious brow at you.
You stared up at your dismal ceiling. Letting out a long sigh.
"He's just so pretty."
She observed you curiously as you thrashed around your bed.
"Maybe if you finally talked to him rather than hoping he'll magically become a mind reader-"
You tossed a pillow at her which she easily caught.
"I don't want him to become a mind reader, I just want him to like me and tell me!"
"But without him knowing you like him first? Yeah, because expecting him to make the first move is always the best thing to do.”
she adjusted her glasses and tossed the pillow back to you which you roughly caught and placed back.
You leaned against the wall and pulled your legs up to yourself, resting your chin on your knees.
"You don't get it, if I confess and he doesn't like me, I lose him."
"You're not going to 'lose him' from a confession. It takes more than that to scare him away sadly. We're all stuck together after all."
"Exactly!" You sat upright.
Maki rolled her eyes as you rambled.
"He'll get sick of me, having to see my face in class every day, every mission, all the time."
"You're so dramatic."
You pulled your phone, zooming in on a picture you snuck of him during training. He was looking off, his long eyelashes and smooth locks gracing his face like a goddamn angel.
"Its not fair!"
You set your phone aside so you could slam your face into your pillows and let out a muffled scream.
"Why can someone be so damn pretty? It shouldn’t be allowed!”
You huffed as you recalled his smooth skin and sharp features. Soft hair and gentle smiles.
You put your hands on your face and rolled over to your side facing the wall on your bed.
“You’re obsessed with him.. get a grip.”
Maki rolled her eyes placing a sassy hand on her hip with an annoyed expression.
“You wouldn’t get it. You’ve never had boy problems.”
Her jaw ticked.
“Id hardly call it boy problems if it’s just you sitting in bed thinking about him.”
You threw a pillow again, which she threw back again.
You caught the pillow and pulled it into yourself, hugging it tightly.
“You don’t gotta say it like that!”
You sat upright and whined.
“I just wanna hold his face and kiss it!”
You roughly imitated the motions of what you were saying and made a dramatic kissy face.
“And he kept smiling at me all day, with those big stupid pretty eyes! It’s like he knows what he’s doing.”
“Yeah you don’t sound creepy at allll.”
She said sarcastically.
“It’s not creepy! It’s honest. It’s not like it’s my fault he’s got those stupid pretty lashes and that stupid silky hair and that stupid smooth skin!!”
“If you’re just gonna talk about Inumaki then I’m leaving.”
She turned around and began making paces out the door before you yelled at her to come back.
“Okay sorry!”
“Thank you.”
She made her way through your room and sat in your chair legs crossed facing the bed. You two sat in silence as she began pulling out her books and setting them on your desk to begin your nightly ritual of studying next to eachother. But she abruptly stopped her movements when you let out a long and hearty sigh, making her let a sigh of her own.
“Do you just want me to talk to him?”
“No! Thats 100 times worse.”
“Then get it over with yourself so he can at least reject you and you can move on already.”
“It’s different with him!”
“You’re absolutely delusional. We’re not in elementary school anymore, we communicate our issues like adults.”
You hated to admit that she was right. At this rate with your feelings, you would either drive yourself mad not knowing If he felt the same or if he didn’t. But Is it really better to be rejected than to never know at all? You silently weighed your options.
Maki opened a pencil case and pulled out a ballpoint pen, clicking the end as she started to write. The rhythmic sounds of it began to lull you into a daydream as you fantasized about him again.
Closing your eyes and succumbing to your own fantasies maki took it upon herself to take action. Because as much as she valued you as a friend, if she had to what about your fanatical little crush one more time- she’d lose it.
A few minutes had passed as you remained unmoving.
“Y/n?”
She whispered.
Asleep.
She chuckled to herself as she carefully grabbed your phone Off the bed typed in your passcode, opening up recent messages.
>Toge Inumaki 🩵
>Nobara Kugisaki
>Gojo-Sensei
She cringed to herself as she clicked on Inumakis name and the heart.
Y/n: Hey Inumaki, sorry to bother you. Are you free to hang out soon?
Maki set down the phone content with her text. Not expecting the phone to ding seconds later.
Inumaki: Hang out?
Y/n: Yeah, is that okay?”
Inumaki: ofc it’s okay lol I just don’t know you wanted to hang out with me
Y/n: well ofc! I really like being with you.
She watched as the three dots popped up, anticipating his response.
Inumaki: As long as you’re sure you wanna. Just us?
Maki cringed as her fingers hit the keypad and typed the response.
Y/n: Yeah. I wanna be alone with you :) If you’re okay with that.
Maki looked up from the screen to check that you were still asleep, confident you were since you were even drooling a little- she went back to work.
Inumaki: sounds good, what about the movies tonight?
Tonight?? Maki bit her nail as she looked back from the phone to you back to the phone.
Y/n: sounds great! Text me the deets and I’ll be there.
She got up and tapped your shoulder until you stirred awake.
“Hey! Wake up.”
You pushed her hand away as your eyes slowly rose. Maki shoved your phone in your face.
“I got you a date.”
822 notes · View notes
meganwasbored · 11 days ago
Text
the long awaited valka defense post
i feel like i’ve been making a bunch of small posts and reblogs defending valka so i think it’s time to just combine it all into one big rant, so here we go.
first, we need to stop acting like hiccup and valka are the same person.
the fact that hiccup is so similar and yet so different from valka is really important. a lot of people overlook that and act like he’s exactly like her and the exact opposite of stoick when it’s much more complex than that.
people blame valka for leaving but if you think about it you see that even if she stayed she would not have been able to do what hiccup did. she didn’t create peace with the dragons, she became one of them. she didn’t even believe hiccup when he told her that berk had changed because she didn’t think people could change, which actually was valid because hiccup almost left too for the same reason. astrid was the one who showed him that it was possible for people to change (see this post). valka thought that her and hiccup were just born different and that normal people just wouldn’t understand. and she’s right about that to an extent, she and hiccup are special and there isn’t anyone else that we know of that can quite understand their bond with the dragons or would’ve ever come to that realization on their own, but she’s very extreme about it. she still thought that there were clear sides to this war, and she chose the dragons’ side. hiccup was the only one who thought that humans and dragons really could coexist. he’s the bridge. he has traits from both of his parents that make him the only one who would’ve ever been able to pull that off, because valka said it herself, he has the heart of a chief and the soul of a dragon.
second, if she had come back, there was still nothing she could’ve done.
if she had come back with cloudjumper, they only would’ve treated her like they treated hiccup after his first attempt to show them how dragons really are, which would be to take her dragon away and see her as nothing but a traitor. let me remind you that the only person they saw, before her and hiccup, try to “train” a dragon was drago, and we all know how that ended. she only would’ve been leading cloudjumper to his death. she had already been trying to stop the fighting, and even stoick never listened to her, so what makes yall think her coming back would’ve made any difference?
what would she even have said? “oh hi stoick, remember the dragon that burned our house down almost causing both us and our baby to die and then carried me away to who-knows-where? well he’s actually my best friend now and i brought him back to the village putting all of our people in danger again. anyway please stop killing the dragons when they attack and let them burn our village to the ground. i think that will fix everything.” you’ve got to be joking.
(also he was completely valid for having the view of dragons that he did and not listening to either her or hiccup when they tried to tell him differently, see my stoick defense post).
she didn’t even have a plan to stop the fighting, she didn’t know enough. hiccup didn’t have any plan either until he saw the nest, and even then he didn’t even know what to do about it yet. it wasn’t until he had no other option that he saw that killing the red death was the solution. she didn’t know that the red death was the reason the dragons were attacking, and she never shows any sign of knowing by the time he finds her in httyd 2 either. her only plan was “stop killing them,” and the other berkians were right to think she was crazy for that, because why the heck would that make things better? what were they supposed to say to that? “oh wow, we never thought of that, valka! you’re right, let’s just let them kill us all and steal all of our food. great idea!” give me a break.
third, valka was right to think that her staying would’ve just made things worse for hiccup in the end, because it’s true
let’s pretend she did come back, and just didn’t tell everyone about the dragons. let’s say she pretended she just got lucky and didn’t get eaten this time, and just lived how she would’ve if she hadn’t been taken, because that’s literally what everyone seems to be saying that she should’ve done.
now she’s raising hiccup, not to be a dragon killer, but to be himself. hiccup wanted to kill dragons because he was raised to. he wanted to fit in and gain everyone’s respect. he never actually hated the dragons like everyone else did, he was afraid of them and wanted to kill them both for his own protection and for his reputation’s sake. he could’ve easily just stayed in the forge and let everyone else do the fighting like stoick and gobber wanted him to, we see this at the very beginning of the movie, but he wasn’t okay with that. he wanted to be like everyone else. however, if valka was there to encourage him to be himself and play to his strengths, he wouldn’t have wanted to change himself so much.
could this have caused him to stay out of the fight, untimely preventing him from shooting toothless down? you can be the judge of that, but i believe the answer is yes. i believe that if she was there, he would not have been so passionate about becoming a dragon killer and seeking glory. and if he hadn’t met toothless, then he would’ve never found the nest and stopped the war. so if you think about it, her presence in hiccup’s life would’ve done much more harm than good.
and finally, yall can’t blame her for stoick’s death not having has much of a visible effect on her as everyone else because she had already been mourning their relationship for the past 20 years.
thank you and good night
48 notes · View notes