#peer reviewed autism

[totallyveryallosexual]

I see a lot of people say that people self diagnose neurodivergence because it's "quirky" or cool or something, which shows a lack of understanding of self diagnosis that I would like to correct.

1. I personally do not think I have autism because I "saw a tiktok and related to it". I think I have autism because I fulfill the diagnostic criteria that I have looked into extensively. I have sensory difficulties. I get overwhelmed by sound, and light, and the wrong fucking texture un my clothes or food. I was made fun of my entire childhood for "taking things too seriously", and I took what people said at face value, because I took things far too literally. I spent my entire childhood figuring out how to act normal, how to say the right thing at the right time so I wouldn't be made fun of or excluded. I am extremely comforted by various types of stimming, but was punished as a child for anything considered fidgety or abnormal. I love biology, and can infodump to you about genetics (special interest) for hours. This is an interest that can be considered abnormal, and it has consumed most of my available brain space for many years. Also, every single autistic person I've ever met has clocked me in about five seconds and immediately told me I have autism. The truth is, people don't self-diagnose themselves with a highly stigmatized disorder unless it is seriously impacting their lives.

2. Autism, especially in girls and bipoc, is often missed. If they can learn to mask it, it doesn't get diagnosed. I got straight A's all throughout high school, and I had teachers tell me that they thought I had autism, but that it was probably fine because it didn't impact my academics or my life. Spoiler alert: it did! People think that when a seemingly functional person claims to have autism, they are hopping on a trend, but most of the time, they are suffering. I was depressed and sometimes suicidal before I figured out I had autism. I got called a psychopath for things that should have been recognized as symptoms of autism, and a lot of the time I believed it because I didn't have any other words for myself. Our society is shitty and if you aren't a little cis white boy, it's much harder to get diagnosed.

3. Diagnosis is expensive, and hard to access! A lot of people don't realize that it's a privilege! It costs a lot of money to get diagnosed, money that not everyone can afford. It's also hard to get a diagnosis because of social stigma, especially if you figure out you have some form of neurodivergence under the age of 18. I'm a month shy of being a legal adult, and I know that while I'm working towards it, it will be a while before I can get properly tested and diagnosed. My mother, who would scream if she ever saw me wearing noise cancelling headphones in public, is not going to help me get a diagnosis. My mother, who has thrown what can practically be considered temper tantrums over me stimming (literally just tapping my fingers against each other) is not going to help me get a diagnosis. The children of parents who aren't ready to give up their image of a perfect child and think autism can be wished away don't have the same access to diagnosis as the children of parents who are willing to work with them and contribute financially, and neither does any adult who has gotten through life alright but struggles financially because They Have A Disability!!!

In conclusion, don't shame people who diagnosed themselves. I absolutely think the end goal should always be to work toward a professional diagnosis, but that isn't always feasible for people, and we can't sit around slowly drowning in the meantime. If you are worried about self diagnosed people taking away resources: guess what, there are no resources!

Self-diagnosis shouldn't be quick. It comes after a long time spent diving through symptoms and diagnostic criteria. But it gives people without access to diagnosis the ability to nonetheless understand themselves better. For me, it means being able to say "I'm overstimulated, I'm going to find a quiet place" instead of sitting and suffering. It means being able to say "I'm going to sit on the floor instead of my desk, because that grounds me and stops me from spiralling". It means stimming when I'm overwhelmed, and stopping when I need to, all without shaming myself or thinking of myself as lesser for not being able to do things I was told I should be able to.

[cancerstanople]

maybe the reason I get so upset when someone walks into the kitchen if I'm in the kitchen is because I grew up judged for being picky and and eating weird so now when I'm making myself food I expect to be ridiculed for the way I cook and eat

[lost-and-created]

"You made that yourself and you didn't/can't read any patterns? That's amazing!"

The craft in question:

It's a crocheted chicken hat.

[bookwyrminspiration]

can normal josh be aroace as well as autistic. a triple a battery if you will. as a treat for a fellow triple a battery?

Normal Josh can be anything and everything we want him to be! Simultaneously! Even when contradictory!

Aroace autistic Normal Josh, the triple a battery--I wonder how this affects his perception of the love triangle drama going on. Unspoken feelings everyone's picking up on based on subtle body language and non-verbal cues? About feelings of attraction? He doesn't know what they're talking about he's just happy to be there and happy to spend time with his friends <3

That is only a surface level interaction with his triple a status, so there's infinitely more to interpret and explore in so many other ways, but I very much like this proposal, treasure!

[asstrongasyouthink]

i know im reaching peak neurotypicality bc i sent my partner into the grocery store for those small oranges. the ones in the bag. and they did indeed emerge with small oranges but theyre too WET and they take me 4 times as long to eat

[callthefruitsquad]

Was just informed that listening to the same song on loop for hours (or days) on end is not normal behavior. Huh. Who knew.

[dejablonde]

Y'know those memes about your undiagnosed parent? Every so often I get insights.

[aithusiel]

A yes, the three kinds of Autism:

(RE: was found on video referencing Autism)

[totallyveryallosexual]

The doublethink of people who are more than willing to call me slurs but not to accept that maybe I am what they say I am. They feel free to use the r-word on me but if I tell them I think I actually am autistic they'll fall over themselves backwards trying to justify why I'm not.

[cancerstanople]

maybe the reason I get so upset when someone walks into the kitchen if I'm in the kitchen is because I grew up judged for being picky and and eating weird so now when I'm making myself food I expect to be ridiculed for the way I cook and eat

[berryblu-soda]

[lost-and-created]

When you realize you've been forcing yourself not to stim, your whole life, cuz you were taught to sit still when you get excited and to "stop acting like that." So, now, whenever something happens that makes you feel excited or really happy, you just clench up and feel your whole body instinctively tense up, to keep you from moving. Now, you're a 23-year-old with no diagnosis and peer reviewed autism, because all of the other people with the tism in your life see what your parents couldn't.

[devildom-moss]

Modes

[the demon brothers and Solomon are chilling in the living room at the HoL]

Satan: I have two modes: calm bookworm and rage.

Asmo: Aw, Satan. You’re so much more than an angry nerd.

Satan: Yeah, yeah, I know. I meant mode as in most occurring - as in my most occurring settings are equal amounts rage and “nerd.”

Mammon: I bet 1000 Grimm I can guess which one you’re in now.

Beel: No.

Asmo, ignoring them: Ohh, I see~ So, like Levi’s two modes are probably otaku and autistic?

Levi: What?!

Satan: No, there’s probably a good deal of overlap between the two, and neither of those are things that he can ever stop being - well, maybe the otaku part.

Asmo: Can’t turn off autism, though.

Levi: Wait! Am I-?

Mammon: Ha, bro’s got peer-reviewed autism.

Solomon: Peer’s got bro-reviewed autism.

Asmo: Well, what about this: Lucifer has two modes: caring older brother and scary sadist?

Satan: That would require those two to occur at the same rate.

Lucifer: You're aware that I’m in the room, right?

[enter MC]

MC: Hey, what’d I miss?

Levi: MC, am I autistic?

MC: . . . actually, I . . . did not mean to enter this room. *immediately turns and walks away*

Mammon, yelling after them: But everyone's in this room, already!

MC, yelling back: I know. I’m going to Purgatory Hall!

Solomon: Well, I should probably head back. MC~ wait for me~!

Levi: . . . but-? Am I?

Lucifer: I’ll make an appointment with a doctor for you later - after Belphie wakes up from his nap.

Beel: I can move him off your lap and carry him to bed if he’s in your way.

Lucifer: I . . . didn’t say he was in the way.

Asmo: Awww, see, caring older brother mode.

Satan: That's an outlier, but sure.

Lucifer: I’m scheduling an appointment for you, too, Satan.

[mobblespsycho100]

kabru as a pwnpd headcanon is genuinely so iconic that man rlly is odysseus' hubristic tendencies made manifest tbh . . .

[gloomyhours]

did anyone else’s childhood include most of the adults in your life telling you that you were lying whenever you tried to explain behavior they didn’t like for whatever reason and then you kept desperately trying to explain yourself because surely if you just keep telling the truth they’ll have to listen but they didn’t and you just got in trouble anyway. was this universal or did the adults in my life just suck

[lumiereandcogsworth]

shayne “i’ve never been flirted with before” topp my brother in christ i need you to look very closely at the shirt damien is wearing across from you