#pete is so endearing here lol

[judasisgayriot]

2004

[adriabun]

angel this is your free pass ask to go ham about whatever’s on your mind w petyle. i am laying down, kicking my feet, and listening 👀

ive been sitting on this in my inbox for so long just trying to collect my thoughts and so many ppl have asked me that...now it is time.....ok

i think the thing i want to talk most about is the beginning of their relationship and what their relationship actually is ...like what about it is making me lose my marbles...i want to get all of this information out because as the ceo of petyle i need everyone to understand how they are characterised and how to correctly view their relationship. anything outside what i think is simply lies and flanderization..../hj.........

i typically default to college-age setting so thats what ill be centering on but my ideas of their dynamic can be malleable to other ages (canon, high school, post covid at a stretch etc)

pete has always been interested in kyle from a distance- theyve never really spoken, but after stan becomes a normie again after his goth stint michael points stan out at school like 'look at that conformist lol' and petes like 'yeah what a loser. also who the fuck is the guy in green.'

we've seen from basic cable where he has a crush on sophie that he isnt necessarily afraid of putting himself out there when hes interested in someone but hes kind of awkward about it. so he approaches kyle a couple of times to see what his deal is. this makes all the other goth kids INSANE like not in a negative way they r either in disbelief (michael, firkle) or think its hilarious (henrietta) that pete has a crush on kyle, he massively denies its a romantic thing tho bc hes not a gaywad...he just wants to know whats up with this guy and why hes so interesting

ngl kyle is probably suspicious or at least confused as why pete has started talking to him once hes over the initial weirdness he realises pete is kind of chill but the award palatable small talk hes trying to have with kyle is really annoying kyle def snaps at some point and asks him what the fuck pete is trying to gain out of this because its obvious hes not being himself.

pete is stubborn enough to not back down atp, hes not gonna let a conformist own him like that. so he starts being himself so much, to a degree where hes almost saying 'you wanted this, fine here you fucking go' in order to make kyle upset. but it doesnt work oh no!! kyle finds his goth eccentricities and pessimism so stupid thats its endearing!!!

nothing between them is inherently romantic or even entirely..friendly. more than anything they enjoy annoying each other in a constant loop of quips and rolled eyes. but theres just like.. something fiery underneath they wont address until they get wasted at a house party and let the alcohol do the talking

i have a habit of favouring either onesided petyle (on petes side ofc) or one that ends with a bad breakup because #stylesweep so a lot of my thoughts are biased towards that sort of ending. i just like relationship/situationship angst ok ...ive been there many times. a part of this angst is the idea that theyre each just 'the best they can get' in the moment. Pete's too internally self loathing to think kyle is actually in love with him or anything. theyre just having fun. its not serious. he refuses to think into any of it emotionally, though its kind of eating him up inside. meanwhile kyle is literally just taking it as it is. he feels a little guilty. he doesnt like pete like that (???) but he cant deny flirting and fooling around with him is fun. and also a distraction from stan getting back with wendy.

anyway thats what i have for now. let me know if anyone wants any more i guess. or any specifics about their actual relationship that i have bouncing around. idk!

[jenyifer]

Pit Babe ep 13 initial reaction

Okay let’s do the final photo review. Okay ep 11 10 12 weren’t for me but I think 13 was good. My initial rating has to be an 8/10. A very surprising 8/10.

I was EXTREMELY upset that the racing bl that I had been looking forward to was ABO I like race car driving in general so I really was said abo was gonna happen. However this show didn’t take ABO in the creepy ways I hate mainly the sexism and homosexuality of it all. Honestly it’s straight girl’s fantasy most of the time. As a lesbian I am turned off by the sexism and breeding 🤮. But Pitbabe was interesting and bearable idk if there are subsequent seasons will lean into those tropes but I hope not. I love the actor for Babe he’s extremely talented ep13 only cemented this for me. I really enjoyed JeffAlan, PeteKenta, and NorthSonic I thought they had a good amount of side character relationships. JeffAlan felt very natural and sweet. I loved the characters of Kim and Kenta just interesting. What I didn’t like was how clownery the plot was. It was a little cheesy hokey. I think the writing didn’t do any favors for Charlie either. Charlie is very V A N I L L A I don’t think it’s the actors fault. I’ve decided it’s writing. Although I think the motivation of Tony was cartoon villain the actor really brought the evil to life I enjoyed his portrayal of a cult leader really. Anyways let’s get on to the photo review

Babe in this scene is just chef kiss if people question can bl peeps act show them this. He’s hysterical to see Charlie again. I was worried Babe would just accept Charlie back or be Angry but this is better. You can see he’s hurt but so happy Charlie is alive and with him that Babe is healed in a way. Charlie was being weird but I think it’s the writing. So beautiful in his emotions omg.

Wow… the three of them beating up winner and NorthSonic uploading the video. So cool. Really these scenes had me sitting on the edge of my seat rooting for them. ALSO WE ALL KNOW I LOVE KIM. I’m on board with Kim being a third for NorthSonic. Kim is also very fashionable. He fits in perfectly.

A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now

You’re here and that’s all I need to know

I’m glad someone died. I do find it poetic and fitting that Way died saving Babe very full circle. I didn’t hate Way as much as everyone else. He was wrong for what he did but… I feel like he had the bones and the actor to make a compelling rejected love interest. I do think babe always cared about way in a true friendship which was beautiful.

Pete and Kenta bad ass bitches getting shit done. I think Kenta might legit be Tony’s child. Like biologically. That would be a good twist. I was said we didn’t get any PeteKenta reunion in the end.

Alan and Jeff are so…

Idk they have very high chemistry. Jeff really feels like a person who hasn’t been exposed to the real world really and he’s truly trying to comfort Alan. To be fair Alan has been through a shit ton but he does feel that pain and seeks comfort in Jeff. It’s very sweet even though we get the sexy scenes for them.

Quick note is way buried at the race track or something?! Why is his grave on his own?! Way’s ghost is going to be lonely…. It’s pretty but still.

The my kid is sick and so I need to sell him trope is sadly something I’ve seen before BUT!!!! I enjoyed the Dad’s acting he seemed really torn about it and he never ever gave up.

North Sonic’s contrast pants and hyping up Kim was perfect. Kim being happy to watch Babe and Charlie is very endearing. I hope Kim and Babe can be besties who push each other. I know Kim isn’t a special alpha but I like the dynamic of him being the best human? Idk. He’s 10/10 I love him.

Idk why Babe is so shy about Charlie lol it was very cute.

ALAN AND JEFF’s BRACELETS AND SNUGGLING ONTOP OF THE CAR OMG UNDERSTATED MARRIED COUPLE THINGS

How beautiful. I really loved this show and I enjoyed the ending. I wish Pete and Kenta had been there but I found this very beautiful and meaninful. Babe and Charlie crashing Alan’s intricate date so they can be found family couples together gahhh I really loved the family aspect to the series it wasn’t super loud or overdone but you knew Babe Alan North Sonic were truly family who added in Charlie Kim Jeff.

Anyways I had fun idk what I’m watching next. I need to catch up on 23,5 or I’ll lose my lesbian card hahahaha but I am quite busy. If anyone has a suggestion for what I should start on next plzzz tell me. Other people motivate me more than myself hahaha.

[recentadultburnout]

KinnPorsche's character's name's meaning

พอร์ช - พชร กิตติสวัสดิ์ Porsche - Phachara Kittisawat

Phachara - diamond

Kitti - rumour, fame, renown, report, praise, laudation, exaltation

Sawat - happiness, goodness, prosperity

คินน์ - อนาคินน์ ธีรปัญญากูร Kinn - Anakin Teerapanyakun

Anakin - I can't find any meaning. Perhaps the author is a Star Wars fan? But nakin's homophone (นาคินทร์) meaning is king of serpents. "A" in front of words is usually equivalent to English's not/non, but I don't think that is the case here.

Teera - sage, witty, intelligent, prosperous, stable, strong.

panya - intellect, wisdom, culture, wit

kun - It might be offspring, lineage, but I'm not sure.

คิม - คิมหันต์ ธีรปัญญากูร Kim - Kimhan Teerapanyakun

Kimhan - summer

ปอเช่ - พิชญะ กิตติสวัสดิ์ Porche - Pitchaya Kittisawat

Pitchaya - sage

เวกัส - กรวิศว์ ธีรปัญญากูร Vegas - Kornwit Teerapanyakun

Kornwit - Bible says it means beloved, dear, endearing. But Korn means hand, arm, maker, the creator, the initiator, the cause. and Witsawa (วิศว), which I assume is what Wit came from, means all, entire, whole, all around. So Kornwit might mean something along the lines of the creator of everything.

พีท - พงศกร แสงธรรม Pete - Pongsakorn Saengtham

Pongsakorn - Founder of the family, ancestors.

Saeng - light, shine

Tham - doctrine, teaching of Buddha, dharma, good, righteousness, virtue, morality, truth, right principles , scruples

คุณ - แทนคุณ ธีรปัญญากูร Khun - Tan Khun Teerapanyakun

Tan Khun - show gratitude to

อาร์ม - อาชวิน Arm - Ashwin

Ashwin - honest person

พล Pol

Pol - force, general

น้ำผึ้ง กิตติสวัสดิ์ Nampeung Kittisawat

Nampeung - honey

Tawan

Sun

Other things

What is that thing Pete wai in Vegas's house?

I'm not sure either, but Build said he wai The Sanxing. That scene is an improv on his part.

Merit and the next life.

In Thai belief, sometimes we have a chance to meet loved ones because we have accumulated merits together with them since the life before this one. It is known as tam bun rûuam châat dtàk bàat rûuam kăn (ทำบุญร่วมชาติ ตักบาตรร่วมขัน). tam bun rûuam châat means make merit together in this life and dtàk bàat rûuam kăn means put food offerings into a Buddhist monk's bowl together, referring to how you make merit together in the past life. Now that both KinnPorsche and VegasPete got a chance to make merit together, they will have a chance to meet again in the next life. Well, it's a sweet concept, but when Vegas says it, it sounds so threatening lol

Their names origin

Disclaimer: I have read novels but that was years ago. I don't remember much. This is secondary data. So about Porsche and Porchay, their parents named him Porsche because they do business importing cars, namely Porsche cars. And when they have a second child, they want to tell their children that they love both of them equally and will give everything to them equally, including their names. It's quite common for Thai parents to name their children in a set anyway. Next, Khun, Kinn, and Kim. Nampeung is the one who get to name Khun, and she names him that in the hope that he will grow up and be a grateful son who will return the favour to his parents in the future. She may be sarcastic if she actually despises Khun Korn. Kinn and Kim got their nicknames based on Thankhun's nickname being Khun, and then got their first names from that, plus Kim was born in summer.

Pete's habit

You may have noticed Pete's habit of running his hands over his head and hair after wai something. It means he hopes to receive blessings from things he wai. Many people do things like that after listening to a sermon too, or even when the elder talks on a special occasion or anything that can be seen as auspicious, while others just don't. It's mostly a matter of habit.

Someone asked me in another work, so I thought I'd include it here as well.

*If you think this is similar to something you see in AO3, it's because it used to be on AO3.

Index

[misscloudiedays]

Well if you can i would ask for both, but if you can't i would ask for Treasure island ones for sure!! (I just reallyyy like the island toons)

I’ll try! Some toons I haven’t really thought to much of? Or some toons who don’t really think or do much

So yeah this for my interpretation so some characters are different from canon lol

[FNATI]

Photo negative Mickey -

Photo is one of Mothers favorite, mostly due to how well behaved he is.. he’s a “blank slate” compared to toons like Oswald and the Face, her view on him is.. tainted by the whole “hourglass” incident

Oswald -

Mother pity’s Oswald, his calls for “God” are saddening, she doesn’t try and baby him since he values his independence. But she’s WILL take action when Oswald is pushing himself too hard

Disembodied (Donald) -

Mother reasonably can find his Presence annoying, but when he’s not screaming his head off, he’s just a polite lil guy who um- sometimes claws around on the walls

The Face (Mickey) -

Mother tries to be nice to him, but the mouse makes it very hard. he has said hateful things to mother, mother brushes them off.

Impurity (Minnie) -

Mother likes impurity! She’s a sweet girl- has a odd obsession with teeth but it’s no real concern to mother. Mother comforts impurity when she’s questions her beauty

acephalous (Goofy) -

Ace is.. a simple guy, follows other toons around and doesn’t cause much of a fuss. It’s hard to read him due to the lack of a head, but he’s well behaved

Pluto -

he’s a dog, he’s a bit slow but it’s still Pluto, Mother appreciates his company, other toons seem to aswell

Willy -

Mother also finds Willy endearing, he’s very child like and doesn’t let his “past life” hold him down, he’s happy it happened. And happy where he is now

Mortimer -

Mortimer is a sorrowful mouse, a fuzzy mind filled with horrid thoughts. Mother does her best to aid mortimer but he tends to retreat to a place mother cannot reach.

The Forgotton one -

He’s irresponsible and reckless, he has uncontained power and uses it for party tricks! Hides his heart with a big smile. He’s letting himself be Forgotten.

[ Oblitus Casa ]

(Any character who have already been spoken about won’t be recapped)

In this canon Willy and “Willie” are the same

Belial -

Belial is a odd toon, she is unseen unless given a physical form through a drawing on a note book, mother will carry around Belial and keep track of her note book, Belial cannot speak words but her happy chirps are enough Reassessment to mother that she is Happy.

Daisy -

Daisy is around the same lines of Disembodied, she’s better at being quiet, and is much faster then Disembodied.

Photo negative Minnie -

PN Minnie is also a bit of a blank slate, she remembers some things and cares for PN Mickey. she has horrible anxiety around her self image despite her beauty, her face and her heart are beautiful.

Pete -

Pete tends to Antagonize other toons epically Willy (who now, tends to combat Pete’s words in his own goofy way.) Pete is a old soul due to his source. Mother can have decent conversation with him but he’s has some odd views.

Dippy -

Dippy is also a older soul, his constant wheezing while speaking is proof enough, but he’s much kinder compared to Pete

MickMick (who is a separate being from mother) -

MickMick is to be kept on the island, she deserves better then what the SSA had planned, she is mine

The Corruptus -

The Corruptus is new, and unpredictable, mother tries to her best to guide him in the right direction. His mind is not truly his own… yet

Purple ( Forgottens brother in the au) -

Purple seemingly came out of no where, but his purpose is very clear, she will care for this child

Dezz & Nutz (yes, there here too) -

How did they get here, I don’t know, they keep using slang terms

( if there’s anyone I didn’t mention that your curious about just ask 👍)

[laceratedlamiaceae]

Izzy for the ask meme.

(ask game)

asdgfklsdkf of course everyone sends me Izzy. I think I have enough to say about him to do it again though lol

favorite thing about them: his charming personality :) this is not a joke I really do find him endearing least favorite thing about them: his ass </3 we need to start a gofundme to get him some implants favorite line: "You will rue it long and you will rue it hard." Why are you, as a man, talking about something long and hard? Is there something else long and hard you want to talk about? hmm brOTP: I want him and Roach to bond over being disrespected by Stede. Izzy should try to kill him all over again when he hears about "it hardly tasted of orange" OTP: A convoluted polycule with Izzy at the center in relationships with Roach, Black Pete, Spanish Jackie, and Jack; friends with benefits with Jim, Lucius, Frenchie, and Buttons; and hatefucking Stede. (I actually made a chart of this once but I deleted in shame after I noticed I somehow forgot Roach lol). nOTP: uhh Nigel Badminton I guess, since I can't think of anyone else. (I could get into Izzy/Chauncey though tbh) random headcanon: I love projecting touch-averse Izzy. He's okay with Ed touching him as long as it's properly telegraphed but anyone else and he'll flinch so hard he elbows them in the gut by accident (and then again on purpose because fuck you, you're not allowed to touch me) unpopular opinion: I despise the genre of steddyhands fanart (and fics) where Ed and Stede are smiling while Izzy looks like he's being held at gunpoint. Not that I expect him to be smiling all the time but at a certain point it really starts to seem like he's being forced into it (which is something I'm just really sensitive to, as I've posted about before). song i associate with them: Cellophane by FKA Twigs. Both for the lyrics:

Didn't I do it for you? Why don't I do it for you? Why won't you do it for me? When all I do is for you

And I just want to feel you're there And I don't want to have to share our love I try but I get overwhelmed When you're gone I have no one to tell

and also because I like to imagine Izzy in the music video, looking like this:

favorite picture of them: He looks so heartbroken here I can't even stand it. It's not fair that he's fictional and I can't go over and give him a hug

[fanfic-inator795]

Looking back at TGaMM s2, while it’s pre-ending could’ve been stronger and the arc with the Chens could have used a bit more fleshing out, it’s FINAL episode was just about perfect and the stuff I loved from s1 was just as great as ever and as such, if this is the last we see of TGaMM, I’m pretty satisfied.

Anyway, outside of the s2 (series?) finale which I’d call a 10/10 episode and ending, here’s my top 10 in no particular order:

- A Doll to Die For: I’m a sucker for Lord Hater- I mean, Lord Doom. Really funny with good horror-comedy elements and a really sweet ending, has those s1 vibes of helping a character find their happiness and it’s just an easy one to rewatch for me.

- The (After)Life of the Party: Of course I’m gonna love the ep that gave us Jeoff - plus it’s just fun in its own right, and that song’s a bop.

- Faint of Art: VERY relatable as as a fellow creative, another great song, really good jokes and an incredibly sweet ending

- Dance Dad Revolution: Pretty sure I’m the only one who really likes this one, haha. I just found it really amusing, and even when he’s at his ‘worst’, Pete is still just super charming to me. The song in this one is one of my faves (was stuck in my head for the longest time), and I love that it was the Jeoffs and their genuine love for dancing that inadvertently ruined Scratch’s scheme in the end, lol.

- All Shark No Bite: just a fun time, ngl. I love GhostShark and I’m so happy he stuck around

- Davenport’s in Demise: really interesting spotlight for Andrea. Another great song, great lesson, fun jokes- and come on, of course I was gonna put the ep with the “soft rock personality” joke on here, haha

- Kenny’s Falling Star: Idk, I just really like the story in this one. Kenny’s actually a lot more endearing than I thought he would be, and both his songs are great.

- Frightmares on MainStreet: excluding the s2 finale, this was probably the best out of all the Half-Hour eps this season, as it never feels like it’s dragging nor does it ever feel rushed. It’s fun, sweet, exciting - really the only knock against it comes from how it’s ending now feels a bit hollow, given how rushed the rest of the Chens arc ended up being. (Also I’m still a bit annoyed that the Frightmares in the thermos never came back, either as a serious threat or as a solution to defeating another threat. Like- why bother having them in the Chens’ possession in the first place then?)

- Alakasham: a nice and entertaining episode that really highlights just how much Darryl has grown over the season, plus all the stuff with the magic was a ton of fun.

- FONAA: another ep that felt like a classic s1 romp with great jokes, great moments between Molly and Scratch, and a really sweet ending.

Outside of my faves of the season, I’d say pretty much all the other eps were also really good, only ever being just kinda meh at worst.

I’d say the only ones that stood out in a negative way were:

- (I know I’m gonna be in the unpopular minority on this one) Like Father, Like Libby: it just sorta felt like a One-Scene Wonder sort of ep given that you’re just spending the whole time waiting for the other shoe to drop, thus causing the rest of the ep to feel sorta boring and filler-y since it’s not super funny or interesting in the lead up to the Big Scene. I feel like it could've played better if we got more of Libby and Leah bonding instead of just Libby being only focused on her dad and Leah being worried.

Honestly, out of all the “Special Episodes” this season, it’s the one that feels the most like it instead of simply being an enjoyable ep that happens to have a Special Lesson (like Period Piece or 100% Molly McGee)

AND

- The Grand Gesture: not bad by any means, just overstuffed. It sucks that by the time we finally got a Darryl and June ep, it also had to be shared with a b-plot that felt like it took the majority of the ep. It also just wasn’t super funny outside of like two jokes and felt rushed by the end of it.

All in all, for as much as I loved this season for its episodic installments, it’s new characters (namely Jeff, Lord Doom and Ollie) and its songs, the fact that 2/3rds of the serialized stuff didn’t quite lead up to its potential in the end and fell a bit flat - plus a couple of sorta meh episodes - makes me want to say that I do think s1 is better by juuuuuust a little bit.

But hey, s2 is still incredibly solid and enjoyable - and again, DAMN, that was a super satisfying and really great ending both to Scratch’s personal arc and the show itself - which makes TGaMM a really good show overall in spite of some minor flaws and disappointments. Easily the best modern day Disney show imo right up there with Big City Greens.

[blooming-violets]

hi so I wanna say I love Andrews portrayal of spiderman and Peter parker were both great charming and endearing to me but ot doesn't take away the fact for me that the movies were almost starlight up terrible especially the second one we had glimpses of what the movie could be in some scenes that were so great but other than the wonderful performances bu stone garfield and sally and the actor who played uncle Ben and a few scenes here and there the movies were bad really bad I loved that andrew and his Pete got a redemption arc for nwh I love that it's what sold the movie for me he's a great actor who was robbed of a decent script and too much studio interferences really mangled the end product

But i do feel like people are unnecessarily harsh on the mcu version of spiderman while it makes me now uncomfortable thinking About Tony stark is musk's wet dream but the movies were really great for the audiences they are marketed towards young kids the class struggles are very much present just in a more subtle way and nwh has fixed most of the "problems" that mcu spiderman had they are also in general the best spider man movies out there if you remove the rami trilogy this is just my take but Maybe it's just the fact that I'm much younger and enjoy these movies more idk

I don't want to offend anyone or make their day worse sorry if I did that I do love your work just an interesting topic of debate in my opinion lots of love ❤️

I never said they were great movies just that Andrew was a great Peter Parker haha. Although I still think they're really fun movies as long as you take them as something campy instead of as a work of art. Ignore the major plot holes and shit script and just enjoy the ride of watching a 2012 superhero movie.

Personally, I like to pick out the parts that I loved about it and focus on those rather than the poorly done bits. They literally have some of my favorite Spidey scenes in them. The part when all the construction workers move their cranes together because they see Spider-Man struggling after being shot and he saved Ponyboy's son earlier in the movie and now Ponyboy gets a chance to repay him back so he gets all his buddies together to help and Peter swings from crane to crane to get to where he needs to...a literal perfect Spider-Man moment! It's up there with the scene in Toby's when all the people in the subway lift an unconscious Peter up and carry him back inside, maskless, and tell him that his secret identity is safe with them and then hand him back his mask. It's the scenes when NYC backs Spider-Man as their hero that always get to me. I don't remember if Tom's Peter has anything like that because I've only seen his movies once (and one was on a plane lol) and my memory is poop so I can't speak on that. But I like whenever they add in NYC backing up Peter in his films. It was very Spider-Man esque. He's a man of the people, esp the working class, and the people usually like to repay him for that whenever he can help. Andrew's version did a good job of representing that.

Gwen's death was also good. Andrew acted the hell out of it. I mean...

Besides being visually dark as hell, his perfect hugging of her dead body cradled in his arms! They don't shy away from it and they linger on the quietness and raw emotions of that scene for a minute. It was emotional and powerful and done well.

Then the humor in the movies was wonderful! Andrew nailed the one liners and body movement. To me, he was such a cheeky Spider-Man especially going from Toby who didn't quite have that cocky Spidey charm like Andrew did. If you don't look at the movies as a groundbreaking work of art, I don't think they're as bad as people claim them to be haha. They're not great but they're also not the worst movies I've ever seen. It keeps you entertained and excited and can pack a punch when it wants to.

I do think you nailed it though when you said that it depends on your age. I was in the perfect age group when The Amazing Spider-Man came out. I had grown up watching Toby's movies but I was too young to really see them as anything more in depth than just Spider-Man swinging around. TASM released when I was 19. It was the most perfect age to see it in theaters and fall head over heals in love with Mr. Garfield as he blushes and hides his face in flowers after showing up at Gwen's bedroom window. Or when he shows up in middle of the night covered in blood and gets half naked while she tends to his wounds. CHOCOLATE HOUSE. The raw, horny, sexiness of their chemistry together!! He is by and far the horniest of all the Spidey babies. All of their kissing scenes!! How could I not fall in love that man?? He was on the big screen and I was horny for a boyfriend and he gave me everything I needed for my teenage fantasies. And then you add on the chokehold that Andrew and Emma had over the young world when they dated. 2012 was a crazy time. People genuinely thought the world was ending and Peter Parker was back on the big screen hahaha. What more could ya ask for? ;)

It was like it was made for my generation of nerdy ladies to thirst over. By the time Tom's movies came out, I was already way to old to be invested in a high school kid. I thought he was a good actor and has great chemistry with MJ and Ned but I just don't have that same pure, all in love that I did with Andrew.

I honestly don't even remember Tom's other Spidey movies, I remember a couple of scenes here and there, but NWH was perfect. I don't think I've ever been so equally breathless and excited while watching a movie in my life.

[that-chaoticace]

Romantic Comedy reader here! Yes I did finish it and thought it was super cute although I totally did not expect it to take a Covid turn lmao. I’m not sure how well the email segment of the novel would translate on screen and tbh I preferred the TNO setting to them in California. But a cute and fluffy read for sure! I’d give it an enthusiastic 3 out of 5 stars.

I would LOVE to see PDD in more projects (their movie was so funny!! they’ve got such an endearing quality as performers) and I really want to see Madelyn Cline in more projects, I think she’s super talented, also very endearing, and Glass Onion showed more of her range so I’ve been itching to see her in another good movie. So yeah, dream casting for sure.

Ok, and I think this kind of feeds in to me not liking how obvious it was that Danny’s character is Pete Davidson (whereas Sally had elements of like, Liz Lemon but ultimately she’s her own character) , but it also bugged me that he essentially ended up with Cazzie David when in reality is cheated on/broke up with Cazzie for Ariana. Honestly they should just give you or me the spec and we can revise accordingly 😂 I’d still want to see Danny and Annabel end up together, like George and Tess in 27 Dresses. I’ve thought so much about this haha

THE COVID TURN … I’ve read some books where authors preface it’s a modern world but an alternative universe because no COVID… it’s crazy to think authors have to say “warning: no COVID exists in this book” rather than the other way around¿ idk if that makes sense ANYWAYS

Enthusiastic 3 out of 5 is a mood. I am reading more books now that I’m done with grad school and Romantic Comedy was one of the firsts to get me back into reading, so I have if a 4 out of 5 on my Likewise app. I’ve got a long TBR list to get through and am hoping to experience some 5/5 would slay my boredom demons type of books lol (always open to recs and you seem to be on it!!)

Agree the email part would probs have to go along the lines of You’ve Got Mail, but it wouldn’t be as good as You’ve Got Mail bc the whole point of the movie was to have interspersed email convos… yeah, the more I think about it the email part probs couldn’t translate well to the big screen.

MORE PDD PROJECTS IN 2024 AND BEYOND; I think this is the most important thing I have to say lol. I couldn’t stay in it to win it with OBX for plot reasons, but acting-wise, she’s great and would love to see her do more 100%.

GIVE US THE SPECS 🫶👏

The Danny character also tickles my brain bc it’s like a combination of Pete and Colin Jost and idk how to feel either… but ig he didn’t end up with Annabel if we think about how Pete didn’t end up with Ariana?? From a writer’s POV, I think those side characters weren’t explored enough, especially for characters that had an immediate impact on the main character aka LETS REVISE

Thanks for coming to this ask inbox, this is fun 🥰

[psychemeanscure]

PART 2.1 {This was suppose to be one chapter, but because I’m too drowned with too much details, I end up making 2.2 instead. Lol! Tune in to the continuation though. Happy reading y’all :)}

The wild bang of the pistol wakes her reverie from a nightmare. Lifelessly staring from the dark light of her ceiling, huffing with agony. She went off of her bed straight to her window glass devouring the city lights with crossed arms, recollecting the face of the devil who hunts her peaceful nights throughout the years. The eyes who killed his dearest father with no mercy. Those multiple gunshots, the couple of stabs which led to a soak from his own blood still fresh on her mind. He can never be forgiven. The elite gambler Veeros Alcaziar can never be forgiven. Not in her watch!

The sound from the doorbell made end of her recollections though, as she walks her way to the intercom only to see the man that irritates her. “What?” and just like he did from her bar, barging is his way indeed, after opening the door for him. Walk straight to her single couch, confidently seated spreading his arms on its armrest with legs crossed while she in the other hand only lazily follows him, occupying the vacant couch instead. 

“My drink, please.” His firm request as if a VIP guest needed to be served. “You’re not worthy to be entertained Jang, so can you just cut the chase, tell me your agenda and leave my premise?” her uninterested remarks ignoring his lousy tactics. “Tss. Impatient volatile.” Tapping one of his index finger on the armrest. Well, what was she expecting to this pinchazo in front of her though. Once a vulgar, always a vulgar. “One more nonsense Jang, and am I to drag you out of my apartment now.”

“You. Don’t you know that you’re the least person I let myself to be insulted with? You owe me one, woman.” He even pointed his finger for affirmation but hell she cares as she swiftly throws a pillow right in front of his face before she met his stern glare. “Now, you owe me two.” And she pissed off, about to throw another until finally. “Okay, fine! Fine.” Enjoying a sneering laugh on her. Not too long after composing his self for seriousness, meeting her awaiting sight.

“It’s time.”

And she only knew what he means, recalling their last conversions from her bar.

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“Do you really have to use my Nightclub when in fact you have your own casino hotel still healthily build? Por el bien de Pete! What’s the use of venturing business with you if you still drag mine anyway? Mierda!” her continues banters while the other’s itching his ears as if cleansing from her monotonous curses. “Geez. You’re with your Spanish lingos again, can you come down for a sec. and listen for a while?” frustrated by the thought, she has no choice either. Seeing her grumbles made him reminisce their sealed deal back then as well.

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“Mr. Jang! You came sir. I did not expect you though. You know, a busy man as you are…”  he was greeted by the wiggling brows of Lee Chanwoo, owner of the newly established Nightclub were he’s been invited. Failed to anticipate something of his approval, the owner shrugged by the thought. 

“Anyhow, allow me to welcome you to my humble Nightclub sir, your presence is well appreciated.” He was introduced instead but the hell he cares, he’s better to give his demonic superiority than being entertained by this shameless man who asked for him. He never planned to come either, but since he’s bored, why give it a shot though and maybe something may intrigue his attention. So glad, it did.

“Sung Eunyoung, our club manager. She’s the best. Meticulously the best.” The straight introduction of Lee Chanwoo after watching his savoring eyes on her who’s all smiles socializing and shaking hands with the elites of the party. The former did not disappoint him though for informing more of her whereabouts, just how he wanted. “She possesses her own Nightclub and Bar as well, and mind you? Don’t underestimate her. She’s a queen of connections yow! A total queen. Indeed, that’s how I decided to scout her eventually. Lucky I am, she said yes.” All he could respond is nod in awe, admitting he’s starting to get speechless of her.  

“Oh! Right. Before I forgot. Haven’t I told you that she’s the one who requested for you, actually?”

And heaven knows he did not take too long to face the shameless owner, dazed. “Pardon?” answered by a kinky smile of the former instead. “You heard it.” Its teasing remark then, unbothered anyhow as he glances to her position again only to find out her endearing eyes meeting his. Disbelieving smile subsides. No one broke their staring game either, thus he gulps his Manhattan drink in one shot before passing it emptied to the shameless owner beside him. “You should have told me earlier, Mr. Lee. For I should not have wasted my time with you.” dumbfounded Mr. Lee, who’s now ignored.

From the VIP Lounge of the second floor, he went down to the sea of elites of the first floor, on his way to her on the center bar. Here she is with her all so classy business attire while holding a martini on hand, as he approached with decency. “Sung Eunyoung. What a lovely name for a beautiful lady.” 

She doesn’t even look flustered by his approach but eyeing the Nightclub owner from above with a meaningful stare instead, not long before she led it back to him again. “I suppose you have been informed already Mr. Jang. It’s nice to finally meet you though.” She offered her hand while he’s in ow, stunned by her sharpness. Interesting. Just how he thought, as he takes her hand for the handshake.

“And I am just surprised how a humble businesswoman wished for the presence of a treacherous trouble shooter man though. So, how am I worthy of a service Mademoiselle?” with twitching brows, she admits she wasn’t expecting talking to a keen Jang Taeyoung in front of her actually, but she guesses wrong anyway. “So you’re not as unscrupulous as my first impression think it is, then. Good to know.” 

Putting down her martini drink, she motions him to a vacant lounge at the corner. So as he follows through, secretly gobbling her curves from behind.  Debating on how can someone slim as her look so sexy when she’s even wearing slacks? “Damn. Look at that voluptuous ass.” His whistling murmuring salvation, and she heard it. “That isn’t an appealing compliment for a first meeting Mr. Jang.” Her strict remark without even giving him glances. “My bad.” Just with his casual response as if they had been close for a long time. Truth be told, he’s already considering it actually.

She acquires something from her trivial bag the moment they arrived, and without hesitation slides it on the table passing it to him, revealing a picture named Veeros Alcaziar, a look of a dangerous man yet an unfamiliar face to him.  “Kill him for me.” And as if on cue, his dealing stands surfaces with eyes still fixated to the image of the aspirant target.

“For me… Hmm. To been offered a bloody job from a highly businesswoman is a bit unusual. So I assume this has something to do with your personal matters, isn’t it Ms. Sung?” With only her eyes matching his stands, he indeed failed to get a response. “I’ll take that as a yes.” Only to answer his own question before choosing to proceed his more indenture instead.

“You see Mademoiselle, upon personal matters like thi---“

“Consider your Casino Hotel. Take it or leave it.”

He hates when someone tries to cut by his words but today’s astonishment exceptional though. She got him there. Guess the shameless owner wasn’t making up stories after all. She’s indeed a hell of understatement. “Quite tempting, isn’t it Mr. Jang?” by proud dominancy, she finally speaks business with him.

[not-close-to-straight]

More Than Words (Nineteen)

The long awaited bonding scene, the obligatory d*cking down, teeth rotting sweetness, unbearable fluffiness... all the things we love about ABO Spideypool smexy times. 

Oh also, you guys all know I have a biting king and since Wade has fangs that usually means things get a little bloody? Sort of a TW for bonding bites and blood? Idk, you’ve all read my stuff before you know what you’re getting into lol 

MTW MASTERLIST HERE

Enjoy!

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“Stay in the water where it's warm.” Wade eased the Omega off his lap and back into the water, erasing Peter’s protest with a quick kiss. “I’m gonna lay some blankets out, get everything ready for us, okay? You stay here, stay real soft and I’ll come get you in a minute.” 

Peter desperately wanted to be sassy right then, wanted to snark something about getting to be lazy while Wade did all the work, or tell the Alpha to move slowly so he had plenty of time to ogle, but for the life of him, he couldn’t manage much more than a breathless, “Yes, Alpha.” 

“Damn it, you’re sweet.” Wade came back for another kiss, wound his fingers into wet hair and let his fangs prick at his mate’s bottom lip. “You’re so sweet like this Pete, thank you.” 

The Omega only nodded, eyes wide and heart pounding as he watched his Alpha step from the tub and pat carelessly dry with one of their towels. Wade was gorgeous, all bold muscles and rough skin and hard lines and Peter was suddenly parched, suddenly starving, itching to get his hands on his mate. 

“Settle.” Wade’s voice dropped to a rumble and Peter about bit through his tongue trying to stop his whine. “Just a minute, Omega. Wanna make sure everything is perfect for you.” 

Freshly laundered and finally dry blankets were pulled from the line and laid out over the bear skin rug in front of the fire, pillows grabbed from the bed and scattered around the floor. The Alpha made sure the door was barred, pulled the curtains over the windows and even pushed the table and chairs back out of the glow of firelight so the cabin seemed to narrow down to just them and their space on the floor. 

“Come here.” Peter had never weighed much, but after being sick he weighed hardly anything at all and Wade was gentle, so gentle lifting the Omega from the tub and helping him stand on the floor. He was was gentle, so gentle as he took a towel and ran it over Peter’s thick hair and down lean shoulders, over the flat planes of his mate’s stomach and around to the rise and curve of Peter’s rear. 

“My mate.” Peter sighed shakily when the Alpha dropped to his knees right there on the floor, held onto Wade’s shoulders for balance as his mate dried down his legs and to his feet and when Wade tipped his head back and looked up at him, Peter murmured, “Didn’t realize seeing you on your knees would be so incredible.” 

“Incredible, huh?” Wade tossed the towel away and ran possessive, knowing hands up the back of Peter’s legs to his ass and up around the narrow waist. “You should see my view.” 

The Omega flushed pretty pink and the Alpha crooned in response, then leaned in to bury his nose in the vee of Peter’s hips. His mate gasped out loud over the scrape of fangs on sensitive skin and Wade dragged his tongue through the sparse hair at the base of his mate’s cock, breathing in deep until he could scent pure Omega beneath the lavender soap. 

“Ohhhh-h-h-Alpha.” Peter squeezed at Wade’s shoulder until the Alpha had no choice but to back away a little bit. “I love-- well I mean I um-- we should--” Wade raised his eyebrows and Peter’s blush got darker. “Well I love you, first of all. I love you.” 

“I love you too.” Wade left another open mouth kiss on the Omega’s hip. 

“And second of all, you on your knees like this is just about killing me.” Peter squeaked when Wade’s fingers dipped lower between his thighs. “But um I really need to--” Peter made a helpless, vague sort of gesture towards the blankets. “I don’t want you to ever stop touching me but I also feel like if I don’t do a little nesting right now I might actually freak out so--” 

To his credit, the Alpha didn’t laugh at all despite the near hilarity of his wacky mate putting a stop to sex because he needed to nest. Nesting was a bonding instinct, the sort of thing Omega’s did before inviting an Alpha into their home, into their body and soul and heart. It was Peter trying to create a place just for the two of them, trying to carve out a quiet sanctuary that was only theirs, somewhere safe and soft and scenting like mates and trust and love.

So no, Wade didn’t laugh at all. Instead, he let his eyes darken red until Peter’s mouth fell open in a wordless pant, and he rumbled and crooned at the Omega until Peter dropped to his knees and crushed their mouths together and only once the Omega was whining into the kiss and letting his fingers trail rather downward did the Alpha pull away. 

“Nest, sweetheart.” he said simply, cupping Peter’s jaw and smoothing away tiny lines of distress from the corner of Peter’s mouth. “Whatever you need to do. I can wait.” 

“I love you.” Peter breathed, then pushed back from the Alpha and got to work right away reorganizing the blankets and pillows Wade settled in to watch and wait, fully content knowing there had never been anything as precious as his Omega nesting in their home. 

Just fucking gorgeous. 

Peter couldn’t help the instinct to rumple up the blankets and arrange them in a rough circle just like he couldn’t help the instinct to go back to the bed for more pillows. He was well aware of his Alpha’s gaze the entire time, the way Wade didn’t look away once and that the smile on the Alpha’s lips was equal parts amused and pleased as hell. 

The Omega glanced over only once to smile at his mate, and he eep!ed in surprise and delight when Wade automatically grinned at him, fangs flashing in the firelight. 

“I need your clothes.” Peter said a tad sheepishly as he rummaged through the laundry for a few shirts that scented wholly Alpha and pushed them into the pile of blankets. He shoved at the quilts a little more until he could see the bear rug beneath and then asked, “Could you um-- could you move the bath back? I don’t want to see anything but you, alright?Not tables and chairs or any furniture, not even the bath. Is that alright?” 

The Alpha stood without a word, braced his hands on the side of the still full tub and shoved the entire thing back several feet, turning back to find his mate outright gaping at the show of strength. He tilted his head with a little smirk and Peter stammered, “F-fuck, I forget how strong you are sometimes. You should do more things like that so I can watch and you know... drool over it? More things like that, please?” 

“How about I do things like this instead?” One arm was all it took to lift the Omega right off the floor, right off his feet and flush against Wade’s body and Peter hummed in excitement when he found himself a few inches off the ground, held effortlessly by his mate. “All done nesting, Pete?” 

“All--all done nesting.” 

“C’mere then.” Wade carried his little mate over to the middle of the nest and without letting go once, lowered Peter onto the bearskin rug. He followed immediately after, laying out on top of the Omega and pushing Peter’s hands up into the blankets so his mate was stretched out beneath him, on full display in the low light. 

“Gorgeous.” the Alpha said approvingly and Peter went pink again as he whispered, “Hi, Alpha.” 

“Hi.” Wade would have been lying if he said he wasn’t nervous all the sudden, practically quaking as he bent down to kiss his mate. It could have been the first time for all his heart was pounding, their very first kiss for the way he held his breath and tried to be tender. 

“Mmmm my love.” Peter sighed into from the kiss, wound both arms round Wade’s neck and arched his back so their bodies rubbed together. “Kiss me again. I want more of you, I’ll never have enough.” 

“I’ll never have enough of you either, Pete.” the Alpha dipped low to kiss his mate again-- and again and again and again. “Not ever.” 

For a long time they lay together and simply kissed, licking through open lips and moaning into welcome softness, tangling tongues and exploring deep for another taste, always always another taste. Two weeks was a long time to be apart because of sickness, it was a long time to worry and a long to think about all the what if’s and Wade could have spent forever silencing all those what if’s with his mate’s sweet mouth. 

Peter ran his fingers in idle designs up and down his Alpha’s back as their lips met over and over, tracing the scars he already knew by memory, brushing a top the clearer skin with no intent other than to make Wade shiver in his arms, to make his love press closer and tighter so the last of the water droplets from the bath dried between their bodies and all they could feel was warm. 

The Alpha scented like anticipation and it was heartbreakingly endearing, cedar and licorice almost tentative when Peter nuzzled at Wade’s pulse and closed his teeth over the steady heartbeat. Wade groaned something indecipherable between taking open mouth inhales of lavender and honeysuckle from the softest spot behind his mate’s ear and down along the hinge of Peter’s jaw, reveling in the unfiltered sweetness, in the absence of sick from his mate’s scent. 

“Smell good, Pete.” he muttered and the Omega mmm’d in to his ear before finding his mouth again and sealing their lips together for a long time. “So so sweet, my Omega.” 

“Touch me.” Peter lifted up into Wade’s body, rubbed his cock into the tense of his Alpha’s abs and moaned when Wade throbbed against his stomach in reply. “My mate. Please.” 

“No rush baby boy, we’ve got all night.” Wade reminded him, slow and easy with those first touches, slow and easy with his fingers as he stroked up and down Peter’s length, slipped through the damp gathering at the tip and used it to ease his way. “I don’t wanna miss any of this, any of you.” 

“It’s been two weeks.” Peter worked his hand south until he could circle his palm confidently around Wade, squeezing only enough to make the Alpha groan low in his throat. “Two weeks since I’ve had you, Alpha. We can hurry this time and go slow later. You won’t miss anything if we do this multiple times.” 

Wade laughed under his breath when the Omega thrust up into his palm, then spread those long legs and wriggled invitingly. “Impatient.” 

“Too slow.” Peter retorted, eyes soft and mouth even softer as it swept over Wade’s collarbone and across a particularly long scar at his shoulder. “Touch me.” 

The Omega tossed his head back and cried out helplessly when Wade opened him around one finger. He was slick, wet shining clear on his thighs, pliant and open for his mate when a second finger joined almost immediately after. 

“Fuck, you’re tight.” Wade said through gritted teeth and Peter only canted his hips up and bore down on the digits until they slipped past that first resistance and deep into his body. “Fuck, Omega.” 

“Yesssss….” Peter hissed out a breath but it turned into an exhilarated sort of giggle, pleasure already sparking behind his eyes and shocking through his veins, cock jumping against his stomach and dribbling a pool of bittersweet liquid at the hollow of his navel. “Oh oh oh my Alpha. Yes. More. More.” 

“Beautiful.” Wade ran his thumb around the Omega’s stretched rim and hooked it just gently at the edge to open his mate a little more, crooked his fingers inside until he could feel for the raised pad that had Peter coming off the blankets with a startled yelp, then just as quickly shoving back onto his wrist for another. 

“Missed you Pete, missed having you like this.” the Alpha could have stared at his mate all night, watched the lean body writhing on the blankets and rolling further onto his fingers. He could have watched for hours as Peter spread his legs and bent his knees so Wade would get deeper, grabbed at a pillow and then tossed it away to grab at him instead as heat built steadily in his core. 

“That’s right baby, hold on to me.” Three fingers and Peter bit down into the meat of Wade’s shoulder, curled up into the Alpha’s body and nearly wept, lush and drenched and suffocating the Alpha with the scent of heady arousal as it pooled liquid in his center and dripped out around Wade’s hand to soak into the rug. “I’ve got you, I’ve got you--” 

“I need you.” Raspy and gorgeous in Wade’s ear and when Peter pulled away his eyes were dilated to nearly black, wild and ravenous and if the Alpha didn’t know better, he’d think his mate was lost in heat for all Peter was slurring his words and so desperately trying to get more of Wade inside him. “My mate. I need you-- you-- not your fingers, not your mouth, I need you. Need your knot.” 

“Pete--” 

“I'm ready for you.” Peter was panting now, a steady purr broken by gasps for air. He was clutching at the blankets and arching his back, little bites at the Alpha’s neck turning sharper and sharper until he finally bit down hard and Wade instinctively snarled right back and shoved the Omega down against the blankets. 

“Yes.” Not intimidated in the least, Peter only moaned, stretched, lay out long on the rug and turned his head to bare his neck, clearly showing off for his mate, clearly asking for his mate. “Growl at me, Alpha. Bite me. I’m ready for you.” 

Wade still hesitated, waited long enough to fit a knee between Peter’s thighs and rock down into his mate tentatively, murmuring, “I’m big sweetheart, let me get you ready some more.” 

“My love.” Somehow still sassy even in this moment, Peter’s eyes sparkled nearly wicked-- and in the firelight, almost gold. “I wouldn’t love you half as much if you weren’t big.” 

“Brat.” A searing kiss covered whatever Peter snarked in response and when Wade moved to lay fully against his mate, even the kiss fell away in favor of a welcoming purr from the Omega and a greedy, grasping growl from the Alpha.  

“You’ll tell me to stop if I hurt you.” Wade asked once he could breathe again, once the Omega had let him go and was trilling eagerly at the swell of the Alpha’s cock next to his own. “Promise me.” 

“You won’t hurt me.” Peter ran his tongue over his disappointingly blunt teeth, then leaned up and licked over his mate’s sharper fangs, practically trembling in excitement. “But I’ll tell you to stop all the same. I promise.” 

“I love you.” Wade said again, just one more time because his mate needed to hear it, because he needed to say it, because someday soon the inevitable would happen and he wouldn’t be able to say it again. “My mate.” 

“My mate.” the Omega repeated. “Come here.” 

There was a difference between heat and simply being with an Alpha, an excruciating too vivid awareness that had Peter’s eyes rolling back and mouth falling open, nails digging lines down his mate’s back as Wade pushed forward and in. The Alpha was huge, blunt and heavy and so so hot and Peter thought he could be on fire, thought he could be melting when the burn was sharp enough to bring tears to his eyes. 

Fuck it was good, it was good it was good it was good and when Wade fit all of himself into Peter, the Omega choked on his mate’s name, couldn’t breathe through the weight, couldn’t do anything but lie there and feel himself fuller than he’d ever imagined possible. 

Wade wove their fingers tight when Peter reached out blindly for him, pushed their foreheads together and told himself not to move when a tear leaked out from the corner of the Omega’s eyes and trailed down his face. 

“Too much?” he whispered hoarsely. “Baby boy, tell me--” 

“Wade.” Peter’s entire body shuddered, rippling around the Alpha’s cock. “Wade, I-- I--” 

“Pete?” The Alpha didn’t even dare breathe, counting the fan of dark lashes at Peter’s cheek, the dusting of freckles, watching the Omega’s mouth fall open and white teeth bite down into crimson lips, feeling each ragged breath through Peter’s chest and down to where they were connected. “...sweetheart…” 

“Alpha.” Peter fell apart with a quiet sob, and the Alpha stared in awe as his mate shattered right there in his arms. The Omega’s cock spilled between their bodies, pulsing in time to the devastating clench in Peter’s center and it was all Wade could do to stay still when he could already feel his knot swelling, his cock tightening, his entire body surging as the Omega keened and rolled through white hot pleasure. 

“Ohhh-h-h-h….” Peter opened his eyes and he was gone, gorgeous and hazy and gone as he whispered, “My Alpha. M’so full, so full of you, didn’t know it would be--” one last shiver and Wade tried hard not to groan out loud. “--didn’t know it would be like this. Never knew it was like this.” 

“Jesus Christ, Omega.” 

“More of you.” the Omega was floating, blissed out and lax and pliant everywhere except where Wade was fit inside, and he reached up for another kiss, always always another kiss that the Alpha would die before refusing. 

“More of you.” Peter whispered again, and this time he hooked his leg around Wade’s calf and pressed against him. “Please. I’ll never have enough.” 

The Alpha wanted to be slow and he wanted to be careful. Peter was still fragile in his hands, collarbones a little too prominent, skin just a shade too pale and the Alpha wanted to be slow, but his mate had other ideas. 

“Yes!” Peter actually laughed at the first full thrust, loopy and giggly and elated. He felt like his soul could claw from his chest if they didn’t complete their bond right now and knowing this was just the first step made him almost giddy. “My mate, again.” 

And the Alpha wanted to be slow but his mate was so good, so good beneath him, begging so sweetly and pushing into each stroke so wantonly, that Wade asked just one more time, “You’re sure?”

Peter’s only reply was to press his lips to Wade’s ear and growl, and the Alpha took it as the obvious permission it was. 

So he wasn’t slow, and he wasn’t gentle and all the Alpha’s good intentions about taking their time and savoring every second fell by the wayside in favor of grabbing at Peter’s hips and shoving himself deep inside. Peter shouted for him and Wade shut him up with a bruising kiss, the Omega scratched at his back and Wade gripped at that gorgeous rear and used it as leverage to take his mate harder. Their kisses were sharp and messy, teeth and tongues clashing and blood tasting copper on their lips when Wade forgot to cover his fangs and Peter kept panting for a bite. His knot caught, pulled and the Omega screamed, Peter wrapped his legs around Wade’s waist to force him closer and the Alpha growled vicious and rutted against him 

“My mate.” Wade couldn’t hardly talk, a rumble steady from his chest distorting the words until he sounded half feral and Peter only whined and crushed their mouths together and pleaded for more of his mate, always more of his Alpha, he needed to feel him, he needed to feel him, can you feel me Alpha, can you feel me right here? 

It was bloody red and seeing stars when the Alpha’s knot locked inside Peter for the first time, when his fangs punctured Peter’s bonding spot and sank deep enough to be painful, when he finished with a hoarse cry and the Omega followed him into a second orgasm with a throaty, satisfied purr. 

Bloody red and seeing stars and enough--

--but no, it wasn’t enough, because Peter was already whining impatiently before Wade had even unlocked his jaw and pulled away, whining impatiently and shoving at the Alpha with tears in his eyes, “It’s not enough, Alpha. I need more. More.” 

“Settle.” A groan punched out of the Alpha’s chest when Peter tried to fuck himself down on the still distended knot. “Baby boy, give me a minute.” 

“No no no, I need you.” Peter jerked up and bit into Wade’s throat, into his shoulder and into his chest. “I need you, it’s not enough, I don’t have enough of you yet.” 

Wade didn’t know if he was thrilled or worried that Peter needed another round so quickly, but he pushed the thought aside and settled his mate with quiet words and soothing licks over the bite marks for a long moment, nuzzling close and thwarting Peter’s attempts at sharper kisses, answering the Omega’s frantic, “It’s not enough yet!” with calmer, “I’ll give you enough baby, just wait, just wait, just a minute sweetheart--” 

The moment his knot eased enough to pull out, Wade rolled Peter over onto all fours, pushed blankets under his mate’s head to offer a pillow and with a quick check of, “Are you sure, my mate?” gripped the Omega tight and thrust back in. 

This time wasn’t gentle, not even a little bit. The Alpha left bruises at Peter’s narrow hips as he yanked him back onto his cock, he reached far over the Omega’s back to tug at the thick hair and pull sharply enough for Peter to cry out and arch into the pain. This position was dominance, it was rut, it was claiming, and the Alpha lost himself a little in the thrill of finally having his mate presenting in front of him, finally being able to hear the submissive whimpers and halting pleas of, “S’good, Alpha, Alpha Alpha Alpha, so good, I love you, please don’t stop, don’t stop, I don’t want you to stop.” 

He tried to touch his mate, tried to reach under and close his hand around Peter’s length but the Omega slapped his fingers away and did it himself, jerking at his cock and trying hard to push himself back onto Wade to get the Alpha a little deeper each time, a little harder with every stroke. Peter screamed into the blankets as he came this time, and he screamed again when Wade bit him, the second bite in too few minutes brutal before it fell away into body drugging bliss as the Alpha’s knot locked up once again. 

And for a moment, they were okay. 

For a moment Peter was lost and floating and so so happy with his mate draped over his back and surrounding his frame. He could feel Wade pulsing inside him, the heavy Alpha cock keeping him plugged so nothing fell out and dripped down his legs to the rug, and for a moment everything felt right. 

But then--

“Shit.” Wade unhooked his fangs from Peter’s throat and pushed his forehead between the Omega’s shoulder blades. “My mate, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry but--” 

“It’s not enough.” Peter was hoarse, sounded weary. “It’s not enough yet, is it?”

“...it’s not enough.” the Alpha whispered. “I know this isn’t heat--” 

“--but I feel like I could die if I don’t get enough of you.” Peter finished. “I know, Alpha my Alpha. I know.” 

“I need you again.” 

“I need you again too.” 

Wade didn’t wait for his knot to go down, only eased the Omega carefully carefully onto his side so they were lying together in the nest of blankets, pillowed on a few quilts and stuck tight together with sweat cooling on their skin and sex drenching the air in the cabin. 

“Smells like you.” Peter mumbled tiredly, feeling around behind him until he could dig his fingers into Wade’s leg. “Smells like us. I love it. Love you.” 

“I love you too.” This time Wade was gentle, this time he was slow, feathering sweet kisses onto his mate’s temple and down along his cheek, holding Peter close with one hand protective over the Omega’s heart. “I’ve got you sweetheart, come here.” 

Peter went limp against his Alpha’s chest, content to close his eyes and just breathe as Wade ground into him from behind, slow, shallow strokes that kept him filled and sated, only enough movement to make his entrance twitch and clench in protest over even the thought of being empty. The knot was heavy, weighted in his core and Peter ran trembling fingers over his stomach where he was full, down his cock that was still hard and aching even after a third orgasm, down lower to where he was almost embarrassingly wet, the noise slick and soaked every time Wade withdrew even the slightest bit. 

“S’good, Alpha.” he whispered, and Wade mumbled agreement into his throat, over the already bruising bite marks “So good, so good, bite me again. Wanna feel you all over.” 

The Alpha crooned obediently and shifted forward enough to get his fangs back through the pierced skin, the curved edges and hooked ends spilling bloody honey and aphrodisia down his throat. 

“Yes.” Peter spread his hand to the back of Wade’s scalp and kept the Alpha pinned there at his neck, rocking back into every too shallow push of his mate’s hips and focusing on the prick of fangs, the stretch of his Alpha between his legs and the pleasure rolling up his spine and spinning behind temples until everything went hot again and he was shaking, shivering, spilling into the blankets as his vision blanked out. 

“Here.” Wade had to lean far over Peter’s body to keep them connected, guided the nearly gone Omega to his own neck and whispered, “Bite me, Pete. Hard. Don’t let up, don’t-- don’t let go, alright? I’m not ready let you go.” 

Peter licked languidly over Wade’s bonding spot before biting down, holding the Alpha steady and growling sweetly until he broke skin and tasted red, and still Wade gasped for more, held the Omega tight and begged, “Don't stop, don't let go, my mate, I’m not ready-- I’m not ready---” 

The bond sparked first where they were locked together, where Wade was coming again inside his mate, a barely there ripple that spread through their centers and out to their limbs, curling toes and clenching fists and burning at their throats. Peter whimpered when it brightened blinding behind his eyes before settling beautiful in his heart, the Alpha rumbled something sweet and relieved when his mind finally eased and hazed and all he could feel was Peter. 

“...I’m yours.” Quietly, reverently, with neither Alpha nor Omega having any idea how much time had passed. It could have been an hour since Peter had bit Wade, it could have been half the night where they lay curled together in their nest before Peter stirred enough to speak. 

And when he finally did speak-- “Alpha my Alpha, I’m yours. And you’re mine.” 

Wade brushed the Omega’s hair out of the way and stared down into eyes that swirled gorgeous, molten gold before blinking back to perfect brown, then whispered, “You’re mine. You’re mine Omega, and I am yours.” 

It was more than words, it was a pull at their very souls and Peter arched into it with a breathy sigh that Wade swallowed into a kiss packed full of adoration and longing and everything all their words would never be able to say. 

“I’m yours.” 

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SAY SOMETHING ABOUT THE CHAPTER!

Also, I wanted to share a little of my thought process for this chapter with you guys-- the three ways Wade and Peter *ahem* connect are supposed to represent their relationship up to this point. 

First missionary ie: fairly vanilla and loving like they were in the beginning. 

Then doggy style which lets things get rough and a little crazy, which is for how desperate they’ve become for each other where their “enough” is changing is almost every day because they can’t seem to settle down. 

And finally spooning, which is very protective, sort of shockingly intimate and also gentle because now that Peter is sick and they both know Cable is most likely coming back soon, all they want to do is hold each other and revel in the slow, easy minutes together. 

I hope everyone enjoyed the chapter!

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Irondad & Spiderson Extravaganza—Fanfic Author Appreciation Day Edition

In honor of Fanfic Author Appreciation Day, here’s the fic list that haunts me at night, that list I cannot stop reading even if I wanted to. There are a few more but this was going to run too long, so I’ll just add my AO3 bookmark link because wow. Everything I bookmarked deserves the look over. Promise.

Lights to Guide You Home - @jolinarjackson

This is that story I cannot stop reading, and I love it more each time I do. It introduces other characters from the MCU, and honestly, Jules can give the Russos a run for their money with the way storylines are connected here. It’s elegant and perfectly paced. It’s one of my favorites. I recommend the entire series wholeheartedly. 

What We Are - @yellowdistress

A sucker for biodad Mr. Stark = me. 

Guys. The very first chapter--the very first line in this story holds right at your PULSE. And it doesn’t let go, not until it wants to. Which is never. Precious Peter Parker is an UNDERSTATEMENT. You want some AU Stark boys going through their lives as best as they can? With your canon “chaotic & heart of gold” Tony, and “walking disaster & too pure for this world” Peter? This. This is it. The whole series. The whole thing. 

The Third Option - Uncertainty_Principle

My very first fic in this fandom and it was, indeed, the best start I could’ve possibly gotten. This AU is outstanding. Man, what a job well done. I have so much to say that I can’t even begin to express it all. This fic blew the door wide open for me. It’s..yeah. This is masterful. 

Hydra’s Not a Home - @tempestaurora

Ugh. There is something about biodad Tony that just fills my lungs with air. This entire series was so complete, so well done; it was fun, and witty, and hurtful and feelings were everywhere. Also, also..Pepper is everything and more in here, and I love when she’s heavily involved. And it’s done well. It makes me FLY. Needless to say..yes. So much yes. The entire series. The whole entire thing. A must read. A muuuuuust. Yes. 

Webcams and Webshooters - @losingmymindtonight

I’m trying very hard to keep my composure because THIS SERIES RIGHT HERE, MAN. WOW. These two chaotic messes are being ridiculous on Peter’s YouTube channel and it’s the funniest, the most enjoyable thing. Nothing short of the most loving and endearing clips until it punches you in the mouth, leaves you bleeding, and then patches you up. All at the same time. If you listen closely, you can still hear my love and tears over this. Goodness, this was outstanding. 

It’ll Be Over (And I’ll Still Be asking When) - @jbsforever

My heart. The jokes. The tears. The Bruce. The way this story is handled, the way Peter Parker..I just..And there is that one scene that I just go back to all the time, because y’all just write the coolest things, and my nerd tears are LOUD. Someone read this and geek out with me. Message me right after you’re done. RIGHT AFTER.

Reviving Peter Parker - @yellowdistress

Here’s what happened: I read this and it took me the h out. 

You know, some times we wish for things that we know cannot take place. And when they actually do happen, because in the world of Tony Stark, aliens and gods walk amongst him so nothing can really surprise him anymore, it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. Denni has a way to tell a story with such very human-like emotion, and responses from our boys, that it’s almost too much. The tears were present right with their sibling pain. Read it all. All the parts. You won’t regret it. 

The Closest Thing He’s Got - @ grilledcheesing 

The..things I underwent with this wonderful work..All the emotions in the spectrum. Just so many things to feel. 

You love Steve? Read this. You hate Steve? Read this.

You love Spidey? Read. This. You hate Spidey? Read this, but good luck.

You love Irondad & Spiderson trope? Read this!!!!!

You love Tony Stark? Read this right now. Because he’s dong his best and everyone needs to back off. 

You hate Tony? Read this and eat your heart out.

Read this. Read this read this read this

5 Times Peter Parker Saved Tony Stark - @madasthesea 

There is a special place in my heart for all things “Peter Parker saving himself + others” and Tony just impressed with him each time. Because yeah, Tony. You found a good one. And he loves you just as much as you love him. “Ugh. So proud of that Spiderbaby” was what I murmured throughout this whole thing, with the occasional scream :)

5 Times Peter Made Tony Laugh Out Loud - @ grilledcheesing

There were tears rolling down my face when I read this. It was the funniest thing. I love Peter, that walking disaster. I’m just glad Tony is in his corner. Please read this and have yourself a good laugh. It is the best. But beware that all jokes must stop at some point.

5 Times Everyone Thought Spider-Man was Iron Man’s Favorite Superhero -  @madasthesea

Mr. Parker deserves all the love, and all the support. All the encouragement. All the good and “doing his best to be good” Irondad. This is the fic where my boys are loving on each other and everything is right with the world. 

Here’s to All the New Beginnings - @groo-ock

There is no retired Irondad like this author’s retired irondad. Gosh, Tony is a MESS, but what a good one he is. This gives you origin pieces here and there, and Tony being comically distressed over Peter, and loving him so much, it’s almost unhealthy. Also, love me some Pepper Stark nei Potts. I laughed so hard and then cried just as much. Peter’s growing and Tony can’t handle much of it. 

Honey Bee Theorem - @ closingdoors 

There are so many ways Tony’s life could’ve been lived, so many things that could’ve happened, so many things that could’ve been said. Pepper explores all of them, and it leaves you breathless no matter which way she presents them. This was quick and painful and gorgeous. We stan Queen Stark nei Potts. And we might not be okay, but yeah, he can definitely rest now. 

Soul of Wit - @yellowdistress

Sometimes I’m in bed at night thinking, “hmm, Denni is out for blood.” And by that, I mean she’s out for mine specifically. This ridiculous one-shot shot me right in my chest. Leave it to Denni to literally show you the world as it is, and make you feel this..ache in your chest, and have you THANK HER FOR THE PAIN SHE’S CAUSED. I love her work so much, that talented bean. Read this. Till the very, very end. It’s gonna suck, but I promise you’ll love it. 

Holdfasts - @groo-ock

“I know this is just my under-treated anxiety talking,” Tony says, “but if I leave this chair or close my eyes even for a second, the kid is going to die. So I have to stay here.”

Tony and Peter are a walking disaster. It’s so bad, oh my gosh. It’s so bad. The laughing while simultaneously panicking as I read this was unbelievable. The things these authors make me FEEL. Y’all don’t understand how good this is. Like, lol, seriously. This is just straight up phenomenal. Phenomenal.

Four Paragraphs - @iron--spider

WOW. Okay. The softest thing in all the land is what takes place when this majestic author creates a story. I mean, seriously, these were the best four paragraphs I’ve ever laughed and cried through. The love, the pride, the longing, the gentleness. “Everything is alright. We’re okay” is always the theme with iron--spider and honestly? I STAN SO HARD, IT MIGHT BE ILLEGAL. Loved this so much. So much. 

Call This Fixer-Upper Home - @3wworms 

Amy has a way with words. It’s surreal how a simple one shot about a couch can have someone aching, eyes prickling, and long after the tab for the story is closed, the thoughts of it all produce salty tears. Maybe it was the note she left before the story started. But..nah, Amy has a WAY with WORDS. It’s unmatched. It’s surreal. 

I Am One of You Forever - @groo-ock 

Say goodbye to your canon broken heart because this is coming for it full force. This was entirely too beautiful; it was easy. Simple. Genuine. It was SO moving. The closing chapter to the brand new book. Like a dream. Mundane, loving, friendship, love. You name all good things, this one-shot has got it. The tears will be inevitable. On multiple occasions. 

Star Child - @iron--spider

This is so organic and so soft. It’s wholesome, so much so it made me cry. These two really deserved more time. And I will never thank this author enough for giving it to them. Always. My Pete is undoubtedly a star child. Don’t fight Tony on it. 

The First Birthday After - @iron--spider

Goodness. No words. Just tears. 

Happy Birthday, tincan. 

We miss you. 

Flight of the Navigator - @3wworms

Everything, and I mean everything Amy posts is truly organic, mature and just nothing short of phenomenal. This is my favorite from her. The level of detail and characterization displayed here leaves me speechless. Always. I literally run from her fics. She pushes things out of me with the most mundane, simple concepts. A conversation, a thought, a LINE. Goodness, did I cry when I read this. It’s elegant and intelligent, insightful. It’s just so great. There is a tone to everything she creates, and it’s always so heartfelt. Everything. Everything everything is truly a work of art. 

Blankets and Brain Melting Fevers - @hailing-stars

I love some ridiculous, overprotective, comical Tony Stark. And I love even more the way Peter’s heart always has a thing for showing something new to this man. Something as simple as spaghetti-o's, and to make me CRY real tears. This was so funny and truly wonderful. Uncalled tears! But wonderful nonetheless. 

On My First Son - pansley

I almost didn’t include this. There are some things some would say are better left..unread. But what a disservice would that have been to you, to us, to the author. 

I cried throughout the entire time I was reading this. Literally. The moment you meet Peter, you already lost. 

This is absolutely incredible. What a piece. 

This one is the definition of a tear jerker. Period. It will wake up things inside of you that you’d never even know you’d felt for these characters we grew with. 

I cannot emphasize this enough: I was dangerously dehydrated. 

Heavens, what a story. I was breathless. 

Read this, but sincerely do so with extreme caution. 

Hold on to everything, because this one-shot is coming like a tsunami. No ifs ands or buts.

[haec-est-fides]

Filodox’s Trials of Apollo Reactions [Part I]

Welcome to part one of a reflective journey through Trials of Apollo ft. my original ebook annotations! I’ll be your host, 2020!filodox.

For this first episode, we’ll be going back to May 2016, the beginning of it all: The Hidden Oracle.

Annotations for this round are brought to you by 2016!filodox.

Is there anything we should know before we begin, 2016!me?

2016!filodox: I swore on the Styx never to read another Riordan book after he killed Octavian. And yet here we are.

... Alright then! Let’s get started.

But first, a more detailed overview on how this series will work: I will excerpt bits and pieces of the books based on what I highlighted / annotated on my first read. Beneath each quote, I will share what I wrote in the annotation. Below that, I will (occasionally) laugh at my past self, clarify the note, or say how my view has changed.

I encourage questions, comments, and concerns (of which there may be many), so go ahead and use that replies feature if you feel so inclined! However, these are just my opinions and (occasionally) emotional reactions, so no hate pls. <3 (Or, if you do send hate, pls make it funny.)

Now, diving right in with Riordan’s dedication!

To The Muse Calliope. This is long overdue. Please don’t hurt me.

2016!filodox: Hurt him. He didn’t even name the chapters.

As you can see, I had yet to experience Lester’s haiku and was already mad based on the table of contents alone. I went into this series very salty...

I inflicted a plague on the Greeks who besieged Troy.

2016!filodox: At least he did something right. Once.

I was just,,,extremely ready to die on Octavian’s hill. (Though I was a huge Troy / Aeneas stan before all this, just to be clear.)

Is anything sadder than the sound of a god hitting a pile of garbage bags?

2016!filodox: I actually find this particular god crashing into a dumpster quite amusing.

I also blamed Apollo for what happened to Octavian. I think that had a lot to do with how Apollo acted on Delos in Heroes of Olympus, basically disowning Octavian and whining about how some “creature” scammed him? That was bullshit. Apollo needed to own the fact that he blessed Octavian, but he just abandoned him and denied all the blame. TL;DR I had a grudge, okay?

My mind stewed in confusion, but one memory floated to the surface -- the voice of my father, Zeus: YOUR FAULT. YOUR PUNISHMENT.

2016!filodox: Wait, is this bc everyone blames Octavian and therefore Apollo? Bc lol but also no?

*cough* Octavian did nothing wrong 2k16 *cough*

Zeus will reconsider, I told myself. He’s just trying to scare me. Any moment, he will yank me back to Olympus and let me off with a warning.

“Yes...” My voice sounded hollow and desperate. “Yes, that’s it.”

2016!filodox: Apollo is a self centered frat boy, I forgot...but it is slightly...endearing? *narrows eyes*

Ah, how close I was to stanning Lester in the first chapter, when he was at his most “goddy”. You know, I actually made a rule for myself when I started reading Trials of Apollo that I would not under any circumstances stan Apollo. That was a naive goal, because it was never really a danger.

Regardless, Zeus had held me responsible for Octavian’s delusions of grandeur. Zeus seemed to consider egotism a trait the boy had inherited from me. Which is ridiculous. I am much too self-aware to be egotistical.

2016!filodox: I am going to Murder him.

*chef kiss* the hypocrisy ! the lack of self-awareness !

“I just...I assumed -- I hoped this would be taken care of by now.”

“You mean by demigods,” Percy said, “going on a big quest to reclaim the Oracle of Delphi?”

2016!filodox: That sounds like a decent quest, or you know, QUESTING FOR THE SIBYLLINE BOOKS

I’ve always said I can see the future but an inch to the left. Also, I don’t like Ella.

It warmed my heart that my children had the right priorities: their skills, their images, their views on YouTube. Say what you will about gods being absentee parents; our children inherit many of our finest personality traits.

2016!filodox: AND HE’S MAD ABOUT OCTAVIAN?!

I mean ?

Apollo, when Austin and Kayla show ambition: THEY GOT THAT FROM ME <3

Apollo, when Octavian (or Nero, or Caligula) shows ambition: srry i don’t know him ??

He had a weak jawline, an overlarge nose, and a beard that wrapped around his double chin like a helmet strap. His hair was curly and dark like mine, except not as fashionably tousled or luxuriant. His lips curled as if he smelled something unpleasant. Perhaps it was the burning seats of the bus.

2016!filodox: Nero ???

Not quite sure how to feel looking back at this moment. Call out post @ myself for instantly recognizing Nero, when afaik this scene was before we had any hints that Roman emperors were even a plot point? But here’s the thing: I don’t remember why I could recognize him so easily. I don’t remember where 2016!me obtained this ancient Rome knowledge. A mystery.

On another note entirely, did Nero really like,,,astral project into Apollo’s fever dream to address him directly? Because Rhea does. And sometimes Python does. But Nero? Can he do that?

The man laughed as flames licked at his purple sleeves. “You’re not sorry yet, but you will be. Find me the gates. Lead me to the Oracle. I’ll enjoy burning it down!”

2016!filodox: I too enjoy burning things down. # Nero confirmed

My only comment here is “oh you sweet summer child,,,”

Oh. Perhaps some of you are wondering how I felt seeing [Will] with a boyfriend rather than a girlfriend.

2016!filodox: No, actually. I wasn’t wondering. I was plotting how to kill you, them, and quite a few other people. Do you think I could trade you for Octavian?

Oh man, back at it again with the salt. XD

I could only remember my conversations with Octavian, the way he’d turned my head with his flattery and promises. That stupid boy...it was his fault I was here.

A voice whispered in the back of my mind. This time I thought it might be my conscience: Who was the stupid boy? It wasn’t Octavian.

2016!filodox: I can’t really...explain my emotions upon reading this. I’m still not quite okay, but this...it’s bittersweet in a way. I don’t know if this is a poor attempt at a proper closure, the author’s way of beating a dead horse, or just a way to make Apollo seem pitiable. Whatever it is... Octavian was important enough to remain in Apollo’s mortal memory. He somehow made promises to a god and had Apollo wrapped around his finger. And despite being so much like Apollo, the god blames him. Like everyone blames him. But Apollo also realizes, accepts on an infinitesimal scale, that “it wasn’t Octavian”. He wasn’t perfect, but neither is Apollo. Apollo is (at least) subconsciously admitting his own guilt in the whole affair.

...yeah. I will note that this bit isn’t meant to develop Octavian, but rather uses Octavian as a prop to support Apollo’s development? Which is why it still stings. Like thanks, I guess.

“Your judgement in the past has been...questionable. I wonder if you have chosen the right tools for this job. Have you learned from your past mistakes?”

2016!filodox: Nero has made plenty of mistakes to learn from

Love how I just assumed it was Nero back in chapter 10 and went with it, zero hesitation. Also love how I heard Python say Nero has made mistakes and went “oh absolutely”. In fact, here’s something funny in retrospect that will become more and more apparent: I did not like Nero in 2016. Or, at least, I thought I didn’t. There’s something really odd going on here that baffles me, looking back...

“A triumvirate is a ruling council of three,” I said. “At least, that’s what it meant in ancient Rome.”

“Which is interesting,” Rachel said, “because of this next shot.” She tapped her screen. The new photo zoomed in on the building’s penthouse terrace, where three shadowy figures stood talking together....

2016!filodox: Is it bad that I’m smirking? Because it’s getting interesting ~ *clear malicious intent*

Wow, edgy. Triumvirates are just a neat, Roman thing and I stanned.

“The last triumvirate I dealt with included Lepidus, Marc Antony, and my son, the original Octavian. A triumvirate is a very Roman concept...like patriotism, skullduggery, and assassination.”

2016!filodox: THIS IS WHAT I’VE BEEN TRYING TO TELL EVERYONE. MODERN OCTAVIAN IS A VERY GOOD ANCIENT ROMAN. POLITICS, ESPECIALLY SHADY AF POLITICS AND POWERPLAYS, ARE QUINTESSENTIALLY ROMAN. Also, I’d like to note that it’s confirmed, in this universe’s canon, that Augustus was a son of Apollo.

Ohhhh, wait. I think I’d watched the HBO series Rome by 2016, which would at least partially explain my ancient Rome knowledge. (Amazing tv show btw!)

“He heard them talking in Latin.”

“Latin? Were they campers?”

Pete spread his hands. “I--I don’t think so. Paulie described them like they were adults. He said one of them was the leader. The other two addressed him as imperator.”

2016!filodox: !!!! (obligatory 💕)

I was such a simp for Latin in high school. And the Roman Empire. Still am, but hey.

“The Beast is planning some kind of attack on your camp. I don’t know what it is, but it’s going to be big.”

2016!filodox: Runs in the family I guess

The Octavian / Triumvirate parallels are everywhere... 👀

“The emperors made themselves gods. They had their own temples and altars. They encouraged the people to worship them.”

2016!filodox: # deify me

*smacking my past self with a stick* You stop that! Edgy child!

Anyway, a much better point here is like,,,the Imperial cult was huge in the ancient Roman world. Looking at Apollo’s explanation here, why did only the “worst” three emperors get to be immortal? Did famously “good” emperors like Augustus and Marcus Aurelius have the option of becoming minor gods, but they chose Elysium or something? Are there slightly less infamous emperors just hanging around anywhere as minor gods? A lot of Roman emperors live on in human memory is all I’m saying.

“Wait!” Will said as I reached the door. “Who is the Beast? Which emperor are we dealing with?”

“The worst of my descendants.” My fingers dug into the doorframe. “The Christians called him the Beast because he burned them alive. Our enemy is Emperor Nero.”

2016!filodox: I honestly can’t believe it took this long to reveal this? Was anyone surprised?

Nero’s reveal is rather late in the book compared to Commodus, Caligula, and even Tarquin iirc? But it makes sense, being the first book of the series. Also love how 16-year-old me was like “this reveal is silly because everyone, like me, recognizes Nero on sight” and didn’t question that assumption at all.

“Germani.” Instinctively, I moved in front of Meg. The elite imperial bodyguards had been cold-blooded death reapers in ancient Rome. I doubted they’d gotten any sweeter over the centuries.

2016!filodox: BITCH. See? This is why I love Rome. They knew what they were doing.

Ngl, as someone of Germanic heritage, I felt really represented by the Germani, which is hilarious on so many levels.

He tried to compensate for his ugliness with an expensive Italian suit of purple wool, his gray shirt open to display gold chains. His shoes were hand-tooled leather, not the sort of thing to wear while stomping around in an ant pile. Then again, Nero had always had expensive, impractical tastes.

2016!filodox: I don’t exactly like Nero, and actually think he was quite the shitty emperor, but I guess I mildly respect and “like” him on principle (in this book at least).

OH YOU SWEET SUMMER CHILD. I was so convinced that I didn’t actually like Nero, despite all of the lowkey evidence to the contrary? Who hurt you, past me? (Lmao, it was Tacitus, Suetonius, and Cassius Dio.) My working theory is that I was too much of an Emperor Augustus stan at the time to admit liking Nero. It’s hysterical. Look at me equivocating like a champ.

I’d been so proud of my son, the original Octavian, later Caesar Augustus. After his death, his descendants became increasingly arrogant and unstable (which I blamed on their mortal DNA; they certainly didn’t get those qualities from me).

2016!filodox: I’m glad Apollo and I can agree on something. Augustus was amazing and those who came after him...significantly less so.

See! The propaganda really got to me, what can I say?

Nero clasped his hands as if in prayer. “Oh, my. It seems we’ve had a slight miscommunication. You see, Apollo, Meg brought you here, just as I asked her to. Well done, my sweet.”

2016!filodox: This was obvious but I still find it...gods, the only word I can think of is “delicious”

. . .

“The Beast killed my father. This is Nero. He’s -- he’s my stepfather.”

I could not fully grasp this before Nero spread his arms.

“That’s right, my darling,” he said. “And you’ve done a wonderful job. Come to Papa.”

2016!filodox: Okay, but we should have known this since it became apparent her weapons were Roman. Also, oof. Also also, WHY did Riordan feel the need to add that last line? Why?

ASDFGHJKL: I CAN’T

“After the fire, we’ll rebuild,” he said. “It will be glorious!”

2016!filodox: The amount of times I have used this very logic is worrying.

For (some) context, Firelord Ozai is my favorite character from AtLA. <3

The scene might have been funny except that the Germani were now back on their feet, five demigods and a geyser spirit were still tied to highly flammable posts, and Nero still had a box of matches.

2016!filodox: Oh, I find this plenty amusing!

The emperor stared at his empty hand. “Meg...?” His voice was as cold as an icicle.

2016!filodox: The various ways his tone / voice have been described throughout this conversation are just 💕

*looks at camera like I’m on The Office*

Seriously, though. Nero’s voice is like the central descriptive element of his character because he’s so manipulative. It’s really cool and a great use of detail.

[Meg] turned to Nero. “You told me never to lower myself to my enemies’ level.”

“No, indeed.” Nero’s tone had frayed like a weathered rope. “We are better. We are stronger. We will build a glorious new world. But these nonsense-spewing trees stand in our way, Meg. Like any invasive weeds, they must be burned. And the only way to do that is with a true conflagration -- flames stoked by blood.”

2016!filodox: Real 👏🏻 Gods 👏🏻 Require 👏🏻 Blood👏🏻

I was way too enthusiastic about this whole situation, wasn’t I?

Nero grinned. “Good-bye, Apollo. Only eleven more Olympians to go.”

2016!filodox: Wait, shit, WHAT

Having read Tower of Nero, this probably had something to do with Python interfering with the Fates, huh? But does that mean it’s more Python’s plan or Nero’s? If this was Nero’s plan (with his 12 kids literally replacing the Olympians) that’s,,,really fucking bold.

Then I heard the screaming from Camp Half-Blood.

2016!filodox: Music to my ears ~

I’m presenting every edgy detail of my annotations so I have a proper case file when I inevitably have to face the question “On a scale of one to ten, how relatable is Emperor Nero and why should you have realized it’s a ten sooner?”

In a flash of silver light, the camp’s magical barriers collapsed. The Colossus lurched forward and brought his foot down on the dining pavilion, smashing it to rubble like so many children’s blocks.

2016!filodox: Payback! Dear gods, I can’t stop smiling! I’m just like “YES!” I know this will all probably get fixed or whatever but I’M HAVING A MOMENT.

I’ve learned to appreciate the small wins. <3

Percy grabbed one of the crown’s sunray spikes. He sliced it off at the base, then jabbed it into the Colossus’ forehead.

2016!filodox: As much as Nero is FAR from my favorite, I really don’t like defacing ancient (or replicas of ancient) statues and art...

This is where I just start laughing at myself tbh. I was so insistent on not liking Nero. Like, I sound like I’m in denial. Peak equivocation. What happened to that heart emoji a few chapters back? Why did I suddenly make it about *checks notes* ancient art? Updated translation: nooo don’t ruin the Colossus Neronis it’s so sexy aha

Just as the [arrow] reached its apex and was about to fall back to earth, a gust of wind caught it...perhaps Zephyros looking kindly on my pitiful attempt. The arrow sailed into the Colossus’ ear canal and rattled in his head with a clink, clink, clink like a pachinko machine.

2016!filodox: HOW MANY EX MACHINAS IS THIS ?! The dryads, the arrow, Percy, the enchantment, and THIS ?

One of my criticisms of Trials of Apollo in general is just that the stakes are so much higher and Riordan usually solves that problem by having his heroes win on long odds. The chances of them succeeding at like,,,anything they attempt are astronomical, but of course they manage. It’s not surprising but it does get a little tiring.

“Yo, Nico,” Leo called, “please tell me that’s it for the physical abuse.”

“For now.” Nico smiled. “We’re still trying to get in touch with the West Coast. You’ll have a few dozen people out there who will definitely want to hit you.”

2016!filodox: Oh I’d love to hit him. With the flaming, Imperial gold payload of an onager. Preferably WITHOUT the Pontifex Maximus attached to it -- unless of course you mean the false pontifex, Jason Grace.

Leo was the salt in the wound for this one, ngl. He rekindled my undying ire over Octavian’s death. As I said at the beginning of this, I was extremely ready to die on Octavian’s hill after Heroes of Olympus. That sentiment sticks around for a while...

And we can call that a wrap!

Though it may seem like it, my annotations are not, in fact, a compilation of Nero’s greatest hits. There are a lot of scenes of his that I love (naturally) but I didn’t have anything to say about them when I first read the series. Maybe I’ll share those another time.

In any case, I hope you got something out of this ridiculously long post! Until next time! <3

[1990jeevas]

oh nooo, I'm sorry your anxiety is bad :( for questions,,, hm,,, what was your favorite unus annus episode? which one do you lean to more(unus or annus)? If you had to make an idea for an episode, what would it be? which fandom have you read the most fanfiction from? have you ever drawn fanart? when was the last video/stream have you watched from Wilbur/Niki? If you could meet one person from each hyper fixation, who would it be and why? sorry, I ran out of room, Imma send another - 🐝✨

favorite episode of unus annus?

we force james charles to run a military obstacle course probably??? just bc watching ethan thrive is fun

are you an unus or annus?

I'm an unus, I find ethan so fucking relatable and as much as I love mark he will never give me the same amount of serotonin that ethan does

if you had to make an idea for an episode, what would it be?

I'm assuming this is about unus annus still, tell me if I'm wrong, but I think if they had done a video where they just deep dived into something they really love and dumped that on the other person it would be enjoyable, endearing and possibly educational? yuh. basically just want the two adhd fucks to info dump at each other for my own comfort but shhh you didnt hear that from me

which fandom have you read the most fanfic from?

uhhh probably kpop just bc it was my longest hyperfixation and there was so much of it lol

have you ever drawn fanart?

yeah I dont really draw much else unless i have good insp

when did I last watch niki/wilbur?

watched nikis new video this morning and watched wilburs stream tonight :>

if I could meet someone from each hyperfixation, who would it be and why?

cant do each hyperfixation bc theyres a lot but I'll name some big ones!

south park - henrietta biggle bc uhh I kin pete and also would like to be her best friend. perhaps give her a kiss too but a /p kiss.

bnha - kirishima eijirou bc kith kith hes my mfing boyfriend

dsmp - (I'm talking ccs here bc if I met any of these characters, with the exception of the kids and like. sam and puffy. I'd have to fuckn punch em I'd just have to-) obligatory wilbur soot bc hyperfixation but also tommyinnit bc we are both just loud obnoxious gremlin children and I would very much enjoy sharing that energy with someone else. also perhaps ranboo bc tall anxious man gives me comfort and I would like to see exactly how much taller he is than me

marvel - sir deadpool come my way bc we r just. we r jus. gay idiots. also venom bc big gay alien in love with dumb bisexual human gets me everytime.

homestuck - DIRK STRIDER YOU SON OF A BITCH COME FIGHT ME FOR THE RIGHTS TO UR GENDER

death note - mello bc we are Boyfriends.

total drama - heyyy scott heyyyy um. I just wanna be friends. and hold hands. and maybe fall in love on ur farm idk

cancer crew - maxmoefoe bc hes a fuckn nerd and I'm a fuckn nerd what could go wrong

stray kids - hey felix lets compare hand sizes, ya know,,, for gay reasons.

[aw-eather]

Heather Watches SG1 s7ep17&18: Heroes pt1 and pt2

 Watched 23/06/2020

Well here we go friends. I’m torturing myself for the sake of making y’all laugh and also because I have a LOT of feelings about this two parter and NONE of them are good. I can’t be the only one so lets see who else agrees with me! 

This is about to get long and very swear word heavy so avert your eyes if you aren’t into that <3 Just letting you know I use some VERY strong language this post. I’m Australian so the word isn’t uncommon for us to use and we use it as a term of endearment in some parts too but I just wanted y’all to know. 

This turned into the biggest one I’ve ever done too with 362 dot points... read if you dare

Well here we go

I’m probably gonna cry a lot

I love Saul Rubinek. 

I adore him in Warehouse 13

Artie Neilson is like the dad I didn’t have

but fuck me if I don’t hate Emmet

This WHOLE two parter is pointless and just serves to kill of a character that didn’t need to die 

Anyway getting into that a little early on

Fuck the defence department. 

You haven’t spoken to Space Dad of Texas

The most unorthodox

JFC this ass hole

I’m calling him AssHole for the rest of the episodes

Of course they don’t want them here, he’s a dick 

Hammond’s little smile

This whole episode feels sombre and sad

and we’re three minutes into the two parter

this whole thing is about to fall to shit

credits

i’m not even excited for the credits

because I’m hurting

last time I watched this I’d started crying the second it started so I’m doing much better this time 

I love watching them go up the ramp  to the gate

its nice

end credits

NO ONE ASKED YOU SAUL

that was a bomb

but NO ONE ASKED YOU 

And Teryl Rothery as Dr. Janet Fraiser

FUCK OFF

He doesn’t have time

He’s busy

Lol coughed on his hand and went to shake Saul’s hand

dead

memos... as if Jack’s ever read one of those

Sam is so awkward

I love her so much

It is nothing short of extraodinary 

she is nothing short of extraordinary and we know this

but again

NOT ONE ASKED YOU ASSHOLE

and grand empress of scifi

grand empress of my heart 

goof ball

the list goes on

god she’s so awkward’

but so adorable 

Thats fine

please annoy Daniel 

What was it like to be dead ffs

TRANSCENDED? DID YOU PAY ANY ATTENTION???

What else is he supposed to say?! He DIED he doesn’t REMEMBER ANYTHING

Daniel’s right

Its fascinating 

LOL DANIEL YOU STUPID IDIOT THATS HILARIOUS

I love Daniel when he’s pissing off people i hate

Bill <3 

Personal microwave oven... nice

And its only taken you 7 years

so glad you did though

Odd that he was on fire

but we never see that happen any other times

“He does this all the time” poor Siler

Sam looks so happy when talking technobable and about her doohickeys. 

I adore her

And honestly all that shits fascinating 

still 32 minutes left... 

honestly if it weren’t for me talking about Janets death, I’d never watch these again. 

They are genuinely some of the worst episodes of SG1

I said what I said

“Sure. Its really cool. Steam comes out of it and everything”

She’s gonna kill someone

WALTER

Thats right

FUCK OFF SAUL

DOESN’T MEAN THERE WASN’T ANY GOA’ULD HERE RECENTLY

I love that they take odds

but this scene is only here to set up the character that is the reason Janet dies

because Janet shouldn’t have been off base

but we’re not going to talk about that are we? 

The episode would have played out the same if this man had died

Anyone can die in war

Doesn’t matter if they’re a parent etc

but nah

we gotta - 

sorry I’ll stop

SHE’S SO HOT 

JACK YOU IDIOT

As if he read the memo

THERE SHOULD BE A CAKE

Obviously he can’t tell you much because he was DEAD

OMG TEAL’C

HE’S NOT SAYING A WORD

BECAUSE HE FUCKING HATES THIS GUY MORE THAN I DO

SAUL SHUT UP

LITERALLY NO ONE CARES 

GO HOME

“Dr Jackson is going to die when he sees this”

“What again?”

my dude you have NO idea

This is what happens when you go poking around

you get ambushed

because it was all a fucking set up

no explination of WHO set them up tho... it was just a set up

what

a

joke

wooooooow

they took it out with a WALL

NOT THIS FUCKING ARSE HOLE

KINSEY JUST PISS OFF 

WE DON’T LIKE YOU

WE DON’T WANT YOU

GO SUCK A ROTTEN TOMATO

EVEN SAUL IS BORED OF YOU

AND HE’S THE MOST BORING MAN I’VE EVER MET

leave Jack alone

YES JACK

Its not slander if its TRUE YOU WANKER

NO YOU HAVE NOT

PAST AND PRESENT YOU ASS

JFC

Who cares what the president wants

I am 90% sure Jack just called Kinsey a limp dick and I’ve never been prouder? 

“deep and unyielding love for you, sir” SHUT UP JACK YOU GOOSE 

Well Mr Bregman can such a toe

Fancy arguing with Space Dad from Texas

OH FUCK OFF SAUL

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

NO ONE CARES

HAMMOND IS RIGHT

PEOPLE ARE GOING TO DIE IF YOU’RE THERE

PEOPLE ARE GOING TO GET HURT

YOU HAVE NO RIGT TO BE THERE

Sam joking around with Teal’c is so sweet

I love them and their friendship so much

Gah!

OF COURSE THERE IS A CHANCE THINGS WILL GO WRONG YOU NARCACISTIC FUCK

ITS LIKE TO GO MORE WRONG WITH YOU THERE

I’M SORRY I’M YELLING SO MUCH I JUST HATE HIM WITH MY ENTIRE BODY.

Well is he wrong? 

Because you’re an absolute arse, thats why it doesn’t matter

Shots of your ass serve us all well O’Neill

“How do you feel about Colonel O’Neill”

She wishes to kiss him, sir. 

And potentially much more but we shall no discuss that here

He is amazing

Time outside of work... what are you insinuating

Good cover

Like family

First and foremost her superior officer

Secondly your LOVER

because I pretend Pete doesn’t exist right now

OH THIS SCENE

Actually that was pretty cute Daniel

And you’re right it is fascinating

At some action? 

So you can be a dick and use peoples death as entertainment? 

Fuck me 

His job is the inscriptions

seriously fuck this guy

I love how Sam’s face goes from he’s right its boring to aww Daniel, he didn’t :O

I love their friendship

But it nearly could have cause people like oh, I don’t know, YOUR BOYFRIEND, SAMANTHA, stalk people

shouldn’t have stayed as long as you did

if y’all hadn’t stayed

this wouldn’t have happened

Janet my love 

I’m crying

wow Jack has been hurt a fuck tonne

he didn’t give permission

Saul is an ass

I’m literally fighting tears right now

I fucking love her so much 

You never know what to expect but you do such a good job sweetie 

I’m so proud of you

The more she talks the more proud of her I am

and the more of a loss it truly is that she goes

because she’s fucking incredible and she has so much heart 

her little laugh fucking STOP

My heart is literally breaking 

AND DR FRAISER

STOP

THEY WOULDN’T HAVE JUST WALKED INTO AN AMBUSH LIKE THAT ON ANY OLD DAY

WHY NOW

WHO WROTE THIS FUCKING SHIT

FUCK OFF SAUL

THIS IS RIDICULOUS

HER GIGGLE STOP I LOVE HER 

SHE DESERVED MORE

DO NOT GO

JANET NO STAY

BABY

and we end there to go to part two

this episode felt weird

it feels like is a drama inside a drama does that make sense? 

It kinda feels like 200

like it feels fake and like its about to cut to a shot of them sitting around a table, flabergasted and with their heads in their hands

So Robert C. Cooper wrote it

I just wanna talk buddy... just wanna talk

THEY AIRED THIS FUCKER THE DAY BEFORE VALENTIES DAY?!?! WTF SYFY?!

Alright starting episode 2

SAUL FUCK OFF YOU CAN’T BE THERE

JANET BABY DON’T GOOOOOOO

I AM CRYING

I have my pillow pet who is named Janet

She was a gag gift about 7 years ago and I was watching SG1 at the time

but also she just looked like a Janet

She’s become a staple in my life and I love her 

Anyway she always gets me through these episodes

credits

still not into it right now

should have skipped them this episode tbh

end credits

Ordered chocolate cake

it arrived

i’m happy with this choice

I don’t give a fuck about them deciding what happens in the fucking video

Good answer Daniel

I could also watch Major Carter’s head talk all day

They didn’t stand a fucking chance out there

They ran into that situation totally unprepared

which they would never have done normally

this whole two parter is fucking bull shit

and then they pit Jack and Janet against each other... like who are we gonna be more upset to lose in this moment

Fuck Jack

baby noooo

I can’t take this episode ffs

Lol Walter being cute

Get out of there

You cunt

get that fucking camera off 

fuck this guy

no Sam

fuck off 

leave her alone

punch him in the face

oh Sam honey I’m so sorry

she lost her best friend

FUCK OF SAUL

JESUS 

HER BEST FRIEND JUST DIED 

SHE’S IN PAIN

YOU DO NOT GET TO DICTATE WHETHER PEOPLE GET FILMED WHEN SHE’S CLEARLY IN PAIN

I’LL TURN YOU OFF YOU FUCKING ARSE HOLE FUCK YOU

don’t sit there all upset like your day has been ruined

And now we have them making us think Jack died so that we worry about him the entire episode instead of Janet

because who cares about her right?

FUCKING WOOLSEY

I literally just screamed

i hate him

this episode can’t get any FUCKING WORSE

I also question the decision. 

No offence Space Dad of Texas

but it doens’t make sense that you chose to do what you did

I’m sorry but it doesn’t 

FUCK OOOOOOFFFF WOOOSLEY

Hammond visiting Carter <3 

Ah Barrett

So Woolsey is a corrupt piece of shit

Whoda thunk it

I’m crying again

Poor Hammond

Poor Sam

Talking at the memorial man

OH GOOD MORE WOOLSEY

BECAUSE THIS EPISODE ISN’T GOOD ENOUGH...

Fuck him

And the truth is that you’re a dick, moving on

Daniel has a point... and I hate saying that but he has a point

I love Sam

Daniel doesn’t give a fuck

Go Daniel I’m proud of you

OH NOT SAUL AND THE F U C K I N G CAMERA

NO PISS OFF

This is cruel

to make us see her death

to show us her literal dead body was too fucking much

I’m sorry but this would have been just as powerful if Simons had died

Hes a good kid

but this would have had the same impact

I’m sick of this man

I’m sick of this shit

OH MY GOD GO THE FUCK AWAY YOU PIECE OF SHIT

Which is why you bastards should not have been in the fucking field

It was of a man dying

end of

Yeah but what they do every single day doesn’t mean show us JANETS DEATH

Sharing it with the world won’t make him feel any better about one of his best friends getting show you mole

Good, Woolsey again

suck my dick

So this guy put money values on peoples heads

and he got command of Atlantis? 

Yeah fuck him I’m not watching s5 of Atlantis

to be fair $27 million is a lot of money

but its still peopls lives

fuck off you smarmy git

I would love to see him tossed out on his arse

He can do that

fuck off you don’t get to say in whether or not you’re there or have a right to be there

you’re invading on peoples privacy

you’re an ass

The Tape

Fuck the N.I.D

I actually feel really bad for Daniel

fuck you Bregman

so excited to see people’s deaths

I had to pause for a moment

because I just saw Janet die

and its cruel

We didn’t have to see her death

knowing it happened was bad enough 

physically seeing her dead is like salt in the wound

Janet deserved so much more than this

hope you’re happy bregman

sam visiting Jack

hurts because i love the cute moment

but it hurts

because we shuoldn’t have had to lose janet for this

Cassie... my heart is broken

the way he looks at her when she starts crying and the hug  like he has been there with her so many times 

its all so sweet 

and they’re so in love but they can’t have each other

its rude 

Poor Simon... 

Poor Sam

watching her cry is so hard

and Teal’c 

guys i’m not sure i can finsih this

ok sorry I’m back

Gotta pick up Cassie

Cassie 100% lived with Sam right? 

Oh Teal’c... i love you so, so much you sweet angel

and the little hug.. their friendship is beautiful

I’m so sick of Bregman at this point

and them being in the room where Daniel died, where Jack chose to get his symbiote, where they saved Cassie and Sam and countless others, where they helped Teal’c

Janet was so strong, so wise

oh Daniel... I’m sorry 

It does but others don’t need to see it Daniel

Oh fuck I’ll be back after the memorial

its such a beautiful memorial

and Im glad they chose Sam to talk 

I’m gonna say some more in my final notes

its hard right now with the tears

I still think you’re an absolute arse, Saul

This was kinda sweet actually

oh they named the baby Janet

i’m never gonna stop crying 

Oh Jack

he’s so unimpressed

what a stupid way to end it

sorry but that was shit

Final thoughts

i genuinely hate these episodes. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever watch them again. Even with another watch through.. they’re not as well written or directed as other episodes, they’re unbelievable in the cannon of the show and breaks their own rules, not to mention the sheer heartbreak

Bregman is one of the most unlikeable characters in the show. If Simmons had of been alive he could have been in the episode too just to add to the trifecta of cunts!

Cassie should have been at the memorial

they make you think Jack is dead so we won’t worry about janet to what? make it more of a shock? because it doesn’t work. It should never have been designed to make us feel relief at Janet’s death because it wasn’t Jack! It doesn’t do her justice. 

Janet Fraiser was a smart woman with a massive heart. She was brave and strong and she cared for everyone even when they were arseholes. She had a bit of fun with SG1 sometimes too. She was an incredible Dr, mother and friend.  Janet was tiny but tough. Something that i aim for. I’m 5ft2 so basically the same as Janet and believe it or not i’ve had people question my ability to be a good teacher because noone will take me seriously. Janet always made me feel like people would take me seriously and that even though I’m small, I can do big things. She encouraged me to be a good person with a heart of gold. Her death hits really hard for that reason. but also because she was an incredible character who deserved more than what she was given. Hardly any screen time and then murdered to make some sort of point that didn’t need making??? Not to mention she’s mentioned twice in the next three seasons and when she “comes back” in Ripple Effect she spends almost no time with Sam which makes exactly 0 sense. 

Someone recently said they heard she was killed because the writers didn’t know how much more time they had and wanted to wrap some stuff up? Lets not forget that they made the end of this season a huge cliff hanger... but I’m still not sure what we could wrap up with her death? She had a fucking child!

Any way I won’t be watching this again. I’m sorry this isn’t much fun but hopefully you’ve got a giggle out of me swearing at the idiots 

I love you all for reading this and supporting me posts, they’re usually pretty fun to make honestly!

[elcorhamletlive]

MCU Rewatch: Guardians of The Galaxy, Vol. 2

(yes, I realize the order is wrong. I’m not skipping Doctor Strange, I promise - I just messed up the order in my head and had to just go with it lol)

There’s nothing I don’t love about that first battle scene. SO FUN. BABY GROOT DANCING. And I love that each of the Guardians has a small interaction with him, which kind of hints a little at the theme of parenting that’s gonna be so huge in this movie.

I love that Gamora is like “Groot be careful! ...Also, hi”. I feel like Gamora has this... almost awkwardness about her that makes her really endearing, and really sets her apart from other MCU female characters, especially at this point when there’s so few of them.

“I HAVE SINGLE-HANDLEDLY VANQUISHED THE BEAST!” cracks me up. lol

I know Drax’s comic relief can be overused at times but Dave Bautista just kills me and I adore every time he opens his mouth lmao

I think one of my favorite things about this franchise in general is that everything about it is just so unapologetically WEIRD. Like. Everything about the Sovereign. Gamora kindly providing support to Peter about his dad and then earnestly going “if he’s evil, we’ll just kill him” in the end (and Peter doesn’t react). Nebula’s mini quest to eat the fruit. Peter thoughtfully staring at a picture of David Hasselhof and then to Ego. I love it.

Awww, Rocket singing for Groot to sleep. So cute.

I also love Nebula’s thirst for violence feaking Kraglin out. I feel like one thing that this movie does right with its female characters is that it allows them to be as weird and off-putting as the universe around them, as opposed to making them pristine and put together.

I understand and agree with most of the criticisms of the treatment Mantis gets in this movie, but I really like her relationship with Drax. I think the moment where she touches him and breaks down is such a beautiful scene.

Groot with the human toe never fails to make me smile.

This movie is visually stunning. So many gorgeous shots.

Saldana and Pratt have so much chemistry. The scene where Peter and Gamora dance is so good. I like that them getting together isn’t just about Peter learning to be less of a manchild, but also about Gamora learning to open up. It’s a mutual journey.

I love that Gamora is just sitting in an empty planet, a ship shows up and starts shooting at her, and she just immediately KNOWS it’s Nebula. lol

The fact that Nebula blames Gamora for Thanos’ abuse of her is like. TOO REAL for a movie about spaceships, and it’s one of the things that make this franchise special.

Ego is a villain that has “evil” written on his forehead since his very first shot, true, but I love how the narrative makes him appeal to Quill’s arrogance by talking up all this shit about how important he is, and how meaningless and pointless everything else around them is, and then rejects it as an evil position. Ego is kind of embodiment of some very toxic traditional male narratives, and the way the movie openly tears them apart, instead valuing the found family and the love that living beings share for each other, gives me life.

It’s a small thing, but I have feelings about how fucking horrified Gamora is after Mantis plays with her emotions and makes her scared. I feel like it hits her in a very personal level (a loss of autonomy she didn’t experience even under Thanos), but also I feel like it’s a glimpse of how fucking terrifying Mantis’ abilities can truly be. Girl is one sense of morality away from being Killgrave.

“All you do is yell at each other. You’re not friends.” “You’re right. We’re family. And we leave no one behind” is like, a nice sum up of everything I love about these movies.

The tape sequence cracks me up. And “I’m Mary Poppins, y’all!” always makes me smile.

I don’t like the moment where the rock hits Mantis’ head. This, I think, is a rare moment where the humor does break the epicness of the moment.

I feel like I haven’t said anything about Rocket or Yondu’s arc here, and it’s weird because those are my favorite parts of the movie by a mile, but it’s an arc that actually hits deeply to me for reasons I can’t fully explain. Guardians was the first the MCU movie I watched, so before I fell into the Steve pit, Rocket was my favorite MCU character, and I love everything this movie does with him. How he’s so terrible, all the time, and how his characterization is consistent, and how he’s called out on it by someone who does exactly the same thing (and we can look back on this movie and the previous and be like “oh, yeah, they both totally do this”). The way he shoots Gamora and says he can only lose one friend today, and how Drax grows desperate in the background going “where’s Quill?”. I love it.

“You are a God. If you kill me, you’ll be just like everybody else.” “What’s so wrong with that?” <33333333333333333333 NOT ENOUGH HEARTS IN THE WORLD FOR TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL.

“I’m sorry I didn’t do none of it right. But I’m damn lucky you was my boy” is one of the lines in the MCU that makes me cry the hardest. It’s hard to explain without getting into, like, extensive personal detail, but... this movie just makes me think of my dad, for several reasons, and how he and Yondu share some weird similarities, and how much this closure hits me hard because I’d like to get something like this one day. 

And I fucking love that “the thing you were looking for all along was right by your side” is framed to refer to Gamora and Nebula’s relationship, instead of her romance with Peter.

The way Nebula immediately turns in a fighting stance when Gamora touches her. That tentative hug. “You’ll always be my sister”. God.

Kraglin calling Peter “Pete” <333

“FATHER AND SON”. THE FINAL TEN MINUTES OF THIS MOVIE ARE JUST WATERWORKS.

Okay, it’s over, and I stopped crying. There are two scenes that just fuck me in this movie: the first one is Yondu’s death, for the reasons I mentioned about; the second one is Rocket watching Yondu’s funeral. I just... love the wonder in his face when he sees the Ravagers came, that even though Yondu fucked up and drove them away, they still came for him in the end. The overall message of Rocket’s arc, that no matter how much you hate yourself and try to make everyone around you hate you back, people still can, and will, love you. I just... this movie fucks me up so much, guys. I love everything about it. It isn’t as tight as the first Guardians, there are a few awkward bits and a few jokes that don’t really land, but it’s so ambitious, it does so much, it unites every character in a single theme and it deals with all their arcs so well. I love it. I love it so much.