#php memory

[blackmoreops]

Out of Memory OOM Killer issue Investigation

Wednesday morning our monitoring solution suddenly alerted me to a critical issue with our main web server. Attempting to access our WordPress website via browser returned database connection errors, indicating a problem with our hosting environment. When I logged into the server via SSH, I discovered it’s a Linux Out of Memory (OOM) Killer terminating our MariaDB database service due to memory…

[opendirectories]

hey! i hope it’s not a secret or something you don’t wanna share but where do you find all these photos?? since they’re not the typical aesthetic pinterest finds but actually feel like real life

either way i love your account!! it brings back memories of growing up in the 2000s

There's no great secret to finding the images, it's just a simple google trick that will search for websites that have open directories that anyone can browse.

This link (which tumblr won't let me hotlink) is a good starting point: https://www.google.com/search?q=-inurl:(htm|html|php) intitle:”index of” +”last modified” +”parent directory” +description +size +(jpg|gif)

From there i tweak and add more specific terms to get different results. A really good google "hack" i recently discovered is including before:{year} in the search terms to only get results prior to that year. This filters out loads of more recent rubbish that generally isn't very interesting. It's also really useful for more general googling and can help strip out SEO & AI nonsense that has pretty much ruined google as a search engine.

I don't share the actual source directories, partly because i don't really keep track of them once they've been plundered, and also because sometimes you find personal information that shouldn't really be for public consumption.

Hope this helps!

[kommandonuovidiavoli]

Side B Masterpost

Presentation: what is Side B?

Involved so Far: @numbuhinfinitys (who gave me the initial idea) @artsygirl0315 @kandykatz @numbuh-72 @secret-sector-antag @izzy-art-879 @bugtoonz

Showtime AU Testing Sector PHP (Ft. Sector PHP) Irwin meets Gianna (Ft. Gianna) Daycare Bulies (By Auntie) Babysitter: She was Saved! (By Kandy) Babysitter 2: Steve is a Bad Brother (By Itz-bug) Babysitter 3: It's getting spoopy (By Artsy) Drinks (Ft. Starlizlia)

Teen AU Lava Mermaid (By Glitch) Penny and Reyna (By Glitch) Aiden's NukeBirthday (By Kandy) Penny Meets Carol (By Kandy) Gianna Meets Albert (Ft. Gianna) Teen Holly Claus (by Kandy) Mermaid Hunting Quest (By Auntie) Mermaid???? (By Izzy) Mermaid Babysitter (Ft. Gianna) ¿Que? (By Auntie) Too Teen (Ft. Artsy)

Adult AU Color Your Life (By Auntie) A Bittersweet Memory (Ft. Gianna)

AUs: Mourning AU (by Artsy) -1- -2- -3- -4- -5- Night-Day Terrors AU (by Kandy) -1- -2-

[c-official]

Tierlist part 3: Rust

But first corrections. As some have pointed out i of course should have interpreted C++ as an increment. I will note that i model the system as signed integers putting C at 0 and not chars to make the ordering reflect the ranking. Thus C++ increments C and evaluates to the same putting them both at B tier. This has been corrections. Now Rust. I absolutely love rust so its an easy S tier. The way you structure data with it structs and enums combined with the trait system is just a delight to work with. So... Wait. Uhmmm, it seems that i have reached a problem. Due to previous indiscretions Rust does not trust me anymore and has locked itself away from me. Due to its memory safety there is not really anything i can do so lets just leave it there for now.

Part 2

[the-nox-syndicate]

SysNotes devlog 1

Hiya! We're a web developer by trade and we wanted to build ourselves a web-app to manage our system and to get to know each other better. We thought it would be fun to make a sort of a devlog on this blog to show off the development! The working title of this project is SysNotes (but better ideas are welcome!)

What SysNotes is✅:

A place to store profiles of all of our parts

A tool to figure out who is in front

A way to explore our inner world

A private chat similar to PluralKit

A way to combine info about our system with info about our OCs etc as an all-encompassing "brain-world" management system

A personal and tailor-made tool made for our needs

What SysNotes is not❌:

A fronting tracker (we see no need for it in our system)

A social media where users can interact (but we're open to make it so if people are interested)

A public platform that can be used by others (we don't have much experience actually hosting web-apps, but will consider it if there is enough interest!)

An offline app

So if this sounds interesting to you, you can find the first devlog below the cut (it's a long one!):

(I have used word highlighting and emojis as it helps me read large chunks of text, I hope it's alright with y'all!)

Tech stack & setup (feel free to skip if you don't care!)

The project is set up using:

Database: MySQL 8.4.3

Language: PHP 8.3

Framework: Laravel 10 with Breeze (authentication and user accounts) and Livewire 3 (front end integration)

Styling: Tailwind v4

I tried to set up Laragon to easily run the backend, but I ran into issues so I'm just running "php artisan serve" for now and using Laragon to run the DB. Also I'm compiling styles in real time with "npm run dev". Speaking of the DB, I just migrated the default auth tables for now. I will be making app-related DB tables in the next devlog. The awesome thing about Laravel is its Breeze starter kit, which gives you fully functioning authentication and basic account management out of the box, as well as optional Livewire to integrate server-side processing into HTML in the sexiest way. This means that I could get all the boring stuff out of the way with one terminal command. Win!

Styling and layout (for the UI nerds - you can skip this too!)

I changed the default accent color from purple to orange (personal preference) and used an emoji as a placeholder for the logo. I actually kinda like the emoji AS a logo so I might keep it.

Laravel Breeze came with a basic dashboard page, which I expanded with a few containers for the different sections of the page. I made use of the components that come with Breeze to reuse code for buttons etc throughout the code, and made new components as the need arose. Man, I love clean code 😌

I liked the dotted default Laravel page background, so I added it to the dashboard to create the look of a bullet journal. I like the journal-type visuals for this project as it goes with the theme of a notebook/file. I found the code for it here.

I also added some placeholder menu items for the pages that I would like to have in the app - Profile, (Inner) World, Front Decider, and Chat.

i ran into an issue dynamically building Tailwind classes such as class="bg-{{$activeStatus['color']}}-400" - turns out dynamically-created classes aren't supported, even if they're constructed in the component rather than the blade file. You learn something new every day huh…

Also, coming from Tailwind v3, "ps-*" and "pe-*" were confusing to get used to since my muscle memory is "pl-*" and "pr-*" 😂

Feature 1: Profiles page - proof of concept

This is a page where each alter's profiles will be displayed. You can switch between the profiles by clicking on each person's name. The current profile is highlighted in the list using a pale orange colour.

The logic for the profiles functionality uses a Livewire component called Profiles, which loads profile data and passes it into the blade view to be displayed. It also handles logic such as switching between the profiles and formatting data. Currently, the data is hardcoded into the component using an associative array, but I will be converting it to use the database in the next devlog.

New profile (TBC)

You will be able to create new profiles on the same page (this is yet to be implemented). My vision is that the New Alter form will unfold under the button, and fold back up again once the form has been submitted.

Alter name, pronouns, status

The most interesting component here is the status, which is currently set to a hardcoded list of "active", "dormant", and "unknown". However, I envision this to be a customisable list where I can add new statuses to the list from a settings menu (yet to be implemented).

Alter image

I wanted the folder that contained alter images and other assets to be outside of my Laravel project, in the Pictures folder of my operating system. I wanted to do this so that I can back up the assets folder whenever I back up my Pictures folder lol (not for adding/deleting the files - this all happens through the app to maintain data integrity!). However, I learned that Laravel does not support that and it will not be able to see my files because they are external. I found a workaround by using symbolic links (symlinks) 🔗. Basically, they allow to have one folder of identical contents in more than one place. I ran "mklink /D [external path] [internal path]" to create the symlink between my Pictures folder and Laravel's internal assets folder, so that any files that I add to my Pictures folder automatically copy over to Laravel's folder. I changed a couple lines in filesystems.php to point to the symlinked folder:

And I was also getting a "404 file not found" error - I think the issue was because the port wasn't originally specified. I changed the base app URL to the localhost IP address in .env:

…And after all this messing around, it works!

(My Pictures folder)

(My Laravel storage)

(And here is Alice's photo displayed - dw I DO know Ibuki's actual name)

Alter description and history

The description and history fields support HTML, so I can format these fields however I like, and add custom features like tables and bullet point lists.

This is done by using blade's HTML preservation tags "{!! !!}" as opposed to the plain text tags "{{ }}".

(Here I define Alice's description contents)

(And here I insert them into the template)

Traits, likes, dislikes, front triggers

These are saved as separate lists and rendered as fun badges. These will be used in the Front Decider (anyone has a better name for it?? 🤔) tool to help me identify which alter "I" am as it's a big struggle for us. Front Decider will work similar to FlowCharty.

What next?

There's lots more things I want to do with SysNotes! But I will take it one step at a time - here is the plan for the next devlog:

Setting up database tables for the profile data

Adding the "New Profile" form so I can create alters from within the app

Adding ability to edit each field on the profile

I tried my best to explain my work process in a way that wold somewhat make sense to non-coders - if you have any feedback for the future format of these devlogs, let me know!

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Disclaimers:

I have not used AI in the making of this app and I do NOT support the Vibe Coding mind virus that is currently on the loose. Programming is a form of art, and I will defend manual coding until the day I die.

Any alter data found in the screenshots is dummy data that does not represent our actual system.

I will not be making the code publicly available until it is a bit more fleshed out, this so far is just a trial for a concept I had bouncing around my head over the weekend.

We are SYSCOURSE NEUTRAL! Please don't start fights under this post

[shuaboo]

ATE I LOVED THE JIWOONG FIC (๑♡∀♡๑) pero like I was thinking like what the jebes be like as filo students? (Feel ko si gunwook siya yung model student na nasa recruitment posters AHHAHAHAHA) I haven't found many filo zb1 writers on tumblr kasi (/ω＼) you can totally ignore this if you want, no hard feelings (•ω•). Continue writing happily and stay healthy ٩(๛ ˘ ³˘)۶♥

hi baks hehe sorry ngayon lang, nung nakita ko kasi ‘to i loved the idea kaso walang napasok sa isip ko!! ohmygoshhh! pero i’m here na may masasagot na ang vadeng 😍💋. thank you for the love sa jw fic, stay healthy as well!!

a/n: sorry if messy siya, late ko na kasi ginawa~

i feel like jiwoong is the type of student na escort. like pag intrams siya lagi napipili maging escort ng muse, kasi sobrang pogi niya. 100% CAMPUS CRUSH material siya!! he’s sporty, so he plays basketball probably? so pag naglalaro siya do expect na may mga babaeng makikinood sa prac 🤪. mga nakakalokang nanonood daw kasi mahilig sa basketball pero si jiwoong lang naman talaga ang pinunta. che! anyway, although sporty siy hindi siya pabaya sa pag aaral. he’s in no means an honor student, but he’s decent.

si zhang hao naman isa ‘to sa mga matatalino talaga sa classroom. favorite siya ng mga teacher kasi mabait siya and magaling sa subjects, pero sa friends niya palamura siya at grabe chismoso. updated na updated lagi siya sa chika, pero he’s not the type to snitch naman. since he also plays the violin, feel ko nasasama lagi siya sa talent show. pero in fairness, kahit chismoso with high honors siya HAHAHA 😭. wag ka hihingi ng sagot sa kanya, baka mali pa ibigay.

sa tingin ko si hanbin matalino and honor student din. he’s the type of classmate you can rely on talaga. malinis notes, very organized, classroom officer, ganern! pag humingi ka ng sagot, di ka bibigyan pero tuturuan ka 🥺. ganon siya kabait. kaso tropa niya si hao, so minsan nalabas ang demonyo ni hanbin pag magkasama sila. marami din nagkakacrush sa kanya, especially mga lower level students, bait kasi eh. btw galit yan sa mga di naglilinis kahit araw nila maging cleaner.

eto si matthew boys at the back ‘to eh. sobrang ingay jusko!! class clown siya pero hindi yung parang shonga. nakakatawa talaga siya. minsan nabblangko pag tinatawag sa recitation in subjs like science or math, pero pakagaling pagdating sa english. magaling siya sumayaw, so napuput din siya sa mga talent emerut. at dahil nga magaling siya sumayaw, siya lagi nagiging choreo pagdating sa mga activity na required ang danceee. decent student lang din, may mga teacher lang na ayaw sa kanya kasi malakas bonganga niya.

huhuuuu omg si taerae feel ko campus crush din siya! imagine, magaling mag guitar, singer, cute smile, deep voice, nice laugh, and deep dimples. dream boy talaga!! super super crush ko ‘to if magiging kaklase ko siya. HAHAHAH 😭 minsan may dala dalang gitara sa school para mag jamming yung classroom, super core memory. expect mo na pag naglabas siya ng gitara may mga babae na aasarin kasi kunwari “kakantahan sila ni taerae.” HAHAHAH cutiee. i feel like nasa band siya with other students/classmates, for let’s say like a school performance ganon. basta, cutie gitarista na dream boy ng mga girls!

rich kid ‘to si ricky! lagi malaki baon. for one week siguro ang baon niya total nasa PHP 2,500. lagi may nagpapalibre sa kanya ehem gyuvin pero di na lang niya pinapansin HAHAHAHA. eto pa, crush din ‘to ng bayan eh. isa pang 100% CAMPUS CRUSH MATERIALLL jusko! tahimik lang si ricky, he prefers to keep to himself and/or stay close to his circle. he is not keen on making new friends kasi he’s introverted. a lot of people confess to him, pero wala pa siyang narereciprocate. inaasaw siya ng mga kaibigan niya kasi kahit tahimik lang siya, madaming nagkakacrush sa kanya. he’s a basketball player din! he really loves the sport and he plays it often. on the team along with jiwoong, so if hindi si jiwoong ang pinupunta ng mga babae, most likely si ricky. 😂

eto pa isang boys at the back eh, si gyuvin! he is maingay pag katabi friends niya, pero when he’s alone tahimik lang. tropa niya si ricky at gunwook, and the three of them practically adopted their junior: han yujin. lagi siya nagpapalibre at nagpapahotspot kay ricky. he’s like a loser pero hindi in a derogatory way. he’s a loser as in he nerds abt his interests, fav topic niya si eumppappa, and he also prefers to just interact with people who are within his circle. he’s not as popular as his friends, but he’s okay with it. magaling din sumayaw si gyuvin. natulong sa pag gawa ng choreo and nagcocompete din sa mga talent show! other dancers praise him for his control sa katawan niya kapag nasayaw, kasi matangkad siya and it’s applaudable how he is able to balance his height with his moves.

my babyyy my love gunwook! tropa ni ricky and gyuvin. right off the bat he is definitely a class officer, and a part of the general student council in the school. super talino ni gunwook, lagi siya kasali sa mga debates, quiz bees, and other academic contests. basta acads, siya ang pambato! although busy siya with those, grabe ang ingay niya pagkasama ang tropa, lalo na pag nandoon si gyuvin. nagpprovide ng notes yan for gyuvin and ricky, kasi malamang tropa eh. siya din nagtututor sa kanila pag nahihirapan sa subjects, para hindi sial behind. other than that, dancer and basketball player din si gunwook. last na, promise! 3/3 sa basketaball players ng group. pag nakakashoot siya, ang daming nasigaw sa kilig, tapos siya pa mahihiya. so cute:(. kasabwat siya ni gyuvin gulohin si yujin, minsan nga siya pa nagpapaalam sa nanay ni yujin pag gusto isama sa gala. matik oo yan, duh! perks of the student council memberzz! madalaa natambay silasa fishball-an sa tapat ng school, libre daw ni ricky eh.

si yujin yung kawawang junior na laging nasa sama sa kalokohan nila gyuvin. kahit magkaiba siya ng grade kela gunwook, almost aligned ang scheds nika kaya sila lagi kasama ni yujin. inaasar siya kasi baka daw madami nagkakacrush sa kanya. tapos may mga kaklase siya na tinatanong kung paano niya naging tropa yung higher level, pero ang sinasagot niya na sila yung lumapit sa kaniya kaya ngaun friends na sila. (yun naman talaga nangyare pakakulit kasi ni gyuvin pogi!) of course isa pa siya sa mga dancer. he’s one of very few sa buong klase nila, kaya nagiging pambato din siya sa mga talent show. choreographer din ng mga performance task ng group niya pag kailangan ng steps. tambay sa canteen at binibigyan ng discount nung nagtitinda kasi crush siya nung anak ng tindera HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

[artsygirl0315]

SECTOR PHP | Blue Moon AU

(Finally made the blorbos! It took a while but I made it!)

After Gianna's death was reported through Global Intercomission from Moonbase, Sector PHP was devastated and mourned her death by showing up to her grave and leaving gifts in honor of her memory.

Jeremiah and Phoebe took it more personally, Tyler tried his best to lead his team and help them cope to the best of his abilities, Mella and Evan did what they can to provide comfort and attention despite their sadness.

Since then, They did whatever they could to help around in her household. They too were in the process of grief but that slowly turned to one simple emotion, Rage.

When unsuspecting creatures come to their neighborhood and started going on rampage by terrorizing the people who resided in them, They became aware and used all that pent up emotion to help fight them off.

They began roaming the streets even after knowing that their despair would only attract these things towards them them.

And that's what they wanted.

They divided into each section of the neighborhood to fight against these creatures, getting their blood sticking to every fabric of their attires. But that didn't matter.

A ray of strength from their rage and adrenaline made them incapable of stopping, Fighting off and helping those in need.

Jeremiah finally made use of his inventions that he kept hidden from Moonbase, A form of 'test running'.

It made damage to every crescent of these fiends, Just as intended.

This wasn't just a fight, This was war.

Mini Facts:

•The black substance that coated their bodies are from fighting creatures left and right.

•Weapons used are one that Jeremiah has hidden from Moonbase, Untested yet very effective.

•The black marks on their faces are also from the blood of the creatures in their previous fights.

That's all I've got for now, Credits to @numbuh-72 for the awesome AU! Stay awesome!!💙

[phail]

POST CANCELED! My weighted stuffed elephants name is Toto 💞 (and yes, they/them & phey/phem pronouns!)

Original post below

So someone I met in PHP (aka a day psych program to help get me back to functioning as a human in society again instead of the depressed mess I’ve been) got this WEIGHTED stuffed elephant with me (we both have one)

She just told me the name for her elephant is Rebekah. So I texted her back (see above).

Guys, comment below your Dan and Phil related names for my pink anti-anxiety elephant stuffed animal!

I can’t remember all the lore from joining this fandom over a decade ago especially considering my decreasing-by-the-day memory 😭 but I want them to have a dnp related name

[numbuh-72]

"Fan Blades and Earrings" - "I Left Treasures..." Scenario Response 2

(This response is for @artsygirl0315 with her team, Sector PHP)

After seeing Aiden and Carol leave the grave with their presents...Rosella walks up to Sector PHP and speaks softly.

"Gianna would like you guys to pick two items to take home..."

Tyler nods once at Rosella and looks down at Gianna's grave...along with the rest of the members...Phoebe, without a second though, goes up to the grave and chooses Gianna's fan blades as one item, keeping them close and backing up. Jeremiah soon takes a step forward as well and carefully grabs the earrings that Gianna wore all the time.

Both Jeremiah and Phoebe look at Tyler for nod of approval....to which he nodded once.

Mella and Evan were giving a moment of silence to Gianna, closing their eyes and paying their respects to the sweet girl.

Salvador soon came up to the group and hands them a letter.

"Please read this letter when you return to your base..."

Mella turns to Salvador, taking the letter, thanking him. Everyone then looked at one another before looking back at the parents.

"Will you be ok if we went back??" asks Mella with a concerning look.

Rosella gently rests a hand on Mella's shoulder and nods once. "Rest assured Mella dear, we will be ok for the rest of the day. You kids have done so much lately...Please go home and try to rest."

Mella nods once, hugging Rosella before turning to her team and they all head home.

After returning to base, Phoebe and Jeremiah carefully set down the items onto the table and the all begin to stare at the items.

Phoebe could only well up tears on her face and looks away...really upset.

"...I can't believe she's gone...."

Mella could only hug Phoebe in silence...trying to comfort her.

"Gianna did not deserve this at all...she was a great friend...." Jeremiah added on, before looking away himself.

"..Why would this demon girl do this to her?"

Tyler could only ponder the thoughts...feeling a bit frustrated in himself....How come Gianna never told them about Alice? Why would she try to fight her alone? They could've helped Gianna and prevent this from happening!

Tyler's thoughts were snapped out of when Mella opens the letter and begins to read what Gianna left behind.

"Sector PHP, my fun and amazing group of friends,

I'm so sorry that the word came out about my death...I thought I was able to get out of my situation alive...but...fate had other plans. I wish we could've made more memories together since you guys have been nothing but amazing to me. I mean...you were were my welcome wagons after all. Been there for me when I was at my lowest...So, I wanna thank you for that. I instructed my mom to tell you guys to grab two of my possessions as my way of thanking you all.

May my Fan Blades be your weapons of protection against those creatures Alice might make in the future...take very good care of them. Anytime you use my weapon, that will be me in the battlefield, helping you guys, protecting you all.

May my Earrings be my spirit protecting you all from Alice's curse. Whoever wears them, shall be protected spiritually...and will be given my energy to fight back. Please be sure to share the earrings if planning to wear them. I will warn you, however....There isn't much energy left in them..To where it was passed down, you will see when it happens.

One last thing...please try to not feel sad forever my friends....The last thing I want to see in any of my friends is sadness forever. Once all of this is over...please, push forward with smiles. I will always be by your sides wherever you go. If you feel warmth in your area...that'll be me, hugging you for reassurance. I love you all and may you guys emerge victorious." - Gianna

Everyone could only fall silent once Mella finished reading the letter Gianna left behind. Jeremiah thought about what Gianna said about the earrings and looks outside at the Blue Moon. He smiles softly while tears fall from his face.

"Guys....I think I already found out about the earrings mystery."

Everyone else turned to him and followed outside, seeing the Blue Moon. It would make sense to why it suddenly appeared and hasn't gone away since Gianna's passing.

"...So...What are we gonna do now?" Evan questions everyone.

Tyler clutches his fists and goes inside.

"...We must continue with the task at hand...and avenge Gianna."

Phoebe nods in agreement.

"Agreed....that Alice girl must pay for what she did to Gianna, to all of us!"

Jeremiah turns to them with an smirk.

"Luckily...I do happen to have some weapons to test out on those creatures..."

Jeremiah soon goes to his room, taking a moment til he comes back out with some new weapons he was testing. Everyone took a weapon and look at each other, before looking at the moon one last time.

"Hang tight and rest for now, Gianna...We won't let Alice win this war..."

"We will do our best to push forward even after the fight..."

Tyler speaks one last time, before the team left their base, going out to the neighborhoods to fight off the creatures and rescue kids.

[mylittlemystery]

Why I Left

Hey there. It's been quite some time, hasn't it? I want to start this post by saying that I missed all of you, and that the continuous asks left in my inbox along with the wonderful friends I've made via this website is what encouraged me to finally come back - I never intended to leave for this long, but that's besides the point.

TL;DR: I left for two years due to my declining mental health reaching a point where I could no longer sit by and do nothing about it. The asks in my inbox will be being answered, and requests will be published whenever I finish them. I will undoubtedly be slow to respond due to other things I wish to accomplish simultaneously, but for all intents and purposes I have returned - I will be giving this blog a fresh coat of paint before I begin posting anything new.

If you'd like to hear about the nitty gritty details, please see below.

CW: talk of eating disorders, death, declining mental health, suicidal ideation, and self-harm.

Originally, I only intended to be gone for the month of June back in 2022 - I went to a partial hospitalization program (or PHP) for people with eating disorders, and I was told that it should only last from the first to the twenty-ninth. I happen to suffer from both binge eating disorder (BED) and anorexia, so the time I spent there proved to be very impactful and positive for me.

I met some great people. I learned some good coping strategies. I made some long lasting memories.

The day after I had been discharged, someone who I had recently come to look up to and derived a great deal of comfort from passed away - I expect some of you will have been affected by this as well.

Mere months later, I was informed of something extremely difficult involving my extended family with whom I was very close to during my childhood.

The majority of the past two years were spent retreating into myself - my mental health has not been very stable ever since I was rather young, but this was a sort of low point that I had not experienced in a long time. The notion of suicide came very easily to me, and I even resorted to self-harm at the beginning of this year in a poor attempt to cope.

I didn’t want that to be the way things ended.

I went to another PHP program (this one specifically focused on coping with depression), and I have felt better than I have in many moons ever since.

I am coming back to this blog in the hopes that I can continue to make people happy with what I write - after all, this niche little special interest got me through many a dark day myself.

Please keep fighting - I promise that it’s worth it.

You are worthy of love. <3

[mostlysignssomeportents]

This day in history

#20yrsago WIPO notes from day three: democracy == ignoring dissent https://web.archive.org/web/20041124024604/https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/archives/002130.php#002130

#15yrsago Britain’s new Internet law — as bad as everyone’s been saying, and worse. Much, much worse. https://memex.craphound.com/2009/11/19/britains-new-internet-law-as-bad-as-everyones-been-saying-and-worse-much-much-worse/

#5yrsago DJ Earworm: 100 songs from the past decade in one mashup https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=UhIte8t6BEg

#5yrsago Leaks reveal how the “Pitbull of PR” helped Purdue Pharma and the Sacklers ignite the opioid crisis https://www.propublica.org/article/inside-purdue-pharma-media-playbook-how-it-planted-the-opioid-anti-story#171238

#5yrsago Beyond the gig economy: “platform co-ops” that run their own apps https://www.vice.com/en/article/worker-owned-apps-are-trying-to-fix-the-gig-economys-exploitation/

#5yrsago Elizabeth Warren’s plan to denazify America https://medium.com/@teamwarren/fighting-back-against-white-nationalist-violence-87b0c550f51f

#5yrsago Youtube told them to use this “royalty-free” music; now rightsholders are forcing ads on their videos and claiming most of the revenue https://torrentfreak.com/royalty-free-music-supplied-by-youtube-results-in-mass-video-demonetization-191118/

#5yrsago The State of South Dakota wants you to know that it’s on meth https://www.washingtonpost.com/health/2019/11/18/meth-were-it-says-south-dakota-new-ad-campaign/

#5yrsago Sand thieves believed to be behind epidemic of Chinese GPS jamming https://www.technologyreview.com/2019/11/15/131940/ghost-ships-crop-circles-and-soft-gold-a-gps-mystery-in-shanghai/

#5yrsago Quiet Rooms: Illinois schools lead the nation in imprisoning very young, disabled children in isolation chambers https://features.propublica.org/illinois-seclusion-rooms/school-students-put-in-isolated-timeouts/#170648

#5yrsago Terabytes of data leaked from an oligarch-friendly offshore bank https://web.archive.org/web/20191117042726/https://data.ddosecrets.com/file/Sherwood/

#5yrsago Naomi Kritzer’s “Catfishing on the CatNet”: an AI caper about the true nature of online friendship https://memex.craphound.com/2019/11/19/naomi-kritzers-catfishing-on-the-catnet-an-ai-caper-about-the-true-nature-of-online-friendship/

#5yrsago Girl on Film: a graphic novel memoir of a life in the arts and the biological basis for memory-formation https://memex.craphound.com/2019/11/19/girl-on-film-a-graphic-novel-memoir-of-a-life-in-the-arts-and-the-biological-basis-for-memory-formation/

[never-not-ever]

The Last Hour

I'm scrolling on Tik Tok and I land on a clip from Girl Interrupted. It's not triggering or anything so I search "girl interrupted" and just scroll through there. Even a clip of Daisy's suicide didn't bother me.

What got to me was a clip of Lisa in the beginning being dragged out of a room about to be restrained and IM'd. That just brought me right back to the unit. How traumatizing it was, hearing restraints, seeing my close friends in the chair. Lisa in the clip begging "no" echoing what I heard on the unit.

So I went in my kitchen and sat down on the table. There's no chairs and it's not even used as a table it's just against the wall. This table has become a new place for me when things get too much. As I'm typing these words I'm realizing that this table is the corner at the end of the unit, in between a shower room and the QR. I'd sit in that corner because not a lot of people walked down that hall. That corner was my place to go on the unit when things got too much and now this table in my kitchen has become my place. Sad.

Back to the last hour. So I sit on the table and I start recording a video just to get the thoughts out of my head. I don't know why I didn't just type out a note, I guess it's easier to just talk. It was a short video just explaining what had happened (second paragraph up top). And then I was hit with this realization. You see I am my worst critic, I invalidate myself, I worry how things will look if x, y, and z happens. I tell myself you're just playing out these "would be" conversations because you want them to happen. You keep thinking you're going to end up back in the hospital because you want to go back...

I owe a lot more of an update than just the past hour but for the past 3 weeks yes it's been a worry. I've said "I'm surprised I'm not back yet" and "it's probably going to happen soon". But the past few days it's becoming more of a legit fear and I really want to have the conversation with my therapist tomorrow about it. She's a new therapist and I've said those two things above but like it's not actually talked about like reasons to go back, how I would feel, etc.. and for the first time I'm actually going into therapy knowing how I want the session to go.

And my point of this whole post is that I'm finally validating myself that no I do not want to go back to the hospital. My inner critic tells me all the time that I just miss the safety there and being cared for, that I want to go back and I don't need to go back. But after tonight why on earth would I want to go back to a place that has given me so many traumatic memories? Sure there was "safety" although in my case there was only so much they could do to keep me safe and I still found ways around it. Sure it was a "comfort" at times. The staff would listen and I could tell they cared.

But none of that outweighed how much the acuity of the unit affected me. For months all I wanted was to leave, was actually playing a role in my discharge and actively trying to make it happen. All I wanted was to leave, even the day I left when I was filled with so much anxiety and fear, I still wanted to leave. So why on earth would I want to return to that?

go out for a drive whenever I want

cooking

cuddling with my cats

spending time in the bathroom with privacy

walking around my apartment in shorts and a tank top

being able to take my time doing my nails

being able to use my laptop and phone while they're charging

sleeping in total darkness

It's a sad, short list that mostly involves being at home.. *spoiler alert* I'm not in PHP anymore and don't have a job nor do I have a social life. But we'll save all that for an actual update at some point? It's funny all I have is downtime, you'd think I'd be on here live blogging my pathetic excuse of a life.

But for real.. I've grown used to my comforts here and I know for a fact I'm not going back inpatient unless it's needed for my safety.

I guess this post was basically just me proving a point to myself.

[ilaw-at-panitik]

Before I got married, I had a dog – a black mongrel I had named “Sapay Koma,” which is Ilocano for “sana.” It is both a wish and a prayer – difficult to translate into English, unless in context. Koma was my companion throughout the two years I had lived in my dank, quirky apartment – the mute witness to the drama and dilemma preceding my decision to marry. We took him along with us in our move, of course. But the five other dogs in the new household didn’t like him all that much and they all raised such a nonstop racket, none of the humans could sleep, particularly the newborn baby. The neighbors offered to buy him for Php 500. Igorots like black dogs because the meat is tastier. I was aghast. He was my dog, my loyal friend. If anyone was going to eat him, it should be family. So my husband invited his friends over to put Koma out of his misery. I locked myself in our little bedroom with the baby, while they did it. But despite the closed windows, I could still smell the burning hair and later, the meat cooking. The putrid scent seemed to stick to my nose for days after, accusing me of betrayal. I wept for Koma and for all that was dying in the fire – all the wishes that had no place in my new life. I decided that this was the price for what Filipinos like to call “paglagay sa tahimik.” It took two hours for the meat to be tender enough to eat and when we all sat down to dinner, I was glad they didn’t expect me to partake of the canine feast. Yet I did. I took one mouthful, which I swallowed quickly without chewing, so I wouldn’t have to relish the flavors. I may have had the stomach for it, but I didn’t have the heart. I only wanted to show them that I respected their culture, even though in fact, I would never belong. Also, I was hoping that this way, Koma would forgive me for having failed him, for offering him as a sacrifice at the altar of my marriage. This way, we could be truly together.

Jhoanna Lynn Cruz, from "Sapay Koma" (Winner, 3rd prize, Essay in English, Don Carlos Palanca Memorial Awards for Literature 2008)

[vinhjacker1]

The Evolution of PHP: Shaping the Web Development Landscape

In the dynamic world of web development, PHP has emerged as a true cornerstone, shaping the digital landscape over the years. As an open-source, server-side scripting language, PHP has played a pivotal role in enabling developers to create interactive and dynamic websites. Let's take a journey through time to explore how PHP has left an indelible mark on web development.

1. The Birth of PHP (1994)

PHP (Hypertext Preprocessor) came into being in 1994, thanks to Rasmus Lerdorf. Initially, it was a simple set of Common Gateway Interface (CGI) binaries used for tracking visits to his online resume. However, Lerdorf soon recognized its potential for web development, and PHP evolved into a full-fledged scripting language.

2. PHP's Role in the Dynamic Web (Late '90s to Early 2000s)

In the late '90s and early 2000s, PHP began to gain prominence due to its ability to generate dynamic web content. Unlike static HTML, PHP allowed developers to create web pages that could interact with databases, process forms, and provide personalized content to users. This shift towards dynamic websites revolutionized the web development landscape.

3. The Rise of PHP Frameworks (2000s)

As PHP continued to grow in popularity, developers sought ways to streamline and standardize their development processes. This led to the emergence of PHP frameworks like Laravel, Symfony, and CodeIgniter. These frameworks provided structured, reusable code and a wide range of pre-built functionalities, significantly accelerating the development of web applications.

4. PHP and Content Management Systems (CMS) (Early 2000s)

Content Management Systems, such as WordPress, Joomla, and Drupal, rely heavily on PHP. These systems allow users to create and manage websites with ease. PHP's flexibility and extensibility make it the backbone of numerous plugins, themes, and customization options for CMS platforms.

5. E-Commerce and PHP (2000s to Present)

PHP has played a pivotal role in the growth of e-commerce. Platforms like Magento, WooCommerce (built on top of WordPress), and OpenCart are powered by PHP. These platforms provide robust solutions for online retailers, allowing them to create and manage online stores efficiently.

6. PHP's Contribution to Server-Side Scripting (Throughout)

PHP is renowned for its server-side scripting capabilities. It allows web servers to process requests and deliver dynamic content to users' browsers. This server-side scripting is essential for applications that require user authentication, data processing, and real-time interactions.

7. PHP's Ongoing Evolution (Throughout)

PHP has not rested on its laurels. It continues to evolve with each new version, introducing enhanced features, better performance, and improved security. PHP 7, for instance, brought significant speed improvements and reduced memory consumption, making it more efficient and appealing to developers.

8. PHP in the Modern Web (Present)

Today, PHP remains a key player in the web development landscape. It is the foundation of countless websites, applications, and systems. From popular social media platforms to e-commerce giants, PHP continues to power a significant portion of the internet.

9. The PHP Community (Throughout)

One of PHP's strengths is its vibrant and active community. Developers worldwide contribute to its growth by creating libraries, extensions, and documentation. The PHP community fosters knowledge sharing, making it easier for developers to learn and improve their skills.

10. The Future of PHP (Ongoing)

As web technologies continue to evolve, PHP adapts to meet new challenges. Its role in serverless computing, microservices architecture, and cloud-native applications is steadily increasing. The future holds exciting possibilities for PHP in the ever-evolving web development landscape.

In conclusion, PHP's historical journey is interwoven with the evolution of web development itself. From its humble beginnings to its current status as a web development powerhouse, PHP has not only shaped but also continues to influence the internet as we know it. Its versatility, community support, and ongoing evolution ensure that PHP will remain a vital force in web development for years to come.

[artsygirl0315]

Hellooooooooo! I hope your having a lovely day today!

My question is: "How would Cree Lincoln & Maurice(AKA Numbuh 9) Would react to seeing Evan & Mella's graves for the very 1st time in the Mourning AU? Say they're on a date, Cree suggest to jumping the kids at PHP's tree house & Maurice says "ok" cause like, he cant say no. They go there...only to stumble 2 small graves. The graves of the 2 kids.

Cree hates kids, hates the KND...but THIS? how does she comprehend some thing like that? What if this was Abby?

and Maurice, who's dedicated his entire life helping kids. Completing his vow to destroy Chicken Pox island to save the kids from getting the chicken pox. The same Maurice whos still close friends with Numbuh 5,his old teammate. Now staring at the most cruelest fate to befall any child. A fate he felt like he could have changed somehow. How could someone who vowed to help ALL children...fail to save the 2 who needed help most of all?

Hopefully Chad comforts him during the aftermath, for he felt the exact.same.way. when he found those graves. who STILL feels that way.

ANYWHOOOOOO sorry for the super long ask, but I love diving into the lore & the characters behind this AU! LIKE,ALOT!!! THANKS FOR READING!!!

(This is actually a good question yet I've never dived deep into these characters too much before so hopefully I get this somewhat in character)

Let's start with the possibility of Maurice or Cree seeing the sight, the only way these could actually have seen these graves were from either their own missions or they somehow stumble upon it together.

I'm going with the hypothetical scenario where they find out individually;

Cree wouldn't actually have gone to the treehouse in the first place if she had somewhat listened to Chad's heeding, If she listened to him when he said going back there was off-limits or 'dangerous'.

Chad never really dug deeper on explaining anything after that, just leaving the conversation as such then left.

While Cree was looking around for anyone who could be on guard or if any traps were around, she accidentally stepped on something and looked down, only to realized that she stepped on flowers. A bouquet of flowers.

She'd look up a tad bit and find a grave, and then another one beside it, what the heck?

She read the names and was trying to dig into her memory of where she had heard of them before, then she saw the dates carved on the gravestones before she finally realized,

They were children.

And from the looks of where she was, They were part of those Kids-Next-Dorks...

Was that even appropriate to say in this situation?

She'd finally get a glimpse into her memory and somehow remembered how this Mella girl was one of Abigail's friends, she had her over once for a project. This Evan boy, she met him one time while Abigail was strolling around the park.

These kids were the joyful kind, the ones you'd get envy from just seeing their childlike wonder and carefree personalities.

And this was how she'd meet them next? That's.. depressing.

But what else was Cree to do exactly? This wasn't her problem, she didn't know them, they were probably just as annoying as the rest of those dorky kids.

But.. Why does this make her feel a pit in her stomach? Like her heart suddenly could be heard pumping out of her chest, like her mind was going through any possible occurrence on how this could've happened.

Like those thoughts would've lead to Abby. To other kids.

This isn't what she had in mind when she said she wanted to see the Kids Next Door reach their downfall.

This was just.. cruel.

She didn't have any other time left before she was being chased away by a short aggravated girl with a weapon, she looked angry and full of spite. Cree couldn't blame her.

No one would want to be around this depressing spectacle.

Next we have Maurice, poor boy.

After hearing a report from Chad about his visit with Sector PHP, he wanted to investigate for himself.

When he got there, He realized what Chad had meant when he said that the sight would've been heartaching.

Were these kids?

How come he hasn't heard of this before?..

Well, he has, once before, but.. To be able to see the outcome right in front of him,

He felt like he was gonna vomit.

He looked at the many arrangements of flowers and tributes were left on their graves, examining the thought and effort placed upon each sacred item left behind for those who had passed in this world.

How cruel fate was.

Maurice didn't exactly want to leave without paying his respects first, it would be rude.

So he kneeled down and gave a bow of respect to his late fellow KND operative, he could feel his heart aching more as the reality of the situation got too real for him.

He left a peace offering of flowers he found around the field they were in, leaving them in front of their graves before he stood back up to leave.

Maurice was about to be ambushed by a short angry girl with a strong urge to hit someone with that weapon of hers before he spoke about his occupation, how he was just like Chad out of panic.

Phoebe didn't have any other words, just both of them staring at each other before the silence was the only thing that talked for them.

Both had deep respects for each other and had shown that by giving a nod to each other, after that did he leave.

Maurice couldn't be around there any longer. He felt like everything in his mind was spinning all at once and he only had one thought left.

He hoped they were okay.

(Hopefully I answered this as in character as I can, This is the first time I've actually wrote something with either Cree or Maurice. Thanks for leaving the ask anyway!💙)

[babblingpipit]

Placenta

Memanglahh tumblr ini adalah tempatnya sambat dan bersedih hati. Padahal weekend seru banget hosting 17an terus minggunya ngedate ke city sama Adit tapi ga tergerak buat posting di tumblr, cuma muncul keinginan nulis kalo lagi sedih dan stress aja.

Baiklah sebagai preambule, di kerjaan tuh ku sedang agak-agak confuse sama supervisor (pertanda red flag ga tuh). Kenapa? Karena draft paperku dari April belum dia baca samsek. Di php mulu, cenah akan dibaca di keretalah, di pesawatlah, apalah. Aku tuh ga masalah dan ga ada kepentingan harus buru-buru publish juga gitu sih, tapi inginnya kalo janji ya ditepatilah ya, kalo emang ga bisa ya bilang aja gabisa bulan ini gitu. Sampailah kita janjian tanggal buat doi ngasih feedback gitu, yaitu 15 Agustus. Aku ingetin h-7, terus hari-H aku ingetin juga dia minta tambahan 2-3 hari. Yaudah kan jadi 18 Agustus ya. Terus aku harusnya meeting sama beliau 17 Agustus, ternyata double booked dan dia minta diundur sampe dia kelar baca papernya. 18 Agustus udah lewat sampe sekarang tanggal 21 juga belum dapet feedback.

Si temen seruangan aku juga bareng tuh nungguin feedback kemarin-kemarin, tapi yang punya dia udah dibalikin dengan revisi minimmm banget grammar doang yang agak bikin bingung jg ni orang sebenarnya baca ga sih apa cuma skimming aja. Yaudahlah intinya mungkin ini kesimpen di memori bawah sadarku sampe kelar weekend semalem mimpinya adalah dapet feedback paper dan si temen sekantorku juga dapet feedback tambahan!

Mari kita lanjut ke inti ceritanya. Sebenarnya, penyebab utama keteganganku adalah hari ini ada appointment sama obgyn jam 8.30. Gile bener degdegannya belum apa-apa udah mau nangis aja. Rencananya pengen promil lagi secepatnyaa huhu tapi takut dan penuh anxiety. Udah kontak PCP (primary care provider, dokter umum), udah cerita, direfer ke obgyn dan hari ini ketemu.

Yang membuat shock dan lemes adalah, pas baca medical chart aku sebelumnya dia tanya-tanya kan dulu prosedurnya gmn, ada hasil ultrasoundnya ga gitu-gitu. Aku bawa tuh semua lengkap. Dan dia jelasin "oh ini aku duga ada masalah di placenta ya, soalnya si baby pas trimester 3 lingkar perutnya kecil, 12% dari populasi. Plasenta adalah sumber oksigen dan nutrisi bayi pas di dalem perut. Pas semester tiga ketika organ-organ bayi udah lengkap, aliran darah dari plasenta akan dipake untuk menyokong fungsi organnya dan untuk menggendut. Nah ini lingkar kepala dan lain-lainnya normal, tapi lingkar perutnya kecil. Sepertinya karena plasentanya menurun efisiensinya jadi tubuh bayinya lebih mengutamakan aliran darah ke otak, jantung, dan organ-organ penting lainnya, jadilah dia ga menggendut".

DHUAR

Jujur selama di Canberra tiap tanya kenapa tuh gapernah ada resolusi dan jawaban yang jelas. Selama sebelum meninggal, semuanya bilang baik-baik aja, liat ukuran lingkar perut segitu dibilang karena mamanya petite jadi mungkin bayinya juga kecil. Di USG sih tapi gapernah ada concern gitu loh. KENAPA. Bahkan sampe meninggal pun ga pernah ada keluar penjelasan (bahkan meskipun suspect aja).

Terus w lemes. Masuk akal banget bisa jadi plasentanya efisiensinya menurun sampe akhirnya stop ngalirin oksigen huhu yaAllah ga kebayang Salma suffocated didalem perut :(((((((((((((

Obgynnya bilang emang tapi 12% itu borderline sih, untuk bisa ambil tindakan early induction itu biasanya kalo dibawah 10%, jadi bisa dibilang 12% itu masih normal, cuma mungkin harusnya dimonitor lebih! Tapi ya it does not matter at this point juga sih. Kedepannya kalo hamil lagi akan dimonitor lebih bismillah semoga ga kejadian lagi.

Balik kantor ini jujur masih shock dan lemes karena baru pertama kali dapet penjelasan medis > 1 tahun setelah kejadian meninggalnya Salma. Aku pikir ga mungkin ga sih dokter-dokter di Canberra ga tau atau ga punya suspek mengingat dokter sini bahkan cuma ngeliat rekam medis aja udah punya tebakan. Apa waktu itu ga disampein karena takut disalah-salahin? Selama ini cuma mikir "it is what it is" gitu loh huhu sedih banget, sampe nyalah-nyalahin diri sendiri karena kurang at tune sama gerakannya Salma. Mungkin kalo aku udah ngerasa kurang gerakan lebih awal masih bisa diselamatkan, etc etc. Ah udahlah sedih banget ane mau pulang aja makan cake yang banyak.

Jujur ku nangis di ruangan dokternya dan sampe sekarang juga masih belum lega. Udah bikin plan dan program sih untuk future pregnacy, bismillah semoga sehat-sehat dan dikasih rejeki berupa anak yang sehat oleh Allah swt.

Pas jalan pulang terbersit pikiran, ini dokternya nanganin kasus aku kan harus bikin team sama obstetrician yg spesialis risky pregnancies gitu juga ya, belum harus ngehandle emosi ibu-ibu yang sedang grieving ini. Nyesel ga ya dia ngambil aku sebagai pasien. Ga sanggup banget deh aku kayanya jadi dokter kalo nemu kasus yang agak rumit kek gini. Huhu :(

Nyampe kantor aku udah ga peduli lagi sama si paper yang bikin stress sampe masuk mimpi. Langsung mengemail bu Boss dan asistennya untuk menagih dan bikin janji meeting lagi.