#please debut im Begging

[snowplush]

🌟🤍💮はなまるおばけ💮🤍🌟

[zlebooks]

hi genshinblr i need ur help! pls help save my nugu pick kim gyuvin 😔💔 vote him on mnet plus app, he’s on the verge of elimination! he revealed that he plays genshin and his main is xiao but apparently he sucks at playing so if he debuts he can be ur idol gamer bf who sucks at games and u can fulfill ur fantasies of teaching someone how to build their xiao and ur knowledge of crit dmg and crit rate ratios wont be wasted 😭‼️

[honhonbonjourbitch]

Don't you just hate it when a good translation of a korean/chinese novel you're reading on Wattpad just disappears or can't be read anymore

[indeliblescarspivotalmarks]

manifesting this as a secret song for edinburgh please taylor i do however think i would sob so hard, but this was my favourite song as a child (its still a favourite now) and its truly the soundtrack to my childhood/teenagehood!! also scottish people love to sing along so i reckon we would kill the oh my my mys (look at beyonces concert where the crowd was ON PITCH during love on top🤭)

[obscenitymoving]

TALK NORMALLY

[soraontop]

THE TRUTH UNTOLD

title the truth untold ( pt. 1 of 10 things i hate about you series )

summary how it all begins.

genre angst, fluff towards the end, slice of life

characters jung sora (8th female member oc of enhypen), nam iseul (female oc, former 9th female member oc of enhypen), park jongseong, park sunghoon (briefly), brief cameos of other enhypen members

warnings poly ot7 enhypen au with 8th female member. knetz are really mean to sora. slut shaming, self-deprecating thoughts. enhypen are still learning about sora’s many, many layers. unrequited (?) love. idiots in love. pining.

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note aaaa okay sorry it took a min. here is the first part of how enhasora began. just letting you know … prepare for a ride cause im not gonna make it easy on them. 🫶🫶

Jung Sora knew one thing before ENHYPEN debuted. She was absolutely and utterly fucked.

It starts a month before ENHYPEN’s debut. Iseul gathers Sora and the seven boys in their living room, the room cluttered as always when all nine of them were in their tiny dorm. She knows what’s coming before it leaves Iseul’s mouth. She thinks of how she knows Iseul better than anyone.

“I’m leaving ENHYPEN.”

The room goes still, and Sora’s heart drops, even though she expected it. There’s an awful, funny feeling in the pit of her stomach and she feels like she’s going to throw her breakfast back up.

Sora inhales sharply and that seems to break the rest of the members’ silence.

“You’re kidding, right,” Jake chuckles, head ducking down. They wait for her to laugh, telling them it’s a joke. But she doesn’t. His head snaps up, “Wait, seriously?”

At Iseul’s silence, Sunghoon stands and walks out of the living room, slamming the door to the bedroom shut. Sora flinches, closing her eyes briefly. She feels eyes on her and looks to see Heeseung staring at her. She smiles weakly, breaking eye contact to turn back to Iseul.

“I don’t understand,” Niki said, brows furrowing. “Why? We haven’t even debuted yet.”

Iseul swallows, “I— I thought I could do it, but I can’t.” Her eyes connect with Sora and her eyes are shining, bottom lip trembling. “Sora … you understand, don’t you?” Her voice breaks, hand reaching out for the younger girl to hold.

Sora stares at her hand for a moment, disappointment settling in. This was really happening. She looks back up, and a tear falls from Iseul’s eyes. She pushes her feelings aside, forcing a weak smile as her own eyes become wet, “Unnie … You know I do.” Their hands clasp together, fingers intertwining tightly. She swallows the lump in her throat, “I want to tell you to stay. I don’t want you to leave.” The other members watch as she blinks away her tears, never one to cry in front of others. “But I know you’ve already made your mind up. You’ve already booked your train ride home, too, haven’t you?” When a sob rips out from Iseul’s chest and she nods slowly, she nods back. She stands up, pulling Iseul in for a hug, shocking the older girl.

They hold each other tightly and Sora whispers for only her to hear, “I love you, unnie.” She pulls back a moment later, glancing at the boys who are still staring in confusion. They don’t know the reason. She sighs, turning back to Iseul. “I’m going to …” She turns her head but Iseul already knows where she’s going, sniffling and nodding.

As Sora walks away, she knows there is no use to beg Iseul to stay. If she didn’t want to debut so badly, she’d go with her. But she’s always wanted to be an idol— it was her dream. She had been a trainee for far too long to just give up now because netizens didn’t like that she was a girl in a boy group.

She hesitantly stops at the bedroom door, bringing up her fist before stopping. She stands there for a moment before breathing in and out, gathering the courage to knock on the door. “Sunghoon?”

There’s no answer. She sighs.

“Please … Just hear her out,” is all she has to say before he’s ripping the door open and pulling her in. The door closes behind her and he’s staring at her, face blank. If she didn’t know him so well by now, she’d think he was angry at her. He was angry, yes, but not at her. “You don’t understand.”

“Then make me understand,” Sunghoon fires back.

“Imagine you’re in our shoes. We’re the only girls in a group full of boys, set to become idols in front of thousands of girls who already have their claws in you. You know how fans are, they think you’re theirs,” Sora says in one breath. “They see us as competition and they don’t like that.”

“We get the same reaction from guys—”

“No, you don’t,” she shakes her head, “They call us sluts. Whores. They pat you on the back and say, ‘Wow, aren’t you lucky with the ladies?’” She tilts her head, smiling a patronizing smile. “It’s always been like this. And it’s always going to be harder on us.”

She doesn’t stay for a second longer, hoping her words get into Sunghoon’s head as she leaves. Iseul is still talking to the boys as she heads to their shared room. No, her room. Only her room now.

When the door shuts behind her and she climbs into her bed, shoving her face into her pillow, she finally allows the tears to fall.

When Iseul comes into their room a few hours later, she pats Sora on the head and climbs into bed with her. They hold each other and don’t speak for a very long time.

It’s weird without Iseul, Sora decides a few days later after Iseul has gone back home. It’s like the boys are walking on eggshells around her and she hates it. She tries to go back to normal, but it’s hard when they won’t let her.

After Niki allows her to serve his food, she stares at him for a moment, expecting him to protest, but he doesn’t. He only thanks her and begins eating. She waits another second, before turning away. Her eyes connect with Heeseung’s and she bites her lip, forcing herself to look away. Jay is now staring at her and she blinks.

A warm feeling washes over her body and she turns her head abruptly. She knows if she looked in the mirror right now, her cheeks would be red. She hates this feeling. She hates feeling vulnerable, like he can just tell what she’s thinking with just one look. She wishes he didn’t pay her so much attention. Then maybe it would be easier to get over him.

Sora sits down at her spot at the table after Heeseung hands her her plate as the boys engage in conversation, allowing her to eat her food silently. She hates herself. It’s a bold statement, but she does. All the things netizens are saying about her, that she’s a slut— that she likes one of the boys, or worse, even all of them. That she paid her way into debuting, either by actual money or other … favors. She’s just proving all of them right.

When she first read the comments about her, after the final episode of I-LAND aired, she was appalled. She felt sick to her stomach. How could anyone assume that of her? How could anyone say something like that to anyone? She doesn’t know how many times she’s cried herself to sleep or gotten so sick that she threw up nothing.

She knew the expectations of an idol, she’d been one for a year when she was thirteen with I.O.I. But that was nothing like this.

“Sora?”

Her head snaps up, eyes widening as she looks around the table. All seven of them are staring at her. She hopes she didn’t miss anything too important. She puts down her utensils, realizing she hadn’t even been eating. Just playing with her food.

Sora clears her throat, “Yeah?”

“Are you not hungry?” Jake switches to English, glancing down at her plate. “You should eat.”

“Ah …” She looks at it, too. She’s sheepish as she looks up, “Yeah. I had a big breakfast.” Everyone knows that’s a lie. But she doesn’t allow any room for argument as she stands up, “I’m going to put it in the fridge and I’ll clean dishes once all of you are done. Anyone want anything?” She almost expects one of them, Heeseung, most likely, to protest and tell her to go lay down, but they don’t. She bites down on her bottom lip, slightly ducking her head so her hair will hide her face. “Okay,” she says quietly, quickly taking her plate and walking into the kitchen.

Sora doesn’t know why she’s so disappointed. She hates being taken care of. She’s used to being the one to take care of others. She shouldn’t feel this way. She shouldn’t feel any of this.

Her phone rings in her jacket pocket right as she finishes putting her plate in the fridge. She checks the contact name.

Dad.

Sora blinks. And then stares at it some more. She allows it to continue ringing, staring at the screen until she hears footsteps heading her way. She quickly silences it, shoving it back in her pocket and leaving the kitchen just as Sunoo comes in. She doesn’t make eye contact, making sure to not brush against him as she leaves.

She can feel their eyes on her as she leaves. She wishes someone would say something.

LITTLE BIG BRO: Noona, are you having fun?

LITTLE BIG BRO: I miss you.

Sora hates feelings, she decides. She’s staring at the text messages from Kangmin, her oldest younger brother. His contact photo stares back. She goes to type something back, but she doesn’t know what to say. Does she lie? Say she’s having fun? Say she misses him, too?

If she said she misses him, would that be a lie, too?

Guilt creeps in at the thought and she hates herself more for even thinking it. Of course, she misses her brothers. They were always around, always messing with her and begging for her attention every second.

Sora turns her phone off, throwing it on what used to be Iseul’s bed. She shoves her head under her pillow, wanting to scream. There’s a knock on the door and then— “Sora? Can I come in?”

She bolts up in her bed, eyes automatically heading to the mirror in the room. Her hair is a mess, her cheeks are puffy, and her lips are dry. She quickly combs her fingers through her hair, searching for her lipbalm and smoothing it over her lips. She clears her throat as Jay knocks again, “Yeah, oppa. Come in.”

Jay steps inside the room, eyes roaming around as if he hasn’t seen it a hundred times before. But now it’s different, she tells herself. One half of the room is gone now. Empty. Before she can dive into her self-deprecating thoughts once more, she pats the bed beside her, “What’s up?”

Jay complies, staring down at his lap for a second. He had practiced this for a while before he even left his own room, but now that he was here, it was like all of it left his mind. He sighs, looking up at Sora who looked at him in confusion, “Do you want to talk?”

Sora blinks. “Talk? About what?” She knew what he was talking about and he knew that she knew. But he indulged her, anyway. He always would.

“Iseul noona,” Jay says gently, hand twitching by his side as if he were about to hold her hand. “You didn’t stay.”

“I went to talk to Sunghoon-oppa,” she murmurs, rubbing her palm on her sweatpants. “He needed to understand.”

“And he does, now,” he says. “I …” He sighs, “You’re not like yourself, Sora. Are you uncomfortable around us without noona here?”

Sora blinks in shock, head snapping up to look at him, “What? No! I’ve been friends with some of you before unnie and I even met. If anything,” her voice grows stronger, “It’s you guys who haven’t been yourselves. You’re uncomfortable with me.”

Jay doesn’t know how she can come to that conclusion. “What? No, we love you.”

Her heart warms at the confession, but she forces it down, “You guys keep just … letting me walk all over you! Letting me do whatever, walking around me like I’m about to break. I hate it. I hate it so much.”

Jay blinks. And opens his mouth before hesitating. He closes his mouth. “What … I thought you liked doing all that? We all did. That’s why we’re not stopping you like we usually do. We thought it’d make you feel better.”

Sora swallows, suddenly realizing what she had confessed after hearing his words. She looks down to her blanket, playing with the end of it.

“Sora,” he sighs at her silence. “It’s okay to want to be taken care of sometimes. You know I’m— we’re,” he clears his throat, “—always here for you. No matter what.” His eyes focus, becoming a little stern, “Okay?”

She looks up, studying the look in his eyes. She doesn’t recognize it. She wants to change the subject. “Okay.” She still doesn’t fully believe his words and he can tell.

Jay abruptly cups her cheek with his hand and her eyes widened, cheeks flushing red. His hand is warm, fingers slightly rough as his thumb smooths over her cheekbone. “Sora. Listen to me. If you need anything, if you want to talk about anything, you can come to me. You don’t always have to do things yourself. It’s okay to ask for help. You will never need to do anything by yourself when you have us.”

Her heart is beating erratically and she’s pretty sure Jay can hear it, he’s so close to her. God, that’s so embarrassing. Her eyes nervously dart away from his, laughing nervously at his words, “Ah, alright, alright. I get it, oppa. I understand now.” She pauses for a moment, before asking, “Does this mean you guys will go back to normal now? I … I miss the way it was.” Her voice grew quieter with the last sentence.

Jay chuckles, “Yeah, I’ll tell them.”

“But don’t tell them I said any of that,” she points her finger at him, trying to gain the upperhand again. She straightens up, and his hand falls from her cheek. She tries not to seem disappointed.

Jay’s smile is endearing, teasing but gentle, “Whatever you want … Baby.” His smile grows larger at her reaction, not expecting him to use the petname as it came out of Heeseung or Jake’s mouths more. Her eyes widen comically with appalled rage in them, mouth dropping open. Her cheeks are still red, hair a little messed up but she’s still pretty as the first time he saw her in the halls of BigHit.

“Yah! Don’t call me baby. I’m not a baby, you’re a baby, baby.”

“Whatever you say, baby.”

NEXT.

[dylan-duke]

We need to know how Rutger reacts

"hey darling," rutger drawls into the phone his smiling face appearing on her screen, "hows ohio and training?" ryleigh looks to her left where quinn is sitting who squeezes her hand reassuringly,

"uh actually. i'm still in michigan," rutgers eyebrows visibly furrow as his face falls,

"so you lied to me?" he questions, "how long have you lied? why have you lied?" ryleigh sighs,

"i have cancer," she mumbles, "i had to get a tumored removed from my lung, and uh i might have to get another removed from my leg," rutger stares at her through the screen,

"i'm sorry- i- what," ryleigh looks at her brothers tears in her eyes,

"i- didn't i-" rutger lets out a breath running a hand through his hair,

"where are you?" he asks, "i need to see you? where are you?"

"im at rogel,"

"im coming now. text me your room," she nods as he hangs up the phone.

ryleigh looks up alarmed when her boyfriend barges into her room out of breath,

"oh thank god you're ok. you're ok right?" he asks on the verge of tears. ryleigh nods turning to her brothers,

"will you leave us alone please?" quinn nods and drags luke and jack with him, rather bregrugedly, "rut please-" she begs holding her arms out.

the forward comes forward and takes quinns empty seat,

"why didn't you?" he asks as he grabs her hand tears falling,

"i didn't i-" her voice cracks, "i didnt know how," rutger hums,

"are you ok?" he croaks, "please be ok ry i cant- i cant lose you," ryleigh shakes her head sniffling,

"i dont know rut. it hurts and my hair is falling out and i- I'm sick all the time," rutger reaches out and cups her cheeks,

"why didnt you tell me?" he asks softly. ryleigh looks down at her hands and begins to fiddle with her fingers,

"you were at world juniors and i- i couldn't- i couldn't let you come home- i couldn't make you leave," rutger sighs,

"yes you could have. you fucking should have," rutger grits his teeth, trying to keep his anger at bay,

"i know i know, but then you would've left and you never would've won rut. i couldn't be the reason that you wouldve missed that," rutger sighs moving his hands to grab hers,

"i would miss my fucking NHL debut for a skating competition if you asked me to come ryleigh, and this-" he shakes his head, "a fucking gold medal doesn't matter one fucking bit to me. you matter and that's all i care about," ryleigh sighs tears falling steadily now,

"im sorry," she sobs out repeatedly, "im sorry rutger i love you so much i promise," rutger reaches forward and pulls her into his arms,

"shhh its ok ry," he soothes, "im here now darling i promise. and I'm not going anywhere,"

[harunade]

omg hanbin ml <3 im so happy he is debuting in evnne!!

also thoughts for today areeee

dom!hanbin with a corruption kink </3

ily ur works, please take ur time and don’t rush 💗

thank u sm!!^^ i love hanbin so much im physically trying to restrain myself from buying the debut album,,,,

I feel like Hanbin always flashes u a dimple smile but you know he’s up to no good, but he can’t help but want to ruin you when he sees so you so cute and innocent for him.

especially if he finds out you’re a virgin, his eyes will darken as he kisses you. “do you like that, baby?” he’ll whisper in your ears as his hands travel down your body, brushing over your chest and hips and going to circle your clit through your panties. hanbin gets harder from the sight of you being overstimulated by just some rubbing. “im going to finger you now, okay dear?” he barely gives you time to process as he pulls your panties to the side, coats 2 fingers in your slick and enters you.

now, hanbin’s hands are big, so you even needed time to adjust to two fingers. “hurts, bin..” you look up at him with teary eyes before he shushes you with a kiss. when he starts moving, he notices how your face goes from a slightly pained one to a pleasured one. his thrusting in addition to the rubbing of your clit gets you moaning and whimpering. “fuck- bin.. feels good..” poor thing, you probably don’t even know you’re close, but that’s okay cause hanbin will teach you everything you need. “love your tight pussy, lovely. let me eat it after?” hanbin laughs at your embarrassed face since you quickly nodded

when you cum, tears spill from yours eyes. he thrusts a bit more to help you ride out your high, before bringing his fingers into your mouth. “taste yourself, honey” you shily obeyed, but you liked it, he knew you did. “you’re actually a dirty slut babe, let me clean you up” he lowered his face to your core, licking a stripe of cum and arousal. “you’re so sweet” he hums from between your thighs. but he quickly pulls away, leaving you begging for more

[heavenlycloud]

you were my favorite person; ryujin x fem! reader

warnings: crying

she looked at you with a grin and you asked curiously, “you were relieved when i didn’t make it into itzy’s line up, weren’t you?” the glow in her eyes faded at the mention and her smile fell, and she just stared at you for a moment. memories replayed through her head of that day you failed your evaluation:

“y/n, you received the lowest score for the evaluation overall. please pack your things, you will be picked up in the morning to leave.” the words made your heart drop and it seemed like everything in the moment stopped. the urge to fall to your knees and beg for another chance through teary eyes was large. however, you accepted your failure, and you weren’t one to cry in company walls. you thanked the instructors quietly and left the room to begin preparing your leave.

knots formed in your stomach as you tried to think of ways to tell your roommate the news. no matter what you thought of saying, nothing was going to be easy about this. when you made it into your dorm, your roommates face lit up upon seeing you for the first time since this morning. she pulled you into a hug and beamed, “we’re one evaluation closer to debut!” you pushed her away lightly and shook your head, “i didn’t pass, ryu.”

ryujin stared at you waiting for a laugh, typical y/n fashion to prank her with something like this. however, when you didn’t show any signs of joking she grabbed your hands, “what? what? no. no no no we have to go back and i don’t know maybe if you do it again-” you stopped her, “im sorry i tried i really tried. i did the best i could but my best isn’t good enough for them anymore. can you just help me pack my things? please?” ryujin silently followed you into your bedroom and began pulling things from your wardrobe to fold away into suitcases.

it took a couple hours but eventually everything was packed away and your room showed no traces of your 3 year long presence. ryujin tugged you by the hand, “come on.” she led you to her room and you both climbed into her bed. you pulled her into your arms as her legs tangled with yours, your fingers raking through her hair softly. the two of you basked in the silence for a couple of minutes before you heard a sniff, “what am i supposed to do? i can’t- y/n i can’t do this without you. i need you.” you laughed and tried to joke, “i’m not dying ryujin. i’ll be a phone call away, plus we still go to the same school.” she refused, “that’s not the same and you know it. i need you with me.” you sighed and said, “you have me. i’m right here. i’ll be supporting you at every moment i can.”

ryujin admitted sadly, “i don’t want to sleep…i don’t want to wake up just for you to be gone in the morning.” you looked down at her and kissed the top of her head, “then we can stay up together.” for the next few hours you both stayed awake and just held one another, not bothering to say a word because you’d said enough.

ryujin whined to you at your sudden remark and you easily admitted, “i was in love with you back then…you were my favorite person.” she tilted her head to the side and said honestly, “that was my first genuine heartbreak. i didn’t know how much you meant to me until after you were gone. i had so many regrets over things i didn’t say and do when i had the chance.” you looked at the camera that was filming the both of you, and you added, “you have a chance today.” the director behind the camera laughed causing the rest of the crew and ryujin to laugh at the sudden remark.

ryujin winked at you and told you, “i might just take it. we’ll see.” you stared at her with pure adoration, “i guess we will.”

[asexualzoro]

it's december 9th, meaning today is my 23rd birthday (which is my favorite number!), which means it's time for...

Lew Writes Wrapped 2023!!!

im including anything that happened after my last bday, so we have some works from december as well. this one's a bit of a weird one for the total word count, you'll see why

it's all treebark from my sideblog / alt ao3. i cannot change. i will not change. for these im just gonna specify the relationship that's the main focus bc thats easier than fandom bc all but like one are third life

dandelion wishing

(Dec, 2.4k, treebark, oneshot) (link)

op movie 6 au for dogwarts in which Martyn is the baron and Ren doesn't know he's dead

id actually plotted out a whole third life au for this movie like months prior and really wanted to write it, so i took it for treebark week and focused it just on these two. it's my fave movie of all time and i obvs had to give it to my fave completely dead team <3

i will admit tho. it did make me back search martyns twitter to see if hes ever posted abt watching this movie. bc i know he likes One Piece and i realized this would bring me into the danger zone (he hasnt ever posted abt it if hes seen it)

A Romance Route for the Doomed Villain?!?

(Dec, 5k, treebark, oneshot) (link)

treebark dating sim isekai parody that spiraled out of my control made in a day-long possession

im still baffled by this one. why was the response to this one so insane?? there was smth in the water the day i posted this bro. a 1:2 kudos to hits ratio for the entire first day is literally fucking unbelievable. 70 comments?? what hold did this fic have on you people. i got fic written about this one?? my friends goncharov'd me in front of my face

really fucking fun to write and the insane response was smth im always gonna remember. i appreciate you guys so much

treesekai also turns a year old in a few days!

Until the Angels Realize You're Not One of Them

(Feb, 7.2k, emerald duo, oneshot) (link)

a traitor phil au which was mostly just me talking about all the reasons i love technoblade

this one... wasnt actually written this year for the most part? i didnt want to not acknowledge it, since it's on my ao3 in this year, but i wont be able to count it toward the total

still. traitor phil au my beloved. hearing him say on his stream he and techno wanted to do a betrayal arc made me feel insane bc i already had this written at the time

missing or obstructed

(2022-present, 12.9k, Grian & Ren, ongoing) (link)

post 3L fic about Ren and Grian seeking out closure with a lot of funny little sleep metaphors

same deal as the last fic, i, uh dont think i actually wrote anything new for missing or obstructed this year either? just uploaded chapters i wrote last year,,, i didnt wanna now acknowledge it, but i wont count this in my total later

i miss her. one day ill actually sit down and write more missing or obstructed. in my doc im JUST at introducing Martyn and i havent written it yet

to reach my mangled debut

(Sept, 4.2k, treebark week, ongoing) (link)

it wouldnt be me if i didnt have an execution somewhere in here. another op au!

THIS. I LOVE HER. when rev and i were plotting out the whole storyline for smop renchanting i was begging please give me this scene i need it and i had so much fun writing it. i rlly need to finish soon but i haven’t had time but please. please check out smop. she’s top of my priority list to update

Three-Dog Night

(Sept, 6.7k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

BIG DOG. beauty and the beast au!

god im so fond of this au. there’s some rlly good scenes written for this and unposted bc i just need to link them together. honestly i think if i took a month and focused it on this fic alone i could fucking finish it but i don’t have the time ;-;

that said i’m so enamored w this au genuinely. o dunno what else to say i just think. puppy

Cover Me In Roses

(Sept, 3.3k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

lamplight roleswap! put Martyn in a flower pot

i don’t feel as motivated to work on this one when i have lamplight unfinished so it’s lower on my priorities but know i have like an entire arc of this written and unposted. we just have a few paths for this one and i have to decide which one to use

it’s so wild to me lamplight has like. aus. like this isn’t even the only one? a roleswap. that’s insane? it’s wild that you all like lamplight enough i can even get away with this

First Sign of a House Fire

(Sept, 2k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

i love superhero stories for two reasons: plots about secrets and adapting the characters to give them powers. this had smth fun for both of them

yellow rose isn’t super high on my list of priorities to update (i think the oneshot is interesting on its own) but one day,,,, it’s part of the many aus cherri and i have but it’s the longest for sure. the doc for just this au is like 100k words long on its own. at the time i draft this cherri and i are actively writing smth else for it in another tab. theres like 4 offshoots and im obsessed w all of them. we had to make ocs about this one. i’m excited to eventually add more to this series

actually that’s one of the scenes i’m most excited for and most dreading adding. we made a backstory oc and im SO attached to him and im excited to post a thing out there w him but. ough. whatever cringe is dead i’ll get there eventually and brute force my way into attaching you to our funky little robot guy

also love that this fic forced me to be decided on a docv characterization that i have to stick to. he may be a canon guy to martyn’s vtuber lore but he’s my oc now too

Blindsided

(Sept, 2k, treebark week, ongoing) (link)

pirate au and royal au based on a big secret and also stuffing a guy in a box and it's all stupid dramatic literally what else do you want or need in life

this is my wife. my favorite. my most beloved. blindsided gives me new illnesses and diseases. i have just one scene to write before i can update it and then i can continue unleashing her. god i love this fic the drama of it is SO fun.

the funny thing abt blindsided is i know all the plot chronologically but now how to Present it which is part of why i haven’t continued too much. eventually i will but until then know that one of the scenes im sitting on which has been fully written is one i think about constantly. hopefully when i post it cherri’ll let free the comic she did for it

i actually have the ending of this fic written i just need to get there lmfao. second on my priority list after smop i think

Cradle of the Leviathan

(Sept, 1.5k, treebark week, oneshot) (link)

i just love mer aus man. whats the point of it all if you cant have mer aus. just get a big ol fish

i have the ending of this au written as well and literally so little of the lead up. but this is pretty low on my priorities. i think this one stands just fine on its own. mer aus are nice like that

we actually have a few mer aus but for now i’ll be focusing on this one. i do have a few sweet post story things written for this one. maybe one day i’ll write enough to post em lmao

Lamplight AU

(2022-present, 47k, treebark, ongoing) (link)

renchanting dnd/fantasy au, martyn's a paladin and ren's a lamp

so i started this au last year. my wrapped last year said my total was 20k, so that means this year's total is.... 27k!

and… it was just lamplight’s birthday and i did all my appreciation for the fic and its readers then, but god. i love this fic so much and i love you all who have read it and been so kind about it. the amount of popularity it has makes it a bit nerve wracking to work on, but i still really want to see it finished. i hope to see the bulk of it done by this time next year!

Six Sentence Sunday

six sentence sunday is a challenge where i try to post six sentences i wrote that week every sunday, to keep me writing every week of the year! i do it over on my writing blog, @driflew

i did not keep up on my six sentences,,, i had a lot of sunday fencing tournaments. i did for ~33 weeks this year! thats a pretty good amount! i’ll have to be more on top of it next year tho

unpublished work

the last few years i havent included unpublished work, but with the extreme bulk of it, i wanted to note it down. cherri @/cherrifire and i have been writing a lot back and forth at each other in discord dms this year, and i wanted to include those in my count! bc holy fucking shit is there a lot of them

i didn’t include collab pieces, just pieces i wrote alone. i also only included the renchanting aus i share w cherri and scarian aus i share w flowey, nothing else—no unfinished lamplight or other independent pieces or oneshots, no original fiction for class, nothing. i also missed a few u haven’t moved to docs yet. so i’m lowballing by a few. thousands. of words

the total for those is...... 135k words! there is,,, something wrong with me

total and end notes

our total this year is...

187512 words!

that might be my highest word count yet! because i caught treebark disease. wild.

something really fun about this year to me is i really loved everything i wrote.

if you want to get me a gift or support me on my birthday… maybe try reading my work and reblogging it or leaving a comment! you can find my writing at driflew or skelew on ao3, follow my writing blog at @driflew, or even consider tipping my kofi!

thank you for sticking with me and supporting me this year! i really appreciate it! hopefully i can break 100k next year too!

[thenighttrain]

my #1 hope for debut tv is that they replicate the OG teardrops on my guitar production/instrumentals and NOT the pop, radio version. please im begging on my knees

[biomic]

I take it you don't like Drive (Chase, Heart, Medic etc notwithstanding) so how would you make it better?

complaining about gaim and drive in one night it's 2015 again babey

capture roidmudes instead of blowing them up!!!! cop toku is always gonna have dodgy implications but drive was just so egregious about it to me. i remember sanjo saying that after gaim was more serialized, he would ensure that every episode of drive would have a cool fight where a monster was defeated. cool if you're doing a show about some interdimensional tyrant that eats universes or whatever, less cool if you're doing a show where your cop protagonist kills every robot he fights without a second thought until the end where the audience is maybe kinda supposed to feel bad for them actually? "isn't it sad that the roidmudes couldn't escape this unavoidable fate?" it was very avoidable! extremely avoidable! tony you CHOSE

develop gou and chase's friendship more organically. there's some good stuff there in theory but there needed to be way more "damn it, im kinda warming up to this guy >:(" as opposed to the constant one-sided antagonism that went on for far too long. as is, i just couldn't buy into chase's death scene or gou's big cathartic fight with banno at all, though i totally get why it's such a highlight for others. really enjoyed mach's v-cin tho

in a world where sexism doesn't exist there is no reason on earth kiriko should not be the main character of this show. everything that makes shinnosuke unique as a protagonist also applies to her, doubly so in that instead of having some random dead cop for a dad, her father is the big bad! imagine kiriko, gou, heart, and medic all fighting together to stop the abusive father who raised them? could be pretty poetic and tie a lot of things together. oh well, here's a half-hearted kuuga callback in a parking lot instead

in the world we actually live in where the powers that be at toei and bandai could've easily allowed this, couldn't kiriko at least have become proto-drive in the back half of the show? even pulling a kiva and having it just be for one episode would've been appreciated. could've been a perfect way to cap off her arc, having her overcome her trauma from the global freeze by literally becoming the hero that saved her to protect others. instead, everyone lies to her about everything involving banno to spare her feelings because she's literally a fragile 24 year old minor

just let kiriko do ANYTHING AFTER GOU'S DEBUT MAKES HER BASICALLY IRRELEVANT FOR THE REST OF THE SEASON, ACTUALLY?? PLEASE?????? IM BEGGING YOU

heart and brain kiss with tongue

[sehodreamsthoughts]

omg i have so many things to say plsss!!!

okay 1) is that i’m obsessing over shohei a little bit rn i need him to debut so bad also i looked up his profile again and this doesn’t make sense but it says he’s 5’9” why tf is he so small?? he doesn’t look that small😭😭😭😭😭

2) is omg ur post about the gym bro who came in like 2 min… why is it always like that with guys like that…🤭🤭 ur so funny for laughing at him LOLL

3) okok ur so right its definitely heeseung and jake with heeseung on the phone as u said that’s crazy!!!

heeseung would threaten you over the phone, saying “don’t you dare cum for him, or i swear, you’ll never get to feel my cock again”, and if jake can hear him, he’d scoff and laugh, snapping his hips into yours harder, forcing moans out of you and the phone drops from your hand onto the mattress next to you. jake leans over and grabs it, using one arm to balance himself, still fucking into you while he finds the speakerphone button with his thumb. “please, jake, no, don’t” you cry, but he slaps your hand away from him, when you reach again, he grabs your throat. “shut up,” he spits at you, finally getting the phone to the right setting, hearing heeseung’s soft pants echo. “she doesn’t need you,” jake snaps, tossing the phone down on the bed again next to the two of you, to the right of your joined hips. he pins your wrists down, and leans back, slowing down his movements until he’s completely stopped. you whine, wriggling underneath him. “go ahead,” he chuckles, “fuck yourself on my cock, sweetheart, unless you’re too scared for heeseung to know how much of a slut you are for me?” you arch your back, trying to move your hips upward towards his, managing to slide your pussy down his cock a few times, the sound of your slick suctioning around his length making you flush red. “fuck, you sound so wet, baby, is all that for me?” heeseung moans through the phone, and jake laughs again, “why the fuck would it be for you, asshole? come on, doll, do you wanna cum or not?” you’d keep trying to move your hips, trying not to go too fast to keep from making too much noise but you also want to come so badly. crying and whining, beginning to babble and beg for jake to help you and heeseung hisses into the phone that he swears if you cum, he will be over there faster than you can imagine to punish you. that just spurs you on more though, struggling and panting but jake can’t hold back anymore either and wants to prove to heeseung he fucks you better. “making her do all the work? you’re the worst” heeseung drawls, and jake grabs the phone and holds it right onto your face so all of your screams blare right into the microphone. you cum, hard, and jake cums inside you soon after, clenching around him and milking his cock dry and you don’t hold back any noises, barely hearing heeseung cum with you on the other side of the phone.

sorry im insane i need them so bad🤕

- 🥟 anon

1) Omg baby I also saw something about it but I think it was wrong because I remember seeing him being taller than Eunseok so I find it really hard to be true 😭 and omg I just miss him so much, I'm sure you've seen now why I love him, he has this amazing aura and god that gorgeous face????? I can't let him go, I refuse to let him go, I want to see him debut and support him so bad 😭

2) I have no idea 😂😭, I've heard some of my friends say they're great too, and the guy wasn't a bad BAD one (at least he apologized in the end) but honestly it was such a bad sex experience, his body was hot af I have to admit it, but I guess he was too much into how his body looked and took that steroid shit that fucks them all 😭, he never admitted it of course and my friend (well she wasn't my friend she was my ex) that presented him to me never asked out of embarrassment but it was just... Bad 😭. To be honest I fucked him because I was curious of how someone so fit would do it so it's not like I am a saint either, I never saw me having anything else with him the second I bought some cigarettes with a beer and he side eyed me, oh and let's not talk about the awkward dinner we had when he didn't eat at all because he had "completed his macros" and stared at me for 40 minutes while I ate what he ordered for me ☠️

Maybe I should've gone slower with him too, and shouldn't have laughed, idk, those 2 minutes were hot af at least... BUT NOW THAT I REMEMBER IT AGAIN I'M ANGRY BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET TO CUM AND HE DIDN'T OFFER IT EITHER???, IDK, HE COULD HAVE OFFERED HIS HAND OR SOMETHING? LIKE I JUST MADE YOU ROLL YOUR EYES AT LEAST RECIPROCATE????? 👹👹👹

3) my god that just completely calmed me down IT'S PERFECT WITH THEIR NAMES 😭🩷🩷🩷, OMG AND THAT PART "you arch your back, trying to move your hips up towards his, managing to slide your pussy down his cock a few times, the sound of your slick suctioning around his length making you flush red", and god that little fight of those two while you fuck yourself on his cock, AND HEESUNG CUMMING WITH YOU AND JAKE, I LOVE YOU US EXACTLY THE SLOPPY SMUT I NEEDED RIGHT NOW 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[milesworld96]

WATCHING DYNAMITE RNN

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO CARDBLADE HAS HIS OWN TITLE, I FUCKING LOVE BCG SM😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HE NEEDS TO STOP, I CANNOT DEAL WITH JUICES DANCES💀💀💀💔💔💔 OH I AM SO HERE FOR THIS, I CANT WAIT FOR FULL GEAR. UH GUYS HE HAS THE ACCLAIMED DWWW

MJF💞💞💞💞💞 WHAT HE WAS TO COMIC-CON? WHAT THE FUCK😭😭😭 OH LAWC I AM SO READY, OMG CASTER BOWENS BILLY. YES PLS MJF TEAM I NEED THIS SO MUCH. I HAVE BEEN WAITING SO FUCKING LONG I BEG. OH? CASTER IN THE BATTLE ROYALE? FUCK YEAH. LMFAOOO BRO HAS NO CHILL, PUT A RING ON IT? DAWG UR JUST ASKIN FOR IT😭😭😭😭😭💀💀💀💀💀 CASTER I BEG LISTEN TO BOWENS (“But he’s my scumbag” ILYSM caster)

OMGGGG HI GIRLLL❤️❤️‼️‼️‼️ Girl they are just so😍😍 A ONE COUNT WHAT? YEAAHHHH LETS FUCKING GO, HIKARU RETAINED😚😚🫶🫶🫶

ADAMMMMMMMMMMM. HAAIIIIIII ;33 oml him going over his past with Christian from when they were young is so cute I can’t. Chris why would do that. Awwwwwwww Adam😭😭😭😭😭 this got me in my feels Chris+Adam is so sweet I can’t with them. Sad that they r gonna brutally murder each other soon <\\3 no pls I need them to beat the shit out of each other, ADAM FIGHT HIM. At least ik his title safe <\\3

HHAAAAIIIIII WARDLOW :3333 NAAAAHHHH BRO IS DONE AFTER ONE POWERBOMB. OMGGG THE MJF WRISTBAND, GIRL NO STAY TF AWAY. NAH WAEDLOW WHAT IS U ON🤨🤨🤨 WHY U KNOCK OVER TONY😭😭

KENNNYYYYYY, PLS PUT HIM BACK IN THE CHAMPIONSHIP VIEW. OMG PLS I BEG PUT THE DON CALLIS FAMILY BEHIND YOU, GO AFTER MJF. OMG HAIIIII MJF HIHIHIHIHI 13 DAYS OMGJJDSIJZZJ KENNY ON&BHESNNAJSN I AM SO HERE FOR THIS, PLEASE I NEED THIS WHAT THE FUCJ

Oh no, another viewing into Adam Cole’s kidnapping. RODDY STOP BEING SO RUDE. Is this food porn. GIRLIES WHAT 😭😭😭😭😭😭 YEAH STAND UP 4 YOURSELF ADAM. LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE. ESCAPE THE KIDNAPPERS. OMG RODDY FINALLY TURNING A NEW LEAF? IM BEGGING, I CANNOT I NEED TO SEE THE KINGDOM & RODDY TRYING TO BE NICE TO MJF😭😭😭💀💀💀

HAAIIIIII HOBBS, HAAIIIIIII TAKESHITA☺️☺️❤️❤️❤️ GLOAT IT BB, PUT JERICHO IN THE FUCKING DIRT. FUCK YOU CHRIS JERICHO. YOO?? DON HOW ARE YOU DISSING KYLE WHEN YOU LITERALLY HAVE WILL OSPREAY IN YOUR CORNER. DO YOU THINK HE REALLY GON CHOOSE YOU FOR DOING THAT TO KYLE😭😭⁉️ KYLE DONT TAKE THE FUCKING OFFER, JUST WORK ON GETTING WILL OUT

HIIIII KENNY☺️☺️☺️💞💞💞💞💙💙💙💙🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ this match is GOING to serve so much cunt omfg AND I WAS SO RIGHT. AAAAAA IM GOING FUCKING INSANE OMFG KENNY UR FACE‼️‼️ every once in a while there will be matches that change me as a man, and this is definitely one of them. THIS SHIT IS MAKING MY GAY ASS GO FUCKING NUTS, AAA KENNY. HE WON‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 Sorry Kyle, but look on the bright side no Don Callis in your ear now!!!! :)) SHUT THE FUCK UP DON

OMG OMGNDJBSRIHSFBVIHGSRBIHFBHIS3UIEBAEAFBUI OMG DANHAUSEN VID DANHAUSEN VID I CANT HAIHIAHIAHIABIABIAHIAHIAHIAHAIHAIAHIAHJAI I CANT WAIT FOR HIM TO COME BACK IM GOING FUCKING INSANE OVER THIS OMFHRSHJBIFSJHBVHDJSBCJHDAKHBCMHDAHMBCKDAHHBCKHSBDCBKHDAHBCBKHDABHCIUADBCKUADBCKUBHKDS KUBS

OOOOOOOOOOOODZJJCJSF HSF IM WATCHING THAT PREMIERE VID, SWERVE BBBYYYY OMLL. OMG SWERVE NANA HIHIHIHI. IM SO HAPPY FOR YALLS. Swerve what’s wrong, oh OH HANGMAN AND SWVER BACK @ IT AGAIN. HANGMAN :(((((((( OHHOHO I AM SO EXCITED 4 THIS

IITS STTIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGG. lol I just like saying it, not rlly a big fan of him but he cool. Ewww Hulk Holgan mention. YAY NATURE BOY MENTION‼️he still does got it ngl👏👏 AA DEBUT STARTING AT REVOLUTION AND RETIREMENT STARTING AT REVOLUTION, WHAT A BIG CIRCLE. HOPE THINGS TURN OUT FOR YOU MAN YOU BEEN AROUND FOR SO LONG AND HAD A LONG GREAT CAREER. HOPE YOUR HAPPY THO BRO

AAAAA ITS RJ CITY OMG JIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIH TONI HIHIHIHIIHIHHIHI ILY BOTH SO MUCH HIHISHDHCHXBBCBHCNXBXBHXHSA I’m sorry what, HOW ARE YOU GONNA PLAY THE PICTURE SMD THEN GO TO COMMERCIAL? WHAT THE FUCK IM MISSING QUALITY CONTENT OF RJ CITY AND TONI. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

OH NAH, NICK WAY E AND HIS MOM⁉️⁉️ WATCH YOUR TONE YOUNG MAN. GIRL NICK WHAT. R U FR TELLING UR MOM TO SHUT UP? BRO YOU GON GET AN ASS BEATING WHEN YOU GET HOME. GIIRRRRRLLLL SHE GON HIT YOU WITH THE HANGER WHEN YOU GET HOME. CHRISTIAN CAGE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ OMG NAH SHE SMACKED HIM⁉️⁉️⁉️ NAH CHRISTIAN HAS THE ADOPTION PAPERS NOW💀💀💀 OMG DARBY HAIAHAIHAIAHAIAHIA. CHRISTIAN FR IS NICK’S NEW DAD😍😍😍😍 (I can be his male wife) OMG DARBY GETTING RAGDOLLED AGAIN. AH NICK WHAT HAPPENED WHY ARE YOU BLEEDING SRE YOU OKAY. STING GET OFF OF CHRISTIAN NOW‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ AW CHRISTIAN BEING A GOOD DAD AND CHECKING HIS SON🥹🥹 hope Nick’s tooth is okay tho. (Wonder if Chris is checking in on his other son too)

WAIWAITIWIT TRIOS MATCH? KIP SABIAN? OMG ARE WE BRINGING BACK KIP SABAIN VS ORANGE CASSIDY AGAIN? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I BEG I NEED THEM BACK FEUDING TOGETHER I NEED IT NOW

OMG OMG BEST FRIENDS + HOOK FXFHIISHCIHNCEINEWJKCNWNCSIDCNCKDJSNC HAI HAI HAI HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO KRIS VS WILLOW FUCK YESYESYESYEYSYES I NEED ORANHE VS KIP AGAIN PLEAS

Wait WAIT WAIT THE ACCLAIMED V DADDY MAGIC ANGELO AND DANIEL? OMFG YESY3YESYYESYYEDY I CANT WAIT OVUIHIHGRVIYBSRVYIR AND WE’RE GETTING HOOK+RVD AGAIN ON DYNAMITE? I AM LOVED I AM TRULY LOVED

Stray Bullet Juice Robinson is so slay, I love it💛💛 CAASSSSTTERRRRRRRR HAIHAIHAIHAI BBG🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️✂️ MAX STOP THRUSTING UR BELT, LISTEN TO BOWENS AND BEHAVE😭😭😭😭😭 NNNNNAAAAAAAHHHH CASTER YOURE FOWL 4 DOING THAT ON LIVE TV💀💀💀💀 NOOO DADDY MAGIC LET DANIEL DANCE ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ I NEED MJF ON COMMENTARY MORE PLEASE TK🥲🥲 MJF PAYIN LFF DUSTIN?🤨 OOOOOO BOY, NAH HE KNEED JUICE IN THE NUTS💀💀 tricky? Y’all’s relationship is tricky? AAAAAWWWWWWW TONY🩷🩷 that’s RIGHT MAX, Caster still loves u very much🩷🫶 AAAA TRENT & DUSTIN HUG☺️☺️ NOOO TRENT :(( bro stay losing💔💔 OH OH DANIL ELIMINATE HARDY. DADDY MAGIC😠😠 NOOONONONO PLEASE DONT SET THIS UP AS A DANIEL AND DADDY MAGIC SPLIT. CASTER IM BEGGING WIN PLEASE PLEASE PELASE. MICDROP🎤✂️ HE GOT HIS TITLE BACK FROM JAY WOOOOO. LOWBLOWING MFF. NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CASSTTERRRRR💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 at least we have both of max2 laid out on the floor😔😔 wish the best 4 you Maxi❤️ (hope Caster & Adam r there to support him)

[nayeonline]

ranking EVERY AESPA song

caused some drama with the blackpink ranking so fuck it we are doing it again with one of the most innovative groups of the fourth generation (yeah i said it) From best to worst, here we gooooooo

Next Level (everything shifted, the universe as a whole changed trajectory, life conceptually was never the same)

Spicy (there is crack laced in the veins of this song istg)

YEPPI YEPPI (aespa does itzy??? I fucking love this song its SO GOOOOOD)

Savage (if you get it you get it and if you don't you don't, and if you don't i feel sorry for you xx)

Black Mamba (a step by step guide on how to debut with a fucking bang)

Hold On Tight (negative promo and still that bitch - 4 YA LIFE)

Lucid Dream (EGOT status)

Dreams Come True (who else is doing it like them fr)

I’m Unhappy (WE DON’T APPRECIATE HER ENOUGH SHE’S SO GOOD U GUYS)

Illusion (yuh this ate)

ICONIC (they said it themselves lmao this shit is I C O N I C )

Thirsty (so good it’s almost offensive)

I’ll Make You Cry (bad bitch energy)

aenergy (the name call bit is certified camp)

Welcome To MY World [feat. naevis] (aespa does alan walker??? This song is so underrated it’s unbelievably good)

Salty & Sweet (girls comeback had just flopped & rent was due, so gigi entered the studio and said it's time to make history)

Lingo (we are now entering the 'i don't rlly like this song zone' but we as a society are a little too rude to her shes not totally shit)

Girls (had her moments but the chorus is just a little boring)

‘Til We Meet Again (to quote our queen kim jisoo: not bad but not good)

Beautiful Christmas [with Red Velvet] (have zero desire to stream but why does this kind of slay lmao)

Life’s Too Short (can we please go back to fighting neon futuristic cyber-villains and stop with the acoustic disney channel misused aave im begging)

ICU (for the wellbeing of society im filing a restraining order on acoustic guitars on aespa’s behalf)

Forever (nobody moved. I actively pretend it doesn’t exist and the fact i had to break my delusion for this ranking is offensive xx)

[hydr9]

you guys dont understand how much im begging begging begging. begging on my hands and KNEES for a jyp to debut a genuinely self-produced girl group.

(rant below the readmore)

let me say this clearly from the start: there is nothing wrong with traditional idol groups. there is nothing wrong with being a (k)pop idol that does not write/produce their own music, and there is nothing wrong with having no desire to.

g-idle is right there yes yes of course they are--point is, there is not only them as female artists who have self-made music and performances they want to put into the world via the idol industry. and g-idle is CONSTANTLY being dragged down into hell by cube.

it doesn't need to be jyp, that's barely even my point here. g-idle are full of talented talented women who have achieved amazing success despite everything that coudlve held them back, but god, their biggest enemy is still clearly their company. constant stories of soyeon fighting for the songs and concepts she wants to be released, mild choreographies, generally terrible working conditions that CANNOT be working in their favor as artists/performers/idols.

purple kiss was marketed as that: a self-produced female idol group. but jesus, rbw, where is the self-producing? where are their writing credits on their titles? their own original ideas? and how can an idol group be self-produced if they're stuck to such a cemented concept for each comeback? is that what they want to be releasing? god knows i love purple kiss and i adore their concept, but that's besides the point here. i always check CCL, check their videos, to see their writing and production credits, and they ARE capable of making good music, *obviously* they are! why would they market them as such anyways? please. these girls have so much potential. i'm not even claiming they're being mistreated here, of course not every idol wants to make their own music, that's not what it's always about, but when it comes to marketing a group as such, how can they come in last as writing credits and have their self-written and self-produced songs be constantly nudged into bsides? their original choreographies like my heart skip a beat?

and jyp. oooooh jyp. you make me so mad. in that japanese skz + park jinyoung interview, JYP explained why stray kids formed the way it did, and let me just use exact quotes here (u can watch vid for everything, credit to STRAY K SUBS on yt for trans).

"we felt like the distance between fans and artists was gradually getting closer. so, it's hard to fool fans now. it's because we saw that it'd be hard to put out something that we planned and packaged nicely. [...] then, in order to show their real selves without any adjustments, we had to make a team that's actually tightly knit and like one body. we came to the conclusion that in order to do that, the company can't organize the members. so we ended up trying that kind of method for the first time."

and how come you went and debuted ITZY and NMIXX with absolutely no hint of these beliefs anywhere?

where is this trust for your female idols? where is this belief in authenticity in your female idols? where is this belief that you can't fool fans anymore?

is it somewhere in the self-love pop itzy sings that they have not even written about themselves?

is it somewhere in the colossal failure of "mixx-pop" that you plastered onto a group of young talented girls and risked their entire career on?

what did you not learn from the massive success of stray kids? what makes JYP think that a group of female artists is not capable of the same thing?

i'm sorry if i sound like i'm ever degrading to other girl groups about this, i promise i don't mean to be. but this subtle and extremely pervasive belief that women are not capable of technical proficiency makes my fucking blood boil. women can write their own lyrics. women can produce their own music. women can arrange their own music if they fucking want to. women are capable of understanding a market, having a message they want to spread, and using the idol industry as their medium.

if stray kids can do it, why the fuck can't any female idol group?

where is the huge amount of funding that goes to stray kids for their constant events, activities, concepts, comebacks, performances, and everything else, going for any other self-producing girl group?

im begging this industry to let women have that kind of freedom.

PS: because i know this wont get any notes but im scared of people missing the point: please god know i love stray kids. i love purple kiss. i love g-idle. and though im not a midzy i have MASSIVE respect for ITZY. and i have so much hope for NMIXX and the talent that those girls have--i only hope for jyp to take their heads out of their asses and truly believe in creativity and innovation, something i dont believe they are doing for NMIXX. i am not trying to bring these groups, or any other groups, down in any way.

PPS: if anything i said here is wrong or you have anything to add, pls do, im very open for discussion on this, it is an important topic to me