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[athousandbyeol]

keep up the thamepo [episode 5]

i was a bit frustrated with myself initially because, after the first watch, I was left confused... and jaded... and a bit dissatisfied with this week's episode.

it has nothing to do with the acting, but I thought it felt a bit fragmented? nano's story arc didn't flow as smoothly as jun's or dylan's? i was trying to make sense of it—why it felt like there were still missing puzzle pieces in nano's portrait. but I guess, after making another observation, I guess nano was the last puzzle piece. i didn't realise it until I watched the episode again.

i wonder if this has to do with how the story is told from thame's perspective? the simplicity, somewhat straightforward nature of how everything unfolds kind of reflects thame's perception of his feelings for po? how he thought that po was just wanting 'to be friends' with him. how he didn't know he was in love with po—not until pepper provided a different approach for him to understand and come to terms with his feelings?

therefore, in this week's recap, it'll be a bit shorter than my previous posts because this episode was quite straightforward in terms of storytelling. however, I do want to address some apparent parts that itch my brain, which are, jun and thame's dynamic, the parallelism between nano and po, and also po and thame's upcoming love arc.

1. jun and thame — one who ignites the fire; one who is on fire

i think 80% of the confusion comes from me not understanding what on earth jun was doing.

in last week's post, i said that jun might be fond of po in the sense that he was concerned about him because of his closeness with thame? jun might have an idea of po and thame's emotions for each other, so this is his way of showing his concern.

however...

everything he did somehow sent me to the edge. it made me assume that he might... like... po? romantically. i mean, if I don't know jun and po the way I do now, I might assume that they have feelings for each other (or at least, jun has feelings for po).

but then again, when i watched the episode, I didn't think jun likes po romantically? it's more like jun's trying to test the connection between po and thame—or he was just testing thame all along.

but one thing that i really like about the whole 'jun answered all of thame's calls on po's phone' is how transparent thame's jealousy is to everyone, but it's still transparent to him.

it's so interesting how thame is visibly uncomfortable with the idea of jun being close to po—at least in his eyes—romantically. because I feel like thame has always tried to conceal some parts of himself from the world due to his selflessness. yet, in this week's episode, I can safely say that thame has finally shown his selfishness.

and it kind of makes my heart skip a beat because po is the reason. thame's behaviour and demeanour in this episode stem certainty in me that aside from his dreams of making everyone's wishes come true, making po happy and loved is his new dream. and it's not forced, this dream of showing and giving po the whole world—it's because he genuinely loves him. (but at this point, thame didn't realise it yet xD)

a quick shoutout to pepper for being the group's observer. he's closely monitoring the group, helping thame bridge the members together, and giving advice to thame from the perspective of an outsider—a watcher. I'm thankful that thame has pepper as the vice leader because in my opinion, pepper judges with this sense and intuition, while thame makes decisions more on his senses than feelings. so it's great that thame and pepper are the leaders of the group because they complement each other well; pepper emotionally supports thame and helps him get a better grasp of the smaller picture—thame's way of helping pepper will unfold next week, I assume (and I'm excited/nervous for it to be honest...)

but again... the jealousy thame portrays is delicious.

it's fascinating because thame's jealousy is directed solely at jun and not po.

he could still smile at po. he was excited to have a conversation with po. he was always looking out for po.

but whenever he was looking at po, there was jun.

i like that in this scene, po was really just genuinely sharing about his day (I could imagine them being exactly like this when they start dating). he was so happy to talk to thame (po's so precious I'm actually devastated T_T). but as soon as the mentioned jun... thame just... he was set aflame. and it's so satisfying to see him this way. he's finally being selfish for once.

and jun kept pushing thame's buttons, all the right ones. and he was on edge. he was jealous. he was fuming. he was confused. he was... dejected.

however, i wonder still if everything jun said to po holds an opposite meaning? was he trying to tell po that "can't you see? thame really likes you?" what are your thoughts on jun? i really want to know (because I still don't understand his intentions t_t)

thank you pepper for helping thame realise his feelings for po :(

i like the idea of thame's inexperience of never liking or having a crush on someone makes his feelings for po appear stronger, bolder and limitless. thame has so much love to give po once he accepts the buzz in his head and the heaviness in his chest as I'm in love with phi po.

i think, the moment of epiphany for thame is beautifully done. the self-acceptance, the happiness and the relief that he finally understood his fondness for po are gorgeous. (so, jun, stop teasing thame and po, will you? po is definitely thame's type and thame's definitely in love with po.)

2. nano and po — a shadow, a reflection, two hearts

i'm actually geeking out at the idea of nano and po as a shadow, a reflection and heart to the people who regard them as important in their lives.

nano is just... beautiful.

to me, nano navigates his thoughts and feelings as a member of MARS with his heart. it makes him somewhat pure and innocent. he just loves his members. he loves MARS so much.

but it's heartbreaking how he doesn't see his significance as a member of the group—as the group's core.

all these stills of nano building the tent, helping the members, etc, illustrate his importance to the group. to me, he enhances each member's charms. he brings them to the spotlight. he helps clear the mist clouding them so that people can see MARS in all of their glory.

however, i do realise that nano is struggling with self-confidence. he doesn't know if he could ever make it without MARS. he's unsure if he could ever exist just as nano and not nano of MARS. he feels like a shadow underneath the members' feet. he doesn't feel he holds any importance.

nano reflects po. nano parallels the old po.

it's a beautiful parallelism—these two broken hearts were just afraid of disappointment. of uncertainty. of grief. of incompetence. of falling apart.

but i'm so thankful that po steps up to help nano realise that he's important—he's the heart and soul of MARS. with his portrayal of honesty from past experience, I love how sincere and raw po's words are. i surely believe it's everything nano needed.

(and i absolutely love how nano and po are wearing the same shade of yellow, indicating that both of them experienced similar scenarios. i think po will be nano's favourite phi in the future. he'll emotionally lean on po the most because po understood him through and through. it's so sweet T_T)

i think it's also healing po emotionally. he has finally confronted his past emotional trauma by indirectly talking about it to nano. it must've been tough to share a part of our utmost vulnerability with someone, but I'm glad po was strong enough to make a truce with everything he experienced in the past and helped nano see just how important he's to MARS. thank you, po <3

i love that MARS finally feels complete now—they finally feel like a family again.

even if the future is uncertain, at least they have each other to lean on (I'm just going to cry in the corner when that time comes...) and nano being in the centre? that's MARS's heart and soul right there. <3

3. thame and po — one step closer, 5 cm

finally, thame and po are physically close.

episodes 1 to 4 did an amazing job of showing us how thame and po build their emotional closeness through heart-to-heart talks, helping each other out, eating sandwiches together, remembering one's phone number, etc. thame and po are already close without thame realising, without po thinking.

i'm obsessed with how thame's deepest feelings now overboil once it's constantly triggered by the idea of jun and po's ambiguous connection in his eyes. i think it's how most of us realise our first crush on someone—the intensity, and the confusion are somewhat daunting. but again, I'm glad pepper was there for thame to understand his feelings—and jun was there for po to doubt if it was ever true.

this shot is INSANE.

my heart really skipped a beat. really.

i think it's because thame initiated this touch and it was the first time that they've ever touched this intimately (at the waist—in my head it's one of the most intimate places to touch) and it was after he made a move to understand his boggling feelings for po—

(distant screaming and screeching)

the shock and happiness and yearning and intimacy is just SCRUMPTUOUS I'm honestly jumping off—

just the notion of thame finally coming to terms with his emotions—finally understanding that he likes po and he likes everything about po and it makes sense now is just gorgeous.

the happiness on thame's face... my heart is aching. i hope he'll be happy for a long time.

(AND THE HUG! THE HUG! instead of holding po's hand, thame hugged po. i like the idea that they are chest to chest, heart to heart, listening to the sync beat of their thundering hearts, realising that oh, I like phi po. ph, phi po likes me too. INSANE INSANE THAME I SWEAR THIS IS THE START OF A HAPPIER JOURNEY FOR YOU DON'T WORRY LOVE PO LOVES YOU AND YOU LOVE PO AND THAT'S ENOUGH)

but...

what will happen next week? are we finally getting pepper's (devastating) story arc? and what's up with the heartbreaking tension between po and thame? and why are we getting jun's "between phi and thame, it's impossible" next week? I'M NOT EVEN MENTALLY SANE TO TAKE IT—

*jumps off* *crying* *screaming* i don't know anymore.

[smilingperformer]

Okeeeeeyyy I'm now willing to fully understand the region journey in Mega Voltage atm.

First two eps, Kanto. Then it kinda moves towards Johto, and now we going back to Paldea.

Now I know I can trust the region Pokémon appearances lol. Because HZ096 addressed it very clearly. I wanted a clear Indicator, it's a me-issue so let me be lol.

Anywaaaayy, HZ096 was veeeeery good, also fully showcased Uruto having issues with ALL girls. So it's not a crush on Liko. He just... struggles around girls.

Aaaalsooo.... he has a dusk ball. And comments about wanting someone to gain his trust as strongest trainer. HMMMMMMMMMMM.

Uruto really feels like a fun character in a sense of "shows himself as almighty and toughie and maybe superiority complex, but deep inside is a sweet kind boy".

Seriously. Rekkuuza is shown in this ep, Uruto has the chance to catch it... but he doesn't. Because I think deep down he respects that Rekkuuza needs to rest. He pretends it to be about strength, but I can tell it's a facade to show up as wanting to be strong and current Rekkuuza is not it.

Man. Really good episodes so far and I'm excited for Dot episode, and seeing Murdock again! And I'm so happy to see Dot is in touch with Murdock. Really sweet.

Also this pacing might be fitting for HZ100 being something big... I sure hope so!

[poetrysmackdown]

hi hiii i wanted to say that your account is so refreshing to see, esp with the passion you have for the arts. as someone who's been meaning to read (and write) more poetry, do you have any recommendations? some classics that everyone and their mothers know? perhaps some underrated pieces that changed you? or even just authors you like, I'm very open to suggestions :]]

Hi! Thank you so much for this kind ask :) So exciting that you’re looking to delve deeper into reading and writing! I had to take a little time to answer this because my thoughts were all over the place lol.

For a review of notable/classic poems/poets, I honestly just recommend looking at lists online or, hell, just binging Wikipedia pages for different countries’ poetry if that’s something you’re into, just to get a sense of the chronology. I read one of those little Oxford Very Short Introductions on American Poetry and thought it was pretty good, but online is quicker if you’re just searching for poets or movements to hone in on. Poetry Foundation also has lots of resources, in addition to all the poems in their database. I guess my one big classic recommendation would have to be Emily Dickinson (<3), but really the best move is just to find a poet you already enjoy and then look around to see who their peers were/are, who they were inspired by, who they’ve maybe translated here and there, etc. and follow it down the line as far as you can.

For some personal recs, here are some collections I’ve really enjoyed over the past two years or so. Bolded favorites, and linking where select poems from the book have been published online. But also, if you want a preview of a couple poems from another of the books to see if they interest you, DM me and I can send them over! You can also feel free to pilfer through my poetry tag for more stuff lol

Autobiography of Death by Kim Hyesoon trans. Don Mee Choi

Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings by Joy Harjo

DMZ Colony by Don Mee Choi

Hardly War by Don Mee Choi

Whereas by Layli Long Soldier

Geography III by Elizabeth Bishop

Dictee by Theresa Hak Kyung Cha

Don’t Let Me Be Lonely: An American Lyric by Claudia Rankine

Mouth: Eats Color—Sagawa Chika Translations, Anti-Translations, & Originals by Sawako Nakayasu

The Selected Poems of Osip Mandelstam trans. W.S. Merwin and Clarence Brown

The Branch Will Not Break by James Wright

This Journey by James Wright

God’s Silence by Franz Wright

Duino Elegies by Rainer Maria Rilke (the translation I read was by Alfred Corn—I thought it was great, but idk if there are better ones out there!)

DMZ Colony, Hardly War, Dictee, Don’t Let Me Be Lonely, and partially Whereas are all book-length poems with some prose poetry and varying levels of weirdness/denseness/multilingualism—if you were to pick one to start with, I’d say do Don’t Let Me Be Lonely or Whereas. Mouth: Eats Color is some experimental translations of Japanese modernist poet Chika Sagawa, with other translations and some of Nakayasu’s original stuff mixed in—it's definitely a bit disorienting but ultimately I remember having such fun with it, as much fun as Nakayasu probably had making it. It’s a book that emphasizes co-creation and a spirit of play, and completely changed my attitude towards translation.

If you’re less interested in that kind of formal fuckery stuff though (I get it), can’t go wrong with the other books! Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings is the one I read most recently, and it’s great—Harjo also featured in Round 1! Franz Wright also featured, and God's Silence is the collection which "Night Walk" comes from. James Wright (father of Franz) is one of my favorite poets of all time, though his poetry isn’t perfect. Even so, I’m honestly surprised he’s not doing numbers on Tumblr—Mary Oliver was a big fan of his, even wrote her "Three Poems for James Wright" after his death.

I mentioned in another post that one of my favorite poets is Paul Celan, so I’ll also recommend him here. I read Memory Rose into Threshold Speech which is a translated collection of his earlier poems, but it’s quite long if you’re just getting to know him as a poet—fortunately, both Poetry Foundation and Poets.org have a ton of his poems in their collections. There’s also an article by Ilya Kaminsky about him titled “Of Strangeness That Wakes Us” (!!!!!) that’s a great place to start, and is honestly kind of my whole mission statement when I’m reading and writing poetry. Looking at the books I’ve recommended above, a lot of them share feelings of separateness or alienation—from others, from oneself, from one’s country, from language—that breed strange, private modes of expression. That tends to be what I’m drawn to personally, and that’s some of what Kaminsky talks about.

Sorry of the length of this—I hope it's useful as a jumping-off point! And if you or anyone ends up exploring any of these poets, let me know what you think! If folks wanna reply with recommendations themselves too that'd be great :)

[ruinationz]

weird bear

[keeperofthehyperfixations]

i feel sort of bad for my retired phannie friend (she hasn't really been paying attention to dnp for the past couple of years) and i've forcefully dragged her back into it and i've almost convinced her to go to the tour with me

[ducktracy]

I love you dearly, and I'll love you even more if you tell people who are sending you asks from their seats in the cinema to put their phones away because they are watching a movie at the cinema.

LOL WELL THANK YOU ANON I LOVE YOU TOO! I WILL SAY. in defense of my askers. have you seen the previews that play at these theaters, ESPECIALLY in front of this particular film. i kept placing bets with my friend on when we'd get the Minecraft movie trailer and then we never did. seeing all of the previews for the upcoming slop movies (I DON'T KNOW HOW TO WORD IT NICER I'M SORRY THIS IS MEAN)... if you have to have your phone out at the theater, i too would probably have it out instead of watching the preview for the bad Snow White remake or for the Minecraft movie

i am anti phone at theaters though myself so i get it 🫡 this is why the New Beverly Cinema in LA rocks, they have a very strict no phone policy and even a no talking policy (awful news for someone like myself, admittedly...though wait i just remembered people will actually talk out loud during a movie wtf. okay no i just whisper smart comments i think i'm okay) and my experience there was the best theatrical experience i ever had in my life--it was so nice going to a theater where everyone actually wanted to be there.

THOUGH ALSO i'm sure some people are sending these before even the previews... it takes so long for a movie to start too what is up with that???? i just bought my tix for TDTEBU next week and i had to budget my time very insanely trying to figure out what the actual times will be, like "okay the film starts at 4:25 but it was 30 mins of previews the last few times i've been at the theaters so maybe it starts at 4:55 but what if it does start at 4:25 i guess i should get my concessions at 4:15 and that means i'll have to walk from here to there to be there by that time. and so it's an hour and 30 mins which would mean it would end at 5:55 normally but assuming the previews are 30 mins it might be closer to 6:30ish and i have dinner at 7 which means i have ___ amount of time to--" ETC ETC LOL. i've been doing too much mathing trying to figure this out. especially since this is all after an 8 hour flight the same day oh i'm so fucked. but it's a small price to pay for the pig and duck..

ANYHOO! i get it 🫡 from both sides 🫡 i never have my phone out during previews and advise most to do the same but, also, with the previews being the state that they are right now, i get it. especially if you're telling me about how you're seeing the pig and duck movie. that rules. so. keep it up? responsibly?

[nightblood-autoresponder]

I appreciate that the recent revelation that BAM's binding messed up nahel divorce means that Kal's WoR crisis of conscience Wouldn't Have Killed Syl if it happened 2000-7000 years ago. It wasnt supposed to be like that; he could have disagreed with Syl's concept of honor without killing her in the process. Getting it wrong or "wrong" Shouldn't have been so unthinkably disastrous. Objective right and wrong died in the Cosmere when God was split into competing perspectives + thats why I like it here

[keep-on-trying]

Gosh I love the pacing in WonderPre so fricking much, love how they finally revealed the NikoGarden stuff to Iroha's family, ofc while also keeping Precure stuff a secret still. Both me and sis gasped so hard when Komugi, AS A DOG, talked in front of Iroha's parents skajhsfjkhsf. God damn it Komugi.

Next ep is HYPE THOU, aaaaaaaaahhhh Cure Lillian is absolutely near!

[beautifulsnake2162020]

A debt to be paid (an "Even when the night changes" Phanfic preview)

Disclaimer: This is a work of fanfiction Phantom of the Opera belongs to Leroux, and the elements I'm incorporating are also from the works of Kay, and ALW.

Summary: Apollonia (original female character) is a witch who has been helping Raoul and Christine explore the memories of their past lives that have begun reappearing. And after hearing what they plan on doing, she gives them a stern warning.

No one should be deprived of their soulmate.

Rated T

AO3 link

AN: This is my first online published Phanfic.

So I'm still mainly on a writing hiatus until after I finish my bar exams. I will get back to writing my other fanfic stories in earnest immediately after. So for context: I have been planning this fic for awhile and there is an outline and some scenes already written out but I just haven't put them together yet. This scene is literally fresh from my brain and it may still be changed a bit in the actual story but then the muses said to write it down now and post. The main story (Even when the night changes) is essentially a polyamorous Phanfic but this time with Erik also having his own soulmate in the polycule. Because as much as I love the three of them being together I also want to make sure that Erik really isn't left out and my heart couldn't help but want to be with him during scenes in other stories wherein he is left out. So to reconcile that, my self-insert female OC is going to be his partner/soulmate so that nobody in the polycule feels left out. Hope you enjoy this one-shot/preview.

"Not so fast."

They hear the coldness in her voice that prevents them from fully standing. On her hand is the remote for her smart home and Christine suddenly dislikes being in the home of a witch who is wealthy enough to afford to be fully in control of her home. But she was wealthy for a reason and she just helped her and Raoul sort through the vague memories of a past life that didn't stay long enough to be thought about.

And now they know. Now they know why the story that was told in novels and musicals differed so much from their own memories. Perhaps God pitied her and Raoul and gave them a second chance to finally do what they have always longed to do.

Only to be stopped by the witch they sought help from.

"We have what we need and we know what to do." Raoul says as firmly as he could. He couldn't help but feel impatient and peeved at Apollonia's command.

"Please, this is our chance to make things right. Our chance for the three of us to be together." Christine pleads but Apollonia's expression remains unchanged.

"Which is it then?"

"What do you mean?"

"You need to choose Mademoiselle Daae. Do you want to make things right? Or do you want him to be with you? You cannot have both."

"And why not? We've already paid for your services and we have no more time to lose." Raoul demands as much as he can without raising his voice. But Apollonia remained unmoved.

"My spiritual profession demands that I serve for spiritual justice. To do what I can to prevent injustice from happening or from developing further. And I'm warning you that should you both remain selfish you will suffer the consequences."

"What is selfish about finally telling him that we love him? He'll know that he is not alone and that the three of us could be together."

"Hmph, if there was any doubt that you two were soulmates your romantic delusion in thinking that things will be solved by the three of you becoming lovers would be all the proof anyone needs that you and Monsieur De Chagny were made for each other."

"With all due respect we don't care if you disapprove. Erik's feelings are what matters to us."

"I agree Monsieur, but what made you think that him being your partner is what would make things right?"

A chill runs down their spines as the sound of thunder breaks through the uncomfortable silence.

"If you two want to make things right neither of you should pursuit him."

"But we care for him!" Apollonia gives Christine a pointed look. It was at this moment that Christine felt that no amount of technology could save her from Apollonia's power. Her powers were integrated in them, and she could easily kill both of them by a snap of her fingers.

"If you both actually cared for him then it is his feelings that you should respect. Did you not notice how he gave you both everything you were asking for?"

They share a look of guilt as Apollonia continued.

"Mademoiselle Daae, when you wanted to be able to connect with the music after grieving for your father he gave you lessons and made you the Prima Donna of the Palais de Garnier. And Monsieur, when you wanted to marry Christine without your family and other aristocrats from interfering he made himself the villain of the story. The very same story that is performed on stage and is reinvented by several different writers over and over again. All that so you two could elope and your family would have no choice but to at least tolerate your marriage. Because of that he had made you Mademoiselle, a sympathetic figure so that anyone who speaks ill of you will be looked down upon. Those who still dislike you keeps their comments behind closed doors or in reviews on a newspaper."

Apollonia takes a breath to control her anger and frustration. It was part of her profession in dealing with people like them. So focused on what they thought was right, only for the victim of injustice to be worse of.

She cannot let that happen.

"He sacrificed everything for both of you. And now you want to ease your guilt from the regrets that linger from your past life together by doing the most selfish thing you can think of. Do you honestly think he would be happy with both of you? Blinded by the bliss of being each other's soulmates that you couldn't see how he makes himself settle for the little love and affection that you would give to him? All while depriving him of the chance to be with the one he was meant for."

"How dare you!"

"We love him! Maybe to you it isn't but we know our hearts!"

"We've already had one lifetime without him by our side. You may think it is mere feelings but to Christine and I it was our one regret."

"Well we always want what we cannot have."

"Why are you doing this? Shouldn't you be helping us?" Christine could feel herself near the point of tears. Was it from despair, anger, or frustration? She doesn't know anymore.

"It's obvious Mademoiselle. First, no matter what your feelings are and no matter how deep your connections are for him, both in this life and the last, the fact remains - neither of you are his soulmate. And second," Apollonia leans in closer. Up close both of them could see her contempt for them.

"You already had your chance. Much more than his actual soulmate ever did."

"But - but things were different back then."

"How so Mademoiselle? Neither of you had a problem in confessing on the rooftop. Then getting engaged soon after. Why is it then that when he was recovering in your care neither of you had the strength to do so?"

Raoul reached for Christine's hand underneath the table. The rainfall outside became heavier and made the room darker. It made the feeling of isolation even more present. He feels his throat constricting, from the ambiance or his feelings he isn't sure. All he could do to steady himself is to reach out to Christine. From his periphery she was feeling the same.

"Your Phantom of the Opera loved both of you so much that instead of taking his chance to be with his soulmate he instead lived on the run so that Luciana's men wouldn't harm you. And then when he learned that they were planning on kidnapping both of you to lure him out, he made his way back to Italy and surrendered himself to Luciana's abuses. For the remainder of his life."

A tear fell down Christine's cheek. She didn't need to be reminded of what happened after.

"All this because he loved both of you. But you already know this. His last words were his confession of love while thinking both of you were just the final delusions of his mind."

Apollonia presses a button in her remote and the sound of the door unlocking sounded like relief. They just had to get out of there.

"The least you could do now is allow him to be with her. Then maybe when they have bonded, he may just be open to your feelings for him without feeling desperate for any affection."

She stands above them with her arms crossed.

"Let this be a test to see if what you feel is love or infatuation born from your selfish desires. You both have been warned. Ignore it and you will suffer the consequences of our wrath. We take the bond between soulmates seriously. And we will do anything and everything to prevent such a sacred bond to be broken."

AN: I hope you enjoyed this one-shot/preview of my future phanfic. Just to be clear, the endgame is a fourway polycule made out of two sets of soulmates. But I want to make Raoulstine work for it since majority of the time it's Erik who is doing the work (for good reason but this is also my story so he gets to be the one being pursued). I feel like Raoulstine have it easier in majority of the OT3 Phanfics I've read and I want to see them overcome 1.) Erik not being affection or love deprived anymore; and 2.) Someone else being objectively the seemingly better choice for him than the two of them combined.

[bluespring864]

Always out there romanticising tennis, this one.

[smilingperformer]

HZ067 preview spoilers again because I SOMEHOW MISSED THIS:

ARVEN MY BOI????

HE'S FINALLY HERE?????

[allyougottado]

cow is cute

[abybweisse]

Ch203, Flashbacks?

In the comments of this post about ch202 spoilers, @ojamajoprincess and I said:

So, it's weird that ch202 has the cover art with what I suspect is Finny's (rather starry-eyed) POV of our earl and Sebastian... when the flashbacks don't start here. Seems more like it should be the cover art for ch203.

Well, at least it's looking like Finny's flashbacks will finally start next month. We'll see!

[bellarkeandclintashaandsuch]

Be My Favorite Ep. 9 - Thoughts Part 2

So I had even more thoughts.

I love Pisaeng offering to be Kawi's Sugar Daddy. But I also love Kawi saying they need a more equal relationship to make it last and that he needs to take more care. Communication is key! But poor Pisaeng. He just wants his boyfriend to have a phone that won't die all the time, so he can call him when he wants.

I think that Kawi took it rather well, walking in to a classroom gossiping about his brand new relationship with Pisaeng. Pear was still his focus because he really wants to do right by her. Even though they'll never date in this timeline, he really cares about her.

And it shows just how close Pear and Pisaeng are when she goes to him specifically to ask about Kawi, but ends up opening up to him about her mom. Because Pisaeng is her best friend, and she needed to talk this out with him. And I very much appreciate that Pisaeng didn't lie about his feelings for Kawi. That was probably a hard conversation for both of them, but they were still honest with each other. Communication is key for romance and friendship!

And she was clearly upset, but she held it together, and told Kawi she wasn't ready to listen to him right now. Pear did turn Kawi down, but they both obviously thought they were moving in the direction of a relationship, so it makes sense that she would be hurt.

It was such a nice surprise that they confronted Pisaeng telling Pear the truth in this episode and that Kawi didn't blow up at Pisaeng about it. He's just sad that he couldn't be the one to tell Pear and hopefully save her some heartache. And I like that they talked about Kawi wanting to set everything right. And Pisaeng feeling kind of sad that that doesn't just mean them being together. But Kawi explaining that many people were affected by the changes he made, and he doesn't just want himself and Pisaeng to have a good life, but for everyone around them. And speaking of everyone around them... Kwan! Please! Why do you like Not! Why are you sleeping with him! What do you see in him?!

I'm not going to lie. In prior episodes, I thought if Kwan wanted him, maybe he could get a redemption, if he really worked on himself. But after this? No way! He literally told her he doesn't "feel that much" about her! What the heck! He couldn't even be bothered to show her kindness or to be empathetic when she started crying! I really thought he would try to reassure her even if he was lying. Or do something! Anything!

It was very sweet seeing Pear ask Not to not tell anyone about Pisaeng and Kawi, because they're her friends, and she wants them to be comfortable in their new relationship and to be comfortable to come out when they want to. And I have to apologize, Pear. I was really worried that you would agree to go out with Not. I mean, you do have a track record of jumping from your crush to whoever is crushing on you after getting turned down. But I was wrong, and you were even nice in turning down Not of all people. I'm so sorry for doubting you, queen!

Basically everything on the balcony was amazing. Pisaeng saying that they can get through everything together. That Kawi can't live thinking the future will be awful. Kawi assuring Pisaeng that he wants to keep dating. Pisaeng telling Kawi that he has to have hope. Kawi telling Pisaeng his fears aren't because they're both men. Pisaeng saying there's nothing more right than them being together <3

The last photos I had in my Be My Favorite folder before this episode were these:

Such a change a couple episodes makes 😭<3

[jimgandolfini]

the old man gave me a binder full of news clipping of himself to scan and there’s a photo of him shirtless (from like 30years ago)… I am truly living my best life. This is my #1 dream job. I’ve been training on tumblr dot com for this moment for literally half my life

[keep-on-trying]

Preview images of next WonderPre ep arrived and I checked and like, under the cut:

This is such a gentle smile and gods I am excited to see Cure Lillian debut!! Hope her transformation is as good as others, like so far imo none are bad at all! They ooze personality! Well maybe Wonderful could have used more interesting choreograph as she's mostly just standing in it but still!