#prob gonna add things later

[scaredykitcat]

hii!! call me lily! ♡

welcome to my intro post (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

☆ i go by she/her!

☆ infj

☆ lesbian to my very core (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

☆ i'm bilingual! i can speak both spanish and english but it's rare to see me speak in spanish online (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

☆ i really enjoy writing! in fact, i'm currently working on a novel!! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

☆ 🇦🇷

☆ i'm a fan of orcas and sharks! (they're silly i love them)

Matching pfps with my pookies @demoactive and @thewi110w ‼️‼️

bsd is my current fixation (and the reason behind my pain and madness) but there's a chance you find me rambling about other things; like shows, books, movies, (you get the point) and (maybe) about the novel i'm working on (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

You can also find me on Instagram! (i don't really post there tho •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀)

[itsahotminuteinbetween]

i thought it was funny

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

[volfoss]

i cant even like post about the horrors that are going on currently because im gonna get too mad but oh my god. like i would give her really good credit for writing a character like marius that has 0 self awareness about his insanely disgusting behavior bc like. that CAN work. you can make the reader feel disgust and see things through the eyes of someone who is horrible while not romanticizing the behavior. clearly anne did not get the memo for this one.

[downtwngrl]

INTRICATE.

hi so it’s been a WHILE. uhhhh rewatched challengers for the thousandth time and it broke me out of my writers block! i don’t know how im going to continue w this, so feel free to drop any ideas and ill add it to the lore 😈 note: series prob isn’t gonna end with any smut scene bc im incapable of writing one without it sounding stupid asf! but who knows, you might be surprised

cw: 1.4k words,,, art and reader are dating but fighting, set in stanford era, tashi is NOT injured, patashi, hints of reader crushing on tashi but repressing it, fighting, tensiontensionTENSION! basically everyone is friends with one another but they all want each other BAD. lmk what else i should add :)

“it’s complicated.” that’s what you say every time someone asks you what your relationship with art donaldson is. and it’s true— you guys are fiery, but not explosive. complex, but not convoluted. it’s just… strange. intricate. hence, complicated.

you think he’d probably say the same thing, but there’s no real way to know, since you can’t exactly ask. the two of you aren’t on speaking terms right now, and for the same reason you two stopped talking last time, and the time before that.

art donaldson can’t split his time between his girlfriend and his fucking best friend’s girlfriend. and you can recite the argument quite well, maybe even word for word; it’s still fresh in your mind, engraved there.

“c’mon, you can’t just keep ditching me for her. it’s annoying, and it hasn’t just happened once or twice, you know.”

“i know.” art sighed, a hand tangled in his hair as if to ground himself. your name fell from his lips, voice cracking midway. “what do you want me to do? she needed help with her physics homework.”

“she can get one of her fucking groupies to help her! she’s a big girl, she doesn’t need to rely on you.” the way you said it, mocking and condescending, was mean, and you know it. you don’t hate tashi— you can’t even bring yourself to dislike her. but it hurts every single time you text art on your motorola and get hit back with some half-assed variation of ‘helping tashi. sry :( i’ll come later.’ he never actually shows up at ‘later’, which only rubs salt in the wound.

art’s jaw ticked. his eyebrows furrowed and eyes darkened in a way you’d only seen once before, when someone was talking shit about tashi in the cafeteria. you had watched as she calmly reassured art that is was fine, that he needed to relax, but he only shook his head and clenched his fists. in that moment, you wondered if he ever got that angry if he overheard someone talking about you. you now doubt it.

“don’t talk about her like that.” he said it calmly, but your skin still prickled. “she’s an accomplished lady. what about you? what have you done?”

if you sounded condescending before, it was nothing compared to how he sounded then. you scoffed away the sinking feeling in your stomach, blinked back the sting in your eyes. there was a lot you could have said to him then: ‘i might not be half as good at tennis as she is, but that’s less embarrassing than being second-best to her boyfriend.’ or ‘i didn’t compete for her number and lose.’ hell, even a good ‘fuck you’ would have sufficed.

instead, you just stood there, frozen, as he grabbed his stanford sweatshirt and left.

when you tell the story to patrick, he laughs, and doesn’t stop laughing until you jab him with your elbow, effectively knocking the oxygen out of him. his hands raise in mock surrender before speaking. “sorry, it’s just funny to see him get like this, i guess.”

you frown. “what’s that supposed to mean?”

“i mean that he likes you, but he likes tashi. i know it, tashi knows it, and from what i heard on the walk here—” he gestures vaguely towards the door to your dorm, “—the school knows it, too. i dunno, i guess it’s amusing ‘cause art has never been so disturbed about this kind of shit. usually he just picks the girl he likes best, but he can’t.”

“you mean he can’t because you’re dating her.”

patrick smirks his signature smirk. you have the urge to punch his teeth out; vagueness is beginning to be a pet peeve of yours. “no, i’ve told him that tashi is free reign.”

the way your stomach flutters at that is shameful. you push the feeling away. “like, you guys aren’t..?”

patrick shrugs. “i mean, currently she hates me because i said i’d go to her match yesterday and i missed it.” these guys really need to stop promising us stuff, you think. “but yeah, when she isn’t pissed off, we’re dating, and we talk about it. ‘bout you guys. she doesn’t really care if the two of you make moves on either one of us.”

you don’t say anything, but your ears feel warm, and your heart is about to explode out of your chest. it doesn’t help when patrick takes that as a sign to keep talking and says—

“i don’t care either.” it suddenly hits you, the closeness between you and him. close enough that you can smell his cologne, one typical of a rich frat boy you’d pass by in the halls. but it feels different, with him. patrick’s smirk has shifted into a grin, a big one. you realize he’s been gauging your reaction, and is thoroughly pleased.

“oh,” you breathe. he snickers, repeats it back playfully. you don’t understand how he’s so relaxed, able to make light-hearted jabs in this moment. art likes you and tashi. tashi doesn’t care if he likes her, or if you like her. patrick doesn’t either. but where do you stand in this?

your phone jingles, the sound muffled from the blood roaring in your ears. you don’t know if you should thank or curse out whoever decided to call you at this second, but you excuse yourself to answer. patrick nods begrudgingly, backs up enough for you to have room to finally start to inhale and exhale again. “hello?”

“hey.” it’s art on the phone. impulsively, you look around, as if he’s hiding somewhere in the dorm he marched out of a few days ago.

holy fuck. “hey!” you sound too cheery to your own ears, and hope that over the line it sounds more convincing. you hear a sigh on the other end, and can imagine art physically loosen. “what, uh— i thought you were mad. at me.”

patrick perks up. ‘art?’ he mouths, and you nod. he attempts to come closer, but you swat at him, moving a few steps away. he pulls a face, but doesn’t move closer. still, he’s definitely trying to hear what art is saying.

“i was.” art laughs nervously, the sound tinny over the phone. “but you’re right. i fucked up. tashi… she isn’t my girl. i need to pay more attention to you, and that’s gonna happen starting now.”

she isn’t my girl. “she could be,” you think aloud. you tense. art chokes. patrick stifles a laugh.

“what?” you pray that he didn’t hear it. you had mumbled it, whispered it, there’s a chance it didn’t pick up. art says your name one, two, three times before you respond.

“sorry, i just zoned out a little.”

“no, you said something. baby, what’d you say?”

“i said ‘you should be’. like, you should be paying more attention, dumb joke, i was trying to sound threatening,” you slap your free hand against your lips to stop your word vomit, then your forehead as you reprimand yourself for acting so stupid.

art hums. “oh, okay.” it should relieve some on the tension in your shoulders, but it doesn’t. he usually laughs when you fluster, but he didn’t. is he unconvinced, or are you overthinking? “hey, tomorrow can you come to my practice at noon? we can go to the cafeteria after, i’ve got wayyy too many meal credits.”

you look to patrick for help, but he shrugs, enjoying the moment. “sure.”

art says his goodbyes, goes ‘mwah!’ through the phone (which usually makes you laugh, but now you feel bad), and once you say bye, he hangs up.

“i’ll go to his practice, too.” it’s never a question with patrick (or with tashi); he just lets you know. “tashi’ll be there. she’s always on the court when she’s free.” you find it endearing that he knows her schedule.

“tashi.” you like the way her name rolls off your tongue, but you’d rather die than admit it.

before you can say anything else, patrick walks over, swings an arm around your shoulders and pulls you close. “don’t forget about what i said.” his breath smells like spearmint gum, the type art is always chewing. maybe he gave him a piece. “just think on it, yeah?”

you nod, and he pats your cheek before walking out the door, leaving you feeling dazed. after a few moments of just laying on your bed, soaking in the conversation you just had, your phone dings.

we’ll see u tmrw :-) -pat (&tash)

[crazyfor-toby]

hi!! First of all happy belated birthday no idea when you’ll see this but 🥳 I just wanted to see if you could just do some general kinda fluff for Toby and any other of your choosing during like the crush stage

also you are an amazing writer and incredibly creative whoever the douchebag who stood you up is doesn’t deserve you so get yourself a better man bc if anyone deserves it it’s you<3

so yeah that’s the end of my little rant and feel free to just ignore this ask, put yourself first!

-A ❤️

Summary :: Toby during the crush stage

Notes :: thank you so much!🤭 You are too sweet! btw I didn't know which Toby you wanted so I js did High school Toby but I can always change it if you want and make another one for him💟 I'm prob going to add Jeff later but I js wanted to get this out as soon as possible

Warnings :: none that I can think of except for the usual cursing

Readers gender :: None assigned, gender neutral

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This guy is so fucking mean for no reason but hates whenever anyone else is mean to you

He bullies you because he doesn't know how to respond to his own emotions and he has absolutely 0 experience. Plus, he thinks you're only talking to him to mess with him at first

I can see him falling for someone because they were nice to him or because he found them physically attractive as bad as it may sound to some people. But, he does know when someone is only being nice because they feel bad or they are just trying to mess with his feelings he just wants to be treated like a normal human being not get made fun of or have people be overly nice to him because of his disorders but we can get more into those emotions another time.

Even though he can most of the time tell the difference between genuine kindness and people feeling bad, sometimes he may think that people are messing with him when they actually are being genuinely nice because he overthinks everything and lets his bad thoughts take over a lot of the time.

Would definitely zone out while staring at you as he bites his nails and hands... Gets so many side eyes and weird stares because of it too

thinks about you 24/7 to the point it affects his daily life and his mother and sister get worried

He would probably mistake his romantic feelings for platonic at first but when he realizes the only thing that changes is how mean he is to you and I don't mean he gets nicer 😃 your #1 hater and #1 supporter

He's honestly confusing, one minute he'll be thinking you hate him and he doesn't have a chance to thinking he does have a chance and that you have the same feelings for him as he does for you.

Meaning that there's like a 30% he will make a first move on you because you have to catch him in the right mood, at the right time, on the right day which is pretty hard because you'll never know what mood he'll be in and he

He literally just acts like he hates you and if you asked him out or made a move he'd turn it down but then out of no where months later he will ask you out

he's honestly such an attention whore and he only craves your attention now so good luck

the only time he can really talk to you in person outside of school is if you happen to be friends with his sister or you guys meet up somewhere like a park or a cafe which isn't that often because of his parents so he makes up for it by texting you all day

Reminder though that he isn't some soft and shy bundle of joy who is just hurt, he is crazy and is slowly going under the control of Slenderman. He can have major mood swings and will most likely make you end up not liking him for the way he treats you at first, he doesn't mean it tho he's just a lil delulu 😊

Overall, your experience is gonna be a rough 5/10 unless you don't mind his harsh words then it'd be like a 6.5 - 7.5

[bunji-enthusiast]

Idea idea idea because honestly this is like my fav scenario for scourge currently??

Basically the Reader is Sonic's friend, we know Scourge got something against and prob everyone and everything associated with said Blue blur if I remember correctly, but imagine the reader and Scourge in a predicament and they have to work together at least until they get out of said predicament, prob a lot of backhanded comments or something but like after this, Scourge grew to be interested in the Reader, it's like enemies to frenemies to friends to lovers idk I just love him and want to share this 🥹

Murphy’s Law — Scourge The Hedgehog

Note || your so rightttt, I love this idea. So now if I may add onto it extensively with a couple of my own.👁️👁️

WC || 610

This was not how he wanted his day to go, this was worser than worse. 

It was horrible.

“COME ON YOU IDIOT!” You shouted, running ahead as you held onto his wrist tightly. As if you were afraid of what would happen if you ever let go of him. “WE’RE GONNA DIE THANKS TO YOU.” Scourge was still rather confused how he ended up in this predicament with you out of every other person conceivable in the universe. 

Finally he found his voice as he shouted back, re-adjusting himself as he kept up and stayed alongside you. “YOU DON’T THINK I KNOW THAT?” 

A giant dragon was chasing the two of you throughout a cave system, it was supposedly very angry about what the two of you had done. You’d say that it was Scourge who pushed it over the edge for the dragon, who in turn was now very, very angry. Now you two were running for your lives. 

Soon enough Scourge ended up overtaking you in speed, now you were the one left behind him. You were near and damn near close to panicking, you certainly didn’t want to die, and especially not Scourge's back being the last thing you see. You pant hard, trying your best to force your leg muscles to trudge on forward and away from the maw of the dragon. Your hand reaches out for Scourge unconsciously, eyes closing to loss of consciousness. 

You couldn’t run as fast as you could prior to the first few minutes of this chase, you couldn’t keep up with Scourge anymore. 

“Hey! Look over ther-'' Scourge looked back to check on you, eyes filled with a hint of concern. He realized you had passed out, for a moment he had considered leaving you behind, but he couldn’t do that to you. He growled at himself, diving back to grab you and immediately held you close as he ran away from the dragon, incidentally narrowly avoiding death all at once.

Scourge let out a sigh, then continued forward with you in his arms. You certainly were gonna give him an earful later should you wake up anytime soon. That was fine by him, he really didn’t want to associate himself with you anyway.

That would’ve meant association with the stupid blue hedgehog himself.

His legs continue pushing himself forward, keeping you in mind as he continues to run. The light signaling the exit ahead, he zooms straight for it and hopes for the absolute best. Suddenly he can feel himself falling.

“HOLY–”

Scourge grimaces as he braces himself for impact, keeping himself on the bottom as a cushion so he’d rather absorb the impact.  

He felt like he almost passed out, with a groan he uprighted himself and held you close, checking for any substantial injuries on your being. Scourge frowns almost, figuring out what he should do. He realizes that Sonic and your friends will be retrieving you soon, so he puts the item right near you. 

The exit out of the cave suddenly explodes, he scoffs as he remarks with a grin, “Ka-freakin boom baby.” Scourge begins to walk away, only stopping when he hears a noise escape you. His eyes directed right toward you, his ears pin back and now he was feeling helpless. What was he supposed to do? He couldn’t take you with him. That would get your Sonic and the rest of your friends on his ass.

You shiver in your unconscious state, deciding he shouldn’t just leave you like that – he lends his jacket, laying it over you and covering you in order to allow you some warmth.

“Sweet dreams, I guess.”

[ihave1braincell]

Small little CCCC headcanon? Well, it’s not really a headcanon, just a little idea I think is nice but don’t really believe in.

Imagine that just as Soul is often portrayed with a pet chicken, Heart has a pet too.

This pet isn’t an animal, though. It’s some sort of horror entity called “Nothing.” (Yes, the thing from “Good Day”)

The Mind, Heart, and Soul are all allergic to Nothing but the Heart has a fondness for it and chooses to keep it. During the morning, Nothing is only found in the barely visited areas of Whole’s body. (Going with the theory that HMS all live within Whole) but at night, Nothing loves cuddling with Heart, but Heart’s allergies kick in and Heart has trouble sleeping because of it.

Mind (and sometimes Soul) insist they get rid of it, but Heart says “it’s only Nothing! It’s no big deal.”

Also Heart probs has tried to train Nothing to attack Mind (to no avail)

Nothing sorta resembles a snake, specifically a Burmese python, but definitely isn’t one.

Mayyyyy make art of this later

Update #1:

I made a small sketch but I’m still probably gonna add more details and finish it later. For now, I’m gonna sleep. I’ve been hyperfixating too long.

[newmatrix]

I've spent too long on this. Making myself stop here cuz I can't look at the number of hours on the canvas anymore

But look!! Look at him! I'm finally done and I do rlly like how it turned out

This is just the design and notes for the section of time my au is happening at, things change later ofc but I'm not gonna make sheets for all their ES designs too

(Pre-war Star peek)

I'll add to the little notes section of it as time goes on, but for now that's rlly all I have

I'd love to answer questions anyone has abt her! Or if there's any critiques I'm open to those too!

I do think it's a little funny this is the first full sheet I've done for one of their designs, since Bee was by far the first design I made

I'll prob do his next

(Close ups vvv)

How I'll usually end up drawing him ^

[bugdogg]

(Yakuza Wolf: Baseball) im just gonna add things for later here, gonna rb a bit prob

[cinnamontoastcroonch]

carrying on the trend of discussing our shadow knight headcannons as started by @xerith-42 :))

i’m gonna start tweaking here we go. prob will think of more later

- to begin— SKs have a different look to them than most. they tend to have duller hair and skin; paler than their natural tones but in a grey/dead way. this is amplified when in their SK form. additionally, their hair kinda floats while transformed.

- to add on, the actual armor is not really armor. i’ve seen multiple people talk about this— i think it’s like a hardened second skin in a formation similar to armor plating. it flows from them and hardens instantly, almost like blood. when caught of guard, say somebody strikes from behind or something, the armor may activate/materialize in that specific area first, before the response of the entire body’s transformation is triggered.

- the eyes. many people have mentioned this and i even tried to include it in a drawing, but the whites of their eyes turn black in their forms, and their red irises glow. depending on the intensity of power of the shadow knight, the irises will emit a sort of red smoke/aura. additionally, when the form is taken, the scars below the eyes literally rip open. it’s pretty violent and quite painful, although the entire process of taking the form is, so this part goes largely unnoticed by the SK. to bystanders, the blood that spills from them at first gives the illusion of tears of blood.

- back to the armor thing— i also thing the flowing of the armor originates from their death scar and coats the entire body. if that makes sense.

- i think that SKs body temperature is quite the interesting feat. they can typically regulate it, but as the calling onsets it begins harder to tolerate anything cold, as their body begins to prepare itself cruelly for its return to the hellishly hot temperatures of the shadow realm. cruel.

more calling stuff

- the calling is painful. extremely so. it starts as a dull headache. as time passes, the entire body of the shadow knight begins to experience a dull, burning ache. it intensifies and can even become unbearable in the presence of whoever the calling has latched onto. also, if an opportunity arises, such as a knife on a table near them while their back is turned, their hands and head with alight with a unique burning that cannot be cured unless they manage to remove themselves or follow through. each scar will throb as a reminder of their mortality without answering the calling.

- once, when the calling was particularly bad for laurance, this sensation hit him very suddenly. he was with aphmau, discussing important matters, when suddenly his speech was cut short, only a gasping cry managed to creep from his mouth; his eyes simultaneously glowing red. his jaw dropped, and silently, nearly sick with the shock of such pain, he braced one hand on the table and almost fell. he couldn’t speak. he could hardly think, over the ringing in his head and the insistence of the shadow lords mantra in his head to ‘kill her’. his other hand uncontrollably jerked to the hilt of his blade, and he managed one small word to aphmau. “go”. somewhere inside her she knew not to argue, and she exited, despite her fear for his well-being, and promptly informed the nearest (likely vylad) of the current situation. laurance spent the next few hours, alone, huddled on the floor of that study; shaking, sweating, grappling with reality. after that too-close incident, he truly started to distance from the group, becoming entirely terrified of losing himself.

- the SKs also have a sort of hive sense—only activated when something is happening with a portal in the overworld. if one is opened, a panging pain will be felt by the SKs, the intensity of it reflecting the closeness of the portal. usually, this continues as a headache until the portal is shut, or they move far enough from it. this is naturally much worse during the calling, and they will feel an additional pull to the portal.

- adding on, i think it would be interesting if SKs could physically see a certain purple, snaking aura leading to a portal if it is nearby, that no regular, non-SKs can see. this comes in handy if they are searching for the portal, and allows them to direct people precisely if needed.

my take on @adepressedgaydragon ’s doll hc

first off i think this hc is so interesting

- the sort of dissociation that occurs is quite frightening for the SK themselves

- i like to think that this paralyzed state is a way of the shadow lord reasserting his fear into the SKs. as a way of reminding them of his power over them. perhaps when they are paralyzed like a puppet with cut strings, they are living out some brief hallucination in their head.

- sometimes are worse than others, and these spells can sort of be used to determine the current strength of the shadow lord based on frequency and intensity. sometimes the SK will snap out of it and come to as if nothing happened, other times they snap back and suddenly they collapse into a heap of panic because they are so extremely terrified.

- these hallucinations that occur are similar to those that gene inflicted on laurance during his initial transformation. furthermore, it would be interesting if gene (due to his mind control abilities) had some sort of minor power involving these doll-like episodes. his manipulated version would be fightable tho, something others could resist, unlike the organic ones that are largely unavoidable.

- another scenario because i’m fueled by angst: once, during one of these episodes, garroth was keeping an eye on laurance. this was not much long after his transformation, and was one of the first doll-like happening he had. garroth was sitting nearby, having moved laurance to a sitting position near him. all was usual until instead of blinking back to reality, laurance went from being motionless to launching from the chair he was in, stumbling, gasping in bone chilling fear as he tried to wipe the hallucination from his mind. garroth, although unable to understand his struggle, tried his damndest to comfort laurance, practically catching him when he sprung from his chair, holding him steady as he struggled to breathe out of fear. ‘i’ve got you; it wasn’t real’ repeated frantically into his ear.

alright that’s all for now folks, please give your thoughts/ask any questions!! i love discussing these ideas!!

[nixierain]

Vent post, Yippiee!! I'm annoying!!

Alr, I'ma vent about my toxic traits (Or just random traits) And where I belive they stemed from

Btw theres prob gonna be some heavy stuff

Clinging - The desperate need to be the center of attention and loved, and fear of abandonment

Why it is so difficult for me to understand that people care about me, or why they do - Toxic friendships in my past

My "Extreme" (Its not irrational according to my therapist) fear of abandonment - Toxic friendships, BPD, And having my friend ditch me in kindergarten (She was a bitch, I'ma kinda glad she left me now...)

Me having horrid ways of showing affection (Punching and kicking addition) - I don't know how else to, and I have no siblings so I have no outlet for that.

Me having horrid ways of showing affection (Stealing things for a bit, but giving it back later edition) - Fear of abandonment, if I have their things that can't leave me HAHAHAHA

Self harm/sui "attempt" (Its pathetic the way I attempt, its just trying to choke myself to death) - Attention and to test if people care about me

Hating myself - Attention seeking, MDD and BPD

Obsessing over people (Like it is BAD like real bad, I've basically stalked a kid once...) - I... I actually don't really know why I do this

Perfectionism - Not feeling good enough, taking my parents jokes too seriously, people-pleasing, the need for people to like me

The need for people to like me - Attention CRAVING

Attention craving - toxic friendships

Generalized trust (Trusting people too easily) - In hopes the person will like me and give me attention

Liking toxicity even though it makes me want to die - I framiliatarized (How tf did I spell that first try???) it from being bullied so much

Not being able to end a friendship even if its toxic - Fear of abandonment (DAMN This has a lot of baggage to it)

Overthinking - I have anxiety, And the need for people to like me

The need to answer everything, like every text and such - My parents drilled that in my head when I stayed home alone

I CAN NOT ACCEPT GIFTS - Cause of my parents when I was in 1st grade...

WAYYYYYY too sensitive - BPD, bottleing everything up

A violent side to my brain: Attention, gives me a outlet

Zoning out frequently - Prob my subconciouss not wanting to deal with anything, Coping

Not being able to comprehend half of the things people write or say - MRELD (Mixed receptive-expressive language disorder) And anxiety Yeah thats all Ima write right now, Maybe I'll add more when I thing of them

[jaimeshonorhardon]

ned/jaime fic concept

modern au jaime post figuring out his trauma works at an animal shelter for dogs

Single dad Ned finds a bunch of “puppies” by the road and is like idk what kind these are and takes them to get checked and vetted up before taking them home and he goes to jaimes shelter and like he doesn’t expect him there and Jaime leaves him with a bad taste in his mouth but like his kids will love these puppies and is like hey can u tell me what these are and give them their shots so I can go and jaimes just like u dumb sexy idiot I have bad history with these are WOLVES how did you find theses?????? U were gonna give them to children ?????? Jaime instantly needing to have sex with this fucking idiot. Post cersei he hasn’t been with anyone in years due to insecurities/major blows to his confidence (cersei trauma and no hand trauma) and the lack of practice in genuine flirting besides a little thing he had with his bestie (brienne) but they were both going thru some shit and are just family now but he literally hasn’t been interested in anyone either (demisexual jaime rights) so he literally is just stumbling and blushing and then just blatantly flirting but ned thinks that’s just how he’s always been but maybe a little more nervous than usual so doesn’t really get it

But also later for jaime truly falling for him it’s because ned is just such a good dad (obviously ruggedly hot but that’s besides the point) with a heart of gold like he’s a single dad of fucking 6 plus Theon so 7 and is super busy with his company but makes time for all of those fucking kids and all of their activities and for ned—ned is just like wow Jaime is really good with these dogs they really like him animals know best plus he’s very very good at his job just something about an efficient man that animals like he seems changed and a good person now plus he’s gorgeous and my kids don’t mind him I’ll let myself love him :)

but Jaime at first is just purely horny for ned (that’s just what he tells himself) and then eventually is like oh no…..I am in love with this old caring father while said father at first had no idea what was going on but after they fuck he immediately and silently in his head decides he’s romantically seeing where things go and falls in love gradually and naturally compared to jaimes bomb of a realization one day as he has no practice in this besides having always been “in love” (imagine post trauma Jaime also air quoting) with cersei and ned was fully married and in love before

FUCK and of course Jaime has to go over periodically to check on the wolves growth and behavior cuz like that’s what ALL vets do right …right??!!?? He tells himself yes of course 😅 I’m not being too secretly crazy in love I’m just being helpful! He won’t catch on! Ned goes from oblivous to begrudgingly accepting into making it apart of his life and something to look forward to with Jaime in their initial stages of romance while jaime is just internally screaming that he hopes ned doesn’t catch onto his feelings and how much he needs ned in his life and cares and if he rejects him cuz cersei never gave a single shit about any of his true feelings and he cannot handle losing the best man he’s ever met even as a kind of friend he’s fucking and helping taking care of his wolves and kids (jaime is their second dad at this point he’s the only one who doesn’t know)

He also thinks ned doesn’t know what to do with all these dogs anyway he’s a busy man with 7 kids he needs help these poor wolves probably aren’t getting proper care and the children need rides to school which is on his way to work (jaime is the one not getting proper care and ned can tell the man is low key struggling on his own why not just add another one into the pack more the merrier)

And of course ned has a huge property and one of the pups gets lost late at night and he calls Jaime to help and they get snowed in at some cabin at the end of the property where the little pup took shelter (probs ghost bc he’s harder to find and quiet so it would take until nightfall) and ya know ~things~ happen between the two men

I need those two mfs to be locked in a cabin so bad idk …

[balladofmyramblings]

One BOSAS take that really gets on my nerves is the idea that Coriolanus never loved Lucy Gray. While there are some points to make for it, there’s a lot more to say about the story as a whole when you see it through the lens that he did.

Number one: The idea that Coriolanus never loved Lucy Gray makes zero sense and completely undermines how his relationship with her shaped his relationship with power, and his personality in general.

Let’s first look at the “present” (the main time BOSAS took place). Coriolanus is immediately attracted and drawn towards her, and continues flirting with her later. He enjoys the kiss before the games very much, and literally gives her his mothers compact. He also says that he’s never felt that way about anyone else before, so even if what he feels isn’t actually love (and who are we to decide?) if he thinks it is/was that’s good enough, because it influences how he feels about the whole thing in the end. These examples aren’t enough to conclude, as love is based on way more than just desire, so let’s continue.

Now, the “future” (after the huge fight, and the rest of the years up until Katniss’ games). This proves so much more than the “present” stuff. Firstly, there’s the fact Coriolanus was willing/ready to spend the rest of his life with her, if he hadn’t been accepted into officers school. You can still love people and put your career first, which is what he did.

He was also happy that Lucy Gray believed they were written in the stars and therefore forever intertwined (which they pretty much were), which if you didn’t love someone would be a pretty heavy thing to be told and put a lot of pressure on the relationship as a whole. Instead, he sees as a positive, even if he doesn’t believe it and the reason why is kinda weird.

Coriolanus, again, had never really been in love or even a relationship. The only other mention of past romance we get from him is a dare that Festus put him up to, involving lots of posca and some encounter behind an alleyway that got him the reputation of a player. That’s it. This whole romance thing is pretty new for him, so even if he wasn’t actually in love, he thought he was, and that means the same for him.

Let’s look at how it means the same for him. It’s gonna be quick (I think). Coriolanus vows to never love again. He hates the control it has over him. This alone is enough to convince me he truly loved her- the fact that he nearly went with her to live alone in the wilderness (although the fact he could’ve been arrested probs helped some too). He was well aware of what him loving her cost him, and that’s enough to convince me he did.

I see a lot of people quote the fact that he was unloving towards the fact that that he never loved at all, but we have to look at that as cause and effect instead of seeing it as the same wavelength if that makes sense. Like because he loved her, he knows not to love again, NOT he won’t ever love so he never loved her. Plus, we know he’s capable of love due to Tigris, we just also know he doesn’t value it and cares about his career more, due to Tigris again.

Also, I’d like to add on the fact that Coriolanus was excited to see Lucy Gray at the hob, wanted to spend time with her, and met her family. Like yeah these don’t mean love, but some of y’all are out here painting this idea that he never even liked her and that’s just SO wrong compared to love, which at least has a lot of layers and I can understand both sides.

We also know Coriolanus, after Lucy Gray “betrayed” him, says that he should marry someone he has no chance of loving. So, he did love her because he learned his lesson about love in general from her. He learned that he will always choose the capitol/power over love (how Lucy Gray shaped his relationship with those feelings and made them more clear), and that he really did love power lol.

In conclusion, while his feelings were clearly complicated, he did love Lucy Gray, and that shaped a lot of the story, both his own and Lucy Gray’s.

[thatonesapphicfilipino]

guys

how do you tell if ur bi or les

break cuz it’s long

like genuinely

like do i like guys

or do i want guys to liek me

and i gaslighted myself into liking guys before

how do i tell if i like guys…

i’m not even super into masculinity

like the guys i like r

enbys with a touch of masculinity

even thinking of that was a stretch

like i was gonna add another option

but legit can’t think of another option

like this super masculine muscular men

like only thing i think is like

“dang i should go on testosterone just to be able to get that muscle definition”

or like conventionally good looking guys my age i’m like

“would you hate crime me”

or

just gender dysphoria

like what

don’t think that’s what straight girls think

like what

how do you tell!???

am i just les but too scared to use les

i think i am

cuz like what guys do i like…

am i les???

no but ik like “let people be wrong”

but also what if i am and homophobes r all dick abt it

like what if yk

it also just feels too boxy

too permanent

but it’s not

it’s a word

this is stupid right??

to be screaming into some void abt prob being les but not willing to accept it

i mean i’ve called myself les before

and bi just doesn’t feel right

i’ll just stick with sapphic and figure my shit out later

[ghostlybroskies]

Paranormal Humanstuck Style AU: Dave Strider Edition

This blog is going to be experimental on my part. I wanna try writing some more, use this to test out art styles on occasion, etc. and I just think it would be fun!!! I used to have some ask blogs waaaay back when, I have old art of them too haha, but forgot all my old passwords. The gist of this is; Dave survives jumping off his roof top and winds up with ghost powers. Danny phantom style! He remembers dying, he’s sure he did, but now he’s in a hospital?? The fuck? Now he’s living with Dirk and his boyfriend Jake in a city over, and they run a paranormal investigators company! And by company it’s just the two of them. They’re working on it. Dirk does coding work on the side and Jake is a substitute research teacher for a nearby college. Over time, as Dave gets better, gets medicated, works through his shit, he discovers he can,, phase through things. Wanders the city at night in his dreams, and even sees full apparitions in his new house. Will he tell Dirk and Jake? Probably not anytime soon, he doesn’t want to worry them right now with everything going on. So he’s gonna do what all Striders love to do and ignore a problem until it’s too late. I’m planning for this blog to be formatted as his video diaries and anonymous blog and such. That might change later, as I add in more characters and such. Any triggering content I’ll put behind big disclaimers! It won’t be all serious though, so don't worry. I’ll probs make a mod blog later, and I’ll do a proper introduction post,, at some point haha. Anyways! Thanks for reading, have a great day! - Mod Crow