#procreate is so so bad for this but I can't quit now

[watery-melon-baller]

i need a fucminh. like beta. for this animatic dear god. tragically none of my irl friends are as abnormal about toh as I am and this thing is a digital mess that is completely incomprehensible if I try to export it in it's current state. hnggg

[zoeykallus]

Hi! I read your Bad Batch baby HC and really enjoyed them! How would the guys react to a parter telling them that they’re infertile? I hope you’re having a good day/night!

Aloha!

Now, that's a heavy hitter and an interesting one indeed.

The Bad Batch x Afab!Reader HCs - True Affection

Hurt/Comfort/Infertility/Fluff

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Hunter

By now it is absolutely clear, your relationship is something serious, you have reached the next level. You get nervous, because now, at the latest, you should tell him the truth. When you take him aside and cautiously address him about it, he looks at you confused at first. Hunter can't immediately process what you're saying.

You watch him quietly think for a moment, just a moment ago he was all jovial, now he suddenly seems so serious, it makes you nervous.

"I'm sorry about that" he finally says quietly, "How are you coping?"

You sigh and say, "I've more or less made my peace with it by now. I've known for a while now. It was hard at first, but now I realize that fretting over things you can't change is wasted energy. So I've accepted it and decided to make the best of it, to just enjoy my life."

Hunter nods slowly, then smiles tenderly.

"I'm glad you have this confidence in me to tell me".

He takes your hands in his and kisses your forehead.

You say softly, "Well, our relationship has been going on for a while and I thought it would only be fair to tell you about it before you start to…. plan a family."

Hunter laughs softly and says, "Sweetie, we have enough work keeping my brothers and Omega in check. Besides, should we really feel the urge to raise kids someday, there are more than enough out there who need a home"

You take a deep breath, leaning against him in relief. This is a conversation you imagined would be harder. Hunter holds you gently and strokes your back soothingly, sensing the restlessness in you that is just very slowly subsiding.

He says softly, "My love for you remains unchanged."

Tech

"Tech, can we talk for a moment?"

Normally he would have nodded, continuing to work, looking at you briefly and saying, "Sure," but he hears something in your tone that makes him look up. Tech slowly puts the holopad aside and looks at you very intently. Somehow, this undivided attention on his part makes you even more nervous than you already are.

You turn around, close the cockpit door behind you, and sit down with him.

"You look heavy-hearted. Did something happen?" he asks quietly.

You don't know how to begin, so you just blurt it out.

"I can't give you children, I'm infertile".

Tech raises his eyebrows in surprise, he certainly wasn't expecting this topic. At first moment, he doesn't even know what to say. A thousand possible answers run through his head, but in the end only a rather simple, "I see" comes out of his mouth.

It's so hard for you to pull yourself together, your voice trembles slightly as you say, "I thought you should know, to be fair. Before things get to the next level between us… you know, couples usually start planning families and stuff at some point."

Tech blinks, pushes his goggles up the bridge of his nose with his index finger, then turns all the way around in his chair to face you. Now you're even more nervous, usually in conversations (no matter with whom) Tech is usually busy with up to three other things, but here and now he's fully focused on you. There is a certain excitement, you feel flattered, there is a tingling under your skin, usually only in intimate hours he is really fully attentive. But in this context, your heart beats up to your neck with fear.

"You're scared," he states.

"Is it that obvious?"

Tech nods.

"I know you well enough to see it. It's pretty obvious. But from my point of view, true affection, true love, is not tied to the possibility of procreation. However, I understand that it is quite natural to feel this desire, it is in the nature of almost all living things to reproduce."

You nod slowly, not quite knowing whether to be relieved or still nervous.

"My affection for you, is not tied to the possibility of starting a family," he finally says matter-of-factly, "I hope this helps you overcome your fears regarding our relationship. I'm not going to turn my back on you over this."

You take a deep breath, the tension falling from you, a single tear rolling down your cheek, which he gently brushes away with one of his long fingers.

"Are you sure about that?" you inquire softly.

"Of course I am, I don't say things like that lightly. You have my deep, unconditional affection."

Echo

When you bring up the subject of children, he looks at you in surprise. He didn't really expect that, up to now his life hadn't necessarily followed a normal course, he hadn't thought about family planning yet, even though you've been together for a while. Echo is very happy and content with what you have as a couple. The trust, the affection, the intimacies, the quiet hours and the loving little silliness. It's already more than he would have ever dared to hope for before.

Echo says thoughtfully, "Honestly, I didn't think about it until now. It was never really a part of my future plans so far," he says thoughtfully.

With a heavy heart, you tell him, "As long as you're with me, I'm afraid that won't change. I am infertile."

Echo raises his brows in surprise, his expression softening. He knows you well enough to see how hard it is for you to broach the subject.

"It weighs heavily on your heart, doesn't it?"

You nod with a sigh.

Echo takes you in his arms, squeezes you gently, and asks, "How long have you been struggling with this thought?"

"Quite a while," you admit quietly.

"Oh darling," he says softly, "There's no need for that. You're my better half, I'm incomplete without you, nothing will change that. I'm so sorry that this has burdened you."

You take a deep breath, wrap your arms around him and feel deep gratitude for his understanding, his affection.

Echo says tenderly, "If you ever really want to be a mother, we can always think about adoption, there are enough children who need a home. All that matters to me is knowing you are by my side."

"Are you sure that won't change?" you ask softly.

Echo kisses your forehead and brushes a stray tear from your cheek.

"Absolutely sure! Honey, you're all I really need. Don't worry, you can be sure of my love."

Wrecker

He is so good with children, the children love him no matter where he goes. It's a beautiful image, but also one that triggers deep pain in you, fear. In a village you saved from some pirates, at the little party they hold to honor the batch, practically all the kids are attached to him, they all want to play with him and show him things.

You watch this for quite a while, but your thoughts turn somber and a lump forms in your throat. You'll never have kids of your own, and you don't know how to tell Wrecker. Hunter looks at you, sensing something is wrong. As your eyes meet, he asks gently, "Are you okay?"

You force yourself to smile, take a deep breath, and lie, "I'm just tired, maybe I should go to sleep."

You get up from the table, and retreat into the Marauder. A few minutes later, when you are more or less comfortable in the bunk, reading a book to take your mind off things, Wrecker comes in. He looks at you tenderly, concerned.

"Did you get rid of the kids?" you ask with a small smile.

"Hunter said something was wrong with you. He said you've retreated and that I should check on you."

You sigh, "Of course he did."

Wrecker sits down on the edge of the bunk and reaches for your hand.

"What's wrong sweetie?"

You swallow, collect yourself, and finally say, "When I saw you with the village kids earlier, I realized we needed to talk about something"

Wrecker frowns questioningly.

"Oh yeah?"

You say directly, as if quickly ripping off a Band-Aid, "I'm infertile".

Wrecker sits silently, looking at you uncomprehendingly. The information takes a moment to sink in. After a while, he says, "You can't have children of your own."

You nod, put the book aside and run your free hand over your face.

"Yes, unfortunately. That means we can't have children together"

"'Scooch over," he prompts you, lying down next to you.

Still holding your hand, he is now lying next to you.

"Okay, that's unfortunate, and I suspect that's not easy for you, but it's not the end of the world" he says thoughtfully.

"Oh no?" you ask critically.

"No," Wrecker says with conviction, "we do love each other, don't we?"

"I love you very much, yes"

He turns his head to look at you and smiles.

"See, we don't need much more than that. I love you with all my heart. And you can adopt children too if you really want some."

You laugh softly.

"Is it really that simple? Doesn't that bother you at all?"

Wrecker says softly, "The only thing that bothers me is that it makes you unhappy. I want to see you smile, love."

You kiss his chin and say, "Don't worry, Wrecker, you make me very, very happy."

Crosshair

He responds pretty matter-of-factly when you tell him you're infertile.

"Okay."

"Okay? That's it?"

He asks, "What do you want to hear?"

You throw your arms in the air.

"I don't know, but maybe something more than just an 'okay'"

Crosshair sighs, sits down and says, "Kids were never part of my life plan, and honestly I don't want any. So for me, nothing has changed"

You frown, not sure if you're happy with that answer. On the one hand, it's good to know, but it seems so insensitive. However, you're actually used to his rather edgy manner by now.

"Okay, good to know," you say with a sigh, not in the mood to argue with him or pull the words out of his nose.

But as you turn away to leave the room, you feel his hand on your shoulder. You stop but don't turn around.

"Listen, Kitten," Crosshair says more gently, "I can't imagine how much of a burden this must have been on you, and I can understand that my reaction didn't come across as very sensitive."

You remain silent and wait. He spins you around so that you have to look at him.

"But like I said, nothing changes for me. You're still mine, Kitten and you always will be, whether your uterus works or not doesn't change that. Stop pouting, sweetie."

You roll your eyes and a small laugh crosses your lips, relief finally coming.

"The way you express yourself sometimes…" you say with a sigh.

He shrugs his shoulders.

"As direct as possible, you know me".

You smirk, and he gently kisses the corner of your mouth.

" That's how I like your face much better, Kitten, with that little smirk of yours".

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[smhalltheurlsaretaken]

Stumbled upon your master list of SW meta you wrote, and enjoyed reading through some of them, especially the ones that examined and defended the jedi order. I point to the jedi order in particular because when you pointed out that the number of jedi in the galaxy are proportionally smaller compared to a planet with a population in the trillions, it reminded me of a bad take regarding the order (which is conflated with the whole "the jedi are actually the bad guys" in SW): that the jedi are eugenicists because their adoption of force sensitive children. This never sat right with me given that the jedi never seemed the type to be concerned with propagating their numbers in some form of "purity" (genetic or force sensitivity wise). Any chance you can gleam into the nitty-gritty of this take's unsavory implications?

OOf, that's an old ask, and that reminds me that I really need to update that masterlist 😅 (and me saying that is an even older draft, oops 😂)

Okay, the idea of the Jedi being *eugenicists* is SO out of left field that I feel like it doesn't even deserve to be really addressed so much as mocked, because words mean things.

To be quite fair, I don't think I've ever seen anybody seriously use that word. (It may very well have happened tho, I just can't remember somebody seriously making the claim and sticking to it.) Even the infamous KT rant (see below) doesn't call them that - the extremely weird and frankly absurd take is that they embody supremacist ideas and that people who are into them believe there is such a thing as an inherently superior person. She does use the word "Nazi" (just wow), but I don't think she was going for the eugenics part, just the run of the mill white supremacy theories. People on both sides of the argument may have misquoted/misinterpreted her on that though.

(Seriously woman, why were you even writing for Star Wars?! YOU DIDN'T EVEN LIKE IT!)

Now, eugenics? (This post is so weird to write, I can't even) ⇊

It is LAUGHABLE to use it in relation to the Jedi Order, because as you accurately put it, the Jedi just aren't interested in... making babies.

Do they force their members to procreate, even artificially? Absolutely not.

Are they seeking to improve the Order by only taking in the healthiest, strongest, most powerful children? No. They were ready to reject Anakin, for one thing.

Are they studying how to arrange reproduction in the rest of the galactic population? No.

Is there a ban on non-Jedi Force sensitives having children of their own? No. Are they forced or even strongly encouraged to have children of their own? No.

Do Jedi control who Force-sensitives are allowed to have children with? No.

Do Jedi test for Force-sensitivity and keep records of it? Yes. But they don't seem to keep genealogies - there's nothing that says the list in the Holocron is a permanent one either - rather, the way it's phrased and the way there's only babies on it, names are probably erased eventually. And the purpose of the list has nothing to do with increasing the occurence of Force-sensitivity.

Are non-Jedi Force sensitives forced by law to give up their kids? No.

Do Jedi automatically take in Force-sensitive children anyway? No. Bardotta and Dathomir are right there and nobody's bothering them.

Is the Order ableist? No. We even see plenty of disabled Jedi and nobody is throwing them out. (Amputees like Anakin and elderly people like Yoda and Tera Sinube, for starters. Also Prosset Dibs, or Tahl in Legends).

The Force isn't even proven to be reliably 'transmissible' from one generation to the next - the Force 'being strong' in particular families may just as easily be for more spiritual reasons depending on how you want to look at it. Because, you know, Star Wars isn't all literal.

IT'S JUST SO DUMB.

NOTHING ABOUT HOW THE ORDER WORKS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH WHAT THAT WORD MEANS.

(I'm sorry I'm not dissing you for the ask I just don't get how anybody could ever have said that 😂😭)

[credagraeves]

Definitions

The Cambridge dictionary just added a definition for the word antinatalism. And oh my god, it's bad.

This definition is wrong. The first part is right, the second part is not, and it misses a key point. Here's the wikipedia definition, which is way better: "Antinatalism or anti-natalism is a family of philosophical views that are critical of reproduction — they consider coming into existence as bad or deem procreation as immoral." Leaving out "coming into existence is bad" is leaving out half of what antinatalism can refer to. The belief that having children is morally wrong is a thing antinatalism can refer to, but it does not have to be about morals. "...or that people should be encouraged not to have children" -antinatalism has nothing to do with encouraging people to do anything. It's kind of like saying that being a determinist means that you encourage other people to not believe in free will. You may do or you may do not, that has nothing to do with you being a determinist as a definiton. Antinatalism is not a movement. Individual antinatalists may think this or do this, but this is not a definition of antinatalism. The examples are horrible. I know examples should just show correct use in a sentence, but it's kinda like if most of the examples about gravity would be written by flat Earthers.

The first example says antinatalism is sometimes being motivated by enviromental concerns. This is exactly what I wrote about in my first blog post. I will just copy paste the entire post here:

Conditional natalism is not antinatalism.

There are people who call themselves antinatalists, but what they mean by that is that they believe the world is bad or getting worse, therefore it is bad to have children. And, if the world weren't so bad, it wouldn't be bad. I have also seen someone say - also calling themselves an antinatalist - that as long as there are children without homes, it is bad to have children, though if there were no children without homes, it would be fine.

These sentiments are not what antinatalism is. Antinatalism is concerned about all suffering. Sentient beings will always inevitably suffer, therefore, creating sentient beings is always bad.

If you do not agree with this, you do not accept the antinatalist philosophy. Saying that it is not okay to have children only in specific conditions is not antinatalism - it's just conditional natalism (not a widely used term - can't find an already accepted term for this), and basically everyone is a conditional natalist. For example, people may say it is bad to have children in poverty, or in old age, or in some other circumstance, but in every other circumstance it's okay. They are obviously not antinatalists and shouldn't be called that. If we start calling this kind of conditional natalism antinatalism, the word 'antinatalism' will not be a useful description of anything, and the word 'antinatalist' will describe almost everyone. Onto the second point. "Often comes from the negative perspective that all life is suffering" Oh my god this irks me so bad. This is literally what antinatalists who argue about antinatalism often have to argue against and now it's in a dictionary. No, people do not become antinatalists because they think all life is suffering. I mean some may do, I guess, but it's definitely not often. All life is suffering is quite a nonsensical thing to believe as a human being, as presumably everyone experienced some joy. Antinatalism says that there is suffering in life, therefore it is bad to have chilren. Saying all life is suffering or saying there is suffering in life are two very very different statements.

More examples

I don't know how long it dates back, to be honest. Hopefully they are at least right about that.

This one you can just feel that someone who is very against the idea wrote it. As an antinatalist, you often hear from people: "you are just depressed" and this is basically that point. Maybe I'm wrong, just an observation. But okay, so to reply to this: again, antinatalists don't see literally all human life as sad and miserable. I do think that people who have a bleak outlook and are sad and miserable may be able to come up with the idea of antinatalism easier. Afterall, if you suffer, you think about suffering, you might really want other people to not go through what you are going through, and the only way to guarantee no suffering is to not come into existence in the first place. In contrast, people who are pretty happy with their life are less likely to think about suffering in general, and are less likely to figure this out.

Again, with the environmental reasons. You were wrong about this once already, don't repeat it. Also, again, not a social movement.

Maybe. But often when people argue against antinatalism, the popularity and the acceptability of the position is used to argue against its validity. I guess this is the least bad point, if it's not written to argue against antinatalism, but just as a simple statement.

Kind of, but it's important to note that this is not a goal that antinatalists have. It would be a consequence of antinatalism if everyone accepted it, yes, but just to reiterate antinatalism says that it is bad to come into existence. It is not a movement, it doesn't have a goal. Also, it is very important to note, that antinatalism is not just about humans. Every sentient being suffers, therefore it is bad for any sentient being to come into existence. "The world would be better off if humans didn't exist" can be interpreted two ways. It would be better for the humans to not exist, or in the way enviromentalists often use, that it would be better for animals and plants if humans didn't exist. With all the talk about enviromentalism in the other examples, I am afraid this is what they mean. Either way, it is unclear which one they mean and I don't think being unclear is good for a dictionary.

Overall, I think the people who wrote this definition and the examples seem to be biased against antinatalism and not knowledgeable enough about it to do a good job, clearly. Maybe take another crack at it.

[meirimerens]

hiii first of all I'd like to thank you for all the amazing art you put out there <3. Secondly and sorry if this comes off weird but I'd like to thank you for writing ATA in general, and specifically one line that meant a lot to me when I read it, from chapter 11:

'because he wasn’t interested in giving life—simply, now, in protecting it'

As a late bloomer queer this line really resonated with me and coincided and helped with finally wresting myself of the societal conditioning regarding having biological kids as 'leaving a trace of yourself behind in the world', and Artemy's story in general and in the fic being in part about how there's so much more to family and love and community than that. The world needs nurturers the world needs protectors, there's so many Roles to Play!!!

(I don't know if that's the way it was intended so apologies in advance if I completely misinterpreted your intent OTL, that line was just so beautiful to me among many others. Sorry I'm not doing this on ao3 I have embarrassment issues)

hi darling Thank you... 🫶 and darling THANK YOU... i am so glad you Caught that... you read it exactly as i've written it... you've Gotten it... you GET it... it's gotten you...

i'll tell you i'll tell you now Many lines in ATA refer directly to my headcanon of Burakh as a gay man. like a homosexual not-into-women i've already mentioned it before having written ATA (i_do_it_so_you_dont_have_to.wav). i have Many points of data to make my case (not that i would need to, and also one of these points is I'm a homosexual and i'm all-powerful so i do what i want).

i personally am a relatively early bloomer for lesbian standards (came out at 14) so i didn't really have the time to grapple in grand ways about this + i've never wanted bio kids in my life & have never experienced Active Pressure from my parents (i am very much aware of Societal pressure but i think since i came out early i began at a young age to be like Well i'm not following the social expectations of [x] already so why would i now) But i'm seeing i see i read i witness in Burakh's story a deeply Homosexual experience that i write. that i love to write. that on god i think i need to write. because i am aware of it i am aware of the stories and plights of people who were not as lucky as me.

his whole whole thing is that he must find ways to be true to himself. he must wrestle with the expectations put on him, with the familial and cultural frameworks he is expected to work within (incl. for example aspity telling him he'll have children, which damn he does, but not biological). the fact that he ends up the protector of kids None Of Which are biologically his own to me is like. a gay thing. such a gay thing. for most gay people across millennia at this point, living true to yourself means that biological kids will be out of the question. it's one of the main weapons of religious homophobia: the belief that marriage is "between a man and a woman" is because it is supposed to result in procreation & kids as per the bible, and a gay couple that doesn't follow that framework (more often than not because they. well they can't) is seen as a fundamentally wrong, ungodly, etc. the social imperative of biological kids is perverse on everyone, especially women, but on homosexuals who quite often just Can't Do That Dude No Matter How Hard They Try (unless they jump through 1546 scientific/medical/whateverelse hoops) it is used as a weapon.

burakh's self-actualization as a homosexual man To Me exists in no small part because he becomes a protector of the next generation without having any biological ties to them besides All Being Of Mankind. (among many other things)

he is needed as a protector, he is needed as a nurturer, and he doesn't have to have any biological ties to them kids to do so. that's homosexual joy to me. that's homosexual self-actualization and freedom.

this is exactly what i have written into ATA, or what i have written ATA from (as a place of thought). It might not be exactly 100% what You read in it, but i think you've read enough, and you've read it true enough that it has resonated.

thank YOU... for reading this beast of a fic [and of a. response]. ATA was crazy to write. in good ways. in bad ways. in the best ways. THANK YOU... and carry on!

[nikethestatue]

I kinda need to vent a little and you seem like the person everyone vents to so:

I can’t have kids. Like I am physically unable to (thankfully my husband and I don’t want them anyway, but that’s beside the point).

There are days when I’m in my head..when I feel like I should want them, and since I’m already depressed about the fact that I “should” but don’t, I start feeling bad that I CAN’T. Like I’m less of a woman because my body decided that for me.

The whole reason I’m saying this is because no matter how long it’s been since ACOSF came out, there has been and will be discourse regarding Elain’s ability to procreate and whether or not that means she’s Azriel’s mate/LI/whatever. That ideology hurts real women.

It fuckin sucks that we lose ourselves in this fantastical world only to be ripped out again by people saying a FICTIONAL CHARACTER is not worthy of love because they can’t bear their FICTIONAL love interest’s child. I-? And that’s not even starting on the way the whole pregnancy was handled..we’re sticking with Elain here.

I know there’s nothing you personally can do about any of this. It’s not like you can find SJM and shake some sense into her (not that any of us would complain about that lol). Like I said you seem like the person people send stuff like this in to, so thanks for that.

So this is an interesting one, because I bitch and moan about SJM plenty, however, in this case -- the stupid pregnancy plot aside in general -- I really have a hard time with blaming her.

Yes, her fake feminism died the moment Nesta began augmenting everyone's pelvises and making them nice and stretchy for Illyrian babies. However, I think that the place where SJM wrote this from was ...positive? I think she really wanted to make sure that none of the sisters are left with the same choices and no answers as Feyre did. And I think in SJM's mind, it was another step in Nesta's 'redemption arc' that she thought of Feyre, herself AND Elain when she was playing god with her sisters' hips. Now, the whole thing is ridiculous of course. But SJM did the best she could with the wording of that conversation between Nesta and Feyre. So not to give away her precious endgame couple, SJM still had Nesta say 'so NONE of us have to go through this again'. She could've said 'so you and I never have to go through that...' ir 'the two of us...' But she said 'none' which implies Elain is included. Now, the ethical ramifications of whether someone's body should be changed against their will, or at least without their consent, I think are lost on SJM. But I think that she left all of it open ended, and a choice.

Fertility and childbearing are complex issues. Personal and societal. Whether you want, you can't, you don't want, you planned, you didn't plan, etc. it's an issue wrought with both sorrow and pain.

The problem is that SJM decided to switch the direction of her writing mid-series --went from YA, geared towards younger audience, where sword fighting is a lot more important than baby making (hence no one except Yrene had children there on page), to NA, which should be geared towards a more mature audience. Or at least an audience which wouldn't take the issue of fertility so lightly and flippantly. Yet unfortunately, the switch wasn't done well. So now, we are stuck with 13 year old TikTok pontificators who think that they know something about something. And they amplify their own noise, talking about something which I don't think SJM ever meant to be talked about. I certainly would never think that she'd write a storyline where a woman is rejected by her potential lover over her inability to have potential children.

a. I don't think that's what she was hinting at at all

b. And while she is definitely very much an author where HEA means happy coupling with offspring, she did create quite a number of couples where children were not their HEA at all.

it's frustrating that so much animosity and sometimes real pain has been generated over a stupid ship that doesn't even exist.

[huntsvillegossip]

Hear ye Hear ye lovelies...

I hope you're all enjoying your trip into the past. Everyone looks so lovely in their little costumes. Still, it seems for some of our fair town folk, they've truly taken the event to heart and created some dramatics worthy of Shakespeare.

It seems scandal continues to follow Miss Genesis Boone and the strange robot man in a van that she calls her boyfriend. Sources have confirmed that she was heard breaking the news to Mister Canne that he is going to be a father. I can only wish them both a hearty congratulations on the pregnancy, and hope for the sanity of the god-fearing, church-going citizens of our fair town that a wedding is on the horizon to avoid an... Uncomfortable situation with the Lord.

However, it is not only Miss Boone and Mister Canne who have seemingly caught the baby fever and decided to procreate. I have also been reliably informed that Jessie Sinclair and Cassius Romero are planning to take their relationship to the next level by trying for a little bundle of joy of their own. No news yet regarding how either of their families are taking the news, but I wish the happy couple the best of luck on their journey toward becoming parents.

It seems, in spite of the lovely festivities the town has put on for us, that not everyone is feeling the love. Mister Theodore Collins, recently featured in this very column for some out of character behavior of his, has continued his streak of bad decisions by getting into a fight with the newly appointed second-in-command of the Commune.

Maybe it was the alcohol coursing through his system that had Theodore acting so rashly. Or maybe his costume had him feeling the fantasy, trying to ride in like a white knight to defend Kirby's honor. Allegedly, Antonio was making remarks against his own fellow Commune member, although who other than the second in command would know them better? If Antonio claims they're terrible at maintaining friendships there must be some truth to it. They live together after all, must have seen for himself how poorly Kirby must treat their so called friends.

Speaking of fighting in the Commune, whole place just seems so tense since it went on lockdown, the Garcia brothers were spotted fist fighting in the middle of the faire. Seems Alexander isn't so great, sleeping with the girl his younger brother loved. Terrible really, if you can't be loyal to your family, who can you be loyal to? Unfortunately for both of them, Josie no longer seems interested in either of them. Tough luck boys, she's run off with the Jester while making fools of the both of you.

Quite an eventful week for our little town, here I thought the fighting would only be in the jousting tournament. Well, that's all for now, if any of you need any advice or want to share your own harrowing adventures from the faire, don't hesitate to send me a message. Love, Auntie G.

[dausy]

This is my weekend post I was too lazy to post about until today. Ill start it with a quick drawing I did in procreate. I can't draw while out of the house. Its just not my safespace but heres a drawing just to keep my blog somewhat art themed.

So I lived in Savannah all during my entirety of my social media hiatus. Quit doing art at that time. Now I kinda regret it. But since I've been away for 3ish years..omg I'm so jealous everything has grown sooo muuuch. So I get adverts all the time for the brand Vuori and last year maybe? we drove to Montgomery Al to explore since we live vaguely close and I had no idea that Vuori sold in real life locations and there they were at this one shop in Montgomery! I thought that was just some sort of internet brand (very expensive too btw) but I love the few items I got from there and I had been thinking about buying some of the same items but in different colors. Since I knew I was going to visit Savannah I had small hopes that maybe it was a bougie enough town to maybe have a boutique that also sold Vuori...sounded like that was too specific too happen. Thought maybe I'd drag by husband around river street while he complained I was taking too long looking for a specific brand that I'd never find..I also kinda wanted to try the OnCloud brand shoes too..I thought Onclouds would be more readily available for shopping purposes..anywho, we go to see a movie and afterwards since we were in the area my hubby was like "oh I wanna show you this store at the tanger outlets I saw the last time I was here" and lobehold!!! it was a store that sold both Vuori and Onclouds..in one store..I just about died..I don't want to tell you how much money I spent on 2 pairs of shorts, pants and a pair of shoes. Then we ran over to hottopic so I can buy another lougefly I dont need.

movie we saw btw was the Buzz Lightyear movie and I absolutely loved it. It was a great movie.

Then the next day we went and had brunch at the cutest little french inspired place called The Emporium. I'd never been before but I loved it.

Then we went to the art stores. Also hit up a super kroger which I miss tremendously and wish I had one nearby. I bought so much junk food to bring back with me. I am a bloated sugar bomb right now.

I did go check out the Sailor Moon Vans but didn't actually buy any.

Then we visited St Augustine Florida. We've gone on many trips where we were like "oh we should have brought the dog" and this time I was adamant we brought the dog. This was probably the time I really shouldn't have brought the dog. I was asking for parking tips on facebook because I get anxious about trying to find parking in new places and the local facebook let me have it about being a bad pet owner and taking my dog to walk on the beach when its hot outside. I ignored the haters because my dog has booties and a backpack! but it did shake me up 8( ngl. I did feel horrible for her. It was really hot outside but it wasn't the heat that got to her it was the fact that we went to the pirate museum and they had pretend canon fire and just within the past 2 years my dogs decided loud noises were going to scare her. The fake canon fire absolutely freaked her out. She didn't do anything, she just looked petrified the rest of the day. So we cut our day short. We did get to go on a tour which she looked like she had fun and we walked around the fort. But as soon as we did that one museum, any noise had her shaking and glued unable to move. Wasn't anticipating that. So anyway..it was overall a fairly good weekend.

[000life-is-meaningless000]

Useless, Evil's !!!

I know I said in multiple times and earlier post that most good comes from evil, and I stand by that because a lot of fucking good comes out of being Pure Evil.

darkness is more of a benefit than it is a con and the only thing that keeps people from wanting to embrace it is mental illness.

A Mental a Severely intense crippling mental illness they call morals.

but there are a few evil that are just absolutely fucking stupid they don't benefit anyone ever.

List :

Ritualistic Sacrificing - nothing good comes from this, and the demon you summon is always going to fucking destroy you, you can't control the fucking demon don't ever do ritualistic summoning or sacrificing a Demon.

Pedophilia - ( The Kid's Can't Get Pregnant, children can't even experience sexual pleasure until they're around the age of being a teenager around 14 to 15 - Stop Baby Bumping ! ! ! ! !

Raping An Animal - 🤮 - Seriously Dude, Wtf !

Using a Ouija board, every goddamn time someone fucking does this they always bring forth and asshole 👻 that causes everybody a problem.

Satanism <- white literally just summons assholes causing the fucking problems every fucking go think that that this side of the dark side helps them but really a fucking dozen it it's a net negative on everybody, the ones participating in it get fucked the people around them get fucked the people are not aware of the get fucked everybody gets fucked, and not in a sexual way. - dark temples are holy but some darknesses are just middle fingers that everyone no matter what some Darkness doesn't like to Call 🌵 Cactuses 🌵 because no one's getting a benefit from that, 😡 so quit fucking touching it !

Abusing Children, they grow up to be so fucked up so unstable so I'm fucking hinge, don't abuse your kids because nothing but problems there are some things some women that can't be healed something some cracks and glass that can't be undone, there's some damages that time can't fucking heal.

Child Sacrifice, how do you know the child your sacrificing isn't a demon that Reincarnated, how do you know that the body of the soul is in there you are destroying isn't an evil spirit that u you are free'n back of the Spirit Realm. - child sacrifice by far one of the stupidest fucking Evil's I've ever come across.

let me explain a few evil that are actually Good.

Warmongering - Domination, Power, Land, resources, Enemies & Future Enemies Fear You, Permanent Protection !

Vore aka Cannibalism - Domination, it's perfect for survival, plus there's a lot of nutrients and cannibalism that you can't get anywhere else and you get you get the devour a special DNA that is also extremely fucking healthy for you. they're is just a humongous taboo they never want to fuck away because morals are a mental illness.

Rape - if your species is going extinct and the only way to save your species from going extinct is to do something like this are you really an evil person at that point ? if nobody wants to have sex and the only way to make babies and survive and not go extinct because death is forever, is to do this heinous act, are you still a bad person, or would it be good to not want to have sex if the women did not want to fuck ever, EVER !!! and you were stuck in a situation to where the birth rate was dropping no woman was having sex and no one was giving and making a babies for decade after a decade after decade, and you're only choice to finally make a baby to save the human race or save any race in the universe, was the Force Procreation, are you still evil because we're at the point in society right now we're like there's like no fucking babies anywhere. Need I Remind you that Extinction is Eternal. - to make things even fucking Stranger, there are women out there that sexually desire to be raped cuz I want to be conquered and dominant by a male, I'm not criticizing and I'm not shaming those women I'm just saying that exists out there and those women want it, I'm not going to take the fucking arrest and do that shit by the same goddamn time there's a man out there willing to do that to the right woman and give her the ultimate Joy, while she gets fucking pregnant while she gave birth in a declining birth rate world. - Rape is Evil, Unless you're going Extinct !

Violence . . . . . 🤨 ? - What Isn't it Good For ? - got some assholes, need to punch stupid people, need to defend yourself, got a war to fight ? - need to hunt some animals, when a horse play around, Mad Some One, is there a mosquito flying around the room, mad at the TV at the Computer, Beat It, what else you do Game's based off of, the dog chew up your newspaper or chew up your shoes on the whoop their little ass, are your kids acting up ? Get the belt, are you a black person and a white person just called you the N word, we even have fucking games based off fighting and one of the most popular of them is called Mortal Kombat, what happens in almost every fucking anime cartoon someone's going to get violent, I can go on and on but I need to try to get to Summer family friendly because Tumblr has terms of service and if you break them they have no they give no fuck to set your blog on fire - and terminate your account so I mean I can't give any data out they literally forced to be silent your First Amendment right don't mean shit.

Chaos - It's Freedom !!!!! Absolute Freedom ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Always Let the Darkness, Devour The Light, Always Let The Evil Literally ( Especially, if Female ) Devour, The Good 😇 <- ! ! ! ! !

I wasn't going to go on and on to list off every goddamn evil in existence but I'd rather fucking not.

( Red, Pink, Purple, Green - What, Dose that Spell 😈 )

I'll just give you a list of from a wiki somewhere of ideas of evil they show off evil powers and evil nature but the same goddamn time I'll let you be the judge of right and wrong cuz I know most these God damn evils are actually good it it'd be very wise of you to embrace the Darkness and Shun the light.

Evil Dose Nothing, But Serve You.

Hell is Bullshit, And Heaven is Stupid.

Sin's Kinda Don't Exist, and the stupid Christian religion someone can died for your sins therefore you can't sin.

you can't be a sinner cuz fucking Jesus already died for it so all this shit you do that's a sin is Automatically forgiven.

religion is not a control mechanism, cults are.

and the abrahamic faith is a worldwide cult.

I say for you to do is that will do what you want

you are just another animal on the planet you are just an animal in the universe I don't see any I don't see any Lions feeling bad after getting a kill and eating something whenever the fuck they want to

I don't see a higher power smiling your cat after I kill the fucking rabbit near by ate it turn into fucking terrace went back in the fucking house stressed you went back to sleep and has a bloody rabbit carcass somewhere getting infected by ants and maggots and all kinds of shit.

I don't see it happening I don't see any bird that flies high in the sky just swoop down and kill another fucking animal with a gruesome brutal merciless fucking way I don't see it when it flies up a higher power shooting lightning at it.

I wonder how many dogs are in hell ?

I wonder how many cats are in hell ?

I wonder how many Alien's are in hell ?

I wonder how many snakes are in hell for biting a human ?

I seriously Wonder how many birds God Has Sent to hell ?

I wonder how many bugs God has sent to hell I wonder how it's full of trillions of ants because they bit someone, or stole someone's food.

I really really really wonder how many Bacteria God has sent to hell ?

I wonder if the mosquito that bit drink your blood and flew away I wonder if God send it to hell ?

but miraculously the serial killer that shot someone dead is going to hell but the but the large cat the large fucking tiger which has free will Ascension is and can choose the tiger that pounced on a woman somewhere in a jungle somewhere in Asian jungle or India and ate someone alive tore their fucking head I'll turn their body into a boy fucking mess it's not going to go to hell ?

they both have free will !

it's just that there's a stigma against humans killing humans and there's no stigma or shame or punishment for an animal for doing it I mean there are cops they were going to go out and hunt for the tiger but it was like a million tigers and a tiger did it they won't be able to find the exact tiger that did it and then you're just going to cut your losses.

if someone from Africa walk to the grass doesn't pay attention in a lying pounces on their ass I'm pretty sure a higher power is not going to shoot the light that mean at the lion kill it I'm pretty sure the Lion's not going to stand before God and he's going to get sent to fucking hell for killing the African.

But, Some way somehow the human being is fucking Different ?

@ The Reader !

I'm not saying Hell doesn't exist I just saying it's fucking stupid.

I'm not denying the existence of Tartarus I'm not denying the existence of hell I've been with God I can't deny him I've had actual fucking experience and I can't prove a God damn thing

🖕🏻 if you think I'm full of shit 🖕🏻

I just want to give you a goddamn fucking chance to understand things differently I'll give you this God damn links and I want you to praise evil

I want you to love the darkness we will serve you it will help you it will make you stronger it will make you freer they say the truth is that you free but that's bullshit although you need the truth

The Darkness Will Set You Free ! ! ! ! !

Embrace, . . . The Darrrrrrknessssss ! ! ! ! !

[immortalmint]

15 Questions (Don't Have) 15 Mutuals

I got tagged by @childlikegoblinqueen to answer a 15 Questions thing, so prepare for TMI! Are you ready? Here we go!

Are you named after anyone? Nope. I'm named after a local-ish street. Why do we drive on parkways and park on driveways again? The English language is bonkers.

2. When was the last time you cried? Bill and Frank from HBO's The Last of Us. I ugly cried. Hard. Skip rest of question if you care about spoilers and somehow haven't watched it yet. The show introduces this conservative survivalist nutjob Bill--not my usual go-to character--and makes me sympathize with him instantly through the elegance of his hidden bunker design. It's obvious how much love and care this man has put into his work. And he just keeps going with the competency. So competent. I'm enamored now. Then they introduce Frank, and floor me with how delicately they handle the reveal of Bill's closeted gayness. Bill has never gotten to be himself with other people. The whole god damn world has to end before he can just exist. Then we get to the bedroom scene and I'm like "HBO, don't you dare put this sensitive, private man's first sexual experience on display to satisfy your voyeuristic audience. It would be violation of his character and the carefully earned intimacy that's meant only for Frank. Just Bill and Frank, not for the audience!" And then HBO, which has thrown T&A at us too many times to count, politely leaves the room. Bill gets to be Bill with the man he loves. We the viewers don't intrude on it. The writers did something so right and shockingly respectful. And then Bill and Frank grow old together. Frank is Bill's whole reason for existing. The man that gave him permission to be himself. And in the end they die together. Bill is satisfied with the life he had with Frank. And I'm a complete ugly mess of tears.

3. Do you have kids? I write a very ace-spectrum ('spectrumy in general) Hunter, so naturally, yes! I have kids. Us darn asexuals keep confusing the rest of humanity by existing. Equip 2x to procreation (or I have 2 children and am tired enough to make bad RPG jokes). Gotta keep the weird genes circulating in the human population. How else are we to survive these strange times?

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? For the right opportunities, oh yes. (Who, me? Never! was too bad of a joke to make. But I'll admit I was tempted.)

5. What sports do you play/have played? Only those I was forced to participate in during PE. I did karate and kung-fu for a bit (mostly to write better fight scenes) but I didn't like getting hit or approve of the general injury risk. I prefer hiking and gardening.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? Hair and eyes. And how they're treating other people / interacting with the world.

7. What's your eye color? Light Brown. Basically Flapjack's / Hunter's new eyes.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? Not particular about it, provided the characters are good, the plot is interesting, and it manages to make me feel something. Greater fondness for characters that have been through shit and still make something good out of themselves in the end. Soft spot for sympathetic monsters and well-executed suspense.

9. Any special talents? Making relevant observations and troubleshooting issues. Nothing for a talent show, but useful for employment.

10. Where were you born? Despite rumors to the contrary, Earth. In the absurdly wealthy country the US of A, that still can't seem to provide medical care or food to all its people. Baffles me daily.

11. What are your hobbies? Gardening and writing. Drawing on occasion. Getting deeply invested in media that portrays atypical people or experiences (sci-fi and fantasy work quite well for this). The Owl House is my current media passion (particularly Hunter & Willow, Eda & Raine, but I love all the characters). Used to be Final Fantasy 7 until they did Vincent dirty in a spinoff game. I haven't touched the remake. Waiting to see if they screw up my favorite character again.

12. Do you have pets? 3 chickens named after Owl House characters. We had 4 and it was… a very cruel life lesson. They're sweet, social birds, and after they get old enough, are very aware of their flock. My oldest chicken took her sister's death really hard. As did I. Lots of ugly crying. I take writing Flapjack very seriously, as you might imagine.

13. How tall are you? Tall enough to reach the top shelf in my kitchen. I consider that good enough.

14. Favorite subject in school? Lots. Math, Science (Genetics, Physio-anatomy, General Bio, Engineering), Philosophy of Religion, Art, Behavioral Psychology. I very badly wanted to major in "Mad Science" in college. Sadly, it is not offered.

15. Dream job? I had it, but ended up with a shitty boss that wrecked it (verbally abusive to multiple people on the team, attempted to sabotage my assignments several times, removed my name from the credits when circulating my work… or "Why is this grown adult acting like a toddler throwing a tantrum?"). Found another job that was pretty close, then got reorged to a shitty boss that wrecked it. Very tiring. Found another job, and the team + boss is amazing. Hoping company leadership doesn't f-it-up too much, as I like where I am. I've hit the point (probably much earlier than normal) in my working life where I realize the reason most people are so eager for retirement isn't because they don't enjoy working. Many of them do! It's because they're sick and tired of the jerky politics. My next dream job is a sabbatical.

[abovebelowemilycywinski]

Game Idea Front Cover

For today I wanted to make a front cover for my game, I wanted to make a cute image of all of the four girl characters I have created for the game idea. I wanted them to all act like friends and look friendly on the front cover. as if they were greeting the main character.

I wanted to do a quick sketch of them in a classroom, I wanted all of these poses to show off their personalities, and I wanted the short character with space buns to do a peace sign because she is the type of character to be an airhead so I feel like she would do that hand gesture just because that is what she has seen people do online. 

I want the purple hair character to be sitting slightly on the desk, she is a chill character so I feel she would sit in a way that would make her comfortable and look cool.

I wanted to make the brown hair girl have a cool pose, she is quite a sporty and athletic person so she would sit that way. She doesn't care if the way she acts isn't like how most girls act, she likes to be herself because it's the most comfortable for her.

The blond hair girl is quite smart but is always adjusting her glasses, she can get quite self-conscious with her glasses because she feels like she is doing the classic smart person with glasses trope however she hates her glasses because her family doesn't like the fact that her eyes aren't perfect and she needs help to see, this is why she is working very hard to be as smart as she can, to impress her parents and tell them that she can do a lot of things even though she is born with bad eyesight. She could wear contact lenses however that won't help the situation, she wants to be proud that she is born the way she is and if she tries to hide it, that's not loving herself and won't prove anything to her parents.

During the sketches, I have changed quite a few things, for example, the short girl used to have her hand out which you can slightly see in the first image. Sadly I took it away because it didn't look that great. I also changed how the blond-haired girl wears her glasses which I am now happy with the result. The reason at the end, the blond haired girl isn't holding her glasses, is because I didn't want to redraw the arm so I decided that I will fix it when I put it into Procreate.

I am very happy with the result so far and I can't wait to see the end result.

02/10/2022

[xiaosmoon]

dad/pregnancy headcanons

because i love dilfs <3

feat. childe & albedo

warnings: pregnancy

(afab reader)

when you first told childe you were pregnant, you were convinced he was going to explode from joy. he didn't believe you when you first told him

"there's really a baby in there?"

"yes, childe."

"...really?"

que death stare

he would be beyond helpful during your pregnancy. need to grab something? just stay put and he'll bring it to you. craving mac & cheese with pickles at the ass crack of dawn? he's already in the kitchen. he really just wants you to be as comfortable as you can be. he knows how to deal with your mood swings quite well (he grew up with quite a few siblings) and you always feel bad afterward but childe assures you that it's no big deal. as helpful as your loving husband is, you do get quite bored just sitting down all day and doing nothing. (this man wouldn't even let you cook for the first 3 months of your pregnancy. he claimed your belly getting too close to the stove would cook the baby.) so you convince him to accompany you on evening walks around your neighborhood. he was cautious at first of course. he's a fatui harbinger and anyone finding out about his pregnant wife would be bad news. but he gives in with a little convincing. overall, your pregnancy was quite the breeze.

childe would be the best dad. he's always wanted a big loving family and now his dream is slowly becoming a reality. the first time he held his baby was the best day of his life. the way his son wrapped his little delicate hand around childe's finger was the day he knew that he had a new person to care for. to love, cherish, and support. with all of the overwhelming love for his son, the dangers and fear lurked at the back of his mind. he was a fatui harbinger. it's funny how hands that have killed and slaughtered so much, are now holding something as precious and innocent as a new life. protecting you and his beloved son was now his number one priority.

he would hold his child over his shoulders all the time. he claims "the view is better when you can see everything!"

secretly spoiling the kid. i mean, come on. his pockets run very deep. who would he spend it on if not his own child?

"y/n, when can we have more babies? i mean look at this cutie! we do make cute kids don't you think?"

"you know, making babies is the fun part and i wouldn't mind-" oh look, a flying pillow heading straight for childe

once your son is older, childe will teach him combat. enough for him to protect himself

you and childe both agree that not telling your son about childe's real job is for the best. well at least until he's a bit older.

childe would make the sweetest, most fun, and caring dad <3

when you found out you were pregnant, you thought it was impossible. albedo had specifically told you that he couldn't procreate, so what was happening? you told albedo and he was just as confused as you. a week after being okay with it, you were both very happy. albedo called your unborn childe a miracle baby. for the first few months of your pregnancy, he would always rub your tummy. you could be cuddling on the couch and he would mindlessly be massaging and rubbing your baby bump gently. at night when he was sure you were asleep, he would talk to your stomach and plant gentle kisses on your exposed skin. "i love you very much. you're just going to be the cutest little thing, arent you? klee can't wait to play with you." you were sure your heart had exploded. but unlike childe, albedo wouldn't be the best with your mood swings. he would try his best to understand them, but it's just too much for the poor lad. you of course would apologize for your bursts of emotions but he assures you with a bunch of kisses that it's alright and you should just worry about your health. after that, albedo would busy himself with books, trying to understand as much as he could about pregnancy.

"hey y/n, did you know that babies cry in the womb?"

"albedo what the fuck."

sweet boy would do the absolute most for you during all of your trimesters.

albedo was in absolute awe when he first held your baby in his arms. wow, we really created this little little life, he would think. albedo was determined to find the meaning of life, it was surreal that he had helped create one. he kissed his baby gently on the forehead as they slept. they had his blonde hair, but your nose. he very much loved that. albedo doesn't know the first thing about being a father, but for his little baby, he would try.

albedo would a better father than he thought he would

you, of course, had no doubt

albedo would always listen to his child's stories and show them cool (and very safe) experiments in his lab

klee loved to spend time with your baby. she claims that she's practically gained a new sibling that she can play with!

albedo would listen to all of the babbles and endless nothingness of your baby like it was the most interesting thing in the world

he would also take notes of your baby. for research purposes he claims (wouldn't be albedo without some science)

once your child is old enough, he will allow them to come help in the lab with very minor tasks

while albedo is learning to be a father on the journey, he undoubtedly is doing a very well job

[ygreczed-3]

The Red Guard and the Snow Angel

Summer Falls desert concept art

Hank and Connor

Gavin and Nines meditating + thunder, snow, fire and wind seal

Gavin and the thunder spirit

More concept arts - traditional art & inking

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5

When they go through the Summer Falls desert, Connor and Nines pass out fairly soon due to their intolerance to fire magic. They only get better at night, when the temperature drops, so they stay awake to watch out while the humans sleep. During the day Hank and Gavin have to take them on their horse/Sumo and walk beside them, even though the intense heat isn't making things easy for them either. They reach a village in an oasis where Connor and Nines get better, and when they realize there's a spring in it, they decide to go and rest a bit as the night arrives.

Nines and Gavin are gone meditating on a less crowded part of the spring.

Gavin : That's stupid… How can this make me stronger than my training ? Nines : Stop talking and focus on your breathing.  Gavin : Grmphh.. Nines : Can you feel the source of magic inside your body ? Gavin : … Yeah. Nines : You have to… establish a connection with it. Show him you don't fear it Gavin : But I fear it. Nines : The war spirit you host is an incredible source of power, and you can believe me, it is as bellicose as you are. It only needs a goal to aim for and you'll be able to channel its energy.  Gavin : … You know I'm your enemy… Why do you help me ? Nines, closed eyes : I know I can compete with you. I'm ready to be challenged. And it's funnier to fight a skilled warrior than a scared little boy. Gavin : … Fucker.

X

Connor and Hank in the hot spring

Connor : I think that's what your hug feels like. Hank : hm ? Connor : The hot water. I think it's what hugs feel like. Hank : You said my hugs... Connor : Did I ? I was just thinking… about how you hug Sumo sometimes. He loves it. Hank : Yeah, this big boy loves cuddles  I admit that. Connor : It must feel good. Hank : What… You've never been hugged before ? Connor : Golems do have… intimate behaviors, of course but it's not… I mean we're… not physically warm, so... (NB : I was thinking golems in this universe would be like vampires, not as freezing as actual snow but still colder than humans) Hank : ...Thought you didn't like heat that much. Connor : Warmth from human's touch is different from fire magic : it feels more… safe, less aggressive. I think I'd like that. Hank : … How do you know that ? Connor : I touched your back to heal it, remember ? Your warmth feels nice. Hank : Yeah okay, you touched me, but you don't know what my hugs feel like ? Maybe you'd hate that. Connor : I wish I could know.

They look at each other, but then Hank looks away and stands up.

Hank : It's late, I'm tired. I'm going back to the inn. Connor seems disappointed, but then Hank keeps going. Hank : You coming ?

When they enter the room they share all together, Nines is already in stasis and Gavin is snoring loudly.

Hank takes Connor's wrist silently, looking at him in the eyes as if tacitly asking for permission. Connor just lets himself be enveloped by wide arms, and rests his cheek on his collar bone.

Connor sighs, closing his eyes as he enjoys that nice bear hug. He feels that warm something in his chest growing in his body, invading his stomach with pleasing flutters. 

Connor : Hank… Hank : Shhh… it would be embarrassing to wake those two idiots up now.

Connor bites his lower lip as he silently reaches for Hank's hand, his skin turning white as he presses gently each of his fingers against Hank's. It's known to be a quite intimate gesture among golems, and the closest human equivalence to it would be a kiss. Connor is aware that it could even be interpreted as indecent given how close their bodies are, and that if Nines was to wake up at that moment he would probably choke on thin air. Of course Hank has no clue about that and just thinks it's funny.

Hank : What, you wanna dance ?

Connor realizes they're holding each other on the left side and touching hands on the right side, and it seems like they're going to waltz. He chuckles from the absurdity of the situation from a human's perspective. 

Connor : I wouldn't know how to. Hank : Good thing, I'm a terrible dancer. Connor : Ahah...hmm, Hank, I like it. Can we stay like this for a moment ? Hank : Sure.

X

One night in the middle of the desert, Gavin is on the watch as Hank sleeps in the tent. Connor is with him, but Nines inexplicably stays around the fire, silent. Gavin is bored out so he just starts the conversation. 

Gavin : I feel like the old man and your stupid brother are getting along. Nines : I have this feeling too. Gavin : Doesn't bother you? Nines : What can I do ? I asked Connor to be careful, but I'm not blind… He's shining with glee whenever Hank is around him. I can't… force him not to feel. Also, I think Hank isn't that bad of a person… for a human. Gavin : Still certain we're the bad guys ? Think about it : you were made to serve us.  You betrayed your creators and let us starve like dogs. Nines : Humans didn't create us. Kamski did, and if he had wanted to, he could have made unthinking, obedient golems. Maybe we were meant to break free. Gavin : Oh yeah, so why can't you even procreate ? Simple answer: you were not designed to be an individual species from the start. You were built with no other purpose in life than to help us survive.  Nines : Didn't that even occur to you that humans did bad things too ? Gavin : We're just trying to survive ! Nines : So we are. Gavin : … So what ? You're saying we're two evils ? Of course we are. But I have to protect my people, you understand that ?

Nines stays silent, exploring the surprisingly genuine glare Gavin throws at him. Of course he understands that. His own despise for humanity is only driven by his deep desire to protect Connor, Marcus, and his people. He looks back at the fire heating them, unconsciously processing how ridiculously similar they are.

And yet, something starts growing in his mind, the irritating sensation his relationship with Gavin has changed from the moment they met, and that he unexpectedly wanted to protect him as well.

Nines : Would you kill me ?

He can't even explain how this sentence even made it out of his throat. He already knows the answer. Gavin stares at him longingly, noticeably surprised by the question. He stays silent as he puts more wood in the fire.

Gavin : If I had to, I probably would. But I… hum… don't want to. Nines : … hm. Gavin : What about you ? Would you kill me ? Nines : I don't know. If lives were at stake, certainly, even if I'd find this decision… regrettable. Gavin : ... Oh wow, is that your way to tell me you like me ? Nines : … Don't set your hopes too high.

Gavin breathes in a laugh and goes back to silence, smiling smugly. 

X

They arrive in Nestlepeek and split in two teams, Hank and Connor go to the center of the town, where Connor hopes to find more precise information about Kamski and where he hides.

Gavin and Nines were supposed to go buy supplies, but as they head to the covered market, they are challenged by a man in the street to defeat his champion in a fight. As Nines realizes it's all for illegal gambling, Gavin accepts and finds himself in a cage, combating a birdman.

He thinks he's got the hang of it but as soon as the birdman starts flying Gavin can't touch him with his sword anymore and becomes vulnerable to his aerial attacks.

Nines : Gavin ! Summon the spirit ! Gavin : No way ! Nines : You'll lose if you don't ! Gavin : I know what I'm doing, alright !? Nines : You obviously don't ! Thunder magic gives you advantageous long throw attacks, you can't win against a flying foe with close combat techniques ! Gavin : I think I killed enough Golems to know how to fight flying foes ! Nines : You bastard…

Nines uses his snow magic to catch the champion in ice and immobilize him.

Owner : What the hell !!! Who did that ?! Nines : I did. I'll replace your champion, open the cage.

The owner is confused first but then he sees the opportunity and accepts. Nines enters the cage and gets ready to fight.

Gavin : … You wanna die ? Told you I could do it. Nines : We've been talking about this fight for ages. It's time to see what you're capable of.

They start fighting and they're pretty even for the first ten minutes. Their fight gathered a lot of gamblers and spectators.

When Nines starts to take advantage, Gavin's eyes suddenly turn bright yellow, and he charges at him : Nines can see the thunder magic halo surrounding him. He parries many strikes but Gavin has gained in speed and ferocity. Soon enough, Gavin throws him to one extremity of the cage, and as the crowd around them is screaming in excitement, Gavin holds up his dagger. He's trembling, electricity forming around his hand. 

Nines can make eye contact but somehow, Gavin isn't answering his glare.

Nines : Gavin- You hear me ?

Gavin doesn't say anything, and Nines is sure he's gonna die when the human warrior shoots down his dagger… only to hit one of the cage's bars just behind him. Gavin closes his eyes, and opens them, showing blue-green orbs again, and he straightens up, breathless.

The crowd boos them as Gavin takes a step back and drops the other dagger. He asks the owner to open the cage and leaves the place, Nines following him, still out of breath as well.

Nines : Gavin !

Gavin stops, letting Nines get closer, until they face each other again.

Nines : You did it. You mastered the spirit… Do you realize that ? Gavin : I could have killed you, then everyone around me. That's what the spirit wanted to do… Do you realize that ? Nines : But you didn't. With a bit more training-... Gavin : I almost killed you, Nines, for fuck's  sake ! Nines : … So what ? Thought you were ready to. Gavin : Listen, this beast wanted you dead, everyone dead so bad… How can I… How can I use this power when I know how dangerous and unstable it is? Nines : … But you stopped it, right ? You can control it. Gavin : You fucker, if it wasn't for you, I know I couldn't have stopped it. I would have killed all those strangers, I know that, and I'm not… I'm not a murderer. Nines : … What do you mean, for me ? Gavin : Drop it. I need some air, don't follow me.

X

Hank and Connor enter the library, Connor is looking for the archived events-records to see if Kamski came into this village (which is most likely given it's the first one you can find after the desert)

It appears that the local people can fly so the library is very high, and most scales don't even reach the top of the bookshelves.

Hank : How the hell can we reach the archives ? Connor : Wait a minute, I'll go there and take some volumes with me.

Connor spreads his wings, that widen to support his weight as he takes off to the highest point of the library. Hank is impressed by how graceful Connor looks in the air. When the golem comes back with a consequential pile of old, handwritten books, he's just there, mouth open in amazement.

Connor : Here we go… the last 10 years of history in this village… Ready to pull an all-nighter ?

Hank doesn't reply.

Connor : Hank ? Hank : You're beautiful.

Connor blinks once, his lips slightly parted from the surprise, his eyes conveying nothing else than confusion and yet, low-key content.

Connor: ..I'm sorry ? Hank : When you fly I mean… that's impressive… and beautiful. Connor : Huh… Thank you, I guess ? Anyway hum… let's… let's find a table… Hank : “Thank you” ? But do you even realize how beautiful you are ? Connor : I was created to meet some human ideal. Why would I be proud of something that isn't my doing ? Hank : Ah, don't be so modest.  Connor : … you know, I think I find humans more attractive than Golems. Each one of you is unique, and I love everything you call “flaws”.

Hank laughs halfheartedly at his last line.

Hank : You don't make sense, kid.

X

They read the archives until it's dark outside. Hank can't help but yawn as Connor lights the candles to keep reading.

Connor : You can go back to the inn, Gavin must be there already, and Nines can take over. Hank : Nah, I'm good. Connor : Hm… Hank : You okay ? You look… worried. Connor sighs : … What if we can't find Kamski ? What if… I was wrong, what if we had to go back to Detroit and Jericho with just nothing ? I don't want to return to a situation where I'll have to fight you… I just can't.  Hank : … Yeah, I understand that. I don't think I can remain a Red Guard after what we've been through… After I got to know you. Connor : If we were to fail… nothing will never be the same again. Without you.

Hank just looks at Connor with sharp eyes, as if he's got the urge to say something. At this point Hank knows he's falling for the Golem, but of course, he won't say anything, because he's sure it's only one sided, Connor is so young and handsome he can't possibly feel the same.

Actually the dark haired golem is totally in love with the man, but again, he thinks Hank can't reciprocate his feelings since he's probably into women (after all he used to have a wife), and definitely not into Golems anyways. It just feels so unfair to both of them to consider going back to their normal life when they just want to stay with the other so bad. They just wish they could stay together and run away in some romantic and lovesick lunacy. Again, they won't tell each other about it.

[ellenchain]

Do you have any tips on how to start digital art? I want to try but I just don’t know what to do

Hey there! 

I'll try to give you a few tips that come to my mind spontaneously and that were on my mind when I started drawing digitally. Since I don't know whether you are referring to hardware, software or drawing itself, I'll try to cover all three:

1) Hardware To be able to draw digitally, you need a device that lets you draw on a PC or an all-in-one device. I started with a Wacom Bamboo Fun, which is no longer available. I think an equivalent is now the Wacom One (without screen); or any other company. These are all classic tablets where you draw on the plastic surface without a screen. So you always have to look at your screen in front of you, not at your hand. It takes a bit of practice, but you learn quickly. Be sure to check the quality of the pen: how many pressure points are there and does it support tilting, etc.? Many very inexpensive products cut corners here.

The big next step is tablet PCs (all-in-one devices), although I'm personally not a fan of them. The iPad seems to be quite good, but also expensive. I have a Surface Pro, which I can't recommend. It's great as a PC, but not for drawing. 

I use a Wacom Cintiq now, which is a screen you draw on, but you need an extra computer for it to work. Also, it cost me 2k at the time - it’s basically a very expensive screen. So it's definitely not for beginners and I don't recommend it to you yet. It's best to get something cheap and then upgrade when you realise that it's good for you. If you want an all-in-one device, an iPad is probably the best solution here, otherwise the simple tablets without a screen.

Many have touch, some don't. Personally, I deliberately decided against touch at the time because I had a bad experience with the feel of my Surface. Hit or miss I guess.

The most important part: It doesn't matter that you get the most expensive device now because so many established artists have those. There are many very very good artists who still use the "simple" tablets without screens. Everyone has their preference and I think that's what you have to find!

2) Software Here it probably depends on what you want to draw: Illustrations or comics. Some apps are more suited to one or the other.

Personally, I'm an absolute fan of Clip Studio Paint (Pro), which is often on sale for little money. Photoshop is very powerful and simply too powerful (and too expensive) for beginners.

Programs that I consider user-friendly and suitable for illustrations AND are free (PC):

Krita

Autodesk Sketchbook

Medibang Paint

PaintTool Sai

They're all fine for a start, but are limiting when it comes to brushes, materials and functions.

Programs that are good for illustrating (iPad):

ProCreate (just under 11€ once)

Clip Studio Paint (7€/month)

For PC/Mac, Clip Studio Paint is a one-off price. They usually have a spring sale - here you can get the basic version for just 40€, which I would highly recommend to anyone, as the programme is very powerful and still user-friendly. The big advantage I see with Clip Studio Paint is that it gives you a perfect interface for drawing comics while remaining flexible enough for illustrations. ... now I sound like a commercial 😬

3) Art If you have drawn traditionally before, digital art is not that different. As described above, you would have to get used to it for a short time, but everything else remains the same. How you move a pencil and how to draw for example eyes.

In my opinion, everything stands and falls with brushes and overlays in order to get a satisfactory result that corresponds to the previous traditional standard. Textures can completely change images and give them a "real" appearance.

It is also important to know that if you have had experience with e.g. Copic, colour works very differently digitally. Here you probably have to look more closely at colour theories to make sure you don't reach for the poisonous green for the grass, which with a Copic will eventually soak into the paper and dry and become a pleasant grass green. That’s not going to happen with digital colours.

Otherwise I can recommend Youtube videos. There are some good videos here that explain anatomy, etc. Marc Brunet does some really nice stuff, although I think it’s all about personal preference here.

In the end: draw what you like! And don't get discouraged if something doesn't work right away. We digital artists have Ctrl+Z, but many other pitfalls that you will probably notice in the course of time.

Hope that was a bit helpfull! 💕

[blueyedbritt-blog]

I'm back. Things are great and terrible at the and time.

The good:

My 4yo is in preschool and doing amazing. He's really smart. I'm so proud and love him so much. Not much because of anything I did, he's just naturally smart and drawn to learning. If anything, I'm hindering him. Parenting is hard. He's picky, strong willed, and can get very angry. It's hard to know what to do in those situations. He can't control his emotions. Yelling at him won't do anything, bribing or threatening won't help and I don't spank him, wouldn't help either. Leaving him alone is the only option as I've tried reasoning with him but he isn't listening while uncontrolled. The tantrums are lessening but they still happen. Advice would be appreciated. Other than that, he's great. Smart, loves to sing, draws really well. He has a lot of understanding, which is great and terrible at the same time.

My 2yo, OMG. She's amazing. I love her so much. She is sassy, sweet and smart. She's absolutely beautiful. She can speak so well but she is stubborn, strong willed and sassy. She is throwing tantrums too but not as bad as my 4yo.

Now for the bad.

My marriage. Marriage is tough. We have different views of the same situation. He's one of the most selfish people I know. He wasn't always this way. He was pretty selfless before our maybe he hid it well. After we had kids, it came out in full view. He went into self preservation mode. He thinks that when you have kids, you still get to sleep in until 10a. He had not given me the opportunity to sleep in even once. I have hinted, nudged and straight up asked, but he still won't do it. Helping clean is also a huge issue. He thinks that because he works 2nd shift he shouldn't have to help clean. He doesn't do any vacuuming, dusting, mopping, scrubbing, folding, sorting, putting away laundry, ect. His small list of tasks he sometimes does is trash, cat boxes, dishwasher, water plants, car stuff and picking up toys.

It was not as bad before but lately it has been terrible. It has been exasperated by my health issues. In all honesty, I think I'm dying. I could be wrong and hope I am for my kid's sake. Their father is hardly able to take care of them. He does barely the bare minimum. Won't potty train, won't schedule visits they need, won't take them anywhere. He won't feed them decent meals. He doesn't cook.

At times I'm so exhausted, I feel like giving up. Calling it quits, hoping that whatever health issues I have take me out. This world is terrible, tough and unfair. I would be better off not in it. It's tough to get to where I am mentally (for me) but my marriage has brought me there. He doesn't really care about me. I'm just the caretaker for the kids and house. I bring in a bit of money. But it is all for him he thinks.

That just wears down on you so much, you get so low. I'm not ever suicidal but alas, here I am now. Don't think I will do it but definitely feel like I won't fight if death is coming and I have a choice.

But what about the kids? This world will be terrible for them too. It makes me think we should die in a car crash together, hopefully no pain. Or maybe we have a party in the running car on the garage til we fall asleep? Sounds peaceful and great. I won't do any of it but I won't mind if it happens. I get why some people take the kids too. It isn't selfish, it is merciful.

God keeps me from doing these things. I need to get to heaven with them and I don't think I get to if I go through with it. So we are safe. No worries. I guess that means we suffer.

I will try to fix my marriage, we are going to counseling but it isn't really helping. It basically gave him some excuses to keep with those behaviors. So that probably means divorce. Hopefully not soon because of the kids. I pray and pray that he changes but it might be that we were meant to procreate and that's it. What is the next part of the story? Time will tell.

[fyrapartnersearch]

hurricane irma can't stop me

I go by M, for the most part. It’s one of my favorite letters, so without a doubt, I’d like to think of it as my unofficial online call sign. Currently, I am in the Eastern Time Zone, but I’m fairly versatile with roleplaying alongside with others from different timezones (with minor exceptions to GMT, and those with more than 5 hours ahead or behind). I’ve found that those interactions simply don’t work all that well in terms of keeping in touch, and I’ve had to discontinue two partners simply because the time difference was too much. But I digress from that! Twenty-six years of age, and I have been roleplaying for over 10 years, so I have a good deal of experience in my humblest opinion.

I figure that’s enough about myself; now to get to the main reason you’re all reading this, and that is because I have been looking for roleplayers with the coming of this new year, someone to keep my muse levels high and my writing always on point while I maintain having two jobs, as well as a burgeoning social life. Someone easygoing yet creative with a vivid imagination to bring ideas to form is highly desired in a writer.

This request is not for the faint of heart, and those who have considerable limits, hesitations, and triggers are likely not going to be a good match. Just fair warning.

WRITING

I am a multi-paragraph sort of writer, which means that frequently, my writing will exceed at least 600 words, and upward of 1000+ words. I love detail and description, and I am actively seeking someone of the same infamy. Once upon a time, I managed to keep up with a story that teetered around 3000+ per reply with someone, still maintaining the same detailed descriptive writing, and I definitely wouldn’t mind having that challenge once more. Generally, I tend to write in the third person.

GENRES / PAIRINGS / FACES

I exclusively play male characters in mxf pairings with any smut or romantic attachment, this is non-negotiable. I fully understand and respect roleplayers who are able to play both males and females and nonbinary characters in different pairings. I simply don’t have that versatility, as when I’ve played them in the past, there was an innate in-authenticity that I felt. On the other hand, I am a bit more versatile when it comes to genres and settings that I like to play in. Supernatural is my absolute bread and butter, especially urban and gothic fantasy. Anything to do with vampires, werewolves, demons, witches, shapeshifters, mutants, other urban creature of folklore, given some sort of modern day spun, is absolutely perfect for me. I also really love science fiction in its many forms. Primarily, I take my sci-fi craving inspirations from Star Wars, Mass Effect, and Destiny. I’ve also been slowly intrigued by zombie-less post-apocalyptic storylines, something where the cataclysm is not necessarily caused by rabid zombies (I’m not a big fan of the stereotypical zombies portrayed in The Walking Dead and stuff), but something with either a lethal virus, or a planetary disaster, like an extreme coronal mass ejection.

Another genre that I’ve slowly found interest in includes that of the superhero genre. I’m a big fan of both Marvel and DC fandom, and the concept of having superhumans, humans with abilities, anything of that short would be awesome to do. Against, these would be with original characters on my part. I’m not as fond of general real-life or general modern day genres and themes without a good, complex idea attached to it.

One thing I really love to employ in my roleplays would be face claims, faces, playbys, picture bases, however you call it nowadays. Like I said, I started out roleplaying on forums like proboards, and later, jcink and invisionfree, so face claims are quite prevalent for me. This would only be real-life pictures, and not anime or drawings. We can use the latter for reference points, but I would ideally like face claims to be involved. In terms of looks and stuff, I’ve generally gone for a variety of different guys for who I use to represent my characters. Two of my favorite faces are Tom Hardy and Charlie Hunnam: I can use them for anything. I’ve also had a penchant for guys like Richard Armitage, Marlon Teixeira, Chadwick Boseman, Jason Momoa, and Ed Skrein. For women, my characters playing against, I like to go for an even greater assortment of faces. From actresses like Natalie Dormer, Katie McGrath, Deborah Ann Woll, and Olivia Wilde, models like Adriana Lima and Candice Swanepoel, glamour models like Lucy Collett, Lucy Pinder, and Billie Faiers, alternative models like Sara Fabel and Kelly Eden, and even adult faces like Christy Mack and Nikki Benz – you name them, I’m probably interested in them. So the flexibility is highly wanted.

WORLD BUILDING

I want an active roleplayer in this category, without a doubt. i love to world-build, but I tend to lose interest when I am the only one who puts in the effort to world-build. Too often I find people gun-shy in this regard. If I feel that I’m carrying the weight of the world-building part with specific ideas, I will end the roleplay in a heartbeat. And consider that the world building is just the tip of the beginning, so from that, I’ll be able to see whether we’ll be a match or not. Because we’d be starting from scratch with whatever we do, it would be a big relief to have someone who doesn’t mind letting ideas flow to set up the universe that we will be roleplaying in. That way, I feel as though we would both be extremely immersed into the roleplay. Let’s create lively planets with vast underground criminal empires, ot a galaxy far, far away, or galaxies far, far away.

MATURE CONTENT

I enjoy writing smut, plain and simple. I don’t hinder myself – or I try not to – in what I write, the exact extremeness and depth and detail, and I expect my partner to do the same. Maybe not extremeness in a total and complete smutfest (but really, I wouldn’t be opposed), but I do like a variety of things that can be incorporated along with a fascinating story. Some kinks I love include BDSM, incest, the unholy trinity (oral, anal, and such), dubious consent, hair-pulling, those sorts of things. A particularly darker kink that is not explored enough for me is pregnancy/impregnation/breeding. Also, since I love things like psychological trauma and experimentation (in science fiction and supernatural context), those are also highly desired. The manipulation of someone’s mind, body, and soul, combined with elements of corruption and body alteration/transformation – love. These lean more on this smuttier side of the roleplaying, which I like to fashion it as a coin; heads being the smut, tails being the story. I tend to think of them as two halves of a whole and complete experience, and you simply cannot have one without the other.

I’ve bulleted the major kinks/mature themes that I want to explore.

Psychological torment. Again, I really enjoy this sort of roleplaying, challenging the mind, characters in situations where they ultimately do not recover from it mentally, where their psychological profile is irrevocably changed.

The unholy trinity. Oral, anal, vaginal sex. Like I said, I enjoy my smut, I’m shameless, don’t care much for judging.

Corruption. Easily one of my favorite themes to explore, and it doesn’t have to just be as simple as sexual corruption, turning a poor innocent girl and debasing her to the point of no return. Something as simple as a hardened person, forged from the rigors of life, suddenly finding themselves in a position of finer things. Of wealth, of relaxation. That can sow the seeds into a slow descent into something illegal, lewd, or all of the above. And they can view it as the ultimate freedom from that hardship.

Drugs. The exploration of a person’s psyche that forces them to turn to recreational drugs to cope with whatever situations they have.

Vanity, body alterations. This can be through different genres and for different reasons. Imperfections are everywhere, and I love roleplaying themes where the characters will go through whatever means. Larger breasts and a more voluptuous curves in order to make money or ascend higher in the economic sphere. Modified abs, cosmetic surgery, all of those things would be included.

Taboo pairings. Specifically incest or interracial. I’ve not tried mother/son pairings, but i’d like to see if anyone is up for that. I’m also good with father/daughter and brother/sister pairings, but those would be primarily for science fiction and urban fantasy.

Gore. I don’t mind there being a little or a good deal. With urban fantasy, you can expect this, because I tend to play creatures as vicious, war-mongering, and unapologetic about tapping into their bestial natures.

Bad endings. What if happily ever after isn’t so happily after all? What if the main character doesn’t get the job done, what if there is no fairytale ending, and what results is heartache, pain, misery? Or delight, freedom, and inspiration?

Pregnancy. Impregnation. Breeding. Demons need to procreate to get their army, no? They need to find that special someone who can unearth their demonic spawn and destroy their adversaries. Or, for a more subversive notion, a simple one=night stand ends up being nine months of sheer interest and intrigue for the involved coupling. I lean toward the former, having had some basis in erotic roleplaying in the past, so the more odd themes of this are welcomed. But normal pregnancy with the right plot is also quite fun.

Again, I can’t stress this enough. These themes are going to be darker by nature. While I don’t believe in a purely smut or purely story-centered roleplay, the fact of the matter is that I’m looking for someone who can and has no problem with handling those themes. For me, I’m alright if you have any particular aversion to rape (I’ll never pressure anyone for this) and things like scat and watersports (I’m personally not okay with those latter two), but I’d like it if everything else was fair game. So BDSM, incest, the exploration of similar themes and such.

The only limits I have in this regard would include scat and watersports, those things of that nature. I generally do not mind non-consensual stories that start off that way initially, but over time change (and I know that that isn’t how non-consensual sex works in real life). However, I honestly do not mind it at all if that theme is not included at all since I know that it can be a particular trigger to some..

INSPIRATIONS / FANDOMS

I have many different inspirations when it comes to what I roleplay and how I generally approach a roleplay through my characters, the setting, and such. For urban fantasy roleplays, I’ll take different sets of lore for creatures and create my own, not following any specific script, to say the least. Things from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, True Blood, Vampires The Masquerade, for instance, would cater to my urban fantasy cravings. Bonus points for anyone familiar with video game franchises like Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Street Fighter, Mortal Kombat, Destiny, Borderlands, Overwatch. Now, I don’t necessarily roleplay these fandoms to the tee, and I wouldn’t play any canon characters from it. I would, however, love to play opposite canon characters with my own original assembly of characters, as well as playing in scenes and settings reminiscent of these.

PARTICULAR CRAVINGS

Now that I’ve pretty much laid out what I’m about, I’d like to turn your attention to a few particular cravings that I’ve had as of late.

Supernaturally-themed plots are always going to be my bread and butter. I’ve had a craving for demons and demon hunters, this nigh eternal struggle between those that bring hellfire and corruption to humanity, and those tasked with defending humans from them. Or, a more self-serving alternative, these bounty hunters being skilled enough to take the unenviable task of capturing and/or killing demons for a hefty price. Maybe one, or a few demon hunters, get too big for their britches and take on a truly horrifying upper demon. We can play intense themes of carnal desires, corruption, underhanded tricks, contract obligations. [18+]

On the level of science fiction, you’ve seen me repeatedly mention Mass Effect. I love the crew idea, exploring the vast known and unknown reaches of space. Maybe they are a crew of bounty hunters looking for the next payday, or soldiers trying to stave off an alien threat. [18+]

Another science fiction, but with a more centralized main character. Called “The Traveler”, I would like to explore some sort of time-traveling person (not akin to Doctor Who, but the premise is the same). Someone with the advanced technological resources or metahuman abilities to traverse through time. What’s his purpose? What’s his motivation? Maybe instead of preventing things from happening that indicate bad results, maybe “The Traveler” IS the cause of these bad events. Maybe this Traveler has ambition to travel through significant events in history to manipulate them to his ultimate advantage, to gain more power. [18+]

Gotham will burn – Now, this one, is partly because of my interest in the show Gotham, but also from the Batman: Arkham series video games. I love a dark, gritty sort of cityscape with mobsters and criminals, and these rogue vigilantes trying to clean things up. I’ve also been inspired by the TV show Arrow, so this would be along those ideas. Maybe, for once, these supposed “heroes in the dark” can’t clean up the city and instead succumb to the corruptive pressures of an easier, more hedonistic lifestyle? [18+]

The “ambitious plot” – this is something I’ve coined myself, since it is pretty ambitious to bring to life. And this is one of my primary cravings, something of an all-inclusive episodic series, so to speak, which would feature just about everything I love in varying or limitless amounts. I thought of it as something akin to a Mass Effect inspired, Game of Thrones-esque establishment and episode structure, wherein there are different characters with different plot points, in different settings, but altogether would combine for some sort of universal roleplay. Naturally, this would also combine my other four cravings. [18+]

Each of these cravings would require us to play multiple characters off the bat, as well as adding characters either selectively to the storyline, or nondescriptly, because we think another character with a specific personality might add even more intrigue to it. These cravings are also going to vacillate highly between smut and story, depending on the particular facet we’d like to explore.To me, the ambitious plot is the one I’m really seeking, but it is a pretty time-consuming one, and something not for the faint of heart or for others that don’t have all that much time on their hands. As these cravings will be fairly demanding and require a good deal of OOC communication, I will require you to add in your own input AS you contact me. Which means, if you do decide to email me, specifically about those ideas, you must already have some ideas ready to throw at me.

MEDIUM

Medium-wise, I’ve done various forms of roleplaying before. When I started roleplaying, I was initially a site go-getter, loving the pretty graphics and the jcink and invisionfree (and to a lesser extent, proboards) communities. I’m not sure if I want to roleplay on that, for this particular request, as I don’t have it in me to go through the semantics and the time consummation of having to write up an application or a character sheet, so right now, forum roleplaying is off the table. Right now, my main preferences for roleplaying include email and Googledocs, with Googledocs being the main preference right now.

Hopefully I have not dissuaded too many people, but I will say that for the purposes of what I am looking for, I am going to be rather picky about who contacts me. So please, be as detailed in your email as I have been in my request, that’s all i ask. I don’t wish to have emails with the body of them being “Hey, i’m interested in everything you listed, so let’s roleplay” – that does nothing to inspire my confidence and excitement. Let me know what specifically wrapped you into contacting me.

CONTACT

If you are interested in potentially roleplaying with me, please contact me by email ONLY. I made this tumblr just to be able to send these kinds of request, but I otherwise do not use it and will not respond to messages made on it. I created the email specifically for roleplaying means – dyingontheirwhims@gmail.com. I’m open to communication and creating a general dialogue through Skype, AIM, or Google Hangouts, but only after the initial email correspondence has been made. For contacting me, I would like your name/online alias, age (because I will only be accepting partners 18 and over), timezone, roleplaying availability, interests, kinks/limits, and – well, hell – include your favorite song lyric in the title of the email.

Did you actually read this in its entirety? I’ll know if you didn’t. I won’t really blame you, since this is a lot I have written, and it might seem that i’m pretty overbearing with what I want. But I promise you that I am a very enjoyable person and a talented writer – or at least, I think so, haha.