#really justifying your bannings and removals

[martyrette]

Wait till you tell them we only used to be 15 people for the longest time.

Also the Wallers are all in their 20s?

so the elf embassy bleeds members while their leader still hangs out with a bunch of teenagers in the woods?

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[missglaskin]

“You’re such a perv!” 

Aka DC Superheroes as pervs; Dick, Jason, Tim, Roy, Wally

Please don't put a community label on this (it will only shadow ban it)

Surely your friend and confidant is not some peeping tom right?!

Warnings/tags; SMUT, female reader, vigilante!reader, Perv shenanigans, panty stealing, masturbation, dirty thoughts, corruption kink, invasion of privacy

Dick Grayson has always been your closest friend; he's the leader, the guy that everyone either wants to be like or wants him for themselves. But the boy wonder had his eyes on you, his oblivious friend. He has always been there, aiding you in missions; always saving the day, or praising you for a job well done. So how could you ever possibly know of his intense desire just for you. Dick knows his actions are downright disgusting, that small voice inside his head filling him with guilt, but his desire is just stronger. 

Missions with you are the worst. Watching you be so confident and just kick ass has him feeling all sorts of ways. Trying to turn away from your line of sight so you won't see his hard-on, his cock rubbing uncomfortably against his suit. Dick will use any excuse to get away, jerking off on the side of a rooftop, a hand against a wall and another stroking his cock, while he imagines it was your hand instead, and that alone pushes him over the edge. 

He'll find a way to make you want him too, Dick knows you're not immune to his charms. Will it be too obvious that when he goes for a hug, it's a little too tight. Is it when he places a hand on your waist pretending to keep you in place, daring his fingers to go further down. Will you push away the hands that place themselves on your thighs to pretend he's comforting you. You won't. Just as you refuse to shove away the fingers that inch closer and closer between your legs. Is it really so bad if you want him too.

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Jason Todd knows he's a sick fuck. What kind of friend is he to even think of such things. But they are just thoughts, right? As long as he doesn't do anything creepy that is. Surely anyone dreams of fucking their best friend-that is, imagining your lips wrapped around his dick while he fists your hair, forcing you to take all of him. The guilt returns when your voice reaches him, asking him if he heard you, interrupting his brief moment of fantasy. He's relieved that the mask doesn't allow you to see how intensely he's staring at you.

It becomes a line he knows he crossed. When Jason found himself staring at your apartment window - he didn't intend to, he was just patrolling and happened to come across your apartment. Knowing you were safe and well should have been his reason to leave, until you started undressing. Seeing your tits exposed made the blood rush to his cock and when you bent slightly to remove your panties, Jason was sure he could have come right on the spot. 

You went to take a shower as Jason entered your apartment. Surely you must know to keep your window locked. Finding himself creeping toward the bathroom as if you were beckoning him in, instead, he stopped and stood over the disregarded clothes; reaching for the panties. Jason would have beaten anyone to a bloody pulp if they had done that, but it was his own reflection staring at him. He is a sick fuck, he thinks as his finger brushes over the damp spot and how he shoves it into his pockets. He's not sure if he should return your panties later, given that he eagerly rubbed his cock with it, leaving it cum stained.

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Tim Drake is a wolf in sheep's clothing; he is the one person you never suspect of thinking such perverted thoughts. Tim is aware he can never justify the things he's doing. He just tells himself that he merely lacks the courage to approach you, not that it's a good reason, but it's enough for him to maintain that tiny sliver of morality. There are moments when he wishes he could just concentrate on his patrolling to keep you off his mind, but you are always there, at the back of his mind. 

Tim realizes he just can't get off without thinking about you. Tim tries watching some porn, but he keeps imagining your face instead of the actress, and he hates how it helped him reach his orgasm. Or in the mornings, when his boner is becoming too much of an issue and he's in the shower trying to rid of it. His thoughts wander to picturing you in front of him, bare and wet, with your back against the glass walls and you moaning his name. 

If there was ever a time that Tim was made known that he was really sick was that day. Him laying in bed stroking his cock and seeing the phone ringing in the corner. It's you. He ought to have just let it ring or decline, but Tim didn't know what possessed him to answer the call. Your voice is heard as he bites his lip to not let his whimpers be heard, tasting copper on his tongue. Tim moves the phone further away when he reaches his high, cum covering his hands and stomach as he continues the conversation, hoping you don't hear his ragged breath.

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Roy Harper was the one person you could always confide in. He had a way of cheering you up, your tears dried as your laugh echoed throughout the room. How you consider him to be your closest friend and best partner in crime as you speak to him, while Roy thinks of how the low cut of your shirt gives him a good view of your tits from an angle. When you call his name to get his attention, Roy gives you that smile of his as he uses an excuse to use the restroom. 

Roy loves taking pictures of you. You knew Roy had them, just never imagined he would have them in his sights while he jerked off. Pictures of you with a skirt had Roy fantasize about wearing em while he's railing you from behind. Your face pressed against the pillow while you bubble nonsense, too drunk on his cock. Pictures of you looking up, had him fantasizing of you staring at him with those eyes of yours as you use your mouth, bobbing up and down on his dick.

Unaware too Roy had 'private' photos, all thanks to a few hacking tricks. Roy was occasionally tempted to send you a nude photo of himself, see how you react, and cover it up by saying it was a 'mistake'. Would you perhaps return one or get jealous wondering who it was intended for. Roy gets up, cleaning himself as he’s planning to you meet you later that day. He eyes the slightly crooked tile above his ceiling, storing all the belongings he's taken from his visits to your place. Roy thinks when the two of you are official, he should hide it in a better place.

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Wally West had plenty of opportunities to hint at his feelings toward you. He liked making flirtatious comments, complaining when he wasn't paired with you during missions, and placing an arm over your shoulders. But you just assume it's Wally's typical self, not noticing his hurt look when you claimed to be "just friends". Then again you never noticed his hurried departure and quick return, where he avoided making eye contact at all costs.

Wally feels the guilt the most. He could have just confessed to you like a normal person. Guilt consumes him when he sees your gullible smile, unaware of the horrible things he did behind your back. It's not his fault really; he was invited to your place and was simply looking around until he found a certain drawer. Wally reassures himself it's not that bad if he only takes one. But it gets to a point where you're complaining to Wally about how your clothes disappear (not telling him which kind).

A point comes where Wally reaches his breaking point. The sneaky pictures, lying on your bed when you weren't around, face in the pillows to inhale your scent could do so little. As he stares at you speaking, Wally makes a move expecting to be rejected, but you kiss him back. He was in heaven, the dreams he had in every waking point coming true. He was where he wanted you to be, on top with you full of his cock, your eyes nearly blacked out as he slams his hips repeatedly into yours. Can you blame him for moving too fast when he has been holding back for so long. 

[hyperlexichypatia]

So you want to support your local public library

You’ve been following the news about book bans, funding cuts, Moms for Liberty, censorship, and you’re outraged! You want to Do Something! What should you do? 

Here are some tips from a small-town public library worker. Some of this is stuff I’ve seen a lot of other people saying, but some isn’t. 

DISCLAIMER: Every library has different needs, policies, funding situations, etc. What I’m saying may not apply to your local branch. Ask your local library staff. 

THINGS THAT HELP A LOT: 

Use your library. Really, just using it helps a lot. Check out books. Download ebooks on Libby. Listen to audiobooks. Come to programs. Stream movies on Kanopy. Join the book club. Bring your kids to storytime. Help spread the word about library services and events (we don’t have an advertising budget). Not only do we rely on usage statistics to justify our funding, but also, robust attendance makes the library feel more like part of the community. 

Check out controversial/challenged books. Popularity affects whether it stays on the shelves. Ask the staff to order certain titles. Show demand for these books!

Give us some money. Just fork over some cash. Go to the online donation portal. Write a check if you’re feeling fancy. We rely on donation money for everything from cleaning supplies to prizes. Participate in library fundraisers. If there’s a friends of the library group, join that. If your library posts a wishlist, go shopping. 

Contact your local elected people and tell them you want libraries uncensored and well-funded. Invoke your identities that politicians care about. “As a constituent,” “as a voter,” “as a taxpayer.” Be specific about what you want the remedy to be. If the issue is censorship, say you want libraries to have free and uncensored material for all. If the issue is resources, say you want to increase library funding. If you say “The library should be open longer hours,” you and I might interpret that to mean that the solution is to fund the library to be open more hours. But politicians and their staff do not think like you and I do. To them, “The library should be open longer hours” may mean “The library is unpopular and not meeting people’s needs, so let’s defund it.” 

EXTRA CREDIT IF YOU WANT TO GO ABOVE AND BEYOND: Apply to serve on your local library board.

THINGS THAT MIGHT HELP, BUT NOT AS MUCH AS PEOPLE THINK. Again, this is going to vary wildly based on your particular public library branch. At some libraries, these things might help a whole lot! At other libraries, not so much. 

Donating books. Some libraries don’t even take donated books. Most libraries put donated books in their book sale, or put them out for swaps. Very few donated books end up catalogued for circulation. Donating banned books really does nothing – if a library is ordered to remove a book from their shelves, they won’t be allowed to re-add a donated copy, either. Our library sometimes catalogues donated books if they are new (published within the past ~5 years) and in like-new condition. Your childhood favorites are not “in good condition,” I’m sorry. 

Volunteering. Again, this is going to vary widely from library to library. Some libraries rely heavily on volunteers. Some libraries don’t let anyone volunteer at all. My library requires volunteers to go through a criminal background check first (I loathe this policy with the fire of a thousand suns, but have been unable to persuade my boss to change it). Even if you are allowed to volunteer, don’t be surprised if the tasks you’re assigned look more like “clean the bathrooms” than like “read aloud to a roomful of rapt children” or “comb through archives.” Most libraries don’t let volunteers do circulation tasks, and there are very good reasons for that. And for Pete’s sake, don’t offer to “volunteer” to do someone’s actual paid job. 

I’m not saying “Don’t donate used books and don’t volunteer”; I’m saying “The well-meaning viral posts about how you can save your local library by donating used books and volunteering are missing a lot.”

BONUS EXERCISE: Kill the Mom for Liberty inside your head. The right-wing anti-library movement feeds on the same censorship, bigotry, and “think of the children” moral panic that runs rampant in progressive spaces. If you want to support public libraries, you’ve got to snap out of the idea that books, media, and truly public space are “dangerous.” Here, imagine this scenario: At a public library, a 10-year-old girl, who’s walked to the library by herself after school, is sitting at the table with her books. She’s been reading Warrior Cats, but today she’s branched into the adult section and grabbed the newest T.M. Frazier book. Across the table, a 31-year-old man is working on his laptop, but he looks up to mention that he also loves Warrior Cats, and they have a brief conversation about Bramblestar’s character development. In the lounge chair across the room, a 62-year-old woman with a huge backpack who looks like she might be unhoused is dozing and slightly snoring. At the lego table, a couple of kids are collaborating on a tower, while a 47-year-old man is twitching and talking to someone other people can’t see. A 15-year-old is checking out [most offensive book by most hateful author – I’m not even going to give an example, it’s whatever is the worst option in YOUR mind]. At a public computer, a 9-year-old with headphones is watching a video of Pokemon farting. A 25 year old woman with Down Syndrome is checking out The Joy of Sex and Because of Winn Dixie. If you want to regulate or ban anything in this scenario, fix your mindset. If you think the library “shouldn’t have to deal with homeless people because that’s mission creep,” or that there needs to be some kind of protection against the “danger” of “adults interacting with minors,” or that people should only read “age-appropriate” or “reading-level-appropriate” books, or that someone should “get help” for voice hearers in public, you are part of the problem. If you don’t support the ideal of public libraries as places where any-yes-any member of the public can hang out and read whatever they want, you don’t actually support the anyone-can-hang-out-and-read-whatever-they-want place.

[aita-polls]

AITA for trying to get my sister to change her username on a fanfic website?

I, (15, he/they) have been on this shitty fanfic site for years. I don't use it much but it's semi-popular. My sister, (22, she/her) was also on it but for less time than I was. I recently checked her profile since she followed me and realized that her username had her FIRST INITIAL, our LAST NAME, and her BIRTHDAY.

I don't think it goes without saying that I was HORRIFIED. This girl graduated a community college with a degree in nursing (I think????) and our dad works in cyber security and she doesn't know basic online safety???

I put a post on her account basically saying "Hey can you PLEASE change your username??? I really don't want us to get doxxed" and then one of her fans (I'm assuming) replied saying "don't be mean" and that "everybody is fine with it"

I could maybe understand where they're coming from if I was being demanding? But I wasn't trying to be rude at all with the message. DMs were removed from the website and my sister never gives a shit if I text her or if I talk to her in private.

My sister even ranted to me about how we "have to be nice online because you can get banned for being RUDE." Despite how I don't think I was rude? Maybe I was. I'm not great with tone.

So. Uh. AITA for that??

[wumblr]

in all seriousness, how would you even administrate a ban of an app? like... they can have it removed from the app stores, sure, or in what i would call extremely unlikely or bizarre circumstances, it could be used as evidence to justify arrest or pressing charges, maybe in the worst case scenario the web domain could be blocked by ISPs or the physical location of US hosting servers could be raided, and of course i'm not trying to downplay the severity of any those things, but like...

you can't... physically prevent anyone from circulating or installing an APK file. i'm sure removing it from app stores WOULD effectively prevent 99% of its userbase from accessing it, and it's not that i want to place the blame on them, but like... i do have to say this is ""totalitarianism"" for ipad babies and ipad babies only.

i think the average user is smarter about software than the house of representatives obviously is but like. if they were 10% smarter it would become impossible to administrate. by which i mean maybe a few hours of learning about it. maybe let's all start doing that, huh? if you can't reinstall a new operating system on your phone, enable unapproved app installation, or access developer mode, you do not really know how to use your phone, do you? all of these things are purposefully easier on android btw. and in a mad twist of irony they DO make you more vulnerable to malware

i would also like to point out i don't know of one comparable instance of historical precedent. what software has ever been banned? yes i know google street view in parts of the EU and facebook in myanmar and pakistan. i would not call those comparable (?) because it's not like a software ban (?). pirate bay i guess is closer (because they did perform physical raids, right). and how's that going for them

[spilledinkandtearstainedpages]

I swear to the 9 hells if I get an ask or are tagged in one of these “please donate to save Palestine” I’m gonna crash out

Guys, I’m a minor and can’t donate. Only asking is going to make me feel guilty that I can’t and it spirals and gets worse. I like blogs where they are like “free Palestine,” because I agree, but trying to guilt trip me into donating when I’ve already said I can’t makes me really mad. I’ve had to block a ton of people because they kept on asking me to donate. As I said at the start of this rant: I AM A FUCKING MINOR! Meaning I can’t fucking donate, you guilt tripping pieces of shit. I had my dad pay for a commission, and I’m paying him back for it. I feel like absolute shit whenever I see these because I can’t even do anything but send my best fucking wishes. I’m also very angry about the ads I’ve been getting me telling me to pray. I’m agnostic/atheist. I don’t think that there is even a god out there. Or if it uses he/him pronouns (looking at you bible + Christians). That just sounds very “males are better because God is a he,” in my opinion. Plus the verse that says "man shall not lie with a man as with a woman; it is an abomination" from Leviticus 18:22 is wrong, so don’t use it and other verses to justify your homophobia. The Bible has been edited and mistranslated just to fit what the translators and scribes think so of course this is wrong. It is actually man shall not lie with boy.” Boy! It’s condemning fucking pedophilia, not same-sex relationships, you damn bigots. You all need to get your heads out of your asses and recognize this is 2025. Plus the ban on abortions, gender-affirming care, and other shit is fucking crazy! I’m multigender and I want my breasts gone. Removed. I wear a binder to make them small and not really there but I hate it when people call it a compression shirt (looking at you mom!). I use he/she/they/fae/nix (have a post to explain these)/ne (ne/nym/nis)/any other. It’s fluid for me, but I hate it when people only use she/they. I understand that for those, they have been calling me she/they for some time and it may be a little hard to add in the neopronouns and he, which I understand, but people who refuse to use a part of my identity and/or just aren’t fucking listening so I have to explain over and over just for them to continue on using the wrong pronouns (I prefer a mix of these used in a conversation) and not learning from their mistakes makes me want to stab them. I also have headmates, a few of which are pretty murderous/in love with murder; that means I usually have thoughts of killing. I normally block those out, but if you piss me off, I will quietly think to myself something along the lines of “I wonder how loud they’d scream when I rip their liver out,” or something along the lines of that. I also have a tendency to bite and scratch at my hands + since one of my headmates is a cannibal (they have a reason for it thou go that doesn’t revolve around being hungry or just does it), I will sometimes have cannibalistic thoughts. I also normally block those out unless you piss me off. I’m trying to live in a society where I can’t even get the care I need or an abortion if I ever need it, because I’m pretty sure Elon’s a slut for Trump. And they’re Neo-Nazis. I hate America and everything it currently is. Trump is a piece of shit that should be set on fire in front of the White House. We have never had a woman president and were so close, I fucking crashed out when she didn’t win. Everyone who voted for him, you all are a bunch of disgraceful, fucking klootzak bigots that should be fucked with a rake, head side up. These people shouldn’t be in elections. Having old, WHITE, Senators make decisions they won’t even be alive for is a bunch of fucking crappola. I cry myself to sleep and tell myself I want to go home. But what am I even talking about! I am home, apparently. But my body doesn’t see this place. I understand if you voted for him because you didn’t really know or was pressured, but do we really want a Cheeto looking whore that was impeached for president!? This was basically the only time I actually cheered for the bullet and (now dead. RIP, you were a good person, trying to…

[ewaneneollav]

Sorry guys, I decided to remove the politics channel as it was already being misused and filled with extreme/radical takes and memes.

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what kind of politics did you want discussed, specifically? guessing more... municipal stuff i guess

i won't argue or criticize or anything past this message, i promise - a discord server to just talk about personal interests & stuff is, of course, allowed - one detail of your message does happen to stick out to me though, & i'll only make this one personal recommendation about it, & leave it be: it's worth evaluating your relationship to words like "extreme" & "radical" in light of the fact that the entire reality of mainstream american politics at this moment in time falls quite firmly under these two words

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i want it known that i sent a pretty measured message here, promising it would be my last one on the matter, & Mr. ___ took the liberty of deleting it without comment​

@___ i like what you've done with establishing this server & i really appreciate how many people it's drawing. that said, i think you need to think about the fact that this is, in fact, a meaningful hub of local community, & you are the one with exclusive control over it

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I’m well aware that this server has grown into a community hub—kind of comes with, you know, building and managing it. I run this server because I want to, not because I owe you an explanation for every decision. If you have actual feedback, cool. If not, please carry on

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i think simply deleting people's messages without comment is out of pocket for any sort of public space like this. maybe at least say, "can you take this to DMs," or the like. i don't think people tend to be fond of the idea that their own earnest statements are going to just be redacted if they breach some kind of boundary that's left to your sole discretion

(i suppose, if we're being strict, the comment was "off-topic," but it seems rather constricting to the flow of conversation to not allow even mild asides)

i acknowledge, this hasn't really come up until now, so i don't think it's been an ongoing problem or anything, it's just that upon seeing it this one time i certainly feel compelled to bring it up. i do care about the matter because i feel we live in a very atomized time, & spaces like this really can play a real & meaningful part against that

i guess, if you are comfortable with doing it, obviously i can only accept that. & if people here are comfortable with you being comfortable with doing it, i suppose it won't make itself a problem from here on. if they're not comfortable with it, then they might not be very inclined to spend time here. that's all

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I get that you have concerns, but this isn’t an open free-for-all—it's a community space that I manage, and I’ll moderate it as needed to keep things as drama free as possible. While discord does not tell me the contents of your message that was deleted, I can assure you it was because it was breaking the community guidelines that are in place, not because of some grand censorship scheme. I don't know if anyone else see's it, but you seem to have a habit of attempting to use some kind of manipulative reasoning psychology nonsense—saying exactly what’s on your mind and then backtracking with guilt tripping  "plausible" deniability and frankly, it’s not appreciated. If something is off-topic or crosses a line, it’ll either be removed or you’ll get a warning(After 3 warnings, a ban). Keeping conversations focused helps maintain a better space for everyone. If people have an issue with that, they’re welcome to discuss it, but I'll reiterate that I’m not going to justify every moderation decision

I will say that is the end of this discussion. If anyone wants to add anything else, feel free to DM me.

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are you actually leveling anything worse against me than "saying exactly what's on my mind" & then qualifying it lol

like if you're gonna moderate the server i think you need to pick a side on whether you like "Discussion" or if you're gonna get freaked out about whether it Belongs

[pico-digital-studios]

Information regarding the "Hues of Trouble" scene from IAB!

I got word when I woke up this morning that the Hues of Metal series got cancelled over kkirby999 not being allowed to use Metallix's sprites any longer, as per request from BluerSonic, their original creator. The Spritekae's animation bunch tried confronting him about it and offering alternatives for future use, but instead, he not only refused to take this advice, but he unfriended Primal, a major member of Spritekae's, left the Spritekae's server, and has since cancelled the series over just the one sprite use refusal.

Issue is, that hasn't been the end of the line there. After it all happened, he started to try and get his fanbase to attack BluerSonic. Over not letting him use the Metallix sprites. Like, come on, dude! It isn't the end of the world just because you're not allowed to use ONE robotic doppelganger of Sonic!

But nope. He's definitely stooped pretty low as it is, even trying to make those who made animations of his work take it all down without question. Primal's animations of the series have since been privated as a result of this.

The scene of IAB! I made based on the series is going to stay up just to keep some level of control over my work (considering the characters from the series don't make any further physical appearance afterwards), but that doesn't mean I support what kkirby had stooped to, like, at all! You should be really ashamed of yourself, dude, not only for being petty over one sprite ban, but also for sending your fanbase to attack one spriter because of it. Thanks for nothing, kkirby.

UPDATE: Now he went and removed all trace of him ever convincing his fanbase to harass BluerSonic and owned up to the fact that he himself was the one that cancelled Hues of Metal. I'm glad he owned up to his part in the matter instead of blaming it all on Bluer for the series getting cancelled (and getting new sprites for Metallix in the process), but I don't see him in the clear just yet, especially with twisting Shadow's '06 words just to justify himself and act like he's the innocent one here. It doesn't help that he did it shortly after he was called out for his actions, including by Mark Haynes (SMBZ's creator). Hopefully he does change his ways properly.

[unholytrinityrpt]

something i've been thinking about lately .... telling people not to write hp or hydra isn't censorship. ( i don't think we need to use the american definition of things but people seem hellbent on keep everything so usa-centric ) https://www.aclu.org/documents/what-censorship

free speech doesn't mean anything on a privately own platform with terms of service.

private citizens cannot censor you. governments, schools, publishers, etc ... can censor you.

when tumblr implemented weird policies about nudity along with the 2018 porn ban to get back onto the app store after having a very laxed nudity policy, that was a form censorship. especially because all of that most likely happened due to the FOSTA-SESTA act which was past in early 2018. people going hey maybe don't write this thing and don't monetarily support this company or person is not censorship or oppression.

thank you for reading.

interesting ask and honestly, this is exactly the kind of thing the rpt used to speak on.

the first amendment protects against government censorship. it has no jurisdiction on privately owned platforms. tumblr, discord, and similar spaces operate under their own terms of service, which users agree to by participating. these companies are fully within their rights to moderate, restrict, or remove content and users that violate those terms. this isn’t a “free speech” issue as it’s a contract enforcement.

not all of us are from america. the rpc is overwhelmingly american-centric. everything from the laws referenced to the cultural attitudes. it assumes a u.s. lens is the default, when in reality, this is a global community with diverse perspectives and lived experiences. applying american "free speech" rhetoric to justify platform behavior is not only misinformed, it erases the rest of us.

and another thing: i genuinely don’t understand how people can claim to stand against racism, bigotry, and oppression, and yet comfortably write muses in zionist propaganda. shows like fauda, tehran, or characters in homeland and fbi: international are blatant tools of state violence and misinformation. using them as aesthetic or muse inspo while palestinians are being murdered is not just tone-deaf...it’s complicity.

same with harry potter. you can’t claim to support trans people while actively engaging in media that funds and amplifies one of the most vocal transphobes alive. j.k. rowling profits from every spin-off, fancast, and bit of fan engagement and so does her hate campaign. you’re either with trans people or you’re not. it’s really that simple.

you cannot separate muse from media when the media itself perpetuates harm. curate your space responsibly, or be honest about what you’re choosing to platform.

[yooniesim]

tw: death mention, cancer mention, oversharing, long-winded self-reflection, far too many paragraphs

The strides I have made with my temper in the past year... real talk... I'm proud. It's been hard to manage myself and keep from popping off but I've been making a lot of progress removing myself from situations that get me heated, irl or online, and I'm happy about that. It doesn't remove my feelings or the damage I've caused with my anger in the past but I feel like I'm making real progress. Even though my depression and overall mental health varies, I feel like temper wise I'm in a lot better place than I was a year ago. I've been staying away from people irl that fed into my anger by being neglectful or abusive to me, and tried my best to work on my own actions at the same time.

I'm also proud of where I'm at with my blog comparatively. I've been working hard to focus on the good things and what makes me and others happy, rather than falling into a pit of negativity. I feel like I can still express myself from time to time, while also being better able to know what is appropriate to say and when. Idk if this is just especially ND of me but I feel as if I had the belief that as long as I felt whatever I was saying was the truth, it was appropriate, and that the negativity wouldn't get to me if I stayed by that metric always. But that isn't always the case, and i'm getting better at evaluating that. At realizing that, even with good intentions, getting wrapped up in all the issues of the world and all the negative discussions can be almost a form of self-harm.

Not many people know about this, but the trauma i experienced during the pandemic really affected me and changed me a lot. If you're a long time follower comparing how I was pre-2020 and after, it probably feels like I changed completely as a person, because I did. I don't speak about it a lot, especially now that it feels like the entire world has... moved on, but. Being a healthcare worker then felt like seeing your own slice of hell. Seeing that much death firsthand and being so afraid every single day, being confronted with your own mortality and that of your loved ones, it's extremely difficult. Especially since I lost a very close relative to a drawn out battle with cancer, who I was a caregiver to, as well. Between that and finally being medicated for the first time in my life, i became numb, and at the same time, I became angry. Angry at every little injustice that crossed my path. I wanted to fix something, anything- even in a silly little community for a silly little sims game. I thought, maybe, shining a light on things I saw that were wrong- scamming, doxxing, bigotry- might help. I broke myself apart trying to do that. And... for what, really? I accomplished nothing. And to this day still deal with people that boil me down to just... a hater, I guess. Too annoying for their personal tastes. As if that alone justifies some of the truly vile things that have been said and done to me, publicly and privately. That continue over a year after the fact. Even now it's difficult to think about sometimes.

I've made many mistakes here. Being an inexperienced and flat out incompetent server owner, to start. But with that, too, I've made progress. I'm so grateful for the mod team I have in Sutopia now. For the loving community that's risen from the ashes of what was once an overly negative space. For me getting a handle on my own love of petty gossip, a fatal flaw. For me learning how to ban instigating and toxic parties instead of naively giving them the benefit of the doubt. I still struggle- because as much as people might think I'm harsh, seeing as I try to put up that front as much as possible, I'm actually far too forgiving to the point of stupidity at times. I've been paralyzed by indecision in the past, not wanting to hurt anyone by mistake with the wrong call, and wound up hurting everyone involved with my inaction instead. But I know now that I have a more experienced team beside me that helps so much with these decisions and ensuring a safe place for everyone. And that's taken a weight off of me for sure.

Occasionally, still, the anger gets to me. I see someone that I know for a fact has scammed someone, or hurt someone, or flat out lied, or harassed me in anons or said something racist about me in private that they have no idea I know about- and they're just continuing on, getting love and adoration over their sims or cc or something, and it gets to me. I want to post, I want to blast everything on here and say, look! They're not what you think! Look what they did! Look who they really are! But then I breathe, and I think. Would it really help? Would it really do anything? Would I be opening myself up to be attacked and hurt for nothing? And I come to the humbling conclusion that it's not worth it. Not worth it for them to come back in a month with a new name and all their friends welcome them back like nothing happened and so simblr continues on as it always has. And I'm just a "hater" that's probably jealous of how many friends they have or how much money they make whatever other egotistical explanation they'd spout after everyone inevitably forgot what really happened. Occasionally, it makes me feel a little sick.

But, I breathe through it. I'm getting better at that. Sometimes I write something long out in the drafts- like I'm doing now- and delete it right away instead of posting it. It helps. Even though sometimes I feel guilty. I think about the anons I used to get, the people saying they were too scared to call out certain creators for certain actions because of how big they were and how much hate their followers would send, I think about the asks I still have in my inbox of screenshots and proof. About how sometimes people would thank me for saying things they couldn't bring themselves to. That I was the only person doing it. The only person who wasn't afraid. Even though I was only "unafraid" because I could barely feel anything at the time. And I don't even have that "advantage" anymore. But it weighs on me thinking that I should be trying to help them still. But how can I help anybody? I'm biased, too. I make mistakes. I've made so many mistakes. What gives me the right to say anything? Being put on that pedestal and having that responsibility on my shoulders- stupid as it was from the bigger perspective of life- hurt me, too. Because no one has the right takes every time, and having the wrong one on occasion doesn't automatically make you a terrible person. But it's extremely difficult for people on the internet to understand that. Sometimes I feel used when I remember those times. Chewed up and spat out, once the flavor wore off. And violated, not by the anons or anyone that disliked me, but by people I thought were friends. That's always the worst part to think about.

.....Until I decide it's time to leave, anyway. Then you're all going down.

It's better not to expose myself, or others, to that again. Is that growth? I don't know. I still struggle with so many emotions. The anger, and the guilt. Regret and sadness. But then, I've also felt so much joy from here, too. When I talk to people in the server, when I help people here with their cc projects/requests, when I read people's stories, when I talk to nice anons. I still love talking to anons so much, and want to have in-depth, rambling discussions with them again! I love to laugh with my mutuals and share our silly little sims together. And, god, sometimes I feel relief. Like, there's nothing for me to prove, no one for me to impress. I can do whatever I want and not worry, because well- so what if I get blocked? Or talked about? Like what else is new lol. I don't need to focus on the community. I just need to focus on me, my posts, my mutuals I already know are kind people. It's a freeing feeling. And it makes continuing to express myself here worth it. I want to concentrate on that. The positivity, the love. The creativity. The people here that warm my heart with their kindness. So I think, as we continue into December and into the New Year, and every year I'm here beyond that, that's what I'll do. Continue to grow, and share the love.

[bottlepiecemuses]

It's always funny how you nitwists bitch and cry about Republicans being fascist. Yet you guys have removed him in some states off the poll. You guys are willing to actual fascist methods in order to so-called save Democracy with a lack of self-awareness. You gusy live in a fantasy world where everything is out to get your because you don't get your way and you think your on the right side of history so you justfy crappy things in order to save the day in your eyes. You guys are the ends justify the means and I will ignore how shitty I am because you thnk you are the lesser evil. So stfu about Trump banning free elections when your side has been doing dubious shit. Also dimantle the party you guys really just one a one party system which is the opposite of democracy. You don't have to like him but the bs hysteria is based on fear rather than fact

https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2023/12/28/here-are-key-states-where-trumps-ballot-status-is-being-challenged/

right now it’s almost halfway through 2023, and 2024 is an election year in the US. I have started to see a growing proliferation of posts suggesting that there is no difference between the republican and democratic parties–the exact same kind of posts I saw an awful lot of before the last major election here. I am unfollowing folks who post or reblog these sort of posts, as I consider these posts to be fascist propaganda framed as leftist discourse, designed to suppress anti-fascist votes and voters. 

[plumsaffron]

Roasting the miracusalters pt. 5!

Fan Works outdated by canon? Y’all are a shitty example of that! At least other fanworks outdated by canon are civil and give their followers a head up! “Um my stuff doesn’t follow the current canon bc I already wrote my stuff so bear with me plz.”

You lot are the prime example of refusing to see reason even when there’s evidence by the canon wikis and trustworthy folk who actually keep things fair.

Hold up, if y’all hold the standard of how characters should behave, I hope y’all aren’t treating your RL friends and loved ones like that! I mean wanting to ruin someone’s future over a minor error is extreme!

Could y’all please stop screeching? Cuz I could practically hear you twats from the other side of the country or world.

🙄 Are you deadass stupid? Why are y’all still creating salt fics? Lila already got kicked out of Marinette’s school! She ain’t coming back! She’s already banned there!

Are you guys mentally ok even after writing death fics of civilians? I question your sanity at this point bc I recall Lila getting beat up or even killed by prisoners in a grisly manner. In that same fic I remember had a pregnant teacher you despised got murdered by her husband for supposedly cheating on him and then he offed himself outta remorse bc the unborn child got killed. That’s extreme and going too far. What? Did some of y’all believe that the husband taking the child away from his/her “naive stupid” mother after divorcing her for her “crimes” weren’t enough? Look, that teacher may not be the best but she isn’t intentionally evil!

Everytime one of your kind gets off the internet aka removing such content or even deleting your socials for such horrendous content/actions, an Angel gets their wings and the rational people sigh in relief.

Maybe Pink Guy’s STFU song should only be blasted close range for the adults who act out that delusionally at public cons/gatherings.

mhm. Denial game strong for a lot of them

If only those in denial and those that lost their minds (on purpose) could

Crazy how despite how them not letting go and getting what they wanted against Lila, it just wasn’t enough. They just don’t want it to be. They’ll never be satisfied. And this for sure includes if Lila does go in their favor completely of what they desire. They’ll find or make up new strange ways or lore to justify destruction to Lila (even disturbing fics where she’s... by Adrien Cat Noir or Ladybug and its romanticized. It’s a big sigh to even drag Marinette and Adrien down, just cause Lila’s actions towards one of the two triggered the prompter or fic writer). There’s no limit to those wanting to be unrelentingly perturbed and legions of flunkies following defecation causing devastation.

Heck she was turned into a clam and mocked by Ladybug and got Clamutilated by Sarah and Ladybug before getting revived. Yep, another humiliation losers selected to usual ignore after getting what they wanted of kill Lila because things didn’t go how they wanted against her.

Also, that’s just ugh, they really decided to drag pregnant teacher (I guess this would be Caline Bustier) to be merked too. Yikes. Well seems they mastered how to be worse than whoever they hate and drag anyone else down for some metheaded reason. Sigh

Seems they are mostly a lost cause, set in their ways. As long as Lila to them, recovers, then she must be put down by any means until she can’t wake up. All of her must be shown. Not knowing yields a disturbance to many of them because they want to be disturbed. She must be explored for their purposes of reducing or finding something wrong with her to be fulfilled. She must be viewed as nothing, can’t do anything, or become someone that crawls back for their forgiveness delusion. Ironic part is they be against that thirst if Adrien Kagami Chloe (and Juleka if they bother remembering). And they will find new ways to put other characters down just because Lila.

Some self sabotaging, wanting to sabotage and humbling kink I guess they got or appeasement to protagonist side because yes.

Waste time to want to Put down or destroy to reconfigure her YES! Ignore and have better things to focus on is a NOOOOOOOOOH!

Their unstable reactions do make me question how they can even function in real life. I guess they are quite selective. Sometimes Miraculous Ladybug Season 5 makes me wonder if it’s a parody of how unstable many of these legions of salter watchers or salt fic writers who still refuse to be better and think better are or do.

They’re like I hate this I know is evil cruel unfair etc. I hate what’s going on. Then they switch to I want worse now upon this one because I can’t handle them as I wanted to handle them. This one didn’t stay down or gone as I wanted them to. I don’t want to think or care about what I’m prompting.

I wanted worse because I am an insecure disturbed weirdo emulation, and I didn’t wish to understand how I am asking for the very things I wished didn’t occur to be even worse now, while dragging many down that could have been left alone or left alone from being dragged down further. I choose instability over ignorability, despite I seen literal examples of why I shouldn’t go for instability path, countless times.

Certain peeps are unfortunately glitchy and predictable that it’s saddening. Unfortunate to the point, I am able to commit satirical derision about them.

Other dweebs be like: This character, I/we will assign as socio or psycho or obsessive or evil or no motive or no purpose or no motive.

*Also them dweebs towards such characters be rivaling, being, or succeeding who they decided to label such character as and got a legion of lames that pretend the mirror, showcasing their fugly meth mob mindset, doesn’t exist.*

[mr-peptobismol]

LMAO I’m going to prompt you to keep going because I have a ton of thoughts about those islands all the time. I actually don’t consider Hawai’i a state because of the illegal annexation. It doesn’t make a lick of sense you can’t go back there. A lot of that information you’re missing online is there in person if you can ask the right people or go to the right places (libraries, colleges, zoos, places with physical media etc). Though I focused more on ecology because that’s what I was seeking.

Another thing that radicalized me was being made to analyze a technical report of the Ka Loko dam that broke on Kauai for my degree. In summary: Farm used a dam. Farm gets bought up by a rich white idiot. Idiot refuses to maintain the dam, gets called out by multiple engineers, pays money to silence them, and then the dam breaks from climate change related storms. 7 people die as a result.

You can see that kind of carelessness towards the islands there from non-natives and how infrastructure enroaches on it. Everything is for tourists and making money first with conservation second. They tell you to not feed the feral cats because they’re killing all the native birds and seals but tourists do anyways because no one stops them. It’s difficult to cull or ban the import of cats because colonizers insist they shouldn’t be removed despite their clear incompatibilty with the ecosystem.

Visiting will probably give you weird complicated feelings, but if you can ever go I think you should go to O’ahu. My favorite thing I experienced there (pre-pandemic and pre-fires) was the tourist-hostile protections for the endangered albatross on the northern point. I went to go see them myself as a bird enthusiast and for my degree. The road to their nesting site is gated to non-residents. It spans several miles of very rocky and uneven road that would deter most people. After an hour of walking you get there and bam! There are the birds. Completely unafraid of humans. Staring at you fully offended you dare encroach on their space. Their nesting site borders a beach made entirely of coral skeletons. And there’s a jut of smooth black volcanic rock the monk seals like to sunbathe on.

Back to JJK! Lmao.

Gege’s show don’t tell combined with show and tell later really throws people for loops. People are failing to observe the text on its merits because of their biases. To quote a very important visual novel, Umineko, “Without love, it cannot be seen.” This refers to how if you hate someone all their actions will be seen as bad an evil no matter what. Even objectively good things associated with the person will be twisted into a negative light. If you approach their actions with love, it’s easier to see their intent rather than the impression used to justify your hatred of them.

…JJK has a lot of fans that lack that love. Every writing decision will always be bad because the story is bad no matter what.

Though I never considered using fanfic to bloster media literacy. I’m so very worried impressionable people will do harm to themselves or others so I put warnings and clarifications in the notes. I do ask for a lot of feedback to see where I’m missing my points.

Naturally this conversation is also a pleasure for me. I’ve been avoiding the fanbase for a hot minute because Yikes.

Main reason I Can’t go back is due to how much it costs, and alas, I’m poor.

If I ever get the chance, I’d go. I want to truly learn more about the culture I didn’t get to experience much of while growing up. I want to know the Real history of Hawai’i, not the things on the internet to make its history more palatable for tourists.

If I am ever able to go, I’ll write about my experiences on the blog. :))

Onto JJK,

If you read something, and continue to read it, despite hating it. Theres not a point of reading it. Because in your head, you won’t accept anything the story conveys. You just think it’s bad writing with no plot, or message trying to be told.

Gonna plug my JJK fic real quick… I wanna get your opinions on it. It isn’t finished yet, currently working on the third arc before I release another chapter. Just ignore how the fic link is to the last “chapter” (it’s a chapter dedicated to author’s notes)

If you’re comfortable with it, tell me your honest thoughts of what you think I’m trying to capture within it. And then I’ll explain what I’m going for.

If you ever come off of anon, I’d love to be mutuals! You seem really cool!!

[unhappytimeleaper]

I see the request is still open and I apologize for sending this early but I can't help, ur writing is rlly nice. Can I request yan adonis alphabet with K, H, A and S? if you r not busy and take care. 

requested by 🍖

Word Count: 3,050+

I assume the meat emote is like,, what anon wanted to be noted as?

so, I tried. Honestly, Adonis is a character I don’t know quite as much about. Undead aren’t really my style and I find myself generally interested in characters outside of this group more, and it got to a point that I ended up having to rewrite this a few times to get it to make sense with what I wanted to convey. 

Otogari Adonis; Unedited. Gender Neutral Reader.

Warnings; yandere content, mental breakdown, gaslighting [mostly to yourself/Adonis to himself], clingy Adonis is clingy. 

This blog is 17+ please have your age in your bio or tagged; any ageless blog and below the age asked for will be blocked at the end of the week. 

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

One of the problems is that Adonis isn't too far off from a regular relationship; however, everything is amplified so much that it becomes a problem to handle. Or at least far beyond anything that is healthy, push a level of co-dependency even most clingy couples would be worried about. He's not restrictive like some others; he's not one to try to ban you from most things [unless he becomes highly over-worried for your safety] or to remove people from your personal life. Generally, that comes to friends outside of the industry and family; Adonis doesn't necessarily go out of his way to keep you from other idols, but you can tell there is a shift to his emotions when around others on par with him in the field. Perhaps it's a fear that he isn't as remarkable when around them or thinks they have some sort of skill he lacks. It is one that he knows is irrational; you're dating him, not them, but he can't help but have some adverse reaction to watching you talk to them. 

Instead, Adonis comes off as extremely lovesick and overbearing in his affection. Much like the honeymoon stage of a relationship, but instead, this is one-sided and far more clingy. And to a level, he can recognize that it is unhealthy, that it's only him giving the level of love. It doesn't matter in the end. Part of him is able to dilute himself so much into thinking that you love him enough to justify his actions; it's just not your style to project in the same way— and how he shows his love is just as normal, just not common for people around here. It takes him a while to entirely lose himself in these delusions, but in the meantime, it stays just as intense. He just often would be more willing to apologize when you get upset since he likely doesn't want you to find a reason to leave him; however, he never seems to change his actions. 

PDA is an everyday occurrence. It feels as if you can't go out at all without him touching you somewhere, holding hands, arms interlocked, wrapped around your waist. If you can't be physically touching, Adonis is like a large blanket, hovering so close behind you it feels like he's about to drape himself over your frame. You can ask him to take a step back, and he will go with a brief "sorry" before inching back closer. More explicit things like kisses might be more chaste against your forehead or hands than lips, while he is much more PDA friendly than some of the others he's been in Japan long enough to adopt some standards to the culture like keeping those forms of intimacy to just you two. Plus, Adonis sees something like a kiss to the forehead as more intimate as a public display with how soft how close it really shows you off to teach others without needing some overt dominance. Gifts are another big thing, either handed to you or left somewhere you easily can access, like a work desk. Of course, some are bought gifts, but this can include letters he's written for the day, snacks, flowers, pre-released undead merch [specifically his], etc. Anything he can get his hands on seems to find its way to you with some sort of sappy attachment. Realistically he knows you can't hold onto everything he gives [and knows food/flowers can't last], but it seems if he doesn't see enough of his gifts, there will be a sudden influx of what you begin to receive to fill the perceived void. 

The last sort of big way Adonis would show this is by protecting you. For him, it doesn't matter how strong you actually are, physically or mentally. Things like size and capabilities aren't factors he tends to pick up on; he just believes that no matter what it is, it is his job to protect you. Whether or not it's because he subconsciously thinks of you as 'weaker' and it's his duty to protect others, he views it as that way, or that he sees it as his job in the relationship to do it is ambiguous. Still, regardless there seems to be a disconnect. If something at work is stressing you out, he'll do everything to remove it or lessen it, some paranoid fear about a person hurting you, he has the ability to keep you away from them. There often isn't an 'I just need to vent about this' type mindset for him because he thinks it's his job to just solve it; make your life easier. Protect you from anything negative even though it gets to a point it's him making the most negative impact. It is if anything deeply frustrating but hard to communicate and get him to see the faults in his actions, causing a cycle of just bickering into the void, having whatever is bothering you with his actions stop for a few days, only to have it return back to normal. 

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

This one I don't have much to say because I covered it above with how intense it gets and how it shows itself. The answer is pretty simple, but the main word to describe Adonis is clingy. Not in a literal sense necessarily, but one where even if he isn't around, it's like he's breathing down your neck. What is the media's depiction of a 'perfect boyfriend' and what many outsiders might deem the relationship as being really is just overbearingly clingy. Too many messages to count, and calls that were once sweet now feel more like an interruption. The snacks and meals are nice, you hate to complain about the food, but it can be sort of suffocating too. UNDEAD items you honestly can't escape from as there feels like a need to play the role of a supportive partner with as much merch he gives you… even worse if they aren't your favorite group, but it's not like you'd ever tell him that. You know that he wouldn't get angry, but he might sulk a little more and work double to make it, so they are, which really just sounds more draining for both of you. Easier to keep quiet and be happy over the new additions to your… UNDEAD shrine.

In the end, even when he's present, it's again nothing that far off from a normal relationship. You can freely go outside with or without him [although he does like to know where you are at all times just in case], but this never hinders dates. I mean, he still has to wear some form of disguise if it's too public more so that you don't get mobbed, but he is also a brick wall— hard to not notice him resulting in you often opting to stay in. You'll watch shows, cook, etc. As long as you're close enough and he knows what you're doing [mainly out of pure curiosity rather than monitoring], time together is all he asks for, so you can do whatever hobby you wish so long as he can hover around you. Cuddling is key, and much like if you are in public, there is likely some way he's touching you, even if it's just legs spread across his lap as you fiddle around with something online while making idle conversation with him. 

As mentioned, none of these things are bad; so much of it just feels like a regular relationship. It's hard to put into words to explain to others why things might feel off. Not bad, you're not scared by him doing something, but there is just something an inch below the surface that feels misplaced. Being with Adonis is just that everything is fractured slightly. You care for him. Being with Adonis is one of the few yandere who starts off as a genuine relationship between both parties being involved, but his love and suffocating presence are always lurking in the back of your mind. 

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

The first fight and not for the reasons you might think. Being with Adonis, while he has his own issues of overbearing clinginess and unbreakable ideals, is not a bad partner to have. It's hard to see anything as 'bad,' and eventually, it gets to the point that you likely see yourself as the wrong one in the equation regardless of healthy boundaries. Essentially self, gaslighting yourself into thinking, 'why am I not like how he is?' or 'what is wrong with me for not being as happy as he is?' type of deal. It can get to a point where you force yourself to try to like him and dilute yourself into thinking this is how it's supposed to be or become essentially miserable that you can't have this same sense of adoration for him. Regardless, this type of feeling can't last and would likely lead to some form of burnout in the relationship. 

What makes it hell is the emotional toll all of this will take. The feelings of what's wrong with me, why am I not happy when others say I should be. Why is all of this so easy for Adonis when it is so hard for you? At some point, you forget this is an unhealthy relationship— it's not like he ever harms you. It's not like he doesn't try to invalidate your emotions or even try to give you space. He doesn't isolate you from friends or family, and even with other idols; sure, he's more grumpy than normal, but it's not like he does anything wrong to them. All of these feelings bubble and bubble and bubble, and more and more, the sadness and pain of just not getting it digs deeper into your heart. 

The first fight isn't even a fight. Honestly, you can't seem to remember it, but Adonis does seem to wince every time it's brought up. For you, it's almost a haze of crying and screaming and eventual numbness. You don't remember what you said or what he said. You can remember laying on the floor, curled up as best as you could, sobbing with Adonis hovering over you like a second shadow trying to calm you down. Part of you believes at that moment, he must have been a guardian angel, comforting you in one of your darkest hours. However, part of you believes he is a devil in disguise. One who wants to be an angel but cannot fulfill the role due to the nature of his circumstance truly matching within his idol persona. 

Things after this likely can never return to how it was. Adonis is still the same as he was before, and you… well, things seem duller no matter how much you try to let them go back to normal. You wonder if you will ever be able to return to how you once felt. To others, Adonis can only ever explain it as stress from everything seeming to have finally gotten to you; it's hard for him to accept the main factor was himself. But it's okay. Or it will be okay. He just has to work harder, and he'll always be there to make it that way. He promises-- it is his duty to protect those weaker after all. 

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

While most yanderes have one central point or influence that left them with these tendencies, Adonis has multiple that caused him to develop like this over an extended period of time. The thing is, most of these things by themselves aren't harmful, but it's the people and amalgamations of it all around him that eventually push him further and further into the extreme, eventually causing him to fall fully into his own delusions of what is 'normal.' 

The main one is likely the influence of media. Music, tv shows, plays— all of these are, let's say… not always the best way to gain an understanding of what romance is supposed to be like. The intensely devoted, no problems ever are sadly fiction. Or that things can just be magically lost forever when it takes both a lot of effort to make it do so, and most will not have their first love be their only love. It will always be a fantasy to have a love like this, but most people often struggle to learn this throughout the course of relationships. Much like how you might feel, 'why isn't my love the same as Adonis' mentioned in the last section, he felt the same way. Why isn't my love as strong as theirs in the show. Why isn't it as easy as the way this play Souma and him go to express it as. Their latest song was all about full devotion to someone. Is that how it's meant to be? In the end, all of this forces its way into shaping how he views love. Honestly, there rarely are depictions of what is a good progression of relationships and what is closer to the reality around love both in traditional stories and modern. It's easy to get lost in it all.

Even if it didn't feel right at first, there eventually comes a time he is able to quickly break down those feelings of it being wrong into being right. Self-brainwashing to conform to the media standards of love. And really, even if it is public that it's you who he's referring to, the industry would eat that shit up. It fits so well into the group's branding, and Adonis's call pulls off that strong, perfect love appeal so well. No one calls it out or tries to change it; half of them might think it's just some persona he's putting on for fans to swoon over. That validation just proves to Adonis though that he was right. Right? It's again just an unhealthy cycle of how media really doesn't promote what is realistic with love. 

The second would be wishful thinking. Adonis comes off as the type who would idealize love even without the impact that media has. That love, true love, can overcome all, and the first love he has is the real deal. There is something so wonderful to imagine that he can say it worked out. That his first was his only, and his passionate feelings from the start are burning just as strongly as they did then. Likely growing up, this was precisely that. A wish or fantasy, but when experiencing the progression of a relationship, it becomes less and less of just a wish and more of a goal. He wouldn't fail at this, and he could make it work and change this thinking into action. The fault of this is much like with media; a lot of this is all it can be. A wish or fantasy. The majority of people don't or can't make the wish of finding true love to have it last, and that's okay even more with something so complex as dating a celebrity/idol where there are so many external impacts that could cause distress. But all of the logic that he might have about it not working out because of so many factors is tossed aside for a hopeless romantic fantasy. Although, this is something that Adonis might struggle to admit to wanting even to you. 

The last leading factor is probably the fear of loneliness and not wanting to be alone. It's not really a secret that Adonis has difficulty connecting with others due to a language barrier and his personality. Even more than that, Japan can be a reasonably lonely country; it's hard to put making friends into action and create deep bonds that are often made worse when you are a foreigner. And while he has his fans, that opens up a whole other barrier and sense of loneliness because it is hard to connect on a deeper level with them. None of this is to say he doesn't have friends, especially within ES, Adonis is one to know he does have others to support and connect with, but there is a key difference between when that kind of bonds reach limitations with friendships versus a romantic one. It's easy to attach to someone and perceive the levels of bonding differently when dating, and that's why Adonis knows he cares deeply for his friends; it's not the same level of love he has for you. And it's scary to think about losing that, to be alone and not know where to direct those feelings anymore. Or that the comfort you can provide in a romantic aspect would be lost, and that sense of isolation from others will manifest. This is one where it's perhaps not a sentiment he publicly shares much, but in vague conversations with others at ES, they might express similar feelings, which in turn convinces Adonis to do everything he can to ensure a fallout doesn't happen. It results in pushing him more into a delusional mindset that rather than risking a fight or a 'rough patch,' he can keep a honeymoon period going, and in turn, there would never be a reason to leave. 

These types of issues are, I think, ones that would only really be onset by a committed relationship. While most yanderes might have sentiments that track to their childhood to explain their actions or some form of a traumatic event that resulted in a change to their perception of love, there wasn't really a way to predict that Adonis would fall into something like this. All of the factors might have been present from a young age, media influence didn't just magically appear, or this sort of wishful fantasy didn't randomly spark interest after a first date by any means, but for the longest time, Adonis probably would assume he could handle romance in a mature, healthy way. Most people around him think he is put together, too, so there wouldn't be a reason to inherently worry about him pursuing love, unlike others at ES. It's why this near-dramatic shift to being this way isn't something you or any other could put a stop to early on.  

[amoei]

@papirouge @msburgundy

Because @papirouge blocked me so I could not respond. I am going to adress 2 of your points.

I explained why abortion has no translation in most NOT all of African LANGUAGES.

You are not from every country in Africa. And i highly doubt you speak every African language from Krio, Hausa, Twi, Yoruba, Igbo, And the 101 different languages and dialects under each of these languages.

So lets address the first lie.

There is a language equivalent for a abortion but it is not called abortion in Yoruba.

It is not a single word.

It is called Yö Oyun. It means to remove a pregnancy which means abortion.

But if you actually read what I wrote. There is no single word for abortion the same way their arent words that start with an X or a Z in so many African languages. Or no word equivalent for Biology. Or chemistry.

I am not a linguist. But common sense says the english language is based off the root words of the Latin language and Greek Language. We do not have the same equivalent words for a lot of them. Bc they are different languages and root words

There is no equivalent African word for hysterectomy or cancer but it does it mean it stops existing.

Point 2: i am not sure if this point is towards my point or not.

The OP asked a question about Abortion relating Africans.

Lets get some things straight.

1. Abortion is not a new concept or tool created by the West or Western Medicine.

Abortion has existed since women having been having sex or being raped.

Surgical abortion is somewhat a new concept. Probably around 17th centuary?

Back then women would go to farmers or "witches" but really just midwives to get back alley abortions. In the back of the barn.

Margaret Singer & Planned Parenthood did not invent abortion.

I keep seeing this shit and its fucking stupid and fucking annoying. And shows how a lot of you have no understanding of the history of Gynecological & Obstretic health past Western medicine.

The medical term for a miscarriage is literally called a Self Abortion.

Whether it is the body making that makes the choice for you or a woman making the choice for her body. Abortion one way or another still ends up happening.

2. The history of a abortion relating to Margaret Singer is a mute point concerning Africans. The culture and the customs.

African women arent getting abortions in mind to exterminate the Negro race.

Most african women getting these abortions arent even aware of racial relations or even the history of racism in the US. They dont teach the Alantic Slave Trade in Nigeria as part of history. Or Jim Crow.

Shocking but the US & the West isnt the sum of the worlds history.

African women & girls still get abortions despite it being banned. We make abortion legal and we need it legal in the US so other countries who are on the fence look to America for their progressive policies to help develop their own respective countries.

There is no way in any good conscious can you justify why an 8 year old child should carry a pregnancy to term.

And unlike America. Unfortunately these numbers arent small or miniscule

Nigeria makes 40% of child marriages for all of West Africa.

Ages on avg 11+. Depending on the region those ages go lower.

A lot of these girls die in child birth. They dont make it to see 16 years of age.

Fistuals, incontinence, hemorrhaging, internal bleeding etc. All of this on the body of a 12 year old child

Abortion is women's healthcare and it is apart of Gynecological & Obstretic care.

@papirouge blocked me which was ironic because in the post she said "she is delusional and can never seem to justify her points why she is against "bleaching or US foreign policies but not abortion"

Well here is why I am for it

Child marriage is still happening actively on certain parts of the continent. Women are being raped and they rarely reach court to get justice.

Genocide, tribal war and war rape continues to still happen.

So @papirouge why do you want the body of little girls to carry a pregnancy to term that will kill them?

[mostlysignssomeportents]

Dishwashers have become Iphones

Apple is a true business innovator: For more than a decade, they have been steadily perfecting an obscure anticompetitive tactic, turning a petty grift invented by console games companies into a global, cross-industry mechanism for extracting rents and centralizing control.

I'm speaking of App Stores, of course, and not just any app store, but one that's illegal to compete with or switch away from. This started with console companies, who used technical tricks to ensure that they could skim a rake from every program you bought for your system.

Consoles used proprietary hardware or media formats to ensure that software vendors couldn't sell directly to you, that every sale would be forced through their storefronts or licensing systems.

These tactics acquired the force of law in 1998 after Bill Clinton signed the Digital Millennium Copyright Act (DMCA), whose Section 1201 made it a felony to traffick in "circumvention devices" that bypassed "access controls" for copyrighted works.

Broadly, that meant that you could go to prison (for five years!) for making anti-DRM tools. What's more, DMCA 1201's drafters rejected tying the law to acts of copyright infringement, making it illegal to remove DRM, even if you did so for a perfectly legal reason.

For example, if your games console had some code that ensured that the software you were running had been taxed by the manufacturer, then removing that code could become a criminal act - even though that has nothing to do with copyright infringement.

To make that concrete: copyright is supposed to help creators and audiences transact with one another. If you own a console and I wrote some software for it, then copyright should facilitate you paying me money for it and then running it on your console.

But if the console's manufacturer had designed its product so that it got to impose a tax on transactions like this, then I can't sell you my copyrighted work anymore unless I pay the tax. Doing so is a felony, but not because it infringes copyright.

No, it's a felony because it's bad for the manufacturer's shareholders. It's what Jay Freeman calls "Felony Contempt of Business Model."

Now, the defenders of this practice say it's not anticompetitive because I can invent and manufacture a different, competing console, sell it to you, and then sell you my code without paying tax.

But this isn't how competition works. Companies don't get to say, "You can compete with me, but only on the terms I set, and in the domains where I think I have an advantage." Excluding competition in "complimentary goods" (like apps) is 100% anticompetitive.

For several years after the passage of the DMCA, the abuse of Sec 1201 to create "Felony Contempt of Business Model" stuck mostly within the realm of games consoles, with the exception of mixed results in the printer ink market.

Then along came the App Store for Apple's Ios devices: these were designed to be locked to a single app store, so that people who made copyrighted works (apps) and people who wanted to buy them (Ipod/pad/phone owners) couldn't transact without going through Apple.

Apple's paternalistic pitch was that it would only use this power to benefit its customers. The press *loved* this story, because Steve Jobs posed himself as a daddy-figure who would use apps to get us all to pay for media again.

https://memex.craphound.com/2010/04/01/why-i-wont-buy-an-ipad-and-think-you-shouldnt-either/

The consensus that Apple should be able to decide how other companies could compete with it was advanced by its most loyal customers, who'd long considered themselves to be a kind of oppressed religious minority.

They insisted that there was no reason to allow a third-party app store because everyone who owned an Ios device loved using Apple's App Store.

But when anyone pointed out that if this was true, then there would be no reason to ban third-party stores (because they'd fail), they'd switch tactics, saying that any Ios user who switched stores was Doing It Wrong.

This is the Apple fanboy No True Scotsman argument: "Everyone loves the limitations of Apple's walled gardens, and if they don't, they're not really Apple customers. If they didn't want to be locked into the walled garden, they should have bought a different device."

To understand how weird this is, consider the inverse: we live in a market society based on property rights. Once I buy an Ios device, I get to decide which programs I run on it and who I buy them from. If Apple didn't like that deal, it shouldn't have sold me an Ios device.

This belief-system is intrinsically conservative, in the sense articulated by Frank Wilhoit: "There must be in-groups whom the law protectes but does not bind, alongside out-groups whom the law binds but does not protect."

https://crookedtimber.org/2018/03/21/liberals-against-progressives/#comment-729288

How else to explain the indifference of Apple trufans for the company's decision to reverse-engineer all of Microsoft Office's file formats and make compatible players for them, and their defense of Apple's strict prohibition on doing this to Ios?

https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2019/06/adversarial-interoperability-reviving-elegant-weapon-more-civilized-age-slay

But even if you think Apple will never abuse the power to decide who can compete with it to make complimentary products that interoperate with its own devices, the norms, laws and precedents backstopping Apple's business-model innovations can by used by anyone.

In 2015, I wrote a Guardian microfiction that exposed the perils of allowing companies to choose their competitors. It was called "If Dishwashers Were Iphones."

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2015/feb/13/if-dishwashers-were-iphones

It was a letter from the CEO of an "innovative" dishwasher company explaining why his customers were wrong to try to wash third-party dishes in his products.

The comments swiftly filled up with Apple defenders who decried it as an absurd, over-the-top analogy.

To those people, I say, behold, the Bob Dishwasher! It's a cute, countertop dishwasher aimed at single-person households, and it uses a proprietary cartridge for detergent dispensing, at about $0.67/wash - about $242/year.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVup5ya0WVQ

The company makes a lot of familiar, paternalistic claims to justify selling a non-refillable, single-use electronics package that becomes immortal e-waste once you've used it up and replaced it: the precision electronics and proprietary detergent ensure optimal performance.

dekuNukem bought a Bob and decided that he - and not the manufacturer - should decide whether the "advantages" of throwing out the cassette and buying a new one were worth it. He reverse-engineered it and made a defeat device he calls a "rewinder."

https://github.com/dekuNukem/bob_cassette_rewinder

The tale of how he did this makes for a fascinating read, especially the analog sleuthing he did using product safety labels to reverse-engineer the "proprietary" composition of the detergent and rinse-aid, which turn out to be commodity products marked up by 7700%!

Extraordinarily, he's actually selling the Rewinder, for $30. This shouldn't be extraordinary, but it is, thanks to the penalties under DMCA 1201 (and the UK equivalent law, derived from Article 6 of 2001's EU Copyright Directive).

https://www.tindie.com/products/dekuNukem/bob-rewinder-renew-your-bob-dishwasher-cassette/

It's not just dishwashers, either. Would-be digital rentiers have figured out that they can turn their shareholders' preferences into legal obligations to their customers by engineering their products so they have to be used in specific ways...or else.

For example, KLIM makes a motorcyclist's airbag vest that deactivates itself if you stop making subscription payments (of course, this means that anyone who exploits a defect in KLIM's IT can shut off all its airbag vests, everywhere).

https://twitter.com/TrashGoat00/status/1387301889356689410/photo/1

If that sounds extreme to you, it's really not. Tesla has many safety features that are marketed as downloadable content, which it remotely deactivates when a car changes hands through a private sale:

https://www.theverge.com/2020/2/6/21127243/tesla-model-s-autopilot-disabled-remotely-used-car-update

If you find yourself scrambling for reasons that it's OK for Tesla to do this with its cars, but not for KLIM to do it with its airbag vests, allow me to gently remind you that Tesla owners are not an oppressed religious minority, either.

This kind of rent-seeking is just getting started. As I tried to illustrate in my novella UNAUTHORIZED BREAD (part of my 2019 book RADICALIZED), there are limitless ways for Apple's pioneering business innovation to destroy our lives:

https://arstechnica.com/gaming/2020/01/unauthorized-bread-a-near-future-tale-of-refugees-and-sinister-iot-appliances/

And as I wrote in my story "Sole and Despotic Dominion," this is a frontal assault on the idea of personal property - it creates a world where property is the exclusive purview of remorseless, transhuman colony organisms (AKA corporations).

https://reason.com/2018/11/17/sole-and-despotic-dominion/

However, that future is anything but assured. Apple is being sued by Epic for antitrust violations over its Felony Contempt of Business-Model system:

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/05/02/technology/apple-epic-lawsuit-app-fees.html

And European competition regulators have opened an enforcement action against the company on the same basis:

https://www.cnbc.com/2021/04/30/eu-says-apples-app-store-breaches-competition-rules.html

Meanwhile, copycats who created their own Felony Contempt of Business Model walled gardens, like Valve did with Steam, are facing their own lawsuits, courtesy of Wolfire:

https://arstechnica.com/gaming/2021/04/humble-bundle-creator-brings-antitrust-lawsuit-against-valve-over-steam/

We've come a long way in a decade, and the No True Scotsman defense of the right of a dominant corporation to interpose itself between buyers and sellers, to control its customers' choices after a sale, is finally facing a real challenge.

https://locusmag.com/2021/03/cory-doctorow-free-markets/