#repressed kintype

[scarsmood]

Repressing kintypes

Repression is the act of unconsciously pushing down unwanted thoughts, feelings or urges. It’s in the long term not exactly healthy and typically is a sign of a poor environment.

That’s to say when i first joined the therian community I was excited. In my childhood I suffered but in turn became extremely in touch with nature. My childhood nickname was “little deer” there was no question for me what I was it felt obvious. I was the forest guardian, I was the symbol of the forest, I was- a wolf? Wait what?

Well interesting thing about being a deer or a herbivore in general in the old therian community. Expect to get eaten. I didn’t want to get eaten or verbally abused. I was sick of the torment I got from it. So- I learned something. I’ll do what deer do and run. Right off from all these problems right into something stronger.

If I can’t be a deer i’ll be a ‘wolf’ were plural. We have ‘wolf’ alters so they can just front which means we are technically truthful. In turn our main personality cluster becomes dormant. To fit into the harsh categories pf something I felt I desperately needed at the time to save myself and survive everything else that was happening in my life.

I buried myself. I looked at myself knowingly and shot myself like a cabellas hunter and tossed the body in a ditch saying “i do feel bad but this is for the best” to turn around and roleplay as a wolf. Well to be honest it never felt right. Not for all of me at least. I felt forced to be fearsome while others took pride in it. I felt the urgency to do it to survive not because its fun.

In a room full of teeth why should I announce I have none? So playing along was my deepest urgency. This became so apparent it intertwined with who I was. I have to be scary. I have to show I am a carnivore. I have to show I am strong. Yet with every failure I spiraled. Depressed. Angry. I just want to be gentle thats my inherent nature. Virtuous. Strong but caring.

I don’t want to bite someone. I wanted to headbutt them. I didn’t want to eat raw meat it makes me sick. I wanna have veggies. But I can’t because not at that time. If I was a deer it was seemingly endless pestering. How would I introduce myself? I was to terrified to admit I was different.

I intertwined some characteristics pf my deepest parts of myself with being a deer. Cause I had been one for so long. I was always told I was gentle and caring. Soft and loving. People always said I have the body type of a deer long and slender. I was quiet like one. It was how i identified my feminity. I never minded being in a dress as a deer. It felt like a love letter to the flowers and grass I eat.

I was happy. But it had to go. Because when I got older these traits didn’t help me survive. So you draw the bow and let the arrow ring. When I came into therianthropy I was already partially repressing my deer traits. I didn’t understand why or what I was doing. I just did what it took to survive.

When I came across wolves and tried to pass off I was dual typed as deer and wolf the wolf was always accepted but the deer was always caught and questioned. So I stopped mentioning it. I was tired of being harassed.

Now the years have passed. The deer types come back. Stronger than before. Stronger than my carnivorous kintypes. I stand in awe with a feeling of being soaked in blood. That despite everything the original me is still here. That as a deer I weaved every obstacle and conflict. I ran when I needed to and hid until it was safe instead of dying I survived in the background.

Perhaps it’s feeling comfortable in the community. Maybe it’s feeling accepted. But I feel comfortable showing these sides now that aren’t so hard and edgy. Especially with this blog. I would have never imagined my voice would be listened to or ever considered.

My repressed kintypes are more feral i would say. They have a stronger urge to survive than even scar parasite kintype. Those parts of me feel stronger, tougher, more durable. They learned from the background and made choices to help us along without ever being seen.

Inside It feels painful. Having known now what all was missing it makes sense. I mourn for the time lost but at the same time understand how important those choices were. I wish I could have always been this way but that’s not the way of the this world.

I feel it’s probably more common to repress kintypes or parts of ourselves. It’s unfortunate how it happens. I was surprised to find how strong those parts are. Needless to say I won’t fuck with a deer.

[fictionkinfessions]

gatekeeping someone else's kintypes is wrong, no matter who or what they kin. someone cannot control their kintypes, and repressing kintypes is emotionally damaging. regardless of how ''problematic'' a source is, it is important to be responsible and block someone if their kintypes or their source media is upsetting or triggering to you. love yourself!!!

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[canine-brained]

I really wanna call myself a serval therian. Because I know I am. I am a serval!

Hhh... I just. I just don't wanna have so many theriotypes. It makes me feel fake. I know there's nothing wrong with it, there's no limit to how many theriotypes one can have. But... Idk it makes me feel cheap?

I try to ignore and repress the serval feelings too... I also tell myself that I'm not a serval therian because I don't have serval shifts, which doesn't make sense of course. I tell myself that I don't wanna use the label of servalkin because the serval identity came from me awakening my "soul kintype". I tell myself that I'm not my serval, but simply my soul. But the thing is... Labeling myself as a serval would make me so happy. Because I am one.

I don't have shifts. I don't have urges, I don't have instincts. I just am.

[seth-burroughs]

my response.

[longest recorded sigh known to man] Hi. [sniffs, briefly looks at the floor, then back into your fucking soul] I... [takes out and uncaps a a half-frozen żywiec zdrój water bottle making sure the logo and brand name is visible, cranes neck backwards and gulps down the entire thing in under 10 seconds] [coughs and sniffs again] As you can not see I've been crying... A little, I didn't do my make-up didn't do... My hair's a bit messy . I've... I'm trying to- write this, in the most humble corner At my 5 billion złotych villa I could find, I'm... On the floor right now, this is my basement, so- [smiles weakly, sighs. expression turns serious] This is different from my usual content. I... Really didn't want to make this post, but... Recent events have- This... Is the hardest post I've ever made. I've got a lot of hate recently and, it has affected my mental health.

I know I'm gonna get a lot of hate for this.... [sigh]..... Recent events have come to light in which- accusations- have... [takes out another water bottle, downs it's entirety in under 9 seconds] [sobs] It has come to light my, my identity as a... Yomi Hellsmile.... Fictionkin in the Rain Code fandom on tumblr. And and- I know that this... Came across as- shock, to all seven of you. This post serves as me adressing a few things, to paint a clearer picture of this whole situation. I... [sigh] I have realized I made a severe and continuous lapse, in my judgment, during the 5 years of which I served as the director of the peacekeepers in the Ward. [sigh] I just... let it get to me man, you know, the immense power granted by the capitalism gods there, but, nobody's perfect, i'm only huma- [stops] [audible gulp] 3 years. 3 years served as the director.

Due to my.... [starts petting my cat] past transgressions and problematic qualities, I've been facing... great mistrust and scrutiny, from the tumble kinmunity, but maybe I deserve it. [sniffs] [takes out another water bottle, downs it's entirety in under 8 seconds] [exhales] I am aware of my sins I've committed by the virtue of being a nasty abhorrent piece of shit villainkin, consciously, voluntarily and actively, despite not having- [flinches as the guy forcing me to write this post tightens his finger on the trigger, a clear warning] I mean, I am aware of my sins and am actively repenting, right now and my whole life from now on. Ok? Ok. [long sigh]

I have had it revealed to me, during my toluene huffing induced out of body experience yesterday, that I cannot be allowed to- exist in this world, nor be recognized by the council as valid, have I not feel guilt and shame constantly for the atrocities I've definitely committed in this life. And I now realize, how insensitive of me was to even list it, talk about it in any way or let it affect me and my life. [takes out another water bottle, lets it flow freely down my thrussy straight into my stomach, finishes absorbing it in under 7 seconds] [wheezes] I did not regret all of my actions hard enough, and for that, I need to simply accept the consequences of my past actions, and I hope you never forgive me. [sigh]

I've let you guys down. For- clearly not taking the obvious choice to simply hide or repress my kintype, or just, stop being kinning them. Just stop kinning them lol. Just stop it, since it's a choice and completely voluntary, and keeping that makes me a bit sus...... so I've been told. And for that, I am so fucking sorry. I'm on my knees right now begging for forgiveness and hoping that you'd kick my frail body for the audacity. [sigh] But.... I wanted to adress my side of the story, too, in this post. This is by no means an attempt at justifying my actions, this segment only serves as an explanation, as to how I saw- to better understand- that if you see how I saw things personally, you'll take pity and maybe, just maybe I'm not saying- believe- nevermind.............

[pauses. hesistates. takes out another water bottle and drinks it all under 6 seconds] [throws the emptied bottle behind me, hitting one of the hostages in his giant forehead, making a thwack sound] I don't remember much, but from what I can make out, I was in a very dark place at that time, when- when everything happened. [sigh] I failed torture college long before and never quite recovered, I've been struggling with my mental health, my boytoy hitman whom I won't name to conceal his identity and definitely not because I forgot, fucking died, all my employees were assholes, m*ske.d fr3a//k, and um- think of something, you're forgetting something, uhhh, fuck..... So you see- oh. There was also the... woman flesh cube incident, which, was what I ordered in a private moment, which should have never become public in the first place. I've already reached out to the victim and we're together aiming to resolve things peacefully. I think. She hasn't called me back. Well, anyway.

Now that we established this- I would like to apologize for executing Seth via firing squad that april. I had no idea he was queer and neurodivergent, had I known sooner I would not be this harsh with him, ever. I would also like to apologize for knocking out like, 2... [sigh] or 3.... of my employees that one day, I was under a lot of stress and pressure in that moment, and it just built up until I lashed out in a very destructive way. [sigh] In my defense, literal terrorists were blowing up my city and I was literally in the process of nearly arresting one of them. I will also apologize for kicking that one guy's body repeatedly, I would say, about.... 38 times, that time, and for that, um... he literally killed someone so I can do what I want actually, and I really- I don't really, remem- but I recognize some of you won't see it that way, and I'm sorry that- that's how you feel. And I apologize for also hitting that guy's neurodivergent boyfriend(?) with the whip later, I was under a lot of emotions still, and I was trying to make myself look more foxy to my subordinates present. But most of all, I would like to apologize for developing sexual feelings towards my shitty boss and arch enemy, m*k0t0 kag//uts/uch1. I did not realize he was minor-coded the whole time

[takes out another water bottle, sucks it dry in under 3 seconds] [meows] so :3 [sigh] no, sorry. I am so sorry, for everyone involved. But please understand, that I had grown and changed a lot since then, and am no longer that person. I mean that literally. I-Im really n- [a hostage gets shot for that implication] [stops] I mean, I want to grow and change from this moment and put the drama behind me- or not behind me really, I know I can never never truly atone for the atrocities. You know, I hope to be forgiven, personally, but if that won't end up happening, I will accept my due punishment to be brought out to public and flogged until I confess my sins and then, oh fuck, roughly manhandled and thrown down to the ground to get stomped on for being a ba- [professional editor's note: the following 6 paragraphs of the post have been deleted for a purely technical reasons]

[takes out another water bottle. it dematerializes in my hand.] [starts fake crying] I j-just... That was all I wanted to say. [sigh] I'm gonna upload this post unedited. [sigh] Before I finish this post, [sigh] I would like to announce that I [sigh] will be personally donating 50 groszy to charity, [sigh] in order to atone. [sigh] Please do not harass any of the people involved. [sigh] I hope you understand... [sigh] Now let us move forward. [sigh]

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[talon-dragonbeast]

that ask from last night made me realise that i am (kinda) in the aplatonic spectrum! just, only when im shifted as an enderman. i went to the internet to investigate this further (and because im a sucker for microlabels) but i could not find any labels that specifically described what im experiencing. i did find erosentien, but it doesnt mention anything related to ones orientation changing when shifted, so ill attempt to explain my experience in case it does ring a bell to anyone.

when im mentally shifted as an enderman, my thought processes are very different from my human ones. my enderman identity stems from neurodivergence, as a sort of defense mechanism to cope with having repressed my autistic behaviours as a child.

when i was young, i had no interest in interacting with other human beings at all, as i didnt consider it necessary and was perfectly happy being on my own. it was my mother who urged me to make friends and talk with people, because she was worried that i would be lonely (she was right probably, as now that i have friends i recognise that they are important for development and stuff. idk, im not a psychologist). being forced to make friends as a very introverted autistic child, i approached people as best i could and got bullied as a result.

it was then that i started repressing my autistic symptoms, an act known as masking that is very detrimental to the mental wellbeing of neurodivergent people. it worked though, because i was able to make friends and connect with people in a way that satisfied my mother (even if i never were as social as she wouldve liked)

what i now call my enderman side (or enderman kintype, for the initiated) is actually a series of autistic behaviours that my brain, being trained to heavily repress them since childhood, now expresses in a 'extreme' way; a nonhuman way, one that i can now only access through mental shifting. one of those behaviours is the disinterest in friendship, which when shifted as an enderman manifests itself in aplatonicism.

has anyone heard of something similar? not even specifically related to the aplatonic spectrum, just about orientations changing when mentally shifting. anything at all would definitely be appreciated.

[myriadeyed]

Wanted to chime in a random comment re: you saying you don't know what species you identified at when you were 2--

Humorously enough, when I told my mom about my kintype, she told me she wasn't suprised because when I was a toddler I constantly got frustrated and cried that I didn't have paws. When I was a little older I complained about my ears and my teeth. And of course I was the "ears and a tail" highschooler so hard my nickname to the day is Ears xD

So apparently, I CAN confidently say, from my mom's observations, I've been nonhuman since I was at least a toddler.

That's amazing and so funny. My parents have similar stories from when I was a little older where I'd only ever want to pretend to be animals instead of "normal" playing, which continued long after I reached teenage and all my playground pretend play transitioned to online roleplaying lmao. I was very repressed so I only ever dressed as an animal when I had an excuse like Halloween, but I have a very vivid memory of being at a summer camp and meeting an older girl who wore a wolf tail everywhere and being insanely jealous that she was "allowed" because I felt like I'd be mocked for it. I know my species dysphoria goes back for as long as I can remember but like I said it's not like I remember much of my childhood so who can really say whether I felt human up till a certain age 🤷‍♂️

[fallen-and-holy]

4 th3 ask game,,,,,, wh4t d0es canon get right and/or wrong about you?

Plain text translation: for the ask game, what does canon get right and/or wrong about you?

Most of my kintypes are noncanon, so I don't have much for them, canon got literally everything wrong about me, I don't even exist- but with my Lego Monkie Kid MK 'type I have some! Spoilers for season four. First off, I know it's hard to translate through lego but I was fat. I was not skinny or jacked or whatever, I was fat. Once i started training, I got the like- strong man body type, with lots of muscle and fat. Also, i sort of knew about my monkey form before the scroll? I had flashes if it, but I repressed it real hard because I Did Not want to think about what it meant for me. Also, I think I got stuck in my monkey form after season four because all of my shifts are of the monkey form (monkey hand feet are weird as hell yall). Other then that, though, canon is pretty accurate. Thanks for the ask! ^^

[cadavercatt]

oh. oh i had forgotten these. hello phantom horns. where the hell did you come from???? i dont have a horned kintype??? is my dragonheartedness manifesting as horns or did my brain decide to stop repressing the fact that im ockin (ockin? is that the word?)

[drkinhome]

Hello! Can I get a tarot reading on my Mikan Tsumiki timeline? Thank you bunches!

Sure thing! I’ll use my go-to spread and Kawaii Tarot deck!

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You (top card): Something about the kintype, more broad, sometimes obvious but it may still be overlooked

I got the reversed Hierophant card, which symbolizes confusion, restriction, and challenge. Your classmates struggled to understand you and your struggles, and you even struggled to understand yourself sometimes. You ended up needing to go back and process your trauma to help yourself and the others. You were bullied like in canon, but you needed to learn how to cooperate rather than fight back (I know, horrible advice, but that was your best course of action).

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Home (left card): Something about your canon, can be general or specific

I got the reversed Queen of Cups, which symbolizes emotional manipulation, denial, and sadness. Due to your trauma and bullying, you ended up repressing your emotions, something that Junko most likely enabled and took advantage of. She was a strong force in your life and took control of you.

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Heart (right card): Something fundamental about the kintype, something that makes you you

I got the reversed Three of Cups, which symbolizes emptiness, conflict, and self-pity. You struggled with your self-worth and the ability to truly appreciate yourself, feeling as if you were the only one trying to make a change when everyone else was arguing. You also may have struggled in your relationships, each one ending in conflict and lack of communication.

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I know this one is a tad more negative, but I hope it helps you nonetheless!

[wolftheghost]

hrrrrrrrr ive got a long car journey today which is fun but im spending the whole day with my family and cousins etc which means i cant shift which depending on where we go could be more of a problem than anticipated. i made a little paw pebble to keep me safe and to keep my kintypes safe if i do have to repress a shift

gonna be charging it on the way here

[scarsmood]

Symbolism of herbivores

This could be a legitimate thesis. So, im going to skim and keep the digging light in this topic.

Herbivorous animals in western culture are seen commonly as animals that are meek, passive and gentle creatures. I want to highlight why this influences the otherkin community and what we can do about it.

Who started this culture? Some common fairy tales are lined with this passive narrative. Disney movies, grimms fairy tales, peter rabbit, this is also seen in ecology. Most herbivores animals are described as passive in documentaries or “on guard” from predators. Herbivores play defensively while predators play offensively. While this may be the case sometimes in direct interactions it isn’t the case all or even most of the time.

Where did this culture come from? This is something that is a long stemming symptom of religious ideologies. We ascribe animals traits and denote them in our religious practices. A lamb is a common symbolism for innocence. In more modern interpretations bambi may also be viewed this way.

Deer in pagan rituals such as wicca are denoted with traits of the “horned one” while hellenism has gods like Artemis that hunt deer which has a sense of elegance of cunning brutality in order to serve people.

In christian books the lamb is often a symbolism of being a virgin or innocent.

I can’t speak for other cultures as those are the ones i am directly involved with. But it does make us ask. “Why is it a problem?”

The answer is simple in my eyes. Because real animals are not their symbols and this is forgotten often. A real deer is not a story symbolic deer. Same with a lamb, pig, or bunny.

This becomes an issue in otherkin culture. With a vocal population from the west our ideologies sink into what kintypes should be like for better or for worse. Not everyone fully understands ecology by identifying as an animal which becomes a problem for people that divert from their stated symbolic traits.

An aggressive deer or a passive wolf may get head turns in an old style community because people are subconsciously following what they have seen and know. Which may be only symbolism or religious messaging. This becomes a struggle for individuals who do not fit the mould or role they are given religiously.

In more modern otherkinity your kintype does not have to fit within a mould. It does not have to follow common quirks or behaviors and there is more freedom to be who you are over what symbol you are given. However it doesn’t mean these tropes aren’t played into unknowingly.

Since I have most experience as a deer and why i repressed my deer kintype these are the common tropes a cervid may experience.

-the one who flees from the fight

-the gentle and wise

-the passive, the quiet, the meek

-the fearful and predator avoidant

-the hunted

These tropes are things I see often replayed by predators and prey alike. We fall into simple roles and expect them to be played. My own issue arose when I identified my own deer roles as follows

-the defiant, the resilient, the quick

-the aggressive, impulsive, catalytic

-the angry, the brave, the one of many

This became such an issue we repressed our kintype because we simply did not fit our predetermined role. As a deer we are aggressive and territorial. It isn’t uncommon for “prey” animals to force predators to run or make space for their herd in an area. There is a reason wolves can’t just stroll through an elk herd. They would be trampled to death.

These relationships are much more diverse and unique than given credit for. Elk and wolves for example are constantly playing a game of give or take. If the elk are not convinced the wolves are strong enough they will drive the wolves away. If the wolves think the elk are not strong enough the elk will be driven away.

Often in documentaries we see wolves killing elk but often what isn’t shown is all the failed attempts. Often wolves fail. Sometimes even having to divert to a different food source. A single wolf has roughly a 10% chance (being generous) of bringing down an elk by itself. This doesn’t factor in the possibility of injury.

Wolf packs still struggle to kill elk. Often its taken that this is something that just happens but each interaction is dangerous enough to be a wolfs last hunting attempt even with calves if things go awry it could mean the end.

You get the idea. Relationships with predators are wildly different than how they are typically seen in media. This effects how we interact and what we expect of others with our notions of what an animal is.

I would challenge everyone to read about specific interactions between predator and prey and begin looking for the diversity. I believe these interactions could empower a lot of otherkin to be more diverse on how they see themselves and what’s okay and whats not.

[fictionkinfessions]

@ the vanillamayhem anon from /post/736438326155001856

You might've meant this rhetorically, or just as a vent, but if you were genuinely asking I can offer up my understanding of it at least.

Having a copinglink (what people mean when they say they're copingkin) is something you choose to do. You consciously decide to take on a copinglink as an identity and could consciously decide to give it up at any time. The copinglink refers to the character or entity in question; the individual choosing to identify as them is usually called a copinglinker. This terminology was first coined and defined this way within existing otherkin and alterhuman communities in 2015, and is related to otherlink terminology.

Being fictionkin is something involuntary that you have no control over. You cannot consciously choose to stop having a fictionkin identity, you can only choose whether you accept it or try to ignore or repress it. The individual with the identity is usually called fictionkin as an adjective in this case; the character or entity they identify as is referred to as their kintype or sometimes fictotype. This terminology and was first coined and defined this way within existing otherkin and alterhuman communities in 2007, and had roots spanning from the earlier 2000's going back as far as the 80's and 90's.

Spiritual fictionkin are defined by having spiritual or metaphysical beliefs about the sense of identity they are experiencing. But there are also psychological fictionkin who are defined by believing their experiences aren't spiritual in nature but a product of their own psychology instead. It's not uncommon for psychological fictionkin to believe their kintypes are something their brain is doing to cope with the circumstances in their life. The difference between a psychological fictionkin experience and a copinglinker experience is simply whether it was voluntary or not.

If someone did not consciously choose their fiction-sourced identity as a coping strategy, and have the belief that what they're experiencing is due to spiritual or metaphysical reasons, then they would fall under the definition of spiritual/metaphysical fictionkin.

If someone did not consciously choose their fiction-sourced identity as a coping strategy, and have the belief that what they're experiencing is due to psychological or neurological reasons, then they would fall under the definition of psychological fictionkin.

If someone did consciously choose to take on their fiction-sourced identity as a coping strategy then then they would fall under the definition of a copinglinker.

Most importantly, all of these experiences are equally valid and respectable fiction-based identities! Just slightly different from eachother. The reason why they're considered distinct is mostly to preserve the definition of fictionkin and, by extension, otherkin as an involuntary experience; something which has historically been an important aspect of the definition of the term.

That's the community history I'm familiar with at least. Sorry if it's way more info than you really wanted, but I hope it helps anyway. And if anyone notices I'm mistaken about any of this please feel free to correct me!

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[bstrdwulf]

im borderline kin-for-fun, dont get me wrong im 100% non-human physically, mentally, and any other '-ly's. I have a very lax sense of my species, i can see traits in other things and go "yeah thats me" and happily ID as that thing even if im not fully that thing. Easiest way i can explain it is comparing it to mogai gender hoards, but with my species not my gender (ooh i might make a species hoard, that sounds fun). That said, i dont rlly use kin terms when it comes to those less strong identities bcs ive seen so much anti-kff rhetoric; i even started to repress any relation i had to certain things because it didnt seem 'true enough', for instance ive been trying to ignore my kinship with sharks because it didnt make sense.. im a mammal? i dont have gills or fins and yet i would happily say that i am a shark. These identities tend to be contradictory and confusing, and also i cant tell if theyre involuntary or not? i dont know what they are but i wouldnt be comfortable saying theyre kintypes.. i think i might move away from using otherkin terms entirely

[unhingedkinfessions]

when I was in middle school my core ID (do we still call it that? Idk what kids are saying now) was Tony Stark (sad) and I was 100% convinced my best friend was my Peter Quill reincarnated but I never told her because she didn't know what kin was and it would have been an insane statement to make. I didnt know why I was so convinced I just felt it in my bones. Anyways turns out I just had a crush on her. I also actively repress Tony Stark now because I hate Marvel and I think him being a core ID literally made me a worse person. I wish dropping kintypes was a real thing I could do.

i am so sorry to hear it i hope you get better soon

[hazyaltcare]

hi, could i please get some positivity for a very pissed off jason grace (heroes of olympus) who's sick of the fandom constantly making untagged shitposts and whump crack about him dying/getting hurt? i already had to leave another fandom i have a - now heavily repressed - kintype from because of this fandom trope of treating torture and angst like the funniest thing on the planet (spoiler alert: it's not). i'm so tired. i can't repress my strongest spiritual IDs and selfhoods like i could with psychological kintypes. i just want to see my fluff content without being constantly triggered by the incessant untagged crossposting. please.

Hey,

I just wanted to say I completely understand where you're coming from. All content deserves to exist, but everything should have it's proper content warning. I'm sorry you've even felt like you've had to repress one of your kintypes because of the situation.

People who claim to be pro-fiction and then don't tag things boggle my mind. Part of being pro-fiction is also giving people to consent to seeing content rather than just shoving it in their face.

There's nothing wrong with you wanted to see something comforting rather than a version of yourself being tortured. How you cope with your alterhumanity is valid and you shouldn't have to be dealing with all this crosstagged content.

I hope that maybe this post can do some good in deterring people from crosstagging as much. We personally enjoy dark shitposts and whump, but we wouldn't want anyone to see it without them wanting to. Hell, even with liking whump, its something we like to get warned about first before we delve into it.

Tagging things in fandom spaces is common courtesy and you deserve better than this.

Wishing you the best,

Mod Haze (🎮Greyson & 🤝Samuel🤝)

[kinblogging]

I've never talked to anyone whos otherkin or any kintype so sorry if my wording isn't very good or accurate or if this comes off as rude or something (that isn't my intention)

I wanted to ask what it was like before the release of the lightfury

I'm curious about how it must've felt before the hidden world and when you first saw a lightfury

Your question isn't rude at all, no worries! I've talked about this a while back but growing up I repressed basically every part of me that I deemed "cringe" including the fact that Im very much an alterhuman/kin/therian whatever word is more accurate. So it took a while for me to even click that Ah. I am this.

When I did, it was thankfully after the Light Fury had been released but beforehand, even as a wee child around the same year the first HTTYD came out (I was 8? I believe) I knew I was a Night Fury... but not quite. When playing with friends or imagining myself as a dragon I would always be a Night Fury but different. I'd be a golden Night Fury, a paler Night Fury I'd be smaller or bigger I could never agree with myself what I was supposed to look like, especially since I identified with a lot of different dragons later on (only two ever stuck, aha.)

When I first saw the Light Fury though, I was very much in the "if everyone online agrees its bad then it must be" mentality, as this was the 2019-2020 era where everything minor was cancellable and everyone was chronically online. I hated the Light Fury, genuinely. I even refused to watch the new movie.

Then I caught a clip on Youtube, I think it might have been the scene where Toothless finds her for the first time. Something just kind of clicked in my brain at that moment, and I was like, this is it!!! Her movements, her vocalization, everything about this creature was just right. Something with a Night Fury shape but not quite! It felt a little bit like oh! Of course. Especially after I watched the movie entirely (well, lets be honest, mostly the Light Fury scenes) it felt. Idk how to explain it exactly! Like smth was just unlocked to me.

Now, I really do not think this would have happened if the Light Fury had never been made public or if we had gotten some of the other... designs. But I also don't believe things like that just happen for no reason, so I guess maybe the stars aligned on this one... now if only they could align to make me a dragon instead of a human :/