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thatoneguywhowho · 11 months

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but if i stay awake i will cry!

#itll simply get worse #i know you probably needme and that kills me inside and im sorrh #but im #ill overwhelm yoh more #im erratic rn #im spiraling and freaking out #i feel horrible rivht now existing is #reslly hard #i reslly dont wanna exist right now i feel like i deserve to die #and i dont wanna harm myself so maybe i should just sleep yk?

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dapperrokyuu · 1 month

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Extremely funny that I cannot imagine even crackshipping Luka with anyone else in the cast besides Hyuna because thats how obsessed he is with her, shfiejfhefjek-

#dee p thoughts #alien stage #alnst #vivinos #not that I particularly ship anything too hard at all but just had this realization #well I do think luka and ivan would make a killer duo I mean that in terms of ''would in combo create the most awful vibes in the world''#and not in any actual relationship way. for funsies pretty boy ship I guess but I think theyd be better maybe-friends #I really wish ivan lived for multiple reasons but he really way too gay for a straight man #Idothinkhemaybealiveforcheckhovsgunpurposesbutanyways #sure I guess you can ship luka and mizi if you reslly hate her but to each their own whatever #the fact that till and luka is the most likely potential luka ship...#at least till has two options. hyuna as well. mizi too!#ivan sua...hmmmmm I mean at least theyve interested in interacting with other people so theres that #as for luka alls hes got is either hyuna or ''Im interacting with you to kill you right now'' either because of hyuna or survival lol #mizisua w tho remember that everyone. forever. Im beaming this into your soul.#I can oddly stretch for a luka dewey ship but its out of luka being extremely weird about dewey and hyuna's relationship lol

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taeyungie · 8 months

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#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much.#he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months.#thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most.#but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated.#i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do.#to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓#please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓#we have esch other and we will be okay 💓#sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓

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aethermeows · 2 years

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heizou has been sitting in my brain since his release get ahim Out Please

#heizou #genshin impact #shikanoin heizou #aether irl #aether genshin impact #heither if you squint #but u have to squint reslly hard

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goredinner · 10 days

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Bpd is so fun im really having fun really i am no im not lying promise

#i realize i make problems bigger than they should be #even while knowing that How Else Am I Supposed To Feel #the feelings are so overwhelming snd so are the thoughts #and im excruciatingly self aware always #but i still have no control #being more aware does not equal capability to control #i sure fucking wish it worked that way #as aware as i am i still cant even trust my own judgment #i feel insane always #i try my best to supress all this shit tho snd try to pretend to be normal for the sake of wanting healthy relationships #i really try so hard not get angry not to lash out not to explode and cause issues #and i do my best not to be a shitty person and do shitty things out of spite or payback or whatever #so i dont #i really try my absolute best to communicate and try to work through issues and be considerate while doing so even tho The Huge Feelings #are literslly bubbling under the surface #but like #and its so funny bc it never seems to matter lol any time i tried communicating calmly and mature the other person doesnt care half as much #so i wish i couldve just acted how i felt instead of controlling myself bc then maybe something wouldve changed maybe tht woukdve worked #maybe ppl would listen if i exploded but #i cant ever bring myself to do that #ig growing up being told i need to behave is reslly drilled into me lmao #its really like torture silently fighting inside my own head all the time where no one can see #living like this is so hard lol but who cares #out of sight of mind #out of your sight and mind anyway #so its not your problem #if you dont have bpd you should be so fucking grateful #honestly #ive never been so envious of anyone. ppl that dont have to suffer living like this

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bipunkharrington · 1 month

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I don't ship real life people but the Shourntey wedding has clearly put smosh weirdness in my brain because last night I had a dream I met Spencer's family.

His mum was super upper class and intimidating, and quizzing me about Amanda (who was his girlfriend??) and specifically whether she wanted kids (I confirmed that she wanted 3/4 kids, which in my dream is something Amanda had actually told me 😂).

I was conflicted because I felt like I was betraying Amanda by telling Spencer's mum that.

#spamanda #??#smosh #idek #why my brain picked that pairing idk #i dont ship cast members but i do love certain dynamics more than others and spencer/amanda have never stuck out to me #also in the dream i was low key jealous and trying hard not to be because i had feelings for spencer #also part of the visit to spencers familys estate (they were posh posh apparently) i somehow got a signed copy of a stephen king book #then I lost the book and was reslly annoyed because it felt very adhd because i lost it walking from one room to another

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rivalsilveryuri · 2 months

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video gaem

I love....... voseo game ... (BURSTS INTO VIOLENT TEARS)

#oh shit wow the boeswr im watching just got an awesome hit on zelda OH NO ok um. Bad news about him. Hes dead #that eas nasty to watcg. umm. oh eah..#SENTCALLS #i lovr kiu so much its unreal. like idk. sucks so bad that no one knows about it and its doomed to die in a ditch. aurg aurg arg aurg arugg #it may feel awful on the hands to play but IAGH.#also i love dark p. feckin hell sorry im like. half watching smash games while typing just ot of morbid curiosity and rhese players are so #foul. this poor guy is getting combod reslly bad #anyways i love. dark pt hes ... arggg words are so hard. video game #i reccomend kid icarus uprising so much. but . aurg

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the-dist-ortionist · 11 months

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WELCOME TO NUGHTVALE REFER3NCE HOLY SHIT ❓

#welcome to night vale #wtnv #cecil palmer #carlos the scientist #kevin wtnv #aled last #frances janvier #radio silence #universe city #alice oseman #i stimmed and hit mt leg reslly hard in public

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the-official-account · 11 months

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Decided to do with my anxiety what I did with my body dysmorphia ages ago which is to beat it with the affirmation stick until it eventually becomes a central part of my belief system. This round is "I am strange and I am loved. I may be misunderstood and that does not make me alone. I am surrounded by people who accept me"

#theres reasoning for this #like 'i am cringe but i am free' despite being incredibly memeable doesnt work for me #first of all saying it outloud can sound self depricating. and accidentally sounding self depricating #(something i rarely actually do)#makes me want to shrivel up into freeze fried weasel and hibernate for seveal hears #also the presence of the word 'but' presents these things as contradicory ideas. and i need them to go hand in hand #hense this sey of affirmations #the rule of three is good and memorable #the first statement says something about myself. something it is good and realistic for me to believe is inherent about myself #the second accounts for situations when that first one may feel threatened such as when i am misunderstood #using an AND here for those ideas that are NOT conteadictory is reslly important cor the syntax of my brain #being misunderstood does not say anything about me. it is a nuetral statement and i reminder of important truths #and these truths are easy to affirm if i get REAL spooked by touching base with a friend!#and lastly is something i want to believe about the world #.....i am a strange sort of person. i exist outside of a lot of cultural norms in a way i cant change if i wanted to. i dont want to #but having a hard heart or expecting harm and judgement from other people isnt good for me #and doesnt lend to good conversation #i want to enter spaces with the expectation that i will be accepted because i deserve to be accepted. that is the norm.#i want to believe that is normal. therefore i am making a statement about other people #both friends and strangers #they WILL accept me. and it will be easier for them to do so if i dont come in afraid of harm and instead open to conversation #anyways thats my logic! i wanted to externalize it and dont mind doing so publicly #i hope this may have helped someone <3 #lush chats #anyways memorize and repeat these all the damn time. thats what i do. good mantras for grounding yourself.#i especially like to do affirmations when i look in the mirror. Spell of anti dissociation

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riotshotguns · 1 year

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Hey so, i think. i think i sprained our wrist probably

#cal’s ramblings #i popped it reslly hard and now it hurts and clicks every time i move it

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lipstickontheglass1985 · 1 year

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sorry this all has probably been said thousands of times by many many people already but this has been the first book ive finished in months. let me have this captain obvious moment on tumblr dot com

#cheer and clap everyone !#im rly sorry its been truly so hard to read for me these days #im genuinely proud of myself for finally completing a new book i havent been made read (as in not part of an assignment)#yes iknow this is a little embarassing. but im reslly trying my best here #thots

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xomoosexo · 1 year

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this is the first time I've tuned into a qsmp stream since april 3rd 2023

#and is it just me or sre the captions reslly hard to read?#they are pretty tho #they just end up confusing me ehen i try to look at them tho

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catholicjinx · 2 years

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im not gonna cry bc i miss gabe im not gonna cry bc i miss gabe im not

#its reslly hard without her okay

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s0urte3th · 28 days

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i dont know whats been wrong with me lately

#feels like i keep getting more and more ill all the sudden and i reslly dont know why #idk whats hapoening #and i dont want to concern the people around me #its hard #how do i keep visiting the vent chat like 8 damn times a day #what the hell js wrong with me

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first-boy-to-cry · 4 months

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I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I wish I could I with I could I wish I could I with I cos I wis

#but i csnt j just cant fo you kno whow hard it is every day ti wish a million things yhat ste impossibe #ehen does it stop. ehen does the eorlds suffering stop. ehen do my friends suffering stop. when when when does it get better #i took sn uber home after a day of reslly being miserable snd he told me he couldnt make it. the esrth is fucked its sll fucked #i never eant to believe in anything again

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trnktgh0st · 5 months

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im worried that maybe i do like them too much

i havent gotten to hang out with them since September and it really sucks. I miss them a lot and I know a little while ago they said they miss me but maybe i miss them too mich and like them more than i should

and now that im not strictly an opener i feel like I'll probably never get to hang out with them again

and i know all of this is probably my bpd being a dick but i cant turn it off right now

#it keeps making me sad but i dont feel like i should be sad #it makes me wanna push myself away and i know thats my bpd but its reslly hard

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