#seriously she deserves to be evil and fucked up and sad and lonely

[ween-kitchens]

i want everyone to give lizzie the scarlet pearl treatment Right Now

[meher-sumedha]

Gwynriel Headcanon : Demons

Writing this at midnight even though I have a maths exam tomorrow. Slight TW of maybe a mental disorder. Also I feel like we don't talk enough about Gwyn's trauma, cause in this I mentioned it, a lot. But fluff too.

Gwyn was mad. Gwyn was made and furious with Azriel. But most of all, she was sad. Not angry, just sad. Sad to be rejected once more. Sad to be just a person who was a 'side girl'. Upset with the fact that she didn't work hard enough to nurture their friendship.

Sad with the fact that she wasn't enough. She spent an hour crying in her room. Her heart felt like it had been broken into a million more pieces after finally being broken. Being rejected by your mate, hell the one person you loved the most, hurt like hell.

Why wasn't I enough? Why wasn't I enough? Could I have done something to prevent him leaving me? Why not me and her? What's the difference between us? And a sad and lonely voice in her answered, because no one can fall in love with you.

You have too much baggage, which no one wants to bear. You came into this world alone, you're going to live alone, and you're going to die alone. You are nothing, you are just an illusion. Your sisters don't love you, only the illusion you put up for them-

And Gwyn ran out of her room and down the 10000 stairs of the house leading to Velaris. Illusion. Illusion. Illusion. The word kept repeating itself in her mind.

Illusion of being the perfect girl. Illusion of being the girl next door. Illusion of being the sweet girl. Illusion. Illusion. ILLUSION! And the next thing she knew, was that the dark side of her mind took over.

It laughed. She heard the laugh in her mind. She knew it was taking over now. She continued down the steps of the house. Stop! Stop! Please, just please, please stop, she begged her thoughts. But it looked like her thoughts weren't hers anymore, they were demons.

Demons she thought that she had buried a long time ago. The voice laughed, and started, and that's when Gwyn knew, she was not in control anymore. She tried to prevent it from taking over her mind, yet she was too weak now. And then the horror began.

You think your sisters love you? They only love the girl who has no demons. They think you're perfect. You've not exactly told them what happened that night in Sangravah, what do you think will happen when you do?

They'll leave you, finally seeing the pathetic girl you are. Everyone will leave. Like your mate has. You know it's ironic that you let your sister die in front of you, that you chose someone else before your own blood sister-

but they were-were gonna kill the children, I- I didn't have a choice-, Gwyn tried speak but the voice was faster. Oh we both know that's not true Gwyneth. And anyways, karma's a bitch.

Azriel left you when you needed him the most, just like you left your sister to die when she needed you the most. You're a traitor, a half breed, a slut who couldn't save herself or her sister, you're nothing, you don't deserve anyone or anything-

And that voice stopped only when Gwyn opened the door and ventured into Velaris. It was raining. Endless tears were running from Gwyn's eyes, that voice had stopped, but it's effect, it was still there, rippling like water when a stone is thrown in it.

Suddenly breathing was tough. Gwyn kept walking, trying to breathe, trying to get a grip but it wasn't working, it wasn't working. Panic attack, Gwyn realized. No no no no no, not now please please no.

It felt like the world was suffocating her, that it was trying to drown her in endless darkness. She didn't even realize when she ran into Azriel's back and kept walking. "I- I'm sorry, " She said and tried to move away but then Azriel turned around.

No no no no, it couldn't be him it couldn't be him. He- he's gonna see her broken and run, he'd run and never come back, and she'd never be able to catch up to him. It again felt like the world was enveloping her, cause it was.

Please, please just stop STOP! She begged her mind, her heart, anyone that would listen. And she could've heard that evil voice in her head feel sad, before it said I'm sorry Gwyneth.

And then someone was shaking her. Azriel, she realized. Their voice started growing louder and louder and "GWYN, GWYN! ARE YOU OKAY? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING AT 4AM IN THE MORNING HERE!" And suddenly it all came back to Gwyn, she was in Velaris, with her mate in front of her.

She then looked up to meet his gaze, gaze full of worry. Once she'd think that he actually cared, not now, not ever.

"I- I'm ok" She said and try to move but Azriel kept his grip firm on her forearm and forced her to meet his gaze. She could see his eyes worried, pitying her, she realized.

Gwyn tried to move again but Azriel held firm. She could hear the rain, could hear the little steps of everyone, could hear his racing heartbeat matching her own.

"Are you okay?" He asked, his voice now firm. Gwyn darkly chuckled, and said, "Oh of course I am. You refuse to give me my memories. My mate rejected the bond, and my demons love to take over without any invitation. Well why does that matter, how are you Azriel? Enjoying your life with Elain?

If yes, then please let me leave for I am too busy having a panic attack to engage in small chitchat." And sarcasm dripped like venom from her voice. She was mad, and she didn't give a damn now.

"Gwyn I- I didn't reject the bond" And Gwyn laughed again, and again said sarcastically, "Oh is that supposed to be a prize? Why thank you shadowsinger for not rejecting the bond. Would you like me to do that for you too?"

And the pain was seen clearly on Azriel's face, she knew he was shocked and upset by her words, good, he deserved it.

He let her go then, but Gwyn didn't leave. She was about to when Azriel said, "I lied" And Gwyn would have laughed this time too, if she had not seen the seriousness in his face. "Lied about what? Wanting to be my friend-", "I lied about me and Elain. She's happily living in the day court with her mate, Lucien."

Oh. Oh. "You knew she had a mate and yet you still tried to persue her?" And Azriel looked away when Gwyn said those words.

She then noticed a nearby bench, and sat on it. He knew what it felt like, to be rejected, she realized. And so she patted the space beside her, inviting him to sit.

He came towards her, but warningly. And when he sat down beside her, she put her elbows on her knees, bended a bit forward and looked at him. "So you know what it's like to be rejected." She said, as a statement not a question.

Azriel mirrored her position and said, "I do know what it's like to be rejected." And Gwyn wanted to smack his face for that. She contemplated saying the next line, but thought, fuck it, he's a liar and he hurt me and said, "So you rejected me knowing how painful it feels to be rejected?"

And Azriel shifted in his seat, and then said, "I didn't reject you because of you Gwyneth, I rejected you because of me. I- I-" And he didn't complete the sentence. But Gwyn understood, so she completed it for me, "You didn't think you deserved me."

And Azriel looked at her with an unrecognizable emotion in his eyed and said, "Yes, I don't think I deserve you." And Gwyn actually chuckled at that. And when she saw the confused expression on Azriel's face, she explained further, "Well you know it's ironic. Even I feel I don't deserve you-", "Oh" Was all Azriel said.

And after a few minutes, she said, "We're both complete dumbasses aren't we?" And Azriel chuckled, "I- I agree, we're both complete idiots."

And after a few moments of silence and simply looking at each other's grinning faces, Azriel said, "I'm sorry for ignoring you and rejecting you." Gwyn chuckled and replied, "It's okay, as long as you don't do it again."

And then suddenly out of the blue, Azriel asked with sudden seriousness, "Are you seeing someone?" And Gwyn smiled and asked, "What if I was?", "Well are you?" Azriel asked urgently and Gwyn laughed. "Okayyy calm down lover boy, I'm not" And she saw a deep pink blush creep up on his cheeks.

And just to play with him a little more, she started playing with his hair, and his blush deepened even more. "I love making you blush" Gwyn said she could've sworn his cheeks became even pinker. And then she removed her hand from his hair and said, "I'll make a deal with you. We don't ignore each other. We date each other and we live happily ever after."

And Azriel laughed at that. Gwyn then put out her hand, "Deal?" and Azriel raised an eyebrow, "Are you really the daring shadowsinger everyone calls you, or are you just a pussy?" Gwyn daringly asked, and Azriel said, "I am no pussy" And shook her hand, "Deal" And suddenly an invisible bind passed through them. They'd struck a bargain, and Gwyn laughed while Azriel cursed beautifully under his breath.

And then Azriel asked, "Wait What about our friendship?", "Oh please, we're barely friends. I totally look at your ass all the time and you look st mine. So I'm pretty sure our "friendship" Is pretty fucked up."

Azriel just smiled at her, his mate, his best friend. A person whom he loved dearly, and would do anything for. They then got up, hand in hand, and then took off for flight. They kept looking at each other, Gwyn because she was too competitive to back down from a challenge, and Azriel because he was mezmerized by her beauty.

And one day, Gwyn thought, she'd actually tell him, that she was not staring at him because of a competition, but because she knew she was genuinely falling in love with him.

Azriel walked Gwyn to her room in the House of Wind, and they'd just stood there, looking at each other. Until Gwyn spoke up and asked, "tomorrow 8pm?" And Azriel smiled and repeated it, confirming their first date, "tomorrow 8pm". He was just about to walk away when Gwyn threw her hands around his neck.

He didn't understand what she was doing until she started to move away, she was hugging him, he realized and immediately put his arms around her waist, his head in her hair, smelling it, he realized, and memorizing the scent.

And before moving away, she kissed him slightly on his cheeks and went in her room and closed her door. Gwyn leant against the inside of her door and sighed happily.

Azriel just stood in front of the door for an hour, replaying the scene over and over again. Replaying their night over and over again. He then walked back to his room, grinning like a little boy in love.

He would never wash that cheek again, for Gwyn had kissed him. Gods, that woman was going to be the death of him.

[sour-n-salty-citrus]

Do you have any hopes for the season finale? I saw in another ask, you described the dynamic between rick and morty this season as "very weak, distant, and downright frankly boring" and I completely agree with you! I hope that, because this is most we'll see rick and morty interacting this season, it'll have at least a few moments of what makes their dynamic so interesting to watch.

(Ok i started airing my grievances with this season, which ended up being... long, so skip this paragraph (starting at / / /) to get to my thoughts on the finale)

Oh gosh I remember that ask (I think-). And yeah, maybe I'm being a bit overly critical. I'll probably look back on this season with retrospect, and a kinder, fonder view. Ik androgynousblackbox (think thats right) made a great point about it being the season FOR rickorty shippers. And sure, I agree on some bits, like Rick acting all pissy and partying the way you would if your ex got with someone new in the planetina ep. Overall though, i think my problem lies in that I was enjoying more individual moments than episodes themselves, especially the middle three. For example- Amortycan Grickfitti. Like, I really liked the idea of the Ship getting on a crazy adventure with Summer and Morty (and Chutback). I like the idea of a Beth-Jerry-Rick adventure. But put together, it's just kinda... meh? You know? I liked the first half of the Thanksgiving special... but it kinda dragged on after that. I get that they want to give other characters (particularly female ones) more attention, which is completely understandable and i encourage it(!) but I can't help but find it underwhelming. Like, Summer in the voltron ep was like- girl how are you STILL vying for Rick's attention! He's the worst! Haven't we done this already? (I will say though I ADORE how far Beth has come, props to her for continuing to seeing through her dad's BS. I was worried the character would relapse into a more typical s1/s2 Beth, and I'm glad she didn't). Some of these plots, funnily enough, seem more fitting of the comics (they actually had a voltron parody already). Fun and entertaining for two or three-something issues, not so much a 22 minute episode. i think most of my complaints come from the dynamic between our titular characters- ok, I know I'm very biased (I mean you can see it), but I came to the show primarily for their relationship. It doesn't even feel drama-fueled, just that they kinda... can't be arsed. I'm torn because on the one hand, they're unhealthily codependent and this separation is probably a good thing, but on the other... it doesn't feel natural? I'm not sure if that's the right word- it's like, season 4 had them practically joint at the hip, but all that's suddenly flung out the window. It just kinda feels like this "i got better things to do" vibe from both of them and its strange. The only time they both got a solo adventure (I'm classifying "solo" as an adventure where they spent a significantly large portion of time together, without the other family members) was in the sperm ep and Thanksgiving ep. And, well, in the Thanksgiving ep Morty felt like a side character in his own show, and the sperm ep... um. Yeah. I don't think it's AS bad as people were saying, but I was cringing the whole time (the second hand embarrassment for Morty was so strong I had to turn off the episode multiple times and return to it. It's just like- godammit MORTY). And I think there's good reason those two seemed to be the most disliked episodes overall. They're the ones RaM spend the most time together and it's... meh. Meh? Meh. I don't mean to say the season overall is bad (it has loads of good points, and its amazing for Smith family as a whole) just that if we're talking specifically about the dynamic between these two? Yeah, I wouldn't recommend a single episode from this season so far to use as an example of their relationship.

/ / /

There's one thing this season has been pretty good at, though. And it's showing us what happens when Rick is alone.

And that brings me to the finale.

"Who is Rick without Morty?"

Well... we already know the answer to that. Pathetic. Sad. Lonely.

This season has been phenomenal in humbling Rick. (And trust me I'm happy for it- every time someone beats the crap outta this shitty old man I'm like YES!!! IT'S WHAT HE DESERVES!). Ep 1 had his "nemesis" clearly besting him, ep 2 had Beth making constant digs (love her) and overall pointing out his extreme callousness and cruelty towards even himself(ves). Ep 3- when Morty shows interest in a girl and ditches him (like seriously it's not like he's moving out, chill) he immediately goes on a bender and develops a deep attachment to the first person he can (wearing yellow, funnily enough). Ep 4, he devotes himself to becoming an "honest man" for his new child, only for it to instantly be taken away from him. Ep 5 highlights how RICK is the asshole for making fun of and taking advantage of someone well-meaning and honest, if "simple", and how literally not cool that is. Ep 6 has his crazy rivalry with the president, and they both get smacked down a couple pegs for that. Ep 7 shows what happens when he allows himself to get carried away, and that he can end up driving everyone else away in the process (lucky they still wanted to save his ass when he needed them). And episode 8? Hooooo boy. Episode. 8. We see a direct parallel in Birdperson with Morty, and the whole "Rick and [insert] 100 years!" Rick has few people he cares about, arguably only one or two that he truly devotes himself to, but when he does, boy does he go HARD. We see younger Rick, optimistic, energetic, friendly and hopeful. And we see all of that crushed in minutes. Rick is desperate for a companion, someone to see the stars with. He needs someone there, someone he can trust and rely on to stay. Someone like Morty. So without Morty, who is Rick?

No one.

And the thing is, Morty doesn't need Rick anymore. Not like Rick needs him. In season 1, Morty was this bright-eyed kid who was new to the cosmos and the multiverse, who needed his grandpa there with him as they explored all these places together. But that's not him anymore. That's not them.

The promo has Morty using the portal gun to go somewhere w/o Rick's permission (i like to think it's boob world lol). It doesn't matter to me as much where he's going, as much as he's doing it alone. He doesn't just not need Rick there, he doesn't want him.

(Also correct me if im wrong but I've missed that sweet portal gun so much. I think the last ep was like- the first time this season we saw it).

Morty's response to Rick? "Replace me!". And wow. Wow. WOW. Morty doesn't give a FUCK! I think Rick thinks that because he's so smart, that he can offer so much, that Morty will come crawling back, and I don't think he will.

Hopes for the finale! Hmm. I mean, I definitely hope "evil" Morty makes a reappearance, haha. I think we all do tbh ;). I want to see some Morty development too, this season has been very Rick-centric (not that there's anything wrong with that!) so I wanna see what's in store for Our Boy. I really hope we get to see the Citadel again, and see the state it's in, but I doubt it. We know something super big is in store, it's just a question of what? Other hopes I have is some Summer + Beth action (please let them team up Im BEGGING) and Jerry too ahaha. I'd love if some other side characters made an appearance as well. Oh- I'm definitely expecting a dramatic cliffhanger at the end of the first half leading to the second half, with the kind of angsty music that leads into the credits (pls that shit is so good (OH WAIT imagine if it was like, for the damaged coda, but like- the chopin version or smth so it could be more subtle maybe bruhhhh)). Ok haha, maybe that's asking too much, the writers made it clear in the story train ep that they weren't gonna do that big dramatic showdown (... unless 👀). Oh, I'd also love some Premium Angst too, like someone getting kidnapped/nearly dying (like ACTUALLY nearly dying). These stakes better be so damn high I could spear a man on them! OH, also I remember androgynousblackbox (is that right? I hope it is) mentioned something along the lines that they could be driving Rick and Morty apart this season in order to have them come back together stronger than ever in an explosive finale, which, I'm strongly hoping for myself.

Thanks if you made it this far! If you have any thoughts on or hopes of your own for the finale please feel free to share! :D

[darkshadow90]

Loki Episode 5 Thoughts

Hey fam. So how about that fifth episode? I loved it. I think it’s one of the best episodes so far. I love that each time I have thoughts on how things could go, it’s not what actually ends up happening. I didn’t expect to like Classic Loki (RIP) as much as I do, but here we are. I love that the writers threw shade at how the writers treated Loki in Infinity War. I always thought he was done dirty and I love that the show acknowledged that Loki is supposed to be an extremely powerful sorcerer and the fact that he chose to use a butter knife instead of his magic against Thanos is stupid, so Classic Loki was able to trick Thanos with his magic by faking his death. I do think it sucks that he was never able to reunite with Thor afterwards and he got pruned by the TVA. Seriously fuck them.

I love that each variant of Loki has his own personality and the fact that our Loki has moments were he’s so done with all of them. It’s hilarious that all the variants betray each other. That has to be the most Loki thing in the whole show so far 😂 Speaking of variants I’m a little disappointed President Loki wasn’t more of a threat. The vibe I was getting from the trailers and when he made his first appearance in the episode was that he was going to be pretty menacing. I thought maybe he took over that place and all the Lokis would have to team up and defeat him. Oh well. At least we now know for sure that there are variants that look exactly like our Loki which is pretty cool.

I’m so happy that Sylvie and Mobius were able to find Loki and Mobius was able to return to the TVA. I really hope he demolishes that place and can go to a timeline where he can happily ride his jet ski. The man deserves it. Now, before you ask me about ships, I really don’t care about the Loki x Mobius or Loki x Sylvie shipping. There’s a reason I didn’t share my thoughts on episode four, holy shit. You all know the absolute shit storm in the fandom that was unleashed. So I’m gonna briefly address it real quick. I may have mentioned it before, but I don’t ship Loki with Mobius or Sylvie. Neither one really makes much sense to me. I love Mobius. He’s a very kind person and I love that he seems to care a lot about Loki. But I don’t really see it as romantic. Mobius is one of the only people besides Frigga who believes and him and supports him. He gave Loki a chance to be a better person and grow. And Loki has grown a lot. I look at Mobius more as a mentor for Loki than a boyfriend. And as for Sylvie, she’s helping Loki discover more about himself and accept himself, which is very important if we want him to have a healthy relationship with anyone. I look at Sylvie more as a sister to Loki than a girlfriend. Besides even if Loki told her he loves her, she’d probably turn him down anyway because she’s already in a committed relationship with a postman. So she can be someone to help Loki learn about self love and healthy relationships. That’s just how I feel about it. I think Loki needs to work out more of his issues before he’s in a relationship with a man or a woman.

I absolutely hate that Classic Loki had to sacrifice himself though. God that made me tear up. Not just because it happened, but because he was happy. He was giving up his life to save his fellow variants and he was laughing with such joy that he found his glorious purpose after years of being lonely and missing his brother. I really have to give props to Richard E. Grant. He absolutely nailed it. I’m saying  it now. Classic Loki is the real King Loki. I wish Thor could’ve known he was alive and see what happened. What a gut punch.

I’m really excited for the finale, but also really nervous. Anything could happen. I will say, I don’t think Kang is the villain. There are plenty of possible hints that could point to him, but I don’t think it’s him. He’s supposed to be in one of the upcoming movies and I don’t think they’d reveal a big bad guy in the final episode of a six episode series. I think the villain will either be someone we weren’t expecting or maybe it’s a Loki variant. Maybe the photo we see of Loki in his Asgardian armor from the first Thor movie is another variant. It looks like he’s the ruler of some kind of place, but who knows. Honestly, I’d be totally down for our Loki going up against an evil variant of himself that looks exactly like him. I think it would so cool. Please, Marvel, give us a Loki that’s cool, but also an evil piece of shit. I want to see a menacing Loki, a Loki who succeeded.

So these are just my thoughts on episode five. I’m sad the show is coming to an end, but hopefully it’s not the end of Loki. It’s really hard for me not to associate Loki with Tom Hiddleston. He’s played Loki for so long, I have a hard time seeing anyone else portray him. Guess we’ll just have to buckle up and see, huh.

[savrenim]

okay so looking at tma fic in general and tma time-travel fic and the various ways they decide to resolve things has given me an idea for a time travel fix-it fic premise that, like, I almost certainly will never write because way too many writing projects but it is Haunting me so I need to blab about it somewhere 

so clearly the way that the ‘time travel’ / ‘knowledge of the future’ bit works is that Jon stumbles across a book that he assumes is a Leitner but then there’s no name in the front cover so he opens it proper and oooh this is weird but it’s too late the compulsion has set hold and and reads it, oops

the experience of reading it is the experience of fuck-it-feels-like living the entire timeline of the show up through the end of episode 160

(actually all the way through When Jon Finally Dies if he ever does but the important bit is he gets that knowledge of the timeline)

(the book is channeling the power of the Ceaseless Watcher, it’s all about knowledge, although very specifically in my brain this book is something that future!Jon and future!Martin constructed and sent back, which still tracks because hey Archivist is an Avatar of the Watcher. it’s just important to me that this is active action as an attempt to prevent the apocalypse and not dumb luck)

so Jonathan Sims now knows his future and because I have strong opinions about memory/ personality/ what makes a person, has arguably just been replaced with his future self.

‘oh fuck’ Jon says 

‘I ended the world so I gotta fix this’

but how does he fix this, because oops Elias is still stupidly powerful and is going to notice if anything is up so he can’t act weird 

but he can’t bring anyone else in on this because he doesn’t want to Curse Them with such Angsty Knowledge 

he is acting a little bit weird, Martin notices that he’s acting weird because he is now being nice to Martin 

‘this cannot be how the universe exists, Jon is always mean to me,’ Martin goes. ‘like I want the universe to exist this way but Something Is Up With Jon and it would be selfish of me not to investigate just because Jon is actually being nice to me’

Martin stumbles across the book and reads it too

‘oh fuck’ Martin says and immediately goes and talks to Jon and Jon has terrible selfish mixed feelings because he missed his Martin but also didn’t want Martin to have to go through everything he went through but also now Jon is not alone in trying to figure out how to alter this timeline without Elias noticing 

(’wait what gave me away,’ Jon goes)

(’you were being nice to me,’ Martin goes)

(’fuck I really do need to be meaner to everyone don’t I,’ Jon goes. ‘it’s just really hard I’ve had Character Growth and I don’t want to be an asshole again’)

(’well suck it up you’re going to blow our cover,’ Martin goes. ‘maybe you should have thought of that before Being An Asshole.’ he immediately feels bad at Jon’s Very Sad Face. ‘you weren’t actually that much of an asshole you were just under stress and prickly and didn’t realize that the people you weren’t appreciating could be people that you would lose and now you do and that’s fine but you gotta still treat them like you’re an Asshole.’)

(’fine,’ Jon goes.)

so now they’re trying to figure out how to stop Elias 

but also their main priority is to stop Tim and Sasha from dying at this point and they kind of figure that Elias doesn’t know the timeline and as long as he’s getting what he wants which is naive Jon stumbling through interactions with Entities and getting marked but not killed, he won’t suspect anything, and he doesn’t know Tim and Sasha are going to die so that at least is something immediate they can fix 

‘I want to murder Jonah,’ goes Martin 

‘you are super valid but also Gertrude tried that and was 1000% more badass than any of us and she ended up dead so maybe we should concentrate on saving our friends like we’ve got a few years to figure out how to do that,’ goes Jon 

‘fine,’ goes Martin 

Tim and Sasha notice that something is up, OBVIOUSLY, because Jon was weird-nice for like a week and a half then is weird-mean like he’s actually trying to be mean and hates it, and has gone from brushing off Martin all the time to pretending to brush Martin off but obviously secretly pining 

he also gives off feral apocalypse energy

Martin meanwhile is pulling this all off perfectly 

he fooled Elias and Peter and everyone else back when he was faking out the Lonely, he can handle this

Elias does notice Jon acting weird and thinks this is a soap opera workplace romance gone wrong but because he hasn’t seen all of it as Jon and Martin have been very careful to be using Martin’s Lonely powers when they want to Actually Talk and make it look like they’ve just casually wandered off when Elias isn’t paying attention to them so Elias doesn’t actually look like anything is up, he calls Jon in for a ‘performance review’ to make sure 

(Martin has Lonely powers and Jon has Archivist powers from the future and they can both feed off of the long terrible fears that they remember from the horrible horrible lives and deaths they and the entire world had in their own timeline, just give me this I need a plot device that can explain why they can Actually Talk to each other while not being able to use the tunnels) 

anyways Elias starts his performance review and pokes about Martin

‘um yeah,’ Jon confesses. ‘I um had a very awkward conversation with Martin because it seemed like he was being nice to me and I asked him about his feelings and he Confessed to me that he Liked me and I was caught by surprise and was thinking about it for a few days because idk nobody ever Likes me but then came to my senses and um but also it’s totally inappropriate because I’m his boss and I told him and we’re trying to forget that the conversation ever happened and just go back to concentrating on the statements’

‘you seem very nervous right now,’ Elias goes 

‘please do not report me to HR,’ Jon goes looking appropriately mortified and trying to remember everything Martin has been coaching him about lying by telling people what they want to hear. ‘I know I should have rejected him immediately it just caught my by surprise that he would actually Say It To My Face people have been saying a lot of honest things to my face it’s very weird and I know that I shouldn’t have run away from that conversation and acted Weird for a few days but I did come to the Correct Conclusion I am very devoted to this job and don’t want to do anything but this job and didn’t do anything with Martin we just had a conversation and I’m really trying to do a good job here and please don’t fire me’

‘nope you’re good that’s fine concentrate on your job,’ Elias says, quite satisfied that his Archivist is developing truth powers very quickly 

Tim and Sasha are not so easy to fool

Tim and Sasha find the book

Sasha, who worked in Artifact Storage, is Actually Smart and goes ‘dON’T READ THAT’

Tim reads it anyways

‘oh fuck I die stopping the apocalypse’ 

Tim doesn’t seem to die from reading the book and doesn’t seem to change except for being given this foreknowledge but Sasha is Smart so she doesn’t read it. Tim does fill her in on her future.

‘oh fuck I die when a weird worm-lady attacks? and don’t even get to help with the apocalypse? that’s bullshit.’

they start their own little huddle conspiracy 

which Martin immediately finds

‘nO YOU GUYS YOU GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL TALKING ABOUT THIS STUFF’ Martin explains the future and methods of communicating without Elias watching, which is mostly him subtly hiding them in the Lonely

(’why do you and Jon have secret special powers that’s not fair,’ Tim goes)

(’because we went through literal hell??? and also didn’t die??? idk maybe if we keep you from dying you will also get special powers but seriously Tim they are very evil these are Evil Powers we don’t want them they just kind of happened to us in the process of trying to survive,’ Martin goes.)

‘so what is the plan,’ Sasha goes. ‘like besides us not dying how are you actually going to deal with the real apocalypse’ 

‘well we want to kill Elias but we haven’t figured that out yet because he’s watching our every move perfectly and if we’re not acting like he think we should act he’ll dispose of us and start again with a new Archivist,’ Martin goes. 

‘okay but like in your story there is a part where Peter Lukas personally escorts you to the panopticon and tells you to kill Elias/Jonas and you go no and Elias wins the bet,’ Sasha says. ‘what if you just murder him then, he says he wasn’t going to stop you and if he tries you’ve got another Avatar backing you up’

‘huh we didn’t think of that,’ Martin goes. ‘why didn’t we think of that. I swear there is a Very Good Reason we didn’t think of that. um. uh. there’s also the problem anyone working in the Archives will die if he dies unless they are powerfully enough connected the Ceaseless Watcher which is like. MAYBE Jon.’

‘W H Y did you not lead with that,’ Tim goes

‘yeah I really agree you should have led with that,’ Sasha goes 

‘this has been a very stressful time and we have been doing our best and right also everyone can quit they just need to blind themselves to do it,’ Martin goes. ‘or I guess pledge allegiance to a different evil god but that is really unpleasant you have to sacrifice fear to it or you starve’

(’okay why did you not lead with--’ Sasha goes. ‘I’m starting to really see some benefits for being an evil fear-monster,’ Tim goes. ‘Like we could be ethical evil fear-monsters. like ethical vampires. only scare really shitty terrible people who deserve it and, like, scare but not kill.’)

(Martin looks like he is about to cry.)

(’okay maybe not p l e a s e stop making that face I cannot stand your puppy-dog-but-also-on-the-verge-of-tears eyes,’ Tim goes)

(Sasha stops death-glaring at him as Martin looks slightly less like he is about to cry.)

‘so everyone loves rituals what if we, like. construct a secret ritual. that you’re saying Jon is dumb powerful chosen one Avatar right so let’s just, like. switch over being the ‘Heart of the Institute’ from Jonah to him. big proper paperwork ritual passing on of ownership claiming his position as Jonah’s heir or something,’ Sasha says 

‘that seems like just the sort of bullshit that might actually work. Sasha you are the smartest person in the world and I’m pretty sure the apocalypse wouldn’t have happened if you had survived the Prentiss attack,’ Martin says 

‘actually honestly Gertrude wanted you as her replacement that sounds very true and is probably why Elias didn’t choose you,’ Jon says. he has entered the room at this point as he was curious where literally all of his assistants had wandered off to. he does actually have work to get done the Archives are A Mess and Martin has been gone at this point for far longer than it takes to Make Tea so he figured something might be up and if there’s one thing he’s good at, it’s finding Martin in the Lonely

‘real rude to not let us in on this,’ Tim goes. ‘also are you SURE this is not a weird Leitner fucking with you’

‘we’ve obsessively kept track of the things that are supposed to be happening and they’re all happening on the right days and stuff,’ Jon goes. 

‘okay so let’s stop like two apocalypses and not die,’ Sasha goes. 

the rest of the fic is everyone subtly not-so-subtly trying to recreate the exact timeline while also making events Less Terrible while also trying to seem Not Too Competent 

because this is a fic there’s gotta be adorable ridiculous fluff so everyone decides that the Cover Story in case Elias thinks people are acting weird has got to be Jon and Martin starting to secretly date 

(Jon and Martin are in absolute h e l l over this and it is a hilarious comedy of errors because they didn’t tell everyone else that they got together they both decided that was too private so everyone else is aggressively trying to actually matchmake them through this all and they’re now too embarrassed to drop the act because Sasha has been giving them hell every time they have accidentally withheld information from her so it’s like. three layers of fake dating.) 

(Elias decides all this drama is simultaneously the funniest thing he’s ever seen but also kind of a Bad Distraction and is subtly trying to break them up but doesn’t want to mess with things too much because he is Very Impressed with all the ‘progress’ Jon is making)

(Jon who is a complete badass and is mostly desperately attempting not to reveal all his powers)

(there are also a lot of different things that can go various ways. like do Basira and Melaine still join the Institute? I think they all read the book and make Informed Decisions about their futures but I have not decided yet what those Informed Decisions are. Daisy learns how to control Hunt powers without it overwhelming her, because Tim is totally right about it being possible to be an ethical fear-monster although as Jon and Martin can draw from the fear of the apocalypse-world they don’t really need it so it’s just a question of whether or not I want to give everyone else cool powers. we’re in a fix-it fic everyone gets cool powers without terrible consequences Because I Say So)

(Elias doesn’t give them trouble over this because he is delighted that he’s kind of collecting avatars of other Entities because it makes it really easy to make sure Jon has marks and he thinks this is his genius plan going even better than expected) 

we get to episode 158 

Martin really wants to dramatically kill Elias i m m e d i a t e l y but is waiting for a walkie-talkie signal that the ritual above is going as planned so he stumbles through all of the dialogue the same 

“Then do it. Kill him and help me save the world.” Peter goes 

Martin pauses in silence because oops there’s really not that much more Avoiding he can do

“No” Martin says.

Elias starts to laugh. 

The Signal Comes Through

‘fUCK YEAH,’ Martin says. ‘F I N A L L Y. I am murdering him and I’m saving the world but this isn’t for you, asshole, and Imma deal with you next.’

stabbity stab 

it’s very satisfying 

‘okay but what do you mean it’s not for me, you’re supposed to sit in the chair and help me look for the Extinction?’ Peter goes 

‘nah fuck that I’m from the future and I do what I want that was me stopping the Jonah Magnus’s final ritual,’ Martin goes. ‘you really think I fell for that Extinction bullshit you aren’t nearly as good a liar as you think you are, you stay right there and we’ll decide what to do with you when everyone gets down here it’s Jon’s Institute now and we’re both very pissed at you’

Peter tries to escape into the Lonely 

it Does Not Work as Martin has More Angst than Peter to draw from so is Way More Powerful 

everyone gets down there 

ritual worked nobody died!

‘okay but why DON’T we try to look for the Extinction.’ Sasha says. ‘that seems to be a pretty important thing to stop.’

at this point everyone agrees Sasha has the best ideas 

have I mentioned that every single female character is very gay for Sasha

quite frankly maybe Tim too

Sasha is a Badass and this fic portrays her as Gertrude Robinson’s Rightful Heir 

she Deserves Good Things

and she is Gonna Stop All Future Apocalypses so actually going through with Peter’s plan is maybe not a terrible idea 

they do the thing but in a careful way that traps no one in the chair and get the info

the Extinction is still very stoppable 

there are lots of ways but honestly the best way to do it is to manipulate humanity into actually Being Better and not being on the brink of extinction 

‘this is my Institute now let’s use it to fucking save the world,’ Jon goes 

and they use all their knowledge and power to go from being a massive conspiracy about causing the apocalypse to being a massive conspiracy about bringing kindness and preventing wars and stopping the rise of fascism in politics and poking humanity from behind the scenes into something Better that can Rise Above its fears 

and everyone lives happily ever after 

but yeah this entire fic is around the premise of ‘what if the actual fix-it isn’t Change Everything To Stop Bad Things From Happening it’s Keep Everything The Same Until We’re Handed The Opportunity To Stab Jonah On A Silver Platter And Then Take It’ which I have yet to see a fic do and oops that kind of grew away from me there but anyways that’s it that’s the fic

[veilder]

Castlevania Season 3 was insane and in this essay I will--

Okay, I’ve never made a post on this website before, but here I go cuz Castlevania Season 3 has me just that fucked up. (Everything here is my own opinion, fyi.)

***SPOILER WARNING FROM HERE ON!!***

Okay, so yeah, that was a wild fuckin ride, wasn’t it? First off, while I did very much enjoy this season and I still love the show as a whole very much, this whole thing felt a lot like a setup season. It was a lot of maneuvering the characters into certain places and roles and it was a lot more focused on their emotional development (or regression, yikes!) than it was on a central plot like the first two seasons were. In those, all three mains had a singular goal: destroy Dracula. But now? Well, we’re left in the aftermath. I feel like this season was certainly necessary for where the show seems to want to take things, but yeah, I think I didn’t love it quite as much as the first two. And I think a lot of that stems from just how fractured the main party is. And I’m not just talking about Trevor, Sypha and Alucard, either, even though I consider them the main focal point. Because, building up off of season 2, I would absolutely consider both Hector and Isaac as main characters in this show as well. But after the final confrontation of last season, all of them (save Trevor and Sypha) are scattered. And while they certainly still seem to impact each other somewhat, they never actually... y’know, meet in this season. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely adore Trevor and Sypha’s dynamic and I think they are #RelationshipGoals, but you can certainly feel the absence of Alucard in their scenes. Hell, Trevor remarks on that himself at one point, about how they just... left him behind. About how lonely he must be, shut up all alone in his father’s mausoleum, taking on the duty to protect it because he’s the only one who can... There was a scene in one of the middle episodes (forgive me, I did not mark down which) where Trevor encounters a fox in the forest. And there is a prominent cut to the creature’s golden eyes. And Trevor smiles at it. It just makes me think that he, at least, has been thinking about their wayward companion in his downtime. I’m glad that the showrunners took the time to make sure we all could see that consideration, even in small moments like this, because it really didn’t sit well with me, how they left him all alone at the end of season 2. It’s nice to know that at least Trevor is thinking about him and it makes me hope that we will actually get these three back together in season 4. And along those lines, I think it was very interesting, how ultimately, Isaac’s whole goal in this season was to reach Hector. Literally, that’s all he is doing for all 10 episodes, just travelling across continents to find the man who betrayed Dracula... and to make him pay. But damn if I didn’t absolutely love all of his scenes, too? Isaac has really risen to prominence for me with this season. I could never quite get behind him in season 2, but here? I daresay that he might’ve been my favorite part of this season. All of his interactions, with the old collector man, with the Captain, with the FlysEyes, with Miranda, they were all so varied and philosophical. I really loved how the show delved into such heavy topics with him and fleshed out his personality a bit more. Special shoutout to the Captain who was, imo, absolutely amazing. I honestly hope they meet again, I loved their dynamic so much. But even so, he’s always still focused on Hector. Always moving towards Hector. I like that their story continues to play out from where it left off in season 2, with their fates interwoven like this. I do hope that we’ll get to see a confrontation between them eventually, but God, it would be very unsatisfying right now with Hector’s current situation. Which... Jesus, he is in dire straights, isn’t he? I honestly felt so bad for him throughout this entire season. He has been abused and manipulated so horribly through this whole thing. And yes, maybe he came across as a little naive and, well... dumb for trusting Lenore, but... Honestly, with the way he’s been suffering? Clinging onto those few scraps of kindness she throws him is really his only salvation. He has nothing, literally nothing, not even clothes, when the season begins. He’s been travelling with Carmilla for a month and then is immediately thrown in prison when they finally reach Styria. And God, despite all of that, he still has the gumption to try and attack Lenore at first. To try and trick her into a vulnerable position when vulnerability is his new MO. I was proud of him for trying, for keeping that spirit alive within himself despite his horrible circumstances. And watching as Lenore manipulated him further and further was just... so horrible. Honestly, she probably didn’t even need the slave ring at the end. Hector was so desperate for any sort of love and validation that he almost certainly would’ve happily crafted their legions just to make her happy. He has such a soft soul and it’s always being taken advantage of. His story arc was so fuckin sad and I really need better things for him going forward. And speaking of characters who deserve better... Omg, what did they do to Alucard? Seriously, his entire story arc this season was just... highlighting how devastatingly lonely he is and how he’s not coping very well at all with the aftermath of season 2. And I understand, everything that went down last season and everything he was forced to do, it broke him so completely. He hasn’t really... moved on at all from where we last saw him, weeping his heart out for the family he lost. So what does this show do for him? It lets us think he might be able to find a new family, to find happiness... and then it yanks that away from us in the absolutely worst way. Sumi and Taka had a lot of promise. Their backstories, as slaves for an ancient, powerful Japanese vampire, that was very cool. Their quest to find a mentor, someone to teach them the skills they needed to help liberate their home from the hold these vampires have over them, that is a noble goal. And Alucard sees that in them. He sees their potential to do good. I think he honestly sees a little bit of Trevor and Sypha in them, in the way they want to help, to fight against evil, to better the world. And I think they also... give him someone to cling to. Just someone at all to speak with, to share his day with, to be around? He is so lonely, so hurt, grieving and empty and wishing he wasn’t. They offered him a small glimpse of what happiness could look like. And he took it with both hands. He wanted them there and he wanted to help them and God, even when they have him at their mercy and are trying to kill him, he never condemns them. He still sees the good inside of them. And I wonder if he ignores the brokenness inside of them, too, because it’s a mirror to his own? Either way, the whole story arc was absolutely heartbreaking and it kills me to see Alucard so absolutely crushed by the events of his life. He does not deserve this. And I... really need Trevor and Sypha to come back for him. I think he really needs them, now more than ever. The characters are really who I wanted to talk about, y’know? Yes, I love all the plot setup happening; the Cult of Dracula was unsettling and terrifying; Saint Germain and the Infinite Corridor were honestly spectacular? How did they pull that off so convincingly?; Carmilla, Striga, Morana and Lenore were strangely entertaining for me, even though I very much despised the way Carmilla and Lenore in particular treated Hector. They were a weirdly amusing, kickass lady squad and I wouldn’t mind seeing more of them. (Which I most certainly will); Isaac and his growing horde coming for Styria is bound to be amazing!; I’m assuming that Trevor and Sypha will continue learning more about the Cult as the next season goes and will (hopefully!) get Alucard back with them at some point! (God, he needs his friends so much. >_<) I just... There was so much packed into this season and I overall enjoyed it very much. Special shoutout to the absolutely amazing artwork because holy shit! Some of those still were breathtaking! And while some of the fight scenes I thought were a tad... worse than in previous seasons, some of them were real standouts, too! So yeah, I had a lot of thoughts about this! And I really needed to share them! Looking forward to what comes next! ~Veil P.S. Y’all don’t even know how desperately I want “The Pirate of the Roads” to be Grant Danasty. XD (Will he ever show up? Fingers crossed!)

[lilyhoshikawa]

Henlo I saw you mention something about uuhhhhh passionate Aoi Zaizen rant, could I get one of those please

I’m so upset. I’m so angry. I have so many emotions. SO many times they did this girl dirty, so many times!!

This was widely talked abt right after it happened but I just got done rewatching the blue angel vs specter duel and I am filled with a renewed anger the likes of which has never been known. The absolute atrocity of that duel’s ending

Just to clarify, everything in that duel supported Aoi winning. It was the natural progression of her character arc, from her initial weakness allowing specter to brainwash her into Hanoi’s weapon, she eventually grew out of her days of simply being an idol to seek the attention her brother didn’t give her, something the Vrains writers consistently frame as inherently selfish and not a completely natural reaction for a teenager in her situation to have. But regardless, she’s a “selfish” idol seeking attention, she ends up being used by bad people, she gets saved by Playmaker, she learns more about him, fights by his side and decides she wants to start fighting for a cause. She defeats Vaira in the ultimate moment symbolizing her character growth. She’s no longer just an idol being fawned over by her fans, she is a hero who protects Link Vrains

Cue specter duel. The start is fine. This shitty, arrogant dickwad who already hurt Aoi goads her into a duel. He’s a jackass to her all the way through. But as the duel progresses, she learns about him- like her, he was lonely, struggling with no friends and no one to give him warmth and attention. Like her, he simply needs to be set on the right path. Suddenly her anger toward him shifts to empathy as she declares she is fighting to save him, which he mocks of course. She ends up in the typical Yugioh hero predicament of “how do I get out of this”, and pulls out a new ace monster that FINALLY causes specter to act SURPRISED for once in the duel, for once not somehow just predicting all her strategies. She turns the duel around and strikes the killing blow.

Only… that doesn’t happen. Specter pulls some bullshit, turns it around, and wins, making sure to burn up the book that symbolized Aoi’s decision to fight in the first place. And to rub it in even MORE, he calls her “the pathetic girl who couldn’t become a blue angel”, declaring he will “take everything from her”.

And then, suddenly… the context of all of that changes. The mockery specter has been giving her the whole duel goes from becoming the typical villainous arrogance to a much more cruel situation, the person already determined by the writers to win the duel taking all the time he has to rub in how superior he is to the girl who actually bothered to grow as a person. It’s as if specter is some self-insert of a misogynistic male anime fan who knows no girl can stand against him no matter how much better written she is, because he has the power of writers’ bias on his side.

Aoi is slammed into a building and lands face-first on the ground completely decimated. The next couple shots feature specter standing over her grinning and smirking as he makes comments about how pathetic and weak she is. She is clearly unconscious and can’t hear them. This is for the audience.

So alright, I hear you saying, maybe that’s just meant as a “kick the dog” moment; show us how evil specter really is and why it’s the wrong idea to try to sympathize with him. Aoi tried that and she couldn’t do it, so it means some people are beyond saving. Now I’d still have a problem with throwing Aoi under the bus to make that point, but whatever, narratively it’s sound reasoning. Only what’s the next thing that happens? He duels Playmaker, and we learn he’s a Lost Incident victim. We hear his backstory and are shown him as a sad child, motivating us to sympathize with him.

It doesn’t stop there. Specter doesn’t mock Playmaker like he did Blue Angel, naturally, because Playmaker is cool and respectable. So what does he do instead? Mocks Aoi some more! He draws constant reference to how Aoi fell for his various strategies. Now he does later start mocking Playmaker, and I get that, but that leads into another point: it’s not because Playmaker is “weak” but because he’s “too heroic”. Yusaku is able to quickly disarm Specter’s deck and is ready to finish him off before he pulls out his hostage, Akira, who ALSO gets to die a reasonable death. Everyone who dies in the Tower of Hanoi arc, with the exception of Aoi and perhaps Ema (another girl, funny that) are treated with respect as they die. Yusaku easily beats the person who gave Aoi so much trouble.

Revolver, right before his duel with Go, notes Aoi’s fate, saying “my subordinate, Specter, defeated her”. His subordinate. Not even the main bad guy. She doesn’t get the level of respect of Go, the guy who would go on to become an antagonist while she remained (on paper anyway) one of the main trio.

Nobody watched Aoi’s duel with Specter, no one commented on her courage or bravery or how hard she fought or cried when she was defeated, not like with Go. She didn’t get to reveal some big strategy of a major villain and disappear giving Playmaker one last cool remark. No, she got completely outsmarted and knocked unconscious on her face so that a man could stand over her body and insult her.

In season 2 it is obvious no one knows what to do with Aoi. She’s thrown in 800 directions to serve whatever role she’s needed for, most often losing for some reason or another. She keeps having these moments of determination and character growth where she makes a “big decision” and resolves to fight, but it never really works out for her, no matter the cause. Whenever they need someone to lose, she’s there. The Blue Angel avatar, based on her childhood hero, which represents her desire to bring people together? Gone, tossed away, replaced by Ghost Girl’s Apprentice. Now that that’s done though, now we need her for something else, you see, we’ve got a Girl Ignis and we don’t wanna write another girl, we already overdid ourselves writing the two we do have. Let’s just use Aoi instead and shoehorn in a relationship with a barely existent character who just happens to be part of her backstory as her oldest and most important friend, a thing that may contradict her entire character’s driving motivation from season one, but hey, fuck season one.

In season 3 she is glued to her brother’s side. She does less than nothing. She is fodder to be defeated by Ai and nothing more. They don’t want to bother giving her a duel of her own (if they did I’m sure she’d lose to Roboppi and not even Ai himself) so she duels with Akira. Akira sucks shit and his deck is trash so Aoi, with her Marincess deck, carries him. Akira is praised for being strong and cool. Aoi loses to Ai due to an incredibly situational counter. I’m so tired.

Every character Ai kills is treated with some respect by him. He mourns the loss of Go, who murdered one of the Ignis he’s fighting to avenge. Meanwhile? He repeatedly mocks Aoi during the duel. She starts out fighting Ai with all her might, but eventually comes to realize his sadness and loneliness after losing his Ignis friends. She tries to empathize with him, telling him she can relate, because she too lost Aqua. Ai gets angry that she thinks her loneliness is the same as his. When she announces her desire to protect her brother, Ai begins repeatedly mocking her using this. He ignores Akira entirely, zeroing in completely on Aoi and continuously mocking her about her chances of winning, acting superior, knowing he’ll be able to take her bother from her, take everything from her, and leave her all alone.

Say… does this sound familiar to anyone?

Ai erases Akira but “spares” Aoi, standing over her as she lays collapsed and soaked on the floor, mocking her by telling her how she now has to live with herself after failing to save her brother.

No, seriously… is this familiar to anyone?

It’s almost as though… aggressive, patronizing misogyny is built intrinsically into Aoi’s character, and she’s used as a vessel for toxic and abusive ideas about men who are “hurting” and how “soft, immature” women who profess to understand them or have empathy for them are naive idiots deserving to be beaten and mocked

Misogyny isn’t just a part of Aoi’s arc, it is built into the very philosophy that drives her treatment in the show. And it makes me really sick trying to engage with Vrains after having this realization

[therelativist]

Beaujester Is The Best and Here’s Why (an essay by Alpha Ray)

North vs South – Opposites Attract

Beau and Jester aren’t a likely couple. Beau is a standoffish butch who favours melee combat and knows little to nothing of magic. Her weapon of choice is simple – fists, elbows, knees. Quick and brutal. She’s a scrapper who hides her more academic interests behind the veneer of a jock. Meanwhile, Jester is a humorous trickster magic wielder who avoids melee as much as possible. A ‘leetle blue teefling’ who attracts people and befriends them easily. She’s loveable and loving in turn. As happy go lucky as they come. Hey

It feels like an unfortunate trope – the happy, well adjusted one fixes the gruff, standoffish traumatised one. But the second you look beyond the fronts the two characters put forward things seem very different.

Neither of them like to let people in and both utilise a front to prevent that. Jester focuses on others and never lets anyone too close. She takes any chance to deflect the conversation away from her and towards others. Beau takes the opposite approach, which is trying not to let people get close. Both require people to turn a more insightful eye towards them to get behind their barriers. Thankfully, both have high wisdom. Jester is slowly learning that she can express negative emotions without her friends abandoning her for not being the perfect, happy go lucky seed of joy and chaos she puts across whilst Beau is learning that she can be creative and can have friends and love those friends without opening herself up for abandonment. And they’re both teaching each other more healthy coping mechanisms including finding the balance between standing up for yourself and finding your own space, and being welcoming and friendly and creative and investing time in other people.

They bring out the best in each other. They’re different but they look out for each other and complement each other. Beau takes the melee and Jester takes the range when they’re trying to deal with an enemy with the monk doing her best to tank. And maybe they’re both very good liars, but they suck at lying to each other.

Compulsive Liars – How They Support Each Other

Marisha has described Beau as a liar and Jester certainly feels that she herself is one. Again, on surface glance it sounds like a recipe for disaster. And yet the conversation where this all came from came about as a result of them failing badly at lying to each other and responding by being honest. That’s what they bring out in each other.

Jester needs someone who will take her seriously and not dismiss her and her needs. She presents a cheerful demeanour which hides her real thoughts, hurts and feelings. This is something that probably came even from her childhood and feeling pressured to indicate to her mother that she was happy with her living situation as so not to stress her out.  Anyone who can’t read beyond that front runs the risk of encouraging Jester to further disinvest in herself and to focus on the other person. Thankfully, Beau’s demonstrated a determined ability to reach out to Jester and to take her seriously. She’s been the most successful at getting her to admit negative emotions in a way that displays clearly her understanding of Jester. But she doesn’t just encourage the acknowledgement of negative emotions, she encourages Jester to laugh and is willing to go along with her pranks and tricks. Beau takes every aspect of Jester seriously from the ones which are more fun and cheerful to the ones which aren’t necessarily pretty or nice or easy to deal with. Jester needs someone to talk to who will reassure her when needed but also still support her creative outlets and Beau has proven herself willing and able to do that. When travelling to Xhorhas, Beau played along with dramatically reading the smut book and with the jokey worship of Jester to convince the kobolds that she was a god instead of shutting Jester down or dismissing her. And Beau found it fun and laughed right along with her because of their relatively similar senses of humour. That didn’t start later, Beau and Jester have been pulling pranks and having fun since the first time they shared a room and decided to inform the guards that they were naked for no real clear reason beyond that they could and Jester wanted to.

As someone who struggles with her sense of self worth, anyone who isn’t willing or able to wholly appreciate and support Beau is ultimately going to be toxic for her. Thankfully, Jester has been championing the Beauregard Appreciation Squad from the start She’s built up Beau when other members of the party have torn her down, encouraged her to try things and supported her in her success. Jester respects Beau as an equal, and Beau likewise respects Jester. She values her opinion to the point where when Beau’s challenging Dairon about letting people in, Jester is the example she uses and who she talks about the most. Beau’s also learned that the way to get Jester to open up is to open up herself and to allow herself to be vulnerable, thus exposing things about herself that she’s ashamed of or would normally keep to herself. This degree of communication about real feelings and real hurt is unique to Jester.The fact that Jester let Beau expose herself and didn’t mock her but responded in kind is the best way to teach Beau that her friends do care about her and won’t let her down. Jester had the benefit of a loving mother but for Beau, who had parental issues, being able to admit that she loved someone must have been huge. Oh, and also they love each other.

Beau and Jester bring out the best in each other. They both tend to lock their feelings up and put up a front but they’re also both uniquely good at getting the other to admit their feelings and hurt and things that they’re ashamed of. They encourage more a healthy expression of emotions,better coping mechanisms in each other and are both pushing each other to make better life choices. Beau is receiving the support she wants but has never had, someone who believes in her and her abilities. Jester has found someone who doesn’t just love the happy parts of her but loves the angry and the sad and the hurt as well and encourages her to show her true feelings.

Jigsaw Puzzle - Fitting The Pieces Together

Beau and Jester have a surprising amount in common, not least their uncharacteristic willingness to open up to each other. Their senses of humour align, their love of the group and investment in their friends, their love of animals. Hell, they even adopted a dog together.

While they might favour different styles, both are ultimately scrappy fighters and enjoy fighting in arenas and bars, both with and against each other. They both enjoy friendly competition and neither are sore losers, Jester willingly accepting defeat in the Evening Nip and promising that she’d come out victorious next time. Plot twist, she didn’t but neither did Beau and they mostly fought alongside each other not against each other. They’re always willing to throw down and have each others backs.

They also share a love for animals and actually adopted a dog together (though Marisha seems to have forgotten this) to the point where Liam actually coined the ship name Lavorregard. Beau’s attempted care for Professor Thaddeus as well as owl Frumpkin shows an empathetic and emotional side she normally tries to conceal. She and Jester both have this protective instinct when it comes to animals and both crave their judgement free affection. They both were lonely growing up without many friends and as such it makes sense that they’d turn to animals to find that companionship. However, when separated from their animals they both very notably turned to each other and were surprised but relieved to find that same support and same concern shown from other people. They both have a lot of care to give and Beau, when Jester exposed herself, didn’t mock her and instead chose to support her and to show the depth of her care for her.

Most importantly, they have fun together. They find pleasure in each others company. They have similar morals (both prioritise their close circle over society at large but generally try to avoid doing too much harm and prioritize individuals over governments/countries). While Beau feels increasingly large scale social obligation due to being an Expositor-in-training, she has proved herself willing to break individual laws and not tied to any one country. They have both expressed willingness to work with the drow and a desire to understand them without simply dismissing them as evil and display an unwillingness to believe propaganda. However, both were down to fuck up a guy who was threatening Jester’s mother and ultimately put their close circle of friends and those they care about first.

They both find smut entertaining and both enjoy reading, though Beau is reluctant to admit her nerdier interests. They both enjoy pranking others and both have a flair for the dramatic. They also both have more vulnerable sides and both need someone to open up to who will understand and support them. They derive pleasure from each others company as well as being able to have emotionally heavier but vital conversations. They each allow the other to be honest about how they truly feel. They’re both young women who are encountering a milestone in their life and learning about the world. They also both love each other

Team Blue - The End

To conclude, they’re gay and in love and would have a surprisingly strong and healthy relationship based on mutual love and support as well as genuine enjoyment of spending time together. They never mock each other and always try to build the other up. They tend towards healthier coping mechanisms and more honest airings of their feelings when they’re together and bring joy to each other’s lives. They deserve each other in the best possible way.

Thank you for reading and have a nice evening.

[barnesangels]

tag yourself: the secret history edition

richard: always kinda not knowing what's going on, thinks he's being discreet about his crush but everyone in new england knows who he likes, 'fuck family', was gonna be a doctor but decided to fuck it and started studying ancient greek, almost died once, wants to be left alone, bad coffee, likes walking, always romanticizes everything, poor life choices, just waltzes through life not knowing what's going on most of the time, genuinely surprised when people like him, all he does is eat and sleep tbh, doesn't understand himself, likes mean girls

henry: mysterious and kinda scary, speaks only in metaphors and ancient dead languages, teacher's pet, involved in shady shit, looks at the moon and recites poems from the t'ang dynasty, evil mastermind, likes plants more than humans, weird revelations, easily irritated, fancy outer shell but honestly just tragic trash on the inside, binge watches gossip girl but doesn't admit it, reads boring books, eats poisonous mushrooms for fun, no one knows what he does most of the time or how he does it, good at making cocktails, extremely high levels of self-destruct, manipulative,

camilla: ethereal, always wears white, kinda annoying kinda 'wanna fuck her', prone to injuries, too good for everyone, has more layers than thousand onions, likes pretty flowers and tea, is a mess, is stronger than u, likes to watch sunsets, just wants peace and love ffs, pretty af, no one really knows what she's up to, traumatized, probably reads austen and dreams about true love, fell in love with the asshole, suffers in silence, quite simply an enigma

charles: everyone likes him but he's secretly a little bitch, has a drinking problem, has friends in fbi, probably fucks his sister, has a secret dark side, fucks everyone when drunk, likes baths, a walking disaster, doesn't like being told what to do, always complains about life, tells everyone he reads tolstoy and dickens but actually reads trash novels he bought at the kiosk near his house, hot and knows it, steals cars when stressed, smokes weed sometimes, whiny, mood swings is his middle name, dramatic, secret talent: shooting, the worst mess™, a SINnamon roll

francis: gay and ginger™, sad, smokes too much, classy, kinda lonely, is done with everyone's shit and just wants a fucking break, a hoe, traumatic childhood, gives presents to his friends just because he can, always stressed, eats cherries even if he hates them, a good listener, is actually too sweet and good for everyone, protect him, appears cold and aloof but is just actually afraid of everyone judging him, tries his best and fails, deserved fucking better than what he got, a cinnamon roll

bunny: the annoying friend who doesn't know when to stop, dead inside, probably lives in the woods, clueless, bad grades (seriously how is he even in school anymore) beer™, can't keep secrets, broke af, laughs at the wrong time and wrong things, everyone wants to kill him, worst neighbor, eats too much, lazy, everyone knows him, unexpected breakdowns, can and will roast you, knows your weaknesses, doesn't really get life, actually pretty dangerous, copies everyone else's homework, watches the most popular girls in high school, has the weirdest taste in music

julian: pretentious, actually a god, exciting life, has famous friends, everyone admires him, older than he looks, v secretive, probably best friends with dante, immortal, doesn't believe in reality, fake bitch, loves tea and dinner parties, actually a creepy hermit, ~ancient~, loves to tell stories, can't tell imaginary from reality, finds trivial things fascinating, male version of mona lisa, runs from his problems faster than usain bolt, superficial, jay gatsby 2.0

[kopfkinoes]

Poldark is seriously such a great series. With every new season, every new episode it seemed to me to only be getting better and better. I really hope they give fans an actual finale and don’t call it off at 6 episodes, now, in the last season. There’s another series that ended with a 6 episode season and we all know how that went down. 

That being said, I do have one complaint so far about the 5th season, which I find otherwise flawless. What the fuck was up with Demelza being ok with that nutjob Tess, whom Demelza employed after Tess set her house on fire, no less, telling her “Not all of us are fortunate enough to sell our bodies to our master in exchange for a wedding ring?”. Demelza smiling at that and going “She’s right. I knew what I was doing when I went into Ross’ room that night. He’s an honourable man and I took advantage of that.”....that shit was whack. Like, why suddenly this “Demelza trapped Ross into a marriage” plot (which, when Demelza herself says it, in front of her friends, no less, becomes 100% factual) when so far we’ve been told, by Demelza herself that she’s loved Ross since the beginning and that’s why she slept with him? Like, she told Verity that in season 1, right after they were married. She told Drake about that in season 4 (I think) when he was supposed to marry Rosina. Why suddenly this “Demelza plotted this” bullshit that really makes Demelza look like an opportunist who was only after becoming a lady? 

I am honestly quite surprised to see people pity George. Maybe it’s because I’ve binge watched the series in 2 months or so and I haven’t experienced the breaks between seasons that people who have been watching since 2015 have (which allow them to forget things a bit, maybe) but I felt no pity whatsoever. It is unfortunate that his wife died and I really liked Elizabeth. But how much suffering did George cause and he didn’t cause it unwillingly. He had no remorse about anything. His love for Elizabeth was his only redeemable quality and even that doesn’t account for much because it is due to him that Elizabeth died. I know people seem to blame Ross for it and I understand his sleeping with Elizabeth definitely played a part but, if you want to split hairs, then Geoffrey Charles is equally guilty because of his “Valentine is the spitting image of uncle Ross.” because George had let it go before that.

I don’t know whether Geoffrey Charles does it do spite George or simply because he’s unaware, but it is that which triggers the reminder of Aunt Agatha’s remark and spurns George back on track. Frankly, it is his hate boner for Ross because although he is right in assuming Valentine isn’t his biological son, he wouldn’t have noticed it unless Agatha and Geoffrey Charles, two people whom he knows despise him, hadn’t brought his resemblance to Ross to attention. He has no proof other than the word of those two who are founding members of the Anti-George Committee but his belief that Ross is always out to play him for a fool (because he put toads in his pants when they were kids lmao woe is you, George; and because he believed Ross and Francis hated him because his grandfather was a blacksmith which we know is bullshit because Champion of the People Ross Poldark wouldn’t fucking do that) he believes it 100%. 

It is frankly Valentine I felt most sorry for. His baby sister had her nurse but Valentine was so lonely and that’s really sad for a child. I do wish Ross could take him in although I don’t think Demelza would like that. But I felt no compassion for George. How many people starved and died because of George? How many died of pneumonia or other diseases in his mines? He sent rape victims to prison and rewarded the rapists as magistrate. He sentenced people to 20 lashes for stealing one pheasant. He had Ross arrested and nearly killed for taking his people to grab provisions off his sinking ship, although none of the crew were killed. He wanted to get Sam and Drake Carne hanged although he knew they were innocent. As MP he was viciously against the poor. He bought a whole borough and threatened and bribed one of its elected members to give up his post in the Parliment for him when he realized he won’t be re-elected, while the other man he just bribed to vote as he wished. He bought voters for the re-election via Elizabeth’s Chynoweth family ties and by threatening to ruin them financially if they did otherwise. He destroyed Pascoe’s Bank. He forced Morwenna (admittedly, Elizabeth played a part in this too) into a marriage with a man who raped her multiple times, cheated on her with her own sister as well as prostitutes, nearly had her committed to a mental asylum to get rid of her and upon whose death his wretched mother made it impossible for Morwenna to ever see her son again. He made a bet with Monk Adderley that Adderley will sleep with Demelza which almost ended in her being raped. He basically caused Aunt Agatha’s death (keeping her in the cold, refusing to let her eat, gave her a heart attack during their last conversation). He seems to be supportive of slavery, wants to add his name to business driven by slave labour with no problems. Believed the Irish had to suffer some more, that they deserved a “strong hand” or something like that. Didn’t give a shit that people, many of them children, were caught in an explosion in his mine. Ross freaking saved him from an angry mob (twice) and he had to be a little bitch nevertheless. He says his intended new bride “will have to make the best of it”. He took Wheal Grambler and Wheal Leisure and Trenwith just because he has a hate boner for the Poldarks, just to hurt them not because he needed them. And he seems to be just as despicable from now on. Jack Farthing is a great, absolutely brilliant actor. George’s grief and insanity are very believable and the methods via which he is treated (before Dwight) are shit. But the man has done way too many evil things for me to have compassion for him from just that.

[ladykimba-moved]

Please babble about your love for Jason! I'd love to hear!

oh dear. oh boy. oh sweet baby jesus. where do I even begin?Jason is such an interesting and tragic character. Dying at the age of 11 because some idiot counselors at your camp decided it was more important to get some fucc than do their jobs? Only then to come back and watch your mom get killed?? Dude. That’s fucked up. But in all seriousness, I love that while Jason is a slasher and considered evil, scary, etc, he’s also a very sympathetic character given his backstory. The movies also give you all these glimpses of the innocence he once had as a child that stay with him as an adult. One of my favorites is easily the wonder/confusion of seeing his hockey mask on a billboard like “that’s me!”.Look at how cute.I cannot speak for the comics because I have not read any yet but I plan to. But god scenes like the one in Part II where he’s being tricked into believing the protagonist is his mother and just how EASILY the poor boy falls for it like,,,,, Jason baby no. 

He misses his mother so fucking much it hURTS.

Speaking of which, Jason and Pamela’s relationship also kills me. Pamela was such a good mom who clearly loved her son so much, and she seemed to be the only one who cared about her special boy. Honestly, I’d go on a killing spree too in vengeance for the death of my child. You go girl. You’re a murdering badass and I salute you. 

Local murder mom will not rest until her son’s death is avenged.

And even if its disturbing and creepy for Jason to have that little shrine dedicated to her within his cabin, rotting decapitated head and all, its still very heartbreaking because again, he was a child when he lost her and she was all he had. He can’t bring himself to let her go. I can’t begin to imagine how hard it was for Jason to spend his (undead) life without his mom there. Guy probably had to learn so much on his own.Actually what else fucking hurts is the fact that Jason is more than aware of how horrible is face looks to others??? He will blatantly show his face to people to up the scare factor at points tho he otherwise hides it in shame like. Holy shit just fucking end me that’s so sad. He can’t/doesn’t feel good about himself because NO ONE aside from Pamela treated him like a human being it seems like???

This scene makes me go from laughing to wanting to cry in a matter of seconds.Listen all I’m saying is I believe Jason is a very sad/lonely boy who was robbed of a proper life at too young of an age and he deserved so much better than what he gets.

Thank you for coming to my fangirl TEDtalk.

[tumblunni]

More thinking about the story big sis Bane is from

Lol this is SO awkward how on earth did i create the bff/mentor supporting character before ANY OF THE REST OF THE PLOT but man its been so much fun thinking up different stories she could fit in

* i was talking with a friend and they suggested she'd use a warhammer in battle ans now im like "hmm yes this story must be a game with combat" and that at least narrows it down a bit! I absolutely support her being a buff blacksmith cuddlebug who protects her friends with her fists as well as her mentorly perfectness. Also this friend said they're gonna design me a cool battle outfit for her IM SO EXCITED HOLY SHITTTT

* I'm not sure if the character she's bffs with would actually be a grandpa or just.. Grandpish? I just have this sense that its someone frail and depressed who doesn't believe they deserve friends and family, and they're all hermitty social anxiety until they meet this blacksmith lady who is like Fuck I Will Devote All Of My Considerable Power Towards Making Your Life More Alive. Seriously man i love Bane SO MUCH already!! She's basically a shonen hero archetype?? THE GRAMP AVENGER! Or a grandma or a dad or a whoever this person ends up being COS IF LITERALLY ANYONE IS IN NEED OF HELP SHE WILL BE THERE!! THE BANE OF DEPRESSION!!

* oh but im pretty sure that neither her nor the grandpa are the main character? I dont know why but i just feel like they would be better experienced from an outside view. I wanna be someone making friends with them! Also i feel like the protagonist should maybe be a young kid hero? Like, represent a different archetypal family role in this lil found family of hugs and sads.

* first initial idea- grandpa is a mysterious dark sorcerer and you are his apprentice! Or rather he just SEES himself as a dark sorcerer? Like all magic is considered evil, so even thougj he chooses to use his powers as a town doctor saving lives he still feels like he's a cursed monster. So he has an awkward dynamic with his apprentice cos he just Does Not Know How To React to someone hero worshipping him like this?? Like this orphan kid just came out of nowhere yelling BE MY TEACHER and hugging him and he's like OH NOOOO I CANT LEAVE THEM TO DIE IN THE COLD and theyre like SEE THATS PROOF YOURE GREAT and he's like NOOOOO!! xD i think a sort of "guy who never planned to be a gramp but had grampness thrown upon him" And he rose to the occasion spectacularly!!

* Another idea is that potentially instead of just being a random orphan, protagonist apprentice's backstory is shrouded in mystery? I was thinking maybe of a reveal that gramps actually did use to be a grandpa and his granddaughter died, and the protagonist was his failed attempt to ressurect her using dark magic. And for a long time he's been holding out on the hope that he really did bring her back, and that the protagonist will be able to recover her memories if he just tries hard enough. But as he grows to know you and love you like his own child, he realizes that you're your own person. (Or, well, your own homunculus?) And he takes responsibiluty for the new person he created, and helps you deal with finding out that you're not human, and you just form this very strange cute little family together with also the badass blacksmith lady yay! Also possibly LGBTQ elements because why not? Have the original dead grandkid always be a different gender to the protagonist, and them being trans could resonate with the themes that even though you're a clone you're your own person. And maybe have some sweet sad dream sequence where protag meets the ghost of the dead kid and you see a vision of what they might have looked like if they grew older. So throughout the course of the story you've become very different looking, and now you can embrace your big sibling for the first and last time, and feel like you really are a family. And they tell you to take care of gramps *sniff*

* Another idea is that maybe the protagonist is a secret government weapon? Like the gramps is still a dark sorcerer but instead of the dark incident in his past being a dead family member, its that he was part of a team of magic scientists and found out that his coworkers were crossing moral lines in their pursuit of power. So he finds a bunch of people locked up in a lab being turned into monsters and he managed to save only one of them during his great escape. And now he's trying to hide from them and raise this poor little monsterized kid to have a normal life.

* OR another idea is maybe taking this oc idea i had for a mismagius belonging to charon, because when i headcanon i tend to headcanon so deep i give everyone a full party and every party member needs a deep backstory too, lol. Anyway in that original pokemon version this mismagius was a lot more like an original ghost critter anyway i guess. His name was Hex and his concept was sorta like.. Charon meets kid charon? The other pokemon i gave him were all cute and bubbly to contrast him so i wanted to have one who was equally cynical. But also Hex is actually just a little kid even though he tries his damn best to be a Big Scary Evil Demon You Made A Contract With In Exchange For Great Power but really he's like a nine year old larping as one XD i think the whole concept could work better if he really WAS a magic spirit demon thing that this sad grandpa made a contract with in order to get the power to make his dreams come true. But also he's kind of a reject amoung other contract demon spirit thingies, and he's Really Just Babbu. I had this really sad idea for how he first met his trainer back when he was still a pokemon oc. From charon/new oc grandpa's perspective he found this big ominous scary demon lord and made an unholy contract! But from the demon's perspective he was just a tiny pathetic lonely lil kid who'd been hurt too many times by everyone he once trusted. So he grew to hate all those monsters who make friends with humans, and tried to act all egotistical like he chose to be alone. But eventually he just couldnt take it anymore and he decided he'd just go with the next human who tries to take him. Even if theyre evil.. Itd still be better than being alone. So he put up all those barriers around his true self and was so reluctant to trust gramps, but eventually being togethee has helped him regain his faith in having a happy life, yknow? And meanwhile grandpa is just like "oh god oh fuck youre a BABBY oh god how did i never know WHO WOULD LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE!!!" "Dude im a demon its not exactly normal to care about my wellbeing." "FUCK THAT, I AM YOUR GRAMP NOW"

* so yeah lol loads of different ideas about what the story could be, all kinda similar at heart but wildly varying from an innocent cute protag to grumpy cynical who's secretly an innocent cute protag, lol!

* in any case whoever you are and whoever gramps is, Bane is still be love u as big sis and support u thru the everything, yes

[it-begins-with-rain]

Goblin: The Lonely and Great God Reaction Thread (Ep 1)

For @ladyvanserra

He moved a pot a couple of inches and broke a Frenchman’s rib. I already like this show!

Period dramas (even partially) and fantasy mixed with history. That’s my drama-kink right there.

Wait why are they declaring him a criminal?

He won the war for them?

Oh wow, violence with blood! Yay korea(n dramas)!

Wait why do you look familiar King Dude?

OH MY GOD IT’S THE BOY FROM “THE BIG HIT”

DOES YOUR FATHER KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING RIGHT NOW?!?!?

Actually, he seemed more likely to declare himself a god...

Ah, they’re mad at him for being Julius Caesar, got it.

Well obvs the white girl is supposed to stand out, who are you?

Oh, that was a “we used to fuck” look

“Imma kill every innocent person.” That’s some A+ kinging right there.

Ohhhh yeah, they fucked.

Wait she wants him to go kill the king? Even if everyone dies?

That’s fucked up.

I want more backstory of this whole thing.

“Fire on her from behind the guy walking and kill her to punish him for not being easy to kill!”

Or, you know, order him shot in the back?

And he walks up behind him and slices.

Like, couldn’t just do that before? A+ guarding right there.

Eew, why do people drool when they cry in dramas? Just... eew.

“Forgive me sir for slowly stabbing you with a giant broadsword”

Cut. Off. His. Head. It’s. More. Polite.

See? Like what that guard just did to the other guy.

Man the advisor from Mulan is a dick

I know that’s chinese not Korean.

It’s the hat.

SHE’S STILL ALIVE??? LONGEST DEATH WITH AN ARROW IN SOMEONE’S HEART EVER.

DIE FASTER.

oh the old lady’s ring, splashed with her blood.

So shouldn’t she be a goblin too?

Is that why the old lady looked so young-made-to-look-old?

Is she the dead lady as a goblin in some way?

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE HIM TO DIE OMFG.

Well, I mean, from the show... a long damn time. But still!

Seoul, 1998, and he looks like Neo

JFC THAT CAR CAME OUT OF NOWHERE AND HE FUCKING DEMOLISHED IT!

Wait, why do you look familiar car dude???

Seriously familiar.

Death is hot and all, but this dude looks SERIOUSLY familiar...

C’mon google, help a girl out

*cries 20 min later when no amount of googling turns up anything*

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU

Fandom recruited to identify.

BUT NO LUCK

JFC did he have bodies in his trunk???

Death is hot.

He resembles another actor, but I can’t think of who.

Not in the this-will-drive-me-insane way, just---

OH, THE DUDE FROM “THE 100″. BELLAMY.

He reminds me of Bellamy. Just in the eyes and hair.

“Drink this tea or you’ll regret it...” Kind of rapey, Death.

what the frick-frack? that’s a lot of tea

Death literally making tea all day huh? ~drama~

Death that hat looks stupid.

Haha, Goblin just casually dropping shade XDDD

Slightly obsessed with candles, are we?

It’s child abuse to dress a kid like that.

"This is my grandson, who I obviously want beaten up on the playground.”

“From now on, this child will serve you, old bloody sword dude!”

Yeah this is normal.

So it wasn’t just that he was killed with his own blade, it was that he killed so many, or left so many to die at his hands?

HOW ARE YOU NOT RUNNING LIKE CRAZY THE OTHER WAY AT THE ZOMBIE THAT JUST STOOD UP IN YOUR FIELD???

That old guy is so fucking chill...

Oh, he’s going to kill the Mulan-Advisor!

Again, I know that’s Chinese and this is Korean, it’s the hat.

So who was the girl that they gave her a proper memorial?

That poor little Goryeo boy... He’s doomed to one day don the above ridiculous outfit.

Death would have been kinder.

But he is seriously cute as a button!

In the past, not in the yellow thingie.

Is it bad I only find the lead hot when he’s got his warrior-hair (long)?

omg the little nugget is hungry~

and he’s trying to hide it.

THAT BOY DESERVES ALL THE LOVE AND FOOD AND JUST EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE WORLD.

He was starving! Poor bean sprout~~

WHY ARE YOU BULLYING THE CUTE LITTLE DUDE?!?!?

NO!!!!! NUGGET!!!! DON’T DROWN

SAVE HIM YOU RAT BASTARD!

SAVE THE KERNEL OF CUTENESS!!!

Yes, you using your new powers (that we never see you learn to control) to kill the evil slavers is nice and all

BUT SAVE

THE

BABY

BUMBLEBEE

Ooo, green flaming sword, cool.

But where’s Button???????

YOU. CAN’T. SNAP. TO. PRESENT. THERE.

So they say “Goblin”, but they mean a minor god?

Uh oh, Female Lead in hit-and-run.

I wonder if she’ll be saved

*she says sarcastically*

Wow that is a lot of blood.

Her entire body’s worth

And yet she’s still chatting.

And Goblin will save her.

But not the adorable little bean.

Female Lead is preggo?

Death is gonna be PISSED

And not just because his hat is silly.

OMG that’s the cutest baby ever.

AAH! CORPSES!

Whispering about brides.

Over a baby.

Who is now 8 years old.

The mom looks mildly familiar...

I think from her Banjun Drama days? I think I saw the DBSK ones...

OMFG THAT IS AN ADORABLE LITTLE PUPPY

Who apparently doesn’t exist?

DOES THAT MEAN IT’S A DEAD PUPPY’S GHOST????

NO, THERE AREN’T ALLOWED TO BE DEAD PUPPIES

NOT EVER

NEVER EVER EVER

*traumatized*

Yeah, something was weird with the mom not touching candles.

How’d she die?

Was it before?

Or recently?

This convo with the mom’s ghost is so creepy and sad at the same time

I love it

Seriously creepy, sad, and cool all at once

Love love love it.

This part kind of gives me “Black” vibes.

Did anyone else see that?

It was just ok.

“How do you never seem to grow old granny?”

Because she’s obviously a young lady in age make up.

It’s the eyes. She has painfully young eyes.

And Death came for the kid... why?

Oh, he’s surprised, he came for the mom.

“You of all people should know.”

Oh, so old lady is a Reaper too?

A head of cabbage as a birthday gift.

Yep, she’s an old lady.

Oh look, the old lady is young again. What a surprise.

LMAO the little guy in the dumb hat grew up to be a drinker.

Not surprised with that dumb hat.

JFC the ghost trying to get her attention is freaky.

The dangers of shooting a guy walking in slow-motion.

He looks like an idiot when he blinks.

OK this super intense stare between him and the teenager is kind of eew (even though she’s 19).

Can we do a time jump and age her again?

And he’s like *instant boner*

Ooo, little nugget grew up hot this time

Another reason he shouldn’t have drowned in the Goryeo times.

“How can she be proud of killing her own mom”

Wow, fucking nice family there...

Assholes.

Throwing a rice bowl at her head and demanding money?

Wow.

These fuckers deserve bad things.

Aw, Goblin is adorable with the old man.

He’s got a nice smile.

Just... totally nice.

Is he pacing around where he died? Gnarly.

What? He heard her prayer?

Is it because he saved her?

Aw, he came to her.

Arguing over who summoned who, lmao.

It sounds like when my mother and father think they heard the other call them.

“Did you call me?”

“No, why would I have called you?”

“That’s what I’m asking you.”

“Give me (flowers), they don’t suit you.”

hahahahahahahahaha

He gave her flowers, so I guess this is a first date?

“What do these flowers mean?” “Lovers.” *romantic music*

Again, I know she’s 19... but she looks 15, and he’s like 40.

Aw, Death is looking dapper.

He lives with a centuries-old Goblin.

And is renting the house out to Death.

Why isn’t the show about this guy’s life???

It could be a comedy.

omg burning the contract with a finger-gun is hysterical

And his face when there’s a copy XDDD

DON’T  YOU THREATEN MY LITTLE NUGGET DEATH

NOT EVEN AS A JOKE

I will CUT YOU

This is the bromance I didn’t know I needed.

These two flinging pepper and paprika (or probably chili flakes) around the table like children.

It’s already a comedy! :D

She’s going to work at a Korean Chicken restaurant.

Korean chicken restaurants are proof of the divine.

If it’s made of chicken

and you’re in Korea

it’s going to be amazing.

Especially garlic or soy sauce fried chicken.

But also spicy chicken bites.

Kind of like Korean orange chicken?

I can’t spell the word.

So the connection between them is fire? That’s how she summons him? Or is it the act of putting them out?

“I must be a fairy. Like Tinker Bell.”

*rolls eyes and vanishes immediately to get away from the stupid*

Haha, so it is lighting and blowing out a flame.

If blowing out a digital candle works-

JFC IT WORKS

“Goblin” must be a loose translation.

Because nothing about this is goblin-like in western mythology.

So it must just be the closest equivalent creature to translate to.

Ah, now he knows who she is.

And what she is.

Wow, he’s brutal.

“Just go die then. I only care about you 10 won worth”.

*follows him through a portal to the other side of the world on accident*

I think he just peed himself.

“Canada.... you mean the place with the maple leaf? The one in North America?!?!??!?!?”

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

“No matter how I think about it, you’re a goblin... I love you.”

Immediately latches on to tall, dark, and handsome because he insta-travels.

Mood.

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Believe in Me - chapter six

Summary: Dan Howell is living at home while he’s saving money for college, which isn’t easy since his parents don’t understand him. Unlike them, he loves dogs, is a vegetarian, has no interest in the family business, and he despises the supernatural. He struggles to accept things that are illogical, even though he is a kitsune. Kitsune are foxes whose powers involve the ability to cast illusions, but Dan just wants to be normal. Phil Lester has just moved to London, where he works as a dog walker. When his path crosses with Dan, Phil is eager to get to know him. Unfortunately, Phil soon finds that being friends with Dan is far more complicated than he could have imagined.

Rating: Mature Word Count: 1913 Warnings: Slow Burn, Eventual Smut

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Kitsune fact: Kitsune have to keep their promises, and especially follow their word of honour. They become self-destructive if they break a promise, and when someone else breaks a promise, they become deadly enemies. [https://littlespacefox.weebly.com/kitsune-mythology.html]

“Last customer before you get off, Howell,” his manager told him, nodding at the scrawny teenager who had just walked up to the counter. The teenager’s face was either covered with acne, freckles, or a mixture of the two – Dan wasn’t sure.

He grabbed a cup and a pen to take the customer’s order. “Hi there, could I get your name, please?”

“Adam.”

It could be a coincidence. Adam was a common name. Dan looked up and the teenager’s face split with a malevolent grin. The face was unfamiliar, but he knew that smile well.

“I’d like a hot chocolate,” Adam said, since Dan had been too stunned to ask.

Dan shook his head to clear it and started writing on the cup. He kept his eye on Adam as he waited at the other counter for his drink, picked it up, and then lingered by the door seemingly without purpose. Dan knew what Adam was waiting for, and since his shift was now over he couldn’t do anything but leave the shop, knowing that Adam would follow.

Without looking back, he snapped, “What?”

Adam fell into step beside him, sipping the hot chocolate. “Someone is rather cranky.”

“What do you want, Adam? And whose body are you wearing?”

Adam pulled a wallet out of his jeans and read the ID inside. “Jacob Parkins apparently.” He put Jacob’s wallet back in the pocket of his jeans. “I found him near the high school. Don’t worry, I’ll dump him back around there. No harm done. He just won’t remember the past few hours.”

“No harm done? Tell that to the years of therapy he’s going to sign up for because of this blackout.” Dan shot Adam an angry glare. “You didn’t need to possess anyone. You could have just shown up if you wanted something. I told you to stop possessing people.”

Adam took a long sip of his hot chocolate before tossing away the empty cup. “Yes, but then I wouldn’t have been able to taste that.”

Dan felt a pang of sympathy for his brother. In moments like this, he was forced to remember that it wasn’t Adam’s fault that he was like this – he was what their mum had made him. “Okay, forget it. What do you have to say about where you were last night?”

Adam laughed, but without humor. He sounded smug. “He told you about me? I didn’t think he would. Most humans rationalize it away when I show myself to them. They say that their eyes were playing tricks on them.”

“Phil isn’t most people. So, what were you thinking? Why go to his place?”

Adam shrugged. “I was hanging around the night when he tried to kiss you. I gave you guys some privacy after that, but I was curious. I followed him home to see where he lived, and last night I decided to invite myself in to have a chat.”

Dan shook his head. “I don’t understand. You’ve never shown any interest in my life before.”

“You never had a life before. You went to school, you went home. Then you went to work and went home. Now though you’re actually doing something worth spying on.”

Dan’s cheeks got hot since that was actually a pretty accurate representation of his life, or the lack thereof before Phil. “Well, stop it. Leave Phil alone.”

“Have you fucked him yet?” Adam asked, ignoring him.

Dan felt his cheeks get hotter. “Fuck off, Adam.”

Adam laughed. “That would be a ‘no’. So, you’ve still got your v-card, little brother. Would you like some advice?”

He hated the fact that he actually wanted someone to talk to. He hadn’t kept in touch with anyone he knew from school. He didn’t talk to any of his coworkers outside of the coffee shop. He’d been alone for so long. He knew now that he had been isolating himself for years. Now that Phil was in his life, Dan was faced with the reality that Phil was his only friend. There was no one  had no one else who he could talk to.

He certainly wasn’t going to take relationship advice from Adam, who wasn’t really here to be helpful. Adam was here to taunt Dan for his own amusement, so Dan decided to ignore him since that sometimes made him go away. Adam nudged him with an elbow, which reminded Dan that he was wearing the body of a teenager and Dan cringed. “Come on, Dan! He likes you. What are you waiting for? Grab Phil by the ass and go for it.”

Dan’s stomach rolled with nausea. He was on his street now, and he started jogging until he made it to the porch. He didn’t look back until he had unlocked the door and was standing in the doorway. He knew that Adam wouldn’t follow him through the front door – he was avoiding their parents.

Adam was standing at the end of the sidewalk, shaking his head while wearing a large grin on his face. “I can’t believe you just ran from me, all because I tried to talk to you about sex. You are too much fun, little brother.”

Dan narrowed his eyes, but he didn’t say anything else as he shut the door between them. When he turned around, there was someone standing in the foyer behind him – his grandmother was placing a flower arrangement on a table, and she was watching him with shrewd eyes.

“Was that Adam again?” she asked.

Dan nodded. He glanced through the glass pane at the top of the door to see if Adam was still there, but the sidewalk was empty now.

Grandma sighed. “I think you need some tea.”

He didn’t think that tea would help, but his grandmother made the best tea, so Dan followed her to the kitchen. A few moments later, they were settled at the kitchen table, sipping tea and munching on scones. “So,” Grandma asked. “What did he do now?”

Dan hesitated. This wasn’t an ideal conversation to have with his grandmother, but there was no one else who would understand Adam’s role in this. “I’ve been seeing someone. Adam found out and he went to his apartment. I never wanted him to know about any of this, but now my brother has started to bring him into this world…”

“He? Your boyfriend?” His grandmother took a moment to process that. Dan had told her that he was bisexual years ago, but he’d never seriously dated anyone before now. Her surprise faded after a moment and she gave him a warm smile. “How did your boyfriend react to your brother? Did Adam scare him away?”

Dan shook his head. He couldn’t quite believe it, but he told his grandmother, “No, he wasn’t that scared. He thought Adam was a ghost, so he tried to banish him. He… this guy I’m seeing, I think he’s really special.”

His grandmother nodded, and she looked pensive as she took a sip of tea. “It sounds like he is. He sounds very open-minded. Your grandfather, as much as I loved him, had trouble accepting anything that went against his limited view of the world. He couldn’t believe in magic, even when it happened right before his eyes.”

Dan frowned. Sometimes he felt like he took more after his late grandfather than anyone else in his family.

His grandmother gave him a warm smile, as if she knew what he was thinking. “He was a human, but he had his own form of magic. He had a good heart, and he had a greater capacity for love than anyone else I have ever known – love is a stronger force of magic than anything we kitsune can perform.” She placed her now-empty teacup in its saucer. “So, are you going to tell your boyfriend what you are? I waited years to tell your grandfather. I think things would have gone better if I hadn’t waited.”

Dan shook his head. “I only just met him. We’ve only seen each other a few times. It isn’t that serious yet.”

Her wise dark eyes evaluated his features, and he knew that she could tell what he wasn’t saying – Dan had trouble letting people get close to him. He pushed people away and never let people get a glimpse of who he was, as if he was afraid of who they would see. Phil had already gotten closer to him than anyone had in years, and only because Dan had become so desperately lonely – and Phil was both persistent and amazing.

His grandmother, who had watched Dan closely enough over the past few years to become familiar with his pattern of behavior, gave him a sad look. “I think you should let this one in. He sounds special.”

“Yeah, so special that Adam now knows who he is and showed up in his home. Grandma, I can’t protect him from Adam – he doesn’t listen to me! I told him to leave Phil alone, but he just kept saying things to me… Adam was possessing some kid’s body. What if he decides it would be fun to possess Phil? What if Phil starts losing time and thinks there’s something wrong with his head? Adam could ruin Phil’s life if he wanted to, and all for a laugh. It would be my fault. Phil doesn’t deserve that. I should… I should tell Phil I won’t see him again. Then maybe Adam will leave him alone.”

Grandma shook her head. “You don’t truly understand what Adam has become.”

“He’s an evil spirit. He has been haunting me, and now he is haunting Phil.”

“No, he is a Reiko kitsune. A ghost fox. He is bad, but not evil. He still has a sense of pack, and to him you are family. He wants to talk to you. I know it hurts because he is different, but you should let him be a part of your life. I think Adam will respond to this, and in return he will do something you ask, like leaving your boyfriend alone.”

“Okay, I will think about it. Thanks, Grandma. And thanks for the tea.” He carried the cups to the sink for her, and then he made his excuses to leave – he wasn’t sure how much longer he could hold the smiling mask on his face.

She hadn’t convinced him that there was another option, and it seemed like leaving Phil was best for him. His grandmother talked about love, but it didn’t make sense to Dan. If love really was more than chemicals in the brain and it was a form of magic like his grandmother believed, then it wasn’t a good thing. It was a dark and destructive force. His mother claimed to love him and his brother, but her love had only ever hurt them. Dan was determined to never fall in love – he knew that in the end love caused pain to everyone involved.

At the same time, now that Phil was a part of his life Dan didn’t want to let him go. Dan walked into his room and collapsed face-first onto his bed, completely unsure of what to do.

[trumpetnista]

My Final Thoughts on 7x05 (taken from Shattering’s latest A/N...)

I know that 7x05's title was supposed to refer to the subplot with President Rashad and his niece (which I saw the fiery, evil endgame for a country mile away...goddamn it, I liked him and I actually liked him with Mellie! FUCK.) but really, it was about Liv behaving like a spoiled, diaper rash having, raging toddler the whole night and being treated as such.  

Every person, even Joke Bastard (who doesn't love her at all, don't come at me with that. 'She's a lost cause'? FUCK OFF, you fishlipped-subhuman mouth breathing piece of shit! You just want her to be miserable like you because she won't fuck you anymore, you petty piece of fucking shit!) shut her down for most of the episode. Mellie, Cyrus, Rowan, Fitz (which was the whole entire SHIT! I LOVED IT!), and then even Reporter Dude! Reporter Dude Curtis not only broke up with her but ROASTED her! It was so cool! Look, until the POWER demon is exorcised, I will enjoy every bit of bad karma Liv gets. I will. I hate bullies. Liv's a bully now.  She's Rowana now.

Of course, me still being Olitz trash and utterly Team Fitz loved the scene with her storming around trying to start an ugly 509 argument the most. Fitz wasn't putting up with any of it. He didn't even really yell. He called her out for being the subhuman POWER hungry bitch (he didn't call her that, I did!) she's been, told her that when she got done with her trip, he'd be waiting, and then he just sat down and started watching TV? It was so cool and sad. It was a prime example of how good Fitz's character development has been and just how far Olivia has fallen into the Dark.

Fitz is the only person who still sees Olivia Pope, who still fully believes in her but...man, can we just skip to the part where she gets fired and scorned like she's been scorning everyone, and she's finally forced to get some help?

Seriously, if this Rowana POWER bullshit is the hill that SR is gonna die on with Liv's character, then just kill her off and put us all out of our misery. This Season 7, this FINAL season version of Liv doesn't deserve to be happy solo or with Fitz or with someone else good. Until she actually gets help and starts being human again, the resolution Olivia Pope deserves and that I will accept for her is a very lonely death. I'm not sorry about it.

[wlwhc]

I’m Scared

Summary: You’re Kara’s secret friend, a friend that she wishes it could be something more...so much more...little did she knows, you want the same

Warning: light angst? I guess, but there’s fluff too

(A/N): I just watched Supergirl 2x10 and I just thought about this Idk it just pops into my mind so, yeah, I had to write it and hey! I’m here again at 4:34 am writing instead of sleeping, Matt you’re so fucked up!

Words:1615

“okay so let me get this straight, Mon-El does not listen to you, Jimmy and Winn are vigilantes, well, Jimmy is the vigilante and Winn has been helping him all this time, J’onn’s girlfriend almost died-”

“she’s not her girlfriend, more like a crush-”

“crush whatever, and Livewire escaped-”

“I let her-”

“you let her escape...well, you really deserve the last piece of pie for sure” You said to your friend Kara handing her the plate of food. It was currently 2 am in you were chatting with the blonde while telling each other’s bad days

“hmm I don’t know, I think that you had it worst than me”

“are you kidding me? I think that the worst part of my day was burning my tongue with coffee! you fight against your evil nemesis and had to deal with that douchebag the bad version of Batman and Winn”

“why Winn those not has a nickname”

“I’m still thinking about it okay? my creativity has a limit sweetheart” Kara laughed at this. This is what she needed, someone to talk to, someone normal that doesn’t want to be a vigilante or get involved in the whole hero thing, and even though she has her sister, Alex was now caught up in Maggie’s fingers, and Kara didn’t want to steal Alex away from Maggie. Right when she started feeling lonely, you appear, a waitress in a coffee shop, you friendship grow up fast and by the next week, Kara was flying every night to your balcony to talk with you, you understand her, you listen to her, that’s what she needed the most right now.

“so another thing than that?” Kara asked you

“nah, I mean I got to see your friend Lena, she went by the coffee, she’s so damn h-”

“no! no no no I do not approve!” Kara said jumping on the couch that you were currently sitting in. You gasp at her words.

“excuse me? of course you approve, she’s hot and smart, I’m hot and ...funny?”

“you can not go out with her! you’re my friend miiiiineeee” she said, poking your arm with her finger and pouting a little

“aww is the little puppy Danvers jealous? are you scared that someone may steal me away from youuuu~” she looked at you with puppy eyes and rest her head on your shoulder.

“I .. I actually do you know?, there are so many people out there that may want to steal you away from me if they know that you’re Supergirl's friend”

“well, If this serves as a consolation, I have a baseball bat and I know how to use it” You expected her to laugh but she sigh instead.

“Kara, you don’t have to worry, you’re the only one that knows about me, not even your sister knows you’re here with me, a lot less a villain, I’m going to be fine”

“I know~ it’s just, I’m scared that something may happen to you, I care about you, a lot, I really do Y/N, I want to keep you safe, I don’t know what I would do if you disappear one day-”

“wow wow wow okay , let me stop you right there because you’re making this night dark, like emo kind of thing” Kara looked at you, with her sad puppy eyes. You made her sit in front of you, so you can talk face to face.

“okay listen to me Kara Danvers, I know that you’re are a superhero and all, but you don't have to worry, I won’t disappear well I mean, yeah one day I may die-”

“don’t say thaaaaat” Kara whines

“Jesus what’s wrong with you today? why are you so worried about my safety, you never got like this, did something else happen? you’re not telling me something!” You said throwing a pillow at her face.

“no no! it’s I-uh ahg! you’re going to think it’s stupid” she said, grabbing the pillow and covering her face.

“more stupid that tripping on your cape and accidentally destroying a house in the process?” Kara gasps at this

“I told you not to bring that up ever again!”

“it’s too epic for not to bring that up!, but seriously though, tell me”

“it’s just...I guess the I-I realize how much you mean for me I-uh...Alex is busy with Maggie, Mon-el is Mon-el, Jimmy and Win are out there fighting criminals and I’m …. here and I thought I was alone but then you came an-and somehow made me feel better and okay, and you listen to me, you’re the only one besides my sister that listens to me, you make me feel valid and like I’m not just...a cape and super powers, you make me feel okay while I’m Kara, and I know that you are Kara’s friend and not Supergirl’s, and I really appreciate that, I really do, I care about you, that’s why I’m also scared because all the good thing the I had in life always disappear or a bad guy comes and rips all the happiness away and right now all that happiness ...is thanks to you...I’m scared” Kara said, her eyes getting glassy at the thought of losing you.

You were speechless, Kara had never done something like this, open up so much about something, you two always talk about problems and thing with sarcasm and a lot of jokes and food, but never so ..serious, there were always laughs. You didn’t know what to say, the blonde was scared and frankly you were also scared that something may happen to her, you are scared of a lot of things

“well, you should have told me that we were going to be so serious, I should have bought wine rather than pie”

“Y/N~” Kara whines

“okay okay, you want me to say what I think about your sugary speech?” Kara nods at this. You sigh at her worried face.

“I’m scared too...you’re Supergirl after all, you are going to get hurt eventually, I’m scared that one day you just won’t appear at 2am to talk and cuddle, I’m not worried about villains or about me getting hurt, because I know that it won’t happen, and I can handle myself” Kara send you a knowing look

“don’t look at me like that I know I can handle myself” She shocks her head and looks down at her hands, you gently make her look at you with your hands in her chin.

“I’m going to be fine Kara, please do not worry about me, I’ll be fine”

“but what if-”

“no-uh”

“and if-”

“not a chance-”

“but-”

“Nothing! , but nothing! , now stop saying those stupid what if and cuddle with me” you said, opening your arms, glared playfully at you but she crawls into your arms anyway. the warmth of your body making her forget about the weight on her shoulders, you wrapped your arms around her, giving her a familiar feeling on her chest.

She hides on the crook of your neck and you run your finger through her hair, Kara hummed at this. Whoever that may see you two would probably think that Kara was your girlfriend, and the blonde may not admit it but she was dying to call you with that label. She knows that her skin doesn’t burn at your touch for nothing, she knows that the thought of your lips on hers is not just a friendly thought, she knows that all this over-protectiveness is not just an I care about you friendly thing, she loves you. She loves to be in your arms feeling safe in them, feeling like someone is there to catch her, feeling like she has her own superhero, she loves the smell of your hair, the way that you dance alone in the kitchen in the morning, she loves how sweet and kind you are, god she loves everything about you, every little thing, and right now, being on your arms, made her the happiest alien on this earth. She was dying to confess her feelings but she was too scared of rejection, too scared of losing you, so she preferred to suffer in silence, and enjoy the fact that at least you are her friend.

“You don’t need to worry about me Kara, I’ll be safe as long as I got you by my side” The blonde smiled at this, snuggling further in your arms, her nose rubbing against your neck. Kara inhales your essence, feeling the tiredness of the day starting to affect her and the comforting feeling of your arms holding her close to you.

“Can I sleep here with you?” Kara whispers against your neck. You didn't have to think twice.

“of course you can silly”

You keep running your finger through her hair, appreciating the moment, Kara had fallen asleep, hiding in your arms like child, she got her arms around you and her legs tangled with yours, it was pretty obvious that she wasn’t going to let you go, you weren’t complaining though, this was a dream come true. It was impossible not to have feelings for the cute alien. The friendship turned quickly into something more, but you weren’t going to risk the beautiful friendship you had built just because you were in love with her, no no no, you were too scared of rejection, of losing her, of losing these little moments of peace with her.

If you only knew that she feels the same way as you do. But you will never know, and Kara will never have the chance to kiss you, or show you off to her friends, or waking up next to you. Just because you two were too afraid or rejection, just because you two were scared of losing each other.

“I’m scared...I’m so scared”