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edwinisms · 1 month

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it’s actually so wild to me that this fairly quirky YA type show gave both of its main characters deaths that can, in one way or another, solidly be considered hate crimes. they were both flat out murdered as a result of being A) gay and effeminate or B) brown (south asian, specifically) and you could argue whether or not those kids thought of it that way in the moment or whatever but the bottom line is that they would not have been in the situations that killed them if they weren’t of their respective minorities. like legitimately that is a ballsy choice for this kind of netflix show, let alone for the two Main Characters, and i respect it big time

#rambling #i think about this a lot #you could brush charles’ off as a hate crime by proxy since it was in response to him Stopping a hate crime #but that would be stupid. like you think what happened to him would’ve happened if he was white? doubtful #as a mixed person the way i see it is that in that moment- when he protected that pakistani kid- he went from being tolerated #by being/acting just white enough and with enough other jock traits to sort of fit in amongst them #to all at once proving to them that no- he is in fact The Other. he isn’t one of us he’s one of Them.#and as such what happened to him would’ve been a bonafide hate crime. even if they were to give an excuse like ‘he got in our way’ or ‘he #made a fool out of us’ or whatever else. even if those boys didn’t fully UNDERSTAND the racism in their own intentions/actions #it still would be. because that would not have happened to a white boy. period #anyway. genuinely fascinating choice they made with the way they presented his death- especially considering it was not #remotely similar in the comics. neither of them had the hate crime aspect going on really up til yockey’s narrative choices #so props to him. man’s got balls #dead boy detectives #charles rowland #edwin payne #edit: I will say that I don’t think the boys in edwin’s case technically murdered him nor would I call them murderers #because I can’t imagine a single one of them actually thought that ritual was gonna do anything more than make him piss himself #it was still hate-based bullying. like they still absolutely did what they did because he’s visibly effeminate and easily clickable #and all in all: gay. but when I say edwin was murdered I don’t really mean by those boys. I mean those boys dragged him into the situation #(kicking and screaming) that GOT him murdered by a demon. and he would not have been in that position if not for being gay.#I’ll say it again because last time I talked about this someone got real pissy in my inbox: I am not excusing the actions of the boys that #got him killed nor am I saying what they did wasn’t based in homophobia. i am just clarifying that they didn’t intend on killing anyone or #think whatsoever that someone getting killed was even a possibility (as opposed to charles’ killers who definitely had to have thought he #could be killed even if that might not have been the premeditated goal of every boy involved)#but the fact that edwin was ultimately intentionally killed by a demon counts as murder to me #someone killed him on purpose. that’s murder #the demon probably didn’t give a shit about this human teenager’s sexuality but regardless he ended up there for being gay.#so. just. a clarification

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svnflowermoon · 8 months

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btw please block me if you feel the need to gatekeep the queer community. cishet aspecs ARE valid and they ARE queer. the "they don't experience discrimination" argument is possibly the most stupid thing i have ever heard because aspecs experience insane levels discrimination and people are extremely dismissive of them. we our more than our suffering. our community is not yours to gatekeep it isn't fair to invalidate people's queer identities just because you can't fit them in your stupid little box of specific labels.

#like cmon guys its 2024 stop gatekeeping the community we are trying to make people feel SAFE but people are feeling the exact opposite #also like people are perfectly okay (as they should be ofc) with complicated gender identities but when someone's sexuality is complicated?#when someone's sexuality doesnt fit into a specific label or their idea of what queerness 'is'??#people brush it under the rug and dismiss it because its 'uncomfortable' but fuck that actually people can be as complicated as they want #as someone currently questioning whether im aspec this debate is killing me why do people make it so impossible to just let people live #luc posts #queer #aspec #aromantic #asexual #aroace #lgbtq #luc rants

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punmster · 2 months

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being ace means i don't get giggly or horny about omegaverse aka abo but instead become painfully obsessed with details in anatomy and world building

#for one the whole abo dynamic thing in wolves is false #for another the animal kingdom is SO wild #like. female hyenas have pseudopenises and dominate males #seahorses and male birth #eating your children to avoid them being eaten by predators #males killing children to free females to mate #community child rearing!#females doing the hunting!#CLOWNFISH #omegaverse #abo #imagine if your secondary gender is determined by the social dynamics of where you grew into it #mostly female/child bearing? guess you get a penis now #do you think all alphas have piss kinks cuz of territory marking shit #anglerfish...octopodes that hand off their sperm sacks to females...#i know a strange amount of stuff about animal sexuality i just realized this #did you know some species dont have periods? they just reabsorb the uterine lining which is fucking amazing and im very mad humans dont #do that too #on the other hand. ive seen abo aus where male omegas give birth by LOSING ALL THEIR TEETH and VOMITING AN EGG #my main complaint is that abo doesnt get weird enough (plz not losing teeth and egg vomiting weird tho)#also can we PLEASE think a little more on the 'birthing from the ass' thing? please?#listen you have a right to mpreg (and trans men exist) but like. PLEASE. that baby should NOT be born thru the poop chute #ik some animals feed their babies poop (and human anatomy is like half an inch away from the birth canal being the poo canal) but COME ON #also why are all the scents like. very specific objects/concepts #flowers and idk blood?#frankly i think they would just be. animal smells but with enhanced human noses they'd be easily distinguishable #my headcanon is that they act like peacock tails do. meant to show off how cool you are #the biting thing happens in sharks (tho i think its cuz theyre kinda silly like that) but it just reminds me of people tattooing bite marks #and not cleaning the wound or yknow actually biting their partner in the tattoo parlor?#i get it. i'd love to be consumed by the void and a non recommendable amount of teeth. but can you be more sensible about it

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jcs-singular-slut-strand · 15 days

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#PEOPLE ON THIS STUPID FUCKING APP ACTING LIKE THEY'RE THE PARAGON OF ROMANCE?? EXCUSE ME?? THE ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP IS BASED OFF WEI WUXIANS #SELFISH NEED TO RUN AWAY FROM HIS PAST DEEDS AND THE CONSEQUENCES THEY'VE HAD (jiang cheng) AND THEN LAN WANGJI BEING FREAKISHLY SEXUALLY #OBSESSED WITH HIMIT'S ALL ABOUT LAN WANGJILAN WANGJI WHO HAS ACTUALLY PRACTICALLY NEVER SUFFERED COMPARED TO OTHER CHARACTERS BUT EVERYONE #IN THIS STUPID FUCKING FANDOM BABIES HIM BECAUSE UWU SAD HUSBAND 😔😔😔 HE'S SUFFERED SO MUCH FROM THE ABSENCE OF THE MAN WHO KILLED #THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE 😔😔😔😔BUT YAY NOW HE GETS TO TAKE HIM BACK TO THE CLOUD RECESSES WHERE HE WILL BE ABSOLUTELY FUCKING MISREABLE AND #HAVE NO FRIENDS BUT HE'S STILL SOMEWHAT HAPPY BECAUSE HE'S HIDDEN AWAY FROM ANYONE WHO IS (rightfully) ANGRY AT HIM AND HAS NOW SUCCESSFULL #REMOVED HIMSELF FROM ANY AND ALL DIFFICULT/COMPLEX RELATIONSHIPS HIS ACTIONS AND DECISIONS HAVE HAD A DIRECT PART IN MAKING #FUCKING HELL #i hate wx #i genuinely despise it #anti wangxian

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lunarharp · 8 months

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wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say.....#it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me.#i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable.#bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there.#dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH????#my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way.#Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer.#Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this?#For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this.#why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness?#What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...?#hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!!#i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful.#but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting.#I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing.#I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come.#Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

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puppybong · 4 months

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why was unmedicated andrew hyped up so much & he ended up being like normal

#b #nicky: he’s a fucking freaaakkkk he’s crazyyy he kills ppl straight up #By normal i mean. well #Nora is so annoying she didn’t even have an actual med for him to be on. It’s just pills that do something #Listen man if i was sexually assaulted after finally getting away from (coughs) & then forced to go off meds cold turkey at inpatient #where i was also continuously sexually assaulted by my doctor. I would be fucking crazy.#andrew handled it perfectly normal. Like he underreacted #i miss medicated andrew he’s my bitchhhhh I know youre bipolar type 2 #Just remembered the library scene i actually feel sick to my stomach. Helloooooooo…#He told me he would stop if i said it. Bars actuallyyyy #by all logic andreil should not work but they are perfect for each other. I hate them

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curiouschaosstarlight · 8 months

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Oh boy it sure is nice not being alloromantic/allosexual enough to be "normal" but also not aromantic/asexual enough to be a good aromantic/aspec person (:

Sure is nice to finally have a community I totally fit into, everyone is SO welcoming

#chaotic rants #“there's no platonic explanation for this!” there is actually #“when are you gonna get a date/get married/have kids?” never #“let's get you fixed up so you and your boyfriend/girlfriend can have sex! ^w^” “i dont have one” “oh im sure you'll find one :0”#“i dont want a significant other and i never will” “oh that's just your anxiety talking. it'll go away once your anxiety's cured!”#vs #“ugh all these allosexuals are SO OBSESSED with shipping”#“are allosexuals okay”#“not EVERYTHING has to be a ship”#“if you ship a canonically aro character you're erasing the representation and are evil and should be hurt/killed”#vs...#“who cares about the lore of this game? what if the characters just fuck and nothing else”#“lol that character isnt het/bi that makes no sense!” it has canonical proof/is obviously shipteased all the time but okay #“lol that character isnt bi/pan that makes no sense!” it's not contradicted by canon even the tiniest bit but okay #-finally finds a character that's ACTUALLY similar my experience being aroaspec-#-that character is the butt of every joke and a mockery of me and everyone like me as people-#“yeah the 'aroace character is obsessed with food' thing is an annoying stereotype! but it's all you're getting so be happy about it :)”#“lol this character that is canonically het and is constantly sexually harassed is actually canonically aroace.”#“what? you find that offensive and uncomfortable? fuck you im asexual and i get to decide what is and isnt canonically aroace” okay #“you think this other character is canonically aroace? uhhhh no you're wrong that's an offensive stereotype idiot”#-it's the one character in the entire canon that's literally never shown any attraction to anyone else-#“this character was turned aroace by this other character. even tho this is offensive with any other sexuality it's totally fine here!”#“also yes you're a bad person if you ship this character even though they're only aroace in fanon”#“here's our webcomic where everyone's gay or trans or both! ...what? sorry there's no aro or ace or aroace characters in this.”#“fuck you if you were hopeful there would be”#vs!!#“oh everything in fiction is a person's idealized reality!”#“shipping is everyone's idealized romantic/sexual relationship!”#“if you like this in fiction then you like it and want it to happen in reality!”

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gorillaxyz · 18 days

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people on death note tiktok are so stupid. i dont like that ship either because its extremely out of character NOT BECAUSE ITS TOXIC????, DIE

#txt #ask to tag #the vast majority of relationships in death note are toxic regardless of if its romantic platonic or familial #IS DEATH NOTE TOO PROBLEMATIC FOR YOU NOW??#fucking stupid 😭#IF YOU HAVE TO HATE AT LEAST FO IT FOR THE RIGHT REASONS #i saw someone say ->#m.ikami/light is toxic THE AGE GAP!!! if they met at 18 yo and 22+ they should NOT BE SHIPPED #<-#WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING ONNNNNNNNNNN.#ARE YOU STUPID #ITS NOT FUCKING REAL AND ALSO?????? ???????????? oh my god #youre stupid #mika.mi can be interpreted as having romantic/sexual infatuation for livhf THAT IS IN CHARACTER AND ENTERTAINING #IF SOMEONE DECIDES TO BELIEVE LIGHT WOULD ENTERTAIN THAT IN A MANIPULATIVE WAY OR WHAT HAVE YOU. THAT IS OKAY.#REGARDLESS OF AGE LIGHT HAS THE MIST POWER IN ANY RELATIONSHIP HE COULD FEASIBLY BE IN BECAUSE 1. HES KIRA AND 2. HES A FUCKING GENIUS????#HES ONLY SURPASSED BY L AND NEAR. FUCK YOU STUPID PEOPLE 😭 STOP TRYING TO MAKE HATING A SHIP A MORAL THING?????? HUH #THEYRE LITERALLY NOT EVEN REMOTELY PEDOPHILIC #OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. YKNOW THEY ARENT INCESTUOUS #and i dislike l.awlight for a billion reasons my number 1. being that i dont think its in character for them to behave in the kind of fanoni #sed way a lot of ll shippers do. NOT BECAUSE ITS TOXIC... NOT BECAUSE 'LIGHT LITERALLY KILLED HIM.' SHUT THE FUCK UP 😭 SHUT THE FUCK UP #i hate tiktok i hate STUPID IDIOT D.EATH NOTE FANS WHY ARE THERE SO MANY OF GHEM.#id love to make a post on tt abt this but i dont want to ostracise myself even though these people are fucking stupid #ohh but its abusive ohhh ohhh ohhhhh the power dynamic ohhh #I DONT CARE. IF ITS ENTERTAINING GIVE ME MORE??#out of every dn ship m.ikami/light is the one that appeals to me the most #'he manipulated him!!' GOOD I WANT MORE.#the m.ikami/light hate is actually the most bizarre thing to me HELLO. WTFFFFF WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT

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bunkernine · 1 year

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society if hoo had them at uni age and the lost trio went to chb and chiron is like "how tf are ANY of u alive and unclaimed". wilderness was just community college.

#on a serious note this changes a lot actually. annabeth and percy would not be in chb anymore so when percy goes missing #its like. a genuine possibility and fear because demigods don't make it that old. there is also some added time between tlo and tlh as well #further adding to jasons isolation as being even WEIRDER than everyone else. he also would've been praetor for longer so maybe the romans #wouldve cared more. this also does away with the plot hole of ppl not giving a shit that jason piper and leo (and dylan) straight up #dipped. introducing piper especially to a summer camp makes chb less appealing because they're too old for that and thus makes their #departure from chb make more sense in toa. yet also it opens up the possibility of new rome uni.... which i cannot see any reason as to why #leo would not go there!!!!! outside of being banned cuz he bombed new rome lol. but pipers sexuality arc works for college too!!! ur never #too old to find urself. but also this is the question of if you are able to relatively function in society (this is more for piper leo fran #and i guess percy) then why would you even fight this prophecy??? anyway lol them being college aged is perfect cuz percy is literally #going to a new place and having a new transition with new ppl... like u do in college LOL. now the question is would hazel still be 13. nic #is a lot older at this point and perhaps has the same age gap as bianca and him did 🤔 cant remember. but also don't know why hazel was 13 #in the first place lol. idk. in my college hoo she is just a senior in hs about to graduate from spqr and thinking about staying there or #possibly going to newru after seeing frank make the decision the previous year! SAD!#anyway in hoo. percy and annabeth are sophomores. frank and the lost trio are freshman.#but then in toa. percy annie frank and the lost trio are all graduating cuz percy got held back and Annabeth failed after tartarus fr.#but then also know that piper never went to newru and is adamant about going to mortal uni. and leo kills in newru but is bored. nvm i #forgot he died 🧍‍♂️ ummmmmm ok. ignore leo. and jason actually. so um. ok that really threw me off but are u getting it. that's when apollo #is like 'heeyyyyy i need help pwease 🥺' and they're all like 'dude.'#OK!#but also i ackowedge that this is a children's book and i am not its demographic so god be with you.

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wickershells · 3 months

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Kinda infuriating whenever someone enacts material tangible consequential harm against another person and the reaction is “I always knew it… they wrote a disturbing story”. Why are you even focusing on that at all

#an old mutual of mine (not on here) got exposed for sexually + emotionally abusing her boyfriend (among… many other things)#and someone said ‘this is the same person that tried to cancel me’ and it’s like yeah that was wrong. but also this has nothing to do with #you. as if any of those things are on the same level of hurt caused. as if that even deserves a mention #people keep trying to find ways to correlate interest in the macabre with abusive acts as if your golden retriever boyfriend is not just as #capable and likely of raping you as a man who has read lolita. there is no correlation; rape is symptomatic of society & culture #also what a slap in the face to victims lol. ‘I trusted them and they abused me’ ‘well I never trusted them!’ cool. I’ll go kill myself now #rape prevention does not look like circle-jerking about how psychic you are. nobody actually cares #log

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