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Your Brain Isn't Broken, It's Autistic: The Real Tea on the Lived Experience

hey tumblr. let's talk about autism.

not the textbook, puzzle-piece, "very special episode" version.

we're talking about the real, lived-in, day-to-day experience. the stuff that doesn't always make it into the pamphlets. this is for the newly diagnosed, the self-diagnosed, the questioning, and the allies who genuinely want to get it.

this is the infodump you've been looking for. it's about what it actually feels like to navigate a world that wasn't built for your brain's operating system.

we're diving deep into the social weirdness, the sensory chaos, the internal logic, and all the "plus ones" that tag along for the ride. this is the real tea.

for a more foundational look at the what-and-why of ASD, this helpful guide is a solid starting point.

okay, let's get into it.

1. Socializing on Hard Mode? Nah, Just a Different OS.

one of the biggest things people associate with autism is being "socially awkward." and yeah, the vibes can be off sometimes, but it's not a deficit. it's a difference.

imagine everyone else is running on Windows and you're running on Linux. both are powerful operating systems, but they don't always run the same programs or use the same commands. that's the autistic social experience in a nutshell.

The whole nonverbal cues thing is a lot.

neurotypicals have this whole second conversation happening underneath the words. it's in the eye contact, the little smiles, the tone shifts, the way they're standing. for an autistic brain, that's like trying to watch a movie while reading the subtitles in a different language and listening to a podcast at the same time. it's just too much data.

eye contact? it can feel physically painful. like someone is staring directly into your soul. it's not about being shy or dishonest. sometimes we have to look away to actually hear what you're saying.

"Why are you so literal?" bc why would you say something you don't mean?

the neurotypical world is built on a foundation of things people don't actually mean. "let's grab coffee sometime" is a social placeholder, not a plan. "that's an interesting idea" can mean "i hate it but i'm being polite."

for us, words often mean what they mean. we take things at face value. this can lead to us being seen as blunt or even rude, when really, we're just being direct and honest. we're not trying to start drama; we're trying to communicate clearly.

check out this in-depth resource if you want to know more about the diagnostic side of things.

Friendship, but make it autistic.

we absolutely want friends and deep connections. but the way we build them is different. forget small talk. it's a painful, pointless ritual.

real connection happens over special interests. you like the deep lore of a specific fantasy series? i can talk about it for five hours straight. that's friendship. it's built on a shared passion and genuine, unfiltered enthusiasm.

this is based on a concept called monotropism: the autistic brain's tendency to have a very focused, tunnel-vision attention system. when we're into something (or someone), we are really into it.

Social Life Hacks: For Us & Our Allies

If You're an Ally: Just Say What You Mean

Be Direct, Pls: skip the sarcasm, idioms, and hints. it's a kindness. instead of "wow, the trash is really full," try "can you please take out the trash?" it removes the mental gymnastics.

Assume Good Intentions: if we seem blunt or don't make eye contact, it's not a personal attack. we're probably just being honest or trying to concentrate. assume we're doing our best.

Ask About Communication: some of us are way better over text than on the phone. asking "what's the best way to chat with you?" is a huge sign of respect for our processing needs.

If You're Autistic: Find Your People

Scripting is Valid: it's okay to have pre-planned lines for common situations (ordering food, answering the phone). it's not being fake; it's a smart way to save your precious brain energy. it's a life hack.

Lean Into Your Spinterests: your special interests are a beacon. online forums, discord servers, clubs, conventions that's where you'll find other people who get it. your people are out there.

Self-Advocacy is a Vibe: it's okay to say, "hey, i'm autistic and i need things to be a bit more direct," or "eye contact is hard for me, but i'm listening." telling people what you need is a power move.

2. The Sensory World: Why Your Brain's Volume Knob is So Weird

the autistic sensory experience is a wild ride. imagine your brain has a mixing board for all your senses, but the labels are worn off and some of the sliders are stuck at 0 or 11.

it's a constant state of extremes. this is because our brains can either over-register (hypersensitivity) or under-register (hyposensitivity) sensory input.

Hypersensitivity: When the World is at Full Volume

this is when your brain lets everything in. sounds, sights, and feelings that NTs filter out can be overwhelming, distracting, or even physically painful.

Sound: the hum of the fridge is a roaring monster. you can hear the electricity in the walls. a crowded cafe is a literal wall of painful noise.

Sight: fluorescent lights are searing torture devices. a cluttered room is visual chaos that makes your brain short-circuit. busy patterns on a carpet can make you feel dizzy.

Touch: the tag on a shirt feels like a shard of glass. a light, unexpected touch can feel like an electric shock. the texture of certain foods (looking at you, mushy bananas) is a full-body violation.

Smell: someone's perfume from across the room can be suffocating. the smell of cleaning products can give you an instant headache.

this constant sensory assault leads to sensory overload, which is the fast track to a meltdown or a shutdown. it's your brain's emergency brake.

Hyposensitivity: "Is This Thing On?"

this is the opposite. your brain isn't getting enough sensory data, so you actively seek it out. this is "sensory seeking," and it's all about getting the input your body craves.

Sound: you love loud music with deep bass. you thrive in noisy environments. you might make your own sounds (humming, singing, vocal stimming) just to feel something.

Sight: you're mesmerized by spinning objects, flashing lights, and super bright, saturated colors.

Touch: you crave deep pressure. this is why weighted blankets, tight hugs, and even crashing into things can feel so good and calming. it helps your brain know where your body is. chewing on things is also a big one.

Taste/Smell: you love extremely spicy, sour, or crunchy foods. you need that intense flavor profile to even register that you're eating.

and yes, you can be hypersensitive to some things (sound) and hyposensitive to others (touch) at the same time. it's a custom cocktail of sensory chaos.

The "Hidden" Senses are a Big Deal

it's not just the main five. two other senses are key to the autistic experience:

Proprioception (Body GPS): this is your sense of where your body is in space. if this is off, you might be clumsy, bump into everything, or not know how hard to press when you're writing.

Interoception (Internal Dashboard): this is how you read your body's internal signals. if this is wonky, you might not realize you're hungry, thirsty, or have to pee until it's an absolute emergency. it also makes it super hard to identify your own emotions. you feel something big and uncomfortable, but you can't tell if it's anger, fear, or just needing a snack.

Sensory Survival Kit: IYKYK Edition

Tame the Overload (Create Your Bubble)

Light Control is Non-Negotiable: ditch the "big light." use lamps with warm bulbs. get dimmer switches. wear sunglasses inside if you need to. no shame.

Headphones are Your Best Friend: noise-canceling headphones are not a trend; they are a medical device. loop earplugs are also a lifesaver for filtering sound without blocking it completely.

Curate Your Comfort: cut every tag out of every piece of clothing. find your brand of seamless socks and buy 20 pairs. it's okay to have a "uniform" of safe, comfortable clothes.

Build Your Sensory Go-Bag

This is your emergency kit. a small bag with your essentials: headphones, sunglasses, your favorite fidget toy, a chew necklace, a calming scent (like a lavender roller), and a safe snack (like crunchy pretzels). never leave home without it.

Let Yourself Stim: stimming (rocking, hand-flapping, pacing, fidgeting) is not weird or bad. it's a natural, healthy, and incredibly effective way to self-regulate. it's how your body deals with being over or under-stimulated. don't let anyone make you feel bad for it. organizations like the Autism Self Advocacy Network (ASAN) are great for learning more about stimming acceptance.

3. Inside the Autistic Brain: Routines, Glitches, and Big Feels

so much of the autistic experience is internal. it's about the internal architecture that dictates how we handle the world.

Routines are Not a Quirk. They are a Lifeline.

to an outsider, our love for routine can look rigid or obsessive. but from the inside, routines are a life-saving anchor in a chaotic world.

the world is unpredictable and sensorially overwhelming. a routine creates a predictable path through the day. it means we don't have to waste our limited battery life on small decisions like what to eat for breakfast or what order to get dressed in.

that frees up cognitive energy to deal with the hard stuff, like a last-minute change of plans at work. a broken routine isn't an "inconvenience." it can throw our entire system into chaos and trigger major dysregulation.

Executive Function? My Brain's CEO is on an Unscheduled Vacation.

executive functions are the skills that let you plan, organize, start tasks, and manage your time. it's your brain's project manager. for many of us, that manager is brilliant but also perpetually overwhelmed and easily distracted.

this is executive dysfunction, and it looks like:

Task Initiation Failure (aka The Wall of Awful): you want to do the thing. you need to do the thing. but there's an invisible wall between you and the thing. it's not laziness. it's a brain glitch.

Planning is Hard: the instruction "clean your room" is meaningless. it's too big. we need it broken down into "1. pick up clothes. 2. put clothes in hamper. 3. clear off desk."

Time Blindness: we have two units of time: "now" and "not now." gauging how long something will take is a superpower we do not possess. this is why we're often late or ridiculously early.

Object Permanence (for tasks): if something isn't right in front of my face, it ceases to exist. this applies to chores, emails, and sometimes even friends.

Emotional Regulation is a Full-Time Job

we feel things. a lot. our emotions are dialed up to 11. joy is ecstatic. sadness is a deep abyss. but managing these huge feelings is a massive challenge.

Alexithymia is a thing: this is the clinical term for "i feel a very strong emotion but i have no idea what it is." it's like your internal dashboard is flashing a giant red warning light, but the label has fallen off.

Meltdowns vs. Shutdowns: this is what happens when the system overloads. it's an involuntary neurological response, not a tantrum.

Meltdown: the "fight or flight" response. it's an external explosion of distress. crying, yelling, hitting things. it's the brain's pressure valve releasing.

Shutdown: the "freeze" response. it's an internal retreat. we go quiet, nonverbal, and might seem completely zoned out. it's the brain pulling the plug to prevent further damage.

Boss Up Your Brain: Life Admin & Emotion Hacks

Get Your Executive Function in Order

Externalize Everything: your brain is for having ideas, not holding them. use sticky notes, phone alarms, visual planners, to-do list apps. get it all out of your head and into the physical world.

Embrace the Spoon Theory: this is a classic neurodivergent metaphor. you start the day with a set number of "spoons" (energy units). every task costs spoons. socialising costs a lot. a quiet day at home costs less. when you're out of spoons, you're done. it's a brilliant way to explain your energy limits. you can read the original essay at But You Don't Look Sick.

Body Doubling: can't start a task? have someone else just be in the room with you. they don't have to help. their quiet presence can be enough to get your brain over the "wall of awful."

Master Your Emotional Thermostat

Name It to Tame It: get an emotion wheel chart. when you're feeling a big, confusing feeling, look at the wheel. just finding the word for it ("oh, this is apprehension") can make it less scary.

Have an Escape Plan: know your personal signs of overload (getting hot, talking faster, hands tensing up). when you feel it starting, have a pre-planned exit strategy. "i need to go to the bathroom" is a universally accepted escape hatch.

Create a "Nest": have a designated safe space in your home. fill it with your comfort items: weighted blanket, soft lighting, headphones, a good book, your favorite stim toy. this is your charging station.

4. The "Plus Ones": When Autism Brings Friends (ADHD, Anxiety, etc.)

autism loves to roll with an entourage. it's super common to have other conditions hanging out, too. knowing about these is key to understanding your whole experience.

Anxiety & Depression: The Usual Suspects

anxiety is basically autism's best friend. i mean, if you lived in a world that was constantly too loud, confusing, and demanding, you'd be anxious too. masking (pretending to be neurotypical to fit in) is a direct cause of chronic anxiety.

depression often follows. feeling constantly misunderstood, isolated, and exhausted from the sheer effort of existing can, unsurprisingly, lead to depression.

AuDHD: The Ultimate Neurospicy Combo

ADHD and autism have a huge overlap. so many of us have both. welcome to the world of AuDHD. it's a life of contradictions.

understanding ADHD is a game-changer for many autistics, even without a formal diagnosis. resources from orgs like CHADD can be super helpful.

Tummy Troubles & Sleepy Struggles

the brain-gut connection is real. chronic GI issues (constipation, food sensitivities, stomach pain) are incredibly common for us. so are sleep problems. our brains often don't want to shut down, leading to insomnia and wonky sleep schedules.

Comparing the Vibes: Autism vs. ADHD vs. AuDHD

So, What's the Vibe Here?

the autistic lived experience isn't a tragedy. it's not a puzzle to be solved. it's a different neurotype. a different way of being human.

it's the joy of a perfectly textured food, the deep comfort of a weighted blanket, the pure bliss of infodumping about your special interest to someone who actually wants to listen. it's seeing the patterns and details that everyone else misses.

your brain isn't broken. it's autistic.

and the best thing we can do for ourselves and for each other is to stop trying to force the Linux brain to run Windows. instead, let's get curious about what it can do. let's build a world with more accessibility, more acceptance, and a lot more grace.

you are not alone in this. your experience is valid. welcome to the club.

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alertarchitect · 9 months ago

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I... Think I'm experiencing one of those moments of wistful nostalgia that leads to the road of constantly missing and wishing for "the good ol' days," even though I know that line of thinking is what leads to a lot of the "look at how great the US was before black people could vote! Hell, before women could vote!!" nonsense conservative reactionaries spout, but... There's just something weird about feeling something and not realizing what it is until you've almost gone through it completely. Especially since there's this weird sense of mourning tied to it, which you'll understand in a bit if you choose to read on. I'll put a full explanation of what I mean below the cut so my nonsense rambling won't fuck with your tumblr scrolling. CW, I'm going to be talking about Rooster Teeth, which involves some of the controversies that came up towards the end of its lifespan, so if that stuff (including discussions of homophobia, grooming, and abuses of power for sexual favors) triggers your trauma response and/or you were a victim of certain parties who were fired from the company for good reason in the last few years of RT (if you know, you know, and if you don't, well I'll get into it under the cut), feel free to skip this for your own safety.

So, I was a Rooster Teeth fan in one way or another for a very long time. I first watched Red vs. Blue when I was, admittedly, far too young to do so (I was born in 2000, and I was watching it on YouTube on the first iPod touch I owned that had the YouTube app back when the icon for YouTube was still meant to look like an old CRT TV... Yeah, far too young for that show lmao), around 2010-ish got into Achievement Hunter thanks to the Halo Reach Fails of the Weak series, which lead to their Minecraft series, then I had a massive hyperfixation on RWBY (though I didn't realize it was a hyperfixation due to being very uneducated on the ADHD I knew I had because I was a kid, was scared out of agreeing to get medicated by my mother when I was diagnosed at around 6-7 years old if I'm remembering the time frame correctly, and was taught the idea that you "grow out of" being neurodivergent) for the first 4-5 seasons or so. I was even a Rooster Teeth FIRST member for years when I started working.

Now, obviously, I took a bit of a step back from watching them around 2020 or so when the controversy around Ryan Haywood being a grooming creep who allegedly succeeded at having physical relations with minors (while married with kids btw) using the power dynamic of them being AH fans as an entry point to conversation and a way to coerce them came to light - and I ended up staying with watching RT in general, though I was far more into Achievement Hunter in particular at the time, because I felt they had shown that the people around Ryan didn't know he was a piece of shit and genuinely felt disgusted, betrayed, and overall appalled at what they learned about him. I also ended up maintaining my FIRST subscription, which was yearly anyway so I couldn't have really paused it at the time since they already had my money, but I decided to stay with supporting them because I liked the content and getting the early videos, exclusive series, and other stuff through the app and website.

Fast forward to late 2022. Now, at this time, I was dealing with the massively first-world problem of liking the content RT was producing, though not as much as I used to because things had changed a lot and I missed a lot of the "IRL fucking around in our offices" stuff that seemed to have gone completely by the wayside by that point, but I was also up-to-date on all of the stuff on their site that I cared about watching and so I started watching more stuff on YouTube again since, once I had started paying for FIRST, I had basically made RT into my primary content source to get my money's worth out of it. I listened to a lot of the podcasts that were kinda branched out from the AH space, such as Off Topic, Face Jam, and F**kFace (no, I'm not self-censoring, that is how the name of that podcast was stylized), the exclusive stuff related to those shows offered through the subscription, basically all AH content, and more.

I was basically current with all of it, because earlier in 2020 I was kinda in friend-group-limbo, where I was finally trying to find groups of friends away from just being in groups that I was introduced to by my sister where everyone just knew me as her younger sibling, and it was only around early 2022 that I actually started getting into the consistent friend groups I have now that I would consider some of the people I'm closest to in my life, including the group that I met my boyfriend in - partially thanks to a somewhat-depression-fuelled obsession with Destiny 2 that started shortly after the release of the expansion The Witch Queen. Due to my mostly-friendless life before then, not really knowing anyone IRL outside of family, the one friend group I thought I'd be able to stay in (a FFXIV FC I stumbled my way into) turning out to be fairly transphobic leading to me just straight-up ghosting them and quitting that game, and all of this being around the time that I finally quit League of Legends - which was both a toxic presence in my life that I was no longer enjoying but was also the main avenue I had for meeting and hanging out with friends - I ended up spending most of my free time thanks to the pandemic on a few, specific things. Those being 1) Zelda BotW on the Switch I purchased with my first-ever tax return since I had only started working in 2019, 2) my mostly fruitless-at-the-time pursuit of finding people who actually liked and knew me for me, not just my association with my sister, and 3) watching lots, and I mean LOTS, of videos on Rooster Teeth.

Seriously, through both of my failed attempts to go to college, the COVID-19 lockdowns, multiple personal events that led to me being pushed out of former friend groups not-so-subtly by my sister as I was trying to be a part of her groups a lot thanks to me not really knowing how to find people to interact with IRL or online for a variety of reasons, losing multiple good jobs that paid me much more than I get at this shitty retail job thanks to my own inability to handle having a full-time job without being constantly late to shifts and shit (seriously, working full-time hours makes me feel like absolute shit and I don't know if I'd ever be able to actually handle going back to a full-time job, which is why I really want to try and set things up to start streaming and turn that into something to supplement my part-time work enough to be able to live off of it and get away from my mother who is... not great), and multiple short-lived relationships that I still mourned over fairly heavily (to be fair, I had figured out I was pansexual, but I only realized in the past couple of months thanks to my BF that I'm demiromantic... plus I just didn't find any potential partners who understood my troubles with not being able to constantly message back and forth 24/7)... Watching a bunch of Rooster Teeth content was my comfort space, even when I didn't actually have my own space due to cramped living conditions for about a year at one point. It was what greeted me at the end of a long day of work, what got a chuckle or two out of me at my most depressed, what really defined (to me) some of the humor I love to this day of just friends fucking around and doing bits, I could forget some of the serious shit in the world that was going on for just a short time with the nonsensical stuff that just went into straight-up weird territory that really started rearing its head with the Morning Show Show (but was very visible with stuff like Last Laugh), and more. So I watched it all, voraciously, insatiably. I was caught up on everything until early 2022, when I started getting into Destiny 2 and actually, y'know, having friends again, so I missed a video here or there I'd catch up on later, usually as something to listen to as I went to sleep.

Then Kdin Jenzen made her post detailing all of the horrifically homophobic and transphobic bullshit she dealt with during her time working there, none of which I knew about because it had happened during times I was either too young to fully remember or during times I wasn't really watching RT. A "nickname" used for years (during which time people knew she was queer, btw, though she hadn't come out as trans yet and idk if even she realized that specific detail at the time) that was born from the f-slur. Horrific crunch that basically everyone in the company was subject to, constantly, which didn't change even after she was hospitalized with fucking pneumonia. She wasn't getting credited for videos she worked on. Then, she came out as trans, and the treatment got worse, where she'd deal with the same levels of overwork and crunch time while getting isolated off in a corner to do her work because "people had no idea how to deal with a trans woman," only there to do far too much work while simultaneously getting pulled out like a trophy as if to say "See? We're inclusive!!!" despite her horrible treatment and isolation.

In short, even though there were "a handful of good people" as she put it (with who being apparent by who she gave positive responses to at the time when they publicly apologized for their past behavior - some noting they had done so privately in the past and felt a public apology was still in order - with others being given rather harsh ones, including Geoff Ramsey, a founder whom she called out for never using the power he had as a founder of the company and as someone very high up in the company to do anything to stop the bullshit she and so many others dealt with at RT over the years), the company itself was absolute dogshit. So, I did what anyone should do in that situation - I felt absolutely sick to my stomach because I felt as if I, a queer person, had been duped for years on end by an inclusive PR image, set my FIRST subscription to never renew again, couldn't even stomach watching what they released during the time I could still watch ad-free until my subscription expired, pulled all of my RT merch out of my closet (all of which I ended up donating to a local Goodwill except for one shirt, though there's another one I regret getting rid of now), and proceeded to unfollow a lot of the RT people I had been following for years at that point en masse, with the exceptions of those Kdin personally responded well to.

Fast forward to now. I'm going to assume we all know that Rooster Teeth started the process of being fully shut down by Warner Media earlier this year, partially due to low revenue, partially because I don't think Warner could stomach having anything media-related they own have content anywhere that wasn't on HBO Max. As of now, the website is basically fully non-functioning, with just a farewell video and a simple goodbye message iirc. The only way to get many videos that were FIRST-member exclusive over the years is via the Internet Archive, and with recent rulings, that may very well be in jeopardy if the people who end up with the various RT IPs decide to have them pulled for one reason or another. Yet, because of a tangent in a conversation I had with my boyfriend after playing some Warframe, I started wondering what had happened to the various people and channels I used to follow...

So I went down a bit of a rabbit hole. I'm even following some of the ones that were decent people at a bad company that have gone independent, sometimes buying the old RT IPs they were associated with, now... but something just feels off. I felt empty. And now... I realize what's going on. I'm feeling this sense of nostalgia for a specific period of time in the history of Rooster Teeth's content production, during which I may have been at one of the lowest points of my life, but those videos were a massive source of solace during. I'm also grieving over the loss of a fucking company that I didn't even really care about anymore, but in some part of my mind I kind of did because of how formative some of the videos it produced were to me. I'm watching the post-mortem of a company that helped define so much of what we know as the modern internet thanks to its start as one of the last vestiges of the old internet before everything became overly monetized and corporate, for better or for worse - months after everyone else that still cared has already processed it.

I'm grieving over the final, 100% irreversible end of one of the last things that - again, for better or for worse - was a constant source of being able to see something new that fit within formats I was used to seeing since I was a kid.

If I wanted to see an actual let's play that had more than the bare minimum of editing done for a VoD that isn't just constant, over-the-top bullshit, had actual interaction between the people in it that showed they were at least work friends, that had all of the POVs in one video instead of needing to hop to 17 different VoD channels to see everything... Those videos were what I would turn to, more often than not. Like I said, new videos but in formats I loved. Now... even though I haven't watched anything like the old AH videos in almost 2 years since Kdin's post, I'm feeling this... Gap. A void. If I want to watch gameplay, chances are it'll be a VoD of someone I like watching, yes, but something like that lightning-in-a-bottle of the old AH stuff where everyone was in a room together and you didn't have to watch multiple VoDs to see everything you wanted to see... I genuinely don't know if that really exists anywhere anymore.

And thus, I grieve a part of my childhood and young adulthood that is gone forever. Sure, I can buy an external SSD and put copies of all of the old videos I liked on there for me to watch whenever I want, such as RvB or a bunch of the old AH stuff (I could probably even find the FIRST stuff that was never on YouTube if I really tried), it doesn't change the fact that, though some vestiges of what once was will live on through different podcasts and channels made by the few decent people that were left in the ashes of the dumpster fire that was Rooster Teeth, new stuff made like that is, quite possibly, gone forever unless someone were to get enough money scraped together to be able to try and do something like it again - and it's unlikely it'd make enough back to be around for long in the modern age of content creation and consumption. Hell, to my (fairly limited, admittedly) knowledge, even before RT was shut down, the main channel they owned that I'm nostalgic for now was essentially shut down - Achievement Hunter was retired and the people that remained made something called DogBark.

It's a part of the unending march of time - things come and go, no matter how much of a constant they may seem in the background of your life, even if you aren't engaging with them how you used to. But even knowing that... This one's hurting a bit as I finally process it. Especially as I take the time to write a post about it to be able to get these thoughts out of my head and off of my chest without directly weighing down those around me with my glum rambling about a shit company I didn't even watch anymore going under. It just feels... wrong, in some way. Hell, I'm anticapitalist as shit, but because of how formative those videos were to me for so long, I'm mourning the shutdown of a shitty fucking company that was a WARNER MEDIA SUBSIDIARY!!!

The human mind is a hell of a thing to have to deal with sometimes, huh...

#nostalgia #rooster teeth #rooster teeth shutdown #processing something way after it happens isn't fun #but hey it's happening and I'm dealing with it now I guess #didn't even realize how much this COULD possibly affect me until tonight as I write this at...#5 in the morning holy shit I've been banging away at this aimless ramble for 2 hours wtf #Anyway gonna schedule this one for a more reasonable time because I weirdly want people to see it and I don't really know why #but time to sleep for a good while... though maybe not too long because I'm going to need to get my sleep back on track #for a 9 hour shift at the store I work at this Wednesday #which is now tomorrow I guess

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