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medu-nefer · 8 months

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Can I know what pattern you used to made the little runaan and ethari

sure thing! (patterns under the cut)

disclaimer: I don't have patterns for Runaan's clothes, just pointers, because I was winging it at that point x_x

EDIT: if anyone wants to try to make these and struggles at some point (or needs those additional patterns), feel free to just reach out to me and I'll do what I can to help. Don't worry, you won't be overstepping at all and I'll more than gladly help a fellow TDP fan!

okay, so for the BODIES I used a pattern from a book called "Crochet Cute Dolls With Mix-and-Match Outfits" by Miya:

it's a purchasable book so I'd rather not share it publicly 👀

I'm sharing my own patterns below:

EARS

Sc 4 in a magic ring (4). Slst into the first st and ch 1.

Sc in each st (4). Slst and ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc (6). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (6). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 2, inc 2, sc 2 (8). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (8). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 3, inc 2, sc 3 (10). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (10). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 3, dec 2, sc 3 (8). Slst and ch 1.

Fold the ear in half and sc 4 the two sides together (4). Fasten off, leaving a long tail for sewing.

HORNS

Using 2,5 mm hook size: sc 4 in a magic ring (4). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (4). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc (6). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (6). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc, dec (7). Slst & ch 1.

Switching to 3,0 mm hook size: sc, inc 2, sc, dec, sc (8). Slst & ch 1.

Sc, inc 2, sc, dec 2 (8). Slst & ch 1.

Sc in each st (8). Slst & ch 1.

Dec, sc, inc 2, sc, dec (8). Slst & ch 1.

Dec, inc 3, sc, dec (9). Slst & ch 1.

Sc 2, (in hdc: inc, sc, inc, sc, inc), dec (11). Slst & ch 1.

Switching 3,5 mm hook size: sc 2, (dec, sc) x3 (8). Slst & ch 1.

Slst 3, sc 5 (8). Fasten off, leaving a long tail for sewing the horn onto the head.

I also used a little bit of wire to help accentuate the curvature of the horns. I did play with increases and decreases in the pattern so they do curve on their own but I thought the wire might be a nice failsafe.

Here are patterns for all of ETHARI'S CLOTHES:

It was my first time making patterns and I was in a bit of a rush to finish him before his birthday so they're not perfect, but if you ever need help with them, just hmu, we'll figure it out.

I first made his boots and then his pants in order to make sure I didn't mess up the length. Then the crop top and finally the belt to fill the space in between. Now I'm thinking that perhaps removing one row of single crochets from the crop top and adding it to the belt might give him a look more accurate to his original design but I think the way I did it he also turned out okay so it's just an option.

There are clasps at the back of his crop top and belt, and on Runaan's vest. The flap is sewn onto the belt but if you want it to be removable, just add more rows in purple and stuff it in between the belt and the doll while closing the clasp.

Unfortunately, for RUNAAN'S CLOTHES, the notes were a mess and I don't really have anything. They're similar to Ethari's with slight changes:

his pants don't have the increases, they're just sc for ~7 or 8 rows, then joining and continuing just like with Ethari's (also hmu if you need a diagram showing how to join the pant legs);

his boots are the same as Ethari's up to row 12, in row 13 I did bigger stitches in the middle - go from sc to hdc, then dc, back to hdc and continue with sc (if you want that part to be higher, go sc, hdc, dc, tc, dc, hdc, sc); then for row 14 change colour to brown and slst around;

his vest is a foundation chain of the desired length (I think I did about 36 but it ended up being a bit too loose - it all depends on your own doll's size), then 4 rows of dc - but in the 3rd row I did 2 dc-2-tog (about 8-9 sts from both edges, right below the arms holes, 1 per arm hole), then in row 5 I did ~8 dc, then ch 4/5, skip 3/4 (arm hole), dc 8, ch 4/5, skip 4/5 and dc in each st until the end of the row. Join yarn at the edge of the arm hole and ch ~8 and slst into the other corner for the double strap. (I have a similar diagram to show more or less what's going on)

PENDANTS

In purple, sc 6 in a magic ring, but while doing the 6th, do an invisible colour change to gray (6).

Slst around (6). Slst into the first st and fasten off, weave in the ends.

Then, join yellow yarn in that last slst and ch 12 (add or remove chains to get the desired length) and fasten off but leave a long tail end to tie it at the back. Repeat the same process in the same slst. Then, you can tie the ends at the back, make knots and trim.

HORN CUFFS

Ch 14. Slst into the first ch, ch 1.

Sc 14 (14). Slst into the first st and ch 1. Flip so you work normally.

Sc 3, dec, sc 4, dec, sc 3 (12). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (12). Slst and ch 1.

Sc 4, hdc, dc 2, hdc, sc 4 (12). Slst and ch 1.

Slst around (12). Fasten off and weave in the ends. For Ethari's cuffs, make a few vertical sts in turquoise somewhere in the middle at the front for the gems (wrap the yarn vertically a few times around a stitch).

HORN TIPS (ETHARI)

Sc 5 in a magic ring (5). Slst into the first st and ch 1.

Sc in each st (5). Slst and ch 1.

Inc, sc 2, inc, sc (7). Slst and ch 1.

Sc in each st (7). Slst. Fasten off and weave in the ends. You might have to stretch it out with something like a pen tip to make sure they fit.

#crochet #crochet patterns #this is a mess im sorry #tdp crochet #ruthari crochet #ethari crochet #runaan crochet

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storytellingdreamer · 1 year

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Post-Mando S3 thoughts

Mando S3 feels enjoyable but hollow - and I've figured out why.

On the whole, I enjoyed S3. There were so many good bits. I wrote lists of my favourite parts after watching each episode - I'll share them here later. I think, though, the reason I enjoyed it may come down to a) having relatively low expectations; and b) being determined to enjoy it, to search for the fun bits rather than focusing on the irritating ones. Focusing on the irritating bits just wears you out after a while, and I want to actually enjoy Star Wars stuff, not just whinge about it.

That being said, I've been thinking... and I think I've cracked the problem of why S3 feels hollow. Yes, inconsistent storytelling, creative decisions, etc etc. I'm talking about the result of all that. They tried to cram two seasons' worth of content into one, and half-arsed both seasonal arcs to do so.

More explanation and exploration of this idea below. I'm trying to keep this post and my overall Mando tumblr content relatively light atm, hence the read more. Overall it was a really fun season, and hey - we have two seasons' worth of ideas in it we can expand upon in fic now! Plus properly episodic Mando-and-Child season(s?) to look forward to!

Explanation of "two seasons in one" comment:

It started with their ill-conceived decision to put 1.5 episodes of The Mandalorian into TBOBF. If they'd made those parts of S3 proper, we could have spent the rest of S3 doing episodal storylines plus an overarching plot of Din's understanding of himself and the covert. Then saved the Mandalore plot for S4.

S3 would have then had room for stuff like the Lizzo and Jack Black episode, plus lots of Din-trospection, information/ explanations about The Way and Din's Covert, and some minor-character-building-to-major parts from people like Bo-Katan, Axe-Woves, and Paz Vizsla (and the Armourer, Greef Karga, that NR pilot guy, etc. etc. etc.). For the Mandos, only the Covert stays around longer than one episode though, this season.

The climactic arc of S3 would be the pirate battle for Nevarro - before the Armourer tells Din he still needs to go to the Living Waters if he wants to be redeemed... sending us to "The Mines of Mandalore" for S4E1.

If anyone wants to collaborate with me on writing those two seasons as fic, hmu.

#the mandalorian #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 #din djarin #the covert

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paradubolical · 2 months

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guys I need an alpha reader like pronto

writing this sick ass creepypasta right

but here's the lowdown. I need some wisemen to give me guidance, because my opinion of my own writing is obviously biased. and I want this to be really good.

so I need some dudes to read it while I'm working and give me feedback as I progress!

what is an alpha reader

it's like a beta but for wips lol

cws for descriptions(this means the process, not just mentions.) and mentions of suicide, death, body horror and gore, police brutality, fear, swearing! it is a story designed to shock and is probably fine for the average horror enjoyer but not for those who aren't used to it

if you typically beta read fanfic you're still allowed ofcc just use your own discretion here :] I don't want anyone to choose to read this and then get freaked out by it

yeah anyway pls hmu 🙏🙏 and I will share the doc w u I'm in desperate need rn no application necessary just sit back and read ts

#beta reader #alpha reader #reading #writing #writer #creepypasta #horror #horror writing #creepypasta writing #books #pls help #beta request

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parkxsohee · 9 months

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hi hi hello everyone !! super excited to be here (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ my name is mira (28, she/her) and i'm here with park sohee, jennie kim fc, your resident it girl with a gummy smile and an impossible hunger for fame ☆ she is most known for being the center of mirrorworld/myworld and for always ranking among the most sought out idols by popular brands, and she is also the older sister of @/parkxsora. you can read everything about sohee here ! below the cut i'll leave some general ideas for interactions - please like this post or hit me up on disc*rd at soverenyi to plot !

sohee was with everlast entertainment in the years 2015-2021. i'm sure there were a lot of rumors back then about how it was her sister who was originally scouted and sohee was kinda just pushed into this life out of nowhere so if your muse wants to give sohee a hard time for it pls hmu

i would love for her to have a friend in secret garden that was reaaaally excited when it was announced that mirrorworld would redebut there. would be cute to plot this muse showing sohee around the building and whatnot ♡

party friends !! sohee is very outgoing and loves the night life !!!

her birthday is in a week and as a good leo she's making sure everyone around her knows well in advance. pls buy her gifts or she's gonna sulk in my brain for ages

actually if anyone wants to throw her a surprise party or something that would be so fun

sohee can be tunnel visioned into her own career and lose focus of those around her though. perhaps she was very close with in early debut days with your muse but as she got more and more famous she stopped hitting your muse up and they resent her for it?

she is a HARD worker tho and has probably had her fair share of breakdowns in private. maybe your muse has seen her at her worst and now holds it against her?

i want sohee to start working on a solo comeback (after 4 years woo !). sora is going to do the choreography, but any other producing spot is open so far !

would also love to plot some past relationships for her ! she will date anyone she feels is just as ambitious as herself, though her feelings for others usually burn bright and hard and die down quickly.

oh and i would also love for her to have a crush on your muse and your muse is just. not into it. and she can't figure out why. can you tell she's spoiled yet

sohee is very supportive of her baby sister's career, so if your muse is friends with sora, they can know each other through that as well !

#thefourintro #･ﾟ･ﾟ·:｡･ﾟﾟ･✦𝕠𝕠𝕔

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ddarker-dreams · 1 year

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OKAY NOT AN ASK BUT IVE NEVER EVEN WATCHED HXH AND YOUVE SINGLEHANDEDLY MADE ME OBSESSED WITH CHROLLO. I AM BARKING AND MEOWING FOR THIS MAN. like the dialogue is so natural and i can perfectly visualize it in my head. i’ve literally spent all of the last three days reading and rereading your fics like holy balls they’re so good. u are an amazing author thank u for ur service (also as an enby i really appreciate that you write gender neutral readers :D) OKAY THAnK YOU HAVE A NICE DAY

THREE DAYS ... WHEEZES ... omggg thank you for dedicating so much time to reading my chrollo stories!!! especially since you haven't watched/read hxh?? i hope you'll consider giving it a shot at some point 👀 it is my all time favorite anime and i swear by it. chrollo is such an interesting character, if you like his vibe in my fics, you'll enjoy him even more in canon!! he's got this enigmatic thing going on that just draws in your attention. although this could be said for almost the entire cast of characters in hxh... they're all so amazing that it blows my mind.

thank you again!!! and Ah,, i always feel very worried about how i write gender-neutral readers since i’ve seen some discussion around it not always being done the best. i’d honestly really appreciate it if anyone had like. some resources they want to share about how to do it better/some common pitfalls to avoid. i’m able to remain cognizant of avoiding things that’d allude to reader’s body type/race, but when it comes to doing gender-neutral readers well, i’m sure there are some blind spots i’m not aware of... so please hmu if there’s any advice on this floating around out there. i’d greatly appreciate it.

THANK YOU PRECIOUS ANON 💖💖 this is actually a pretty accurate assessment of chrollo. the guy is chill while simultaneously having no chill, if that makes sense. a paradox of sorts. ice cream would do him some good.

I’LL START YELLING TOO !!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH <3

‘slimy yet pretty’ i love this description of chrollo omg. it’s so true. i’m so happy to see you guys enjoying my chrollo you have no idea ... writing for him is such a joy, i’m glad you guys are having fun reading his stories!! i’m not sure how to describe it well, but there’s this different Vibe from dark content stories that take place in modern times. i love writing for genshin, but i use so much modern lingo that i sometimes want to scream when i remember those idioms haven’t been invented yet. it’s okay though. that’s what my hxh writing is for.

genshin has me looking stuff up like “how do ink and quills work”. y’know. just to make sure i don’t miss any details.

#falls to the ground ..#you guys are such a blessing <3 #sweet asks #answered #Anonymous

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rennisaturate · 9 months

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open to: anyone relationship: self explanatory me thinks but if u wanna plot it out hmu ✨ about kumara ✨

kumara held a small basket full of brownies, a bottle of her favorite vodka, some candy and other treats along with pre-written notes of apology as she walked around the floor of her tiny apartment complex at three in the morning. her son was finally asleep, he’d been having a bad week with sleep training and had been screaming at the top of his tiny tiny lungs on and off for the past three hours. she looked as anyone would expect to look from having to put an ornery infant to sleep: a total mess. but she wanted to apologize before she knocked out for the night herself. she’d placed things outside of each door with a note for those who didn’t answer, and had readied to do the same with her neighbor she actually shared a wall with. they had just moved in the week before, and she hadn’t gotten to see them yet. this wasn’t exactly how she wanted to introduce herself, so part of her hoped they wouldn’t open up…

#[ this is a repost but shhhhh ]#open starter #indie rp #starter:kumara #convo:kumara #c:middleofthenight #(( child of eve || human ))

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yassifiedwelder · 11 months

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I have been brainstorming soooo much for this #Spidersona thing I have been doing research and working out character arcs and designs and back stories with friends. I really want music to have a major roll in this. I’m thinking I could create a playlist and mess around with those Spotify codes to create a code in the book each person could scan and that song could play as they read through the next couple of panels.

I think I’m mainly posting about this to record it. I’ve never felt this was about a project or idea and I really think I could flush this out into something tangible. I technically have all of the knowledge and skill to work through this and create a physical copy of this graphic novel/idk “interactive” multimedia experience lmao.

Anywho, if anyone happens to see this please drop some songs/playlists for inspiration below. Go obscure, I’m talking like 3 weird recordings on YouTube from a German club obscure, but also I don’t mind the classics (I do plan to have a badass helicopter scene involving all of these mutant freedom fighters to #CCR .)

Here’s some songs I have ideas for rn

THESE ARE THE VIBESSS!

If anyone bothers to read this far hello! Welcome to this virtual project log. I have a tendency to ramble when I’m in a creative mood so after I have that time I like to sit back and reflect on what I’ve learned and write it all down and share it looking for comments questions and ideas. So I hope you like it!

The first video is the amount of pages so far, (the post right before this) I am planning on trying to digitize and rewrite the first “Issue” as a readable post on here so I’m gonna get started on that’s soon. I’m taking a lot of inspirations from Zine culture and alternative comics, body horror ideas from things like the Fly and Johnny the Homocidal maniac, all set to a soundtrack built off of the foundations of rock and the oddity’s of today. The color palate is as if the album cover for the Mountains Goats’ “Goths” came to life, with a formatting similar to one of my favorite books “My favorite thing is monsters” (look it uppppp)

Also, HEY MR. MOUSE! I’m not trying to make money off this, I’m just trying to make some fun art and share it with the world. BUT if you wanna use my characters,hmu (I am delusional) we can work out a deal, have your People call my people.

But that also goes to anyone else out there who wants to work together, my dms are open . . . (Mostly to bots rn)

OH Kay back to it . . . .

In the next pictures are some character designs that are very very very very much inspired by my friends. They’re strange enough that unless you know me by name then you would never get it Lmao . . . But the characters are kinda cool. I really tried to use actual habits and adaptations that these animals have in real life compared to how the human body would have to accommodate for its ability to defy nature. Planning for this to be kinda gory. I’m excited.

Also PSA I know I’m not an amazing artist, I’m going more for story and style over photo realism idk, this is just for my enjoyment, thank you for your time 💖💖💖 to help keep track I’m gonna tag all of these with #OnetaAquatica I’m excited to explore this story and world.

#Spotify #music reccomendations #anti war #historical fiction #fanmade story #Oneta aquatica #spidersona #spider oc #spiderverse

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curioussubjects · 2 years

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fic rec time!

There was this fic I wanted to read, but hadn't yet because it was a wip and, generally speaking, I don't read wips (adhd reeeally doesn't like it). That said, the concept of the fic was really good, and I'm a little obsessed with the other pilotfic the author has written, so I decided to take a peek at the last posted chapter to make sure it didn't end on a cliffhanger from hell -- it didn't. So, this week, I finally relented.

Y'all. Y'all. This fic....this gd fic...I'm on the floor. I read it in a little over a day because life keeps happening (rude), and I haven't stopped thinking about it yet. Probably won't for a while !!

Anyway, it's a good ol' bsg finale fix-it (and we sure love those yes we do). I found the author's solution to be compelling and completely cohesive with the other themes of the story. Unfortunately, while what is posted of the fic is enough that you can kinda fill in the rest, I still can't help but wonder what the rest of the journey would've been. I can imagine multiple endings, as things are, but all, ultimately, hopeful if not happy (or as happy as you can be after genocide and war).

At its core this is a story about breaking the cycle of violence, but not only against the Other. Crucially, it's about ending the cycle of violence against the Self, too. This theme sprawls over not only the human/cylon conflict, but all the interpersonal relationships we'd followed throughout the show. It's achingly and beautifully done with Lee and Kara, in particular.

Speaking of pilots, the author takes some liberty with what happened pre-mini, though they do follow the flashbacks. I have to say that while I don't fully share their interpretation of key points in Kara and Lee's relationship (UB flashback being the real point of contention for me), their take is entirely cohesive within the story and feels true to Lee and Kara just the same.

I don't want to say more because spoilers, but feel free to insert an image of me crying screaming taking a walk to calm down because oh pilots. I know I always want to hug them, but I super need to hug them. Just. Make believe, pears and jail (iykyk). I am severely unwell and emotionally compromised.

Y'all go read it and then come back here and sit with me.

pennyante, idk if you're still out there or if you ever think about this fic, but...if you ever want to finish this fic and you need a hype person hmu.

Here are the specs:

Title: In the Whole World Author: pennyante Rating: Mature Pairings & Characters: pilots (duh), but it's an ensemble fic so canon pairings and many familiar faces Chapters: 23/? (last updated in Sept 2013 /sad) Summary:

The Cylons aren't quite human, and the humans haven't quite forgiven them. Political stability is less certain than ever now that the war is over: Lee Adama finds himself up for re-election, where being defeated will mean a Gemenese theocracy puppeteered by Leoben Conoy. Meanwhile, Kara Thrace has nothing but questions about her death and destiny. The only answers available come in the form of the vision of a temple, and from her hybrid/comatose husband's cryptic ramblings about a sister artifact to the Arrow of Apollo.

There's violence in the air. Civil war looms. Can Lee and Kara save each other, and keep the fledgling colony whole?

Read on LJ Read on FFN (with extras!)

Excerpt:

She had seen the leash he kept on his self-control, had seen it slacken and tauten. But he never dropped it altogether. She heard, faintly, the sound of an elemental yell erupting over a dark hillside on New Caprica, welling up from a deep pocket of her memory. Almost never.

Testing his control had long since become a favorite pasttime, because where Lee couldn't let anyone see him want, Kara couldn't let anyone see her care. Naturally: forcing him to let on that he wanted her had been the perfect way of showing she didn't care. It was so tempting—all of the pleasure, none of the guilt. The temptation of temptation—to be in his proximity, to draw deeply on the pleasure of goading him, but to not give in to it. She could feel the blood pounding in her throat and wrists, suddenly. Suddenly, she felt alive again.

Lee.

"Mmm. I don't think you're gonna like renting from me, Apollo. First month's rent is three years continuous service on a battlestar."

A raised eyebrow, as if he were saying, What's your game, Starbuck?, and damn if that wasn't good for a heart she hadn't realized was lonely for it. "Paid it," he offered.

"Perfect. Security deposit's a daily hot oil massage for your landlady." Reckless grin never faltering, she watched him, watched the quick gleam flicker across his eyes before he smothered it, felt her first flash of electric heat in weeks. "Garbage pickup is never. Oh, yeah, and heat and electricity are definitely not included."

He didn't crack a smile, this time, which, predictably, made her laugh. God, what was it about him? When was the last time she'd laughed? "On the flip side, the place is an absolute steal; I have a feeling property value around here is about to skyrocket."

Lee lowered himself heavily to the cot, and she noticed, as he did, just how tired he seemed. Had he just come from speaking fruitlessly with his father, coming up against the Old Man's utter withdrawal? From meeting with the ship captains, whose talk of scattering was already sweeping the camp? From looking at the sky and remembering when the arrow of Apollo had let them see earth from Kobol and they'd dreamed of days like this—days they hadn't known would be like this—wordlessly, uncertainly, together?

Was he realizing that life on Earth, like everything else they'd ever shared, had turned out to be both more and less than the prospect of it had been?

When he spoke, it was a riddle—or perhaps it only seemed that way to her, because she was so used to hearing the riddes underlying the things he said to her. They had had their own code for far too long.

This was one she was terrified to decipher.

"Kara. I'm staying with you. Until I can't anymore."

The laughter died in her eyes. Oh, gods, what did I let slip? What did he see?

And then she finally took the time to think about what it meant that he had brought his pack with him, had rolled out his sleeping bag. About whether she wanted him to stay. The answer—the potency of it—jolted her. I should make him go, she thought. Anything else is selfish.

#starpollo #pilots #kara thrace #lee adama #battlestar galactica #fic recs #fanfiction #the hold this gd fic has on my brain rn #unreal tbh

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necroangelz · 2 months

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the idol's concert is starting. . . !!

what music shall we play !? audience, any suggestions !?

i got lots of followers so you know what comes next ! ANOTHER PROMPT EVENT LETS GO!!!!

Along with the announcement of this event, i would also like to announce that my requests are open again !! please read my blog's info if you haven't yet and send requests ! I'm most excited to do layouts and rentry templates if anyone wants to req those from me ,, :3

dividers creds one and two.

◜　👾 　 ✦ event info　︿

★ the event will run from March 20th to April 4th and it will last for 15 days. if i see it's necessary, i may extend the duration of the event. those who complete all days of my event will be considered winners and they can request 3 different edits from me. (yes, you heard it right! 3! the idol of the stars will have so much to edit!)

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★ this event isn't exclusively for editors! if you'd like, you can post anything, like npts, mogai coining, etc. you wanna write a short story too? go ahead! just... make sure that what you post has some work put into it, y'know? don't just share a song link and call it a day! your post for that day wouldn't count.

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★ tag me in your posts and use the tag #moon294. "angel, why 294 specifically??" because exactly 294 followers is such a special milestone, right? more special than 300 followers! so i think it deserves an event! ( /j )

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★ as mentioned earlier, this event is a prompt event, but with a twist! the prompts will be song-based (hence the concert theme, heheh). you must select a song based on the prompt and then create something based on the song. simple right? your creation has to be somewhat related to the song (if you're doing an edit you may include song lyrics; if the song you chose talks about the moon, put pngs of the moon. like that) if you want, you can even create a playlist of your songs on your music platform of choice and share it once you're done with the event !!

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★ there are 10 prompts in total split into two sections. one section, " the symphony of the sun, " focuses on positive themes and the other section, " the melody of the moon, " focuses on negative themes. both the sun and moon prompts must be completed. you can choose which prompt list to do first. you must complete all days in the prompt list in order. when you are done with one prompt list, move on to the next.

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★ hmu if you have any inquiries!

◜　👾 　 ✦ prompts list　︿

　 ⟡　☀️ the symphony of the sun !!

⊹ day 1︓ a happy energetic song ⊹ day 2︓ a sweet love song ⊹ day 3︓ a song that's very important to you ⊹ day 4︓ an old song ⊹ day 5︓ an underrated song

notes about the prompts: love can mean platonic, familial, romantic, etc. for day 4, please don't be afraid to choose a song that's from like the 50s or 60s. i want to see ancient songs that our grandparents listened to when they were young /hj.

　 ⟡　🌙 the melody of the moon !!

⊹ day 1︓ a sad melancholic song ⊹ day 2︓ an angry song ⊹ day 3︓ a song that's very loud ⊹ day 4︓ a song with a lot of metaphors/deep or hidden meaning ⊹ day 5︓ an overrated song

◜　👾 　 ✦ taglist　︿

feel free to ignore, hmu for removal @cactiflowering @magnoliawriter @hetyuri @lavendergalactic @soapyviole @otoripink @ghostflora-s @shrineofnarukami @battampria @yenou @thydragoness @strawberrymedicine @astromiis @circuswhisprs @meowrette @metalbody @p1nk-sugar @kiochisato @kyushuus @phantasverie @recolli + those who want to promote !

#⛅﹕ heaven's broadcast 𝜗𝜚 ︵#moon294 #rentry graphics #rentry #rentryblr #editblr #rentry resources #bundlrs #bundlrs graphics #rentry frames #bundlrs resources #sntry #sntry graphics #editing

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lighthouseinabelljar · 2 years

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So I was 100% living my best life on Monday. I went and saw three lighthouses in one day, and walked along some of the most glorious coast England has to offer.

Roker Lighthouse. The White Lighthouse. Souter Lighthouse.

#lighthouse #lighthousecore #i must go down to the sea again #i actually got some pictures inside souter lighthouse #so hmu if anyone wants me to share some of those #i had a great time #weather was absolutely perfect

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sopebubbles · 3 years

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Banner by @memphisfaith

Synopsis: 15 year old Kim Yn has her fair share of poor choices and bad days. She used to get through them with her brother, Namjoon, and their friends, Yoongi and Hobi. When they dismiss her dream, she's determined to make her voice heard and prove her resilience. Luckily she meets a few new friends a long the way that help her become bulletproof.

Genre: social media au with written parts mixed in, high school au, heavy angst, a teensy bit of fake dating

Kim Yn × ?????

Themes: coming of age, girl power, unrequited love, underground rap line vs. punk band vocal line, toxic relationships

Warnings: mentions of past self harm, mentions of sex (no depictions of sex since all characters are minors), depitctions of anxiety/panic attacks, under age use of drugs and alcohol, just an enormous amount of angst.

Status: complete

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Bulletproof Heart

❣ teaser

🎤 Intros: D-Town Boyz + Yn

🎸 Intros: Bulletproof

Arc I

❣one: yn has left the chat

❣two: anti account

❣three: look it up babyboy

❣four: I was born this way

❣five: the feeling is mutual

❣six: potato tomato

❣seven: aww but you love it

❣eight: what's the truth Tae?

❣nine: have fun

❣ten: war of hormone ✏

❣eleven: what am I forgetting

❣twelve: making her moves

❣thirteen: a tough one

❣fourteen: bulletproof yn

❣fifteen: a thing?

❣sixteen: don't bother

❣seventeen: I'm with you ✏

❣eighteen: THE LINK YN

❣nineteen: don't be nervous

❣twenty: give it to me ✏

❣bonus: bulletproof birthday

Arc II

❣twenty-one: three conditions

❣twenty-two: I remember +✏

❣twenty-three: kool kids

❣twenty-four: a date +✏

❣twenty-five: friends for now

❣twenty-six: watch his back

❣twenty-seven: your bf jimin?

❣twenty-eight: collaboration +✏

❣twenty-nine: no party +✏

❣thirty: a deal +✏

❣thirty-one: better for him

❣thirty-two: a regular thing

❣thirty-three: I love you ❤

❣thirty-four: we're not waiting +✏

❣thirty-five: everything is fine +✏

❣Bonus: School Yard by JHope and Heart

❣thirty-six: mental health day

❣thirty-seven: follow your heart

❣thirty-eight: a fourth option ✏

Arc III

❣thirty-nine: called it

❣forty: good kisser

❣forty-one: gonna regret it +✏

❣forty-two: crashing your date

❣forty-three: you're totally 🥵 +✏

❣forty-four: Neanderthal brain +✏

❣forty-five: guilty

❣forty-six: left out

❣forty-seven: get back here!!!

❣forty-eight: it's what I want

❣forty-nine: MY hope

❣fifty: where you belong ✏

❣fifty-one: producer Yn

❣fifty-two: something new

❣fifty-three: 👀👀👀

❣fifty-four: we need therapy

❣fifty-five: let's be Bulletproof

❣fifty-six: the end +✏

❣bonus: one year

🎄 Bulletproof Christmas Special

Author notes:

Yn's theme song is:

Itzy's Yeji is used as a face claim for Yn simply for aesthetic purposes. Some other random pictures may be used for outfits etc. The character of Yn and her musical style are in no way related to the idol and no other members of itzy will appear

Photos of OT7 from 2013-15 approximately will also be featured bc that's closest to the age they are in the story

Everyone is a musician but I don't consider this to be "idolverse" at least not for now

Members of NTC will appear in name only bc I get tired of coming up with names and that's like 57 names for the taking.

This story takes place in Daegu but it's mostly American teen culture 🤷🏻‍♀️

I love yoongi so much and I'm so sorry idk why he has to be such an ass but if you need some fluffy Yoongi go read The Sea Without You lmao. I promise next au I'll make him more likeable. 🤪

I'm not creative enough to make a banner for this so if anyone has those skills and wants to lend them hmu the lovely @memphisfaith made my beautiful banner. Please support their work!

If for some reason my blog disappears there posts have all been reblogged on @jinkooktae

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arivederchu · 3 years

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general kaeya relationship hcs

a/n: i really went off on this one huh

characters: kaeya alberich

cw: this is sfw + nsfw hcs! nsfw is under the cut!

ugh this sexy mf where do i even stART

if you confess to him first before the start of your relationship, this cheeky man was like “I knew you’d come to me eventually~” pls what is wrong with him

very flirtatious and uses many, many pick up lines on you it’s insane

if you have a low self-confidence, he’ll use them even more, but with more sincerity so you can know how much he loves and appreciates you, even if he doesn’t always act like it, he cares about you very much and wants nothing more than your happiness, whatever it takes.

if you’re another knight like him or an independent vigilante like diluc, he’ll respect your choices regardless, however please let him accompany you on doing tasks like clearing out hilichurl camps

if you’re simply another citizen, he won’t mind either! of course, he’ll be a bit more protective since you aren’t exactly trained in fighting, but he’ll teach you some basic survival and fighting skills

kaeya will treat you like a queen 24/7

okay nvm maybe like 23/7- he’s the type to fight on hoards of hilichurls for you but refuses to get you your belongings from the other room

pda is a must for him! hand-holding, forehead kisses (or full on makeout sessions), even occasionally grabbing your ass

of course he’s respectful though, if you don’t like pda then he won’t do those things, but at least let him hold your hand!

do expect to go out drinking with him (if you do drink) at cat’s tail or angel’s share, sometimes even having to walk him home because he’s definitely going to trip over nothing if you don’t

or the other way around who knows

if you’re having any troubles regarding anyone in mondstadt (or all of teyvat), kaeya will definitely take care of them for you~

one way or another [shudders]

he introduces you to diluc one day and diluc 100% warns you to be careful around kaeya

it’s all good though diluc tolerates you a lot more than he does kaeya

small headcanon that whenever you two and kaeya are free for a longer amount of time, you travel to one of the other nations

your main destinations are usually liyue or fontaine, liyue has its gorgeous views and sights, along with the amazing food of course-- and fontaine for its so-called “true beauty and elegance” and it being the hub of culture and arts

(please note this is solely based off of in-game descriptions of fontaine)

and he’ll spoil you as much as you want anytime, whatever you want he will make sure he’s able to buy it assuming he’s not broke

i mean overall he just loves you, almost anything you could want or need he will provide for you to the best of his ability

NSFW under the cut - minors beware!

expect some sleepless nights because yk ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

peg him please

if you peg him he won’t hold back AT ALL on his moans, he’s so loud and it’s so hot

on to what turns him on, if he sees you being serious such as harshly scolding someone or you absolutely tearing someone apart (be it in a battle of brains or brawn), he will rail you into next week because it’s so hot

cockwarming punishments

he loves doing it in public, the thrill of getting caught feels so intense

especially at angel’s share where there’s usually quite a bit of people there, sometimes including diluc hey im all up for a threesome just hmu

and of course when you’re in public he’ll shift around a little causing you to whine while he continues to casually talk with other patrons at angel’s share

but don’t be mistaken he’s definitely a switch

loves to be dominant

but loves you being dominant over him just a lil bit more

back at it with the pegging, he loves it when you peg and degrade him, call him a little bitch and tease how he’s writhing from your cock and he will be WEAK

definitely has a mommy kink when you’re on top

when he’s on top however, he can go smooth and gentle, more fitting into “making love”

meanwhile his rough pounding goes more under “fucking”

what can i say he’s freaky in bed no matter who’s on top

onto oral, he’s leaning more towards the receiving side, he loves tugging on your hair as

his sex drive is H I G H

if yours is too, then all the better, it works out great for the both of you in the end

well, maybe not great for your sleep schedule but at that point it’s the least of your worries, right?

as for aftercare

it really depends on how exhausted the both of you are, if you’re still wide awake he’ll give you a full on bubble bath (or you both go into the shower which may or may not lead to shower sex)

he’ll massage you and help you with whatever you need, including getting food for you both

if you’re both tired however, you’ll just clean up or not clean up at all and go straight to cuddling then sleeping

thank you for coming to my ted talk

had some fun writing this, i love kaeya so much, one of my faves <3

#kaeya alberich #kaeya #kaeya x reader #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #katasfw #katansfw #kaeya headcanons

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caspercryptid · 2 years

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📯New pinned post + Request Guidelines 📯

It's been a while and some things have changed so I'm gonna make this one fresh!

Hi I'm Casper, I'm a semi-professional queer author currently hyperfixating on Arcane ((And only murders in the building, and Our Flag Means Death)) like a motherfucker. ND + Disabled + Trans. If you have a problem with any of those categories, perhaps move along.

I tag my fics with #casper's haunted fic tag but considering tumblr's ask system, maybe just use my arcane fic archive to read my stuff, or my #original fiction tag (please?) I tag asks with #casper's haunted info tag so if you're looking for my answers to your questions, check there! I've got some other Casper's haunted tags and I'll make a full list another time. #disability info is the tag I use for both discussion of disability in arcane and also advocacy stuff I reblog. If you ever want me to tag stuff more specifically, please let me know.

Also on the record, reply times on all asks will vary, I’m a spoonie and I don’t always have the energy for social interaction! You have my love. I am easily worn out.

🕊️ Twitter — 📖 Ao3 — ☕ Ko-Fi — 🔨 The Hammer To Fall Discord

Sideblogs:

@fuckyeahjaycetalis - JAYCE

@thebeelog - BEES

@theasperagroup - original project vibes (the description of which is here)

Now! Request Guidelines. [[Requests are closed right now, but here’s the rules for when they’re open!]]

Although if you guys happen to get attached to my OCs and want to see more of them, HMU, because that's Always Welcome.

Here is a list of suggestions for AUs and ships.

Now for the slightly less fun stuff.

I love writing rarepairs and I love crack ships and I love doing Weird Stuff. That being said, here is The Please Don't List.

Please don't spam requests as it takes up space in my inbox and I can only hold so many before I close it again! Give everybody a fair shot

Please don't send me requests that describe the entire plot of a fic. If you've got the whole concept, that's great! You should try writing it and I will support you. If there's not room for me to take my own direction, or you've described your own characterizations that don't match mine, that's not really fun for me to write! And so I won't.

Please don't send me requests where you ask that disabled characters (Viktor) be insecure about their body or their disability. I'm not comfortable writing that.

And the hopefully pretty short No list—

I will not write jinx with anyone significantly older than she is, nor will I answer requests that call her powder. My jinx is trans.

I will not write Caitlyn/Jayce, as I write them as siblings

I will not write ship content with Ambessa, as I'm not comfortable with her treatment of Mel in the show

I will not write E rated content unless it has been discussed with me beforehand or it's a continuation of a previous fic. I'm gray ace and I can't really manage that on command.

Okay! You got through the negative stuff. Here's some lighter logistics notes.

please sign your anon asks with an emoji! I think it's cute and it helps me pick up trends or threads and to keep from getting confused. I am disabled and making things more accessible for me is really sweet of you

If you start your request with "tell me a story about" I am a hundred times more likely to answer you fast bc I think that's the cutest shit ever

I make no guarantees that I can write EVERY ship but if you send me two characters I will do my best. They may not always kiss. I will give you content. If you want strictly platonic that's cool too!! Familial relationships? People you think would be friends? Just wanna see em vibe or coparent or something? Hit me.

Feel free to spam likes and reblogs! Go ham! PLEASE reblog, especially if you're the one who requested, it's just a nice way to share my stuff. And talk in the tags! Go ham!

Requests will be answered out of order whenever I have inspiration I make no guarantees about what goes up when

And I think that's that! I'll add to this if I think of something else or if something happens that reminds me that this needs to be updated. Thanks for reading!

#casper's haunted info tag #original fiction

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ariendiel · 3 years

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ELLI I WILL NEVER GET OVER RH. However I'd love the opportunity to interrogate question your lovely characters. 💖

Ok first off: Headmaster Koh, if you're ever in need of a new.. em assistant, hmu. 👀😏

Also, Ada, Noah, will you either let me join your marriage or adopt me as your second child? K thanks, love you bye.

But now off to the serious questions:

Bobby, how did you respond Ada and Noah's marriage? And assuming they named their son after you, what was your reaction? Also, what are you up to nowadays?

Ada, what is your favourite part of your garden? Also, do you have any regrets about leaving RH now that you've settled into your new life?

Noah, as a modern man, how do you deal with the uptight royal society? You mentioned wanting to change things over there, how will you do that?

Headmaster Koh, what is your opinion about Ada marrying Noah?

Priya, how's the nomad life treating you? Any fun stories to share with us peasants?

Hannah, why are you such a bitch? what was the point in being such a snake? Did you gain anything from your actions?

Chelsea, are you and Henrik married yet? And how is Sweden?

Ibrahim, what's your friendship with Noah like? Are you still in contact after everything that happened? You're honestly amazing.

Jakub, did you ever get over losing that duel?

Ada, what's Noah's family like and how do they make you feel about your own family? Did your family every got in contact after you got married? And if so, how did they react?

I feel like I could ask 2391274017491 more but I'll leave it at this... for now...

SDJHSHDJSHD THANK YOU DEBBY! And your questions! So good! Thank you so much!

Turns out this got quite long, so answers are below the line... Hope you like it 🤍

🥞 Bobby, how did you respond Ada and Noah's marriage? And assuming they named their son after you, what was your reaction? Also, what are you up to nowadays?

If you must know, I may have written quite a lengthy and (yes, I will admit) emotional letter to my dear friend, Mrs. Buan-Alexander, to express my feelings on the matter. If I had not been in Scotland at the time I would have very much enjoyed to attent their wedding, but for some reason those two seemed rather in a rush... Little Robert Alexander is also such a delightful little boy, and I was honoured they named him for me. With those two as his parents he might even do me honour in growing up to become nearly as handsome as well! These days I am trying to avoid marriage as best as I can while my parents do their best to lure me into one – as per usual.

Bobby

🌿 Ada, what is your favourite part of your garden? Also, do you have any regrets about leaving RH now that you've settled into your new life?

Why, thank you for asking! I must say that while I do find it difficult to choose, I do favour my pavilion with its many climbing roses. It has the most marvelous views of our pond and the rest of our gardens, and after we got a duchesse brisée it has also been a favoured spot for my husband to read, sometimes out loud for me to enjoy as well. Now, regarding regrets. Yes, I have a few, mostly in leaving behind my opportunity to teach other young women and see them enjoy the taste of knowledge. Then again, perhaps I may start my own version of the Royal Society for women one day?

Adaline

🌑 Noah, as a modern man, how do you deal with the uptight royal society? You mentioned wanting to change things over there, how will you do that?

I would not describe myself as a modern man, but I thank you for such a gracious observation and dare I say compliment? The Royal Society is an old establishment, and thus suffer both it benefits and disadvantages I am afraid. I can only deal with them to the extent my noble rank and thus access to politics and parliament allows, but I am petitioning for change. I do fear it may be a while before they come to accept my views however, to the detriment of bright women such as my wife. Thank you so much for asking, Miss... May I call you Debby?

Noah

🍆 Headmaster Koh, what is your opinion about Ada marrying Noah?

After a few choice word with my fellow gentleman as to how to treate women and one's dear wife, I am quite sure we see eye to eye and my opinion of him is reflected thus. If anything, he proved to be more honourable than I expected, and have enjoyed to visit when time allows me to do so.

Yours,

Headmaster Lucas Koh

💋 Priya, how's the nomad life treating you? Any fun stories to share with us peasants?

Nomad? Oh what a fun way to describe it! I must adopt that, it sounds all too exotic not to. My nomad life is treating me splendidly I must say. Italian gentlemen are especially hospitable and making me ever grateful Ada taught me a thing or two about botanical remedies... I do fear most of my stories would be rather inappropriate, but I did have to be rescued by a gentleman from The Seine, which was quite exciting I must say.

Love,

Priya

🍂 Hannah, why are you such a bitch? what was the point in being such a snake? Did you gain anything from your actions?

A snake? Do your parents now you speak such? Not very ladylike I must say. I merely did what anyone should have done, and prevented scandalous indecensies in a place of learning for vulnerable young ladies. Some have dared to presume I might have had feelings for Mr. Alexander myself, but I would never, no matter how striking, dreamy, noble, and handsome he may be! I have gained the respect from my elders, or at least from Miss. Sarabi, and I know I did what God would have wanted. So there.

Miss. Perkins

🌸 Chelsea, are you and Henrik married yet? And how is Sweden?

We are! Is it not wonderful! He really is so charming and most attentive, every time we go for a promenade he always picks me flowers. He even knows to give Mopsey some now as well as we both prefer pink as it's most flattering, do you not agree? I am sure he would pick some for you too if you ever were to visit. Sweden is truly rather different, and the language is impossible! My dearest Henrik has thankfully agreed we will be spending the winters in England or further south to get some sun, I do really think it helps.

Chelsea

🌼 Ibrahim, what's your friendship with Noah like? Are you still in contact after everything that happened? You're honestly amazing.

Oh, thank you that is very kind, and unexpected! But any compliment is much appreciated. Noah and I are still close friends, and although we rarely see each other these days I am merely thrilled he has found his happiness. We are childhood friends and that is a bond that is not easily broken, after all he is like a brother to me, and the best one at that.

Mr. Ibrahim Chapman

⚔️ Jakub, did you ever get over losing that duel?

Duel? What duel? I do not remember ever losing a duel...

Mr. Zabinsky

🌿 Ada, what's Noah's family like and how do they make you feel about your own family? Did your family every got in contact after you got married? And if so, how did they react?

My husband's family is everything I thought a family should be like, I must admit. They are kind and loving, and most of all they genuinely care for one another - something my family seldom did. For a while after my wedding I dared hope my family would change, but their only reaction has been to ask for financial aid. After ignoring the last plea from my mother, I have not heard from them in a while, although it pained me to know my Robert will never know that side of his family.

Adaline

For my Rosehill House q&a, ask me and the characters anything!

#Q&A #rosehill house #litg s2 #litg fanfic #litg noah #guess who accidentally posted this early and forgot to include half the answers 🥴#but they should all be there now skjdjsj

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kuroo-shitsurou · 3 years

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Communicate (Haiba Lev x kuudere!Reader)

note: first entry for haikyuu! i'm open for requests, just hmu! i apologize for any mistakes. some of my stories were intentionally made to be f!reader, but i figured gn!reader would be more appropriate. so i apologize if you see any she/her/names that are in the text. ^^

(i'm adding w/c now as well!)

word count: 3.8k

"He's not coming back tonight, no?"

For a few moments, there was silence. A gust of wind blew past the apartment complex, rustling the leaves of the trees planted down below. You sat on the chair set up on your balcony. Looking over the metal railings, you admired how the yellow and red taillights of cars stuck in traffic bobbed up and down the street. Somehow, they looked like Christmas lights tossed in a messy line; Like they were discarded the morning right after Christmas because the tree had to be taken down again.

You hugged the jacket closer to your arms, hoping to gain more warmth. Inhaling the fresh scent of laundry detergent, you smiled. Eyes crestfallen and tears just barely swimming in your ducts. The cold breeze of December brushed past your hair, tickling the back of your neck. It's the first Christmas I'm spending without you.

Your cat, Maika, jumped on your lap. She purred and mewled, rubbing her head against your warm hand. You managed to choke out a small chuckle, petting the white fur of the cat. You let your eyes wander to the glass doors connecting the living room and balcony. Your couch was there, a duvet carelessly thrown on top of it. You shouldn't help but let a few drops of salty tears fall down your cheeks.

You weren't really the type of person to cry over silly things. In fact, you rarely cried at all. As far as you remember, the last time you cried over something petty was back in second grade. You were teased for cutting your own hair; Your bangs looked choppy, and one classmate even mentioned how you managed to cut a giant chunk out from the back of your head. Admittedly, you were pretty stupid for messing around with the scissors you found on the table, but you didn't really know any better. Anyway, who knew that hair took so long to grow back?

Other than that, you don't recall crying anymore. Throughout your middle and high school years, tears weren't really present to disrupt your life. Not even when Kuroo accidentally spiked a ball into the back of your head, and not even when Yaku accidentally kicked your shin because you were standing too close to his original target, Lev.

Lev.

Although you didn't find any reason for letting yourself cry during those years, you couldn't help but tear up when you remembered Lev. You were incredibly proud of yourself for counting up to five days without crying every since Lev left your shared apartment. However, today was Christmas eve. There were approximately three hours before Christmas, and here you were, spending it with Maika, on the balcony, crying your eyes out.

To be completely honest, you knew that it was your fault that Lev left. You were a rather independent person. You had a bold personality; Never afraid of being blunt to people, never afraid of telling others if they needed to be scolded. However, you were an absolute novice when it came to showing affection to Lev.

It was a surprise, to say the least, to the entire volleyball team that the cold-hearted manager, _____-san, was dating the eccentric and hyperactive first year, Haiba Lev. Yaku, Kuroo, and Kai were in shock upon hearing the news from Lev. At first, they thought he was just kidding, but when they heard it from you, their minds were beyond boggled.

"Eh?!"

"Seriously?"

"Kuroo-san, why do you look so surprised? You too, Yaku-san. And Kai-senpai, I didn't think you'd be interested in my love life as well." You calmly said, clipboard firm against your chest, as your eyes scanned the volleyball posters displayed in the volleyball club room.

"W-Well, I didn't think it was actually true because Lev was the one saying it. I thought he was just bullshitting us." Yaku admitted, scratching the back of his head before sending you a sheepish smile.

"You're growing up too fast, _____-san!" Kuroo quipped, wrapping his arms around you like a doting aunt, "You have a boyfriend now, I'm getting old!"

"Kuroo-san, please stop patronizing me. I have feelings too. Why does this come as a surprise to you all? Inuoka-kun and Futakuchi-kun also asked me if Haiba-kun and I were actually dating. It's not like I'm a robot or anything, I can... contract love too." Your disheveled form pried Kuroo's arms away from you, and you dusted your shoulders off as if Kuroo left dirt atop of them.

"You don't contract love, _____. It's not a disease." Yaku laughed at your poor choice of words.

"You, see _____-san, we just didn't think that you were interested in romance for the time being, and for you to be dating someone like Lev, it's surprising. In a good way, though, don't get me wrong. Lev's a good kid." Kai was the calmest of the bunch, but he was simply masking his happiness. He was the one who invited you to be their manager, after all. He saw how you grew out of your shell gradually. It's nice to see you enjoying the years of your youth, as Kuroo would put it.

"Ah, I see. To be honest, I didn't think I would also participate in a romantic relationship with anyone this early on. However, Haiba-kun successfully caught my attention. I think it would be a fun experience. Whatever happens, I get to grasp a further understanding of our Russian first year, and I also gain knowledge on the department of... love." You mentioned nonchalantly.

Kuroo, Yaku, and Kai all exchanged knowing looks; Something that screamed: "Are you sure you're not a robot?"

"_____-chan!" Lev's excited voice was heard from outside of the gym. The first years finally arrived, signifying that practice would begin soon.

"Pardon me. Thank you for your time." You bowed politely to the three seniors and walked over to where the first years were leaving their things.

"_____-chan I missed you a lot today! I only got to see you in free period earlier, and that was barely 10 minutes, but you're here now!" Lev was like a puppy. He was bouncing around, showering you with genuine compliments and adorations, his smile reaching the heavens above. Perhaps, if you pat his head, an invisible tail would wag? You considered the idea.

You managed to hold back a smile of your own, only replying with, "Get prepared for practice, Haiba-kun."

"_____-chan, you can call me Lev, you know? Since we are dating and all." The Russian said softly, wanting to get his point across, but not wanting to scare you.

"Maybe next time, Haiba-kun."

When you slipped inside your living room, you couldn't help but let out a few more sobs. There was a Christmas tree left half decorated just beside your television. Cans of tea and red bull were laying just on the feet of the couch. Half-empty and empty packets of chips were on the coffee table. God, you left the living room in such a messy state.

You pulled Lev's enormous (Well, it was enormous on you. But on Lev, it was the perfect size) jacket closer to your body, wishing you could smell his scent instead of the laundry detergent.

Maika wandered into the living room and onto her cat bed, stretching her paws and making herself comfortable before she went to take a nap.

You couldn't help but acknowledge the absolute dumpster fire when you saw yourself in the full body mirror near the entrance of your hallway. You were wearing a pair of fuzzy pajamas, an oversized shirt covered in stains and crumbs, and Lev's Nekoma jacket. Your hair was messy and ruffled, and you looked... pale. Eyes red and swollen, cheeks puffy, but your lips were white. You had never looked so awful before.

"_____-chan, you look amazing as always!" Lev came bounding to you.

"Congratulations on graduating! I'm so proud of you!" He took you in a tight embrace, lifting you up and spinning you around.

"H-Haiba-kun, please put me down!" You squealed, wriggling around in Lev's grip, trying to get away. For a split second, you could've sworn that Lev's face darkened, but you decided to brush it off.

Once your feet touched the ground, you managed to say a short and quiet "Thank you."

"Ah, this is really happening, isn't it?" Lev shoved his hands in his pockets, looking up at the cherry blossom trees in full bloom.

"Y-Yeah. It will even eventually happen to you too, Haiba-kun. It's the way that life progresses," You knew that you were pathetic at mustering a good enough reply, so you chose to fumble with the hem of your collar.

"Hey, _____-chan, do you love me?" Lev asked, suddenly serious. His gaze was still fixated on the trees above, their branches freely swaying in the wind, a few cherry blossoms fluttering down as the breeze carried them away.

A blush creeped up on your cheeks. Of course you loved him! More than... anything, if you were being honest. More than volleyball, more than red bull, more than anime, but why couldn't you say it?

"Speak up, damn it!" You thought to yourself.

After a few minutes passed, you were still tongue-tied. You hated yourself for not being able to express your feelings. There were already tears in your eyes, but you didn't want to cry in front of Lev; You vowed that you never would.

Lev looked down to see his senior in a low mood. "Don't worry, _____-chan! It's okay if you can't say it yet, I understand." Lev caught a single cherry blossom as it was falling down and tucked it behind your ear, " I'll wait for the day that you can say it back, so for now, I'll say it for the both of us, okay?"

You were embarrassed. You were such an asshole for doing this to Lev. To make up for your lacking skills in communication, you tapped his hand. Curiously, he opened his palm, and you placed a small object on top of it.

Lev's smile contained nothing but pure, concentrated glee.

"Thank you for the button, _____-chan, I will always cherish this. Happy anniversary. I love you so much!"

You found yourself standing at the doorway of your shared bedroom. You longingly stared at the queen-sized bed. The sheets were crisp and the pillows were fluffed. You haven't been sleeping in that bed since Lev left the apartment. It just didn't feel right. There was something about a heavier loneliness whenever you tried to sleep alone in that bed when you were so damn used to having Lev sleep beside you. That's why you've been sleeping on the couch ever since; It's uncomfortable as all hell, yeah, but at least you don't feel a large empty space beside you when you sleep. Maybe a few crumbs here and there, but that was bearable.

You pattered your way back into the living room, where your laptop lay buried under the empty chip packets. You grabbed it from underneath the rubbish and brushed off other residue before plopping down on the couch. You slipped your arms into the sleeves of Lev's jacket and opened up your laptop. You've been neglecting your uni works for the past days because your sadness just didn't allow you to function properly.

Upon entering your passcode, the black background of the loading screen faded into a photo of you and Lev. He was wearing a minnie mouse headband, and you wore the matching mickey mouse one. You were standing in front of sleeping beauty's castle at Tokyo disneyland. You were wearing Lev's gray hoodie, which made it look like you were wearing a really short dress because of how long it was. You were both smiling like idiots, and you recalled that that trip was one of the best of your life. You never usually smiled like that, but because Lev carried you bridal style and kept touching your sides, you couldn't help but squirm and smile in the photo.

Once again, tears were brimming in the corners of your eyes. The stinging pain of heartbreak and regret stabbing you over and over again.

"It's Christmas in five days, _____." Lev popped up from behind you while you were decorating the tree.

"Jeez! Don't scare me like that, I nearly dropped the lights." You replied, calming your racing heart. Was it because of how he scared you, or because of how close he was? Honestly. you couldn't tell.

Lev could only chuckle at this, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He gave you a kiss on the cheek. "You know, my first year at uni has been great so far. Thanks to you and a few of my friends."

"That's great then." You said, tone of voice returning to a monotone one.

"I love you, _____."

You couldn't even recall all the times that you froze up whenever Lev admitted his feelings for you, but add one to whatever number it's at right now.

You could only swallow your saliva and grip the lights tighter. Say it, ______, say it! You kept yelling in your head. Why can't you fucking say it?!

"I knew it." A low laugh was heard from Lev's mouth. His fists were turning white because of how hard he balled them up. His nails were digging into his palm. "Sometimes, I wonder if you even actually love me. But I guess you never did."

You turned your head abruptly. "Haiba, that's-"

Lev let out a hearty laugh, throwing his head back. "We've been dating for over three years now and you still call me by my last name. Are you that uncomfortable with me, _____-san?"

You cringed at how he emphasized the honorific following your name, probably trying to prove a point.

"You know that's not true."

"Of course it is!" He snapped. " For god's sake, _____, three years! Three years, and not once have you told me that you love me!"

You were on the brink of crying. No. No, not in front of him. You weren't weak, you weren't going to cry.

"In all those years that we've been together, I have never seen you cry. Not even when we're upset with one another. Are you... that cold-hearted that you don't care or you don't even feel anything? Not even for your own boyfriend?"

Silence.

The words he spat were like venom.

You couldn't speak. Your mouth felt dry and your throat felt like it closed in an instant, like some sort of invisible throat cover just squeezed itself right there, preventing you from speaking.

"I see how it is."

With that, Lev spun on his heel and went to their room. He grabbed a backpack and stuffed it with a couple of shirts, his wallet, his phone, charger, and other necessities. He slipped on the thickest jacket he owned and went straight to the front door.

"Le-"

"Goodbye."

He slammed the door shut.

That was probably the first time that you broke down in years. Who knew that it would be a guy behind your facade fading?

Who knew that Haiba Lev would be the one to make you realize that being strong-willed didn't mean being cold-hearted and nonchalant?

"Stupid Lev." You muttered to yourself, hugging your knees to your chest. Admittedly, his name seemed to roll off your tongue nicely.

You desperately tried to wipe your tears away, but they just kept coming.

"Why do I love you so much?"

"Lev, are you sure you're okay with what you're doing?" Yaku asked the taller male, taking a sip from his beer mug.

"Yaku-san, we've been together for a little over three years. They've never told me that they loves me. Never even cried. I think they're just that stone-hearted," Lev replied, taking a shot of vodka. "Either that or they're a fucking robot."

He fiddled with the necklace around his neck, contemplating whether he was going to pull it off and stomp on it until it broke. The charm attached to his necklace was the button that _____ gave him on back during her graduation day.

"Lev, you better listen to me, and you better listen real fucking good." Yaku's tone of voice was sharp, and it was something that Lev hasn't heard since his years at Nekoma. "You do know that _____ can't express their emotions well, right? They're blunt with everybody, and they're honest. But when it comes to love or romance or feelings that make them happy, you know that they can't show it as easily as you do."

"Yeah, I know." Lev answered quietly.

"But you do know that they love you, right?"

"I don't."

"You're telling me that you've never even felt that they love you?"

Suddenly, Lev's eyes shot open.

"Christ, you're going to catch a cold! Why the hell did you run out in this rain?!"

"Sorry, sorry! I just had to rush here to see you! I missed you soooo much!"

"Get inside and hop in the shower. I'll prepare some warm food for you while you're in there. There's a spare towel in the cupboard above the sink."

"Thank you, _____-chan!"

"Stupid beanpole. I told you to change clothes after practice yesterday, didn't I?"

"Sorry, _____-chan. I totally forgot." He coughed.

"Here, drink this medicine. I'll reheat your porridge and grab you a cold towel for your head. I'll also bring in the assignments that Inuoka gave me."

"You'd be a good wife, _____-chan. My wife, that is." Another cough.

"Shut up and rest before I hit you with this notebook."

"Yes, yes, darling."

"Where were you?! We've been looking for you everywhere!"

"S-Sorry, _____-chan. I saw this cat stuck in a tree and I just had to rescue it!"

"Don't go running off like that! Do you know how worried the team was? How worried I was?! I thought you were gone! Look at how many scratches you have on your arm. You need to go to the infirmary, now."

"I-I'm sorry."

"Just... Don't do it again, please. Always be in my line of sight."

"Yes, _____-sama!"

"Haiba, here's your water bottle."

"Haiba, the forecast said that there might be a downpour in the afternoon. Don't forget to bring an umbrella."

"Haiba, you left your books at the gym. Here. Jeez, don't be so forgetful next time."

"Haiba, here, I bought your favorite meal. Furihata said that you forgot your lunch at home. You can't go hungry."

"Haiba, you're doing well. Your progress report shows continuous growth. I'm proud of you."

"I'm a fucking idiot." Lev said. His emerald green eyes were filled with tears. "Excuse me, I have to go."

With that, he dashed out of the bar, leaving a confused Yaku with a drunk Kuroo passed out behind him.

The former libero could only sight and take a giant gulp of beer.

"Damn right you are."

You were full on crying right now. Approximately 10 minutes before Christmas, and here you were, crying on the couch. Maika had given up on comforting you, but remained by your side as you bawled you eyes out, offering some sort of moral support or assurance that someone was there for you.

However, a few moments passed, and Maika's ears perked up. She jumped down from the couch and made her way to the front door of the apartment. She lightly scratched the door.

"M-Maika, I'm sorry. I know I'm being too loud, I'll pipe down soon." The girl blubbered, blowing into a tissue.

As if on cue, there were multiple knocks on the door.

Fuck's sake.

You didn't even care that you'd be facing whoever is on the other side of the door while looking like this. Your eyes were puffier, the bags under them more prominent. Your nose was a rosy red color, cheeks flushed and tear stains were obvious on them.

"Who the fuck-?"

As soon as you opened the door, a sudden warmth engulfed your body. The familiar fragrance you loved so much flooded your blocked nostrils.

"Le-"

"I'm sorry."

There was silence.

"I'm so sorry for everything that I said, _____. I take all of it back. I know that you love me. Your love language isn't vocal and I should have been more accepting and understanding of that. I may not know your reasons for being the way you are, but I promise you that I accept you wholly. I'm so, so fucking sorry that I left so suddenly. I love you so much. I'm never leaving you again."

Sobs racked through your body. Your form was shaking in Lev's arms. He was surprised. It's the first time he's seen you cry, and it breaks his heart knowing that he's the reason behind it.

"I'm sorry, kitten. Please don't cry anymore."

"Lev," You started, attempting to calm down, and Lev swore his heart stopped beating for a second, "I love you."

For a moment, everything stopped. They could hear the neighbors yelling "Merry Christmas!" in their own units.

"P-Pardon?"

You giggled. "I love you, Lev. I'm really sorry that it took me this long to tell you. I guess I was just scared of telling you how I really felt because... I didn't want you to think that I was cheesy or..."

Lev cut you off with a kiss. It was short and sweet. He could taste red bull and barbecue chips on your lips, and you could taste vodka on his. It was imperfect, but it was yours, and you loved it.

"I love you so much, _____. This is the best Christmas gift I've ever received."

"I love you too, Lev."

"Come on, let's get inside. I bought some takeout for us to eat." He easily lifted you up with one arm and grabbed the plastic bag of takeout with his free hand.

"Yeah, about that," You buried your face in his neck, "I'm sorry."

"We'll... Clean up tomorrow." He chuckled, looking at the messy state your living room was in. "We'll eat in our room, okay? Why don't you get cleaned up first, and I'll prepare the things we need." He placed a kiss on your cheek.

"Alright, Lev." You replied, "Sorry for causing a lot of trouble."

"Don't be sorry, malishka. We're fine now, okay? We have each other and we understand each other better now." He set you in front of the bathroom. "Now, go ahead and shower! I'll get a fresh set of clothes for you and leave them out here."

"Thank you, Lyovochka." You grinned, using Alisa's nickname for him.

"Anytime, babe." Lev turned around to go to the bedroom until,

"Hey, Lev?" You showed your head out of the bathroom door.

"Yes, _____?"

"I love you!"

The, the door was slammed shut.

"_____, you're too cute!" Lev had to use every strand of will power he had to not faint on the spot.

Who knew that his kuudere partner was such a huge softie?

Maola mewled and rubbed her head against Lev's leg.

"Merry Christmas to you too, Maika."

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