#sometimes ppl get overwhelmed and have to vent to someone

[ramblings-of-fessa]

"I've had to work 16 hour shift before that guy can work an 8 hour shift!" Holy fucking shit shut the fuck up

I don't care that you've had to work more than a week. I don't care that you've had to pull a double before. I don't care that you've done hard labor jobs before. You don't get to fucking decide how people feel. You don't get to laugh at someone who's very clearly having a panic attack at their job because you personally don't think they deserve to feel that way.

You have no idea what that person has been through. Suck it up and take it? Is that how we're going to treat every new generation that goes into the workforce? That it's alright for them to be mentally and physically abused? That this will toughen them up? Well when they get a myriad of physical and mental issues don't say I didn't warn you.

Every generation seems to go in wanting for change and then when it's time for the next gen to step up to the plate they ridicule them for wanting the same thing. For wanting things to be better. Do you not remember being their age? Do you not remember fighting for the same things they are currently fighting for? Why have you given up?

[hyah-lian]

any and every diety or overseeing being out there pls grant me the mcfucking strength to do my shift today without screaming

[spacelazarwolf]

How do you deal with people doing stupid shit in your reblogs? Someone found a vent post talking about some personal experiences and pulled that "Ah, but have you considered that you did not discuss X and add Y disclaimer and therefore you're spreading misinformation and I am a good person doing a public service by correcting you!" bullshit and I just wanna pull my hair out watching people reblog my vent post from them without caring at ALL about the context in which it was posted despite talking about it in the post itself. I'm a really tiny blog and basically never get interaction, especially when I'm just venting, so watching people spread a reblog of my post that was dedicated to shaming and misrepresenting me is kind of overwhelming.

i usually just block and if it gets really bad i turn off reblogs. sometimes i’ll make my ventposts unrebloggable from the get go bc i know ppl will clown on them if given the chance.

[mikasa-imadebiscults]

HI HI HIIII, I was hoping to get a match up for MHA and JJK as well tooo

Starting off with my personality, I think personally i’m a very rational person, I’m always trying to think ahead and make sure things go right (makes me dad if something planned goes wrong)!! I can be very empathetic and known as a dad friend according to ppl close to me hhh. Howeverr I tend to close my self off alot and i’m usually ending up as a loner :(( Apparently I am an ENFP but I usually don’t trust those since they’re probably inaccurate

I really like going to the gym, and playing games!! I also like to read and try baking/cooking when I get the chance <3 I don’t like people who are VERY selfish, like I understand sometimes you have to put yourself first but to the point its disgustingly selfish then big no from me. I hate cockroaches and mean people 😍

I’m 5’6 and a girl !

I’m okay with an adult character!! 💗 Thanks again hope youre having a good day!!

(GIRL I HATE COCKROACHES TOO THEM FUCKER’S ALWAYS BE BULLYING ME LIKE WHAT GET YOUR SHORT ASS OUT OF MY HOUSE. Anyways I hope you enjoy this!!)

I match you with..

Shota Aizawa

- He likes that you are a rational person, he thinks that there needs to be more rational people in the world.

- Whenever you get mad because things didn’t go right, he will be there to calm your nerves.

- He will kill any cockroaches for you so you don’t have to stress out too much about it.

- He enjoys to eat the homemade things you make, especially if you bake something that goes good with coffee. He always makes sure to thank you.

- He can be a loner himself so he doesn’t mind at all that you can be a loner too. He lets you know that you can speak with him at any time whenever you need someone to vent, rant, or even just talk to.

- Likes to sit on the couch next to you as you play video games with his arm lazily around your waist.

Gojo Satoru

- He thinks you’re smart for trying to think ahead and praises you for it.

- He teases you about your dislike for cockroaches. He’ll say things like “What’s so wrong with them? Those roaches didn’t do anything to you. They’re harmless!” He kills them for you after a long long session of teasing you about it.

- He brags and brags to the others about your homemade food saying that’s it’s the best he had ever eaten. He gives you a big confidence boost.

- He tries and gets you out of your comfort zone and to make more friends so that you can all hang out and party.

- He knows that he can be a bit overwhelming sometimes so he checks up on you to make sure that you are okay.

- Loves to play any type of game with you and it always becomes a competition no matter what game you’re playing.

Masterlist

[yagamisdiary]

hey amara! is leasing agent a good job for a college student (as if it's possible to combine the two)? what are your responsibilities?

yes!! it’s honestly a really good job to have during ur college years

my first reason would be because it’s usually 9-5 every complex you work out which means you get out pretty early and have the rest of the evening to do homework or class

responsibility wise you have to answer any email that comes in whether it’s from residents who already live at your property or interested prospects who want to live there, as well as answering the phone for both too

another thing is when people move out, usually the leasing and assistant manager walk the unit and take pictures of any damages and stuff to charge the person after they leave

you also have to take notes of what needs to be repaired before the next person moves in and get it scheduled with off site vendors (ex: if the carpet is extremely dirty or ruined, you schedule a carpet cleaning company to either replace the carpet or shampoo depending on the severity of the carpet)

you also have to communicate with the future resident the entire time before the move in and keep them updated on when their home will be ready and make sure they have everything uploaded in their file (applications, pay stubs, proof of insurance etc)

i do want to mention it can be a very mentally draining job! yes, you work inside in the AC all day long so it has its perks but you talk to ppl ALL DAY LONGGGGG so sometimes you can be a little overwhelmed if you don’t have the biggest social battery

also a lot of times, the leasing agent is the first person someone sees when they walk into the office which means unfortunately you get all the heat sometimes if they’re upset 🥴 like if their ac isnt working or they’re getting double charged they’ll come in and get mad and take their anger out of you which is very annoying but you just have to understand they’re frustrations and realize they’re not angry at you but rather are just venting to someone. if it gets out of hand, i just redirect them to my manager and she handles it

i hope this helps!! i can go a little more into detail if needed :)

[s1renidae]

does anyone else (specifically any other autistic ppl) really really struggle with art in terms of like. getting yourself to actually do it or learn how

I dont rly know how to articulate it but like. I have tried, I have BEEN trying for years to find joy in creating art but I CANT, because creating anything just feels like an unwinnable battle against myself. it's not exactly art block because I have so so many things I want to draw and i can envision them perfectly but then when it comes time to actually do it just. can't. I freeze up. I feel like I dont know how to do/make what I want to and I know that you have to make bad art in order to learn how to make good art but my problem is that if I can't do exactly what I want to do or if I don't know exactly step by step how to get where I want to go my brain just Won't Let Me. reaching the limit of what I'm familiar and comfortable with feels like hitting the limit of a map in a game like I just. hit a wall and can't go any further

and I've had the thought that maybe with the way my brain works I am just simply not meant to be an artist but I HATE that, because I love drawing I really do and I'm 100% more miserable being stuck with all the images in my head than I am when I actually do make something and i really really dont want to let my stupid autism/adhd/whateverthefuck stop me from doing something that i actually am passionate about but I just. can't do itfor some reason !! it's so frustrating and I've tried so many ways to get past it I've gotten so much advice from artists in my life and none of it has worked and I want to fucking cry because I refuse to accept that I just can't do what I want to do but I don't know how to move forward

I'll get to a certain point in a piece (usually I'll finish a sketch/lineart and MAYBE add flat colors) but then I think about what to do next and even if I know the process I just get overwhelmed and then I quit because that's easier and I dont know how to make myself not quit that's how I've been with everything I've tried my whole life and I'm about ready to just give up on doing or being anything that I want to because it seems like I'm just completely incapable of holding myself to anything

I really want to feel the joy/relaxation that I see other ppl get from drawing/painting and I used to feel that when I was a kid and it comes back in phases sometimes as long as I stick to just sketching but I just. can't I know im saying that a lot and it doesn't rly mean anything but that's rly all it is I Simply Cant. I struggle and then I give up because I'm such a perfectionist that I circle back around to not being able to do anything at all because I know I can't meet my own standards and I can't muster up enough dedication to learn and practice and ahhhhhh idk

I know this has become more of a vent post than anything but like please someone tell me I'm not alone or that there's some way around this shit because it's starting to feel really hopeless and I don't want to completely give up on the only hobby I've ever been this passionate about wanting to focus on

[entropy-sea-system]

This blog and our sideblogs will be on hiatus/inactive at least for a while.

I think being online may be a bit overwhelming for us, I don't feel like we got much out of it and its so easy for us to leave servers and block people when everything doesn't seem perfect, we don't have any actual attachment to anyone online so it's easy to just leave.

And this time at least w the discord servers I don't even feel very angry or upset, just maybe left out of anxiety and feeling like I need a change in the spaces Im in. I also wonder if in some cases I eventually get tired of a space or people and need to leave, Im not used to stability, and especially have no incentive to stay when I don't have a connection to someone.

I think currently I only feel that stability with my in sys partners, and sometimes Im still not used to that, I haven't cared about people that intensely for that long until having relationships with them.

We see a concerning amount of people hold views we can't agree with, and have been blocking these people as well as just ppl whose posts were not things we were interested in / may have been things we disliked or were triggered or repulsed by. We have blocked so many followers and unfollowed or blocked some ppl we followed because of these things, and its just better for us this way.

We haven't liked being in spaces mainly with minors, but maybe that was just the nature of online aro and apl spaces as of now, and some fandom spaces. But some discord servers geared towards adults seem to imply minors are 'annoying' and I don't agree with that, it feels antithetical to youth liberation and generally just respecting people.

I just prefer interacting with adults personally, and most of the system is this way since we are an adult. I feel like Ive been around minors like for so long (body has younger siblings and we were a minor until like 3-4 years ago) that I'm preferring to be around adults because I want to feel more like Im actually an adult, and don't feel like spaces with more minors are for us.

I think maybe I just got a bit tired of being around the age group of 'my age and younger' for so much of my life its like I don't want a repeat of that. I don't know anyone I really trust outside the system(not a priority to find this either), and I've never had an older adult mentor figure I could trust in my life, and I don't even know if I want that since some older adults may see me as 'like their child' and I'm afamilial. I'm also plato repulsed and it doesn't appeal to me to just hang out with people, I may be more plato repulsed than I thought (extending more into some things seen as friendship) which is really saying something.

This doesn't mean minors and youth are prone to always having views we disagree with (although we understand there are some reasons minors may be less likely to be informed about things or be influenced by the way the world has been, but that goes for any age group and/or culture in different ways) or that adults cannot interact in appropriate ways with minors, its just personal preference. I don't feel like on purpose interacting w minors in online spaces, and I don't even seek online interaction w anyone much to begin with. I think often, we just like talking about our interests and maybe like the attention we may get from people online.

There's nothing else we find positive about it, and the way online spaces can become very invested in discourse is.. irritating and like yeah I do talk about discourse and have opinions on it (not much posting abt on main, but used to a bit more in vent channels or other channels on discord servers) myself it's just maybe I want to avoid it for now since it doesn't seem like a good use of time or energy.

I want to avoid people who very obviously have opposing views to ours or make space for those who do for some topics at least, and I don't want people to target us for not agreeing with them. Frankly, I'm seeing a lot of harmful attitudes from so-called leftists and generally people in the mogai community, especially usamericans.

Anyways, all this is to say we will probably be taking a break from tumblr and discord or at least try it out for a bit, see if it feels better than being online a lot.

(-Rift)

[knaivcs]

BASICS ! Name / Alias: Soda, SodaCat, also some variety or deungnamu or deungnamuart Pronouns: he/him, becoming more comfortable with they/them Blog type: single muse | Multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective | mutuals only | private | other Type of muses: canon | OCs | both (i have single muse blogs of canon muses and OCs) | other (specify)

GENERALITIES ! Triggers people MUST tag: non-con/rape, the c-slur (please) Interest tracker / checker: I have it and it’s mandatory | I have it, it’s not mandatory but I’m more likely to follow back / interact with the people who fill it | I have one and I prefer it if people fill it in | I have it but it’s up to people whether to fill it or not | I don’t have one | other (specify) Reblog karma: I practice it | I practice it sometimes | I don’t practice it | I always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (if i cannot find the source/the source is deleted, I will TRY to reblog from a diff blog but you know what- sometimes I don't wanna have through dig pages of a stranger's blog JUST for a meme, then I'll reblog it from mutuals.) Rule passwords: I have one and it’s mandatory | I have one and it’s optional | I don’t have one | I send passwords | I don’t send passwords

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT Don't rush me.

Do not try to manipulate me emotionally or monopolize my time/energy.

Sometimes I am very slow and distracted, I appreciate patience.

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND Respect my interpretation. If my mutual is just collecting my muse to shove into a mold, I get very annoyed.

Love-Bombing when the muns have never spoken. It makes me uncomfortable because some really fucked up people have tried to become my 'friend' this way and were usually hiding something.

Communicate. If a mutual bugs me to plot and then doesn't respond at all (like PERIOD/NEVER after approaching me first, I have had that happen before), I will consider that a waste of my time and energy. 2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT)BLOCKING Vaguing. Venting is fine! But if the mun is like 'oooh ppl be smutting calm ur asses down horny ppl smh', maybe grow up? This is something I personally see as 'acceptable' in a lot of RPCs and it's just obnoxious. Constant negativity and self-depreciation.

Rapid-fire posting, sometimes I get REALLY overwhelmed. 2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH Not being up front. If I directly ask if there's a problem and my mutual lies and says "nothing", then I find out about it later- Boom. I cannot STAND this kind of behavior. My ex gaslit me all the time by acting like I was being "crazy and paranoid" when I knew there was something wrong and it really fucks with me. I have a very good intuition, so lying and making me question my own judgment because my mutual can't be an adult and talk is a no go.

The mun turns out to be possessive/territorial about their rp partners. We're not married, we are collaborating on fiction together.

The mun doesn't roleplay ever despite being an RP blog.

The mun turns out to be extremely insecure or needs constant validation.

I suspect the mun is sending themselves anonymous hate messages for attention.

2-5 REASON YOU DON’T FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE The mun is a jerk from a different rpc.

The blog is a personal and has no rp information or side blog.

The muse has no information/anything I can work with.

The mun's rules are worded kind of asshole-y/like 'tagging is so hard and I NEVER do it why r u trying to censor meee i WrIte maTuRe tHEmES'

The mun seems bigoted in some fashion.

tagged by: @duunswitch! tagging: STEAL MY HEART, PHANTOM THIEF STYLE

[simonalkenmayer]

Hey, so i saw ur posts on npd and i wanted to ask question. I have npd symptoms/traits i think but im not toxic or abusive (at most , i hurt ppl but its bc of my autism symptoms and not understanding people and people not communicating with me in a way i understand and not being good at social stuff.. also i ask for validation sometimes bc of npd symptoms and sometimes im overwhelming but i dont realize it until they say something but then after i try to stop...) plus my symptoms dont rly effect others mostly, unless i vent in public but i dont realize it until its pointed out to me, it mostly only effects me (at most, sometimes I vent about my creations not getting attention or as much attentions compared to others sharing their creations (but only to my friends in vent chats and not to their face), i compliment myself (even if i dont believe it, i have sorta a inferiority complex and superiority complex, i get mad and depressed if people are better than me but dont lash out at them or anything, i just feel very bitter), i instantly feel depressed and anxious and feel VERY inferior and scared and angry or frustrated if i make a mistake and/or am wrong about something & someone tells me So it doesnt register that im wrong for at least a few hours to a day & im prone to misunderstanding people and not understanding tone so that adds to it lol autism, im self destructive, im very very internally destructive and lash out at myself and blame myself, i have to compare myself to those i admire and say what i enjoy about my own creations and/or myself and what i like about myself or my ego/self esteem cracks, soo whenever someone says anything nice to me i hold it very dear to my heart, i get depressed if people arent nice to me or say anything good about me because it makes me lose motivation and makes my depression worse/makes me depressed, my ego/self esteem is very fragile so i need consistent positive interaction and for people to be nice to me alot, i need frequent validation/reassurance, etc., i also have empathy issues which causes issues in relating to and understanding people but also autism thing lol i have trouble registering people as people... ppl are like aliens or "other" to me , i dont feel human.. i dont understand ppl and what they need or want unless they tell me). What does this mean ? ?? help :c

That’s not narcissism.

You’re experiencing difficulties. Rather I think it more likely that you have faced narcissistic people in your life who make you feel badly for your neurodivergence.

Narcissistic people manipulate others, gaslight, lie, rewrite history, play victim without being one, signal virtue, need attention, do things like storm out, in the worst cases, they can also be incredibly abusive and vicious. Vindictive. The behavior comes from an internal issue. All behaviors either protect the person or absolve them of guilt in an effort to reestablish control over the situation and feel safe.it’s not as simple as reacting to actual rudeness. Essentially it amounts to using other people as a means to prop up their own sense of self-esteem. They need constant validation, constant deference, everything their way. They do things to get a rise out of others so that they can gaslight.

To be clear it’s possible to have multiple mental health issues, and many do overlap. They sometimes overlap with physical issues as well. A physically disabled person can be narcissistic. A person who is bipolar can be narcissistic, and so on. The word describes behavioral patterns and concepts of what other people mean. It describes the feeling of being the intended center of reality.

If you worry, then you are likely fine or on the path toward overcoming any narcissistic tendencies you may have. most commonly the last thing a narcissistic person will ever say that they are is narcissistic. They have convinced themselves they’re right.

[orenjibot]

Rly frustrated af at shit so. I deactivated all my twit in the meantime. I simply do not exist.

I’ll reactivate them some time. I’ll likely keep off discord for a lil bit too.

I’m just so… upset at everything…

(rant under a read more)

Bro i keep feeling like cause i just complain so much that no one likes to hear me complain???? Like imagine having ppl not respond to u with smth like “damn that sucks” or etc.

Like ofc i dont get like this all the time cause i know sometimes i need to write my thoughts out somewhere, but it do feel like smth when a few doesn’t rly respond to my rants or some shit but will respond to other ppl. And i just…. Am i rly that bad…???

I kinda wish ppl will tell me that if i am BUT then again, it’s just putting pressure on ppl for telling me what’s right and what’s wrong which is mean and cruel of me. Despite the fact that, I’m not rly forcing them to tell me but more like “please don’t hold ur words back and rly let me have it” if like ya know? They WANT to say something but is afraid to.

But then again, i had this issue with my old friend group of irls many years ago so honestly? I should expect not to get a response or smth. Like i expect a response but i guess i just… dunno what kinda response i want? Like do i want ppl to let me know they read it? Do i want an opinion or advice on it? Or do i want them to like coddle me for a bit and let me know they care? Do i want them to agree with me?? Like i just dunno. I respond to ppl when they vent all the time because i feel like i should say smth since lol i get ignored a lot.

Literally no one want to listen to me talk irl when i get like this??? My whole family is kind of dismissive towards me about it. Like damn sorry for complaining so much i guess?? I totally get it if ppl just can’t rly help me and they know it, but sometimes the way ppl respond by saying nothing or responding curtly/abruptly, i just feel like u don’t want to listen to me and want me to shut up. Like man i’m not going to MAKE y’all participate in actively shittalking ppl with me cause i GET IT, but sometimes the way ppl respond rly feels like “i disagree with u and want to say u’re wrong but out of politeness and the facts laid out before me, i can’t say that.” Like… you can just say u dont like me and wanna take someone else’s side???

Like idk maybe i’m just reading too much into it cause it causes my rad to flare up really bad. I dont wanna force ppl TO listen to me when they can’t or don’t want to?? Like i’m not that rude but the way ppl sorta just get distracted irl makes me rly like upset cause bro… i asked if i can talk to u and THIS is the response and attention u’re giving me? Bruh just say u dont like listening to me. I have to out all my shit down if i’m listening to you, i demand the same respect back. I dont grill ppl that much on it if it’s online tho.

Like ya kno? It’s online u got ur own life and shit like that. So i get that much. It’ll sting but not that much.

I keep thinking that maybe its just the hole left in me cause my exfriend was shit but at this point… i guess i just. Can’t find anyone who rly did fill the role my exfriend left behind. I do commend him for being able to work with me to get along with me, despite how he eventually threw me aside after a while.

Either i expect everyone to treat me like how i treat them, very literally, or maybe i just have some things that i can’t really overlook when it comes to how i want people treat me. Like i dont think my requirements are ungodly high, but i guess it’s the little things that set me off.

Oh well. I feel like i’m being a nuisance anyways so i’m just going to not talk and actively participate in social media for a bit. Like i’m around alright cause ppl need to be able to reach me for anything, but. Yeah.

I dont want to think of myself as someone who just complains a lot cause i dont but i do complain about things when it overwhelms me emotionally. Like i dont gripe about my pet peeves that often but i WILL complain about stuff i think is like emotionally overwhelming to me like if i get hurt or treated unfairly. And those are things i vent about a lot in retrospect.

It’s all temporary but i think it’s harder for me to pet go of something i don’t rly understand and hurt me deeply as a result. Like it just takes longer which sucks.

Maybe i’m just burnt out from trying to be okay lately. I’ve been depressed after all. Maybe i’m just. Tired or smth. Idk. I just dunno what i should be doing.

Just feeling like a blob of hurt… Like i know that just leaving won’t get ppl to dm me or anything and ask if i’m doing alright. Even irl, i dont think ppl really realize if i’m doing alright cause i don’t rly show it and i don’t rly like to say i’m not doing okay.

It’s… tough.

[leafysharky]

hi internet ignore this it’s a cringe vent post. tw for lots of stuff prob!! sorry no doodle, i’m tired

it’s really hard being th happy silly “oh i can handle all ur problems!!” goofy basically comedic break moment friend sometimes!! i mean i share some vulnerabilities, for example i complain a lot!! like a lot a lot. it’s rly annoying haha, and i ofc joke abt like, idk myself and stuff. but i just idk!!! it feels so fake when in my head i’m just constantly thinking of committing sewerslide or how i’m gona fruit ninja my thighs later as a basically punishment for being so stupid. i’m so fake and gross. wish i was pretty, wish i wasn’t annoying wish i was actually useful. lol speaking of being useful i have this constant overwhelming desire for ppl to take advantage of my people pleaserness?? i’m so disgusting and insane and idk why i want it but i know i deserve it. it makes me feel special whilst also being like karma to me for how just icky and mean and stupid i’ve been/am. like it’s so cringe but everyone i get close to someone they leave sooo im basically constantly waiting for that to happen with my best friends. the idea of being used to me feels like “okay they’re gonna leave anyway so i might as well give and not be a parasite like i normally am��. it’s just a silly waiting game where some ppl can withstand my horribleness longer than others. then i move on to new ppl and leech like the disgusting thing i am. i like to pretend in my mind that i’m so nice, that i have sm friends and i guess that’s half true. i have a lot of friends, i’m just not close at all with 95% of them!! bc when ppl get close to me it doesn’t go well!!! ugh why am i so cringe lmfao. im gona go lay and think abt trying to od again. byebye to the zero ppl reading this, ily

[indigodawns]

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[fbfh]

peter quill dating hcs

Listen this isn't the smut headcanons

But it's peter quill

There's gonna be some 18+ jokes and content

I will keep this as sfw as possible bc you'd better fucking believe that Peter Quill relationship and intimacy hcs are on their fucking way

So yeah just a prelude

Anyway

Yuh let's get inTO it

Okay two things first

1: I'm so mad there's like no fics for him?????????? Why is he not yet a tumblr sexyman??????? I get the first movie came out in like 2014 so I probably just missed the hype window but for gods sake

2: a lot of ppl think he'd be easily flustered and blushy and that's totally and completely valid

However

Why are we overlooking the whole "I've slept with half the galaxy" thing????????

Like

Okay Peter is a goofball

We know this

And on top of that

He can get it

I'm going to stop myself there so more on that later

He's like 6'2, hilarious, charismatic, so loving and compassionate, fan fucking tastic music taste i could go on for days

I feel like more likely than not you'd probably go from fwb to lovers

Since this is the sfw half we're gonna focus more on the second half

I feel like he falls so hard and fast he doesn't really have time to be like

Oh no I'm falling in love dammit

He's so easily distracted by everything about you that he can't hear that voice going "snap out of it Peter"

Cause he does not want to

Oh my god sit on his lap when he's in the pilot's seat in the Milano

When he's not driving obviously

It's one of his favorite things you do

If you're Terran you bond over earth stuff really quickly

#growingupterran

He's really affectionate

Like really really affectionate

Rocket makes gagging noises whenever you're in the same room cause there's usually some kinda cuddling or kissing going on

Even just loving gazes across the room

Rocket is the voice Peter ignores telling him to snap out of it

Rocket: come on! This is gross! It's gross, right Groot?

Groot, handing Peter a flower to give to you: I am Groot :)

Peter, handing you the flower: thank you Groot, you're my new wingman

Rocket: >:(

Don't worry though, you call Rocket the weapons expert and he likes you suddenly

"What should we bring to the attack?"

"We should ask Rocket, he is the weapons expert"

Rocket, dropping down from an air vent, "DAMN RIGHT I AM"

Rocket gives me Rigby meets Dan from Dan vs energy

When Peter sees you getting along with the rest of the crew it makes his heart so happy

I’d say out of all marvel subunits the guardians have the most genuine found family dynamic

The support between him and his friends is so important to him, so when you integrate pretty easily as part of the group, it means a lot to him

If you’re terran

Which presumably you are

When he first shared his awesome mixes with you you loved it

You checked your phone and realized, very distraught, that you don’t have wifi in space

Luckily you had some music downloaded, so you have like 3 playlists you can listen to

Once you get to a planet with actual reception, you make copies of his mixes on spotify so y’all can shuffle them

He kind of prefers to listen straight through but the variety is nice

And the fact that you did that for him???? His heart goes boom boom

And his peepee goes hELLO

He’ll dance with you a lot

Albeit very shittily

But you both have fun

If you’re insecure about dancing you won’t be for long

Sometimes when you’re dancing he’ll have his hands on your waist

Just staring at you

He’s been from one corner of the galaxy to the next

He’s seen everything

And you still top the charts as the prettiest sight he’s ever laid eyes on

His eyes get all big and sparkly

His brow gets a little furrowed and he has this smirky smile

He lets out a breathy laugh, baffled at how after all the pain and loss and bullshit he’s endured

How someone as

Wonderful

As you came into his life

Man

He just likes spending time with you

And as much of a front as he puts up he will come damn near death to protect you and make sure you’re safe

The only reason he wouldn’t actually die for you is because then he wouldn’t be able to protect you more

But he will 100% sacrifice himself for your safety and wellbeing

Afterwards he’ll cover it up with self aggrandizing humor

“So we’re in agreement… that was so heroic, right?”

Through tears, you’ll clutch him and laugh

“Oh, yeah. Very brave, your medal of valor will be arriving soon,”

He does this to soften the blow of what he did

Both for you and him

Let’s be real, he’s not best with up front emotional vulnerability

He’ll deflect with humor or seduction

But it’s very thinly veiled

When he falls for you you know exactly how much he likes you

Which is a lot

Later during a quiet moment

Maybe you’re falling asleep with his cassettes playing softly

You can tell him not to do that again

How worried you are, how stupid it was, and that you don’t know what you’d do without him

Keep it brief though, he already knows good and well how much it scared you

Most importantly let him know how much how love him

How much you care about him, how much everything he does means to you

And that you’d do the same for him

“Uh, no- no way. The whole point was to keep you away from bodily harm.” He’ll chuckle, half joking, fingers tracing your neck and jawline

“Okay,” you’ll reply into the crook of his neck, “next time, we come up with a plan b where both of us avoid bodily harm. Deal?”

“Yeah,” he’ll say softly, pressing a kiss to your forehead, “deal.”

Oh god his feelings for you are so overwhelming in that moment

They're swirling around him like a typhoon

He’s so focused on your touch, your breaths, the warmth coming off of you that it just washes over him

All he can do is hold you close

He knows he has no idea what the coming days will bring

But he’ll be damned if you don’t face it side by side

[xxxtoony-brosxxx]

Ngl I feel so bad rn

Tw vent

Like I feel like the worst person alive bc rn I took the iPod from my sis bc we had an argument since I paid the most for it anyways and bc I wouldn’t give it back she hit me and I hit back to get her off of me

Like wtf is wrong with me!? I shouldn’t have hurt her, it’s hurts bc it makes me feel like I’m just like my abusers. And I feel so so bad that I did that, and then all I could think abt was how evil I am as a person that that stupid iPod is more loveable than me how she was willing to hurt me for it, my chin, lip, and elbow still hurt from it and I feel as if I deserved it.

I had all these overwhelming feelings abt what I did and how I only proved my family right, that I’m a wicked, cruel, evil, unworthy of love, fucking disappointment.

Idk why I can’t be good enough I always fuck up, I only hurt ppl, y tf can’t my fam love me, why do they all hate me, I can try my best but it’s never good enough and they tell me all the time how bad I am and it hurts, why tf am I so unlovable to them? What did I do wrong!! I think abt it and ever since I was a little kid my family hated me, I’m sorry for hurting you, I’m sorry I’m a screw up, I’m sorry I was born, I’m sorry I’m alive, I’m sorry I fucking exist!!!!

A lot of thoughts came rushing in, my head hurts from it all, my eyes burn from crying for two hours feeling like I deserve to die.

My head is shrieking for me to self harm and kill myself

I had to rub my wrist roughly to keep myself from attempting to do so as I sobbed and trembled from the fucking horrible being that I am.

I wanted it to stop, all the pain, but it just kept coming until I just held my throat to imagine suffocating to make it end, I hate how it made me feel better to imagine dieing to escape the pain but I just wanted it to stop so bad I didn’t know what to do.

I feel numb and disappointed and disgusted in myself I wish I was good enough I wish I could feel like a good person, I wish I wasn’t bad, I wish I was loveable to my family, but Ig I’ll never be.

I say I want to be loved by my fam bc I was raised that if u hurt ur fam even if they hurt u ur a evil person and now, I believe it. I just wish they could love me like I love them. I feel like im drowning myself for them, I hate this fake disguise that I wear for them, the smile, the laugh, the kindness even after I’ve been beaten and told awful things that I can’t help but feel I deserve. I’ve grown tired of trying to be strong and hopeful, even if I don’t feel any hope left.

I wanna give up so bad sometimes, but I hold on. Not bc of someone or something but bc I’m scared of being judged after death. Like I’ve been judged all my life and my fam claims it’s selfish, evil, idiotic, and weak of someone to do so, I’m afraid I’ll have to hear the judgment spread like wildfire in my family, I don’t want those words to be my legacy and how I’m remembered, so I force myself to push even tho I’m drowning in a sea of sorrow where happiness is always in sight but always out of my reach as I’m chained to the wait of my burdens and pulled deeper every time I try to fight my demons, my chest burns with emotions that I can’t show.

Bc if they see, I’ll be judged, mocked, criticized, and beaten for daring not to be happy. I feel like a fuckin stranger in my own home, I can’t even look in the mirror without hating myself, I’m sick of being me I’m sick and tired of living, idk how much more I can take, but I promise to everything I am and everyone that I won’t kill myself even tho I want to. I’m sorry for everything, I’m so so sorry, and I’m so so tired of fighting. That hope of being happy has faded to a single lit ember and I hold onto it for dear life but it’s really hard for me to keep the light from fading I’m really trying I promise. It’s just too much- 💔

[kexing]

this is such a random question but i wanted some advice? how do you not let others people opinions affect you? i am on twitter (big mistake i know) and i get so upset over ppl actions and hypocrisy over things that i just want to call them out but it wouldn't do any good bc ppl are stubborn and double down when called out.

i wanna just not be on twitter anymore but i hate not knowing things in fandom, it feels like i always have to be up to date (and twitter is the fastest and also the translators are there) but i hate it bc knowing things is also what make me sad/mad.

UGH idk what to do, i guess i just lack the maturity? sigh i am sorry this is so random but i always see you as so mature that i wanted advice, to see if there is something i can do i guess?

hi there, friend! this is a complicated situation because you said you hate not knowing things in fandom which i totally understand, i’m a virgo, i Need to know things!! akdkskkd so i used to keep up with fandom news all the time.

but then i created a toxic headspace for myself, letting everything and everyone get to me to the point where my anxiety caused me to get physically sick (which still happens from time to time so i have to step back, focus on something else or i might get sucked into old bad habits again).

the only way i found to keep myself sane was staying away from all of that. because even if you’re a mature person who understands that people are different and sometimes toxic, this constant wave of information and being exposed to all kinds of people, they take a toll on you.

now i just occasionally check that bl update twitter account, my friends send me info from time to time, which helps, but that’s it.

i don’t go on twitter, i have many tags blocked on tumblr and i veeeery rarely check main tags, i prefer to check my friends’ blogs instead. the ones i know i can find good content without negative things.

and even then, sometimes i still need to vent about certain things and luckily i have a friend whose opinions are quite similar to mine, so we talk about things in this safe space that helps me feel better.

i may seem mature (it’s easy when i live in a bubble lmao) but i’m a lot like you, i internalize these bad things, especially because i hate putting them back into the world but then it causes ME to get sick.

so my advice would be: try to curate your experience as best as you can and create a safe space for yourself. blocking everyone that says things that bother you, checking only certain twitter accounts or just receiving notifications from them. avoid main tags, i know this is hard but those places are….. too much, and don’t read general comments because satan lives there aldkskkd just blatantly ignore them like lalalala i can’t read!!

and even then, it might still be a lot sometimes, so i suggest finding a friend whom you can talk about these things with, even the petty ones that annoy you. find someone who accepts all of your rage and ask them “hey can i vent with you today?” and go OFF about it (if they say yes, of course). i swear it makes ALL the difference because it’s too heavy of a burden to carry alone.

oh and find funny videos to watch when you’re feeling overwhelmed, they have to be completely unrelated to the things that are bothering you. i’m currently into watching reviews about bad christmas movies and i swear, they take your mind off things!

so yeah, it’d be stupid of me to come here and call you immature for feeling affected when in reality i’m the same and just happen to live in a bubble with my support system.

i don’t think this helps much because it limits your sources of information so you might not want to do it + creating a safe space and finding the right people is HARD, it’s not something that happens overnight but can i ask you to please try?

you can start slowly. block those people you want to call out if you haven’t yet, it’s therapeutic alsksksk and if you fail today, you can always start again tomorrow!

because you don’t deserve to suffer this much when all you’re doing is trying to have fun with your interests!

[defiantsuggestions]

how do i stop being angry at myself and irritable to others when they're kind to me? i don't think it's even bc i feel i don't deserve it, i want to appreciate it but i react with thoughts that hurt myself and occasionally snap at ppl for wanting to comfort me and idk how to explain it other than feeling defensive and vulnerable for having my pain acknowledged by ppl who want me to be safe and cared for, i want it so bad and i want to accept it but my immediate thoughts toward that scare and confuse me. i want to let others the chance to care for me since shutting them out hurts them too but it feels almost impossible to get over it due to many trust and aggression issues i developed bc of repeated emotional abuse. am i afraid to want it bc i think it could be fake and then feel anger? idk my reactions don't make sense for someone who wants to be able to let genuine kind gentle ppl in and im so afraid of being stuck this way forever

Remember to take my advice with a grain of salt; I am not a professional and do not pretend to be.

But I have a few thoughts as to where the anger could be coming from.

It could be that you're reacting defensively to the unfamiliar. You aren't used to kindness and acknowledgment and the anger is a way to protect yourself from that. The brain resists change, even if those changes are good, and sometimes positive things feel bad until you get used to them.

It could also be possible that you're getting overstimulated. It's too much too fast and your brain gets overwhelmed.

It could also be as you suggested, you're afraid of betrayal and the anger is a way of avoiding that possibility. Accepting the kindness would put you in a position where the other person could, theoretically, hurt you if they aren't as genuine as they appear.

I would also venture to say that you haven't processed your trauma completely. Or at least, you haven't processed it enough that it's stopped feeling like an open wound. It could be that your brain is still working through stuff and it is in a sensitive space right now.

Comunication is important here. Be clear that you have an anger problem. Let them know that, while you do want comfort and that their efforts are appreciated, your emotions tend to swing in ways you don't want them to.

Have boundaries and know when to back off for both your sake. It sucks, but if you're getting to the point where you're going to snap at the other person for being kind then the interaction isn't helping either of you. Let them know that you need a minute, walk away, and calm down. You can always, always end an interaction if it's getting to be too much.

Understand that your emotions aren't neccesarily reflective of reality. It's a knee-jerk response. Recognize it, and sit with it. Let yourself feel the thing so you can let it go.

Don't be angry at yourself for what you feel. Self loathing for having an emotional response doesn't help you, it makes the feelings worse.

If you snap at someone, apologize, explain why it happened, take steps to avoid it happening again and work with them when they tell you what they can and can't deal with. If they don't forgive you, respect that. Both your boundaries and theirs are important.

I suggest you get a vent journal. When you're angry, go to the journal and write down what you feel. What are your thoughts, what specific thing is causing the emotion. Putting things down in words is good both for catharsis and for self analysis.

Just remember to be gentle with yourself and know that you are working through a difficult thing. It's hard and it takes time. Every day is a step forward. Some days are hard, there will be setbacks, but that doesn't mean you aren't making progress.