#sorry Saw fandom you're stuck with me now <3

[kindheartedgummybears]

sorry for not being active yesterday I went to do some personal stuff and saw(ahhaha) saw x and ummm

UMMM

HADIOAWIUDBUAW??? ERRRR??? GERNAWIRHAE???? AWIOAWIODAWOBUDUVADW???????AWDNAWIOHDAWIHODIHOADW???????

This movie is going to be my whole personality the next few days so I'm sorry for that

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP I'm so exhausted and heart broken over this NewJeans mess. Funny thing is I got into the group after seeing you talk about them late last year, I fell in love with Ditto and started watching them closely. I saw how MHJ would treat them and smile at them in candid shots like the Lolla show, and felt at ease that they would continue to succeed with her managing them.

But since this issue started when I try to express why I'm uneasy with HYBE controlling NewJeans, I'm downvoted to negatives on reddit and qrted to hell on Twitter. Army friends have unfollowed me even though I've said I'm against the hate on BTS. I don't even stan NewJeans the way I do BTS, but because I'm critical of Hybe and siding with Ador, I'm called all sorts of names and yesterday Armys tried to suspend my account. Even BigHit's former choreographer has come out in support of Ador, other idols have publicly come out in support of NewJeans and N Capital came out to refuse Hybe's claims that MHJ met them to take Ador out. I feel things are not as Black and White as Armys are saying about this issue, and that NewJeans is under risk if MHJ leaves.

Everybody is calling me crazy and on one hand it's whatever. I know how kpop stans are in general so I'm not surprised, but I'm truly starting to worry. I started writing this ask 3 times before settling on what I've written now, because I kept getting choked up. I know its just kpop and I shouldn't be this attached, but I'm so scared BPP. Those girls are not even 2 years old as a group and their future is already looking so bleak when at the start of this year, their future was so bright. I remember you said they might technically even get a Grammy nomination this year. I feel sad and angry but I'm unable to express myself freely in all the fandom spaces I usually spend time in.

What should I do? How can I handle this? If it were you, what would you do? Sorry if this ask is super whiny but you always have good advice and I need some right now.

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Listen, you already know what you should do. You just seem to lack the will to do it, at least that's what it seems like.

ARMY is the largest fandom in k-pop and they've deemed NewJeans as persona non grata. Most other HYBE fandoms also aren't looking too keenly on NewJeans and with how obsessive k-pop stans are in everything they do, this will be a long-term problem for NewJeans and their fandom. If Bunnies were a bigger fandom it wouldn't be too much of a problem, but they aren't, so the lifetime of the group is already halved.

If you only got into NewJeans six months ago and you're already this attached, you need a cold turkey break. Things are looking grim given the girls have expressed support for MHJ, and it's very unlikely HYBE will lose this case. Those girls are more or less done, so I'd say you should cut your losses and start detaching from them now to spare yourself more heartbreak later. Also, block the 'ARMY friends' who are downvoting, quote tweeting, and otherwise harassing you. You're in fandom to enjoy a community about the things you love, not to get stuck in never-ending arguments with people who have little else going on in their real lives.

The primary danger of k-pop, is getting sucked in. A lot of people here are fully, irredeemably sucked in. On both sides of this matter, ARMYs, Bunnies and kpoppies alike, the majority of this crowd is people who think they are normal but have lost any real semblance of perspective on what this industry is and of their place in it. You need to cut loose because you seem to already be in a somewhat fragile state, and what this space does is pervert that hurt you feel into a tribal sort of resentment.

I can't really say what I would do if I were you, because I don't feel attached to NewJeans the way you do. It's a shame the girls have become collateral damage, but given how quickly they became massively successful in this industry, this is unfortunately a more expected outcome for them, than not. It's sad, but that's the nature of things here. I like BTS, but like I've said many times before, I don't see myself as having any significant influence over their careers and choices. Whatever they choose to do with HYBE or whatever is their business, I simply keep supporting them for as long as I like them and the music they make.

This mess with HYBE is peculiar (and different from the 50-50 case) because NewJeans and ADOR are saying they don't want to leave HYBE (yet), while HYBE is punishing them as though they are asking the courts to let them leave HYBE. It's created a situation such that even if NewJeans stays or leaves, they are in a sense doomed, to be blunt. And you need to make your peace with that.

Some ideas to help:

A cold turkey break is very needed. The way you're talking about this group doesn't seem healthy. It wouldn't seem healthy if you were talking about BTS either. It might be a good idea to block anything related to k-pop for the next two weeks. Things will only get messier because the stakes are high, and HYBE has shown they have no problem going low. For your sanity, I really think you should stay away cold turkey and tightly curate your online spaces when you return.

Consider stepping away from Twitter and Reddit. I'm less familiar with Reddit but for Twitter, you have the option of making your account private, blocking the ARMYs harassing you, finding more sensible Bunnies to commiserate with, using lists to keep up with topics and accounts, etc.

Consider spending more time on Phoning. After taking some time to cool off, use NewJeans' app to connect more directly with the girls to show them love and support.

Try to focus on the music. NewJeans will have comebacks on May 24th and June 21st. The best way to support those girls now, is to focus on their music and support that. Personally, I've already ordered full sets of their albums since this might be the last ones we see with Min Heejin's creative direction. (Also, they might become collectable lol). Of course I hope that's not the case, but supporting their music is the most direct way to support the girls right now, in my opinion.

I'm sorry you're in this state, I'm even more sorry that the girls are in this state, but you need to detach and remember they have their own lives, are making their own choices, and that has nothing to do with you.

Good luck.

[sp0o0kylights]

hey its me from the "wheres the adopt a jock update, im dying" thing. im so sorry for it. i had know idea there even was a storm and it is 100% not ur job to keep us updated bc ur doing us favour by uploading content, im sorry i took that for granted.

im also sorry this apology came late, i felt to chicken to write one innitially, i dont know if i did end up sending u one, but ur reaction to my ask came up in my feed again and i really wanted to apologise once more.

I'm so sorry for those you lost in this horrid storm and I'm so proud of u for pushing through, everyone is and I hope u know that.

I know this apology doesn't make up for anything but I just wanted u to know that I took in what u responded, u were well in ur right to be pissed off, and I now know for future to type my messages in a kinder way so they don't get taken as a ride remark, I hope u know I didn't type what I said to be rude, not that it matters in anyway.

we're all looking out for u and wish u all the best, have a great day

It's all good fam--I honestly had a few of these messages between here and A03, some a lot ruder that yours, and yours just happened to be the first one I saw when I managed to get a few hours with proper access to Tumblr (Ie not on the craptastic app on my phone, which refuses to let me answer asks and crashes when I try lol.)

Thank you for apologizing, it does mean a lot, and it takes a lot of courage to do it.

It's a weird lesson to learn sometimes, that people who don't know you as well won't always know you're joking/your sense of humor, or may not mentally be in a space to fully comprehend it as a light prod instead of a "hey dude where's my content."

I think it's also a good reminder that fandom is a community first. I know there's a lot of discussion centered around how we're sliding into a more content mill like vibe vs that community, and that a lot of us are getting impacted by it a bit--I'll be the first to say I was more touchy even before the trees because I've had a lot more weird, demanding comments lately than I ever used to get. Not just in ST either--I'm seeing it on my older fics, in fandoms that are significantly smaller and typically very drama-less. While my policy normally is to delete and ignore, sometimes it builds (and then two trees almost kill you by collapsing your house and you start biting heads off after being stuck in a hotel with your family for two weeks.)

Anyway, thank you sincerely, for apologizing. It did not go unnoticed <3

[wraenata]

You seem to put a lot of energy into being considerate of others. I'm thankful for it but like, how? I hope you're taking care of yourself.

Hi anon! Thank you very much, I really appreciate this.

I really like being considerate of others, in fact it makes me happy. When I see someone having a down day, I just want them to know that someone saw, and wants things to get better for them. Because that's how I really feel. I love all of you in my phone and I want you to be ok. And I like leaving nice tags for people on their art, because I know how much joy that can bring.

But, ugh, yeah. I'm not going to lie, it takes a lot of energy.

I think I'll put the rest under the cut...

Ever since the months started getting warmer this year I've been having more trouble keeping up with my dash (I'm someone who needs to scroll through the whole thing). Before the wedding I was in and covid about a month ago, I was able to just barely keep up with my dash and also scrolling the rise tag. Because I didn't want to miss anything! I also was able to scroll through ao3 to see what new fics were posted and bookmark ones I wanted to read! I...haven't been able to do that anymore...and I hate it.

I'm so far behind on reading fanfics that I absolutely enjoy because I just don't have the energy for reading anything longer than 1k at a time right now. And I can't start any new ones until I catch up on the old ones. There are so many writing posts I came across on my dash that are stuck in draft jail until I have time and energy to read them. And quite a few art posts that I came across when I just didn't have time.

I try hard to keep up with my dash at work but I only have so much (extremely generous) time to do that. I'm often speed running tags when I don't have a lot of time or energy. And sometimes I can't express just how much I love your art because of that low time or energy. And I hate putting posts in drafts cause it piles up and gives me anxiety. And when I come home its just, dash, all night.

I am eternally grateful for @/teainthesnow, she keeps all the tmnt tagged posts coming onto my dash so I can still see them (if you see this tea I am so appreciative of all the work you do for the fandom, you are an amazing person and I love you/platonic).

I've already unfollowed a few blogs, and I agonized over it, for like weeks, before doing it. But it hasn't been enough. If you noticed I unfollowed you in the past 2 months, please know that it was nothing personal and I hated that I had to do it. I miss seeing your posts and how your day is going. We are mutuals in my heart forever.

In fact I wish I could follow so many more blogs but I have had to stop myself for a while now. And it really fucking sucks. I've tried filtering a bunch of tags to make it easier too but it's not enough.

The fact of the matter is, I need to unfollow more blogs. And I hate to do it. I know I need to do it. I've known for a while now. I don't have the energy to keep up with it anymore, not after getting covid. I'm just so tired. All the time.

If you see that I unfollow you at some point, again, I love you and we are mutuals in my heart forever. All of my followers are my mutuals. My askbox and messages are always open. You can always tag me in posts (and oh my I'm just remembering all the of tag games I haven't had time to do) I just can't keep up with this anymore. I want to get back to reading fanfic and making the mountains of fanart I want to do for people.

I just, I love you all. But I'm so so tired. I really hope if anything comes out of this long ramble, its that I love you all. The rise fandom has given me so much and I want to return that love.

I'm sorry for the late response anon, and I'm sorry for turning your lovely ask into a bit of a vent. I've tried to put this off for as long as I could, but I just can't do it anymore.

I love you all though <3

[iheartchv]

July challenge

Hosted by the ever lovlies: @thelaundrybitch @leosgirl82 and @post-apocalyptic-daydream 💗💗💗

Fandom: TMNT (2014/2016 Dark Turtles AU; click here if you'd like to get to know them a little before reading💗💋

Prompt: "We should kiss. Right now."

This is gonna be headcanon style because my mind is too focused on other things to try to write something >3> life's just being sucky rn, sorry for it being rushed

꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ............. ꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱

You entered the dark turtles' lair

With food in hand

With their big size, and not so ninja stealth, it was hard to find food

Even after helping the turtles defeat Krang, their once creator and boss, it was still hard to be on good terms with the turtle gang

However...

You slowly became friends, then best friends, with one of them

And to prove he liked and trusted you, without even saying anything, he took you to their lair down at the old abandoned docks by the Eastman Bay

"Hey guys, I got-"

"FOOD!"

Mike was the first to rush to you, followed by Lee, Don, and Red

After everyone ate, they went to lay down

You stuck around (Lee/Red/Don/Mike), laying down with him... because he was your bestie

But for sometime now, you've been feeling... a little something more toward him

Anyone would've thought you insane

But you saw something in him, something... human

Plus he wasn't bad as everyone thought him to be be

He and his brothers were just... misunderstood...

As you talked about your day with him, he listened to every word you said

He secretly longed to be by your side, be a part of your life.... instead of hiding in shadows and darkness

At times like these, when you two were alone, thats when those warm fuzzy feelings made themselves known

After telling a few jokes and a few laughs, you got so comfortable that you said what was on your mind

"You know... we..."

He looked at you

"We should kiss..."

Pause

"...right now"

He was flustered

If they could blush, he'd be red right now

"W-what!? What are you saying?"

*insert more flustered embaressed gestures*

You realize what you said, and tried to play it off

"I'm just playing..."

He turned toward you and looked you in the eyes after calming down a bit

"Well, I'm not..."

You stared back at him, heart pounding, blushing

You blinked in disbelief

"...You...mean...Since when?"

"Since that day, when you showed me kindness that no one else ever did..."

Pause

"You're the only one who didn't treat me as a monster.. I mean, I am trying to better myself..."

You knew he was

And you would help him, too, in any way you could

You gave him a kiss on the cheek

"I know"

You could hear his sighs and breathing, almost like a deep growl like purr

He held you close to him in his massive arms, wanting to stay near you

One day, one step at a time is what it was going to take... towards a better future for the two of you

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Lmk if you do/don't wanna be tagged ♡

[welcometololaland]

Fic Origin Story aka. Hyperfixations: the Original

A bunch of you tagged me back in this which is...fair because I should probably do my own if I'm going to expect people to tell me their life fic story. I'm SORRY I'm so obsessed with knowing about people it's a problem.

I'm living for all your responses please keep going I beg!

1. What was your first fandom (reading and/or writing)?

I don't think it's a secret that I once upon a time wrote for the fandom that shall not be named, but my first fandom was actually Veronica Mars. I read fic on some website that no longer exists but was devoted entirely to LoVe (Logan/Veronica).

I never wrote and never left comments like a complete dick, but I was also 14 and it's like common knowledge I was a complete asshole as a child.

2. What was the first story you ever wrote (even if it was never posted) and what made you decide to write it?

For fic, it was a ridiculously terrible self-insert Veronica Mars story (except I inserted myself as a best friend not a love interest...interesting choice). I remember my character surfed and made people eat Vegemite. Which...I can't surf and I'm not even going to address the Vegemite thing.

I think I was 14. It never saw the light of day thank GOD.

3. What's a piece of advice you would give to your younger fic-writing self?

Wait, and find something you're really passionate about. I'd get stuck on a bunch of chaptered fics that seemed like good ideas but I had no real fire for. Then Speak for Yourself happened and I was like damn, this is what writing is supposed to feel like.

Also, don't write in the second person. Who does that? (me, I did that)

4. What's an early fandom interaction that stuck with you (be it a nice comment, a friend you made, a fic that got a lot of feedback etc.)?

A. The day @everwitch-magiks left me a comment and changed my life by ushering me into a group of fandom friends and lighting the RWRB fire.

B. The day @rmd-writes dropped into my inbox with a gentle 'hey, do you want to let me in your doc for beta purposes?' and then took up residence and never left my G drive / heart.

5. Post a sentence or two from one of your older fics, and a sentence or two from a newer one (if you want).

I have regret for accepting this suggestion. The below fic is a Hunger Games fic I wrote originally in 2013? but i reposted it to Ao3 in 2020 (shame - why did I do that). Also, note use of second person - a bold fucking choice that did not pay off 😂:

Time is something that you seem to forever wish for, and never seem to get. It feels like your whole life has been spent trying to grasp time with a firm hand and will it to stand still. It seems like you race against a clock ticking more rapidly with every day that passes. As all humans, your days are finite. But as the particular person that you are, chosen to lead a sick, twisted life of triumph and tragedy, the days slip by you so fast it feels like it is over before it has really had the chance to begin.

This is from my newest fic (which is somehow approaching 40k and only 3.5/10 chapters) 😬😬😬

TK rolls his eyes. “You’re pretty unobservant for a private investigator,” he murmurs. “If one more person offers to buy you a drink, I’m going to buy you a wedding ring and force you to wear it.”

“You’re— What?”

“I’m jealous,” TK says drily, arching an eyebrow in Carlos’ direction. “Didn’t realise I needed to spell it out for you.”

Carlos frowns. “Of annoying hedge fund managers trying to buy me overpriced drinks and talk me into heli-skiing?”

“Hedge fund managers in Austin?” TK smirks. “Oh baby, you found a good one.”

Not tagging anyone because I already spammed a bunch of people but tagging @reyesstrand @carlos-in-glasses @rmd-writes because you tagged me back and @clottedcreamfudge because you taught me how to be ridiculous and now you must deal with the consequences of your actions.

[melis-writes]

In my opinion, Al's portrayal of michael corleone is good, but I can't take him seriously in some parts of the first 2 movies, because al (for me) just stares and speaks, like he's staring like this : 😐, without any emotion, idk if that's supposed to be part of Michael's character or that's al just staring, and that annoys me, I never ever liked michael in the movies and ofc I'm not gonna like him in the book, the only time i like michael is when you're writing him, I hate michael and the things he did, i only find him hot because that's al pacino, because who wouldn't like him?, I find his portrayal of michael is pt 3 is better, because he finally shows emotion (or maybe that's what I think he did), i always liked his late 80s - 90's movies more, because he (again) shows emotion, when he's sad, you see it, when he's angry you see it, when he's happy, he smiles with all his heart, the only 70's movies I liked were panic in needle park, dog day afternoon and and justice for all, didn't like the rest because he's just staring, he deserved the oscar for his acting in scent of a woman, but I'm not sure about his acting in the godfather movies.

What makes me sad, is the al pacino Fandom are stuck in his 70's movies, if you realized

I never hear anyone talk about his recent movies except the irishman, movies like Danny collins, Hangman, Marchant of Venice and two for the money deserve more attention, I do hear people talk about the 80s movies, but it's just scarface, i do hear people talk about his 90's movies but they're just heat and Tgf pt3

I do love Al's 70's movies, but they're a bit overrated now

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The silent, emotional stares and sitting is 100% in Godfather 2 Michael Corleone's personality, sorry to say. 😂😅 The only other time I saw Michael like that in the first film was during Vito's funeral and well, you kinda have to sit there and stare during a funeral but my man was showing zero emotions despite his father having just died. 😶

It's because Michael's become such a hardened man with little to no humanity left in him. His own choices and actions have torn apart his family and essentially left him soulless in return. He took things too far, he seemed to have no intention of making the Corleone family completely legitimate after seven years (and has the audacity to say "just when I thought I was out..." uhhh, no. You liked being in!) and of course, the final nail on the coffin was finding out Fredo was the traitor. You can't really blame Michael in a way because of everything he's been through (survived an assassination and brother was the reason why he and his wife almost died, Kay got an abortion, growing more distant from Tom whom he only trusts, his mother died). 😢

If you didn't like film Michael though, trust me, you'd love book Michael! 😂❤ Book Michael laughs and smiles a lot, even cracks jokes and is a lot more emotional. He definitely doesn't sit there quietly and emotionless--he's extremely different from film Michael which baffled me when I read the book. He's actually a sweetheart if you ask me, and more family oriented. 💕

I don't think being stuck in Al's 70's filmography is a bad thing! Al made so many amazing films back to back in the 70s! It was his era! That was his decade!! ❤❤❤ He also didn't make a film for every single year in the 80s either, so we didn't have any films from him in 1984, 1986, 1987 or 1988! I think because Al is so phenomenally talented at playing action packed characters and gangster films, that a lot of us prefer and love his films in that genre. That's also why I think Heat and Carlito's Way are really loved too. That's not to say Al hasn't made other good films, he has! I for one love, love, love, The Panic in Needle Park, Scarecrow, ...And Justice for All and Bobby Deerfield too. 🥰

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[queerrocket]

Hi :) sorry to barge in. I promise, I mean this in the gentlest way possible and I am only writing because I initially agreed with you and then changed my mind. - This is about saying in the tags that 'it's-fine-to-skip-nine's url is incorrect.

Because, like obviously, when I first read the url, I disagreed strongly, just like you did. Nine is amazing and their season should be watched and OBVIOUSLY you shouldn't ignore it by starting with series 2 and never going back to it.

But that's not what the url is about. The concerned blog has a pinned post which explains it better than I could, so check that out for context if you like. But the take away is: by now nuwho has become large and long. And people start watching at all different stages. Telling newcomers they have to start with series 1 or that they are fake fans if they haven't watched it, does more harm than good. It might discourage people from getting into the fandom and antagonise them.

And according to the blog and in my opinion, it is completely fair to start with series 5 or series 11 or even series 8 or anything in between. (I actually started simultaneously with series 10 and 3 but that's another story and maybe not the best idea.) As long as you go back eventually and appreciate series 1 and the ninth Doctor.

The url is about allowing people into the fandom at any stage, and not actually saying that the ninth Doctor is worth less or series 1 worse than any other season.

Hence, I just felt like I should defend it's-fine-to-skip-nine because they're lovely. I think there is a lot of truth to the url, if you understand it like it is meant, but I completely get how you would mistake it for something else. I mean, it did happen to me too.

I hope you're not mad at me for this? Because I really love seeing you in my notifications and I enjoy your takes. And also your reaction made me mostly happy. I just think the blog gets a lot of similar messages and I hate to imagine how that feels. I mean, I would not keep a url like that that can easily be misunderstood but I totally get their point and I understand why they want to share the thought.

So I felt like something needed to be said and maybe it's not always them who have to defend it?

(also your icon is gorgeous 😍

Thank you so much for explaining, I’m not at all mad, I love seeing you round too <3.

Honestly I just saw the url and kept scrolling so I appreciate you pointing this out and I completely agree. My own first episode of who was season 8(? I think) and I recently recommended my friend start at season 5 (I just think the eleventh hour is a brilliant ep and a great introduction to the show), because op is definitely right, who has stuck around for so long in large part because it’s constantly renewing itself, you can jump on the train wherever and whenever you like. Which is something that’s pretty bloody important when the shows been around for 60 odd years (and ideally going to be running for another 60 years).

Their intended message is lovely and I’ll dig a little deeper next time before poking fun. Fuck gate keeping and fuck calling people “fake fans”.

It’s entirely lovely of you to defend them and thanks again for the message. (I’m in love with this pfp if I ever change it know that I’ve lost all sense)

[onwriting-hrarby]

ahh I haven’t talked kpop in so long bc I don’t like engaging with the fandoms 😭 sorry if I’m taking up your time!

but I really do agree with u about itzy! they lack a musicality to them that becomes more prevalent with each release. personally I would go as far to say they’re one of the most competent groups when it comes to live stages/performances in general but the music just doesn’t match up, be it the fault of the company or the girls themselves. i really do hope their next cb is amazing though! i heard it was their favorite so far and I trust them but jyp groups tend to be overworked so I hope it isn’t too much :,)

i actually really like aespa and the kwangna mess 😭 while all their releases have sorta melded into one entity in my mind, I strangely don’t mind it? I do expect something a little different in the next cb though bc the black mamba thing is over. I’d love if they played into sifi fairy sorta stuff haha!

new jeans 😭 they’re a little messy for no fault of their own but I’m really excited about them. I hope they continue on this path. omg tragic about Ive though! I just saw their new teaser like 10 min ago and I’m hyped idjwoskwk.

blackpink is so tragic for me too 😭 I loved them all the way up until as if it’s your last, they really changed the kpop game no matter what anyone else says, they were truly the trend setters up until then but I guess things happen. they’ve also gone stagnant with their music and is it tragic to say that I think they girls aren’t truly all in it either <\3 I know they are very appreciative and caring to their fans but I also think they’re comfortable with how things are now. Like this new doesn’t even feel like a new era 😔 regardless I’ll support lol!

ugh and just to bring us to red velvet bc I adore them so. i love their “fairytale” feel all the while bringing so many different things to the table. they’ve really stuck to their brand and if there’s one thing I can appreciate about sm is that they do maintain these really fun concepts.

You're not taking up my time! I'd love to talk more about kpop but I was once on kpop twitter and I had enough so I just share with my close ones now, hehe!

I love Itzy and I think they are all talented (although I'm not a fan of Jyp's vocal training), so I hope their music keeps on bringing something new to the table. I really liked "MAFIA", actually! I felt like the concept suited them VERY much, and not a lot of gg could pull a concept like that. I completely agree with Aespa's! Actually, I dislike a little the Kwangya thing (I don't really understand it and I don't watch MVs much) but I do like their music, and the Savage EP I had it on repeat, truly! And the last pre-release single (Life's Too Short), damn that was iNCREDIBLE so I wish they can move their style a little bit around without losing their concept...

100% agree with Blackpink. I don't think they'll renew so that's why I am going to this world tour :') I need to see them before they disband, which I think would be a smart move for all of them because I don't feel like YG cares a lot about them and I think Jennie and Rosé would like to make more original music, Lisa would have so much more opportunities, and don't get me started on the treatment towards Jisoo.

About RV, completely. I am forever grateful to SM to not destroy their concept or try to make them sound wacky or nothing like RV. I feel like SM has done an incredible job with RV's music (you know? I am all for the underrated tts! Like RBB and Zimzalabim and Dumb Dumb Dumb might be my most favourite --dumbdumb is not underrated but the other ones--) but I am a little angry at their management, how they could have KILLED it in numbers and fame and they haven't because SM doesn't know how to push them. They still don't have a partnership with an American agency even though the ceo of Capitol Records (i Think) told the press she wanted to work with Red Velvet. While the bg of SM and Aespa (deserved for the girls) are getting so much more push.

[dorkshadows]

srry if this is out of left field but a while back i remember you reccing a pigsy x wukong fanfic to someone, saying it was the fic everyone that shipped the two in the chinese fandom has read? i cant find the link to the fic or your post now and i was wondering if you still have it on hand. thx!

Hi anon! Sorry it took me so long to come online. You know, I've been trying to stay off tumblr more and more often nowadays (with the exception of chatting with close mutuals), and one time, I did consider saying goodbye to blogging.

Then I saw this ask. And you single-handedly reminded me that I can't do that yet. I am NEEDED. So not a left field question at all! This is the kind of thing I'm here to help with.

I actually didn't have it on hand, so I tried googling adsfasdf and anon, I was literally searching for that fic for a grand total of like, 3 hours. The original fic was part of a large collection of individual stories. But it was pretty "famous" in the chinese jttw fandom, even for people who don't usually ship Wukong/Bajie. The fic was called 呆子 (Idiot) and was basically a 2-chapter story from Bajie's 1st person pov. He was in love with Wukong, who was in love with Sanzang, and the story was an AU take on the White Bone Demon arc. And it has an open-ending where maybe Wukong reciprocates.

It's quite angsty, but very memorable because it's extremely in-character (Zhu Bajie is nicer than his original self of course). The author didn't base it on any adaptation, nor did they "beautify" the main characters (so Wukong and Bajie are very much a monkey and pig lol). Anyway, the fic really stuck out to me the first time I read it. It's just one of those beautifully written rarepair things that sticks to your mind.

ANYWAY, google yielded a lot of people asking for the fic or reccing it, but with no links LMAO. But I knew you were counting on me anon, so I switched gears and went to Baidu. Again, I went through like 5 pages of dead links and questionable sites- until finally, I found a site with the mobile txt book (the entire collection, including Idiot).

So if you're here anon, I do hope you read it :'D

Here's the link.

Enjoy the read!

[batarangsoundsdumb]

guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

[tarlos-spain]

Februwhump Day : Blood lost

Title: You sleep close to me, but dreaming so far away

Fandom: 9-1-1 Lone Star

Pairing: Carlos Reyes/TK Strand

Characters: Carlos Reyes, TK Strand, the 126 family, Owen Strand

Chapters: 3/?

This story was born for the Febuwhump, so enjoy it.

Adknowledgements: I have forgotten to say thanks for the last two chapters, to @lire-casander and @morganaspendragonss. Can´t be more grateful to you girls

Summary: The blood running down his face and across his lips woke Carlos up. He coughed from the strong metallic taste running down his throat. He rolled over and then realized he was lying on a road, literally in the middle of nowhere.

It was night and with no city lights, he could see a million stars in the sky. He took a moment to think about everything that had happened in the last few hours. The mission; there were about seventy-five people deployed on all four sides of the city.

They were not going to let the fugitives escape and they had everything under control. So what had gone wrong? They had split them into groups, Carlos working with FBI Agent Terrence, along with eight other police officers from the city.

An approaching engine noise woke Carlos up.

His body refused to move, he was so tired and barely had any strength left.

The sound grew louder. Like an animal stranded on the beach, he struggled to turn over and sit up. He saw the car approaching, his only chance to get out of there alive. So, as much as his head was killing him, even though he could barely see straight and any movement seemed to pull him back down to the ground, he managed to get up and raise his hand.

"Hey..." he groaned, his voice barely there.

Worst case scenario, the driver would run off thinking he was some kind of zombie or someone who would cause him trouble.

"Hey...buddy... Stop, please... Stop..."

Luck was on his side, or maybe it was pity; either way, it had worked, and the car stopped right next to him.

Carlos collapsed and again the damn dirt on the ground hurt him, but, just as before, it helped to keep him awake.

"Hey, buddy, are you okay?" said a man in his fifties who shot out of the car towards him. He grabbed Carlos’s arms and looked at him. "Oh, dumb question." He went on, spotting the blood soaked piece of cloth on his forehead and all the other blood covering his face and staining his clothes. Not to mention the pallor of his skin and everything that indicated he was about to pass out. "Come on, I'm taking you to the hospital, can you walk?"

"I can try." And he did, he tried, but as he took a step, his body gave in, and had it not been for the man, Carlos would have fallen face first to the ground. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"There's nothing to be sorry about, boy. Something beat you up pretty good and I think you're lucky I found you now. Come on, lean on me, let's go to the car."

"I need to make a phone call, please," Carlos groaned as they walked. Tanner had fractured some of his ribs before laying him out, he had no doubt about that now.

"Okay, but first we get in the car and call the hospital, then I'll give you the phone and you can call whoever you need."

The man was strong enough to almost carry him to the car, open the door and settle him in the back seat. He pulled out the first aid kit he carried in the trunk and removed the blood-covered cloth from Carlos’s head.

Carlos protested and groaned, it had stuck to his head and burned as it was removed.

"I know, son, I know. I know it hurts, but that wound could get infected so we'd better clean it up a bit. I know what I'm talking about, I'm a paramedic."

Carlos laughed to keep from crying out.

"My husband...my husband is a paramedic."

"Ah, then you're going to have your very own private nurse when you're discharged from the hospital." The man looked at the head wound and Carlos noticed his smile dimming.

"It's bad, isn't it?"

"I don't know you well, so I'll be blunt. You've had your head cut open and from the reactions of your pupils, your movements and all, you at least have a severe concussion and maybe...hmmm."

"Maybe?"

"Better have the doctor look at you when we get to the hospital."

Carlos grabbed the man's wrist and looked him in the eyes as seriously as he could.

"I'm in bad shape, I know that. If you hadn't found me, I'm sure I would have died soon. My husband is very good at his job as a paramedic." Carlos realized he was babbling, but kept talking. "I'm sure he would have seen the same thing you did, too—what did you see?"

"When I said they cracked your head open… I think you have a major skull fracture. It's almost unbelievable to me that you've managed to stay conscious for this long."

"For TK."

"TK?"

Carlos nodded and closed his eyes, took a breath and then opened them again. The man covered Carlos's head wound with some gauze and he bit his lip from the pain, not wanting to make the man who was helping him feel worse.

"My husband. His name is Tyler...Tyler Kennedy...but he hates to be called that..." Carlos’s words were becoming more and more elongated as he gradually lost consciousness. "TK has been waiting for me since... What day is today? I don't know how long I've been out here."

"Today is Tuesday." The man closed the back door of the car and went running to the driver's side. "My name is Walter, by the way."

"Carlos. Glad you saved my life, Walter."

"And what were you doing laying out there, if I may ask? Do you remember?" the man continued to say, in an effort to keep Carlos awake as long as possible as he headed for the hospital.

"I'm a cop...police...I was looking for a fugitive."

"Oh, yeah, I saw it on TV. Those five guys that were going to jail, right?"

"I caught mine, but he caught me too and I couldn't get home. Could you drop me off at home?"

"Let's go to the hospital, kid."

"But TK...TK...I'm so tired."

Walter looked at Carlos in the rearview mirror and stepped on the gas.

"Don't go to sleep now, boy, you've already done the hardest thing which is surviving out here by yourself. Now you just have to hang in there more and you'll be with your husband, TK is his name right? Okay, give me his phone number and we'll call him."

Carlos nodded and blurted out TK's number, like someone using the last bit of strength he had. The feeling of not having to exert himself any more and the car rocking him, plus the amount of blood he had lost and how tired he was, did not allow him to hold on any longer. Walter's voice grew more and more distant, and he fell asleep and lost consciousness.

*

"How long has it been since he’s eaten?"

Gwyn approached Owen as he stood next to the bedroom door, and they both looked at the figure of TK curled up in bed, wrapped in several blankets.

"He hasn't had a bite to eat since yesterday and even though he's there, he hasn't slept at all… He’s just…there."

Gwyn patted her ex-husband's arm and walked into the bedroom.

"Hey, TK, sweetheart. I don't know if you'd heard I'd arrived. I came as soon as your father told me what happened." She sat on the edge of the bed. TK was staring blankly at the wall and his eyes were red with tears. "Your father told me that the police are looking for Carlos."

"It's been a whole day and if Carlos was...he would have called me by now."

"Well, maybe he's in a place with no reception and..."

"I can feel it here, Mom." TK put his hand to his chest. "It hurts so much, but I just feel that something terrible has happened to him and he can't...he can't come back to me." Gwyn rested her hand on TK's. "But I know if it stops hurting...I don't want it to stop hurting."

"Sweetheart, I can't say I understand what you're going through. But you're my son and it hurts me to see you like this. You're going to get sick if you don't eat something or rest."

"I am resting. Can't you see? I'm in bed doing nothing because they won't let me go out there to look for Carlos. The FBI says they're looking for him, but he can't have vanished. Unless... I need him back, Mom. I can't live without him."

Gwyn feared TK's words were too real, but she said nothing. One problem at a time.

She stroked her son's head and noticed that he was shaking.

"We were going to talk about having children today." TK smiled and sought his mother's comfort and embrace.

"What? You’re going to make us grandparents?"

"We just wanted to talk about it. It's complicated for a cop and a paramedic with our schedules and the life we have, always at risk. We have to weigh the possibilities."

"Sure. And have you guys thought about whether you want to adopt or have a baby or...?"

"Carlos wants us to have a baby. He wants... He wants..."

Finally, TK burst into tears like he hadn't done in hours. He needed it more than to breathe at that moment, to let go, to vent, to get all the fear out, and once exhausted, to sleep in his mother's arms.

"It always works, doesn't it?" whispered Owen, entering the bedroom.

He covered his son's body tightly with the blankets and sat down next to Gwyn. They both looked at TK for a moment, silent. They both knew what losing Carlos could mean for him; they both knew that he might not recover if Carlos died.

"This could be the end of him."

"Owen, if Carlos... I'll move in with Enzo and Jonah here. I don't want TK to have to go through such a trauma alone."

"He wouldn't be alone."

"You know what I mean."

Gwyn continued to stroke her son's hair—as Owen had said, it had always worked to relax TK ever since he was little. Any problem, any situation no matter how awful, was solved that way, together with his parents; even if later, when he woke up, the reality was horrible.

TK's phone vibrated under his pillow but he was so tired that he didn't hear it. Gwyn picked it up and saw an unfamiliar number. She looked at Owen, and when Owen nodded she answered and put it on speaker but kept the volume low so as not to wake TK.

"Hello?"

"Um, I'm looking for TK," said a male voice that neither of them recognized.

"TK is indisposed right now, you can tell me what you want."

"Indisposed? Sure, it's because of his husband, Carlos, isn't it? Because of Carlos."

Again, they exchanged a look, and Owen took the phone.

"Yes, Carlos, Carlos Reyes. Have you heard from him?"

"I just dropped him off at the ER. They wouldn't let me in because I'm not family or anything. But Carlos asked me to call his husband, TK."

"Carlos is in the hospital?"

TK slowly opened his eyes, woken by the repeated sound of Carlos’s name.

"Yes, I dropped him off before I called."

"Oh my god." Gwyn turned to TK with a huge smile on her lips as she saw that her son was awake and sitting up. "TK, did you hear that?"

TK took the phone with trembling hands.

"My husband, Carlos… How is he, what happened to him?"

"He told me he was chasing some guys, the ones from the news. He was confused by a severe concussion, but he was going on and on about TK. Are you TK?"

"Yes, yes, I'm TK. Did you say...a concussion? God... Carlos..."

It took Owen and Gwyn a few tries to get TK to stop asking a poor stranger questions about Carlos's condition as if he were one of the doctors at the hospital and get him to focus on what was important.

Owen held his face in his hands.

"Son, Carlos is in the hospital. He's being cared for by the best doctors possible and I'm sure when he wakes up he'll want to see you. If we leave now, we'll be there in twenty minutes, possibly before the doctors let us see him."

TK nodded as he frantically got moving.

"But, first, a shower," Gwyn instructed him, pointing a finger toward the bathroom. "You don't want Carlos to see you looking like that when he wakes up? He's going to think you've been having a terrible time since yesterday."

TK was ready in ten minutes, showered, dressed, and raring to drive. But Owen grabbed the car keys out of his hand.

"You're nervous. That's normal, but you're in no condition to be driving."

The nerves didn't subside, however, when they had to wait another two more hours at the hospital for someone to tell them anything about Carlos' condition.

When they arrived and asked about him, a doctor confirmed what Walter had already told them. Carlos had arrived in bad shape, with a severe skull fracture and had suffered significant blood loss that had weakened his body.

He was already undergoing surgery and they had not had time to see him before, so TK could only pray with all his might that nothing bad would happen.

An hour later, the same doctor appeared again.

"Mr. Strand."

TK got up from the chair and walked over to the doctor.

"My colleagues are just finishing closing the wound on Carlos's head. The fracture was a little deeper than we had originally seen." TK winced at hearing that, but tried to stay calm. "We've closed it and now we have to wait for Carlos to wake up to find out if there's any more damage."

"Any more damage?"

"I'll be honest with you, Mr. Strand. A skull fracture can develop into memory loss, speech problems, chronic pain. But we can't know Carlos' condition until he wakes up. As I told you, when Carlos came into the hospital he was very weak and he’d lost a lot of blood We had to give him a transfusion, and on top of that he was also dehydrated."

"When should he wake up?" The question alone created a knot in TK's stomach.

"Well, he's sure to sleep for a few hours. His exhaustion was extreme and so he will need time to recover."

"Can I see him?"

"Sure, I'll walk you to the room. Don't be frightened by the bandage on his head, it is just a precaution due to the fracture."

TK stopped listening as he walked down the hallway next to the doctor. He had been riding a roller coaster of emotions for a whole day and was so wrung out by it that he wasn't clear on how he could or should feel right now.

It wasn't until the doctor opened the door to the room and saw Carlos asleep on the bed that he took a sharp breath and smiled.

He walked slowly over to the bed and sat on the edge. He stroked Carlos' cheek—it was so cold, but the doctor had said that it was to be expected because of the blood loss. He leaned over him and dropped a small kiss on his lips.

"Babe... You're finally here. Now I understand that thing you always say about the scares I give you when something happens to me." He caressed his cheek again. "Now all that's left is for you to wake up and look at me, and then I'll know everything’s all right. Because...you're going to wake up, aren't you?"

Not that he expected a real answer or for Carlos to open his eyes at that moment to assure him that the nightmare was over.

"You just stay here, with me. Rest, sleep, and get your strength back. I'm going to be here waiting for you to wake up."

Owen's hand on his shoulder made TK turn and he smiled. It wasn't a perfect situation, Carlos was still in danger of many side effects, but having him there with him was enough for TK to breathe.

[rubixfox-fanblog]

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: General audience

Fandom: Apex Legends

Characters: Seer, Octane and Mirage. (and other legends.)

Additional tags: Seer Out of character

Words: 2864

Summary: Octane accidentally revives Seer with stim, instead of the regular syringes they normally use, and Mirage has to deal with both of them.

Notes: finally managed to finished my fanfic and gathered the courage to post it.... Enjoy!

Tumblr note: I got my inspiration from @sweetsoftandscared. You should definitely check them out!

"This is one of the worst ideas you had since the start of this match, Silva."

"Come on Amigo, that entire sneaky stuff got me bored. Even perfect boy here almost fell asleep. We all need some action."

"Speak for yourself, I was having the time of my life!"

~~~

Seer, Octane and Mirage ended up together as a squad in the dropship. Heaven knows why. It's a squad based on the amount of disaster, instead of skill, these three would bring. Especially octane and Seer, those two definitely had a history together. But no one knows (yet) why, Well Rampart definitely knew but she wouldn't tell anyone about them.

Their battle location this time was in Olympus and their dropship flew in at the Bonsai Plasa. Seer was the one who took the lead as jumpmaster and made sure he landed at the Oasis. Everyone else already jumped earlier or later so they got all of the world to loot or observe the area.

That's where it all went wrong.

After a few minutes of gathering guns and supplies, Octane got bored (like always.) and decided to take his own lead, running off to the place where small houses gathered, the place called estates.

Seer tried to stop him, because he noticed the heartbeats of at least 3 other legends. But Octane being octane, he didn't listen at all. Throwing his jump pad in front of the other two legends, who were chasing him, launching them both,unexpectedly, in the middle of a heated battle.

Two squads

Two whole squads.... Well basically one and a half, since there was only one of the three left. So that makes one and a third. I wait, one squad. (they downed the last one while they landed)

The three legends of the remaining squad seemed to be Revenant, Wraith and Loba. Who Already noticed them as they landed on top of the middle building.

~~~

"How about you two just quit whining and just go for it already, if we keep standing still we'll be dead in no time!" Octane responded as he bounces up and down.

A deep, disappointed, sigh escaped Seer's mouth as he pulled out his gun.

"I stay here. Mirage, create distraction but watch out for Revenant. Octane, do what you want." Seer didn't seem to try to give Octane instructions, he just let him wreck havoc so he could focus on his enemy's in front of him.

As they both took off and followed orders, Seer released his tactical called: focus of attention. The micro stones formed a tunnel straight into the building in front of him, revealing two of the three enemies they're about to fight.

Wait, two?

His slight distraction caused his downfall as he didn't notice that Loba used her jump drive. Her bracelet flew straight above his head and ended up behind him.

"I'm sorry, my love. But I really need to win this match. That tin Demon out there promised me that I could kick off his head if we win." Loba said and the moment Seer tried to turn around she already shot him a few times in the chest.

But Loba's action didn't go unnoticed because as soon as she downed Seer, she received a few bullets as well from Mirage, standing on top of the roof from the other building Seer focused his attention on.

"You're welcome." Mirage yelled.

"I downed Wraith, she was too slow for me to escape." Octane cackled as he returned from god knows where.

Revenant was the only one left.

Seer made his way down towards the ground, hoping Mirage would pick him up but at that very moment, Revenant's Tactical landed exactly where Seer ended up, underneath the stacked buildings.

Also Mirage apparently got hit as they heard the cracking sound.

"You gotta help him, Octane. I'll cause a distraction.". irage announced. He didn't get hit by the tactical bomb yet so his abilities still worked. Making sure Revenant would focus on him and his 7 other decoys.

Octane didn't hesitate and quickly grabbed one of his revive needles and stabbed directly into Seer's chest.

Wait a second.

Why did that needle say Simulacrum? Did he accidentally swapped the needles this morning? Was that the reason why Lifeline said he looked Healthier than before? So many questions, such a little time.

"I could use a little help here!" Mirage cried out, who's struggling not to get hit by Revenant's Longbow. Who's hiding in one of the houses behind them.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm com....."

Boom

A clean shot between the eyes ending Revenant's life in an instant.

"What in the name of..."

Did another squad that joined the fight? No, nobody was there except the three of them.

"What's wrong?" Seer said, holding a 301 assault rifle in his right hand, without a scope nonetheless while his left hand still got a hold of one of Octane's hands, pulling the downed man back on his feet.

"Did you just shoot him?" Mirage said.

"Why, yes. You needed some help right? So I provided that help."

Octane tried to pry Seer's hand open, but the taller man was holding it fiercely for somehow no reason.

"Amigo, please, let go of my hand. I don't think Che would be happy if I lost my hand as well. " He said, not paying attention to the kill at all.

Seer spaced out for a few seconds, staring directly at Mirage. Poor Eliot started to back up in response as he felt really uncomfortable right now.

Until he suddenly snapped back to reality and pulled away from Octane's hand. Then he decided to turn around and just started to run?

"The next ring is not far." Seer started. "Come, let's go."

Octane caressed his hand like it's been stuck in a bear trap and raised an eyebrow, underneath his goggles of course, as he watched his teammate run forward. Did the stim give him super sight? Or did it give him super focus? Whatever it was, Octane became jealous.

"What did you do?" Mirage suddenly asked , like he could see Octane's expression under his mask. "There's no way a normal human being could hit someone at that distance."

"I guess it's just luck, Amigo. Something you could use as well." Octavio clearly avoided the question. "Like he said, The ring's coming, try to keep up as well, 'kay?" He said and the another jump pad to catch up with Seer

"Wait, what?" Mirage said confused as he turned around and noticed the red wall of death coming up to him very quickly.

"Don't go without me!"

They finally managed to catch up with Seer, who stopped moving for a second, close at the Hammond labs. He rubbed his temple as he looked at Octane.

"You used the wrong syringe, did you now?" He suddenly said.

"Are you alright, Amigo?"

Seer didn't hesitate for a second and pointed his R301 directly at Mirage, who ducked away in an instant, just to shoot a legend who sneaked up behind him.

"I'm fine, totally. Nothing wrong with me at all." he quickly added and refused to continue at what he just asked. He didn't have the concentration at all to be mad at Octane right now.

"Dude! Watch out where you point that thing!" Mirage said, almost screaming as he panicked. "don't ever do that..."

Seer pushed his index fingers to his lips as an indication for Mirage to shut up.

"The two remaining legends are still on the other side of the wall. I'm going in." The taller Brown man didn't even wait for one then to make the first move, he just took off.... Again.

"phew." Octane let out a relieved sigh. Ignoring Mirage, who clearly looked at him like he saw water burning. "Let's go, we can't let him die alone."

By the time they catch up again, Seer was kneeling down by one the deathboxes, looting some ammo. Two innocent legends, slaughtered brutally by the new guy on drugs. Sounds like headline for the Outlands newspaper

"How even.... We weren't even gone for at least 5 minutes." Mirage said. "Octane, what did you do?"

"It was an accident, Amigo. Are you happy now? Lifeline and I had a drink together yesterday, probably one too much. I accidentally swapped the syringes this morning cause I couldn't think right." He finally confessed because he couldn't handle Mirage's annoying attitude anymore.

"Are there any side effects?"

"depends, want to hear the bad or the worst once?"

"The good once please"

"Side effects aren't really good at all, Compadre. It'll wear off after a while. Probably gonna take a few days but the most common side effect is not being able to sleep or concentrate, cause you know,.. It makes you feel energetic." Octane looked at Seer who's been looking at them both for a while now, moving his fingers rapidly up and down.

-The poor guy won't be able to sleep for the upcoming days.- Octane wanted to say, but he didn't because he knew Mirage probably wouldn't be able to stop talking if he had an antidote for the poison Octane pumped in the always so calm and concentrated Seer.

"Are you both good? There are 10 squad left. Let's go." Seer couldn't even think right at this very moment as the

stim probably reached its peak at this point.

"c'mon, we need to go. Before it wears off, better take the advance now we still can." Octane said.

"Does that mean I can get a kill too?"

"If you're fast enough, Amigo!" Octane said and took the lead this time. Mirage sighed, if only he was as fast as them. His legs were making him tired, trying to keep up with those two junkies.

-This feels wrong.- That's all Mirage could think of right now.

The ring chased them all the way back to the rift. The third round had been announced and the timer went down rapidly, close to round 4. On their way to the ring they took another squad down, but none of them seemed to be the kill leader. Somehow....

Seer got the most kills, logical right? He took down thirteen people. Octane got second place with 8 and mirage.... Yeah, he didn't even bother trying to keep up with those two anymore. He didn't even take the Stim, but he was already worn out mainly because of the constant sprinting. He even burned his butt on the ring because Seer and Octane pushed a squad on the edge of the closing ring.

"Only 2 enemy squads left.... Victory is nearly ours." Seer said as Octane used his Jump Pad to take both Mirage and Seer to the upper parts of the Rift. Being this high gave them the advantage to examine their upcoming enemies.

Besides Mirage acquired a fully upgraded Longbow, so he could see their enemies from at least 300 meters away. But the main reason he was using the Longbow, is because he could still keep an eye on both of his Teammates without moving a lot.

The drugs enhanced Seer's abilities greatly. His ears picked up the sounds of heartbeats even faster and his micro drones reached a distance even further than before. It almost felt like cheating. (Well it definitely was though, none of the legends were allowed to take any drugs, except for Octane, because you know, it's Octane.)

"6 enemies, North, not too far away, currently fighting each other." Mirage said as he loaded the Longbow, ready to Shoot one of them, while standing on top of the building.

Seer peaked through the scope of his R-301, Following the movement of what it seemed to be, Fuse. Who launched his knuckle cluster at one of the other legends he's been fighting.

"Let's go! It's not like they're going to commit suicide!" Octane exclaimed, injecting himself with the 40st syringe of Stim today. He threw his jump pad down in front of himself and used it to launch himself into battle.

4 legends closer to victory. Mirage wanted this to be over, this entire match pushed him to his limits. He doesn't care that he only had 2 kills, well of course he did, but he pushed that away for now.

Seer released his micro drones mid air, after he also used Octane's jump pad of course, to reveal the remaining enemies. Just before he landed, Octane already downed the last one of the other squad Fuse and his team were fighting.

"Knuckle cluster f'ring."

It struck Octane from behind and it stuck long enough to break Octane's shield.

"Shit." Octane growled. Seer heard his teammate being in trouble and quickly focused his attention on Fuse, who seemed to be amused and proud by his actions.

While Octane was trying to recharge his shield behind a MRVN, currently at top on one of the buildings from the Rift, Mirage noticed one of Fuse's teammates, down at the ground, tried to flank Octane.

Bloodhound, Mirage noticed, they only have to scan their area and they would be faster at Octane than mirage ever would be. So the man sighed and decided to take a gamble. First he shot Bloodhound, clearly cracking their shield, and after that he jumped in as well.

Bloodhound quickly turned around, trying to find the one responsible for their cracked shield. But before they took action, Mirage landed behind them. Not exactly behind but 50 meter away.

He tried to regain his balance, but....

"Alfather, give me sight! " Bloodhound suddenly said and turned around to notice Mirage's clumsy landing. Their eyes glowing red and quickly started shooting at the poor soul.

Mirage whimpered, trying to remain his cool, but he couldn't, every bullet he fired ended up in the gutter. But Bloodhound's bullets hit him one for one, almost knocking him. Luckily Octane finally finished up charging his shield and attacked Bloodhound upstairs. Delivering the final blow.

"Be careful where you walk, Amigo!" Octane yelled and threw a Phoenix kit towards the older man.

Seer seemed to have a hard time against Fuse. His quick reflexes suddenly turned slow and he barely found the energy to keep himself on his feet. Fuse took advantage of that, he swiftly moved out of the cover and readied an Arc star on his robot arm. Ready to shoot, but Seer just got enough power to release, his fast loading tactical and the micro drives escaped out of his chest device once again, canceling fuse abilities for a few seconds. Confusing the older men for a second as his arm wouldn't work

Seer's bullet struck Fuse right at his chest , to end the longest battle he had today. Then he collapsed.

"Is he dead?" Mirage boldly asked.

"Of course not, are you crazy, Compadre. " Octane muttered. "He probably fell asleep or something...."

"We have our Champion's!"

It seemed that Fuse and Bloodhound lost a teammate before the last ring closed, so they were unable to revive him or her.

"This was the weirdest match ever. I'm glad it's over..." Mirage sounded worried, and he has enough reasons to be worried. This was Obi's second match in the Apex game and recovering would surely be a drag.

"Come on Compadre, we won! Be happy!" Octane howled and quickly started to jump around.

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"So, Silva caused all of this, Huh. It was mu'h fault, i should've keep an better eye on him." Che rubbed her temple as she plays with a pen in her other hand.

After the games ended, Lifeline got called in to pick up Obi's lifeless body and brought him to the hospice on the drop ship.

"It isn't your fault, Aya. I was with him at the match, I should have stopped him earlier. Obi's going to be alright, right?* Mirage replied, standing next to Lifeline, who's scribbling some notes on her note pad about Seer's condition.

"He's going to f'ne. The only problem is that it would take weeks for him to r'cover. I mean, he can easily compete to the games again in just a f'w days. Stim is one h'll of a drug, if you ain't used to it, the side effects of it are terrible. He would still feel energetic but his stamina won't be able to deal with it, think of headaches, being tired all of the time, that surt stuff. He won't be happy when he wakes up."

"I see..." Elliot mumbled.

"Silva is at the Paradise lounge. Yuh should go there as well. Celebrating yuh win and all." Lifeline added. "I can't come, I need to keep an eye on the artist, yuh know."

Mirage wanted to ask if Che was coming too but she already answered his thoughts.

"Are you sure?" He asked to make sure he understood it right.

"Definitely! Now go, Witt. Obi will be alright as long he's in muh hands."

And so Mirage did. Without a doubt lifeline's care was the best of the outlands and Seer will recover as fast as possible. Ready to Lecture Octane about his wrongdoings. (or to kick his ass, just to show how disappointed he was.)

[h0neyjaehyun]

☁︎ 𝐁𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐲 ☁︎

Summary // Tali gets to see a couple people who she hasn’t seen in a bit and she misses their presence.

Characters // Talia Flores + Bang Chan + Lee Felix + Hwang Hyunjin (ft. Nct 127)

Era / Year // March 2018

Word Count //

Tali was doing some stages with Nct 127 and she wanted to say hi to a group of boys who she hasn’t seen a bit because of her schedule but since they debuted and got the same month comeback she was eager to see them again since they talk mostly through calls and text messages she wanted to take the chance to see them again. She finds them, so precious to her, they have saved her through many hardships before Nct.

Did Nct know them, nope, they know the group exists, but doesn’t know Tali knows them personally.They have seen Tali talking on the phone with them doesn’t mean they know who they are, all they know it was a couple of Tali’s friends.They didn’t even know if they were a male or female (or non binary we don’t discriminate here :)...side note though please tell me if that happens I will edit it :] ). 

Tali was always secretive, not necessarily in a bad way; she just rather the things come out gradually instead of mentioning, mostly because some things in her life to people might seem like she would want attention...in her eyes anyway.The boys always say it's okay to tell them anything, she would always say okay with a sweet smile but the boys learned she is not like that. She doesn’t reveal it, she likes the “secret” themselves to be revealed by themselves.For example the boys didn’t know that she had a twin brother until he sent a care package from his travels so she won’t be homesick.

She reacted so nonchalantly, “Yeah I have a twin brother.”She deadpanned just blinking, wondering in her mind what was the big deal. She always thought it doesn't matter how much of the person's past she knows, as long she can trust and feel comfortable with them knowing that they're gonna be with her is all she needs. A person's past does not define them completely, it just defines how they became who they are today. Her past was not the best, probably one the most concerning past people close to her have heard and yet she is considered one of the sweetest,softest, and understanding people in the industry. 

“Well why didn’t you tell us you had a brother????”One of the boys said with a shocked voice on how she didn’t tell them.She thought about it resulting in “I don’t really know, I don't really like talking about my family so usually people get surprised that I have a brother. So my reason is, I just don’t like talking about my family, thats about it.” They were surprised at her response, especially about not liking to talk about her family and asking them to leave the subject, they were hesitant but decided to respect the female’s wishes and left it.        

They learned not to ask questions about her past cause she feels uncomfortable that includes the group she is about to go see

“Tali where are you going?” Johnny questioned the female that was about to leave the waiting room.Everyone looked at her confused as well, she usually stays to take a nap and stuff since she always has a busy schedule.She turned with her heels looking at Johnny “I’m just gonna see some friends I haven’t seen in awhile I’ll be back within 20 minutes tops.”She said while turning back around walking before they can follow or protest about her going alone.

“Sooo whatcha doin’~“ she said with a cute voice, Hyunjin looked at her and back at the crane.

Tali turns the corner and sees a tall handsome boy looking at the crane thinking if he should play,she saw the camera remembering she is still an idol, but thought eh screw it. She sneaked up behind the boy and yelled.

“BOO!’, he jumped and turned to see a familiar face, he whined saying

“ AHhHhh~, oh my gosh Butterfly...you gonna be the death of me.” Hyunjin said while having a hand on his chest being the dramatic llama he is (we love him).Tali giggled like a child which she doesn’t usually do since she is always a concerned mother around Nct even with the older ones. So this was a new side of Tali, fans were adoring. Hyunjin gave her an eye smile and hugged her.Them forgetting that they are idols which fans adored.

“Seeing if i’m able to get a plushie...” Hyunjin dragged while looking at Tali looking at the llama.He smiled to himself.

“Do you want the llama, Butterfly?” he asked with a soft and sweet comforting voice, let me tell you STAYS AND N-CITIZENS WERE WHIPPED FOR THE DUO.Tali looked at him and then the plushie in thought.

“Yes please” she said with hopeful eyes that the handsome boy will win her the plushie. He looked at her eyes and he couldn’t resists his Butterfly, he smile sweetly so much that both fandoms thought they were being attacked.

”Then one llama plushie coming up” he sang starting to play the game.

They let her go finally.They went back to Hyunjin about to win her a bunny, she smiled when the crane hooked on the cute bunny finally and falling in the shoot. Hyunjin grabbing it looking back at her with a princely smile loving the look on her eyes seeing she has fallen in love with the stuffed animals he has won her.Felix looked excited for some reason which made Tali looking at him with confusion.

After good 5 minutes he got her 2 plushies and her eyes lit up when he did.Seeing her eyes light up like that made him want to do it again just to see the light again.Then they got joined by two other people that she has been wanting to see.One practically tackling her in a hug another hugging her gently on the other side of her both in unison.

“Hello our Butterfly.”they both sang.“Hello my 2 aussies” she said with childish giggle.

”Its us!”

Felix said cutely which made her confused but found him adorable.

”Oh he means that the animals are us.”Chan said with realization dawning on everyone's face. Hyunjin was the llama, Chan was the wolf, and lastly Felix was the cute bunny.She smiled to herself looking them.

“Then I will name them Hyunjin, Chan and Lix'' Tali said smiling widely happy to see her friends and naming her new plushies after them. They all looked at her and melted on how cute she looked with all the plushies in her arms looking at them.

Then realization dawned on her that she has to go perform in 5 minutes or a little more.She looked at them.

“Oh my gosh I have to go” she said a little panicked, the boys knew what she meant and found it funny she almost left but Chan stopped her.

The boys looked at her then looked at the machine noticing a camera…” Well, I hope you accept our friendship, and Tali FIGHTING” Chan said saying good luck with her boys when they see this video, cause it probably earn her a talk.

“You're forgetting something” he said with a cheeky smile.She looked at all three of them shaking her head with a smile.She kissed Chan’s cheek, Felix’s nose, and lastly Hyunjin’s forehead with a little struggle.

”Now I gotta go, tell the boys I said hi okay? BYYE!” She running away.

Meanwhile with Tali

“HEYY IM, BACK SORRY I LOST TRACK OF TIMEE” she said kinda out of breath from bowing and running. The boys laughed at her saying it was fine but, Mark noticed so plushies.

”Ay, where did you win those your not good at the crane game” He said with a teasing smile.Tali just playfully glared him pretending to be offend.

“Wow i’m hurt, either way my friend won me these.” She stuck out her tongue.The guys laughed at their interaction and continued to go to the stage.

Haechan thought in the back of his mind Who are they??.So during the performance he thought on how to find out who her friends are because he wants to be sure his Tali is safe.But the next day he didn’t have to look. The interaction already went viral.

“TALIA FLORES EXPLAIN” Haechan yelled walking into the living room where the girl was sitting confused with what the younger boy was meaning.

”Hmm?” she tilts her head cutely.

”No no no don't pull that cute thing with me.” Haechan pointed at her looking away from her not to fall for the non intentional cute act.

“What are you rambling about Haechan?” Mark who was now getting comfortable on Tali getting ready to cuddle since they just came back from practice and tired.

”LOOK!”Haechan said, shoving his phone in Mark's face.Mark grabbed the phone out of annoyance, all the members crowded around them out of curiousness. Then Tali realized what they were looking at...its was a video of her and Stray Kids Chan, Hyunjin, and Felix at the crane Hyunjin winning her the 3 stuffed animals that are currently on her bed.But that wasn’t the best part, oh no, they heard them call her Butterfly and Tali acting like HER AGE.BUT THEN THE EDITORS KEPT IN THE KISS OF THE CHEEKS AND NOSE ETC.All in scary unison looked at Tali who has been quiet not knowing how to react.

She was about to book it because she doesn’t know what to say and all the eyes are burning into her skull which is making her nervous.She laughed nervously about to get up but Mark when and tackled her back down on the couch to the position they were before.Then they start bombarding her with questions.

“OkaY ENoUgh” Taeyong notices they are overwhelming the girl, and not getting anywhere.They scatter now looking at her trying to read her emotions or what she is thinking.

”What do you want to know” she says with a breath that she didn’t know she was holding.They looked at her not knowing how to respond.

”We wanna know who they are to you.” Johnny said calmly, don’t the boys wrong they were not mad but mostly surprised, they have never seen Talia act like that affectionate with someone not them as she usually avoids people because of rumors.They just wanted to know more about the mysterious girl in front of them. 

In thought, she was trying to find the right words to define the boys she so cared about,she looked up with the same caring eyes she would show them when they do something endearing.

”They are one of the most important people in my life.” They were shocked she usually doesn’t say anything about her friends and figured if they are important to her she would talk about them more.

”I've known the leader of the group since I was 11...he is one of the closest people to me and knows me the best…” she continued.

”He is one with the blonde hair and dimples who was hugged in front of me, the one who tackled me, his name is Felix I've known him around 3 years, lastly Hyunjin the tall one who was winning me those stuffed animals I've known him for around 4 years I believe.” she said looking at them all with a smile, she revealed this information like it was nothing.

The boys were not mad, sad oh no no. They were jealous. Haechan flopped on the ground and hugged her legs looking at her puppy eyes.

“Why don’t you kiss us when we ask you too but you do when they ask you!” Haechan whined, Tali eyes widened at his complaint, she started giggling and shaking her head in disbelief.

“Ha, okay fine” she said with sweet smile, leaning down and kissing Haechan’s cheek.The boy gasped with joy with his beautiful smile on full display.Now instead of the boys jealous of Stray Kids they were jealous of the boy who go the first cheek kiss of the group and started tackling her for kisses.

After she did their request, she went to her room for peace when someone started knocking on her door knowing exactly who it was.

”Come in Mark”. He came in shyly.

“..um..can we cuddle please” he said with his doe eyes in full display.She smile.

“Of course” she laid down and he laid on her chest the he looked at the 3 stuffed animals looked back her then punched all three of them.

”AY ay wait what are you doing, what did they ever do to you?!” He looked back at her, then buried his head in her chest again and said.

“I was jealous “ he confessed .She was smiling and shaking her head knowing he wasn’t the only one she was going to have to deal with this week.

[whaleofatjme1920]

Ok so I guess this is where the match-ups are? Anyway yeah can I get a platonic creepypasta matchup? I kinda just saw ur blog and figured I would ask it seemed fun haha. So, yeah I am an 18 year old she/her pronoun having asexual girl who is kind of an all around disaster. I am really good at college work but when I am not working odds are im off doing chaotic crap (I almost got thrown off an electric scooter today because I was legit ZOOMING on it, lost balance, and nearly ran into the front of a car but SAVED IT if you need context for the dumb I pull) I dont like being underestimated or told I cant do something and it really makes me want to prove someone violently wrong. I really like video games, growing plants and I just kinda do what I want to when I want to. I try to have an open mind about everything but I struggle a lot when it comes to talking. Like I have a stutter sometimes, my brain gets stuck on a word of two, and overall my thought process is so scattered I cant explain it but I am working on that. I really want to understand stuff before I go making an opinion on it and try not to go arguing with people (but that does not mean I wont do something dumb in retort) Anyway yeah I cant really think of anything else right now but I appreciate it if you do manage to do this one! :)

Your Best Friend is... BEN!

[Disclaimer, if you're coming from the tags, this is part of a special event I am holding from November 17th to the 21st where I am accepting matchups from all fandoms I currently write for. Feel free to check out my 1K celebration masterlist here for rules during the window this event is open! If it's past the 21st midnight USA central time, do NOT send me a matchup. I will have to politely turn you down. Sorry </3]

In General

This screams chaos and I think you and BEN would get along GREAT for that. BEN is a much more subdued, quiet chaos but it's still so much fun. I think the two of you would balance each other quite well.

Things He Likes About You

Alright the chaotic adventures are a definite thing between the two of you that he ADORES. He likes that you play video games, wants to know about what your favorites are so he can get you into some new ones and things he think you'd also enjoy. Will help you with your plants - has a surprising green thumb when it comes to taking care of plants and general gardening. You having an open mind is also a plus in his opinion, because he has some whack takes lmfao. He likes that you're contemplative because he's something mad impulsive, so if you wait to form an opinion over him, who might just jump the gun, it balances the two of you very well. He likes that you keep him in check tbh.

You Two as Best Friends

BEN is the type of best friend to text you "I'm outside" and then obnoxiously starts honking the horn. The two of you are out at all hours of the day, and it's chaotic as all hell. Playing with those giant yoga balls at Walmart, setting them free, climbing into abandoned places, lighting stuff on fire, screaming like you're waiting in a COD lobby, it's really fun. The two of you also keep the other in check. Doesn't mind your stutter and would fight someone if they said anything mean to you. BEN's thought process is admittedly scattered too, but when he's focused it's on other people, especially those he cherishes and loves. He will help keep you on track, and commends you for working on it. He won't argue with you either, mostly because you two are so in tune with each other. However, when you two do have disagreements, he's a surprisingly insightful, thoughtful guy who will converse with you in a safe, and healthy manner.

Closing Thoughts/Other Things

Hi love bug! Yes, this is the place you get matchups (for now, they'll be closed again soon). I hope you enjoyed <3 Your scooter story was fun lmfao

[zirkkun]

Yo you have every right to be upset about things! You're still a person with your own feelings and deserve to be treated kindly. No one should come at you for making things you enjoy or for misunderstandings. I hope things get better for you even if I wasn't here for when all the drama happened (or maybe I was and just wasn't aware of it? I tend to avoid drama as much as possible tbh)

I didn't really post about it much. I think I answered about 4 asks about it (three of them in the same post because i was sure it was the same anon due to the similar string of seemingly continued messages) and the rest I just deleted as soon as they came in, but I got... A lot. A lot of mean things said too. Kinda hurts when you wanted to make something because you knew this work was highly criticized and wanted to let people give it a second chance only to be shot down by the people you were hoping to defend lol

In short, and a lot of it I missed because I was blocked by a lot of people so my friend sent me screencaps; someone took I believe only the old ask box post I had for ULR, which at the time was called "Underlust Rewrite," and was disgusted at the fact that everything was revamped and "made for kids" (because it's not 18+ explicit content, but as I've said before, it's just cause I'm too scared to be horny on main, and I've literally made a whole different biological system for ULR so I can write the necessary story ""sex scenes"" without it being human-like sex or otherwise uncomfortable or too explicit for me to draw, but I still consider it a mature story overall), so they blocked me instantly here and on twitter and then made a callout post on twitter itself. People were telling me originally to stop calling the AU Underlust, and I didn't really get it at first, because like, what's the difference between my spinoff and, say, Underlust Gold, Swapfell Indigo, TS!Underswap, you know, names that have add-ons from the original title to differentiate it but still connect it to the source. So that's what I said, as well as if I removed the Underlust name, it would be considered stealing to me, because I'd be disconnecting it from the source. But apparently, instead, what had been the concern was that it was just being called "Underlust" and the "Rewrite" aspect was implying I was replacing the original story, which like, had never been my intention and I've made a bunch of things with both the ULR and UL cast together and love the idea of Lust and Ace meeting up and just being a disaster duo of not working together at all. I just adore Underlust like it's in my pinned FAQ, Lust's been in my banner for months now, and he's practically my staple pfp character on every account but here atm.

It took like 3 days for it to actually click what was going on, because once I finally got the chance to have a conversation with someone where they weren't telling me I was the scum of the Earth -- which, honestly, bless the three people I talked to, they were so sweet (which actually included someone from the Japanese side of the fandom whose art I loved too... yeah it got pretty far. Once I sent them a message though it was cleared up quickly and they did post a clarification post about ULR and me, so that was nice to see.) -- I finally got the chance to realize that this was a misunderstanding from the beginning, from both sides, where people coming at me were saying I was doing all of the stuff above and probably more but those stuck the most, while I was confused as to where this information and accusations were coming from and what they were referring to in the first place. They probably never explained it in the anon asks because, well, they probably assumed I knew what I was doing, but when they came at me about something I didn't do with vague context of something I did do, I was very confused, and got really defensive really quickly, and really honestly snapped pretty hard. After my first initial explanation post and people were still trying to tell me to stop ULR/don't call it Underlust/whatever else there was, I just got tired and told people to block me if they didn't like it. But that didn't really stop anyone and honestly made it worse because that's when I started getting really nasty messages. I like... Specifically remember one where someone called me a lowlife and a thief, and that one stuck the most, but I tended to not read through them before deleting them for my own sanity. I actually did this to one of the people who'd later talked to me calmly about it at first too, because I had just woken up, and really didn't want to read an essay lecture on everything everyone's been telling me at the crack of 7am when I was borderline ready to delete my account and start over lol

Some people I do remember were accusing me of trying to censor nsfw content or erase it as well because ULR isn't 18+, and I'm out here on my horny ass like "wh. What are they talking about, where did you get that idea, have you SEEN my ao3 recommended list," /j but in all seriousness I really didn't understand that accusation at all because I've never been against nsfw content in the slightest and lowkey? This is very dumb -- but like, you know how they say when you get hate mail, you know you've made it? Well, for me, my thought has always been, "When there's 18+ fancontent of my OC's, I'll have finally made it." This is... Not a joke, some of my friends think its very weird LMAO oh well. I've been on the internet for far too long at this point -- like, definitely since I was far too young, probably, and being with a family of the next youngest being 12 years older than me, I really dove into stuff pretty quickly I definitely shouldn't have, but hey that's life -- I'm really unfazed by mostly anything now. Hell, me making ULR was honestly half motivated by me wanting to make others more comfortable with this kind of media, discussing sexuality and otherwise sexual-considered topics, without really being embarrassed or bothered by it. Because, people talk about death and killing and whatever other gorey stuff just fine, but the moment sex comes up, people just gasp in awe, y'know? I kind of grew up that way myself but like... ironically, in being more comfortable with my asexuality, I realized that it's honestly not that big of a deal. Sure, we don't need to hear the details of everything. We don't need to hear the details of a murder either. But I will never understand how murder is always the lowest on the "morally wrong list of things to not to" to so many people and that it's fine to mention, but even consider bringing up anything else and it's like, a sin and you're a bad person. Even racism is like, higher up on there for a lot of people, which it's like... this is an issue that needs to be discussed, or it can never be solved. You can't just kick that away and hope it goes away on its own, that's never how it works.

Ah, well, now I've gone off tangent lol. Sorry to make you read a blob of text lmao but having things in a cohesive format of what I've been thinking does feel a bit better. Thank you for the support regardless, and I do want to keep making what I really enjoy, because frankly, I really want to make things that make people take a step back and think for a moment, y'know? Things that invoke like a realization in yourself about something you didn't even know. That's how fiction's always been for me, so I want to give back by making it that way too. ... maybe my horny content is exempt from this however. That's just. Self indulgence LMAO.

Probably helps that I'm actually talking this all out for once, too, since before any of this I tried to keep as much of the situation contained to myself as possible in hopes I could clean it up before it got too bad. That was, in hindsight, probably a terrible idea lol. But I didn't want to be a source of stress for anyone following me or become the new creator-to-defend that like, 50% of people hate and 50% of people love and that you're either on one side or the other and there's no where in between. (I feel like Arin Hanson comes to mind for me every time I think of someone like this.) I know I can't please everyone and I knew internet hate would come eventually, but like, didn't expect it to be over a name or tag choice. I thought that would be a simple enough DM or clearable thing but apparently not, especially since I saw someone a few weeks ago delete their blog over a similar thing (though, the opposite, in a way: posting nsfw in a sfw tag by mistake). It wasn't in the UT fandom so y'all probably weren't following them (tbf I wasn't either, I just witnessed it happen from start to finish), but it was still disheartening.

Anyway, thank you, and sorry to make ya read all of that (if you actually did vahdbs don't blame you if you don't it's a lot of thought dump lmao)💕💕