#sososo important to me

[lunefrog]

“The creator would appear as endowed with a passion for stars on the one hand, and for beetles on the other,”

-John BS Haldane

[adamsappl]

//silly goofy maskless adam doodle below the cut :] ik there's a chance we see his actual face literally tomorrow ( assuming he's even wearing a mask like the other exorcists ) but i wanted to doodle him anyway

[muchmossymess]

Merlin: It's... lonely... to.. be more powerful than any man you know and have to live like a shadow, to be special and have to pretend you're a fool. I know how it feels. I understand

Gilli: The you understand why I have to fight. If Uther is killed, so what? How many of our kind have died at his hands? How many more will? It's time those with magic fought back.

Merlin: Gilli-

Gilli: You can't tell me what to do!

Merlin: You need to learn to use your magic for good. That is its true purpose. It's not meant for your own vanity.

Gilli: I'm not gonna apologise for who I am! You can be a servant and pretend you're less than them, but I'm not-

Merlin: No that's not what I do!

Gilli: No? You're defending the king, protecting a man that would have you dead

Merlin: I'm protecting you!

Gilli: You've been pretending for so long now that youce actually forgotten who you are

Merlin: That's not true

Gilli: Isn't it?

Merlin: No.

Gilli: It's time someone struck a blow for the likes of you and me. And if you're too weak, then I will.

[psihawaii]

i know nothing about mashup week but i do wanna hear ur thoughts on trans scott

first of all: thank you for indulging me!!

second of all: obligatory LISTEN/READ MASHUP WEEK: MEGAMIX!! ill probably make a separate propaganda post anyway but plsss. mashup tournament that scott won three years ago that he now has to host and interview every1 and i like how he’s written better than most collabs (where hes not just. himself obviously.) write him. host says the tournament is a lot more like wii sports resort now and doesnt elaborate.

third of all: ooooooooookay so. This really got away from me im gonna put the rest under a readmore.

i’m gonna refer to them w/ they/them just for simplicity, but let the record show i don’t think they care that much either way/i switch up pronouns whenever i talk abt stw AHDHDJ (my main hc for a while was no pronouns scott just bc of how the descriptions are written hahahahahaha get itttttttttt)

i’ve Alwaysssss thought scott (the character obvi. do i have to keep clarifying that here too, im always gonna be referring to the character in this postSHDJDJ) was trans ever. since i joined the fandom in late 2021. Partly because borderline forever reminds me a lot of how i realized i was nonbinary (realizing somethings wrong and then course correcting by just… doing the opposite and wondering why that couldnt possibly be the solution.) but mostly because borderline forever is just Like That. . But more on that later

OUTSIDE OF THAT so much of how they act is sosososo deeply trans to me, or at the very least very egg-like and in denial deeply. THE THING that got me deep into stw initially was gifts of gaming because what the fuck man. scott’s very public breakdown because they feel extremely alienated from their peers and that this isn’t an isolated incident!!!!!! (finding other people unrelatable that is (and that’s probably also an autism and/or aroace thing but it can be all of those at once. Smile.) like so often is scott self deprecating abt how nobody cares abt them or their interests or how desperate they are for attention. dude.)

and like. okay so i made an entire nonbinary dysphoria comp already but there are so many. weird throwaway jokes. that aren’t… you know directly about them being trans/dysphoric but about how they hate facial hair or their voice or hated that they couldn’t have ‘girl toys’ growing up or that they shower fully clothed or that they’ll just. roleplay as a girl.

(and i was gonna have a whole bit about… i think you could make some kind of point about how scott ‘roleplays’ as a girl in specifically romantic/flirting contexts (tinder + speed dating) and how that could play jnto their dysphoria, but i also do just think they’re aroace. but there’s something there)

and no matter the intention of the jokes they’re still like. canon. (and i was gonna do a whole thing abt how scott the woz (the show) treats continuity basically being that. jokes + ‘throwaway lines’ establish canon things because they keep being brought back, and that lore is (with few exceptions) consistent. it’s fun. and meaning that these things are (assumedly) things scott thinks/does/how they act even off screen.)

and also i guess if im gonna talk abt trans scott i could At Least dedicate an entire paragraph to borderline forever because holy shit man. Before i rewatched a bunch of episodes this year, i of course had it in my head that borderline forever was totally trans coded but i sorta reasoned that that was my own headcanon clouding my perception and that it wouldnt be that blatant (<in quotes because im sure The Man Himself didnt intend for it to be read this way, but its fun to interpret it as such) but no it really is.

what do u mean theres been an unseen force in your life that’s always been there but you hadn’t noticed until you experienced internalized transphobia talked about something tangentially related, that’s now preventing you from living your life and doing the things you want to do. That isn’t directly harming you, and that other people can’t notice so they dismiss you. What do u mean.

Closing in is literally a song about how they can’t believe they’ve been living their life like this and how they feel like they’re suffocating from the idea of continuing to live like this. They saw the border glow. If you will (sorry.)

The ending of borderline forever is pretty… its… well i guess for me to really have definitive thoughts on it i would have to decide on what i think the allegory is because scott taking the border back serves different purposes for different ones, good and bad. In terms of the trans allegory, I initially considered that it was like him. Accepting transness as part of themselves and learning to live with it and move on from that (effectively transitioning just not. Outwardly (?)). Until my boyfriend (forced to watch every scott the woz lore episode for (for the most part) the first time with me) pointed out n. No it kinda just seems like they can’t imagine themselves as any different/better and thinks This Is As Good As It Gets so they retreat back to their status quo. And like. Huh. Yeah. 100% it’s still affecting them negatively and they hate it but they’re ignoring it now they saved the world and they never have to succumb to the horror of being understood and perceived i mean no one else has to worry abt this ever again.

like… two years ago i wrote a fic about nonbinary scott called Abiura Di Me (it’s never getting finished, i was originally gonna do a little comic to end things off but it felt kind of ehh. the only way i’m finishing it is if i completely start over. which who knows.) and, despite not rlly having this interpretation at the time, i did want to kind of explore scott like that, thinking they’re ‘content’ with their life now and wondering why they still feel unhappy/unfulfilled.

In general scott feels like a character that’s so… rigid and strict with their identity/attributes of themselves in a way that, often, makes them miserable, or at the very least in a way that they’re self deprecating abt like i said b4. (i.e. their virginity, and how it oscillates something they take pride in vs. something that they’re ashamed of (b4 accepting it in barrel blast)(youtuber slash tumblr user prim m, in description of their barrel blast mashup did a rlly interesting lil. few sentences of analysis abt this in particular!!), but is, to them at least, a key part of who they are that they have to keep asserting + how they talk abt themselves liking video games and how, similarly it oscillates between smthn that brings them a lot of joy and again, smthn that they’re ashamed of thats another reason they feel isolated, but is nonetheless. Probably THE defining thing about scott.)

And while this^ feels like a general internalized transphobia thing, it’s probably THE reason i think they’re nonbinary specifically, although i fuck with transfem scott severely. I really like the idea of scott unburdening themselves from any kind of labels and kinda just being happy Existing, it’s essentially what they already want/think they already have just with less expectation put upon them to perform. You could say. Preventing themselves from being put into a box or. Or yknow… some kind of blue borde-[i am killed.]

But anyway to answer your question trans scott is my lifeblood i love them a lot. I like… half joke their egg has been fully cracked now bc of the bits they’re pulling now (mainly. Changing their name in same name, different game and. all of gamer products.) (and side note even though i can glean Transness from any1 of these jokes and that… in a lot of cases scott Is the butt of the joke in them they don’t rlly feel meanspirited most of the time. whether thats bc im in denial ro theres smthn to it thats any1s guess. Tee hee.) i think they’re figuring stuff out and how they want to be perceived and if this is really something they want for themselves (is, but going abt it weirdly/making a joke of it and not taking it seriously (again, goes w the whole self deprecating rigid identity thing!!)

I don’t think scott changes much upon transitioning. Even though i think in the stw universe hrt/gender affirming surgery does… pretty much whatever you want it to and none of what you don’t want (i’m going off the… one ama where he said smthn along the lines of the stw universe is a perfect bubble where nothing bad happens + being able to get treated for murder + how i think scott the real person would think that kinda stuff works AHDNDIJDDJ and also cus i think its funny) i dont think scott would Want to change much physically. But i really like the idea of them keeping dyed blue bits framing their face (get it.) + slightly longer hair. and boobs cause i think thats awesome. personality wise they’re exactly the same and still suck though. But w/o shame and i love them

[zyana-wyvern]

Something to remember you by

A little glimpse into a part of the story of my V post Devil ending. This was for Christmas, but due to technical issues that couldn't happen, so here we are.

I also wrote a fic connected to it and wanted to post it here, but it is a bit too long for Tumblr so I have it on my AO profile. I recommend you read it for the full experience.;)))

Awesome Mods from awesome bbs: Christmas props here, fruit here, Goro hair here.

Something To Remember You By (1503 words) by ZianaV Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Cyberpunk 2077 (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Goro Takemura/V, Goro Takemura/Original Female Character(s), Goro Takemura & V, Goro Takemura & Original Female Character(s) Characters: V (Cyberpunk 2077), Goro Takemura Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Clones, Fluff and Angst, Bathing/Washing, Short & Sweet, One Shot Summary: V is struggling to settle into a new body post Devil ending and realizes that there's no other way to find herself after being gone for so long, than through the person who knows her better than anyone.

[rawdashh]

finally watched nimona and. Oh my god. Holy Fucking Shit. i wanna put nimona in a trebuchet and launch her. i want to English Teacher the everloving FUCK out of that movie. i want to scream and yell and break things. i want to tenderly kiss (or equivalent) everyone who worked on that movie. i would sell my soul to make something half as good

0 criticisms, 10/10 for gay people and relateable shapeshifters

[yeonban]

ALL. OF THEM. ARE DATE MEMBERS. This hurts me so much bc based on Soma's leadership style, the Date might be one of the proudest bands of bushi and yet they all tossed their pride AS A SAMURAI out of the window the second they heard Soma was captured. Begged, bowed down, teared up. They fr reacted worse than the Uesugi did when Tatsuomi was taken away. What if this was my 13th reason why

[neolxzr]

hiiai but they’re my favorite sasaki and miyano cover

i think they deserve a soft little highschool romance <3

clean ver under cut:

[warlenys]

did queerbait exist before take that’s 90s manager forced them to be ambiguous about their sexuality or was that its invention

[chryzuree]

she’s.she is so little. very small.

[eldritchqueerture]

every time i relisten to part 40 II i stop right after they pull noel up to the balcony because that scream is so fucking visceral i cant handle it

[undescribed1mage]

And when they see me on the stage, right where they put me, I won't be a person but a doll.

[heirofnepeta]

Wynn we have found something we don’t agree on.

Wasps are danger shaped.

No?????? They absolutely aren't???

Just dont go near them and keep an eye out for their hives and you can just observe them with no difficulties. Wasps are fairly nice when they arent bothered.

Id know, I had a wasp nest a bit above my door for half a year and those wasps did not care about us as long as we didnt bother them.

Also wasps are sososo cute I love them <3333333

So very friend shaped :)

[broodwolf221]

the meta post I made about bull and solas really took off <3 I love them honestly.... kinda ship them tbh. kinda ship them and dorian all together, too.

[tragedykery]

happy yuekka snippet incoming <3

Sokka blinks his eyes open groggily. Light streams in through the open windows, curtains billowing in the breeze.

Just when he closes his eyes again, a warm presence shifts beside him. “Morning, dear.”

He turns on his side to face Yue, who is looking at him with a grin. Several strands of hair have fallen out of her double braids, spread out wildly over the pillow or sticking to her face, and sleep has gathered in her eyes, but to Sokka, she looks like the most beautiful thing in the world.

He kisses her nose, eliciting a giggle from her. “Morning, love.”

She nuzzles her face against his neck. “You’re so warm.”

Sokka laughs, a warm and hearty rumble. “We have to get up soon.”

“Hmm, I know,” she says, voice muffled. “But I don’t wanna.”

He considers for a moment, then hums. “Okay, then we won’t. Not yet. We can spare a few minutes.”

Yue pulls back to teasingly raise an eyebrow at him. “Is that so, minister of plans? Is there space for a few minutes of cuddling in your schedule?”

He pretends to check his watch. “According to my”—he whistles—“calculations, we should have an eleven-and-a-half minute gap—eleven twenty-five now. Twenty-four. Twenty-three. Twenty–”

Yue pulls a pillow over his face to shut him up. She raises her voice over his protests with a grin. “Then we should make the most of our eleven minutes and fifteen seconds, shouldn’t we?”

When he throws the pillow back at her—no real muscle behind it, more for continuing the bit than anything—she just catches it and props it up against the headboard. Then she wraps her arms around his torso and lays her head on this shoulder. He pulls her close against his chest, tight but gentle, and tangles their legs together. He closes his eyes, content. They have a few minutes to spare, indeed.

(edit: full fic here now)

[wanderingbards]

I love making arospec characters that find platonic loves and marry them. I love making arospec characters that are perfectly content with the family arround them and never see a reason to marry. I love making arospec characters that go on a journey of learning they don't need to be in any specific relationship to be happy. I love making arospec characters that kiss. I love making arospec characters that fuck. I love making arospec characters who do neither. I love making open and loving and affectionate arospec characters. I love making jaded and distant and emotionally closed off arospec characters. I love making arospec characters.