been having a rough one, but it is kind of nice to sit on my couch wearing a cozy sweater. drinking a honey kolsch and listening to the rain. cat on my lap... sigh...
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there is something inherently tragic yet freeing about knowing that, even though you didn't get what you needed when you were younger, it's still possible to build that life for yourself as an adult.
you're not trapped or destined for loneliness. you can always build. again and again and again, as many times as you need to. the love and the freedom and the kindness and the connection, it's all waiting for you. you'll get there.
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Hi pasta, I'm sorry about the whole fiberglass dust situation and all the things you had to throw away, i know that feeling unfortunately: i had a similar situation but with mold...i bad to throw away the majority of my clothes and some plushies which I was very fond of. Now back to u, how do u feel today? Is the coughing getting better or worse? Hope you'll feel better soon :)
Thank you so much. 😭 And it's exactly that. Like some of the things you have to throw away, ok, but some of them mean something, or you just really really liked them (I'm likely going to lose a few plushies either, so I feel you). I'm sorry you've had to go through this, too! I don't wish it on anyone, it's terrible having to deal with being forced to toss things like this.
I'm just tired and achy and out of energy, mostly (standard for my health issues), but the coughing is indeed better, and my chest doesn't hurt as much! So the masks clearly worked the past few days I was up there trying to clean, and sleeping downstairs is helping, too. I'm still coughing a fair amount but I'll take the improvement. I've also had a ton of people reaching out, either to offer encouragement or a fun distraction or even to help if they wound up being in my area, which has helped keep my mood from tanking as badly as it otherwise might have. I'm very VERY grateful for that love and support because it makes me feel less alone, especially when it can feel so isolating trying to take care of this in a new city. 💖
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Working in an industry where everything about me has to be PERFECT to maintain the clientele I have is so........... draining, to say the least. I have these days/weeks/periods where I just cannot force myself to be cheerful or cool or funny and my client walks in and I KNOW that's what they want and expect from me and I just can't do it. So I struggle through our appointment feeling like a cheap copy of myself and I know they sense my entire personality is just a facade and. I just can't describe how awful it feels to have my livelihood hinge entirely on how well I perform as a new girl 4-8 times a day, 5 days a week, forever and ever and ever
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