this is dean directly speaking to us with the fanfiction writing power and living outside of the narrative he's trapped in, asking us to do what chuck and the cw don't allow him to have
i do love that. and i do mean this 100% genuinely. that the list of canon gay characters on supernatural includes the two girls who played dean and cas in the musical. like what if we were mutuals on destiel tumblr and both girls. and it’s canon
I know it's funny and all that Becky adores Sam in a weird way (5x01) and that Marie tells Dean she is a Sam girl (10x05). But I would have loved to see one of the Supernatural books' fans being a Dean girl.
And she could have hugged him hard, it could have been funny too in a way that Dean would find it weird to be hugged by a stranger (Jensen could have made all his amazing faces of surprise and discomfort), but then the fan would tell him how much he is loved, but not like in a creepy way like Becky (7x08), but more like we do, and he would have been so flustered, like when Cas implies that he is a role model (10x09).
Basically, I wanted more people to tell Dean that he's loved, not just Cas two episodes before the end, because he is, so damn much, because he deserves it and because he didn't hear it enough in his life (shit I made myself cry, that was not the point, the point is that once again we have been robbed).
i have finally reached fan fiction (s10x05), which is literally the episode that made me bite the bullet and watch spn after seeing it online for literally my entire time on the internet
The fact that they deliberately talk about destiel in this episode and take the time to play out the WHOLE “I’ll just wait here” song is CRAZY like they made us watch that and it so very clearly a romantic song omfg
again, dean does know how people see him and cas because people tell him to his face, frequently, that they act like lovers and that cas is obsessed with him; but it’s usually used as a taunt or an insult so he can scoff and snort and dismiss it but then an earnest teenage theatre girlie says ‘destiel’ and she’s not joking and she isn’t making fun of him she just read his story and really does think those two would fuck given a chance and dean just has to. know that.
cas should've gotten to see the supernatural musical in 10x05. he should've!! he would've had fun, sorry. it would've confused him disturbed him and then he would've loved it bc if anyone on this show can match dean's (guilty) appreciation for camp, it's castiel himself. campstiel.
let him ask too many questions about subtext thanks, this is doing absolute numbers for him along with all the reality tv and soaps he's been watching