i cannot and will not get over the parallels between sam and amelia and dean and benny. like charlie literally asked dean if he’d gone through a breakup (which let’s be real he had)
sam being evidently dean's defender/enabler is so hot to me. crazy guy always addicted to his poison. freak to the core. does NOT play about his potentially abusive brother.
even when dean treats him like ass and/or walks over him, sam just forgives him or doesn't retaliate bc he genuinely adores him. not only that, sam'd legit choose dean being awful to him over dean not caring about him at all
he just wants dean even if he'll be horrible to him he will work by that. and he will actively reject better alternatives to remain with him. some ppl say he's a battered wife who's entrapped and while i think that's sexy! I think he's not fully entrapped ima be honest. human nature is complicated. sam is a heavily complex character, but i see how he will seek dean time and time again by his own violation, and i kinda give up. he also gets so irreversibly shattered/empty without dean. straight up a shell of a human. he will never be happy without dean. his life stops at dean. he lives by dean's choice, and he'll kill himself if dean sees it necessary. he will take on dean's outbursts. he will do things dean's way except when it's concerning losing dean, then sam'll get all retaliative and stubborn and not fall through. he will take the brunt of dean's pain if he could. he'll be complicit in hurting ppl precious to him. he will go against his principles he will be everything and nothing all at once for dean, and that's wowie
I love how people think Sam is super open about his feelings and stuff when in reality the man's had exactly two long-term relationships (that we know of) and he wasn't honest with either of them. Not to mention the multiple apocalypses that have been started because he and his brother can't seem to function like normal adults.
Interesting how Sam’s equivalent to Amelia losing her husband is him losing Dean,, like to relate to Amelia he could have brought up Jessica or Amy or Madison or even Ruby but instead he brought up his brother,, huh