#technically though only in that you control their trials

[fishyvamp]

Deathslinger x reader? I think he'd play with his survivor and edge to the point of overstimulation 🥴

I know who sent this and I know she'll be okay if I tweak this a little, related to this post.

NSFW 18+ MDNI (Deathslinger punishing his "Entity" for neglecting their trials)

Deathslinger didn't know what what to think when he found himself in a room with strange things and a closet so full you must be wealthy... You look so pretty laying there sleeping. His rifle set to the side of the bed as he sat down fingers reaching out to caress your face softly. "I reckon yer the prettiest thing I've seen," he whispers watching as you stirred looking up in a dream induced haze. He was startled to say the least when your lips mashed into his aggressive needy hands gripping the front of his vest holding him tight. Rough boney fingers grabbing at your waist. It felt strange how eager you were to kiss him. Outward displays of attraction was not being something he was lucky have in spades, but here it was you were hungrily kissing him. His body seizing as he hears you whisper the most sinful thing he could think of with someone as attractive as you. "Fuck me old man, fuck me like I'm the last good fuck you'll ever have."

Well when you ask him so nicely, he'll do as he's told flipping you on your stomach, entity given strength more then enough to flip, mentally he was unprepared to learn you slept naked your beautiful sex exposed to him practically glowing under the light of those magic strings that were glowing on your walls his fingers finding your hole twisting and curling he can feel the way you writhe beneath him clawing like a beast at your sheets as you had been so willfully unprepared. Your moans like a wild animal in heat as you fight to stay still. Deathslinger chuckles pinning you down with his free hand keeping your face pressed against the mattress as he adds another finger cooing in your ear, "such a filthy whore, taken a strangers fingers in such a personal spot. Shouldn't you know better."

Deathslinger smirks feeling you flinch when his hand meets your ass so harshly. He loves the way your greedy hole is just sucking him. He loves the way writhe and scream. Fuck if he didn't know any better he'd swear you were made for this. His cock practically screaming at him as it presses against his trousers. Thinking he's got you good and ready he pulls out, grabbing the snake in his pants smearing the precum down his shaft giving it a few good strokes before he's pressed against you pushing in hard. What he lacks in girth he makes up for in length the tip kissing deep inside you stroking the sweet spot as you drags it out. Soft and infuriatingly slow strokes being made as he just lazily fucks into you.

Deathslinger's mind overwhelmed hearing you whine and whimper around him, "I'm only repaying ya back dear. Isn't a mite frustratin' ta made ta wait." His fingers digging in harshly as you try to move it along, but he won't. He's enjoying himself, enjoys the feeling of having you desperate. He'll fuck you nice and slow for hours denying you to the point of overstimulation, poor hole clenching and desperate. "How about this darlin? You open the trials back up to us and I promise to lettin' ya have right proper good time." He drawls.

Watching the way the sweat on your skin glows in the dim lighting, Deathslinger feels alive for the first time in a long time, loving the way his balls slap against your skin. You nod your head weakly agreeing to his terms and hold on for dear life as he pace becomes more aggressive speeding up bit by bit having you finally cum, but he's not stopping. He's got plenty of stamina and a stubborn streak, he's gonna get you to cum over and over again not stopping to let you catch your breath as he cums deep inside you breeding that greed hole letting you milk him dry. He doesn't stop then just grinding into you until he's hard again. You aren't going to be empty until he's had his fill.

[whereserpentswalk]

They're executing your freind today. She's a werewolf and she accidently broke into a federal building while she wasn't in control of her wolf form. It's been awhile since creatures like ghouls and werewolves and vampires were killed on sight in the United States, but everyone is always looking for an excuse it seems. What she did was technically treason, but it feels like this is the way of things.

One of the police officers that caught her destroyed her hand with a silver bullet. He says they didn't even know they were going to fight a werewolf when they were called in, that they were just given silver bullets and told to stay safe. The officer that shot her says that he thinks that silver bullets are cruel, and targeting certain groups intentionally, but that he doesn't know if there's another way, and that he's happy to have used one.

Before the execution she was sent to a place specifically meant to hold monsters, instead of a normal human prison. Everyone says it's for her own good. Monsters don't need a trial to end up there, and they're let out whenever the staff says they're supposed to be let out. It's not treated as a place of punishment like when humans are imprisoned, it's treated as somewhere for their own good, and when you talk to people with monsters for children they'll always at least consider sending them there. The person who runs the institution claims that he's against such things, that he knows they're abusive, but that it's not really his fault, someone's going to run them. He says things will improve with more funding. Institutions like that are beginning to be allowed to euthanize monsters who are unable to reintegrate with society up in Canada, you're sure he'll allow the same if he's ever allowed to in the states.

When the jury was interviewed after the trial they all said the same types of things. They said they were personally against killing someone for something so small, but that they were just following what the law told them all to follow. They all said it wasn't really anyone's fault. They said that they personally wanted to vote to set her free but they didn't think they could convince any other members of the jury. They said their ruling wasn't really up to them. Killing a monster isn't ever really something someone does anymore, it's just something that happened. One member of the jury mentioned that she had a sister who was a werewolf, so that it weighed heavily on her when she chose to convict, she still chose to convict of course though.

They hired a wizard to kill her. They had to search far and wide, because most wizards who knew the spells that could permanently kill a werewolf wouldn't want to use the spells to intentionally take a life. But eventually they found one at a university upstate. He says he is an advocate for the rights of monsters, but that he's willing to do the execution because someone has to, (and because they gave him a large sum of money to do it). He says that it's not his choice to make, that the law has been settled.

And after all that has happened, and she is only ashes and burnt bones, the governor of your state will give a speech. And she will talk about how this kind of thing should never happen, though she didn't pardon her or do anything to intervene. And she will talk about how much the werewolf community is in pain from this, and yet still nothing will change. And in the end the message from those who claim to fight for such creatures rights, will be that nothing could be done, and that werewolves should work to be more careful as to not upset creatures so happy to see them dead.

[swizzlemynizzle]

Underneath the Noise

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Masterlist

Chapter 6: Post-Party Panic

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The morning sun slices through Y/N’s window like a passive-aggressive reminder of her life choices. Her head is surprisingly okay. Her feet, not so much. The muddy size elevens are still by the door—silent, damning—and her own shoes are God knows where. Possibly in the Thames. The memories of last night blurred at the edges, not quite comprehensable this early in the morning.

Her new flat is still half-unpacked. Boxes lean against the walls, a heap of wires sprawled across the floor like a tech-themed crime scene. But she’s buzzing. Giddy, even.

Her cold feet sting on the kitchen tile as she makes a coffee, an attempt to rejoin Earth after a wild night. As the bitter liquid coats her tongue, the memories feel a little clearer.

Last night keeps looping in her head like a glitchy highlight reel: tambourine guy, fountain dipping, George’s stupid smirk when she called him a hobbit by mistake. The way he’d looked at her—really looked at her—like he saw through the performance and wasn’t put off by what was underneath.

And yet, beneath the buzz, something sharp simmers in her stomach.

Chris’s video.

She’s not in control of how people will see her—how they’ll edit her, meme her, decide who she is based on five minutes of drunken footage and one out-of-context laugh. She’s been on the internet long enough to know how fast strangers form opinions.

She’s done nothing wrong. But still. Anxiety doesn’t care about logic.

She shoves it aside and refocuses on her streaming setup. At least this part she can control. Two monitors up, ring light plugged in, mic adjusted. Her little digital kingdom—home.

Her phone buzzes on the desk. It’s a message from Chris.

Chris:

btw—thanks again for being in the vid yesterday. you were class. don’t let the internet be weird. if anyone gives you grief I’ll just post an unflattering picture of George and redirect the drama.

She snorts. Then reads it again. She hadn’t even realised how much she needed that.

She and Chris had only met a few times before yesterday’s video, yet he welcomed her like a long time friend.

Another notification follows almost instantly—this time from WhatsApp.

New group chat created: CHAOS GOBLINS

Members: Chris, Bach, Arthur Hill, ArthurTV, George, Y/N

Chris:

everyone give a round of applause to Y/N for not bailing when we made her wade into a public fountain

Bach:

absolute trooper. also possibly immortal?

Arthur Hill:

I still haven’t thawed out. if i die tell the coroner it was for content

ArthurTV:

100% worth it. someone check on Pickle the ferret tho

George:

still think Y/N peaked at “clown shoes and Hot Bitch Ready To Party shirt” tbh

Y/N:

sorry that I’m setting fashion trends you all can’t keep up with

Chris:

love you guys

Her grin creeps up before she can stop it. Despite the cold floors and the lingering worry, the thread of connection weaving through her screen is warm. Real.

Her Discord pings next.

georgeclarkey:

you up for streaming today or are you still emotionally recovering from trench foot?

She blinks.

Then grins wider.

y/n:

depends. are you going to insult my shoe choices again or play COD like a civilised human being?

georgeclarkey:

no promises. get in the vc.

She joins the call and is immediately met with George’s voice, clear and low and just a bit smug.

“There she is. The woman who turned the fountain into her personal Olympic trial.”

“Jealous I outpaced you in the chaos Olympics,” she replies, slipping her headset on.

They load into a match. It’s easy, this. Banter bouncing between them like they’ve done this for ages—even though this is technically their first proper stream together.

He makes dry, ridiculous commentary.

She mock-scolds him for stealing her kills.

He starts humming Wonderwall at one point and she threatens to rage quit.

The chat, naturally, loses it.

@bananasformonsters:

why do they lowkey sound like a couple

@yourewatchingBBCthree:

"she turned the fountain into her personal Olympic trial" – I’m crying, marry her already

@justvibingirl:

how do they know each other?? is this a collab or a situationship??

She snorts reading the comments, but George—either oblivious or intentionally ignoring them—just keeps playing.

After two hours and several chaotic rounds, they finally log off.

Y/N slumps back in her chair, cheeks aching from smiling. She opens Instagram on autopilot, half-thinking she should maybe share a clip.

And then—

@georgeclarkey followed you.

Huh.

A second later, a DM pops up.

georgeclarkey:

sorry in advance for the influx of people asking if we’re dating. feel free to deny everything. or say we met in Tesco. up to you.

She stares at the message for a moment. Bites her lip.

Then types:

y/n:

Tesco feels right. Two hands met over the last salt and vinegar packet. Destiny.

The typing bubble appears.

georgeclarkey:

iconic. should probably get married for the brand alone.

She laughs out loud. Okay, maybe she’s going to be alright.

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@madforgeorge

@wherethezoes-at

@sundarksposts

@clarkey4life

[azerinbouee]

why does rick riordan write percy differently in every book after pjo?

it is not even about the timelines. like, the way he wrote percy in son of neptune was I think a great characterization. he was amnesiac but he still carried a major undertone about how much he loved annabeth, and his normal characteristics like his loyalty, his experience in battle, his ability to make new friends, his natural leadership, him being a great war strategist even though he does not even remember how to make them, and his underlying anger and trauma from the Titan War. then this anger and characterization was not handled that well in mark of athena in my opinion and unfortunately percy's arc in that book was mostly used for that meaningless effort to create a rivaly between him and jason but it still was okay for most of the part. then in the house of hades, all that buildup has exploded, and wasn't that the perfect place for the character? he broke down finally, going as far as to bloodbend a goddess and liking it. his love for annabeth was the only thing that held him back, but it must have been very traumatising for him, not just the whole tartarus experience but that feeling of power, and liking the pain he caused on akhlys, that must have caused a big inside dilemma in percy. incredible place to put the character percy, after everything that has happened. that could have led to a great conclusion.

then the blood of olympus happened. and... well, where was percy's trauma? where was the result of percy going as far as to bloodbend to save annabeth and himself, and finding out the true limits of his power, which is so scary even someone like annabeth freaked out. someone who knows percy inside out, better than anyone does, that knows the way he breathes. she was scared of percy. and percy realised that. how is that of no consequence in blood of olympus? let alone, percy and annabeth does not even have povs. the only thing mentioned about this is annabeth talking to piper about what happened and piper's question about what would happen if percy decided to act scary. then... his nose bleeds, that wakes gaea, and that was something he technically knows he could control now, so he could have stopped his blood from dropping to the ground and waking gaea, but he did not because annabeth asked him not to. this could have caused a great arc showing percy's regret and dilemma about doing the right thing even if using that power is wrong and choosing to not do anything because he always puts annabeth first. but there was nothing because it took 2 minutes to defeat gaea after that. percy seems same, even less traumatised than he was at the end of titan war at the end of the blood of olympus.

i won't go into the trials of apollo much, because to be honest that was apollo's story and I found percy's small bits enough for that story. no need to build unnecessary characterization in that books for percy. but timeline wise , let's do demigods and magicians. he is back to being the scary, scowling, frightening and powerful demigod. and he knows he is powerful. his lines to carter, 'names have power, i can't tell you my name.' , 'not many people can fight me that well.' . I love the percy in that book. i think that is exactly where he should be at that point.

then the chalice of the gods happens.

percy in that book is nothing like in the demigods and magicians. and there is literally days between both books. he is back to thinking he is useless, and everything is like taken out of a time between the pjo books, like none of the hoo happened. same for the wrath of the triple goddess. where was percy's trauma of tartarus? of bloodbending? of all the other things that has happened? where was annabeth's trauma, as well but that's another long topic.

I just am starting to think rick resets the characterization of percy in the beginning of every book and likes to write what he wants at that moment. i really don't like him do this to percy out of all characters. and I wish he realised before he write the other books.

[thefandomenchantress]

General Thoughts About Eden's Garden

I have, at long last, finished chapter one of Eden's Garden. And I really liked it! While it wasn't perfect, I still really enjoyed playing it and am very glad I got to experience it. Since I wasn't around for the Another fangames, this is the first time I've been able to keep up with a project like this as it's coming out, and it's been really cool.

So, without further ado, let's get started! Project Eden's Garden spoilers below. :)

I'll start with my criticisms, since I don't have a lot of them. Honestly, my biggest complaint has to be the technical issues I faced while trying to play this game instead of watching it. But I'm not going to sit here and pretend making a game is easy by any means, so I don't really hold that against the game, even if it was frustrating.

Plus, I'm an idiot. I sat for like half an hour trying to figure out the Non-Stop debate controls and thinking my WASD thingy was malfunctioning and not letting me switch truth bullets, when there was only one truth bullet I was allowed to use at the time. I was just being stupid and not catching on when it only showed me one truth bullet in the corner, haha. The repeated crashing of my game, however, wasn't my fault. But I was able to get my hands on a work-in-progress low-spec version of the game that stopped most of the crashing and stuff! After that, most issues went away, except for after the trial ended and the after-trial dialog wouldn't pop up, leaving me on a black screen even after a restarted my computer and tried a few more times. But I'm not too unhappy about that, it's not like I was missing any riveting gameplay sections, haha. I could just watch the YouTube version of the execution and stuff.

Other than those technical difficulties on my end, there are only a few actual problems I had with the gameplay, haha. The first being that I am terrible at bullet hell-styled gameplay, apparently, and Argument Altercation kicked my ass in normal mode. I really wish there was a way to switch your difficulty on that, or maybe checkpoints, because after about thirty or more tries of not being able to get past stage three, I gave up and ended up just getting my hands on a save file from after the minigame. I may love videogames, but that does not mean I'm good at them, haha.

As for the actual writing, I don't have too many complaints...I suppose if I had to say something, though, it'd be that some of the characters felt like they didn't have enough to do this chapter. Ulysses is probably the main one I felt this applied to, even if I love him, he didn't give us too much this chapter, other than a lore drop during the pharmacy investigation (His limited screentime didn't stop me from growing attached to him, though haha). Other characters, despite getting a little more screentime, felt like they didn't really develop at all in the grand scheme of things. But I don't want to focus in on this too much, since it's only chapter one and most characters usually don't start having any big changes until a murder occurs. And the disproportional screentime may just be the writing style of Eden's Garden being that they focus on a certain group of characters each chapter, when they have the most relevance. Wenona, for example, feels like she's being set up to be a larger player down the line, even if she wasn't a super major character this chapter.

There was a lot more I liked about the chapter than disliked, though! All the characters really grew on me, for the most part. Well...Almost everyone. There is one character who I'm kinda meh on right now, since I'm not quite sure what they're going for yet. He's entertaining, I like him fine, but he's not quite on the same level as everyone else. And that character is:

Jett.

Honestly, I think the main reason I'm having trouble is just how he treats Toshiko.

Jett, why are you picking on a literal child??? What are you doing??? This wouldn't bother me if I knew an explanation for it that gives cool insight into his character, but as is I'm just kinda annoyed at him for it. Then again, I haven't bothered to experience any of his FTEs yet, so it's possible he gives some sort of explanation for his child-belittling ways there, haha.

The Mark and Jett thing was fine, I'm liking the set-up there. I think the only difference that makes me like the Jett and Mark stuff over the Jett and Toshiko stuff is that Damon actually calls Jett out for not respecting Mark's boundaries, meanwhile no one really reprimands him for belittling Toshiko because of her age. When he shares her blackmail, no one says "Hey, man, that wasn't very cool of you." They just shrug Toshiko's blackmail off and say no one should share anything else. Wolfgang even calls her blackmail a "joke". No wonder Toshiko is so desperate to be respected, everyone but Ingrid is so rude to her (I can forgive Grace, though, because the gremlin bit was the funniest thing in the prologue to me).

Of course, if they end up calling out his behavior towards her later, as well as everyone else's, I'll be happy and probably end up liking him more. His whole never taking off his helmet thing is pretty cool, I'm interested to see where that goes and to see any character development he has. And him and Cassidy's little friendship being established through gaming was fun.

...Writing all this out actually made me appreciate Jett a little more, since I don't think I would be able to say this much about some of the other characters...I mean if I felt something other than passive enjoyment maybe they’re doing something right…

Oh, right, there were other characters this chapter. Let's get onto them!

Damon was just as entertaining as last time, I'm excited to see what happens next with him. Him letting Diana defend herself made it seem like he was going to be more empathic to others and improve, but Eva betraying him might mean he starts trusting the others even less than before.

In daily life, Eva...Might've been my favorite. Don't get me wrong, Kai is still my favorite character overall, but I loved Eva in daily life so much. Her "Bweh..." and "Raaaage..." voicelines are some of my favorites in any fangan and I'm happy I experienced all her FTEs. I loved her in daily life, deadly life was...Still fine and good, the execution was super well-animated and cool. But her being the culprit did sort of undercut my enjoyment a little, since it sort of calls into question the truthfulness of certain aspects of her character that made me like her. Still really cool, though.

Kai was great. I'm going to make a post dedicated to him later, where I'm sure I'll ramble on and on for a while, so for now I'll keep it brief. He was just as funny as last time, surprisingly helpful in the class trial, his large amount of screentime was a pleasant surprise to me, I'm super excited to see if he'll be the new support, and his FTEs were really cool. I'm super hyped to ramble about everything concerning him later.

Ulysses, despite his limited screentime, managed to be pretty charming this time around. Him already telling backstory stuff to us makes me a little worried for if he'll die soon, but oh well. Him literally saying "um, actually" when he starts his objection was great. Toshiko calling him ugly in...the Prologue, I think(?), was blatantly incorrect because I really like his design. There's something about his color scheme that I enjoy, idk. Plus, owls are my favorite animal, so I was pretty much guaranteed to like his theming.

Diana being heavily suspected by the fanbase and then being suspected in-universe in the trial was cool, the whole "choose the culprit" minigame legitimately tricked me into thinking it was her for a hot minute...Until I remembered how much unused evidence we had, haha. Excited to see where she goes from here.

Wolfgang...Damn those sprites in the Diana flashback were cool. I should definitely check out his FTEs to get a little more context, but wow. While I'm not surprised he was the chapter one victim, I'm a little disappointed we'll never hear more from him.

Grace was great, her demeanor is kinda similar to another favorite character of mine, so I've become pretty endeared to her. I'm interested in seeing where the bunny symbolism goes, and how she'll react to Wolfgang being gone. She had no FTEs (her actually responding when I tried to enter her dorm (I was doing an experiment to see if I could enter anyone but Kai's and Damon's) jumpscared me haha), so I'm guessing she'll live a bit longer and receive some character development! Yay!

Wenona was fun, her attitude was as entertaining as ever. She's probably one of the characters I most want to go do the FTEs of, I'm interested to hear more about her.

Desmond and Eloise's friendship was fun, the scene where they try to get Grace to let them in Wolfgang's room was definitely the highlight of both their characters for me this chapter. Eloise standing up for herself during the confrontation and Desmond backing her up without hesitation was awesome. Can't wait to see their friendship expanded on (And Desmond being angsty during the closing argument was hilarious).

Toshiko and Jett already had most of my thoughts laid out above. Jett I've mostly finished describing, but I did like Ingrid and Toshiko's friendship this chapter. Toshiko's whole pretending-she's-totally-not-freaking-out-and-being-actively-traumatized thing was good, I liked how she was desperate to sound smart in the trials, it fits her character.

Mark was a little ruder than I thought he'd be going in, but I'm not complaining. While I don't think anything topped "Grace, call the fire brigade" this chapter, some things got pretty close, like his annoyed facial expression when you agree with him. Him not wanting to be acknowledged at all at the gaming tournament was interesting, I'm excited to see where they take his character.

Ingrid...Was fine. I'll be honest, I was a little disappointed at how my view of her failed to change at all this chapter. Even her blackmail was something we learned in the Prologue already. Still, I can appreciate her. Even if she didn't change much this chapter, I still like what she is right now. She's all-around pretty cool, and I like how she makes sure to defend Toshiko, unlike some characters I know. /j

(Her being called "reliable" made me immediately feel like she might not last long, though... :()

Jean is pretty interesting to me so far, Cassidy suggesting that he might just be posing as a 'pirate' was intriguing. Him saying there was an arcade on his ship made me think of a crack theory that he worked at a Chuckie Cheese type place, but instead of there being a strange mouse, you could hang around at his prop ship and take pictures with him and his "crewmates" (Co-workers or employees) in costume, with an arcade and snack bar nearby...His knowledge of machinery stuff is also cool. I should check out his FTEs.

Cassidy's whole gaming gimmick is cool, and I like her, but I think if I'm being honest, her fun design and awesome voice actor kinda carry her for me. I don't think she'd be one of my favorites to hear speak otherwise. Some of her voicelines are just hilarious by themselves, too, though ("I better zip up my fly, my genius is showing" was my favorite, like what the fuck that is so random and funny and she only uses it once). She's a character who I don't think I'd find nearly as funny if the vocal delivery wasn't as on point as it is, but seeing as it's totally awesome and on point I have nothing to complain about she’s really cool haha.

And those are all my general thoughts on each of the characters. Now onto a few individual moments I really liked!

I replayed the Prologue before playing through chapter 1, and something really cool I noticed was that when they're on the train, this happens after Cassidy says she smells something weird:

I thought it was really cool how they subtly foreshadowed his lack of a sense of smell like that! The devs really thought his character through from the beginning, I suppose.

But moving on to chapter 1, specifically the trial. One detail I really liked was this:

“Near the boiler room door, I discovered a thin piece of metal.”

“During the investigation, there was a strange smell permeating the boiler room. It took me a moment to notice, but when I did…”

Damon takes credit for both the scrap metal and the smell.

This happens very directly with the metal, where he says that he discovered it. While he does admit he didn't think the metal was important before, what he fails to do is give credit to Ulysses for pointing it out to him, since Damon didn't notice it until Ulysses did. And when Ulysses did notice it, Damon berated him for even writing it down. And yet now here he is, pretending that he took note of the piece of metal all by himself.

He also takes credit for finding the smell, albeit slightly less directly. But he still makes it sound like he noticed it by himself, when Jean was the one who had to directly point it out to him. And even then, Damon could only smell the generator at first, and Jean had to further explain what he meant. And Damon pretty much plagiarizes his description of the smell without crediting him, too. You’d think a debater would know how to cite their sources correctly, haha.

So long story short, Damon fails to mention that he got help investigating from both Ulysses and Jean. I find that interesting because even though Damon says he can only rely on himself right before this trial starts, he is actively ignoring that he is only able to steer the trial in the right direction at certain points because of the help he received from others. The game is both proving his point about him only relying on himself (+Eva this trial) wrong, while also letting the player further see his mindset. Pretty cool. (Though I’d honestly be kinda pissed if I was Ulysses haha).

I also really liked Eva this chapter. Legitimately the first chapter death I've been most sad about in any Fangan. Usually I see the fake-out support thing coming a mile away, since it's such a common thing in fangans, but they genuinely fooled me with Eva. I really got attached to her and I'm sad to see her go.

I still haven't really fully processed her character, but what I do know is that she's really cool and relatable and her voice actor is very talented. Her design is amazing. Her sense of humor is immaculate. Overall, amazing character I was devastated to see go.

One cool detail I noticed, in order to commemorate my love for her:

After avoiding Grace, which Damon theorizes was because she didn't want her talent mocked, she investigates the Dining Hall people. And yet, even though she mentions Jett and Mark being unhelpful, she says nothing about Kai.

This could be shrugged off by the fact Kai said something helpful about the footsteps when Damon approached, but since Kai says this info like he hasn't shared it with anyone else, I don't think that's the case. Instead, I think this confirms Damon's suspicion that she is avoiding those who mocked her real talent, since Kai is definitely a jerk about it to her face on at least two occasions. She legitimately just didn't speak with him. That really hits home just how uncomfortable Eva was with a lot of the people in the killing game.

(I'll talk more about this in the Kai post, but Eva not mentioning Kai when you enter the dining hall, and Desmond also not mentioning where he went before that, made me actually start worrying that we were gonna find a second body haha, that's why I noticed this).

Lastly, I'd just like to say:

Even Desmond and Eloise being like "dude no stfu" at Diana in this CG was hilarious and I love it.

[snowblossomreads]

Day 15 - Decorative Obsession

Pairing(s)/Character(s): Nobel Laureate Dr. Eli Michaelson (😂) x Fem!Reader

Summary: In where Eli gets jealous and reminds [Y/n] who she belongs to.

Tag(s)/Warning(s): Smut (p in v, student/teacher, facial (and not the one u get at a spa) )

A/N: Ah yes if it isn't Doctor Eli Michaelson Nobel Laureate 😂. Please enjoy this fun little smut piece for the world's Sexiest asshole. I swear I come up with the most unhinged things for this man I do not regret it.

There were a lot of things you quickly learned when you began your sordid affair with your Chemistry professor, soon after you had become his teaching assistant. 

One, was that his pleasure came first when you two fucked around. Whether it be in the classroom right before a lesson started, or in his office when you were helping him grade papers, Eli came first.

Well not physically. Surprisingly, he always made sure you got off beforehand, granted that wasn't a very difficult task when he fucked you better than any other person you ever dated could. Him and his stupid large cock and knowing how to use it.  

No, he made sure you knew he was in control of any, and all pleasure you received, and that what mattered most, was him getting to make a mess of you in whichever way he found sated his hunger for that moment. 

It was a good thing for him that you were a bit of a sexual deviant, happy to be his toy if he wanted, considering it got you off as much as it did him. Maybe you ought to seek some professional help with that.  You heard that the psychology department was taking volunteers for a cognitive trial for something or another. Maybe it would sort you out. 

Another thing that you learned about him, was boy did he have an ego. Technically, you had learned that even before you were anywhere in his orbit. Considering he had a Noble Prize, it was easy to see why his head would be so far stuck in his ass. 

Again though, only about a hundred or so people had earned that achievement in Chemistry, and him being one of them, surely did more for his ego than anything else could. Well, maybe also the way his students would throw themselves at him. Both because of his academic prowess and because of how good his cock was. 

Look, you weren't naive, and you also weren't going to delude yourself that you were the only pussy his dick was finding a home in. Who cared? As long as was bending you over his desk every other day and making you come like no other man had, he could do whatever he wanted.

Shame you would lose such good dick after you graduated, but that was for future you to worry about. Present you, was having too much fun to care. And plus, he probably be more than happy to fuck an alumnus. It'd stroke his ego even more that you would come back after graduating.

Huh, maybe you should do your PhD here as well. 

Oh yeah, and one last thing, for someone who like to fuck around a lot Eli Michaelson sure was a possessive asshole. That was something you found out more recently. Though, with the way he had an obsession with decorating your neck, and other areas of your body that people could see with bruises, you should have picked up on that earlier. 

Again, it wasn't really a focus of yours when you were too busy trying to stay conscious and upright as he fucked you silly.

Kind of like…right now.

"F-fuck, fuck oh Eli!" 

Your eyes, which you had no idea had fluttered closed as he railed you, shot back open as he slammed into you with a loud grunt. The tip of him pressing harshly against your cervix, causing hot ropes of pleasure to trail down your legs as they stiffened against his side. The burning engulfed your pussy in the most delicious way as you spread open even wider for him, one leg on each side of his thick thighs as he snapped his hips against yours with unbridled fury. The smacking of skin was loud, and very much obscene as your hands tried to claw at anything on the table, only causing the papers on his desk to fly off as you tried not to slide down from your position.

God thing he was fucking you so hard and at such a furious pace, that each thrust had you practically scooting back up on the desk.

Whatever had gotten into him, you didn't know but you sure did like it.  

"Fucking!" -Thrust- "Little!" -Thrust- "Slut!" Each word was punctuated with him thrusting into you, and each time your back arched off the desk as a cry left your lips that still had the lingering taste of his cock on it.

"Didn't think I catch you rubbing up against that dumb as bricks grad student did you? Fluttering your little eyelashes with that stupid low cut shirt like you wanted him to see your tits!"

"Fuck Eli, ah! I was just, mmm fuck, just helping him! Oh god," you gasped, as he kept up his pace, cock dragging along your sensitive channel, "he was, shit aah, having trouble with gravimetric analysis!" 

"Oh you were just helping huh? And how were you going to do that because he sure seemed more interested in what was under your shirt!" He snapped, as he grabbed at your hips, fingers digging into the soft skin as you squirmed helplessly against him. Unsure if you were trying to get away from him or get his dick deeper into you. 

You were sure it was the latter though. 

"Gonna suck his tiny dick and hope he learns by osmosis huh?"

Had you not been drunk on his cock, and your cunt not fluttering wildly at how deranged he was acting, you would have laughed. But alas that was for another time.

For someone who fucked around a lot, he sure was a hypocrite when someone else did the same. Not that you had any intention, or want to do that with that particular student.  

"E-Eli Jesus, fuck!" You cried out as he leaned down on you, his body weight crushing you like a human-weighted blanket, and forcing himself deeper inside of you. 

Your warm, velvety channel, was more than happy to accommodate the position, squeezing him, as he rolled his hips while mouthing at your exposed neck that was damp with sweat. "Unlike some people, I don't go fucking everyone that comes for help!"

"Well if I didn't, ngh,  I'd be depriving you of the best dick you'll ever had wouldn't I be?"

He wasn't wrong there. But you didn't want to stroke his ego any more than you already were. Instead, you just opted to moan out your answer as he explored your body with a wandering hand. His hand moved up and down your tummy where he pawed at the skin, causing you to whine before he trailed himself up your front, wrapping a hand around one of your tits that bounced up and down each time he would force himself into you. 

A little cry left your lips as he leaned down and bit at the perky nipple before his tongue soothed the ache, licking the swollen nub and sucking it causing your already sensitive body to tremble even more singling you were about ready to burst. 

He seemed to feel it too as his thrusts began to speed up, hitting that spot in you harder, and faster. Your legs stiffened more and more as you let out whines that increased in volume, just like the sound of your wet cunt being fucked mercilessly.

You were sure your inner thighs were going to be bruised with how hard they were pressed against Eli, but it wouldn't be the first time, and it sure wasn't going to be the last.

With one more harsh thrust, your body seized, and your insides gripped Eli's cock, causing a shout of your name to leave his lips, as you shook underneath him while your orgasm washed over you.

"Eli oh Eli fuck, oh god," you whispered and sobbed over and over as your stomach twisted and knotted pleasurably. Your hips stilling rolling uncontrollably against his body. 

Wave after wave of heat rolled in your stomach, and it took you a few moments to come down from your high. Only to find that the man above you was still hard and, that he hadn't come yet.  Add to that your blurry thoughts and that wicked smirk that you barely registered on his face, and it was no surprise your foggy mind was confused.

"Wh-what are you- AH!" 

Before you had time to finish your sentence, his cock was sliding out of your sensitive hole that tried to clench around him, and you wanted to whine about the sudden emptiness, but that was cut off too, as he dragged himself off of you, and dragged you to the ground unceremoniously.  

You were about to protest as you got on your knees, but was quickly stopped by a hand on your shoulder. Looking up, you were greeted with the sight of his still erect cock, which was very angry looking and very wet from the both of you.

Had he not been holding you back, you would probably have dived right in and sucked him off. But it seemed like he had other plans as you watched him begin to jerk off in front of you.

"Fuckin' shit [Y/n]," he hissed the slick sounds of him pumping his cock now echoing in the room as you watched him with eyes still dark with lust.

A shock of thrill ran up your spine as you automatically stuck your tongue out ready to catch his seed, your hips already rocking back and forth as that familiar pressure began to grow again. 

"Mmm yeah going swallow everything I give you aren't you? I bet you let me come all over your face too. Make you go to that useless piece of shit and show him that the only cock that's gonna use you is mine's."

God he was so possessive. Had it been anyone else, it be irritating, yet, by the way you clenched at nothing from his words, your body seemed to agree with him.

"Do it then, come on my face Eli," you purred as your hands found purchase on his thick thighs, and you lifted your face upwards towards his cock so he could make a mess of you. "Paint my face sir please, please, please want it all over me. Want you to mess me up please come sir please~!"

The wanton begging, paired with the way you licked your lips and humped the ground waiting for him to shoot his load on you, seemed to spur him into a frenzy.

He pumped himself faster, the grip on his cock tightening just as his balls did the same. Ready to empty everything on you, and before you both knew it, hot liquid began to spurt from the angry tip onto your face. It landed on your forehead, cheeks and some of the salty liquid landed on your tongue, which you savored as you watched his face twist in pleasure and a loud shout of your name left his lips as he emptied the sticky, hot seed on you. 

"Tilt your head up," he gritted out, and while you didn't know why, you did what you were told, exposing your neck to him as he continued to spurt the last of his cum on you. 

Hot stripes of liquid landed across your collarbone, and you let out a watery moan at the feeling of being made a mess of. God you probably looked insane right now with his cum all over you, but boy did it make your cunt want some more of him.

With that little show though, it seemed he had finally completely emptied himself as he let out a satisfied huff as he looked at you. A smirk crept onto his features as he took in his handy work, and you could only imagine what was going through his mind.

Probably something along the lines of doing it again or whatever. Not that you would protest. But what came out of his mouth next had you sputtering a bit with how out of pocket it was.

"Next time maybe if you show him that necklace I  just got for you, he'll pay more attention to his work than thinking about fucking you."

A/N 🍆💦🍆💦😜

[dottowos]

this is so cringe but like..dottore and those automatic fuck machines if you know what I'm talking about?

he's tied your hands behind your back, your face against the cold table or floor, blindfolded and gagged while the machine relentlessly fucks you from behind using a silicone duplicate of his own cock

maybe some segments will come by and drop a load into your mouth and throat while the machine overstimulates you again and again

but he's just observing because maybe you pissed him off? or maybe he's just a sick fuck (he is) (/lovingly)

Dottore creating things to spice things up certainly wasn't unheard of, considering all the trials of aphrodisiacs he went through to find the perfect one, vibrators with different settings he loved to test on you, even a replica of his cock... all of which he prefers to sit back and watch. Dottore would keep his eyes on you only as the toy ruins you, only occsionally stroking the bulge in his pants - he's much more interested in those delicious expressions of yours than himself right now. However, one thing he won't let you do is come on one of his toys (in his presence at least) - that's reserved for him only. Is it bad of an experimenter to cut their experiment early? Well, technically yes - but this is a different case - the only cock he wants you coming on is his.

Regardless, even though you shouldn't be surprised by his latest invention, it still throws you for a loop at the pace (that he controls, alternativing from agonizingly slow to hammering into you) as well as the cold air hitting your nude body - you can't see anything, but you know Dottore's just there watching you get mercilessly pounded, barely even saying a word. Who knows what he could be doing - stroking himself too, taking notes, or maybe even doing his own work and ignorning you. :(

You were just teasing him a tiny bit, grinding on his lap, but when he said he was going to give you want you want, you weren't expecting this! The worst part is that Dottore still never lets you come, always halting the machine before it can give you your much needed relief. :( And when you are about to finally reach your limit, he grabs your chin and asks if you enjoyed disturbing his work, questioning if you've learned your lesson (of course you haven't and it will happen again) - his harsh tone a stark difference from gently wiping your tears away. But still, you furiously nod your head as he hums in approval, and finally you can come as your hole easily accepts his actual cock.

Some segments don't even say anything to you once they start using your mouth at a inhuman pace comparable to the actual machine, leaving you to guess who they are from the small moans and pants. Some prefer to mock you through it, knowing that afterward you're too fucked out to try and refute their words, while others praise you even though you can't really hear them. Some are decent enough to at least clean around your mouth, some prefer to leave you there like that with cum dripping down your face and chest (and have the audacity to scold you for wasting it even though you're tied up) - either way, you always look lovely enough to come back for a second round, and both your holes are going to be more than ready for them.

Even when Dottore cleans you up afterward and holds you, you're still to shy to look at him and he gets amused when you try to shoo him away. Anyway, you get lots of kisses from them all for being so cooperative! <3

[mistysgardenn]

i was randomly thinking. what would the ushers be like on your birthday (imagine you’re their friend or s/o or something)

perry: sorry you’re getting a designated orgy. he means well and at least he would try to be sweet…! he’d probably end up getting distracted by the party though. i’d like to think he’d make extra time for you on your birthday of all days but it’s a 50/50 chance i fear. he’d definitely apologize and try to make it up to you. if he does remember, he’d invite you over to his apartment for dinner and tv with some friends

camille: this woman is not acknowledging it at all. however, when you go to your desk, there’s a cute little cake and a gift she picked out for you (it was something you’d mentioned wanting in passing; she remembered). when you go to ask her about it and thank her, she threatens to sue you for breaching some random clause on some random nda. as you leave the room you catch a glimpse of her smiling though… she’s a softie deep down and i’m dying on that hill

leo: i can see him being thoughtful and caring when the day comes around. he understands what it’s like to be overlooked so he’d make sure to throw a huge party for you and make you the star of the show. i already know he’s inviting all your friends and family. the only downside to all this is that there would be a ton of drugs, which is on brand for him. he’d probably get hella stoned but hey at least it’ll be a fun party!

victorine: she’s too busy at work to do anything really special. i can see her maybe calling to wish you happy birthday; she’d definitely get you a gift and a cake, though. after she gets off work you two might have a nice dinner but she’d mostly talk about her day and complain about clinical trial guidelines, but you’re used to it by now…

tamerlane: surprisingly, she’d be really sweet about it. yes she’d be intense, but her usual energy would translate perfectly into a passion for making sure you have a great birthday. you’d do a variety of activities together and she’d probably show you off to anyone she could find. still, she’d be extremely sharp-tongued with anyone who gets in the way of your birthday dinner (those poor waiters…)

frederick: there’s a lot to unpack here. we know he cared a lot for his family before everything went downhill, so honestly he’d probably devote a lot of time to your birthday festivities. he’d get you a super fancy cake and decorate his (insanely big) house with a lot of decorations! honestly he’s a really sweet guy who got corrupted by… a lot of things. but he does care as long as you don’t betray his trust

madeline: i think she would be fairly normal. you’d get a call or text wishing you well, and you’d find a cake and gift delivered to your home. she’d invite you out for a nice, private candlelit dinner, but that’s the extent of the festivities. i can’t see her wanting to do anything flashy; she’d like you to herself and to make sure everything around the two of you is under her control

roderick: the bare minimum. the only reason he’d go out of his way to give you a cake or anything is to make himself look good in the public eye… if it’d make a good news story, expect the most expensive cake money can buy. otherwise you’d get a text if you’re lucky. a birthday dinner is stretching it but maybe if he’s in a good mood he’d take you somewhere nice

not technically an usher but i love her too much to exclude her so here’s a bonus

verna: a birthday spent with verna would undoubtedly be the best you’ve ever had. like… she’s been everywhere and done everything. she’d know exactly what you’d like and make sure to tailor it to your preferences. quite literally, the sky is the limit. but, at the end of the day, you’d get to spend some quality time with her doing whatever you enjoy—maybe a cozy dinner or something along those lines

[danganronpasurvivoraskblog]

Dangancember 2024 - Danganronpa Top 24 Class Trials: Number 20 Danganronpa V3 Case 5

//You guys don't know how much it hurts to have this one down so low.

//This trial is honestly, overall, EXTREMELY good. It has a good plotline, a good investigation, a good cast of characters, and is overall just very very engaging.

//So yeah, we're kind of out of the territory for trials that I consider to be straight up bad.

//But regardless, Case 5 of Danganronpa V3 is something I view very critically, despite the leaps and bounds it takes as a case. Here's why.

//As I did with my last post, let's go over everything that happens in this case, and then I'll start to pick it apart.

//So in the build up to this case, shortly following Gonta and Miu's deaths as part of a scheme masterminded by Kokichi, tensions among the group are as high as they ever have been. And they skyrocket when Kokichi not only reveals that the world outside the academy is in ruin, but that he's the one who masterminded everything, and proves it by controlling the now pilot-less Exisals, and kidnaps Kaito, locking him in the Exisal hanger.

//A few things happen between here and there during the chapter, but eventually, everybody remaining agrees to rally together and break into the hanger to rescue Kaito and confront Kokichi. But when they manage to break in, they find somebody's dead body crushed under a hydraulic press.

//The body in the hydraulic press is crushed beyond recognition, leaving only some blood splatter and remnants of Kaito's coat, implying that he may be the victim. However, it's not as simple as that.

//Clues like the electromagnetic barrier and discrepancies in the blood evidence suggest something deeper, and the group realizes that Kokichi may have staged certain aspects of the crime, but he might not even be the killer. It gets overcomplicated when somebody shows up to the trial piloting the Exisal, but due to being concealed in the hatch, it's unclear who it is, be it Kokichi or Kaito.

//Eventually though, the trial keeps going and it's discovered that Kokichi devised an elaborate plan to end the killing game. He and Kaito staged his own death to trick Monokuma into halting the game, by making it so there is no known perpetrator. What actually happened, and what got discovered, is that Kaito was forced to kill Kokichi in a mercy killing to ensure the plan succeeded, as Kokichi was gravely injured and dying thanks to being shot with a poisonous dart; with Kokichi exploiting Kaito's nature to get him on his side.

//Everybody in the trial, including Monokuma, goes back and forth with this case, until finally, Kaito emerges from the Exisal, and Kokichi's plan ultimately fails. Kaito is executed, but he dies of his ongoing illness before the execution could finish, and as a result, the execution is interrupted, technically meaning the students beat Monokuma and ruined the killing game after all.

//I know I don't make it completely easy to understand, but even if I had tried to put it more simply than this, this trial is still a clusterfuck.

//But in short, what you're trying to tell me is that the true circumstances behind this trial comes about as a result of the most erratic character in the game going crazy, and everyone agreeing they need to be stopped. They are met with a death as they go to confront him, but it turns out the character in question deliberately crafts this death to be an impossible mystery, which the other characters believe is done merely to screw them over. In reality, however, it is intended to use the trial system as a weapon for the character's personal gain.

//Yeah, I don't think I need to sugarcoat it. This is, beat for beat, the EXACT same as Case 5 of Danganronpa 2.

//Okay, the mystery is different, and the stuff that happens as a result of the mystery turns out differently, but come on! It's VERY CLEARLY the same structure!

//And unfortunately, it's not nearly as effective, because not only do I expect there to be some fuckery as a result of experiencing Game 2 Case 5, but the mystery itself is NOWHERE NEAR as difficult to figure out.

//One thing that made Case 5 of DR2 so damn brilliant is because literally anybody could have been the killer, and there was absolutely no surefire way to figure out who it could be. Even before the twist with the fire grenades was discovered, at least every character is accused at least once.

//For this case, the killer can be one of two people: Kaito or Kokichi. The other characters ARE suspected, but it's kind of pointless because you KNOW none of them could have crushed the body under the press, which is clearly the cause of death.

//And in a situation where it's supposed to screw with you, you're automatically under the assumption that Kokichi planned a ruse where HE is killed and not the actual killer, because you know that's EXACTLY what he would do.

//The problem with Kokichi compared to Nagito is that despite his overwhelming dominance deriding from the chaos he causes, Kokichi eventually becomes predictable.

//It's far more threatening dealing with Nagito because he rarely ever hides how he feels about things. When he likes something, he does crazy things for it, when he hates something, he shows it.

//But with Kokichi, you immediately take every action he does with a grain of salt, and you automatically assume that if he makes a claim, he probably means the opposite. And in this case, the setup where Kokichi and Kaito orchestrate the "perfect crime" and make it appear that one of them is the victim relies on the premise that they are trying to deceive the participants. However, by the time of the trial, the clues and circumstances strongly hint at the truth.

//Especially since it renders Kaito's plotline of being sick moot. They spend so much time covering it from Chapters 3 through 5 that it's one of those one's that they can't just brush to the wayside because they feel like it.

//Kokichi’s ruse as the mastermind could have been a compelling twist, but it's resolved too quickly and doesn't significantly impact the trial. While it raises tension briefly, the revelation that Kokichi is not the mastermind comes without much surprise or stakes for the larger narrative.

//And the trial really reflects on all these problems because the answers are often apparent, yet the game still demands a lot of steps to confirm them. The pacing of the trial drags on in sections where the we're already supposed to understand the core mystery.

//Also, I don't know if this is just me, and it's weird because these are genuinely two of my favourite characters in the entire series, but Kokichi and Kaito are, honestly, a really uninteresting victim/killer duo.

//While his actions in this case show his willingness to sacrifice himself for a greater purpose, the convoluted way Kokichi goes about it has very little emotional impact. Largely because his motivations and the extent of his manipulations are left somewhat ambiguous, and doesn't really give his character arc a lot of closure. Especially considering something that happens in Case 6 of the game, but we'll get to that in a little bit.

//As for Kaito, his noble sacrifice is meant to evoke strong emotions, but his victory feels...contrived. The trial’s resolution emphasizes Kaito’s moral "win" over Monokuma, but the convoluted nature of the crime, as well as how it...kind of doesn't change anything.

//And that, to me, makes this trial feel like a genuine waste of time! Chapter 5 of Danganronpa 2 not only resolved Nagito's plotline with a bang, but it was also the trial that revealed the full extent of why the Killing Game is happening, how and why Chiaki was the traitor, and wraps up a lot of the ongoing mysteries nicely. It also helps to segway into Trial 6, which...is another issue.

//I forewent mentioning this when I covered Case 6, because I wanted to save it for this one where the point would be more relevant, but there's one aspect about the trial that comes after this one that heavily ruins the emotional impact for me.

//And that's the idea that's hinted at, where Tsumugi as the Mastermind KNEW EVERYTHING Kokichi was going to do, because she had wrote it in the story as part of his character.

//Which makes absolutely EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THIS CASE COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY POINTLESS!

//If Tsumugi knew these events would unfold, it completely undermines the organic feel of the trial, almost ruins Kokichi's entire character arc.

//Now, as mentioned before, it's unclear whether Tsumugi was saying that to save face, or if she meant it genuinely, because most of her confessions and statements during the trial have no grounds upon which she builds them. But in the case where she is telling the truth about this...

//...That's really fucking uncool!

//I hated when Junko did this in Case 6 of Danganronpa 1 too, but with Junko, it's a little more believable, and it doesn't completely ruin my opinion of the trial, because Case 5 was already supposed to be a shitty stand in for a case and not an actual case itself. But this is an actual case, and one that has a lot of emotional weight behind it, so what the actual hell was the point if this was all true?

//I mean, I guess that's kind of the idea that you're supposed to question what all of this bullshit was for if Tsumugi already had all of this written out, but then that just makes Trial 6 way more complicated, and...yeah, I don't think it's worth talking about any more than this.

//In general, the outcome of this trial is predictable even though it's supposed to be complex, Kokichi's mastermind bluff and his plan is underwhelming, the trial is mentally frustrating because it's so easy, Kaito and Kokichi BOTH suffer from missed potential, and Chapter 6 effectively renders the entire thing pointless anyway. And that is why I generally dislike this trial.

//But for the record, as I implied at the beginning, despite all this, and the structural overlap with Case 5 of the previous game, this case still manages to stand out in several ways.

//What truly sets this trial apart is its unprecedented twist that sets it apart from not just Case 5 of DR2, but every other trial in the series. Not only is the culprit unknown, but the VICTIM'S identity is also a mystery.

//As easy as it is to figure out, this is pretty unique, and it's emphasized with the exisal occupant’s alternating impersonations of Kokichi and Kaito keep the students, and the audience,guessing.

//But for me, the highlight of this complexity is the impact on the trial system itself.

//Kokichi’s use of an electrobomb in the hangar disables Monokuma’s surveillance, meaning not only do the students not know who the killer and victim are, or what happened, but MONOKUMA, the series' typically OMNIPOTENT antagonist, is COMPLETELY in the dark about what transpired!

This moment of vulnerability for Monokuma is both shocking and kinda funny, as he is now forced to JOIN the trial discussion, instead of simply oversee it, and collaborate with the students to solve the case. The sheer novelty of teaming up with the main villain to unravel the mystery underscores the trial's unique brilliance.

//And what I do like is despite how hollow Kaito and Kokichi's "victory" felt, one thing that this trial does do well with the concept of trying to screw Monokuma and the Killing Game over is itraises questions about what it means to "win" in a killing game.

//Kaito’s decision to sacrifice himself ensured Kokichi could not be used as a pawn by Monokuma, while Kokichi’s role showed that even his manipulative tendencies were rooted in a desire to defeat the system.

//Some killers and victims in the Danganronpa, with people like Peko and Gundham being stand out examples, do commit these murders for reasons other than simple bloodlust, but in general, for most of the cases in the series, motives are more black-and-white. But compared to them this one really tends to make you think about the nature of sacrifice and resistance.

//Kaito and Kokichi being the one's who ultimately made this work by working together is also very interesting, even though Kokichi kind of lured Kaito into doing it.

//The trial represents the climax of their very intriguing relationships as a wannabe hero and a wannabe villain. Throughout the game, Kokichi's cunning pragmatism and Kaito's uncomplicated optimism butt heads SEVERAL times, but in this instance, they collaborate to develop a scheme that goes against the grain. The joint sacrifice that they make really shows the pinnacle of their character arcs. Kaito is shown to a loyal and righteous person who is willing to sacrifice everything if it means stopping the killing game and protecting his friends, while Kokichi is similarly ready to die in order to achieve his objectives of weakening Monokuma and being the trickster that he was always destined to be.

//And I love this for them.

//And then Kaito's execution. Despite my own issues with it, this trial and this execution made for a satisfying enough conclusion. Kaito’s final moments, where he faces death with dignity and defiance, shows just how much he meant his rambles about his unwavering belief in hope and humanity. His refusal to let Monokuma win elevates his sacrifice to one of the most memorable in the series.

//But yeah, that's about all I have to say on this one.

//Case 5 of V3 gets points for being emotional, ambitious, and thematic, but ultimately, it is one of the lesser trials for me. Largely due to how it's relevance is ruined due to dialogue in the case that immediately succeeds it, combined with its parallels to Game 2’s Case 5.

//While this trial had the potential to rank very highly, these issues prevent it from reaching that level. As sad as it is to say.

[exeggcute]

after some trial and error I think I finally have the perfect PS2 setup for the modern gamer. behold:

PS2 (old reliable) + power cable + magicgate memory card for those eight delicious MB of storage

retrotink adapter: a must-have in my case because we don't have any TVs that support analog input. you COULD go scrounge up an old CRT instead of shelling out for an adapter but (1) I have no desire to fistfight a melee player over who gets dibs on the CRT we both spotted on craigslist at exactly the same time (2) I have nowhere to put a CRT and (3) the retrotink is sick. worth every penny imo. this thing has upscaling, lots of settings to mess with (including psuedo-CRT settings to add scanlines and whatnot), and zero lag. there are significantly cheaper adapters out there but I did a shitload of research and nearly all of them have some kind of dealbreaking problem, save for the retrotink, whose only problems are that it isn't cheap and it runs out of stock quickly because they're all made by one guy in his garage.

component/YPbPr cable: the retrotink won't accept the regular AV cable that I've had for two decades (with the red/white/yellow inputs), but apparently AV input kind of sucks so component is the way to go for quality anyway.

wingman PS2: this thing is SO fucking cool dude. if you only pick up a single item on this list let it be the wingman. being able to play PS2 games not just wirelessly but on a modern controller (dualsense ftw) feels amaaaaazing. rumble works great, pairing is easy, no lag as far as I've noticed. the only downside is that modern controllers don't have the same pressure-sensitive buttons that the PS2's dualshock did, which means the handful of games that utilize that feature won't be a 1:1 experience.

so now your wallet just took a hit on all these peripherals—but not to worry, because we're also in the golden age of PS2 piracy:

if you have a stack of compatible DVD-Rs and a disc reader for your PC, you can use freedvdboot ESR patcher to patch an .iso of almost any PS2 game, burn that patched .iso to a disc, and then run the game on unmodified(!!!) PS2 hardware. there's a handful of caveats though:

(1) not all PS2s can take advantage of the exploit; it depends on the version of your console's DVD player. atm I think all slim models are compatible, and some fat models are compatible, but people are working to crack the last few holdouts so don't lose hope if yours isn't supported yet.

(2) technically not all games are compatible either, but more games seem to work than not. games that do work are essentially indistinguishable from a legit copy, though—some of the other game piracy methods I looked into (like MC2SIO) have a lot of performance issues that freedvdboot-patched games don't seem to suffer from at all.

(3) not all DVDs are equal; someone on reddit compiled a list of DVDs that worked/didn't work with freedvdboot-patched games. (they aren't on this list, but I used Verbatim DVD-Rs and they worked fine.)

I have yet to find any good text-based guides about using the patcher, but this guy's video tutorial explains everything well. howeverrrr you can skip all the parts about "creating backups" of your "original game discs" and just use the .iso you downloaded off of Vimm's Lair lol.

bam. not quite free since you have to buy discs, but just about. and a 50-pack of DVDs was still cheaper than any of the used copies of ape escape 3 that I could find on ebay

[sonicreferencephotos]

Why I Dislike Sonic Speed Simulator

I sometimes see people in the notes of Speed Sim refs saying that maybe they should start playing it/get back into it. I want to ask, for your sakes, that you do not. The only reason I still play it is for this blog. I would love to stop. I keep going so that no one else will have to play to unlock characters for references. I will also be adding a disclaimer to future Speed Sim posts. Maybe this is a bit excessive, but this game is starting to break me.

I understand that some people like the game, and you all control what games you choose to play. In my opinion however, playing Speed Sim is really, really not worth it.

If you want a specific explanation of the problems, you can read it below the cut

Problem 1: Gameplay

The gameplay of SSS is simple, to put it kindly. There are a few different aspects of the game, each of which has only the bare minimum amount to do.

You can run around the world. This lets you collect rings and experience. You can also destroy badniks, which exclusively consists of doing repeated homing attacks until you destroy them. They can technically hit you, but all that does is knock you back.

You can do time trials. Actually somewhat fun. Not much more to say about them.

You can enter races. PvP races which are fine. Fun at first, get boring when you have to grind for race tickets.

You can fight bosses. By "bosses" I of course mean "Eggman" and "Eggman but with more health." It is almost exactly the same fight. You run around breaking shield generators, dodging the same two attacks, and then deal a set amount of damage to him before the shield returns. Repeat. Your prize is spins on (one of) the gacha wheels.

You can complete quests. Actually decent! At least until you run out of quests. Good thing there are daily quests to keep you "entertained" with their repetitive tasks. Also, ignore the fact that the tasks for quests are just engaging with the rest of the mediocre game.

All of the above mechanics grow dull and grind-y very quickly. Soon, every part of the game becomes a chore. The game itself even seems to have realized this, and thus includes an auto-run feature, so you can collect rings and xp without needing to do anything!

I am generally of the opinion that it's a bad sign if a game is un-fun enough it needs to add in the ability to skip the gameplay, but that's just me (that's part of why I stopped playing Star Rail).

Problem 2: Skins

We all know the real reason people play SSS isn't the game itself: it's the cool outfits! 95% of which are only available during limited events and/or by spending actual money. You can also expect to do a lot of boring grinding if you don't spend money. Speaking of spending money...

Problem 3: Microtransactions

Time to talk about the true "heart" of the game: Robux. Now, I will give Speed Sim itself half a pass on this one, as from what I've seen, Roblox as a whole has what I would consider an unsavory emphasis on microtransactions, especially for a game with a playerbase of 50% children aged 12 or under, and another 15% between 13 and 16 (Statista: Roblox user distribution worldwide 2022, by age group). With that being said though, Sonic Speed Simulator doesn't seem to have any qualms about asking for money wherever they can.

I could make a whole other post about all the ways this game offers for you to spend money. You want more spins on the gacha wheels? Spend money! You want to get three gacha eggs for the price of one (certain vending machines only)? Spend money! You want to skip the animation you have to watch every time you buy an egg from said gacha machines? Spend money! You want to do less grinding for xp/race tickets/event objectives/candy/whatever? Money, money, money!!!

The game has a lot of the trademark warning signs for a cash grab gacha game:

Several different kinds of currency, most or all of which can be purchased with premium currency

Many different skins to unlock, using the assorted currencies mentioned above (including ones that are specifically only purchasable with premium currency)

Gacha wheels. Many, many gacha wheels. (Not counting the dozens of vending machines, I can think of at least four)

Grindy gameplay that can largely be skipped by spending money

Again, if a game is un-fun enough to have an option for players to spend real money to skip the gameplay, that's a bad sign.

Problem 4: Crunch

I haven't done much looking into it myself, but I've seen many people say that GameFam (the company that creates Speed Sim) treats its employees very poorly. The game advertises its weekly updates, which requires a lot of crunch in order to get content out quickly. This is obviously bad for the people involved, and also has negative effects on the game.

Many features are clearly rushed, and there's a general lack of polish. From glitching through the map, to races starting several seconds before or after the countdown ends, to untextured models, to many small bugs, it's clear that the developers are not given enough time to clean things up before they have to move on to the next week's content.

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Thank you to anyone who actually read this far. This was a long post, but I wanted to be thorough in my explanation. This is probably the last dedicated post I will make about this, since this is really not what this account is for, but I still think it's an important one.

You are welcome to ask questions about any of this — preferably in the replies so as not to clutter the sonicreferencephotos feed — but otherwise the disclaimers are all I'll be saying on the topic for the foreseeable future. Take care of yourselves.

[freezegirl]

MEET THE MILLBROOK SIX, OR: KIE'S SKATING RIVALS

whereas the olympians are often in friendly (and sometimes not so friendly) competition with each other, there are a few skaters from millbrook, connecticut - skating at the harwood skating club - that are kie's actual, bonafide figure skating rivals.

if there ever was an ice princess to rival kie, it would be gennifer "gen" harwood (n.atalie a.lyn l.ind).

born to tina harwood, a disgraced figure skater turned coach, gen has been primed and prepped to be the next champion since before she could walk, much less stay upright in skates.

after taking a step back from skating to catch up on all the "regular things" she'd missed, gen realized that she missed being on the ice more than she thought she would and has since made her big comeback. she has officially told her mom (and the world) that she is bisexual and that she is now dating casey.

while being with casey has softened a lot of gen's rough edges, there is still that part of her that comes alive whenever she crosses paths (or blades) with kie on or off the ice because there is something off about that girl and gen's gonna find out what it is.

casey carlyle (b.renna d'a.mico) had her sights set on harvard from the start but her summer personal summer project about physics turned into jumpstarting a career at the millbrook rink and beyond.

at first, her mom - joan - wasn't into it but through a lot of trials and even more tribulations, casey found the strength and the courage to go after her own dream instead of trying to make her mom's dream come true.

casey has since come out of the closet - albeit in a much quieter fashion than gen - and has broken up with teddy due to the fact that both of them had been growing apart for a while. since then, she's entered a relationship with gen.

she has also been thinking about getting a small heart tattoo with the bisexual flag colors on her shoulder blade. something that she doesn't have to cover up during comps.

and, yes, the only reason why casey is going along with gen's plans to figure out what's 'wrong' with kie is because, well, someone has to be there to do damage control.

nikita "nikki" fletcher (s.amantha c.ormier) is actually the oldest of the group and as such, should have some kind of seniority. you wouldn't be able to tell, though, because nikki is eager to go along with what gennifer wants, if only because she thinks it'll give her a leg up in the long run, despite nikki and gen competing for the top spot at the harwood skating club.

besides, it's not like gennifer's wrong. there is something weird about that goossens girl. no one is that good. no one's skates are that clean, consecutively. she must be cheating or something. that's the only explanation.

unlike gennifer, nikki does not come from a figure skating family. her parents had to take out a second mortgage in order to afford everything. and as nikki rises through the ranks, her mom is trying to create a brand around her daughter called "team nikki"; it even has it's own legal team.

and while nikki is a beautiful skater with a good technical grasp of the jumps, steps and other combinations, she tragically lacks the self confidence she should have as a skater of her caliber (especially after getting her growth spurt and growing out of her habit of throwing tantrums).

tiffany lai (l.ukita m.axwell) is, well, not necessarily more laid back than the others - she's invested as much into this as anyone else - but she's got a good head on her shoulders and gets along with everyone. to tiffany, a bad skate is not the end of the world; it's just an opportunity to learn and do better. she does, however, want to make coach harwood as well as her dad proud which is why she's an incredibly hard and dedicated worker, on and off the ice, because she is not from a figure skating family at all and has had to claw her way up. her dad works two jobs in order to afford the ice time that his daughter needs.

despite this, tiffany does so like to gossip. and if she spreads some of what she's heard along? well, she's just trying to do whoever hasn't heard it yet a solid. that's not a crime, is it?

she's very invested and interested in what gen is trying to do but she also would like to be kept out of it in order to protect her own career. you know, plausible deniability and all that.

zoey bloch (g.iorgia w.higham) and emma flanders (e.mily a.lyn l.ind) are both competitive figure skaters as well. the fact that they are both related to gennifer is a bit of an open secret at the millwood rink, if only because they look so much like her: same dad, different moms. (zoey is the only one of the two who takes after her mom more.) it's why coach harwood is extra tough on them, often calling them 'difficult' (despite the fact that both of them had nothing to do with mister harwood walking out on slash divorcing his wife; coach harwood pretends the man doesn't exist, he may as well be a ghost or dead, for all she cares).

well, that and the fact that zoey, specifically, went behind coach harwood's back and informed casey of the dangers of unbroken-in skates (after casey had received a pair of brand-new ones).

fortunately, zoey is able to deal with her coach in a healthy manner because the bloch household is a warm place, full of laughter and encouragement that is built on strong, solid foundations and the idea that love is at the center of everything. the flanders household, however, is the complete opposite. so emma stays over at zoey's more often than not and has basically been adopted by zoey's parents as their second daughter (and for emma's upcoming birthday, they've been covertly trying to get all the paperwork in order to make it happen for real).

as such, mr and mrs bloch weren't all that surprised when emma announced to the family that she's, one, polyamorous and two, in a loving relationship with her two partners while zoey has decided to just focus on her senior programs for now.

(zoey used to be known as the 'skating thief' in her younger years and used to lock horns with gennifer and nikki a lot; emma makes fun of her for it.)

zoey and emma are more of a duo within the group and try to keep each other afloat as best they can.

[percyaugod]

I fucking love your purple prime au!!!11!!!!!1111 anyway question time!!

is brother krang still alive because in some posts you say three new "kids" because if he is that adds a bit too the plot cause well they 100% thought he was dead

weve seen the turtles and caseys opinions what about cass's splinters draxums etc

does senior hueso ever appear? tbh most of my questions involve side characters because they would be so cool too see!!

and we know they can technically still talk too the ancestors if needed do they contact them?

Thank you! ^ ^

Brother Krang being alive is something I've been thinking about as a possibility but never fully decided or what would change. Sure we see him trapped in the ship, but we don't know if it was hard enough to crush him or if he died from the explosion as the portal closed. So he could be running around, watching and waiting as he heals.

This could lead Donnie to think him hearing the Krangs' voice is just him imagining things when he starts hearing another voice in his head. Since the brother Krang doesn't speak out loud the turtles don't know what he sounds like. Bonus points if he actually talks a lot in the hive mind, almost rivaling Leo.

He could just accept Donnie as the new leader, freaking out the others when Donnie brings home another one, or decide to go rogue. This is the turtle that took control of his ship after all. Leading to a situation where Krang one and the sister Krang have to fight their brother to protect Donnie.

If he did join the group the amount of times he scared the others by silently appearing behind them. Damnit Donnie! Put a damn bell on the thing!

Casey Sr would be the only thing Other than Donnie the Krang fear. She bit one of them, will at times just stand still for hours staring at them, those monsters she calls scouts, and Purple Prime has absolutely no control over her! Casey Sr thinks she can bear them in a fight and they're too scared to test her theory.

Splinter spends a lot of time in denial. These were the things that nearly took away two of his sons, there's no way his Purple would just-

He starts to wonder if it was all his fault. He just randomly appointed Blue as the leader and didn't talk about it with the others or ask if Blue even wanted to be the leader.

He had so much potential though! Always coming up with plans and knowing his and the others' strengths and how to properly use them. Not to mention the stress was obviously tearing his oldest apart.

If he had done some things differently, would none of this have happened?

By the time he sorts himself out, the kids have started a trial run with Purple and the Krang since they apparently can't get rid of them without negatively affecting Purple. Again they had to rely on themselves because he couldn't pull himself out of his own head. He regrets making them grow up so fast but is so proud of who they've become.

Draxum is working with Casey Jr on trying to find a way to separate Donnie from the Krang. He wasn't there to see what the Krang did, but the aftermath says enough. Draxum discovers the empyrean he used to create the turtles is of Krang origin and could be part of why Donnie integrated so well. The fear that this means the other mutants and yokai that also come from empyrean are also at risk.

Hueso would definitely be worried about the kids. He doesn't see them too often after everything and they look so beat up and tired. Not to mention Leo is apparently at home healing from injuries. When he does see him again there isn't any of that usual annoying, energetic personality.

For once, Hueso wishes Leo would complain and rant to him about his problems so he knew what was going on. Knew how he could help.

It's fine! ^ ^ Gets me really thinking.

Probably not the best idea to contact the ancestors. When asked about the Shredder they gave some of the worse advice. No one wants to know what they'd say about the same species as the one that created him.

They'd talk to Karai though. She'd do her best to try to comfort them and guide them. Donatello is still family and he sees them as such, his Ninpo proves that. So she tries to be there for him to know that he's still family to them as well.

She won't say it out loud, but she does worry about him losing himself like her father once did.

[rainbowkittyburger]

ok im sending one last ask before i depart my dearly beloved brothrr💔💔💔✌️ whats laynes relationships with all the prime assets/expop

GOD you are irking my soul, making me actually think about technicalities/nsrs

below the cut is several paragraphs of me yapping, be forewarned, some of it may not be coherent. I am not a coherent person when it comes to this stuff unfortunately

Coyle - Toxic. An extremely toxic friendship, at least on Layne's end. Coyle moreso thinks of Layne as some creepy guy who hides in the shadows every trial, despite the reverence Layne seems to show towards him. Its well-known that Layne seems to think of Coyle as God himself, mostly due to his lack of knowledge on 'modern' technology, and seeing Coyle with his cattle prod(?? what the fuck is it I dont actually know) led him to the belief that Coyle controls lightning. So, yeah, Layne has reverence and awe towards Coyle, and literally just being acknowledged is enough to give this guy a heart attack.

Gooseberry - The only truly strong opinion Layne seems to have towards Gooseberry is her attitudes resemblance to his mothers. As seen in an unpublished work, he compares the other Prime Assets to flowers that have been linked to death/punishment and strife/warfare (hemlock/yarrow), while Gooseberry is compared to marigolds, flowers typically used in grieving ceremonies and usually representing grief/trauma. in the end, he thinks of Gooseberry as the perfect mother, a woman who's willing to do anything to protect her children, and occasionally he's rougher during her trials. even though the only reasoning is because he wants to help the 'children'.

Franco - Oh boy. He fucking HATES Franco, he detests him, there's no clear reason as to why he hates Franco and seems abnormally hostile towards him compared to the others, but its safe to say the two of them cant be left in a room with the other without some sort of fight occurring. obviously, Layne just doesn't like him, and chalked it up to a "gut feeling" when asked, and the minute he's given glasses he just gets more hostile because now he has an actual face to pair up to the blob that he hates. yeah. no, those two get along like peanut butter and spaghetti, an absolute no-go combination unless you want to be jumped in an alleyway by 57 Italians.

The Pitcher - There's no discernable relationship there, Layne seems to respect the Pitcher, and that's about it. he despises the molotovs though, due to his trials setting being a green house and then an odd replica of his home, and the molotovs accidentally lit several plants on fire before. other than his loathing towards the explosives, there's no actual clear cut like or dislike towards the Pitcher on Layne's end, and vice versa.

The Pusher - Its actually pointed out in an unpublished work I did, basically a mock interview document with each of the Prime Assets to try and flesh Layne's complex relationships with them out a bit, that Layne has openly approached Coyle, clung to him, and literally started praying through tears for the Pusher to die. its not actually clear why he hates the Pusher enough for him to wish death upon the other, but he's been praying on the others downfall since he met him for the first time in Sinayla.

The Imposters - N/A, Layne doesn't actually care for them.

The Screamer - Again, similar to the Pusher, Layne's been praying on the Screamers downfall for an extremely simple reason; he doesn't like all the screaming. were it up to Layne, he'd bolt Screamers mouth shut. permanently.

The Pouncer - Again, Layne doesn't seem to particularly care for them, hes made them water flowers like once. thats it.

The Night Hunter - N/A (doesnt particularly care)

The Berserker - N/A (no established interactions)

The Scapegoat - N/A (no established interactions)

Grunts - he thinks of them as rather helpful, considering he's stood there and forced them to help him water plants several times. dont judge him, hes blind and no singular blind man can water an entire greenhouse on his own. other than that, Layne has no particularly strong feelings towards them.

(Bonus; your oc, you damn loser)

Reagent Whittle - everyday he wakes up and sees Whittle, its no damn secret that Layne tries to pretend he never woke up. Whittle's the reason Layne sleeps on the potting mix bags, he's terrified that Whittle's going to steal one again and use it to knock down several rows of pots at once. no reagent has ever terrified Layne more than Whittle, because the bastards a damn homeborn demon.

[aesthetinet]

Around the Corner - Conspiracy Theories

Good day, netties, it is [Cor3!ander] again, and I think you should ask yourselves today what conspiracies you believe in:

James Bridle tells you that you should too, in the eighth chapter, “Conspiracy”, of his book New Dark Age. He does not explain the origin of conspiracies as they manifest today in the Digital, but meticulously focuses on those which surround chemtrails and climate change. In a seemingly paradoxical effort, Bridle rationalizes them to unearth their belief systems and parallel those with ours which we often perilously dub as common sense. We, the Aestheticaste, are greatly interested in this kind of academic exercise, because it offers generosity to some symptoms of the Digital, where we often regard it as an uncompromising place.

Bridle’s narrative is chronological and cumulative rather than the point-proof-significance format of a typical essay, but this works in its favour to evoke the layered narratives which characterize conspiracy theories. Therefore, he starts with a personal story of tracking the flight plans of charter aircraft orbiting around England under the pretense of a conspiracy, to find out that they are only routine data collection trips. He then recounts the trials and tribulations of discourses surrounding chemtrails, the troubled dialogue between Inuit people in the high Arctic observing how position of the sun had changed, even though the observed symptom was actually the result of climate change, and morbidly how human violence through history has spectrally contributed to it. Bridle aims to shoot a story directly into our minds, since those that contribute to it are ours as well.

Bridle's style is a breath of fresh air to us and those that undertake this kind of critical reading and reviewing of works on such serious topics. It is a way to have fun when we should in dire times, because when you focus too hard on something for too long, you get tunnel vision and lose awareness of the world around you. Nevertheless, these topics are still serious, as cited in Bridle’s explanation of Inuit peoples’ observations and their reply. Essentially, because of the ice melting in the upper hemispheres and with how snow and ice refract light in complex ways, the “repositioning” of the sun that the Inuit people saw was not technically wrong: because of the melting ice, the sun's light itself repositioned. However, the scientific community discredited the Inuit because their language did not agree with their paradigm, despite the truth of the matter. In that case, Bridle argues that official authorities themselves contributed to a false conspiracy while the equivalent of “folk knowledge” expressed truth. Therefore, he concludes, that is only one instance out of many where the targets of conspiracies can actually be the perpetrators.

I am curious as to how this argument applies to arguably more problematic theories. Those such as the “lizardmen” theory which states that otherworldly humanoid creatures secretly control governments to enslave and/or brainwash humanity. That one is well known to be founded in antisemitism, but how do our authorities fudge rebuttals against it, and what would be the consequences?

Bridle illustrates unequivocally that conspiracy theories are bred from mistrust between citizens and authorities. Although it is vacuous to say that by itself, aesthetics in fiction love to use that as a fulcrum to create worlds, and offer interesting rebuttals. For one, I greatly love grimdark: the dingy sci-fi middle child aesthetic that jumpstarted the Warhammer 40,000 tabletop rule system in 1987, and continues to thrive today. Grimdark essentially asks, “How bad can things get without it ending altogether?” I argue it is a more curious question than simply what the apocalypse might be, because it is one thing to fear finality, but another to fear suffering. Therefore, I agree with James Bridle in that both the producers and receivers of conspiracy theories can do better to reflect on the question rather than repel it.

Check your corners,

Aestheticaste

And for your education:

[xxchromies]

Rethinking antinatalism

I've been thinking more about antinatalism and like...I do stand by a lot of what I said. But I realized something. The truth is that there are so many things, so many ways of thinking that just aren't practical in the real world but people believe in them because they're thinking abstractly. And antinatalism is just another one of those. Idk if that makes sense.

Basically, I realize that there really AREN'T any non-selfish reasons for someone to have children. And you CAN'T consent to being born, so I suppose that does technically make it unethical. So I can see where antinatalists are coming from. And they're ambivalent about humans dying out because "nothing actually matters" and as an atheist I think they are technically correct! Some of my haters are getting it twisted, they think I want people to have kids even if they don't want any (I literally said I don't in the first line but APPARENTLY it still wasn't clear enough). But I DON'T think that and I don't know why anyone ever would!

My whole thing is that antinatalism is one of those ideologies that doesn't take real life into account. It doesn't take human nature into account. People feel a biological drive to reproduce, and yes, that biological drive can be overridden but we only have so much control. And also because I do still think it makes you antisocial to a degree. All these people claim that they are antinatalists because they have compassion for the human race, but some of them sneer at literal children and mock them. Even though they know that children don't consent to being born. And also, their arguments are illogical in many ways. The idea that the absence of pain is automatically better than the presence of joy is subjective, and that's just a fact. Basically, I think it's an ideology that comes from thinking about things too hard, and it inevitably alienates you from the people around you. And as much as mothers suffer under our patriarchal system, I still think motherhood and creating life are amazing.

All that being said, there are a lot of ideologies that don't take real life into account. They imagine a future that simply cannot exist. I am against communism and prison abolition for these reasons. But then, I'm a vegetarian! Because I think killing other sentient beings is wrong. But I KNOW that we are "wired" to eat meat. My hope is that everyone's desire for peace and humane treatment will override their natural desire to eat meat. That their logic will overcome their biology. I know that's a lofty idea. But that doesn't stop me from hoping.

In December 2022, when Alex Jones' trial was getting attention, I got curious about why people thought the shooting was fake. This led to a deep dive which naturally led to me learning more about the shooter himself. This was my first exposure to antinatalism. I think finding out about it in this way definitely led to a negative bias if I'm being honest. Hearing a MURDERER talk about how the propagation of life was inherently evil, well, how was I not supposed to conclude that it was a fucked up ideology? He also said that the only reason people are traumatized by rape and pedophilia is because society tells them these things should be traumatizing. These are clear examples of how thinking of things in an abstract sense, without considering the actual human emotions and lived experience behind them, can turn you into an actual fucking psychopath. And so naturally I concluded that antinatalism was the same way. And coming on here and seeing a surprising number of people share the same viewpoints frightened me. Then again, the shooter was also a vegan, so by that logic veganism/vegetarianism is terrible as well and I'm being a hypocrite.

I still can't help but feel an ingrained disturbance when it comes to antinatalism. But I don't think the majority of antinatalists, especially the ones who are also radical feminists, are evil people. You guys just have an ideology that is too abstract and is also somewhat cartoonish. I don't know. Just don't have kids if you don't want any. And please be respectful towards women with children. They can't go back in time and stop their children from being born. And be respectful towards children! Since they didn't consent to being born!