#thank u anon for pointing that out to me

[mach1ne-g1rl]

Santa Perla

pearl only :3

[suledins]

CHRISTOPHER & EDDIE DIAZ | 04.09 “Blindsided”

[snickerdoodlles]

Same anon: Pete's taste in decor doesn't improve as he figures himself out. If anything, it gets weirder.

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oh, absolutely! Pete is a funky lil guy and his tastes reflect that 😤👏 it gets worse even before he starts figuring himself out because Khun starts inviting him to craft nights again, because Pete's needs more PIZZAZZ in his life. Vegas puts his foot down on the kitchen jars having feathers, but we're talking sparkly kitsch to a whole new level. bedazzled lights. glittered vases. sequinned table runners. gold painted everything. nothing is of remarkable quality yet works bizarrely well with Vegas's luxurious velvet. Vegas is immensely irritated and delighted every time someone points this out, and takes it out on one (very delighted) Pete.

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

[gncrezan]

hey sorry if this is a dumb question but i wanted to start playing infamous, because i trust your opinion/taste so much because you're a rezan diehard, but with dashingdon is there a way to save your file onto your computer like you can with atoc? or do I just have to keep the tab open forever? like, once im all caught up to where the story is rn and the next installment comes out, do you just have to remember and replay all the same choices to get back to where you were? (i hope this makes sense)

HI !!! there is no way to download those save files :( for reference, i think there's a workaround for games published on steam (so wayhaven for example) but that doesn't . apply here. i am so sorry for not being to help w that

BUT those saves do remain even if you close the tab, close the browser, restart your device, etc, as long as you don't clear your cache! i usually play IF on my laptop so i can't say how easy it is to play on mobile, but i virtually don't ever lose saves on desktop! i haven't lost any so far and i've run through it a lot from the saves i have (i tend to save like.. at the beginning of chaps. sc below if it helps LOL) to get to things like drawing refs!! also a warning not to save on the stats page, since that corrupts the save, and to always do it on the game text itself!

it is a bitch to move from one device to the next though, and i know from experience because i got a new laptop and then realised i'd have to replay a bunch of games. which is technically a labour of love but still annoying, if for example you've got lots of playthroughs :( and it does mean you're limited to the amount of save slots available on each game, but that number differs from game-to-game 🤔

hope this helps!! if i didn't answer what you were looking for just send me another ask and i can see if i can help!!! i hope this also gets you to play infamous!!!!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩

[stephaniedola]

must have missed the hot ta saga update where you got laid. congrats!!

omg yea the whole thing is still chronicled in the "ta saga" tag but i think i only mentioned the first occasion:

but yea lol we fucked 3 different times, first at my house, then in his car on campus during lunch break of a summer statistics workshop (which was so hot tbh), then at his house. then we kinda just didnt talk much + he got sick + busy semester

...but honestly time has just passed and ive gotten kinda bored/over it with him lol. we met up for lunch recently and i wasnt really feeling it. maybe its cuz im on meds now LOL. who knows, i havent fully written it off

[bettsfic]

in today's episode of hellcheer making me insane and joe and grace giving me everything i could've ever wanted they hugged on stage during which joe lifter her on her tippy toes and rocked her side to side an interaction that is so very hellcheer coded like that is THEM twitter(.)com/delosrusso/status/1563986010651893760

i am totally normal about this

[quietwingsinthesky]

theres one that says sam was creepy for waiting outside that terrified, traumatized girls house in hookman and then making out with her minutes later, which, okay, point taken. but i think thats more of a case of the writers leaning into the whole damsels in distress, women want a shining knight to save them & then fuck them after they just lived through insane trauma - cliché

…Okay, see, out of context and if you present it like that, I can see how that seems negative, but I’m replaying that moment in my head and it’s like:

Waiting outside her house? Yeah, that’s his damn job, he and Dean do this countless times over the course of the show. In s1, I can remember them staking out that one woman’s house to wait for Azazel to show up to give her baby blood. At a certain point, we can’t judge him or Dean for doing things that are expected of them in the genre of show they’re in (Supernatural is a cop show with monsters -> Cop shows have stakeouts.) (At that point, you’d have to start saying stuff like “well, they carry guns around all the time, and that’s bad because they might shoot someone,” or, “why do they keep doing torture on the torture-interrogation show.”)

The making out with her bit does seem iffy out of context, but then you watch the episode, and the girl is the one who goes outside and initiates it. Sam is the one to break off the kiss because he’s still mourning Jess. So? What? Was he supposed to use his psychic powers to dodge her lips?

And yeah, like you said, a helping of misogyny to smooth it along, but it’s not like both boys getting kisses for saving the day is an uncommon occurrence.

[saradesuchiha]

It seems to me that your love for Naruhina has faltered. You don't talk or draw them like you used to. 😔😭😭

huh? why do i feel like my love for naruhina is being measured??? h3Lp 😭

my love and interest for naruhina has never wavered. i talked abt them mostly private amongst friends. i just rarely discuss them publicly nowadays. they're the only ship so far that i can draw comfortably from fluff to explicit. i do not draw them as often as before bc:

first quarter of 2022, i was burned out + my dominant arm was injured so i went hiatus for a while

second, i've always wanted to draw other stuff. this year, i promised myself i'll try out new things including drawing other ships that interests me

third, i've recently transitioned working day shift and on site so i have less leisure time to draw

i draw NH nsfw every wednesdays and sundays on my patreon + some of my patrons request to draw naruhina for them too. i haven't considered posting those yet, maybe later? tbh i still draw them more than gojohime or borusara combined

also, i've been co-hosting naruhina month for consecutive years. nhmonth2022 is coming soon and u'll have daily nh art entries from me again. i'm the only artist mod available so i'm responsible making all pubmats we're using for the event. if u've read the special events section, i've also prepared all digital items we're giving away during and after the event. i've practically dedicated quarter of this year planning and organizing an event dedicated for my fav ship 😭

ang tanong ko naman po ay saan po ako nagkulang, aber? 🥹

[daydadahlias]

you're not stupid. everyone makes mistakes. <3

i am only a man

[padfootastic]

Thinking of the secret keeper plan, and honestly, had Peter remained loyal, it would’ve been a good plan. Sirius being captured wouldn’t put the Potters in active danger, on account of him not being able to share the location since he wasn’t the Secret Keeper, and him being captured would tell everyone “Hey, Voldemort is close to zeroing in on the Potters, better make sure Peter is safe since he’s the only one who has the information Voldemort wants,” so he’d be able to buy his loved ones time to start preparing, as opposed to him being captured as the Secret Keeper and maybe breaking before anyone knows he’s missing. Besides, he’d probably be good at Occlumency, I feel like the Blacks would’ve taught their kids since Bellatrix is good enough to teach Draco later so Sirius probably knew too, so Voldemort wouldn’t be able to just pry the switch out of his head, and the information has to be willingly given, so Voldemort couldn’t just yank it out of Sirius’s mind. Of course, this all hinged on Peter being loyal, but he’d already betrayed them at least a year prior, so had anyone else been used, it would’ve been a good plan.

duuuuuude i have so many thoughts about this!!!

the entire plan gets touted around as stupid and idiotic and reckless and yeah ok i can see why people say that but i genuinely think it had the potential to work as well? like, literally no one would’ve suspected peter. he didn’t even need to be outwardly brave. if all eyes r on sirius, he can live his life in the background as he’s used to and no one would bat an eyelid. of course, i can’t see it being a long term solution bc things would come to a head at some point, esp if sirius gets captured/killed but peter would still not be on anyone’s list of candidates. i can’t help but think they could’ve also spread rumours that dumbledore was their keeper? 🤔 like, he offered, and presumably there’s no way for an outside to check who the SK is, yeah? so what they were doing with sirius, they could’ve done with dumbledore and that would’ve been it.

but now that i’m thinking about it, this entire plot line just has to many possibilities/tangents and so many holes??? for one, there’s the question we all have: why couldn’t james or lily have been the keeper?

also, i wonder: can u create a chain of secret keepers? like, peter is the SK for the potters, remus is the SK for peter, sirius for remus, and so on and so forth—basically burying the original secret keeper under a long list of false leads, ykno? idk there’s just so much to think about.

[httpiastri]

Hi! I just read let's knock everyone's hats off and i loved it ❤️ just as someone who identifies as non binary, i just wanted to let you know that reader is described as daniel's girlfriend which is fine but the title saying it was a gender neutral reader, it caught me off guard so i was wondering if you could change it to fem!reader? I don't mean to be rude or cause harm and I really hope you won't read it like that because it isn't my intention at all, it's just a bit discouraging to think that i finally found a gender neutral fic for my fav driver and then to realize that it isn't really a gender neutral fic 😅 again I don't want to upset you or anything I just thought I'd let you know but you're of course free to delete this, I really hope you won't be offended, I assure it isn't my goal. Also sorry if english is a bit off, it isn't my first language 😭 anyway i did enjoy your writing and I hope you'll keep on writing, it was great ❤️

hello! thank you for your message. i’d like to say that i am really sorry for my mistake. i was really tired when i posted the danny blurb yesterday, and i had no energy to even come up with a title nor a summary (it still has no summary…..), so when i was gonna write the genre, pairing and such i just copied the one from another blurb. i must’ve forgotten in the moment that i had mentioned the reader as his girlfriend, so i just didn’t change it… you’re not rude or offensive or anything (and your english is great, don’t worry about it!), thank you pointing out the mistake so that i could fix it. again, i apologize!

thank you for your sweet words, hope you have a great day ❤️

[peevishpants]

your art (and outfit designs!) is so gorgeous, i just want to keep staring at it

Thank you so much gentle anon!!! Well now I wanna make more so u can have some fresh ones to stare at ahaha

[frecklystars]

hard to believe but i really really really miss megatron right now ☠️

[wonderloste]

I just want you to know that I've had so much trouble even looking at other dating sims / otome games since I found your blog because your story just raises the bar so high! On that note, if your game was officially picked up, have you had any thoughts about what in-game currency would look like and how much it would cost?

AAAAAAAAA KJENRMKJNM FIRST OF ALL THANK YOU SO MUCH THAT’S SO SWEET. 😭 honestly part of the reason i put so much work into this blog is bc i love otomes so much but i have always just been. so constantly dissatisfied with the quality and lack of, like, innovation in otome titles that get translated to the west 🤡 thankfully since the genre is growing in popularity, we’re starting to get more dynamic titles but even then the genre can feel so same-y, i’m desperate for some good ass story content pls o.tomates lmfao.

OMG EKJNRGM if i ever actually put any of my game dev background to good use and actually made an otome game, it’d be a full fledged non-episodic game tbh. i assume you mean in-game currency as in microtransactions and i’ve just never been a huge fan of mobile otome and etc that do that model (looking at you, obey me). i only play full otome games where u buy the entire game once and that’s it now-a-days. theoretically i’d love to team up with a couple ppl i know and release a full otome on steam one day (n just go by standard otome prices w/e the were) #goals but if that Ever happens it’s def not gonna be any year soon but I WISH

[cutemeat]

https://cutemeat.tumblr.com/post/682428047251701760/macdennis

what do you mean they brought back the cat in the wall shit 😭

the 'cat in the wall' shit from Mac and Dennis Break Up!

i mean... den said.. the cat either dies or Comes Out At Some Point. "end of the Vitruvian era" (aka this ideal of masculinity which tends to go hand-in-hand with heterosexuality) so uhhhh... he.. came out?

... or im a fucking buffoon. either option is 100% possible!

(uhhh also shoutout to Jackie's joke post abt Dennis falling out of the painting being a coming out metaphor that I am basically taking all the way seriously LOL)