#thank you for the ask lovely :)

[historiaxvanserra]

What is your favorite? 🎥

Labyrinth all day everyday! It's literally flawless 🖤

[star--nymph]

5, 25, 27 for Eurydice 💖

YEEEEE! Eurydice time!!!

5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered?

No. Eurydice, for the most part, was left to her own devices. Ismene didn't care enough about any of her kids to notice where they were going as long as they stuck within the range of the clan and what Lycus did to her wasn't 'overprotection' as it was controlling her. If anything, what little freedom she had to disappear was what protected Eurydice from the abuse.

25. What are their hobbies and interests?

Eurydice's interests are anything to do with mounts but especially halla. Her special interest from her toddler days has always been about halla and she devoted her life to them, even planned to become a halla mistress with her sister before her magic manifested. She loves all animals but hallas especially make her so happy, they make feel understood and safe. Her other hobbies is exploring, magic research/experiments, linguistics, material/herb hunting, relic hunting, herbalism, and jewelry making. She likes to keep herself busy in her workshop. One of the things she work hardest on is trying to recreate the written elven language using what she's found in her travels. And, of course, she has all her bracelets she gives out.

27. How do they relate to their appearance? How do they wear their clothing? Style? Quality?

Eurydice has a very strange relationship to her appearance because for the most part, she doesn't really care? There's this dissociation going on with her and her body where as long as it's given what it needs, she doesn't think about what it looks like. Still, she does have texture related sensory issues--if she could go naked she would--and she doesn't like heavy, tight fabrics. Fabrics like velvet especially make her feel like her skin is unfair.

Eurydice's style is light, flowy clothing with lots of layers. Many of her clothing are linen, very loose, in light colors or in dark blues. Depending on if she can wear clothes she wants or is being asked to wear more formal clothing, the quality varies. If it's formal wear, the quality is very expensive but she won't wear them for long if she doesn't have to. Her most comfortable outfit is this:

Sometimes she'll tie an old shawl around her waist to act as an extra big pocket too or for something to wear her up.

[sundropglass]

3, 6, 8, & 12 <333

Thank you darling Fable <3

3. How do you figure out who you are in the moment?

Voice is a pretty big indicator. Most of us sound vastly different with the internal monologue, and the difference only gets stronger when we notice who it is.

Belle sounds a bit like a disney princess, Dosy sounds a bit like a mature black-and-white moviestar. Mr. H’s voice is soft, but commanding, and when he’s angry it blows through like an avalanche. Cerberus has a deep laugh. Til’s changes like a chameleon. Bunny always sounds just a little bit shaken, always. 

my name is ‘wilt’ because I evidently sound like a wilted, younger Dosy.

6. What’s outward gender presentation like for you and your parts? Is it important to you?

It’s very importantly feminine. If there’s a bisexual version of femme and butch(in case I shouldnt claim that being in a queer straight relationship), as a whole we’d identify as a femme, especially when it’s described as like.. having been reclaimed in a way.

The male parts see the body as more of something to care for and dress up like a doll if anything else, I think. If they’re happy, then we don’t have to divulge too much

8. Do you enjoy communicating with your parts? Would you like to share about an interaction you’ve recently had?

As a whole we like communication, I think. Even though it’s hard. We joke about it being ‘annoying’ having comments from inside, but I don’t think we’d want it any other way. It makes the lonliness bearable.

I communicated with Dosy the night before. We hit a bad trigger scrolling twitter, and she didn’t brush off my feelings. I can’t really explain much more than that, but it felt a little better for someone to hear me

12. Do any of your parts have special relationships with eachother? Would you like to share about some?

Everyone’s relationships outside the Flowers feel like it’s all behind frosted glass to me, so I guess I’ll talk about ours.

Til’s a bit like a knight to her princess(the Flowers as a whole). She’s not the most affectionate and a bit rough around the edges, but she and Dosy have something of a romantic relationship. I don’t know how ‘healthy’ they are, but it’s all mutually agreed upon and it’s something Dosy would rather seek out internally than externally anymore. 

The Belles are my twin sister, I feel close to especially Belle 1 just by the bias that we come from the same era. I don’t think either of them notice me very much, but I’m always watching out for them. 

Rebecca and I feel some kinship over essentially having the same roles in our eras. We don’t talk much, but I’m a bit closer to her than any of the other Flowers.

[jiminiesfavouritecolourisblue]

hi blue, glad you are well, i went back to reread all your fics and i am curious what would have happened if mc in our little love in chapter 3 had not accepted to go with the guys, would they take her by force?, keep always healthy, i always love to stop by your blog and read all the stories you have 💗💗.

Let me tell you 👀 it would have gone one of two ways

1. They woulda dragged her back because nope no way are they going on without her it would be like asking them to die - Jungkook, Taehyung and Hobi would have been voting for this option if the situation presented itself

2. Namjoon, Yoongi, Jin and Jimin however would be internal panicking, external acting as if it’s all good and okay - they’d be like that breaks my heart but it’s okay we deserve it, but hell are they ever going to let you out of their sights again. I’m talking 24/7 surveillance, popping up in your life out of no where, manipulating and coercing you back into their lives and willing to patiently play the long game because in their eyes, there isn’t any other option you belong with them that’s where you’ll stay

I can imagine Yoongi, Jin and Jimin having to drag Hobi, Jungkook and Taehyung away from the scene to tell them their long term plan out of ear shot, while Namjoon remains to drop some guilt into MC and make some calls for that permanent surveillance for your ‘safety’, that would be the excuse should you ever find out

[witchcraftandburialdirt]

📜

From the random generator!!

LeBlanc: I made tea. Robin: I don’t want tea. LeBlanc: I did not make tea for you. This is my tea. Robin: Then why are you telling me? LeBlanc: It is a conversation starter. Robin: That’s a lousy conversation starter. LeBlanc: Oh, is it? We are conversing. Checkmate.

[istilldontunderstand]

for the character opinion bingo: Aye and Pete

Hiiii my dear, thank you for these two, I love them!🤗

For Aye:

And Pete my wonderful cupcake:

Also I wanna add that Aye is a fucking amazing boyfriend material and I would dissolve if someone gave so much attention to me as Aye gives to Akk. Also someone give him a hug, that boy needs so much emotional support.

Pete made me realize so many things about me, like daaamn...let's say I rediscovered some stuff😂 and I also wanna wrap him in a blanket and be besties with him. Also HOW the GENDER!?!?

For the character opinion bingo

[mandofury]

🌻 If you get this, answer with 3 random facts about yourself and send it to the last 7 blogs in your notifications, anonymously or not! Let's get to know the person behind the blog 🌻

1. I love dark color palettes

2. I have a tattoo on my back that goes from shoulder to shoulder

3. I know some ASL

[retquits]

1.6 is coming—see you march 19th!!! 🥹🌱

[wilcze-kudly]

Air, psionics, and fall :3

Air: What's the easiest part of writing for you?

Huh. I find writing tough in genral and I wouldn't exactly call any part easy or hard. Its just is. But if I had to make a choice, it'd be writing dialogue. I like getting into how characters would react to different things and interactions.

Psionics: How do you get into the heads of your characters?

I don't know. I just do. I try to place myself in their shoes. I try to replay their experiences and behaviours in my head and understand the logic behind their actions. There's always some pattern you can grasp and once you do it's easier to write them.

Fall: Have you ever completely abandoned a WIP? What led to that decision?

I wouldn't say abandon. They sorta just fade. I have too many ideas and focusing is extremely difficult lol. I do occasionally go back to wips i have abandoned.

[hellsitegenetics]

When I followed you earlier today and then realized this blog wasn't even two days old it made me feel like I invested in a startup.

Do you think if you did the lyrics for Fireflies by Owl City, your database would give us fireflies? (Will also accept owls. And there's a line about sheep too).

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[dek0pon]

beetle table <3 maple, white oak, walnut

[historiaxvanserra]

Frost & maple❣️

maple - I’ve had so many hobbies that were hyper fixation for a hot minute that I’ve never done again but never tried sewing even though I’d love to be able to make my own clothes. I know I’d end up making things exclusively worn by slightly androgynous vampires.

The only hyper fixation hobby I’ve ever gone back to more than once was making my own earrings. They’re very easy to make and very cute!

[egophiliac]

What do you like about the Diasomnia boys if I may ask?

I always love hearing about the different reasons people enjoy characters.

I mean, c'mon. he has split custody over Sebek okay

also, Lilia in particular has maybe the best timeskip character development of all time

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

[buttonheart]

Fashionistas

[saltmalkin]

i liked your speed painting of your cat. very interesting style that came out of it. do you think you could try other drugs? i'd be interested to see how that affects how you paint your cat. i think a drunk painting could be funny :)

speed painting means i painted it fast not that I was high on meth oh my god