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doing evil behaviors (looking up different methods of engagement ring sourcing to try to identify the most ethical one)
#as far as i can tell it's 'a vintage ring' followed closely by 'a vintage ring you have melted down into a different ring'#but that means i have to find a vintage ring and vintage [anything] hunting rapidly becomes a task of fractal complexity#that exhausts me until i give up#lab gems ... seem ... fine but i'm not sure how the labor conditions are for workers in them and not making a lot of research progress#'ethically sourced' gold seems nice but is hard to verify effectively and 'ethically sourced' silver might... not exist? unclear#now of course my girlfriend is a biosafety level 3 infectious diseases researcher who handwashes and adds and removes#gloves hundreds of times a day#and so this is going to be a not-actually-very-frequently-worn item#which only makes me feel more evil about it all.#we're‚ like‚ engaged in the sense that we have agreed we want to get married and my whole family knows we're planning on it#we're not engaged in the sense that their family doesn't know we're planning on it and we're not making it public or actually#planning a wedding. so.#acquiring a ring is like the least relevant part of this whole exercise and as mentioned will almost never even be used. so im fixating
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Heh...Literally nothing personal, kid.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#sect leader yao#This episode has a lot of scenes I know people are excited for and starting here seems odd but here me out:#The sheer hilarity of this opening scene was too good to not give a highlight to.#Dare I say it? I think this is THE most underrated scene in the whole series.#You have one guy flashing WWX his prosthetic leg. Another complains about his dead parents.#And the third guy? He has no personal grievances at all. He's just here to be included.#You cannot get better comedic timing than that. Sect leader Yao you will always be famous to me.#There is also something to be said about how this scene is about shifting blame and holding a false trial.#And we also have the main theme about rumours vs truth in how Sect leader Yao is only here based on what he's been told to beleive.#And WWX is so exhausted by the blame! He was one breath away from saying 'form a queue and I'll take your complaints one by one'#WWX (overall) didn't do those things directly but he's the one the responsibility falls on.#Despite the fact that the first siege was *not* incited by him. It's like hitting someone and getting mad your fist got hurt.#What a brilliantly frustrating scene!#Anyways next up are the long awaited pheonix mountain flashabck scenes. We finally made it.#and AHH Season 3!!! The last stretch! Thank you all for rooting me on up until this point!
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update: i am Unwell
#i did some research#and i most certainly have a hormone imbalance#that i've definitely had for years don't get me wrong#but it has been Exacerbated Greatly by the sudden onset of 110+ heat#my directors don't want to keep me a full 8 hours at work#and they're generous in giving me days off too#because i am So Fucking Unwell and they can all see it#i'm weak and fatigued and exhausted and dizzy#like tonight i had a moment of 'i need to go inside' and i sounded so weak and looked so shaky that my director said 'no go home'#and they gave me tomorrow off also as well#i am going to call the pcp that was assigned through my insurance tomorrow#this will be my first time in the 9 years i've been in vegas going to a pcp#i have Poor People Trauma re: going to doctors#i avoid it for as long as i can because i historically couldn't afford to see a doctor#i have insurance now so i'm trying to get over that impulse#and i just#i'm kicking myself for not opting into short-term disability when i signed up for benefits#because i don't know how i'm going to handle working until treatment kicks in#it's that bad bros#pray 4 me
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The mood of the day is "My battery is low, its getting dark"
#my stuff#had my suspicions confirmed that my friendship with my ex is basically never gonna be anything like what i thought and needed#its really fucking frustrating and it means that all of the warmth and attention they showed me before we were dating was-#due to their romantic interest in me rather than our connection as friends#and on top of that they're stressed out and depressed and have said they basically only trust ppl they're dating (fucked up imo)#so I'm never going to get the kind of connection i was looking for. If i wasn't waiting on something from them I would just give up on this#i'm not getting what i need. I'm barely getting anything at all. what a fucking waste of human connection#I'm exhausted emotionally and mentally and already under colossal stress with my phd and classes#i'm not gonna talk to em again until they reach out first i'm sick of fucking necromancing this and making 90% of the effort
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miss pauling WOULD NOT SMELL FINE.
#me disagreeing at everything about miss pauling that people paints her as something good sweet or cool#WHEN SHES NOT COOL OR AWESOME OR SMELLS GOOD AT ALL SHAKES YOU AROUND LIKE A BOTTLE#she smells LIKE HUMAN SWEAT and old clothes from a humid closet she barely cleans. like a grandma.#well grandmas do smell nice. BUT THATS NOT THE FACT#ok well she does smell fine and bearable maybe he hair smells like bed sheets no changed at all#because she wakes up so early she doesn’t have time to clean her room or make her bed#she just instantly runs not even eating breakfast and dying of hunger until either scout or soldier gives her a cookie#or a half eaten pork beans in soldiers courtesy#and gets home late EXHAUSTED and throws herself in the bed to later wake up in 5 minutes#me wanting to expose her every single damn time i am evil like that to my ult#oh yeah her hair doesn’t smell that good at all. full of lice. and greasy. girl wash YOUR HAIR that’s what demo always says to her#prob demo often times calls her out or secretly spy will come and said damn my mask doesn’t even smell that bad than that hair of yours#but is either of those two. wait what i was talking about#her teeth are so yellow because she forgets to clean them#crusty eyes too. can’t put makeup stupidass just only puts her fav purple lipstick to hide her crusty lips#takes a deep breath… fuck. woman failure
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New battle cry of 2024: "GIVE ME THE GUMMY WORMS YOU BAMBI-EYED BITCH!"
#long story short: partner playfully stole my candy it turned into a war#chasing each other through the apartment we're both parkouring over the furniture#i slam dunked my ass over the couch and he tried giving me puppy dog eyes and at this point im not having it#cause i spent a good 20 minutes in the shoes of peter parker flying around as spiderman and I'm exhausted#so i rise up and let out this godzilla skreeonk and shouted the battle cry as i chased his ass outside#he's dead now#he laughed so hard i think his soul departed#it came out as a dry wheeze until he was curled up in a little ball and couldn't breathe#to the neighbors it probably looked like i socked him in the gut#didn't help i had to drag him back inside by the leg after i got my candy back#this is my dork#i love him
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i love all bobs characters in general however comma i think after so long there's always going to be things you dont like
#currently at middle of season 12#tammy in general is exhausting and i blame her parents#logan and his mom and pushover dad 👎🏾#edith and her husband are just old and own and business and is that really their fault?#gene and his mom's relationship (mainly looking at you s11)#the way jimmy jr treats apparently any girl that likes him#i will never forgive him for putting another girls pic in tina's gift#but we come to the chara who inspired this post... teddy#i think i like teddy as much as i can but the later seasons just make him the woooorrssst#he's inconsiderate incompetent until he needs to one up bob#he's very creepy when it comes to bob and linda's marriage#i don't like how he treats mort or acts around him in general#he just gives me the ick and im sad bc why i dont want the ick why they make him gimme the ick#tammy larsen#jimmy jr#edith and harold cranwinkle#teddy#bobs burgers#bob's burgers
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working in a kennel is So Great and also sucks So Bad cause i don’t think i can go back to another job after this because i genuinely do love it and i love getting to handle dogs all day and its just everything i wanted
but also . what do u mean i have 30 dogs on my bathing list just cause its the 4th of july weekend?? dude i am One Person how the hell do u expect me to get that done
#boss was bitching that shes not making enough money so we are very overbooked#i just wanna work at one decent kennel istg why is it so difficult to find#like i mean this is better than when i was working 12 hours a day#bathing dogs AND doing kennel work 5 days a week#but its still exhausting and my body is fucked up#sat under a table at work for 30 mins yesterday cuddling a dog because i nearly had a meltdown from being overwhelmed#but i mean when u give me two st bernard blowouts + a chow blowout + my normal amount of bath and groom dogs#god i didnt get out of there until lateeeee#dogblr#dog#kennel
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xanax is So Good
I am So Chill right now
#treated myself to one (1) xanax despite not having a panic attack#because i was exhausted and stressed and anxiety was spiking#(offline reasons nothing major just my brain being shitty handling minor issues)#and honestly BEST choice i am So relaxed it is Fantastic#honestly really gotta get a new psych so i can maybe get some meds i can take consistently long-term because i wanna be chill more often#unfortunately i keep getting ghosted by people i try to set up shit with lmao#so the depression and adhd are unmedicated but at least my GP gives me xanax once a year#(i take them so rarely a 30-day supply lasts me until they expire lol)#50 shades of personal
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It is so insane to feel everyone getting sick of you. Like goddamn I'm sorry I'm going through what may be my worst year yet but you putting up with me is somehow equivalent to christ on the fucking cross all of a sudden.
#really just goes to show that ultimately people close to you may not care abt your mental health as soon as it starts to affect them#we can talk abt depression and burnout and exhaustion until the cows come home but the second you stop putting on a happy optimistic facade#no one gives a shit anymore and you should suck it up so you're not bothering others#which is crazy. cuz I try to keep my problems to myself. I internalize a lot of the anguish I feel on a daily basis so no one else has#to deal with it.#but I've had a really bad. really long. exhausting and excruciating few weeks. and then you tell me the one thing I've had to look forward#to isn't gonna happen bc of some stupid shit. like fine. whatever. the apathy is kicking in so I'll get over it faster.#but god forbid you sulk for a night.#god forbid you be sad and disappointed and stressed when literally everything in your life sucks at the moment.#guess I'll put those yucky emotions away and go back to being yout stupid fucking court jester or whatever#it's all rage now. can't use that one either tho.#they gotta do this shit on my one Saturday off this month too. god forbid I have one fucking day.
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On the one hand I'm sad for He Yu having to bear two decades of overwhelming loneliness but on the other hand holy fuck he has become so freaking awful, an absolute monster and can someone please tell me why the hell Xie Qingcheng hasn't called the fucking cops on him and gotten a restraining order
#bab spoilers#case file compendium spoilers#病案本 spoilers#病案本#'xqc just decided to give up and become he yu's fuck buddy bc arguing w him was too much work'#how does this make sense when he yu fucks him for hours until he passes out from exhaustion#i am begging someone please tell me#and how can this be blamed on he yu's illness when he has kept it up for months. completely sober and in control#txt#fox reads bab
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#nothing like being in varying states of pain for a few years - sometimes less#sometimes more but always there - and being too exhausted to go to a doctor about it bc everyone around you says you just need to do yoga &#the only way ur job will accommodate is by giving u the less staffed late shift so u can go in the morning and ur so exhausted youd rather#just deal eith the pain like u already have been doing for years#to moving to a job that actually allows u to leave early for medical reasons if you can get the essentials done#then phoning the gp with hope & motivation for the first time in a long time#and being told lol no appointments left until july#i had hope for once i really did 🥲 my friend is a pt & said i might have fibromyalgia and i really really dont want it to be that bc that#means i have a chronic illness with no cure but i looked it up and just. every single symptom was a check for me#and i started thinking if i do have it ill have it whether im diagnosed or not & if i dont then thats good to know too? & psyched myself up#for the phone call and. ugh it really hit me#she said to do their online service. tried and it said no appointments available. tried nhs online. it said make an appointment with ur gp#within the next few days 🥲 back to giving up and just bearing the pain and never mentioning it bc i'll just get told it's my own fault bc#i didnt go yoga ig#just needed to rant into the void for a bit sigh#time to go back into work i guess#*#UGH I JUST GOT MY PERIOD TOO#also like. this isn't to say i do have chronic pain it could be something easily solved#and id be delighted if it was#but i hate how the people around me trivialise it like. it's not normal to have intense pain and stiffness from sitting down/standing for#the duration of one train stop ok it's not. it's not normal to feel sharp jolts of pain through my body every time i cough or sneeze.#every part of my body aches! literally from my head to my toes! they dont do toe yoga!#okay enough back into the fray
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Stomp your feet again and you're going to go to bed with a sore (cum filled) cunt. Now, bedtime.
……………………..……… *stomps feet*
#do your worst buster 🫡#I’m still very much a good girl#but I don’t like being told what to do#and will always do what someone tells me *not* to do#so sorry buddy#looks like you’re gonna have to get your ass over here and make me go to bed#(aka fuck me until I’m an exhausted lil baby - my body gives out and I pass out)#but you better give me cuddles afterwards 😤#if I wake up and I reach over and I don’t feel you next to me I’m gonna be very mad 😠#ask#anon
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literally sound like a broken record but god i miss summer
#hello new mutuals . witness my yearly insnae weather opinions#its finally spring which is Good but its still like 50 degrees and cloudy every day theres not any tangible difference yet#its so infuriatingly close yet far . like only one or two months until it starts warming up but i literally cannot stand the wait#please just give me 70 degrees for one day . thats all i beg of u . literally bare minimum i need to feel alive#this post brought to u by: my pants were in the wash so i put on some cargo shorts i havent worn in 6 months and unlocked hidden emotions#i need . car stereo on full blast ice cream sandwiches loose tshirts fresh fruit stand watermelon hot wind on my face#hay bale archery . downtown boba . sleeping shirtless window open power out . golden hills . cargo shorts !!!#chugging three bottles of ice cold water to avoid heat exhaustion . etc#normal abt this season
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The worst part of this all is that I’m going through it while I’m still on my period
#actively bleeding. exhausted. needing much more food than normal to make up for what I’m losing#and it’s exactly in this moment that my body decided it was going to starve itself#not let me get up no matter how much I try to convince myself I need to eat#make me feel sick at the mere mention of eating anything#refuse to give me normal hunger responses so I forget until I’m too tired to rectify the situation#and my mind is right there with it#yelling at me in my own voice. I’d understand if it was mom’s or dad’s or grandma’s but it’s not. I was always my own worst enemy#see. a part of me relishes in what’s happening#I love feeling how my stomach is just the tiniest bit flatter when I haven’t eaten in a while#I know I shouldn’t think that. it’s not healthy. starving yourself is not the way to lose weight#there is no reliable way to lose weight. diet culture is a lie and a plague#of course I know all that#but if my own voice in my head is telling me that maybe if I keep going I’ll finally become thin and pretty like I always wanted to be#how can I not listen to it?#……#I hate this#ever since I was little I never felt like I was in control of myself#it was always like I was a spectator watching a cut scene in a video game#my body and mind are two seperate beings that are very keen on ruining our life#and I’m neither of them#I’m some secret third thing who can’t control them#I don’t know how to explain it#maybe I’m not making any sense and am actually just delusional. trying to explain my own self destructive behaviours#by pretending I have nothing to do with them#and what’s the point of it all anyway? I’m still not going to go eat#even thinking about it is making me nauseous#but not eating makes it worse and robs me of the ability to sleep and of all energy to do things I might enjoy#it’s an awful. vicious cycle. one I don’t know how to break when every fiver of my being is vehemently against any attempts at fixing it#*fiber. whatever#I want to eat. my mind and body don’t
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I give up. I have no more fight left in me.
#today was okay for the most part#until i went to the supermarket this afternoon to buy some food for the weekend#only to find out my card was declined#somehow someone managed to hack my card#and make a purchase of $228 to amtrak#so basically someone is traveling on my dime#tried to talk to amtrak but gave up after an hour on hold#i'll try again tomorrow#talked to my credit card company and they said they can't do anything until the charge posts#as of right now it's a pending transaction#i needed that money for rent#bills#food#and i'm just so tired#i'm exhausted#i have no more fight left in me#at this point i give up#i JUST got paid too#i can't anymore#i literally can't#bat.txt
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