#that is the most dreamy feature any guy can have

[purinfelix]

f1 drivers as meet-cutes ₊˚⊹⋆

summary: small blurbs about meeting some of the drivers in situations that are equal parts awkward and romantic !! featuring: CS55, CL16 and DR3 warnings: none, although carlos' one is a teeeensy bit suggestive

a/n: if there's one thing about me it's that i'm a hopeless romantic who's obsessed with meet cutes so enjoy these (semi-self-indulgent) blurbs - you can read pt2 here !!

ᝰ.ᐟ Carlos Sainz - one night stand

You’re woken by a throbbing pain in your head and the blinding white of the morning sun that pierces through unfamiliar curtains doesn’t seem to help. As if this isn’t disorienting enough you slowly sit up to realise you’re in a bed that isn’t yours, in a room that isn’t yours, in clothes that are way too big to be yours. And perhaps most confusingly of all, there’s a man who you can only vaguely remember meeting the night before fast asleep beside you - shirtless.

When he finally stirs the two of you exchange awkward conversation as you try to piece together the events of the previous night which are little more than a drunken haze of drinking, dancing, and stumbling back to hotel rooms. You don’t think too much of it, he’s good-looking enough that you aren’t embarrassed, and just by looking around the room, you can tell he isn’t too bad off either. That is - until he starts explaining how terribly sorry he is in advance for all the publicity you’ll have to fend off after pictures of you two leaving a bar together are plastered online. A couple more explanations, questions and proper introductions later you come to find out that he isn’t just any random man, but rather Carlos Sainz, a famous race-car driver who’s only touching down in your city for the next week or so. This all sounds new, besides his name - which falls off your tongue easily, which makes you a little more concerned about how you might've used it the night before.

He’s so oddly gentlemanly and polite though, a stark contrast to what most of the celebrities who visit your city or guys you’ve met in bars are like. And despite what the two of you had gotten up to last night, the look in his eyes and the way he looks sort of shy in the morning light can’t help but make your heart soften and you feel a little more comfortable with this total stranger. You immediately offer to leave though, but are caught off guard by his counteroffer to make you a cup of coffee - and after all, who are you to refuse?

ᝰ.ᐟ Charles Leclerc - coffeeshop

He’s here again. That irritatingly good looking stranger who, you’d think had just walked out of a magazine, but is in fact seated by the window of the cafe you work at. He’s dressed rather modestly, contrary to what the black card he uses to pay for his americanos may suggest. So modestly in fact that you probably wouldn’t have noticed him if this hadn’t been his fourth time here this week, in the same seat that’s positioned just right so that you can see him from any spot at the counter.

And if you can see him, you’re pretty sure he can see you - affirmed by the several instances you’ve caught his eye and gotten a glance at that dreamy expression coupled with a slight smirk that toys at his lip. That is, of course, before he realises you’ve locked eyes and whips his head the other way around, sometimes even sputtering on his coffee. You’d probably be a little weirded out by the fact that he comes in here almost everyday to do seemingly nothing but cradle one drink for almost an hour, but you also can’t help but feel a little endeared by him.

You have tried making small talk whenever he orders, or when you bring him his drink - but the conversation never goes beyond awkward remarks about the weather or how your shift has been going. Hell, you don’t even know his name yet. That is until you notice him getting up to leave after another hour is up, not before turning around to shoot you a quick nod and - was that a smirk?. You go to clean up after him, but to your surprise, an empty cup and a generous tip isn’t the only thing he’s left you. A napkin, branded with the logo of your cafe chain, with a couple numbers scrawled in blank ink and then below it: a name - ‘Charles’.

ᝰ.ᐟ Daniel Ricciardo - blind date

You were never on board with the idea, even when your friend had enthusiastically pitched it to you almost two weeks prior. It wasn’t like you were busy, or had anything better to do - rather, you thought the idea itself was ridiculous. You weren’t looking for a relationship and if you were you’d prefer being able to do the looking yourself, instead of giving yourself up to a blind date and wasting an entire night for nothing.

But that was before your friend had done a ridiculous amount of pleading and begging and nagging and convincing. And before you knew it you were waiting outside one of the fanciest restaurants in your city, still not entirely excited but wanting to get the night over and done with without being too rude to whichever poor guy she’s roped into this. That is, until you spot him. The first thing that you notice is his smile, it’s beaming, blinding even and you feel yourself smiling before you even realise he’s looking at you too. And to say he’s good looking is an understatement, because you’re beginning to question how on Earth your friend knows someone like this. The way the suit hugs his figure should be illegal, and his hair looks so confusingly perfect yet effortless. You feel a stir of emotions, your previous apathy replaced with a burning desire to both impress and charm him, as well as newfound nerves.

He introduces himself without the smile leaving his face - “Daniel, but you can call me Danny,” - and you practically feel your nerves melt away as he offers you his arm to take you into the restaurant. Maybe blind dates weren’t so bad.

[meowmarkie]

graduation — hrj

you and renjun go for a walk after your graduation ceremony from art school, and as always, your boyfriend manages to take your breath away with his kind words.

pairing... renjun × afab!reader

genre... fluff

word count... i have no idea sorry

requested?... no!

a/n just a little something i wrote for funzies after listening to graduation by the dreamies a few times (i got inspired), and i must say that even though its not entirely proof-read, i hope you guys enjoy this piece of random fluff <3

It was finally here, the day they always dreamt of, their graduation. High school was hard enough, and college took an even harder toll for the sensible pair — Renjun and Y/N didn’t quite match with the academic way of life. It's not about how smart they could be, it was just that the strict system present in education suffocated them to the point where panic could be induced.

They’ve been key participants in each other's lives when it came to finally finishing high school or even while in college, supporting each other through thick and thin, one make-up test after the other, one exam week after the other, and so on. One might say Renjun was destined to meet you, because of how much it helped to be by your side, and vice versa.

One day back in 9th grade, you ended up meeting while skipping class on the big grass field located behind the school. Renjun was surprised to see anyone else besides him on his spot, since he thought he was the only one who knew about it. Years later, he thanks the heavens for giving him the opportunity to talk to the most beautiful girl he knew. You.

You were sitting down, knees glued to your chest while hands supported your chin. The sun managed to hit your face perfectly, in an almost ethereal way, lighting up all the soft and breathtaking features present. Your side profile highlighted the beauty was what really drew him in. The chinese boy swears up and down that he could stand there, admiring you just like that, for all eternity.

He still doesn’t know what possessed him to go on over and talk to you, but soon enough, Renjun plopped down next to your side and got to talking. You were also starstruck and incredibly smitten by the boy. It amazed you how the most popular boy among the artsy kids was paying you attention. You couldn't believe someone like him was even talking to you, but then, there he was.

And that day marked the beginning of your love story. The hours of talking went into days, the days into months, and now, months into years. 

Renjun confessed his feelings for you a little over a year ago, which then led to your now relationship.

“I can’t believe we actually did it.” You sound out, reaching for his hand receiving a loving look in return. “Like, we graduated from art school together. I honestly can’t believe it,” Renjun and you were walking down the park in order to digest the food you guys ate. The sun was setting, giving your stroll a beautiful ambience to appreciate from a distance. “We need to search for art galleries that need new employees or-"

“Well, I for one, can! We’re destined to always be together.” He softly interrupted her and his even softer smile made your cheeks gain a bright red tone. He was always so sweet to you, even while interrupting, that it felt like a dream to be able to call him your boyfriend. “And let’s worry about that tomorrow! Let’s focus on celebrating for now."

“How can you be so chill about this?!” You tried to pretend that you weren't totally smitten by him and his antics, which made Renjun look at you with even more endearment. One could say it was a vicious cycle that never seemed to end: you'd get flustered and he’d make you feel even more flustered. “We need to make rent, and also starting looking for a bigger place and-”

Renjun then leaned in, suddenly pulling you by the waist, not paying any mind to the worries you brought up — of course he knew that you definitely needed to discuss those concerns, but right now wasn’t the right time. Your faces were inches away from each other, noses touching and bodies pressed together. Your hands rested on his shoulders, while the grip on your waist by his firm hands never once faltered.

Not being able to contain yourself any longer than a few seconds, you gently press your lips against his, the action making him smile mid kiss. Renjun couldn’t blame your eagerness as he also couldn’t restrain himself, which then led to him deepening the kiss only moments after.

It’s also worth mentioning that Renjun was so eager to have you on his lips that he had a hard time keeping his hands solely on your waist. It’s a shame you were in public, because if you weren’t, he was ready to have you on his lap right then and there, while his soft lips explored the entirety of your body.

“I love you so much, you know that right?!” He said, as soon as you pulled away in need of some oxygen. “I don’t think I could even live without you.”

This was one of the things you loved the most about Renjun, he never hid how he felt about you and even went out of his way just to tell you. It was recomforting to always feel loved and secure in a relationship, especially in a relationship with him.

“And I… I also love you beyond words.” You shyly said, hiding your face on her hands right after out of embarrassment. It's ridiculous how he always managed to get you this shy, especially taking into consideration that you weren't used to saying what and how you felt, and being with Renjun was helping you learn to be more vocal about this.

He could only smile upon hearing her words, since Renjun knew how hard it was for her to say stuff like that. Not a day went by where he didn’t feel proud of her for becoming more and more comfortable in her own skin.

“God, can I just stay by your side forever? Will you allow me to, beautiful?” Thankfully you were still in his arms when the question popped up, or else you'd have face planted into the floor right then and there. Renjun’s firm grip and his sparkly eyes were the only things keeping you grounded and on the moment. “Even if everything changes on this earth, even if the sun freezes up, it’s you I want by my side, Y/N. Even if I lose everything… I can’t lose you.”

His beautifully poetic and devoted words almost made tears start to stream down your face. You didn’t think someone could romantically love you this much until you met Renjun. He widened your horizons and opened your eyes to the beauty of true love.

Nothing could have prepared you to hear those words at the moment, nor to see the look in his eyes or to feel his body pressed upon yours. His ability to know what to say before you even long to hear a confession, never ceases to amaze you.

“You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me, Junnie.” You kissed him deeply, once again, in order to express what words couldn’t at the moment. And also, if you tried to talk, you fear that you wouldn't be able to finish speaking without crying your eyes out for a good amount of time. “You’re mine and I’m yours. Forever.” You placed your hand over his heart, and did the same with his hand, gesture sending chills down his spine.

How come two people can have their souls be this deeply intertwined? You guys wouldn’t be able to answer how, but would only be able to say that it could happen and that such connection was real. After spending some more time cuddled up like that in the middle of the park, you guys started walking down the path once again, hearts filled with joy and peace.

You could only think about how lucky you were to have him, and Renjun could only think about that soon, he’d be able to proudly call you his wife.

[aoxue]

yi city trio musician au? what genres would they be in, what would their fandoms be like?

Awww yeah, love a musician AU!

I have thought about the Yi City quartet as a literal string quartet before: Xiao Xingchen on first violin, A-Qing on second, Song Lan on cello, and Xue Yang on viola (lol). But in terms of more popular music?

Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan made a name for themselves as a duo, playing melody-driven indie pop/rock with poetic but thoughtful and socially conscious lyrics. Their later work included more love songs. Xiao Xingchen plays synths and does most of the lead vocals, and he tends to bring a dreamy, almost shoegazey quality to the music, but he also is known for artful, complex electric guitar work. Song Lan also plays guitar, as well as bass and other string instruments as necessary; favorites are erhu and cello. He'll sing backup with the occasional feature vocal, but they also have a fair number of solid instrumental tracks.

They got quite famous (at least within their genre) but refused to sign to a major label. Fans actually ranged a fair amount in age. The most vocal fans did skew younger, and the most annoying of these were the hipster crowd and music snobs ("they're so intelligent/progressive/underrated," "they were better before they got popular") as well as the obsessive, borderline stalkerish ones who also loudly shipped them. (Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen were a romantic item eventually, but that was not public knowledge.)

Unfortunately, they had a messy personal and professional breakup, and they both sort of dropped off the map for a while, to an honestly impressive degree. Song Lan went back to school and would occasionally put out a stripped back, broody single on his personal page with zero promotion, but Xiao Xingchen disappeared.

Xue Yang, meanwhile, works thousands of miles away, and he's an underdog, loud punk rocker, guided less by any political philosophy and more just stirring up a reaction. Main instrument is electric guitar. He's performed with a handful of other artists over the years, but the stints tend to be short. His fanbase is small but dedicated, including a lot of angry young people who resonate with his "message" and/or his looks.

And then, he has a new band, and they're putting out music that is a little less screaming, a little more melodic, with a more consistent, left-leaning message? Sometimes? The drummer is an energetic teenage girl who was busking with a set of buckets on the street before the bassist/guitarist took her under his wing and they both eventually joined Xue Yang's act. The guy hangs around at the back of the stage, sunglasses indoors and mostly not facing the audience, playing bass to complement Xue Yang's guitar most of the time -- and Xue Yang and A-Qing have enough stage presence that he can fade into the background just a little. But especially when he's on guitar, shredding a fancy solo, he's impossible to overlook, and the rumors that Xiao Xingchen is playing seedy clubs with a punk group begin to seem less and less like conspiracy theories....

AU ask game

[penroseparticle]

Penrose Song of the Day Day 27: I. Pink Toes by Childish Gambino featuring Jhene Aiko

Who doesn't love Dong Lover, honestly.

I think Childish Gambino does a really good job of doing the whole "I came from money but I am part of the culture" bit more than a certain other guy who's on the tip of everyone's tongue right now, tbh.

I think what I like the most about Childish is that, unfortunately, he does activate my nerd rapper neurons (The same ones that go gaga for shit like Hamilton and Watsky and stuff. Sorry Mom, sorry God. It's good though I like it.). But he also is saying something real, and something genuine. There's the acknowledgement and awkwardness present in his stuff. Because The Internet, for instance. Features some of those anxieties around fitting in, and some nerd ass jokes complete with the lampshade of no one getting it. There's something real there, about the black experience. Especially the not black enough experience.

I don't really feel strongly connected with my black heritage, actually. I don't feel really strongly connected to any of my heritage really. There's so many people that I'm standing on top of, being propped up and taken care of by. And I am so far removed from all of them. I don't have any close family anymore, all of my grandparents are passed. I know something about my heritage but it's hard to find a place to begin, where to start. And honestly. It feels like I'm faking right? There's a lot of me that is culturally white. So the anxiety of being the other but not THE OTHER is actually pretty strong. I feel like I can identify more with Gay than with Black, honestly, due to a bunch of things- being forced to confront gay much more often, understanding the rules of the identity, being around other gay people more often.

And of course, the one no one wants to talk about- it's easier. Which sounds so fucking cursed to say but the world is set up that way right? That's part of the whole systemic aspect. And sometimes I do get the racism without any of the cultural solidarity to fall back on. Weird.

I like Pink Toes because I like Sensitive Boy music like Frank Ocean and yes, also Childish Gambino. This song always reminds me of one friend of mine, who also is very black, but plays hockey. He loves this song specifically for Jhene Aiko's part on it. Pink Toes always makes me think of him-I think he's in Minnesota or Wisconsin or something. Coaching hockey. I hope he's happy there.

This song is dreamy. The soundscape has something going to it that makes me think of laying in a field, watching clouds go by. The birds are a nice touch of sound engineering, and you can hear the cop cars at the end but I can see myself in a city park hearing these exact noises.

The drums like... limp along? I don't know how to explain it. The drum noises seem. like. almost behind, playing catchup. The song not hurried though. Like they're just languidly playing. I know it's not out of time or anything. It just gives a good impression of not quite being there but not caring either.

The synth work is fine I think. There's some weird modulation in the Rainbows and Sunshine part that gives almost an unsettled feeling. I do get the feeling that I'm laying in a park just. not doing anything and drifting. But it also kind of gives me the impression that I should. Be concerned? Be worried. But instead I'm ignoring it and laying in a field daydreaming.

It ending on "I'm out of time" right before sirens pop in gives more of that impression to me.

Anyways, Don Glover has this way of like. Making an extremely personal feeling song that somehow is also broadly resonant. those two things are probably very closely related honestly. But I love it. And hey! You could be dead right now. Go listen to something you love.

[golikehellmachine]

friday, nov. 11th. 

well, friends, we made it through another week, one which saw the antifa stronghold of portland, oregon help legislative warlord tina kotek ascend to leadership of the people’s republic. other good news, too, all over the country, along with some less good news, but all in all, better than expected. twitter is exploding, silicon valley is shaking, things could be worse (unless you work or live in silicon valley, i guess, in which case, condolences).

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first up today is a band i’ve been getting into this week through, mostly, other bands posting about them. WHITELANDS are a dreamy shoegaze outfit out of london that are part of a growing wave of bands that, for the most part, sound like they grew up listening to their parents’ ride albums. i approve. check out how it feels:

next up are DESPERATE JOURNALIST, whose record maximum sorrow! i pre-ordered last year and then forgot about entirely, which is a shame, because they’ve got a great sound that incorporates some fun siouxie and pat benatar moments right along with a little bit of the long blondes and, occasionally, even some bjork. that’s kind of an all-over-the-map description, but i think you’ll hear it when you listen to it.

god, THE GOOD, THE BAD & THE QUEEN were great. it’s unlikely they’ll do anything again — they were always just kind of a project band amongst a bunch of old guys (damon albarn is the youngest of them), but they have such a fantastic and distinctive sound that weaves together simon’s unmistakeable bass, the late tony allen’s drums (from fela kuti!) and damon albarn’s bored, lovely vocals, with plenty of interesting instrumentation from simon tong, albarn’s guitarist from GORILLAZ. everything they did was good; this live version isn’t my favorite of theirs, but it’s worth it to see tony allen and paul simonon in action. 

practically every punk band since TELEVISION has claimed TELEVISION as an influence, but it’s somewhat rarer when you can actually hear it. SMIRK really pull it off here on souvenir. the cover artwork for this record is also terrifying. 

san francisco’s SPORTING LIFE claim dream rock, shoegaze and brit pop, though i feel like this song reaches a little further back into the garage rock of the 1960’s. there’s a lovely, lush bridge right in the middle of this song that really elevates what was an already-good garage pop song up to something much more exciting. 

i don’t think these folks are together anymore, but portland’s THE CRY! were a fantastic power pop four-piece in the tradition of portland power pop legends THE EXPLODING HEARTS, who had about as tragic an end as any band can have. this one is highly recommended for people with shag haircuts and converse sneakers. 

REDD KROSS are a band that, as but a wee punk rocker, i always got annoyed by every time they popped up on a comp in the late 1990s and early 00s (which happened a lot). i got annoyed by them because i did not understand what these longhairs were doing on my punk rock compilations, and i was annoyed because i was, first and foremost, an idiot. REDD KROSS absolutely rule — fantastic, blazing power pop, like a supercharged big star. this song’s a banger right from the opening guitar riff, it just never lets up. 

this week’s playlist is power pop heavy, so it only makes sense to include one of the originals, NICK LOWE. this song is a delight all on it’s own, but the video was directed by JD MCPHERSON, a fellow okie whose old band, THE STARKWEATHER BOYS, used to play with my old band on occasion, before he became the guy who plays lead guitar for a little-known rocker named ROBERT PLANT. 

anyway, this video is such a great, sweet little vignette, featuring a few of my friends, and one of my most absolute favorite people in the whole entire world right around 1:45. “i’m leaving like i’m getting out of jail” is a phrase that i always want to work into my natural vocabulary, but never remember to say.

speaking of my old band, i have absolutely no shame, and i’m happy to include us on this week’s list. THE ENGINE HEARTS were a lot of things — sometimes exhillarating, sometimes a total shambles, sometimes both at the same time — but i’m happy with what we accomplished, and this record stands as one of the recordings i’m most proud of being a part of. this band was so much fun. 

closing out this week’s list are yet more oklahomans — turns out that living in a state with nothing to do tends to produce great artists — BRONCHO. these folks always have a great, fun, exciting sound that bounces off the walls like a rubber ball, and while they’ve done plenty in recent years that’s fantastic, i always return to their first single, try me out sometime. you should do exactly that.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #166

Are you interested in any reality TV shows? I like some like cooking shows or other competitions when I'm watching TV with others, which is the only time I ever watch television anyway. Historically I've fucking adored animal documentary series, like Meerkat Manor or Orangutan Island, and I remember I loved one featuring rhesus macaques as well, I just don't remember its name. I am VERY interested in watching animals just live their lives.

What’s your favourite thing to have on toast? Light butter, cinnamon, and sugar. Childhood delicacy, man.

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever had to deal with at your job? So much social anxiety that I would end up in the bathroom having a total meltdown regularly. For external things though, just impatient people.

Do you think being born was a mistake? No.

Do you have a large dog? If not, are you afraid of them? We currently only have the smallest species of dog lol, but we've had a boxer mix before. I'm not afraid of them at all, I love big dogs.

What is something you used to always do but don’t anymore? Once upon a time I lived off of soda, like it was ALL I drank for many years, but I've cut back immensely, I'm working towards getting to a point where I'll only drink one personal-sized (not a two liter) bottle a week. I enjoy soda more than I do eating, and I've absolutely noted that it can bump my mood up quite a bit, so getting to where I am now is a big fucking deal if you know me.

Has anyone ever told you that they loved you, and you didn’t say it back? Yes, that's when I realized things had gone too far.

What’s your favorite hairstyle on the opposite sex? I sincerely love emo hair help 😭

Have you ever done a Mason jar craft? No, but I find those SUPER cute.

Who is your favorite photographer? Anastasiya Dobrovolskaya tops the list, her work is SO dreamy, and the animals featured are all humanely owned.

Were you shy in high school? Yes, but I'm way worse now.

Do you wish karma were real, or are you glad that it isn’t? Oh I very much wish it was real, but it's quite obvious to me that it's unfortunately not.

Who are the cutest babies in your Facebook newsfeed? None lol, I only have one friend with a child who is truly a baby instead of at least a toddler and god I love this person but the baby is NOT cute lol, but I very rarely find very young babies to be cute anyway.

Are your ears pierced more than once, if at all? Yes, I have two on each earlobe, and my right tragus is pierced. I want more.

Did the last guy/girl you kissed have any piercings? Nah, he's not into piercings for himself personally.

Do you actually love your parents? I most certainly do.

Do you know anyone autistic? My niece, and I am FINALLY being evaluated for it myself I want to say next month. I know I have at least one autistic acquaintance, too.

How about someone bipolar? That I'm already diagnosed with, type two. My oldest sibling is also bipolar, but she has type one.

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? I celebrate yearly ones, yes.

What was your very first pet like? He was a long-haired (I'm pretty sure silkie breed) orange and white guinea pig named Squeak. <3 He loved attention and was such a character, always gentle and we'd do excited guinea pig squeaks back to each other haha. <3 He was sadly kept in an inadequate cage (you know, the shitty rectangle ones you find at chain pet stores that are actually horrible for them), but I of course didn't know better with how young I was, but he was always a good boy. I'm thankful he lived the proper lifespan for the little guys, I just wish I'd been aware enough to give him a more enriched life.

What’s the coolest hobby one of your friends has? I actually really find D&D to be super interesting; I have multiple friends who do it and wish I had that level of comfort to do stuff like that without being embarrassed by it, I NEVER could do it, I'm way too fuckin awkward.

Have you ever pet a cow, a sheep or a pig? I've pet a small pig. <3 I'd love to pet a cow and sheep too, though!

What is the wallpaper on your best friend's cell phone? IT'S LITERALLY JUST FUCKING GRAY I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE WHY

Do you like your girlfriend’s/boyfriend’s parents? I adore his mother, she's such a fucking sweetheart with a ginormous heart and is SO damn accepting. She's been an absolute darling to me ever since she met me. I never met his dad, he died of a very sudden heart attack or something similar like over ten years ago, so I'm not comfortable making a judgment about him. I know Girt's always explained him as having been a hardass, but a very caring one that loved his family to death. He's mentioned that me and him are quite different, primarily politically, so we might've butted heads but he was ultimately pretty confident that he would've loved me. I really like hearing stories about him, and pictures are always super cool because holy SHIT Donald Sr. put his fuckin face through a copying machine and plastered it onto his son lmfao, like it's unreal.

Do you like Polaroid photography? YES, I find it super super aesthetically pleasing and so nostalgic; I myself would really like to have one to take fun little pictures with it sometimes.

Is there a friend of yours who curses nonstop? Who would that be? Haha you mean me? Girt's even worse than I am though, he's one of those people that will curse freely in public, not to be rude or provoke people, but because he just straight-up doesn't realize he does it. He's the person who has more than once gone "SHIT I shouldn't be cursing" NOT quietly in public lmao, I've sometimes just had to give him a lil nudge for him to realize when in public or around kids. Girt is extremely intelligent, he really really is, but he will often just do things very mindlessly and without evening beginning to realize that he's doing them.

What internet browser do you use? Chrome.

What do you usually do to let your feelings out? Listen (usually very loudly) to music, vent to people I trust, sometimes do artistic stuff like write or draw. I cry very easily, and sometimes doing that will help relieve stress. On VERY few occasions I've screamed into a pillow, and boy does it feel good when I'm REALLY upset enough, even though I absolutely hate doing it. Even though I know factually it's harmless and is even a good way to ease frustration in a way that doesn't hurt others or property, I feel like an aggressive person the few times I've let myself do it and just really don't like that.

What was the last thing you uploaded/plugged into the computer? Uploaded, a picture from my phone. I last plugged in my phone to charge; it fits the charger for my mouse so I can use it when I'm in here.

Are you participating in Project 365 (you take a picture of you/something every day of the year and post it)? I've considered doing this with photography, and I'm certain it would further train my artistic eye, I just... haven't. I'm not really one to take pictures with my real camera unless I really desire to take a certain picture, I don't just trash it up with random things. I honestly should let myself do this though, I KNOW it would be beneficial as an artist.

Do you have a Flickr? If so, post the link. Yeah, it's Ozzkat on there, but I don't use it very much at all. It's a lower-priority art platform for me, I mainly focus on deviantART despite the fact I quite dislike the website now for how aggressively and unabashedly it endorses AI "art." I've just been there the longest and have the biggest following there by far, so...

Do you think it’s dumb when a band smashes their instruments, or do you find it totally radical? I honestly do find it dumb, like... why. Why destroy what is generally a great quality instrument if you're a band playing it on stage to an audience. If you want a new guitar or some shit, just donate or even SELL the damn thing, don't break and waste it.

Have you ever made a gif? If not, do you think it’d be interesting to make one? I've made many over the years for various purposes, yeah. I tend to go through episodes of making them and then not.

When you feel uninspired, do you feel like you need to go somewhere to become inspired? Not really, actually. I tend to become inspired by observing others' artwork and stuff. It is very much about the content I surround myself with.

Have you ever lived on a university campus? No.

Do you play any games on your phone? Only Pokemon GO. I would like to be able to play more, but my phone is trash with VERY limited memory, I've had to delete plenty of things just to keep that one game updated and therefore playable, lol.

Have you ever shaved your face? Yes, there's this tool I use that's not quite a razor, it's a vibrating tube thing that looks almost like a lipstick case, but I use it on my upper lip, chin, and I've started to use it between my eyebrows too.

What was the last vaccination you got? It was a tetanus vaccine refresher, I think?

Who’s your favorite rapper? And your favorite song by this favorite rapper? Eminem, and probably "Love the Way You Lie," I was OBSESSED with that song when it was new. I also like "Space Bound" a lot, though.

How about your favorite band? And your favorite song by this band? Oh fuck. For Ozzy it's proooobably "Trap Door," but I'm also very much adoring of "See You on the Other Side" (actually listened to it today) and "Mama I'm Comin' Home." The Rammstein song I enjoy the most in terms of catchiness/most often in the mood to listen to is "Zick Zack," however I consider my ultimate favorite by them to be "Stein um Stein" because it's a fucking artistic storytelling masterpiece imo.

Has anyone ever made a promise to you that they’d change? Who? Juan probably did at some point in high school.

Have you ever had any painful dental work done? If so, what? Oh yes, I wasn't afraid of the dentist until recent times when I was finally paying for neglecting my teeth due to depression and I now realize also executive dysfunction issues later in the timeline. I had a lot of cavities, a few that were quite severe, and fixing one required me to get a numbing shot THROUGH THE ROOF OF MY FUCKING MOUTH, like I could FEEL the needle go through and deep into my fucking gums, and it was my worst EVER experience with a needle, that shit HURT. I'm finally getting better with taking care of them, thank fuck; I think seeing how severe the consequences were becoming really kicked my ass into gear. It doesn't matter if I hate my body, it's my responsibility and I'm going to do all I can to make it better and comfortable to live in. I also had braces for a large chunk of growing up, and getting them tightened always commenced a very painful few days afterwards for all of my teeth. I recently had a wisdom tooth yanked out, and while the numbing shots did suck, they definitely used an adequate amount of it 'cuz I sure didn't feel anything other than pressure. I only got scared when the tooth broke, the sound made me jump.

Is there anyone you’d like to apologize to? Jason. I doubt I'll ever get the chance, but god do I wish I could express how sorry I am to his face. I also want to apologize to Sara for how I severed our friendship, I should have been more direct (I had my honest reasons for thinking it was better not to be so confrontational, but I know now that I was wrong in that part), but I know it's better that I don't stir up settled dust. It's better for both of us that we just don't have contact with each other. Like yes, I think it would help me to just get my apology off my chest, but when you consider I don't seek reconciliation with her whatsoever, it'd be a pointless amount of possible upset.

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend? HELL NO, we're dating and serious with each other so even going a day without some amount of contact is out of the question for us. A month without talking to him would be MISERABLE.

How has your style changed since you were in high school? Well back then I was your average emo kid, still pretty emo at heart but a bitch is wearing comfortable shit these days, lol.

What was the last new drink you discovered that was delicious? Strawberry banana smoothies.

What is your favorite way your hair has ever looked? Probably how it is now, but when it was newly dyed a seaweed-y green.

Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? No, neither of my parents grew up in NC. Well actually, during my last college attempt I DID have an English teacher that previously taught my mother like a semester prior; she got her degree only a few years ago.

Where’s the nearest GameStop near you? Shit bro, probably not even three minutes. It's in the same complex where our Wal-Mart is.

What was the last thing you took a video of? Probably either Roman or Cookie being silly.

What’s the biggest risk you’ve ever taken? Overdosing on cold medicine.

Do you believe your ex cares about you? No. Maybe he does, but I'm not so sure about that.

What was the last compliment you received from the opposite sex? Girt said something about me being a positive influence, which meant a lot.

Have you ever been to an orchard? No, but I'd REALLY like to.

Who was the last family member of yours that died? My maternal grandmother, that I know of.

What is your favorite color for cars? Pinks, of course. I am also a big lover of burnt orange cars.

Do you have any gay family members? I know I have at least one on Mom's side, it's like her distant cousin or something, I'm not entirely sure on what he is to her.

Did your last relationship end because of you or the other person? She instigated the breakup, so her.

Would you be upset if you caught your boyfriend looking at porn? No, I know I'm an extreme minority that gets zero enjoyment out of porn. I'd only be bothered if my partner seemed more into watching that than doing things with me, his actual girlfriend. I don't know or care if this is something he does when I'm not around, and if he does okay cool, I don't feel like I'm actually competing with a porn star or whatever. I suppose maybe this would depend on who my partner IS too, like I deeply trust Girt and what he feels for me so the idea of him watching it does nothing to me. It's not like he'd actually pursue his favorite porn star or whatever.

Have you ever had crabs, turtles, or lobsters? I've had a few hermit crabs in my life and very briefly a turtle that I shouldn't have even had.

What is your favorite type of cat? Oriental shorthairs!!!!!!! I REALLY want one of these one day.

What if a friend asked you to go with her to get an abortion? I'm walking in there right beside her and holding her hand if she's fine with it. She will have NO doubts that she is loved and supported.

Who of the opposite sex has seen you at your worst? Either Jason or Girt, depending. The night of the breakup when Jason very briefly came over to check on me because of shit I said, I was FUCK-ING HYSTERICAL, but Girt came to the ER following my suicide attempt because I tagged him as someone I directly wanted to say thanks and bye to, and I feel like that was truly my lowest point ever in life, in that hospital bed with an IV in me wearing scrubs. I was ready to die and was so done with existence, I was dirty and hideous and crying but he stayed for a while anyway.

Are you sitting in a spinning chair? Yes.

Are you one of those people who will not use a public washroom? I definitely avoid them if I can, but I'm more comfortable going depending on how well-kept the place is. For example, I'm WAY more comfortable using the restroom in like The Cheesecake Factory versus a gas station, haha. If I gotta go though, I gotta go, I just do the thing where you place toilet paper over the seat.

Have your parents ever disapproved of the person you’re dating? Like, the person I'm CURRENTLY dating, or any partner I've ever had? Either way I think no; I know they've always approved of Girt, but I suppose Dad might have not been thrilled about me dating a girl once, but I really have no idea what exactly he felt. As it turned out Mom didn't like Sara either, but it had nothing to do with her being another woman, she was fine with me dating a girl.

Were you raised by someone other than your parents? No.

What’s the last chore you did? Vacuumed.

What is your favorite jungle animal? Very close call between tigers and clouded leopards. I'm also quite fond of kinkajous!

Is your father injured? He has a bad back and has for a very long time, but I don't think he has any noteworthy, current true "injuries."

Are you part Native American? No.

What are your pets’ names? Roman, Venus, and Cookie.

Have you ever worked two jobs? No, I can pretty fucking much GUARANTEE I would never be able to do that.

Who is the oldest sibling in your family? Katie.

What are some of your happy thoughts? Being with Girt, a hopeful happy and content future together, the idea of being a successful photographer who gets to travel a good amount, having a poetry book published, be surrounded by well-provided-for and loved pets one day... just a lot of visions of the future I want.

What are the names of all the dogs you’ve ever owned? Trigger, Angel, Teddy, Dale, Delilah, Harley (maybe? I can't remember if she only stayed with Ashley?), Cali, Bentley, I think her name was Lola (we had her very briefly), and now Cookie. Maybe one more in there somewhere, I feel like Mom's mentioned a dog's name that I don't remember at all before.

Would you ever get a face tattoo? I'd NEVER get a big one, but I'm doubtful I'll even get a tiny one. I'm quite sure I don't want any on my face.

How much was the rent/mortgage at the cheapest place you’ve ever lived? I have no way of knowing that because I've never been involved in the finances of anywhere I've lived.

Who in life have you felt the strongest need to protect? Uhhhh... that's hard? There are multiple people who come to mind, all in different sorta ways, but I SUPPOSE the absolute strongest would ultimately be for my older sister's three kids. I would fucking kill for them, with ZERO hesitation.

What is the cruelest thing a person has ever said to you? I really, really enjoyed being called a spineless, weak-willed deadweight that exaggerates her trauma, that was super cool.

Who do you think was the worst criminal in history? Probably Adolf Hitler, but idk. There have been many sick people, but Hitler definitely left the biggest impact with I'm assuming the largest casualty numbers in his name.

Which laws would you most like to change? Abortion needs to be a GLOBAL right, heightened gun control is FUCKING mandatory, LGBTQ+ rights should be a guarantee everywhere under the sun, capitalism should fucking burn to the ground, and I know there are SO many more, I'm just drawing a blank atm while knowing I'm missing very obvious shit.

Who is the person you most wanted to have an affair with but didn’t? I can confidently say I've never wanted that.

Who have you most feared in your life? My dad.

What is your strongest reason for your opinion on abortion? The being that already has a novel's worth of thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, and memories comes WAAAAAAY fucking before the developing cells that have none of those. Full fucking stop.

What one natural thing would you most like to see? Aurora borealis.

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Edirol orchestral vst 2015

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It’s ideal for creating an intimate ambiance, or cinematic bed.Ĭontrary to most other free piano plugins that only feature a handful of samples, this one is over 2.4GB with a total of 241 different samples. If you’re looking for a dreamy and soft-sounding piano that is also free, then give Atmos Piano a try! It has a pleasantly simple GUI and contains built-in delay and flanger effects.ĭSK Brass is a completely free stand-alone VST plug-in which only requires 37 MB of disk space.Ĭons: not suitable for professional scoringįind out more about DSK Brass here. It gives you the ability to play 23 instruments including a flugelhorn, multiple saxophones, trumpets, tubas, trombones, French horns, and the ability to combine all of these for ensembles. These sounds are perfect for aspiring composers looking to hone their scoring chops and still afford some pork chops for dinner. To round off the ensemble portion of our list we have another free plug-in, DSK Brass.

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These aren’t full orchestral libraries but rather just single instrument that generally for a part of orchestras. So, while it may be a great “Free” product, only get it if you’re willing to go through all of that.Ĭheck out the Big Bang Orchestra here.

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Until now, not too bad.īut then they require you to install an eLicenser software and to purchase a “Vienna Key”, which is a USB device that holds all your product keys and that costs about $15, and without it you can’t install the software.

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However, you will need to go through the entire purchasing process, even though you’re not paying a thing, to get a serial number. The orchestra itself is great It sounds fantastic, offers a total of 1.5GB in samples, you can choose between multiple microphone positions, and more. I tried so hard to include this one in the actual list and not in the “honorable mentions” section, but the install process is so annoying and they make you jump through so many hoops that I just couldn’t place it any higher on this list.

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This library is clearly aimed at beginners since it is very simple to use and straight-forward, plus it already comes premixed into one mix signal which gives you less control over it, but makes things easier if you’re just starting out. The BBC Symphonic Orchestra Discover actually sells for $49, but you can fill out a form and they will send it to you after 14 days for completely free. Here’s another great addition by Spitfire. BBC Symphony Orchestra Discover by Spitfire Audio Honestly, what makes this plugin great is the variety of instruments, since there is no shortage of them, plus they all sound pretty damn good! The included instruments are Acoustic Piano, Harpsichord, Bassoon, Celesta, Glockenspiel, Vibes, Harp, Flute, Piccolo, English Horns, Oboe, Clarinet, French Horn, Trumpet, Church Organ, Trombone, Tuba, Cello, Contra Bass, Viola, Violin, Orchestra Drum Kit, Full Sections. It gives you the ability to choose between 40 different instruments and play 4 of those instruments in the same instance, through MIDI. Total Composure Orchestra (Windows, Mac, Linux)ĭSK Overture is a full orchestral sample VST plugin. Lastly, Layers works with Orchestral Tools’ SINE Player.

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In total, the sample pack is about 17GB and runs on Windows 10 and Mac OS. You can choose between a couple different mic positions and it also features different articulations different chord types, staccato and sustain unison, and more. Layers is an ultra realistic orchestral sample library that features a full orchestra, Brass-, Woodwinds-, and Strings sections. Let’s get straight into each individual orchestral sample library! Layers by Orchestral Tools In this article, I will be listing the best full free orchestral VST sample libraries as well as some single orchestral instrument VST plugins (instruments that are a part of orchestras).Īll of the download links are included! The Best Orchestral Plugins are: Title I love finding free software that actually works, so in this post I will go into each of the ones I found and tried, this way you won’t have to do any of the research and try the ones that sucked, like I did! They were practically unusable back in the day, but now, even though you can hear the difference between a sample software and the real deal, they sound astoundingly similar. Orchestral samples, and samples in general, have come a long way. What better way to add some embellishments to your songs than with an orchestral plugin? Even better if its free, right?

[allegra-writes]

hi i was just wondering if you are taking requests for kaz. if yes can i'd like to request a kaz x fem!reader, where kaz gets jealous. you can do whatever you want with the story, it might end in confessions or confrontation anything you like, if you want, if not feel free to ignore. have a lovely day <3

Oh, boy. Oh, dear. You really shouldn't tell me that I can do whatever I want with the story cuz, chances are, I'm gonna make it smutty. Sorry if that wasn't what you wanted but I really can't help myself 😔

This story might contain elements from the books, but is still 28 year old show!Kaz.

"Untouchable"

Kaz Brekker x Reader

NSFW

Warnings: Enough UST to burn Ketterdam to the ground.

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The lips moving insistently against yours were warm and soft, the hands exploring your body, skillful. Their owner, Misha, a handsome, polite ravkan guy that had dreamy eyes and smelled nice, clean, which was more than you could say of a lot of the men in the Barrel. There was absolutely no reason for the little voice in the back of your head screaming wrong, claiming for you to push him away, so you squashed it down, and continued to kiss back.

As Misha's hand moved from your hip to your thigh, another, louder part of your brain wondered if Kaz could see you in Misha's embrace, from the other side of the club. You wished with perverse intent that he did.

You were being petty and immature, you knew that, but the Wraith was back visiting. The Wraith with her lovely face and big doe eyes and inky black hair and gorgeous amber skin, goldened by the ocean sun… the Wraith that Kaz called Inej and had once been his favourite spy and slept in his room and moved like shadows, silent like a vampire and even more deadly, while you were just a common, useless sun summoner, like the thousands that had awaken a couple years ago, when Alina Starkov had sacrificed her powers and her life to get rid of the fold. And not even a good one, at that, you were honesty pretty bad at calling the light, but you were great at bending it, and that's what had gotten you a place in the Dregs, making yourself and the others invisible so you could get in and out unnoticed at every heist.

That was what made you such a valuable asset for the gang. Granted, not as much as the Wraith had been back in the day, but valuable nonetheless. That was why Kaz liked to keep you so close, why he was so protective of you, always checking on you first, making sure you had backup constantly and always demanded the healer tend to you before anyone else including himself. Making sure your room was dry and warm with as much sunlight as you needed, keeping you plied with Shu teas and zemeni chocolate as if you were still living at the little palace...

It hurt a little to realize that was all there was to it: Kaz keeping his star player safe and happy, instead of… well, what you actually wanted it to mean. But hope was a dangerous thing, it clouded judgements, the best illusions were the most convincing and none more convincing than those we tell ourselves, Kaz himself had taught you that. Better to get rid of it forever.

So you let yourself sink further into the heat of the kiss, relishing the comfort of human contact after being touch starved for so long. Admittedly, Misha might not have been your first option, but you couldn't be lonely any longer. Ketterdam was just too cold, too harsh, too cruel, you needed to take the warmth where you could.

… Except, Misha's warmth had just disappeared, teared off and away from you in an instant. You blinked, disoriented. And then you had to blink again, cause what you were seeing didn't make any sense.

When you opened your eyes again, Kaz was still standing in front of you, perfect features contorted in barely restrained fury, one hand leaning heavily on his cane, the other twisted in Misha's blond locks, keeping him up and away from you.

"Kaz… what the hell?"

"B-boss, I'm sorry, I didn't-"

"Shut up" He hissed to the terrified boy, eyes never leaving yours, "You, in my office, now"

You nodded, numbly, and he finally let go of the blond boy, who fell to the floor in a heap, not daring to stand up until you and Kaz had disappeared up the stairs.

The sound of the lock clicking shut behind you was deafening in the small soundproof room. You expected Kaz to step away from you once he closed the door, or at least to step aside, instead he stayed right were he was, crowding you against the wall, close enough for the pupils of his eyes to become unfocused when you tried to fix your gaze on them.

It was disconcerting, he wasn't one for physical closeness. But he seemed as surprised and helpless as you, rooted in place by a strange force, pulled toward each other like gravity, close enough to touch.

Light years away.

"Give me one good reason" He rasped, "for me not to cut every single one of Misha's fingers right now"

That sobered you up.

"What? Kaz, are you serious? You have absolutely no reason to hurt him!"

"Don't I?" His voice was soft, dangerous, "What exactly makes you think he can put his hands on you and get to keep them?"

You rolled your eyes at your boss' intensity.

"Listen, Kaz, I know you protect your investments, but I promise you, Mish was not going to hurt me"

"If I thought he was going to hurt you, he wouldn't be still breathing"

"Then what-"

"HE DOESN'T GET TO TOUCH YOU" He bellowed, making you flinch. Inhaling, he collected himself before adding, more calmly, "No one does"

Your heart skipped a beat, faltering only to start galloping with a vengance. Hope was a very dangerous thing indeed…

"Why?"

"Y/N-"

"No. Tell me, Kaz, why can't Misha touch me?"

He sighed, all the fury, all the fire gone, something very close to defeat in his eyes as he asked,

"Do you want him to?"

You had never seen Kaz like that, you doubted anyone ever had. He wasn't dirtyhands in that moment, he wasn't the feared demon of the barrel. He looked young, vulnerable.

Honest.

And honesty was rare in Ketterdam, even rarer inside Kaz Brekker's office. You figured the least you could do was show him honesty in return.

"The one I want touching me isn't interested in that sort of thing" You tried for a nonchalant shrug but we're quite sure you fell short, the catch in your voice probably giving away how personal you took it, even tho you tried not to: You knew Kaz wasn't one for skin on skin contact in general, not just with you. You had seen it in the way he always hesitated for a fraction of a second before shaking hands to seal a deal, in the careful way he angled his body as to not bump into anyone in the crowded streets of the harbor, in the way he always held himself just a little further away from anyone than what was natural.

He squinted, giving you a look you knew and hated, it was the look he gave you whenever you couldn't guess where his plans were going, the one that suggested he thought you were being particularly daft.

"You think I don't want to touch you?"

There was no point in denying it, or pretend it wasn't him you were talking about, you knew he would see right through your bullshit. So you said nothing, bracing yourself for the brutal rejection no doubt was coming, for dirtyhands to murder the fragile dove of hope you were nurturing, cradling inside your chest, once and for all.

What he said instead caught you completely off guard.

"How?"

"Kaz?"

"You said you want me to touch you, how would you have me touching you?" He explained. You searched for the catch, the joke, the trick. You found none inside his blown pupils. "Bare handed, skin on skin? Or maybe-"

"No" You cut him short. The image didn't feel right, there was something just too raw, too exposed, about Kaz' pale hands stripped off their defences. "I… I want you just the way you are, Kaz," You confessed, and you were the one stripped defenceless, "armour and all"

Your eyes zeroed on his throat as he swallowed hard, a new determination straightening his back.

"Stay very, very still…"

Every single one of your muscles froze, locking into place, lids falling shut as you waited for his next move with bated breath. You could feel him, hovering over you, his warmth bathing every inch of your body through the few inches separating you. You splayed your hands on the cold wall behind you, trying to ground yourself, to not to get swept into his current, cause you felt you could disappear completely, mind, body and soul consumed by him. You wondered, not for the first time, if there wasn't some truth in the rumours that there was something inhuman, something demonic in him.

His breath was hot against your face, and you could almost feel his lips where they lingered above yours, barely a hair away. Your own parted involuntarily and you heard his quivering exhale.

You breathed him in.

Feeling more than hearing the growl that reverberated deep in his chest, you sank further into the wall, not trusting your legs to hold you up. No, not when his breaths were moving lower, caressing your jaw, your neck, the hollow of your throat, sending shivers down your spine, making every little hair on your body stand on end.

"K-kaz…"

"Don't move. Don't you dare to move."

You wouldn't, you couldn't.

You were rooted to the spot, like a willow as the hurricane crashed over it, as Kaz continued his exploration, nose buried into your hair as he greedily, hungrily Inhaled your scent.

There was a moment of panic as you felt him retreat, but it was short lived, as the cool night breeze suddenly hit your chest, indicating he had flicked undone the ribbon of your peasant blouse, baring you to his gluttonous stare. You hissed as he blew hot air on your nipples, first one, then the other, until they pebbled before his eyes, as you scratched the wall, leaving nail marks on his fine wallpaper.

The loss of his heat disoriented you, creaking of the floorboard letting you know he had taken a step back, the new distance a gelid ocean as cold and insurmountable as the Fjerdan sea. You took a moment to collect yourself, wondering if that was even possible when you had been undone brick by brick, in typical Brekker fashion, only to be built up and remade at his liking.

No one had ever owned you like Kaz Brekker had just done, without even touching you.

When you finally opened your eyes, he was already watching you, icy blues on fire as he took you in.

You looked thoroughly debauched, eyes alight with desire, cheeks flushed, half naked, fine layer of sweat covering the generous amount of skin on display.

But he looked just as wrecked as you, breathing just as hard, his usually impeccably styled hair falling over his eyes.

"As of this moment, you are completely off limits for every single dreg and crow out there" He declared, voice as demolished as you felt. You almost snorted, he might as well had declared you off limits for the whole of Ketterdam. "No one can touch you. Ever.

Not Jesper with his high fives, not Wylan with his hugs. No one. Or they will have me to answer to"

You nodded, because what was there to say? You were his, completely and irrevocably, and everybody knew Kaz Brekker didn't share.

"Come here" He said, eyes softening, deft fingers closing your top and tying the lace back together into a neat and delicate little bow far prettier than the ones you made.

Neither one of you said another word as you turned around and left, feeling Kaz' gaze still on you as a physical caress.

On jelly legs, you made your way back to the club, deciding to face the curious looks they would no doubt be sending your way head on. Better to get used to it, you thought. By dawn, you were sure the word would have spread beyond the club walls, to the Razor Gulls, and the Black Tips and what was left of the dime lions all the way through the fifth harbor.

By dawn, the entire city would have know your name: Y/N, the Untouchable.

[raphaelsrightarm]

Hello, I hope you're having a good day. If you haven't already, can you do morning sex with Leo? Please and thank you💙💙💙

Morning Sex

Ok so I took a break for a minute because I was going through some things and life had me by a chokehold but I’m doing much better now!! I’m excited to get back to posting I missed you guys so to celebrate my return have some fluffy morning sex with fearless

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Warnings: Smut 18+

Leo had almost forgotten what it was like. To have sleep evade him. His mind used to run throughout the night; filled with anxious thoughts and dangerous hypotheticals. It was enough to drive him insane. Spending hours every night staring into darkness, trying to find any possible way just to get his mind to shut the hell up.

He underestimated how helpful it could be to have someone sleep next to him. He was able to drown his thoughts out by deciding to focus instead on your breathing. The steady rise and fall of your chest provided him with enough peace that could get him through the night. 

The morning had begun when he heard the clunk of mugs being shifted around coming from the kitchen.

Donnie’s up. No surprise there.

Other than that it was quiet. Leo glanced over to his side where you laid. Your eyes softly shut as you slept. There wasn’t any sign of stress or irritation. Just peace.

Winter has rolled in at full force, the air throughout the lair had a sting to it. He reached out to your arm, feeling the cold that had sunken into your skin. He pulled the blankets up over you, shielding you from the torment that followed December. The room was dim. Holding a dreamy light that came in the morning. 

His eyes never left you. Gently he drew his knuckle across your cheek. He thought back to the days when he could only ever imagine being this close to you. No more did he have to fantasize what your body felt like against his, what your skin would feel like sliding under his hands. 

Your eyes fluttered behind your eyelids, before slowly opening to meet his. A drowsy grin appeared. You brushed against his limbs as you stretched. You were still naked from the night before, body concealed under the thick comforter. 

“Most people would hate being watched while they slept.” You whispered, pressing your lips to the palm of his hand. Leo smiled.

“Good morning, my love.” Was the response he gave, brushing hair away from your face. 

“How did you sleep?”

He pulled you in, arm wrapping around you, lips pressed to the crown of your head. “Well.” He whispered into your hair, voice still thick from rest.  

The morning was peaceful. The two of you enjoying a comfortable silence, as you both allowed yourselves time to wake up. You were curled into his side, his hand resting on your hip, your cheek resting against the thick skin of his bicep. Then his finger trailed down the outside of your thigh, slowly running over your flesh.

It felt as though the air itself shifted after that. He felt the muscles in your leg twist beneath your skin. He repeated the movement just until he felt you were getting used to it. His hand rolled over the curve of your back.

You glanced up at him. His eyes were gently closed, but you knew he was awake. Your heart raced as you took in his features. In his sleep was the only time you saw him without his mask. Your body seemed to move before your mind caught up to it. You rolled onto your back, spreading your legs further slightly, playing along with the slow build. 

He smiled slightly, eyes still shut. You close your eyes to match him. The room was quiet all but for the sound of his steady breathing. It wasn’t long before he moved again. A gentle touch grazing over your inner thigh, gliding upward between your legs. 

His finger delved between your folds, spreading you like flower petals. Your head rolled back against his arm. He drew slow circles on your clit. Your breath hitching in your throat as sparks shot through you. 

“How’s that feel?” He whispered. His voice sent a shiver through you. You could hardly find words to form a response.

But he was waiting. His hand slowed then. 

“It’s too early to be a tease.”

He slowed further. 

“Feels amazing. You’re amazing.” You choked out. This satisfied him, his pace picking back up. 

You turned your head to kiss his bicep. This put him to flight.

He pulled his hand away as he rose to hover over you, kissing across your chest, disorganized and scattered; it was different for him. Yet even in his sleepy movements there was intention. Love behind each brush of his lips against your collarbone. 

You ran your hands over his arms. The bumpy scales that covered his skin like cobblestones, the raised scars on his skin that ranged in sizes. Some like small nicks while others spanned from his shoulder to his elbow. He had told you stories of most of them. Street fights, mishaps while training. He told them like they were songs. Each verse was more intriguing than the last. 

Your chest rose towards his mouth. His hands roamed over your form as if he was experiencing it for the first time. He worshiped every inch of you until you began to lose patience. 

“Leo,” You whined. He acknowledged you with a brief hum. “Please.” You raised your hips towards him. He smiled. 

He kissed you quickly, before he began to slowly guide himself inside you. You watched as his jaw clenched, the pillow beneath your head fisted into his hand. 

“So tight,” Leo’s thrusts started slowly. Allowing you to adjust to his size. “You feel so fucking good” His words were a low groan next to your ear, the sweet scent of your hair urging him on. 

All you could do was let out weak whimpers in response. With a gentle sweep of his hands he brushed your hair out of your face, pressing his lips to your once more. He moved faster now, but not by much. The both of you enjoying the slow build. 

His hand reached down to play with your clit, pulling a shrill gasp from you. Leo knew your body. He was able to bring you to new heights with each thrust of his hips. He could tell just how close you were.

“Cum for me, baby” He kissed your cheek sweetly. “Go on. I wanna see it.”

Your legs shook as you came, your nails dug into his arm. Leo watched in adoration as you rode out your high. He could feel you pulse around him, your warmth dancing around his cock only bringing him further.

“I love you,” His breath against your ear. “I love you so fucking much” He held you tightly between hi strong arms, yet he needed you closer still. His movements nearly frantic. 

The pleasure inside him continued to build until he fell over the edge, burying his snout into your hair as he felt a wave of release wash over him, the warmth of his satisfaction filling you.

The two of you stayed just like this for a while. Enjoying the pressure of his body pressed on yours. 

He pulled out slowly, wanting to savor the feeling of being inside of you for as long as he could. You watched as he went back to his spot beside you. His arm wrapped around you once more as he pulled you into his embrace. Your eyes shut as you drifted off next to him.

[chaeryybomb]

nct dream reaction to their idol!reader girlfriend being shipped with another idol

anon: nct dream reaction to their idol!reader girlfriend being shipped with some other idol :) love your works btw. and thank you for this in advance

pairing: nct dream x idol!reader

genre: headcanons, fluff, crack

warnings: mentions of insecurities

a/n: dhsjdj technically my requests are closed rn but I decided I would write this out so I hope you enjoy this!

mark lee

confused boi™

tbh he wouldn't even notice you were being shipped with another idol until another member points it out

you were a special guest mc for the show and fans saw the cute interactions you had with the boyz juyeon

and soon enough fans started shipping the both of you together

in reality, you and juyeon were just high school friends and you were glad to see him again

fans on the other hand,,

mark didn't realise you were being shipped with juyeon until doyoung pointed it one day

and mark was all like

( ・◇・)？"nani? y/n and juyeon???"

he would then search up ynjuyeon on twitter because cough yeah

and found a shit ton of edits of the both of y'all

and now he's sad :((

he's sad that because no one shipped y'all together

"isn't your relationship a secret???"

"yeah but still :((("

mark sweetie y'all have neve interacted on stage before fjdjdndnd

he knows you love him and would never cheat on him

but boy is he going to be a pouty baby when y'all hang out next time

literally all he's going to say is:

"why do they ship you and him together?? why not me :(("

"mark they've never seen us in the same room before"

huang renjun

unbothered king™

at least that's what he tells you fhdjdj

he found out through a vlive fhdhdjj

it was one of the usernames and the username was like ynxyanan_shipper

and renjun mf squinted his eyes like

did I read that clearly ಠ_ಠ

he's like yn and wHO

chenle was beside him when it happened and chenle was like what's wrong

and renjun points out the username

and chenle starts lauGHING BECAUSE HE FINDS IT SO FUNNY

renjun smacks him on the head to tell him to shut up DHHSHDD

obviously he would take a screenshot of the username and sends it to you

and he's like

short king <3: do you hv something to confess to me

you: ,,, my love for you??

short king <3: blocked

you: HAHSAHS IM KIDDING

tbh you find the situation honestly really funny

cause you and yanan aren't exactly friends? you're more of acquaintances than friends

and you made eye contact one (1) time with him by accident at an award show and suddenly you're being shipped with him

when you call him the next time to hang out, definitely expect him to be salty about it fjdjfjd

"hey are you free to come over today?"

"I don't know, why don't you ask your BOYFRIEND yanan"

"renjun istg i will break up with you-"

lee jeno

oh baby boy is gonna be so so confused

he's going to be even more confused because you're being shipped with itzy's chaeryeong fhfhfjf

see you and chaeryeong were featured in an episode of a reality tv show once

and the both of y'all immediately hit it off and your friendship was just adorable

so y'all kept interacting every time y'all see each other

and y'all are now nicknamed as the 4th gen gfs because y'all are so adorable???

like the chaeryn ship ur most popular ship ever

so jeno is so confused?? like why is his gf being shipped with her??

he's like a whole ass puppy okay

you, on the other hand, find the chaeryn ship really cute so you don't mind it and you jokingly call chaeryeong your gf once or twice on live before fjdjfn

whenever you tell him that you're hanging out with chaeryeong, he will pout at you and give you his best puppy eyes

like he will cling onto you and try to convince you to now to go

it works like 13% of the time and you would cancel plans with chaer but most of time it doesn't and you would end up being late jhdjsh

but it will slowly become into an inside joke between y'all

like yk that one meme

"this is yn my girlfriend and her girlfriend chaeryeong"

kjdhkjshfs yeah that

but in all seriousness, jeno is really unbothered about you being shipped with chaeryeong because it basically has the same energy as him being shipped with jaemin

whenever y'all are having play fights, you jokingly threaten to leave him for chaeryeong jdsfjds and he immediately stops and says that's unfair

pls shower him in hugs and kisses later

lee haechan

definitely makes a fuss about it

i mean he knows that you aren't going to leave him and all but is he going to be dramatic about it? yes, yes he is

he finds out by himself because he was probably on twitter stalking your hashtag

when he suddenly stumbles upon and edit of you and ateez's san

he's like O.O wot is tHis?

screenshots the edit and sends it to you

hyuckie: yNNNN

hyuckie: THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

hyuckie: BABY

hyuckie: SUGAR BUM

hyuckie: DAISY PIE

you: what in, the ever loving fuck, is daisy pie

hyuckie: *sends screenshot* ARE U CHEATING ON ME

you: hyuck that pic is clearly edited

hyuckie: I KNOW BUT ARE YOU????

you: i-

he makes so much jokes about it that you literally have to shut him up with a kiss

jokes on u reader he's doing this on purpose to get those free kisses

the jokes stop when you actually finally meet san during a game show and shippers are like omg they finally interacted

and the amount of ynxsan edits just,, grow

haechan acts even salty about it and whines about why fan don't ship y'all together when y'all have made eye contact during the golden disk awards bc he was being a lil shit hdsjhfjds

"hey what if i keep staring at you during the melon so we can get into a scandal?"

"hyuck this is supposed to be a secret relationship-"

"yeah but-"

jokes on u he actually does stare at you at the next award show and thankfully did not get into any scandals, but fans started to ship the both of you!

na jaemin

the true unbothered king

literally does not care that you are shipped with someone else

because he knows that he is yours and vice versa

and plus you love him a lot so

he finds out from chenle, who did it out of spite because one day chenle was bored and wanted to cause some chaos

boi basically ran up to jaemin to shove an edit of you and treasurer's junkyu together and went like

"look hyung! ur gf is being shipped with someone eLsE"

"oh that's weird"

"rigHT"

"I thought people shipped her with treasurer's hyunsuk"

chenle is like

HUH???

"aren't you like,, jeaolous??"

jaemin just shrugs and says "hmm, not really"

jaemin knows that you are good friends wth a lot of idols because you're a social butterfly

so he truly doesn't mind when you get shipped with other idols bc in the end , he's the one holding you in his arms

plus he knows the edits and shippers are mostly harmless

and he trusts you

so he just fucks around with chenle jkldsfj

chenle is still confused bc he wants to rile jaemin up for fun but failed hjdshf

zhong chenle

if you thought haechan was dramatic, then you better buckle up for chenle's

so you see

fans already shipped u and chenle

like

y'all already have a dating scandal

and both companies tried so hard to defuse it

see you are an mc for a music show and you were interviewing nct dream

chenle, being the lil shit he is, kept giving you the heart eyes the entire time

and 6 months later, y'all got caught by dispatch on a daTe

ofc both sides were panicking but chenle was enjoying bc he's like "yeah this is my s/o and what abt it"

but y'all still had a dating ban so sm was this close in kicking him hfdsjfh

fortunately, they were able to cover it up as someone else so there's that

so chenle is aware that fans shipped the both of you together

so when he sees you being shipped with stray kid's jeongin

he was like "HOW DARE THEY-"

calls you to complain about the ship for 3 hours

and that is how you found out as well-

literally you don't even know jeongin so you just let chenle complain about it

he goes on and on about why fans should continue to ship y'all together so when he reveals the relationship the fans will be surprised but also not really at the same time-

"should i get into another scandal with you?"

"chenle no-"

park jisung

oh baby boy is going to be very, very confused

i mean he knows that shipping is a thing between fans

he's just confused why ppl would ship you and p1harmony's keeho

like you have never interacted with him so why would fans ship the both of y'all??

the dreamies mostly tell him to not take it serious but the chenle and haechan would egg him on

"get into a dating scandal with them"

"guys no-"

he wouldn't tell you that it bothers him because he doesn't want you laughing at him, worrying over a small issue

so honestly, it lowkey eats him up on the inside

until one day, you basically force it out of him because he's been acting weird for the past week

he finally confesses about the what's bothering him

and you tell him that you wouldn't have laughed at him

you know shipping idols is a common thing in the industry and sometimes it's uncomfortable knowing it when you're already in a relationship

but you also tell him that it's basically harmless because fans can't really force the both of y'all together

jisung would be insecure about the relationship because it's kinda of his first? so he just doesn't want to mess it up

just reassure him a lot and tell him that you won't leave him

and as time goes by, he just gets used to the shipping

[gloriousfoxruins]

Hello darling, I'd like to make a florence pugh x reader please. If you're taking it. I have this idea I can't get out of my head.

Basically R is an actor or a band member and in an interview with her costars gets asked about their celebrity crush. Costars tease and say how everytime R watches said crush's videos R becomes a wreck blushing like crazy. And R says, "how can't when she looks so perfect, have you seen her eyes? And that cute little button nose. And her lips are so perfect. That accent too! Plus she can cook, and the way she's so real and adorable and funny" just gushing there but not really saying Florence's name. Ending with a dreamy sigh or something

And then one of R's costars saying something that hints at Florence.

R's fans blowing up the internet looking for clues then one Florence fan points out that Florence fits the bill. And both fandoms freaking out, shipping R and Flo

celebrity crush

word count: 1,180

Pairing: Florence Pugh x Reader

Warnings: none

Requested:yes

not my gif

Sometimes your bandmates were some of the best people you had ever met, but on some occasions if you could strangle them you totally would. You were a drummer for a new up and coming band that had just taken the world by storm after getting your big break by being able to have your song featured in a top box office movie. It was all an amazing experience, because you got to go on set and tour it and meet the whole cast, and everyone was so kind and welcoming to you. You guys even found out that some of the cast members had already listen to some of your music and were big fans of your work. That was about five years ago, and ever since then your life and the band’s life was changed forever.

Now you were sitting in a conference room about to give press on the band’s new tour dates that were coming up for the new album that was released. All the questions for the most part had been pretty mundane like “what will be the first stop?” Or “what countries do you plan on visiting”. Then the room was opened up to questions from people in the audience, and you were never very nervous about what your bandmates would answer until one question was asked and you froze.

A little girl, who had to have been about ten, walked up to the microphone. She had to stand on her toes to be able to reach the microphone to talk. The sight made your heart gush at the little girl knowing that one day you hope to have kids with…you were lost in your thoughts but then was interrupted when the girl said your name and asked, “Y/N, who is your currently celebrity crush? Also I hope to be able to be a great drummer like you one day.”

Your heart melted at the second part of the question, but when you process the first part you freeze, and you can hear your bandmates laughing beside you on the couch, because they know exactly who comes to your mind when that question was asked. You start to get nervous when Mikey, the lead guitarist, says, “You could have not asked Y/N a better question, because she is completely obsessed with…”

“Okay I think that’s enough out of you Mikey,” the rest of the band continues to laugh and you go and direct you attention back to the little girl, “What’s your name?”

“Ellie,” she answered and once again she had to stand up on her toes to answer you through the microphone, and you just thought it was the cutest thing.

“Well, Ellie why don’t we turn this question into a game just for fun. I’ll describe my celebrity crush, but I will not say a name. That way you can leave it up to your own imagination and then it can turn into a fun game for those are the internet. How does that sound?” The little girl shook her head up and down to tell you yes.

“Okay where do I start…hmmm.”

“Maybe you should tell them that every time you watch any video or movie that she is in you have the biggest smile on your face and you are blushing the whole time.” Jonny, the lead vocalist, says with the biggest smirk on his face and the other guys start to laugh. He’s sitting right next to you so you throw an elbow into his side.

“This is my question to answer so why don’t you just shut up?” He could tell by the look on his face that you meant business and she crossed his arms over his chest and you continued.

“Well in my defense even though I blush all the time. I mean how could I not she’s absolutely perfect. She has the most amazing eyes that you could get lost in forever. And her cute little nose that hen she is trying not to smile she scrunches it up and it is the cutest thing I swear I have ever seen in my life. And don’t even get me started on her lips that look so soft and ever time is see them I just want to kiss them. Plus who doesn’t love a woman with an accent, which by the way only becomes thicker when she is talking about something she love. Also she can cook, she is actually an amazing cook. She’s also just so real and adorable and funny. She always has the best jokes.” You have just gushed over her for who even knows how long, but you can tell that you have been lost in your thoughts when Laurie, bass guitarist clears his throat.

“Alright I think Y/N has just drifted off into her own little world thinking about Flo…,” He cuts himself off right as he is about to say her name, and you start to get nervous again, “so why don’t we move onto the next question.” You blush through the rest of the panel, because even then she is still the only thing on your mind.

A few hours after the interview you stumble into your apartment, and just throw yourself onto the coach. You phone has been blowing up all day since the interview with people tagging you and trying to figure out this celebrity crush of yours that you talk to highly about. The people had theory after theory and some of them were right and some of them were very very wrong, but at the end of the day it was all just a game and you knew who she was and that’s all that mattered.

“Oh, honey I didn’t even hear you come in,” your wife says as she moves to sit down on the couch and you move your head to rest on her lap as she plays with your hair. All you can do is sigh into her touch, because you will never understand how you got so lucky.

“I heard you broke the internet today while talking about your celebrity crush,” you can hear the smile in her voice.

“Yeah I got a little carried away, but how can you blame me. I have to take advantage of the opportunity to talk about my wife.” You look up at Florence with the biggest grin on your face.

“Yes, my love, I understand but you almost blew up our whole secret, because did you really have to say ‘her lips that look so soft and ever time is see them I just want to kiss them’”

“Well I only speak the truth,” you say as you pull her face down to meet yours as you capture her lips with your lips.

“You know if it were not for my band being invited onto that movie set I would have never met you or even had this life with you, and for that I am grateful everyday.” You says as you pull her in for another kiss.

a/n: thank you so much for this amazing request. I hope that i was able to write and do the request justice. I'm thinking maybe there might need to be a part two...maybe?

[sereisstuff]

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 // Shuntaro chishiya

Hey guys, I haven’t written in a while and got inspired by @hvrriicane​​ who’s Chishiya imagine is absolutely amazing. I wanted to write for Chishiya too so started off with him, next will be Niragi or Kuina. I still don’t know yet what I’m going to do but enjoy..

There’s literally no point to continue living, nothing but our own lives we cradle like a new bought gift.

“What’s the point of this reality anymore”

I questioned absentmindedly, gazing out into the open window while releasing the tension in my shoulders as I sighed in thought. My mind was running in circles ever since I arrived at the beach, defying all my morality to feel normal again. Selfish wasn’t it, to disregard human law to feel like my body was mine once more. Not some fetish in a game overruled by a faceless master.

The wind was calm, carrying the melodies of serenity with it. It was almost like I was myself again but I knew better than to question that, the pumping outrage of music often reminded me where I was and the stumbling people knocking loudly against the walls kept my mind at bay.

“There is no reason” was spoken in a sultry voice behind you, you could tell who’s voice that was by a mere grunt. Your heart raced and you cursed yourself for ever falling for someone in a world such as this “Living is just a game, you survive based on how well you play” chishiya spoke once more, followed by a light grunt of amusement.

His steps echoed through the room as he slowly approached my place, I didn’t waver nor acknowledge his presence. Concealing what I felt was always my specialty and I’ve yet to met anyone succeeded at deciphering them. He stopped just beside me, hands in his pockets, staring at the sky just as I did. 

“Is there a reason why you’re not speaking to me?” he laughed with a smirk smearing across his features making me furrow my brows in fury, he leaned slightly against the door frame. Hooded eyes meeting my own with the tilt of his head “I don’t want to die, in your attempt to steal” you explained with a fault, a lie no match for Chishiyas intelligence. You hadn’t met his fierce eyes yet, staring aimlessly into the sky, painfully watching the velvet lasers drip from the roof of reality sharply. As if one minute they were there and the next, their existence ceased to exist just like the souls they took with it.

It was an excuse, another reason to lie to his face. You couldn’t bear the thought of having to constantly be around him while concealing your feelings, his mere presence was something hard to resist and you hated yourself every day for it “I’m speaking to you right now” Chishiya raised his sharp brows with the pucker of his chapped lips, he spoke “for the first time in a week” 

“Is there any reason for your visit? Or was it merely to annoy me?” You managed to huff, concealing your heartache with pure annoyance.

Chishiya shrugged, his voice high as his dreamy eyes followed the lining of your body from your toes to your covered figure and then once more meeting your eyes “are you looking down on me?” he said with amusement, the words slipped from his mouth like a devilish command. 

"I would never, your too clever for me to care" 

"I get told that more than you know” Chishiya spoke, slithering his lips into a charming smile.

I cradled my knees closer to my chest as I relentlessly thought about the wonders it would be if we never met “Of course you do” you mumbled under your breath, Chishiya’s laughable gaze slowly rolled down, he looked from the corners of his eyes while swiping his tongue against the floor of his lips.

“Anything I said or did before, it was a lie. I don’t want to be apart of your plan anymore, I just want to go back to normal” There it came, your truth. Merely a disguise for your hearts motives but it bit you back venomously. Normal? Normal was adaptive, Normal used to be walking home at dawn after running to the store for a midnight snack, normal was falling sick and having your mother come and cradle you. You even missed her sharp tongue, preferring that more than the ache of love and the wrath of this immoral reality.

“Normal is adaptive, wicked or not. Nothing ever stays the same as much as you wished, Life is sickening like that” Chishiya spoke leaning against the frame, his feline eyes begging to be sunken into. Similar to you, Chishiya had a knack for emotion, easily able to ignore and manipulate his own but he could tell what you were thinking as if it was a superpower.

“I’ve found you amusing ever since the hide and seek game” Chishiya laughed, his words were sharp but something in you told you he was telling you the truth, you didn’t notice how the sharp tune of your neck snapping towards his direction whilst your fiery eyes met his but just like fire, his eyes calmed something in you. Chishiya raised his hands with a casual raise of his eyebrows and a low giggle. 

“If your here to laugh at me, leave the way you came or I’ll make you” your forced threat didn’t waver him, Chishiya was never one to back down even if he seems so. 

His hands slowly retracted back to his pockets, as he sat casually beside you. You could feel his warmth and enjoyed the mere second until you remembered his reasoning, you hated having to continue as if you felt nothing, wanting more of his comfort “Can I continue?” He asks politely, his eyes never leaving yours so you felt his truth seeping from his callous tongue, he knew you more than anyone else, not even poor Arisu knew just how deeply you thought and how hard you fought.

You sent him a quick nod, finally holding eye contact. Chishiya took this as a sign to somewhat move closer to you, his jersey knitting your sweater as his head stood just a few inches away from your shoulders.

“The world has a wicked way going about telling us about our feelings, showing us what we can and cannot have. Sometimes, we have what we want but we cannot grasp them fully because the world doesn’t want us to have them, selfish at most” 

“What are you trying to say chishiya? I’m not in the mood to play in your game of minds”

“The hide and seek game showed me what I could have, what that meant for me. I’m grateful that you saved me as stupid and selfless that was.” He continued and it was odd seeing this, you could see his own defenses melting but your anger got the best of you and you made an abrupt stand, clenching your fist as you fought the tears brimming your eyes. You felt tortured and played by him as one of his stupid jokes.

“Leave” you spoke sternly.

“Leave Chishiya, I already told you I don’t want anything to do with your riddles right now. I- I can’t handle it”

Chishiya although didn’t falter, you followed his body as he stood. His chest puffed high. Standing just before you “I know you don’t want me to leave” he knew, he knew all along and sat here toying with you like you were nothing to him.

Chishiya’s long lashes fluttered as his cold eyes stared deeply into yours, so deep your anger slowly subsided and you gave him the time to speak “I don’t want you to leave me, you’re an idiot, yes but I know if I let you go now. I’ll feel torn in the future, living at the beach taught me one thing. You can’t trust anyone but somehow I can trust you” he inched closer to you, so you felt his breath tickle your lips and for a moment Chishiya let his comfort seep over you, enjoying your company that he missed.

“Do what you wish with that” and just like that, he was gone again. Leaving you with frustrated thoughts. To untangle his way of words but what you most definitely knew was that your feelings weren’t alone anymore.

[sugar-petals]

SuperM: Their Orgasm Faces

a/n. i’ve written the same scenario for bts and thought this is perfect for these guys as well 💦

warnings ⚠️ multiple rounds, masturbation, loud sex, crying

➸ Taemin Constant little trembles. Puffy lips and a huge back arch. Softly moving hips that know exactly what they’re doing, reacting to your every touch. Balmy moans for the gods, they’re such a giant turn-on. His face looks so soft and relaxes into the pleasure without restraint. And my god, the hair. It’s like an old Italian painting. The voice is just as indulging — all those little “ha...” noises he makes. So lush and super breathy. Long story short: He looks perfect in the unlikely case someone forgot. What more can I tell you. He’s broadcasted it to the entire world at this point. In fact, isn’t Taemin’s entire cinematic work a silk and satin-laced compilation of o-faces? Even his haters can’t deny that. He has the perfect variety, perfect sensuality. Never out of place, never too feeble nor too much. He doesn’t just show that to you in bed, he truly owns it. Taemin’s orgasms are really drawn out, it’s the most amazing spectacle. So much to see: And you never know when the first one ends and the second one starts. He’s that erotic and completely swayed by you. If there’s one person completely in tune with his arousal and amps it up to the maximum, and takes you higher yourself with him, that’s Lee Taemin. He cums more beautifully than anyone you’ve ever seen. Fuck, it feels like you have to write him a ten-page thank you letter for being able to witness that. One word suffices: he’s fantastic.

➸ Taeyong You won’t believe it. He is so handsome, but he tries to hide his face. Or buries his hands in his hair, and twists himself to the side. Sometimes, into a pillow. Othertimes, a blanket or a sleeve. Taeyong doesn’t like his pleasure being seen. He’s not just shy; he’s reserved, delicately cautious. He’d rather have his hair fall into his face and conceal all the sweet emotions that surface. His lips are tightly shut and more often than not, he looks away. Even when he’s by himself getting off to the thought of you, he can’t keep his head up. It’s a shame, but you also figure it’s because he gifts himself to you to be very protected, not judged or consumed. Taeyong needs your guidance and strength. That’s why you hug him and let his face rest in the crook of your neck, and it becomes his favorite spot to lean into when he’s coming. Taeyong is more reassured this way. His eyebrows raise and he’s giving you the most heavenly whimpers. It overwhelms him every time. But that’s the place where he can finally moan it out. His voice is so gorgeous, and desperate, and full of gratitude towards you. When he really trusts you, he’s — god — actually grunting in his deep voice and sometimes meets your eye fleetingly. Or sucks in air and holds it before his whole body erupts. Oh my god. Those thighs are gonna go through an entire earthquake. Truth be told: NCT didn’t lie when they sang about a volcano, did they.

➸ Jongin Come on. The main dancer who has his face all up in a camera every stage, making people worldwide bust a nut by just raising a corner of the mouth. If there’s one person with the best, most intense facial expressions? It’s Kai all the way. Just throw the OSCAR right at him. Matter of fact, we all know he is the king of being absolutely stunning in bed. Jongin always looks like he wants to take you in completely, his entire upper body goes forward. His eyes are deep and glistening, but not fully mysterious. First and foremost they’re hundred percent passion just as you’d expect from him. The brows, the fucking brows! The lips, mumbling, and the jaw is in motion even if you wouldn’t pay attention to it at first. And by contrast, he looks more in love than anyone else. Can we appreciate how romantic Kai’s vibe is? How does he do it? He yearns and calls you babe, the entire face feels twitching and shaky. As if he was suffering from being so enamoured, but it feels so good to him. Every new thrust makes his expression change a bit. How he’s allowing himself to feel you literally paints a living story on his features. Toward the middle and the end of his climax, Kai looks so vulnerable and lost in the pleasure that you gave him or he gave himself. It’s almost like he is underwater. If you ever look into those dreamy eyes... Kai’s orgasm face will put an actual spell on you. Have a guess. The spell is called: Make you even hornier and throw your fucking head back from all that good stuff.

➸ Mark Yeah, uh-oh. The bomb is going off right here. It feels like Mark didn’t fuck for literal months every time even if you had sex the other day. His jaw is hanging open throughout. The eyes wide. Lips shivering, only a little. A bit of saliva is pooling just there. Then, his head falls forward. Hair in his eyes, brows clenched toward the middle. He looks like he can’t believe it, he’s helpless to the power it has over him. His orgasm darts through his body like a thunderbolt. You got it, sex with Mark is exactly that, so electric. It arrives fast and it’s over fast. And it’s massive, catches him off guard so often. A big, sweeping “Ah—h!” that carries him away like a tidal wave. Who’s the living super car in SuperM? That’s Mark Lee who goes through his climax like he’s watching a train speed by. What can he do but curse himself and moan. Something is possessing this poor man. His face looks like he has to keep up with his own damn reflexes. Can you imagine how hard his body is going to clutch if he just cums in one go? And if he tries to kiss you during that? What the fuck Mark! He just never calms down, does he. Or wait — fast forward... oh wonder: He falls asleep only minutes after. His face: now completely angelic. Mark really put all his heart and mind and cum into this one orgasm. This guy has dedication and it shows. He always delivers you one hell of a show. Rumor has it you have a couple videos of it on your phone.

➸ Baekhyun Clenches his teeth so hard. The first you’ll hear is a loud and whiny “nnh!” in the buildup. And that’s when you know he can’t go back. The entire neck seems under pressure. He stares. Gasps for air. The breathing, raw as fuck. Up and down goes that chest all the way against you. In fact, he breathes the fastest in the group. His face gets so heated. All those veins come out. This guy’s blood flow is a new level. Releasing tons of stress and energy. His eyes are squeezed shut as soon as it begins because it’s so strong and relieving, it’s borderline painful. He couldn’t speak for the first five seconds even if he tried. Only the second wave brings out a stifled chain of moans that he surrenders to. On some days, he even starts crying from relief. It takes minutes upon minutes until he cools off entirely. Baekhyun is so orgasmic, he’s all splayed out on the bed afterwards or deeply engrossed in your embrace for endless cuddles. I’m telling you. Should you ever get a second orgasm out of him, he’s gonna be reduced to a puddle. A shaking, sobbing mess that can’t stop wailing. There’s only begging for more in these eyes. It goes without saying that you need the most sound-proof room there ever was because he is at the top of his voice. Baekhyun being loud for you is a natural staple. PS: Mark my words. Should you get him to a third orgasm, he’s gonna be screaming without a pause and his fucking tongue is hanging out. 

➸ Yukhei As if he can ever stop wiggling his brows at you. Did you expect he just lets loose and rolls his eye back? No, no. He keeps looking right at you until the end. Full Xuxi confidence and charisma at play. Lots of nicknames coming at you, he’s gonna say them all. That level of eye contact is gonna get you going big time. You know how large and wonderful his eyes are, like a doe’s. Lucas hardly closes them unless it comes to getting blowjobs. Where he’s gonna look at you very intensely most of the time anyway. Lucas tries to not let the sensations overcome him so he remains present with you. He never really seems like he indulges all the way like Taemin or Kai would. The whole thing is pretty suspicious because he doesn’t fully ease into your interplay of movements. Guess why... at any point, he’s invested in making you cum and keeps on pulling out his magic tricks until you’re getting there. He’s gonna use those big fucking hands (he knows you love ‘em) and goes on and on until he has you there. Yukhei’s personality is all over the place, but he has steely concentration during sex. Not to mention the technique. He’s even gonna go for pushing his hair back as a killing part. No mediocre, he’s doing the most. After all: Lucas cums the best if he just saw you losing it or you’re on the way. Synchronizing your orgasms is difficult, but he puts all his focus into achieving just that. Yukhei is an expert in how close you are after a while, and even starts letting himself fall back into the sheets below you when you release together. 

➸ Ten Perfectly understated. Lids heavy, lips opened just a bit. Elegant, almost, and chesty in tone. He’s the connoisseur. My god. It’s the most gentlemanly someone could ever cum. His forehead is so sweaty as is his hair and back, because if Ten fucks he does it properly, but still. He’s so calm. He could be in your arms for more than half an hour and be fully composed. The focus and self-control is just phenomenal. Completely in the moment, not missing a heartbeat. Which is such a hard thing to do but it’s effortless with him. Ten knows the value of moderation and tension. He’s not keeping his groans in for the whole time and only moans when he comes. Not at all. It’s a different story with him. It all builds up perfectly and comes out freely whenever. He’s actually pretty close to singing, his voice accompanies his breathing in ideal sync. So melodic. Ten is all smitten by you. Nothing is kept in. He looks at you so fondly, he enjoys himself so much. So, it becomes a beautiful loving serenade. His face doesn’t make any sudden or extreme contortions either. The expression moves and changes very slowly, is very easy on the eye. Every minute with him is fulfilling. Ten is all wrapped up in the mood and the groove like it’s business. Prepare to lose your fucking mind, these are new levels of feeling good. Not one awkward moment, just making love. Oh my god are you lucky.

art: The Great Wave off Kanagawa (1829-33) — by Hokusai

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[neptune-midheaven]

ASTRO NOTES 🪐 🧿✨🌌

*THERE !!!!!! IS !!!!!! NO !!!!!! BAD !!!!!!!PLACEMENT !!!!!!! IN !!!!!!! ASTROLOGY !!!!!!!PLEASE STOP FEAR-MONGERING THESE POOR NEWCOMERS PLEASEEE !!!!!!!! CHALLENGING never equals BAD !!!!!! If you’re a true student of astrology this would be a well know FACT to you.

*Saturn and Capricorn placements are the areas you will slowlyyy become wise in, having developed compete mastery over that area with TIME.

*You usually get compared with other people who share your rising sign.

*Most scorpios/scorpio risings have dark complexions, they even could have almost a permanent shadow cast over their faces, they may struggle to find perfect lighting.

*Virgo in 6th house are hypochondriacs and are paranoid/worry a lot about their health. They’re very nit-picky about their “symptoms”, they’re the types of people to know what they’re coming down with when they’re already at a doctor appt., they may as well even EDUCATE THE DAMN DOCTOR LIKE GO AHEAD MRS PHDD.

*Chiron conjunct midheaven is the ultimate healer placement, other chiron placements, chiron in first/aspecting the ascendant, following behind, these people are true healers whether they realize it or not, they’re born to assist and heal the general public. The midheaven, the highest point of the sky representing our reputation and career, what we’re known for. These people generate a reputation for their “healing abilities”, they’re quite literally known as the wounded healer (depending on if Chiron is positively aspected in the chart, this will affect the flavor of their reputation), they will experience pain related to work or matters related to the reputation, their status and authority could be wounded, they can later use their pain to help and heal others. Challenges will be met at work if Chiron is afflicted. This placement also means one will have their pain and wounds projected to the public, the whole world knows your pain.

*Mars in twelfth need to express their energy, their anger and will through the activities of whatever sign mars is located in the chart i.e. mars in aries in the twelfth need to express suppressed anger/anger through physical activity, sports, working out, sex, pisces mars by unleashing their massive creativity, compassion, dreams (this sign, and house combo especially, has many dreams, it’s a sleepy placement for the ideal fiery and straightforward mars to be located in). Mars in twelfth is generally a good placement that could manifest in someone being a dancer or athlete, mainly finding escape through any type of physical activity for fire signs, work for earth, socializing for air and creativity for water. This placement has very gentle, enchanting watery movements if they get into any sports or physical activity.

*Mars in eleventh can be aggressive toward their friends esp if mars is in a fire sign it becomes no joke. Don’t get me wrong, they’re the best humanitarians and what not but they have a reputation of being the “angry” or “aggressive” friend out of most of their friend groups, they’re very competitive and energetic people. However the way they stick up causes, they way they are always seen supporting any humanitarian cause with their whole hearts is AMAZINGG. They’re the types of activists to stay late to a protest, they’re the types to seemingly never leave what they’re standing up for, what they’re supporting because they are SOOO AMBITIOUS AND YEAHH !!

*This isn’t talked about a lot but uranus in eleventh have to be the most comforting and “welcoming” presence out of every eleventh house placement in astrology, with uranus in its home, the house of aquarius, it erases any filter put on what friend is attracted by their social presence as EVERYONE is attracted to them, from any possible and imaginable background or culture and homeland, anyone can trust and confide in their wide openness as their care and concern for society is completely genuine. They are truly the biggest and truest humanitarians, the universal humanitarian that will lead us to the monumental revolution of history and bring humanity to a collective whole.

*Pisces moon, people lovee you. People want to come up and talk with you just because of how interesting and intriguing you are. You OOZE this aura of compelling mystery similarly to scorpio moon. Your innocent playfulness is undeniably charming and you are definitely the life of the party, people want to pay attention to you!!

*Saturn in 11th, you are not an outcast, you are not too strange. You’re fine for just who you are, your individuality is a struggle for you, saturn is restricting you from liberating yourself and merging with society, you can selective or strict with friendships. You teach others to have boundaries and to never trust others too easily, you select social causes with caution. There is never anything wrong with this !! You choose what you support for YOU and NO ONE ELSE. You choose who you wanna become friends with it’s because they have passed the true rigorous test of friendship. When you become friends with someone, you already know you can trust them deeply, your caution is quite admirable !!

*Mercury in 12th is an extremely beautiful placement. The native grows shy of their flawless minds, little do they know they are connecting with the watery depths of the astral and psychic realms of the twelfth, the vagueness of their cloudy thoughts winds them up in wispy sheets of intellectual confusion. Your mind is communicating the brilliant and unbelievable parts of what seems like a dream. You are not too confusing or vague for others to understand your ideas, people await what emerges from this shiny and imaginable abyss of a sleepy mind.

*Mercury in 8th have an intellectual superiority complex of sorts, they analyze a piece of information or thing by tearing through the surface until they find the deepest depths of the truth, they believe this will never compare to other placements as they have dug far deeper into something. Be careful to not assume that someone doesn’t know something you don’t, while it still can’t be true. You always want to know someone, don’t be too controlling about it because you could cause conflicts which you didn’t mean to in the first place. If you know your boundaries and limits and of others’, then you should be fine. This placement is brilliant for investigators, someone who could examine, analyze and evaluate to find the answer others can’t see. They harbor a psychic mind, a plutonic one who knows the weight words can have on people. Fantastically persuasive speakers !!

*Gemini in 3rd, gem mercury have unstable minds, they’re very much prone to babbling, but can easily start up a conversation because they never run out things to say so they’re pretty social and friendly.

*Capricorn moon is an amazing moon sign placement, here the moon is in detriment as the saturn ruled cappy doesn’t get along with the soft, nurturing moon, it’s always gotta work work work, limit, restrict !! There’s never anything wrong with the moon here, just because the moon and saturn can’t get along, just because they contradict each other’s completely different functions never means it’s a terrible moon sign. It just manifests in a completely unique way outside of the traditional service and role of the moon, similarly to let’s say sag mercury as it’s also in detriment, they both manifest creatively to make something new out of the planet’s sign. Back to cappy moon, this moon has the capacity to work as they find fulfillment in getting things done, serving others, but negatively restriction and criticizing. With saturn ruling capricorn here your emotions and wellbeing become restricted and limited, you have felt as if no one understands you, you believe something is wrong with you. Like no one in the world supports you emotionally. But this is NEVERRR true, people love you for how caring, attentive and even funny you are !! You care soo much about others you forget to care for yourself, SOME of you even begin to think it’s normal to ignore what your own needs, nooo you need to STOP THISSS . You deserve to feel great about what you do, your accomplishments, how you care for others, EVERYTHING, and most importantly believe, trulyy believe that nothing’s ever wrong with you !! You’re unbelievably charismatic and overall just.... WONDERFULLL. Ily guys smm you’re amazingly stronggg souls !!!

*Moon in 12th house is an EXTREMELY sensitive placement, these people are little babies on the inside (ilyy guyss you all have my heartt <33). They often felt neglected, not nurtured as a kid which creates their extreme sensitivity to their current surroundings and environment. Their shy moon is always hiding behind the mystical and otherworldly curtains of the 12th because of their sensitive upbringing or personality, it’s takes some time for the little guy to come out. The moon here needs SPACCEEEE. A person who’s a walking sponge with fragile emotions, they’re our emotional and energetic vacuum cleaners of the world, they are helping the world without ever realizing it !!

*Pisces risings are known for being hard to characterize for their ability to naturally adapt to their environment. You can tell if someone has this if they absorb their environment like a sponge, then, react to this energy, you can easily see this energy morphing. It becomes noticeable if there’s a lot going on. Another clue is having trouble defining them based on their first impression, like they could be anything you project onto them, very mysterious and dreamy individuals when you meet them.

*Your midheaven/10th house is what you look up to be or what traits you wish to embody, ex: aries MC, confidence, passion, courageousness, being a leader, etc. Moon in 10th, being a therapist, helping the less fortunate, medical professions.

*Libra risings usually have amazing skin, just like virgo risings, to contrast, I’ve seen most of them marked with freckles. They have very symmetrical features, perfectly balanced just like a scale. But it appears as if they’re “superficial” once their faces begin to wear into your mind.

[blacksunscorpio]

What asteroids / positions / aspects indicate beauty besides Venus?

Aspect and Indicators of Beauty Besides Venus

Of course, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and almost any combination of planets can make someone beautiful. Hereditary aspects have much to do with this as well ;). However, if we are to look at aspects other than/omitting Venus we’d look to:

The Sun

The sun or solar energy is a great benefic. I think most people can agree light is attractive. As a result, an individual with strong solar energy or the sun in harmonious aspect in their chart will make them “bright”. Will make them “shine”. It will also make them kind of “sparkle” to others, lol. It is psychologically proven that happy people are considered attractive. These aspects include:

Sun in the 1st/Aspecting Ascendant

Sun conjunct/trine/sextile Moon

Sun conjunct/trine/sextile Jupiter

Sun as dominant Planet

Sun as most elevated

Sun conjunct/sextile/trine Midheaven

The Moon

The moon is one of the main/core luminaries in the birth chart. It is also deep feminine energy. When the moon’s energy is in benefic aspect and/or exaggerated in the chart it can be a great indicator of beauty in the native. The moon also ‘softens’. While it can be attractive in air or fire, it is best placed in earth or water. A feminine Moon coupled with a masculine Ascendant often gives model-like features.  In addition to this:

Moon conjunct/sextile/trine rising

moon conjunct/sextile/trine sun

Moon conjunct/sextile/trine Mars [Mars is sex]

Moon conjunct/Trine/sextile Jupiter

Moon conjunct/Trine/sextile Pluto

Moon conjunct trine/sextile Midheaven

Moon as most elevated planet

Neptune

No shocker here, Neptune was bound to come up. He rules everything that has to do with the fantastic [fantasy]. Illusions. The stuff of dreams and can make things particularly rose-colored. As a result, natives with strong Neptunian influence can appear “dreamy” or “dreamboats” to others. Neptune works best in water or earth, adding much seduction or allure to any chart. This includes:

Neptune asepcting the ascendant/trine/sextile/conjunct

Neptune conjunct/trine/sextile moon

Neptune conjunct/trine/sextile Sun

Neptune conjunct/trine/sextile Mars

Neptune asepcting Midheaven

Neptune as the most elevated planet.

Pluto

Pluto is one of the most elegant placements. Remember he rules riches and wealth down there in the underworld. Pluto also rules sex and as a result, those with strong plutonic influence will often be quite attractive. Not in a “delicate/pretty” way like Venus or the Moon but in a seductive/dangerous/femme fatale/ bad boy way.  They will look enticing and a bit hypnotic. This includes:

Pluto conjunct/Trine/Sextile the ascendant

Pluto conjunct/trine/sextile Sun

Pluto conjunct/trine/sextile the moon

Pluto conjunct/trine/sextile Mars [make them a bit of a sex symbol or “sexually attractive”

Pluto aspecting the Midheaven 

Pluto as the most elevated Planet

Jupiter

Jupiter is another great benefic like the Sun. As a result, it will emphasize and increase everything that it touches. It will add height which is universally seen as admirable. It will also add bulk [men, this is usually what people attribute to healthy]. If a person’s ruling planet or Venus, for example, is not in particularly strong condition but is aspected by Jupiter by trine, sextile or conjunction, Jupiter’s influence will tend to strengthen that planet. Jupiter will help to emphasize their best features which will aid in them being perceived as attractive. This includes:

Jupiter conjunct/trine/sextile the ascendant

Jupiter conjunct/trine/sextile moon

Jupiter conjunct/trine/sextile Midheaven

Jupiter as the most elevated Planet

Jupiter conjunct/trine/sextile Mars [Especially in men. Guys, if you have this- you’re blessed if you catch my drift].

Uranus

Surprised to see this one here? I bet you are.  Remember Uranus is all about “shocks”. As a result, one with Strong uranian energy can have a “striking” appearance in regard to physical beauty.  This includes

Uranus conjunct/trine/sextile the ascendant

Uranus conjunct/trine/sextile Sun

Uranus Conjunct/trine/sextile Pluto

Uranus conjunct/trine/sextile Moon

Honorable Mentions

Asteroids are also indicators of beauty. A few in particular, especially if touching the aforementioned planets/aspects can bolster beauty in a chart. This includes

Lilith

[Sex appeal. period]

Aphrodite No. 1388

[Beauty exaggerated. We all know this lady’s rep. When this is found in the chart or aspecting a major point or planet it indicates massive beauty.]

Adonis No. 2101

[Indicates someone who is seen as the epitome of gorgeous. In a man’s chart it is where he is the most attractive. in a woman’s chart it indicates whom she finds attractive.]

Apollo No. 1862

[ Apollo conjunct or close to the ascendant can bestow magnificent beauty. The ascendant in aspect to Apollo can show beautiful physical form and many models and actresses have it on the ascendant, in aspect to the ascendant ruler or on the midheaven or in aspect to Venus or the Sun.]  

Lust No. 4286

[More sex appeal. Others will ‘lust’ after this person]

Narcissus No. 37117 

[Narcissus is naturally named after the infamous Narcissus, who loved himself so much that he became transfixed with his own image and committed suicide when he could not have the object of his desire. In the chart or aspecting certain planets or points, it can indicate someone who is overwhelmingly good-looking but maybe a bit “narcissistic” about it, lol. Someone who others believe is quite hard to look away from.]

Angel No. 11911

[Lightwork. Where your spiritual path is indicated in the chart. Asteroid Angel's placement in your natal chart shows where you have an opportunity to receive divine guidance. It is also kind of like the moon in its function. It shows where one is angelic in their countenance. When touching the Rising, Sun, Moon or Venus this is especially apparent.]

Bella No. 695

[The asteroid Bella relates to the word “beauty”. It is what we value as beauty, where we value it in our lives and how our own beauty is seen by others. Softer aspects will indicate ease, the energies complement each other and Bella makes other planets more charming and appealing.]  

[drabbles-mc]

Happy Hour

Juice Ortiz x GN!Reader

Inspired by Day Two of the July Prompts list: cocktail

Warnings: alcohol, Juice being a lil cutie pie

Word Count: 1k

A/N: This is just a cutesy lil ficlet. Sometimes our boy just needs a fun, soft night out and that’s okay

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You smiled when you saw him walking out onto the bar’s patio. He carried himself so differently when he didn’t have his kutte. You could tell by the look in his eyes that he felt a little exposed without it. Waiting for him to look over in your direction, you smiled and waved. Relief flooded over his features when he saw you and he quickly walked over to the table that you were sitting at.

He leaned down, pressing a light kiss to your lips before taking a seat across from you. He looked over at you, letting out a deep breath as he finally let himself take a moment to really look at you. Actually going out to grab drinks had been your idea, curious to see Juice outside of his natural habitat of the clubhouse.

“Sorry I’m a little late,” he tapped his fingers nervously on the tabletop, “Got caught up with the guys.”

You smiled, shaking your head, “You’re fine. I did get started without you, though,” you lifted your drink to your lips.

His brows instantly furrowed, “What is that?”

You laughed at his disbelief, “What?”

“It’s blue.”

“Okay and?” you held the glass out for him to try a sip, “It’s good! Try it.”

He shook his head, “No way. There’s no good reason for a drink to be that color.”

You rolled your eyes with a smile, “Just because it’s not the room temperature beer from the clubhouse, doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with it.”

He laughed, “What’s it even called?”

You paused as you set the cup down, reaching over to grab the cocktail menu and find what you were drinking. Truthfully, you never paid super close attention to the names of drinks, just what was in them. When you found the drink in question, you pointed to the name as you handed the menu over to him.

“Electric City?” he chuckled, “How do they come up with these names?”

You chuckled, “Yea, like the names of all the beers you guys find many any more sense.”

The two of you chatted for a couple minutes before the waitress came over to see if you needed anything else, not having noticed Juice when he first walked in and over to your table. You smiled as Juice looked over the entire cocktail menu and yet still ended up getting a beer anyway.

“Oh,” you caught her attention before she walked away, “could we also get an order of onion rings?”

She nodded, “Sure thing. I’ll bring those right over.”

The two of you sat out on the patio, drinking and working your way through most of the appetizer section of the menu. You didn’t make any comment on it, but you noticed how, as the night went on, Juice got more and more comfortable just being himself. Very rarely did the two of you hang out somewhere besides one of your homes, or the clubhouse. You didn’t mind the routine and consistency, but you were also craving a bit of a switch-up.

“You know,” you stirred what little was left of your current drink, “I think that this is the first time we’ve been out and you haven’t worn your kutte.”

His eyes widened slightly at your observation, “Yea?”

“Yea,” you finished your drink, “Sometimes you can just be Juan, you know. I even kinda like that guy,” you laughed.

There was a soft smile on his face as he watched you peruse the drink menu, looking for what you were going to order next. You’d always been accepting of the club, knowing exactly what you were signing on for when you started dating Juice. However, one of the things that he loved most about you, was that even though you were there through all the club bullshit, you were also a safe place for him to go where he could be more than just a Son.

The next drink that you ordered came out, and it was pink. Juice laughed at the giant grin that took over your face as you stirred it.

“They got one for every color of the rainbow here or something?”

You shrugged, chuckling, “That would be pretty amazing if they did,” you took a sip, nodding in approval, “Try this one—you’ll like it.”

He shook his head, tilting his cup of beer towards you, “I’m good.”

You stuck out your bottom lip, “C’mon, Juan. Just one sip. If you hate it, I’ll never try to make you drink my fruity drinks ever again.”

He had never been able to really say no to you. With a sigh, he reached out and took the drink from you. “What’s this called again?” he asked, eyebrow raised.

You shook your head, “I’ll tell you after you try it.”

He looked back and forth between you and the drink for a moment, but when he saw the anticipation on your face, he knew he couldn’t back out of it. Shaking his head ever so slightly, he lifted the glass to his lips and took a sip.

There were a few beats of silence before a smile crossed his features. You could tell that he didn’t want to say it, but he enjoyed it. He shook his head as he lifted the glass and took another, longer sip before handing the drink back to you.

“Colorful drinks aren’t so bad, huh?” you smirked, “Want me to get you one?”

He looked at his nearly-empty beer glass and nodded, “Sure.”

With an excited grin, you flagged down your waitress, “Hey, can you bring over another Singapore Sling, please?”

Juice couldn’t contain his laughter at the name. Once the waitress walked away, he spoke up, “So that’s why you didn’t tell me the name.”

You chuckled, “You can’t take drink names seriously, Juan. Especially not specialty cocktails. They’re always something ridiculous.”

“Gathered that from all your happy hour experiences?”

“You’ll learn,” you laughed.

“Will I also learn how to order them with a straight face?”

Your smile felt like it was permanently etched into your face, “Something tells me probably not.”

His hand crept over the table and he locked his fingers with yours. It was the most at ease he’d seemed all night. He traced his thumb over yours, and he had that dreamy look in his eyes that he’d had ever since you met him.

“I love you,” he broke the silence with a grin.

You nodded, giving his hand a light squeeze, “I love you too.”